#theyre not even done yet. horrible

[ethereiling]

priming myself for a special new kind of stress dream by drafting emails immediately before bed

[jrueships]

Bron/AD

time for my honest onion on bron/AD...

i think they are very compatible like either way you view it, friendship or romantic relationship. Like they are on kyle/demar levels of compatibility in terms of opposites attracting. Lebron is driven and AD is deep. Lebron is willing to investigate and explore any of AD's unique passions (like gta rp) even if it's very new to him or he has to borrow a shitty mic from his streamer son to do it 😭. AD is willing to go the depths of Lebron's wants and desires by seeing him more than just the crown status he has. He doesn't want to please necessarily, but to just help in general because their relationship (whether platonic or romantic) revolves heavy mutuality. I think people can be too hard on Lebron/too judgemental because of him having the spotlight and all the issues that surround that, so whenever AD doesn't perform well.. people blow the thing up into a huge problem. And while that IS a problem... i think their relationship builds off of having problems tbh. Not big ones but like small ones that you can consider accomplishments when they're solved. Their relationship is built off of constant solving VIA investigating, helping, and just tending to other's needs. They REALLY get closer together by actually. Getting closer together. And to get closer.. they need a little problem first.

Problem has this whole negative attachment to it, especially to people who live more comfortable, less competitive lives, but it's different for people like Lebron who's faced more options to deem definitions toward. Their relationship works on workable problems. Not to be confused with a big.. actual actual disruptive problem. Lebron is a big solver who turns into a big feeler when something isn't solved right and AD is a big feeler who turns into a big solver when something doesn't feel right. They work well with each other because they work WELL with each other. They compensate not JUST bcs they're willing.. but because they both see it as a NEED. They're both 110% devoted (afterwards) to help out on a problem.

BUT..... the whole thing with little problems... can be a Little difficult tho. Sometimes. And it's not about having those little problems, because those are unavoidable and in both of their minds necessary for greater development...

it's maybe.. Not having any little problems. At least with the other. It's the problem of 'what more can we do?' That makes them antsy. If Lebron somehow started out with AD from the beginning as a sidekick (and not kyr*e first) .... like idk somehow they get on the same team sooner.. the relationship would still be good because it IS.. i just don't know how long it will be sometimes (both duration and depth). BCS LIKE. Lebron came off of a lot of issues during and after kyr*e. I'm not a big follower of bron, so I can't go into details, but I am an empathizer with him, even as an MJ fan. Lebron loved sticking with AD despite everyone making fun of him for being LeGM. That gave him a conflict he could easily conquer by showing out and connecting with AD, which in turn strengthens their relationship. But to start off on a cleaner slate..? With less issues to work with him on and in turn grow closer with him?

In my opinion, it's a relationship that works best the way it was found. If you take it out of the timeline too forward or backwards.. it'll still be compatible.. but it won't be. it won't have the OOMF, u know?

which leads me to say..... i think it's a relationship that really has to be like. A 2nd/3rd one. Like a trying again NOT WITH EACHOTHER but with the self. You can't just HAVE it.. and it'll be.. IT, you know? It's a strong relationship.. but it definitely NEEDS other factors that aren't exactly from the self to make it work even stronger BCS IT ALREADY IS STRONG FROM THE SELF... there IS a connection and an ability to make that connection even stronger.. it just needs an external enzyme to activate that. They can't exactly just activate that themselves with them alone. They need at least a little something else to push them into shared goals.

SO LIKE I MEAN!!! I LIKE IT ! I DO !!!!! But i think I like it a lot more as good friends bcs idk... I feel like you'll just get that more the more you try to adjust the timepieces and whatnot. Like yeah, they're super helpful to each other when pushed to be, but they're always kinda helpful to each other in general and the fact that they need a push that's forced to be outside just.. idk. It makes the friendship go from a lot less magical to me and more mechanical.. there's more reasons and definitions for it WHICH SOME PEOPLE DO LIKE!!!!! I definitely like being able to say more stuff about things!

But idk... im kind of a sap for things being sometimes just like... u know! They besties! They love each other! Besties!!!

The whole addition of the need cycle makes it go from besties!!! To woooah! Here's a reason for why that happened and if that reason wasn't there this would not be happening ! And it's not some cute elaborate romantical story from the heart.... it's cause and effect or cause and rebuttal. IDK MAN like it definitely WORKS. But like. Me, personally, VERYY personally, i love when things just sorta WORK and u can't really explain all the how's (bcs there's more than one. It's a whole jumbled story and more and more reasons for them to love/interact deeply with each other) but it just kinda.. WORKS !

If the people were even slightly different, like if ad wasn't the person he was.. it would not run like that. So they DO need that kind of specific relation between them to get that relationship specifically to survive below the surface.. so I CAN see the beauty in that tho!!! I just like seeing it better in something more platonic like a friendship tho... but i do understand the beauty of the working relationship and I think that's nice too :) !! It works great for them and especially lebron lol, maybe it's Him....

[robotpussy]

like I'm actually sick of being at my grandma's house when one cousin leaves another comes in it's so crowded here and it's not anybody's fault I'm not even supposed to be here and I want to go back to my house so badly I'm constantly having to travel back and forth between homes because everytime I go back to my house my neighbours are doing something to drive me away again. last time I went back 2 neighbours were talking shit about me when I haven't even been at home for a month so all I can take from that is I'm staying on their minds constantly cause they haven't seen me for over a month and they're still talking about me

[ultimateloserboy]

do you ever think about how duck is literally the worst one but he loves the other two more than anything he just doesnt show it at all. do you ever think about how red guy is unhappy doing the same shit all the time but duck is completely content with it, completely satisfied with doing the same thing as long as the other two are there and alright. even though hes rude as shit to them, as soon as theyre not acting like themselves hes horrified. do you ever think about how red guy is ducks favorite color. do you ever think about how happy he looks in the pictures with the other two, even if they arent happy themselves. do you ever think about how he doesnt even question if theyre a family, he just knows it. do you ever think about how he ran to get the first aid kit when yellow guy was hurt in jobs. or how when he saw red guy in the office he asked “what have they done to you?”. or how he left red guy all of his things in death. or how hes constantly trying to get the other two home in the family episode. or how after the fridge scene he immediately worries where yellow guy is. how even in the webseries HES the one that started to look for yellow guy after he went missing from the picnic. “maybe we should look for our friend, isnt that what friends do?”. or how its duck, despite not only being punished for it, but also being completely dazed and confused, refusing to stop looking for red guy even while he hardly remembers him. how duck literally KNOCKS OVER THE CAMERA, TEARING APART THE WORLD AS HE KNOWS IT, in an attempt to find red guy, yes, but also to escape with yellow guy.

its so strange to think about how horrible duck is to them, when without them he is no one and he loses his mind to the point of death. hes so interesting to me. so tragic and yet so hard to pity. a heart so full of love it rolls away and hides under the floorboards, a kindness hidden under six feet of cynical thinking. i miss him guys …

[ddejavvu]

could you write abt Spencer and reader finding out theyre having twins? ♥️

Morgan was thrilled to have the privilege of knowing your baby's gender before you did. You hadn't been aware of your pregnancy for weeks, attributing the morning sickness to a stomach bug that your friend had passed to you and passing off the slight weight gain as bloating. But Spencer had been surprisingly busy at work these past few months, and when you eventually realized that the last unprotected sex you'd had was around the time you'd started noticing these symptoms, you were both pretty convinced that it was an unplanned pregnancy.

It was difficult waiting to look at the ultrasound photos, and covering your eyes while the doctor checked on the health of your sweet baby was the worst part. But you wanted to announce both the pregnancy and the gender at the same time to the rest of the BAU, and Morgan was the first person you'd thought of to reveal the news. He'd been more than happy - smug, even - to be the first one to see any evidence of the little life inside of you, and he'd walked out of the doctor's office with you beaming bright enough to rival the sun.

Now, only one day after your first ultrasound, you're sitting around a table in Rossi's backyard. You're not sure how Morgan got Rossi to lend out his mansion without telling him about your pregnancy, but you suppose it wouldn't be the worst thing in the world if one more person knew. Really, you're more looking to make Garcia squeal so loud she sets off the neighbor's dog.

"Alright, alright," Derek taps his spoon against his glass. Garcia's eyes shoot over to him and she nearly jumps out of her chair, and you wonder if Derek had teased a surprise to her yet.

"There's something Mr. and Mrs. Reid want to tell you," He gestures to you, and Spencer looks to you for an introduction to the topic.

"Do you remember when I got sick a few months ago?" You glance around the table, and faces wrinkle in concern. You suppose everyone is expecting a horrible diagnosis, but they nod anyways.

"Yeah, Spence had to take off from work," JJ recalls, "Is everything okay? Did it come back?"

"Uh," You fiddle with your napkin, "No. Not really? Or- it sort of never left. And I won't be, uh, cured, for another few months."

"Was it a parasite?" Rossi wonders, brows furrowed.

"Well.." Spencer considers, "Technically? But, the good kind."

"The good kind of parasite..." Aaron repeats.

You can't stand the suspense, "I'm pregnant."

"Oh- oh!" There's a round of cheers throughout your guests, big beaming smiles and staccato claps that morph into bear hugs. Penelope giggles at the news, but you don't have time to ask if she's making fun of your sex life before Derek taps his glass again.

"Yes, okay, okay, fantastic work you two, but I'm not done."

Curious eyes turn towards him as he pulls a gift bag from beneath his seat, "I was selected to know the gender of the baby before any of you guys," He boasts, "And I've got a cute little outfit in this bag for the lucky baby."

"Let's see," You gush, "Open it, Spencer!"

Your husband's nimble fingers dig through layers of green tissue until they hit woven wool. He pulls out a blue-knit sweater vest, and his face morphs into a sweet smile.

"A boy!" He cheers, looking over at you with starry eyes, "Y/N, we're having a baby boy!"

"Oh," You gush, visions of tiny fingers and toes filling your mind, "Spencer, you're gonna be a boy dad!"

"Derek, please? Please can I do it now?" Penelope asks, effectively breaking you out of your reverie.

"Yes," Derek laughs, motioning her over to you, "Go ahead. Should'a known, patience is not your virtue."

"Shut up!" She gushes, yanking another bag from beneath her seat and racing over to you as best she can in heels on wet grass, "Y/N! A little something extra for mom."

"Oh," You gush, taking the bag from her, "You knew?"

"I needed her help," Derek explains, sorry that he'd spoiled your secret but rushing you to open the gift bag, 'Now hurry up!"

"Okay, okay!" You let out a breathy laugh, reaching into the tissue paper, "Y'know, I'm pregnant, you can't stress me- out..."

Your fingers hit tulle, and you pull out a pretty pink dress.

You're confused. Sure, girls can wear blue sweater vests, boys can wear pink dresses. But you'd assumed the colored clothing items pertaining to a gender reveal party would be fitting into more traditional gender roles for the sake of symbolism, and leave you with answers, not questions.

"Penelope?" You raise an eyebrow at her, and she grins gleefully at you.

"Twins!" She shrieks, "You're having twins! One boy, and one girl!"

Spencer drops the sweater in his hands.

"Twins," You repeat, mouth slowly falling open, 'Oh my god, there's two?"

"Twins," Spencer parrots, looking at your stomach with a growing grin, "Twins? There's two babies?"

"There's two babies," Penelope gushes, and Derek hands over an envelope of ultrasound photos, "You're gonna have two babies!"

"Three days ago we didn't even know there was one," Spencer marvels, and your hands tremble as you pull out the photos. There, clear as day on the grainy photo, are two outlines, one baby on the left and the other on the right.

"Oh my god," Spencer whispers, reaching over to brush his slender fingers over the photos, "Those are our babies."

"Those are our babies," You repeat, tears budding in your eyes, "Spencer, we're having twins."

"Congratulations, you two," JJ smiles sweetly at you from across the table, and Hotch and Rossi offer you similar well-wishes, "So Spencer, you're gonna put together two cribs?"

"I don't think it'll be safe for me to put together one," He remembers the time he'd tried fixing your broken kitchen chair, and your poor cat had made the mistake of jumping onto it. Needless to say, that incident produced not only a pile of wood, but an angry cat.

"I'll do it," Morgan chuckles, "I want both of your babies to make it into adulthood."

"And I'll buy two times the presents," Penelope promises, "But if they're anything like Reid, I might need help affording the two teeny tiny microscopes."

[tectosilicates]

the warriors first two years behind the wall must have been so difficult for them.

here are three spies in enemy territory, and they are all children. i wonder if they knew how vulnerable they were before then, now that they must pose as orphaned, regular children (they’ve been handling guns since age six). and regular children can’t use weapons. they can’t turn into titans (hell as far as paradisians know, no human can). and they certainly can’t decide what they can do or where they can go. they have no connections here, there are no grownups they know who can help them out.

they are stranded here with the devils, and the devils would fear them (just like the marleyans do) if they knew what they were. the weight of the world is on their shoulders, and they’re completely aimless. how can they sneak into the innermost wall when theyre just kids? doing what they can not to starve is already a task in itself. and even when they do everything they can to get food the legal way (through manual labour, the way the maria orphans do, as anything less would attract attention they can’t afford) there still isn’t enough.

and here’s where the horrible, awful headcanon comes in: when you are hungry enough and your limbs can grow back, does your body become a source of food? do you think reiner ever ordered annie to chop his legs off so they could eat meat for once? they’re starving and he knows her resentment towards him will keep growing if not offered a means of release (two birds one stone). they always wait for the cover of nightfall, and reiner’s healing is always fast enough that his legs grow back overnight. they’re always careful to be quiet about it. bertholdt acts as lookout, yet once the deed is done he always seems to be the one who’s cried the most. do you think they were ever caught with the meat? do you think adults assumed they stole? do you think older kids fought them for it? do you think they ever had to bite their tongues, stomach grumbling furiously, watching others unknowingly consume their human flesh?

[stevie-petey]

hi m i'm not sure if you've done this blurb before, and my bad if you have, but i was thinking of getting a steve pov from his very bad terrible horrible no good summer when bug pulled away from him?? just his general thoughts and feelings on the whole thing from when it was happening?? love u and everything u write!!

ive done this type of blurb before but ,,,, i loooove diving into steves pathetic lovesick thoughts about bug and that summer <3

enjoy !

"its your first day of senior year tomorrow," nancy sighs against steves chest as they sit in the back of steves car late at night. theyre parked in front of her house, still have a few minutes before her curfew, and she seems to be content in steves company.

"yeah, i guess it is." steve shifts uncomfortably in the seat. he doesnt like being reminded that hes soon to be a senior, soon to be eighteen with a future handed to him by his father.

steve doesnt like being reminded that soon he will graduate and you wont be by his side like he had come to hope youd be.

its not that he had come to fantasize about you attending his graduation ceremony, or even help guide him through the college admissions process, but steve had selfishly thought youd be next to him as he crossed this next stage of his life.

and now hes almost eighteen and he knows, sometime in the summer, he has missed your sixteenth birthday, and he hasnt spoken to you in two months.

"are you excited?" nancy asks, breaking the silence. she can feel the uncertainty that hangs above them, steve has voiced to her before how fearful he is of growing up. she thinks its why hes been so distant these last few months.

june had brought a lively, vivid version of steve that nancy had come to learn how to love, and yet july his vividness dimmed. she had asked him what was wrong, if she could help, but all nancy had gotten in response were books about journalism handed to her with a bittersweet smile.

nancy has been too afraid to ask about it ever since.

steve thinks for a moment, though he knows that he has nothing to look forward to if it means you wont be next to him to tease him and call him an idiot. if he cant have your eyes shine up at him to remind him that hes worth more than whatever his asshole father tells him he is. "i dont know."

its three words, but its a confession that burns steves lips.

it feels as if these last few months have been confessions being stripped from him. confessions of missing you, that you had become his best friend within those months at the bookstore, of fearing that he will never truly be able to find anyone like you, so accommodating and accepting of his everything.

nancy turns to face steve and brushes a piece of his hair behind his ear. "i'll be with you every day, you know."

"i know," steve grabs the hand that fixes his hair and kisses it. "and i love you for that."

i love you.

the words feel thick on his tongue and steve wonders if love is supposed to feel like hes drowning. he supposes its why his mom drinks when his dad is away.

"i love you too." nancys blush is beautiful underneath the moonlight, and steve remembers how pretty yours had been when the sun had hit your face just right one day in the bookstore.

he wonders when he'll stop missing you. when your name will no longer cause his breath to stutter and heart to pound. even while youre away from him, unbothered and unphased by what hes lost with you, steve can feel you surrounding him.

steve will never know what he had done wrong that day in bookstrordinary to cause you to pull away from him, but he knows that he will carry the vulnerability you placed within him forever.

so he walks nancy to her doorstep, kisses her goodnight, and drives home with the radio turned off. he lets his thoughts wander to you, as they always do, and he comes home to an empty house and an even emptier room devoid of the light you once brought into his life.

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

would i be the asshole for contacting my ex to ask them if they could stop talking about me online to a community that knows who i am? (🥐)

tw: kinda emotionally abusive relationship

bg info

me (24f) and my ex (28) were in a three month relationship three years ago following a whole year of friendship. they were my first partner and i came out as a lesbian to everyone during our relationship. when we were together, they were 24 and i was 20. i was very emotionally dependent on them when i was 20 due to mental health issues and so were they which is probably one of the reasons why our relationship was as explosive as it was. i looked up to them, my whole emotional world revolved around them, and our friendship/relationship was the only thing i had in my life at the time. they constantly asked me "hey is it even ethical that im dating you, im 4 years older, you tell me please, oh i feel like such a bad person", yet, they still continued dating me every time they would ask.

our fights were horrible and truly explosive as they broke their stuff in front of me out of anger, threw things at me and insulted me as stupid, amongst many other things. our fights usually ensued because i would ask them for reassurance and they would start panicking and screaming at me to shut up. to be fair, i would cry every time i was asking for reassurance which probably made them feel scared about losing me, so i consider myself 50% at fault for everything that happened in our relationship, i shouldve been able to talk to them in a secure manner that wouldnt trigger their abandonment issues. our fights were quite jarring and made me walk out on them several times out of fear. yet i always came back and apologized and took the whole accountability, even though i dont consider myself the only one at fault. walking out several times during fights was probably one of the worst things i could have done but at the same time i was simply scared. even when i walked out after our last fight, they begged me to come back, which i did, i apologized under tears, and yet, told them that i cant promise them to stay no matter what.. and left.

we met through tumblr and were in a medium distance relationship. after our relationship, i went to a clinic and had to learn a lot about myself, what i experienced and what i want from life. im in a very happy and healthy place now and since the end of 2021 im with my current partner whom i want to be the love of my life and whom ive started to build a life with.

context

i have my ex blocked on all social media because they used to do hour long deep dives into my blog, even as of recently (i have statcounter installed for my safety bc im paranoid about them sending me anonymous asks). at first i also used to visit their blog after our break up but stopped doing so after moving on with my life. one year after breaking up i temporarily unblocked them and explicitly asked them not to look at my social media (or at least to do it in a way in which i dont notice aka asked them not to watch my instagram stories).

while i dont visit their blog/social media because i dont want to know whats going on in their life, tumblr mutuals frequently dm me stuff like "hey i think you should know that your ex posted about you/shit talks about something that you posted". i havent asked my mutuals to tell me whenever this happens but i imagine they do so because within the tumblr space we exist, everyone kind of knows everyone (so my ex doesnt have to mention my name for people to know who theyre talking about). sometimes mutuals send screenshots of the posts so that i dont have to visit my ex's blog. last ive heard my ex joked about throwing jewelry at me and posted extensively about a tattoo that i got. my ex's behavior makes me uncomfortable and feel just as helpless as i did back then.

why i might be the asshole

im scared that they might be venting because i was more at fault in the relationship than them and that i am unconsciously deflecting. however, i talked about every detail of the relationship and this fear extensively with my therapist, friends, and partner who are of the opinion that i was young, scared, and intertwined in a relationship that was incredibly toxic. im still unsure though because my emotions frequently triggered theirs.

why they might be the asshole

i asked them once to stop visiting my social media and i feel like venting about our relationship that broke off 3 years ago to a tumblr community of friends and acquaintances is kind of unfair. however, i might be the asshole and they might just need the space for venting. i could just ignore the vents and let them heal in their own way from what ensued.

WIBTA if i confronted them again and told them that i want them to stop talking about me online? or would i be a party pooper because every person needs a space for venting?

What are these acronyms?

[woahrarepairsagemare]

// i wanna make some fucked up dialogue that rainbow says before nightmare ends him for treachery in the nightmare rules au

' .. huh . '

' so you've finally put me down . '

' took you long enough . '

' you may ask me why I lay here and accept it rather than fight back like a true " hero " .. '

' truth be told , I knew it was hopeless from the start . '

' i'll be honest , you rule well , you managed to extinguish the fires and inconveniences ive caused .. now you'll extinguish me .. '

' even after all of those ordeals I continued fighting and rebelling against you , didnt I ? '

' the dead can't be brought back . Dark , reverse , positive , theyre all gone . '

' and it's horrible of me isnt it ? '

' soon I'll be too . '

' why would I do it ? '

' why ? '

' because I see through you and everything . '

' you only act nice to make sure no one rebels , but I still see through you . '

' blind my eye , and this eye , the eye through which im seeing you .. '

' yet what youve done to us before hand is still engraved into them , I see it and always will . '

' I wouldve been your most faithful follower ,wouldve worshipped you like a god , anything . '

' had it been that you had actually changed . '

' as the traitor , you must've seen me as an inconvenience , but now you dont , you see me as a problem .. '

' and thats what i wanted . '

' its easy to forget inconveniences , theyre so small , so trivial , but you can never forget problems . '

' you can fix them , get rid of them , or even escape them . '

' but you cant forget them . '

' you truly can't . '

' and i'll be that one problem . '

' the scars i caused will not heal , must I remind you . '

' and never will . '

' before you kill a rose , it pricls you with its thorns . '

' so stab me , wont you ? '

@alaritheaurora

[turbotasthick]

What are your Bloodmoon headcanons?

finally some good fuckin food.

Bloodmoons arms, legs, and eyes could work separately with each respective twin. Like lets say bloody has control over the right eye and the other twin the left. Bloody wants to look right so the right eye looks right. Harvest wants to look left so the left eye looks left.

Bloodmoon is audhd. bloody being autistic and harvest being adhd.

The old bloodmoon had nanites and sometimes i like to think hed fuck with people and turn into scary horror icons. Maybe playing with his prey before eating them.

The twins are so sweet to each other and so horrible to other people. Bloody cries? oh in the mindscape harvest is wiping his tears and trying to calm him down. Harvest is enraged? Bloody is holding his hand and gently reprives him so he could collect himself. They hug and they kiss to comfort the other like 🙄🙄

They respect each other so deeply that they dont even playfully use insulting nicknames to each other

they do have arguements but they are so good at communicating with each other that theyd probably be done with said problem in like 30 mins or an hour.

Bloody is larger and heavier. Harvest is smaller and nimble

The twins show each other love with their actions. Words mean nothing to them

They have a personal problem with people who dont cover up enough. im not kidding. i feel like hed scream at some lady for showing out her huge ass bazonkas or stomach or a man thats wearing shorts so short you could see his asscheeks hanging out i feel like hed be all "COVER THEM UP SLUTS"

modest in the way he dresses. Baggy but functional (FUNNY I SAY THAT BUT YET HERE I AM PUTTING HIM IN SKIMPY FITS YET MY HCS SAY OTHERWISE)

honestly i see bm as a masculine person but my girlish tastes keep letting me draw him in girly fits I would wear. i see him wear more masculine things

hes an Angry crier

He actually hates being alone to the point he would accept SHITTY company. like how bloodmoons brother died, he was desperate for them to not leave him there. he didnt want to be alone so badly.

NGL they have healthy codependency to each other

When bm was alone i like to think his hunger decreased, and he would often find himself lying down-- actual depression. Well high functioning depression

Bloodys maturity and self awareness was heightened when his brother died.

Harvest likes to baby bloody just a little bit. Coddle him just a little bit.

if they ever were separated long enough i like to think theyre always holding each others hands, hide behind each other, hug each other, play with each others bells, hats- theyre very affectionate uwu

In one body, i like to think each twin has control over one hand each. Sometimes i like to think bm clasps his hands together as to hold on to his twin- or if he wraps himself with his arms he is hugging his brother

i do like to think they did get ohysical that one time and never again. (WHY ARE YOU HITTING YOURSELF WHY ARE YOU HITTINF YOURSELF)

(i have more but thats all im giving unless you ask me for more :,3 im so autistic)

[voxofthevoid]

was thinking about that time were talking about your goyuuge fic and how you were saying yuji can be very unforgiving abt ppl he deems are bad/hurt others. which i think is true but then i also remembered this scene from the manga i think where yuji emphatically wants to save a bunch of military soldiers who were literally trying to hunt sorcerers (i dont actually read the manga i saw someone talking about it in a post)?? and now im confused?. so is yuji just relentlessly unforgiving to *curses* that hurt others but not humans?? .... or no wait he did used to beat up bullies in middle school. hmm. now im confused. maybe that manga panel was weirdly ooc? im not sure. im having a hard time gauging yujis moral scale here. like did he want to save those soldiers bc they hadn't actually done anything *yet* and he wanted to give them a chance? ig he can kill curses without thought bc theyre mindless killers, but i wish the story had gone into more detail abt how he feels abt humans. like, did he kill anyone in the culling games?

I wouldn't say there's any OOCness or contradiction regarding this aspect of Yuuji in the manga. Honestly, the only scene in which I found Yuuji acting out of character was that post-Shinjuku circlejerk, but damn near everyone felt like caricatures in that chapter.

Yuuji's morality isn't black and white—there's no neat division of people who deserve to live and people who don't in his head. In general, he respects the value of life at a fundamental level, and when people—like Sukuna or Mahito, who best illustrate this in the narrative—disregard that value or make a mockery of it, Yuuji retaliates with lethal violence.

But his violence is also a scale: He doesn't go from pacifism to murder, with nothing in between. On the contrary, he's pretty comfortable with non-lethal violence from the start. We see it when he first fights curses, and later chapters show that he's also comfortable turning that onto humans (the bullies you mentioned, as well as how he fights Todo during the Goodwill Event). They're different flavors of violence, prompted by different needs and emotions, and the resolve to kill is at the extreme end.

We first see it with Mahito in one of the most fucking metal declarations in the whole series, and we see a more necessity-driven version of it with the Death Paintings. The latter also shows that Yuuji's capable of killing when needed while mourning the necessity of it. He shows no such hesitation when hunting down Mahito, and I firmly believe he wouldn't have felt any regret even if mommy dearest hadn't stolen his prey. With Sukuna, we see it become even more complex toward the end, as we see Yuuji reconcile his hatred of Sukuna and all he stands for with an understanding of why Sukuna is the way he is and how that's a fate Yuuji almost shared.

There are layers upon layers to Yuuji's compassion, in a way that's incredibly, realistically human.

The soldiers fall somewhere in the middle—they need to be stopped, but they don't need to be killed. Yuuji finds out that they're capturing sorcerers for experimentation and learns mere minutes later that Kenjaku engineered that situation to essentially sacrifice the soldiers to cursed spirits. It's natural that he'd resolve to save them.

Death via curse is consistently presented as a horrible way to die, which Yuuji's well aware of. So Yuuji deciding that a bunch of soldiers, regardless of their ill intent regarding sorcerers, don't deserve to die to curses is pretty consistent with his moral code. Would he beat them up? Absolutely. Leave them to die? Nope.

I also think personal experience factors into who ends up on Yuuji's shitlist: Atrocities he personally witnesses seem to leave more of an impression than those he hears of. On top of that, he's also willing to forgive people when they exhibit a genuine change of heart, as seen with his acceptance of Chōsō and Higuruma and even his offer to coexist with Sukuna.

How Yuuji would react to the soldiers if he were to witness them actually killing sorcerers, especially his loved ones, is a very interesting scenario to ponder though.

(With Getou, in the context of that idea of mine, the issue isn't just that Getou wants to kill all non-sorcerers—it's also that he's not open to changing his mind or turning away from that path. His disregard for life perseveres, and that wouldn't be something Yuuji can abide. It doesn't necessarily mean he'll go at Getou the way he did at Mahito or even Sukuna. Context would matter a lot: For instance, Getou's ideals can't do any practical harm if he's neutralized power-wise like in that idea, and being essentially trapped together would facilitate conversation. There's a lot of room for the exploration of morality when it comes to Yuuji.)

[skekthesilly]

if opposites attract.. and they both have opposite charges.. does that mean proton and electron are in love?

i. oh my god. i forgot that. opposites attracted. oh my god. oh my god. oh my god. oh my god. i wasnt even planning on. oh my g

huuGHIHFHGHDINFH. OH MY SHITBALLS. OHHHH MY GOD??? oh my. oh. oh my god. i. i

YURI. YURI. OHHHH MY GOD YURI SAVE ME. SOMEBODY CATCH ME. SOMEBODY C *dramatically falls onto conveniently placed sofa*

i. i. they. oh my god they make me SICK and i. i havent even done anything with the two yet. i. ouuughhh. i feel sick. they make me SICK

chat. chat. chat what do we think about "asshole bitchass whos deeply in love and doesnt want to admit it because it has trust issues and it doesnt want to get hurt again and the only way zap can really express zap's feelings is through insults and doesn't know how to deal with ANY affection at all" x "motherly woman who wants to help said asshole and make it open up because she cares about it and her love language is physical contact but is horribly oblivious to the fact that the asshole is madly in love with her and also is bone-tired of holding the burden of expectation and responsibility but needs to keep doing it and just NEEDS someone who she can goof off and cuddle with" ohh my god im cooking im COOKING IM COOKING IM

i am SUCH a sucker for gay couples. thats right! theyre gay now. i said so. when does the arc start? i dunno. itll be a surprise. or something. god i need a fanfiction of this im. going to lose it im

gay. gay. homosexual. gay. ohhhh my FUCK OH MY FUCK

AAUUUGHGHGHGH. GARHGHGRHAGRHG. I AM GOING TO LOSE IT

ONE SIDED SLOW BURN YURI. ONE SIDED SLOW BURN YURI I REPEAT ONE SIDED SLOW BURN YURI. THIS IS NOT A DRILL. ONE SIDED SLOW BURN YURI

OUGHGGHGTHUGUTHUGHTUGH. IM GOING TO DIE. IM GOING TO DIE IM ACTUALLY GOING TO HAVE A STROKE AND DIE. THESE TWO MAKE ME SICK AND NOTHINGS EVEN HAPPENED YET

IM SHAKING YOU BY THE SHOULDERS RIGHT NOW ANON. YOU. YOU. OHHHH YOU. OHHHHHH YOU. OHHHHHHHHH YOU. YOU. YOU. YOU.

IM GOING TO. I. THEY. T. I. IM. I. IM GONNA. THEY. OUUUGHHHH WHEN I GET MY HANDS ON THOSE TWO. OHHHH WHEN I GET MY HANDS ON THOSE TWO LITTLE FUCKING SUBATOMIC PARTICLES

OHHHH MY FUCKING GOD HOW DID WE GET HERE. HOW. HOW. THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO JUST BE "HAHA SILLY CONFESSION BLOGS" WHERE DID THE FUCKING YURI COME FROM

"electrons been meaner lately. did i do something wrong? did i make it upset? aw man.." meanwhile electron in the background is going "FUCK FUCK SHIT FUCK FUCK OH MY GOD FUCK IM GOING TO KILL MYSELF OHHH MY FUCK THERES NO WAY THERES NO FUCKING WAY THIS IS NOT POSSIBLE FUCK FUCK FUCK I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH THAT PINK PROTON BITCH NO THERES NO WAY THIS CANT BE HAPPENING I AM NOT ACCEPTING THIS"

yuri...

this was all /pos by the way

[lunatic-fandom-space]

You know what its past midnight Im gonna make a post critisising acotar despite never having the read the series, the only book of SJMs ive actually read was crescent city but I spend a lot of time in anti acotar circles bc its fun being a little hater sometimes and I think I know enough by now to atleast critise some of the themes. I definitely know more about this series than I should, like I know about that immortal horse whose horse wife tragically died in horse childbirth and then Im pretty sure he died of horse sadness. And yet, despite cari can read being pretty good at explaining magic shit, I still dont know what the hell syphons are or why illyrians have them or why they matter so you really never stop learning huh

Anyway, I wanted to talk about the misogyny within the universe of acotar because its really bad, both in the sense that its just annoying and insufferable to read about even second-hand and in the sense that its badly written. The thing that inspired this was this short piece of flashfiction by @feynessupremacy about an unnamed girl from the hewn city being married off and having a horrible time living in this endless cycle of misogynistic abuse that her mom is still in and that her dauggters will end up in, all powerless to do anything against this kind of systemic sexism. I thought it was good and made its intended point pretty well but it also made me once again realize how borderline comical this series portrayal of misogyny is

Like, okay, once again, I have not read these books myself but it very much seems like the sexism in this world just materialized in the second book, from the summaries Ive watched it straightup seems like it was just not there in the first book. I mean hell, the entire plot hinges on the fact that Tamlin was sending all these fae disguised as fucked up creatures out so that they would hopefully be killed by a woman so she could break the curse, which implies that women being hunters was pretty normal. (Also, dont come at me with any kind of "oh, it doesnt specify the gender of the person who needs to break the curse a guy couldve done it as well", sjm is too insufferably heteronormative to consider that)

So basically what Im saying is, from my perspective it very much seems like sjm put not only systemic misogyny but like, incredibly violent systemic misogyny to the point where women being brutalized is basically completely normal, in her fantasy series for the sake of making a man look good because hes a wittle sad :( about it sometimes which is honestly pretty funny to me

But it gets even funnier because it doesnt even seem like sexism is really a widespread thing ? Like, i have never seen anyone else directly address this but its all I can think about: in the Nightcourt, the misogyny and institutionalized violence against women is literally the worst it possibly can be with genital mutilation and everything and then in the rest of Prythian its just like, not there. There are plenty of women with political power, the queen of adriada comes to mind first, Im pretty sure I read something about a woman from the wintercourt who was in a similar position of power, its unclear to me what all these fuckin priestesses do because theres no focus on the religion at all much less the institution(s) behind that religion, but they have to have some kind of power if theyre anything like priests in our world (although tbh they seem more like nuns to me functionally just with a diffrent name), especially Ianthe who was like a high priestess and directly in charge of Feyre, who shouldve been the most powerful woman in the springcourt by virtue of being with the high lord, Amren and Mor seem to be well respected outside of the NightCourt, their only deity is the MOTHER. Sure, there arent any "official" High Ladies but if being a High Lord entails being chosen by the magic of the land or The Cauldron or The Mother or whatever other kind of magic bullshit and women just dont get to have it for some reason, is that really indicative of the broader culture being sexist, or is that just God, Who Canonically Exists being sexist? Idk about you, but Im leaning towards the latter option

Thats not even mentioning the mortal lands which seem to be ruled by queens exclusively at the time of the story taking place, or Hybern which had Amarantha and I think her sister as well be these high-ranking generals and it wasnt presented as anything unusual. Like, are you telling me that the kingdom whose only value is "we love slavery, we would like to have slavery back" is more progressive than the court of fuckin Feminist King Rhysand?? I Am Going To Turn Into The Joker

Anyway, I think thats all I have to say, please correct me if I got any of this information wrong I cannot stress enough that I have not read these books and dont plan on reading them anytime soon, atleast not in english because reading the term mate a 1000 times sounds like too much for me to bear, atleast in german theyll probably use a term like "Gefährte/in" which doesnt make me think of actual animals

[qoldenskies]

Omg I just read the entirety of the canary continuity and I love it so much! I was crying so hard by the time I was done with it!

Also, I feel so bad for all the brothers, especially Leo, Raph and Mikey. Not only is their brother hurt, physically and mentally, but they can't even do anything cause it was (unintentionally) their fault. Their relationship has broken, and they can't even fix it, because not only would Donnie think that they are lying about being nice again when they try to help, he can't even see them before having a panic attack, thinking that they are going to hurt him (or worse, kill him).

I can't wait to see what would happen in the future chapters!

hi!!! im so glad you enjoyed!! >:D

honestly ive been rolling around the particular angst with the other three in my head, and i've been excited to dive deeper into them and how they're handling it but i need to get through a particular part of the story before i can properly switch to their povs, but you better bet it'll be happening!!!

its the pain of not being able to show him the kindness and gentleness he deserves after everything that happens to him. despite his fear and initial trepidation, he practically folds into april and splinter when they reach for him, and he panics when he sees them leave, and he uses them as a lifeline when he's scared. already twice now they've talked him down from a spiral of panic and comforted him (although theyve been unable to do it when the others are around, so they always have to make them leave. even when they dont want to!) and it's somewhat established that it's not even normally how donnie responds to trauma. he usually needs a while to sit and process before he can come for comfort, and trying to push him does not work at All, but now more than anything all that he wants and needs is the affection they CANT GIVE HIM because he's utterly terrified of them, even though its ultimately the most important thing for him right now. more than anything donnie wants his brothers to keep him safe, but he thinks they're gone, and he doesn't know when the curse started, or what part of it was how they truly feel and what part of it was the curse speaking; and even if he did, they are a trigger to him and there's nothing he can do about it.

and for raph and mikey in particular, who are so tactile and affectionate (and are just as comforted by affection as the person theyre trying to comfort in most cases) its fucking devastating. with leo with his hidden low self esteem its still awful for him, but he knows what this feels like, he's only acting so different because he can't fall back on his old coping mechanisms; because they're the thing that HURT donnie, because the curse weaponized them, so he's turning to anger (in ME he is intentionally trying to start fights because he wants to be yelled at LOL) and trying to stay productive instead. but raph and mikey generally have always had the impression of themselves that they're Good People (mikey is very confident and he hasn't really been disillusioned at all yet, and raph is someone i see to be very secure in the idea that he's a good person, which can sometimes make taking responsibility/handling guilt difficult for him. although he matures substantially around the time of the movie) so its just. shattering.

mikey never saw himself CAPABLE of doing something this horrible (he's just a kid! sometimes he struggles to see past himself!) and with raph it was a confirmation of his worst insecurity; to some extent he has always seen donnie and mikey as so much more fragile than him (he does canonically understand that donnie is very sensitive/takes rejection super seriously, and he worries about hurting his feelings. ty donnie's gifts for the brains and brawn fuel i use you so liberally), and especially when he was younger he grappled with this fear of hurting them badly on accident (and he probably had in play before), and even with the self-restraint he displayed under the curse, he still caused all this CARNAGE... and there's nothing he can do about it. donnie can't even hear his voice right now without screaming. they both need to comfort in order to feel comforted and that's been ripped away from them, and they're doing so fucking awful. cannot wait to write their povs honestly i have a lot of ideas >:)

[mbat]

i kinda love and hate something about the new expansion, and its anduins story

disclaimer that my knowledge of world of warcraft in general is very... tangled. like, if youve ever pulled out a bunch of necklaces and theyre tangled together and youre like 'what the fuck how do i even fix this'. thats my knowledge of world of warcraft. ive learned everything out of order and theres a lot i dont even know yet blah blah

but anyway

what i understand is that during shadowlands, anduin basically got ?posessed? and was forced to be fully aware as he watched his own body do horrible things that couldnt be undone, and that part of him enjoyed it.

and then it ended and he was so fucked up by that (rightfully) that he went and hid from the world for a while, isolating himself and only furthering these horrible feelings because he couldnt find a way to not feel horrible about what happened

and then hes found and told that hes needed again, but hes still beating himself up

and the worst part is, he cant find it in himself to reconnect with this thing thats important to him, the light, because he thinks hes unworthy. the light is seen as such a good thing in this world, and he thinks himself no longer good. (i could say how this feels weirdly christian but that is NOT the point here)

he goes on this journey anyway, how could he not? their world is in trouble.

and in this journey, they find a land hiding away thats pretty much made to help him LMAO. theres a few things, but mostly... theres the light. a gem rock star thingy of some kind as bright as the sun sticking out of the ceiling of an underground world, and it is the light. the light he feels he lost

and he meets someone whos so devoted to it, so hopeful despite everything thats happened to her, and she sees in him what he thinks he doesnt have for anyone to see

she lets him know that the light is still there, he still has it, he will be okay. he doesnt believe it, but he starts to

its through this journey that he learns that what happened doesnt define who he is, not forever, not even now, and he finds the light again

especially in such a pivotal moment where he does something thats the opposite of what he was forced to do before

where he was forced to hurt and kill people

he finds his ability to heal again, and revives someone

and i guess i said i love it and hate it because like... i hate that this isnt in a form i can easily re-consume like a book or a show or a movie, or even a linear video game. and once i go through it on a character, i cant do it again unless its on another character, and i only have so many high level characters. i could probably just watch videos or something about it but idk it just doesnt work the same

i also hate that i know im not gonna find many people talking about it, at least, not even in the way i want

but what i love is that this type of story was done at all. i feel like its underdone, where a character, especially a character whos 'the good one', does something(s) thats horrible, maybe even 'unforgivable' depending who you ask, and they have to deal with realizing that it doesnt define them, and they can still be good, still be worth loving and having a good life. learning to forgive themself.

i feel like its a story that a lot of people need to hear, even if they dont even realize it. i know ive done things in the past i still feel like i will never make up for, and i still dont know how to feel about it all.

i think its actually wild that something like world of warcraft did it at all, and honestly, i think they did it well. i guess i cant speak much on the shadowlands part of it because i have yet to see all of that, only really the cutscenes and cinematics, but ive seen the war within part of it.

and idk i feel like i have so much to say but i cant think of more, but i really enjoyed it.

[ii-neg-confessions]

coming from some1 that regrettably got into ob^^^^ shows in the first place cuz of ex """"""moots"""""" that i wish i never met in the first place cuz of how horrible they truly are alongside ae and some1 very passionate abt what i like dearly i wish act 3 never happened cuz it sucked ass sm and ruined everything along with the fact that they did my fav comfort characters dirty (ie mephone and bot for the right reasons) and ever since then i stopped respecting everything 0^c/ae as a whole and wanted to move away from those assholes forever and seeing ur replies to various asks from this blog makes me feel awful abt how i wish a show i adored for lore/comfort character purposes only wouldve been in better hands than those losers since i feel like theyre all just too allergic to simple things like lore/worldbuilding that arent that hard to comprehend and yet they come up with the most shitty ending ive ever seen for SEASON 2 of all things which makes me rly pissed since i loved s2 for lore reasons and lore reasons only and basically i just wanna rewrite the entire canon forever and never hear abt that garbage ever again cuz i feel like mephone shouldve never gotten into reality tv crap and would have a lot more fun being passionate abt making a more interesting world of their own/oc lore and then do some cool ass shit later on that will in all honesty be a hell of a lot more fitting than whatever tf that ending to the """"""movie"""""" is that i refuse to even accept as """"canon"""" no matter what which is rly such a damn shame cuz i rly liked past episodes of s2 b4 15/movie and yet they somehow look sm better than the rest and i cant comprehend why either 💀

but yeah case in point ur blogs great i hope u convince more ppl to the ae hate cause for the right reasons and also i srsly hope ae/0^c burns in hell forever cuz thats basically what they get for manipulating me into false crap (ie the time when taylor got shit for the wrong reasons over a minor thing ill never forgive them for that) as well as forcing me to like garbage for the wrong reasons and for being assholes in general i just want it all destroyed alongside other f^^bases that i despise sm no wonder why one is basically the only show that feels right compared to everything else and HAS A MUCH BETTER ENDING THAT MADE MUCH MORE SENSE THAN THAT PIECE OF SHIT FINALE EVER WOULD I HATE IT ALL SM I HATE 0^C I HATE AE I HATE THOSE FREAKS THAT I REFUSE TO CALL """"MY FRENS"""" AFTER THE SHIT THEYVE DONE AND I JUST WISH ALL THINGS OB^^^^ SHOW RELATED WOULD IMPLODE ITSELF FOREVER AND LET ME LIVE IN PEACE FOR ONCE!!!!!!!!!

yeah i just hate how this shit is from horrible ppl that deserve no forgiveness whatsoever but at least my soon to be existing canon rewrite will help me forget the horrors and let me live in my own fantasy forever cuz it just makes more sense and overall passionately frustrated is how i feel abt this shit ordeal as a whole and i just hope they all lose everything and burn in hell forever is all so keep doing whats best and all will be well soon one way or another cuz ae can go to hell for all i care as well as the entire garbage 0^c that i despise just as much as other f^^bases i despise sm too

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