#theyre everything to meeeeee

[tothechaos]

thinking about "almost christmas means it wasnt christmas" and all it means. imagine you are phoenix. you have spent years and months trying to find this man and he has either been out of reach or has fought every step of the way. now you are the only thing standing between him and prison, and he has fought you every step of the way in some misguided attempt to protect you. you are fighting the clock, you have three days to save him, and you are running out of time. all hope seems lost.

almost.

almost. it was almost christmas. it means that it isnt over. it means you can still save him. THAT is what almost christmas means it wasnt christmas means

[feketeribizli]

another day doing my part serving you guys old man yaoi. theyre on a date <3

[tigers1o1]

tigers. thoughts on yes&no by natalie wee as a fnc coded poem

WHYYYYY WOULD YOU SAY THAT TOOOO MEEEEEE

deadass tho i was like “:0 poem! Wait a damn minute I KNOW THIS POEM YOU FUCKER”

I think part of what fucks me up about it so bad is that initially I’m like “yeah this is chips pov” but then i fucking read it again and GOD does it hurt so much more as Gillion.

Bc the poem reads in the first bit almost as someone worshipping the other, right? With the “get on your knees” and “forgiving vs violence” and i think Chip would view Gillion as the holy one, hes the chosen one, hes the one that must be worshipped, the one with the power of the seas and the sky at his hand.

BUT. Gillion is the one who knows nothing but worship. Of course he’d want to worship Chip. And he wasnt raised to love, let alone love tenderly. Hes the soldier, the one good at violence, the war-machine. The last good thing that shattered in his hands? The shell phone. Before that? He doesnt even know. Because hes never held anything gently before. Chip has at least held the coin, or ollies hand, and he doesnt break those. But gillion? Gillion was made to break those things- emotional ties, the innocents of the oversea.

The poem is Chip on its surface, but in reality i see it as Gillion and i will deadass do a one by one line analysis of that poem and talk about how it could be either of them, if yall want that

[furfag-cringelord]

did u guys know that. Meowrails

(rbs appreciated <33)

[cerealmonster15]

images that bring me peace. u simply dont understand. !!!!

[anachronistic-falsehood]

I NEED TO BE TAKEN OUT BACK AND SHOT TWICE IN THE BACK OF THE HEAD

[aa-400]

i have exactly one (1) wish for season 5 of the juno steel story and it is for nureyev to remark on juno being morally outraged again because that's what he keeps falling in love with and i love me some repeating motifs:

the case of the murderous mask:

the man in glass:

[the-sparkling-diamond-satine]

if you title this you could post the first few chapters already!!! (for the wip ask game lol)

WIP Ask Game! tw: abuse implied

But Christian isn’t looking at her face. His gaze is currently fixed on Satine’s wrist where—Satine notices as if in slow motion and with a lurch of her stomach��the sleeve of her coat has ridden up and a nasty purple bruise is on full display. Unable to adjust her sleeve with her hands full of coffee cups, Satine rotates her arm but it’s too late; the damage has been done. “Are you alright?” Christian asks, reaching for her arm. His touch is as warm as Satine remembers but she flinches back from it as if it’s scalding hot. “I’m fine.” “I’m sorry, did I hurt you?” Christian asks, searching her eyes. “Not at all,” Satine hastens to reassure him, realizing too late that she probably should have taken that excuse when it was offered to her, that flinching away from something that didn't hurt is suspicious while flinching away from something that did is reasonable. “Nothing to worry about,” Satine tries next, “just one of the hazards of live theatre. The show has a lot of lifts and I bruise easily. You’ll see tonight—the dancing is incredible,” Satine says, trying to get him back on topic of opening night.

[do-angels-dream-of-starry-seas]

Everyday I think I'm getting more normal about the gay pirates. But rn I'm making myself almost cry over imagining stede proposing to ed and I feel myself regressing in real time

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

hiii hi hi answering yr ask rn BUT as i do that. gift for uuuuu three of them. theyre so like frozen berry mix flavored 2 me? gl w the last stretch of ur shift!!! <333

AAUAGAHGHH MY BERRY FLAVORED BOYS......... GOD THEY LOOK SO CUTE IN UR STYLEEEEE I LOVE THEM SO MUCH !!!!!!!!!!

[sparklestheunicorn]

HI HI. IM NOT OKAY HI.

[microwavestim]

oh!

[artandbrimstone]

dakota!!!

you're my fuckin hero man!!!

you mean everything to me dude!!!

theyre so silly what if i just exploded

PLATONIC GHOSTKICKS YOU MEAN EEVEERYTHING TO MEEEEEE

[osarina]

CARINA I SWEAR TO GOD LET THEM BE HAPPY FOR ONCE

BUT OK THIS PART WAS SO GOOD UGH THE GUILD IS HERE WOO HOOOO !!!! I cant wait to see how theyre gonna impact the rest of the fic bc I LOVE THE GUILD SM and i cant wait to see more of them hehe ^^

AND THE ANGST BETWEEN THEM UGHHH WHY PLEASE CARINA IF THIS ENDS THE SAME WAY AS UU DID I WILL NEVER RECOVER DWBHGVHBT LIKE PLEASE ITS KILLING MEEEEEE and DAZAI IN THE HOSPITAL??? WHAT HAPPENED HELLO UGH MY BABY :(( HE DESERVES EVERYTHING UGH :((

and finally (ik this is short but i have a tonna hw ITS ONLY BEEN 2 DAYS SINCE SCHOOL STARTED WHY T^T) there was ONE DETAIL THAT I AM CURIOUS ABT basically in ur bday fic for dazai u basically went w the theory that dazai is the old pm bosses grandson/is related to the old pm boss AND HERE you mention that his aunt dumps him in suribachi city AND that: "Mori was insistent on it, said we couldn’t risk one of them ever returning and upending everything we’ve built. He’s still searching for some to this day just to make sure.”

CARINA...ARE YOU FORESHADOWING SOMETHING??????

REDDDD AJDUFHASIFHSDUIF NEITHER OF THEM DIE BY THE END OF THE FIC I PROMISEEEE

OMG i was SOOOO excited to finally get the guild here because now is when the plot really starts to finally kick up, it's gonna get intense QUICKKKKK hehehe ... but we still have one chapter left of reader and dazai being able to chill

KSDFHAISFHUSHFD I PROMISEEEEEE IT WON'T END THE SAME WAY AS UU ... what happened to dazai tho ... that hasn't been confirmed yet ;) he's under the impression that it was another suicide attempt but it's worthwhile to note that he doesn't remember anything leading up to what happened.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH SHHHHHHHHH I CAN NEITHER CONFIRM NOR DENY ANYTHING UR SAYING HAHAHAHHAHHHHHHH BUT UR DEFINITELY ONTO SOMETHING THERE

beloved red <3333 it's always a pleasure to see you in my notifs, i hope school is going well for you lovely

[raisinchallah]

exceedingly bored with the xena fandoms obsession with love at first sight like ok well whatever then cut out all the interesting stuff :( both in interpretations of the material and of fan works this is also probably why im a tiny bit of a when fates collide hater because idk i dont really think some first spark a lightning bolt from the sky of love is what makes the show the characters or their relationship interesting and again i dont even really think u could consider like season 1 of xena thru that lens like i know some people do but to meeeeee i read the season as like gabrielle is immediately obsessed with xena she looks up to her wants to be like her wants to know everything about her etc but also doesnt truly know her yet she cant actually fully comprehend or accept u know the depths of terrible shit xenas done yet and xena keeps her a bit at arms reach there is very much an imbalance they both love what they see in the other gabrielle sees adventure and a whole world opening up to her with xena and xena sees a grounding element a moral compass someone who is earnest and excited all these things an innocent but again i really do feel like the whole soulmates love at first sight whatever is simply not the building blocks of what makes seasons 1-4 xena and gabrielle work…. like all the biggest emotional revelations are in the face of death and loss you know they each realize the depths of love they feel at the worst possible moment its about the specter of tragedy… like the repeating moments of the greater good xena near death huge moment for gabrielle and how much more open and emotional they are with each other and gabrielles pain anyways not that anyone cares but i think thats when gabrielle realized she loved xena and for xena who i thinks been trying to keep things at arms length the double whammy of is there a doctor in the house and return of callisto and then gabrielle gets the quest sorry if u think theres love at first sight check for rattlesnakes and again whats so interesting is not like oh they have a vision of how theyre meant to be together or sense something its that sometimes they realize you know this might destroy them gabrielle might actually give up on things she believes in this might lead to horrible things but they wont be apart and to keep choosing each other after all sorts of earth shattering things idk interesting and again to me more interesting without the idea they are meant to be together or just knew from the moment they saw each other like gabrielles someone always searching for answers for clarity and she must at some point jump off unmoored into the unknown and do things she doesnt know if she can live with because this is what shes chosen and i think thats fascinating…

[theboarsbride]

"A Court of Thorns and Roses" Reading Update I

Page 101 - 24%

So, some major notes so far:

-I refuse to believe SJM knows how to write poor people. I refuse to believe that Feyre's family has been poor for a decade. How tf can the sisters be so dainty and act so oblivious and bitchy about work for survival after NEARLY 10 YEARS OF ECONOMIC DESTITUTION???????Just their mentalities, how they react to being poor, how they treat their belongings, how they treat their food, how they handle their money, etc. doesn't really line up.

-I can't stand SJM's writing style. SO MANY MF EM DASHES HOLY FUCK AND THEYRE IN PLACES WHERE THEY'RE UNNECESSARY. And also she reuses the same sentence structure, and it bothers meeeeee. (ex.- i was going to the bathroom, which was white and clean and shining. Then, I went to school, a place that was dull and bland and boring.) Like jfc. I wholeheartedly believe the conspiracy that no one actually edits SJM's book because good LORD.

- Feyre is dumb and deserves death. Like the instance with the Pooka. She suddenly sees her crippled father on Tamlin's land in Prythian in the middle of the night??? Given the wary hostility and aggression and distrust she's been displaying towards everyone and everything so far in Prythian, why isn't she doing the same in this instance???? She's said herself she is wary of faerie tricks, and acknowledged that not even whole, able-bodied humans are able to survive in Prythian without the help of a faerie, so why would she think her DISABLED FATHER, who is helpless in the mortal realm, be any different??? And why would she CARE that her father has come for her??? Did she not hope that her family starves without her, so that they realize she's important to them and she holds them in such an embittered contempt?????

- I LOVE Lucien <3 I like this fox-boy, he is funny and actually treats Feyre like the murderer she is (because yes, she's a murderer, and takes PRIDE in having killed a faerie. Which Feyre has some nerve being hostile to faeries who have been nothing but courteous and gracious with her, and thinking THEY are in the wrong when she was the one that MURDERED their friend).

- why couldn't Tamlin remain more like his beast form, making this more of a BATB retelling? I literally imagine him looking like Legolas but JACKED. This is where my ire of 'BATB but the beast is just a hot guy that growls or has behavioral problems' first began. It's such a shallow version of the story and completely misses the point. And the fact that this is also a retelling of The Ballad of Tam-Lin, a Scottish folktale, and does really nothing that's an homage to the story aside from Tamlin's name, the fact he shape-shifts (albeit BARELY), and there's (poorly written) fae really irks me.

-for once I want SJM to actually describe paintings rather than describing what the painting is of. I don't believe for one minute that SJM did more research into art, style, etc. because for the life of me I couldn't tell you what Feyre's art style is, nor do I really care because her having painting as a hobby is so pointless and has no effect on her character whatsoever.

- SJM is lazy as fuck with her world building. ex.- Lucien saying capital 'h' Hell, as in Christian Hell, when humans are agnostic/atheist with a sparse number of fae-worshiping cults (and were once implied to have had a polytheistic religion) and fae worship the Cauldron and other faerie deities so like.....why not use a few extra braincells to create her own version of Hell rather than using lazy cultural shorthand that, by the logic of this book's world, doesn't work????; underutilizing fae lore so now they're either underdeveloped spectral entities or LOTR elves... BORINGGGG!! GIVE US ACTUAL FAE IN LITERATURE AGAIN!!!! (*applauds Heather Fawcett's Emily Wilde's Encyclopedia of Faeries and Krystal Sutherland's House of Hollow*)

These are my major thoughts for the first quarter of the book.... See y'all again at 50%!