#they just talk for the sake of talking v.v

[venriliz]

why is the concept of showing empathy for drug/alcohol addicts so hard to understand for some ppl? v.v they suffer too sis, that problem has to come from somewhere and i bet most of them would rather not be addicted in the first place. some people don't know what nuance is i swear. am i crazy for having empathy with addicts??? i don't think so.

[along-came-atsushi]

Hellooooo! How do you think Dazatsu would happening ? I love this ship and even if that will never be canon… Well, we can dream, can't we ?

Hellooooo~ <3 Yeah I feel you. I love them, too, they are my OTP!

Me with my shipping glasses on: Dazatsu will definitely happen! How can it not? The signs are all THERE!

Me without my shipping glasses on: It will never happen. None of our gay ships will ever happen. And I know, you know, we all know the reason why. It’s all just fanservice and wishful thinking.

[Beware: Slight spoilers for the Hunting Dogs Arc!]

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If you’re asking me from a personal POV: I am an avid fan of slow build-up when it comes to romance and shipping. I headcanon for my personal canon that Dazai and Atsushi are not a couple yet. But they are in the phase were they figure out that they have feelings for each other.

I think that Dazai realizes this pretty fast, since he has a good perception of how other people think and is able to interpret their intentions correctly. Which means, that he is able to analyze Atsushi’s personality in a very short time and estimate for himself, if he would like him or not. Despite his outer clownish behaviour, he is amazed by Atsushi when he saved him, especially considering the dire situation Atsushi is in. There are some tiny things I absolutely adore, where you can read that Dazai at least thinks that Atsushi is adorable.

(”You SAVED ME from my attempted suicide no. 16527? How DARE you!? But also: Do you like to wine and dine with me?” And look at his smug smile here, damn.)

In the anime, when he asks Atsushi what he wants to eat and Atsushi answers that he only wants chazuke, Dazai blinks surprised and then giggles. And I just !!!! Man, that giggle is like a: “Haha, so cute! :3″ giggle.

(Bitch, why you’re giggling like a teenage girl? No one understands right now - Kunikida, probably)

During the investigation for the white tiger Dazai learns a little bit about Atsushi, realizes that he had a harsh past, that Atsushi himself thinks he’s not worth living. And that made a deep impression, because: “Damn there was a time where I thought so about myself and I’m still struggling with it :/” and “I. Need. To. Protect. This. Boy.”

Which then leads to his infamous: “I’m not into hugging men”, because: “Haha, nope, I am NOT going to develop SUCH feelings! v.v”  And oh boy, does it look like straight out of a shoujo romance in the anime, when Dazai captures Atsushi in his arms:

(The new ghibli movie looks great!)

And Atsushi on the other hand is like: “Wow, this person is so nice, yet so weird at the same time! :) And this is actually the first time someone is N I C E to me! Who is he? What is he thinking? Wow, he’s so cool and confident, I wish that was me!”

(That is a totally heterosexual way to see someone, Atsushi. And Dazai, what is that soft look in your eyes, huh?)

And then when Atsushi has his entrance exam and he is willing to sacrifice himself for the sake of others, Dazai is genuinely surprised. And not many people are able to surprise Dazai, because he’s a schemer and thinks so far ahead.

That for me marks the moment where Dazai thinks: “Oh God, HE’S the one! *_* I want THAT ONE!” and “But that also means he’s WILLING to sacrifice himself for others! D: I need to protect him at all costs!” followed by: “I must suppress my selfish feelings, for everything I ever wanted and that is worth pursuing will be lost the moment I obtain it!”

I imagine that Dazai is constantly torn between his romantic feelings for Atsushi, which he T R I E S to cast aside and suppress, and the fact that you just can’t disconnect from your feelings like that. In the end they often get the upper hand of him.

Which results in him showing his affection in little and subtle things like: fooling around with Atsushi, trying to spend as much time as possible with him, secretly protecting him without everyone’s knowledge, just be there for him (even if that portrait of a father chapter was horribly written in general), very very very slowly opening up and showing a little bit of his true inner turmoil. And over the time this all gets stronger and he tries to honestly flirt with him, all under the disguise of clownery.

(And oh boy, THAT particular scene in 55 Minutes wasn’t even subtle anymore. I almost choked on my water).

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I think Atsushi takes longer to realize his feelings for Dazai. He is overwhelmed that there are people who genuinely care about his well-being. So, in the beginning, I imagine that he sees Dazai as someone to look up to, since he never had someone like that back in the orphanage. But the more time he spends with Dazai the more he realizes that he can’t ignore certain things: He sometimes can’t sleep at night, he catches himself blushing for some reason, he is sometimes nervous and tries to impress Dazai.

Atsushi: Wow, Dazai is really cool! I am so grateful that he helped me and I’m so amazed by him!

Atsushi’s Brain: Nah, bro, you’re just gay.

Atsushi: Haha, that... isn’t true. I mean, it’s true that he’s... very good looking. But someone like Dazai would never fall for someone like me. Not even if I was a woman...

Atsushi’s Brain: Bro, that’s really just gay.

Atsushi: It isn’t!

Atsushi’s Brain: And what about THAT dream you had last night?

Atsushi: THAT WAS JUST A FEVER DREAM I WAS REALLY TIRED AND CONCERNED OKAY?!

And then they get forcefully separated, because Dazai needs to go to prison. But their thoughts of each other and mental connection never disappears. Dazai slowly replaces the headmaster in Atsushi’s mind:

(I mean even ANGO realizes that there’s SOMETHING going on in Atsushi’s head. AND ALSO can we talk about how there is a HEART on the present Dazai is sitting?! Coincidence? That may be the case of course. But I don’t think so. In this essay I will).

And Dazai legit asks AKUTAGAWA (!!!) to protect Atsushi: “Hey, I’ll be going to prison soon due to personal reasons :) Can you please look after my future husband while I’m gone? Oh, and don’t you dare hit on him! >:| I know you’re slowly falling in love with him, too! EVERYONE IS! The competition is getting tiresome!!!”

So... yeah XD

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I don’t think BSD’s storyline is even halfway through, and there are still a lot of things to come. There are so many possibilities what could happen, so I’m just getting along with the story as it is and patiently wait what will come next. For now, I hope that we’ll get a reunion hug between Dazai and Atsushi when he (finally) comes out of prison. Man, everyone of these characters could use a hug, tbh. I’m assuming when he comes back Atsushi may confront Dazai with some things (for example his treatment of Akutagawa in the past), and maybe Dazai will open up a little bit. But we don’t know.

Anyways, I’ve been in fandoms for many years now and have different OTPs, and never was I upset when my OTP did not become canon. I kinda always knew beforehand if there was a slight possibility or not, just rolled with it and enjoyed the ambiguous hints that were presented to us.

And of course, we can always dream and headcanon what we want. And then there is still the power of fanfics and fanarts ;D

[yuna-dan]

Hey are you still doing the dodie prompts? If so- 9, Prinxiety

Hey, both of you! Thank you so so much!! I really hope you like this one, I did enjoyed writing it, haha.

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Warning: One-side Anxceit AND one-side Prinxiety. It’ll make sense. Not bad deceit per se, but not good either. Human AU.

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When Virgil decided to break-up with Damien, it was the last time. He had given so many opportunities to him to change, to improve, to give him a sign that he cared about that relationship just as much as Virgil cared.

He didn’t, so when Virgil broke up with him, for the ninth time, it was for the good. He wasn’t going to fall for any more of Damien’s tricks.

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It went okay for a few months. Damien still sent him some texts, and Virgil still answered but he wasn’t going to fall again. No.

Even if a small part of him wished for Damien to care about it.

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When school started again, Virgil was slightly relieved, since now he wouldn’t have to share most of his classes with his ex, even if they still talked it was quite uncomfortable for Virgil, at least.

It was in the second period when he met him, and at that moment he didn’t care much about him. Mr. Sanders, the Chemistry teacher, presented him.

“Hey, people, we have two new students. Please guys, introduced yourselves.”

Virgil didn’t pay much attention to them, just the basic I’m Roman and I’m Remus. It wasn’t until Roman (or was it Remus?) sat next to him, “Can I be your science partner? I really don’t want to work with my brother.” 

“Uh, sure. I don’t mind.” 

Roman smiled, and Virgil didn’t think much about it, but he couldn’t help but noticed what a beautiful smile he had.

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Virgil didn’t realize how much his life change by becoming his chemistry partner until he was in Roman’s room, playing Mario Kart and laughing his ass off. It wasn’t as if he they became best friend at the beginning, no. It took some time, Virgil being a procrastinator and Roman wanting to work in the chemistry project since day one, but at the end of the day, it was okay.

Patton said they completed each other. Virgil still couldn’t believe he had more friends since becoming Roman’s chem partner. He even got along with Remus, even if sometimes he creeped the fuck out of him.

He almost forgot about Damien. Almost being the key word.

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Virgil couldn’t believe he was once again crying because of him. He gripped the edge of his hoodie and clean harshly his eyes. 

Damien, fucking Damien and his inability to fucking compromise I just hope you never forget how much I do love you, Virgil. It was never my intention to hurt you like that.

And what was he supposed to do with that apologize? 

Virgil knew he better got his shit together; he was crying in the school for fuck sake. He cleaned once again his eyes, and prayed it looked as if he was tired and not as he just cried his eyes out inside a janitor closet.

He took out his phone, to check what class he had next. History, and since he was pretty good at that, he going to skip that class and sleep in the school gardens, yes. 

Virgil was just ready to leave the building and go to the garden, when Roman bumped him.

“Oh, hey Virgil, I was just about to text you…” Roman checked his face, “Are you okay?”

“Yes,” He lied, “I was going to sleep a little, I feel very tired.”

Roman hummed, clearly not buying the lied, “Okay, I’ll keep you company, if that’s alright?”

And Virgil just started to cry again, and Roman held him. They walked together around the gardens, while Virgil talked, talked and talked about Damien, about how he knew how he wasn’t bad but goddamit.

Roman kissed his temple, “You deserve better, Vi.”

And Virgil may not have known this, but Roman’s heart ache by seeing his friend crying, you deserve better, Vi, hopefully I can be that.

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It had been two months since the last time Virgil talked or text for the matter, with Damien.

The thing was, that the only person in the world who knew that Virgil loved pink roses was Damien, so when he opened his door and found a bouquet of pink roses, he instantly thought of him.

He rolled his eyes, and when he was about to throw them into the trash and forget about them, he saw the letter with a big golden R. 

For the best friend I could ever asked for,

-Roman D. Prince

Virgil couldn’t help but smile and feel some buttery thing inside his stomach.

On his locker he found a box of strawberries, because he didn’t like chocolate.

Then a bracelet, and finally Roman holding more flowers, with Remus and Logan holding a sign that read Prom with me? Please? and Patton taking photos with his phone in the middle of the school gardens. Virgil chuckled because only Patton was enjoying this.

Virgil was so fucking sure he hated great and big gestures, but at the moment he loved it. 

“Of course, you big sap.” Roman hugged him, and the people who were filming and watching awwed.

Virgil loved it.

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He was in his room, smiling at the photos that Patton tagged him on Facebook, when he received Damien’s call. 

He ignored it, and he couldn’t help but feel slightly proud of himself.

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The days that followed before Prom night, was full of Roman always holding Virgil’s hand, and constant emoji kisses, and here I bought this because I thought about you.

It was as if Roman was almost waiting for him, and it was such a beautiful cliché.

And Virgil felt slightly guilty because he really liked roman’s attention, but at the same time he knew that if Damien asked him again, he would probably say yes.

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When prom night arrived, Virgil and Roman were using matching suits. Roman picked him up and held his hand.

“Thanks for this, Virgil.” He squeezed his hand.

And when they slow-danced together, Virgil kissed him for the first time.

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Damien confronted him one day, at his house, “You don’t even like those things, Virgil!”

“Why do you care?!” Virgil snapped, “Suddenly, when I finally move on, you suddenly care about us?!”

“I have always care about you, Vi.” He said, softly, getting closer. Virgil tensed, but didn’t moved, “Please…” He pecked his lips. “You don’t even like him,” he grabbed his hands, “You love me.”

Virgil took a step back, “I do like him, De.” He said, and with the back of his hand he cleaned his lips, “and I loved you, so very much.”

He opened the door, “Sadly for you, I’ve learned to love myself, so you better watch me fall for every damn stereotype.” He took a deep breath, fighting the tears back, “Out. Now.”

He did cry that night.

Later, he texted Roman.

damien came at my home

-V.V

He saw the status of Roman changing from typing… to online at least three times.

And? How are you feeling?

-R.P

Virgil chuckled, wondering how he manage to find someone as amazing as Roman.

emotionally drained

he pecked my lips

but I kick him out 

sorry

-V.V

Virgil felt his heart drumming into his ribcage as Roman’s status was typing…

I’m mad, but with him, dw.

Wanna talk about it?

-R.P

No, not really.

-V.V

So, lunch tomorrow, sweetheart? 

-R.P

Virgil sent him an emoji heart.

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Two months later, Virgil asked Roman to be his boyfriend, to became official.

That day Virgil blocked Damien from all social media.

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They were laying on Roman’s couch, waiting for Remus and Logan to bring food, while Patton was in the kitchen doing something. Virgil’s head was on Roman’s chest, and it felt so natural.

“Roman?”

“Yes?”

“I think I love you.”

Roman smiled as if someone told him he won the lottery, “I love you too, Vi.”

Yes, he really loved Roman, and it couldn’t be happier.

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I believe De really loved Vi, but he was still an idiot.

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[kangminyoo]

minchan really just had those three seconds every stage too?? it was so frustrating trying to gif because it was just the same footage over and over with different clothes? like pls but you are right, he did look great for all of the stages v.v

i know!!!! talk about painful like please jelpi give the boy the screentime & line distribution he deserves!! like we know he can sing well what are they afraid of he’s lead vocalist for goodness sakes??? anyway sorry for turning this into a rant but I totally agree I wish he and yongseung had more solo time :(( (and then we could have more to gif but that’s not the point) also even the outfits were kinda frustrating bc of how similar they were. the stylists really went *throws dart at color wheel* purple today! here’s your harness, off ya go! but at least they got better near the end of promotions :D anyway jelpi do better next time.

anyway! you did really well with the 9 set given what you had to work with (ahem jelpi) the end result is so satisfying!! <3

[transhawks]

what do you think of natuso as a character? i love him alot in the way he talks back to endevoir and addressed to the issues hes done also i can realte more to him than fuyumi personally i don't beleive natuso is the parka guy like you stated before in a post you did

I love him. Actually, out of the siblings, I think I identify with his response to things the most. He’s rightfully angry but it’s not an anger in ‘I want to get you back’, it’s an anger that an abuser can move on with his life held unaccountable. I understand people who relate to Fuyumi, but Natsuo is the way I’m trying to do things - demanding accountability while also keeping a distance and living life for myself. 

I also like how affronted he is at being kept away from Shouto all these years. You can tell it bothers him - he doesn’t know things about his youngest brother, when he should be very close as the sibling before Shouto. His rage at whatever happened to Touya, too, you can tell it hurts. He even manages to stomach his anger at Enji for a few minutes for Fuyumi’s sake. He loves his siblings, obviously! And with that, I just like his character in general? He’s funny, is far more emotionally expressive than Shouto or Touya (because he’s a cancer sun and that’s how we be).I like his likes; the sea, fresh raw fish… I like his career being medical welfare, and am curious what he’s specifically studying for since it’s a broad field. 

Also, look at him. He’s not Enji’s size, but he’s got a few more years to grow, and just is a bulky-ish boy v.v. I really like the idea of him being into sports - I personally headcanon him liking baseball and really, really liking swimming, even being on a swim team in high school since he likes the sea so much. 

In a way that doesn’t involve him being a villain, I hope we get to see more of him. I don’t think he’s quirkless, mostly because that’s just…brutal to think of given Enji as a parent - the amount of stress and abuse he’d give Rei over giving him a quirkless child, but I’m also not on team ‘Natsuo has an ice quirk’. I like to think his constitution is for the cold, but his quirk is somewhere more a ‘steam’ quirk. 

Anyway, I love this boy!!!!! Horikoshi give us more!!!!

[vampire-the-askerade]

VTMB vampires reaction to a Salubri

(It’s only the healer for this list. Doing all the different kinds would take too long for on sit down).

Camarilla

LaCroix

Would be interested in having you work for him, but you would definitely be a behind the scenes person. There’s no telling how the other Camarilla members would react if they found out the he was working with someone who is from a clan associated with the Sabbat.

The Sheriff

He would not actively seek you out. But, you better be careful. He’ll be watching you like a hawk, and will kill at the first signs of trouble.

Strauss

You would be dead as soon as he saw that third eye. No questions asked.

 Therese

She would be more then happy for any help you can offer, mentally or otherwise. But, much like LaCroix she would keep you in the background. Her main goal is to advance in the Camarilla, and a Salubri wouldn’t get her any favors.

Nosferatu

Imalia

She and you are going to get along fine. She’s a relatively new vampire, so she probably doesn’t know about the history behind your clan nor the stigma that goes with it. What she does get is that you also have a more difficult side with the physical side of the Masquerade(although not as much as her or the other Nosferatu). She will ask you if you could heal her, and might be a little upset when you can’t.

Mitnick

Like Imalia, he hasn’t been around long enough to really know much about Kindred history. Thinks the third eye looks cool, but not much else.

Barabbas 

Has had to sneak his way around a few Furies(the more violent Salubri), so he won’t trust you at first. When he can tell that you actually don’t mean any harm, he might lighten up, but will still keep a close eye on you.

Bertram

Will, have heard of you, but never seen anyone from your clan in person before. Will be more curious then afraid of your abilities. Will, also see if you would be able to cancel out his Nosferatu curse, but won’t be quite as upset as Imalia when you can’t do so.

Gary

Has also only seen Furies as Healers like yourself are a very rare thing these days. Won’t like the fact that you are around, but won’t actually do anything to you as long as you leave him and his childer alone. Might warm up to you after awhile.

Anarchs

Janette

She would be more then happy to be around you. You can help her out when her mental health is suffering, She has never been one to shy away from controversy either, so she’ll have no problem with being see with you.

Damsel

Whoa, you stop right there! She’s heard enough about your kind to know that they can’t be trusted! It will take awhile, but once you actually get her to trust you, then she might even introduce you to the other Anarchs and try to get you to join.

Skelter

He knows that there is apparently  a difference between you and the other Salubri that he has seen, and he appreciates that you are trying your best to help people. However, as far as he’s concerned you could turn Sabbat at any moment, so you better watch yourself.

Jack

Holy, shit! A unicorn! When’s the last time he saw one of you guys? Walking around, being peaceful, licking people and shit. He never believed all the stuff they said about your clan. He can spot political slop from a mile away. Just don’t go trying to clean his soul or whatever.

Nines

Will be very cautious when he hears that most of your clan is Sabbat. But, when he finds out why, then he’s a little more alright with you. He can totally understand wanting revenge on the Camarilla. Someone like you could be really helpful for the cause.

Independents

V.V.

She might be a little cautious at first due to what she has heard, but has always been one to judge one on character rather then hearsay. She will absolutely love the fact that you want to not only help people physically, but also help Kindred deal with the struggles of their condition.

Ash

When he hears that you apparently want to help people just for the sake of helping them, he’ll not believe it. There’s got to be no way that anyone, especially not a vampire, would want to help others for nothing in return. If it’s after the incident with the society of Leopold, then he’ll be more then grateful for both the physical and mental healing.

Isaac

You better watch yourself. He won’t tolerate any Sabbat problems in his city. You can stay for now, but at the first signs of trouble, you’re as good as ashes.

Beckett

If it isn’t a cyclops! He’s never had any problems with your kind, and also knows that Sabbat doesn’t automatically mean brainless brute. Perhaps the two of you could get to know each other. You know, talk about interests, experiences, your clan’s secrets. You know...the usual. Just don’t try to lecture him about how close he is with his beast. That’s just how Gangrels are.

Others

Ming Xiao

She has been aqunted with some of your clan’s Asian Kindred, and has less of a problem with you then she does with other Canaanites. Just don’t press your luck.

Andrei

Ah, it has been a long time since he has seen a Healer! You could be quite the asset for the other Sabbat. Don’t try to guilt trip the others, though; or fix anything that he’s mutated.

The cabbie/Cain

He is quite pleases to see one of his “decedents” is still on the peaceful path that his childe Salute tried so hard to achieve, even  after all that they have endured. Maybe there’s hope for his kind after all. 

[chibalein]

Official Statement by Kajiura AND Hikaru/Keiko on Kalafina Disbandment

NOTE: In response to @putschki1969 comments (thank you again), I corrected a few parts of this translation . As Tumblr does not edit the reblogged posts as well, I re-uploaded it, so please refer to this post from now on. I would also appreciate it, if you deleted the old reblogs.

Sorry guys, I was too hasty while translating and made some stupid and avoidable mistakes v.v (damn you japanese language) That happens when you already interpret while translating, so never take fan translations for granted, kids.

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I was VERY surprised to see on Twitter that Hikaru actually “reacted” to the news of Kalafina disbanding. She as well as Kajiura posted a link to the FictionJunction homepage where an official statement by Kajiura AND BOTH Hikaru and Keiko was released regarding yesterday’s news. Here is the link and a translation of the statements. This is MY translation - please take it with a grain of salt and PLEASE correct me, if I got something wrong. I don’t want to twist the meaning just because I used the wrong English word.

http://fictionjunction.com/kalafina20190314/

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“About the report of Spacecraft’s “Regarding the disbandment of Kalafina”:

Yesterday, Spacecraft released a report about “the disbandment of Kalafina”, although it was very sudden and somewhat surprising that they haven’t used “hiatus” but the strong word “disbandment”, the three members undeniably have stopped their activities a long time ago. Above all else, as the former producer of Kalafina and as an individual person, I continued to feel very sorry for being unable to properly address the issue to everyone who supported Kalafina until now.

As for the former Kalafina members Keiko and Hikaru, when I reached out to them they felt the same way after all and since they wanted to use the opportunity to greet everyone, therefore I gathered their messages and provided a temporary* place on my website.” (Kajiura)

*Note: I’d like to point out the word used for “temporary” here which is “rinji 臨時”. My dictionary says it can mean “temporary”, “makeshift” and “extraordinary”. So for me, it means that they actually had no other way of releasing this kind of statement the “official” way (e.g. via Spacecraft or Hamony) but using the somehow unrelated FictionJunction and Kajiura. However, just my thinking, I’d love to discuss that in the comments (so japanese speaking people, step up).

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Message from Keiko and Hikaru:

To our important fans,

We are very sorry that we didn’t take the responsibility last year, when we passed our 10th year, to express our feelings that needed to be expressed in our own words and ended up addressing the issue this way.

In the 10 years of Kalafina, there was a harmony only the three of us could create, there was the musical world spun by Kajiura-san... moreover, because you were waiting for us, we could keep on going.

Furthermore, thanks to the many outstanding works we encountered, we were able to deliver our music in various places. Each and every accumulation will never disappear and we couldn’t ever forget them. Last year, our one big decision was to “stop walking [as a group] for a while in order to pursue our own individual music careers”. We feel very sorry that this information had this kind of timing, but we want you to please watch over the paths we chose.

To everyone who have supported us until now, we appreciate it from our hearts... Thank you.

March 14th 2019 Keiko. Hikaru

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Message by Kajiura Yuki:

I can imagine that the message by the two members might be enough already and that my words might just be unnecessary... so again, everyone who supported Kalafina until now, thank you so much. And to everyone who waited anxiously for such a long time in this half-baked state thinking “what will happen now”, I apologize.

Actually, the information that “Kalafina will suspend their activities” was supposed to have been released a bit earlier to everyone, it should have been like that. You were supposed to understand and support the choice of the three members, who worked for my music so sincerely like no one else did for more than 10 years, to go separate ways. However, being able to apologize for the delay and expressing my gratitude from the heart, it might be very selfish... but as the former producer I feel a bit relieved to finally get the opportunity.

Even now I clearly remember the day giving this unit the name “Kalafina”. (I thought that even if I say so myself, it’s such a lovely name!). For the members, the past ten years were full of days of challenge, grappling with a new form of “songs”, weren’t they. I am so proud because of the hard struggle of the three members, they were able to deliver “unprecedented music” to everyone. And as these days of grappling could continue, we received each and everyone’s support who devoted themselves to listen to our music.

Perhaps, everyone wasn’t just listening to Kalafina’s music, but... somehow it inspired everyone’s imagination, while spinning your own story together with everyone, I think that is an exciting thing... Just like this, Kalafina’s story definitely isn’t concluded just by the three members or myself, but because you made this world with us together, Kalafina was able to progress. These are my strong feelings. I am, really, just, thankful that you played in this musical world with us.

I, who is now independent and has left Kalafina, may be thanking you too much, but I truly wanted to properly convey my feelings, so I wrote this very long article.

I loved Kalafina. Having been able to walk together with these three wonderful singers for ten years, now and forever, I am proud of that. These were times I wished they would never end. I want the members to talk about their individual “Kalafina” and these days proudly with a raised face too. I want them to treat the ten years of singing with all their power as fuel for walking on their new paths with dignity, I pray for that. ... even if I say that, I don’t intend to say farewell forever to the individual members, as long as we can continue music mutually, we surely will be blessed by fate again somewhere!

Spinning the music of Kalafina was truly fun. When I went to concerts, I would forget that I was the producer and just enjoy these times of music. If I was granted one selfish wish... I may have caused an uproar to everyone who loved Kalafina one way or another now... for the sake of these enjoyable times of music, if you could retain those memories. I pray for that.

With a gratitude I won’t get tired of telling you. Thank you very much!

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Allright, that’s it. That’s a lot of subliminal info actually, at least in my opinion. I got the feeling that things did not go as intended for Kalafina... again, my translation may be misleading, but I feel like after Kajiura left Spacecraft, maybe the girls wanted to explore some individual paths but not entirely throw away the idea to reunite at some point again. However, this door was closed by Spacecraft now and I just wonder whether all of them were included in the decision as much as they should have been. I am surprised that after all this time, Kajiura and Hikaru/Keiko actually reacted to the official disbandment, but maybe now they were finally allowed to (I can imagine that some part of the contract forbade them to “tell the truth” to avoid bad publicity). Like I said above, it’s kinda strange to release this kind of statement on Fictionjunction and it makes it seem that they couldn’t do so on “official” sites like Harmony, which would make more sense and be more accessible to the actual fanclub members.

At least we know that Keiko is alive and in contact with Hikaru and Kajiura XD I feel bad for Wakana though. We don’t know how the relationship between her and the others developed since she is the one who apparently had no problems (or she just got the better offers) to stick with Spacecraft or whatever, while the others seemingly did. She is left out of this whole news, despite being a vital part of it. I guess she is “not allowed” to react to it, especially so shortly before her solo career truly kicks off...

Anyway, what do you guys think, let me hear!

[stephicness]

Share the synopsis of a story you're working on that you haven’t published yet!

share the synopsis of a story you’re working on that you haven’t published yet

Hi-dee-ho, Kas! c: Thanks for the ask!

Remarkably – looking back into my writing folder – I have a decent handful of things I started but haven’t finished. OOPS. I have alot of ideas, but due to recent issues in my life, it’s been remarkably hard to reinvest my time back into writing. Hm… I should change that and come back to these past stories, now that you mention it, Kas!

But nervously laughing about my flightiness aside, how about I give you a few that I started/have been wanting to do? To compensate! Perhaps you and others can help me clarify which ones I should continue.

Pardon the long post, I just miss talking about writing. v.v

Title: Every Inch of YouCharacter Focus: Gladiolus Amicitia/Ravus Nox FleuretGenre: Romantic Comedy, NSFWThemes: Body-Swap AU

“As far as Gladiolus knew, daemons could do all sorts of weird things. Time things, fire things – too many freaky things. But after encountering and battling a mysterious daemon with his companions, he wasn’t anticipating waking up beardless, pale as hell, and with an arm missing. Wait a second… Why was he in Ravus’s body?!”

For some reason, this one was proving to be harder to write than I thought – mostly because of the way you have to focus on who’s who and what is what throughout it, but it’s a fun challenge nevertheless. And it got really naughty with what I had planned too. Because we need more content with this ship. Just sayin’.

Title: High Command and High in the CloudsCharacter Focus: Ravus Nox Fleuret/ReaderGenre: Romantic ComedyThemes: Recruit!Reader

“Man, when you said you wanted to work your way up the ranks, you didn’t mean this fast! You just wanted to prove yourself as a sergeant for the Niflheim infantry, but why are you suddenly given the job of giving the new High Commander a tour? And why didn’t anyone tell you he was so gorgeous?!”

I’m always a fan of romantic comedies, and I’ve actually had a prompt like this sitting in my ask box for a millennium before I thought I’d given up on it. But I decided instead to try writing it. I don’t know why I stopped it though – I was, like, almost 3000 words in?! Probably because of moving or something… Hm…

Title: CompromisedCharacter Focus: Nyx Ulric/Ravus Nox FleuretGenre: …I’m pretty sure this was straight-up smut or something.Themes: N/A

“Something wasn’t right. Tenebraen royalty visiting Lucis out of the blue meant that something was going, and Nyx was assigned the task of figuring out just what Tenebraen was up to. In order to do that, Nyx had to get close to Princess Lunafreya and appeal to her kind heart to learn the enemy’s secrets. But in order to do that, he’d have to go through another enemy first…”

I think I started this one just for the sake of being all ‘HEY! LOOK! MORE RAVNYX STUFF.’ I think this one has to be fleshed out way more, and I definitely need to do more research on how to write Nyx. But I wouldn’t mind having this challenge again! Especially when I get lovely new Ravus ships.

Title: Catch of the DayCharacter Focus: Ravus Nox Fleuret/Ignis ScientiaGenre: Romantic ComedyThemes: Mermaid!Ravus, AKA the Mermaid!AU

“Ignis had always heard that fishing was a good way to relax and unwind, so why not give it a try for once? Too bad for him, he didn’t realize it was actually a stressful experience – especially after Ignis accidentally fished out a metal arm from the ocean. One belonging to a mermaid no less!”

I had a list of small AU ideas saved to my computer, in case I wanted to continue them, but I had started this one with the intent of making it into a fun little Fleurentia story series. I didn’t get far beyond a page or so, but I wouldn’t mind pursuing this one again!

I have an entire arsenal of writings that I have started or concepted that I haven’t finished yet, ranging from fandoms like FFXV, Dark Souls, Voltron, and I think recently UtaPri, but I’m making an effort to try getting back into writing between work and drawing my webcomic. But progress is progress! :D

Asks for Fanfic Writers

[nyanzaya]

SHIPPING INFO | ABOUT MUN. REPOST DON’T REBLOG

✧ WHAT’S YOUR OTP FOR YOUR MUSE ? I have a few! One that doesn’t even exist but I wish it did was Iza/Sin. My current OTP though that’s real is Iza/Shizuo (@paronomasianist) because they are so gay together and it makes me so happy to have Shizuo and Iza together like it’s just ahhh. 

✧ WHAT ARE YOU WILLING TO RP WHEN IT COMES TO SHIPPING ?

Just about anything? I’m down for sex-buddies, I’m down for one-sided unrequited love things, I‘m down for a toxic relationship though I don’t condone the behavior in real life relationships. I’ll even go as far as for like, a pet/master relationship/ship but that one is a little iffy with me if I don’t know the person asking every well, but if it’s planned out and we talk about it a lot then I would be fine with it. 

✧ HOW LARGE DOES THE AGE GAP HAVE TO BE TO MAKE IT UNCOMFORTABLE ?

For me it would have to be if it’s a kid and an adult? Like no no no lol it’s just makes me so anxious thinking about that because I don’t even know? Considering Iza is like 27, I think the youngest I would be comfortable shipping with is like, 20? 19 is pushing it a little though and then the oldest, probably like 40 or 42? 

✧ ARE YOU SELECTIVE WHEN SHIPPING ?

I don’t think I’m that selective? Iza himself is really horrible when it comes to relationships because he is that kind of person who is so loved deprived that if your muse shows him a little love or praise or affection he would latch onto it and not let it go at all? 

✧ HOW FAR DO STEAMY MOMENTS HAVE TO GO BEFORE THEY’RE CONSIDERED NSFW?

For me I start putting my responses under a read more if it goes anywhere under the belt or if touches and kisses gets way too affectionate lol and because of how I am when I write more than likely my replies might go under a read more very quick if I feel it’s not appropriate for people to see lol, like if there is too much moaning and stuff like that--

✧ WHO ARE OTHER MUSES YOU SHIP YOUR MUSE WITH ?

Oh gosh lol, I ship Iza with @the-raven-informant at least in the werecat! verse because it’s just “Aww!” The relationship is pretty cute if you take away the murderous intent of Iza since like, he does hunt a lot of things v.v. Hmm, a lot of my shipping partners are not active anymore sadly, so there isn’t much anyone else.

✧ DOES ONE HAVE TO ASK TO SHIP WITH YOU ?

This one really depends! I would say yes, only because it depends on how many threads/how long the threads are? If we have a lot of threads and the chemistry is there then I probably already low-key ship it lol but if it’s a fresh thread with maybe two or three replies it would be a little hard for me to say yes or no

✧ HOW OFTEN DO YOU LIKE TO SHIP ?:

I LOVE SHIPPING? Especially if the chemistry is there. By chemistry I mean like, the feelings of mutual respect and affection, though it depends on the ship since it could also be very hate-filled and be horrible but I would be like “I ship it because if they actually get together they would have to work it out”

✧ ARE YOU SHIP OBSESSED OR SHIP MORE-OR-LESS ?

I like to think I’m ship obsessed, and I might be? But I try not to be like, if someone makes a ship with me just expect a ton of quotes because I will find a ton for the ship. Even unrequited ships I would do the same! It depends on the relationship for sure lol

✧ ARE YOU MULTISHIP ?

I am multi-ship! Though at one point I was thinking of being single-ship because of how thought-obsessed Iza is with Sinzuo and he is like so gone it’s just sad to see him think about Sin so much but right now, yes, I’m multi-ship and if we ship I’ll think of a tag for us so they can be in their own verse!

✧ WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE SHIP(S) IN YOUR CURRENT FANDOM ?

I don’t really get the question, like with my muse or just in general? Lol but for the sake of the question, I have to say my fave ship for Iza is, with Shizuo or even Sinzuo. My favorite ship in the fandom is Shizaya because I’m trash, but also like, Izanami, varona and Shizuo, I just...put everyone together honestly. 

✧ FINALLY, HOW DOES ONE SHIP WITH YOU ?:

Make a lot of threads with me or have the thread we currently have get long just to get the feel of the interaction and talk to me about it! The only limitations of course is Iza himself because he is just too gay for anything else unless it’s platonic then hell yeah

TAGGING: @dreadfularrow @starbrosforever @beaniesandblackcoffee @perspextivexx @paronomasianist TAGGED BY: @thislovelylady (I hope it’s like okay to tag you in this since the thing said ‘anyone who sees this; lol a ;dskjfafd  *Lays down)

[polyx]

Get to know me tag:^)

I was tagged by @criminalmastermine

Name:

Polyxeni

Gender:

Female

Star sign:

Virgo/Sheep

Height:

170 cm

Put your music on shuffle, what are the first six songs to pop up?:

Ok because I listen on Soundcloud, Spotify and my folders on my phone, I’ll do 3 separate :^) Spotify 1) VIXX LR – Chocolatier 2) BTS – Lost 3) MOBB – Hit me (feat. KUSH) 4) Taemin – Thirsty 5) VIXX – Dynamite 6) BTS – Moving on (Ok it’s pretty obvious that I use Spotify mostly for k-pop lol)

Soundcloud 1) Sunday – Only 2) Sofi Tukker – Hey Lion 3) マクロスMACROSS 82 - 99 - 葛城 ミサトYEBISU (YUNG BAE EDIT) 4) Vantage // - Patrick Converter (ft. Chrollo)

5) M.RUX - Rembetiko Mon Amour // ρεμπέτικο αγάπη μου 6) Seiun – otogibanashi My folders on my phone 1) Lorde – Liability 2) Clueso - Achterbahn (Handgepäck Version) 3) Incubus – Pistola 4) Lana Del Rey – Once Upon A Dream (Maleficent OST) 5) Little Boots – Working Girl 6) Banks - Haunt

Grab the nearest book, turn to page 23 and write line 17:

“(…) because “a realisation that comes from society itself” could “already contain a reform (…)“. (roughly translated from German)

Last time you played air guitar?:

Uhm… I don’t know ^^° I rarely do it tbh… I usually dance

Celebrity crush?: The first person that comes into my mind is Lucy Lawless :^)

What’s a sound that you hate/love?:

I love it when it’s 4 in the morning and my window next to my bed is open, and the rain softly hits the glass and no car drives by, or when you sit by the beach at about 7pm in Greece in the summer, when most people had their share of sun and leave the beach, and the water softly hits the shore and a seagull are audible somewhere in the distance, or when you float in the water and your ears are under the water and  you hear the water and your heartbeat… also the soft flat breathing of the person laying next to you, or the rustling of the fabric of your bedding when you lay down to sleep… Idk I like a lot of subtle sounds. I hate hearing my joints cracking because I feel like I am breaking apart or something (?)

Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?:

Ghosts not so much, aliens? Definitely.

Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?:

I’ve had my licence for 5 years now and I never crashed :3 I don’t drive much though.

What was the last book you read?:

Simon Beckett – Totanfang / The Restless Dead (original title)

Do you like the smell of gasoline?:

Hm… kinda.

Last movie you saw?:

Fack Ju Göhte 3

Worst injury you’ve ever had?:

Broke my left arm.

Any obsessions right now?: A lot, although I should focus on studying: k-pop (like the biggest obsession atm), writing/reading fanfiction, drawing (my go to instant stress reliever), gaming (I still need to finish Hellblade!!), music overall, manga, my succulents (my babies)

Do you tend to hold grudges against people who’ve wronged you?: Yes. I try to forgive or forget (or both) for my sake, but often it doesn’t work.  

In a relationship?:

Yes.

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SECOND VERSION

Appearance:

I have long brown and blue hair, brown eyes and a long thin nose. My face is quite rectangular, and I have olive skin tone (but pretty light compared to others). I am chubby and well-proportioned I’d say. My nails are always short (except for holiday season because my nails won’t constantly break like during work) and usually some kind of varnish is on it. 50% of the time I wear clothes with some kind of pattern on it or colourful stuff, 25% of the time black and 25% pink shit, and always my casio on my wrist. I have 2 tattoos and 4 piercings, one stretched earlobe. Usually I wear make-up, and everyone knows me for wearing colourful eyeshadow.

Personality:

I am quite outgoing and like spending time with my friends and family and partner, but as much as I love having people around me, I need time to be alone. I just need to. I try to have an open ear for other people’s problems, but be prepared I might cry along with you because I am a very emotional person (like on Friday I was in a concert and started crying because the song was so touching lol). I’d say I am quite confident, but I need time adjusting in a new environment before returning to my confident self. At work I am the most patient person, but with my family I tend to be impatient a lot and I hate myself for it, but it’s getting better. I am very creative and love dwelling on details on random stuff (like I could tell you for an hour why I like a particular song for example). That’s also a reason why I can’t get shit done sometimes because I daydream a lot. Like… a lot… one person told me I remind them of Luna Lovegood because I seem trapped in my own bubble. I love arts. I used to be super tidy as a child, but now I am quite messy. I am often late (sorry to anyone affected by this v.v°). I love travelling. My bag is always ready for my nomad life, as I am always on the go.

Abilities:

I speak 3 languages! Also I draw and make jewellery. Also I have the ability to make a mess out of my room in the shortest amount of time, just watch me :^) professionally I am a druggist (but not the one working at a pharmacy, mind you) and I have a bachelors degree of trade and commerce. Also I’m a certified trainee instructor.

Experiences:

Well? I don’t know what this refers too… Maybe some random shit: -I used to do traditional greek dance as a kid. -I’ve never left Europe (sadly), but I’ve travelled to London, Vienna, Paris, Berlin and other cities. -When I was a smoll bean, I went to the central plaza of my dad’s village in Greece and returned with a puppy in my arms. My grandmother kept the pupper. -I love freaking LOVE technology, when I used my huge ass multitalented wireless printer for the first time and printed something via my phone I almost cried in excitement. -I can stop reading a book if it’s boring. -Once on my way home I sat in the tram, and there was a group of friends, drunk, pretty loud and happy, they were wearing traditional Bavarian clothing (Tracht), and they were …deaf! And one of the girls sat opposite to me, and complimented my hair, like we talked without using words, only by using our facial expressions and our hands, and she grabbed on piece of her hair and pointed at mine and we laughed, and then she offered me some of her vodka and I was so yolo at the moment I accepted, although I don’t accept drinks from strangers usually. I had such a blast these 10 minutes we spent together on the tram, I often think about her, and hope she is doing fine :’) - I remember as a young girl, I was sitting on an old faucet which was built in the short wall framing my grandparents’ house, and I was starring at the sky in disbelief. There I was, a young city girl, born and raised in Munich, sitting on an old faucet somewhere in an small village in Greece starring at the beautiful nightsky, seeing something I’ve never seen before. There were so many stars, just…so… so many stars… thousands and thousands of shiny dots across a black canvas. And they seemed to be alive. I couldn’t believe my eyes. Till this day, I remember this night, and I hear my mom asking what I was doing out there alone, surrounded by the wild noises of thousands of bugs around me. It has been more that 10 years, and this night is so vibrant in my memory. I will never forget this moment till my dying day. Still, I often spent time in Greece watching the stars, always in the back of my mind what my grandma told me once: don’t count the stars, it brings misfortune. - I pierced my ears on my own (…stupid). - I pretty much had my hair dyed any colour of the rainbow (except yellow, but I guess blonde counts?). - I’ve been to A LOT of concerts.

(I have some negative experiences too of course, but I don’t want to dwell on them) My life:

I still live with my parents, because I cannot afford anything on my own atm, but also due to other circumstances. Till the end of September I worked full time, now I started studying sociology (BA). I have been employed in the company I work for for 10 years now, and I love my work although it’s tough :’). I have a little sister who I love dearly, and she is making me a proud big sis:). My parents are the best parents, seriously you could not wish for better parents. I am super grateful to them for all I’ve been able to do in my life and all the love and support they have given, and are still giving me. Also, I’m so proud of them. The thought of what my parents have gone through makes me cry. I used to think I don’t have a lot of friends, but I do! And they all are beautiful unique personalities, I love them! I live the nomad live, as I feel I’m rarely home, always on the go. My co-workers are the sweetest people, I love seeing their faces light up when they see me :’) (ILY!!!) And my partner… there are no words to describe what sweet of a person he is. A puppy is nothing against him. I want to cuddle him forever. I am online a lot, but I don’t get involved with a lot of people online, safe for… 2 :’D Rach and Mine! I usually admire from afar, and fangirl in the tags for example. Overall I wake up everyday being thankful, my life is good! I appreciate every moment. I am blessed.

Relationships: I’ve only had 2 lmao, and I’m still friends with my first partner. Random stuff:

Ups I think I answered this earlier already…

THIRD VERSION

Relationship status:

In a relationship. We have an imaginary daughter lol.

Fave colour:

All hues of blue! Basically every colour but blue is the most dear to me.

Lipstick or ChapStick:

Lipstick for sure. I always have one in my pocket.

Last song:

Shahmaran by Sevdaliza

Last movie:

Fack Ju Göhte 3

Top 3 shows:

I don’t watch TV, neither do I have the time for series (I have GOT on halt, as well as “Halt and Catch Fire”) … But “The Vision of Escaflowne” is my favourite series of EVER. The story, the characters, the music, the art, the world building, I could cry it’s so beautiful. Also the whole ATLA and TLOK Series, it is so good!!! *cries*

Top 3 ships:

Oh man… ok. I’ll go for Amorra (Amon and Korra, TLOK), Truhan ( Gohan and Trunks, Dragonball Z) and basically every possible VIXX ship, because I love them all (but Wontaek though…)

I’d like to tag @valkerymillenia, @abnaxus, @coolera but you don’t have to do it if you don’t want to :’)

[buddaheadcannonsonice]

What do I label this? Oh, This!

“I was so happy when I saw you posted the final chapter of the Rika comes back fic, I really liked that series, but the ending made me a bit sad because I felt like the way Saeran ended felt super unresolved compared to the other characters. Honestly, I’m lowkey surprised that Zen didn’t punch V, I kinda felt like he would at the hospital. I mean he’s MC’s night in shinning armour and V let Rika almost kill her. I think he deserves to be punched (well actually I think he deserves way better than all this and the horrible woman Rika, but I mean, he did willingly let MC get imprisoned and murdered right in front of him - he didn’t know she was going to get saved and live when Rika did that, so he gets blame for allowing murder).

Oh, and just thought I would mention since you use the term in the fic, Hangul is specifically the Korean alphabet, not the spoken language.”

- Submitted by @beyond-the-dreamcatcher

Hi! Yes, Saeran’s ending was unfinished for reasons that I felt were right. I kinda have been lowkey working on something and I have just been meaning to find the right time to talk about it before I abandoned it (Like i do with a lot of things v.v) Okay so here it goes. 

I have been working on this sorta fanatical idea of this MC Sick AU-verse so there are a few HC’s of before the Rika Saga and a few after the Rika Saga. Namely, because someone sent in an ask that gave me the idea and I just had to go with it (I will give credit to the person once I post it along with a masterpost list someone asked for.) 

About Zen, in the original draft he did get mad and hit V and then Yoosung (because of his denial of Rika’s involvement), but I didn’t go through with it because what stood out most to me was just how defeated Zen felt. Also because it takes him a while to catch onto a reaction and in the scene, it was a quick reaction. Like when he catches on (in the deep story in 707′s path) that 707 and MC are together alone and so I based it off of that (IDK why but it just happened lolol). He does take his anger out in another way. I focused the Rika Saga on mainly 707 and Jumin and the follow-up I want to focus it on Zen, Yoosung, and Jaehee. 

I did not know that about Hangul being the alphabet. I apologize and will fix it! I didnt look too much into it and I felt bad at my error v.v Thanks for pointing it out though! I really appreciate it :3 

While I am still here, lolol forgive me, I received an ask about a masterlist post and I will post it up in a few days (along with the pre- Rika Saga) and it will have a bit of a mixture of things. And that’s where I need help. I have only read a few Mystic Messenger headcanons that I loved before I started mine, and I don’t think that will be enough (because I will want to also look back at the list and read lolol im so sorry)! So I ask that you guys submit some (or anything you guys want to see) so that I can add to the list. In additions to HC’s, I have made playlists for each of the characters based on how I saw them in the Rika Saga so there is also that too that I will add to the masterlist. 

I don’t know If I am kidding myself with all of this but I really want to continue on with all of this, I hope you guys do too! 

- P 

-P.S. I have noticed how I sign off as P, and that is because of my main tumblr that I go by Panda, and I say that because there are multiple Pandas on tumblr ^^. But for the sake of not being another letter, I will sign off as Aro (b/c of ao3 and other sites). Uh, bye? For now? lololol 

-Aro <3