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In nature, the female is so often larger than the male.
I think we need to reflect this more when we create fantasy creatures.
Give me a new kind of elves where the afab are usually taller/bigger than the amab.
Give me a giant who keeps talking to mc (not a giant and has met no other giants) about how much he loves his wife. Then later the wife is revealed and she’s like 1.3-1.5 times the size of him.
But it doesn’t even have to be significantly taller, I just think that would be funny in the case of the giants bc the mc has never seen someone as big as giant 1, and then giant 2 is even larger. This would also work the opposite way with like…dwarves
I’m also down for some same size representations. Like give me some kind of fairy creature where males and females have the same size on average and same standard deviation.
#does this make sense#idk maybe I’ve just had it up to here with the stereotypical wattpad size difference#also the species I chose for this are mostly random#books#reading#fantasy#writing#men can be small!#women can be large!#they are still worthy of love#reflect that in fiction#NORMALIZE that in fiction#fantasy writing#fantasy world#fantasy worldbuilding#worldbuilding
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I know we like writing fics where Jason is all "I'm not the kid you lost" and "he died and I'm all the worst parts of him that came back" and whatever. but lately I've been thinking about a Jason that's angry bc everyone thinks he came back wrong, because to him, he's the same as he's always been. sure, he's more upset and angry and traumatized, but he's still Jason.
I've been thinking about a Jason that spent most of the time since his death underground and then catatonic. to him, hardly any time has passed at all. to his family, three years have gone by. and Jason knows he looks different than he did, and he knows he's sharper around the edges, now, but he's still Jason. he's the same kid that died and now he's back and why doesn't anyone see that?
they're the ones that changed, not him
#anyway#I just think it'd be neat#bc I love a good 'Jason has no self worth and everyone needs to convince him he's worthy still'#but the angst of trying to convince you're family you're still in there#under layers of trauma and pain and anger#that you're still YOU despite it all#and I want him to recon w the fact that Dick and Bruce and Alfred are different now#that part of that is his fault (for dying)#that the rest is their fault (for coping so poorly)#(batman used to smile is the thing)#jason todd#batman#batfam#bruce wayne#dick grayson
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to defeat monsters: become the greater monster | m.a.w
(requested by @highwarlockkareena for my 1 follower celebration)
#interview with the vampire#iwtvedit#dailyflicks#iwtvsource#tvedit#usergif#userkareena#userrenee#iwtv spoilers#claudia#louis de pointe du lac#lestat de lioncourt#*#it only took me 5 months to get to my 1 yes ONE follower celebration#kareena does not follow me tho im not worthy but she asked for blending anyway and im finally delivering!#i almost used a scene from when she joins the coven and then of santiago dying instead of gifs 2 and 4#but the tragedy that is claudia's life starts and ends with these two#and they loved her! but they still hurt her#im going to stop myself from writing an essay in the tags#kareena i hope you're happy i did blending for you
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soap and ghost, after months of flirting, of having each other’s backs and saving each other’s lives, of knowing the other better than they know themselves, finally getting together
ghost letting himself free fall onto the bed, soap following, always following his lead. they barely pull apart enough to get their shirts over their heads, hands running over muscles and scars and holding close
soap kisses every new scar that’s revealed to him, from the thick keloid divot over his ribs from some kind of puncture to the innumerable slashes and stitch wounds holding his torso together until he’s mouthing over his collarbones; the tips of his fingers lightly caressing the edges of his mask
ghost who’s been so quiet, so overwhelmed by soap’s touch that all he can do is sink into him, panting gasping breaths, finally pushes out, “don’t ask me. please…”
soap freezes, mouth hovering over his skin. “ghost…?”
ghost’s face is tilted away, eyes held so tightly shut they tremor while the rest of his body stays lax beneath his. desperate. resigned. “please don’t ask me, johnny.”
soap lets his hand fall from the mask, coming to run soothing circles over his clothed hip. “why?”
“because i’ll say yes,” he confesses and it’s great and terrible; a warning and a relinquishment laid at soap’s feet. “i’ll always say yes to you.”
for a long moment, there’s nothing but their shared breaths, nothing but their hearts beating for the other. until soap finally leans down to press a kiss to the corner of his hidden mouth; his lips meeting faint raised scar tissue he might never see
“i’ll never ask.”
ghost’s eyes drift open and they catch on soap’s; on a sea of promise and fierce protection
“i swear… i’ll never ask, ghost.”
#ghost who would take off his mask for johnny in a heartbeat and soap who would never let him take it off for anything but himself my belove#they proceed to have the softest most tender sex youve ever seen#im talking missionary chest to chest arms and legs wrapped so tightly all they can is rock#just god the love and the trust and the understanding#ghost knows hes not ready knows he would be violently uncomfortable the entire time#but would still put himself through it if thats what johnny wanted#and soap who would never ask him to sacrifice his comfort for something as insignificant as his own wants#like he would ever see that as a worthy reason#like he could ever find happiness in it knowing ghost was uncomfortable#he’ll spend the rest of his life showing ghost he doesnt need to compromise his comfort or his coping mechanisms for him#coming out of my cage and ive been soing just fine.txt#john soap mactavish#soap cod#simon ghost riley#ghost cod#soapghost#ghostsoap#ghoap#ghost x soap#we’re a team. ghost team#save post
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[ID: Two page comic in color of Vash and Wolfwood from Trigun Maximum. The first page has a black background and the upper half, behind the panels, is splattered with stylized red blood, scattered bullets, and lifeless hands. In the first panel, it focuses on Vash's boots, showing him stepping through the panel and into the bloody scene. The second panel shows his bloody footprints and the third panel shows his face, his down-turned eyes looking downwards. It's a neutral, vague expression with confliction. At the bottom of the page, the back of Wolfwood's head and shoulder is seen, blood dirtying the white color of his shirt and side of his face. Vash's hand reaches out to him from the right side of the page.
The second page shows the entire scene in full, half the page in light and the other in solid black. At the center, Vash leans down onto his knees as he wraps his arms around Wolfwood's shoulders into a hug. Wolfwood's back is turned away from the viewer, his left arm holds onto his bloodied punisher and his right hand sits on his lap. Light casts from the left side of the page, showing the bloodied surrounding, but the held up punisher casts a shadow on the both of them, shielding them from the light. END ID]
#vashwood#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun#trigun maximum#tw blood#<-- should i add that to the original post... if it's effective?#anyway this was a direct sequel to the previous post... i had a lot of thoughts when i drew it but my brain is failing me rn#something something about being granted that bit of mundanity and then running into some situation that whiplashes u back into the identity#u were built and trained to be. that at the end of the day its not possible to just be without dirtying your hands again#he's used to it but ww will forever be someone too kind too tender hearted to really be eased out of the cold lifestyle he's forced to live#and i personally dont think trimax vash could look at wolfwood with disdain or disappointment when catching him after the fact#he knows where wolfwood's heart lies he's seen the way wolfwood killed to protect and he thanked him for it too. i think him understanding#ww deeper in that way would just make his heart wretch so all he can offer is a comfort and arms to return to.#to reassure that he can still be loved even with the blood on his hands#i also think i drew an illustration when i first got into trigun depicting this same ish message....#i'm just very particular about this Subject. i need ww to be loved i need him to be reassured even if he'll still refuse to believe he's#worthy of it like AUGHHH. ok.#ruporas art
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Thinking about a recovering pet whumpee who reacts negatively to being submerged in water, crouched in a tub with caretaker beside them. The water is nay three inches deep, but Whumpee perches in a way so only their tip toes are submerged, still finding the sensation of lukewarm water on bare skin so painful. Caretaker’s weathered hands dip into the water, cradling a fistful, lifting it and letting it carefully drip down Whumpee’s rigid back. Maybe they’re humming a relaxing tune, their other hand holding Whumpee’s. Whumpee’s eyes screw tight and they stifle their gasps of discomfort.
The caretaker runs a sponge over their shoulders, careful not to nick their neck or chin, a sheen of pale bubbles over glassy skin, so carefully, so slowly. The Whumpee still can’t bare to open their eyes, but their jaw unsets, for just a moment, as calloused palms flit over scarred skin.
#whump#whump prompt#whump drabble#whump writing#past pet whump#pet whump#recovery whump#hurt/comfort#imagine the whumpee was disfigured by their past ‘owner’ and is still grappling with needing support with such menial tasks#but the caretaker doesn’t mind helping them out one bit.#Whumpee doesn’t need to be independent to be worthy of love
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out w these tall clowns 🌲🌸
#who up yume-ing their ocs w characters (me)#yumeship#matsukawa issei#haikyuu oc#hanamaki takahiro#haikyuu#mblue art#self insert#ocsona#or animesona either way its still an oc who may look similar to my sona 🧍#seijohbros au#this thing took too long (can you tell. this was for halloween. it is now 11/5 and i am queueing this)#and i keep taking it out of queue to drafts and putting it back bc im overthinking things and i rlly just need to drop it and move on</3#i love my blorbos sm they look ok in here actually but the process was shinji chair meme worthy i was suffering </3#context is halloween party das it (left is dressed up as that stabby ghostface guy. knife prop and mask not shown)--#--(he may have joked abt stabbing once. maybe a few times)--#--(right is an angel. kinda low effort/simple fit. ironic bc none of the ppl in the friend group are angels /hj)#in the group; ocsona is the closest to these two goofy mfs (not surprising i am in the utmv fandom. lots of goofy skeletons in there)--#--but the one they trust the most is the guy on the left !#((used the yumeship term bc my ocsona (specifically)'s main thing w them is platonic (i love silly shenanigans what can i say)--))#((--even if i sometimes want to rom smooch these dorks))#yearning about f/os (rom or plat) is so nice n fun you guys should do it n have fun n get some more whimsy in ur life 10/10 i recommend
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thinking about my favorite mortal enemies regulus and remus
#regremus friendship you will never be famous to me#was talking to kara the other day about unrequited blackcest#and even if sirius is fully dating remus. regulus just doesnt at all acknowledge him.#because regulus doesnt respect remus in any way what so ever#like he wouldnt even be able to comprehend that they’re in a relationship#<- too busy and convinced of the prongsfoot of it all#because james is a potter and the one who took sirius in#remus is a halfblood nobody that he thinks sirius is taking pity on#remus isnt worthy of sirius and regulus is his delusions thinks his brother would still agree with that#like genuinely. remus is just Some Guy to regulus#<- remus is not even on regs radar but he’s like the love of sirius’ life#<- INTERESTING TO ME !!!!!!!#and in return. remus would never EVER like regulus#and were the black brothers ever to try and reconcile their relationship remus would still be soooo distrusting of him#remus is team sirius forever and ever and ever. against his own will sometimes (<- re: the prank)#and remus will simply never trust regulus in sirius’ life#<- and i think sirius’ finds a lot of comfort in that#remus will be polite and cordial enough for sirius’ sake#but he’ll always keep his guard up. Always Prepared#genuinely the two people i consider to have the most hostile relationship in the marauders fandom#<- even worse than jarty. because reg and remus just genuinely don’t respect the others role in sirius’ life
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"There is no one closer—" Oh, don't lie to me, Father.
#it's an interesting parallel because rodrigo really made them believe that they're the light of his life#but deep down both of them know it's not true because he still prioritizes his own ambitions over them#juan; he's insecure about rodrigo's love and wants to prove himself worthy since rodrigo always threatens him with cesare's hypercompetence#lucrezia; she's still being forced to marry people she doesn't want to for his political bs#in the finale; rodrigo and cesare plotted to kill alfonso while leaving her in the dark...not caring about her feelings#they all know their father uses them more than he loves them or care for their concerns#lucrezia borgia#juan borgia#the borgias#perioddramaedit#tvedit#cinemapix#tvarchive#holliday grainger#david oakes#dailytvfilmgifs#davinciae#theborgiasedit#filmgifs#by jen
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masters and their disciples
#i do think cloud retainer wasn't ready to take care of small child#and she was harsh and inconsistent with ganyu at first...#because child's needs are far from what cloud retainer expects from herself...#ganyu has this inferiority complex because of it. because cloud retainer could prioritize her status over ganyu's comfort i guess#i love cloud retainer for being who she is but i can see that ganyu might have hard time to serapate from possible master's expectations#and prove herself that she is worthy of something...and can be as respected as her master is#so.. i believe... that one step for ganyu's self-rehabilitation can be recognition of all her skills by someone younger..#someone who want to learn from it... and I believe that yaoyao can be good apprentice#she is already madame ping's pupil but more teachers more experience the better isnt it#also can we have more gardening related stuff with ganyu.... i still think about her teapot lines...#genshin impact#streetward rambler#madame ping#guizhong#cloud retainer#xianyun#ganyu#yaoyao#fat art#fat ganyu#my art
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(cw non-sexual kink, cis male tiddy sucking)
nikolai takes one look at ghost - at the stiffness he holds himself with, arms held rigidly at his sides as he glares ahead, each breath carefully measured to make himself unnoticed - and knows it’s been too long since he’s checked on his boy
all it takes is a single look, catching his bruised and tired eyes, and ghost all but slumps. nikolai turns, heading towards the 141’s private rec room and he doesn’t need to hear the near-silent footsteps to know ghost’s following. he pulls him down onto the couch, bringing him into the circle of his arms even as he weakly tries to pull away
“don’t need it, nik; don’t have time…” ghost argues but it’s hollow at best
“hush, sweet one,” he soothes his halfhearted protests and thumbs his mask up above his lips. “always so nervous; so lost...”
he tugs his shirt up, showing off his belly and the heavy swell of his hairy pecs; nipples already pebbled. he cups the back of ghost’s head, his thumb brushing over his exposed jaw and ghost is helpless to follow as he gently leads him to latch onto his breast
“i have you,” he promises
no matter how big he is, in presence or in stature, nikolai is bigger; encompassing his whole body in warmth and safety, the familiar scent of cologne and motor oil filling his senses just as the heat of his tit fills his mouth
ghost’s eyes roll back and he nuzzles deeper into his chest, sinking into him and lets his mind empty as he suckles
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soap didn’t mean to. he didn’t mean to walk in on something not meant for his eyes. he just wanted to check on ghost; he’s been so distant lately, different from his usual bad days and he doesn’t know how to help him but that doesn’t mean he isn’t going to try
but he didn’t mean for this; for guilt and a heated, confused want to chase through him as he enters the rec room and realises nikolai got to ghost first
realises they’re not just necking on the couch; that ghost’s lips are pressed tight to nikolai’s furred breast and not moving away, a gentle hollow thinning his exposed cheeks as he sucks, his throat softly bobbing as he swallows
nikolai’s cupping the back of his head, fingers drifting through the blonde hair at the nape of his neck and he looks so fond; like there’s nowhere he’d rather be than on their broken in couch with ghost curled around his body, sucking what must be a deep ache into his tit.
then nikolai looks up at him, frozen in the doorway and soap-
soap runs
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nikolai gives soap a few days before he tries to talk about it; gives him a chance to come to terms with what he's seen. it's almost adorable; how deep soap’s flush grows when he sees him, how he stumbles over his words and can’t quite make eye contact
but it also tugs at him that he feels the need to shrink, to brace himself from whatever punishment he thinks is headed his way; shoulders hunching in, arms wrapped almost defensively around his body before finding whatever excuse he can to run from him
run from himself
he wishes he could wait for soap to come to him but he knows lost boys and their fear of coming in from the cold
nikolai keeps himself gentle as he uses his bulk to corner soap; stopping him from running but also using it to show how easily he could hide in him if he just let himself give in. if he let him take care of him the same way he takes care of ghost
"but... but it's wrong," soap whispers, fingers tangling with a gold cross at the hollow of his throat (a cross so similar to one he’d melted down all those years ago), but he speaks with such clear longing; eyes wide where he stares up at him, all but begging to be told otherwise and it almost breaks nikolai's heart
"no, lovely boy," he denies softly and soap shudders as he cups his face and backs him up against the corner; hugged by both walls and nikolai himself. "there is nothing more natural."
he caresses soap's cheek. he feels him shake under his touch, his eyes already growing dewy, and chances drifting his fingers over his bottom lip. soap's breath hitches and he looks up at him with so much fear - so much trust - and hesitantly opens his mouth to let them sink inside
nikolai doesn't press them too deep, doesn't threaten his throat, but they are thick and wide; filling his mouth and comfortably weighing down his tongue
with a small, involuntary moan, soap closes his lips around his fingers and nikolai catches him with his body as he goes limp. he coos as he starts sucking; wrapping his other arm around his head and brings him into his body, hidden and safe and small
"my good, lovely boy," he whispers and soap lets out a cracked whimper. "you are not wrong."
he isn't ready yet, much the same way ghost wasn't ready at first. but feeling soap tremble and suckle at his fingers, nikolai knows he'll soon have another boy tucked safe to his breast
#soap thinking it’s wrong not bc nikolai and ghost are men (though that’s part of it)#but bc he knows the church would see it as a bastardisation of the virgin mary#the mother feeding christ; the ultimate act of care and love#and it must be a perversion; it must be a twisted imitation of something pure#right?#it cant be something genuine; pure; bc if ghost can have it… does thst mean he can too?#soap desperate for such comfort and acceptance; things he thinks he’ll never receive#bc he knows he’ll never be worthy of such things#never devout enough; never loyal enough; never well behaved enough#shaming his family and his church along with it every time he opened his mouth#he constantly chases this elusive ‘good enough’; always forced himself to be better; stronger; /perfect/#bc then it will mean he’ll have earned it right? he’ll be given the love he’s always yearned for but always fell short of#and nikolai who was raised russian orthodox? all he can see is a burnt out reflection of himself#he recognises the same longing he used to feel before he realised he will never be enough for them#that they want him to be a man he will despise and even then he’ll still be denied the comfort he wanted#and he doesnt want that; for ghost or soap#he’ll give them everything they want and more until they understand everything they deserve#we’re a team. ghost team#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#nikolaighost#nikghost#nikolai x ghost#niksoap#nikolaisoap#nikolai x soap#cod nikolai#simon ghost riley#ghost cod#john soap mactavish#soap cod
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@disastertourwaterdeepedition
Sorry for the weird fucking post but like tumblr straight up ate your ask?? I had to search and screenshot from my email??
Its like super fine I love big rants and big feelings (especially about the blorbo of the month).
Whoa buddy if you wanna talk about a rant. This got so long I'm putting it under a read more.
I'm not sure any of this is above board conscious thought process. When he looks to Orym, when he thinks about how he feels about Orym, I think Dorian, king of compartmentalizing, gets a rush of all three of the things in the post. He gets a little too lost in thought looking at the way Orym's hair now tries to curl against his ear or how well tailored the armor is to his body, he first gets hit with the Will guilt. Then he thinks about "ohmygodtheresawaron" and he'd shovel all of that down. Because its not time to think about Orym and him. But he knows by the way Orym watches him "sleep". He knows by the way Orym refused to be princess carried in Aeror. (Seriously dude Dorian princess carries everyone. It would have been less suspicious if you let it happen). He knows because Orym didn't see his husband when they were in Zephrah. But when he dares himself to actually think about a possible future together, he uses the big three to shove it down. And no, he has no clue that Orym thinks he doesn't return his feelings. (Wow you're right. Pronouns are hard)
Lol to finally answer your question: I'm not sure! Because the thing is! Orym has gone down twice in a battle with Dorian there! And honestly if Orym being on death's door doesn't make either of them confess, i'm not sure what will! (thats a lie I do have an idea). But like Orym went to the moon and back and almost died on the moon and all the count communicate to Dorian was "I miss you"!! Orym nearly died twice in one battle and he didn't think to give Dorian a sloppy, "If I die again I want to have kissed you once" kiss before going in for another round of getting hacked on. Dorian watched him go down and had to bring him back from death's door (one failed save scared the shit out of me) and he didn't think to give Orym a "We need you, I need you" kiss.
My unfortunate thought process, which I can't decide if I want it to come true or not, is that Dorian has to get hurt. Like when I say hurt I fucking mean it. Taken down in a round or two, two failed death saves, hurt. Because then Orym will have to face losing Dorian again. Face losing the man he loves, again. He pours a healing potion into Dorian's mouth because warlocks don't have a single healing spell. (Just checked). Orym feels so helpless in saving Dorian, because a healing potion isn't nearly enough to keep him up. He starts to cry over Dorian's (now conscious) body. He whispers between sobs "Not again, not again. Dorian you can't leave me. I love you, please, I never got to tell you, please stay alive." and Dorian, having heard all of that, reaches up to cup Orym's cheek and says. "Alright, just for you though."
Or something like that.
As much as I would love for them to be adults and just talk to each other. I know thats not going to happen. (Please, Robbie, Liam, prove me wrong.) So I think major tragedy will be the reason they confess to each other. Because they're idiots in love with a lot of weight on their shoulders.
#sleep drunk stage door#orym of the air ashari#dorian storm#dorym#written before watching 106#these two are going to be the death of me#i was thinking about DORIAN DYING all the way home from work#almost cried a few times#but like the thing is with these two idiots is that theyre both hell insecure#maybe not with each other in a way that makes them avoid each other. but orym defo does not think he deserves dorian#in whatever way you want to take that the answer is yes for all of it.#and dorian is insecure in the way that i dont know if he expects orym to get over will for him#he doesnt doubt that orym loves him. and he'd never blame him for still loving will. but dorian doesnt think hes worthy enough.#or that hes worth the effort of moving on#does any of this make sense? I was up too early and worked hard today#so sorry if this is a rambling mess.#i feel like i didn't answer your question i filled out a writing prompt.#my b#i like hearing myself talk if you couldnt tell#certified yapper
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Please help me. My militant, bootlicking sister did a report on Ob*sity in this country and she is showing obvious fatphobia, and I told her about the origins of the BMI system, and she said "I don't support Eugenics, I just want people to have healthier bodies and improved lifestyles!!!"
That is LITERALLY the definition of eugenics.
How can I convince her that she did a school project on why she hates fat people?
The very first post I saw on your blog is in support of a trans person who was harassed by trolls, and yet here you are sending troll messages to another oppressed group.
Despite your troll message being both fatphobic and ableist, despite fatphobia having an immense amount of intersectionality with transphobia (you know, the group you supposedly care about), you'd rather spend your miserable life doing exactly what transphobic trolls do to trans people. It's just okay when you do it because your definition of "equality" comes with asterisks.
Get a life that actually has any sort of value or meaning. Because being a pathetic, bigoted hypocrite ain't it.
-Mod Worthy
#The troll also loves generation 4 of My Little Pony.#To love a show all about how 'Friendship is magic!' literally down to the show's title#and then still choose to be a bigoted hypocrite who purposefully harasses marginalized groups?#Absolutely Pitiful.#fatphobes#concern trolls#fatphobia#Mod Worthy
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Maybe controversial opinion idk but I actually love making my y/n a really average person sometimes. Don't get me wrong I love making her a badass, super important etc etc but I think there's something really special about not making her like, anything really, and still being so worthy and deserving of love. Like she doesn't have to be an influencer, or famous or rich. I think there's a certain peace for me, that comes from realizing you don't have to be an influencer, or a Victoria secret model or a CEO, for the character to be obsessed with you. I think most of us in life have these super high expectations of ourselves especially if we grew up as overly mature or gifted kids and now we think we have to be someone real important or we've got pressure on us from society or outside sources and that we're only deserving of love once we've hit these impossible expectations but that's actually not true. Making my y/n so average is like, well most of us are actually pretty average ordinary people but I think there's a nice beauty in that, because every ordinary person is extraordinary to someone else and not being some VS model doesn't mean you aren't deserving of the love you give to others.
#like maybe you work minimum wage and you barely get timr for yourself#you still are as worthy of love as the next person#i need to learn this most of all#the people who love me love me#and me not reaching some unreachable expectation isn't going to change that
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Being in pain and anguish can make you a deeply unpleasant person when it starts to grate on you to the core of your soul how unwell you are, and it really can make interacting with others so much harder.
It is hard to be around other people when you're in pain, and the sounds around you quite literally hurt, and you feel the crushing weight of reality settling deep on your chest and throat, and it feels like the world is against you. It's hard to be "pleasant" when everything feels stacked against you.
I hope to be with all of you in a metaphorical way. It's hard to be disabled and to act "normal." It's important to recognize that we can become so entrenched in the horrors of disability and pain that we lash out because when we recognize the cause, we can start finding ways to notice what might help.
Disability can feel like you're turned into a shell of who you thought you "should" be. Give yourself the space to grieve if you need to. I know it's hard. Take it a day at a time.
#disability#since i made this with the thought of disability in mind + the ways that it affects every little part of your life#it feels so hard to be in pain and then to snap at somebody because your disability gives you a shorter fuse...#...and you KNOW that this isn't their fault and you tell them that but it's still rough...#...and it feels like you're just not worthy of being loved after that because they were innocent...#...but that impulse to self-persecute is a slow and cruel killer#i think this is something so many disabled people especially are ashamed to talk about when it applies to them#because it's uncomfortable and scary and you don't want to be or be seen as a Bad Person#but you aren't bad. you're unwell and that isn't Bad and it doesnt MAKE you bad
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If Rowan took 3 books to finally admit to himself that Aelin was his mate, 3 books of telling her she's a child and he couldn't wait to be rid of her, of sleeping beside her as sort of friends, kissing her, witnessing her near death experiences, having sex with her and was still too terrified to truly admit it to himself, then no, Az not knowing Gwyn was his mate after being taken into the Rite proves absolutely nothing no matter how much anti's try to claim otherwise.
Sarah sometimes writes the MMC as the last to know, or at least the last to admit it to themselves.
It doesn't change the outcome which is, as always,
Mates for the endgame win
#azriel shadowsinger#azriel acotar#gwyneth berdara#Gwynriel#Az is a bit obtuse in love in case that wasn't obvious at this point#If Rowan took three books then it's honestly not a big deal if Az takes just as long#It still won't change the outcome and the very clear hints that Gwyn is his mate#Az thinks he's not worthy of a mate therefore he's blind to having been given one#And it ain't Elain
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