#they've literally all grown up together too they know each other so much better than we do so why do fans try and speak for them

[badass-queer-couples-battle]

⭐ Guy yuri tournament - battle for the third place⭐

All propaganda under the cut!

For Wrightworth:

"The fact that I don’t think a single AA fan will disagree with me. I can’t explain it but this too is yuri"

"There are so many themes with these two,, Phoenix literally changes his career for the CHANCE of seeing Miles again. Reunification after 15 years is so yuri. Also in the anime both of them keep a charm from childhood that reminds them of each other, and both of them think the other one must have gotten rid of it by now. Literally so yuri."

For Orufrey:

"They're tragic wlw who have devoted their lives to each other since they were kids. They live together, they cook together, they're raising four girls together and they're doing the best they can. Olruggio would do anything for Qifrey if Qifrey would just Let Him 😭 but Qifrey is dead-set on protecting Olruggio and keeping him safe and in the dark no matter what it costs... i cant 😭..."

"Man I don't know they just have the vibes. They have toxic yuri energy but they are two grown men. They've known each other since their apprentice days and have stuck together ever since. Qifrey's main magic type was something he took up because Olruggio proposed that he learned to control the water he feared. They live together away from most of society with Qifrey's four apprentices, living the sapphic cottagecore (ateliercore???) dream. Qifrey, due to the fact that his eyesight is very much failing, something which is very problematic when it comes to witches, who need their eyesight more than most, is getting very desperate to get all he lost to the Brimhats, the witches who took one of his eyes and his memories, and Olruggio ends up noticing this pursuit and is implied to have done this more than once. Qifrey does not want Olruggio to know about both his failing eyesight and his goals, so he ends up completely wiping Olruggio's memory of those things, and laments that Olruggio is a kind person, and one who would most likely forgive him again, but also one who would try to save him, even when he didn't want to be saved. He also apologized right up until the moment Olruggio's memories of his secret were gone. In general I think chapter 40 is the somewhat toxic guy yuri chapter ever. I'm very tired so I do not know how to explain any of this, I just thought "wow Orufrey reminds me of this one poll I saw on Tumblr" and then spent three days straight hunting for your blog before completely forgetting my reasoning for Orufrey being yuri right before I submitted this."

[myshredda]

ok all this angst abt red leaving duck and duck knowing it's bound to happen eventually has made me think

(this got much angstier than i thought it would so tw for panic attacks and thoughts abt sh)

it's different now than it was in the healthy episode or even in the transport episode bc now they've grown comfortable w each other. They have a relationship, kids, a life together. Red wouldn't leave all that, would he? Normally duck is pretty confident that he wouldn't but sometimes doubt and horrible memories get the better of him.

Maybe he's up late one night, tossing and turning, head filled with anxiety so he decides to go downstairs and cook. (bc it's a relaxing thing he knows how to do and definitely not bc maybe if he proves he can be useful, Red won't leave him this time.) Turns out cooking just makes everything worse bc of all the horrible memories that he has in that kitchen and now it's dark and he's alone and his mind is a mess. the knives are looking a little too sharp and he's cutting a little too quickly and a little too close to his fingers. It would be so easy to miss and cut the wrong thing...The stove is hot and it would be so easy to just reach out... He's ripping stray feathers out inbetween throwing random things into a bowl and attempting to stir them. He can't fucking breathe, and Red's going to leave him and now he has to protect two small ones instead of one but who's going to protect him??? And he's alone in the kitchen and it's too dark and why can't he fucking breathe??????

Red hears someone mucking around in the kitchen at 3am and assumes it's one of the small ones but they're both there. Duck's bed is empty tho which sends a shiver of fear through him. he's goes downstairs and walks in on duck crying into a bowl of potatoes, gripping the peeler a little too tightly. He doesn't entirely know what to do but he knows the first thing is to take the peeler away and the second is to get him out of the kitchen. So he scoops him up and sits in his armchair while asking him what's wrong. Duck takes a big gasp of air like he was drowning as soon as they get out of the kitchen doorway and is a lot more present. Red just holds him for a while, while he cries, absolutely terrified bc none of them have had anything as bad as this since the teachers were still here.

Eventually duck explains that he doesn't want red to leave anymore. it starts as him begging him not to go, not to leave them alone anymore, but as he gets it out of his system, it turns into him saying he would prefer if red didn't go but understands if he needs to. they would be ok on their own, duck can handle whatever would happen wo him. He's strong, he's resigned himself to it, no more blubbering like a baby, it was very cowardly and unrespectful.

Red's in tears at this point bc even tho he doesnt know the specifics of what happened when he left the first time, he knows it was bad and both yellow and duck still have nightmares about it from time to time. And it was all his fault for leaving. He apologizes over and over and assures him he's never going to leave like that again, never ever. no matter how many times duck says he believes him and is feeling much better now actually, red still feels like he's not doing enough and needs to make up for it somehow. So then it's his turn to cry like a baby while duck holds him, which secretly makes him feel worse bc duck shouldn't be comforting him, but he just pushes his head deeper into his feathers.

eventually they tire themselves out and fall asleep in the chair. the kids make fun of them in the morning for being old and falling asleep as soon as they sit down somewhere, and it seems like everything's gone back to normal. except now there's less underlaying anxiety between the adults and they seem to be a bit more in love.

May I just start out by saying your fucking asks always send me into a state of hysterics just because of how GOOD they always are like. Your input literally is the backbone of this blog at this point, so thank you for pouring your brain into my askbox and giving me the privilege of vamping off it because it's SO FUN.

that being said this one is deeply evil and you'll be hearing from my therapist. I WISH I COULD WRITE A DUCK BREAKDOWN SO REAL AND SO IN CHARACTER UOGHH

Duck trying to find comfort in the familiar motions of cooking and instead throwing himself head-first into a panic attack over trauma he barely remembers, and now he's starting to spiral, and he's starting to get a bald patch on his hand from the feathers he's missing and he CAN'T THINK and everything is too sharp, too much, and what if Red really leaves him again. It's so different now. Between him and Yellow, and the other one, and the other other one. He loves them now, just as much as he loves Red. He really doesn't know if he'd be strong enough to protect all three now, after all, he couldn't even protect himself. Before, without Red, he was powerless, and it nearly cost him everything. And this time, if he's gone too, whose going to take care of his already traumatized kids?

But this time, thank god- thank fuck, Red stays. Red's here, and he can't really tell whats going on, his mind is fuzzy and black spots are dancing in his eyes, but the next thing he knows is his peeler is gone and he's in Red's chair and Red's there too and Red's face is so close and he sounds so concerned when he's asking him what's wrong and Duck just cries. Cries and cries and cries, the first time he's done it in front of Red, the hardest he's ever done it in his life, and all he can do is tell Red he'd prefer if he stayed now, and he feels so fucking pathetic and weak but it's like he'll die if he doesn't get the words out, it's not exactly the broken-hearted begging he wanted to do, but it's still so unrespectable of him it almost makes him feel worse. Weak, he's too weak to save himself, save his kids, to even say what he means. He's so fucking weak.

And now Red's crying too and it makes Duck feel worse because he's not supposed to make Red feel bad, he's supposed to be the rock, unmoved by fickle emotions, and here he is spilling his guts and making his- his...Making Red cry. But Red just keeps saying he's sorry and he'll never leave again, and it makes Duck's stomach feel weird, and the air in his lungs gets all fluttery, and his head draws itself back up out of his stomach, and its almost too good to be true, but Red just keeps saying it and saying it so it must be true. So he calms down, and Red gets worse, and now he's the one doing the comforting, which is what he's more familiar with, so he does so, and cradles Red's big head in his hands, pulling is forward, hiding it in the curve of his shoulder, and it feels like something that was broken inside him heals a little bit, there, with Red, again, in the dark.

The kids make fun of them in the morning because their kids make fun of everything, it's like its their job or something. Them sleeping in the chair is funny, apparently. But Duck can't find it in him to be too mad at them, he's just glad they feel safe enough to be little buggers. Red just tells them to go kick rocks or some other asinine thing, and it makes them all giggle and then Green's asking about breakfast and Pink wants fun cereal even though it's not the weekend, and Yellow ALSO wants fun cereal and maybe a grapefruit and maybe they could have some potatoes? Yellow likes potatoes, and Duck makes them the best 'cause they have the crispy crunchy bits. So Duck heaves a very long-suffering sigh and agrees to the potatoes but not the fun cereal (Shreddies or nothing, you little hellions) but before he can get up Red grips his hand tight, and Duck looks at him like 'wtf are u doing' and Red stares into his eyes in a Very Meaningful Way and deliberately squeezes his hand once, twice, three times

I. Love. You.

Duck squeezes back, of course he does, and it's so much sweeter now that his soul is light. He can barely feel the scar on his stomach, and his kids are moaning about potatoes and grapefruits and how yogurt isn't a breakfast food unless it's flavored to be, and did you know that plain yogurt is like sour cream's cousin? No it isn't. Yes it is! That's stupid! You're Stupid! Duck sighs again, and adds one more squeeze.

I. Love. You. Too.

[kingofthewilderwest]

In case you're wondering...

Tumblrites have been spared of my avid TwoSetter side (YOU'RE WELCOME). It's the latest Haddock Hyperfixation and it's been in full force since the start of 2024.

This morning (my morning, their evening), TwoSet posted on their side channel, TwoSet Talks. It was a normal video.

One hour following that, TwoSet Violin's main YouTube channel privatized about ***1,600 videos from the past 11 years***, leaving only 29 remaining. Almost all their Instagram content vanished from their main channel and from each of Brett and Eddy's personal channels. On Instagram and Facebook, TwoSet posted variations of the idea, "This will be the last piece of content we post as TwoSet Violin. It’s been a wild ride with you all for the last 11 years. We’ve all grown up together and it’s kinda surreal that we’re ending our chapter here." Their Apparel Instagram and Facebook pages announced a clearance sale to say "goodbye." Their TikTok is untouched [knocks on wood]. On Twitter, most ominously of all, they only posted a single heart emoji. The Strad magazine pounced upon the social media information and published an article, despite the lack of answers.

The reason this has thrown everyone (on top of it being innately startling news) is that it doesn't make sense to anyone. This week, TwoSet began posting content with two new sponsorships, Coach and Apple music, with a new Bach playlist and promocode. TwoSet was in Vienna this week for new fan content, and recently also did a Japan trip for new fan content. They released a new line of Apparel at the end of August. They asked fans to sign up for the "next" world tour once the 2023-2024 ended. They have promised multiple large projects, including a full album for the end of 2024, that haven't been released yet, nor with presumable accompanying videos for it. They've requested feedback from fans for their recently-debuted Academy-style videos so that they know how to improve those moving forward. Their podcast channel is only a few months old and has intentionality invested in it, with interviews from world-famous soloists already there. They've repeatedly talked in 2024 about how they're looking to grow TwoSet Violin. Plus, there's the other logic: it wouldn't make sense for TwoSet to hide high-production videos they posted only five, thirteen, eighteen, etc. days ago. Their Apparel store itself boasts an eleven year anniversary sale with store-wide discounts, yes, but not heavily-slashed prices that would indicate "we're ending this all."

Not to mention, this is taking place while TwoSet are most likely to be asleep, given their time zone.

TwoSet has had a history of sporadically deleting videos or pulling weird ones on us, much to the headaches and tears of fans, but obviously nothing like this. Needless to say, everyone is in a freaked-out uproar of all their content being gone and the creators-or-whoever-it-is making cryptic, ominous announcements. Ideas are flying from: "Is this sincere? Is this the work of a hacker? Is this a poorly-done rebranding / name change? Is this a breakup or worse?" I've been helping dispel doomsdaying and showing people benefit-of-the-doubt material (ex: that it could be a hacking), as well as discussing better ways for fans to preserve their materials permanently.

As someone who is a voracious chronicler of the things I get obsessed with (Gotta Own And Consume It All), I'm lucky that I have most of their material downloaded on my computer, but it's also a nightmare of the worst possible order for a preservationist as myself. I'm also kicking myself because I was literally going to download their last four months of content last night from the YouTube channel... whooooooops. I hope that once Brett and/or Eddy wake up and see whatever's going down, that they give us answers sooner than later... but in the meantime, I have absolutely not sent a single email for my job and have been too caught up in the Fires of YouTuber Content Doom. Look, office emails can wait. Parasocial violin YouTube is important, right, lol?

So yeah. Funnnnnn /s little apocalypse. Ultimately doesn't matter in the scheme of my life, and ultimately the answers will come if I patiently and calmly wait, but also like, hey, I care about this, rotflh. Care about this too much, haha, but what can I say.

Fandom apocalypse? During my work hours? -_-

It's more likely than you think.

[dmumt]

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[autumnrose11]

I just rewatched THE EPIC KISS scene from 1.06, and I'm in floods of tears. Prepare for another (very) long analysis!

PART ONE

We start with Matthew and Mary seated at a corner of the dining table - much, much closer than what's appropriate. They're literally only inches apart. They're surrounded by sandwiches, strawberries and wine. SO ROMANTIC.

"We can drink to Sybil's safe return," Matthew says, popping open the wine decanter. "Why not," Mary answers, with a lovely smile. I need to remark on her voice being uncharacteristically soft and gentle here. She has grown increasingly "softer" with every interaction with Matthew. "I'll ring for a glass," she says, already getting ready to summon someone. She knows the rules of this house, she knows propriety. Having people at her beck and call is what she has known all her life.

"No, never mind that," Matthew forestalls her before she can go any further. His voice, too, has a noticeable dip. He pours the glass in the cup of wine, and, like the gentleman he is, gives it to her. He begins to pour the wine into the water glass. Mary stares at it in slight shock for a moment, and then her face relaxes into another (adoring?) smile. Where once she might have looked down upon Matthew for flouting decorum, she now finds it endearing BECAUSE SHE IS IN LOVE WITH HIM. I also noticed that Matthew filled up three-quarters of Mary's wine cup, and his water glass held only one-quarter full of wine.

Mary then makes one of her trademark snarky observations.

You're not very fastidious about doing things properly, are you?

A year ago, that remark might have been interpreted as mocking Matthew's middle-class status. Those were the reasons she resented him. But now, spoken with that teasing tone and smile, it can only be taken as playful flirting. SHE IS SO CLEARLY FLIRTING.

Matthew grins, and he lets out a soft exhalation of breath. He agrees with her. No, he doesn't always "do things properly." He may have become part of the aristocracy, but that's not who he is, that's not who he's grown up with. It's started to feel a little more like home, but in so many, many ways, it's still alien to him.

"Are you?" he asks. This, in my opinion, is a two-sided question. On one face of the coin, it's rhetorical. Matthew's known Mary for a year and a half at this point. He knows she belongs to the elite upper class. She's grown up in the lap of luxury. Obviously, she likes things "done properly." But it might also be taken as him wanting to get to know her better, whether beneath all the charm and poise there's a more fun, carefree side to her, unrestricted by rules and propriety. He's seen that side of her on some occasions (most notably when they both giggled together at Sir Salty Pudding), and he knows she has a sense of fun.

Mary confirms this, albeit obliquely. Mary never ever gives a straight response. "Less than you might think." Translation: I know I seem like a cold-hearted bitch and a snob to boot, obsessed with grandeur, but I do have a relaxed and fun side, I BEG YOU TO SEE IT.

Their eyes meet over their glasses of wine, and they toast each other. Matthew's eyes are on Mary as he starts to drink, but his gaze soon drops down to his glass of wine. Mary, on the other hand, mirrors his action, but her eyes flick upward and SHE WATCHES HIM DRINK THE WINE. Just as Matthew finishes his sip, she quickly looks back down again. She doesn't want to be caught staring at his lips and thinking HOW BADLY SHE WANTS TO KISS HIM.

Matthew continues the conversation. "Are you at all political?" This speaks as him being truly, truly interested in her, in her opinions. Unlike her other suitors, who likely are only interested in her beauty, rank and fortune. Matthew sees HER. He wants to get to know the real Mary. Presumably they've spent quite some time over the last eighteen months getting to know each other like this, but there's still so much to discover there. He wants to know how she thinks, what she believes. And he respects her for it.

"Yes," Mary answers, picking up a strawberry and twirling it between her fingers. Matthew's presumably very hungry after the whole political rally debacle. He's just lifted the lid of the plate of sandwiches, but as soon as Mary starts to speak, his gaze is on her and only her. Everything else can wait. Mary remarks on the by-election, about how she can't get excited about it, because nothing will change. They exchange a smile and a light giggle. The conversation between them flows smoothly and elegantly. They make each other smile and laugh and they like the way the other speaks.

PART TWO

"Thank you for coming to Sybil's rescue," Mary's saying. It's worth noting here that Matthew's hand is still holding the half-filled wine glass, and HIS MOUTH IS HANGING OPEN AND HE IS STARING AT HER. "You were very brave", she continues. This unexpected praise, from Mary of all people, seems to make him uncomfortable. He glances away from her for a moment and down at the table before meeting her eyes again. We already know the darling is too modest, but this sort of thing coming from MARY is uncharted territory. "She told me you knocked a man down." Her tone is so appreciative, so admiring, Matthew doesn't know how to deal with it. So he deflects, pretending he didn't really do anything at all. He gives a half-smile, then says "I hope I did my duty."

Are you a creature of duty?

Not entirely.

This is so telling of both Matthew and Mary's characters. Just like Matthew, she wants to know who he is. Yes, she's already fallen in love, but these two can never resist witty banter, or a verbal sparring match because they're just ... intellectually, on the same wavelength. Mary's basically asking him if he's always so honourable and overly moralistic. And he says not ENTIRELY. Yes, those are his most striking flaws, the tendency to overlook what's best for himself (and sometimes others) in favour of abstract principles, but sometimes, despite himself, Matthew can see where he's going wrong. He's not always a creature of duty. He has his own mind and he follows it.

From this point on, this is where the tension starts to escalate. Mary takes the plunge.

When you laugh with me, or flirt with me ... is that a duty? Are you conforming to the fitness of things? Doing what's expected?

OH GOD. This is SO direct. It would have been highly improper for a lady to speak of such things, and yet Mary does. Because with Matthew, rules and decorum simply don't matter. Not because of his middle-classness, but because he's her equal and she is his. He won't judge her, there's no need to pretend around him. She can be herself with him.

So anyway, back to these two lines. "When you laugh with me, or flirt with me..." We've already seen M/M sharing a laugh together, having the same sense of humour, and the garden bench flirting scene was SO ADORABLE, as well as many flirtatious encounters before that. Clearly they're both masters at it. Mary asks him if it's a duty. She knows that would sting him. The very first thing she heard him say about her, even before she ever laid eyes on him, was that he wants the autonomy to choose who he marries, and he does not want any of the Crawley sisters being PUSHED at him. They both know it's expected of both of them to go for each other. Mary's the eldest daughter, Matthew's the heir. It's the conventional way things are done in the upper class - again, of "doing things properly." They both know the other well enough that they (especially Matthew) want to marry because they WANT TO, not because they HAVE to. But now they've both fallen for the one person they never meant to like in the first place, and duty has NOTHING whatsoever to do with it. Their love is helpless. They're drawn to each other against their will. It is not a duty, and they both know it.

By the time she finishes her flirty questioning, Matthew's face ... I'm lost for words as to how to describe his expression. I truly am. His face shows incredulity, but he knows exactly what's going on. She's still playing her games, and he's done with it. He wants to stop meandering around her, because they've flirted with each other so many times and they both sense the mutual attraction. His mouth is open, smirking, and now Mary is IN FOR IT. He's had it, with her on/off attitude.

Don't play with me. I don't deserve it. Not from you.

One of the most striking (and more importantly, realistic) trait of Matthew is that while he so evidently adores Mary, he is never blind to her faults. He's not standing for her crap. When she is in the wrong, he calls her out on it.

NOT FROM YOU. Only three words, but they mean SO SO MUCH. He holds her in such high esteem. He loves her, and he does not deserve to be toyed with her. Not from the one woman he has given his heart to, long before either of them realised it.

Mary looks downwards, acknowledging his gentle rebuke, but just as he lifts up his glass of wine for another sip, she begins again.

You must be careful not to break Sybil's heart. I think she has a crush on you.

She's thrown caution to the winds, but by some weird contradiction, she's testing his attraction to her. She's been through this too many times. Suitors who only consider her a pretty ornament on their arm. Kemal Pamuk, who did not respect her, whom she blindly flirted with and had to pay the heavy price. She trusts Matthew, but needs to be sure of him. Matthew, obviously, doesn't interpret this as anything other than her still playing with him.

Again, it's quite bold for a lady to speak to a man about things such as crushes and flirting, but neither of them care because that is the level of comfort they have around each other. Sybil's starry-eyed gazing at Matthew back at Crawley House, and his gentlemanly, brotherly protectiveness and tenderness towards her has so visibly stung Mary to the core. You can see it in her face, SHE wants to be the ONLY woman Matthew will ever look at like that. She has finally realised Matthew won't hang around for ever. She could lose him, possibly to her youngest sister.

Matthew looks back at her open-mouthed, still with that barely-visible half-smile. He sets down his wine glass. He's decided to play along. He knows perfectly well Sybil doesn't have any romantic feelings for her. He's fond of her, loves her as a sister. The possibility of her having a crush on him has never entered his mind. Matthew's decided to use it, again, to tell Mary off for some of the pain she has caused him. (Because let's face it, she was pretty nasty to him in the beginning).

That's something no one can accuse you of.

What he means is .... Judging by the way you've treated me in the past, no one would dream that you, of all people, could ever feel anything for me romantically. His wine glass is set down, and it looks so FINAL. His arms are crossed, his head lowered. In that moment, nothing exists for him but Mary.

It's at this point that Mary starts fingering her necklace in that obviously flirty way. "Oh, I don't know." Classic Mary, again, never giving a straight answer because that's not who she is. She speaks in riddles. Oh, I don't know. Translate this as: Maybe you shouldn't be so certain of that.

Matthew is unconvinced. Still, you can see his eyes darkening, his lips barely moving because all they want to do is kiss her. "I assume you speak in a spirit of mockery." He's been hurt and disappointed too many times (namely the Strallan dinner) to take Mary at her word. At the salty pudding dinner, they were laughing, and tentatively flirting, and he had just begun to believe she might like him. But he had his heart broken then, and it took him MONTHS to get over it because Matthew is sensitive. He takes things to heart. So Mary's rejection of him (and the way it was done) completely crushed him.

*cuddles Matthew tightly*

So, by "that's something no one could accuse you of" he means ...

It is unfathomable that you could ever have a crush on me.

Mary responds, still fingering the necklace. "You should have more faith." Again, she's asking him to see her, the real her, who is kind and gentle and doesn't bite out witty retorts. The Mary who has fallen in love with him. She's asking him to trust her, to trust her love for him.

The next line is one that blew my mind the first time I saw it. Matthew leans forward, ever more closely, and basically questions as to how she ever expects him to have faith in her attraction to him, given the way she's behaved and spoken to him previously. "Shall I remind you of some of the choicest remarks you made about me when I arrived here?" The Andromeda/Perseus/sea monster conversation comes to mind. To Matthew, Mary was always his Andromeda. But to Mary, he's gone from being a hideous sea monster to a total Perseus. "Because they live in my memory ...... as fresh as the day they were spoken." Because he has listened to her, listened to every word she's says and has said. He so deeply values what she's said, he can't forget it. It's etched, like he says. His face is so, so close to hers, the sexual tension is sizzling. It's at breaking point. His passion that's been simmering for so long just beneath the surface is shining through. His voice is low and intense.

Mary's eyes when she looks up at him are so soft and dark and truly apologetic.

Oh, Matthew, what am I always telling you? You must pay no attention to the things I say.

She's asking him to forget every single unkind remark she made, every time she put him down, toyed with him, hurt him. She takes all of it back. Because she loves him.

The next few seconds are BURSTING WITH SPARKS. Matthew's eyes drop down to stare right at her lips. He's probably been indulging this fantasy for a while now, and then they slowly drag back up to her eyes. He reads her unspoken longing, her plea for him to kiss her. They both move at the same time and then THEY'RE KISSING. THEY LOCK LIPS AND THEN MARY'S HAND DELVES SO DEEPLY INTO HIS HAIR AND HER THUMB BRUSHES AGAINST HIS EAR AND THEY'RE SNOGGING BECAUSE THEY CAN'T TAKE THIS ANY MORE THEY'VE LOST THEMSELVES IN EACH OTHER BECAUSE THEY LOVE EACH OTHER SO SO MUCH

*cue me screaming into a cushion*

I can't type another coherent word. Thanks for reading!!!

[misschifuyu]

To choose a lover

requested here

characters: ran haitani + rindou haitani

genre: fluff

warnings: none

Giggles and whispering comments were passed around, giddiness present in the voices that spoke out just a few metres away from you.

As much as you tried to focus on the tiresome work that was splayed out on the piece of paper before you, it was completely futile to drown the girls out.

It didn't take a genius to know what they were talking about. The school you were all under had the privilege - if one could even consider it as such - to hold two infamous students.

The Haitani brothers.

Whilst the eldest was in his final year, the younger still had another year under this roof until he followed in his brother's footsteps.

But there was really nothing to dislike about going to class when one had a literal fan group who's main topic was always them.

There were girls who preferred Ran, with his signature braids that they always wished they could undo for him; and others that would always fawn over Rindou's cocky ways and stubbornness, trying to catch his attention wherever he went.

The current conversation, however, wasn't just fixed on talking about their aspects.

Far from it. Sending each other questionable looks and making fun of those on the other side of the opinion, they were discussing who, out of the two brothers, was better.

Those on Ran's side had the advantage of saying that he was older, therefore more responsible and willing to take care of anyone.

Sure.

He would make the perfect husband, some were proclaiming. But...the youngest would always want to show that he is the strongest, the more dependable one, as a result of the inferiority that had always hung with him since they were young.

It wasn't that he was, he just hadn't pushed himself to be known as much as his brother had done all those years back.

Needless to say, it was an argument that would never see an end. At least not until the two left the school behind and continued up to wherever the future would take them.

It was amusing, from your point of view, to hear all of these discussions. For years now you had known the two, as close friends who had grown up on the same street, so you knew everything that there was to them, right down to what they actually did when they said they were studying.

Definitely something that the girls would be pushed back by if they ever found out.

But, if it really came down to it, you probably wouldn't be able to pick one out of the pack that they came in, either.

They both had their merits and faults, and, truth be told, neither of the two were that much of a pleasure to be around with, as much as their fans would beg to differ.

One thing was for sure, though. It had come into the light when the three of you had been hanging out one afternoon, without much else to do.

You had asked the youngest about what he thought about his notorious lower level when it came to comparing him with his brother.

It had simply been a spur of the moment, and you hadn't expected him to actually give a sorrowful response.

He was well aware that he was viewed as the weaker brother of the two, and as much as he'd try to prove otherwise, it had always been something that would eat away at him.

Naturally, both you and Ran had jumped to convince him that he was far from a weak person.

The fact that he was viewed as such meant nothing at all when it came down to the reality of what he was, and that there was no point in even listening to those ignorant - and frankly, irrelevant - opinions about himself.

At the end of the day, although you would never openly admit it near the oblivious fangirls, you held a considerable amount of affection towards the two of them.

Of course, they had their odd moments in which you only wished to hit them around the head with Ran's metal bar; but, all in all, they would always be your childhood friends.

So choosing between them was simply out of the question.

Both of them held an equal importance to you, so when a peculiar feeling started growing for one of them, you quickly averted it so it would be felt for the two, whatever it were to be.

They were two peas in a pod, and you weren't about to change this because of a measly crush.

However, the thought would only bug you more whenever you were all together. Such as the current situation, sat right between the two of them on the comfort of their couch.

Before even coming over, you had mentally ordered yourself to disregard the ridiculous thoughts that had flooded your mind.

The girls back at school hadn't help with the problem one bit, if anything they worsened the conflictive feelings; and now you were to spend the afternoon with the two.

One could only think that all odds were against them in such situations.

Head resting on Ran's shoulder, legs atop Rindou's, your eyes were fixed onto the screen before you. The reasoning behind spending the afternoon together was the airing of your favourite show.

However, you were now racking your brains over what you were supposed to do after the series ended. Watching a movie was the prime option, but you figured they would want to move from the couch and do something else.

And the two were very talkative, so you would have to, inevitably, push everything in your mind aside to prevent from even giving the smallest hint surrounding your thoughts.

Your stiffness didn't go unnoticed, and, soon enough, you felt a hand on your leg, startling you in an instant.

"What the hell is up with you today, Y/N?"

Rindou had lost all attention for what was playing on the screen, and it looked to be as though he had for a bit now. This meant he had felt your change of attitude well before he had actually asked about it.

"What? No, nothing...why?"

Knitting his eyebrows together, the blond looked over at you with a disbelieving stare. By now, you were sure Ran had shifted his interest towards the two of you.

"You've been all skittish since you got here. You got something important on your mind or what?"

Geez.

"No...I've just been thinking about something stupid, that's all. Don't worry about it, now let me watch th-"

"That being?"

Now you were cornered. From behind you, having turned to look at Rindou, a voice spoke out the question. In slight panic, you managed to come up with another way around it.

"Well...that, let's say, if I had to choose one out of the two of you, I wouldn't know who I'd pick. It's a silly question one of my friends asked today, that's all"

God bless the fan girls. You were sure to never judge them internally again, because they might have just saved your skin in the nick of time.

Your nerves calmed down as you heard Rindou chuckle at the concern, and you figured he'd just brush it off as another one of your peculiar inquiries.

However, as he fully turned towards you, it was clear that he wasn't about to let this go unfazed.

"Well, you can't just leave us like that without an answer. Go on then, if it was a life or death situation, who would it be?"

"Rindou...you know I'd get rid of both of you if I could"

You all laughed at your words, stirring the conversation into an area that you were certain you could get a hold of.

Each one of you was just as ridiculous as the next one, so it wasn't hard to divert difficult topics.

If only the youngest wasn't so damn pushy.

"On a real note, there's gotta be one of us that you like just a little more, Y/N"

Upon knowing that perhaps you had driven yourself into a dead end, you started to fumble with your fingers.

What the hell were you supposed to say? If you picked one, the other was surely to get the wrong idea.

"Um..."

A slight shift behind you made you turn your head, catching Ran just a little too close for comfort to your face. Great, just what you needed.

After a few, nerve racking, seconds in silence, it was the eldest of the two that decided to break the ice. You were all just wasting time there, after all.

"Listen...since my brother seems incapable of forming a decent sentence, what we've been trying to get at is which one you'd choose, because we've both liked you for some time now and we kinda need to know who you'd go out with"

Well.

Certainly an unexpected turn to your seemingly uneventful afternoon. It appeared that you weren't the only one struggling with the damned feeling that was a crush, but you hadn't gambled that it would be both of them...and for the same person.

You couldn't choose.

In the same way that you had to waver the feeling of more than just friendship between the two of them, there was no way you could pick one now.

It would be unfair for the other, especially since you would only be lying to yourself for saying that you felt nothing for the half that was left aside.

There was only one way out of this, unless you wanted to shatter the relationship you had built between them for the past years.

"I...both of you. I can't leave one of you out when I, well, like both of you"

A huge weight was lifted from your body the moment the brothers exchanged a look, followed by an agreeing nod. Far from the catastrophe you had gambled with, that much was sure.

As Ran leaned his head on your shoulder, Rindou gave you a bright smile, one that not everyone had the chance to say that they've seen.

"Wasn't so hard to say, now was it?"

No. What was going to be hard was having not one Haitani by your side, but two, as a partner. Sure enough, you were really going to know what their poor mother had to put up with now.

[scfttwice]

JINA'S SHIPS : TWICE

mina

[ miji, sometimes also known as 2na #3 ]

- jina is super soft for mina

- in contrast to nayeon, mina brings out jina's gentler side

- jina's voice sometimes automatically softens too when she's talking to mina

- plays 'minecraft' together whenever they can

- they've tamed and adopted at least 16 wolves together

- jina gets protective over mina in the game

- “die, creeper! stay away from my mitang!”

- plays other games together too

- absolute rivals in 'kart rider' and 'animal crossing'

- “my island is better than yours” “in your dreams”

- loves visiting each other's islands though

- and hanging out together in the game

- and when they're playing 'among us'? their trust for each other just goes out the window

- also builds lego sets together, sometimes with jeongyeon too

- jina loses her patience really quickly though, so mina has to calm her down

- “i can't find the piece i need! *slams instruction manual on table*” “it's okay, we can do this together”

- jina sometimes speaks in english with mina, to help mina improve her english and keep in touch with her american roots

- when mina is talking but no one can hear her? jina's got her back

- “guys, shut up!! mina has something to say!!”

- jina has tried dancing ballet before, under mina's guidance

- she was quick to realize it wasn't for her and gave up

- another pair who adore sharing physical affection

- when it comes to mina, jina especially loves back-hugging her

- jina definitely bought mina a penguin skin in 'minecraft'

- and mina gave jina her own tim

- a medium-sized one to hug and a small keyring one that jina hangs on her bag

- makes bead bracelets together

- for the other members, and for each other

dahyun

[ dahji, sometimes also known as dubji and dubna ]

- the duality duo

- one minute they're crackheads together

- the next they're sitting together in comfortable silence, just enjoying each other's company

- jina acts the silliest when she's with dahyun

- around dahyun, jina often doesn't feel the need to hold herself back

​- funny faces, exaggerated reactions, dahyun is able to bring it all out of jina

- whether being loud and playful or sentimental and nostalgic, jina is just her complete self with dahyun

- although dahyun always keeps to herself, jina is one of the members she feels most comfortable opening up to

- jina constantly reminds dahyun that she can come to her for anything, after all

- plays piano together

- though a lot of times jina prefers to listen while only dahyun plays

- jina claps loudly and demands an encore when dahyun finishes a song

- dahyun gets shy every time

- likes to go walk in parks together

- aesthetic pictures!!!

- and deep late night talks

- jina is the one who often sneaks into dahyun's room at 1 am to talk

- jina's go-to stargazing buddy

- honestly just love enjoying the simpler things in life together

- learns mandarin together (tzuyu often teaches them)

- jina thinks it's really cute that dahyun tries her best to be multilingual

- dahyun says it's because she wants to be like jina

- jina loves bringing buddy over to the dorms for a visit

- so dahyun can play with him

- he's the only big dog dahyun isn't scared of

- when the girls are going out together, it's often jina who convinces dahyun to join them

- and sometimes, when dahyun really doesn't feel like going, jina would stay behind too, to accompany her

chaeyoung

[ jichae, sometimes also known as jichaeng and jiyoung ]

- art lovers

- jina is far from being an artist, but she loves drawing with chaeyoung

- jina would watch chaeyoung whenever she chooses to sketch in their free time

- and would sometimes try to join in

- chaeyoung often lets jina use her own creativity and artistic style, but she would pitch in pointers if jina asks

- chaeyoung likes doodling on jina's hands and arms, giving her temporary tattoos

- it used to scare fans, making them think jina started getting tattoos too, but after finding out the truth they've grown used to finding random scribbles on jina

- jina helped choose some of chaeyoung's tattoo designs

- a couple were designed by jina herself (with improvements by chaeyoung)

- wants to get matching tattoos together once jina stops being a scaredy cat

- chaeyoung loves reading jina's poetry

- or any random deep thoughts jina thinks of and writes down

- jina had one of chaeyoung's drawings as her phone lock screen for a while

- chaeyoung sometimes does jina's nails for her

- baby beast sisters

- the tiger cub and the wolf pup

- jina literally bites chaeyoung to show affection

- also likes to play-fight/wrestle

- fans say they resemble the cliché lesbian couple

- where chae is the badass grunge type while jina is the soft girly girl

- they love exchanging fashion advice though

- often borrowing each other's clothes to play dress-up

- swaps song recommendations too

- they have somewhat contrasting tastes in music but they still love listening to each other's personal preferences

- loves sharing earphones/airpods

- takes turns choosing the song they're listening to together

- they both have a playlist each of songs the other recommended

tzuyu

[ tzuna, sometimes also known as puppy love duo ]

- basically soulmates

- joined jype on the same day

- were each other's first friends there

- since jina knows basic mandarin, she was able to communicate with tzuyu fairly well

- jina made tzuyu feel more comfortable and helped her adjust to south korea

- have been inseparable ever since

- are called "puppy love duo" because they both love love love dogs

- tzuyu appears to physically melt for jina

- and because they're both the puppies of the group

- and also because they are a popular ship that's seen to have an innocent kind of love for each other, hence the phrase puppy love

- savage maknae? cold? intimidating? nah, not with jina

- even the tiniest hug from jina is enough to make tzuyu smile from ear to ear

- jina often coerces tzuyu to speak more if she's being too quiet

- with jina around tzuyu is never excluded from the conversation, she makes sure of that

- goes to dog cafés together

- buddy is best friends with butter

- butter and kaya are basically their children

- thinking of adopting another dog and raising it in the dorms, together

- can be very playful with each other

- exchanges teases and jokes, and likes to mess around together

- but jina also understands when tzuyu wants to stay quiet for a while

- tzuyu, like sana, is jina's baby

- jina is constantly worrying over tzuyu

- whether she's eaten, if she's too tired, etc.

- jina would sacrifice everything she had in a heartbeat if it's for tzuyu

- always wanting to take care of her

- tzuyu isn't into pda much

- but behind closed doors there's lots of cuddling

- and occasional cheek kisses (mostly tzuyu on the receiving end)

- they honestly just become the most affectionate puppies with each other

- jina is one of the people who call tzuyu 'tzumong', sometimes 'tzumongie' or 'tzumongeu'

- tzuyu calls jina 'nae mong' (my puppy) affectionately, but only when it's just the two of them

part i.

[fiveisnumber1]

So after reading yesterday's oneshot I coincidentally came across a song I love that fit the H8 during the final minutes of the apocalypse. I know Five wasn't technically a part of them at the time but essentially it fits all of the younger group and their final thoughts and feelings. Also Five and Reader are together at the end and the rest of the group are together at the end so none of them are alone and I figured it felt flitting for how each would see the end based on their experiences. The song is Forever Young by Boy in Space: https://youtu.be/PpL0P_s6Fe8 and I just had to do a lyric analysis too cuz of course! It just fit so perfectly.

The H7:

"Let's dance in style, let's dance for a while. Heaven can wait, we're only watchin' the skies. Hopin' for the best, but expectin' the worst. Are you gonna drop the bomb or not? Ah"

This is obviously all of them together, trying to ignore the impending apocalypse. Dancing away the fear but they're also watching the skies and wondering if whatever is causing the apocalypse is gonna cause it or not. I feel like these lyrics paint the picture of them simultaneously trying to ignore the apocalypse while also waiting for it to happen so well!

Five:

"Let us die young or let us live forever. We don't have the power, but we never say never. Sittin' in a sandpit, life is a short trip. The music's for the sad man, ah"

Five literally experienced life in a sandpit of the world's ruins but even after getting back he didn't have enough time to live or even accomplish what he set out to do so hence his life being a "short trip". He knows he has very little power to stop the apocalypse and the commision has a lot but he keeps fighting for a better world anyway. And he wishes the commission would have let him die early in the apocalypse because technically he's lived a lot by seeing how it played out. If he dies then he'll have died young but also really old and despite how much he had fought, he feels his life is short anyway cuz he never had enough time to accomplish his goal which was to save his family and the Reader. Also the last line makes me think of Five seeing his favorite sibling on stage and Vanya's playing music which would always make him happy in their miserable home as a child but she's bringing the apocalypse with it this time and I feel like the line is a very good way to describe how the music is for a "sad man" cuz he was that sad man who had to live alone for decades.

Reader:

"Can you imagine when this race is won? Turn our golden faces into the sun. Praising our leaders, we're gettin' in tune. The music's played by the, the mad man"

This stanza for the Reader because she keeps hoping that they can win somehow. She wants to believe she has more time with the H7 and the UA and her beloved Five. And she wants to believe they can pat each other on the back for a job well done and she wants to believe she can be proud of the UA for getting their shit together to solve the apocalypse but then she also knows that they're damaged by the madman AKA Reggie who played their strings to a point where they will never be able to work together and they won't get in tune together in time to save the world.

Reader:

"Some are like water, some are like the heat. Some are the melody and some are the beat. Sooner or later, they all will be gone. Why don't they stay young? Ah"

I feel like this is Reader describing the Hargreeves personalities (Klaus and Ben are water, Luther and Diego are Heat, Vanya is a melancholy melody, Allison is a beat). She's wondering why the Hargreeves had to grow up and leave and why she had to time-travel and find them gone. She wonders why everything happened the way it did. Maybe if they never left the mansion and worked it out after she came to their time then things would have been different?

Five:

"It's so hard to get old without a cause. I don't want to perish like a fadin' horse. Youth's like diamonds in the sun. And diamonds are forever"

Five wanting to die in the apocalypse. To perish like everyone else but also not wanting to die without reason or meaning. He gives himself a cause to grow old and fight for cuz otherwise he has no reason to. And his youth and love and intelligence is like a diamond cuz even tho he travels back in time, he looks the same and his intelligence is the same and his love for his family is the same. It's forever. He doesn't want to fade away into oblivion without at least trying to do something to save the ones he loves.

The H7:

"So many adventures given up today. So many songs we forgot to play. So many dreams swingin' out of the blue. Oh let it come true"

The moment the H7 give up their normal lives to start fighting crime they give up their free time and energy willingly to fight and their ability to be normal children but at the end they have dreams they still wish they could fulfill. Being a younger UA was their dream and they fulfilled that. It came true. But the rest of their dreams coming true becomes difficult cuz of the apocalypse so they're wishing they all had more time.

All:

"Forever young. I wanna be forever young. Do you really wanna live forever? Forever and ever. Forever young. I wanna be forever young. Do you really wanna live forever? Forever young"

This part is the chorus and I feel is just for all of them. They're all so young in different ways. They don't want to live forever but they don't want to die so soon either without getting a chance to really live the life they each wanted. And also since they've all experienced so much in so little time, especially Five and Reader, I feel like it's also a way of saying they wish they were all mentally young as well. Even the H7 grew up faster to fight crime. So they all just want to enjoy youth without responsibility but will never get to. Five will never get to experience normal life the way he should have and Reader will never get to spend the rest of her youth with Five and her friends either.

It's just a tragedy all around as they all wish they could have had more time before it all ends cuz they are still young and have so much left to live for. And in a way they'd be eternally young then even after death cuz they never got to grow old.

Anyway, I'm really excited to hear your thoughts on this! I just loved how the song fit perfectly. I didn't even realize it myself at first but when I did I knew I had to share it because it just has this ethereal melancholy to it that I can see the H8 all feeling, individually and grouped together, as the apocalypse happens.

First of all I just want to say that I love the song forever young ever since I heard one direction sing and I haven’t grown out of my love for that song because of them. (Unrelated but I bet you can’t guess which one direction member is my favorite)

Anyway, I love your interpretation and I can definitely see all of this based on the side story I posted and just the story in general!

For the one line of “Sooner or later, they all will be gone. Why don’t they stay young?” I think it could also be applied to Reader’s thoughts about the H7, especially when they’re struggling to stop Vanya from causing the apocalypse. She didn’t know if they would stop Vanya and if she would see her friends again. She didn’t even know back at the bowling alley if that would be the last time she was with them. Reader knows that someday they’ll be gone but is coming to terms with the fact that it’s probably sooner than later due to Vanya’s apocalypse. And the question of why don’t they stay young is less so of pain like losing the UA but more so trying to comfort herself in the case the apocalypse does happen. They’re young and together and so why not be young?

Also I like to think of the lyrics “Let's dance in style, Let's dance for a while, Heaven can wait, we're only watching the skies, Hoping for the best but expecting the worst” in terms of Five and Reader as well. As a common theme throughout the story the two of them enjoy dancing together as it distracts them from the reality of what is going on. I like to think of these lines as Five coping with the impending 2019 apocalypse. He’s trying to enjoy being back in reader’s life again and distracting himself with her presence but he knows what happens after the world ends. Time is ticking towards doomsday and although he’s hoping he can stop it the closer it gets the more he expects the worse.

Anyway those are some of my thoughts but I love all that you presented and of course I love you too♥️

[darlingdtarot]

8/8/2021 - New Moon In Leo Rituals & Horoscopes For All Signs

The New Moon is here again to remind us to let go of ideas that no longer serve us. It's about wiping the slate clean and setting intention on the rest of the month. Are you excited to start a new chapter? Each sign is going to experience new heights of happiness, emotional security, and financial bliss. It might not always be easy, but it will always be worth it. This is a great time to show off your confident side and get into a deeper level of Self-Expression. You are called to feel more confident in your own skin and as the amazing individual you are. There is truly only one you on this entire planet – embrace that! Those that are going through quarantines again, or just find themselves in the house more often, wear those fancy outfits in your closet that has been catching dust! Get it out, dust off your nicest shoes, and get dolled up. You don't need an excuse to feel good about yourself, Darling. Now is a great time to take pictures for social media as well, as the sign's physical attractiveness will be heightened during this Leo New Moon. Follow your passions and hobbies too, as it's important to express your creativity.

Working on manifestations will be amazing during this time as well, so make sure to be utilizing the Law Of Attraction! This could be through Manifestation Journals, Meditations, or Vision Boards. Making a Vision Board by cutting out images and pasting them onto a piece of paper or a literal poster-board will help you manifest easier as it will focus your mind each day on visualizing your goals and desires. You got this!

Rituals that you can do during the Leo New Moon:

Along with the upcoming changing of leaves (depending on where you live), us too are going through a change during this New Moon to leave behind what no longer serves us. Yellow and Red are really important colors during this New Moon, as it symbolizes Confidence, Self-Fulfillment, Expression, Self-Comfort, and Joy. You can wear these colors throughout the month leading up to the Full Moon for added luck.

A Spiritual Bath might be something that would be wonderful to be implemented. You can add flowers, herbs, essential oil, bathing salts, and/or crystals to make the perfect spiritual cleanse. Sunflower scented candles are going to be very important as well – so if you're needing a new smell for the month, this will be a great time to utilize Sunflower Candles for manifestation! There are other scents as well that are just as important over this time.

Scents / Flowers You Can Utilize:

Lemon

Sunflower

Lemongrass

Dandelion

Crystals To Charge During The New Moon in Leo:

Yellow Aventurine

Citrine

Honey Calcite

Golden Hematoid

Amber

Carnelian

Tigers Eye

Leave these on a towel in a windowsill on the night of the New Moon to charge in the energy. The next day, place the crystals near your bath as you take it – or near your bed / in your purse for added optimism and comfort throughout the month. Remember that not all crystals can be put in the water, so make sure to look it up before you dip them in! If your crystal is water-hardy, you can place it directly into the bath as you soak.

For those that have gardens, consider planting wild flowers, sunflowers, gladiolus, etc. (Depending on where you are!)

Horoscopes for Each Sign and Element over the New Moon in Taurus:

Please make sure to check your Sun, Moon, Rising, and Venus Signs as you might resonate more with their energies. :)

EARTH: Ace Of Wands – Earth Signs are going to feel renewed and as if the fires of their passions are finally alight again. You're going to be receiving a lot of messages and ideas during this time, so trust what you come up with as creativity is going to be through the roof. If you have craft supplies that you haven't touched in a while, Earth Signs, get ready to start crafting. The energy this Leo New Moon is bringing in for you will help you to soar and reach greater heights within your hobbies, workplace, and imagination. Others will feel compelled to pick up an instrument that has been laying around catching dust for a while. Express yourself! Some Earth Sign's might start feeling compelled to play the field and date around a little to see what's out there – go for it! Remember to wear protection though if you aren't planning on getting pregnant during this time of reignited passions!

Virgo: The Star – Virgos are going to be feeling more hopeful over this New Moon in Leo. You might have felt a bit downtrodden or as if everything were spoiled, but now it's finally coming back together. It's a relief in so many ways, because after being told for so long that you'd be okay, you're finally starting to see things 'Getting Better'. It was something that took a while, but peace of mind is here to stay for the rest of the year, Virgo. Rest assured on THAT. Clarity will also be coming to those that have asked for a sign recently in regards to a situation you're stuck on. It's as if the Universe is finally handing you the new pair of glasses that you had ordered and had been waiting on. You'll be able to see things crystal clear, and in a way that you might not have before. Can we say Perspective Shift? Virgos, remember to take care of yourself too! Spiritual baths are SO important during this time period! Drinking coconut water and bathing with coconut scented washes will be vital right now as it will cleanse you.

Taurus: 10 Of Wands – You're overworking and overloading yourself with chores and things to do, Taurus. Over this New Moon in Leo you're trying to take on too much. I keep hearing Spirit saying, “You're Biting Off More Than You Can Chew”. As proud as Spirit is that you're wanting to conquer the world and take on as much as you can – They want you to remember that the name of the game right now is to pace yourself and take your time on the tasks in front of you. Rome wasn't built overnight, so stop making yourself go on endlessly like a workhorse. Yes, you're in the homestretch, but that is even more of a reason to take your time with tying up those loose ends. Work Smarter – Not Harder. For other Taurus that are taking on their friend's and family's responsibilities – you're being asked to focus on yourself as opposed to trying to fit in one more task to appease someone else. Instead of taking on those side missions right now, why not follow your main story-line for a bit? There's no harm in saying no every now and again; especially with all that you already do for those around you. For one Taurus in particular, you cook and clean for those around you constantly without praise or recognition. It's almost expected of you to drop your entire life just to do that. Again – it's okay to say no, or just to decide to order take-out for the night.

Capricorn: Queen Of Wands - Capricorn's are being asked during this New Moon period to use your passions wisely. Now is the time to really put your mind to what you want to accomplish as it's going to fall into your lap quicker than you expect. The World really IS your Oyster, Capricorn, Remember that! Some are embarking on brand new business ideas. I'm seeing for some starting a new Bakery, a local Shop in your town, or an online store with products unique to you and your calling. There is something very niche about what you do, Capricorn, and you're excited to corner the market with your ideas. You might be looking into business licenses, copyright, and trademarking. You're deciding what the best way to tackle your dreams would be – and if anyone can do it, Capricorn – it's you! Your business oriented mind will focus brilliantly at the task at hand, so make sure to trust your instincts here. It really is a case of You Knowing What's Best. Trust that you have what it takes to achieve your goals. You're brilliant, you Sea Goat, you.

AIR: 8 Of Pentacles – Wow, Air Signs! You're focusing on getting to work right now, as you know that whatever you're putting your mind to is going to be abundant and successful. You're feeling energized to get to work, which is a welcomed change compared to the last few weeks where you have been feeling tired and drained. So long to energies of exhaustion or frustration – you're headed towards smooth sailing now! And rightfully so, if you ask me! You're ready to put in the work! I keep hearing Spirit saying, “The Squeaky Wheel Gets The Oil”, so you might decide to focus on things that you feel have been put off for way too long. They can no longer be ignored, they have to be taken care of now. For some this might have been projects that you procrastinated on, a cabinet you never fixed, or a leak in a pipe ; now is the time to attend to these things! Putting yourself on your grind is going to be incredibly influential during this time, so make sure not to hold yourself back!

Gemini: Death – Wow, Gemini! Things are changing for you on a molecular level. You might have felt it coming for a long time now, but you're starting to become more open to the idea of endings and change. You're deciding what you want to stay in your life and what you know needs to go. For some that are leaving a situation, perspective, or relationship behind, you're feeling excited to be starting on a new chapter in your life. It's as if you've grown tired of reading that same story over and over again and you're ready to take on another book entirely. You're the main character and now you're really starting to recognize it. Take those risks and go on those adventures, Gemini. I'm hearing, “Life Is Too Short To Not Do What You Love”. Make sure that you're taking that into consideration today as you go forward, Gemini! Only go towards the things that you know feel right to your story-line!

Libra: 2 Of Wands – Libra's are going to be faced with a choice over this New Moon. Do they embark on something different than they've always known? Or do they decide to stay the course and continue down the path that might have not worked out so well in the past? Regardless of what you choose, this is a time of starting over fresh. The New Moon will bring brand new energies your way that will feel brilliant, vibrant, and uplifting. You'll be inspired to go down the route less traveled, but give yourself the space to do so. Be brave, Libra! Some of the best things are worth the risk! For other's, you're deciding to go down a new career or academic path that you know will bring you to your ultimate happiness. Don't put yourself on the back burner and go towards it! Regardless of what others have to say, you know best. (AKA don't listen to your Great Aunt Linda saying, “But you were supposed to be a Lawyer!” If you weren't happy in that field, that's all that's needed to be said.)

Aquarius: Strength – Aquarius, you're really channeling your inner strength right now to go the distance. You might have been applying yourself more recently to your career or the environment around you, which has been making you feel as if you either need everything on a time constraint or you need to take every little thing seriously. Spirit is telling you it's okay to lighten up and let your hair down. For some I'm also hearing, “Comfortable And Functional Can Still Be Fashionable”. Other Aquarians are feeling more comfortable expressing their emotions too as you're letting yourself be more vulnerable during this time. You're feeling affectionate and sentimental, craving more attention and love during this time. You might find yourself craving connection with others – and wanting to meet new people. Those in relationships are going to take their time more to understand their partner's and their own individual feelings, which will lead to more common ground. Now is the time for emotional healing and understanding!

WATER: The Magician – Water Signs you are being asked to trust your natural abilities as they are a gift. You have all the resources that you need in front of you to accomplish your aspirations. For some I am sensing that there was competition in a workplace environment. Spirit is showing me someone starting a candle business, only for another person to then follow suit. It's out of jealousy and spite, and not something you need to concern yourself with. Copycat energy is really strong here. Water Signs are manifesting right now on such a high level, that they can be expected to have a harvest in soon. For some you might be bringing in a romantic partner, new financial growth, or new opportunities. You'll be excited to see things that you wished for coming true. I keep hearing someone saying, “This Is Exactly What I Asked For, But Better!” Things are working out in your favor, Water Signs. Keep putting in intention and give it some time – it will pay off.

Cancer: The Emperor – Cancer's are really harnessing their Divine Masculine energies and feeling determined to take the bull by the horns over the Leo New Moon. Leo ignites your need for self-expression and freedom within your passions at this time. You're not letting anyone hold you back or put you down any longer – you know what you deserve and need. You're really starting to feel in your element, and you're wondering why you didn't realize you could accomplish this sooner. (“There's Nothing Holding Me Back” by Shawn Mendes energy here strong!) With the number 8 being so strong and prevalent within the month and the day, it really emphasizes the fact that there is a lot of forward movement going on. You're tired of playing it small and not going home with a good prize. “Go Big Or Go Home” is what I keep hearing for you, Cancer.

Pisces: The Empress – Pisces, you're going to be embracing your Divine Feminine energies in the most beautiful of ways. You'll be nurturing both yourself and those around you. You're giving yourself room to grow and consider other avenues of creation. Pisces, you might start to notice that your peers and new acquaintances want to open up to you and tell you their entire life stories. Let them – you never know where you might gain a little bit of insight on your own life while helping another. Trust your intuition during this time too, because your spiritual abilities will be heightened during this New Moon. Pisces might notice seeing more shadows, shapes, or spiritual messages. Don't fear; you're protected, loved, and divinely guided. You might feel guided towards getting more plants for your home – go for it! Bring nature in!

Scorpio: Ace Of Pentacles – A prosperous new beginning is yours, Scorpio! This is going to be the stable, firm, and financially free foundation that you always dreamed of. This is something that you have been manifesting for a long time. You might have had blockages in regards to money, but your luck is changing now. For some Scorpio's you'll be receiving a job offer from a friend. This friend could have a short, brown bob haircut, and they're going to be very excited over the idea of working with you. Take this offer seriously as it will provide so much excitement and comfort into your life! Other's will notice that there are going to be an influx of interviews and job offers over all. I am also hearing that while you work at your new job, you will be provided with more chances to travel as well, Scorpio. Go for it! You deserve it for how much work you've put in.

FIRE: The Wheel Of Fortune – A lucky period of time is coming into your life, Fire Signs. Are you ready to embrace this exciting turn of events? It's going to be a wild ride, so buckle in! You're going to notice that your luck is changing for the better. This is going to make you feel inspired to take large leaps of faith into a brand new lifestyle. No more small potatoes, Fire Signs. You're ready for the wheels of fate to finally turn in your favor after a long period of feeling shut out in the cold by the Universe. After a perspective shift, you're understanding how lucky and talented you are – and gaining a new perspective of gratitude for life. I keep hearing as well that Fire Signs are going to have the Mitas Touch, where everything they touch will turn to gold. Now is a brilliant time to focus on academic and financial goals. Why not make a Vision Board of everything that you want to bring in over the next year, Fire Signs?

Leo: Judgment – You're closing up Karmic Cycles and breaking Ancestral Curses, Leo. It isn't always easy to have to do this, but it is something that has to happen in order for you to get to the next level. It's okay to feel frustrated, angry, or overwhelmed during this time. Feel your emotions and express them to those around you as they are your Soul Family, and they genuinely want to help you in any way that they can. Leos are also going to be realizing who is actually in their corner. I am hearing that for a few Leos, you're going to understand that someone you thought was there for you no matter what, never really had your back to begin with. Process the pain, grieve the loss of a friend, and continue forward knowing you are doing your best every day. Some Leo's are understanding and identifying longstanding self-sabotaging energies and are deciding to nip it in the bud. Good for you, Leo!

Sagittarius: The Devil – Sagittarius might be dealing with some mental worries and anxieties. The Universe is wanting you to lighten your mental load and decompress some. It's okay to have some alone time just focusing on your relaxation. You don't need to always be on the go or doing something, Sagittarius. Even in different Mythologies and religions the God's took rest – set aside this idea that you don't deserve some rest and relaxation. Other's might be struggling with addictions, but you're going to find it easier over the next few months to distance yourself from self-sabotaging tendencies or toxic patterns. Good for you, Sagittarius! I'm proud of you for recognizing what in your life isn't fulfilling you anymore – and for wanting better going forward. Some in toxic relationships are being asked to take some time to travel or be away from this person to get a clear head on what it means to be healthier by yourself. (You will feel a LOT lighter without this individual around)

Aries: The Tower – There is a major shake-up in your life emerging, Aries! Don't feel scared or intimidated by this, as it's actually a great thing! This is to realign you with where you actually have to be. Spirit is showing me an image of a dog on a leash, getting wrapped around a tree while running while it's owner is frantically trying to unwrap them and saying “No, This Way, Honey!” The Universe is untangling you from a messy situation, and it's going to be for the better. Whether this be through an unexpected job or opportunity loss, a move, or something that you see as unfortunate; it might just be a new opportunity to start over fresh. Now's your chance to turn a new leaf and go towards a firmer foundation for yourself. Some Aries might realize the connections (both platonic and romantic) aren't the healthiest for you. A friend might decide to betray your trust or kindness. You're being asked to let this rug be pulled out from under your feet, so a newer one can be set in it's place. After all, when one door closes – another one opens.

[badass-queer-couples-battle]

Propaganda:

For Orufrey: "They're tragic wlw who have devoted their lives to each other since they were kids. They live together, they cook together, they're raising four girls together and they're doing the best they can. Olruggio would do anything for Qifrey if Qifrey would just Let Him 😭 but Qifrey is dead-set on protecting Olruggio and keeping him safe and in the dark no matter what it costs... i cant 😭..."

"Man I don't know they just have the vibes. They have toxic yuri energy but they are two grown men. They've known each other since their apprentice days and have stuck together ever since. Qifrey's main magic type was something he took up because Olruggio proposed that he learned to control the water he feared. They live together away from most of society with Qifrey's four apprentices, living the sapphic cottagecore (ateliercore???) dream. Qifrey, due to the fact that his eyesight is very much failing, something which is very problematic when it comes to witches, who need their eyesight more than most, is getting very desperate to get all he lost to the Brimhats, the witches who took one of his eyes and his memories, and Olruggio ends up noticing this pursuit and is implied to have done this more than once. Qifrey does not want Olruggio to know about both his failing eyesight and his goals, so he ends up completely wiping Olruggio's memory of those things, and laments that Olruggio is a kind person, and one who would most likely forgive him again, but also one who would try to save him, even when he didn't want to be saved. He also apologized right up until the moment Olruggio's memories of his secret were gone. In general I think chapter 40 is the somewhat toxic guy yuri chapter ever. I'm very tired so I do not know how to explain any of this, I just thought "wow Orufrey reminds me of this one poll I saw on Tumblr" and then spent three days straight hunting for your blog before completely forgetting my reasoning for Orufrey being yuri right before I submitted this."

Propaganda for Hualian: "Xie Lian is a god and Hua Cheng is his devoted believer, which is very yuri. They've also been separated for 800 years, which is very yuri too. Oh and they've been through The Horrors! With one of them forced to helplessly watch as the other suffered unimaginable pain! Now that's extremely yuri of them, if magical girl animes are to be believed..."

"What's more yuri than 800 years of devotion? Nothing that's what! Ghosts usually move on and disappear after a century of so, Hua Cheng is fueled by love so strong he very literally crawled out of hell, became a Ghost King, fought and defeated 33 gods and searched for his love for centuries until they were finally able to meet again. Hua Cheng and Xie Lian are so yuri there's an entire section of the fandom that just draws/writes them as women, not too weird since being separated and then connected by fate to ultimately defeat a really powerful evil god together is sapphic culture"

[sometipsygnostalgic]

It was literally the inspiration for my post, but I agree entirely that Scorpia is the most distant. Because for Entrapta, they both wanted that friendship to develop, but during the brief chance they had, she was too conflict avoidant, neither able to stick up for Entrapta or tell her what she was doing wrong during a crucial moment, and Entrapta couldn’t say what she truly felt until it was too late. Then with Catra, even though they do hug at the end and you don’t get enough time to see what their dynamic would grow into, the most natural direction is “we care about each other, but we’ve hurt each other a lot and both moved forward with our lives, and we know we can’t get that close again”.  Scorpia needs to work on the skills to explain how she feels about her friends and, like you said, to tell them off when they’ve messed up.  

Meanwhile with Catra and Entrapta, I can totally see them being closer to each other than to Scorpia. They’re more in the same boat. Hell, Catra even LOOKS UP to Entrapta in some ways. So they can understand each other a lot better than other characters can. But at the same time, their initial friendship was a very messed up dynamic, barely a friendship at all, and the scars from that are still there. It could be very easy for them to hurt each other. Catra has a lot of pushed-down anger about Entrapta’s special treatment in the Horde, Entrapta has a lot of pushed-down grief about getting rejected out of nowhere and left on Beast Island. When I was writing my ficlet “Finding Family”, I didn’t EXPECT that they would accidentally hurt each other, but that’s what happened as a result of their heart to heart. It wrote itself!!!

With Best Friend Squad… I was ranting to my friend last night, at the same time as I was developing THIS idea, that the whole “wooo yeah 4-man best friend squad!!!” felt a bit cheap and forced. That the concept of there BEING a Best Friend Squad was grown away from at the same time that Super Pal Trio was in season 4. You’ve been having all the Rebellion characters being much closer than they were and it doesn’t feel like it fits anymore. (Nevermind that BFS is barely holding itself together, that Catra and Glimmer have an insecure footing with the others, and that Entrapta’s being working closely with them on the space ship as one of Bow’s best friends but is very much NOT included, which makes sense from a super best friendship sleepover hugging angle  - “NOPE” -   but not from a wider show angle, but maybe I’m just being petty.)

Basically it’s a logical conclusion from season 1 – Adora finally having all her friends  together in one group – but it doesn’t fit what the show became. It didn’t respect all the conflicts that we’d seen, namely, Glimmer and Adora, or the fact Catra did make her own friends outside of Adora and has unique, if difficult, relationships with them. Having no closure on SPT or on Glimmer and Adora makes this sting a lot more.  

So from my perspective, the most interesting direction to take BFS is, what if it ISN’T what it was before? Glimmer has changed a hell of a lot; She sees how happy Catra makes Adora, she sees how close Bow and Adora have grown over the space mission, and she feels like she’s become very distant from Adora and sad that she was never able to make her feel comfortable the way Catra can. Glimmer would recognise that her and Adora’s fighting from the last season means they’re holding each other at arm’s length now, they really love and care for each other and want to emotionally support each other but they’ll never be as close as they were. It’s the same energy as Catra and Scorpia, two almost-lovers setting hard boundaries after a painful breakup.  

Like with SPT, I think it’s a lot more interesting if BFS also has some cracks and some ways which they’ll never be the same. But I see the way the two groups bond as being very different; BFS is all about the friendship rituals and the having fun and playing around doing everything together, so in that regard it makes sense they kidnap Catra and force her into these rituals, while a healthy SPT is about hanging out adjacent to one another and the occasional heartfelt venting, which is a far more comfortable if riskier dynamic.    

…..Or, if Glimmer is around, they band together to annoy the crap out of her.

those tags are a really good way of reading it but just so you know i nearly started crying.

i dunno, sometimes friends get so close to each other that they end up really hurting each other, and then you make up and become friends again but that time of being really close has passed and things are a lot healthier but not nearly as intense as they used to be, and you wonder, if you were a better friend, would you still be close? but at the same time it's not as simple as that. sometimes it's a huge number of factors on both sides. sometimes people just grow apart and you can't control it.

anyway im going to draw spt cuddle piles to ease the pain

akldujfhglakjshdf, not my intention to make you cry!!!!

But also, yeah. Exactly. It can be heartbreaking in it's own unique way to spend a fun afternoon with some friends and afterwards realize that if you were closer (the way you used to be) that you would've kept hanging out. Maybe there's things you used to do together that you wouldn't anymore. You can trust them and love them, but still be afraid of them breaking your trust or hurting you (or afraid of yourself doing the same to them).

I think the Super Pal Trio falling into that would've been such a wonderful way to talk about that with a broad audience, but especially kids. Losing friends is hard. It hurts and it sucks and it's sensitive, and because so many societies don't place enough importance in platonic friendships they aren't given the sort of space that a romantic breakup is. There's this feeling that you're supposed to suck it up and not be so hurt about losing a friend. You can cry about a romantic breakup in public, but as an adult (at least for me) there's a lot of perceived pressure to get over it. Like, no, I will not!

Super Pal Trio being a friend group that does get to reconnect but never getting to be the way they were before would really be nice to see handled as a serious topic instead of as a gag. Catra regrets that when she had the chance to really be their close friend, she was too hurt to be able to. Entrapta regrets not verbalizing her love for them more, regrets that she didn't show more of her care. Scorpia regrets the way she forced things to happen, or ignored their wants. All three of them are in a "If I'd been a better friend, would we still be closer? I miss the way I used to feel with you and for you."

I see Entrapta and Catra as being closer post canon than Scorpia is with either of them. Things might feel easiest when the three are together, but Scorpia has never gotten the same sort of sit and talk it out situation with either of them. She had the chance with Entrapta but was too scared of being outcast and shunned for liking someone no one else did at the time, so she didn't stand up for her friend or their friendship. But she never had that chance with Catra, and when it finally came up the first time Scorpia did her usual thing. She was trying to be a good friend and let Catra know she forgives her, but accidentally instead cuts her off/talks over her and invalidates Catra during it too. I can see Catra eventually being hurt about the way it went and Scorpia feeling more and more guilty once it's pointed out but not knowing how to fix it.

I love her, but Scorpia is pretty conflict avoidant even at the end of the series, and it's something she needs to work on to be a better friend. Not just to stick up for herself more, but to also have uncomfortable conversations that are serious and heavy. She has to learn to sit with feeling bad about something and let her friends feel bad when they need to. I keep threatening to write Scorpia meta about what she did wrong and not doing it, but I feel pretty strongly that, realistically? The Super Pal Trio can't be what it was, and they can't even move forward until Scorpia has done some more work. Catra and Entrapta are shown in show learning more, and while Scorpia does learn to value herself more and lie less to herself about bad things we don't get to see her practice that with others.

[punkscowardschampions]

Nancy & Rio

Nancy: I heard from Edie, so you can pass that good news on, like Rio: Yeah? Rio: Did she say where she was or anything? Nancy: Obviously not Nancy: Why talk about herself when she can have more fun being a bitch about everyone else, right? Rio: At least you heard from her, something to tell the 'rents anyway, better than radio silence Rio: that's about how it usually goes, yeah Nancy: Yeah Rio: Cheers for letting us know Rio: how's everything? Nancy: The baby's fine. Ro's Ro Rio: Yeah Rio: She been to sleep yet? Nancy: Of course not Rio: Didn't think so Rio: She'll crash eventually Nancy: She should be medicated Nancy: But you know Rio: Not if she's gonna breastfeed Rio: if she can produce milk Nancy: She blatantly won't Nancy: Jesus, if she doesn't want drugs I'll take them Nancy: Fight my mum for them, like Rio: Shame Daddy hasn't put in an appearance yet, could really come through for you all by the sounds Nancy: I'm not that desperate Nancy: Not yet Rio: He'll be gutted Nancy: I'd like to think he'd be a bit too preoccupied to notice me Rio: Unlikely Rio: newborns are time consuming for the Ma sure, but boring lbr, not gonna pique his interest Nancy: I'm unlikely to either though Nancy: This is hardly a club atmosphere Nancy: Shame, like Rio: He's willing to liven up a baby shower Rio: can't be tamed, truly Nancy: Don't Nancy: I can only repress so much and I'm at my limit here Rio: Weren't that bad, like Nancy: Still Nancy: Thanks to your sister I'm in no mood Rio: Whaddya gonna do Nancy: How or what do I know Rio: Well it's over now Nancy: If only we could say that about the rest of this mess Nancy: Did Buster send you his flight details yet? Rio: Can't cry about it forever Rio: she'll get on with it Rio: Drew'll do whatever he does, life goes on Rio: Yeah, did he you Nancy: None of that is good enough, but yeah sure Nancy: Of course he didn't Nancy: He doesn't need me to pick him up from the airport, like Nancy: Priorities Rio: Maybe not Rio: but that's how it is regardless Rio: True enough Nancy: The defeatist attitude is catching, yeah? Okay Rio: What? Nancy: None of us are gonna care about how much of a mess this is anymore then? It's run its course Rio: She's a grown woman Rio: and it's her life Rio: What do you expect me to do Rio: or you Nancy: I don't expect you to do anything Nancy: Just be happy that my brother is coming back for this Nancy: That's what matters, obviously Rio: Why have you got a problem with me suddenly? Nancy: I don't Nancy: You know that's what important Rio: Well I'm not allowed to see the baby so yeah, to me it is Rio: if you want me to rock up and make Ro worse, like, I still won't so sorry to disappoint Nancy: How do you think that's what I want? Nancy: Oh my god Rio: Well you're pissed off at someone, babe and you're directing it at me Rio: and I haven't done anything else wrong, unless I have so Nancy: How are you not pissed off at everyone? That's my point Rio: Because it's exhausting Rio: and I don't care to change her mind of me, she can think what she likes Nancy: It's exhausting trying to hold everything together too Nancy: It's exhausting every way Rio: I know Rio: that's why I've stopped Rio: call it defeatist but it wasn't working anyway Nancy: I don't want to do this anymore Nancy: Maybe Edie's right Nancy: Or you are with using my brother as your escape hatch Rio: Fuck you Rio: that's not what I'm doing Nancy: No? Rio: No Nancy: Well then maybe you should Nancy: He does with you, to deal with being there Rio: Grow up Rio: She's 15 Rio: What's your excuse? Nancy: What's your problem? Nancy: You love him, you lean on him, that's how it works Rio: You have no idea Nancy: I know how relationships work I'm not a total idiot Rio: if you think it's using each other for a means to an end then no Rio: you really don't Nancy: What so you're mad 'cause I put the word use in there? Nancy: Okay its the wrong word Nancy: I'm sorry Rio: Whatever, forget about it Nancy: No Rio: Then what Rio: say what you wanna say Nancy: I don't want to fall out with you Nancy: I need you, okay? Nancy: So let me fix it Rio: We're not gonna fall out Rio: it's alright Nancy: It's not Nancy: Nothing is Nancy: I'm as much of a mess as everything else Rio: Yeah Rio: I know Rio: but I really don't have any solutions, I'm sorry, like Rio: I really am Nancy: It's not your job Rio: Nope Rio: it's no one's but we can still try Rio: or not Rio: either way is fine Nancy: I don't know what to do Nancy: Nothing I've tried works Nancy: I can't even talk to Edie, I'm out of my depth with everything Nancy: Jesus Rio: Well, no one can talk to Edie Rio: It's always on her terms, she's just good at that, it keeps everyone at a distance she's happy with Rio: but Rio: what else do you need to deal with, right now, like? Nancy: It was like I was back on the playground, like oh she's horrible to me I gotta be horrible back Nancy: Am I a child? No Nancy: And you were there the other night too so Rio: You can't beat yourself up about it Rio: It's what she wanted Rio: and you still tried, so it's something, though it doesn't feel worth it, I'm sure Nancy: Yeah, I guess Rio: It is Rio: My Ma will appreciate it if literally nothing else Nancy: It's fucked 'cause so much of what she said about me is true Rio: Don't mean she had to say it the way she did Rio: if at all Rio: 'cos I've been there, I know how it goes Nancy: What does it say about me though that I'm such a mess she doesn't even know me and she knows it Rio: She pays more attention than you'd reckon she could Rio: being gone and that Nancy: Clearly Nancy: What a headfuck Rio: Yeah Rio: I ain't gonna apologize on her behalf, you know but Rio: sorry it's got you this way now Nancy: It's not just her Nancy: I wish I could handle her all the blame but Nancy: hand* Nancy: I've made plenty of my own mistakes on top Rio: Yeah Rio: I know you're struggling right now Rio: and I know the club only ever seems like the answer once you're drunk enough, if that Rio: but I'm fucked if I have any better ideas, you know Nancy: I don't think I can ever go back there Nancy: It's so embarrassing Nancy: Thank god this town has plenty of others Rio: You know Rio: they see it every night too, babe Nancy: Okay, I'll take that but if I see that girl again I will die Rio: Not to be that bitch but do you even remember her face Rio: the snaps already dead, like Nancy: Ouch Nancy: I can't forget 'cause she's texted me since Nancy: I'm such a mess even strangers have to check in and check up Rio: Oh dear Rio: at least she's being Rio: nice? Rio: Yeah, that is shaming, no way 'round it Nancy: You don't even know Nancy: But don't worry I won't give you details Rio: You can if you wanna vent but yeah, also feel free to take it to your grave Rio: again, been there, most of us have Nancy: I don't think you have though Nancy: That's what I'm saying Nancy: We were having fun, I thought, but then she rejected me 'cause I was too drunk Nancy: I can't do anything right, literally Rio: Ahh Rio: awkward but at least she did the decent thing, like Rio: it's rare people do, sadly Nancy: Buster has slept with how many girls on nights out, like Nancy: I can't even get one Nancy: It's depressing Rio: Probably don't make it a competition, like Rio: if the vibe ain't good, people are gonna pick up on it Nancy: I know you're right Nancy: But god Rio: I know Rio: it's frustrating then it's like, kill me Rio: I have been there, just the once like but Rio: I know how it is Nancy: Give me a war story I need to be cheered Nancy: Thanks Rio: I don't think it will 'cos literally your brother only lad decent enough and you get enough of his heroics Rio: hmm Rio: oh, I can tell you about the time I rode his friend James because that's enough to make anyone feel better about their life Nancy: OH MY GOD Nancy: James as in the boy Chloe is with? Rio: Mhmm Nancy: GROSS Nancy: I can't believe they are having a baby together Rio: I know Rio: Wanna feel sorry for a kid Rio: That's the one, like Nancy: Honestly Nancy: That has actually made me feel less sad Nancy: Thanks, Ri Nancy: Sorry I was such a bitch Rio: Don't mention it Rio: Nothing laughing at the misfortune of others can't fix Rio: Kinda Nancy: Can we mention why the hell you let James near you though? Nancy: That needs to be addressed Rio: 😒 that makes it so much worse Rio: lord Rio: cut a long story short, boyf of the time left me stranded and i needed a bed for the night Rio: bad as it sounds, so you are free to judge Nancy: Oh Nancy: Why didn't you go to ours if you were in London? Rio: Well, I was trying to avoid your brother so yeah Rio: fail all 'round Nancy: It's my house too Nancy: You can always go there even if he's being a prick Rio: Thanks for the retroactive offer, babe Rio: appreciate it Rio: as much as it'd be a laugh to come for her mans, not gonna repeat Nancy: I don't even like boys but even I can tell he wouldn't be good in bed Rio: 😬 Rio: oh god don't remind me Rio: the flashbacks 😂 Nancy: Sorry babe Nancy: He always used to flirt with me Nancy: So I'll join you in the gross flashbacks, like Rio: yeah buster said Rio: actual deviant, like Nancy: The threesome jokes, oh lord Nancy: Why James Rio: He's tragic Rio: Can't even wish Chloe on him though Nancy: I bet she'll agree to get another girl in Nancy: As long as she doesn't call me, like Rio: Ew God Rio: the phonecall no one needs Nancy: She's so bi curious we all know it Rio: 😂 you reckon Nancy: That homophobia is coming from somewhere, and in this century, come on Rio: You right Rio: gonna come out on James in like 10 years time Nancy: At least her kid might end up with one decent mum Nancy: I'm still not volunteering though Nancy: Sorry Chlo Rio: Oh snap Rio: sure one of her friends will be down Rio: cute accessory if nowt else Nancy: They've all kissed each other at enough parties Nancy: Don't start me on that Rio: I mean Rio: guilty Rio: at least I backed it up? 😬 Nancy: You need to explain yourself before I fight you Rio: 😂 but we just made up Nancy: And you weren't bullying me for liking girls then kissing them to attract boys, but Nancy: Still side eyeing you Nancy: I was gonna ask what you were doing tonight but now we have drama so, like Rio: Damn, it be like that Rio: I won't even tell you I'm free then Nancy: Invite me somewhere and I'll forgive you Nancy: Maybe Nancy: 'Cause my mum and yours are swapping babysitting duties for my aunt and I don't wanna be home for her return really Rio: Alright Rio: see what I can do Rio: you can crash at ours if nothing else, what's another head Nancy: No drinking and no clubs, yeah? Nancy: There's my only rules Rio: Got you Nancy: I need a girlfriend so you can stop taking me on dates Rio: Oh Rio: Charming Nancy: You know me and my brother don't like sharing Rio: 😏 Yeah okay Rio: nothing personal, is it? Nancy: You know I love you, babe Nancy: Not gonna say more than him but Rio: If you not willing to put up the fight, fine Rio: so defeatist, god 😉 Nancy: I deserve that okay, bitch Rio: Yeah, now we're even Nancy: I'm so sad, be nice to me Rio: I see where you're going wrong, babe Rio: that's no chat up line is it Nancy: Oh my god Nancy: Are you really hate criming me again? Nancy: Girl stop Rio: I'm giving you advice to get bitches Rio: literally could not be more of an ally thanks Nancy: I'm yet to see any actual advice Nancy: Fake fan Rio: Only 'cos you won't let me Rio: call me out for queerbaiting Nancy: When have I stopped you? Rio: It's in your eyes, babe Rio: 👀 Nancy: You know I'm shy Nancy: The eye contact is very intense, babe Rio: 😏 Tips Nancy: If you were that committed to helping me you wouldn't have taught my brother to kiss Nancy: I had to learn on my own, outrageous Rio: Like you would ever Rio: do you remember that kid who used to hang around us Rio: we couldn't think of his name Nancy: The one who dared you? Nancy: Sure Nancy: Sully Nancy: I don't know why I can remember that and not what I did earlier Rio: Omg Rio: that's it! Rio: Nice one, babe Nancy: He was so Nancy: Well, weird Rio: You know Rio: was dubious how often he was in the pub, tbf Rio: not your grandad Rio: idek what punter was his old man Nancy: I feel like it was that man who always left his teeth behind Nancy: Creeped me out Nancy: Not saying it's why I'm gay but sir, please don't Rio: 😂 Rio: ew Rio: root of all your trauma Rio: you have a good memory, I'd forgot so much of this Nancy: What I literally don't have in short term I make up for in recall, apparently Nancy: Men are so gross Rio: Committing that to memory, gotcha Rio: the talent was not all that Rio: probably didn't think they were being judged by children tho Nancy: Do you remember that barmaid? She could be why you're straight by the same logic Rio: Oh my God, I do remember her Rio: literally reminds me of that bitch from the angel Rio: sue, sharon, whatever Rio: if she wouldn't be well past it by now i'd reckon it was her, telling me off still Nancy: Right?! Nancy: Buster never got in trouble, the prick Nancy: Which still hasn't changed Rio: 🙄 such a jammy lil lickarse Rio: bless Nancy: Golden boy forever Nancy: It's not my fault I was clumsy as hell Nancy: I hadn't grown into my tallness yet okay sorry Rio: aw Rio: like bambi on ice Rio: it's so sharon, woman hater forreal Rio: soz we were cute babe Nancy: Especially me, call me hun 💋 Nancy: 😂 Rio: 😂 Rio: i know u did not want her to lips you over me Rio: that's just a barefaced lie Nancy: True Nancy: But we aren't playing truth or dare now Rio: Guess that isn't tempting enough plans then? Rio: back to the drawing board Nancy: It'd be fun Nancy: Until you got too honest about my brother Nancy: Gross Rio: You control what you ask, so don't be nosy and we'll be fine 😜 Rio: Just come over then, I'll find a shitty chickflick on netflix, get some popcorn Nancy: Okay Nancy: Are you there now? Rio: Yep, I don't know who else is exactly but it's chill Rio: no doubt gracie and bills will clamour to go with mum Rio: but can maybe tempt 'em if we got some ice cream in Nancy: I'll let Grace do my nails Nancy: They are so chipped right now Rio: Now that's an offer Nancy: She can straighten my hair too if she wants Nancy: Not gonna resist Rio: Seriously, how could she Rio: like she working on commission with them things, I swear 😏 Nancy: I'll pay her in not loudly booing every time the man is on screen Rio: 😂 that's the spirit Nancy: I can't promise I won't make it gay whenever the 'best friend' appears but you know Nancy: What can you do when its not even subtext? Rio: Idk, go storyboard some fanfiction about it probably Rio: is that not how tween you would do Nancy: I don't even wanna write when school makes me, thank you Rio: You mean you had to whack it to porn like the rest of us heathens Rio: that's so sad Nancy: Yeah Nancy: No wonder I'm such a mess, like Rio: I hope you watched gay porn 'cos lesbian is bad Rio: like bad bad Nancy: Tell me something I don't know Nancy: But there are some lesbians making it these days Nancy: Taking the fanfiction up a notch, if you like Rio: that's something Rio: but we aren't watching porn with my little sisters, sorry Nancy: Good Nancy: If you wanna come on to me I know you can be more creative than that Rio: Throwing down the gauntlet like that alright Rio: I see you 😂 Nancy: Like I said, I need a girlfriend Rio: Yeah Rio: I'll get on Tinder for you, get the ball rollin' Nancy: Don't Nancy: That's not the kind of dares we're doing Rio: Fine Rio: but I'm taken n off limits, remember Nancy: 💔 Nancy: But sure Rio: 😘 heartbreaker forever Nancy: I'll text Sully about it Rio: 100% will dare you to like hey remember me Nancy: If we can find him Nancy: How many Sullivans are there? 1000s Rio: Banking on your encyclopedic memory and my sleuthing skillz, of course Nancy: I wish I knew his actual name like Nancy: Where are you? Was that teeth man your dad? Rio: So many questions left unanswered Rio: are you fit now Rio: should i have hit that Nancy: You should've kissed him instead Nancy: Maybe he'd still be part of the gang Rio: he should've tried harder Rio: wimp, like Nancy: He was trying pretty hard you were just paying more attention to Buster Rio: Shh Nancy: 🙄 Nancy: And I didn't see this coming Nancy: Okay then Rio: I mean Rio: If anyone should've Nancy: I'm an idiot Nancy: Moving on Rio: It's alright, it's not like I kept showing him how to kiss and you were like Rio: this game has been going on too long lads Nancy: Oh my god Nancy: Don't put mental images in my head, like Rio: you know we were avoiding each other Nancy: I know that's what you said Rio: You don't trust me? 😲 Rio: Rude Nancy: I'm just saying Nancy: I've said lots of things and not said even more Rio: Mysterious Rio: Imma get the truth Rio: Sleuthing Nancy: Not if that's literally the game, babe Nancy: You won't have to work very hard Rio: Gotta ask the right questions still Rio: don't downplay my hardwork Nancy: Yeah yeah Nancy: I'm doing my own making myself look presentable so Rio: aw for me? Rio: you didn't need to do that Nancy: More 'cause I don't need Gracie asking me why I've been crying Nancy: But you can still enjoy the view Rio: Oh babe Rio: dry your eyes Nancy: They are, but the mascara ain't letting me forget Nancy: Waterproof is such a lie Rio: Preach Nancy: I've spent so much money on so many different brands Nancy: Rude, like Rio: Practically funded the research, babe Rio: do they care, no Nancy: Seriously Nancy: Let me cry I'm stressed Rio: but well-dressed Rio: what really matters Nancy: Not right now, but you're easily impressed so Rio: 😱 Rio: Literally the rudest thing you've said to me Rio: get out Nancy: Sorry but you're dating Buster Rio: 😒 Rio: square up Nancy: No Nancy: You're small but fierce Rio: Yeah and we're brawling now Rio: 🥊 Nancy: Stop trying to gay bash me Rio: Stop thinking gay and mean are personality traits, bitch 😜 Nancy: Ouch Nancy: Now that was mean Rio: Got too real Rio: you did come for my mans Nancy: He's my twin, I have to Rio: 😂 Rio: Fair, just keep it behind my back too, like Nancy: Fine Nancy: Am I actually a bitch? Rio: No Nancy: You can tell me if I am, like Nancy: I won't start a real fight over it Rio: You aren't Rio: no more than you've got right to be Nancy: That just means I am but you like it 😏 okay Rio: Steady on Rio: it means you're fine Nancy: Alright Rio: Trust Nancy: I'm raiding our fridge for snacks to bring, anything you want? Nancy: Cupboards after Rio: hmm is there anything that contains carbs/sugar in your house Rio: 'cos that's all I'm feeling Nancy: I'm the one who shops for this house so yeah Rio: 🙌 Nancy: I'm literally looting before mum returns I feel like I'm about 10 years old Rio: That's the plan, baby Nancy: Take me back Nancy: I peaked too young clearly Nancy: All been going wrong since Rio: Oh hush Rio: you the same bad bitch you was then Nancy: 😂 Rio: i'm fr hoe Nancy: You're ridiculous Rio: 😑 Nancy: I've never been a bad bitch and you can't be mad about it Rio: Disagree Nancy: How and why? Rio: I'm not gonna be gay about it Rio: but you're funny and not afraid to be yourself with it, what's not bad about that Nancy: There'd be nothing bad about it if everyone else also thought it Rio: Who cares what they think Nancy: Um...me Nancy: Obviously Rio: Why Rio: like genuine Nancy: 'Cause I had so many girls telling me negatives so many years and I don't wanna believe that they are right Nancy: Other options would be nice Nancy: Other opinions too, like Rio: Fair enough Rio: but who do you reckon doesn't think that Nancy: Nobody's changed my mind that they got anything wrong about me yet Nancy: Homophobia aside Nancy: Quinn's the only one who liked me and I proved her wrong fast enough Rio: Plenty of people like you, Nance Rio: and more would if you were more open, that's the only reason you don't feel it Rio: but that don't mean it's bad, it's just statistics Nancy: Whatever, it is what it is Rio: Not whatever Rio: people like you Rio: you should like you Nancy: This family doesn't count Nancy: No offense Rio: why not Rio: they're who you spend most your time with Rio: only makes sense to care about their opinion, like Nancy: 'Cause other than Edie none of them are gonna come for me Nancy: Granddad isn't gonna turn me away from his birthday for being a state, like Rio: you don't reckon Rio: everyone in this fam has a loud mouth Rio: if you were doing something wrong, you'd know about it, yeah? Rio: just because we can't fix everything don't mean there's no accountability, like Nancy: Just 'cause they like me doesn't make me a decent person either Nancy: So like I said, whatever Rio: 'cos we're all cunts, yeah Nancy: No, you're all biased Nancy: I'm one of you Rio: everyone's biased, anyone that likes you that'll just be 'cos they're your friend or your girlfriend whatever Rio: you never gonna get the general approval of the town like, it's a myth babe Nancy: I'll get therapy and I'll get over it Nancy: Moving on Rio: 😒 Nancy: There's too much to unpack never mind for you to fix Rio: Yeah but are you actually going to go therapy Nancy: What else am I gonna do? Rio: Good Rio: the therapist'll tell you Rio: I ain't qualified, like Nancy: Here's hoping I get a man so I don't fall in love, like Rio: Oh God Rio: Don't even play Nancy: I'm not Nancy: You know I probably would Nancy: And I want that even less than I want to tell any man my problems Rio: You would not, you know now Rio: the illusion was shattered very publicly, like Nancy: It happens to loads of people Nancy: Literally a trope, babe Nancy: We can't give me that much credit Rio: Yeah but they know how to swerve that shit better than a clueless straight teacher Rio: shut you right down Nancy: I guess we'll see Nancy: Or not Rio: Keep me posted Rio: but hurry up with them snacks rn Nancy: I'm literally telling you nothing about my confidential sessions Nancy: But yeah Nancy: On my way Rio: 🙄 Spoilsport Rio: I mean how it goes, you div Rio: 👍 Nancy: Keeping secrets is kind of my thing, sorry, babe Rio: Not tonight bitch Rio: 'less you feeling that daring Nancy: Please, your dares aren't gonna be that scary Rio: 😏 Rio: Challenge accepted Nancy: Okay

[bydinh]

Fact: Junhong and Yongguk have one of the best relationships out there (hyung-dongsaeng, father-son, friends, romantic ship, whatever). I love all the birthday messages Yongguk has posted over the years (that tigger pic from 2013 saved the world) and you can really tell how much Junhong admires Yongguk. I think it's really sweet how even though they've got a considerable age gap they're still so close to each other, and you can really see how they've influenced each other throughout the years

fact checked. you speak the truth.about both the relationship and also about the picture of junhong&tigger that “saved the world” (though my mental stability died that day).p.s. this got really long because my investment in b.a.p is something i will never be able to even scratch the surface of. and also, i am an angry and proud and emotionally charged individual. so. sorry. i was gonna take parts of it out but then i was like no. (i’m stubborn like that.)i agree. i think within kpop fandoms there’s this certain expectation for the youngest to have certain dynamics with the rest of their group, usually one of admiration for their older members, but seldom–or rather, never–have i seen a relationship like yongguk and junhong. there’s probably a million and one different factors that contribute to why and how they ended up with such a particularly amazing, and may i quote you on “one of the best,” relationship–such as junhong starting at a very young age, both of them being the rappers of the group, yongguk being someone that is very, very role model worthy, plus the whole ts shit and how they were overworking a minor, etc., as well as their general upbringing and personalities–but it doesn’t change the fact that it is what it is.i’m guessing that junhong’s age has a lot to do with the end result of their close relationship–i mean, he was literally 16/17 (depending on whether we’re going with u.s. or korean standards of age) when he debuted with b.a.p. he was young and impressionable and completely unprepared for the shit he had to go through, and i truly believe that yongguk (and probably the other members too) felt incredibly guilty about it despite it not being their fault–i mean look at us babyz. when everything came out about the lawsuit i died under the crushing guilt of enjoying the concert, enjoying the fact that i got to see my boys far more than any other fandom, and especially, knowing it wasn’t my fault, that i didn’t even realize how serious everything was. we’d get angry over the obvious over-working of the members and the pictures of members starting to get exhausted and the subtle hints that would be dropped, but we’d quickly forget, as if in a trance, when they’d return with a smile on their face. if we–including the many of us that don’t even live in the same damn country–felt that sense of guiltiness, just imagine being the leader of a group that has to balance and deal with the incredible stress of being denied creativity and hard-earned money, maintaining morale within a group of exhausted members, and having to watch a 16 year old try to hold onto his health–something he shouldn’t (or any of the other members,for that matter) have to be clinging onto for dear life–for the sake of living his dream. that’s why when yongguk keeps saying that he’s happy to see how junhong has grown and that he feels he needs to try harder to be a good hyung for him, i literally fall apart (am tearing up rn don’t mind me, family, i’m not genuinely crying over two men i don’t even know lmao haha). i always think back to this shit like who why whatbut there’s also the fact that junhong is, well, junhong. he’s hardworking and persevering, and most of all, he’s bright in both personality and intuition. i constantly remember the bts of way, wayd where he stays on the top of the bus, in the cold might i add, after all the other members leave because he realizes that–as this was at the very beginnings of the hiatus, as junhong was getting to the age where they could file it together; another tidbit that just…destroys me emotionally–that moment could be the last time he could see the scenery. i think we can all agree that junhong is childish, in a good way, in the way he’s funny and cute and fidgety, but i think at the same time he’s mature. and i, being the over-reading over-emotional piece of shit i am, can’t help but feel that it’s because of this underlying maturity that yongguk always feels that he wants to better himself in order to be a greater hyung for him (which he always says in those dam birthday messages that hurt me far more than anything else in the world sobs). i mean. seriously. with a relationship that’s mutually so…positive…(?) i can’t really see how it can be topped???? like, junhong has so much obvious admiration for yongguk as both a rapper and as a person (which, i think yongguk’s overall general morals have spread to each member–but that’s a 093820420394034 word rant for another time) and yongguk betters himself not only for himself but also for junhong too. and i just i think that’s how it should be. i think that’s what being a role model should be…? constantly growing for yourself and for others, especially the tol noodle rapper that has been by your side, looking up to you, for 5 years.ANYWAYS. in conclusion, i love b.a.p and yongguk and junhong are incomprehensibly important to each other (& to mE) and i’m over-emotional and a rambler and i probably just destroyed half of y’alls dashboards goodbye and goodnight everybody /goes to sit in the dark and think about yongguk&junhong for 10 hours, crying, shaking)