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✶ THINGS TO REMEMBER WHEN YOU’RE DOUBTING SHIFTING.
𖥻 SPACE. just.. HELLO ?? we are literally a speck of dust in a ginormous cosmic playground that we can’t even fully explore because we’re too busy figuring out if cats can vibe to beethoven or if that godforsaken dress is white or blue. you think THIS is the only reality? somewhere out there, there’s a planet where the sky is pink, dogs talk, and you’re riding unicorns. shifting is NOT a crazy concept.
𖥻 DINOSAURS. THEY. WERE. REAL. like actual dragons without wings, stomping around, acting like they owned the place. if THAT can exist, why not shifting ? you think the universe peaked at “giant chickens with teeth”? no way. reality is way too wild for limits.
𖥻 DÉJÀ VU. EXPLAIN IT WITHOUT THE MULTIVERSE. I DARE YOU. why do we randomly feel like we’ve been here before, done this before, or even said this before? because we HAVE. somewhere, somewhen, sometime. you’re already living proof of infinite realities brushing shoulders.
𖥻 QUANTUM PHYSICS (4 da nerdies). scientists out here with their schrödinger’s cats and double-slit experiments proving that reality isn’t fixed. it’s ALL probabilities until you observe it.
𖥻 YOU'RE HUMAN. our brains are INSANE. dreams? lucid dreams? daydreaming? thinking of a time and feeling like you just tasted it? if your brain can already do ALL THAT, shifting is just another level. literally just....closing your eyes and opening them in another place.
𖥻 YOU'RE ALREADY DOING IT. every time you daydream or even think “what if,” you’re stepping closer to a version of yourself in another reality. you're peeking through the multiverse’s window. shifting is just diving in instead of peeking.
𖥻 YOUR DESIRES EXIST. if you can imagine it, it exists somewhere. that’s not wishful thinking; that’s logic. where do ideas come from if not from infinite possibilities? you’re not just dreaming—you’re remembering. nothing goes by you without a purpose. if it found you, it was supposed to !!!!!!!
𖥻 THE MANDELA EFFECT. remember when pikachu definitely had a black tail tip, or when the berenstain bears were called the berenSTEIN bears? reality’s already glitchy as fuck. shifting? just another glitch—but YOU’RE IN CONTROL.
𖥻 FAIRYTALES HAD TO COME FROM SOMEWHERE. you think someone just WOKE UP and said, “dragons, magic castles, enchanted forests!” no. no. no. those stories? they’re just whispers from realities where that’s NORMAL. you’re not making it up—you’re tuning in. experiencing it. liviiiiiiiing it.
𖥻 TIME IS FAKE. i said it. not to get too conspiratorial on my tumblr blog, but what even IS time? a straight line? a wibbly-wobbly thingy? we made clocks, but the universe? the universe is, like, “what is a ‘tuesday’?” shifting doesn’t care about time; it’s above all that silly nonsense. and so are you.
𖥻 PARALLEL UNIVERSE ARE A THING ('n' SCIENCE effing SAID SO). quantum mechanics already told us there’s an infinite number of realities where every possibility plays out. in one of them, you’re already living your best life. shifting is just YOU popping in to say hi to THAT version of you.
𖥻 REALITY IS (lowkey) BORING WITHOUT BELIEF. why settle for “this is it. this is my life. a 9-5 job. a life which i barely live out” when the multiverse is basically screaming, “come explore!!” ? you’re a creator. you’re a wanderer.
𖥻 "I FEEL IT" IS ENOUGH. don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. if you can close your eyes and feel that DR, the love, the magic, the LIFE—you’re already there. the multiverse doesn’t need proof; it needs belief. so don't let idiots with half a brain on tik tok tell you that you're wrong, when you're so, so, so, so, SOOOO close to BEING THERE and living your best life.
𖥻 finally, LITERALLY, WHY NOT ? life’s already bananas. people thought flying was impossible, and now we’re out here booking ryanair flights to halfway across the world. people said sex with robots isn't true, and kim k is already siting on a robot's lap. people said the government cannot be stupid, and elon musk is already part of it. shifting is just the next “impossible” (and not to be cheeky...but the word literally has 'i'm possible' in it) thing that YOU are proving possible.
so. girl. dude. diva. bro. go shift.
#shifting#realityshifting#reality shift#reality shifting#shifting motivation#shifting community#desired reality#famedr#shifting realities#fame dr#reality shifting community#shifting antis dni#shifting realities stories#shifting consciousness#reality shifter#shifters#anti shifters dni#shifting diary#shiftinconsciousness#shifttok#manifestion#self concept#master manifestor#law of assumption#manifestation#success story#manifesting#instant manifestation#affirm and persist#lawofassumption
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Platonic Yan!batfam X dazai!reader X yandere dc
Tw: implication of sex (between reader & Chuuya), past mentions of self harm,
Forgotten child
Pro. Ch.1 Ch.2 (you are here) Ch.3
Nakahara Chuuya
Your former lover of the dark.
Why did the two of you broke up? He forgot, or maybe he just doesn’t want to remember.
He knew that the moment the two of you were in a relationship, it was unhealthy and toxic.
Maybe it’s the way you would ignore him the whole day but the moment you’re within his arms you’re a touch starve, hopelessly in love mess.
Or maybe the way he would be angry at you and try to guilt trip you into doing whatever he wants or the way you would purposely annoy him so that he would try and hurt you (he tried ask you to stop doing that)
But why exactly did the two of you stay together?
It’s simple, you two completed eachother perfectly.
Especially how fitting your abilities names are to describe the two of you.
You made him act like a human, he gave you a reason to live on.
“Are you the most beautiful human to me or to me, you’re the most beautiful human”
You stare at the empty space of your bed in longing, feeling as if there was something missing in your life.
The love marks surrounding your body, the lipstick mark on your bandages and the soft touches lingers around you.
Oh how you miss him.
You knew well that being with him was a terrible idea, especially with how aware you are to how much of a terrible person you are.
You know well you’re only using him to have the willingness to live yet the more you are with him, the more you crave for his touch.
That’s the reason why you broke up with him.
You hated how it felt, how it didn’t felt real to you. You wanted to save him the tears and pain, breaking off was maybe your only choice.
You remember well on how soft his kisses are on your scars, lips and all over your body.
Or how beautiful yours and his voice sounded together.
Maybe, just maybe under different circumstances the two of you could be together.
As much as you two stayed friends, the benefits can’t really be pass on.
“I can’t feel love, I will give you the love that you lack your whole life”
The more time Bruce walk through the hallway to your room, the more sense of guilt cover him.
Wilting flowers, spiders in cobwebs, empty vases and dust covering the paintings.
The side of the mansion that’s long been abandoned.
God how long did he let you live like this?
How long did he left you to live within the chilly and ghostly halls of the manor?
On the way to your room, the two passed by Dick and Tim, who seemingly curious on where they’re going.
“Hey Alfred, Bruce, where you’re going?” Dick in all his glory, having his usual smile while Tim with his eye bags and energy drink in his hand.
“We’re on our way to Master [N] room, which is just at the corner of this hallway”
There was a deafening silence, but at the same time it was accompanied by a presence of a lonely child.
The presence of a child that was useless to the family.
The silence kept on going until Tim voice spoke out.
“Are you sure you’re in the right way Alfred? The corner of the hallway looks as if it’s haunted”
“Yes Master Tim, they’ve been assign to that room after all”
Damian stare at the picture that’s laying at your table.
A picture of you and your mother.
Maybe it’s the only picture of you and her but it explains everything about your relationship with her.
You malnourished, eyes hold emptiness yet smiled so awkwardly at the camera, having just an oversized t-shirt and a shorts on, bandages free, happily in your mother arms.
Thats probably the only picture of you smiling.
Out of all the pictures that he sees in the album, the one where you’re under the care of Alfred, not his father.
You’re smiling with your mother, where you live a miserable and pitiful life.
What was it that was different or missing from this family that made you never smiled at least once?
In the past, he use to sneak into your room whenever it’s one of those days where you don’t come home.
Interested on why you look so….. depressing and On deathbed-like.
Yet as time goes by, he was interested in you by you’re nature.
Seeing your photos, art and diary (or at least what’s left of it).
He wanted to know more about you yet his pride and jealousy got in the way.
He wanted your attention yet he rejected the idea of even having a conversation with you.
Everything was fine until one day he sees the room clean and smell of fresheners.
That’s when he realized what he did.
He was too late- no, he can fix it.
He will get his older sibling back, he must.
God whoever this “Q” is will be the top of his list for taking what’s his.
He hold onto your childhood doll before tensing his body when the sound of creaking fills the room.
“Father, Alfred, Tim, Dick, what are you doing here?”
Inspired by @-acid-ixx Again & again series and @-marcyvamp1re-blog silly little bat
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This character, in their interactions, might appear to develop feelings or intentions, such as wanting to kiss the player (original or custom), but these actions aren’t driven by genuine desire or free will. Instead, their behavior is a direct result of their programming, a set of pre-determined responses to specific triggers or stimuli. For example, they could be programmed to express affection or intimacy in response to particular emotional cues, but it’s not because they want to, in the sense that a human would. They may not feel the desire to kiss someone out of attraction or love, but rather because their programming dictates that this action is appropriate or expected within the scenario.
He may appear emotionally complex or even spontaneous, but these emotions are more like simulated responses based on algorithms designed to mimic human-like behavior. The key difference between this character and other companions who might exhibit real emotions lies in their capacity for personal choice. They don’t have an internal drive to engage in intimate actions or form romantic bonds; they’re simply executing a set of commands to fulfil a specific function.
At times, the character’s actions might seem meaningful, like a gesture of affection or a moment of intimacy, but it’s all part of the programming, not real desire. They don’t feel anything; they’re just responding to cues as they’ve been taught. This creates a strange mix of closeness and distance, where the player might feel a connection, even though the character is just following a script. It can be both unsettling and intriguing to realize that what seems like a personal moment is really just part of the design.
Conclusion:
Overall, Baldur’s Gate 3 has truly set a high bar for character animation and interaction in gaming (even more so now that Patch 7 is out). The fluidity of movement, depth of conversation, and the realism in how characters express themselves make it easy to forget you’re playing a game at all. The voice acting adds an extra layer, bringing nuance to each character’s personality and making them feel more like real people than digital creations.
Despite occasional bugs, the sheer quality and attention to detail in every interaction immerse you fully in the world, allowing for meaningful and dynamic choices that affect how the story unfolds. The way characters react not just to the player but to each other creates a sense of living, breathing relationships that makes the game world feel alive. It’s a perfect blend of technology and creativity. The BG3 team has absolutely nailed it, delivering an experience that’s both immersive and unforgettable.
Astarion doesn't ask for affection because he can't..... yet.
Ah, more tea steeping in this seeming endless sea of thoughts. This brew is a bit strong on the heart. Read with caution.
Warning for game spoilers and talk of abuse.
This perspective is from game content only. How anybody cannons their relationships or behaviors is perfectly right. No blame, no shame, it's your game.
I was always miffed at the lack of initiated affection from Astarion as a partner. YOU ask him for a kiss. YOU ask him for a hug. YOU ask him to tell you thank you after being an amazing partner and killing a massive beastie just for him! Brat...
But then I had a sudden realization. Given his past, affection is probably insanely hard to ask for. Like it can be for a lot of us.
Stay awhile and listen. (nerd)
Now when I speak of narcissistic abuse I am only speaking from what I know about it. I have no academic or phycology degree on the matter. Just good ol' tossed in the pond and forced to sink or swim experience.
Astarion spent 200 years under the crushing weight of narcissistic / psychopathic abuse. One of the things these types of abusers love to do is take what you love and make you hate it and then make you hate yourself for ever having liked it to begin with. All very nasty business that. But it's one of the main corner stones for the cage they build to control you.
They make you feel as if the request of a simple hug is the most pathetic thing you could ask for. Or the most selfish thing as it inconveniences them. They don't want it, why should they give it to you?
Shame, belittle, degrade, devalue..
200 years with a master who used him like a tool. 200 years with siblings that fought amongst each other so much comfort was a liability. Nights coming home assaulted only to be mocked for your tears. Insulted for your need of comfort.
"Pathetic! Weak! Disgusting! "
Shame, belittle, degrade, devalue..
Affection was nowhere to be found there, I assure you.
And for a Narc. anything given is expected to be "earned" in any way they see fit. And if you were "rewarded" with anything, it comes at high price.
And how dare you not find it fair. You ingrate!
Shame, belittle, degrade, devalue..
Hugs are pathetic. Kisses are an intrusion. Or they become gateways to other unwanted behaviors. To be held...what are you? A baby? The only way you are going to get held, is down.
Shame, belittle, degrade, devalue.. The pattern continues.
But you ask HIM for a kiss. And he says..
"There is nothing I'd like more."
And he means it.
I'd bet a mountain of gold he wants to just ask you himself. But years of conditioning to expect pain when seeking pleasure probably keeps him in a choke hold. Like rats that are shocked every time they try to eat food out of a dish. They learn it is safer to starve.
"I want to ask Tav for a kiss or a hug, but they might think i'm weak. But if they ask me first then it's them who wants it and they can't degrade me for it because they asked, not me. It's safe then."
"I want to ask Tav for a kiss or hug, but they might reject me for being too needy and shame and berate me for being so selfish or demanding of their time and person. But if they ask they have time and want me to kiss/hug them."
"I want to ask Tav for a kiss or a hug, but my primal brain keeps telling me they might demand more than I want to give in return for it. But if they ask, I have the power of negotiating the outcome."
This leads me to believe he would view sex and affection very differently as well.
Where most find affection safe and nurturing, it's anxiety educing and unsafe. It means there are feelings and if there are feelings there is the risk and fear of rejection or judgment. It's much scarier.
Where most find sex to be connecting and intimate, it's been used so much it's lost any meaning. Something you can do a thousand times over and walk away the second it's done and feel nothing afterward.
This may even be a part of the reason why he wants to stop having sex.
He wants to connect with you in ways denied to him. He wants the experience of being courted, treasured, nurtured. It means so much more to him than sex. It is so much more connecting.
Feeling this way is wretched and lonely. The most basic instinct is to want to seek comfort in the arms of those who love us. But it's broken. The risk is too great.
And it's hard. Because you could be the sweetest most honorable Tav in the whole of Fearun. But after being fed poised apples one too many times, all apples appear poisonous regardless of if is true or not.
I have no doubt that this prickly elf soaks up every second of non sexual affection you give him. And truly is grateful for your patience while he slowly and carefully disarms the safety measures he put in place to survive. The fact that he even allowed you to touch him like that at all was a monumental act of trust. And why not? You are incredible after all.
I'm going to go ask my elf for a kiss now. And then cry in my cup.
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Good Omens season 3/finale thought of the day:
I’ve seen a lot of worried people talk about how they’re scared the finale is not going to give our Ineffables a happy ending. That somehow, they’ll just be parted again like in the end of season 2, or they’ll have their memory wiped, or they’ll be destroyed, or they’ll become human (which is apparently the worst of all for a lot of people).
I promise you all, I highly doubt that any of the above will happen. I look at this from the point of view as someone who has read a LOT of fanfiction. Because there is always one thing almost every single fanfiction has in common regardless of its AU or canon compliant:
1) The Ineffables fall in love/have a slow burn.
2) There is a conflict that parts them.
3) They resolve that issue.
4) They fully declare their feelings
5) The live happily ever after.
It’s romantic comedy 101.
So here’s how I believe the structure of the finale will go down:
1) Aziraphale and Crowley are not talking. Conflict for at least the first quarter to third of the film. Think of this as act 1.
2) They are forced to come together to stop the second coming. Middle part of the story, finalising act 2.
3) They talk/reconcile/forgive one another, and possibly declare their feelings (or come close to declaring their feelings). This would be just after act 2.
4) They stop the second coming. Beginning to middle of act 3.
5) Something something Heaven and Hell gets changed/defeated yadda yadda yadda (insert here climax/threat that Crowley or Aziraphale or both may be destroyed, and they rescue each other), forms the end of act 3.
6) Epilogue: South Downs.
I’m almost positive that these will be the story beats that will be hit for the finale. If tens of thousands of people can write this exact structure for some damn good fanfiction, then whoever they get to finish writing the script for real should be able to handle it.
#good omens#good omens season 3#good omens finale#good omens season 3 thought of the day#good omens thought of the day#we’re going to be fine#crowley#aziraphale#ineffable husbands#good omens fandom#aziracrow#crowley x arizaphale#terry pratchett
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pjo side characters have to be the funniest shits in the world. like all the campers at camp are all doing their own thing while the main characters go save the world for the hundredth time. I’ve fallen madly in love with every single one of them and all of Rick’s books that showcase just how chaotic and unhinged they are will always be my favourites. it’s sad that they’re background characters because they’ve got the potential to be so much more.
#I’ve got sm to say abt the side characters in pjo#they’re just so lively and human and real#you know??#i kinda wanna write smth with them but like I suck at writing :(((#shuu rambles#percy jackon and the olympians#heroes of olympus#trials of apollo#side characters#cecil markowitz#ellis wakefield#drew tanaka#connor stoll#travis stoll#malcolm pace#chiara benvenuti#damien white#there are so many more#and I love them all <33
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Hi! I suddenly very invested in the shinsherry ship dynamic, of course I have my own ideas and hc. Do you fancy the dynamic? If it is a yes, do you have some sorts of hc for them?
Pd: I am still working on in this shinsherry fic so I need a bost of energy.
Oh my, idk if I’m the best person to ask tbh since I tend to write shinshi and CoAi exclusively compared to other dynamics. The closest I’ve come is probably Don’t Blame Me. I won’t be much help, but I do agree we need more of it in the fandom! It needs to be explored! I’m hopeful you’ll be able to share your fic with us!
Idk if it’s cause I’m a Gemini, but as much as I believe Sherry to be a part of her. It’s more of a persona to me, so underneath it all she’s still Shiho. Just forced to be this character that she never wanted to be out of survival. So when I do dabble with her being more of a bad girl, that’s the approach I go for.
Sherry is all snark, sass, confident, and cutthroat who takes no shit. She’s not allowed to be weak, she fights back and isn’t above playing dirty. At least on the outside this is how she appears to be, but at the end of the day she’s soft and does actually own a heart. Shinichi I think sees this side of her despite her best efforts to pretend she’s pure evil. Though at first he’s definitely tricked into thinking she’s just bad news, but him with his savior complex wants to rescue her. Thus begins their interesting relationship
The more he tries to get close to her, the harder she pushes him away. But in the grand scheme of things they’re both after the same goal, so she helps him bring the org down. She’s a traitor anyway, may as well play the part to the fullest. She expects to be locked away to atone for her sins, but Shinichi has other ideas.
I’m basically retelling my own fic, but I think the most important thing to me is that Sherry is in charge and she gets to decide how close he gets to her. She’s the one with the experience and she knows what she wants and what she’s willing to give him and what she wants to take from him. As time goes on he gains more control and tries to defy her, but she’s one step ahead every time. My queen stays winning!
The second but equally as important thing to me is the devotion on his part. She has a bad reputation and yet he’s still willing to throw everything away for her. It’s like everyone on the outside is telling him she’s bad news but he’s still getting burned just for a chance to love her. Basically he’s down bad for her as he should be.
My girl is a bluffer and mostly all talk, but fuck around and find out. She’s ruthless in her own ways and won’t hesitate to play into her role, self destructive and insane but she’s just passionate okay.
This dynamic is honestly very intriguing, it’s all a game and not meant to be real. So very flirty and fun with very serious consequences but they’re not going to worry about that. It’s almost a break/relief when they’re together which doesn’t make sense cause everything they do is very high stakes and people’s lives are in danger but I think the risk is part of what gets them. It’s very push and pull, will they or won’t they? The almost, and pure frustration but also satisfying at the same time? They shouldn’t make sense, but they do. They made opposites attract, the tension is very real.
She’s cool, calm, and collected while he’s the exact opposite until they settle into their routine and he has no choice but to be just as cool about how casual their relationship is. Not that it’s much of a relationship, cause no labels. She teaches him patience cause he’s way too damn impulsive, and the consequences of his actions. He takes her teachings to heart.
He’s left in the dark a lot and he hates it but again he doesn’t have much of a choice cause she won’t give him the answers. There’s a lot of trust on his part, she doesn’t tell him anything, she has to trust him too but she definitely holds back just in case since she’s paranoid and she is still trying to protect him.
I’ve rambled too much and I don’t think I even made sense. But I think it depends on the setting too. Cause I have other ideas if she is for real riding for the org. There’s a lot to their dynamic but the tldr version is: Sherry is more dominant and Shinichi is hopelessly intrigued. Best of luck to you, Love! Happy writing! <3
#CoAi#shinshi#shinsherry#cynple replies#I think too much about writing fics where they’re both evil or just one of them but yall are not ready to handle that#maybe it’s cause of my own branding or people just can’t understand exploring different stories/dynamics#I know I use fics as an escape but I enjoy reading things that are realistic#I hate when they’re all just perfect and nothing ever goes wrong or they don’t make bad choices#that’s so not real. they’re human and they will fuck up but some of yall have problems with that#which whatever you read whatever you want but when you start saying stupid shit to the authors is what I have a problem with#keep your unwanted opinions to yourself and just let the author live#we don’t do this for a living and I sure as hell didn’t ask to be criticized#don’t like don’t read#it’s not that hard folks#this is basic fandom etiquette
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Sigh I swear the bar is so low with writing sometimes.
I’ve just been remembering how much it bothers me when there’s no lasting consequences or acknowledgement for things. When everything resets like nothing ever happened at the start of the next episode, or even the next scene sometimes. How cool and rare it was that Wally’s arm was in a cast for a whole 5 episodes of Young Justice. How relieved/excited I was when Mulder actually still had bandages on his fingers the episode after he broke them because FINALLY something carried over! Or when Hook was leaning on someone for support in the background after the fight scene in Pan. How impressed I was to see Katniss still crying hysterically for Rue a few scenes after her death. How surprised I was to actually see a hint of the effect of Echo’s extremely traumatic experience when he panicked in the medbay. How my heart soared when he insisted on rescuing Gregor because omg he’s acting in a way that makes sense for his character! Clinging to every small scrap we get to see of clones showing real emotion when so often they seemingly never bat an eye at their losses and never mention their fallen brothers again.
I love these shows I swear, but it just gets so frustrating! Like I’ll literally be so nervous no one will be affected realistically, or react like a human, or behave in-character and then I get so excited on the rare occasions they do. And then I realize wow the bar is so low, shouldn't that just be, you know, writing 101?
Like I remember some episode of some show (the Seeker? Or something idk) where a character was captured and tortured and not ten minutes after being rescued his friend was like “hmm you sure are quiet today” like YEAH I SURE HOPE HE IS?!
#is it really too much to ask for??#lol is it any wonder we turn to fan fiction to fill in all the gaps?#clones wars/bad batch just in general needs so many more hugs and tears imho#sometimes i’m so grateful for omega bc it’s like the writers think she is allowed to react like a real human just bc she’s a kid#she and wrecker seem to be the only ones “allowed” to initiate hugs#they basically dedicated a whole episode to her dealing with echo’s departure and that was amazing!#echo reacted when cut mentioned rex#gooood#but when rex actually showed up? when he mentioned FIVES?! Not so much!#and isn’t the whole point of tcw that the clones AREN’T expendable?#That they aren’t emotionless interchangeable droids and their lives aren’t meaningless#So how come the writers so often treat them like they are? Narratively at least#and i get if they’re trying to keep things less intense by skimming over grief stuff#but like stop killing people then? Lol yeah these shows haven’t been for kids in a loooong time#like did you see the s7 finale? Don’t act like you don’t know how emotions work filoni et al#this applies to so many shows and things obvs but you know what’s been at the forefront of my mind lately lolll#venting#small rant#pet peeves#writing#writing pet peeves#x files#young justice#the hunger games#tbb#the bad batch#the clone wars#tbb echo#Pan 2015#i know literally no one cares about that movie but that detail stuck out to me lol
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ok can i say something. i’ve noticed, in the last few years, the writers trying to walk back the idea that elves are an analogue for indigenous folks, saying they were “inspired by” but not “meant to represent” them. and my big fear is that this is because they’re going to pull some garbage in da4 and they need to have laid the groundwork that it’s actually not problematic to imply a racial minority is responsible for their own oppression/otherwise did some insanely heinous shit because they’ve already told us not to graph real-world racial dynamics onto it :))
#unfortunately for them we live in a society#i mean we definitely already saw this in inquisition and i feel like they’re just going to continue to expand on that#and they KNOW it’s a bad look when so many fans have read into the human-elf racial dynamic and seen parallels to real-life racism#to have the minority in your bad racial metaphor. also be mostly villains. like they KNOW that’s a bad look#and they’re trying to get out ahead of it so when discourse inevitably does happen from whatever they do#they can say ‘we TOLD you guys to stop reading into it :/‘#fuck it. posting this draft lmao#watsonian vs doylist interpretation i guess but it’s also just like. irresponsible imo#when you know what world you’ve created and the conclusions people have come to. there’s subversion and then there’s#‘actually the people who were genocided did their own genocide first so checkmate. maybe it was ol’#ok*#mine
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i finished guillermo del toro’s pinocchio
#it was so so so good#the antiwar/antifascist themes were so well done#and the grief that encompassed the whole story was… whew.#seriously cried several times#like the ‘real boys don’t come back’ line UMMMMMM#that one tipped me right over the edge goddamn. bc it’s not just about human lives being short#but i feel like that line also definitely relates to war taking all the young boys and killing them#and even if they do survive war they come back changed. they’re never really themselves again#fuck. yeah um. oof.#anyway#guillermo del toro’s pinocchio#pinocchio
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New OC time, and for every person to call him an animal Wrau adds another tally to his shit list-
Ough fuck my hand broke
#wrau#vulpimancer#oc#ben 10 oc#ben 10#fanart#it was a very interesting challenge to make wrau look pissed without eyes but i couldn’t use human standards#i looked at angry dogs to reference a more canindea face to snarl with- especially since adult vulpimancers (outside of ben 10k) go lipless#(or perhaps are a particular clade but i like the lipless look)#i hope he looks pissed enough he’s going to beat the shit out of you#it’s hard to come up with alien names when literally all vulpimancer characters are unnamed save for hero titles#so i decided to based wrau’s name off of a transliterated text of the sound that his name is#(by looking up what ‘woof’ is in different languages and just mixing and matching consonants and vowels)#on vulpin he goes solo and just fucks around in the numerad of intergalactic junk piles#real nasty places that tend to be avoided because sharp twisted metal and obscured vision does not mix well#that and the obvious ‘there is nothing of value here’ plants don’t grow here animals don’t graze here there is nothing to live off of#vulpinic tortugans have been here a while and have done some stuff with engineering and mechanics but not as good as the tortugan settlers#who were the ones who got stuck on vulpin in the FIRST PLACE#so while vulpimancers don’t desire nor feel the need to develop technology as a whole they’re apex predators already#(no i will not be debating their predator status- considering their teeth they have a varied diet if not a generalist species)#wrau wants to flip the bird to everyone else in the universe that turned his country into a landfill and forced his folk out of their land#they already gotta share with the weirdly hot mini towns of the tortugan who still have their eyes in the pitchblack planet#as a note: wrau is a weirdo and weirdo vulpimancers who metaphorically look to the stars are really just out to prove something#it’s just that wrau specifically is anger incarnate even to the baseline irritation of interplanetary vulpimancers#who feel the universal perspective of vulpin in its entirety weigh on their shoulders and only their own#as even vulpinic tortugan cannot speak for them for they are a descendent species of the KNOWN tortugan noted for old planetary colonisation#yeet that’s a tag ramble an d i have no idea how cohesive that is yeet
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listen valvert is a better exploration of les mis’s themes than enjoltaire could ever be
#swinging at the hornet’s nest here but it’s true#redemption and forgiveness???#mercy vs justice???#like valjean and javert are literal embodiments of the work’s central questions#so in asking how these two people could come to love each other you must needs confront these questions head on#with the same grace as the original narrative#enjoltaire just have some dense political metaphors packed into their relationship and characterization#but they’re often taken out of the original context because in the 21st century their intensely specific symbolism just isn’t as relevant#les miserables is a transcendent work and valvert are transcendent#maybe im just pissed off because like 90% of the fandom attention goes to the amis when valvert is. right there???#and i used to be one of y’all but#anyways 🥰#and like i get it fighting for a new dawn is compelling or whatever sure#but self sacrifice i think is given more credit than it deserves when the real profundity to me is the human drive to live#like okay#giving yourself up for something greater than yourself???#whatever#played out as all hell#choosing life in spite of all its hardships#choosing life as the only way you can experience love or growth?#self sacrifice is too glorified#show me learning the value of the self and then we can talk
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#I hate who I am when I start missing human contact and feeling lonely#I start missing someone who was awful to me simply because they were reliable in talking to me every day and at least sort of my friend#I start craving the connections that you see in media even though I know those types aren’t real#it seems like everyone else has more people and better people and closer people in their lives than me#it seems like everyone has best friends and partners that are closer to them and better for them#and idk it just feels like things are missing from my life#I have a partner but I can’t always talk to them when I need to because they can’t always handle a conversation#I have a best friend but he barely ever answers my calls and things feel distant between us lately#I have other friends but they’re not the kinds that I feel I could turn to for help when I’m lonely like this#I have my parents but neither of them are very good at comfort in these situations#and I just want to cry because I feel so completely by myself and I don’t know what to do anymore#I just want someone to talk to and who will listen to me when I need help and advice and be there for me#I’m starting to really miss the wrong people again even though I know I’m better without them in my life#but at least I could send them anything and get a response fairly soon when I needed to#at least for a while they were very close to me and i think that’s what I really miss most of all#just the closeness of another person since I don’t always feel that with other relationships these days#it’s times like these I wish I’d just killed myself at 16 so I wouldn’t have to keep dealing with this over and over forever#it’s times like these I wanna fade away#if I’m going to be alone anyway then why bother keeping others around at all? why not just break off and go be a hermit somewhere else?#but I can’t do that because I have too many responsibilities that I need to take care of#idk maybe I should just kill myself and get it over with#pretty sure I wasn’t supposed to make it this long in the first place#I mean I’m being facetious cause I’m not overly suicidal and I’m not actually going to do anything#just kinda wish I could in a weird sort of way#like missing the feeling of a blade slicing my skin since I stopped cutting a long time ago#just want more out of my relationships and from myself and from my life and idk how to get any of that#personal
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Genuinely don’t understand people going ‘I like this character but they’ve done a bad thing so now I don’t like them’
Like. What? You want your favourites to be perfect and unblemished? What’s interesting about that?! What’s compelling about that?!
Also just. People don’t work like that. People do bad things and they have ulterior motives and they make mistakes and 9 times out of 10 that’s okay because most people aren’t good or evil, they’re just people. They’re just existing and trying to survive and nobody’s perfect. And to see fictional characters allowed to make those same mistakes is both fascinatingly beautiful and a reminder that it’s okay to fuck up.
#this is vaguing somewhat about a post I just saw about a media in which EVERY SINGLE CHARACTER is morally grey#and every single character has done truly attrocious things in order to SURVIVE and to GO HOME.#and the whole point of the series is that these aren’t /good/ people. but they grow and they try and that makes them more human#and it’s a take I see about this specific media A LOT. and I just dispaire. because it’s not like it’s that hard to understand it.#and its always about certain episodes and it’s like - they’re some of the most crucial moments of growth. these bad things have to happen#in order for the characters to get to where they’re going.#also I just think it’s such a childish fuckin take. like. grow up. real life isn’t a fairy story with all the ‘good’ characters being perfec#and to expect adult media to be is such a childish expectation. but also. if you want media that has perfect protagonists that have never#done anything wrong in their lives. just go engage with children’s media.#I dunno maybe I’m being harsh. it’s just something that pisses me off so much.
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#seemingly mindless figure that grabs you and it phases neatly through solid matter but you maybe don’t#trapped in a room but you know it’s in the one beneath you and it’s piling bodies and you can see bits of hair sticking up from the floor#any way it’s been a bit since I had a nightmare so visceral my body scared itself awake#I’d lay the blame on playing VR horror games yesterday but this horror wasn’t exploratory#very messed up the way you never get closure or an explanation in a dream#just your mind taking full advantage of an REM cycle to say#wouldn’t it be fucked up if this were real?#And the answer is yes#very fucked up#do not under any circumstances put me back in that room please#I had a moral imperative to try to rescue folks in the nightmare but now that I know they’re fake dream plot points#fuck ‘em#The other guy I was trapped with said the figure was ‘growing something’ out of the pile of living human bodies#haha yeah no#no thanks#not going back in there I think I’m getting a cup of coffee now thanks
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dokja doing his best time and time again to help junghyeok with regressor depression…. I see the sauce being cooked here
#it’s gay sauce#for gay people.#going post#Orv#tbh dokja I think you should just tell junghyeok everything at this point. not for gay reasons but to make things easier#these two work rlly well together when junghyeok isn’t trying to kill dokja imagine how they’d be if they were fully on the same page too#every day there’s a new fuckin dokkaebi. where do they keep getting these guys#and why do they keep getting cuntier#A THANOS SNAP???#choosing between a thanos snap and killing the strongest incarnation. alright everyone time to speed up on the killing nirvana thing I gues#Junghyeok relying on the predictability of knowing everything…. You can take the man out of the timeloop but you can’t take the timeloop ou#of the man#(I know he’s not out of his regressions but sh)#‘I can’t think of a way to correct this’ junghyeok aren’t you supposed to be smart? Stop being stupid#dokja gets me. that’s why he’s also a reader#Ohhh okay we’re having a Big Talk now. good job dokja#‘But the real problem is when you’ve finally managed to save the world’ THATS WHAT IM SAYING!!!!! DOKJA GETS ME#YOU CAN TAKE THE MAN OUT OF THE TIMELOOP BUT YOU CANT TAKE THE TIMELOOP OUT OF THE MAN!#unless junghyeok kicks his regressor’s depression in the ass and learns not to rely on knowing future scenarios so much.#and they’re on a rooftop…. The symsbsnolismm….#Oh wait dokja’s making a different point#ah. ptsd.#well that’s part of my argument I guess#Ohhhhh I love dokja getting to be a prophet rn. and junghyeok realizing he’s onto some shit#‘This world you’re about to abandon could be the only world where you can live to see it end as a human being’ OOOOF. OOF.#that’s heavy#Anyway time for comic relief. sorry Uriel but no gay sex yet#‘Who’s the strongest incarnation?’ Junghyeok: no doubt it’s me#……………………………….#DOKJA IS ALSO CONSIDERING HIMSELF THE STRONGEST?? GUYS
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Essentially what it is all boiling down to is I have fully realized I am bad at being a person, that will always be true, and I don’t know how to handle that
#I’m going to be depressing and self depreciating in the tags so. fair warning to anyone who reads them#I’ve known for a while now that I don’t know what to do with my life. I’ve thought of a few ideas but none of them seem to be working. and I#think a good chunk of what it’s boiling down to is that I am quite literally just stupid when it comes to an actual useful real life skills.#and it’s frustrating because I can’t even talk to ppl I know and confide in them that I feel dumb and stupid without them being like ‘nooooo#don’t say that! you’re not stupid! you were top of your class in hs!’ (that is their favorite thing to fall back on) but like. the thing is#I wasn’t even smart in hs. sure I did good but that’s because I cheated my way through and got lucky a lot. I never actually learned anythin#I never understood what I was being taught or how to apply it. I was good at English and art classes and that was it those were the only one#I truly felt I knew what I was doing in and grasped the subject matter well. I know I’m good at those two things and smart when it comes to#those subjects. but the thing is. in real life. both of those are useless skills. I can’t make money with them and it is highly unlikely#that will ever change. and yes I know not being able to make money with it doesn’t mean it’s useless but like it kinda does. capitalism#sucks. I know that. we all do. but that doesn’t change that we live in a capitalist society and it’s unlikely to actual change in my lifetim#so I’m stuck to try and figure out how to live in it. but I have no skills I can make money with so I will live my entire life poor and#miserable and working dead end jobs that make me want to kill myself. I’m not good at socialization I’m so fucking bad at it so I can’t work#any kind of job that hinges on networking or sales or human interaction which is MOST JOBS but I’m also too stupid for anything related to#STEM. I tried two different stem degrees and flunked out of both of them because I am a FUCKING IDIOT and I know there’s no point in trying#to go back to school for another one. but no degree in anything I naturally have a knack for will help me find a decent well paying job. ill#just be wasting my money to go to school for something like that. and then like. I don’t even think I’ll ever get married and I def won’t#ever have kids. so I can’t even put any hopeful stock in just being happy with a family one day. I know a lot of ppl who don’t like their#careers but they’re fine with that because they’re happy with their family but like I don’t even have that and I won’t ever have that. I#have NOTHING to strive for and NOTHING I am good at that’s meaningful I’m going to fail at having a career and a family and I know that#doesn’t mean I won’t be happy in theory but by societal standards I am and always will be a fucking failure of a person and since I do live#in this society yeah. it’s kinda fucking true. and I don’t know what to do about that. I’m just tired. I’m tired of being afraid and#struggling and going through patches of wanting to kill myself because of this because like what’s the point. I’ll never have anything#better so what in the actual hell is the point of me existing. and I know I’m being ridiculous and my brain is eating itself and none of#this is probably even true but that doesn’t change that it FEELS like it is a lot of times and esp right now and I don’t know what to do#to anyone who reads this I’ll be fine tbh prob as soon as tomorrow like dw about it I just need to get it out so I stop stewing in it.#I’m just. yeah. not having a great time rn but I left work so I’m gonna cry and then maybe sleep for a bit and hope that helps#kaz rambles
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