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You are extremely cool, I am impressed by your works, really, your content is amazing. If you don mind (ignore that if you do) I would love to read about arcane characters who found out that their s/o are self harming. English is not my native language, so sorry if I wrote something wrong. And thank you again for your content, itâs healing me
Thank you so much for your kind wordsâthey mean the world to me, truly. Iâm so honored that my writing can bring you even a little bit of comfort. Youâre so brave for sharing this request, and I want you to know Iâm writing this with as much care and as I can. Youâre never alone, and you deserve all the support, love, and healing in the world.
Jinx
Jinx has lived through her own struggles, so when she finds out, it hits her hard.
⢠At first, sheâd be shocked, maybe even a little panicked. âWait, wait⌠youâre serious? Youâre really feeling this way?â
⢠But once it sinks in, her protective side takes over. Sheâd grab your hands, look you in the eyes, and say something like, âYou donât have to hurt yourself, okay? Iâm here. Always. You can tell me anything.â
⢠Jinx might struggle to find the right words, but sheâd pour her energy into reminding you how much you mean to her, distracting you with her chaotic ideas or working on projects together to keep your mind busy.
⢠âYouâre stuck with me, got it? No matter what.â
Vi
Vi would feel a gut punch of worry and guilt when she finds out, blaming herself for not noticing sooner.
⢠Sheâd approach you carefully, her usual confidence softened by concern. âHey, I know somethingâs going on. You can talk to me. Iâm not going anywhere.â
⢠When you open up, sheâd immediately pull you into a hug, holding you tightly like she could shield you from your pain. âI donât care how bad it gets. Youâre not alone in this, okay? Iâm with you.â
⢠Vi would try to help in her practical, straightforward wayâwhether thatâs sitting with you during hard times, helping you find support, or just being a safe space for you to vent.
⢠âYouâre strong. And on the days you donât feel strong, Iâll be strong enough for both of us.â
Sevika
Sevika might not know how to respond at first, but underneath her tough exterior, sheâd be deeply shaken and determined to support you.
⢠Sheâd bring it up gently, her voice calm but serious. âIâve noticed⌠some things. You wanna tell me whatâs goinâ on?â
⢠Once you told her, sheâd listen carefully, nodding as she processes what youâre saying. âAlright. Thanks for telling me. You donât have to do this alone anymore. Iâve got you.â
⢠Sevika would be protective in her own quiet way, always keeping an eye on you without making you feel overwhelmed. Sheâd remind you of your strength, even when you couldnât see it yourself.
⢠âYouâre tougher than whateverâs weighing you down. And Iâll remind you of that every day if I have to.â
Silco
Silco would approach the situation with a calm intensity, his protective instincts kicking in immediately.
⢠Heâd carefully bring it up when you seemed open to talking, his voice low but steady. âIâve seen the marks. Let me help you.â
⢠When you open up, heâd listen without interruption, his expression serious but full of quiet care. âThe weight you carry is yours, but you donât have to carry it alone. You are far more than this pain.â
⢠Silco would offer practical help, ensuring you have resources or someone to talk to. Heâd remind you of your worth with every gesture and word, showing you that he sees you as more than your struggles.
Vander
Vander would be heartbroken when he finds out, but heâd immediately focus on making you feel safe and supported.
⢠Heâd sit you down somewhere quiet, his voice soft but firm. âHey, Iâve noticed some things that worry me. Can we talk?â
⢠When you open up, heâd pull you into a warm, protective hug, whispering, âYou donât have to go through this alone. Iâm here, no matter what.â
⢠Vander would be the type to check in regularly, always making sure you feel loved and valued. Heâd remind you of all the reasons he admires you, even on days when you struggle to see them yourself.
Ekko
Ekko would be hit hard when he finds out, but heâd channel his feelings into being the best support system he could be.
⢠Heâd approach you gently, finding the right moment to say, âHey, I noticed some stuff, and I just wanna make sure youâre okay. You know you can tell me anything, right?â
⢠When you open up, heâd nod, taking it all in with quiet understanding. âThanks for trusting me. I know itâs not easy.â
⢠Ekko would find little ways to lift you upâwhether itâs spending time with you, leaving you encouraging notes, or reminding you of all the things he loves about you.
⢠âYouâve got me, okay? Weâre in this together.â
Jayce
Jayce would be deeply concerned but determined to be there for you in every way possible.
⢠Heâd sit you down gently and say, âIâve noticed something⌠and I just want to make sure youâre alright. Can we talk about it?â
⢠When you open up, heâd listen carefully, his hands holding yours tightly. âYouâre not alone in this. Iâm here, and Iâll do whatever it takes to help you.â
⢠Jayce would be all about finding solutions, whether thatâs helping you access resources, supporting you in your healing, or just being a steady presence in your life.
Viktor
Viktor would be quietly devastated when he finds out, but his empathy would shine through.
⢠Heâd bring it up carefully, his voice soft but full of concern. âIâve noticed some things, and⌠I just want to make sure youâre alright. Can you talk to me?â
⢠When you open up, heâd listen with his full attention, nodding as he processes everything. âThank you for telling me. I know itâs not easy.â
⢠Viktor would find thoughtful ways to support you, whether itâs leaving you encouraging words, sharing quiet moments with you, or reminding you that he sees you as more than your pain.
Caitlyn
Caitlyn would approach the situation with grace and quiet strength.
⢠Sheâd gently sit you down and say, âIâve noticed some things that worry me. You donât have to talk about it if youâre not ready, but Iâm here.â
⢠When you open up, sheâd take your hand and say softly, âYouâre so important to me, and I want to help in any way I can. Youâre not alone.â
⢠Caitlyn would make sure you feel supported without overwhelming you, always reminding you of how much she admires and cares for you.
Mel Medarda
Mel would be deeply empathetic and immediately focused on supporting you in a way that feels meaningful.
⢠Sheâd approach you gently but directly, saying, âIâve noticed something⌠and I want to help. Can we talk?â
⢠When you open up, sheâd listen carefully, her expression soft but serious. âYou are worth every bit of effort and care, and Iâll remind you of that as often as you need.â
⢠Mel would be the type to help you find resources or create a support system, always making sure you know youâre loved and valued.
Ambessa Medarda
Ambessa would approach the situation with quiet strength and determination.
⢠Sheâd bring it up directly but with care, saying, âYouâve been carrying this alone for too long. Let me help.â
⢠When you open up, sheâd nod seriously and say, âYou are stronger than this pain, and Iâll stand by you every step of the way.â
⢠Ambessa would be fiercely protective, always reminding you of your worth and showing you that youâre never alone in this battle.
Maddie Nolen
Maddie would be soft and empathetic, immediately focusing on making you feel safe.
⢠Sheâd sit with you quietly and say, âI noticed some things, and I just want to make sure youâre okay. Can we talk?â
⢠When you open up, sheâd hold your hands tightly and say, âThank you for telling me. Iâm here, always.â
⢠Maddie would be the type to check in with you often, reminding you through little actions and words that youâre loved and never alone.
Lest
Lest would be heartbroken but gentle and supportive when she finds out.
⢠Sheâd approach you with quiet care, saying, âI noticed something, and I just want to make sure youâre okay. Can we talk?â
⢠When you open up, sheâd listen attentively and say softly, âThank you for trusting me. You donât have to carry this alone anymore.â
⢠Lest would make sure you always felt loved and valued, reminding you that you mean so much to her.
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gave you too much but it wasn't enough (qh43)
In which you wonder if your relationship with Quinn might end in death by a thousand cuts.
This is my submission for the eras tour fic challenge hosted by @wyattjohnston and @comphy-and-cozy! I am thrilled to be a part of this event. I received DBATC, and if you know me you know any kind of angst is not my wheelhouse, but I was thrilled to get this challenge and try to create something angsty. It will never be unresolved in my world but hopefully this does the trick :) 2.5k words, fem reader, no warnings that I know of, not proofread.
When Quinn was named the captain of the Vancouver Canucks, you had never felt so proud.
Being with Quinn for two plus years at the time, you were over the moon to see the love of your life, your favorite person in the world, being given such an honor, an honor he worked so hard for, an honor you know he deserved. Quinn was one of the most dedicated people you've ever met. With that dedication of course, comes time. Quinn dedicated countless hours to improving his game, practicing with his teammates, working out in the gym, going on runs, anything he could do to be the best he could be, he was doing it.
Under the moonlight, as you and Quinn celebrated his accomplishment, he promised you that he wouldn't stray away. That his commitment to the team wouldn't outweigh his commitment to you. To being a loving partner. A companion. However, when you woke up, stretching your arm out to feel an empty bed yet again, despite knowing that it couldn't have been much past 7 am, you wondered what went wrong. What happened to cause those promises to crumble. His words to be empty, lifeless. Void of meaning. When did you and Quinn become a couple that told each other lies? Told each other things just because the other person wanted to hear them, not because they genuinely intended to fulfill them.
It was the start of Quinn's second season as the Canucks captain. At first, you thought it was too good to be true. Quinn was thriving in his new role, yet still being the perfect partner. Attentive and on time, compassionate and loving. Now, that version of Quinn is a distant memory, mocking you as you think of him.
It started after the holidays in Quinn's first season of being captain. You chalked it up to post holiday stress and all star weekend buzz, maybe even trade deadline drama. Then the all star game passed, and even the trade deadline. Shortly after you started blaming it on the playoff push, then the playoff loss. And now here you were in November, searching for answers, trying to figure out what happened to the love of your life who turned into a stranger right in front of your own eyes, with nothing you could do about it but watch it happen.
You got yourself ready for work, looking around in the bathroom, on the bedside table, and eventually the kitchen to see if maybe Quinn left you a note, a cup of coffee in your favorite travel mug, a bagel from your favorite bakery around the corner, a sign of his love, signs that he used to never leave the house without showing. Just as you thought, there was nothing. You couldn't even remember the last time you felt Quinn kiss your forehead before he left for God knows what. Another workout, another two mile run after the three miles he did on the treadmill, or locking himself in his office watching film.
Work came and went that day, taking the long way home, dreading going home to an empty house. You thought it would be worse trying to interact with the stranger you lived with, but the silence, the emptiness, the sterile, unwelcoming cold was always worse. You stared up at the traffic lights, wondering if others saw just how foolish you felt. Writing lines to a story that was long over. Grasping on to the book, hoping for a surprise ending, one that would make everything worth it.
To say you were surprised to see Quinn's Porsche in the driveway was an understatement. Usually on practice days he didn't get home until well after 6 pm. You unlocked the front door, not expecting much. Just because he was home, doesn't mean he wasn't locked up in his office, taking notes from last night's game. A game that you never bothered to go to anymore. You knew the other WAGs missed you, people speculated about your absence on the internet, always cruel and judgmental. You couldn't bring yourself to go. You had learned to despise hockey for taking Quinn from you.
You opened the door and were surprised to see Quinn in the kitchen, grabbing a snack. Quinn looked as surprised to see you as you were, almost like he didn't know where you were, or if he even remembered that you lived there. Quiet "hi's" were exchanged, Quinn leaving a soft kiss on your cheek then awkwardly brushing past you to go towards the fridge.
"I thought we could have chicken and pasta for dinner tonight. It sounded good on my way home, I hope that's okay," Quinn muttered out, but already getting a pot of water for pasta ready, as though it didn't matter what you truly wanted. "That's okay," you offered back. "I'm gonna go sit down and read my book. If you need me, just holler." You offered and Quinn gave a nod in response. You wanted to grunt and groan under your breath. How could this be okay with him? It was as though you didn't know him, despite him knowing everything about you.
You tried to distract yourself with your book, but frustrated tears welled up in your eyes. You wiped them away aggressively, not wanting Quinn to see you cry. He couldn't muster up simple greetings, and an I love you would be almost toxic coming out of his mouth. He didn't care anymore, that much was obvious. So why should you?
You didn't know how long time passed, but it was enough time for Quinn to come over with a plate of dinner, unaware of your state. Your heart swelled. Most days, you had been eating dinner at the table, the memories of the two of you loved up on the couch, enjoying your meal and watching your latest binge watch were long gone. It seemed that Quinn was looking for one of those nights, until he saw your tears. His face dropped, setting your plate down and kneeling in front of you.
"Everything okay, sweetheart?" He asked, trying to get you to meet his eyes. You shook your head. How could he be so oblivious? "Are you serious?" You ask and Quinn's expression changed, like you had hurt him. "What do you mean by that? Why would I not be serious?" he asked, causing you to shake your head. "Quinn, things haven't been right between us for months. You leave me everyday without saying goodbye or even kissing me goodbye, you act like spending time with me is the worst thing in the world. I never go to games anymore because I resent hockey for taking you from me. When you were named captain, I was so proud of you I could explode. Now I can't even bare to be in the hockey setting because it reminds me of everything you chose over me. Quinn, I don't even know if you love me anymore." You took a breath after getting it off your chest, but at the same time a wounded gasp came out of Quinn's mouth, like he was a wounded animal.
"You think I don't love you anymore? How could you think that?" he asked, clearly hurt by what you had said. "What else do you want me to believe, Quinn? I can't even remember the last time you told me you loved me. And beyond that, that you ever even showed that you might. I feel like I live with a stranger. You can't honestly tell me that you have felt satisfied in this relationship. That you feel that we love each other to the fullest, that we love spending time together. I haven't felt confident that you feel that way in a long time." At this point you both had tears in your eyes, Quinn feeling devastated by what he was hearing.
Of course Quinn wasn't 100% satisfied with your relationship. He wasn't delusional enough to believe that everything was perfect. He knew that hockey had been his number one priority lately, and he had been trying to make that not be the case.
"Baby, I know I haven't been putting you first lately, and I'm sorry for that. I truly am. But I feel like it's only been this way since the start of the regular season." This had you scoffing immediately. "You don't seriously believe that. Quinn, I could say I have felt this way on and off since January." This caused another hurt gasp to leave Quinn's lips. "Why didn't you say something..." he trailed off, hurt, but he knew the answer.
"I shouldn't have to beg you to love me, Quinn. I shouldn't have to tell you that you have been neglecting me, neglecting us. If you truly can't see what's been going on, I don't know how I can explain it to you. If you think that this relationship has been satisfactory for both parties, I can't change your mind of that. But I won't be treated like this any longer. I think we should spend some time apart." Quinn backed up as soon as the suggestion came out of your mouth, looking like he had been shot.
"You don't mean that, you can't" he gasped. "Quinn, I'm not saying I want to breakup. If I didn't believe this was salvageable, if I didn't believe you could fix this, I would just say I wanted to break up. I believe we can fix this, but I think some time apart would do us good. For us both to figure out what we're looking for and what we truly want. If we find that this is still what we want, that's great, I believe that we will make it work. But this, this... arrangement, this isn't working. I know you seem shocked and hurt, but I know you don't believe that this is working for both of us, or honestly either of us."
"I'll go stay with Petey, I don't want to be in your way," Quinn suggested and you shook your head. "It's okay, really. I can go stay with Brock's girlfriend. Since she lives by herself it won't be awkward for any of us. I do believe we can make this work Quinn, I just don't think we can do it in these conditions." You put your hand on his cheek and his face softened, leaning into your touch.
"Tell me how to fix it, please, I'll do anything," he begged, tears steadily streaming down his face. "I can't tell you that, Quinn. I want you to figure out. To understand where I'm coming from, and want to work to fix it. I haven't been perfect either Quinn, we can both work on this. I shouldn't have to tell you that spending time together once a month isn't enough. I don't know how it can be enough for you, either. If that's okay with you, then this just isn't going to work."
"I'll fix it baby, I promise, I'll do anything." he whispered, almost defeatedly but feeling much better. "I believe you, baby. I do."
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The flowers started on Mondays. Each Monday, a different bouquet of beautifully arranged flowers arrived at your office. The message was also different each week but it always ended the same way: " I love you, I believe in us." You texted Quinn every week when the flowers came to let him know you got them and to send your thanks. After four weeks of flowers, you were sitting in the front room of Brock's girlfriend, Bella's, apartment, getting stuff done on your computer on a chilly Saturday afternoon. A knock on the door sounded, causing you to pause your work. You had been staying with Bella long enough that you felt comfortable getting the door. Not to mention Bella liked to sleep in super late on weekends, meaning you would be the only one to even be available to open the door.
Your heart sank to your toes as you looked through the peephole, seeing Quinn. He looked different. If your gut was right, he looked tired, a far away look in his eyes, almost as though he missed you as much as you missed him. You didn't want to believe it, wary of getting your heart broken. He was holding something in his hands, fidgeting with it as he waited for the door to open.
"Y/N, hi," Quinn whispered out, taking a step towards you. "Hi Quinn, it's great to see you. How have you been? Would you like to come inside?" You asked, causing him to shake his head. "I can't stay, but thank you for offering," he stopped himself, wanting to keep boundaries in between you two in order for you to be most comfortable.
"It's been a while since we've seen each other, and I wanted to come ask you something. I was hoping you'd like to come to the game tomorrow night? I was hoping this would be enough time, but if not it's okay." His voice was shaky, unsure, almost like he was scared of your response. "I'm not sure, Quinn. Won't it be weird that I'm there? I don't want to cause any drama." You said apprehensively. You were also nervous of what that step in your relationship would be.
"There would be no drama at all, babe. You could just sit with Bell in the stands if you would prefer that, but I know the WAGs have really been missing you. I heard Millsy's daughters have been waiting for you to paint their nails on intermission again," he joked, causing you to smile. His heart melted at the smile on your face, finally feeling fulfilled, that he made you happy.
"I'll be there, Quinn. You can put me in the box. Don't worry about parking, though. I'm sure I can catch a ride with Bella." You both smiled, joyful at the step in the right direction for the both of you. "I can't wait."
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For all the time you had spent at Canucks games, you never thought you would be so nervous about what to wear, but here you are. Finally, settling on a stylish Canucks long sleeve with no distinction of Quinn on the shirt, paired with dark jeans and sneakers.
Quinn played a great game, getting a goal and an assist, the Canucks winning 3-1. You were ecstatic. Being back at the games, with your friends, cheering on Quinn, just felt right. It felt like where you were supposed to be. When you met Quinn after the game, he couldn't help himself either, jogging up to you and wrapping his arms around you, lifting you up off the ground. "Quinn!" you exclaimed, laughing out loud. "You did so good!" You laughed as he set you back on the ground. "It's because you were here, my good luck charm." He mused, causing you to blush.
Before he could stop himself, Quinn asked: "come home with me?" Your breath shortened, definitely not expecting that to come out of his mouth. "Are you sure?" You asked him, heart racing at the idea of going home with Quinn, truly where you belonged. "I would want nothing more."
It felt at times that no matter how much you gave to Quinn, it would never be enough. But as you both grew and learned more about yourselves, you both knew that all you could give would always be enough for the both of you.
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Hihi! I was wondering if I could request Dan Heng, Jiaoqiu, and Sunday with a s/o who is non-binary but has been struggling to tell them?
To be known and loved is to be truly seen
Tags: Dan Heng x Reader, Jiaoqiu x Reader, AE!Sunday x Reader, Fluff, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Conversations, Gender Identity Exploration, Non-Binary Reader Insert, Acceptance and Support, Soft Relationships, Found Family Themes, Light Angst
Warnings: Discussions of gender dysphoria (brief), Mild emotional distress, Anxiety themes, Supportive yet sensitive handling of identity issues(?), Comfort after emotional vulnerability.
Dan Heng stood at his post on the Astral Express, his usual calm demeanor betraying no sign of emotion. His fingers lightly gripped the hilt of his spear as his sharp gaze scanned the horizon through the trainâs viewport. It was a quiet, tranquil momentâthe kind he often sought in the midst of his hectic duties. Yet, there was a quiet tension in his chest, an unease he couldnât quite place.
It had been several weeks now since heâd first met you, a quiet, introspective soul who had quickly become an integral part of his world. You were always there, by his side, whether he was patrolling, meditating, or simply walking the halls of the train. Dan Heng couldnât deny the subtle warmth he felt when you were nearâsomething about your presence put his mind at ease. But recently, a subtle shift had occurred. He noticed you fidgeting, speaking less, as though burdened by a weight you refused to share.
âIs something wrong?â he asked one evening when you found yourselves alone in the trainâs quiet corridor.
Your gaze flitted to the floor, a hand nervously tugging at the edge of your sleeve. âItâs nothing, Dan Heng. Donât worry about me.â
He didnât press further, but something in your voice felt off. There was something you werenât saying, something that hung between you like an unspoken truth. He had a feeling that it wasnât nothing at all.
Days passed, and the quiet unease gnawed at him. Heâd seen you hide it behind your smiles and soft laughter, but your unease was palpable to him. For all his stoic nature, Dan Heng had always been able to sense when something was wrongâwhen people around him needed something they werenât saying. But this? This was different. His mind wandered through the possibilities. Was it something to do with your past? Or perhaps you were frustrated with your role on the Express?
It wasnât until a late-night conversation in the dimly lit cabin that the truth came to light.
âIâIâve been meaning to tell you something for a while,â you began, your voice almost a whisper. Your hands trembled as you clasped them tightly in your lap, a nervous habit Dan Heng had come to recognize. âItâs just⌠itâs hard.â
Dan Hengâs expression softened, and he turned toward you fully, his attention fixed entirely on you. âYou donât have to explain everything at once. Take your time.â
There was a long pause, and for a moment, the only sound was the soft hum of the train. Finally, you spoke again, your words slow but deliberate. âIâm non-binary. I donât fit into either the role of a man or a woman, and⌠Iâve been struggling with how to tell you.â
The words hung in the air, fragile as glass. Dan Heng remained silent for a moment, his gaze searching your face, trying to read the emotions beneath the words. He could see the uncertainty in your eyes, the vulnerability in your posture. Slowly, he reached out, gently placing a hand on yours.
âIt doesnât matter to me,â he said quietly. âYou are you. And I am honored to stand by your side, no matter what.â
A quiet relief washed over you, and you looked up at him, meeting his eyes for the first time. A faint smile tugged at your lips, and Dan Heng felt a warmth fill his chest.
âIâm glad you told me,â he murmured, his voice low. âYou can always be yourself around me. Iâll never judge you for who you are.â
In that moment, the weight youâd been carrying seemed to lift, if only for a little while. Dan Hengâs quiet support meant more to you than any words could express.
The soft scent of herbs and medicinal oils filled the air. It was a quiet evening, and the flickering light of lanterns cast gentle shadows on the walls as Jiaoqiu worked, grinding the ingredients for his latest formula. His fox-like ears twitched as he adjusted the flow of alchemical concoctions, his mind focused on the precision of his work. But despite his calm exterior, his thoughts often wandered back to youâthe person he had been thinking about all day.
âYou havenât been yourself lately.â Jiaoqiu thought, stirring the potion in his hands. He had known you for a long time, admired your strength, but recently there had been something⌠off. You had been quieter, more withdrawn, as if there was some burden weighing on your heart. The compassion that guided Jiaoqiu in his work extended beyond the physical, and he couldnât shake the feeling that something deeper was troubling you.
He looked up from his work, and there you wereâstanding just inside the doorway, your figure framed by the dim glow of the lanterns. The hesitation in your gaze was evident.
âAre you alright?â Jiaoqiu asked, his voice gentle yet sharp with concern. He set down his mortar and pestle, his perceptive nature already picking up on your discomfort. âYouâve been distant.â
You shifted uncomfortably before slowly walking towards him. âIâve been meaning to tell you something, Jiaoqiu. I⌠Iâm not sure how youâll take it.â
Jiaoqiu raised an eyebrow but didnât interrupt. His expression softened, his hands resting by his side. âWhatever it is, you can tell me. You know that, right?â
The words came slowly, and there was an almost tangible tension between you. âIâm non-binary. I donât identify as either male or female, and⌠Iâve been so afraid to tell you. I donât want to disappoint you.â
Jiaoqiuâs expression softened, his ears flickering with understanding. He stepped closer to you, his hand reaching out gently to rest on your shoulder. âDisappoint me? You could never disappoint me.â
You hesitated, but Jiaoqiu gave a small, reassuring smile. âI understand. I donât expect you to fit into any mold. You are who you are. And I appreciate you for exactly that.â
A sigh of relief escaped you, and you looked up at him. âYou really mean that?â
âI do,â Jiaoqiu replied. âIn fact, Iâve always admired your strength. The way you carry yourself, how you face every challenge. Thatâs what matters.â
For the first time in a long while, a genuine smile appeared on your face, and the tension seemed to ease from your shoulders. Jiaoqiuâs smile widened, and he gently squeezed your shoulder. âYouâre not alone in this. Iâll always be here for you, no matter what.â
Sunday sat in the quiet room of the Astral Express, his fingers delicately tracing the patterns on the edge of his golden ornament, the glimmer of the halo behind his head casting an ethereal glow. His thoughtful gaze rested on the view outside, but his mind was far away, lost in the complicated emotions that lay beneath his composed exterior.
There was a problem that had been on his mind lately. You had been acting strangelyâdistant, hesitant. Heâd seen you flinch at the smallest things, and your silence had grown more pronounced. He couldnât help but feel concerned, but at the same time, he couldnât deny the twisted part of him that wondered if you were simply afraid of what he was.
But even as he questioned your distance, he knew there was something more. Something deeper.
âSunday...â your voice broke through his thoughts, soft and tentative.
He turned toward you, his eyes locking onto yours with a gentle, almost serene gaze. âYes?â
There was a long silence as you stood there, shifting your weight from foot to foot. âI⌠Iâve been meaning to tell you something important.â
Sundayâs expression softened, his tone warm but serious. âYou know you can tell me anything. Whatever it is, it wonât change how I feel about you.â
You bit your lip, and after a long pause, you finally spoke. âIâm non-binary. I donât identify as male or female, and Iâve been struggling to find the right way to tell you.â
Sunday blinked, his halo subtly shifting behind him as his mind processed your words. For a moment, he said nothing, his gaze steady as he took in your vulnerability.
When he finally spoke, his voice was calm but firm. âYou are exactly who you are, and that is all that matters. I do not view you through any lens other than the one that sees your worth and your spirit.â
His words were simple, yet there was an undeniable warmth in them, a sincerity that reached deep within your heart.
âYou are perfect just as you are,â Sunday continued, his expression softening. âIn this world, where everything seems to crumble under the weight of suffering, the only thing that matters to me is that youâre here. With me. And that weâre together.â
The softness in your gaze grew, and for the first time in what felt like forever, you allowed yourself to truly relax in his presence. His acceptance was unwavering, a balm to the wounds you had carried for so long.
âThank you, Sunday,â you whispered.
He smiled, a quiet, knowing smile. âOf course, dove.â
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Ascended Astarion x Archdevil Supreme Raphael Explicit | 3.5 K
Happy birthday to the unparalleled @marimosalad, for you⌠your two pookies in power and in love đ¨đď¸ by them too. And 𩵠to @nyx-knox for her cheering and betaing
Summary: An arrangement for mutual power⌠no longer
CW: romantic fluff, two powerful men, pining/yearning, feelings confessions, anal sex
âLovely place you have here, Devil. I must say, the eternal beggars are a nice touch. Homey. Especially the one with the chamber pot.â Lord Astarion giggles, dramatic, affected. Those scarlet eyes glimmering with roiling power. âI mean, when I tell people to âeat shit,â I donât mean it quite so literally.â His smirk broadens into something wicked and sadistic. âGood for you.â
Raphael sat at his desk in his boudoir, quill suspended midair in his grip. He didnât need to look up to recognize that purring tenor or that refined, undead scent. He continued his writing, careful not to let the ink drip and make a mess. âTo what do I owe the honor, Vampire?â he crooned, unbothered as he continued scribbling on the contract before him.
âVampire Ascendant, devil,â the reply was clipped, Astarion reigning in his flash of a temper just before those brown eyes raised to observe him. âI am the one and only, and yetâŚâ Astarion eased his stance, opting to lean against the side of a wingback chair instead of sitting in it, âthe honor is all mine to be accepted into your glorious home here. One canât always say theyâve met with a devil in his own home and lived to tell the tale.â He flashed that rakish, fanged smirk.
âYou havenât left yet, oh Vampire Ascendant,â Raphaelâs mouth turned into a cockeyed grin. âPlenty of time for you to eat those words.â
Fingers picking at the threads of his ostentatiously embroidered jacket, Astarion took a heavy, dramatic sigh. âWe both know youâre bluffing. We both know there is something you want that I could give youâŚâ he raised his crimson eyes, their gaze roving down the Devil, lingering on the lines of his mortal form. âPerhaps more than one thing.â
âSpeak plain, lest I cut out your churlish tongue,â he snapped back.
âThe Crown,â Astarion replied. âYou want it, I can give it to you.â
âYouâd betray your own precious leader? The mortal that helped you ascend?â Skepticism twisted his tone, that dark amusement in his lilting his deep voice. âMy, my, colour me surprised.â
âTheyâre nice, perhaps too nice. And they are short-sighted when it comes to their⌠ambitions. They think it will better serve another in our company on his own path to⌠ugh⌠healing.â The Vampire remained fixed in place, even as a storm of emotions danced across his expressive face. âBut I am not one to pass up on an opportunity.â
Raphael leaned back in his seat, meticulously setting the quill down perfectly in line with the edge of his parchment. âWell⌠Iâll admit I wasnât expecting such a gross betrayal within your ranks, but you know what they sayâŚâ
Astarion merely arched a silver brow.
âNo good deed goes unpunished.â
With a deep chested giggle, Astarion pushed himself off the chair. âIndeed,â he replied, a rakish smirk on those refined features. âBut given all that the hells has done for me, I figure a little quid pro quo is in order. Besides, Iâd much rather make myself useful to another powerful being that understands the ways of the worlds in the same manner as I.â
Those crimson eyes locked into Raphaelâs gaze as he continued. âI donât need some bleeding heart creating a new god. I need⌠assurances of power, protectionâŚâ he paused to draw just up to the other side of the desk. âI need the promise of a little something extra powerful in exchange for something you hold dear, Devil.â
Raphael scoffed, leaning back in his seat and tilting his head. âIâm not interested in matters of the flesh, especially not of the undead variety. However, given the look in your eyes, I could offer you my IncubusâŚâ
âMy days of seeking those services are behind me,â Astarion fought the need to bristle, smoothing his tone as if to dangle the idea of his physical allure. âNo, I want the secret of Hellfire from you in exchange for the crown.â He smirked, his fingers playing over the curve of his cane, those fingers dexterously teasing the gilded golden dragon that ornamented the handle. âSex is nice, but power⌠protection⌠a way to keep my position as the Vampire Ascendant safe from any who would dare challenge meâŚâ
His smirk twisted even more wickedly, noticing how the devilâs eyes followed his fingers briefly before drifting back to meet his gaze.
âIâd rather have power now than anything, even a horizontal dance with a devil.â
Raphael chuckled, shrugging before he snapped his fingers. Fire and smoke flashed between them; a new simple contract appearing midair. âHellfire for the Crown is a deal Iâd be a fool not to accept. Iâll even sweeten our bargain, Lord Astarion, giving you early access to my promised goods to help aid you in fulfilling yours.â
Astarionâs eyes widened, shocked at the generosity. âWhatâs the catch?â he snapped, eager eyes scanning the scanty few lines on the paper with a magistrateâs eye.
âNo catch, nothing but the assurance that it will help you succeed in granting me what I desireâŚâ
Steady handed, the vampire took the quill from the air and signed his name with a flourish. âVery well, Devil. Iâm glad to see that our exchanges can come to mutual satisfaction.â He replied as the contract disappeared into thin air, leaving him facing the devil, those brown eyes roaming over his guest with searing appreciation.
âIndeed they do. Now run along, little vampling. Iâll be patiently waiting for word of your victories.â
Astarion gave a quick bow and headed for the door behind him.
âOh, and one more thing,â Raphaelâs voice called, sweetly and sing-song. He waited for that pale face to turn its sardonic grin back in his direction. âNo one said the dances had to be exclusively⌠horizontal.â
Archdevil of Avernus. It even made the Vampire Ascendant grin as he stepped through the portal and into a great hall filled with mirrors. To his keen eye, not much had changed by way of appearances, though⌠the guest list seemed slightly more refined this time around. Other devils and infernal beings, a clear collection of mortal rulers watching with curious eyes at the display of decadence it was in the House of Hope.
A self-satisfied smirk twisted Lord Astarionâs lips as he recalled the last time he stood here. Halls still filled with debtors, those decrepit skeletal servants chattering about on their ancient bones. How much had changed since last he wandered these fearsome halls, since the day he handed Raphael the Crown of Karsus.
But today, he took a deep inhale, relishing in the revelry, drinking in the decadence. This soirĂŠe might have been for the Archdevilâs rise to power, and perhaps it was vain, but Astarion liked to think it was just as much his victory as well. And what a victory it was⌠the rush of power, the thrill of conquest, and the glory of ambition. The vampire gave himself a sly smile, knowing and craving those same things. After all, it was what he deserved after centuries at the hands of a master; he would have no other. None but himself. And at last, like in the true mirrored reflections he enjoyed so much, that lust for power reflected back at him in the face of this new Archdevil.
And it was⌠delicious.
No one else knew the obsession inside him, the need, second to none, to maintain control and to dominate. Only Raphael.
And, speaking of the Devil, Astarion laughed in his thoughts as he entered the great chamber of the House of Hope, he instantly felt those flame-flickered brown eyes lock on his entrance.
He entered, head held high, cane in his hand tapping along with his footfalls as he made his way, headlong into the fray of guests to approach the Archdevil. His gaze was searing, following every graceful movement Astarion made until he was right beside the Devil. He didnât bow, didnât fawn or bend low before the infernal creature. He just smirked, standing beside the arm of the Devilâs throne⌠and then he flicked his finger to ping the metal of the Crown of Karsus on his head.
The slightest metal click made those brown eyes squint as Raphael smiled up at the vampire. âYou accepted my invitation to attend? A bit foolhardy but ambitious.â
âMe to a T,â Astarion chuckles, turning to scan the crowd from this vantage point. âI must admit,â he said, running a finger over the gilded top of the throne then down its side, âyouâre the only other being Iâve met that makes power looks good.â
Raphaelâs brows arched, brown eyes flicking up to meet those scarlet ones. âAside from you, you mean?â
Astarion gave that rumbling low giggle. âNaturally, darling.â He gives a twirl of his hand, his cuffâs lace dancing in the air along with his wrist. âAside from myself, I have never met another being so deserving of a crown.â He tilts his head; his kohl-rimmed eyes glinting at it covetously. âPerhaps I need one⌠a crown I mean.â He sighs, âIt just looks so wonderfully elegant and powerful.â
Raphael stood, drawing to his full height, meeting the Ascendent right in the eyes, he gave a twisted smile. âBe sure to get your own, my vampling, unless youâd like to make a dealâŚâ He lets the question hang in the air, the noises of revelry in full swing around them. Voices and music, it all fell to a hum as they locked eyes.
âEh, a deal? I think my dealing days are quite done. Iâm just happy to know Iâm in the good graces of one as powerful as you,â he bows his head, flashing that charismatic, easy smile. âBesides, itâs a precious thing just to be on your good side, Devil.â
One final twist of his smirk and he made his way down to the throng of guests. Congratulations given, he was determined to sample a taste of the pleasures the hells had to offer. Reaching a table set lavishly with all manner of food and drink, he drew up short to feel that same searing heat standing behind him once more.
A tanned hand reached around his, grabbing a golden cup and offering it as Raphael slid to the side. âAllow me, Lord Astarion,â he crooned. âThis vintage is perhaps best suited to your⌠most refined tastes.â
Astarionâs crimson eyes widened a moment, staring at the cup for the briefest of seconds before closing his pale hand around it. âI trust your recommendation, Devil.â
He lifted the cup to his full lips, the fragrant bouquet hitting his senses full bore. It went right to his head, or maybe that was the way those flame-flickering brown eyes seemed to drink him in as he lowered his cup.
âIs it to your liking, Astarion?â he asked, velvet tones caressing his name with something equally heady as the wine now in his belly. For a split second, the devilâs gaze watched as Astarion licked a drop of wine from the corner of his mouth.
Oh. No, couldnât possibly⌠Astarion nodded once and smiled politely. âYou give excellent recommendations on all things decadent. This party for one,â he scanned the lavish room. âFood and drink. Music and sex. So many indulgences in one place. Makes me realize Iâll have to step up my own soirĂŠes at the Crimson Palace if Iâm going to keep my hedonistic reputation intact.â He snipped the consonants.
Raphael smiled, that swarthy face lifting as he grabbed his own cup, appeased and relaxed for once as he looked out on the fray. âPerhaps youâd deign to include me on your guest list? Itâs been some time since I rubbed elbows with the undead elite.â
Astarion smirked to feel that devilish gaze back on him. âOh, my darling, you mean me? Tch, I do suppose I am the elitest of them all now.â He took another drink of the wine, savoring the burn down his throat. Only to find Raphael a bit closer. Those corners of his dark eyes a little⌠softer.
âI do not make such offers lightly, Astarion,â the devil spoke, ânor do I pin hopes on wisps of nothing. You are unique, a mirror to my own ambitions and drives. You and I, we are cut from the same fabric of power, molded by the same sorts of trials, and seen by the ignorant as monsters.â
Astarion held his breath, watching those lips lift in a small half smile.
âBut I know you are no monster any more than I am, and I⌠appreciate that connection.â
âConnection?â Astarion gave that rakish smirk, crimson eyes glinting with his swagger charm. Then he gave that flurry of giggles. âI knew devils like to toy with the truth, but this⌠tch.â He sucked his teeth, scolding just a bit. A sarcastic arch to his silver brow.
Raphael merely matched that easy, daring twist of a smirk, extending his hand and glancing his dark eyes towards the center of the room. âCare for a dance, Ascendant?â
Astarionâs eyes widened at the gallant gesture. âI⌠I suppose it would be rude to refuse,â he flashed that rakish grin, but something about it felt false. Too much of a show of detachment for the nagging feeling in his belly. A belly that no longer gnawed with a spawnâs hunger, largely thanks to the owner of the infernally hot hand that closed around his own.
For once, that now-beating heart in his chest lurched, pulled into the crowd of couples dancing. The music beat and swelled, but nothing was louder than that thump of his ascended heart and the way he seemed to breathe too loudly. Carefully, he schooled his face into that easy smile even as that other infernally hot hand pressed tentatively on his lower back.
He cleared his throat, turning his head to view the room. âYou knowâŚâ he began, stopping short the moment he felt a pair of fiery warm lips on the arch of his neck. Just one little press right over his scars.
âApologies,â Raphael rasped, feeling the tension in Astarionâs body. âI didnât mean to interrupt. What is it I should know?â
Astarion, brows furrowed and full lips twitching, he looked into that swarthy, handsome devilish face. He expected sarcasm, a look meant to intimidate and ruffle feathers. But all he saw was curiosity and, if he was honest, hesitation. âNo I was justâŚâ his own silken voice stopped at the lump in his throat. His hand gripped into the top of the devilâs shoulder as he pulled him against his lips.
Warm. A hint of spice like cinnamon. The slightest purse against his own. Thatâs what Astarion felt the second their lips met.
A taste of power, a thrum of recognition. Astarion felt those warm hands on him grip just a bit firmer, pulling him slowly flush against the devilâs chest. Then that velvet voice whispered against his lips, âIâve waited too long for a taste of you, of your own power.â
The vampire exhaled, intrigued by the taste of heat on the mouth against his own. âAnd, how does it taste?â he purred in reply.
Raphaelâs lips twisted in a smirk, throwing back a word heâd so often heard the Ascendant use: âDelicious.â
The moment a lull had fallen on the festivities, that warm hand into the vampireâs grip once more. âFollow me, Ascendant,â he murmured in that pointed ear. Soon the crowd dispersed the further into his House they went. Heads held high, hands held tightly, they smiled with confidence, nodding to those few straggling guests who sought to congratulate the new Archdevil Supreme⌠or who recognized the Vampire Ascendant, royalty of the undead. Unspoken, they both began to tread just a bit faster once that shimmering door to his boudoir came into sight.
Entering, the rushing of the rejuvenating bath seemed to fade into the distance as their lips met again, this time in hunger and aching need. Neither even acknowledge the whines and pouts of the incubus that paced deeper in, knowing best to let their master attend to his own affairs.
Raphaelâs body reached its limit, a blazing inferno beneath this mortal veil as he pulled Astarion against his chest and pulled him towards that decadent and sprawling bed. Those burning lips parted, barely withdrawing from that fanged and hungry mouth as he rasped, âAstarion, I would very much like to share with you my appreciation⌠for your power, and for⌠your very being, one that mirrors my own.â He kept those flickering brown eyes closed, holding his breath tightly in his chest as he waited, as he made his offer with no strings nor contract attached. And it made his heart pound in his damned chest.
âYes, devil,â the reply passed between his parted lips with that deliciously rakish giggle. âIf you insist on worshiping me, how could I say noâŚâ
His hands worked quickly to disrobe the vampire, letting that tailored suit of silks and golden thread fall to the floor to uncover the real luxury beneath. Skin pale and pearlescent, muscles etched and carved with strength, it even made his ancient heart stutter with lust and desire. He recalled seeing so many years ago already it seemed, on the road to Baldurâs Gate when this whole thing began. He felt him purr, lips twitching as they locked eyes again.
Smooth nimble fingers followed suit as Astarion pulled apart that elegant jacket to expose the chest of a man who was so, so much more. Trails and patches of dark patches of hair lined his body, and Astarion couldn't help but touch them, curious and aroused at the sensation so different from his own smooth flesh. Heâd had mortal men before, of course, but none so sculpted and godlike⌠or perhaps not so devilishly handsome. He laughed at his own humorous thoughts only to feel a knuckle under his chin, lifting his face.
Raphael smiled at him. âSomething funny, Ascendant?â he murmured, dark eyes watching those plush lips part to speak.
âThe contrary,â his smile turned soft at the corner, hands winding around the heat of his back to pull him flush, to lose himself in that searing embrace. âI find myself very serious about you⌠how I, too, feel for you.â
Clothing shed, the bed caught them both as they tumbled into it. That dark skin and bristled hair was a crush of muscle, the devil carefully lowering himself on the pale elf, breathing rough and ragging into that fanged kiss. Arousals pressed together, and devilish hands clawed and gripped hard into that perfect swell of an ass beneath him. âSo handsome, so powerful, a reflection equal to my ownâŚâ Raphael growled into his mouth, hips pressing and grinding into the vampire, slowly.
âHells,â Astarion gasped, reaching between them to grip their cocks together and tighter, a bit more relief with the friction. Then he panted a laugh, âThe irony⌠of that curse is not⌠lost on me.â His silken voice broke with each gasping breath he made.
âIâd rather hear my name cried from your lips,â he murmured, teasing his finger into that tight ring of the vampireâs ass. His laughter is slow, lazy and gentle for once, fingers suddenly coated in oil as if summoned from thin airâŚ
âNeat trick,â Astarion purred, rocking his hips, lifting his ass for ease. âYouâll teach it to me⌠hgnfâŚâ his voice broke as he was skillfully stretched open.
âThat and more are yours, Astarion, when youâre by my side.â There was so much weight to his tone, so many asks and emotions implied, even as he pressed his cock at the vampireâs entrance.
Devils were vain, proud⌠and Astarion recognized the hesitation and vulnerability masked behind the words.
For they mirrored his own.
Nevertheless, a single, âYes,â slipped from the Ascendantâs smirking mouth. Twisted lips parting in ecstasy the moment he felt hot, warm, and so full.
Foreheads pressed against one anotherâtheir breath a wash of warm and hot. Skin slid on skinâone dark and swarthy atop one pale and undead. For two such powerful beings, they drove one another to the brink.
Their voices huffed and panted, whimpered and growled until hot seed filled his insides, and Astarionâs own cum coated the rises of his belly.
Never, he thought, never was it so chivalrous with anyone, never had he felt so seen and desired by one so powerful and pleasing in shape. His mind awash with bliss, his vision filled with only those dark eyes set deep in that regal face, and Astarion actually felt his heart beat. Not just out of the magic of his rite or from the necessity of his new, glorious, undead life. No, this was an unsteady flutter⌠young and ruddy and uncontrollable.
A sensation he had long thought impossible. He pursed his lips, pressing them one last time for a kiss, clinging to the moment, to the feeling of seeing himself in the mirrored shine of those dark eyes.
As their lips broke one more time, that rich baritone voice crooned down at him, Raphaelâs hot palm cupping his cheek. âStay, Ascendant. Stay with me.â
âYes, Devil,â he purred softly in reply, âmy darling.â
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Trophy case
Stick me in a trophy case. Bind my arms and tape my mouth. Dip me in fake gold and tie me to the stake. I yearn to be plastic, an award given half-heartedly to a child who thought themself a hero for a day.
Pass me over the clicking of cameras and the fake smile of a minor politician. Shake the kid's hand with a firmness they have yet to learn the reciprocate. Make me face the dull, uninterested frowns of a crowd who never truly cared.Â
When I stand in that little bubble, gathering dust, I will be happy. I will smile the smile of the forgotten, in the knowledge that when that little one grows up, burdened by the weight of the world, they might look up and remember the day they meant something, the day people stood up and clapped for them. They will remember being doe-eyed in the face of flashing lights that blinded them to the apathy that lay beyond.Â
I yearn to mean something. To be truly made of gold to someone. That child will be hollow with meaningless victories, but I will brim with pride. I will be the epitome of a single success, a success that will never tarnish with age. I will always glimmer with the memory of that day, in my timeless bubble called a trophy case.
That little child would go off to college. Their parent would throw me in a cardboard box and dump it in a corner. Still I would shine, in the absence of life, while they floundered. One day, they would open that box, look me in the eye, and wonder how far they fell.Â
And I will whisper the truth in their ear: you never fell. You simply lost your vision. You chase after glory. You think a promotion is your new plastic award? You think that scholarship is worthy to sit beside me? You think I am akin to a brand new sports car? Fool. I am the pride in your heart, the joy of doing what you loved best and being rewarded for it, the love of the competition itself.Â
Look me in the eye, child. I am greater than the richest of CEOs. I am greater than any piece of paper from the Queen herself. I am greater than the most prestigious honors. I am the meaning you gave me, a meaning greater than anything the world could ever dream up. Nobody could steal me away from you and give me to the boss's kid. Nobody could revoke me for not getting a perfect grade. Nobody could scratch me in a fender bender.
I would sit there and look that grown up child in the eye, and watch them wither. Watch them wither and weep at the way they've fallen prey to faith in society's approval. Watch them realise that fake, cheap little me brought them more pride, more lasting strength in their soul, than any precarious winnings.
And they would put me up on that shelf, settle the case around me, and return me to my rightful place of honour.
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Murderhelion Week - Acts of Affection / Vulnerability / Watching Media Together
Murderbot watching World Hoppers with a drifting, badly damaged ART-drone, and ART watching Timestream Defenders Orion while cleaning out Murderbotâs alien infected code. @murderhelionweek
-System Collapse (Chapter 11)
-Network Effect (Chapter 20)
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Don't mind me, I'm just over here thinking about Spreaver and Ben Finn/Hero of Brightwall a totally normal amount.
(They have not left my brain since 2008 and 2010 respectively, and no matter how hard I try, I simply can not let their ships go.)
#fable#fable 2#fable 3#fable reaver#fable sparrow#spreaver#ben finn#hero of brightwall#ben finn/hobw#no your honor i will NOT let my fable ships go#idc if its been over 10 years#i need them#on a serious note#both these ships mean the world to me#and i wish we could have gotten more of them#they are the most 'canon without being canon' ships to ever exist#don't bother trying to change my mind#lionhead KNEW what they were doing#maybe ill get around to writing a fic about them both someday#maybe
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Sonics of the future and past
#sonic the hedgehog#Camp Green Hill#Look I KNOW post Frontiers and Classic Sonic do not meet but its a fun thought to entertain#they are physically very different#niko.jpeg#Sonic Generations#Classic Sonic#Actually elaborating on that#Classic Sonic is still pretty fem looking and is selectively mute and is small with shorter quills and slightly longer fur#vs Post Frontiers arc Sonic who is taller has the scars and is beginning to dye himself yellow with how many times he goes super#his quills are longer and stronger and his ears are smaller because he finally grew into them. much more masc presenting#your Honor they mean the world to me. It's rare for me to love a protagonist this much but theres just something so special about him#thats why he gets his own au /silly
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I love the original Cars 2006 game so much. The one that got released on like GameCube and Xbox. I mean, I love all the Cars games(Cars 3 Switch game they did you dirty), but that's an entire story for another time giving my individual appriciation for all of them later. What I'm going to say here applies pretty well to the other games that are centered around the first movie as well like Race-O-Rama and Maternationals, but I'm specifcally rewatching the original one's cutscenes again because I don't want to restart my data every time I wanna go through the cutscenes again(even though I enjoy playing it so, so much), and I just love the atmosphere in it so much. Some of my favorite movie scenes are the ones where they don't have any music playing because I love to close my eyes and turn up the volume and just.. pretend I am right there with the characters and right next to them and stuff or that they're talking to me or such, and that is extra immersible when there isn't an entire orchestra going on(not that I am knocking at having music at all, I regularly go back and listen to the soundtracks from movies if they have them posted).
And the game doesn't really have any music at all during any of the cutscenes and the whole thing is like super..soft to me? Not soft as in like fluffy pillows and pink aesthetic soft, but soft as in like it's getting late out and so you're trying to be kinda hushed with your voice and there's not really anywhere you have to be so you slow down your pace and kick a couple of pinecones or rocks. If that makes any sense at all. Cause normally movies or shows(whether the whole series or each individual episode) have a certain plot or arc that is happening that everyone is focused on and consumes the whole thing, give or take a few moments. And while this game does have a particular thing so it can have a start and end to the story of the game, everything is framed in like a "Yeah, this is what they get up to in their freetime." And I don't know if you know but I love my slice of life stuff so sooooooo so so infinitely much. So getting to get that sort of content is really fun and perfect for me. It's like you're just actively hanging around them and getting caught up in whatever typical nonsense they end up in(assuming we are ignoring the whole monster truck bit), and the "OH THINGS ARE. HITITNG THE FAN." Or bigger development moments are saved for like the movies or something or whatever comes up in my head.
I'm not really entirely headed anywhere with this, I just wanted to put out some appriciation for the game and how nice the atmosphere is. I think it's also cause I really love getting to just sit and here them talk and there is a lot of casual conversation that happens and just plain dialog. Like it's not even filler dialog it's just talking and chatting. And I spend a stupid silly amount of time listening to voiceline compilations on YouTube so this is just the bees knees for me.
Thank you for the read though, may I offer you with a clip because APPERENRLY there's a limit to one clip per post that I am just now finding out about. I think I've already talked about the Litnig one anyway. Maybe I'll post it again later.
I uuuuguguhhh also perfectly reached the tag limit. If anyone needs anything to do in their freetime while bored or as a filler may I suggest reading this post and it's tags, you will be occupied for a while IFNFJCJFNS. I was half joking about reaching the tag limit as well. Well, we all saw it coming, it was going to have to happen one day. And go figure after a long absence that I was going to have it in me to do some running of my mouth...
I do want to say I am probably back now yall! Knock on wood- but I think the reign of my absence is over! Which I am especially hoping so for several reasons but also because I am so SO not done milking F/Ovember to its full extent. I spent too many months looking forward to that to not invest and rot my blog with it.
#honorable mention to Lightning encountering the tuners and they have some beef with each other and so Lightning goes to Wingo-#-and says âWhat? Are you going to slice and dice me with your spoiler?â AND IM. I LOVE THEM DONT GET ME WRONG BUT.#Lightning just obliterated them with that comment. Shot were fired and RETURNED TO SENDER.#I knowwww the movies are centered around Lightning going through character development but I hope they don't ever-#-completely take away his case of not being able to completely keep his mouth shut in certain moments.#Dare I say. He has a bit of sass to him. Which I mean I completely get why it's practically gone in the second and third movies-#-cause he's no longer an arrogant rookie. But I like to think if he really gets pushed then some of it will show. That it still lingers.#I mean. The second movie doesnt open up with him going âCmon Mater. Im Lightning McQueen I can do anything!â#because he's entirely dropped any of his arrogance. because he hasn't.#Opening of Cars 3 and he's PLAYING PRAMKS WITH BOBBY AND CAL. And it is a RUNNING thing they have going on.#Let him be silly. He's silly guys.#I actually had other things that I wanted to mention here and then I got caught up in talking about Lightning whoops.#The entire game is centered around him okay what am I supposed to do.#Do I even dare go on my tangent about Chick now. Cause I will probably get close to the tag limits.#Okay I'm going to speedrun my thing of Chick.#Obligatory mention of his voice. uhm. I love the 180° attitude change that happens to him over this clip.#The entire game he is in like the racing official's camera's face about everything and now that I think about it at least-#-Cars 3 was right about giving him his own talk show. but. Chick shutting his mouth for a second and actually showing-#-proper concern over something that isn't tragically derived from something that is therapy worthy is such a sight to see.#Yea okay Kane you always talk about how the movies would be different if you were in it. Now how about the GAMES.#The games that have proper story and plot to them. I am not counting the Cars 2 games as plot.#1. becuase the DS one is just a rip of what extra stuff the movie WAS going to contain before it got cut down cause it was like 2 hours at-#-first. and 2. because the other Xbox game literally has 5 minutes of âThis is a thing that is happening!â#Cars 3 Switch game is on the world's thinnest ice for having such a poorly slapped together thing to call a story or plot line.#THE PIXAR XBOX RUSH GAME AND DISNEY INFINITY ARE DIFFERENT.#I'm not going to say what those games have done to me because it will make me have to write a second novel and-#-I will be crying and frothing at the mouth. I should not have reminded myself of the Pixar Rush game.#If I make a post about Finn very soon do not be surprised. I mean. Dont be surprised in general. But extra dont be surrpsied here.#lightningâ¤ď¸đ§Ąđ#finnđŠśđ
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Look after them. Dad won't understand.
#itv endeavour#originals#gifs#not me giffing this scene for the sake of miserable disheveled thursday no sir your honor sir#but can somebody PLEASE tell me what it means that morse follows him inside. like what does that conversation look like.#'yeah she's gone. no she didn't say. why was I parked outside your house at dawn in the first place? well you see--'#[but in seriousness what does it mean?? does thursday intend for him to follow? is it a silent invitation?#do they all just have the world's most morose breakfast together? okay I'm back to being flippant again it seems]
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disappointed in the fact that we as a society do not talk enough about the fact that: 1. killian was included in henryâs call for help from his mothers and 2. that the portal opens and killian comes rushing out and defeats the knights in the room while regina just stands back. like girlieâs got magic, she couldâve done it quicker and easier but killianâs front and center with a single track focus on rescuing henry that heâs out here disposing of them so fast the old-fashioned way so he can save his stepson. mâboy.
donât mind me, i just love one (1) father.
#killian jones#henry mills#the pirate and his son#captain cobra#ouat#once upon a time#killian being included in Henryâs call to his mothers just solidifies him in canon as being a parent to henry#and I LOVE that for me#theyâre my faves#i love them your honor#i love one (1) father son duo#it just makes me so happy that killianâs literally doing the most to save Henry#their hug means the world to me#i just#we need to discuss this more please
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Okay so basically the United States MINT of all people is going to be working with DC to make a line of coins! These coins sadly won't be in circulation (the things I would do to live in a world where I could get Batman coins from the supermarket) as they're collectors coins, but will be releasing over the course of the next 3 years, 2025-2027.
Designs haven't been released yet (the same is true for all 2025 designs) but we know there will be 9 coins in total (3 each year) with the first year featuring (of course!!!) Superman, Batman, and Wonder Woman.
Although we know the first three heroes to be featured, the remaining six have yet to be decided, and it turns out the Mint is putting out a survey on their site to gauge which of a group of culturally significant heroes people want to see most! (link to the form is mentioned in the article above)
The considered group includes: Supergirl, the Flash, Green Arrow, Black Canary, Captain Marvel, John Stewart GL, Aquaman, Hawkman, Jamie Reyes BB, Robin (Damian?), Cyborg, and Batgirl, of which 6 will be selected.
As someone who does a bit of coin collecting myself (mainly circulation coins like the quarters sets, but I also have a couple proof and collectors coins) I think this is a really cool and interesting idea that showcases the history of the comics medium and these characters and their influence on American culture. Really excited to wait and see what the designs look like for the coins already announced!
#ABSOLUTELY INSANE TO ME#sorry just. only thing that could make this crazier is if these were circulating. i would fucking die actually lmao#i mean you could buy something with one of these legally but like youre an idiot if you do that so likeeee#someone showing up with the solid gold superman collector coin and its only legally worth a dollar lmao#not that someone would do this but future generations/archeologists finding a coin in some ruins and it just has like. batman on it#amazing to me#also just the transition from us currency having all fake people (lady liberty some random native american guy etc.) and then going to real#people and presidents then expanding that to honor people that they believe should be honored (think the harriet tubman coin set right now)#and representing beauty and innovation and culture through representation of the states#only through that lens to swing back around and have fake people on the coins again in the form of the freaking dc trinity. insane to me#no one ever gets me when im nerding out over coins its okay. at least its not postage stamps (i actually do have some special postage stamps#its like 1 sheet though it was for the 2017 eclipse and the image changes from totality to the moon with the heat of your finger theyre so#cool okay) anyways i like dont really know that much abt coins lol i originally saw a post abt this on reddit đ lol and had to check this#was real which is insane. anyways my dad got my all my coin stuff ive got a proof set from the year i was born albums to hold the 50 states#and national parks (america the beautiful but its 90% natl park designs lets be honest here) quarter collections as i find them irl#(dont have an album for us women yet sadly but do have some of the coins) as well as a few dimes and other circulation albums i havent used#much. and then i have a few collectibles like the hubble telescope $1 coin the 50th anniversary apollo 11 one and the 2021 anniversary peace#dollar. though like not the gold ones or anything like that lol but yeah. i talk abt coins every once and a while with friends and i know#things but then my dad is in the car and its like nevermind lol.#also put a ? after damian's name bc theres a chance it could be dick and they just used the wrong picture. because some of the character#bios had names but his didnt and seemed very dick grayson (acrobatics mention âbatman's partnerâ etc) but not so specfic exclude either one#and the pick was damian. but then the ollie pick was goateeless for some reason so who knows#culturally dick is more important but dami is current so idk#dc comics#blah#ive really been learning so much today. first all in announcement and subsequent leaks and now this. what a ride#also love how im anticipating and know future comics things lol. when did that happen haha. ive really transitioned from only reading back#issues and never knowing current events to following a lot of releases lol and somehow finding out about the freaking coin collection...#crazy how that happens#cant scroll up at that first image without losing it a bit still actually. what a world we live in. anyways take your bets who is gonna be
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was thinking a bit too long about kratos and atreus and i almost cried
#YOUR HONOR they mean the entire world to me#dip speaks#im watching penny snapcube play gow2018 and like. aurhghguhagh#atreus is so babyyy he's so little!!!!!!! holding him gently in my hands#and kratos is so quiet in 2018. in ragnarok he is SO gotdam talkative (well. relatively.)#he used to be too scared just to put his hand on his son's shoulder :((#love their character arcs throughout the games so much. and now having finished valhalla im just gonna. lies down on floor#well i do still want to go back to valhalla. ive beat the general story but there's still the little side memory stuff. but myes#oh yeah i also watched penny's playthrough of sonic frontiers and her voice range is absolutely insane omggg its amazing
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I just am really not okay right now. My baby (Suletta Mercury) is sad and broken so i have lost all hope and happiness.
#mobile suit gundam the witch from mercury#2 WEEEEEEKS!#Y the fuck do we need a recap WE ALL WERE THERE#It's probably due to production hiccups or whatever but out of context it just feels weird at 17 to have one#Maybe at 30#I want to see Miorine sobbing#Hurting rolling on the floor in misery#And or staring at nothing bc she hurt such a pure soul and took family from her#Does this sound cruel and mean? Yes yes it is and idc#If i have to see my baby girl in pain i need everyone who caused it to suffer greatly#Yes i know they're gonna make up somehow and it'll probably turn out great#But fuuuuuuuuuucccccccccckkkkkkk thats gonna be such a long ass time from now#I need satisfaction#GIVE ME MIORINE GOING THROUGH IT WITH DEPRESSION#Genuinely never want to see Suletta sad ever again#Y m i a dumbass watching this while airing#Y is this world so cruel to my baby#The only reason im not cursing Prosperas name is bc shes obviously gonna die at the end probs gruesomely#So im just here to enjoy the ride bc i enjoy every second of her on screen even if i hate the consequences#One of the perfect villains your honor#Gundam spoilers#g witch spoilers#Again i m not ok
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That feeling tho when you find that fic writer that just absolutely fucking
understands the characters to their core
writes so well theyâjust soâthey justâtheir writing isâ-THEY WRITE GOOD
shatters your bad mood with a new update
writes a fic that you can read over again and still clutch at your heart like HOLY SHIT I FUCKING LOVEâI LOVE THIS FIC
writes a scene that has you all giddy in public and that one random stranger asks you like âooo you are smiling :) :) is that a boy :) you are talking to :)â and youâre like âno Iâm reading a Everybody Lives/Nobody Dies AU, please leaveâ
understands and portrays the characters better than the people who make MOVIES with those characters
amazing. just amazing. fic writers are awesome
#OHHH MY GODDD :((((#thank you SO much!!!#i just now saw this :(((#oh my goodness this means the world to me!!#i cannot explain how honored I am that I ever came to your mind on a postlike this!!#thank you so so much!!#oh my GOD!!!#losing my mind a little âĽâĽâĽ#i am always so so glad that people can enjoy what I do & what I write :)#i try my best so everyone can have fun âĽ
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Iâve noticed that people are very bad at seeing gray. Very, very bad. Theyâll see gray and theyâll call it something else, anything but what it is
#đ.txt#milliliters of peaceful sleep#this is a post about my eye color. this is also a post about me. and about others. and about the world#black and white thinking runs deep and iâd be lying if i said i wasnât guilty of it too#but like. gray exists. grey exists. itâs a lovely color. itâs not dull or boring but also sometimes it is. nothing wrong with that#nothing is ever only good or only bad. if youâre not doing well that doesnât necessarily mean youâre doing badly#iâve been gray for a very long time and people donât believe me when i say thatâs what i am#people would rather i be something stark and high-contrast. something dramatic. something easily spotted and easily classified#if youâre not burning brightly they assume youâre slowly consumed by darkness#if youâre not at rock bottom theyâll either dismiss you entirely or confidently tell you why you are at the bottom#they might even force you to sink just so that they could have the honor of pulling you out#but itâs not so simple. actually it is so simple. but itâs the wrong kind of simple#iâve been gray for a very long time. i canât remember ever being anything else. i might lighten or darken but not by much#thereâs not a roaring fire lighting me from within but that doesnât mean iâm not burning at all#inside me is a small flame that will never go out#dim and obscured by smoke#if it starts to falter i put my hands around it and shield it from the wind#if it grows i step back to not be singed but the wind eventually restores balance#i donât have episodes and the seasons never change. iâve been gray for a very long time and iâll be gray forever and thatâs just how it is#iâve accepted it. you should accept it too#also stop saying my eyes are green. theyâre not#do people even know what green eyes are? do i? honestly no#but mine are clearly gray. i donât know what else you could be seeing#you guys are really bad at colors. go back to elementary school#people on this website are also always like âomg i love complex morally gray charactersâ#and then as soon as they see a complex and/or morally gray character they freak out and try shoving them in a box#itâs ridiculous. stop that. the writer did not put all this effort into characterization for you to throw it away like that#and just in general people are bad at understanding that other people are people too despite their good/bad actions#dehumanization is yet another stepping stone for you to feel like the only person in the world. like the main character of your own life#also people donât know what persistent depressive disorder is and itâs frustrating. no one gets it. i feel stupid for complaining
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