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been here a while huh
#i remember manually checking every reblog on an art post to see if the person wrote tags#flipping through all those blogs#we had to put the work in eh#but god Damn did it feel good to open a reblog on my art and find actual words written by a human#those screaming tag walls that everyone loves#they tasted even better back in the day#we had to work for that shit they didn't just deliver it to you#they didn't even have a system for seeing everyone's tags on a post i remember being blown the fuck away when they put that in#crazy shit
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#this might be the most scribble thing I post here yet bahahahahahahahahahahaaha#I still like how the hands turned out even though I didn’t finish them😇#but it’s pretty messy and the hands might be the only part I like🥲#but since this blog is my art journey documentation here you are#I was pretty busy today so no good art but maybe tomorrow we’ll see#I am preparing things to FINALLY answer my asks🥹#& if you tagged me in anything I actually have been meaning to respond!!!!!!!! my notifications are the WORST and so confusing on here😵💫#and I’m technology grandma…#hope u all have had an amazing day !!!! 🫶#my brother in law has been fishing and catching SO MANY sargo#(sargo = sea bream for the animal crossing playing English speakers😙)#AND ITS LITERALLY SOOOOOOOOO DELICIOUS !!!!!#i cook it in the weirdest way possible#you just have to gut the fish and cut off its fins etc#then you put it in a wet salt bed and cover it up…cook it for 30 min…AND VOILA ITS DONE !!!!!#I don’t add any spices…NOTHING…and this fish literally has the taste and texture of crab covered in butter#LIKE…😳 it might be my favorite food/fav thing to cook these days bc it’s so easy and fresh caught fish is just delicious😫#well that was my grandma cooking show of the day👩🍳#now you know how to cook sargo a la sal 👩🍳#also going back to the drawing🥹 I just love these two so much…#I love thinking of sweet moments…most of my angst is confined to writinc😆#the chapter I’m writing right now is SO ANGST DEPRESSING (sorry Eloise)#it will get better…I promise…#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hogwarts legacy oc#hogwarts legacy mc#eloise babbit#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow x mc
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i ahvenmt drawn in a whle tbh idk what ive been doing 4 a while
#i dont ship sunny x evbo dont get me like htat#WHAT I AM SAYING IS 1-SIDED CRUSH#SO TAKE THAT HOW U WILL#yeahhhhh B)#omg him B)#omg sunny?!?!?#sunny nate#i srsly dont know what ive been doing 4 a bit#i think i just got rlly rlly down & blanked out fo the past couple((?)) days?#but were better know totally absolutely yeah#aka ive been taking my dog on a walk since the weather has been down & i think iom more in my head more so like!!!!!!#!!!!!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!!! WERE BACK ION HEREEEEEEE#i need to like acutally tho like actually stay & chill tf out bc i can feel an impact about 2 happen#i can sense it smell it taste it even#uhhhhhhh anwyays#srry i ramble in the tags but their MY TAGS SO#sunglassess guy#parkour civilization#minecraft parkour#puppee art#mmmmmm i dont rlly like these @ all#again 1st doodles since whenever but njust BLHEEEEE
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#LETS DO THIS#lmao wouldn’t it be funny if Scale was actually better at brewing tea than Fuyu tho???#Fuyu canonically thinks that tea made of GRASS CLIPPINGS taste good c’mon guys#Scale would call Fuyu a frigid old man and Fuyu would call Scale a disrespectful adolescent#“these arrogant little youngsters... back in MY day Ninja Assasins were sneaky COWARDS who had to rely on dishonorable methods to even KILL#their targets.. talk about being underhanded- those frightened little fools!“#“Whatever you say... BOOMER.“#*fighting back tears* “YOU TAKE THAT BACK RIGHT NOW!!!!“#this was all over a cup of oolong tea btw#blush blush#blush blush game#blush blush scale#scale blush blush#blush blush fuyu#fuyu blush blush
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Bruce Yamada post revival!
Here’s the sweet and lovable baseball player!!! He enjoys baseball, and soft jazz!
I tried to make it seem like he’s thinking of spaced out because like canon Bruce has the most memory issues post revival, he has trouble remembering numbers, dates, faces, and sometimes names. It frustrates him, so to keep his mind busy he pops rubber bands on his wrist, and he writes in a memory book!
He’s still very sweet but I think dying put a damper on his personality, he’s spacey, aloof, and calm on most days and sometimes he’s cold, bitter, and mean on worse ones. Those are the days where he can barely remember he’s alive.
I tried to keep it similar to canon with him having his memory and own sense of self being altered because like all the others I think dying left a serious impact on his mental health and psyche.
One thing didn’t change though!! He’s a major nerd for baseball and is an absolute natural at it!
#pippi art#the black phone fandom#the black phone#the black phone fanart#necromancer finney au#bruce yamada#tbp brance#bruce yamada fanart#y’all I never said I’d give them happiness in this au#the only ones even remotely getting happyiness is Griffin and Robin. everyone else gets ANGST!!!#but back to the Bruce forgets he’s alive sometimes. he’d have one of those episodes and see Finn and thought that the Grabber killed him#and just breaks down crying.#I promsies. he gets better with time#his memory is still shit though. like he’s not very good at remembering numbers AT ALL. like it’s one of. the things he’s worse at#but yeah I love sweet Bruce but I also see this post-dying Bruce to be someone who’s more aloof and spacey with how he goes about his day#only really focusing on one thing at a time#griffin reads with him though. and Vance shares his music even though Billy and Bruce have more aligned music tastes#the other boys try to remind him he’s still here and that he’s okay. Gwen would probably make him a homemade fidget necklace too
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#im gonna meet up my old friend today.... :////#like we havent seen eo in 7/8yrs??#and its not like we just drifted apart it ended not so great#i just have lots of anxiety surrounding him and also stuff that he reminds me of#so im feeling very anxious.....#he hasnt replied yet to like confirm confirm so a small part of me is like#oh noooo i really dont hope he wont reply at all and then we have to change day 🤥#but yeah probably maybe im seeing him today#and we're going to a café (which... i do not like cafes. theyre overpriced. noisy. crowded.#u have to EAT infront of ppl 🤢#and yeah mostly i just have anxiety abt the price bc like i dont have money to spend on this stuff. i need it for groceries#but what am i supposed to say?? yeah no sorry im poor we will have to sit on a bench in the rain#i hate spending that much money on smth food wise that isnt even gonna taste good and im just gonna sit there and be uncomfortable#but it's just one time i guess.....)#and it's like wth am i supposed to talk abt with him?????#it's so weird to think that years ago we used to go to cafes and mcdonalds and stores and shops all the time#no problem. no issue. we used to talk for hours and hours#we have so many pics together.. we have gone on so many walks#but now it's just like... not the same anymore#i lowkey think that u arent reallyyyy supposed to drag all of this up. and it's better to just let some ppl be of the past#tbh i have no idea why im doing this 💀#but its too late to back out now bc avpd wise im mostly worried abt how i can be judged#so if i cancel now he will think im unreliable and annoying and all of that#ughhhh im so anxious i dont wanna do this !!!!#but he just replied and said meet u there so 🙃🙃🙃#like genuinely i have so much anxiety i dont wanna
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the amount of effort that goes into figuring out what to cook and eat every day is RIDICULOUS. i used to think people were so weird and boring for eating the same thing every single day but it truly does make life so much easier
#and also it's nice to know exactly what your food is going to taste like before you eat it#like when i get unfamiliar takeout. half the time i'm like. oh.#i'm going to have to eat all of this. or be judged.#so i just do my best to suppress my gag reflex and Get Through It and then it makes me sick so what was even the point#i think my parents spoiled me. and the most annoying thing is they're significantly better at cooking now than when i was a child#so when i go over i eat three delicious home cooked meals + snacks and they're all different and amazingggg#and then i come back to texas and i am like. googling 'how to feed myself healthy vegetarian'#because I do NOT have the time or money or energy to cook three beautiful delicious meals Just For Me#i think this would be easier with a partner#this whole week i bought a fuckton of mediterranean groceries and i have been making and eating food!!#mediterranean is close enough to indian that i like it well enough#unfortunately for me. i am def going to have to learn how to cook indian food to get through life. because i cannot fucking eat american#i don't know HOW you guys do it i'm so spoiled#i'm assuming meat is this really amazing wonderful thing that just adds flavor to everything#(it is physically repulsive to me and the couple times ive accidentally tasted it it's bleh so i refuse to partake)#i think it's an acquired taste but it magically makes ur food better. that is my understanding of how meat works#cause american vegetarian food is the saddest fucking thing i've ever tasted#i still think about my coworker i was talking to about my food issues and he was like. 'do u understand that you have been given a gift#by having constant access to tasty food your entire life. i ate unseasoned green beans every day of my childhood. learn how to fucking cook#indian food already.' truly a horrific thing to hear. but i'm calling my parents more and going HOW TO COOK VEGETABLE? BEAN? PLEASE HELP??#and by god i am not going to turn into my coworker.#anyways we start with baby steps. lentils and rice it is next week .-. going to the indian store to buy pickles to make it more tolerable#and i have my cabinet full of spices already at least#i wish i was less pickyyy#sometimes lalita cooks indian food for me and i'm like wow. i love and appreciate u for feeding me. but this sure is south indian food#i don't understand How they use spices. it feels like they toss as much of as many bottles as they can into every dish#and it's. the taste is just OW OW OW and nothing else. where's the nuance. the flavor.#and i like it when things are spicy!! i can even eat things where the flavor is just Hot. but not when she cooks it.#she will like watch my face when i take a bite and then go 'if you don't like it i'm throwing away all my pots and running away'#which. honestly a fair reaction. the problem is that i am incapable of lying
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character development moment: i was very nearly overcome with a rare weakness to FOMO as literally all of my irl friends have been regularly playing that one trendy roblox fashion game together and i got as far as googling roblox with half-intent to finally download it and was only stopped when i looked up the game on twitter, immediately remembered that it's a game for children that a bunch of grown ass adults have fully taken over and made increasingly toxic for some reason, and also tbh just doesn't even look that fun or good in general and snapped out of it like Oh I'm Too Old For This
#witnessed the irl friends play a game the other day and one of the themes was roaring 20s. there is not a single flapper dress in that game#not even the cute lil bob that was popular back then. there was literally no possible way to be on theme#how are u gonna dress as the roaring 20s without a flapper dress. without a cute lil bob. without a CIGARETTE HOLDER !!!#its all like. 2010s trendy white woman instagram clothes/hair im not even exaggerating#every look i've seen. even the good more creative ones. has been so fucking boring#i don't care how cunty you made that fictional character they still have the same face and body type as everyone else#nothing is interesting not even the facial expressions can change u can't even CROSSDRESS whats the fucking POINTTTT#u cant put male hairstyles on female avatars and u cant put female hairstyles on male avatars. they have the same stupid lego head shape#its like if somebody took all of my character design pet peeves and dumped it all into one game that got insanely popular for no reason#i already don't like roblox in general for how exploitative it tends to be of Literal Children ntm how resource intensive it is on computer#but. aaoughhhhhh how tf do i get my friends to have better taste thyis shit is killing me#we have a whole minecraft realm and they're playing pay to win picrew together instead. explodes
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ovo whispers menacingly abt his grandstanding .
#(you can grandstand and be impulsive and prone to violence and have a terrible temper without being arrogant thanks)#(the closest he ever gets to saying he's above anyone else is w/ the jotuns if you really squint at it and he only ever said-)#(- that he wanted to use /force/ aka /violence/ to get them to submit to his rule bc otherwise he views them as DANGEROUS)#(based not only on historical /fact/ but cultural differences boogeymanning and seeing firsthand how they-)#(-MURDERED SOME OF HIS PEOPLE???? AND BROKE INTO HIS HOME???? ON CORONATION DAY????)#(he doesn't act like heimdall or the warriors or sif or even loki is below him. he wouldn't /ask them/ for permission otherwise)#(he even asks the humans-he-just-met for permission a la jane and then respects their decisions and apologizes for being rude abt the mug)#(and the one time he says 'know your place' to loki is when loki is actively bUTTING INTO A CONVERSATION that thor is being ridiculous abou#(bc to thor it's about /winning/ the argument with laufey and he's totally losing track of his goal to try and figure out wtf the jotuns)#(were doing ///in asgard inside the palace IN THE VAULT on CORONATION DAY///.)#(arrogance is specifically thinking you are inherently better than anyone else bc you exist)#(thor very clearly demonstrates selfish desires that translate to poorly thought out deeds)#(eg: taking it directly to laufey instead of trying to take a step back and figure it out in OTHER WAYS before a direct confrontation)#(and he also demonstrates overblown self-confidence.)#(eg the “i have no plans to die today” / “none do.”)#(that's being overconfident in his own abilities that's still not arrogance.)#( ooc . ) — stories that leap from the page .#( salt to taste . ) — in this house we love the actual main character . crazy i know .#tbd#(thor expresses boastfulness and pride similarly to his whole culture of over-exaggerating ur war stories)#(his vice is letting that vanity get to his head and fueling increasingly impulsive and stubborn decisions)#(out of the sheer and desperate desire to prove he's good enough to take up such a heavy mantle as the crown of asgard + nine realms)#(but he doesn't just look at other people and go 'oh yeah i'm so totally better than you just because i exist')#(he's also not a lightning mcqueen who actually DOES see himself above the rustees cars and the route 66 cars)#(goes out of his way to make that abundantly clear and wants actually nothing to do with any of them in pursuit of his own gains)#(only to finally figure out he's not all hot shit and slows tf down to understand and enjoy life as part of society not above it)#(he literally flies of the handle because he fully believes the jotunar actually plotted an entire elaborate scheme)#(SPECIFICALLY in the effort to exploit him as the green thumb weak link as Newly Instated King who Doesn't Know What He's Doing)#(And therefore will OBVIOUSLY do a terrible job because he's not odin and can never be odin but he /needs/ to be like odin bc odin is stron#(HE doesn't know it was loki's plan. he doesn't know it was /loki/ who timed it to the coronation.)
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I have to take two more lots of penicillin today I'm gonna fucking SCREAM (vent in the tags)
#vent tw#vomit tw#i thought tablets would be better than the liquid i had earlier in the year#bc i had to have these massive capsule antibiotcs recently and i was able to have those easy despite usually being terrible with pills#and my mom had some capsule penicillin recently so i thought id have the same thing#nope!#im having phenoxymethylpenicillin#and its the most disgusting thing in the fucking world!!!!!!#and its so bitter and big it triggers my gag reflex so i have to fight to get these two massive pills down my painful ass throat#had to try and fall asleep earlier after taking them bc they made me feel so much fucking worse#might have to call up the doctors and ask if theres anything else i can have because oh my god i hate this shit#id even have liquid over this because despite the taste lingering at least i havent been throwing it back up#i have like 24 more of these fucking tablets or smth like that#it was meant to be more but i lost two earlier to throwing up for the first time in my life!!!! 💀#if i ever have tonsilittis again istfg its the most miserable experience ever bc its like every illness combined plus disgusting ass tablets#also if ive misepelled anything im so sorry like i said i had to sleep after my last lot so i just woke up#about to take my third technically fourth lot of the day wish me luck :(
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No but like. Men could be the lowest of the low, not be knowing the most basic shit, inept at wit or anything else pertaining to the brain or mind or conscious, and yet the audacity be there. Like. How.
#legit listening to my brother tall of how many qualities he has which mainly just includes having a nice face and using his voice#like this is the dude who is in his last year of high school and absolutely refuses to look at a book for more than half an hour a day#you can imagine the amount of basic knowledgeable he would have with that time period dedicated to studies (not even dedicated hes forcedto)#he knows nothing of the most basic thing needed in class#knows nothing of even the language subjects#and yet thinks just because he can talk he can land a job#theres delusional and then theres this piece of shit#like this family is on the verge of struggling financially and this dude decides to use the lakhs of the rupees worth of tution to eat out#with friends and learn NOTHING#like#im legit so. like i wish he would succeed in life by the sheer power of luck and wishes bc god knows hes a degenerate#yet we care enough to not have him roam around like how it looks like he might bc lets be real if not that he'll end up being a worse pain#but seriously tho how does one be SO behind the very fundamental of human experience and still think their gaming skills and music taste#can save them in this world?#this dude is more or less addicted to his phone and literally like im not exaggerating hes so dumb you have one conversation with him and it#becomes glaringly obvious bc hes so delusional about it that he talks with full confidence but you realise hes not really talking hes just#spitting bs that hes heard on youtube 😭#not to drag him or anything but im seriously so sympathetic. how much of an idiot do you have to be?#to think HIGH SCHOOL education is worthless? hIGH SCHOOL. Tgats like. the very bottom of it.#worst part is he refuses to acknowledge he should get better 🗿#so theres no point in helping bc its one steo forward ten steps back with him#and also feels shitty as fuck to be guiding a fucking 18 yo thru SCHOOL#its fucking SCHOOL FOR CRYING OUT LOUD
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#my favorite on first listen#i need to go back through the whole thing again but 95% of the time the album does exactly what it should#in terms of sounding like a txt album and doing the kind of experimental stuff a minisode should do#as a whole i like it and the aesthetic better than the last album#however i think the killa shouldn't have made it to the album idc#literally two days ago people were saying a zionist was involved in producing it and now it's all yayyy ~sex~ song#like it sounds generic and it doesn't go with the plot of the album and soobin has literally talked before about being oversexualized...#...making him uncomfortable and everyone just ignores stuff like that bc everyone acts like the second you don't make a idol sexy the...#...second they 'turn legal' that they're 'grown ass men' you're infantilizing#like. idk how to explain to you how annoying it is just to define being an adult by having sex like it's not universal 😭#i don't even mean to say this in some kind of puritan censorship kind of way it's just annoying to view adulthood just as sex time?#especially in this situation this is his job 😭 he's at work 😭#and everyone being like but this song sounds gay 🥺 well a zionist produced it i'm so glad you have moral standards#it isn't inherently infantilizing to not talk about sex or to not have sex either that's such an annoying marker of adulthood#and this little prince concept is so unique and interesting just to toss in a generic ass song#like stick to what makes txt unique and stop trying to make broad appeal music#they took me out with all of the bad collaborations last year like just stooooppp#especially when you hear members say they only get to make music that's their own personal taste sometimes like let them have more voice!!!!#anyway 😭#music
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Idk how many of y'all watch Good Mythical Morning but I just want to say that as a gnc person it makes me so happy to see Chase get to dress however he wants and have it just be normal. The crop top he always wears during international food taste tests isn't treated as weird, that's just his cartographer shirt, and it's become such a signature look that other people have to wear it while filling in for him. He plays a few female characters that wear dresses, but the fact that he's playing a woman or wearing a dress is never treated like a joke. The actual joke is that the character he's playing is a fancy dancing cow or an alternate universe version of Little Debbie named Giant Deborah who can teleport across dimensions if you chant for her. The dress is just part of the character, and Chase just happens to be comfortable wearing dresses and really good at playing funny characters. Idk, it just makes me feel really happy to see another gnc person out there thriving and living their best life. I've always been hesitant about being out as nonbinary at work bc I didn't think it would be possible for people to just treat it like a normal thing, and recently I've been worried that once I graduate college and go on to more "professional" work my future employers may see my gender nonconformity as unprofessional, which scares me bc it's not even possible for me to conform to any gender expectations anymore. But. Here on one of my favorite YouTube channels there's a gnc person who gets to dress however they want for their job, even having roles where their gender nonconformity is important to the videos, and it's just treated like the most normal thing in the world. If that's possible then maybe the idea of finding a research job that will respect me isn't so far fetched
#good mythical morning#rambling#idk i just get emotional sometimes#as someone whos worried that even gender nonconformity would be viewed as unprofessional in my future field and frowned upon#regardless of whether i would be interacting with the public#seeing someone whos able to be as gnc as they want at a job where theyre being FILMED for the public and posted to an audience#really does kinda give me hope that i can find acceptance one day#its really cool that stevie presents in a gnc way too sometimes but shes not on camera as much#but idk. it just makes me feel happy#im watching the international foods taste test they posted today and chase is wearing an even shorter crop top under his cartographer shirt#and i was just like HELL yeah you GO king!!#as someone whos been watching the show for a long time and has also seen a lot of old episodes from before i started watching#i like seeing how much more confident chase is now that he dresses how he wants to as well#in a lot of the old videos he dressed very much like a stereotypical straight boy and he seemed a lot more shy and timid back then#now you can just tell how happy he is. he seems so confident in himself and he contributes so much to the show now#idk. i want that one day. i hope i can find a stable career where I'll be accepted for who i am#instead of having to pretend to be something else or worry about what people are thinking of me if i dont#my job now is definitely better than some of my old ones but i still dont really know what people think of me now that im somewhat out#and spending 40 hours a week walking on egg shells with your own damn existence isnt fun :( but. maybe its not forever. i hope
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Just finished “This is How You Lose the Time War”… holy shit dude yall should go read it right now. If only so the tumblr tag isnt just the guy from trigun
#shut up about wolfwood i want to talk about how the time travelers have done this for thousands of years and treat humans like pawns#but also envy humans and clearly enjoy their roles as humans and find the more dramatic jobs exhausting and trivial#and that plays into red and blue’s romance cause the two of them yearn for hunger and taste and knowledge and find that in each other#and just how they write their letters in a scifi way like implanting them in seeds and animals and water but at the end of the day#its just letter writing and you see how they get better at it throughout the novel and even recommend inspirations to each other#and just like. red and blue fall in love cause theyre so alone and so distant from everything but get drawn back into their respective pasts#and passions and find new things to love cause of one another and find comfort in their communication#even if its just coy taunting at first cause like… its passionate its humorous it gives them something to look forwards to
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it started as a simple song-inspired fic, how did it end up like this
#aka i finally remembered why i don’t write fics anymore: the musical#man i just had a really weird day. first i woke up from this messed up dream#in which i filled a half-full bottle of perfume with water and then sprayed said concoction into my mouth when i got thirsty#i remember that the perfume-water tasted fragrant though. like the taste spreads through your entire mouth and around your airways#and then i cleaned my room in a ‘my mind says no but my body says yes’ kinda thing. sadge#i wanted to sleep my holiday away mans…. :((((((( what a waste#oh right the song that inspired this fic was one of my favourite songs from my childhood. and it’s 20 years old this year i think…#though. even though it’s 20 years old. there is somehow???? no proper english tl of it??? like???? lol?????#there are only semi-accurate machine tls s o b s the song deserves better fr#the cg animation in the song’s mv did n o t age well though lmao. still love it though~~~~#then again. the only reason why it even inspired this fic is bc i misheard the chorus as ‘aizo aizo’ after looping it one too many times#i hate my life i hate everything how did it come to t h i s#i want my holiday back. i shouldn’t have wasted it cleaning my room of all things. sadge…#it is suiyoubi my dudes#added to my personal cringefic compilation#g od how am i still able to find that tag when i have to type out literally every other compilation tag hello??? tagging system??? you ok???
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I forget how much I hate the taste of vodka but the whipped cream vodka is so much better my god
#make a drink sweet enough that you can’t taste it when it’s in ur mouth and then all u get is the whipped cream vodka in the burn#makes drinks more tolerable#also this is the fastest I think I’ve ever chugged an alcoholic drink#we are gonna get fucked up tonight bc we have daddy issues and fought with our mom this morning slayyy#smoked a cigarette at the lake now getting fucked up in my room while home alone#life is so good and it’s all bullshit forever#literally we could all die and it doesn’t matter and life is weird and crazy and I am happy it sucks and I am so fucking thrilled to be aliv#at all#life is good regardless of death but I wish death would just like wait patiently for my family#dad I miss u I hope you had a good four twenty where ever you ended up. im sorry moms acting like this. I hope my brothers okay at school.#I hope he’s having a good time and isn’t completely overwhelmed with everything. I was right and apparently he’s gonna come home after grad#uation and im excited to have him home again but my mothers all upset. I know it sucks that you’re dead but it’s nice knowing in a weird way#that you’re the reason me and hunter got close again. so thanks I guess for that. and smoking made me and mom grow closer. idk. you’ve done#a lot for us and most of it had to do with weed. today hurt worse than my birthday. or the six month anniversary. today sucked. and no one#else seemed to be torn apart by it and it made me feel like I was going crazy and no one could even tell#you would’ve noticed if I was acting different. I love you. wherever you are I still love you. and I’m sorry. I’m sorry I was such a bitch.#and I wish I took better care of you. but you were my father I wasn’t supposed to take care of you. you should’ve been there for me. we shou#have been there for mom and hunter and your parents and I’ve been thinking a lot about grammie actually. I don’t know how I feel. thinking#about her makes me cry now. I don’t have the heart to make her cry talking about my childhood but I miss her. and I miss being young. I miss#you coming to my Father’s Day dance recitals and coming back from bike week in Laconia and bringing me flowers always wearing your grey#Harley Davidson jacket and you’d have flowers in your arms and you’d be bored but so proud and you’d hug me and you’d smell like weed and#your beard was always scratchy when you’d hug me and I just miss you a lot. I miss you and I fucking hate you for it fuck.#note to self. don’t be pmsing and then get drinking and smoking and thinking of your dead father. you will cry
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