#they say not to listen to your anxiety
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Isn’t it hilarious (in the most sarcastic fuckin way possible) when your anxiety brain tells you all your friends hate you and they’ve had enough of your shit and then you look back years later and you realize it ended up being true and they all left you because they didn’t want to put up with you anymore?
#this is such a dumb petty post#and i really am better without them#cause in hindsight they were assholes#but like#they say not to listen to your anxiety#but also#mine was 100% correct#it’s not always#and fuck knows it’s still messing with me to this day#but man that was a fun little revelation#oh hey#i’m back on my bullshit#happy birthday to me#i need to sleep#late night scrolling is not good at all#fun times#personal#shut up laura
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btw todd’s reluctance to join the dps because he doesn’t want to read (which is then accommodated for) and is scared to put himself out there (which is also worked through) being read as todd not wanting to go AT ALL, and thus neil making the proper accommodations (“todd anderson, who prefers not to read, will keep the minutes of the meetings”) and encouraging him to step out of the box that stifles him being seen as ‘forceful’ or like he can’t take no for an answer makes me insane with rage
#and him trying to stop neil from asking if todd not reading at the meetings is okay isn’t him wanting not to go#its him not wanting neil to ask because (as someone with social anxiety) it’s EMBARRASSING ASF for someone to ask for things on your behalf#literally just think about it as the meme of ‘when i tell my friend im hungry and he tells his mom that *i* want food instead of both of us’#and the whole ‘neil not knowing how to take no for an answer’ thing…… dont get me fucking started#the kid who’s had to take no for an answer his whole life? the kid whose first proper scene IS him taking no for an answer? are you serious?#being encouraging and accommodating and (admittedly) a little pushy when he’s got his mind set on something—#—is NAWT the same as not being able to take no for an answer or bulldozing through conversations with people#he and todd DO listen to each other in those conversations theyre just on opposing sides—#—because their understandings of the world don’t fully align at that point in time/the movie#which is totally fucking normal?????? because later on they DO properly align?????????#i feel so crazy about this every time i see someone say todd didn’t want to go the dead poets meetings because it’s so obvious he DID#he was just scared#and you know what maybe it IS a little forceful#but given how dedicated todd is to shutting off and hating and isolating himself he NEEDS a little forceful to be broken through to#if no one ever pushed me to do things when i was scared (as irritated as it can make me) i’d never do SHIT dude#and obviously todd is the same way because he ALL BUT OUTRIGHT SAYS AS MUCH#‘i appreciate this concern but i’m not like you’ IS about neil’s voice and opinions mattering to people but it’s ALSO about—#—him being outgoing and trying new things and putting himself out there#WHICH TODD WANTS TO BE ABLE TO DO!!!!!!!!#the moral you take away from todds growth is NOT that he has to change to be accepted because he DOESNT#its that he has to gain the confidence and belief in himself to grow and become the version of himself he WANTS to be#he NEVER changes on a fundamental level to make others happy (although his growth does make others happy) he just opens up more#and i dont know WHY some people think his arc is becoming a completely different person#like yall PLEASE#this isnt even an anderperry thing this is an issue even if you read them completely platonic#i blame the FUCKASS novelization…. dps book you will always be hated by ME#dps#dead poets society#neil perry#todd anderson
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Tell me why every fictional character who has an anxiety disorder also has at least one love interest (except for the one character who’s asexual, love you Beth March from March Family Letters). For that matter tell me why everyone I know IRL who has anxiety issues also has a partner or at least an ex. Tell me why the DSM says women with social anxiety are likely to be married but not to have a job, and I’m the reverse. Tell me why it’s only me whose self-isolation has been so bad that I’m about to be 30 and never been kissed. What is it about me specifically? What’s it take, huh?!
#this is a vent post#i know I need to find an event or class or meet up to go to every week and get to know the people there#i know I should try the dating apps again#I’m just saying all of the ‘there are so many people in your age group who are in the same boat’ is starting to ring a little hollow#it’s not even just characters with anxiety disorders#temperance brennan is out here being bad at socializing and believing she’s unlovable and she has sex out the wazoo#like you have to all be lying to me about something#I know no one owes me shit but it’s not fair that everything in the world is about this one thing I don’t get to have#sometimes I can’t even listen to music because I hate myself so much for not being able to relate to all the love and breakup songs#sometimes I want someone to call me ugly or break my heart just to feel something
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Let me be absolutely clear -- the problems with Tumblr will keep getting worse if the disabled minority and the trans people and the people frothing at the mouth at the opportunity to yell at a transphobe, keep @’ing staff and the developers on this site, tell them to kys, because in the meanwhile the transphobes and racists and white supremacists will keep using the actual tools Tumblr provides for blocking and reporting, further poisoning the datasets used for moderation, and encouraging the idea that using the official tools does nothing to basically ensure the only statistically meaningful data available to Automattic is poisoned, poisoned all the way down, poisoned beyond usability.
Hatespeech and bias needs to be reported for it to be considered statstically significant to act on from a developer point of view. Suicide baiting and spamming any of the official means of communication will get you eliminated as a spammer, even if you’re peppering legitimate criticism within your ventpost about how you hate the new thing. You are playing the TE/RFs game.
#van stuff#the biggest reason we don't have an easily accessible 'report hatespeech' button is a) because people misused the old one#and b) because it's not satistically significant enough to be the first thing people want to report#this is like. COMMON fucking knowledge that moderation on Tumblr is 99% automated and extremely cheesable#and you now who are cheesing it? TRANSPHOBES!!!#Like this is not even a 'the developers won't care' kind of thing#this is a 'THE DEVELOPERS NEED HARD DATA TO JUSTIFY MAKING CHANGES'#if the ARE actively malicious then the data contradicting everything they're saying will FORCE changes#and if they mean what they say when they say they value the site for its vibrant culture#then giving them hard data to share with unconvinced people signing off on them having the budget to change things will ONLY help#the whole 'let's yell at staff every time anything happens' is a shibboleth#You're all being fucking exhausting#I want to quit Tumblr because if the userbase is gonna be like this!!!#If ALL I SEE for DAYS ON END is 'staff this' 'staff that'#that's JUST GIVING ME WORSE ANXIETY ABOUT THIS SITE GOING DOWN#'this change is bad for disabled users' YOUR NEEDLESS CONSTANT HOSTILITY AND PANIC RAISING IS ALSO BAD FOR ME A DISABLED USER#WHY DO I HAVE TO BE THE COLLATERAL DAMAGE???#'Oh staff could make so much money if they only listened to feedback' you fuckers DON'T LEAVE FEEDBACK THOUGH#you just @ Staff and think that that's statistically meaningful data they can use#Fuck's sake#And that's not counting all the times staff *did* implement changes we wanted for years... AND YOU ALL STILL COMPLAINED#WE MODDED TAG VIEWING IN FOR YEARS AND NOW WHEN IT'S OFFICIAL YOU FUCKERS DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO TURN IT OFF#Fucking EXHAUSTING the lot of you
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On a small involuntary hiatus from drawing as this muppet accidentally got their drawing hand in the way of Newton’s first law.
#Don’t do DIY folks#Sometimes listening to your brain when it says ‘this could be dangerous’ is adaptive and not anxiety#Who knew
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am I the only one who gets scared to shit talk certain characters bc what if they manifest themselves into the real world and yolk my ass up for shit talking them?????? does that make sense omg????
like cussing Dabi out for beating hero ass while watching the show, and then falling asleep, only to wake up in the middle of the night bc you feel someone watching you. and lo and behold he’s standing at the end of your bed, his eyes damn near glowing in the dark as he drags your ankles down until you’re pressed against him???? and he promises to make you eat your words by the time he goes back to his own world???? pls tell me this doesn’t sound crazy 🧍🏽♀️
#is this comprehensible#pls say yes aidhdkdjd#I was just cussing shiggy out while watching#I think it’s ep 9#and I was thinking like#oh my god I’d be fucked if he manifested himself to be in my room just to beat my ass#(in the seggsy way 🤫)#and I stopped talking shit bc I scared myself akdhdkfjf#I kinda wanna write more of this and make it a fic but what I freak myself out omg#I did that once when I wrote a stalker bkg fic where he hacked your phone and could hear/see you ALL the time#now I can’t **** without getting nervous someone’s listening LMFOAJDKDJFJF#it’s my anxiety triggering the paranoia leave me alone iahskdjddj#—new treat in the streets! 🍫#dabi treats! 🍬
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BY THE WAY FOREVER REMEMBER. if you are thinking abt going off your meds that is the devil speaking!!!!!
#pitch posts#your psa.#this also counts if your pets have like. anxiety problems#listen to what the doctor says
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Manipulating twinks into being a Good Boy for you seems like it would do more good for them than most therapy techniques
#all i need to fix me is a leather daddy therapist that says#be a good boy n take your antidepressants#good boy for doing what you set out to do this week here's a treat#c'mon boy you know better than to let your anxiety thoughts take over#dont listen to your thoughts listen to daddy “youre a good boy youre a good boy and youre doing your best n its working”
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Next year my birthday is going to be about me, fuck this
#she’s like oh you have anxiety?#I’ve been doing WAY more secret things behind your back you don’t know about because I don’t respect you#because you can’t tell me no because you have no money which make you not worthy of being kept in the loop like an adult#let me spring it on you before your already gonna be shitty birthday and give you an ultimatum and TELL you what you’re gonna be doing-#the following day because I made plans for you AGAIN after we talked about not fucking doing that#so you are thinking about that all day instead of being happy#She doesn’t like when I say no so she’s creates these situations where SHE THINKS I can’t#and then won’t listen to me#and keeps saying ‘I don’t want this to be a confrontation’ after pissing me THE FUCK off like that’s in her control
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had an amazing interview yesterday.... was told I'd know by Monday.... but it's alleged they DRUG TEST and I just bought 6 packs of weed edibles 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
#AND!!!!! AND!!!!!! IVE GOT THE HOUSE TO MYSELF FOR A SOLID WEEK!!!!!!!#i guess ill know monday if i can get high that night or tuesday but like.... i want to have one now lmao#like.... the paper i signed was more worried about being drunk on the jo#and OBVIOUSLY i wouldnt show up to my folder customer service job high off my ass..... but that thc can stay in your system for awhilw#i had one last nigbt tk celebrate the interview so idk if im even in the clear to begin with#and like.... i told them my start date would ve the 20th & im out of town vefore that so the goal is like.... they go to achedule#and we have to schedule it way out so i have time to like.....not worry & get my pee clean#like.... it wouldnt matter so much if my parents werent LEAVING this E N T I R E week... like.... this is MY vacatioj too!!!!!#and i just bought it after a horrid week 😭😭😭😭😭 worked my ass of it for it in order to relax this week#like#i know i shouldnt be dependent on it and im really trying not to ve#but the anti-anxiety relaxing of it all helps so much#and im reeeeeally not the biggest fan of drinking....i pee too much 😭😭😭😭😭 ironically 😭😭😭😭😭😭#like.... at this point.... its like..... do i care about getting this job more than i care about letting my brain and body relax this week#i always put myself first & listen to my heart & soul to dictate what to do#but my mind just keeps thinking about getting that failed drug test back and going back to the job hunt#but im still IN the job hi t#*hunt#AND HERES THE THING!!!! walking around that damn office.... seeing what people were wearing.....#its professional but i know damn well theres people in there smoking weed#like.... 25 of the 50 employees i saw showed up in casual loungepants these people are not prestigious#and like.... the paper i signed.... they didnt even edit to include the company name????#it kept saying “the Company will not like you to drink on the clock and assumes you will not get behind company vechiles drunk either”#like.... tooooootally understandable i just wanna eat some edibles before im an official employee of your folder business my loves#let me have a 50mg and zone out for the night while im finally free from all these losers..... PLEASE#anyways......personal problems that my brain needs to expel so it doesnt tumble all around for the next few houes#WHILE I DOORDASH 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 fuck me#like..... i got this interview through indeed ill just keep going till i cant if it fails
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sometimes I wish I was a more interesting + charismatic person just so I could keep conversations going bc I like sharing space with other ppl but they routinely lose all interest and leave once I run out of things to say/start talking abt things that don't concern them :-(
#and boy do I run out of things to say so fast when I'm talking to friends who ik dont give a fuck abt any of my interests...#theres only so much i can make small talk or ask them questions abt their own interests/lives yknow. man#it just makes me feel like im constantly competing with smth else for other ppls attention all the time + constantly losing#eg. when i say smth + my flatmate reaches for her headphones a little dark souls banner appears across my vision like INTERACTION FAILED#and i can feel my rsd + insecurities praying on it like the more i feel this way the more it prophetically fulfils itself#by making me less willing to try and take up space so i become a smaller and smaller person around others#it frustrates me a lot sometimes and i dont rly have the will rn to undo that and force myself to take up more space regardless#ik this sounds like a water is wet complaint like oh nooo woe is me people get bored of me when i talk abt boring things (!!)#but when im spending time w ppl i like i enjoy listening to them talk even if im not interested in the subject bc its Them talking#and if they care abt smth then its worth hearing abt!! to me anyway. but it rly feels like no one reciprocates that idk#oh well not that it matters. at least i like the shit im into so i can talk to myself abt it in my head or on this site lmao#and i like myself as a person even if other people dont so theres always that. ur no 1 should always be urself <3#voicing this makes me feel so stupid + embarrassed urgh. i hate being anxious abt dumb shit i hate being the sort of person who worries#that their friends privately dislike/just tolerate them or whatever bc id never want a friend to worry abt whether i thought that abt them#and im not naturally a very insecure person!! i think im just feeling particularly vulnerable atm bc of the season + jobhunting so long#+ the fact im dissatisfied with my current social life + still feel very wobbly from not having other ppl i can trust or rely on etcetcetc#and thats just bleeding into other areas. and it sucks a lot. but theres nothing to be done abt it rn bc im not going to communicate it#to other ppl bc im not pathetic enough to make my anxieties someone elses problem + beg for pity attention im too proud for that 👍#anyway. gonna play some noita + then i rly need to work out today bc thats probs part of why im feeling so shite#if ur reading this ignore me im just venting itll pass. i hope youre having a nice day :^)#.vent#.diaries
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thinking abt tallulah and the "lag monster" oh...... that girl has anxiety but she also has demons
#it reminds me of when i went to anxiety 'workshops' as a kid where they tried to help you manage it#and one of the ways they had us cope and understand was by saying 'theres this little monster in your brain and he says mean things'#'none of them are true but he will try to make you believe it! dont listen to the anxiety monster!'#now i don't know if that was necessarily a healthy strategy or not but i do know that it's making me feel feelings!#reminds me of it so much its crazy dude#qsmp#tallulah
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listening to baptized (deluxe version) by daughtry to ignore the feeling of impending doom
#listen daugtry is great at starving off anxiety attacks i gotta say#IN YOUR LOVE I WANNA BE BAPTIZEDDDDDD#not even christian anymore but GOD#i do love a good christian rock album#daughtry#personal
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but like you must understand i don't think anyone expects you to HAVE answers and designs and stuff? it's just questions! are you maybe not comfortable being asked things like that? do questions like that make you feel under pressure and maybe it's better if me & others don't ask things like that?
I'll be very honest with you, your message came across as very distressed to me. Full of anxiety and over explaining. Like I was doing something wrong by working slowly through what little material I've already made, and the fact that I hadn't gone further in depth, or perhaps thinking as you have, is wrong.
I love lore questions, I love discussions, but I won't lie to your face and say the way you presented them didn't make me feel as if I was doing something wrong and not catering to you specifically. Also, you were messaging me to reply because I hadn't replied to your other ask within 24 hours adds to that stress I feel. I don't know you. We're both strangers to each other online. Saying things akin to "no pressure but" does apply pressure.
#You kind of are pressuring me. and it's not just you#I'll say multiple times 'i don't have a design for Cirrus or Sunshine yet' and people don't listen and demand them#I don't usually publish those asks because it's clear it's falling on deaf ears#Everyone needs to remember that I don't know you and you don't know me#likely we know very little about each other#I try to be as respectful as possible because of that#your last few asks haven't felt respectful. they feel like we're both feeding each other's anxieties#I don't know if you're feeling anxiety! I can only tell you how it feels on my side of things#messages from beyond the ask box
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every time i call my mom the first words out of my mouth are hi! i'm fine!
#i just called her for advice on an adult task i have to do#and i went hi! everything's okay and i'm fine i just need your advice on a minorly time sensitive task!#and she gave me the advice i needed. and she said thank you so much for starting the call by saying youre okay#listen the anxiety disorder that i have. did not manifest out of thin air. is all i'll say.
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some people huh
#listen to my gibberish boy#if you don't like something that other people need just??? shit on the thing you don't like rather than targeting the people who need it???#or even better!!!!! move on with your life because it doesn't affect you that other people need said thing!!#if someone uses said thing for you just state your boundaries. done. over. you do Not have to mock people who need it#rant#RARRGH#also the 'listen to real autistic people' made me pretty upset#I'm autistic. have ptsd because of it. I need tone tags to alleviate some of the debilitating anxiety that comes with said ptsd#saying 'listen to real autistic people' after literally Not listening to a Real Autistic Person is. something!! for sure!!!!
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