#thinking abt the angst

[tending-the-hearth]

tmnt 2012 angst incoming bc i just thought of this and i'm hurt and emotional so i have to share it

au where tang shen doesn't die, and instead gets taken somewhere and is somehow mutated.

in this au, splinter doesn't die, and karai does get mutated, but goes to live with the turtles. there's a little bit of tension just because of karai's past, but splinter is so happy to have his daughter back that there's a truce between the boys and karai, because even though they're unsure, they're still kind of excited to have a sister.

BUT THEN

a kraang convoy is hijacked by the boys + april + casey + karai and they find a mutated tang shen, who ofc immediately knows who karai is and there's suddenly so much crying, and tang shen goes with them to the lair, and splinter suddenly realizes that he has his wife and daughter back and there's lots of emotions and hugging

and slowly the boys see a side of splinter they've never seen, he's smiling and laughing so much more, he's teasing and joking around.

and idk, because i love raph angst, raph sees the difference, sees how happy splinter is, and he just... stops. stops trying, stops spending time in the lair around everyone, spends more time with casey or at xever and bradford's place, and there's definitely a big blowout fight because of ✨miscommunication✨ and ✨angst✨ where raph says something along the lines of splinter only needing the boys to fill the space left by tang shen and karai's deaths, but now that he's got them back, he doesn't need them anymore.

and there's just a moment of silence as raph's words sink in before he's leaving the lair, and the rest of his brothers follow him because they've realized it too, but they didn't want to say anything.

@queen-with-the-quill @madcatgurl

[hinamie]

mentor

[qrbits]

spotted at the piltover university cafe

[lotus-pear]

in love with tragedy

[aphel1on]

AURGH auwarghh the autistic parental trauma... the epi was wacky hijinks then dropped this on us out of nowhere... (sobs) laios... laiiiiooooos

[helcef]

Bug

He’s growing on me can you tell.. If anyone has phantom headcanons pls leave them in tags or comments or send them in, I like to observe him like a creature

[shikisei]

heartbeat

[onionninjasstuff]

Part 2

[lil-vibes]

Day 1: You are who you eat

/Next

(heres the prompt list!)

bonus:

[appledotcodotuk]

15 cheerily parking himself on a double yellow line is so.... all these years and you still can't drive 😭

[opeoism]

get out of your mind / and into my arms

[starry-bi-sky]

mmmmmm read a disciple shen yuan/shizun luo binghe fanfic about two days ago where the first chapter was the Immortal Conference arc, and SQQ was the one who had to be pushed into the abyss (he was still the villain) except Luo Binghe was refusing and was like, lowkey losing his mind about SQQ being so close to the edge. SQQ ended up having to be the one to fall in himself because of the system's punishment system. The rest of the fic is leading up to that moment. But like, MMM i've been obsessively thinking about that first chapter for DAYS ever since.

now i've been in svsss for a grand total of *checks watch* a week. but god obsessed with that. I want to write/read a fic where disciple SQQ goes a little nuts down there. Like keep all of the things that make SQQ, SQQ, but just. Throw in a little bit more trauma in there. A little bit of a mental break. Let him go a little nuts as a treat. Just a tad unhinged. I wanna see him go, just a little, "god fuck it, i've tried so hard to change this shitty story's outcome and it feels like everything i've done has been for nothing. I'm going to die in this world no matter what I do, I've been doomed from the start, so might as well die the way I want to." and he just, breaks a little! Under all the stress.

He still retains the traits that makes shen yuan, shen yuan, like his overwhelming kindness. But he's just! yk. A little less patient. Paranoid. Jumpy. Colder. A little more aloof and closed off. A little more Shen Jiu. He's no asshole child abuser, but he was a Number One Hater in his past life and he's leaning into that old habit a little more now.

(On a totally coincidental not-at-all related note, there's not enough SJ-and-SY-are-the-same-people fics out there that i've found. This is totally unrelated...)

The Endless Abyss turns the mind into an over-sharpened blade, and SQQ is both fascinated and perhaps a little excited to explore a place that doesn't have a lot of info on it in the mortal realm, but still terrified out of his mind. And he's no Luo Binghe, he doesn't have the sheer brute strength and power to just bulldoze his way through, so he has to be a lot more sneaky and cunning if he wants to survive.

The fic itself role-swapped LBH and SQQ so that SQQ was the half-demon (which lowkey fucks) and LBH the human, but I'm equally-if-not-more obsessed with the idea that LBH remains the half-heavenly demon and SQQ the human. If only because I keep thinking about SQQ befriending some demons (particularly and specifically a group of succubi) and they grow very attached to this Human Cultivator so through magic plot stuff they create some kind of seal/illusion/talisman that makes SQQ appear as a demon because a human cultivator in the endless abyss may as well be the equivalent of putting a giant neon target on your back.

And iirc Shen Jiu was taught demonic cultivation by that one guy(?? i've only been here a week so im not caught up in ALL of the lore yet) so that could totally happen here.

(On the other end of the realms, poor Shizun Luo Binghe is just. losing his fucking mind over losing his most precious and beloved disciple. About .5 seconds from burning down the peaks himself. somebody sedate him.)

The Endless Abyss sucks and SQQ is having a really terrible time and can feel himself going lowkey mad, but also holy shit look at all this WORLD-BUILDING. look at all this flora and fauna, and oh if he had the equipment for it he'd be writing all of this down. ALL OF IT. He was kinda-sorta-already planning on never leaving the Abyss as some sort of fucked up self-exile and self-preservation thing, but now he might? actually just?? never leave if he can help it, like he lowkey likes it down here.

anyways the next time anyone ever sees SQQ again he's got hair so long its almost touching the ground and he's either in rags and half-feral or he's been completely dolled up by his adoptive succubi sisters and still about three seconds from biting anyone who tries to touch him. (he's also lowkey trying to book it back down to the abyss even if he has desperately missed all of his friends and shizun)

[hinamie]

quick itfs sketch page

[reegis]

hi since you have out on the brain and i wont be inflicting it on you here's a headcanon of mine:

after nastya leaves, aurora stops talking entirely

[chariix-creates]

I love soriel i love soriel I love soriel I love soriel guys did you know I love sori el

Sleepy one was going to be neutral endings angst but I felt NICE (didn't wanna write dialogue)

[sen-ya]

we agreed it was ok to be devastatingly sad on main right