#theyre just full of people totally buying into it

[mooifyourecows]

I think it's pretty weird that there's an entire group of people on tiktok trying to make it seem like that dog Bunny who pushes all the buttons to communicate with her people is getting TOO self aware to the point of being depressed and filled with existential dread

Like, the way people are trying to spin it is completely different from what is being shown? She is clearly smart and she does occasionally ask some deep questions like wondering who is in the mirror and whether she's human or dog but they act like she's in need of rescue because she's TOO self aware.

Then you go to her page and it's like just a very smart dog pointing out that one of her people is in the bathroom pooping or she's pushing the 'walk' button or she's mad because it's raining and she's wet like lmao WHERE ARE THESE PEOPLE GETTING THESE SUPPOSED RED FLAGS?

They say she's on antidepressants and they use that as evidence that she's too self aware and her owners are basically abusing her for giving her this consciousness and treating her distress as fun jokes for the internet but like.... do you think animals DONT have mental illness? It's not uncommon for animals to have anxiety or depression or ptsd. Theyre living beings who are not immune to the stress of being alive in the 21st century. So even if Bunny is on antidepressants, it's not necessarily proof that her supposed 'human like consciousness' is to blame.

It feels like random, potentially harmful rumors being spread around for no reason other than to stir up controversy.

If any of these people actually did watch her videos they would clearly see that she seems well taken care of. Yes, she's smart, and sometimes makes shocking observations (likely not always intentionally) but uhhhh dogs ARE smart. Give them the tools to show their intelligence and you will be amazed. She's a sheepadoodle no less. Which is a HIGHLY intelligent breed. But other than the 'self awareness' she doesn't show any signs of being unhappy or mistreated. She is healthy and well groomed and surrounded by love and enrichment. She gets plenty of interaction with other dogs and goes on frequent walks with her owners who shower her with love and affection.

I dunno it just feels like one of those situations where people need to like... touch grass and stop believing the tiktok fear mongers.

[hauntedwizardmoment]

SO delighted by the jacezara go clubbing together movie that is now playing on loop in my brain. absolutely incredible. first of all feel like zara is the MOST acquainted a person could possibly be with whatever elmville's club scene is because of course she's awake primarily at night so like she's bffs with the owner of each and every location. second of all, jace mesh moment is so delightful to me personally. third of all, porter losing the idgaf war harder than anyone has ever lost it is the best fucking mental image possible. he comes downstairs unaware, having somehow been so focused on aspects of The Plan in recent days that he missed the memo that this event was happening tonight. so he sees jace in his full clubbing outfit (and zara in HER full clubbing outfit) and does in fact promptly walk into a doorframe. frankly, he doesn't even register the pain from walking into the doorframe; he's still trying to process why his brain is shorting out on all circuits, while also committing WHOLEHEARTEDLY to not letting either of them know that this is what's happening. (they obviously know immediately, or at least zara knows. his plan is not working at all.)

GODDDDD YEAH

also combining this with @t4tozier's incredible tags on the original post:

i think what ends up happening is like. jace is SO drunk. he wore the outfit he did because it's the one that never fails to get people to buy him shots. and he's thrown back every single drink bought for him by every random horny guy in elmville because trying to create a new god is HARD and he deserves to cut loose tonight. he's danced with sooooo many people, maybe lit up a little bit or done some dragon spice. it's been a long... not even long week it's been a long few years, he's earned this. zara's left multiple lipstick kisses on his neck. thats not related to anything i just needed to say that. they end up somewhere totally unintended bc they have a mishap.

theyre trying to get back to jace's townhome, they end up in porter's apartment. theyre not standing upright with any dignity either, theyre on top of each other. and jace is so out of it that he doesnt realize what's happened until zara is like "hey cliffbreaker, you better put a leash on your boyfriend" and porter (completely sober, definitely not extremely jealous and half-hard at seeing jace look fucked-out and ruined at zara's hand) is like "the hell's that supposed to mean" and zara's like regaling him w some anecdotes from earlier that night and she probably doesnt mean to make him sound like a total slut who'll go home with any half-wit who buys him a cocktail but hey, if the shoe fits!

and to emphasize this she maybe. bites jace's neck. lets her fangs sink in. takes a sip of his blood. says he tastes like lemon vodka. and if jace whines a little bit and goes bright red because wow zara's teeth feel good against his throat. well thats between him and god.

somehow this ends with jace getting spitroasted until he cant remember his name and showing up to work on monday having to cast alter self to hide all the hickeys and bite marks all over him in between class periods.

[autisticblueteam]

Appears from the ether again, after months of only being present enough to fill my queue up, with some WIP snippets from the gen:LOCK re-write I mentioned before...

And also finally adressing these tags lmao, sorry @thesouppond I realise these are like 3 months old.

#FUCK IM JUST SEEING THIS NOW???#FUCK YEAH 2024 SEASON OF EVERYONE GETS TO REWRITE GENLOCK CAUSE FUCK S2#Ahem anyway hi genlock moot :)))#I love your writing btw! Ive read your existing GL fics theyre great!#at this point if someone can give me a GL fic i havent already met I will forever be indebted to you i am DYING for GL content

We're really out here trying our best to do better by GL than HBO did huh!! I've been loving Reloaded, it was so nice to see someone else pop up in the gL tag after it was comparatively dead for so long. I've been working on my re-write since just after s2 came out and it was lonely in there for a while there lmao.

So I'm glad you enjoyed the couple of fics I've already done! I'm re-using parts of one of them for the actual re-write since I'm going for the 'keep the basic bones of s2 but aim to fix the execution into something less shit/re-work the worst bits' and I didn't want to write that first nemesis fight over again from total scratch lmao...

I want to finish writing all of the re-write before I post it in full, but that does mean it's taking forever whoops.

I'm still not past the introduction of Sinclair as his portion is so involved and I keep getting distracted by other projects/hobbies, but I did finally get to a point where my take on Sinclair is actually fun to write! I'm keeping his boyfriend because I did at least like that Sinclair was made canonically queer and they're actually cute when I'm just doing my own thing.

So since I feel like posting some WIP bits, here's my favourite Chris/Sinclair stuff I've done so far.

“YEAH! Take that you fucked up tin can!” Sinclair winced. The shout was like an ice pick being driven into his skull, but it was also what finally drove him to lift his head. There ahead of him, wielding a large piece of debris in one hand, was a heavyset Asian man dressed in torn clothes and covered in grime. He reared back, and for a split second Sinclair thought that projectile was for him, until he heard an impact, and the last of the humming died. The man brushed off his hands, pride written on every feature, and in that moment he was the most beautiful thing Sinclair had ever seen. “Coast’s clear!” the stranger called behind him. There was movement, but Sinclair didn’t care to look, his attention caught by the man’s approach. “And we’ve got a live one.” Sinclair’s throat was so dry he broke down coughing twice, in the time it took the stranger to kneel in front of him. “I-I’m not Union. I-I know— with the uniform, and the—” Another violent burst of coughing cut him off. The stranger handed him a canteen and a crooked smile. “Yeah, no shit. You’ve got way too much emotion on your face to be even a defector,” he said, and if Sinclair wasn’t so busy chugging the offered water, he might have mustered a laugh. “That, plus, the lack of helmet, the collapsing, and the drone getting ready to turn you into a novelty cheese grater kinda gave it away.” “Christ, I could kiss you right now,” Sinclair blurted and then regretted in quick succession. Fuck. He’d been in near solitary too long, his filter had worn away to nothing and he was making a damn fool of himself in front of the first sane people he’d seen in weeks. Except the stranger just… laughed, good-naturedly. “Close, the name’s Chris, not Christ. And I’d say buy me dinner first, but it’s a bit hard out here.”

AND then a little later...

“What about the refugee railroads?” Chris lowered his beer bottle and wiped his mouth. “Too far.” “Vanguard safe crossings?” “Too far.” “The— fucking Canadian border?” Chris laughed, “Too far. Further than either of the other things. Jesus, dude. You sure you haven’t got a concussion?” “Mostly,” Sinclair said, rubbing his face with his intact hand. “I just— you’re going to die if you stay here. A drone only has to get lucky once.” “And if we go deeper in, we’ll only die faster,” Chris said with a simple shrug. “We already have to pack up and move every few weeks when the line moves. And every time, the Polity border gets a little bit further away. Believe me, man, I want nothing more than to get outta here, but it’s just not happening.” “What if I helped?” The offer fell out before he’d consciously decided to make it, but Sinclair stood by it. Even when Chris looked at him dubiously. “No offence, dude, but you’re just one guy. And two days ago you could barely stand.” “And now I’m fine,” Sinclair insisted. “I’m a soldier. I was decorated for valour after I got my squad out of a run-in with the Union that should’ve killed us all. I was the only one who could even still hold a gun. I swear, I could get you somewhere safe. Are you really telling me you’d rather keep sitting around waiting to die than take a risk?” Chris’s brow furrowed, and he didn’t answer immediately, taking another swig from his scratched up bottle of beer. Sinclair sighed. “Look. I need to get to a Vanguard base one way or another. I don’t want to leave you guys behind if I don’t have to. I owe you my life. And maybe dinner.” Chris almost choked on his drink. “Wow,” he laughed, clearing his throat, “you sure pick your moments, huh?” Sinclair shrugged. “Figure if you’re not actually into it I’ll just blame the concussion.” “That you don’t have.” “Exactly.” Chris rolled his eyes, but he was smiling. “Smooth. Smooth operator. Alright, alright, fine, we’ll talk to the others in the morning. It might be a tougher sell when they’re not the ones getting dinner with a hot soldier out of it, but hey, guess we’ll see.” “Are you looking past the just-got-done-being-tortured chic, here, or is that part of the charm?” “Are you kidding? There’s a whole genre focused on how hot soldier guys look after they’ve been through hell.” “Not sure that’s the intended takeaway of action movies.” “Well,” Chris shrugged, starting to pick at a can of food, “it was definitely my takeaway.” Sinclair laughed. Honest-to-god laughed, in a way he was surprised he was even capable of after the last few weeks. The normality of the moment was like a balm on all the aching parts of him, mental and physical alike. For a moment he could almost forget that the reason he looked like shit was because he’d just escaped the worst experience of his life. For a moment it felt like the fight was over.

Now I just have to actually get through the remainder of my Sinclair set-up and then I'll be only one chapter away from finishing the first half of the fic... so close and yet so far lmao.

[chocowhomps]

Hi there, I found your Blog a few days ago & fell in love with the Keveddy Posts,

Anyway I wanted 2 ask, How did Kevin & Eddy’s react when they told them they were a couple & if they’re parents were supportive or not?

AWWW HI THERE!!! I'm so so glad u like them! Keveddy is very important to me and ive put a lot of thought into their relationship so I've totally thought of this

Kevin's relationship with his parents is excessively strained for various reasons. So while theyre more or less "supportive" it's better described as their reaction being "neutral". They are very inactive participants in Kevin's life and Kevin basically had to parent himself when he was very young in my take (part of why he is so aggressive/defensive, is usually seen doing very intense chores potentially dangerous for a kid his age esp unsupervised, and has things like sweets entirely locked away from him as punishment for misbehaving BC they aren't there to enforce rules in person.)

They more or less shrug and say oh that's nice. But sometimes don't really even acknowledge it. They have this same vibe towards Kevin's gender as a trans boy, so he isn't really that surprised despite it rly hurting his feelings.

Eddy's parents on the other hand are INSANELY supportive. Like SO supportive like ECSTATICALLY supportive. Eddy's dad is a gruff guy who's loud and rough around the edges and Eddy's mom is a loud, sassy chatterbox who can be somewhat catty at times. Eddy's mom is very Intune with her sons emotions (Eddy's a ginormous momma's boy and was spoiled to hell and back as a kid which is why he's like that personality wise mixed with his issues w his brother) so she knew before they got together that eddy liked him.

Kevin's and eddy hung out alone at his place a lot and she was just so excited to herself over how cute they were in her eyes just waiting for one of them to ask the other out. So when they tell Eddy's parents she jumps up and squeals like "OH THnk GAWDD FINALLYYYY! MY BABYS FIRST LIL BOYFRIEND OHHH" embarassing the hell out of Eddy to the point he becomes a tomato.

Eddys dad takes the calmer approach but he's kinda Y'know so hes the type to be like "calm down woman I'm trying to eat my supper" and she and him lightly bicker BC they're that kinda couple. But he expresses his genuine approval which means a lot to Eddy BC his father always read as hard to approach. So it really hits him hard how genuine he expresses himself for once to show he fully is happy. Kevin feels this way too and it means a lot to him to have a guy like Eddy's dad call him a "good man".

And Kevin's just happy to be so accepted by them and immediately be considered family.

Eddy's dads also full of it BC it doesn't take him long to call Kevin "son" as well BC both he AND his wife are insanely giving people. Theyre very well off for what they do and Eddy's dad more or less let's Kevin buy his car from his dealership for dirt purely BC "anything for my future son in law" which sends Eddy into a spiral BC "DAD!!!!! DONT SAY THAT!!!!!" and Kevin's just giddily twiddling his thumbs heheheheh

[vio-starzz]

👁️💥💢😨🥞🍟🍓💐🌙☀️🕷️🌌🏊‍♂️🎨📏🌩️🔥☄️☁️

Hehe I’m sending them all back to u (no pressure!!!)

IUDHAHGRHAHHRW ILY/PLAT AND I THINK ITS TOTALLY VALID IF I PULL OUT TWO OF MY OCS WHO ARE EXTREMELY GAY FOR EACH OTHER!!!! (Haven & Cas)

Now get ready for words you affectionate fuck /j /lh

Oooooohhhkaayyyy now!

Eye; What color are their eyes? Do people notice their eyes? Is their anything special about them?

Haven: They have my favorite butt fuck two colored eyes (o cant spell the word that goes with it—) But they have One brown eye, one green!!!! The green one is normally hidden, and due to some super duper cool ass lore and backstory, they glow yellow when angry/using magic in the base world, or red when theyre out of base world. (No i will not further elaborate, unless i am threatened and coerced into it.)

Cas: Cassssssss(tiel) has green eyes! One of them is actually a lighter more foggy color, and they are officially blind in that eye(left one), so its normally just, never viewable, although in thag eye, off magic usage, their kinda broken fucked up pupil reacts to magic and changes with their emotions, further making them wanna hide it.

Collision; What emotions do they have trouble dealing with?

Haven: The uh, certified mess— literaly has panic attacks and dissociates off literally any feeling of happiness. They cant deal with it, and just, panic because theyre so not used to feeling happiness, it fucks with them hard, and they cant deal with not knowing what to do.

Cas; They….struggle more with anxiety, and anger. Cas is the sweet friendly most well behaved friendo! and then- hurt the love of their life (Haven) or best friend- adopted ‘child’ (?), and. they just. they cant handle with the feelings, and they snap very quickly, even when they rarely even get angry, they just. cant do anger at all, and anxieties overwhelm and eat at them so easily and quickly.

Anger; What are some habbits they have that will take getting used to?

Haven: Haven very easily results to terrible coping mechanisms, and very quickly fucks up any streaks they have and do so often now subconsciously. It was such a habit in the past, like; not even a coping thing, but feeling the need to be full on perfect at everything, or else they arent worthy to eat food, or sleep, thtey just have to keep working harder and harder. (Trauma thing)

Cas: If cas can’t take their anger out on a person, they will to any nearby object. even if it’s valuable or significantly important, special, or just irreplaceable- they will break and tear holes into walls, because they have to release it. Its the only thing they know how to do. (Learned its wrong, still cant control it in the slightest)

Fearful; When scared do they go into flight or fight?

Both: Fight, its, like- oh! spider on the wall? set the damn thing and whole building or whatever on fire. (Normally fight, but do shit very extremely)

Pancake; What is their comfort breakfast?

Haven: Doesn’t eat breakfast, but considers ‘coffee’ a comfort food.

Cas: Potatoes.

Fries; Do they order food often? Or do they prefer to cook their own food?

Haven: This dumbass cant cool shit, unless its setting water on fire. The will get food out, unless their best friend(?) comes over and helps cook for them, or Cas is willing to try.

Cas:Not the best cook, and normally ends up buying shit and ordering out, especially when theyre too tired to figure out how the hell to make something that isnt soup.

Strawberry; Do they eat their fruits n Vegetables, what are their favorites?

Haven: Sometimes. At any time of the day, Haven would die to eat a blueberry, or, hell, a whole ass bag or comtainer of them. They are a blueberry fiend.

Cas: Will rarely eat much of any of them, maybe a pear every once in four months, maybe a plum here and there….Never a pea…is okay with corn; like…they don’t have a favorite, unless a potato counts. That is their comfort.

Bouquet; Create a…..

Haven: Theyre a professional in making flowercrowns, and eating flowers, and have very few favorites….They tend to lean more towards Ghost orchids, and would take a single one just as happily as they would a bouquet. They truly love flowers.

Cas: Cas is a. ‘flowers are meh’ but if they get handed a flowercrown or literally anything from Haven? Cas will literally swoon. like. Theu love roses, but will only accept flowers, of any kind, from Haven, and they just. make me so happy, its ao gay.

Moon; Whats your ocs greatest wish? how far are they willing to go for it?

Haven: …Haven just wants their world, home, and friends back. They want their (adopted) mothers warmth of a hug, they wanna see their father for once….They wanna be home, and they’d kill themselves, if death is the only way hack home.

Cas: To have Haven and (?) alive and safe…Even if it costs them everything.

Sun; Are they a morning person? What do they do in the morning?

…Both are relatively the same of either, you cant be a morning person if you dont sleep, or, fuck the sun- lets become nocturnal, and they wake up at like, 6pm, ready to start the night of being absolutely drained, and probably just throwing on each others clothing in accident, not caring to change it, and either staying inside all day, or actually going outside.

Spider; What is their biggest fear?

Haven: Haven is really claustrophobic, yes, but theyre terrified of losing any of their friends, or being left behind amd forgotten about. They hate even thinking about it, it hirts them really bad.

Cas: …Hurting someone they care about….

Milkyway; What was the inspiration behind your oc? What was the first thing you decided about them?

I have butt fuck no clue, but!!!! First thing i decided was these two are gonna be hella gay for each other. Like, it instantly just. Clicked.

Swimming; Can they swim? How do they feeel about swimming?

Haven; No. Absolutely fuckin not. Fuck water, and fuck having anxiety over it.

Cas; Yes, although they HATE how water feels against them, and never exactly will end up in it, theu just….hate it.

Pallet; Can they draw? What do they like to draw?

Haven: Yes but ONLY cats. They CANNOT draw anything else, that is not a cat.

Cas: Nope…They pick a pencil up, get super overwhelmed, and give up.

Ruler; Is your oc well educated? Where did they get the learning from?

Haven: Yes, although they wont share or discuss where they got well educated from. School they werent in long enough to actually end up learning, and they bounced around so often, nothing truly mattered or ended up sticking.

Cas: They are! Mostly self taught, and learned off others from paying attention and being able to read people or learn problems perfectly after one person writes one thing down! They didnt have any access to school, and are just overall incredibly smort.

Lightning, Are they scared of lightning?

Haven: Yes, anxiety and just. flashing lights is a huge issue for them, it makes them panic, and shut down very quickly.

Cas: No, they love lightning, adore the way it seems beautiful, although, they arent a fan of thunder, so normally watch it, yet, make sure to wear headphones or something to avoid the sounds of thunder.

Fire; Do they have any self destructive tendencies?

Haven & Cas: Yes. Absolutely, its mostly the same, although they try to help one another and prevent the other from doing x things, or y choices. (Not comf sharing what they are since….Uh. Projecting mostly.)

Comet: What do people assume about them? Are they right/wrong?

Haven: Most people lean towards them being the enemy, someone with evil intent just trying to control the situation, or, someone who thinks they can get away with anything and are better then everyone, they are wrong. Very very wrong.

Cas: Most people assume theyre the most unhinged silent person in their friend group, they arent. That title belongs to (?), theyre actually the most well behaved, although for some reason everyone thinks they wanna commit arson. (they actually try to stop the others)

Cloud, a soft hc!

Haven: Makes flower crowns to freely give away to children, or their friends as a symbol of kindness or love. They enjoy being the softest and sweetest soul in a whole town, willing to help however needed, and be just that little light in the darkest of nights. (They song to Cas if theyre having a rough tome sleeping)

Cas: Will make soup for Haven if theyre ever sick, and always tries to perfect the dish everytime. Will even stay by Haven’s side if it means they get sick as well, they basically will do anything to make sure their love is comfortable and okay.

[1eos]

i would still argue that idea and criminal sound nothing alike it's still very taemin but at the same time i really get the everything sounds like sth else in recent sm releases and artists lacking an established sound and identity the company goes with what sells so it's not really surprising but disappointing bc all these releases are so forgettable. also this trend of picking a very hard hitting 'loud' tt and then have the rest of the album sound nothing like it turns away so many people from listening to the rest of the album i will give it a chance but still i blame nct and aespa the company sees what sells and just goes with it i hope they move past this trend

you know? i totally forgot abt criminal lol yeah that was a song that actually had character. im on the fence abt idea but im biased against it bc i hate that song 😭😭😭😭 but that's neither here nor there. its definitely nct's fault tho. sm started giving them messier and messier songs and nctzens kept buying albums full of songs they didnt even like and sm said oh okay so we don't need to make good title tracks just spectacles! and it works. and while some albums have truly good bsides other times the bsides arent even good theyre just not bad and bc the bar's so low that's enough to be praised. like i be BEGGING ppl to stop describing songs as simply 'better than the shitty title track' bitch is it good on its own merits or not? like? you'd never hear me describe the closer as a song that's simply better than an older song it's smooth rnb fusion with crazy layered vocals a booming catchy chorus and shitty rapping but that's ok bc leo was having a boys ii men moment at the end!!!!

[abra-ka-dammit]

other misc fair things that have stayed in my mind:

-i checked my phone while a man was taking the money for the pickle my sister was buying and it was 4:20 and by sheer second nature i said "4:20 blaze it" and the guy started slowly shaking his head and sighed as he turned to make change

-very nice middle aged lady at one of the stalls helping my sister find the best set of "butterfly wings" for her height and outfit being really nice and supportive (even if it was just a sales pitch, she was doing a great job at making us feel confident in the purchase without being pushy or pressuring my sister, and we both walked away happy with the results)

-the belly dancers during their segment in the Pleasure Feast's accompaniment show included mostly plus sized girls who were all working it so right, in the same exact garments as the thin girls, and one of the thin girls was in fact a rather old lady (grey hair, saggy arm skin, the works) who was also working it so right that it made me smile like a doofus just out of sheer "hell yeah grandma u show em theres no age limit on belly dancing!" energy

-the fucking cheeseball personality of one of the knights representing our side of the crowd at the joust. hamming it tf up, trotting his horse by slowly and like flexing and smiling and waving as girls literally screamed and I LOVE U!!!!!'d like they were seeing a literal celeb or something

-the two little girls sitting to my left during the joust (i'd place ages ~5 and 7 ish) who got really into cheering and booing along with me and then started getting worried when the joust broke down into a brawl as the other side's main knight started being a huge dick and sore loser and started harassing the coordinating judge and then full on, off horse attacked the others with sword in hand, everyone swordfighting and then like 3 characters dying with cheesy squirts of fake blood. littler girl turns and looks up at me and says, "theyre just pretending, right?" and i was like yep, it's just a show, they're playing pretend, and then her trying to reassure her older sister(?) over and over "theyre not really dead! theyre just pretending!" and the other girl like fidgeting and being like no! theyre dead! and the littler girl just like, looking back up at me for reassurance every once in a while and confirming that theyre not really fighting, nobody is dead, they're gonna stand back up, it's just pretend (to which i made sure to just keep calmly smiling at and saying Yep! You're right! It's just pretend! to, bc i think if i was their age it would super just worry me more if an adult showed any doubt or hesitation in that answer)

--on that note, I don't know why but random little girls have a tendency to like, inherently like and trust me? maybe i give off serious Big Sister vibes or something, idk. on THAT note, the man they came with who was very old and kinda seemed zoned out so im guessing is maybe grandpa rather than dad, didnt even give a glance to the ADULT STRANGER the children he was attending had started talking to. im totally safe, yes, but a lot of people aren't, so you should at least, idk, pay a little attention???

-my sister quietly asking me what "quandary" means after a character employee visited us in line at the entrance and recruited me and then she into his evil minions program and gave us the minion codenames "stink-eye" (me) and "quandary" (her)

-relatedly just seeing how like, paralyzed with uncertainty and shyness my poor cute little sister was when someone in character tried talking to her, lmfao. she's 19 and i 100% guarantee you at her age i would have been reacting the same. but as fortune has it, age and/or anxiety meds have really opened my nerves up to just fucking rolling with it and saying that ive always been more of an evil overlord type than a minion myself

-not exactly fair related but talking to my sister as we walked around about how we both hate the idea of therapy, incidentally for the exact same reason, in that we had both gone to therapists who treated us like we were Just Being Teenagers and told us our mom/parents loved us and/or that we had great relationships with them that we were too hormonal to appreciate; when in fact we both grew up badly verbally and emotionally abused on the reg. like. bitches, do you not understand your parents dont have to be hitting you or locking you in basements to be abusive, right? when we say mom frequently screams at and threatens us we dont mean "she scolded me for a legitimate reason and told me i would be grounded if it happened again". its not emo teen purple prose. take our words and tears fucking seriously. AUGH. i'm so sorry for any abused teens out there rn in therapy with people like that, i really am. it truly sucks they wont listen to you.

[3pirouette]

Hello! Tis I - your secret santa.

Your gift is coming along!

The Muppets Christmas Movies are top tier. Theyre a yearly tradition with us, including the new Haunted Mansion one.

I can agree on the Christmas Carol. Its not my favorite and the story is not my favorite to follow.

I have another question as I have far too many ideas and keep writing all of them on and off.

Whats your most disliked AUs? I just want to avoid AUs and ideas that you dislike. I know you'll say anything I create, you'll like, but still I like to avoid.

I hope you're staying safe and warm!!

You, my secret Santa, have GREAT taste.

When it comes to AUs, my MOST hated is anything High school/college related. I watch media with adults in adult situations (not necessarily sexual, just things that happen to people over the age of 18) because that’s what I like and I relate to. Even when I was in HS I didn’t want to watch or read things about teenagers. I don’t mind the odd flashback or reference to a character being younger, but a full AU is a hard no for me.

Anything that changes what or who the characters are also is tough for me, too, because the thing I like about the character is WHO they are, and that’s inherently tied to their past and identity and it’s hard to get me to buy in that things like gender swap, vampire/werewolf, or A/B/O works with our favorite duo here. (Fun fact, though, apparently I’m totally down for A/B/O in space. Started reading an omega verse fic by accident… I know, I need to read the TAGS… and since it was set in space with options for non-human human looking species my brain went with it. Apparently I like Mandalorian ABO now. I learn new things about myself all the time around here…)

ANYWAY, the majority of AUs I’m pretty ok with. Some I’ll read more than others (for some reason, soulmates AU is a fav for Steggy) but very few are disliked or hard nos.

I hope that helped????

[gikairan]

With Alan Wake 2 not getting a physical release to "save money", and a potential lack of physical release for Starfield (we're not sure at this point in time after a deleted support tweet said it wouldnt have one)

I am literally on my hands and knees begging people to care about physical game releases

Physical game releases save you money!! Digital store fronts do not reduce the price of games over time. They never have. They never will. Hate the $70 price point for new generation games? If gaming goes full digital, nothing will ever get cheaper outside of store sales.

Physical game prices drop because they take up actual physical space. And stores that sell them reduce the price to get rid of inventory, to make room for new inventory.

Physical space is not a barrier to digital store fronts, so they do not need to reduce prices. EVER.

Dont believe me? Heres the current price for NBA 2k23 on PS4 on the UK Playstation Store (Ignoring the game is currently free on Playstation Plus as of typing this):

And heres how much it costs to buy NBA 2k22 AND NBA 2k21 on the UK Playstation store:

Theyre the same price. Despite the fact that 22 and 21 are "old" sports titles that are no longer getting updates (because 23 was released)

Right now, a physical copy of NBA 2k23 costs less than £20:

(I cant find physical listings for Brand New copies of the older games. But trust me... its not £59.99)

And sure, this is a game you probably dont care about. But this is also a game where a new version gets released every year, where the physical price crashes every year. And yet the digital store front is still charging Full Price for a version 2 years out of date.

Its not just crappy sports games that fall into this Bad Digital Pricing. Heres a game that came out 6 months ago:

Youre paying almost half to buy a physical version.

How about something critically well received?

And one not on sale:

The list goes on and on and on. And this is me comparing to Game.co.uk. .... Generally considered one of the most expensive places to buy physical video games. If i were to go onto Amazon, TheGameCollection, Hit.co.uk.... i'd probably find all of those games even cheaper.

This isn't even getting into the fact that when you buy a digital game, only you can play it. You cannot give it to a friend. You cannot sell it to a company to get a bit of cash for the next big game. You're stuck with it. Forever.

But what about sales? Steam is 100% digital, and they have Good Sales, right?? Wrong. If you were following Steam sales over a decade ago, you'd see they were a totally different beast to what they are now. Steam Sales a decade ago used to be a 75% discount on AAA games 2-3 years old. Youre lucky to get 50% on something 5+ years old these days. Most things are really only 25-50% discounts. Once Steam had gained a virtual monopoly over the PC game market, they dramatically scaled back the savings on their sales. Sales on the Epic Games Store tend to be more dramatic than Steam sales these days.... because they're doing the same thing Steam did. Offer ridiculous discounts in order to gain market share. Once they have the market share, they will stop offering such good discounts.

Refund rights with digital storefronts are also pretty poor. Here in the UK, if you buy something online... you have 14 days to send it back to where you brought it from if you dont like it. Brought that shiny new game but realised after 5 hours of play during the weekend that you didn't like it? You can just send it back and get a refund. It might be store credit instead of cash, but at least you can do it. Physical stores vary, but you usually get 48 hours to return something. Again, might be to store credit - but you still get your money back in some form. .... With a digital storefront, you only get 2 hours to play the game and decide if you want to keep it. Once you have played more than 2 hours, youre no longer eligible to refund the game.

.... 2 hours isnt a lot of time when you think about it. The FF16 demo is about 2 hours long, and most of it is watching cutscenes with very little gameplay! :D

And none of this is talking about how peoples literal jobs and livelihoods depend on the physical stores they work in. If physical games no longer exist, people will lose their jobs. Or how physical copies preserve games for the future, as digital store fronts on older consoles get sunsetted. And you cant expect a 20+ year old console to occasionally receive security patches so your card data is safe on their digital store fronts. You can always stick a physical version of a game into a console, but there wont always be a storefront to download it from. ...... Or the game could just be pulled. For good. Usually, this is due to licensed music expiring. Or it could be like PT.... where it was pulled, and literally removed from your library so it could never be downloaded again. If you own the physical copy, none of that matters. You can play the game for as long as the copy works.

A digital-only future for AAA gaming is something we need to be actively condemning

Dont buy digital-only consoles. Don't buy a digital game when a physical copy exists. Buy from your local video game store instead of Amazon.

[brainrotdotorg]

im unsure if you accept music analysises however. i have old gay people on the mind

this is a two parter bc one pair of songs is harrykim and the other i think could be seen as a skills and an introspection of harry's gender (and all four songs come from 35mm the musical!!!! its a musical of disjointed songs (with the exception of pairs like these ones) inspired by a photographer's exhibit. you should check it out, the ballad of sara berry and leave luanne SLAP :3)

harry kim is first. this pair refers to 'make me happy' and 'seraph'. in terms of listening order i would say 'seraph' comes first as make me happy is presented as a jokey domestic song with soft undertones? and seraph is fucking full of harry's deification of kim.

the song starts with the singer saying a 'devil' came and took him buy the hand. this could be interpreted as present harry resenting past harry, but i wasn't entirely sure.

then a 'seraph' comes into the picture and thinks the singer has 'some kind of soul to keep'. sunrise parabellum. kim's halo. you get the gist.

now where it starts to get tender is when the singer says 'Wise and cool and clear and human in disguise'. the mention of 'cool' goes back to 'how did you get so cool kim', which could be seen as a poignant deification moment (and a very cute one) but 'human in disguise' tells us harry has started to move on from that.

after that is the verse that makes me tear up.

I don't believe in God. I think Jesus was just a man But with you in my life, I feel part of some heavenly plan You've shown me there is faith without fear or regret; You are a love as close to Heaven as I'll get

now harry has made significant progress in moving on from dora. i don't think he ever completely will, but here is hope that he can remove her from dolores and just... let her be a woman. his complicated ex-wife, but also just a woman.

but now he gets to be a little bit divine! there was this wonderful analysis while harry has no formal religious alignment, he definitely deifies love (and another, sadder post about how he knows he was involved in some kind of SA incident, but can't remember what happened or who did what, so he makes himself disgusting on purpose as punishment for both possibilities :(((() but now he's a part of a heavenly plan :))) something something the infernal machine and the miracle.

and then!!!!! surprise bitch!!!

if you look at the lyrics on genius.com, both the 'sinner' and 'the saviour' start singing!!!!! kim feels the same way!!! kim calling harry his angel Does Something To Me

in the outro, the outro from makes me happy fades in with 'i know i don't deserve you, but please have faith in me... im working to be worthy...' which is a duet.

make me happy is a more upbeat song where the characters are like 'hey im a total bitch and i love that you love that'. i can see harry singing it but not kim, but mr 'now check this shit out' kitsuragi is a man of many surprises.

i have less to say because it doesn't have as many Themes but imagine them living domestically together and arguing over the little things while also feeling vunerable but determined to make this work, and grateful that the other wants it to. that's the song

also while im here my playlist gave me 'debt collector' by jhariah (another great artist) which gives me bad end, critical damage volition vibes. or rather a bad end volition and all the skills follow suit ('

We've done what we can It's out of our hands Sooner or later it comes back again )

this all RULES and ofc i accept music analyses . i wont always understand what theyre from but i do love reading them and sharing : ))

[cruelsister-moved2]

im so mixed on extraordinary attorney woo bc like getting abled characters to pretend to have intellectual disabilities is straight up vile, but the conversations they were having around intellectual disability were mostly so good. and like im really hating the romance because wyw is like this really charming character to the audience but the chemistry is sooo onesided that i like 1. dont really believe she cares about that guy and 2. as a result dont really get what he sees in her bc u dont really see her like doing anything to show she cares abt him or anything that would mean he likes being around her etc i get wanting to be like oh the autistic girl gets the normie guy every1 wants rather than the stereotypical autistic unloveable weirdo gets another autistic unloveable weirdo, but its just done so badlyyyyyyy largely bc of the fact its an abled person doing an autistic impression 😭 theres no real sense of like how autistic people show our affection theres just her telling him she likes him and then continuing to not really seem like she does................. it literally feels for any NT ppl watching like an advert for NOT dating an autistic person bc itll just be you acting like their carer all the time and them basically ignoring you & your feelings its so weirddd i also feel like they didnt really try and write like an autistic character’s romantic life, they just tried to do like standard romcom office romance and then throw their autistic character into it u_u like the romance is so offputting to me n its frustrating bc the idea of an autistic woman being shown as lovable and desirable is so great but it falls so flat that its kinda worse than if they didnt do it -_-

[mercy-burning]

Move This Along

Part of Mercy’s 1k Celebration: A collection of Spencer Reid x Reader requests to celebrate 1,000 followers.

Pairing: Spencer Reid x fem!Reader Summary: After months of waiting, Spencer decides he finally wants to have sex with Reader. Category: SMUT (18+) Warnings: Language, sex (oral sex- female receiving, virgin!Spence, penetrative sex, unprotected sex, creampie) Word Count: 5.6k

Full Request: “...so a smutty oneshot with like virgin!spencer but im talkling like baby spence. and hes super blushy and cute but then when it happens its rlly raunchy and therws a lot of dirty talk. and like reader doesnt work at the bau but theyre close friends. and like she goes out to a bar with him and the team and they tease him so then she takes him home and literally fucks him after a movie or smth idk...” — @mggscumrag

MASTERLIST | 1K MASTERLIST

NOTE: It took me forever to figure out how I wanted to do this, but once I did, it came out so quickly! I hope it’s to your liking 🥰

***

The first time she went out to meet Elle's friends from work, Y/N found herself absolutely nervous, and she wasn't sure why. She was always great with meeting new people, but for some reason, the prospect of meeting her next-door neighbor's co-workers seemed to really do a number on her.

She remembers how anxious she'd been, constantly worrying that they wouldn't like her, not to mention they were all probably super smart and strong and intimidating, just like Elle. Anyone who aided in putting away serial killers, rapists, and other monsters had to be just about the most intimidating personality there ever was.

But as Y/N soon learned, that wasn't quite the case at all.

To be fair, they were all intimidating in their own little ways, though it was really easy to forget about that when she was laughing with them, sharing drinks and stories, and exchanging phone numbers to stay in touch.

That's how she and Spencer had come to be good friends. Despite how obviously shy he was whenever they saw each other, the two of them managed to have conversations on just about everything. It usually happened that he talked and she listened to whatever he was teaching her, but she'd always add on the occasional, "Wow, I didn't know that," or "That's really fascinating." All of which she could tell he was surprised at and appreciated.

And since the first time they met at Elle's birthday party, the night she met the whole team for the first time, they'd been practically inseparable. While Y/N was good friends with the whole team, save for Gideon, who always seemed to like it better by himself, her relationship with Spencer seemed to even surpass the bond she'd built with her neighbor-slash-best friend.

Elle even told her as much one Saturday night, as the two of them were driving to the bar to meet up with everyone for a few drinks.

She'd mentioned it as a joke, but Y/N was instantly apologetic.

Elle only laughed. "Don't apologize. Actually, I think it's good that Reid has another friend outside of work. You're good for him. And you know, I think he has a little crush on you."

Warmth rushed to Y/N's cheeks, and she tried to hide it but failed miserably, causing Elle to give her a knowing smile. "Y—You don't know what you're talking about, Elle, it's not like that."

"Oh come on, it totally is. You give him the light of day when no one else does, he talks about you all the time, and everyone at work knows it."

She paused. "They... do?"

"Of course they do, we're all profilers, but it doesn't take one to see how obsessed that boy is with you. I think you should go for it."

Y/N would have been lying if she said she hadn't thought about asking him out. But in the end she had always figured it was a little weird, being that she was friends with all his and Elle's co-workers and she'd kinda been adopted into their family of sorts. But hearing what her neighbor was saying... She started to think differently about it.

"You really think so?"

Elle nodded. "Absolutely."'

"Okay," she replied with an excited smile. "Maybe I will, then."

A week later and the two of them started dating. Y/N always thinks back to the first few weeks of their relationship, how adorably shy and blush-prone Spencer was, even after they'd been together for some time. They spent almost all their free time together, and it still seemed like he was nervous to be around her. He'd assured her on multiple occasions that that wasn't the case, but Y/N still wondered why he hadn't fully warmed up to being around her.

Especially in public. Oh, in public it was worse. Y/N clung to his arm, and his face immediately got red. What confused her the most, though, was that every time she pulled away to make him more comfortable, he pulled her back in, seemingly desperate to feel her warmth.

In the end she and Spencer had grown to develop their own little communication system for public settings, something to let the other know when something was really wrong, and when to ask if the other was comfortable.

One night everyone was meeting after a rough case somewhere in Denver, and Y/N offered to buy everyone drinks once Spencer had called to tell her they were all back. It wasn't out of the ordinary for her to do that, but it had been a while, so everyone was quick to except. Well, mostly everyone— Gideon as per usual went his separate way, and Hotch was eager to get home and see his family.

Y/N was waiting for them at their favorite bar downtown when she heard a loud squeal that sounded a lot like her name. Sure enough, it was easy to spot a very yellow-clad Penelope Garcia headed straight towards her with her arms stretched out for a hug when she turned around. The smile she adorned was instantaneous as her arms came out a well, embracing Penelope with a large hug that almost knocked the wind out of her.

"I missed you!" she exclaimed, still hugging Y/N and swaying them back and forth a little. "I mean, I know I don't ever travel with the team, but because of that we should hang out more."

"Next time I need some company, I know who to call."

Y/N spotted Spencer then, behind Penelope and patiently waiting for a greeting. She smiled at him and whispered, "Hi," to which Penelope must have heard.

She quickly released her from their embrace and stepped out of the way. "Oh! I'm sorry, I'm keeping you from your boy wonder."

She laughed as she transferred from Penelope's arms to Spencer's. He muttered a little, "Hi," into her hair as she squeezed him and shoved her face into his neck. If she had to bet, he was probably red as a tomato right now with how close her mouth was to his neck—it was his weakness and she knew it. And just to tease him a little bit she quickly kissed up his neck, his jaw, and placed a decent peck on his lips before pulling away and grabbing his hand.

Despite the shy smile and the blush adorning his cheeks, he squeezed her hand tight and kept her at his side like they would die if they weren't touching at all times.

Everyone gave little greetings to Y/N as they all made their way to a large booth near the back. Y/N was sitting on one side with Elle to her right and Spencer to her left, while Derek, Penelope, and JJ sat across from them. Y/N got them all their preferred drinks, and a beer for herself, which Spencer couldn't help but find oddly attractive.

He glanced over at her as she took swigs from the bottle as the night progressed, and for whatever reason the sight made his insides all warm and tingly. And when she used her unoccupied hand to grab his under the table, rubbing gentle circles over the inside of his palm with her thumb, he'd never felt more in love with another person. He wasn't even drinking any alcohol, yet his head swam and his heart soared all the same, every bone in his body humming with euphoria at just the mere thought of her.

He must have been staring a little too obviously, because Derek kicked his leg under the table, pulling him from the lovesick daydream he never wanted to leave.

"I can't tell if those are cute ol' puppy dog eyes or bedroom eyes," Derek laughed, and everyone laughed right alongside him.

"Oh, stop it," Penelope said, swatting his arm. "He's obviously just very in love with her, what more could you need to know?"

"Oh, come on, tell me you're not curious to know how they... operate."

She smacked him harder this time, and everyone laughed.

Knowing her boyfriend didn't really care for the spotlight, especially when it came to their relationship, Y/N squeezed Spencer's hand under the table in reassurance. She drew a question mark in his palm, their signal for, "Are you uncomfortable?" And he responded by drawing an "X" in her palm, their answer for, "No." She laced their fingers together then, and set her beer down.

"Morgan, our sex life isn't any of your business," she stated simply.

Spencer felt his stomach churn at the sentence, if only because said sex life was, as of late, non-existent.

He and Y/N had made out a lot, sure, but the one time they did try having sex, he made it about ten seconds being inside of her before he finished, and since then he'd been kind of embarrassed about it. They only ever made out since then, because before it ever got that far he stopped it, nervous that he'd disappoint her.

And now his non-existent sex life was the topic of conversation, and if anyone picked up on it, he would have felt worse about the whole thing.

So, he didn't stop himself from speaking. "But if you must know, it's great."

Y/N's hand tensed up in his, and she looked over at him, shock marinating in her eyes. To anyone else it would have looked like she was surprised he'd even bring it up, but he knew she was most likely more curious to know why he'd lied about it.

Their friends laughed regardless, Elle adding a curious and joking, "Care to elaborate?"

Ready to change the subject, Spencer shook his head. "Nope."

"Yeah, actually I think we're gonna head out early," Y/N added. Spencer was suddenly worried he'd made her upset, but she rubbed gentle circles into his hand that reassured him everything was okay.

He got out of the booth and Y/N followed, as their friends grumbled.

"Oh, come on, we didn't mean to embarrass you guys," Derek said.

"No, that's not it," Y/N said as she threw on a light jacket. "You just reminded me how much I'd like to operate with my boyfriend since I haven't seen him in a few days, so we're leaving. Have a good night."

Spencer felt searing heat rise to his cheeks as he turned around and ushered Y/N out the door, accompanied by low whistles and claps from their friends.

***

The two of them were sitting on the couch now, Y/N having just set down a couple classes of water.

"Sorry if you wanted to stay," she said quietly, playing with her thumbs. "You know we don't... actually have to operate if you don't want, obviously, I was just looking for something to say..."

"Oh, Y/N, I know. Don't worry about it. Really, I... I was the one who even brought it up, I should have just let you handle it."

She looked up at him with a small smile. "Why.. did you bring it up anyway?"

"Well, I... I guess I just felt embarrassed. And I know what we do together isn't any of their business, but I was just... I really was thinking about how much I love you, and when Morgan brought it up, I felt like I wasn't... living up? To your expectations? I don't..." He sighed, unsure how to properly articulate how he was feeling. "I don't know. I just thought about the last time we tried having sex, and I felt embarrassed about it, that's all."

"Oh, honey," Y/N cooed, scooting closer to him and bringing her hand up to brush some of the hair from his face. "You know, you... don't have anything to prove, right? I know how much you love me, and you don't need to be having sex with me to show me, I hope you know that."

Still, he couldn't bring himself to look at her face. "I do," he choked out, pulling at the hem of his shirt. "I'm... I'm sorry."

Y/N's tongue clicked, and she leaned into him, wrapping one of her arms around his neck and placing the other across his lap. She held him tight and kissed the side of his head. "Don't you ever be sorry, unless you cheat on me. Then there will be something to be sorry about."

He laughed at her joke, turning his head to brush his nose against hers. "I love you."

"I love you, too," she whispered, giving him the lightest of kisses on the lips.

When she pulled away, he leaned in again, kissing her a little harder, and she gladly reciprocated. With every passing second, all of his worries started to melt away like the snow to her sunshine. Within every kiss was an emanation of outpouring love and comfort that warmed his soul and gave him the confidence to try something bold.

His hands threaded through her hair as he drew her in closer, and instinctively, she climbed over his lap, resting her hands on his shoulders as he gently probed her mouth with his tongue. The sound of her sigh as she opened up to him and allowed him to fully explore her mouth with his made his stomach bubble and tense.

This would be about the time where he'd stop, telling Y/N that they should slow down, and she'd sweetly oblige and stay cuddled into his side as they drifted off to sleep.

But tonight he didn't want that.

Tonight he wanted more.

While one of his hands remained in her hair, gently massaging her scalp, the other snaked down to her lower back. He gently slid his fingers under the fabric of her shirt and pressed his palm flat against her, pulling her closer to him with a desperation that both shocked and excited her.

Deciding to test the waters, Y/N rolled her hips, feeling him jump slightly underneath her, followed by a whine that vibrated her mouth and sent a low hum of pressure through her stomach.

Still, she pulled away.

Well... She tried to.

When she pulled her face away from him, Spencer used the hand in her hair to bring her back, tilting his head in the other direction and continuing to kiss her with enough passion for the both of them. And it didn't help that the sound she made when he did it spurred him on. She whimpered loudly into his mouth, and the hand on her back involuntarily slid down to grab her ass.

"Hey," she managed to get out when he pulled away momentarily for air. "Hey, you don't... We don't have to really do this if you don't want. I—I don't want you to think that what happened earlier means we have to have sex."

"Y/N..." His hand gently kneaded her ass, and against her better judgement, she rolled her hips again, sighing out against his lips. "I don't want to put it off any longer... Really, I... I want to. I want to show you how much I love you."

She kissed him softly again, bringing both of her hands up to cradle his face. "You already do. Every day."

She was giving him an out, and Spencer appreciated it. But with the way his insides were practically melting away at her presence, he knew more than anything that this was what he wanted.

"I know," he said. "But if you don't mind, today I'd like to show you a little extra." And then he kissed her deeply again.

Her hands tightened on his face, right before they slid up and through his hair. She gently tugged at it, and he let out one of the most delicious sounds she'd ever heard. For future reference, she relished in that sound, in that feeling, and made a mental note to try it out some more when they got further along in their sexual path.

But tonight, she would let him call the shots. He was finally ready to try it again, and seeing how confident he grew in his touches and kisses when she submitted to him, it was the simplest decision.

So she remained on his lap until he made another move, encouraging him with whimpers and languid rolls of her hips against his. Her hands grew frenzied in his hair when he dipped his hand past the waistband of her jeans and underwear, sticking his fingers in only about a knuckle deep. The warmth of his hands against her bare skin sent shivers down her spine, which she let show by involuntarily grinding down on his lap.

Spencer groaned deeply more than whined this time, his grip on her hands gripping tighter to her backside. He forced himself to remove his mouth from hers long enough to breathe out, "Bedroom. Please."

As much as Y/N didn't want to get off of his lap, she knew that what waited for her in the bedroom would be worth the momentary loss of complete physical contact. So she peeled herself away from her boyfriend, grabbing him by the hand, and lead him to her bedroom.

Once the door was closed, he was on her again, caging her face between his large hands and capturing her lips in another heated kiss. They moved backwards until she hit her back against the door, and the second their movement stopped, Spencer used their standing position to press his full body weight into her, their legs tangling together.

Meanwhile, Y/N was trying to figure out where to put her hands. She wanted to brace them on his chest, but it was pressed tightly against hers. So they wandered over his back, but she couldn't decide whether to place them under his shirt or on his butt. Or maybe she wanted to grip his arms to feel the veins as they strained against his skin from holding her face. The possibilities were quite endless.

So endless that they were even surprising—Spencer noticed her wandering hands and promptly decided to place them where he wanted, which was apparently above her head. He removed his hands from her face and pinned her wrists to the door above her head, and she huffed a breath as he pulled away to speak.

"Is this okay? I wasn't too... too rough?"

The concern swimming in his lust-filled eyes drew a little whimper from her throat as she struggled to find the right words. But finally, she settled on, "That was so fucking hot..."

Relief flashed over his gaze right before he grinned. His fingers flexed against her wrists, and even though she couldn't see them, she could imagine how it looked. And it really was fucking hot.

Seeing the expression on her face, Spencer leaned forward again and kissed her one last time. Their lips moved together hungrily, dancing in perfect synchronization, the music being the frantic beating of their hearts.

And then he started to trail his kisses down her jaw and neck, keeping her hands firmly pinned to the door. Usually she was the one to explore his neck with her tongue and teeth, but this time he wanted to try it for himself. Mirroring what he'd felt her do to him hundreds of times over, he soaked in every single sound she made, from the little whimpers of pleasure to the soft, choked whispers of his name dancing over her lips. And when her hips canted forward, searching for any kind of friction, he decided to grant it to her.

As his kisses moved down along her collarbone, his hands gently slid down with him, over her arms and then down to the bottom of her shirt as he kneeled in front of her. He lifted the shirt slowly, each new inch of exposed skin being met with soft kisses until it reached her breasts. He reached up to palm them over her bra while he trailed his kisses downward again.

Even though she was wearing jeans, he pressed kisses to her legs anyway. She squirmed under his touch, and the feeling made his heart soar.

"Please, Spence," she huffed, bringing her hands down to lay overtop of his. She felt the tendons and veins in his hands as they squeezed her, and with everything she had, she tried not to beg him to use them in more interesting places. She wanted to let him take his time, to be a vessel for his exploration, but it was growing harder every second to be patient.

Thankfully he seemed to get what she was feeling, because his hands slid out from under her shirt and rested at her jeans. "Can I take these off?"

The fact that he even asked when she so clearly begged him to do it made her heart swell. "Please do," she chuckled, though it turned into a choked sigh when his fingers actually started undoing the button. And at the sound of her zipper going down, she could have come undone right there.

He pulled her jeans down slowly and helped her step out of them. And she thought maybe he'd take the next step and do the same with her underwear, but he opted to use his mouth instead.

With gentle kisses, he traced the hem of the fabric all the way to either side of her waist. And then he looked up at her with curious eyes and shifted his face, pressing his nose right up against where her clit would be. Her hands immediately went to his hair, but he grabbed her wrists again and laid them at her sides. "Do you want me to move this along?" His voice wasn't teasing as much as it was genuine curiosity.

Still, Y/N resisted the urge to tell him yes. "I—I want you to do whatever feels right. Tonight's... about you. What you want."

"Well, what I want is to make you feel good. So, again... Do you want me to move this along?"

Every time his lips moved, they brushed up against where she desperately wanted him. And it was killing her. So, she nodded vigorously. "Yes, please," she whispered.

And with that, Spencer released her hands and used his fingers to gently rub her over the fabric. The contact made her shiver visibly, and he took that as a good sign. So he wasted no more time and replaced his fingers with his tongue, fluttering his eyes closed at the taste of her. And he knew that once the thin fabric was gone it would be stronger, but even then he was thoroughly wrecked.

He kept lapping his tongue over her, feeling her panties get wetter with ever second, and he only finally removed them when she started grinding her hips closer to his face, desperate for more.

When he did finally bring his tongue to fully taste her for the first time, they both let out the filthiest sounds, months and months of build-up starting to come to a head. He tasted her like he would an ice cream cone, and for the first few moments his eyes remained closed, all his focus on this brand new sensation. But he wanted nothing more than to see her react to him. So he opened his eyes and continued his ministrations, pupils blowing wide at the sight of her above him.

She was panting, her mouth hung open and her tongue just barely peeking out over her bottom lip. Her eyes remained shut, though Spencer could tell she was struggling to open them. With a tentative flick of his tongue over her clit, he took notice of the little gasp she made, and he knew he'd found it. So he repeated his action, providing small kitten licks to her clit as she picked up her breathing and clenched her hands at her sides.

He picked up the pace then, taking note of every little thing that made her cry out or jump with pleasure until she was clutching his hair. He was sucking on her clit now, his middle finger gently sliding in and out of her when she spoke.

"Oh, fuck, keep doing that. I'm... I'm almost..."

He felt her tighten around his finger as she started careening off the edge, and he did his best to keep his eyes on her face, because it had practically been haunting him, wondering what it would be like to see her come undone at his mercy.

To say it was better than he could have ever dreamed was a severe understatement.

Y/N's head leaned back against the door, her chin jutted out so he could see the beautiful contours of her chin and neck. He saw her throat contract as she moaned out his name, saw her chest heave as she struggled to catch her breath, and best of all, he felt her flutter around his finger and mouth. And if that was high inducing, he couldn't wait to feel wat it would be like to replace them with something else.

The mere thought had him trembling.

He pulled back when she huffed out an over-stimulated, "Okay, please, please stop, oh..."

Though it could just as easily have been a painful sentiment, the hungry, dazed look in her eye suggested otherwise.

Spencer stood up and brought his finger to his mouth, still caught up in her taste before she ripped his wrist away and kissed him, threading her fingers through his hair and moaning into his mouth.

Before he could get lost in it, though, she pulled away and nodded. "Okay. I think you're wearing too many clothes."

He tilted his head down in a little flush, and with the help of Y/N, his shirt peeled away from his body and joined her pants and underwear on the floor.

Y/N mirrored his actions, kissing gently down his jaw, neck, and then down his torso. Her hands wandered his bare back as she sunk to her knees. But when her hands moved to his belt, he stopped her.

"W—wait."

She peeled her hands away and looked up at him. "Are you okay? Do you want to slow down?"

He visibly swallowed, and she could read that look on his face that he got whenever he was embarrassed to tell her something. "N—no, I... I want... the opposite, actually."

"I don't follow..."

"Well, I know that... if you return the favor, I won't last very long, a—and I... I don't want to wait anymore."

Y/N smiled, standing again and bringing her hands to rest on his shoulders. "So you're saying you... want me to move this along?"

Spencer smiled at her recollection of his words. "Yes, please."

They travelled to the bed then, Y/N taking off her shirt and bra when they got there, and leaving her completely bare to him. She sat down and reached for his belt, looking up at him as he stood.

"I'm clean and on birth control, do you still want to use a condom? I have some in my table drawer."

He thought about it for a moment before shaking his head. "As long as you're sure."

Y/N undid his belt quickly and threw it to the side, making work of his button and zipper with a smile. "Oh I'm so sure..."

The way she said it made his dick twitch, images running through his mind of how it would look seeing her filled and dripping with—

Her hand was palming him through his underwear now, and it was all he could think about. He had already been hard before, but now it was tilting on the precipice of painful pleasure. So he stopped her, taking a deep breath.

"Lay down?"

"However you want me," Y/N answered, positioning herself on the bed so she was leaning back, her head nicely laid out on the pillows.

Spencer swallowed and removed his underwear before climbing on the bed and kneeling over her. Her legs were already wide, feet flat on either side of him as he positioned himself and got ready.

She reached out and gently grabbed his forearm, a gentle smile on her face. "You ready?"

"Mhm," he answered with a curt nod, bringing himself forward to run the head of his dick through her wetness. They both sighed at the feeling, and Spencer knew he was in trouble.

It was finally happening, he was getting another chance to have sex with her, and if he didn't last long again, he was going to—

"I love you," Y/N said reassuringly, rubbing circles into the hand that rested on the inside of her thigh.

He looked into her eyes and saw that love radiating from them. It warmed his insides and gave him the confidence he needed to finally, slowly push into her as he whispered, "I love you, too."

Once he was fully sheathed inside her, he let out a large breath, leaning down to brace his arms on either side of her head. The pressure of her clenched around him was overwhelming in the best way possible, and he never wanted to move.

But he had to.

She stroked his hair, pressing soft kisses all over his face, and whispered, "I love you."

With those three words, Spencer had the courage to pull back and then forward again, testing the waters and more accurately, his limits. He picked up a slow pace that burned him from the inside out, every muscle and vein in his body on fire with the knowledge that he was finally, properly making love to the woman he was pretty sure he wanted to spend the rest of his life with.

But he was holding back. Y/N could tell. He glided through her with ease, sure, but his eyes were squeezed shut like he was concentrating, like he was pacing himself and trying to hold on to this feeling.

She moved her hands down to his back and lightly ran her fingernails over the skin, feeling him tremble under her touch.

"You feel so good, Spence," she whispered. "So perfect for me..."

The words made his hips stutter just a little, and Y/N knew then what the hesitation was.

He wanted to go faster.

So she moved her fingers lower, cupping his ass and scratching featherlight circles into the skin as she moaned. "You like when I talk to you, baby? Does hearing my voice help you out?"

Spencer choked out a groan as he opened his eyes and saw how feral she looked. Her pupils were blown wide, her mouth was pouted cutely, and she smiled as soon as she saw him bite his lip.

"You wanna go faster?" she cooed, digging her fingernails a little harder into the flesh of his ass. "Hmm?"

"F—fuck, Y/N... I..."

"You fuck me however you need to, baby. Don't hold back. Just let it all out."

He groaned out then, his hips picking up speed. She felt the relief and the tension rolling off his body as he finally gave into his urges, and it was just about the sexiest thing she'd ever witnessed.

"That's it, baby... Don't stop... Give it to me, let me feel you..."

He leaned down and kissed her then, pumping into her harder and harder with every second. She moaned out against his mouth, swallowing all his breaths and grunts. Meanwhile her fingers gripped his ass harder, relishing in the feeling of his muscles as they aided in fucking her.

His mouth pulled away as he shoved his face into her neck, and she sighed. "You're doing so good, baby. Fuck... " His hips kept moving, and she clenched around him hard, hoping to gauge his reaction.

Sure enough, he groaned against her neck and canted his hips harder. Every thrust forward now was so deep he hit her g-spot, and the sensation made her sigh with a smile. "That's fucking right, baby... Just like that, don't stop, don't stop. You fe—el so... ohhh."

Her words lit this fire in him that was impossible to put out. His body was hers for the taking, and so he'd give her everything he had. Which is why he picked up the pace and fucked into her as hard as he could, dangerously close to finishing.

"Fuck, Spence, I'm gonna... —na..."

Y/n's moans turned into a quiet scream as she came, clenching tightly around his dick and digging her fingernails into his ass. Her eyes squeezed shut with the swirling patterns of fireworks exploding behind them, meanwhile he twitched inside of her and lost it at last. As she came down, she helped him hold himself there, deep inside her as his cum spilled over in warm increments. They both moaned out at the feeling, all their tension easing and dissipating.

By the end, all that was left between the both of them was a thin sheen of sweat and murmured promises of "I love you."

They could have fallen asleep right there. Y/N's hands slid up his backside, over his arms, and then to the back of his head, combing gently through his disheveled hair as he pressed loving kisses to the patch of skin where her neck met her collarbone. He was still inside her, unwilling to leave the warmth she provided, and she did nothing to object.

"How are you feeling?" she finally asked, opening her eyes.

Spencer tilted his head up to look at her, his heart once again swelling at the adoring look in her eyes. "I'm great."

She laughed, and he laughed with her. And they were silent for a few moments before he spoke again.

"So, uh... What we just did is what we're counting as our real first time together, right? Like, the other time doesn't count?"

Y/N laughed again, pressing a kiss to his forehead. "If you want to count this as our first time, then yes. I'd be more than happy to agree with you."

"Good. This was much better."

Even though she would never hold their first first time together against him, she was inclined to agree.

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Can you write how the mers are when they play lego. This is so random. (Bonus: can you also write how they react when miss pauling walks into them happily playing with lego lol)

Lol ya i wanna build lego too i want some. I'll write a few of em for ya buddo

Scout

-- Of course he'd be playing with lego, he loves the colour of them and always wants to play with them, builds the most obscure shit but regardless will be so proud of them always.

-- He tries to get more people to build with him, but if they all say no he's not gonna pout (for an hour) then try again to find someone to play with him and build all sorts of forts.

-- Will blow hundreds of dollars to buy the huge builds, no you cannot convince me he wouldn't be like screaming in excitement when they pull out a new giant build set.

-- He has a lot of figures hanging in his room, or on a shelf, his whole room is full of it.

-- As for having Ms. Pauling come in, he just stares in silence at her, just complete shock as to being found out that he plays lego, then just silently ask if she wants to join lmao

Engie

-- Obviously the man plays with legos, there is no doubt in my mind he doesn't. He likes to make little contraptions with it and will make the most gorgeous builds.

-- He is the best builder and had built all the things you could ever imagine, the man makes a whole town with lego sets and is so pleased whenever someone compliments it

-- No, no one is allowed to touch anything he has built. Demo broke his build once and he has never recovered from the pain of losing those hours upon hours of work.

-- He totally buys all the bulk sets online, buys specific pieces he needs and has all sorts of rare blocks that he never uses because theyre just so special to him

Pyro

-- They only have the special sets. Only those. Doesn't matter if it's for the kids or something they only have those and get so happy when Engie brings them a new little set after buying the huge ones.

-- They would totally draw about things they built and "blueprints" that they hang up on the wall and then put the build next to it. Has made a giant balloonicorn out of lego and it's one of their prized possession and will light anyone on fire that even looks at it

-- Shows their little builds to everyone, collects the little animal pieces and plays with them on their own sometimes. Even might let Scout borrow some stuff to build to let him have someone to build with.

-- Gifting them a giant build? Immediately their best friend ever and will force whoever gave it to them to build it together, thats what friends do ofc <3

[heyitsyn]

Keeping Up With Seijoh Pt. 10

a/n: based on this post uwu

okayokayokayyeyyy

LOOOK I LOVE THIS SCENE LIKE I CAN GO ON A RANT OF HOW IMPORTANT THIS SCENE IS LIKE SKDJSLDKKSSM

okay so

yuhhhhhh

the way this is set up is basically seijoh simping for you

also they have their own separate gc just for them bc they dont want you to see them just simping for you

even tho oiks ltr does that everyday

but hes not ready for that conversation

there was a few times that you were kinda curious as to what was in the chat

but they would click off and they would blush before diverting you to a different conversation

this might sound hella weird and creepy

idk bout yall but i think its cute that they take random pictures of you doing the sinplest things

this all started bc of one picture

from baby aki-kun

so basically you stayed behind with kunimi during monday to just study and you sat in front of him while sharing his desk

babie took a pic of you just studying and he sent it to the gc with no context

its a known fact that seijoh doesnt practice during mondays so they were all doing something out of school

but they were all missing you so seeing you with kunimi fueled jealousy in everyone

even kyo

oikawa blew up in the chat and was keyboard smashing

the others were just teasing him like hes lucky youre with him

but behind the screen, they were blushing and red and envious and AAAAA

thus spurred on some sort of competition

like they would send the chat pictures of you like 'hA TAKE THAT SHES WITH ME'

unbeknowst to you, these boys have folders of just cute candid pics of you

oikawas insta is filled of you and his snap is full of you in his story and his tiktok is full of screaming simp rants about you

the tiktok comments are all like, 

‘IS SHE YOUR GIRLFRIEND?!’

‘OIKAWA-SAN SHES ADORABLE’

‘BACK🤺OFF🤺OIKAWA🤺I🤺CALLED🤺DIBS🤺ON🤺HER🤺FIRST🤺‘

random ones like him doing a day in my life type of vids and you appearing and everyone can just see the small blush on his face and the bashful yet happy smile on his lips

its really adorable

but the real ones know that shes been appearing in his insta since day 1

moilk.bread.1

thats practically your account now 

welll,,,

its more of a fan account for you and a lot of people from aoba johsai follow that account since you dont have an official one yet so they all simp for you there

the pictures were all from everyone like the boyz group chat was a haven for your candids

you did think it was strange that the boys would constantly ask to take pictures with you and everyone was just trying to get a pic to have aesthetic couple pics w you

and they would put it as their wallpaper or lockscreen

IMAGINE THE BLUSH THEY WOULD GET WHEN COMPLETE STRANGERS WOULD ASK THEM IF THATS THEIR GIRLFRIEND

oooo i mentioned this in the post too that iwa and you went to the gym and you guys took a mirror pic

after, you didnt really like the gym bc its just hard yanno?

iwa went back and while he was setting up his weights and equipments, his gym buddy noticed his phone light up causing your picture to show up

'oh? is that your girlfriend, iwaizumi?'

duh he doesnt have a girlfriend so he was like 🤨 until he saw his phone

the lockscreen was blaringly bright and your 'couple pic' was showing with the notifications

totally not oikawa blowing up their group chat bc he was with you

ofc babie hajime got all flustered and he blushed before shaking his head

'n-no'

he mumbled and his buddy laughed before clapping his back

'well, you obviously like her so do somethinf about it before someone does'

dont you think he doesnt know that?

also with mattsun!

this mans works in a cute cafe that this old granny owns and this thought has been living in my head rent free

and he was working during the weekend at the cafe

there were other people there but granny loves him bc hes been working there sibce he was like 15 and she took care of him a lot

he was like a grandson

so while he was serving, this granny was manning the cashier and checking people out

issei's phone was there on the table behind the counter and it started glowing at the indication of the messages being received

'have a nice day-oh!'

she noticed it right there and she saw the picture on his lockscreen

you were probably being carried by him due to your levelness with his height and you were kissing his cheek while issei smiled brightly

that was a picture you both took during an outing at the mall and the sunset behind you was just perfect to take a picture in

poor granny was like 'oop dont look at the messages' so she turned it over to not go to his privacy

there again you were

it was a polaroid of you two and he was backhugging you at school

hint? 👀

askldfjlsdkf

she knew issei was a very handsome young man so there shouldnt have been a surprise that he would be dating someone

can we name this granny?

granny inko lol

okay so granny inko saw issei coming over to rest the serving board thing and she beckoned him over

mattsun nodded and leaned over the counter to see what she wanted only to be greeted with a flick to the forehead

‘oW what was that for?’

he whined while holding the spot

granny inko tutted disapprovingly before crossing her arms

‘youve been working all week this week when you could’ve taken time off to spend it with your pretty lady. is this how men are nowadays? didn’t i teach you right to treat women properly?’

duh baby mattsun was confused like O_O

‘wha?’

his dumb question made her grab the phone and place it on the counter in front of him

‘your girlfriend, child. women need attention constantly and as much as you want that money, is it worth losing that smile full of happiness?’

okay stop it granny im getting emotional

more like disagreeing bc that wouldnt put food on the table BUT ANYWAYS

baby issei was surprisingly embarassed and scratched his neck

‘um,, baa-chan,,,,, she’s not my girlfriend’

he flustered and gave her an awkward smile

granny inko shot him a confused look and tapped the phone

‘well, she looks like she is. and if not, better hurry your move, boy. girls that make men happy like that only comes as rare as a good scratch ticket’

LMAO 

i do not encourage gambling so please save your money kids

you know what

these boys do that just to actually feel like it

okay thats confusing so imma explain it in greater detail

whenever someone mistakes you as their girlfriend, it makes them feel like you are for that split second and its just an addicting feeling

its like what if you were their girlfriend?

i mean, youre already the whole team’s girlfriend but theyre greedy brats and just want you for themselves

ohohohohoh

kyo!!

kyo def has a selfie of you both with the doggie filter but it was actually you who took it while he was just staring at you in the background

that was his lockscreen for like the rest of his high school career

lol

anyways!!

he was actually in a fight and during it, his phone fell off to the ground and conveniently oikawa messaged causing it to light up

one of the thugs had their hands gripping kyo’s collar and was pushing him against the wall while the others were surrounding them

they saw the phone flash and kyo cursed at the terrible timing and he made a mental note on killing oikawa later

a guy picked it up and he smirked, seeing the pretty smile of a pretty girl

‘heh? whats this?’

kyotani pushed the guy who was holding him but other two surged towards him and held him tighter

their leader snatched the device and chuckled

‘oh. its that bitch from his school. what is it’

he snaps his fingers as he tries to remember before stopping

‘aha! l/n y/n!’

kyo growled

‘shut up!’

the guy grinned at him and tapped the phone against kyo’s chin

‘oh yea. i heard shes a cutie. most people here know her, kid. now we know shes connected to you and guess what. you cross us again, she’ll take your place as you are right now. orrrr, we can,,, use her as our pet. thats how she is in your team, right? so let us have a turn. maybe we can send you a pic, hm?’

yea no that wasnt happening

kyotani easily beat those people up after because even just saying that unleashes power he didnt know he had

‘bastard. youre lucky this is just a warning. you touch her and i will kill you’

he landed one last kick on the guy’s face before taking the phone and leaving

now he has to figure out how to hide the bruises

you fussed later and he didnt tell you the reason instead just saying they said something that made him angry

nah

you were a person he didnt want to disappoint and he knows how much it hurts you to see him in that state

that was one of the things he hated but loved at the same time

you were such an empath that you would treat him and wince as if you were the one feeling the pain instead of him

and it made him feel special

you were one of the few things he holds close and he would be damned if anything happened to you because of him

the group chat was actually just blowing up with more screaming and the third years yelling at each other with the first years just casually reading the texts

they were used to the arguments within the team and you would remain so naive with the whole thing

kunimi is the type to keep silent and he didnt really care about anyone getting angry if you were spending time with him

but he does get annoyed if you were with kindaichi because you three were a package lol

like when kindaichi and you were at the arcade, this kid walked all the way there just because he didnt want kindaichi to hog you to himself

duh you thought this was adorable and endearing bc they wanted to hang out w you

no LUV theyre greedy brats who gets jealous over yOU

OH

so like i mentioned before that you and makki would walk over to the bakery and you guys would buy food there and such

and its also canon in here that makki only shares his food with you and no one else lol

why?

because when you eat the puffs, you put one in each cheek and it makes you look so adorable like a squirrel

sorry but squirrels are so cute like AAAAA

makki takes so many pictures of you and a lot are surprise shots where your eyes would be wide with cheeks full of food

aaaaa so cute

like you and makki sat down on a bench in the park across the bakery and you excitedly dug in to your own treat

makki chuckled at your excitement but he placed his hand on you arm to stop you

‘y/n-chan. say aaa’

you lit up and let him put the puff in your mouth and thought he was done but was surprised when there were two

you happily chewed it and went back to looking at your treats

but makki interrupted you again by calling you out

‘princess~’

the nickname made your eyes widen with red painting your cheeks and the shutter of the camera made you realize what he did

‘makki-senpai!’

you whined and he laughed

makki had a lovestruck smile on his face and he wiped the bit of creme on the corner of your lip

‘gotta take care of my princess~’

STOPPPPP MY HEART? GONE MY SOUL? GONE HOTEL? TRIVAGO

OH MY GOD IM IN SUCH A MAKKI AND MATTSUN AND IWA AND OIKAWA AND THIRD YEARS IN GENERAL BRAIN ROT PLEASE HELP

but we gotta give love to the second years :’)

ive mentioned that watari is the only person to ever go into your house right?

well, he comes over to cook and such so you guys spend time making food for the team 

watari takes this opportunity to take pictures of you cooking and the group chat cries bc its so domestic and they all start having the same thoughts

they really said seijoh braincells

it was like seeing a glimpse of a possible future for them

you, wearing an apron, cooking on the stove with your hair thrown in whatever with baggy clothes

gosh

thats like you someday being their wife and waking up one morning to see you there cooking in the kitchen

oikawa swears he had a dream that night because of that picture and he continuously thanks watari for YEARS because of that picture

okay are you curious about the dream?

yuhhh

oikawa woke up in an unfamiliar bed in a foreign room 

he felt his bones crack when he stretched and his hand extended out to a side that was still quite warm

hm

somebody must be sleeping next to him

then he stood up, catching his reflection in the mirror in front of the bed

;)

why would there be a mirror there hmmmm????

ANYWAYS

he noticed he had a bigger build and his hair was longer

then came the itch of the facial hair that he swore wasnt there a minute ago

this guy even checked out his butt and to his surprise, wow

obviously he was confused and a part of him thought this was the future

tooru walked to the door to go into the hallway and concluded, yep, this was not his house

then he heard music being played somewhere and a mixture of voices coming from a room

sounded like a woman and children

he stops at the top of the stairs, suddenly hit of the thought that this voice was so familiar

‘hm?’

tooru walked downstairs and stopped when down the hallway in front of the steps led to the kitchen where the voices seemed to lead to

‘mama! mama! mama! toast! i wan toast!’

‘in a bit, darling. just let me finish flipping the pancake’

the song was lo-fi with the volume being turned low enough to hear the voices fine

tooru wandered down the hallway and he stopped, finally seeing the owners of those voices

there was a handsome little boy sitting on the chair by the island and his brown hair was a mess of wild curls

there was a woman with h/c hair swaying to the tune and a beautiful little girl curled up in her arms while sitting on her hip

‘hey’

oikawa spoke out and caught everyone’s attention

‘papa’s awake!’

‘pa!’

‘hello tooru’

tooru froze

that was you

he knows it’s you

‘y/n-chan’

he whispered and you looked back at him from the pan

‘yes? if youre looking for coffee, we ran out apparently’

that was not what he was talking about

he hastily walked over to the boy and he blinked rapidly

‘you look like me’

he mumbled and the child grinned

‘eung! papa  and yozo look the same! mama and nana say so!’

yozo?

feeling like all the attention was on him, the little girl whined and her hands made grabby motions to him

‘pa pa’

she whined and tooru just felt something in him that screamed to hold the kid

you shushed the little girl

‘dont worry, looney loon. papa’s right there’

loon?

tooru stayed frozen at his spot and you raised an eyebrow at him

‘tooru? luna wants you’

oh

luna

that snapped him out of his trance and he held the little girl in his arms where she smiled at him and then he felt tears welling up in his eyes

then he woke up

okay sorry that was a long dream

so this dragged on for so long already okay

this was only meant to be small but aaaaa i couldnt help itt!!!!

but anyways!

the boys are just simps for you and theyre creeps that take pictures of you and they think about you all the time pls accept their love

also a mild continuation of the dream:

oikawa was holding luna and she was happily laying there when another figure emerged from the hallway

‘iwa-chan?’

he asked, surprised

what was he doing here?

iwa heard his name and grunted before going to a beeline for you

you smiled at him and he leaned in to give you a kiss to which oikawa froze in

iwa noticed his best friend holding his daughter and luna saw her father there

‘daddy!’

she shrieked and tooru blanched

‘uh, what?’

iwa extended his hands out to hold the girl but tooru held her tightly and leaned back

haji narrowed his eyes

‘um, give me my daughter, oikawa’

he grumbled and tooru shook his head

‘no! shes my daughter!’

you blinked

‘your god daughter, yes. but she’s half of your best friend, tooru’

half of his-

god? daughter?

‘so that means-’

‘piece it together, oikawa. did ya get brain damage or something? babe, call the doctor’

oikawa screamed

a/n: lol look WHO ROSE FROM THE GRAVEEEEEEE :) anyways. i really want to deeply apologize to everyone for taking an unexpected break and i shouldve told you guys and im really sorry :( everythings just chaotic lmao and im just like taking a breath for a second uwu and im so AMAZED at how many people still follow me even tho ive been gone for so long like bls yall are real ones :’) i love you all and the req box is still closed at this time as i need to finish the ones i have first soo thankyou for reading thiss and hopefully ill update soonerr!!! :)))

also not me completely messing up my kuws and missing 8 and 9 in my masterlist and having a mindblowing realization that i have 10 keeping up with seijoh fics

[transgenderer]

im too shy to reply with my name to prev anon, sorry

yea... eating meat is pretty ethically thorny, but there are a million reasons not to go vegan. im a "carnist" who grew up with a vegan dad and sister, and it shocks me the attitude some people have about diet. just let people eat what they eat.

this goes for vegans too, by the way, who love to point fingers at me (who can pass as vegan pretty easily, for all my knowledge and simple willingness to eat their food, lol) for mentioning eating a burger or honey.... as they regularly buy agave and quinoa. a lot of vegans are hostile and militant right out the gate, and tbh i get it, i saw my sister and dad regularly get antagonized for it, but... a lot of that is a condescending sense of moral superiority, as if their shit don't stink. i think that gets a lot of people fed up with vegans tbh

like... no matter the (moral) reason for your veganism, if you point sneer at meat eaters and still buy from supermarkets you're being, to be diplomatic, intellectually dishonest. i think veganism as a personal choice, or even philosophical or religious choice, isn't. (intellectually dishonest, i mean.) but if its for ecological or animal rights issues.... to me it seems like slapping a bandaid on a gushing artery. which is fine! we all contribute how we can. but to me, whats the point of slapping on that bandaid if it won't do anything?

besides, everything dies -- it's not the slaughtering or eating of flesh that's the issue, but the rights abuses the (human and nonhuman) animals suffer during, and the destruction of the ecosphere, and the unsustainability of it all. imo. this is why i want to learn to hunt and garden, so i can eat local and minimize both ecological impact and animal suffering

i love to sit and have these conversations with vegans, because many of them (like previous anon! very interesting ask) sit and think about these philosophical problems, a lot. and it's very engaging conversation! they have thoughtful and interesting criticism to offer, which is always welcome, especially if you're genuinely trying to do the right thing. but jeeze i get burned by shitheads looking for any excuse to feel superior to everyone around them -- and i think the vegan movement attracts such people because, lets be real, most people eat at least some meat these days. in my country 0.4% of people are vegan. makes an exclusive club.

i think vegans need to work on that tendency big time if they want more people to convert, altho multinationals arent making it easy to eat vegan

anyway sorry if this is obnoxious lol, im not intending to be but im mad high so idk. what do you think?

i dont feel like militant vegans are acting *optimally strategically*, but i do think theyre acting perfectly reasonably given pretty reasonable beliefs about the world. if you care about animal suffering basically at all, animal agriculture is totally unacceptable! so the people around you eating meat are like, sort of monsters? in which case, yeah, youre not gonna be super great and strategic abt it, youre emotional abt it. i for one care about animal suffering not at all, but especially feel very uncertain about animal suffering.

anyway, this is your only actual argument

besides, everything dies

ant its not a good one! "everything dies" is just as good an argument for murder being okay! animals do not want to be killed! (in general) to the extent that their preferences matter, killing them is wrong! and like...its fine, to say "animal preferences dont matter" but you sort of have to then believe that beating your dog is ok

idk, vegetarianism/veganism stuff is weird. i feel like most people believe on some level that eating meat is bad, but just aren't willing to make the sacrifice. which i can respect yknow. pobody's nerfect. but the argument that it's okay actually are so feeble imo (unless they go full on chadyes and say "abusing dogs is ok". which i can respect)

[fuck-customers]

Okay so like I work at a store that sells masks. We've got disposables, as well as welders R95 masks, n95s, and both types of respirators (P95 and P100) and a P100 full face respirator.

So after this long in the pandemic, I'm used to explaining the masks to people. Nobody needs a P100 full face respirator unless they're dealing w lead or asbestos. Its not gonna be better than a regular mask bc theyre A) expensive af and B) you still need to buy refills for the filters

So this lady comes up, and asks to speak with our mask expert. Im totally not gonna call someone up for that bc I think she's dumb, so I'm like yeah thats me, whats up.

She explains her son is worried abt COVID and wanted her to get him a better mask. Im a little confused bc the ""masks"" she brought up are the respirators, the regular and full face ($50-$250). I explain that no one needs these masks unless they're working w pesticides or lead/asbestos, and a regular mask is prolly going to be fine.

Then she gets upset and is like okay which one can I use to refill his current n95 mask. And I'm like ?? Maam I didn't know you could refill them, and we don't sell any.

And THEN shes like oh no they exist, I work at the hospital so I know, dont treat me like I dont know!!

Im like maam I know we don't sell them, I've worked here long enough. And she pulls one of the respirators over and is like, youre lying to me, this one says n95 and its a mask.

So I'm explaining a respirator and a mask are different and she laughs at me, and tells me again she works at the hospital and knows all about it (why she was asking me then idk) and demands to know if she can use the respirator filters with the n95 mask.

So I tell her so, bc im not sure and don't want her fucking smth up, and she doesn't believe me. So I double down w some BS like they were designed with more airflow in mind so the n95 wouldn't be effective and she goes, no that'll make it more effective.

Im getting frustrated with her bc its clear she doesn't know shit but wants me to believe she does to the point she's fucken ARGUING w me, and I've got a line up now.

So I tell her to buy the 2 cheaper ones and take it and ask her son, and bring back the ones he doesn't want. And she goes, do I really need to get both of these?? And I tell her she doesn't need either really, and she stares daggers at me, but buys both

I just, didn't get her whole issue?? Like, you work at the hospital but don't know shit, you want ur son who works to wear a respirator?? Okay lady smh