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I don't know how they managed it but 911 has three separate golden retriever characters. Of course by that I mean Buck Buckley (a given), Maddie Han (maybe slightly controversial), and Bobby Nash (a given).
#911#evan buckley#maddie buckley#maddie han#bobby nash#golden retriever characters#for reference to me chimeny has black lab energy#athena is a poodle because she doesn't look threatening but a standard poodle is a working dog#fun fact poodles are used in a lot of different jobs#they're kinda terrifying like that#eddie is a belgian shepard#Hen is a jack russel terrier#you cannot tell me she wouldn't be a terrier#she's tenacious as FUCK
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Can we have mermaid geto for din din? Idk I’m feeling like sushi tonight
k but you have to eat your sharkuna first
that one art post changed my brain chemistry forever ngl i cannot stop thinking of geto as a caecelia....cacealia??? idk how to spell it- SEXY OCTOMAN. but he's still a siren
could you imagine being IMMUNE to a siren song tho? maybe youre on a super cheap fisherman boat to travel, and you wake up to this horrific inhuman voice and you're scared shitless, but the rest of the passengers...aren't. they're calm, climbing out of bed walking onto the deck. it's almost like their in...a trance.
and then to your horror, they all start jumping overboard. one by one. until it's just you. on a creaky, empty, flimsy, fishing boat. eventually, you get brave enough to peak over the railing and thats when you see them.
heads bobbing in the water. two pairs of eyes. purple and blue. staring right at you.
and now youre stranding in the ocean, on a boat with dwindling resources surrounded by two creatures with these terrible voices that keep coaxing you overboard and join them.
#asks#yandere#maybe their 'song' is actually kinda terrifying to hear#like 'the siren' in love/death/and robots?#so they're screeching thinking they're seducing you and you're curled up in a ball trying not to die of fright#yandere jjk#yandere jujutsu kaisen#yandere satosugu
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you know when you're holding a snake but they wanna GO so they keep worming forward but you keep replacing your hands along the length so now you're both on a conveyor belt to nowhere
#unfortunately zizz jabbed me in the ribs like HEY REMEMBER THAT TIME YOU DREW GIANT SNEKUMO?#and i said no but before i slept that night i had to draw a big snekumo#so here we are again. in Easily Influenced Land.#i find the snake trying to escape grasp thing pretty amusing#like... is the snake REALLY terrified? wouldn't they be able to slither out of our grasp quite easily if they wanted?#or are they just curious and they wanna explore?#because every time i see a handler with the snake doing the infinity belt#doesn't seem like the snake's truly committed to escaping#like... they're kinda not about it but they're more annoyed than anything#i like to think that because i don't want to imagine Human Hands as SO powerful that they can subdue a fleeing snake#by just. switch hand#that's an unfairly big advantage humans have over scared snakes if that's the case LOL#nu carnival kuya#nu carnival yakumo#yakuya
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Thanks Anon, Shadamy is now something that happens in the misc AU, albeit brief.
#shadow does love amy but he feels so insecure about not being a “real person” that he distances himself from her#they are still very close tho!! shadow is just hesitant#Amy goes out of her way for him and he doesn't understand why. he's not trying to win her over even tho he really likes her#they have a bit of a relationship for a while! shadow lets himself be with her and honestly those are his happiest moments.#after prime he withdrawals from everyone so he kinda breaks up with her (he's the most insecure and terrified hes ever been)#later they build back their friendship but they're mostly platonic#when Amy and Neo Metal become a thing Shadow lets go of any romantic feelings he has#he respects her new relationship and it doesn't bother him that shes with Neo#it does make him a bit insecure (because he wonders if Amy just LIKES ROBOTS??? so it's his regular identity crisis stuff)#anyways they're “love like you” coded#my art#art#sonic the hedgehog#sonic#my au#miscellaneous au#shadow the hedgehog#amy rose#shadamy
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is it really an authentic r&m dynamic if it doesn't involve (at least mildly) morally questionable preservation tactics
#rick and morty#rick sanchez#morty smith#v37#y4441#rick and morty ocs#anytime morty asks about his jacked up arm or his face scar rick tries to change the subject#but ermmm sometimes it doesnt work. and sometimes it escalates. and sometimes rick thinks he has to use the mindblower#(in general y4441 is sentimental and keeps trinkets and shit. these memories are like the only exception. he immediatelly clears the device#rick loves morty a lot but hes terrified of retraumatizing him so his solution is to just... avoid any and all discussion of the topic.#morty likes rick. but well its kinda hard to trust him when he keeps dodging questions about his past#also.... y4441s tech is like. Not That Good... so while yes technically mortys memories do get wiped they're not like... Gone Forever#they exist more like a dream/deja vu situation#THEYRE KINDA FUCKED UPPPPP GUYS
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Fallout 4 really coulda made the 'Living by the sea' vibes so terrifying. Of course, people know of mirleurks and stuff. But what about the things they don't know about. The fear of the unknown.
We know that sea life was also affected by radiation. We've seen the size of a mirelurk queen. We know that sharks exist from the corpses.
So. How do we know megalodons aren't back in the Falloutverse. Or krakens don't exist. Sea life enlarged and at an unimaginable scale, unknown to the survivors of humanity as they lurk beneath the waters.
What if Sole had been told not to cross the ocean to Far Habour. What if there's a reason that, after 200 years, no one has brought back voyager boats and sailing the oceans to reconnect the world. What if they know better. Or maybe they realise they don't know anything at all.
What if Sole set up a nice base at Spectacle Island, and is confused when Hancock refuses to see it. Sole jokes that he's paranoid, but he reminds them he grew up on the waterfront. He helped his dad fish when he was younger. Boats don't scare him. The water doesn't scare him.
"It's what's in it," He explained coldly. He sat down in the sand, shotgun in his arms. Sole asked him to elaborate, he said he couldn't. "You wanna go after the Institute, fine. I'll help. That's an unknown I can handle. But, I ain't getting in that boat, and neither should you."
"I'll...Ask someone else."
"Can it be Danse?"
Sole thought he was being dramatic but quickly realised that none of the companions were keen to travel across the water.
There was that time Sole once jumped off the Prydwen and into the deep sea, so far from shore, only to hear a guttural noise around them. They couldn't see anything. The water dark blue, and filthy, almost black from when the world was scorched. But whatever it was, it was large enough that its voice vibrated through their entire being. They convinved themself it was a whale. They know whales don't sound like that.
On the days Sole is at the castle, they like to look out at the ocean. Or did, until today when they saw a large boat in the distance become capsized. They almost sent their own boats out to help, but Preston placed a firm hand on their shoulder. His eyes told Sole everything he wouldn't. Preston's not the type to let people die. So, Sole turned the radio up so none of the other soldiers could hear the distant screams for help and distress calls. And to drown out their own guilt, watching as the last fisherman attempted to swim desperately to shore, only to be dragged down below the waves. Sole didn’t look away until the boat finally sank. When they did, their eyes landed on the East Wall, which was under reconstruction from when the mirelurk queen had emerged. Sole wonders if that was even the largest sea creature out there.
When Sole's getting ready for bed, Preston knocks at their door gently. "Even I can admit when something is a lost cause," There was a guilt dripped into his tone. A silent apology to the fallen men. "I'll tell our guys to stay out of the water for a few days. We can rely on the nets for fish."
"We should set up a limit for how far out our boats can go."
"We will. Tomorrow. For now, get some rest." He's halfway to closing the door when Sole speaks again.
"I jumped off of the Prydwen once..."
"Excuse me?"
"I was fine. I wanted to go into the water. I did."
"Excuse me?"
"I couldn't see anything. But I heard something. I felt the sound go through me. I think it was a whale."
"Think or hope?" Sole doesn't say anything. Preston gets his answer regardless. "Was it close to you or do you think it was fine?"
"Think or hope," Sole mirrors. "I don't know. It was large."
"That seems to be a theme with the ocean."
"...Is that why no one has tried to cross the ocean again in 200 years? I thought...I thought there'd be pirates again out there. Or something. That massive wooden ships had made a comeback somewhere."
"I can't say. For all we know, maybe people have tried." Sole doesn't want to think about the connotations of that.
"No one wanted to go to Spectacle Island."
"I'm sure it looks nice but...To be honest, neither would I. I'm Sorry."
"It's fine. I get it now...I don't think I do anymore, for a while...John wouldn't get in the boat."
"Hancock...Is a smart man. Sometimes."
"Sometimes? You're saying that to the person that jumped off of the Prydwen."
"True, you do make Hancock look like Einstein."
"Thank God people still know Einstein," Sole mumbles. "John's smarter than he let's on."
"He once showed up to my door, drunk, asking if I thought Nick had a penis. Then, if he did, if it could be classed as a vibrator. I refused to answer or ask the context for why he wanted to know."
"...On that note, goodnight Preston."
"Goodnight, Sole."
Sole stares at the ceiling as they try to sleep that night. The sound of the waves crashing against the walls keeps them awake.
#Fallout 4#Sole Survivor#Preston Garvey#John Hancock#Nick Valentine#Paladine Danse#Short fic kinda#Headcanons that the oceans are terrifying in the Falloutverse#In other words. Sole develops thalassophobia#Apparently Bethesda was gonna make a fucking sea creature kike this but didn't#Could you imagine jumping off the Prydwen and seeing like. A fucking megalodon in the distance.#Or maybe you pan your camera down and there's a giant mouth or kraken#Danse slander from Hancock#And Hancock slander from Preston#The companions all love each other really#I thought it would be funny tho#I also feel like Preston goes back to calling Sole by their name when they're close enough and in private#Yeah
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I think Slay the Princess is so popular partially because the *gets stabbed* "I'm in love" reaction is both intentional on the part of the developers and then they completely follow through on it.
#slay the princess#me @ the Razor: I love you so much and you're so hot and funny and– *gets stabbed again*#and then! the little Voices agree that they're kinda into it too! fantastic game! A+! kill me again beautiful woman!#they managed to make even the Princess's most terrifying grotesque forms the most beautiful fictional women I've ever seen#while never sacrificing the horror elements. if anything the horror and gore and monstrosity makes her even more attractive#like they get it. the inherent eroticism of being trapped in a time loop made with the sole purpose of getting one of us to kill the other#and then killing and hurting and dying and struggling together over and over and over until finally breaking free#she hurts us and we are but a receptacle for the pain. she hunts us like prey and swallows us whole. we beat each other to#death for the thrill of it and keep on going long past when we should've died. she torments us until our heart stops from terror.#we see her as a dominating goddess and she becomes one. she knows what our organs look like. her bloated corpse once drowned us.#we lie at the foot of the stairs to freedom with broken backs because we betrayed her so badly she could only betray us in turn#and don't even get me started on the amazing intimacy/violation of the Spectre/Wraith possession stuff#and we (both the player and the Long Quiet) love her for it and through it
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hi im ranting (positively! this game kills me but in a good way) about breath of the wild again
i know it's controversial but i love the way the story of the game is told. because you start the game in the middle, perhaps near the end, of the story. the game is entirely through link's perspective and he wakes up knowing and remembering nothing. in turn, the player starts off knowing nothing. the past is revealed as the story goes along, and the player learns about the past and about the land as link does. there are little tidbits about hyrule and about the calamity scattered across the land. an old woman in hateno village tells you of an age of desolation that she grew up in. the travellers you see on the road are younger people because they're described by older characters as more bold, whereas the older characters grew up being told to never leave the village, it's too dangerous outside (compare this even to tears of the kingdom, where travellers are more common because the land has been safer. even older characters have left their home to travel elsewhere (not including the lurelin villagers)). battlefields are still strewn with old rusty weapons and deactivated guardians that no one but monsters will go near. myths and legends about the princess and hero have been passed down, to the point where their legitmacy is questioned and everyone has a different opinion on them.
it's environmental storytelling. it's things like seeing drawings and a bow in zelda's study and seeing a child reading a storybook with a hero that wears a blue tunic similar to link's. it's the stories that the villagers share about old myths that turn out to be true. it's the ruins scattered across the land, long since overtaken by monster camps but still unmistakably being houses that people once lived in. it's the utter lack of civilization anywhere remotely near the castle and the feeling of dread in the ruins of the town that surrounds it. it's a kingdom entrenched in its past, with no ability to move away from it until the calamity is finally defeated.
#head into the wall. i love this game so much#legend of zelda#breath of the wild#and no i dont hate totk for getting rid of the sheikah tech and replacing it with zonai tech#the zonai tech is foreign and new to the people of hyrule and theyre EXCITED about it#how many zonai researchers are there in totk vs how many sheikah researchers in botw?#people are wary of the technology that destroyed their home a century ago#and they're terrified of the guardians that still roam the land#i still hold that link likely was behind the reason why the shrine of resurrection was completely dismantled#it's kinda like majora's mask in which half of the story is in the side quests and the characters#mm had a plot yeah but it kind of accompanied the rest of the setting#link had a goal but he also had so many people to talk to#botw is similar. link has a goal in mind but he's also one to help others#and if someone literally just lost their chickens or if their husband is sick and needs medicine. he's willing to help them out#the world is just as important as the plot itself and i think i like that more#than just a linear plot which is accompanied by the world#botw totk and mm reward you for exploring#(along with some of the others like twilight princess and a link between worlds)#but it's very different i think when half of the game is about exploring#or more than half even. you have your goal but you have to get there first#and there are so many ways you can get there and so much you can encounter along the way#biting screaming crying#the bow is in zelda's room but close enough
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Wait, does the cheating thing on the bond always works? bcs that would be kinda freaky for R!Dipper like imagine you get pinned down by someone in the corner of a br or smthng and then said person kissed you and proceeded to explode into red mist and you literally have no idea what happened.
Also, would the constellation mark be a "cursed" Mark over the years, like you would give birth to a baby and the doctor says "😟 I am so sorry ma'am,,, I'm afraid your baby has the Cipher Companion mark. ( could also be something equally as science-y like Ursa Major, Constellation Calamation, etc idk)" And you just burst into tears.
Would that mean that dipper would get into a special program(demon wrangling program or smthng, demonologist? Maybe)? Or would the parents hide it away hoping that Bill would never take their child away?
(Sorry this au is just very interesting to me,,,, I hope u get more motivation, keep writing author 💪)
These are all options! The fun part of reincarnation AU being left ambiguous is that technically any of them could happen.
#Answers#Okay but for full transparency#I never really figured out what the 'cheating' consequence is#It's a nebulous concept since I've never had to write it happening#And left ambiguous because neither of these two are into anyone else - and as a writer I like to leave my options open!#I would assume that one of the few things they agreed on when making the contract was that unwelcome advances didn't count as cheating#But that the villain in question would get what was coming to them. Very Violently. They wanna step on a landmine? Let 'em have it#Dipper would have made a frowny face at the violence but agreed. Privately thinking well that's actually a *bonus*#A built-in defense system of sorts#(Something Bill was also thinking but absolutely phrased in the possessive aspect)#Whether or not the Consequences kick in before they meet again - their equivalent of their vow renewal - is up for grabs#Dipper trying to fend off someone only to have them burst into flames and/or blood would feel a terrified sense of relief#Who knows! Maybe Dipper has protection but has a chance for other actions before they meet again!#But the odds of that occurring are very slim. Partly due to his general awkwardness#And distinct hesitation on Dipper's part. Even though he *thinks* he should be enthusiastic#He looks at the person he's in bed with and just. It feels weird. Maybe because he hasn't (in his memory) done this before#Great job Dipper!! Someone in your bed and the best you can do is kinda grimace. Real sexy.#If he does ever manage to get up to something it's not even a tenth of the time he has with his husband#Dipper reincarnations are all very unfortunately attracted as hell to Bill Cipher and they're deeply alarmed by it#I do like the idea of different parental groups finding Dipper's birthmark and having different reactions#Perhaps a random incarnation of one of his family members ends up in charge of him one time#The results would vary *wildly* depending on who it was#On a scale of Mabel Mom to Ford Uncle how are you preparing this person for his invitable enhusbanding#(Stan remains pretty much the same but has a lot of bad marriage advice)#Wow that's a lot of tags even for me#I am going to queue this and sleep
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if i were ratthi i think i would be developing a specific complex around being put somewhere 'safe' (which is to say, still risky but not where the murders are actually happening currently) when everyone else is going into danger.
#it happens in asr at the deltfall habitat#along w pin-lee + gurathin it kinda happens in ES#in FT he and gurathin know murderbot is doing something w security while they're just in the cafeteria#in NE he's in the pod which sounded VERY terrifying but no murdering was happening#and then he wasn't in the group that went to the station/planet#and now in SC he is on the adventure group but keeps getting confined to the shuttle#and like. its on his own head to an extent bc its repeatedly mentioned that he has no field training#but still.#also i worry that the fact that iirc even murderbot acknowledges that ratthi's never directly seen it kill someone#is setting up for some drama in the future#though i hope not#murderbot diaries#the murderbot diaries#system collapse spoilers#murderbot spoilers
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it's kinda terrifying how chronos keeps saying how melinoë is risking everything to be in the house of hades, fighting him. as if he's waiting for her to make one wrong move. waiting for her to slip up so he can capture her too and put her beside the rest of their family. perhaps show off his new trophy to hades, and confirm what are undoubtedly his worst fears.
#arry plays hades 2#hades 2 spoilers#like???? if hecate hadn't trained her so well to get out of any situation melinoë would be SO fucked#even now she's way outmatched#like. she's still young and several characters have said that they're surprised she's going after him so soon#and chronos is a titan. he's TIME. he's deathless.#idk i'm just kinda obsessed with him as a villain#no wonder hades is so terrified that mel's going after chronos alone#i hope later on we get the ability to have companions like in the first game
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Thinking about how Tails has canonically blown up a man and his entire army killing them and how he defiantly told Sonic about it. But I don't think Sonic believed him really. Not that he thinks Tails is lying but little kids have a tendency to exaggerate. And depending on the game manual he either fights this army before he met Sonic or right after and I can't decide which is actually funnier. Cause in my mind when Sonic first met Tails he was like 3-4 while Sonic is 10-11.
Putting the rest under the cut cause this got longer than I meant for it to be
So if it's before they met, these big tough army guys just stumbled upon a random toddler that woke up and choose violence and napalm bombs that day. And who then proceed to pretty much hunt them down one by one which puts Tails in the role of terrifying unstoppable horror movie creature from their perspective.
If it's right after Tails met Sonic, they just beat Eggman. Tails just got his first taste of taking down would be dictators and decided he could go for a round two but with more explosions this time. Plus he hasn't really fought real people other than Eggman just his bots so Tails is a bit unknowingly deadly against these new more squishy opponents. (Not that Tails doesn't realize he's killing them he 100% knows what he's doing but also they're trying to take over the island and he's got some bombs so that math checks out for him)
Either way I just image little Tails telling Sonic he took out a whole army of bad guys on his own. And Sonic in his head knows Tails can fight but is thinking it was like 3-5 people at most maybe and Tails is just exaggerating . Plus Sonic thinks Tails just means he stopped them from doing what ever they were doing; not that Tails meant "took them out" as in he stopped them from existing.
Years go by and on one of their adventures they stumble upon a guy who was basically the sole survivor from Tails' rampage. That guy just takes one look at Tails and starts panicking and trying to run away.
Sonic sees this and runs after the guy and then gets a rundown from the guy of why he's so scared of Tails. Which leaves Sonic in a bit of a state of shock. He's not like mad at Tails at all but more like "huh???" cause Tails is sweet and doesn't like to hurt people and prefers peaceful resolutions if he can get them. So this is way out of left field from the sweet little brother he knows. But Sonic thinks back to that conversation he and Tails had all those years ago about Tails defeating an army. Realizes he was completely wrong about what Tails meant, and in hindsight knowing what Tails can do should have probably been a bit more concerned about that whole conversation. He was a kid raising and even smaller kid who is a genius he gets some leeway on not being 100% on top of things. But Sonic just turns to Tails and just
"Tails what the actual fuck????? THAT WAS A REAL THING????!!!??"
And Tails, who has thought this whole time Sonic believed him, is just like
"Yeah I told you about his already don't you remember??? Did you think I was lying???"
Sonic has to back pedal and explain his thoughts on what Tails told him back then. Which alleviates some of the confusion but also now he knows Tails has killed and like okay not great but also what can he do about it now. He personally doesn't like killing people but also Tails was like 3/4 at most and he was in a situation were it was him vs an army. Those odds were still in Tails favor but technically it was self defense in Sonic's mind. So Sonic doesn't really have any negative feeling towards Tails over this or see him in any negative light. It's just turns into a "well that's a thing now" kinda situation.
OR the flip side of this where Sonic 100% believes Tails from the get go and again same thoughts as above but he does lecture Tails about, you know, not killing their enemies.
He also takes away all Tails bombs which is why in later games Tails doesn't use bombs much just his inventions or those dummy rings from Sonic Heroes. Sonic lets him have his heavy weaponry back once he knows Tails wont go Doom Slayer on Eggman or their other enemies.
Idk just some funny thoughts about that game I've been having.
#sonic the hedgehog#tails the fox#miles tails prower#tails has killed before and he can again if pushed too far#I always felt kinda bad for the Kukku army cause they're just there doing their usual shtick#meanwhile tails is going full Predator mode on them#that had to have been terrifying from their perspective#you know something/someone is taking out every one mostly with bombs#and they get told it's some little toddler#and like you know some of them laughed cause “wtf do you mean it's a toddler with napalm bombs”#until said toddler rolled up on them and they then were like “oh that toddler”#and the last thing they saw was a tiny Tails chucking a bomb at them
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Tornadoes and hurricanes are the closest thing this world has to actual eldritch horrors and I cannot be convinced otherwise
#storms#tornado#hurricane#eldritch#cosmic horror#they're massive and uncaring#not malevolent but brutally dangerous just by existing#and utterly unstoppable#the best you can do is endure it#you protect yourself and wait for it to be done#and that's it#they render people utterly helpless#and bonus: tornadoes can kinda look like tendrils#and they're fucking beautiful too#terrifying yet stunning
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Stayed up way too late drawing a followup comic for what I posted on my art account. I looove these fucking idiots
#originally it was gonna be kinda sweet but I think what it is now is more in character#fight fight fight fight#i love these assholes. they tried. they don't get a gold star though their star is blood fucking red#I am once again talking about Sara and Shin. predictable.#god I need them to kill each other I'm so sorry I need them to be cruel and awful and evil at each other actually#yes I am still delusional about them becoming friends#i just think they should go about it in an awful and lowkey codependent way#you are the person I hate the most and also the only one who can ever understand me#you antagonized me at every turn and yet I feel responsible for helping you because it's the only way I can forgive myself#you terrify me. you remind me of the most sickening man I have ever known but he was the only person who ever loved me#i want you dead. if you died i would never forgive myself. if i lost you then what would i have left in the world. fuck you.#hnngghvggh. nornal guy behavior.#none of this is romantic i must make this clear. it is all a weird evil form of platonic.#also i think it's funny that this grown ass man is beefing mostly one-sidedly with a 17-year-old. i would never.#I'm gnawing on them like chew toys. I'm putting them in water and playing with them like they're orbeez.#putting them in my brain water and watching them expand like those foam animal pill thangs and then tearing them up#I promise I'm normal. I'm a normal guy. I'm so average. literally the normalest guy you've ever met.
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if you wanna have a fun time, compare the anti-endo community to the cult BITE model 👍
#my stuff#oh and for why i know what that community is like?#it was inescapable just a few years ago. still is if ur on the wrong apps. which i am#its kinda surprising that they didn't “get me” actually. guess i was lucky to meet some *normal* non-cult systems before i even knew that#im plural myself!#anyway the sysmed community is rancid af and i hate that im scared of them but im right to be.#being targeted by them for years and years is terrifying.#the weirdest part is that they're so miserable with it? and yet resistant to learning?#that's what tipped me off actually. about it being kind of a cult
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Being self aware is literally hell I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy
#diary#god I could rant about about this forever#tw mentions of assault in the tags dont read if that makes u uncomfortable#im kinda getting tired of people asking why i dont date 🤩 it sends me into a mental spiral hahahaaaaa#i just tell people im not looking for anything serious rn but its a big fat fucking lie because i DO want to date#but i think my nervous system is so shot from living with my dad still and he can be so emotionally abusive it's insane#it makes me not trust my judgement because shitty behavior is so normalized and i KNOW whats Right and Wrong but im so used to keeping the–#–peace because its a survival tactic for me and always has been#like when people like me i think one of two things usually:#1) they're genuinely interested in me and i hate myself so much i cant understand why anyone would like me#or 2) theyre interested in me for my body which is both easier to understand and terrifying because people in the past have hurt me because–#–they wanted to be with me. read between the lines for that one#because of how i grew up and what I've experienced i genuinely do not trust people. i trust no one fully and it kills me#i feel so fucking guilty all the time bc most people arent out to get you but that wasn't the case for me#i feel like i cant grow as a person because im stuck in a survival mindset. i KNOW why I people please and i hate it#i genuinely do love people and i want the best for them but its also ingrained into my head that if something is wrong it's My Fault#and there will be Consequences#back to dating though#there are so many reasons I do and dont want to date#i call myself a Helpless Romantic because there's no way I'll be dating in the near future. i cant just go on dates I have to know you for–#–a while and build trust. but what if it ends badly and im the idiot who cant take a goddamn hint and realise love isnt meant for someone–#–like me?#i grew up knowing my parents hated each other and “stayed together for the kids” whatever thet means. like that fucks with your mind#seeing my mom being mistreated by my dad made me snap out of the disney movie princess x prince charming daze everyone else was in as a kid#i realised very early on that relationships won't save you and can actually be the worst thing to ever happen to someone#theres more to this but ive already said enough lol. anyway
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