#they made her in a lab specifically for ME.
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The welcoming and friendly and bright facade of "Mother" and the family she raised at the Hearth, whose cruelty was hidden just beneath the surface - raising children as brothers and sisters so that they might slaughter each other in the future for the title of "King",
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Arlecchino as the "strict" and "unfeeling" and cold and emotionally distant Father, who teaches her children that they should rely on each other, love each other, cherish each other and their own lives, stand on their own two feet in the world. The names of Arlecchino's constellations - "You shall become a new member of our family / You shall love and protect each other henceforth / For alone, we are as good as dead / From this day on, we shall delight in new life together" - are her teachings to the children of the House (and her hopes, too - we shall delight in new life together).
And the warm gentleness in her voice when she begins speaking - "come with me" - that turns into cold monotone, "like a strict and unfeeling Father". You can literally hear the moment she creates the persona of that "cold", "unfeeling", "strict" Father, when she puts on her mask.
And that's not even getting into how it's also a continuation of this vicious cycle - "I will raise you as my child" - because while Arlecchino's House is certainly leagues better than Crucabena's, she is still raising soldiers and ultimately leading many of them to their deaths* (despite her best efforts, it seems), she is actively priming Lyney to be the next "King", and the throne of the "King" is upheld by much death and bloodshed.
*As an aside, I gotta wonder if Arlecchino's crimes were pardoned only in exchange for her becoming a Harbinger, so now she's locked into a job where she has to raise more child soldiers and send them to die, just like her siblings were sent to die. It would explain why Childe clocks her loyalty to the Tsaritsa as being very shaky (him being a Tsaritsa fanboy in the first place, anyway). But if she didn't become "King"... well, wouldn't that mean all her siblings' sacrifices would be in vain? That would be kinda fucked up innit.
#it took me SO MUCH not to keysmash all over this post DEAR GOD#I AM NEVER EMOTIONALLY RECOVERING FROM THIS#genshin impact#arlecchino#my meta#kinda#they made her in a lab specifically for ME.#so many themes i go absolutely batshit for IN ONE PLACE#genshin leaks
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STUPID SHIP MEME DRAWINGS.
I just think they should kiss maybe?
Obsessed (positive??) with the dynamic of guy who betrays his country so he can run off with the militia he's been working with because he gets a case of loyalty feelings so bad he goes and blows himself up X morally upstanding traumatic backstory woman having the worst fucking time of her life (again) who really just needs someone to be as fanatically loyal as possible to her, as a person who is really into the inherent eroticism of the hierarchical military power dynamic focus on loyalty and the use of "yes ma'am" as I love you.
Obsessed (negative) with the propaganda implications that we seem to have ignored of the fact that the three most important people in an arabic woman's life are 2 (two) white guys and her brother, who betrays her and becomes a villain in the later games, and the fucking insidious-ass narrative choice of placing one of said white guys in said militia as like, the tacit fact that this organization is ok only because the western white guys are cool with it. Stop introducing more ULF people just to kill them!!! I SEE YOU WRITERS!!! YOU CAN'T HIDE FROM ME!!!!!!
because, once again, the character dynamic? I am sick for it. He dropped a building on himself for her and then came back???? He came back???? He could have gone anywhere but he came back to her???? I'm unwell. I think I have covid. I need to go lie down.
Anyway my city now my characters now smashing them together like barbies watching that .gif of them staring at each other eighty times reading all the fanfiction goodbye
you shouldn't blow yourself up in the furnace I want to blow myself up in the furnace for you as my own personal choice and you should order me to do it because you're such a good leader what is wrong with youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrgh *gnaws on furniture*
WE DON'T EVEN GET TO SEE HIM COME BACK TO HER. THANK YOU FIC WRITERS YOU KNOW THAT REUNION MUST BE SO ANGST THE COMPLEX DYNAMIC OF SACRIFICING YOURSELF FOR SOMEONE AND MAKING IT OUT AND BACK TO THEM AGAIN!!!!!!! THE GUILT! THE YEARNING! THE LOYALTY! I AM GOING TO EXPLODE.
#faralex#tailor made in a lab to make me specifically crazy#fucking immaculate dog loyalty commander x subordinate dynamic marred by REAL LIFE POLITICAL IMPLICATIONS#especially funny since she keeps being like āI am not your COā āyou do not have to take orders from meā#while alex is like āHOW HIGH DO YOU WANT ME TO JUMP COMMANDER FARAH BABY PLEASE ur so sexy tell me how strong ur moral backbone is hahahaha#biting and maiming the call of duty writers#the dragoon diaries#farah karim#alex keller#farah karim my wife farah karim I love you so much as a character why do they keep doing you dirty#local woman desperately in need of a display of unconditional loyalty receives random american man who will die for her no questions asked#foreign man with moral code like a dead fish (CIA operative for six years) suddenly develops spine (Farah Karim)#Alex is cute but YOU KNOW THAT MAN IS A WAR CRIMINAL BIGTIME#call of duty#call of duty modern warfare 2019#art#dragoon draws#long post
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scallison - summer 2019
when you break it down you freeze up while I'm freaking out
#teen wolf#scott mccall#allison argent#scallison#scott x allison#teen wolf edit#teen wolf amv#caroline culver#my vids#mine#they love to hold hands and kiss each other on the foreheads <3#he would also let her kill him if she was in that kind of mood <3#which she is on occasion <3#i love them sm you guys#best canon teen wolf ship TO ME#i love angst and star crossed lovers#they're like made in a lab specifically for me
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Yeah no I'm fine why (<- guy who is always 2 seconds away from exploding into a million pieces because of Kingdom Hearts Union Cross)
#when people keep telling me they dont understand kh and khux specifically and Im like. please. please. please.#I can be trusted with kh lore I prommy#I keep offering to explain khux to people who tell me they dont get it but they never tell me they want to hear it so I just dont :[#(guy with undiagnosed problems disorder) please let me explain video games Im a normal guy#one time my sister wanted to distract me on the phone so she purposefully made me explain loz to her for over an hour#my friends were begging me to hang up but there was no stopping me#one time I gave an interview for someones graduate paper and I ended up going om about khux for like 2 hours#pov Im locked in a small room screaming about luxu while being studied like a lab rat#im rambling#khux
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what do you people want from me
#Fuck off i like him so bad. guy who was made in a lab for me specifically#kie's art#selfship#fop sona#fairysona#fopanw#(her name is maggie. short for magenta. bc im so clever)#self insert#self ship#selfship art#self insert art#bipoc selfship#latine selfship#autistic selfship#s/i: šŖ#crush tag
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Wayama Yama - 儳ć®åć®ęć(Onna no sono no Hoshi)
#reading log#I know Iām late in only now reading this for the first time why did I wait this long#if you decided to create a mangaka in a lab that was tailor-made specifically for me it would be wayama yama#being inspired by junji ito AND usamaru furuya AND bl???#love her sense of humor sm#wayama yama#onna no sono no hoshi#manga
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why of COURSE timerra's my favorite
#everything about her is so...#they made her in a lab specifically to appeal to me#fire emblem#timerra#fire emblem engage#my art
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do you think that priyaās relationship with her parents will change because of her win? i really like her but i almost wish she didnāt win because im so curious about how that would affect basically whatās been made her entire lifeās goal, but do you think her parents will accept it as enough, since she mentioned them wanting to do āthe whole reality tv circuitā?
ooh i have a lot of thoughts on priya and her upbringing but ill try to be concise enough to be coherent. i think she's gonna be super pumped that she's won and achieved this lifelong goal and i think her parents are going to be very proud of her and thrilled. but i think priya is going to fall into a slump of "what's next?" before she goes to med school because once you achieve something you've spent years working toward it's a massive change to no longer train for that goal (im speaking from the perspective of someone who spent a decade training for a black belt in karate). i can understand why you think it could have been valuable for her not to win but for me personally the thought of someone giving up their childhood and passions for their parents' dreams (the reapings of which would fund her own dream to go to med school) only to fail is just. too harsh. im really glad that all of priya's training was for something. and while winning td isn't her goal, she's passionate enough about it that i personally headcanon her parents as making some of the training fun for her even if it still was training, or at least being kind and loving enough for her to want to do this for them. not to say that that relationship is healthyāit very much seems that they only had a daughter to win this for them and they're definitely prioritizing their pursuits above her own. i do think priya loves her parents and is grateful for the training, she wouldn't have been as upset with millie about writing about her family if she didn't, imo. but i think as priya comes off of the high of winning, and spends more time with millie who can put her parents' faults in raising her into perspective, priya is going to lose affection for her parents and possibly blame them for why she didn't have many friends/much of a childhood growing up (not sure if that's explicitly stated in canon but im extrapolating. if they push her to do the whole reality tv circuit instead of or as an extra ultimatum for doing med school, her relationship with them will definitely sour. i think whether or not they push for that will partially depend on priya's own willingness to be pushed into someone else's goals or be assertive about pursuing her own. god i love priya so much and have so many thoughts i really need to write like. a headcanon list or fic or something about her. priya my beloved <3
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i want to keep mary winchester in a jar like a bug
#spn liveblog#mary winchester#little kid me would have loved her so fucking much itās unreal#sheās made in a lab fore specifically to be so weird about
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oh twt is just straight up down rn. awesome
#hi i havent been posting on here much but i got p5r 4 my birthday like 2 weeks ago n have been obsessively livetweeting it since#as of the beginning of the third palace i am deeply obsessed w yusuke š extremely predictable choice of me ik#but he is just so intriguing 2 me. the failgirl autism the insane amounts of gaycoding the barely repressed murderous intent#his whole dilemma abt madarame. all wrapped up in a blue hair n pronouns package i think he was made in a lab 2 torment me specifically#i also feel like im rly gonna like makoto a lot but idk much abt her yet past her awakening#bun.txt
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by the time I graduate I may as well have a second degree in flipping mind-reading.
#feels like nothing is moving forward at all in lab.#We got the equipment fixed which is awesome but now weāre having data analysis software issues#So preprocessing the data is fine but post processing isnāt#And we need a new research certificate thing which is awesome but talking to prof about it is like talking to a wall#So for now we literally canāt take in more data#Iād write it up myself and just ask her to sign off but her opinion of what we should do changes by the day#Iām talking āwe should add X we should add Yā and itās both incredibly unstructured and vague#And from what I can tell the new people in our group have skedaddled into busier projects or are thinking about doing so#Which is meh idk I get how this is frustrating and donāt really blame them#Thatās also the other thing driving me up a wall.#How am I supposed to train them?!? Half of this is self explanatory. I canāt help them collect data if we canāt collect data.#I canāt teach them post processing if our post processing softwareās dependent softwareās license expired and I canāt use it.#Ffs one in particular doesnāt have a key. Even though Iāve mentioned it to prof. Repeatedly.#And itās like Iām the only line of communication istg?!?#Prof is iffy on emails and uses Slack but a hyper specific college of X one not the general uni one#And the specific one requires onboarding/registration via freaking secretary to get to it#And since new people donāt have access to that Iām the damn messenger pigeon shot through the middle.#This prof is v important in her department#And the research is cool! It really is#But nothingās moving unless I prod and prod and prod#at this point Iād take a micromanaging PI with insanely high work hours expectations if it meant CLEAR COMMUNICATION#and see I know how this goes. Both previous people working on the project left it unfinished. Some data collected nothing written up#Like a barebones ancestral protocol and thatās it#No data actually analyzed no background made nothing#And that was with a grant over 100k. Iām doing this unpaid.#The writingās on the wall: publish and finish this or leave it to the next unsuspecting undergrad wanting research experience#Publishing isnāt really the main thing: the main idea is just to get it to a state of vague completion#And put the damn thing to rest. Otherwise itās just a time sink.#anyways rant over#iām exhausted
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one thing i really miss about college are the medieval art history classes. my teacher would take her sweet time going on about the symbolism behind stained glass art and the unicorn tapestries it was so good. wish my laptop hadn't died so i would still have access to my essays but well what can you do :/
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auauguaughgh assignmence
#i have a thing due tonight that i am nowhere near done with AUGH#literally dont wanna do anything all i want is to sit on my floor and do my cross stitch and listen to rani takes on the world the first 2#were SO GOOD esp the first one the first one was literally Made In A Lab SPECIFICALLY For Me i hope they make more of them please god bc i#want sky to be in it so bad i wanna see what shes up to but idk if anyone ever will bc the webcast is very much considered canon by these#(farewell sarah jane i mean) and that implies that the events of the 3 unmade stories from sja s5 100% still happened and therefore theres#stuff about sky and what her whole Deal is / how it all works that unfortunately exist pretty much exclusively in RTDs head. MADDENING.#like they could be turned into a novel!!! and they havent been!!!! which is GRRR TEARING AND BITING AND RIPPING. WHY ISNT IT A NOVEL š#PLEASE IM BEGGING YOU esp cause the trickster was in it and its like god..... obviously makes sense why they didnt make those episodes but#they could have at least done a novel or something with them & its like AUGH bc idk if anyone is gonna write sky now which is SUCH a shame#i liked sky its so sad that we never got more of her and luke together and its really not clear what shes supposed to be doing Now and its#like nooooooooo. anyway i forgor what was the point of this post. oh right. assignment AUAUUAGHUGHHHH#ari opinion hour#also i forgot my headphones bc i use the cord from them to connect my cd player to a speaker so i took them out of my backpack and NOOOO#need those to actually do work efficiently
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i think probably magic is real.
the thing is that i was a teacher for a long time and sometimes i come back to this moment in the classroom where a 7 year old asked me are mermaids real? and i stared at her and had no idea how to answer.
for a really long time i just assumed that glow-in-the-dark paint/etc was a result of something made in a lab. i just recently found out that a specific mine in new jersey that just has rocks that do that naturally and it sent me for a loop about stuff.
because first of all - let's be honest, all of us: if there was going to be a naturally-occurring location for uv-activated glow-in-the-dark rocks? it would have to be in New Jersey. that's just the place that makes the most sense for that to happen. probably 10 thousand years ago cavemen were like. "oh this place is gonna be new jersey one day. this has new jersey energy."
the rocks only glow in the presence of uv light and are otherwise just normal rocks. in lord of the rings, there's a special sword that glows in the presence of orcs. it is magic, except that's a real thing that exists (and exists, as we have discussed, in new jersey, of all places). i guess maybe this implies orcs give off uv light.
yeah, okay. magic is just science. i know all the stuff about how ghosts are probably just caused by vibrating pipes. i knew about how there's a reason-for-all-of-this. but what do you mean that there's rocks that give you poison damage if you touch them. what do you mean that we live on the same planet as electric eels. what do you mean that a battery just, like - stores power?
and i don't know. in 20 years maybe they will find a mermaid but they will say something like well she's technically not a mermaid she's this other species, she has whiskers and not hair. and i will have to travel back in time and tell a 7 year old not technically, but there's something that is like a mermaid.
and she will look at me and think that what i am saying is science means magic isn't real and what i am actually saying is science is our word for why magic works. and then i will teach her about uv rocks, and new jersey. i will tell her to be a scientist, which is the same thing as being a wizard. there is probably a reason why sci-fi and fantasy are often grouped together. it is very lucky to be here, i think. if you squint, the improbability of it all - it does kind of feel like spellwork.
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#the facilitator of my Shabbat hosting lab (itās a fellowship program) is wonderful and I know that she wants to be as inclusive as possible#and she does! we gave her feedback with various people having different opinions about the weekly homework writings and she quickly made it#optional. she made the requirements for what we had to host flexible from the very beginning#because the curriculum she was given says that we have to host a Shabbat dinner (specifically that and nothing else Shabbat related) and#have at least 8 guests#she made it so that the goal was 8 but she wasnāt going to punish anyone for less. Iām aiming for 3 and sheās completely fine with that#it also doesnāt have to be a Shabbat dinner. it can just be something Shabbat related/related to what weāve discussed during Shabbat#and when I talked to her about my conflicts (because one of the few things she canāt change are the dates of our two weekends to host)#she brought up the idea of designating a different day for shabbatā lots of people who have to work Fridays and Saturdays (especially rabbis#and Jewish leaders) do it#she also gave me the option to just postpone it which was so kind#I think part of that was because I had started crying almost immediately after starting to explain my situation#(not necessarily because that was the thing putting so much stress on me that made me cry but just because between everything piling up and#being in a ton of pain (which always makes me more likely to end up crying over small things) and being able to voice a problem I was having#to a person I trusted just ended up with my brain going āthatās enough. we need to open the floodgates and itās safe to do soā so I cried)#but part of it was that was just how she did things. she prioritizes our experience and learning over us meeting an arbitrary quota and#sheās just so kind#it also helps to know what there do exist people who are willing to accommodate me in a non-classroom setting#based on the weather forecast Friday and Saturday are going to absolutely suck for me pain wise#and I mentioned the weather and she immediately made the connection between the weather forecast and worse pain for me which#I wasnāt expecting to be honest. but it was nice to know that she understood and thought about that stuff#i just want to not be in pain#all my joints hurt so much
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Straw hat women redesigns :) I was trying to doodle some of the crew and came to the realization that I just Could Not with Nami so I wanted to play around with it a little bit
Some more design notes below:
Namiās design actually went a lot smoother for me than Robinās! I think canon post timeskip Nami is a very low bar. While you can argue that to some extent Nami being vain and seductive is part of her character, I do feel that there are many more integral parts of her character that can be highlighted in her design, namely map making and her combat. Though not one of the stronger straw hats, Nami does seem to be well practiced with her staff outside of its use for weather manipulation, and I think her being a physical combatant, even slightly, can be better reflected with more loose clothing for better mobility.
For her mapmaking, I wanted her to have constant easy access to her tools and to information about the locale, so around her waist she has one large pouch at the back for books and scrolls and maps in progress and one small pouch to the side for writing utensils and measurement tools. As backup she also has 2 pens in her bun, which also act as pins for keeping her hair up if she ever needs to move a lot.
Iām not sure how clearly it shows up in the notes, but Namiās shoe soles are also made from whatever artificial cloud material makes up the weather island she stayed on during the timeskip, so that it both pads her steps to make them soundless and bounces for better mobility. The shoes are naturally shaped like heels but without the actual heel, since she tends to move around on tiptoes anyways- a nod to her epithet as cat burglar and her past as a thief.
I made her shoulders a bit broader because I think they probably get a lot of exercise with her staff, and changed out the bikini top for a more supportive chest wrap, with a loose tank over it for breathability. The compression socks and sleeve are more stylistic than anything, since I like layers, but they might come in handy for her if she spends extended amounts of time sitting down making maps for the crew.
Robinās was a bit more difficult for me to figure out, and I might go back and revisit it at some point. For Nami, it was a bit easier to imagine what would pair well with her combat methods and her needs as a mapmaker, but with Robin, sheās an academic who fights almost completely hands off, without a specific weapon to her name. Because her strength lies mostly in her devil fruit, she has a bit more room for style over functionality, but I also still wanted her to have something that made sense with what she was. I donāt really think I succeeded in that regard, but itās also hard to convey what she does visuallyā sheās more of like a professor than a field archaeologist I think.
I really really enjoy her cowboy hat but I didnāt think it would match with the rest of the outfit so I switched it out for a wider brimmed hat and kept the orange sunglasses on it, as a nod to the revolutionaries with the combination of headwear and eyewear. She deserves a trench coat. I donāt make the rules. And the rest of the fit mostly came down to things I think I would enjoy wearing, haha
The trench coat is partially a nod to the scholars of ohara, who seem to wear white coats like lab coats in some screenshots of robinās backstory. I think also the reading glasses help to make her seem a bit more academic, but arenāt prominent enough to leave a strong impression. All in all I do wish robinās design had more functionality in it but I also think that robin is a character who probably enjoys dressing up nicely like this, especially in the comfort and stability of the straw hats.
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