#they were soooooo in lurv

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im having a lot of feelings abt rosé's new song (number one girl) and bensler OMFG

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hiiiii (me again)! here is chapter FOUR of my charlie weasley fanfic - meet my boyfriend charlie! i’m having so much fun writing this, and i’m working on chapter FIVE now! i hope you lurv the story and you can cheek the rest of it out on my page or here at wattpad! feel free to reach out to me! 😊

MEET MY BOYFRIED CHARLIE - FOUR

pairings: charlie weasley x fem OC, fem OC x weasley twins (platonic)

TW!!! : drinking, curse words (maybe a few?), let me know if i forgot anything!!!!

"WHAT do you think of this mess? think she's telling the truth?" george flashed the letter he'd received from annabel earlier to fred, waving it around in the air.

"dunno, you know how lousy she is at pulling pranks. plus, she's only ever got us when we got her first and we haven't done anything to earn it." fred sighed, running his fingers through his hair.

"i mean, i'm not sure this is even something she'd joke about. she wrote that it was super serious." george replied, reading directly from her messy, scrawling handwriting.

it wasn't that either one of the twins were angry that annabel had a boyfriend. it wasn't that they were angry that she was going to be bringing him by. it certainly wasn't the spontaneity of it all.

no, this revelation that annabel had written in her letter only hours before simply concerned the brothers for a different reason.

annabel had never mentioned any sort of boyfriend before, and they considered themselves to be quite the best of friends. it simply concerned the twins that she could keep such a big secret from them, and her motives for doing so.

was she ashamed of her boyfriend? did she not trust the twins enough to share intimate details of her personal life?

surely it was nothing of the sort. their friendship had lasted through their schooling at hogwarts, the twins' opening of their own business, her training at st. mungo's, and a bloody civil war.

after everything they'd been through together, she'd surely be able to tell them that she had a boyfriend.

right?

"freddie! georgie!" as though on cue, the soft chime of the front door to the joke shop sounded and then her angelic, sing-song voice called up the stairs.

the twins glanced at each other before they were racing through the door and bounding down the steps, taking two at a time.

"fido, darling, we're so glad you've come 'round-,"

"we can't wait to meet your man, really-," the twins talked over each other as they rushed the reach her first.

"boys, meet my boyfriend, charlie." she cut them both off when they'd neared close enough. the man towering over her shorter frame had his back turned away from the twins.

he'd been glancing around, scanning the shelves and various products. the shop was a lot to take in, and he took a moment to finish glancing around before he turned.

after nodding his head once, he gave a slow dramatic turn to face his brothers.

"CHARLIE?" fred gawked. at fred, and george's, priceless expression, annabel burst out laughing. she'd barely been able to hold herself together when the twins had come down the stairs and seeing their equally shocked expressions was just too much for her.

tears welled up in her eyes as she laughed, stepping forward to stand in between the twins. she threw her arms around their shoulders and yanked them closer to her.

"you shoulda seen your faces! i got you soooooo good!" she teased through broken laughs. "meet my boyfriend, charlie!" she repeated herself, squealing with laughter. "it's your brother!" she continued, the overwhelming glee and joy evident from her infectious laugh.

charlie stood before the trio, barely containing his growing smirk. hearing her laugh caused something in his chest to stir, and he couldn't help but want to laugh right along with her.

"hold on...you, you pranked us?" fred questioned, pulling himself from her embrace.

"aw, what's the matter, freddy? is someone upset that he was bested by me, PRANK GOD?" her voice rose and she lurched forward again, doubling over in laughter. with her arm still around george's shoulder, the move was awkward, and george thought she might truly fall. he looked up to fred as they shared a glance.

fred's cheeks were tinted pink, but it wasn't anything to do with being embarrassed. no, his grin was simply so large that it was starting to burn, causing his cheeks to redden.

"annabel fidorius scamander, i simply can not believe you." george questioned, a feigned sense of disdain in his tone.

she'd finally managed to somewhat collect herself, but the grin hadn't left her lips.

"i'm sorry boys, it's just that it was right there for the taking. you two of all people should know that you don't always get the perfect chance for a prank. i just had to take it." she glanced between the twins, who were fighting smirks of their own as they stared down at her with feigned looks of disapproval.

"well, it was rather unexpected. you had freddie genuinely worried for a minute." george caved first, but that didn't surprise anyone. he threw his arm around her shoulders, pulling her into his chest for a quick hug. he kissed the top of her head, telling her that he was proud of her prank-pulling ability.

it wasn't very often that she managed to successfully prank them after all.

next, it was fred's turn to give in to her antics, rewarding her with another kiss to the top of her head.

charlie cleared his throat and in that moment, she became acutely aware of his presence once more.

"well, um, i know you three'd like to catch up, and i've got a stack of reports to fill in. it was wonderful to see you again charlie. hopefully we won't meet again over injured children. do try to be careful." she smiled as she turned to the larger weasley. the small smirk on her lips told charlie she was teasing him too, and he liked the sight of it.

he'd been feeling rather dejected as he'd watched her with his brothers, despite trying to quell those emotions within him. it had been forever since he'd seen her so much as smile at him, and then he'd suddenly had the chance to pretend to be her boyfriend.

even if just for the sake of a little prank, he'd been running through the scenarios in his mind of just what he'd do if he were truly boyfriend, and he could feel himself getting caught up in all of the possibilities.

the same feelings he'd felt all those years ago on the night of bill's wedding were beginning to bubble in his chest.

and there was no romantic atmosphere to blame them on this time.

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"SO," fred started, that ever-familiar twinkle of mischief in his eye, "you and our fido, huh?"

fred was leaning across the counter in the flat above the joke shop, and the three brothers were catching up over small glasses of firewhisky.

"it was her idea. well, pickett's really." charlie nodded, taking a slow sip from his glass. he was afraid that he'd rouse the twins' suspicions if he asked all of the questions that he really wanted to, so he resolved himself to remaining as silent as possible for now.

"wha- you got to meet pickett already?" george exclaimed. charlie simply shrugged his shoulders. fred and george shared a look.

their brother was acting strange. charlie had always been one of the quieter weasley boys, more reserved and much more of an observer. but that was normally when he was in crowds of people, or around people he didn't know.

when he was around fred and george, he was normally busting at the seams to tell his tales of his dragon work or recounted the story of how he'd earned a scar over a glass of firewhisky.

and now, they sat as they had many times before, with glasses of firewhisky before them, and charlie was eerily quiet.

charlie glanced between the two, noticing their apprehension at his odd behavior, and decided he needed to do something to quell their suspicions.

"what's up with the dragon on her desk?" charlie questioned to fill the silence, taking another slow sip of from his glass.

"you dunno know, mate? i though' you of all people'd know 'bout that." fred questioned him with a weird expression on his face.

"know what, exactly?" charlie questioned, his interest peaked.

"well, she rode it, of course. hopped right up on its back and took 'em for a spin, she did. thought fred was going to have a heart attack but newt sure did love it." george explained.

charlie's eyes felt as though they were going to pop out of his head.

"she WHAT?"

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LOL in all honesty though I’m way too amused by my own Jack Frost joke and its literally from a Bobby/Christian fanfic I wrote like, twelve years ago or something. It was right after Morrison introduced the idea of Christian in his run for purposes of Emma angst, and then they had that Emma solo, and I took that and ran with that fueled entirely by Rage and Spite, as I am wont to do. I now have no idea where said fanfic is, sadly. This was definitely way before Ao3. I think I only posted it on LJ, on an account where my friends list was like....entirely people from an entirely different fandom soooooo probably why that fic never really caught on. Whatever, I write fic more for myself anyway lmao.

It was pretty good though, think it would’ve held up well. The basic premise had to do with Dark Beast, the AU version of Hank from Age of Apocalypse. See, in the comics, when the few survivors of the Age of Apocalypse reality ended up in the 616 reality after it was destroyed, not all of them ended up in the present. Dark Beast, for example, ended up like twenty years in the past. And he didn’t have most of his memories, amnesia from trauma from the cross-dimensional travel or something. Which is when he met a then teenage Emma Frost, who’d just run away from home after everything that happened with her dad and Christian, and she ended up restoring Dark Beast’s memories with her telepathy, so they actually have history in the comics.

So I went with the idea of, okay what if you let Christian have agency in his trauma instead of giving it to Emma, who lbr, has PLENTY of story material on her own. So my premise was that it was Christian who ran away from home and ended up meeting Dark Beast and restoring his memories. And then Dark Beast, who has always been just as obsessed with creating the perfect mutant as Mr. Sinister is, if not more, because he’s like....equally obsessed with proving he’s better than Sinister....well instead of experimenting on the Morlocks, which is what he went on to do in the comics, he looks elsewhere. He never went after Scott or Jean, because he’s also a coward and Sinister scares him shitless, and DB knew damn well there was no such thing as a reality where Sinister hadn’t already called dibs on Scott and Jean’s genes. BUT, Dark Beast also knew from his own reality who all the other most powerful mutants would end up being....years before their powers even manifested in this reality. And since I’m me, of course I wrote it so that like, DB decided to focus on the other one of the 05 destined to grow up to be an omega mutant. 

And so he had Christian, who was young and easily manipulated because Love Me, I Need External Validation, My Last Name is Frost as In My Family’s Credo is What If We’re All Frosty All The Time....he had Christian use his telepathy to like, prompt Bobby into running away before the actual event that led to Xavier and Scott finding him and saving him and him joining the X-Men. Where Bobby of course ‘happened’ to bump into DB, who took him in along with his other young protege Christian, so he could like, secretly conduct experiments on Bobby blah blah you get it. 

But eventually Christian and Bobby fell in lurv and Christian was like what no, this is wrong, bad, not doing this anymore, so they run away together, and then it was basically just me writing them as a mutant Bonnie and Clyde who are gay and do crime together and say like, fuck all the adult mutants who try and manipulate them and other kids like them. Like Xavier, who eventually tried to get Bobby to join the X-Men and Bobby was like lol no, hard pass. Or the Hellfire Club, who eventually tried to recruit Christian except he was like lol no, hard pass. And then they were basically like this Chaotic Good power couple that just popped up here and there fucking shit up in a well-intentioned way that made half the X-Men grind their teeth and the other half snicker, and same with the Acolytes and other various groups. And there wasn’t really anything anyone could do about it because its canon that Bobby’s only real weakness is to psychics and having a world-class psychic as your boyfriend really kinda nips that weakness in the bud. Unless you come up against like, a cosmic-class psychic like Jean Grey, but lucky for them, she just thinks they’re adorable and tends to go whoops, missed them again every time they slip through the X-Men’s fingers.

And ultimately they decided their real mission in life was to rescue really young mutants whose powers manifested early and put them in danger, and make sure they get a chance to grow up without the various factions going ‘we’ll protect you, but only if you grow up to support our agenda and be One of us, shhhh, don’t fight it, just sign your life away on the dotted line, all the cool kids are doing it.’ And also me being me, and it being like 2004 ish? I think? Maybe 2005. Anyway. So my other preoccupation of the time was the Academy X kids so of course we’re talking like Julian and Josh and Cessily and the like, who were all like, adorable little ten year olds at this point in time, but also V. Beyond the Capacity of These Two Hapless Gays to Handle Without Help. Like, apparently omega powers and world-class telepathy do not actually qualify you to effectively parent a mob of young mutant menaces when you’re only 21-22 yourselves, who knew. So they ended up just showing up on the doorstep of one of Emma’s properties, mutant menace mob in tow, as she was the White Queen by now, and Christian greeting her facepalm moment with ‘Hey Ems, remember how you always wanted to be a teacher?’

And then there was this bit where Emma was something like “I’m a bit busy trying to take over the world, darling, try me again after my mid-life crisis.”

And Christian was all: “You can teach and take over the world at the same time, y’know, some of us are capable of this little thing called multi-tasking?”

And Bobby helpfully piped up: “I can pat my head and rub my stomach at the same time.”

Cue Emma’s wrinkled nose and accusing stare at her brother: “What on earth do you see in him?”

But Bobby just turned around and was like: “Umm, for starters, my ass is amazing. Have you not seen it? Here, touch it. Go ahead, you can squeeze it.”

Emma: .....

Christian, shrugging: “Well I mean, he’s not wrong.”

Emma: “If I agree to this idiotic plan of yours will you leave immediately and never come back?”

Bobby, stage whispering: “Tell her we still want holiday visits, so we can be the cool gay uncles who show up and spoil them rotten and thus they love us more than her. But don’t tell her that last part.”

Christian, dutifully: “We want to still come by for holidays so we can be the cool gay uncles who show up and spoil them rotten and thus they love us but no more than you, an equal amount only.”

Emma: “I’m standing right here you imbeciles.”

Bobby, still whispering: “Make sure that includes Easter. I’m pretty sure if I show up in a bunny costume I can make her head explode.”

Christian: “Just to be clear, that includes - “

Emma, a vein in her temple throbbing: “Just give me the children already.”

Bobby, gathering up the kids in a crowd around him, all noisy and giggling and clamoring for his attention: “Okay kids, so here’s the plan. From now on, you guys are gonna stay here in this big old house with Auntie Em!”

Emma, appalled: “Oh. My. God.”

Christian frowns: “Emma, please stop trying to fry my boyfriend’s brain. I’m not going to let you.”

And then the kids swarmed through the door past her into the hallway and there were the sounds of stuff breaking, distracting her for a bit before she like, glared at Bobby and was all: “This is all your doing!”

Bobby, hurt: “Only mostly! Chris and I are a team. A united front. It was a 60/40 split.”

Christian: “Well....”

Bobby: “Okay, 70/30.”

Christian: “You said you were going out to get some waffles to make breakfast in the morning and you came home with waffles, ice cream, and Julian on your shoulders.”

Bobby: “He followed me home!”

Christian: “That’s not how he tells it.”

Bobby, whirling on the ten year old Julian Keller who’s playing a Gameboy and looking entirely unconcerned: “You little traitor.”

Julian flipped him off.

Bobby, scandalized: “He did NOT learn that from me.”

Julian, still not looking up from his game: “Yes I did.”

And that was when Christian started dragging his boyfriend back to their car, before Bobby can get into an actual fight with a ten year old, yelling back over his shoulder at Emma: “Okay, great, thanks so much for doing this, let us know if you need us to bring anything when we come back in a few days with the second batch.”

Emma, distracted and trying to do a headcount: “Yes, fine, be gone already. ...Wait. What second batch? DRAAAAAAAKE!!”

But it was too late as the car is halfway to her big mansion gates by then, Bobby cackling: “Hey, we should totally get a dog. Like a little foofy one.”

Christian, knowing better than to ask but asking anyway: “And why is that?”

Bobby: “Bet you anything I can get her to say “I’ll get you and your little dog too!’”

Christian: “I’d appreciate it for both our sakes if you never do or say anything to suggest to my sister you’ve ever compared her to the Wicked Witch of the West. I mean, not that she’d protest on moral grounds, but she takes her color schemes very seriously. And you do know you don’t actually have to provoke her quite so much...”

Bobby: “Mmmm....agree to disagree. It’s the principle of the matter.”

Christian: “What principle? What matter?”

That was the gist of that scene anyway. Dialogue’s probably different, but you get it.

Ugh, I probably have the whole thing sitting in an old email account somewhere because that’s always been my main way of backing stuff up, is emailing it to myself. Problem is, I think I had a specific fandom email account back then and I don’t know what it is anymore lol. 

[flameontheotherside]

Drugs Ruin Everything

Reminds me of Adam Ruins Everything...oooo we should watch that! 😍

I'm guessing talking to God is going to be a daily thing now because he just waltzes in like he owns the place. It's cool though. He was very happy to see I'm in a good mood for someone about to be on her period. Lol! He's very very helpful today and I had an epiphany. God felt very feminine today. He switches depending on the situation I guess. He had this pleased granny vibe say things like: How lovely, how nice, Just lovely, I just love, etc. You know what I mean like old cat lady on a rocking chair with hands clasped kind of vibe. Hahaha...

So while talking to God I had an epiphany as we were discussing Vince and how I should approach him about an issue he's having with substance abuse. I realized that:

In to the relationship I was recovering from an addiction, abusive relationship, just got out of psych... My mind was not in the right place. Even when I thought I was, I really wasn't.

Vince started rehab the first time and was hospitalized for a while in the first few months together. I also almost literally died from an infection.

Vince just completed his rehab for a second time for opiates and is clean from them. Now he takes MDMA with the excuse that it's no different than Adderall. Okay fine. We see the same psych Dr. He can just ask for a prescription. No, because he gets the Molly "free" so he says for helping a "friend" every week.

Over the course of 8 fucking years, I've never ever ever known Vince sober. Now, he's trading one drug for another. I have the right to talk because I roll on occasion. This dude... I found little empty baggies under his fucking mouse pad. He asked me to shut his game off as he left for work. I slipped and they just fell out. This guy, I've never in the 8 years we've been "together" have I ever known him completely sober. Wow.

Needless to say this was a 8 year rebound gone way out of hand.

Soooooo we had an argument about him being a hypocrite and he sent me a novel about how much I hurt him. By the way he's a textbook narcissist. How he's a martyr, people step all over him and he's hurt that I'm like everyone else. I learned long ago there's no point to reason with a narcissistic addict. You can't and won't win.... But I was irritated and screamed back at him. Honestly don't give a flying fuck if he leaves ✈️🤣. I see through his bullshit. He forgets the last two assholes I dated were just like him! He flat out denies that I see through his shit and makes me feel like I'm crazy for even trying.

Our lease is up in a couple months.🙏🏼 😇🙏🏼

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Issue 46 part 2 replies

Team Jason, but I really felt bad for Arc here!

Excellent. One of my goals for this ‘chapter’ is to get each team to at least empathise a bit with the other. So far, this seems to be working.

tabbyrhsims4simblr replied to your photoset “Codex Files, Issue #46, part 2 Poppy might manage to side-step Sean...”

Archimedes could have totally rearranged his face. He doesn't like him talking that way about her. Arc is in lurve with Poppy!

Yes. Perhaps rather fatally, Archimedes is in love with Poppy. Arc is also pretty drunk at this stage and very wound up. Archimedes is actually a pretty dangerous person to get on the wrong side of; however, he does realise that Sean’s not really important in the scheme of things. This was more a bit of a things coming to a head for poor Archimedes.

igglemouse replied to your photoset “Codex Files, Issue #46, part 2 Poppy might manage to side-step Sean...”

I don't know if I should love or hate Sean XD but I do always love these updates!

Don’t hate Sean! He’s got his own reasons for chasing Poppy around and most of them are pretty callow. Poppy wouldn’t really get deeply involved with him, although if it hadn’t been for that whole confusion over Jason, she might have gone ahead and scratched an itch with him.

maramaja06 replied to your photoset “Codex Files, Issue #46, part 2 Poppy might manage to side-step Sean...”

This was brillant and soooooo typical for Arc... and Poppy! I also apreciated the fine irony... about ... "blond blokes"... and the whole bar scene. Wonderful chapter!

I’m not sure it was entirely irony...I mean Poppy did say a few times that she could have closed her eyes and pretended. *evil grin*

mrsracooney replied to your photoset “Codex Files, Issue #46, part 2 Poppy might manage to side-step Sean...”

Ha well, Sean IS a perfect gentleman after all! And he certainly doesn't deserve a glowing magic fist in his face :# Even if his terrible boasts had been the truth lol

Yes, I’m afraid Sean wanted to wind up Arc a bit there for his own little reasons. There’s a small amount of petty schoolboy rivalry between them.

paxromanasims replied to your photoset “Codex Files, Issue #46, part 2 Poppy might manage to side-step Sean...”

BAR BRAWL! Man Quid, Arc is so thug ��

Oh, geez. He’s actually a bit sheepish about that once he realised he was going to literally hit Sean with a hex.

suspiciouslypinklady replied to your photoset “Codex Files, Issue #46, part 2 Poppy might manage to side-step Sean...”

I LOVE the narrative in here , It seems sean wasnt so bad after all ! And poor ark actually needed someone to tell all of these things to

Yes! Sean isn’t actually bad. He’s a bit callow at times, but he’s having a bit of an off moment as well. This whole scene took place before Sean Hyatt returned to the UK and Chasing Hearts began.

Arc needed somebody to actually get it out of his head a bit. Sean’s not directly involved, somebody he knows isn’t a gossip and well...it sort of happened.

lddracula replied to your photoset “Codex Files, Issue #46, part 2 Poppy might manage to side-step Sean...”

Aww look at Archi's puppy-dog face there.

I know I’ve mentioned about Poppy’s faces from time to time, but actually Archimedes has pulled some really brilliant expressions himself over this series...

He does a really good ‘determined’ face and a rather good ‘annoyed’ one as well.

josiesimblr replied to your photoset “Codex Files, Issue #46, part 2 Poppy might manage to side-step Sean...”

This was amazing, start to finish! lol I love my Archie but Sean is SUCH a rascal! LOL "The carpets match the drapes!" Oh my goodness, I laughed so hard!

All of this is 100% TRUE as well. Sean decided to wind Arc up with the truth. Of course the way he presented it was calculated to kick Archimedes, but...

joannebernice replied to your photoset “Codex Files, Issue #46, part 2 Poppy might manage to side-step Sean...”

awwww and arc indirectly spills the beans. and it took sean to do it. i'm actually really happy about it. i mean he told him SHE LIKES BLONDE BLOKES WITH BRIT ACCENTS. I mean cmon arc put it together!!! xxx this was a great chapter ... feel free to use sean anytime.

Don’t worry, Archimedes isn’t stupid. He’s piecing it together a bit. He’s already aware that he’s miscalculated dreadfully.

Arc’s worst problem right now is actually his tendency to overthink things.

maladi777 replied to your photoset “Codex Files, Issue #46, part 2 Poppy might manage to side-step Sean...”

Sean totally played you Archie and made you spill. Just like Poppy played him. ��

Actually, Sean wasn’t really looking for a confession. He came back down to the bar to see if there were any women. Sean’s a bit wound up himself now. Fortunately he’s nowhere near as picky as Archimedes. He’ll probably manage to sort himself out at the club.

stsciurussimblr replied to your photoset “Codex Files, Issue #46, part 2 Poppy might manage to side-step Sean...”

Superb as always! ❤️

simmerberlin replied to your photoset “Codex Files, Issue #46, part 2 Poppy might manage to side-step Sean...”

Hahaha this was one of my favourites too! Poor Arc...

I know you’re team Jason as well! HA! Glad to know both sides are empathising with each other a bit now....

themoonglitch replied to your photoset “Codex Files, Issue #46, part 2 Poppy might manage to side-step Sean...”

Oh my poor Arch! He is the perfect man and I wanna marry him!!!������

I wouldn’t go so far as to say ‘perfect’. Archimedes is prone to a few flaws. However he does do his best. He would ask you to tell Poppy he’s perfect though.

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I GUESS ITS THAT TIME AGAIN FOR YEAR IN REVIEW!!

Sorry tumblr friends I’ve been awol as I can’t get tumblr to work on my ipad anymore...ANYHOO THIS YEAR WAS HELLA WONKY cause that is how the life bitch rolls the major theme of this year was the crazy train of my life on fire pretty much smoked itself out but i stewed in the embers of chronic fatigue 90% of the year so was not much in a position to enjoy I spent the lion share of the year flat on my back in a fog and feeling really disconnected from everyone and everything; and if it weren’t for my boyfriend I would have felt hella lonely, and often times i did the chronic fatigue also really adversely affected my ability to hustle and make money and lived most of the year in poverty and stress and wondering my ultimate fate and fuck being a type a personality stuck on your back really does one’s head in: it is really hard for me not to attempt conquering the world, being epic, and eating/shitting life

but it sounds whiny bitch to be all WHOA IS ME (sic) when the world is on fire while last year’s review I had mentioned FALLING IN LURVE (and I still am), i’ve discovered HAPPINESS is boring -->something a trauma mama brain needed to learn -- it shouldnt be a rollercoaster; it should feel stable and giving and relaxed and warm and lovely, and the person that is with you should ...be with you? instead of stringing you along with I’D BE WITH YOU BUT CAN’T FOR REASONS <--that is basically the sign of a bullshiter who doesn’t know their own mind so that was a lesson it has NOT been easy...we are both mentally ill; when we are well it is soooooo good, but just like the girl with the little curl: when we are bad it is horrid -->like two velociraptors in love; but we both DO THE WORK; and love is WORK; and for the first time in my life I feel like i’m on a team the big news is I moved into his place late november which SOLVED the chronic fatigue sitch (which i now am tentatively blaming on shithole apartment I had moved into) so now I can life again but i have to be careful in not DOING ALL THE THINGS cause i feel i have so much i need to catch up on: with people, with creative work, with $$$, with momming so in most ways my financial issues are solved as my boyf lives in a co-op and i now pay a 1/3 of the going rate my shithole apartment was 

OTHER big news after 8 years of waiting, I finally have a psychiatrist and am now on abilify and fuck man: MAYBE SHE’S BORN WITH IT, MAYBE ITS ABILIFY i am also finally in therapy and i’m just so happy ive had such a reversal in fortunes mental health wise i finally stood my ground with a friend who had crossed consent lines and was like NOT OKAY delete and during #metoo retroactively unforgave a swath of men also after being bereft of money from Oct-early Dec saved my fucking ass as clients were all up in my biz, and i was able to catch up AND save for my divorce so i can get divorced AND Married (wink wink) On the creative front....yeah i wrote a handful of articles that did decent (though How to Help the Cause from 2016 is still going strong and I’m so grateful it has been of use to many people in these dark times but i had to let go of everything creatively which slowly killed my soul but now with my health back *knock on wood -->im trying to fit WAY too much in but the roundup of creative for 2017: 8 articles with one that went viral: people seem to really like when i write about politics in all caps I made it out to two readings where I performed which was monumental considering my state of health at the time i wrote, illustrated and coded a PRON game that i debuted this week called Tarped by a 3some (BASED ON A TRUE STORY) I revamped Spy Whores --> Spy Slutz  cause feminism worked on a bunch of cool top secret things i cant talk about cause ndas and maybe this week i’ll get back to the novel i had abandoned due to health but i got to pace myself cause LIFE DIDN’T ROME ITSELF IN ONE DAY