#they be flowin bestie

[violets-and-books]

For my SW fic rn:

Nina - Jedi (During Order 66)

Kaz - Pilot (Ex-Street Rat (Dregs))

Jesper - Force Sensitive (Ex-Smuggler)

Matthias - Ex Imperial (Special Forces)

Inej - Mandalorian (Clan Ghafa)

Wylan - Ex-Mechanic (Trader's son)

Ooh, I'd never thought of Nina as a Jedi! That'd be a good conflict with her character, I like that

Pilot Kaz >>>>>

You know when you hear something and you never knew how badly you needed it until you heard it? Pilot Kaz. Wait, are we talking pilot like Poe Dameron orrrrrrrr?

MECHANIC WYLAN, WE HAVE THE SAME BRAINCELL ON THAT! AND EX-IMPERIAL MATTHIAS!!!

Bestie, I might just have to write a star wars fic. I'll squeeze it in between my possessed Jes fic and my newsies au, maybe

Yknow in Solo, how Han got the Millennium Falcon by gambling for it? Imagine if that's how Jesper met Kaz and/or Wylan. He gambled them for their ship (the outcome depends on the trajectory of the fic, ig)

How deep into Mandolorian, like, religion is Inej? Does she remove her helmet?

[puppyguppy]

I've had quite a bit of interaction today, and idk where y'all have come from, but I beg y'all to go and check @chainslobber out if you like my stuff so much. They're my bestie, an amazing artist AND writer, and more than half the fics I write wouldn't even exist without them. 💚

[tamaruaart]

TAM!!!

First off, ily, you’re so stinkin sweet

SECOND!!

Oc interaction question 💕

Which of your ocs would interact with mine, (you don’t have to do them all) and what would their relationships be like? :D

CAMMMMMM ILYSM

Hmmm thankies for askin' :D This one got my brain juices flowin' lol (Sorry it took kinda long to answer bestie- Also I was thinking of making doodles but laziness won 😔)

Zhao:

So first off, she would definitely get along with Jun, that's a given. Zhao is a godmomma and Jun is a momma! They bond over their son <3 I also feel like, you know, something funny is that Zhao is like hundreds of years older than Jun, right? Though, mentally speaking Zhao is in her late twenties maaybeeee early thirties?

Correct me if I'm wrong by all means but I'm pretty sure Jun is older than that so I feel like she would still scold Zhao like she would be scolding a younger sister- Like:

"Oh, don't be so sassy young lady! >:["

"Jun, what-"

"You heard me! You put Wukong to shame with all that attitude-"

Also since Zhao was also on the jttw she would still see Chenguang in Jun sometimes </3

As for another lady she'd get along with? Probably Zhēnzhu, I 'dunno. They just kinda give off those calm vibes and I'm like "Yeah, they'd get along!" Also I feel like Zhēnzhu wouldn't call her "Zhao". She'd either call her "Zhaoyan" or "Yan-Yan" (I love having 50 different nicknames for my characters leave me alone-)

Also childhood friends Ling and Zhao anybody? They're both Celestial girlies- Also I low-key really ship Ling with Wukong even though they're not 1000% confirmed 👉👈 And we all know Zhao kinda really dislikes Wukong LOL- He's like that annoying coworker-

I imagine Ling being like

"Zhao... Not going to lie.. Wukong is kind of.. 👀"

Zhao:

"Oh shut up you had a crush on a stinky lion man-"

"True but at least Azure didn't pee on the Buddha's goddamn finger, LING-"

"...Touché-"

Quanshui:

I have no doubt in my mind that she would adore Meihua. She would probably nickname her "Mei-Mei" (I already told you I love nicknames leave me alone-), and I'm turn Meihua would nick name her "Shu-Shu". You can find them at the most UNGODLY hours going on and on about flowers and bugs.

Also, in my mind Quanshui would look up to Lychee. Mostly because she respects her a lot. And when I mean "look up to" I mean, Lychee is that one cool teacher who you like being around because they're so cool.

Also, just a brainrot though but Quanshui and Ehuang? I 'dunno XD Ehuang is just so fiery and I'm a sucker for the ":D and >:|" friendship dynamic. I honestly see them as kinda Polites and Odysseus in EPIC. Like they're jaded but such an older sibling and softie to this one precious cinnamon roll 🥹

Also her and Bao have an auntie-niece relationship me thinks

I don't know a lot about Chyou, but judging by the vibesies yeah, I think they could get along :D

Yueliang:

No one.

No body likes him /j

For Yue I feel like also Jun, they just have that Calm Mother and Chaotic Son dynamic, you know :D (Also bestie that kissing booth doodle of them amsmdnfnkskdjdjdjmdmddm it's like free therapy for both me and Yue)

Also, this a kinda weird one, but Yue and Asterius? I feel like they'd have a sort of frenemies dynamic. Mostly because they're both space babies and I can just see them waving at each other while flying threw space- Like-

"Hey, dude!"

"Hey, idiot."

(They say passing beside Saturn-)

I also think Polaris would find him cute. Not in "Aww what a cutie" sense but more in an "Awh who is this funny, loud space boy?" sense XD

And we all know Ling and Yue's dynamic- Not going to lie, no matter how much Yue LOVES TO ANNOY this woman... sigh.. Chaotic Aunty and Chaotic nephew vibes-

(Ehuang, Jiang and Suyin would absolutely hate his ass though lmao 😭😭😭😭 They're definitely members of the "I fucking hate Yueliang" club, along with half of China-)

Now, for their JTTW book versions, uhh I thinks it's essentially the same. Except Zhao is an even BIGGER witch asshole in that book so she would definitely get along with Xin Yan more. They'd be ✨t h e w i n e a u n t b e s t i e s✨. Also I totally can imagine book Zhao to be a sort of material figure to Daiyu. Because they're both twisted magic ladies-

And yeah! This was honestly so fun to write :D Feel free to send in more asks like this <3 (Also I'm now checking your OCs and I realized I literally did them all 💀💀💀💀💀💀)

[scooberfried]

FINITO!!! Only took me 8 days but the Sasuke hat is DONE!😄 very happy with how it turned out!! Can’t wait to give it to my bestie! Should I record her reaction!?

Follow for more nerdy crochet stuff! Because the ideas are a FLOWIN

[concreteburialplot]

🍣🍘🍙

thank you so much for the ask 🥹 this is so sweet 🥹💕

ask game -> here

🍣 What helps you focus or get in the mood to write?

the biggest things that help me write are:

- music ! music is such a huge part of my inspo/writing process, i have playlists for all my fics [series] so listening to those help me write in those universes

- brainstorming with besties ! i always brainstorm with @measuredingold @trvshdxddy & @sinkingteethinwhitenoise they always help me get the inspo juices flowin 💕💕💕😚😚 [if y’all haven’t read their stuff 10000/10 recommend‼️go read now‼️they are my ride or die bitches😤❤️‍🔥]

- h*rny hours always help me write smut lol

🍘 Is there a fic or idea for a fic that you've abandoned?

hmmm there’s a couple one shots/ideas i’ve abandoned mostly i think bc i’m more of a series girl vs a one shot girl - but sometimes i circle back to them ! like with my latest fic, i abandoned it for months until i was like actually i wanna finish this

🍙 Is there a fic you wish had gotten more attention?

honestly yes, i wish Intertwined got more attention bc idk ? it’s very emotional but sweet / the plot is so deep/serious?? it can get very emotionally taxing while writing it sometimes so idk, but i love that storyline so much it’s very special to me so i don’t wanna give up on it

[vacantgodling]

I have a burning question for you. One we all need answers to (only if you want to feel free to let this ask rot in your askbox for eternity you have my permission.)

is donut wip alive

KAT!!! i’m happy to see ya :’)

technically speaking donut wip & the entirety of the liminal space series as a whole are still alive! (i’m not a huge fan of killing off my wips i usually just shelve them indefinitely until i circle back to the idea) — couple of reasons it’s shelved rn tho

1. paramour brainrot >>>>>>>> like seriously this wip has made me insane idk what magical combination of tropes and ideas i managed to spark like 2 years ago but i have never been this abnormal about a wip ever i think lol. so a lot of my wips have been sidelined in favor of my Child.

2. i got Super Stuck. not just regular stuck where you get writers block for a bit then move on no, i mean Super Stuck as in i was stuck on donut wip chapter 15 i think for like a year and a half before i finally said “i cannot force myself to write more in this draft i have to take a break” so i stepped back from it and the series in general to figure out what was going on with me and my brain. and i think really what it came down to is at that time it wasn’t fun for me to write? it felt very much like a chore—despite all of its horror it seemed “safer” to write. it was the thing people were expecting out of me and i felt like i was writing more to fulfill expectations than to actually write this story because i enjoy it. AND I DO ENJOY IT!! that’s the crazy thing. i really like this story and the nuance i allowed to grow into it when it literally started as me being “fuck it write a horror novel just to finish something and don’t care about the characters” but i care about them so much now etc etc.

but because i don’t do well when i feel forced it just sucked the joy out of it for me. paramour in comparison, has never felt forced. it’s always exciting and stimulating to my brain because it is a wip that is so very Me all over it. and i wanted donut wip to have that same feel but i gotta give it more time. maybe i’ll try doing the outline to writing method that i’ve been doing and working for paramour so i can avoid getting stuck again.

however, i did actually rewrite donut wip’s chapter 1 proper back in may of this year—i wanted to see if i could come back to it and make myself write it Forreal and i could! i did! and i’m really happy with it! which is exciting! and as a treat you (and anyone else who reads this full nonsense ramble or remembers donut wip from eons ago) can read that revamped first chapter—first official piece of donut wip writing i’ve ever really posted. just cuz like tbh it means a lot to me that you care about that story weh ;3; and remember—

so without any more waffling: here is chapter one, uncensored from spoilers so u get drawn into the mystery 👀

Chapter One

I groaned when my guitar string snapped again for the third time today, the discordant twang echoing in my large dorm, up to the rafters. I heard Andres laugh from Tiffany’s bed.

“Oh yeah, making faces at it will help.”

“Fuck off.” I stuck my tongue out at him. “Toss me…” I waggled my pointer finger towards a stack of boxes between Tiffany’s bed and my desk. Opened and dangerously leaning was a box of replacement guitar strings, near empty and I’d only bought them a few months ago. “… Those.” Andres didn’t move though. I groaned again.

“Andre!” I snapped my finger and my voice at him. “Strings!”

“I’m not a dog. Besides, you’ve been at this for three hours. When are you finally gonna give up for the day and spend some time with your bestie?” He put emphasis on the word, but the trill of his voice was playful. “Hmm. I have been buggin‘ on this part a bit.” I pretended to think, tapping my thumb against my cheek. He seemed hopeful. I caved and laughed aloud. “Later!” I giggled at his groan. “I wanna make sure this melody’s flowin’ right before I break. Then we can play Spyro or whatever else ya wanna do.” Seeing as he couldn’t be bothered to give me my strings, I got up myself and toed my way through the mess that was steadily building up on the floor between the beds. I snatched up the box before Andres could knock it over with his outstretched foot.

“Oh, you watch it mister.”

“Sooooory.” He dragged out, but his grin told me he wasn’t sorry. I flipped him off, then flopped back down on my bed, quickly setting to work on restringing. More of them had begun snapping lately as I composed, but I chalked it up to stress. Finals wore me down this semester, more than they had in our first year, but it was bittersweet that they were over now. This year went by so fast, it’s like I blinked and it was December again. Beside me on the bed my bright yellow phone buzzed.

“Who’s that?” Andres asked. I flipped it open to look at the message.

from: vivi

Are you sure you want to stay for winter break?

from: vivi

Dad wanted me to ask again.

I tossed my phone back on the bed.

“Just my sister!” I said cheerfully. “Doing dad’s errands again. I told him I didn’t want to deal with him and Miss Borsche.” I wrinkled my nose. “He’s been buggin’ her to get me to come with them since I told him no.”

“Come with them… where?”

“Oh usually dad goes on some sorta cruise or vacation for the holidays. But, he never invites Vi. So I never go.”

“Why doesn’t he invite her?” The question was posed nonchalantly, and I looked over at Andres, who was looking down at his smartphone.

I’d venture to say that we’d become near best friends now after the past year and a half of knowing each other, yet there was still a lot we didn’t know about each other. I knew he had siblings, but not their names, and he knew about Juvia, but not anything more than that. I knew his family wasn’t rich but they worked extra to push him through school. He knew that mine was, but I had loans out the ass. We played guessing games every now and again—to get to know each other. But whenever there was some real-life line we went to cross in our blossoming friendship, he was always open and I always hesitated. It’s just how it were.

“She…” I tilted my head back and forth a bit. “It’s a bit complicated, I reckon.”

“Then take your time telling me. I’m not rushing you.” Our eyes caught, and he gave me a tiny smile that I couldn’t not return back. But things fell quiet after that, and I turned back to my strings.

Winter break was here, and the freedom that came with it curled around our slowly emptying building like the fresh blanket of snow that dusted our sleepy little college town. On the telly earlier, there were talks about a blizzard rolling in sometime between today and tomorrow. The snow for now was peaceful, and inviting. It crowned even my windowsill when I woke up this morning, and even if I wasn’t with Juvia in person, the holiday buzz still felt strong in the air.

A rap on the door drew me out of my thoughts.

”It’s open!” I called. The handle clicked then pushed open a crack, just enough for someone to poke their head in.

“Kelley.” Andres acknowledged the second I breathed out “Joaquin!” Our R.A regarded us with a lazy smile, and my eyes traced the curve of his handsome mouth. A flush of heat shivered through my body, and I darted my eyes away when they met mine.

“How are you two holding up here? Your folks coming soon?”

“Negativo.” Andres leaned back on Tiffany’s pillow, stretching one leg out into the air. I heard something pop and I made a face. “They’re back home and I don’t have enough money for a plane ticket there. So I’m staying.” Joaquin nodded easily, then he turned to me again. “Julissa?”

“Just Juls is okay!” I said quickly. I coughed. “Um, no, I’m also staying. If that’s alright?”

“No rules against it.” Joaquin flashed me a smile. “I was checking to see who’s still going to be here so I can send a final count to the director.”

“Is it just gonna be us?” Andres asked.

“No, there’s,” Joaquin paused to pop open the door a little further, and leaned against the wall. He counted on his fingers. “The three of us. Then, Daisy Kennedy, on the third floor. René Edwards, down the hall and….” He looked up at the ceiling, trying to remember. “Ah, Saul…Carson, I believe. Top floor.”

“Didn’t know you had someone named Saul on your floor.” I said, looking over to Andres. He snorted. “Me either. Aside from my roommates, I only really talk to you Juls.”

“You’re such a loner.” I teased, as though I was any better. Andres chucked Tiffany’s pillow at me.

“Hey!”

“Actually Kelley?” Andres started. I threw the pillow back and nailed him in the torso, making him choke on his next words. Joaquin’s quiet huff of a laugh distracted me for two seconds—enough for me to let my guard down. Andres jumped from Tiffany’s bed to mine and grabbed me in a headlock.

“Andre!” I shrieked, but he was merciless. His freehand dug into my side and began to tickle at my sides. It wasn’t long before I was howling with laughter, trying to desperately shove him off me. Amused, Joaquin waited patiently with his arms folded loosely over his chest.

Andres finally relented and let me go and I kicked his shin for good measure. “God, I can’t breathe.” I wheezed. Andres laughed jovially, then turned back to Joaquin. “I was going to ask if we had to stay in our dorms while we were here?”

“Well,” He looked between Andres and I, raising an eyebrow. “I don’t think you need my permission, you’re both adults.” I felt heat swarm my dark cheeks and next to me Andres sputtered. “It’s nothing like that!” He snapped. “I just mean, I got a leak in my room and Juls offered to let me crash here. I just don’t know if the break protocol is different than during the school year.”

“A leak?” Joaquin frowned, reaching for his phone. It was similar to Andres’s, clear and sleek. He tapped a few buttons. “From the roof?”

“Yeah. I woke up this morning to snow dripping down my face.” Andres shrugged. “I don’t know how long the leak has been there, it’s been pretty dry this year. But I don’t want to deal with it, it’s literally right above my bed.”

“Like I said, you don’t really need my permission to stay wherever you’d like. But thanks for telling me, I just scheduled a maintenance request.” Joaquin tucked his phone back into his tight jeans. “Should be a few days but it should be fixed.”

“If it wasn’t snowing, I’d get up there and do it myself.” I hit Andres with my hand lightly. “That’s dangerous.”

“Wouldn’t want you falling off.” Joaquin hummed. “Now that I would be held responsible for.”

“Are you staying too, Joaquin?” I asked. Andres elbowed me. “He just said that. Earth to Juls, get your mind out of the gutter.”

“It wasn’t there in the— Oh, I hate you!” Andres and I began squabbling again and from the door Joaquin laughed. “I’ll leave you all to it!”

“Thanks for coming by!” I called after him as he moved from the doorway. Before I turned fully back to Andres, from the corner of my eye, I saw… something follow after Joaquin. I couldn’t get a good enough look at it, but what I did see looked like a cream colored tail.

[lovepotionnumber5]

hi im curious as the writer what’s ur favorite part of moments in the woulds (which I love btw!!)

okay well Love this ask as a way to gas myself up. swerve 😎. ur so real for this bestie. pucker up I’m going to kiss u

methinks perhaps the scene where they talk abt poetry—I was trying to do a lot with that moment, mostly showing that they each hold space for each other in a way they don’t necessarily for others. they learn about each others interests and truly listen when they’re speaking. I know Lena’s “you’re the most fascinating person I know” line kind of comes off as a joke, but it’s also 100% real you know? they’re obsessed w each other and it’s gay. anyway, I struggled a lot to get that feeling into words, and I’m pretty proud of how it turned out.

but her convo w her dad about wishes also pops off I think. I got that GoodGood trauma moment vibe juice flowin in these veins babeygörl

[dankusner]

Dasha - Austin (Official Music Video)

Dasha says her viral hit ‘Austin’ is actually about Nashville at ACL Fest

Country singer-songwriter Dasha scored a viral hit this year with the loser ex-boyfriend takedown 'Austin,' which casts our fine city as the couch-surfing deadbeat capital of the world. 

For many ladies who have dated musicians in Austin, this is, well, relatable. 

But Dasha told the Statesman backstage at Austin City Limits Music Festival that the song actually 'has nothing to do with Austin at all.'

The crappy ex in question was actually from Nashville, 'but Nashville has really (expletive) rhymes, therefore it’s called ‘Austin’ and that’s the truth,' she said.

'I love Austin so much, obviously. The energy of this place, the people, the nightlife, the dancing culture is unmatched,' she said backstage. She repeated that praise to the sizable crowd who braved the blazing sun to catch her afternoon set.

The backstabbing bestie kiss-off 'Ain’t No Friend of Mine' was a high point, but 'Austin,' — 'the song that changed my life,' she said — was a real ACL Fest moment for the books.

As Dasha stomped the stage in what will surely be some of the best statement boots of the weekend, nearly a dozen muscle-bound dancers appeared behind her to recreate her viral TikTok dance. If that wasn’t enough shade for the wayward cowboy whose truck broke down before he made it to the city limits sign, halfway through the set, the brawny backers ripped off their tank tops, Chippendale-style. The ladies in the crowd screamed wildly. And somewhere across the country in Nashville (we like to think) an unmotivated guitar-slinger on a dirty futon curled up in shame.

We had a plan, move out of this town, baby

West to the sand, it's all we talked about lately

I'd pack the car, bring your guitar and Jane for smokin'

First thing at dawn, you'd cue the songs and we'd get goin'

But you weren't home, waited on the porch for ya

Sat there alone, all throughout the morn 'til I

Got a hunch down in the gut and snuck around the back

Empty cans, and I'll be damned, your shit was never packed

Did your boots stop workin'?

Did your truck break down? (Truck break down)

Did you burn through money?

Did your ex find out? (Ex find out)

Where there's a will, then there's a way

And I'm damn sure you lost it

Didn't even say goodbye

Just wish I knew what caused it

Was the whiskey flowin'?

Were you in a fight? (In a fight)

Did the nerves come get you?

What's your alibi? (Alibi)

I made my way back to LA

And that's where you'll be forgotten

In 40 years you'll still be here

Drunk, washed up in Austin

A hell of a bluff, you had me believin'

How many months did you plan on leavin'?

What happened? Bad habits? Did you go back? Go batshit?

I loved you, how tragic, oh-oh

Did your boots stop workin'?

Did your truck break down? (Truck break down)

Did you burn through money?

Did your ex find out? (Ex find out)

Where there's a will, then there's a way

And I'm damn sure you lost it

Didn't even say goodbye

Just wish I knew what caused it

Was the whiskey flowin'?

Were you in a fight? (In a fight)

Did the nerves come get you?

What's your alibi? (Alibi)

I made my way back to LA

And that's where you'll be forgotten

In 40 years you'll still be here

Drunk, washed up in Austin

Did your truck break down?

Did your ex find out?

[starry-hughes]

have fun bestie! i just took the best everything shower ever and now i’m abt to cozy up in my bed but while i was in the shower my brain was flowin and i have so many kent and caroline thoughts

-😶‍🌫️

we had fun!! my best friend and i saw each other about two months ago so we only had to really catch up on a short amount of time and we talk daily :)

i’m excited for all your thoughts!

[nikkiitalks]

My boy is in bed, wine is flowin, the night was amazing! Vibes are HIGH besties! 

[detritus-rotwell]

My tendon body has felt tight for weeks

Stretches don't seem to help but that's said without routine

Hard to sleep before 11

Hard to wake before 7 honestly

Been a long busy stretch. Could use another day

But lovin' has been flowin flowin flowin

And that is really exciting and nice and cute and filling.

But havnt had my intention time with my besties in a while.

Big run today though and honestly felt so one with the woods. In a runners high way that I've never experienced. Trees felt like I was seeing them for the first time. Cottonwood seeds felt euphoric on my retinas. Beetles out wandering mating....they've maybe never seen a road before. Their ignorance is my bliss. Their innosence is my bliss. I live for the creaturely beings that are blissfully ignorant of the destruction we've wrought on this planet. I need to find a head space that is similar to that of this run but more greivey. I want to grieve that massive impacts human life has. The fawn. the porcupine. All the sweet sweet innocent beings whos lives are devistatedly ended by the road. The pavement pain on their feetsies.

[due4amiracle]

Day 405

Listo:

Laundry/cleaning, Reading, Dailies, #TTRPGThings, Watching.

Laundry/cleaning - Picked up some trash, good enough. ✔

Reading things - - No holds no holds NO HOLDS!. 121 for the year, 33 for the month! - How to Claim an Undead Soul (The Beginner's Guide to Necromancy #2) by Hailey Edwards 100%! 3🌟Ye that’s good shit! - How to Break an Undead Heart (The Beginner's Guide to Necromancy #3) by Hailey Edwards 100%! 3🌟Choo Choo Bitch! - How to Dance an Undead Waltz (The Beginner's Guide to Necromancy #4) by Hailey Edwards 100%! 3🌟Choo Choo Bitch! - How to Live an Undead Lie (The Beginner's Guide to Necromancy #5) by Hailey Edwards 1%! Gasp we ever-so-slightly shorter title now! Make no apologies for surviving! - Manhwa: Survive as the Hero’s Wife 2 chapters of this read Nope🚫! UwU♡ ✔✔✔✔✔🚫

Dailies - - Waifu Did mah dailies! Also, level ?/50 BP now~! AND! Tree lvl 28/50! Also! 24/39 max friendship namecards acquired! New MONTH! new weeklies! Chasm gem thingy is level 7/10! ♡ω♡✔ - Cozy Grove - Doot doot continuing to scout along! Scout rank 17/17! 17/21 besties! More stuff more things! ♡ω♡ ✔

Shells - 94/254 - 37% Fish - 93/180 - 51.7% Bugs - 100/199 - 50.3% Flowers - 258/372 - 69.4% Cooking - 64/71 - 90.1% Raw Ingredients - 38/54 - 70.4% Materials - 51/63 - 81% Recipes - 370/3619 - 10.22% ♡ω♡✔

- Pokémon Legends: Arceus - Star 8/10 get! 174 caught, 104 max level research pages~. |Alpha||Catch||MaxR/Total - Area |   49  ||   72  ||   70/85 - ObsiField |   47  ||   66  ||   64/75 - CrimMire |   52  ||   79  ||   78/96 - CobCoast |   49  ||   77  ||   75/90 - CoroHigh |   35  ||   71  ||   68/91 - AlabIce ♡ω♡ 🚫

- Coromon - ♡ω♡ 🚫

- Ooblets - 42/131 little frands, because why not track something. ♡ω♡ 🚫

- SWToR - Up to 1d0h43m played time. Started on the next planet, let’s GO! ♡ω♡✔ UwU♡ ✔✔🚫🚫🚫✔

#TTRPGThings - ...Left the Main Server. Shit was just... It went supremely severely downhill with the whole war thing. Ye i know we’re monsters and all but... damn if that shit didn’t get toxic. So! On to the backup server, time to roll some new babies! Heck yes. Feels so much better.✔

Watching things - - Think i narrowed it down to SAO Alicization. TBF i ain’t gonna start shit until steroids are done, so that could totally change. - Misfits and Magic episode 2!

Other things - Daily Diarrhea Diary - Mmm no. Nope today was a ‘chocolate whipped cream’ day. That’s all i got. It wasn’t good. Migraines have been the thing for the last two days so i’ve not been feelin’ great. Other than that? You know how it is. Keep on strollin’. Keep rollin’. Flowin’. Going. As best as we can. Just in time for Pride month, came to some very startling, and welcome, realizations about my sexuality and romantic identity. Placiosexual and Nebularomantic. Placiosexual: a micro-label on the asexual spectrum defined as wanting to do sexual things with/to someone else, but okay if the actions are not reciprocated (deals with action, not attraction) Nebularomantic: a romantic orientation on the aromantic spectrum. Much like platoniromantic, those who are nebularomantic are unable to distinguish the difference between romantic and platonic attraction. But in the case of nebularomantic people, that is due to one's status as neurodivergent

For the longest time i defined myself as Pansexual, because i'm so open to everyone, i form such quick and easy, deep bonds, i fell in love so easily! i love everyone. But eventually i realized there was a difference between Sexuality and Romantic Identity. And... Oh. Ok. Well, i'm not huge on the Actual Sex thing, i  mean, it's aight i guess, but, whatevs. Maybe i'm Asexual? Greysexual. Ok maybe that fits. But then i was digging around some more, over the last few months, because it's been kinda niggling at me, bothering me a bit. Because it wasn't quite right. Didn't quite fit perfectly.

And today, i came across Placiosexuality. Wanting to be the performer, but not really caring if it's reciprocated. It stabbed me in the soul and it felt so right and perfect. Following it up i found Nebularomantic - and i felt so at home. It all boils down to being under, essentially, the Aroace umbrella - and that’s fine. It feels good. It feels right.

i’m in this TPE 24/7 BDSM relationship with Sir, i adore worshiping Him in a sexual way, and He reciprocates when i express an interest - but it’s rare. i don’t orgasm easily, and it very rarely happens - and i very rarely feel the desire. It could be the copious amounts of medications i’m on (many of which do limit libido) or it could just be how i’m wired - but this is who i am.

It feels good.

Food: A Liquid: A Pain: C Brain: C

Tomorrow: Laundry/cleaning, Reading, Dailies, #TTRPGThings, Watching.

Ever Onwards and Upwards!

[vacantgodling]

I groaned when my guitar string snapped again for the third time today. The discordant twang echoed in my large dorm, up to the rafters. I heard Andres laugh from Tiffany’s bed.

“Oh yeah, making faces at it will help.”

“Fuck off.” I stuck my tongue out at him. “Toss me…” I waggled my pointer finger towards a stack of boxes between Tiffany’s bed and my desk. Opened and dangerously leaning was a box of replacement guitar strings, near empty and I’d only bought them a few months ago. “… Those.” Andres didn’t move though. I groaned again.

“Andre!” I snapped my finger and my voice at him. “Strings!”

“I’m not a dog. Besides, you’ve been at this for three hours. When are you finally gonna give up for the day and spend some time with your bestie?” He put emphasis on the word, but the trill of his voice was playful. “Hmm. I have been buggin‘ on this part a bit.” I pretended to think, tapping my thumb against my cheek. He seemed hopeful. I caved and laughed aloud. “Later!” I giggled at his groan. “I wanna make sure this melody’s flowin’ right before I break. Then we can play Spyro or whatever else ya wanna do.”

so bc daddy lesson’s by beyoncé is stuck in my head does this automatically mean juls is getting a country twang? the hell is happening here