#they're a beauty blogger

[frenchvanilla444]

if I was a guy id worship every woman I met.

[izzymrdb]

My favourite thing is when someone who is very much not a mutual and you wouldn't actually recognise their url begins to randomly reblog plenty of things that aren't their regular NPC pop-up but you truly don't care enough to block the tags or unfollow them cuz you’re sure this won't last more than a week but until then you will just have to deal with your dash being a solid 73% warrior cats slash

[forgetme-eternally-blissfully]

It isn't even just art anymore. Writing and normal posts hardly get any reblogs now, too. It causes the fandom to feel less vibrant and cozy, and more sluggish and unfriendly. It's tragic because I find more and more accounts that haven't reblogged any posts whatsoever, purely liking things. Especially in the lcf fandom.

Liking does nothing to spread a post. Absolutely nothing. So when the really active accounts only like things, it doesn't make the fandom appear active. Not at all. If you don't share what you like so that other people can see- then why are you in the fandom? Isn't fandom supposed to be a space where you share ideas and art and express love over a piece of work?

Reblogging is imperative to this. Nothing goes anywhere on Tumblr without reblogging. This is a fact. It doesn't matter if you don't have any followers to see what you reblog, because the only reason you would get followers is for your reblogs. Even accounts that mostly post without reblogging still reblog sometimes. Interacting with people in a fandom, following people, reblogging and sharing the things you like? That gets you followers. Because behind a follower is a person that wants to see the things you're interested in. A follower is a potential mutual.

Don't be scared to reblog. Don't be scared to add words to the post or tags. That's how you make friends and grow outside of yourself. Purely liking things is just. A shout in a void. No one is listening.

Please reblog. If you think it's scary or useless, try it anyway. Because it hurts no one, I promise. No one thinks you look stupid for reblogging. No one cares that one week you reblogged lcf and the next you reblogged abt Interest #107 instead. They want to see it. Followers want to see that. They follow to see that.

I truly don't know what to say to make all these accounts that don't reblog anything begin to reblog. Is it scary? Is it too much work? Do you not know where to start? I can tell you how to start. Message me, send me an ask, let me help you.

POV you’re an artist on tumblr

Sorry I’m just frustrated like AAAH LIKES ARE NICE BUT THEY LITERALLY DO NOTHING. YOU GOTTA REBLOG ART

[poolboyservice]

"terfs like trans men!" "trans men don't have to worry about terfs!"

Oh I'm sorry wasn't there a big thing throughout 2020-2022 where everyone was all like "little girls are mutilating their bodies!", "what happened to our lesbians!?", "scared women are pretending to be men.", and so on? Wasn't there a literal book that talked about trans men, talking about them as if they were innocent girls who were lied to and thus were destroying themselves because of it, saying how we needed to 'save them from the hypnotization!"? Weren't there numerous bloggers/youtubers who made commentary videos in reaction to Elliot Page coming out, and proceeded to rant and rave how we are losing such beautiful women and lesbians to the "transgender agena"? What about the time where it was trending to fakeclaim trans people, whom most of the targets of this were trans men? How about when people called trans men 'dykes' because "well they're not actual men, they're just confused lesbians!"?

Do I need to add more, or do you guys understand?

[please1mistress]

Warning hypnotic covert language and flashing art that may induce a hypnotic trance without you being aware of it

Ah, the elusive blogger emerges from the digital depths, armed with a fresh spark of inspiration! It's like spotting a rare creature in the wild, one that usually prefers the quiet comfort of scrolling through the endless forest of images. But beware, dear readers, for when the inspiration strikes, a flurry of original content is sure to follow, raining down upon your feeds like a delightful storm of creativity. So keep your eyes peeled and your 'like' buttons ready, because when this blogger gets inspired, it's nothing short of a content extravaganza!

While scrolling this time it struck me that hypnosis isn't really sleep. It's a state of focused attention, heightened suggestibility, and vivid fantasies. People in hypnosis can seem zoned out or in a trance, but they're not asleep. They're actually in a state of deep relaxation and their brain activity reflects this, showing a receptiveness to new ideas and suggestions. This is why hypnosis can be so effective since it taps into the power of the subconscious mind to effect positive change. While it's often used as a therapeutic tool to improve sleep quality, it doesn't induce sleep itself; rather, it helps to prepare the mind and body for restful slumber.

you could be in a light trance as you read this because as you read this your mind is so focused on my words, that it's easy to let yourself relax into the things I say. The concept of a light trance is quite fascinating, often associated with a state of focused attention or absorption in an activity. It's similar to the experience of losing oneself in a good book or being engrossed in a hobby, where the world fades away and one's concentration is honed to a fine point. This state of mind can be beneficial for various mental processes, enhancing creativity, problem-solving abilities, and learning efficiency. It's a natural and safe phenomenon that many people experience regularly without even realizing it.

The beauty of reading lies in the magical dance of words, where one leads seamlessly to another, crafting a tapestry of meaning and imagination. As you read, each word acts as a stepping stone, guiding you through a river of narrative and knowledge. It's a journey that begins with a single word, unfolding into sentences, paragraphs, and chapters, each one building upon the last. making you anticipate what will come next, it heightens your focus, so it's easy for your mind to just relax into the things I am saying. Soon you are so focused that your mind isn't thinking of anything but my words. wanting to focus deeper on where I will guide you.

like being the subject of a hypnotist, you follow and feel your mind surrender to the words. The power of words is truly mesmerizing, isn't it? yes, it is, and you find that you felt the yes in your mind as you read my question, because you are now in a light trance, noticing your breathing has slowed and your focus is now fixated on my words, and the way my words are echoing in your mind. You want to be told what to do, how to think, you want to become more submissive and allow yourself not to think, don't you?

YES

[toriaanin]

The Skelton Crew

Once upon a time, there was a ship called the USS Lukola. She was a sleek vessel cruising a warm ocean - blue like a certain Irish lass's eyes - and filled with people like me who witnessed and believed in the love, light and energy shone by Nicola and Luke during (heck... even prior to) the Bridgerton season 3 world PR tour.

Unbeknownst to us passengers, the USS Lukola left charted waters and entered the Bermuda Triangle. BaBaBam (imagine ominous music here). Waves started crashing against the hull and over the deck. The ship's navigation equipment failed; the dials on the bridge panel spin spin spinning in counter clockwise, clockwise directions, like in the movies. Eeek! North, south, east, west? What direction was the ship headed?! Not to worry; the crew and passengers knew where they were going - breadcrumbs and morsels led the way, while heavy golden nuggets like the Claddagh ring & the This/That video 🤍 gave the ship ballast to withstand the storm... but they also knew that patience - and sea legs - were required to see them to their destination.

Naturally some passengers didn't have faith that the ship could reach it's destination so they jumped, relying on life vests for survival. In many cases, life boats were deployed (on more than one occasion) taking passengers to shore where they now look out over the water and wishing they'd remained aboard. Some even return. They're welcomed back of course.

And then there's the group that sent an SOS out to an old battleship. They wanted a tough ship. Not just because they imagined it could better withstand the waves, but because they'd shifted alliances and expected push-back from the USS Lukola. Problem! Their new alliance painted a rainbow flag on their hull. "That's okay", they told themselves. "We can't see it from the deck!" (Fingers in ears, eyes squeezed shut all while singing "lalala"). Rather then face reality and head to shore to join those passengers gazing longingly at the USS Lukola, they decided that sinking that darned happy-people ship was the ideal strategy to "win" the best ship prize. So they proceeded to employ battle tactics against the USS Lukola and, as it would happen, Lukola themselves. Most notably Luke.

So we came into Monday, battle worn following a weekend of presumed troll activity, redirection (because really, Ceasefire in Gaza is far more important to focus on! And also because one does not ignore N's patterns), and the fandom's descent onto the TT account of a sad, misguided young woman seeking social media attention and validation. Challenging for us, yes. Even more so for the Newton family.

Naturally, a few more life boats left the USS Lukola over the weekend too. Sigh. Sad to see them go.

And yet, the USS Lukola sails on!

I was telling a friend about how it feels like Lukolas are being winnowed like grain, the wind or a combine shaking our group to remove the chaff. She laughed and suggested a more appropriate ship reference: "What's remaining is the Skeleton Crew!". YES! That was exactly the right description for us!!!

Those of us who remain on the ship are the hearty diehards. We are the ones who belong to group chats, with friends to help support us during rough seas. Amongst our boney selves are the critical thinkers and analysts. We listen only to Nicola, Luke and their trusted allies. Then there are the creatives; those who develop scenarios based solely on the information provided by the critical thinkers and analysts. There are the bloggers here on Tumblr that relay information and theories, and then help us rib cages to hold on tight. I love that we're a fine collective of beautiful bones, supporting one another as we sail towards endgame. Love. We are The Skelton Crew!

Ahoy matey; there be treasure way!!

Proof of our ability to assess information, of our resilience as crew/passengers (not sure about you, but my chat groups are capital S supportive!), and our belief in Luke & Nicola's love came yesterday when that slag-rag DeuxMoi posted photos of Nicola & Jake buying carrots... and trolling the paparazzi. They spotted that photographer, devised a plan, laughed and totally goofed around for each photo!

Did we spiral? Maybe a little at first. Like I said, it was a difficult weekend and we didn't want more mayhem. Then we looked closer and started to laugh! Just like Nicola & Jake, we hammed it up in the ballroom, in the bar's lounge, and on the lido deck!

No, we don't want to have to weather another storm. But we will if we have to. We have each other and we're hardy souls! Well... skeletons! These bones were made for dancing! ☠☠☠

[boyfiejay]

I love my girlfriend

PAIRING : Enhypen hyung line x female Youtuber! Reader

GENRE : fluff, bullet point

Warning : curse words, me rizzing up the reader😔

Word Count : 0.9k overall

Author's Note : this was long overdue☝🏻

Heeseung ☆

you're one of those underrated artists, that are underrated due to one sole reason

it's better to gatekeep a talented artist

yk the way some fans get sad that their favourites are now on everyone's fyp

yeah your fandom in a nutshell

they also thirst over you non stop

I mean you are stunning, gorgeous, beautiful, enchanting

just date me pookie

you used to be a youtuber before the music career fyi

imagine your fans' dilemma (dimension?) when you say out of nowhere that you have a bf

‘guys, my boyfriend sent me this :D’

and it's a silly picture of two cats or smtg

like your fans are fighting a fucking war on twt

and you are like cuddling with hee, listening to unreleased songs

you have no clue of what's going on

meanwhile heeseung…

he's ready to fight the war

posts a picture of you kissing his cheek on your insta story

he makes sure that only 1/4th of his face is visible

to keep his identity anonymous yk

…

your fans find his acc in 15 mins

he panics definitely 😭

tells you his innuendo after you wake up

and you're just like

‘yeah ok, sure’

WHY ARE YOU SO CHILL??

your boyfriend is getting deep fried on twt and you're like ‘el oh el’

dw your fans mean no harm

after a while they're like

‘they're cute tgt ig 😒’

Jay ☆

you're like a cooking channel

STAY W ME IK IT SOUNDS BASIC

you're like a blogger who blew up one day

because you're just soso pretty😻

alright anyways, your channel is focused around learning to cook

it's so chaotic sometimes

bcz you don't know shit about cooking

sorry if you do, let's pretend you don't >.<!!

you have almost killed yourself a dozen times

at some point people are like

‘??? how is she alive’

all thanks to your almost professional chef boyfriend

but no one has to know that ;)

anyways on like a milestone or something, you decide to cook blindfolded

bae you can barely cook with eyes open

your followers are concerned bro

like their blood pressure is rising by the minute

and like a holy light in the midst of the darkness

Jay stepped in, to save you from killing yourself fr this time

Your fans are seriously jumping around, squealing bcz he's just so soft and gentle to you :(((

but then they snap out and pretend to be angry

and you're like ‘meet my boyfie :3’

jk your fans love you two

like almost obsessed

also they're always sliding in Jay's dms

like I get it mans fine af but he's also taken

and also absolutely whipped for you 🤭

it's your world and we're just living in it…

Jake ☆

you are a gamer/streamer

your whole fan base is delusional

like so delusional, there are like hundreds and thousands of accounts claiming to be your bf/gf

but the iconic one ‘ynsboyfie’ is everywhere

like that acc is the most iconic thing in your lore

they are always there, no news of yours goes past them

always donating in your streams

and one day…

you forget to log in your priv acc

so your official acc has the comment

‘babe, you're so sweet ☹️🩷’

replying to ‘YNSBOYFIE’

???

oh your fans are livid

jokingly ofc

or maybe not

everyone on twt is like

‘who is this bitch???’

everyone hoping for his downfall

then you drop his pic

THE SWITCH UP IS INSANE

‘oh, oh, he's fiiine😏’

like I can't blame them, that's jake

but still they're supposed to be your fans

fucking snitches

my bae, pookum shmookum I would never

your fans love him

but also bully him calling him a lewser

hes so down bad he had a fan page for you

i dont blame him, i too would fangirl over you 😼

Sunghoon ☆

you're like a fitness channel

like those ones that have insane challenges

and your famous in people who have no interest in working out too

your face reveal went so viral, almost every single person knew your face

also your workouts (even tho deadly) always work so fast

people are in love with your figure and just you in general

you also upload mini vlogs once in a while

in these vlogs people noticed someone always being around you and in the back of the frame

at first they were like

‘obsessed fan😨’

but then they saw you laughing along with him in another clip

from the small clips, people couldn't see his face (bcz it's blurred) but omg the figure

the biceps, the buff and tall guy immediately steals everyone hearts

it's obvious from the clips that you're close with him

so naturally you are asked who he is and you just laugh

???

people are losing their minds woman

and you're just like ‘hehe’

they continue seeing him in your vlogs and in one clip you could see him putting his hands on your waist while you squat

you have no reaction to that

but twt…

he's getting dragged even though half of the people have no clue what's going on

you decide to take matter in your hands

and post this

with the caption ‘he's my boyfriend everyone :3’

the internet breaks

Sunghoon doesn't do his face reveal for a long time js bcz he doesn't feel like it yk

but when he does

good lord…

your fans love him

they also love how he glares at people who look at you the wrong way

you never notice that for some reason

[writingquestionsanswered]

hiya! for writers who are complete beginners, kinda sorta maybe write at a high school level, can't describe to save their lives, have overall bad flow (as in they can't decide what little moments scenes to think up and even write, if they do, they're no good), have been told countless times to write daily and just read more but that doesn't cover the basics or foundations of creative writing, not like they can learn from a book bc they're a hands on learner anyway and p.s they're super broke so can't afford writing classes and no library near them offers free ones ---- aka me :( --- do you have any advice? lol i feel kinda doomed and that maybe writing isn't for me, but I don't wanna get my hopes down!! with the right tools, it's possible.

Free Resources for Learning How to Write

I want to start with addressing why you've been told so often "to write daily and read more" as a way to learn how to write. It's very difficult to learn and excel at a craft if you have no experience with said craft. You can read all the information in the world about how to forge a sword, but that doesn't mean you'll be able to pick up a hunk of metal and be able to forge a beautiful sword. You need to spend a lot of time watching other people forge swords, and spend a lot of time actually practicing each step yourself if you want to get good at it. Writing works the same way. Reading lets you experience what fiction should be, writing lets you practice each step for yourself.

Fortunately, there are lots of ways to read fiction for free. You can borrow books from friends, family members, and members of your community. You can check out books and e-books from your local library if you have one. You can look for Little Free Libraries in your neighborhood. There's also a lot of legally free fiction available online. Project Gutenberg, Planet E-Book, Bartleby, Literature.org, Classic Literature, Classic Short Stories, Wattpad, Archive of Our Own, Library of Short Stories, Levar Burton Reads, and sites like Kobo, Amazon, and Audible often offer freebies of both e-books and audio books.

Other free ways to learn how to write:

1 - Follow bloggers and vloggers and authors on social media who talk about the craft of writing. Some of my favorites are: Joanna Penn/The Creative Penn, K.M. Weiland, Liselle Sambury, Abbie Emmons, Hannah Lee Kidder, Brittany Wang, Alyssa Matesic, Bethany Atazadah, Lindsay Puckett, Alexa Donne, Shaelin Writes, Ellen Brock, The Writing Gals, and Sincerely, Vee.

2 - Follow writing craft blogs here on tumblr: (some suggestions) @writingwithcolor, @howtofightwrite, @heywriters, @cripplecharacters, @lgbtqwriting, @fixyourwritinghabits, @wordsnstuff, @yourbookcouldbegayer, @lizard-is-writing

3 - Watch writing craft videos on YouTube: If there's something specific you want to learn about, say, "how to structure a scene," type it into YouTube and many different videos will pop up that walk you through how to structure a scene. Just look for one that strikes you as appealing!

4 - Look for free writing resources online: many authors (especially indie authors and writing gurus/coaches like Joanna Penn, K.M. Weiland, Bethany Atazadeh, Brittany Wang, and Abbie Emmons) offer free writing resources on their web sites or by signing up for their newsletters. Often you'll see writers participating in free online writing summits/workshops which you can sign up for and either watch the videos live or via video playback that is offered for a short period of time (like 24 hours.)

5 - Do a Google Search: believe it or not, there's not a single thing you could want to learn about writing that you can't find for free on Google. If you want to learn how to improve your grammar, go to Google, type in "tips for improving grammar" and you will get a million articles that will tell you how to do just that. Want to learn how to improve your story's flow? Google "how to improve story flow" and you'll have your answer. You can even search for free worksheets, guides, and workbooks on just about anything you want. "Free character development worksheet" brought back a ton of nice looking free worksheets. "Free worldbuilding workbook" brought up several free workbooks and worksheets to help you with worldbuilding. Everything you could want to know is out there.

And, bonus: you can always read through the posts in my WQA master list to get help with a wide variety of craft and writer-related issues.

Happy learning! ♥

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[manda-kat]

I watch a lot of travel videos and one thing I've noticed is that there are a lot of disclaimers put on historical American locations that almost never appear on videos for other places.

Like, a video about Jamestown, or Williamsburg or any American history museum/attraction always has a speil at the beginning about the atrocities done during that time specifically by the American people who lived there. But there never seem to be any disclaimers for videos about Middle Eastern historical sites. Or Chinese sites. Korean, Japanese, Indian, Mexican, Polynesian, South American- sometimes European cultures get these, but often times even if past atrocities are mentioned, they're usually in passing and never as a big disclaimer at the start of the video, begging the viewers not to see the innocent blogger as a secret bigot.

American history is rich and beautiful. We have a lot of depth, innovation and countless brilliant souls in our past. So do all countries! But somehow when we have the same evils haunting our past as every other people group, we (and England) are blamed for it in its entirety.

We should never ignore the negative parts of our past, but it should be assumed by everyone involved that if you're watching a video where someone visits a historical park, the historical people who once lived there were probably up to shady stuff. Just like all people have done thoughought all history and are still doing today.

American's (or white Americans specifically) aren't a special brand of evil that you have to apologize for visiting the cultural sites of.

[zshiftsrealities]

HOW SHIFTING FOUND ME A SECOND TIME, AND HOW TO BELIEVE SHIFTING IS REAL?

this is my personal take on the topic, and i'm not saying everyone will benefit from this advice because different people work differently. but this worked for me, and I hope that if you find this; this'll work for you too.

for me personally, I don't think "scientific proof" ever helped me believe shifting was real. I found the CIA document back in 2020-2021, and it still didn't change my view on shifting whatsoever. yeah, it was proof that it was real, but my mind didn't accept that. maybe "science" wasn't proof enough because to me science is always lagging behind everything else (from a religious aspect).

even after learning about how the mind works, the subconscious, etc etc and everything else and how it's proved by science still didn't help me at all.

eventually, I left the shifting community, and shifting in general. I completely stopped and thought "oh maybe once i'm older, and i'm somewhere with no noise, ideal setting, blah blah blah, I'll pick it up again". bullshit, I know. but because I just didn't believe it, I felt like making an excuse to not let myself feel bad.

so now, i'm completely out of the "shifting every night" phase, and back to "normal" routine. however, anytime I would watch some show, anime, movie, even some video on my feed of some beautiful place — anything, my mind would go "oh, I can shift there" or "oh, I'd like to shift there". but still, I discarded that thought.

then last year (2024), I decided to watch My Hero Academia from the beginning once again (cause why not), and throughout, I kept thinking "I want to shift there". and then, Shigaraki/AFO "killed" Katsuki in the Final War Arc. I cried ugly for so long, and kept thinking "no no no, that's not happening. i'm going to shift there and beat Shigaraki up for this" (I didn't even like Katsuki back then).

and so, I started to search, once again, about shifting. shifting storytimes, tiktoks, anything; everything. keep in mind I still had the doubt if shifting was even real.

now onto the topic of how to believe shifting is real? how I believed shifting was real, was by finding this one shifter on youtube; Cadmus (Shifting with Cad). I watched her videos, and the sincerity in her tone, the glimmer in her eyes when she would be telling an experience, and that smile of "relief" of finally getting to experience something so amazing yet so simple, is what made me believe in shifting.

obviously, I didn't just see her once and go "I totally believe it's real". it was a process, a slightly longer one, but one that was absolutely natural. anytime I would think that it was all a big lie, i'd think back to her and go "she can't be lying, I just know it. and that's what slowly, but surely made me believe that it is infact real.

so my advice to anyone who, despite knowing the scientific evidence of it, and knowing the science behind it all, still doubts shifting; is that find someone, a creater, a blogger, just anyone in general who, when you hear them talk about their experiences, you feel that they're absolutely not lying, even with all the doubts you have — and believe them until you don't need to believe them to believe that shifting is real.

it's okay to doubt, you don't have to beat yourself up over it. just know that at the end of the day, the world you see exists only through you, and if your eyes were to close the very next moment, your world would end with you. so believe the craziest things ever without logic, because you simply can.

[my-my-my]

KINKTOBER DAY 7 - Overstimulation: Askin Nakk Le Vaar x Female Reader

Requested by @dopepoisonivyoncrack

Summary: Food critic, blogger and author extrodinaire, Askin Nakk Le Vaar, craves his one true, favourite meal at his one true favourite restaurant. Unfortunately for him, it's not quite the same. The mystery chef, with no mentions of who they are, where they come from and where they're currently working, are unknown. How hard is it to find a good meal?

TW: MDNI! Modern AU, food talk, culinary terms, oral sex (fem receiving), phone exhibitionism, penetrative sex (fem receiving).

Word count: 3773

Read on AO3 here.

Food critic, blogger and author extraordinaire Askin Nakk Le Vaar was upset.

His favourite restaurant, R&D. His hidden gem of hidden gems, the one place he gatekept away from the public, disappointed him. He spat out the offensive food into his napkin, “what the hell is this?” He asked, shoving bits of the dish around on his plate, trying to discern what was the offending ingredient.

It physically looked the same as before, but something was different. Completely different. His favourite meal tasted nothing like before. It was bitter, left an uncomfortable film on his tongue, and the texture was off.

His server came by, concern evident on their face, “sir, is there anything wrong with your meal?”

Askin scoffed, “this dish,” he pointed to his plate, “what happened to it? This was the best thing you had on the menu.”

The server looked at him anxiously, “I’m not sure I understand, sir. It’s the same as it’s always been.”

Askin narrowed his eyes, “no. It’s clearly different.”

The server looked around quickly, trying to get the attention of a colleague, unsure if Askin would get angry over the meal. “I can take this back to the kitchen if you want, sir.” The server said, before Askin put his hand in front of the plate to stop them.

“Hey, let me take it from here.” Another server approached. Askin recognized this server, they had been here for as long as Askin visited the restaurant. The new server ushered away Askin’s previous waitstaff.

“Hello sir, what may be the problem?” The new server inquired, both recognizing each other.

“There’s something off with this dish.”

“You’re the first one who noticed, sir! The recipe has changed a bit.” The server smiled.

“Well it’s not very good. You ruined a perfectly fine dish.” Askin said, exasperated, running his fingers through his hair.

The server kept smiling, but this time it looked tight and restrained, “yes, well that is partly due to new management. Our previous chef has left.”

Askin raised an eyebrow and looked at the server with curiosity, “was this chef the one working when I’ve visited before?”

“Most likely yes.” The server said, bowing their head.

“What’s the chef’s name?” Askin asked.

“I’m sorry sir, I’m not at liberty to disclose that.” The server said apologetically.

Askin sighed, “where are they now?” he inquired, pulling out his phone.

“I heard rumours they’re now the Sous Chef at Enigma.” The server said, “but I can’t verify that. They left R&D on shaky terms with the owner.”

Askin narrowed his eyes, Enigma. He didn’t particularly care for the restaurant, but he hadn’t been in a year or so. Maybe it’s time for another visit he thought to himself. “Don’t worry about the dish. I’ll pay for my meal.” Askin explained as the server left to fetch his bill.

A part of Askin wondered why he didn’t use his connections in the culinary world to find out who this Mystery Chef was and where they went, but Askin also knew that there was a thrill to solving a puzzle.

Before entering the Enigma, He took a step back from the entrance and framed the restaurant between his two hands into a rectangular shape. His last visit here was beautiful, but the taste was unremarkable. Askin hated it – what’s the point of style if there was no substance?

He did use his connections though to secure him a reservation, allowing him entry in the highly coveted restaurant. The tasting menu was fairly standard he thought, but he saw a fusion dish of incorporating mussels and pear kimchi that intrigued him… and then the same dish he wanted before at R&D.

Askin was partly in disbelief, but he knew it was better to taste it than to get his hopes up.

And then the meals came and went, each dish presented beautifully and paired with the wine of choice. In between meals, Askin would take out his phone and note down anything and everything about his experience. Then the dish he was looking forward to, was served.

Enigma provided a smaller portion than the other restaurant, yet the presentation was similar. Askin cut a small piece, making sure his bite had a bit of everything as it should be he thought. Once it was in his mouth, his face dropped.

Askin begrudgingly swallowed it. The taste was still not the same as before. He finished the plate and downed the wine, trying to forget it. A server came by to clear his table as the next dishes were served.

Plate after plate, wine after wine, Askin wanted to leave. Once his bill was brought to him, he asked his server, “the Sous Chef here, did they work at R&D before?”

The server gave a surprised look but shook their head. “Not anymore.” They explained, “we did have a Sous Chef who came from there, but they’ve left now.”

Askin knew better than to ask for Mystery Chef’s name again, instead he asked, “do you know which restaurant they’re working at now?”

“I’m not quite sure, sir. I started working here just after they left.” The server responded sheepishly. “That’s too bad.” Askin sighed, slumping in his seat, “they know they’re way around food,” Askin said aloud, ignoring the server as he paid for his bill.

Askin paced in his home as his notes on R&D and Engima were posted side-by-side on his computer, along with photos he had taken during his visits.

R&D was owned by the Kurotsuchi Company, who he wanted minimal interaction with they’re too much of a hassle to get through. He surmised. R&D was such a hidden gem because it looked so inconspicuous, almost as if it were being run in a derelict kitchen. It didn’t help that the maître d’hôtel, Nemu Kurotsuchi, the owner’s daughter, was expressionless and taciturn to customers. Rumours circled that she had poured cold water over an allegedly hysterical customer, and the owner, her father, had yelled at both the customer and Nemu. The sommelier on the other hand, Akon, was a true expert in the field. Yet was often faced dealing with the public if Nemu’s cold attitude was too much for customers. While Askin was not friendly with the executive staff of R&D, Akon was someone he didn’t mind speaking with, but he sensed that he would get nowhere with them.

Enigma on the other hand, was owned by chemist-turned-restauranteur Urahara Kisuke… who was also someone Askin wanted to avoid.  

But Askin’s search was leading him nowhere. He scoured articles, reviews and social media posts to find anything on Mystery Chef, but to no avail. They appeared, then disappeared. No name, no next restaurant, just gone.

Askin let out a sigh, he was going around in circles. He decided to go for a walk to clear his head, where out of habit, he walked to his favourite café. Out of all the cafés in the city, Askin preferred this shop’s technique on making café au lait. He found himself a seat and sat down, savouring each sip of his drink.

“C’mon, please!” Askin’s ears twitched, he knew that voice.

“No… I think I need break, Urahara-san.” An unfamiliar voice said softly.

“Well, after your break. Why don’t you come back?” Askin turned his head to see Urahara Kisuke, talking to a woman he didn’t recognize. She was stylish, put-together, yet looked exhausted. Her exasperated look told him everything he needed to know about this conversation.

“You’re the best Sous Chef I’ve had! I’ll increase your salary. Anything, you name it!” Kisuke pleaded.

Sous Chef?

Was she Mystery Chef?

Askin stood up and walked over to the table. Kisuke noticed him immediately and narrowed his eyes. Askin saw Kisuke immediately stare at him, before quickly glancing at Mystery Chef. His face gave nothing away, but Askin already felt that a plan was concocting in his mind, but Askin pushed that aside. He wanted to know more about her.

“Mr. Nakk Le Vaar! What do we owe the pleasure to?” Kisuke smiled, his grey eyes sharp as he pulled a seat out for Askin.

The woman stared at Askin, recognition and awe evident in her face as she stood up to shake his hand and introduce herself. “It’s an honour to meet you! I love reading your reviews.” Mystery Chef said enthusiastically.

“You know him?” Kisuke asked, raising an eyebrow.

You looked at him, shocked at what he just said, “of course I know who he is! Anyone who’s anyone in this business knows who he is.”

Askin chuckled, as he humbly accepted your praise. Yet internally he was a bit smug, you knew who he was. He reeled in this information as you explained to Kisuke how Askin’s reviews have brought acclaim to their city.

Askin watched as you converse, noticing every detail about you, from your shapely figure to your well-manicured nails that were short, yet shaped and painted. It was a cold autumn day, and he noticed the wool coat draped over your chair, to the luxurious cashmere sweater you wore, tailored pants and loafers. Your jewelry was minimal, but tastefully chosen.

Style and substance Askin thought to himself, not paying attention to what was being said between you and Kisuke.

“Going back to my earlier question –“ Kisuke began.

“Were you the Sous Chef at R&D?” Askin interrupted, rudely. You looked at him in surprise for cutting of Kisuke so quickly, as Kisuke’s demeanour changed. He coldly stared at Askin, watching the scene unfold in front of him.

You gave him a half smile, “yes, I was.”

“I don’t say this often, and I don’t take it lightly, but you seriously are a talented chef.” Askin said, honestly. He stared at you intensely, his lavender eyes were warm, yet sharp. It took you by surprise, yet he continued “that dish of yours… you know the one. The one you brought to Enigma that you were serving at R&D…”

“Yes? What about it?” You asked.

“That was easily the best dish I have ever had in my life. You elevated R&D’s menu with it. I went there recently, and they told me you left for Enigma.” Askin explained, “and so I went there when I saw it on their menu, but it wasn’t the same as before. Then I heard you left there too.”

You avoided his gaze and looked down at your lap, now you were facing two people who were too nosy for their own good.

“I’m not sure what Mr. Urahara is asking for you to do,” Askin began to explain, “but I will pay you whatever you want, get the ingredients you need, if I can have that dish again.”

You and Kisuke stared at him in shock, “what?!” You asked, disbelievingly. “You can’t be serious!” You admonished him, but Askin was unwavering in his eyes. He was serious.

“You can use Enigma’s kitchens!” Kisuke interjected, a bit too enthusiastic for Askin’s liking.

“No.” You and Askin said simultaneously.

“Well the option is there if you change your mind.” He teased, Askin rolling his eyes while you gave him a pointed glare, he’s so annoying you thought.

You placed enough cash with tip on the table then grabbed Askin’s hand, pulling him away. The two men were shocked at the suddenness of you leaving, “Hey!” Askin said, trying to pull away.

“I’m taking you up on your offer! Let’s go!” You said. “And I’m tired of hearing Kisuke talk. He’s getting on my nerves.”

“You don’t have to tell me twice.” Askin chuckled, letting you lead the way. Kisuke gave a wry laugh as he left the café as well, watching the two of you disappear in the crowd outside.

Your home suited you. Askin took stock of your décor, your furnishings and everything in between. Your kitchen was immaculate, with spices and seasonings neatly labelled. He sipped the glass of water you offered him as he watched you cook. Your hair was up and away from your face, as you wore a simple, navy apron as you moved throughout your kitchen.

You had also asked him if he could try two other recipes you were experimenting with, to which he agreed to, trying to hide his eagerness.

He was mesmerized, watching you sauté, flambé, and plate every dish.

“Honestly my friends and family told me it was great, but it’s not every day I get an actual food critic to test out my cooking.” Giving him a warm smile.

God, he thought to himself, taking note of how beautiful your smile was.

The first dish was a nduja and cabbage soup, then followed by Caesar steamed artichokes. The aromas filled the kitchen, as Askin watched you prep every ingredient, taking note of your knife skills, the way you handled each utensil and confidence over the stove. You tasted along, offering a bit for Askin to sample. Each morsel triggering a sense of excitement in Askin. He was eager, willing and wanted more of what you offered.

His enthusiasm rubbed off on you, as you were happy to feed him everything. He praised you each time he tried something, and offered suggestions on what dish needed more or less of whatever ingredient, but you saw in his eyes, Askin was enjoying himself.

And then what he came for. The dish that had haunted him for weeks. Barbacoa-style short ribs, and you had plated it on a bed of creamy mashed potatoes. Askin was hesitant at first, taking a step back to frame the dish in his view using his fingers, forming a triangle shape. You were amused by the scene, “please, eat it! I owe you this.” You laughed as he stared at the plate in front of him.

It was the plated the same way he was familiar with, as if he was being served this at R&D. You watched him slowly cut a piece of meat, scooping a bit of mashed potatoes. Once Askin was satisfied with what was on his fork, he put it into his mouth. His eyes widened as familiar tastes and sensations filled his mouth once again.

He dug into the meal, feeling as though he was ravenous. His brain couldn’t compute with what he was tasting. He was overwhelmed. His eyes were darting around from his plate, to you, to your home. You had unlocked something in his brain that very few meals had been able to do.

“This,” Askin said, before taking another piece and swallowing it, “is one of the best meals I’ve ever had.”

You blushed deeply, knowing that he didn’t praise freely. “Thank you, it means a lot coming from you.”

“Don’t just take it from me. You have a gift, you know.” Askin explained, “you know what ingredient goes with what, but you’re not afraid to experiment.” You laughed in embarrassment, but he continued on, “And not only that, but the meals also look exquisite. You have a real eye for plating.” Your blush deepened. “So why the break?” Askin asked, crossing his arms as he stared at you, his tone serious, his lavender eyes piercing into your soul.

It startled you, but you felt that you could trust him.

“I just…” you murmured, unable to look at him, “I didn’t know what I was doing all of this for.” You admitted, “but hearing you say these things, watching you enjoy your food…”

A light blush appeared on Askin’s face at that comment, but you didn’t notice and continued on, “I think I just miss seeing people happy eating my food. Even though I was the Sous Chef at Enigma, and one of the chef de partie at R&D, sometimes it felt like people weren’t there to eat, and we weren’t serving food, just something to post on social media and call it a day.”

Askin nodded, “a meal is an experience,” he said, agreeing to what you were saying.

“Yes, exactly!” You exclaimed, “and I know how important atmosphere is to a fine dining restaurant, but the food should be an experience too. But it started to feel gimmicky.” You admitted, eyes lowered, ashamed of what you had revealed.

Askin hummed, stepping closer to you. He cupped your cheek in his hand, gently forcing you to look at him.

“Take a break, you deserve it.” Askin said, his voice measured and even, “but the culinary world would be at a loss losing someone like you. You deserve to share your gift with who you want to.” He said earnestly.

“Thank you,” you smiled, holding his hand to your face. Your eyes were pricking with tears threatening to fall, but you steeled yourself. “It really does mean a lot to me hearing you say that you know.”

“You need to be confident in your work again.” Askin said, as one tear rolled down your face, rubbing it away with his thumb. “Do you know how it feels when I ate something you made?” He whispered, his face inches away from yours.

“No…” resolving yourself to be more confident, you looked deep into his eyes.

Askin pressed his lips softly against yours, shocking you. As soon as you felt him about to kiss you deeper, he pulled away.

“Like this,” he murmured, before kissing you again, deeper than before.

His kisses became intense, and soon he began kissing his way down your neck, forcing you to gasp as you felt one hand work its way under your sweater, squeezing your breast.

“Wait,” you said softly, forcing Askin to stop. But before he could ask, you pulled your sweater over your head, your camisole falling after it. You tugged your pants down, kicking them away, leaving you in your undergarments.

Askin clicked his tongue in appreciation, stepping back and forming a rectangular frame of you with his fingers. He admired the matching set you wore, the lingerie suiting you perfectly he thought to himself.

“You’re wearing too much too, Askin.” You teased, coming closer to him.

“If the chef insists…” Askin joked, removing his clothes. You were surprised by how trim and lean he was, given his career, as you roamed your hands over his chest, but he pulled your hands away.

“Hey, I’m not done yet. You still don’t know how it feels.” Askin murmured, pushing you against the wall. He continued kissing you down, your breasts spilling out of your bra as he pinched your nipples. He travelled further down, before he was face-to-face with your lace covered pussy.

You pulled your underwear down, leaving your cunt bare for him. Askin spread your pussy lips and immediately latched on to your clit, earning a deep moan from you.

His pace was unforgiving as he alternated between firm sucks, to gentle nips, follow by one finger slipping inside you, then another. The unpredictable rhythm causing you to yelp, moan and scream his name as you threaded your hand into his hair, forcing his face closer to your weeping pussy.

Then your phone rang loudly in your pants pocket, a mere inches away from Askin. He pulled away from you, giving you a grin while your juices covered his lips and chin. He fished for your phone and handed it to, his grin deepened, as he clicked “answer.”

Your eyes bulge as you realized it was Kisuke on the line, but before you could push Askin off of you, he went back to your clit, forcing you to stifle your cries of pleasure.

“H-h-hello” you stuttered, trying to keep your voice even.

“Are you busy right now? I want to ask you one more time.” Kisuke said, going straight to the point.

“Y-ye” you stammered, before earning a harsh nip in your thigh from Askin, as he pulled away from you, his mouth so close to your clit.

“No, I’m free right now!” You yelped, giving Askin a pleading look. Askin smirked and gave your clit a soft lick in appreciation, then pushed his fingers back inside, his pace unrelenting.

“Will you come back as our Sous Chef?” Kisuke asked, his voice unusually stern.

Askin immediately buried his face in your pussy, his fingers stretching your wet hole, your clit throbbing from the ministrations from his mouth. You were so close, you thought you saw stars as Askin continued on, your legs trembling on his shoulders.

“Yes!” You shrieked, as Askin sucked harshly on your clit, the slick sound of your juices covering his fingers as he continued to pump his fingers in you.

“That’s great! I’ll email you the details later.” Kisuke’s voice laden with glee. “Great doing business with you.” And before you could say anything else, he hung up.

You threw your phone on to the ground, staring down at Askin. His face still firmly planted in between your thighs, as he continued eating you out. Your body rode out orgasm after orgasm, Askin’s pace never faltering.

You screamed his name, as you squirted all over him. “Atta girl, that’s what I mean” Askin said smugly, as he pulled himself up. Your legs were shaking and your body sensitive from the orgasms he ripped from you. But before you could catch yourself, Askin hoisted your legs over his hips and slammed his cock inside, earning another moan from you.

“Too… much” you panted then moaned, as his cock brushed the sensitive spot inside your pussy. You were seeing stars at this point, eyes rolling. Askin smiled to himself as he bounced you on his cock, the obscene sound filling your otherwise beautiful home. Your pussy squeezed his cock as another orgasm approached, earning a hiss from Askin.

“Keep squeezing my cock like this,” Askin panted, slamming his hips into you, “and I’m not gonna last.”

But you were too far gone, not realizing your hips were matching with his thrusts, as you whimpered, moaned and quivered around him. Askin closed his eyes, his eyebrows knitted in frustration as he felt his own orgasm approaching. His thrusts became more erratic, before he pulled out of you, rubbing his cock, his cum spraying the inside of your thighs.

You closed your eyes, trying to regain your breath, “thank – “

“Who said we were done? We haven’t even gotten to the main course.” Askin teased, rolling your nipple between his fingers. You let out a moan in appreciation, before taking his hand and leading him to your bedroom. He pushed you on to your bed, forcing your legs apart before he settled on your sensitive clit once again.

Maybe a “meal” like this is just what you needed, you thought, as Askin savoured your pussy once again.

The title for this on AO3 is from Shihoko Hirata's "Heaven" (Norihiko Hibino remix). This was a challenge to write because even though I had this idea running in my head for a while, I didn't necessarily know where I wanted to go with this. Nonetheless, I'm really happy with how this turned out!

Fun fact, the restaurant names are Michelin restaurants in Toronto (but the city this fic takes place in isn't Toronto [unless you want it to be lol]).

Also the recipes Mystery Chef makes are:

Cabbage and nduja soup

Ceasar steamed artichokes

Barbacoa-style short ribs

Thanks for reading!!!

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Non-political Female YouTubers!

Some were deleted and will have ❌️ at the end. I am still leaving their usernames in case you want to search for them on some other platforms (in case they have accounts there).

Brattyxbre - zine making. She teaches how to make zines as well as shows off her own zines. Literally so nice and soothing, I love a lot of her works.

RetroGeek Crafts - toy restoration and customisation. Usually it is MLP toys but sometimes she does different toys like Polly Pocket but it is still amazing.

LeanBeefPatty - workout, she's really funny. My favourite work out of hers so far is probably the 10 min abs one.

Vewn - beautiful and unique animations. You cannot imagine how much I love Vewn. Her animation transports me into another dimension and despite them having dark themes, I find them comforting.

Okana Nanako - life blogger on Japanese. Usually she cooks and does small short sketches. She is obviously on Japanese but has english cc

Morenikejis vlog - Nigerian girl vlogging her life. She describes herself as an introvert and has videos of her going on about her daily life. They are extremely comforting and nice. She puts a lot of love in them.

Real horror - talking about horror and true crime. I have not watched much of her, but I really do recommend her stuff for true crime and mystery lovers ❌️

Rightchoiceshearing - two wives who have a shear company and take videos of their work. Mostly shorts, but they're still enjoyable. I love the stories they share about animals they shear, from llamas to sheep.

Cleancasual - video game icebergs, extremely detailed. I usually dislike icebergs because how some do not provide necessary information regarding information, but she has everything perfectly researched. My favourite so far are her Pokémon icebergs (obviously).

ElectraSoul - law of assumption and manifestation content. Ok this one is not for everyone but I really love her energy <3

Hyler - loa and manifestation again. and again not for everyone, but she has shorter vids compared to electra and I really like her content.

Undefined - tech related content. I think she has revived Frutiger aero from its deep sleep and introduced it to everyone including me. Her videos are also somewhat concentrated on design aspect of technology.

Namiのくらし - Japanese office lady living all alone and vlogging her life. She has a bit of asmr feel to her videos.

Caitlin Koi - Splatoon content, not for everyone but I love Splatoon so I am recommending her for all the ink blob fans here. Or squid I guess. She usually "translates" (interprets inkling gibberish) in official songs and makes music videos. She also streams. I have been watching her since 2019 cause I am a Splatoon freak...

Momo in Amsterdam - Japanese student in Amsterdam vlogging her life. She is very nice and even has videos on english. Usually they are about living in Netherlands and student life, as well as hanging out with friends.

Reignbot - horror and true crime, sometimes internet mysteries. Ok, I actually used to watch her a lot back when she had a regular posting schedule and it was amazing. She refrains from overly edgy stuff and presents topics in an interesting manner.

ASMR PPOMO - asmr channel. Ok not everyone's cup of tea, but she is amazing I think. I used to watch her and sort of dropped after a while, but she did help me deal with some stuff I had going on lol

Hwaufranc - asmr mostly related to journaling. I personally love journaling and her channel was a goldmine for such stuff tbh. I LOVED it.

Atrocity Guide - mysteries, horror, cults, crime you name it, she has it all. She makes extremely detailed videos about the situations and has nice narration style.

MOONLIT † Страшные истории † - this is for all of you who know Russian. Scary story channel where a woman narrates stories. Sometimes she does feature her husband (another horror narrator) during stories as a character, but it is not that often. Stories are usually Russian creepypastas or VK stories or those from Mrakopedia.

hopeful asmr - only recently found her, but she has asmr videos where she either does your makeup or has random language word triggers.

valoulette - another asmr channel (sorry), makes a lot of weird/creepy girl RP videos.

Gamer Grandma - self-explanatory, a Japanese 93-year-old grandma playing video games. She recently played Resident Evil Village! Recommended by a friend.

tibees - math youtuber, also discovered very recently. So far she has an entertaining content related to mathematics, recommend if you are a math freak (in a good way lol no offence)

Asinastra - Ukrainian woman who makes art videos. Usually they are on Russian/Ukrainian. I really loved her content when I was younger and found her art cute and endearing<3 her videos are always cozy and nice. Discovered in 2018 while trying to learn how to make stickers. She does have english cc tho!

maleeka, is my guardian angel - another manifestation related YouTuber, has soothing videos with good narration and visuals. Really nice to those who want to start manifesting. I even have posted her here multiple times!

hobbikats - a woman and her oriental short hair cats having fun! I really LOVE this breed and I love her kittens as well<3

Manifest It, Finesse It - another manifestattion channel, who explains things really well, helped me get through some bullshit I had irl, recommend her 100%

Amy Hewett - she is an animator at CalArts, her famous and my fave animation so far (Jan 2024) is Apocalypse YASSS, which I found out several months ago when she just uploaded it. Her style is reminiscent of Vewn but is still CLEARLY distinct

kylie boggly - so far one of my fave lost media and internet mystery YouTuber. While her schedule is not really consistent, it's usually quality over quantity.

lostpalette - another journaling YouTuber. She has a bunch of cute journaling videos, they are extremely aesthetically pleasing and her videos have asmr quality to them.

iCharly - self-improvement (hypocritical cause I complained about them... but she's different), fashion and vlogging. Has funny skits in her videos, recently discovered and recommended by a friend

현미야 Hyeonmiya - sorry (not sorry) for featuring another cozy journaling youtuber. ❌️

Mother The Mountain Farm - 2 sisters living in Australian rainforest in connection with nature. On the channel they document their travels, life in the nature and sometimes even paint! Recommended by @intothewings

vintweety - vewn's second channel, more concerned on short videos and some personal vlogs, it also has some of her early animations. Recommended by @pootypootytangtang69

ghosttundra - creator of the lacey series, a horror series about a lost video game whose main protagonist is a traumatised girl. Channel features animati0on related content but also some music too! Reccomended by @pootypootytangtang69

Kitten Lady - Recently discovered, she posts videos about taking care of kittens and rescuing them, she has her own foster home for cats and helps them find their forever home. Sometimes she features different animals.

ailaughatmyownjokes - comedic videos and gaming alongside some vlogs, recommended by @emofthewired

Tamara Michael - art youtuber, who mainly does doodles and watercolour. Some of her videos teach doodling and painting techniques for dealing with anxiety and stress, really lovely and cozy. Recommended by @emofthewired

wAmy - want some good advice on studying? She got you. Bunch of amazing productivity hacks on how to study effectively. Despite this she is honest about the studying methods and other related things. Recommended by @emofthewired

Leslie Stroz - watercolour youtuber, who specifically does small canvas paintings. She actually has been uploading for a rather long time (14 years as of time of writing!) and has even videos of her singing, travelling and tips of painting.

fayefilms - another productivity youtuber concentrated on helping students. It goes from getting better grades, effective note making and avoiding burnout. Recommended by @emofthewired

Tiff In Tech - recently discovered tech youtuber, makes videos about learning skills in tech, AI, jobs in tech and more. I haven't seen much of her. Recommended by a friend.

Estefannie - she makes things and machines! She also has some old videos on math, not that active, but it is pretty entertaining to watch her. Recently discovered.

Strawberry Nightmare - horror stories animated. I have been watching her for a long time and LOVED a lot of them. Some used to scare the shit out of them but hey, just says how good her narration and animation is!

Sapphire Sandalo - She used to be a narrator on SNARLED and now has her own animated horror story channel. She tells both the Filipino myths and myths/horror stories from all over the world.

Useless Farm - she is ANYTHING but useless. She has a farm where she has ostriches. "basically a woman making silly videos of her rescue farm animals who all have human names and an ostrich that tries to kill her anytime shes near her lmaoo" as said and recommended by @jaehyurb

小芊枫 XiaoQianFeng - channel dedicated to making beautiful things. From cyberpunk katana and traditional chinese bow down to the entire house. For those of us who love seeing women build and create stuff.

little tiny egg - art and sketchbook tours, as well as art studio vlogs. She is an illustrator who is inspired by naturalist guides so her artwork features a lot of the similar elements. Usually uses gouache and other traditional painting toold. She also had a website under the same name.

Kanae Nozawa - extremely talented erhu player. Covers music from video games and anime as well as makes her own original compositions! She also has concert and gig videos on her channel. My favourite cover of hers is Zelda TotK cover and her original melody Little Happiness!

Simone Giertz - a mechanical engineer who builds random stuff. She even spent 3 years designing a compact coat hanger for her house and before she used to make extremely short videos showcasing her machines! Recommended by @acidbathcat

Dr. Becky - An astrophysicist with tons of videos about space. As a sort of space nerd myself, I really appreciated this recommendation by @acidbathcat

Up and Atom - coincidentally once @acidbathcat recommended her to me, I get her in my YouTube feed! So basically she makes videos explaining things regarding physics, mathematics, astronomy and paradoxes. This one is for all the other science nerds.

Angela Collier - woman explaining physics and sometimes talking about her experience in the field. So far, my fav video has to be her talking about Pokémon and physics of their evolution. Again, recommended by @acidbathcat

tarantula kat - her channel is about tarantulas and taking care of them. If there are any tarantula enthusiasts or owners here, thank @acidbathcat as it was recommended by her.

SoupySoup - want some horror in your life? Well, Soupy does exactly this by making videos about random internet horror, as well as real one. She even has tumblr @/soupysoupx, so check it out if you want.

D i n L i f e - I don't even know how I forgot her! She makes adorable crafts from cotton dolls down to notebooks. Her channel is sort of about zero waste and making things out of what you have to prevent any waste. She has nice atmosphere and sometimes does vlogs.

Bear Soongnyoong - ASMRtist from Korea who features her cats in the videos. Uploads are not as frequent as before due to her having to undergo a surgery. Still, extremely adorable and nice atmosphere especially in that video where she treats her cat actress for a spa lol

HannahTheHorrible - horror Youtuber talking about unsolved mysteries, internet criminals and horror as well as makes icebergs relating to the subject. Sometimes she explores scary side of tiktok.

It's Time to Travel/ 旅する時間 - woman travelling around Japan, she has no narration in most videos but has English subtitles! She even made videos inside Japan's women only hotels!

EATRIP* Pyon Chan - another Japanese woman travelling, but this time she does so around the world too! She has narration but also subtitles on her videos and a wonderful atmosphere. Recently (Apr. 2024) she even visited Iceland and England!

5minBS -五分钟嗑研馆 - Chinese woman making short videos of moments from lesbian, femslash and GL movies from all over the world and different time periods (1950s to now!). Usually has subtitles on both Chinese and English.

Rumbo Mercy - South African artist talking all about being an artist, giving out tips to other artists, vlogging and maybe some reviews of different media.

Movie Monarch - she does short movie reviews. Sadly, she hasn't been posting in a while. Found her through Song of the Sea review she did.

Tokyo Simple Eco Life - Japanese woman talking about minimalism, decluttering and sustainable life. If you are interested in such, her channel is perfect for this. Her videos have subtitles on English and Japanese. Recommended by a friend. ❌️

The Internet Investigator - horror, mystery, internet mysteries and disturbing stories. All on her channel. I usually watch her videos on internet weirdness and tragedies.

Sinister - She has horror stories on her channel. Fully on Russian and I do not think she has any subtitles. I used to watch her before.

Tamakid - Her name is Evelyn and she has a bunch of cute videos relating to fashion, hauls and other random things. I really love the retro aesthetic she goes for!

Lydia Loves Timelines - videos about Family Guy, South Park, American Dad and other animated shows.

Gutsick Gibbon - specialises in human evolution and debunking creationism.

GEO GIRL - geoscience, extinct animals and history of the earth. She makes videos about tons of other subjects too like geobiology and even touches upon environmental themes.

[spiderfreedom]

my suffering is profound and legitimate, yours is frivolous nonsense

Just reading a blogger I like but I had to laugh because she was talking about how beauty practices are bad for women's mental health, and she left a note saying "unlike gender affirming care! gender affirming care improves people's mental health and it's nothing at all like cosmetic practices."

TIL, when an older woman gets botox to remove her wrinkles and avoid facing the inevitability of decline and death, her problem is spiritual/structural and she needs to Do The Work to deprogram her ageism, unlike people with dysphoria, who of course have legitimate claims to cosmetic alteration.

And it is cosmetic - no part of the body that is altered by HRT or SRS or any of the feminization/masculinization surgeries is failing to function or functioning poorly. The problem is with the brain, which perceives the body parts as foreign or undesirable. We may sympathize with someone struggling with such a condition, but that does not change that the body parts being altered were already healthy and the alterations are cosmetic, and the relief being brought about is mental.

But plenty of trans people openly admit that separating body dysmorphia and gender dysphoria is a losing game. Contrapoints's video on "Beauty" (transcript) has the observation that she feels least dysphoric when she is meeting feminine beauty norms:

But I also think that trans people often talk like gender dysphoria is this intrinsic, personal experience that's always 100% valid and never has anything at all to do with the external pressure of beauty standards. But in fact, gender dysphoria is not sealed away in a vacuum away from the influence of societal ideals and norms.  [...] When I try to psychoanalyze myself, I find that my desires to look female, to look feminine, and to look beautiful are not exactly the same, but they're woven together so tightly that it's kind of difficult to untangle them. And the opposite is also true, that for me feeling mannish or dysphoric usually goes along with feeling ugly. I don't have a lot of days where I walk out the house thinking "well, I'm giving femme queen realness, but apart from that I look like absolute shit". 

Max Robinson's book "Detransition," from an FTM perspective, points out how the prospective trans man views his suffering as unique from and distinct from women's, even as the surgeries they seek are not especially different:

The stereotypical cosmetic surgery patient is seeking to become closer to being perfectly feminine - she wants to be beautiful. Transitional cosmetic surgery, on the other hand, is widely understood to mark the patient as ex-female and therefore unfemale; this is part of the meaning FTMs seek to create through surgery. FTM desire for cosmetic surgery is positioned as something totally different than the stereotype of a woman who 'merely' seeks beauty at her frivolous leisure. FTMs are deemed to have a rare affliction that needs urgent, life-saving treatment. Conversely, there is nothing more common than for a woman to become obsessed with her socially-deemed 'unsatisfactory' looks and desperately seek to change them, believing that such a change is the only thing that can restore her quality of life. This comparison will feel like an insult to the FTM. It will feel that way because we believe other women's suffering doesn't matter, and recognize how much ours does. Women's suffering is ordinary but ours is extraordinary. For us to matter, we must be differentiated from the silly little woman who wants to be pretty so badly she'll pay thousands of dollars (now billable to credit cards and loan programs designed to pay for elective surgeries!) to risk her life and health. These women don't need to be fixed; we do. FTMs know that we don't deserve a woman's fate but have not yet realized that no woman does.

I have more to write on the topic of the relationship between gender identity and beauty culture, but I'll end this one here. It makes sense that somebody who is identified with the opposite sex would also be affected by the standards of beauty expected of that sex. (Non-binary identification is more complicated and requires separate treatment.)

[befemininenow]

Legacy feminization blog: PrincessVikkiPNK (aka VikkiPNKcaptions)

Before I continue with this post, I want to clarify that while I still believe that Vikki will come back in one form or another, it's ultimately her decision at the end of the day. Rather than consider these legacy posts as a eulogy (they're also for people who are alive), I prefer to praise them through posting some of their captions. They can range from well-known to obscure. Hang tight because this is going to be a big post. As I mentioned before on my other legacy posts, these captions do not belong to me, but by the original blogger.

It's amazing how VikkiPNKcaptions went from being just another sissy caption blog to becoming a trans femme blog. From uploading sissy captions like these:

...to making more affirming captions like these:

I love the affirming captions she uploaded. Yet, my favorite captions from her were also the following:

She was very prolific with her captions and were always on point. In fact, there are so many captions that I loved from her, I wasn't able to save them all. There are others that I loved, but are now very difficult to retrieve without going through a lot of blog's archives. Unfortunately, I'm unable to go past the limit of images that Tumblr allows per post. Instead, the ones I uploaded from this post are ones that I felt were the most reasonable.

From exploring well into the sissy fantasy to becoming another blog creator speaking through the lens and feelings of a trans woman, VikkiPNK cemented her influence among the feminization caption fans and creators of today. May her posts and her name live on through reblogs, reposts, shares, and all of the above for time to come. Thank you VikkiPNK and I hope you stay safe.

Oh, and if you're wondering what was one of her first posts, here is one, dated July 23, 2022 by a reblog from gladtobeagirl:

One of her last caption posts was the one below, dated May 11, 2024 by a reblog from the-girly-boi:

It was also the last caption I liked from her before she was gone. A caption from the lovely trans girl Elena Genevinne persuading you to join the trans girl life. I love this caption so much, not just because of how beautiful Elena is, but because of the encouraging message to come out as trans.

To the reader of this post, if you haven't done so, and the circumstances aren't those that involve danger, it's time.

Your future is trans female. Join us.

[lunar-wandering]

anyways i was sitting in class this morning as we were discussing the paper we read about aspirational labour (doing unpaid work in the hopes that one day you'll get money and fame for it) and only BARELY kept myself from losing my mind when i realized mid-discussion that THIS is why fandom spaces have been so consumption focused and have lost the connection/discussion they used to have.

its influencer culture.

people in fandom are acting like influencers. they're trying to gain fame like fashion/beauty bloggers. iTS INFLUENCER CULTURE-

like i'm sure it's been obvious to other people but i've never had it just. click in my mind like that. playing with the algorithm, posting at specific times of day to get more attention, only posting about things that are popular- that's all shit influencers do. IT'S INFLUENCERS.

[arealtrashact]

Hi! I know this message is a bit out of the blue, but I just want to say that I was very surprised to see that you followed me back! I don't know if you meant it or if it was a mistake, but either way, it doesn't matter because whenever I see you in my notifications I always go "omg, that's arealtrashact!!!" and it makes me a lil bit happy because you're one of my favourite artists here!

I've talked about how much I love your art in the tags before, but what really strikes me about your work is how you seem to have a very keen eye when it comes to your subjects, so when you translate your interpretations into illustrations they're always so meaningful and vivid; it's like they're bursting at the seams with the subject's essence. It always leaves me in awe. I've got to admit that I think a lot about your Elvis in the Army and Elvis in Las Vegas pieces. But I also adore all your other work of other musicians, Homelander and even things I'm not familiar with! I'm not an artist myself, so I feel like my vocabulary is falling short of what makes your art so great to me, but it's just *so* striking! And the way you use colour and the fluidity of your character's body and mannerisms are just superb.

Anyway, sorry for the lengthy message! All this to say that you're one of my favourite bloggers, and whether you're sharing your art or posting about the things you love, it's always a pleasure seeing you on my dashboard. You make this place brighter! Thanks, and I hope you have a wonderful day! 💕⚡️

Th........ank....y....youuuu

This is such a beautiful, sweet message. It's taken me twice as long to answer it because I keep scrolling back up to reread it. I never know how to respond to stuff like this beyond blubbering my thanks and it never ever feels like enough. It means so much to me. . . More than I can put into words.

My following you wasn't a mistake. I thought you seemed cool and clearly I was right. Thank you for taking the time to write out this lovely message. I'm treasuring it like a precious stone.