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the woes of a god [gn/m.reader]
definitely not my comeback piece. just got inspired randomly in the middle of so many things that i have been doing. i deeply apologize ;; đââď¸. this is just⌠a really long story that builds on the premise of the last story i posted TvT.
𦹠big on genshin lore again, with a few interpretations of my own to fill in the gaps and insert the reader, creator reader but not sagau (again like the last story), focuses on post primordial one vs sovereigns, primordial one and second throne war, archon war, and post-cataclysm. features all six archons by their goetic names (the tsaritsa is conveniently not around), neuvillette, mentions of old seven and apep, this leans on a what if scenario, of reader coming down to teyvat before the archon war, reader is a little brutal but thatâs okay ;;
The sky has never looked more fake.
Your eyes squint at the light that the world you have crafted bathed in. You had seen the horrific sights that lie beyond the peaceful blue that the skies projected before you.
Though it did little to bother any other living creature that now dwelled on your magnum opus. Your gaze drifts to the new beings, molded with striking differences from one another, their characteristics bound by the land that they were born on.
The day you had awoken was a painful ordeal to go through. The wounds that lodged within your very body is terrifyingly painful. And the very world that you had created and anchored into your body was the only culprit.
For a time, your masterpiece, Teyvat, felt like a malignant tumor that only propagated within your soul, corroding every piece of your self until you are no more. How ironic was it that your most cherished creation among all the other worlds became the very thing that causes you physical harm.
You had slumbered for a long time since then, and had dutifully descended. Your sleep was not only attributed to the pain during its descent, but also to mourn the painful passing of your beloved sovereigns. Your eyes cannot endure the fate they suffered through, and to this day, the guilt tramples over whatever sense of elation that you feel, washed over with the feelings of intense shame.
Their creator was you alone. No one else.
And when an alien being came to hunt them down for a war that lasted decades, you were nowhere to be found.
You were certain that Nibelung knew your gaze was casted on them, that he understood you were stepping away as a form of test, a way to see if he, as well as your seven sovereigns could withstand such a small conundrum such as a foreign descender.
The thought sickens you physically â you could only wonder if you putting your loving faith on them to be your champions in this war was a devastating mistake of yours that they paid for with their lives and dignity. Your mind could barely comprehend the kind of desperation that Nibelung must have felt for him to dive into the deepest depths and use a knowledge not of this world that Teyvat, and to an extent â your body, until now, struggles to recover from.
A sigh escapes your lips.
It was a gnawing ache, like those celestial larvae that crawl into your body, having a grand feast on it.
The day you descended, you had called on the elements that embodied this very world, seeking answers for what had happened when you were in such a deep sleep, entirely clueless of the events, with only a body that aches from the physical wounds it sustained to guide you to the clues about Old Teyvatâs demise and the embarking of its new age.
You had learned that day, that after the devastating defeat of your dragons, it imparted a new life. And now, humans walked the very ground you had crafted for dragons to walk on initially. You have also learned that the tiny vishaps have retreated deep into Teyvat, living under the hopeless depths, making do and surviving in such a decrepit environment.
Coming in contact with them was nothing more than a world full of hurt when you came to the realization that even the vishaps are terrified of your light. It had shattered a piece of you, and have only grieved with nothing but shame and regret.
And even when you left, the despairing echoes of your cries remained beneath as the vishapsâ lullabies as well as the tears that created a pool for them to bathe in.
Your cries that soothed the vishaps became a haunting legend in a certain civilization that had collapsed and fell through the depths. Children cowered at the stories told about the harrowing echoes, and the scholars of that very civilization had recorded your voice as a mere phenomenon, a tale for the insane, a story for bedtime to frighten unruly children.
Much after the grieving that you had succumbed to, you had learned the stinging pain that pierced through your body that keeps persisting to this day was the work of these pillars â you have come to know them as its divine nails, made to heal the lands of Teyvat from the parasitic effects that the forbidden knowledge inflicted when it was used during the wars.
Quite frankly, it did little to heal your body as you feel the way it seems to lodge within your very core, destroying and corrupting pieces of your soul.
Your first journey since your awakening was nothing short of enlightening. You had learned much about the turn of events. Your dragons have suffered enough, with the few alive ones like the Dragon of Verdure incredibly spiteful of the new race that came about.
And you were not clueless about the sharp tone Apep had taken when she first talked to you after your disappearance during the war between it and the seven sovereigns. You understood the bitterness and sheer betrayal that she had felt, knowing that all this would have been prevented had you only decided to lend a hand.
You left Apepâs abode with little pity for yourself and more remorse for not being a proper artisan to your creation.
But as you watched a civilization grow among the vast sands, you also cannot help but disagree with the unsavory words that Apep had described the new life.
Yes, they were small.
But you understood that humanity is not insignificant.
Gods have always fascinated you.
You understood that to some degree, you too, are a god. You understood that way before Teyvat became a project of yours. Your previous creations that were successfully inhabited with the creatures you had given life to worshiped you, and your descent on your visits were always welcomed with celebrations of endless grandeur.
Things were no different once the sovereigns had come to realize that you were the source of their life and the very world they live in right now. And you had also been crowned as Teyvatâs primordial deity.
However, the age of humanity had given birth to two differing types. There were the normal humans â mortal, average in strength, and so easily swayed by their desires and fears alike.
And then there were the immortals. You had come to realize that immortals came in all forms. Some had originally been creatures of the myth, others were mere elemental manifestations, spirits, or humans that were lucky enough to be ordained and strong enough to defy all the odds that an average human can only do.
There were also gods who took the shape of creatures â sea monsters, newer dragons that were striking descendants of the ancient ones.
You understood then, that even immortals, much like mortals, answered to the authority that reigned supreme in your world, someone who is not you.
Glancing up at the sky, your gaze immediately drifts to that floating piece of land, meant to hold the thrones of those revered by the new worldly life.
And just as you were finally understanding the existence of gods lesser than you, the one above who has stolen your very presence of authority declared an all-out brawl across Teyvat, deeming your very masterpiece its playground for needless bloodshed and barbaric warfare.
It declared seven thrones for seven remaining gods that would triumph above all.
And nothing could prepare you for the prize of winning one.
It was an unforgettable feeling â the way your blood ran cold as it presented seven ornaments in unique shapes, each containing a very familiar power that you have cultivated and given yourself.
The prize was the authority of your defeated sovereigns.
Mockery. You thought it was mockery. You thought whatever resides up there knows you were lurking, relearning Teyvat after your forced slumber for survival, and decided to taunt your everlasting grief over your creations by using the very dignity of each dragon sovereign that you had entrusted those authorities to.
And now, it taunts you in such a needlessly cruel way, by desecrating your world once more through an all out war between the very gods they have also created.
It was a jarring era. You took part in aiding the defenseless mortals, taking whoever in the tiny nooks all over the world. You had brought several mortals in your sanctuary in times of desperation while gods have staked their claim by surviving battle after battle.
Tactics were employed by different gods, differing in styles. Some had bargained for it, some willingly gave their throne to a god they deem fit, others who are weaker opted to team up with those that can trample over others, some had forcibly taken what was rightfully theirs, and some had willingly shut themselves off, cowering away in hopes of being left alone so they may protect their people in peace.
You had learned by then that even gods⌠can succumb to their desires and fears.
It had been long since the great war among gods had concluded.
However you can still feel the bittersweet sensation that pulsed through your veins as you watched all seven take their seats, claim their divine thrones, and hold the vessels for the power stolen from your elemental dragon sovereigns.
You would remember them as they staked their claim over their regions.
Barbatos, Morax, Baal, Rukkhadevata, Egeria, Xbalanque, and previous Tsaritsa.
You recall them well enough â considering that they have managed to unearth the truth of Teyvatâs existence. They came to you, offering themselves for you to indulge at the cost of recognition.
The original seven, eager as they were to meet you, were promptly shut down with a smile on your lips.
âYou are not mine to claim, as my blood does not flow through any of yoursâ veins.â
Suffering became an easy friend of yours.
You had gone through so much already, and your body as well as Teyvat have yet to heal and recuperate from the effects of the many wars that transpired on this world.
And here comes another one.
However, this time, someone had played the role of Icarus, and had flown way too close to a certain parasite.
It dawned on you as the familiar stinging pain seeped though your very core, breaking you once more little by little, its persistence unmistaken when you first felt it when the very first war erupted in this world.
Someone had unearthed Nibelungâs discovery of the forbidden knowledge and decided to use it.
You remember it vividly â yet another huge devastation that came to Teyvat. However, the catastrophe was marginally bigger compared to the horrid Archon war. And with the discomfort of bearing through that disgustingly painful experience, you had plunged into yet another slumber.
By the time you had awoken, you realized how deeply affected each and everyone was. Many comrades have died, some were affected, and you had come to find out that even the archons had to make some incredibly difficult sacrifices that dealt equally devastating blows to their very being.
You had little to say.
However, you have much to do.
Perhaps it was your guilty conscience that pushed you into this long journey. However, you were not guilty of being asleep while the fallen nation had wreaked havoc with their circumstances. Your guilt lied within the fact that you had never gotten to console your dragon sovereigns when they were defeated by it.
Most of them were dead, others were sealed and unable to reincarnate.
And so this was your way of making it up to them, albeit⌠with the archons, those who remained, and those who are now stepping up into their new responsibilities as a member of the newly established seven.
You had first visited the cold region of Snezhnaya, paying a visit to their new Cryo Archon, who has been planning something else entirely. She had willingly entertained you, despite the slight edge and tension within her. However you understood that you were limiting her desire to continue on with her plans, and so you were quick to disappear from that very nation.
Barbatos has always held you in a high regard the moment his eyes were opened to your existence. The heavenly principles call you the slumbering sloth, deeming your forced slumber and inactivity to act against the horrors Teyvat has gone through a mistake on your part as a creator.
But he deems it as a slander, and he quietly protests at the image imposed so heavily on him. He adored the freedom you had granted â giving free will to the creatures that now live on your domain, and it was that freedom that had continued to flourish within him, spurring on a belief that he had cultivated since the moment he received his gnosis.
In that tiny piece of divinity, he felt you. Quietly lurking across the lands of Teyvat, minding your own affairs without intent of reconnecting with others.
And when he and his fellow archons sought you for answers, you had little to say. Shutting them down with an indifferent gaze â no, Venti hardly calls it indifferent, the mask sure was indifferent, but there is a sense of agony that seems to seep out from that very mask.
Barbatos sleeps for eons not to gather his bearings, but to feel closer to you.
And now here he finds you in the waking world, gaze overlooking Mondstadt â currently rebuilding the life that was devastated by the cataclysm alone. His wings tuck behind him, respectful as he was as he bowed to you.
âThey have it handled, Your Benevolence,â he regards you with a carefree grin on his lips, ââŚHumans are strong. And that freedom Iâve given them will flourish.â
âYou seem so sure of it,â you respond without missing a beat.
ââŚThey are still ignorant of you, and they do not realize that the freedom I embody is how I carry your will,â his voice comes out in a quiet purr, a reverent tone that held nothing but unadulterated adoration and devotion.
Your gaze seems too far â looking at the horizon and Barbatos wants to see what your eyes can see in this world. What perspective you have, what you think of the new Teyvat and what you think of him, carrying out your principles through his own beliefs.
ââŚLet us hope it is not a mistake,â you mumble, your fingers gently caressing those pristine white wings of his, and Barbatos relishes in the feeling.
He held back a wince as he felt a sharp sting from when you plucked a feather from his wing.
Barbatos had one thing to say.
âIf it is your will, then it shall be done.â
You had doubts with that. You had your will â and it was done. And where did that lead you? Facing a god bearing the face of a creature that now replaced your creations.
You sucked in a sharp breath before smiling, a shallow gesture as you tucked in Barbatosâ pure white feather behind your ear.
âMm⌠it shall be done,â you repeat, and a gentle breeze brushes past you. A tiny whisper and a loving kiss from the archon himself.
You accept it with a quiet hum.
Morax had more questions than the blatant adoration that Barbatos held for you. He first came to you apprehensive and tense, but you knew that he understood that he had to be around in order to get the answers he desired. He came to you with the arrogance and bravado befitting of a god.
How pathetic was it that he looked more like a god than you will ever be. But when he did, you were in a fit of deep sorrow when the heavenly principles made a mockery of your sovereigns and had given it to these new gods that prevailed mostly through bloodshed and sheer force.
He questioned your methods, Morax understood so little about your motives, about your life, about your method of creation. However arrogant and mighty as he was, he held deep respect for you still, you were the creator of the dragons that inspired him to mold his likeness into the same sort when he presented his Exuvia during his descent in Liyue.
And yet you still managed to devastate him as you first rejected him along with the first seven. Unlike Barbatos who saw agony, Morax felt the indignant resentment that enveloped your divine being, and it rubbed him the wrong way.
Morax was quick to straighten himself up, and was eager to wisen himself.
Right, he was taught to understand others.
Your legacy was infamous for losing against the heavenly principlesâ divine intervention, that your sordid draconic creations were no match for the primordial one and its shades. That your era was replaced within a battle that only lasted for a few decades. And as you sat at the edge of the tall mountains that he had shaped, gracefully indulging in the tea ways away from Chenyu Vale, he could only bask in your divinity as he stood behind you, keeping a watchful gaze of your very being.
You still had that alluring glimmer that he saw when he first came to you.
An uneasy feeling grasps onto his very being. Perhaps it was the lingering trauma of being rejected by you initially that even served his cautious display now.
ââŚYouâve done well,â you murmur quietly. A simple, quiet praise, and Moraxâs knees nearly buckled at the sheer weight. Of all the times he had been on the battlefield, none could outweigh the suffocating feeling that you suddenly imparted to him.
He feels the weight of expectations while your gaze swept over Liyueâs entirety. And Morax invites it wholeheartedly. His body gives into the sudden pressure that weighed him down, prompting him to go down on one knee, head bowed with a reverent expression.
Morax adores you so much.
âI have taken great inspiration from your creations, Your Benevolence. I have crafted them with you in mind, with how you may envision my nation to its way to prosperity.â His voice sounds like a whisper compared to your melodious echo. âIt pleases me greatly to be praised by you.â
Your eyes flit to the countless mountains that were not there before. No doubt they have been shaped with the aid of Moraxâs newfound authority over the land with his won authority over Geo.
âAs an artisan, I must say, you have truly outdone yourself,â you quietly muse, resting the teacup between your thighs. âYou have the talent, I would be remiss to not take you in and teach you few of my personal techniques.â
Moraxâs breath hitched, his lips tremble, making his way towards you, half-crawling like a pest that now will surely refuse to leave your side. He had done well in his mind â redeemed himself from the foolish arrogance he once had that might have caused your blatant rejection of his being at first. But now, you were willing to let him learn from you, and that was a step far bigger than any god could have ever made.
ââŚPlease,â he mumbled, his fingers digging into the dirt as desperation floods his mind wave after wave. âPlease⌠please, Your Benevolence. Impart your knowledge to me. I will forever be grateful.â
Nothing could prepare him from your quiet laughter, amused by his devotion.
He is quiet, sucking in a sharp breath as he heaved a quiet sigh of sheer pleasure and relief. A genuine desire blossoms through his chest, flourishing and spreading like an illness that cannot be remedied with something remotely as simple as a handful of ground up adeptal herbs.
It took you one look to understand⌠that you ought not to shatter his genuine bliss. That you ought to not tell him you merely laughed in memory of the dragon who once possessed the authority that now Morax holds.
Beelzebul has always been off with you. She did not know how to feel. Adoration and the imminent desire to devote her life to you was not the first thing she had felt. Perhaps her twin sister did, Baal always did have a sense of innate fanaticism that even as her identical twin, Beelzebul could not understand.
Though she understood that when she saw Baal so utterly heartbroken after speaking so highly of you that she felt enraged. Her sister had rightfully earned her throne in the heavens, to receive that Electro Gnosis, it was hers to have with no room for argument. She had won the favor of the higher power, so why⌠pray tell⌠have you rejected someone as strong as her?
She thought you were blind to the notion of strength. She thought you were a fool â to not have seen the grace of power that Baal, that Makoto, had in her hands. For you to refuse the adoration her twin sister felt was nothing short of an insult to Beelzebul. And for a long time, she had intent to make you recognize Baal.
And then the catastrophe comes and long gone were her desires to turn your gaze towards her sister.
Traumatized, Beelzebul had little to say as she lamented over Baalâs death on that horrid war. The war that combed through Teyvat, claiming the lives of not only powerless and helpless mortals but gods like Baal fell.
On that one moment, Beelzebul casted aside her resentment, and begged for you to see just what her sister was willing to do to protect your creation. To witness the pain Baal had to go through despite her inability to curry your favor.
How ironic was it, that now, overcome with immense grief and desire to achieve the eternity Beelzebul wanted for her people, that you decided to come.
The puppet hung still, lifeless and incomplete from the waist down. Beelzebul stood by, and an odd sentiment of understanding for Baalâs fascination and love for you washes over her, as if Beelzebul was programmed to love you in an instant. Her watchful gaze never left you as you walked around, analysing the puppet Beelzebul was in the middle of creating.
Your gaze â one that Baal had longed to have â was directed at Beelzebul now.
âYour desire to reach eternity⌠is this puppet the answer?â You ask, âFree from erosion, everlasting puppet, made to run your territory to a perfected pace.â
Beelzebulâs footsteps echo as she closed the distance between you and her inch by inch. She becomes minutely aware of your divinity. It was like no other. It provokes the inner sanctums of Beelzebulâs physical being.
Beelzebul wants to cry.
And she wants you to hold her.
You took note of how she stepped back, before responding to you, regarding you respectfully, ââŚYes, Your Benevolence.â Her eyes flit to the features of the puppet. He is hardly molded to her likeness, but it shows, beautiful and everlasting. âAn eternity does not succumb to the rotting scent of gradual decay. He is a mere prototype, a test of what shall be my true creation.â
âPity that is,â you quietly murmur. âHe would have been a precious one,â you gently cupped his cheeks around your hands.
Beelzebul watched with confusion and interest as your lips press against the puppetâs forehead.
âBlessed be thy path. Return to me and you will be recognized.â
You walked towards her, the ends of your robes fluttering behind you. Her breath hitches at the feeling of your hand over her sternum, ââŚAnd may you return to me, should your pursuit come into a halt.â
It felt like a challenge, but Beelzebul does not miss her desire for it to be a mere comfort from a god who is clearly far greater than she will ever be. Undeterred, Beelzebul turns to the puppet and resigns herself into yet another long period of endless work.
There will be eternity. And at the heart of that very eternity will solely be you and her.
Buer knew the day she was born that she had huge shoes to fill in. Her predecessor was a great one, and their domain altogether was far bigger than one could imagine. Sumeru had a tall order and young little Buer had to fulfill it all on her own.
She was born into succeeding Rukkhadevataâs greatest feats, already pushed into the limelight to take over and take action over the nation that her predecessor had managed to cultivate with her compassion and wisdom. Buer was intimidated, she had enough sense to admit and accept such a fact. Buer admired her predecessor, and will continue to do so, loving her endlessly and singing praises about the hard work that Rukkhadevata had put into establishing the rule of Sumeru.
Hence, Buer finds it so difficult to find her footing. Everything she does feels so little in comparison to her predecessorâs achievements, and it was not long before a part of that adoration turns into a quiet hum of deep insecurity, seeding into Buerâs heart that forced her into a never ending cycle of pressure and admiration.
âYou have so much on your mind, little one.â
Her mind clears, and she stares up into you. You â the one adored by many, and one that Buer was certain Rukkhadevata had also adored and held in such a high pedestal and rightfully so. Buer wonders how you are able to withstand the crushing weight of pressure that you probably feel on your shoulders as you carried the very fate of this world that was secured and anchored well into your body.
âYour predecessor was the same,â you continue while your fingers slowly cross strands of her hair over the other, neatly plaided. âI watched her scramble around, trying to clean up the messes that her fellow god kings have caused. I watched her get smaller and smaller, sacrificing every part of herself into clearing out catastrophes one after the other.â
Buer agrees without a word. Perhaps not even a god like you is immune to just how truly amazing the original Dendro Archon was as you sang her praises.
âThe world is ill, little Buer,â you mention as you gracefully tied her hair to the side. âAnd when Teyvat is ill, I too suffer the same painful fate.â
No person could understand the paradoxical nature of the feelings that slowly invited itself into Buerâs heart.
She feels light from your encouragement and yet feels utterly crushed at the weight of expectations that you have placed on her, whether or not it was your intention.
Buer feels smothered by it all, and it feels so damning, so terribly incapacitating that it pains her. But Buer loves you. You came to guide her like a parent would to a child when Rukkhadevata had given her the stage to guide a region far bigger than any other archonâs claim.
âI know, Your BenevolenceâŚâ she quietly murmured.
Buerâs eyes opened, and the green tint of this prison she was in knocks her out of her daydream. Her palm presses flat against the barrier. A wave of loneliness comes over her being, and it hurts. It had only been a year or two since you came and since her capture, but she had never felt so alone in a solitary prison that Rukkhadevata once used for her own benefit now being used against her own successor.
Where are you? Are you coming back? Are you sending a champion to rescue her? How long will she stay here? A century? Five? A millennium?
Buer prays to you. She asks for an answer. An answer that you alone can possess.
The God of Wisdom seeks your knowledge in desperation, hoping you do not turn a blind eye.
From her prison of isolation, Buer could only hear the last words you have said to her;
âHappy birthday, Little BuerâŚâ
Focalors much like the others in the same state as her had rightfully succeeded the throne of the original archons that now perished in that catastrophic event. Focalors was a mere oceanid, following after Egeriaâs will as the late Hydro Archon was led into a battle that she would no longer return from. And now, Egeriaâs corpse lays within the deserts of Sumeru, where the late Dendro Archon had buried and cultivated her corpse into a tree that will always be a good distance away from the very nation Egeria ruled over.
Focalors feels injustice against her predecessor now that she has shouldered the prophetic curse that the heavenly principles have decided to rule against Egeria for her sin. Her sin. Focalorsâ eyebrows furrowed â was it so bad that the late archon created life? That she had desired to create humans the same way that it had done. She recalled the day Egeria was blessed with the wisdom of your existence.
A sole artisan, you, had created this world. And another one came to give birth to a new realm inhabited by humans. You were not their creator, but from your inaction, it was clear you had accepted, or at the very least tolerated humanity that now thrives on the world you have created. Egeria holds a different opinion compared to the other archons. She thought it was fair that you had rejected them initially, in a way it was your justice to refuse associating yourself with the creatures that replaced your original creations.
Hypocrites, the one that they answer to are all hypocrites.
And the feelings further exacerbate as she feels your hand press against her back. Her shoulders squared as you danced with her, a faint melody from your quiet hum was the only rhythmic guide to this romantic tango of two lonely gods.
There is a sense of longing that stews within the waters of Teyvat, Egeria once told Focalors upon receiving the Hydro Gnosis. And now that she is in close proximity with you, the feeling was overwhelmingly palpable. Her chest hurts as it tightened with every step she took, following after your flawless footwork.
This was a tragedy in the making and Focalors was eagerly participating in it.
âDoes it hurt?â She asks you, adoring the serenity etched into your face as a defaulted expression. âTo have your name sullied by the injustice inflicted by the winners? That no human speaks your name and sings your praises?â
You flawlessly spin her away until she comes back in your grasp, âI am in agony,â you admit with a haunting smile, mirthless and still so beautiful, âEven more as I am reliving him through you.â
The pace picks up and Focalors hurries, having little time to catch her breath as she feels an unsettling pull wash over her. There was a desire to please you, as if your request cannot be denied outright. Maybe it was the world asking her to do your bidding, or maybe Egeria had programmed this into her very core when she was created as a mere Oceanid familiar.
Before she was even aware, the humming comes to a close and Focalors was bowing like you to an audience of nothing but the endless sea and the creatures that lurked beneath it.
You tilt your head to the side, âI hope I have relayed my feelings well enough to you.â You smile at her and Focalorsâ grip on your hand tightens significantly.
You donât say it, but she feels it. She has the authority of the everlasting waters â your tears, your agony, your pain. And it drowns her further and further until it suffocates her and dissolves her being, much like the dreaded prophecy she was tasked to solve by her predecessor.
Give it back. Give him back.
He was never gone. Focalors had not met him, but she knew of his existence. She knows what you want.
Focalors was blessed with great intelligence, and knew how to kill two birds with one stone. She had thought about it. She could solve the prophecy and fulfill your wish.
Focalors was a romantic as much as she had a flair for the dramatic. She loved humanity above all but perhaps her love for you exceeds that even just for a generous millimeter.
A quiet sigh escapes her lips.
âApplaud me for my performance once it ends, Your Benevolence.â She requested in a quiet voice, and she pities herself for feeling immense satisfaction from a mere wordless nod from you.
For you, who had accepted the humanity that Focalors loves, the archon would do the same. She would accept your selfish wish and make it come true, indulge in your quiet favor, be the one you will forever love and adore even in her death.
Haborym has heard of the tales of the great one. How the very world was shaped by your divine hands, like a sculptor carving out the features of your next masterpiece. But that was only after the First Pyro Archon had gained control over the Pyro Gnosis roughly a thousand and five hundred years ago, one that uncovered the existence of a will greater than the ones that ruled over them from above.
However, most of the people of Natlan remain blissfully unaware of one of the many secrets that the lineage of Pyro Archons have known by their succession to the heavenly throne.
They were unaware of Xbalanqueâs great failure in gaining your favor. The failure of the first Pyro Archon that assumed the throne. And the next archons in line that failed after it.
It was much like the pilgrimage, once an archon, not only are they tasked to care for Natlanâs delicate situation against the Abyss, their people, but also they must try again to gain your favor. It was like a tradition, an obligation even â passed down from one archon to another, seeing how they can succeed in what Xbalanque, as great as he was, completely failed at.
Perhaps you were exasperated by the constant badgering for the Pyro Archons that came before Haborym, because somehow, before she could even get to you, you had appeared before her during the havoc that Khaenriâahâs incident has wreaked upon your lands. You came to her while she finished wringing out every bit of life of any Rifthound that threatened the lives of her people.
She had exerted much of her energy, and though she had enough energy still for more confrontations along with the revered heroes of Natlan, you had come to aid her even for a second. She felt your cooling touch that soothed any aches that rooted deep within her from the abyssal creatureâs devastating attacks. She is mostly certain that any normal person would crumble into dust if they even were swiped at by one measly claw of these things.
Regardless, that was the first time you and her had met. Haborym barely registered the truth in your identity before you swiftly disappeared.
And now confusion only grows more evident in her core as she watched you, sat atop the tallest valleys in Natlanâs many plateaus. You sat, cross-legged as you watched the nation slowly recover from its terribly huge loss. You seemed lax, for someone having witnessed the lands of your creation nearly succumb to the abyss. But you were hardly fazed, with your face resting on the palm of your hand.
ââŚI must extend my apologies.â You finally spoke, breaking the silence.
Haborym feels a sense of camaraderie, and oddly enough, it prompts her to sit beside you. Her fellow archons â whether within Natlan or among the other nations â have always placed you on such a high pedestal. However perhaps it was because Haborym was a human before she was⌠well, Haborym.
But the humanity that dwelled within her thrives and connects with what she can perceive as a small island of humanity within the seas of your divinity. It was small, but it was irrational, loving, and resentful, all emotions hardly any gods, much less a higher being like you should never be bothered with.
Haborym takes a deep breath before nodding, âI accept your apology.â
She thinks sheâs doing better than the preceding Pyro Archons when she heard your laughter. Somehow, Teyvat grew a little brighter upon that single moment.
âI believe I have a hand in the failure of Natlan. The reason why your nation has suffered far more devastating blows was because of the weak constitution of the leylines,â you explained, and it was not news to her. It had been the consistent problem that hung over the heads of the previous Pyro Archons, and now hers.
Haborym nods. She doesnât ask the question of why, and patiently waits for what else you have to say.
âI am certain you donât need any explanation, however⌠I created this place without factoring in the possibility of your kindâs creation. Had I known, your lands would not have been the backdoor for the darkness that threatens to consume the lives of your people.â
You smiled a little, throwing a glance at Haborym, ââŚYou must understand, I am a creator in belief that all good things must become bad⌠and all bad things must become good. I believe in the equilibrium of the worlds â that all must learn the essence of balance. It is why Teyvat is my masterpiece, because it encapsulates my belief.â
âCreation must face destruction, and destruction must birth creation. That is the essence of my samsara.â
Your words felt like a hint, and Haborymâs eyes dart towards the heart of Natlan, where the Sacred Flame burns bright and hot.
And Haborym was taught from a young age that a true godâs wisdom is never something to overlook.
You had to applaud the collective effort of everyone in Teyvat. Five hundred years later and it keeps thriving from the devastating cataclysm. And now you have met a fitting champion to wield your will. Though they only wished to see their sibling.
The Heavenly Principles finally did something right in setting the stage as your challenger.
Your gaze drifts from the piece of land in the unreachable parts of the sky, down to the tea that you were wonderfully having with the bearer of your tears.
Focalors was right â her performance was unbearably long, however intensely impressive. You had honored her sacrifice with a permanent seat in the dining table of your private sanctuary nestled within the dark seas of Teyvat, where only the seats were personally crafted by you and were only enough to fit the humongous forms of the dragons that once ruled over your world.
She, among the other divinities that were not of your creation, was the first to earn your respect and genuine love.
âIs the tea to your liking?â
You still find yourself looking up on instinct just to meet the sharp gaze of the Hydro Sovereign, only to look back down to see a human being as his incarnation. Though his piercing gaze was certainly not lost on you.
âHot enough,â you mumbled, âBitter enough,â you added, recalling the tastes of one divine puppet that found his way back to you through your golden champion and little Buerâs rehabilitation.
Neuvillette quietly basked in the grace of your being. You had not changed one bit. He had recalled your presence when you first met him within the little tunnel on the side of Palais Mermonia during his break, and after Focalorsâ final act, he was consumed with memories of you when you first descended in Teyvat.
As the bearer of your tears, he was your sole confidant, something even his fellow sovereigns envied him for all those years ago.
ââŚI have many questions,â he prompted the conversation, refusing this first meet to be mere session of stewing in silence and basking in each otherâs presence. It was clear how dear he was to you, but his memories that eluded him suddenly came crashing down certainly gave him a terrifying and confusing time.
You had nowhere to be, and the traveler was busy with their affairs and many other adventures.
âWe have all the time now,â you chuckle, watching the tiny whirlpool in your tea after stirring in a pinch of sugar. âAfter all, reunions are meant to be focused on reconciling with one another, like two old friends who have lost touch for⌠thousands of years perhaps.â
âThough I understand my⌠old life⌠was subjected into being your confidant for eons to come, I must exercise my impartiality to you.â
You laughed, amused at Neuvilletteâs words. Though you respect him as a friend, nodding along. A creation could never judge a creator â it is what many among your fellow artisans have believed. But you have seen when worlds have rallied against their creator, and some have managed to kill theirs for justice or desperation.
You once walked the world of a now deceased colleague, who created a world filled with oppression, where the waters do not flow, and the pantheon of that very world have sought to fight the very god that created them in the first place.
Cruel as it was, you relished in bathing in that artisanâs never ending tears, flowing from their closed eyes as their decapitated head became the new mountain that births fresh water to their creation.
Nevertheless, for hours, you were subjected into endless questions, interrogated from left to right by the Hydro Sovereign that wanted answers more than anything. You had the key and had willingly opened the chest to him, absolving him of the troubles that might have weighed down on him once he received the Hydro Authority that was rightfully his when Focalors killed herself before his eyes.
The questioning only boils down to two questions left. Significant enough for Neuvillette to base his new opinion of you.
However you only had one proper answer for one of them.
ââŚDo you detest the Heavenly Father for his actions against the new order?â
You had thought long and hard about it. You wandered Teyvat for years to understand what you felt about it.
And you had the proper answer for it.
âNibelung did what he had to do,â your eyes glazed over, and Neuvillette follows your gaze. Before he could think you were being disingenuous, you focused your attention back to him, gazing firmly into his eyes. âI had thought I felt injustice and resentment for his⌠foolish actions.â
You picked up the teacup, savoring the bitterness that the liquid offered.
âHowever I came to realize that he was desperate enough to seek the forbidden knowledge. Only then was I consumed with guilt. I mourned him and you and your brethren. Apep despised me when I visited her in the desert of Sumeru.â You recounted with a quiet hum. âI know not of what happened to the others, but I understand that my inaction may have forced his hand.â
âI feel guilt and I will prostrate myself as an apology before you if you so wish,â you offered.
Neuvillette thinks it was a coincidence when he felt the same. Him and his fellow sovereigns could have defended the world you had generously gifted them before. But a terrifying thought comes to his mind that perhaps his role as the Hydro Sovereign had him tethered to you even in his own emotions.
It was his new crisis â whether or not he truly feels guilt or if he merely shares it with how well connected he is to you.
âPlease do not subject yourself in such a disgrace. You are my creator.â
âAnd my creations have been neglected until their death,â you countered with ease and Neuvillette doesnât know if it was his programmed reverence that stops him from contesting you or that he also feels that your words ring true.
You stood up from your seat, walking over to him, and he basks in your presence yet again, nearly losing himself like how Fontainians before he had forgiven them dissolved within the Primordial Sea.
You pulled him in a gentle embrace, his stiff posture leaning awkwardly against your midsection as he sat still.
Neuvillette could hardly pull himself together. Your affection feels forced, an obligation that had to be done to console him, and further puzzles him if you shared his emotions or if you truly felt bad for the guilt that he claims he feels.
ââŚThen, if it is guilt that you feel. Do you resent humanity for flourishing in a world that does not have an allowance for their existence?â
That one, you had no answer for.
Humanity is so beautiful, but you had come to learn that you were merely tolerating them.
Neuvillette feels himself stiffen as your warm body grows cold in this one-sided embrace.
He may be the one responsible for judging the archons and the heavenly principles that had done you wrong.
But he was never the one to call the shots when judging the fate of this world.
After all, an artist can orphan their work once displeased.
Neuvillette just got you back. And he is certain that though the archons were tied within the Heavenly Principles, they desired your presence more than the ones they were expected to answer to.
You had graced him with a subtle kiss on his forehead, loving and forgiving.
âFocalors had you convinced that humanity was worth it,â you mutter, âSo it must be true that they have something to offer.â
He looks up to see a small smile on your face.
Empty. Haunting. Grim.
ââŚIf one dead god can convince you, how many do you think would it take to convince me?â
And just like the sky, your benevolence has never looked more fake.
#i do apologize for this long piece#everyoneâs asking if iâm alive#yes i am thank u for asking#u might also be asking where your requests are#they are in the drafts sitting pretty#genshin impact x male reader#genshin impact x gn reader#venti x gn reader#venti x male reader#zhongli x gn reader#zhongli x male reader#ei x gn reader#ei x male reader#furina x gn reader#furina x male reader#mavuika x gn reader#mavuika x male reader#neuvillette x gn reader#neuvillette x male reader#nahida & reader#tryna tag it like ao3 for familial bonds ajsiwmdif#jhuzenâs stupid one shots#see u in five years đ
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Austin with Bennyâs tattoos
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNGKOOK đâ¨ď¸
[09/01/1997]
(cr. namuspromised)
#btsgif#btsedit#jungkookedit#bangtan#bts#jungkook#jeon jungkook#jeongguk#happyjkday#dailybts#userkelli#usersky#userpat#annietrack#userdimple#tuserandi#usersevn#useremmeline#raplineuser#*gifs#had to make a few last-minute tweaks because#Itâs been sitting in the drafts since mid-August#Iâm really relieved itâs done!!!#honestly#it was pretty cool to experiment#even though it took forever#because i'm busyyyyyy#the first gif was the one I made and finished first#and the most frustrating!!!!#anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY JK đ
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Aaron Taylor-Johnson as Count Vronsky
ANNA KARENINA (2012) dir. Joe Wright
#this has been sitting in my drafts forever so#here u go#he's so pretty i'm going to tear him to pieces#anna karenina#anna karenina 2012#aaron taylor johnson#vronsky#alexei vronsky#c movies: vronsky#peachys gifs#films
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I have been thinking about how come than there is nothing than shows mikeâs attraction to women.
âOh but, heâs dating El!â True, but what I mean is than all the other heterosexual characters (you can have all the headcanons you want, but they have been shown over and over to be attracted to the opposite gender) all have moments than show their attraction to men / women, aside from their romantic partners.
We have Max dating Lucas, yes, but she also, for example, looks at a shirtless Steve with binoculars. She is a teenage girl attracted to men, and it makes sense she wants to see this older guy shirtless. She also talks about how Ralph Macchio from karate kid is âso hotâ
We have Lucas dating Max, but in s2 while playing at the arcade, Lucas mentioned how princess daphne was still his, a female character who, tbh, is kinda sexualized and mostly serves as eye candy. The typical âhero needs to save princessâ trope. A preteen / teenage boy attracted to women would find her attractive
We have Dustin dating Suzie, but he also had a tiny crush, or at least, interest on max at the start of s2. He asked a girl to dance at snowball, he talks with Steve about girls, etc.
We have Steve who is just constantly reminding us of his attraction to women, he dated nancy, he talks about girls, he mentions liking boobs, etc
We have Nancy dating Jonathan, and she dated Steve before, but she also has a Tom Cruise poster in her room, who was very popular among girls during the 80s, and the first time we see her in s1 ep 1 sheâs talking to Barb over the phone saying things like âyeah heâs cuteâ about a boy, probably Steve.
But with Mike, the opposite happens, heâs dating El, sure, but he shows rejection to the opposite gender. He doesnât care about Max at the start of s2, he doesnât seem interested in princess daphne, and then thereâs the lingerie scene paralleling the sauna scene in s3. Lucas (attracted to women) is the first to enter the lingerie store. And Mike (attracted to men) is the first to open the sauna (full of men). (This is not me saying mike was attracted to those men, he wasnât, but having him have the idea and open the door is interesting)
Same with Will, except heâs canonically gay now. A girl wanted to dance with him at snowball and he reluctantly said yes, but he didnât seem too focused on her, a girl is interested in him in California, and still, he doesnât care. He welcomed max in s2, but in a completely different way than Dustin and Lucas did.
Hell, even Robin has scenes showing her attraction for women. She mentions a crush on Tammy and the next season a crush on Vickie, but she also talks about how Julie Christy is âbonkers hotâ in doctor zhivago, or how âthese ladies are hot, theyâre so very hotâ.
Instead what does Mike have? Posters of buff, shirtless (male) dragons on his walls
Basically: Mikeâs attraction to women is just like my attraction to men, nonexistent.
#this was sitting in drafts#something funny I should mention is how I havenât seen this with el either#sure sheâs dating Mike but does she express attraction for other men at any point?#I donât think so#I have seen her call Nancy Billyâs mom etc pretty thođ#mike wheeler#byler#stranger things#mike wheeler is gay#byler nation
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Mike: I'll hold you son, I'll hold you son.
[They all "Awww"]
Mike: Increase the speed, increase the speed! I'm holding you. Faster faster faster! Faster! I'm holding my son, I'm holding my son! He's not gonna fall, he's not gonna fallâ he's right here with me.
[Pac and Mike both laugh, and Fit smiles as he looks at both of them]
Fit: Yeah, doin' good!
Pac: Holdâ oh myâ Mike, if you don't hold him, he's gonna break, he's gonna break!
Fit: He's gonna get scrambled!
Mike: [Lets Richarlyson go temporarily and encourages him] Just kidding, just kidding, just kidding. Nice, you managed to endure theâ [Pac stands behind Mike and hugs him] Oh, you're holding me!
Pac: If you fallâ
Mike: Hold Pac Fit, hold Pac Fit!
Pac: Nobody gonna fall!
Fit: Okokokok there you go. [He hugs Pac from behind too, and they all laugh, cheering on Richarlyson]
#FitMC#Tazercraft#Richarlyson#QSMP#Mikethelink#Pactw#Fit#Pac#Mike#I MISS THEMMMM#August 22 2023#This is the day Pac was rescued from the prison#Fit and Mike were trying so hard to cheer him up and make him smile / laugh because he was so shaken and traumatized by that whole ordeal#Didn't do translations for the Portuguese parts because#while I'm pretty sure I know what Mike is saying#I don't want to make assumptions and give the wrong translations#but TLDR he's saying ''go on son!'' / ''keep going son!''#Q#IVE HAD THIS SITTING IN MY DRAFTS FOR MONTHS#I thought I lost it but no. Thank god#I MISS MIKEEE I MISS RICHAS I MISS THEM ALL TOGETHER
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"but if you turn around now. then, i'll kiss you according to my conviction."
bonus:
open for better quality | no reposts
#kishiar la orr#yuder aile#kishiyu#turning novel#í°ë#fanart#myart#doodle#this has been sitting in my drafts for a while but it did take a while to finish lol#scenes that were so powerful they elicited a physical reaction from me: exhibit A#turning by kuyu chapter 200 you will always be famous#they were not kidding when they said this novel had a slowburn romance#but like. the build up was So worth it#i feel like this could be improved... but eh i am posting it#pretty happy w/ how the marble floors turned out at least#we don't talk about the amount of times i visited ch7-8 of the manhwa to look at their outfits/office layout#just a little smth to keep you all sated before the fanweek starts ^^
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HISPANIC HERITAGE MONTH + BAND OF BROTHERS:
JOSEPH "JOE" RAMIREZ
Born October 5th, 1921, in Nebraska
Died April 8th, 1988 (age 66), in Martinez, California
Joe Ramirez enlisted in September 1942 (age 20) in San Francisco, CA, and he trained with Easy Company at Toccoa. Holding the rank of Private, he served in Normandy, Holland, and Bastogne. He was hospitalized in January 1945, and discharged in July 1945. After the war, he was married for many years, and had children and grandchildren. When he passed away he was buried with his wife, who had passed away 11 years earlier. Further information about him is scarce, but the brief character profile in the Band of Brothers series bible describes him as Mexican-American, and his personality as "sensitive and nervous."
Appears in Episodes 1, 3-8, and 10; portrayed by actor Rene L. Moreno
Sources below
A million thanks to @bleedingcoffee42 for tracking down this info for me!
#joe ramirez#joseph ramirez#band of brothers#rene l. moreno#mine: gifs#hispanic heritage month#latino heritage month#sources vary on whether he was a Private or PFC#they seem to have taken A LOT of creative liberties on the show bc#the only 2 anecdotes about him in BoB seem pretty diff from his character on-screen#not to mention that he would've been in the hospital during events of episodes 8 and 10 (each of which he's in several scenes)#on the other hand i do really like his character in the show and think he's one of the best and most underrated background characters#and why yes i am completely normal about him đ
#but also i'm sure he would've been great too if they'd made him more accurate to what limited info exists about the IRL guy#I forgot to save a few of the documents that bleedingcoffee42 sent me unfortunately but these are most of them!#but from one of them (his draft card?) i discovered he lived like 1.5 miles from my grandparents!!#(tho of course they moved there in the 50s so who knows if he was still living at same address by then... but still!)#oops i originally had the episodes he's in listed wrong on this#so AFAIK he's only NOT in eps 2 and 9#in ep 1 he's twirling a knife at the beginning and eating spaghetti next to Guarnere and Malarkey and playing basketball in England#in ep 6 he's eating the bean soup near the line when Sink arrives#in 7 he's sitting next to popeye and then in the church at the end (maybe in Foy but i'm not positive)#in ep 3 i thiiiink he's in Carentan next to Buck? and he's at the party in England sitting next to Lipton and listening to Gordon#in 4 he's in too many scenes to list here#in 8 he's in too many to list#in 10 he's hunting for food with the group and standing next to Grant's shooter when Speirs comes in the room
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some bands need to have a pretty blonde boy
make a chain!! go!!
@ as many ppl!!!
@yukkuriyakumo @fishoutoflovebeach @half-facedfig @picksey
#not all do#but some do#AHEM.#alex lifeson#roger taylor#david lee roth#roger daltrey#tommy shaw#<<< some examples#this has been sitting collecting dust in my drafts!!#ACTUALLY. LETS MAKE A CHAIN!! TAG UR FAVORITE PRETTY BLONDE ROCKSTAR BOY!!#MINES ALEX đŁď¸đŁď¸đŁď¸
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Guess what? I've got more Jamil x reader for y'all. You can also find this on ao3. No warnings, just 866 words of kinda fluffy(?) caretaking stuff with gender-neutral reader.
At this point, you know Jamilâs schedule almost as well as he does. So, when you have the chance, you head to Scarabiaâs kitchen, hoping to spend some time with Jamil while he and the other students prepare dinner.Â
However, when you enter, it takes you but a moment to notice Jamilâs uncharacteristic fumbling and the tired look in his eyes. The way Jamilâs chopping the vegetables has you worried about him cutting himself with that knife heâs usually so adept with, and it seems itâs only force of habit thatâs keeping him on track.
You frown, and when your eyes meet Jamilâs, you can already see him put his guard up.
So he knows what state he is in, huh? And still, here he is.
It seems Jamil is reading your thoughts, all of him telling you drop it before any words are even said.
At least he still lets you lean in and give a quick kiss to his cheek in greeting.
âHello love. Do you still have a lot on your agenda for today?â you ask, keeping your tone low for at least some semblance of privacy in the busy kitchen.
âNothing I canât handle,â is the response you get.
Of course.
It takes a little more pestering before Jamil actually answers your question. Your lips purse. That list is far too long to your liking.
You take a moment to think, juggling your own plans and to-do list against the urgency of the things Jamil mentioned.
âWill Kalim be eating from that?â you ask, pointing at the food Jamil is preparing.
âYes.â
âAlright, I wonât be touching that one, then. Iâve gotta do a few things but Iâll be back when youâre done here.â
âDonât,â Jamil says with a glare, clearly aware of what youâre thinking.
Yet even his disapproving look doesnât have the usual weight behind it.
âYes. I will,â you say firmly, even as your heart curls inwards with another bout of concern.
Really, when did he get so tired?
And how did you not notice it earlier?
You leave the kitchen before Jamil can protest further, hurrying through the dorm corridors to find Kalim.
Soon you have an enthusiastic â and concerned â supporter for your plans. You have Kalim point out a few reliable Scarabia students to help with a few of the most urgent matters Jamil mentioned â cleaning up the common areas, delivering some paperwork to Crowley, preparing some dorm-wide notices â while you see to Kalim getting his school supplies in order for the following day. You even recruit a couple of third years to help Kalim with his homework.
Youâll see to the rest tomorrow â after all, you do also have a boyfriend to look after.
Your conversation over dinner can hardly be called anything else than an argument â despite Kalimâs best attempts at acting as a moderating force between you two. It is very tempting to ask Kalim to tell Jamil to take the rest of the day off â itâs not like Jamil would be willing to openly disobey a direct order. Still, you really donât need to remind Jamil of his position on top of everything else that youâre already doing more or less against his wishes.
Eventually, however, Jamilâs had a square meal, the most urgent things on his to-do list are being taken care of, and youâve managed to drag him to his bed.
âI really wish you wouldnât push yourself so hard,â you murmur, your arms wrapped tightly around Jamil. Youâre telling yourself you really do just want to cuddle, to offer some respite to Jamil. Still, there might also be a part of you worried that if you were to let go, heâd just jump up and get back to working himself to the bone.
Yet, for all his protestations, just the fact that youâve gotten Jamil to lay down with you speaks volumes of his current exhaustion.
âI canât just leave my duties, albi. You know this.â
âMaking yourself too indispensable, is what youâre doing,â you protest.
Oh, you know itâs not so simple. Not with his background, not with all the expectations and assumptions.
But sometimes you really wish it would be.
Jamil merely scoffs in response to your words.
Still, it is undeniable that he is slowly beginning to relax in your arms, slowly bringing his head closer to yours. His eyes are starting to flutter, too.
âI will still need to help Kalim with his homework, at the very least.â
You wonder who he is trying to convince more, you or himself.
âAmin and Khalil are helping him. Theyâre basically top of their classes, arenât they? Iâm sure theyâve got it.â
Still, Jamil frowns.
You sigh. He really is not letting go, is he?
âDo you want me to go supervise?â you ask.
And leave you, unsaid yet hanging there right after your words.
âDonât,â Jamil eventually says, the word barely more than a breath.
It seems he has accepted his fate.
You softly caress Jamilâs hair, listening to his softening breathing.
And when you wake up, wholly unaware of having been lulled to sleep in the first place, itâs to the lightest of touches from Jamilâs fingers.
Tagging @diodellet @twstgo @crystallizsch @jamilvapologist @jamilsimpno69 as per request If you'd like to be tagged for any future works, let me know!
#twisted wonderland#jamil viper#twisted wonderland x reader#jamil viper x reader#woop it sure has been quite the burst of creative energy lately#especially since this has apparently been sitting in my drafts since last august#but now you have it#I certainly canât promise to keep up with this rate of writing (in fact I can promise I won't) but hey let's enjoy it while it lasts#and yes Iâm hopping on the âjamil using arabic terms of endearmentâ train#Iâve read so many fics doing that that at this point it feels more natural than english ngl#even if english would probably be more canonical#also is it a *good* way to go about it to just pretty much just force someone to rest like this? probably not#is it sometimes the only way to get stubborn people to stop for a bit? perhaps#and is it something I might do?#...possibly#also oh boy can you tell that I'm avoiding jamil's dialogue like the plague lately?#I really need to reread so much of his stuff to get a hang of his voice again#(also if you notice typos pls tell me because they always bug me)#(or other wonkiness because I'm not a native speaker and sometimes things just go silly)#anyways hope y'all enjoy!
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you're like the first blog i thought about ranting on this to but it drives me up the wall that some people treat any criticism aimed at tsats2 as being anti-ship or avoidable via just "not reading it". i dont think they realize that we're talking about a bigger issue of soulless commercialization and heavy quality downgrade of a franchise, not like. about an indie author publishing a fan book lmao
'i'll read it anyways haters gonna hate' crowd likely largely funding richard's mediocrity is sad.
I think part of it may have to do with a.) a lack of distinction in recent fandom culture between "Fandom" and "Audience" (alongside other recent fandom culture attitudes as well) and b.) so much of Rick's brand is built up exactly on parasocial behavior that a lot of fans get caught up in it. [under cut cause this got long:]
Re: The first, more recent fandom culture tends to treat "Fandom" and "General audience" as wholly equivocal. Because of this, the concepts tend to bleed into each other in a way we haven't quite seen before fandom became mainstream, and as a result we get a kind of Worst Of Both Worlds situation - a bunch of very passionate fans who have no community, create little to no fanworks themselves (only consume), and only engage at a surface level with the source material. Their only "fandom" community hub is the source material and official social media and they don't have a concept of how to exist outside it, unlike folks who are more used to older fandom culture and are self-sufficient. They have the passion and identity of classic fandom, but none of the depth, and so threats to the source material feel like threats to their community as a whole. They also just don't seem to understand that different subsections of the deeper fandom community are engaging with the material on an entirely different level, or they don't understand why they're doing that. They see no need to because they're never actually engaging with the community or source material beyond a surface level. Functionally they don't have a community. And mainstream media is actively encouraging this because it's profitable for them - they're reaping all of the rewards of fandom, minus the fact that because of the lack of actually community and support structures the entire "fandom" will only have a shelf life the same length of the source material. But at the same time this means they don't have to worry about quality or etc, because this extremely passionate side of their audience will just take anything thrown at them and it'll phase out almost immediately. It doesn't need to be good, it just needs to elicit some kind of reaction on social media. Any publicity is good publicity type stuff.
This lack of true community plus the parasocial emphasis the RR company has tends to make these types of fans double-down. Rick and co. are explicitly advertised as being both part of the "community" and integral to it. And when they've built Rick (and co) up as this moral paragon critical to both part of their identity they're very passionate about and what little of a community they have, any attack on him feels like an attack on themself. Particularly when so much of the publicity and marketing surrounding Rick right now is about his alleged activism when a lot of the criticism about him and the series is actively calling that into question with his unaddressed internalized bigotries. Acknowledging that what Rick is saying and promoting himself as versus his writing and actions don't always line up and pointing out the bigotry present in his work forces people to acknowledge and think about performative activism, which can make a lot of people very uncomfortable! It's forcing them to acknowledge "Oh, even if I'm saying all the right words and calling myself an ally, I am not immune to being bigoted if I don't address my internalized biases. My actual behavior matters." and that especially can feel like a personal attack. Especially in today's western landscape of media consumption being viewed as a moral act in itself.
I suspect this is why a lot of the retaliation against criticism of Rick and the franchise right now is "Why can't you just have FUN? You're just trying to hate for views. Don't take it so seriously! It's not that deep!" - they not only have no interest in engaging deeper in the material, but don't understand why others would, and doing so jeopardizes the foundations of what they consider the fandom. They can't fathom anybody legitimately having these criticisms (particularly not anybody who would ACTUALLY consider themself a "fan" - because their perception of "fan" is themself) because they're so resistant to digging deeper into the media/source material or the concept that anyone would for any legitimate reason (because as long as they keep it as "it's not that deep!!! it's just fun! just enjoy it you wet blanket!!!!" and take things at their word, they can feel secure in that performative aspect and not have to unpack it), and acknowledging that those criticisms exist and are valid means they have to acknowledge the franchise is flawed and imperfect, so they presume the claims are entirely superficial and the individual has ulterior motives rather than, yknow, doing what fandom does: diving deeper.
#pjo#riordanverse#long post //#rr crit#tsats crit#Anonymous#ask#this ended up more musings on the state of the fandom right now but in my defense i wrote this while i had covid#and im pretty sure like right after i finished this i blacked out and blacked back in from fever lmao#so if this is somewhat incoherent thats my excuse#its been sitting in my drafts for a couple weeks
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the summer after finishing university in New York, Marinette gets invited to a camping trip with Alya and Nino and his best friend. which, honestly, is for the best. at least she has more time than the four years she's already had to figure out how to reach out to her one-time superhero partner, with whom she fell out of touch after the reveal.
only, it's Adrien Agreste waiting for them on the meeting point, beaming so hard at her that it's blatantly obvious they know each other well. in her panic, what is Marinette supposed to tell Alya and Nino to protect their identites, if not that they used to date?
(fake exes AU x there was only one tent)
#miraculous ladybug#writing prompt#ladynoir#adrinette#if you thought fake-dating was ridiculous enough get ready for: fake exes!!#Adrien is sunshine. his lady!! he's so happy to see her again!!! but also she did kind of ghost him for years is she mad at him?#Marinette is dying inside. maybe this would be easier if she ever fell out of love with Chat Noir and not just dated for sport during her B#Alya doesn't understand how could her best friend hide a relationship all throughout highschool but she wants to know all about it!#Nino's pretty sure Adrien is still in love with Nette which makes everything so much more complicated. couldn't they just stargaze in peace#I'm clearly having a lot of thoughts about it but I also do not think this is getting written unfortunately#poor boy sitting in my drafts for a year now. someone liberate him!!
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Sorry if this is too unrelated or something, but do you have any tips for comic composition? I absolutely adore how you frame everything, from the backgrounds, to the bubble placement, to the way the colors seem to fit together in each panel, and I've always been curious about how you do it
if this is too vague/overcomplicated I understand, I love your work and hope you're doing well <3
Hm... well. Honestly, most of my composition comes from transcribing the animation of residuum that's happening in my head. Which is why, if any of y'all've noticed, residuum is framed a bit like a movie. So if you're looking to do something similar, I'd recommend either studying camera techniques, or watching movie analysis with a focus on camera work. I'm unfortunately a bad person to ask, as a lot of what I do just comes via practice that's turned to instinct.
This is a really good resource on page compositions in general, though I mostly do panel by panel stuff for my own ease:
The background style is actually directly inspired from @meandtheyeehaws, it's fast, easy, and doesn't require too much thought on my part. You spend a lot of time on comics, so you take shortcuts where you're willing to.
Bubble placement... I've noticed that people tend to laser focus on dialogue. So, the dialogue bubbles are how you lead the reader's eyes. They are the very base of the reader's eye path. All this means is that you should just map the eye path you want and then frame everything else around that. Either to bring notice to stuff or to hide something in plain sight.
Honestly, I have no idea for the color thing. It's one of the things I actually wish the comic was better with. All I do is have set color swatches for characters, and do a transparent color mask to the background color. I love to color, but color itself isn't really my strong suit.
#residual asks#creation advice#my layouts are pretty samey on purpose for speed#but sometimes i wish they weren't just so i could do some wack ass shit#but that would take me way longer lmao#you can see my other page styles in the bonus comics though so *shrug*#anyway#just find what works for you and don't hold yourself in a hole if you want to branch out#also this has been sitting in my drafts for so long. i am so sorry#though that movie thing is also just due to the aspect ratio i use for panels#...which i chose specifically so that youtube dubbers would have an easier time formatting the comic for video#i watched so many comic dubs as a kid that i figured a dub was inevitable lmao
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idk why it's taken me this long to think about it like this but the real reason i don't like 70s/80s era DM in the show timeline is because it's cheating. and i don't mean infidelity, i mean it's a cheap way to cut around all the issues armand and daniel have with each other in the modern day. like it's a massively difficult thing to write these characters getting from point A (armand's life being ruined by daniel and daniel hating armand/being highly distrustful of him) to point B (a sincere romantic relationship) but if you invent a Secret Romantic History That Daniel Forgot But Will Remember then it's a piece of cake for them to forgive each other. but no! i say no! i want the writers to put the work in!!!!
#armandiel#armand iwtv#daniel molloy#armand#the vampire armand#iwtv#interview with the vampire#for the record. i have now written four whole fics that are just sitting in my drafts#of 70s/80s era DM. like i Get It. i Get the appeal. im not trying to ruin anyones fun#but its one thing to explore it in fanworks and its another thing to treat it as canon#which does??? seem to be the pretty standard way of thinking in this fandom?????#except my beloved mutuals. i see u#thunder rambles#edit: HELP i know ive made this point 70 million times before. for some reason it just didnt click that#'a second amnesia plotline would be bad' -> 'because it's cheap writing'. let me live
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Designs for a transformers horror au fic I started writing but prob will never finish, idk maybe one day.
Cliffjumper and Bumblebee While on a mission together Cliffjumper ends up destroying 2 soundwaves cassettes. Soundwave doesn't know which of the two did it, but no matter he decides that to make up for his two lost cassettes he will use the two minis responsible to make new ones. Physical and psychological horror ensue as Cliffjumper and Bee have to adapt to their now altered frames and new cassette programing, dealing with trying not to lose themself to soundwaves influence while also finding out that they aren't the first of soundwaves cassette to originally be autobot. also Cliff feeling real guilty for getting them into this mess.
also soundwave gives them new names, Because they are not those bots anymore they are his new little cassettes not matter how much they may say otherwise, they will come around, they always eventually do, this is not his first time dealing with new cassettes that fight their new role,
#cliffjumper#bumblebee#transformers#transfomers g1#au#my art#If you're wondering which two og cassettes died it was frenzy and buzzsaw#rumble is pretty chill about his new siblings they not his first new sibling that were made out of a autobot#maybe i will finish this one day#i got the draft for like the first 11 chapter sitting in a google doc#cassette au
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my toxic trait is that once iâm no longer active in a fandom i assume itâs dead
#do yall still read haikyuu & blue lock fics cuz i got suna & yoichi sitting pretty in my drafts#blue lock#haikyuu#isagi yoichi#suna rintaro#wind breaker#windbreaker#wind breaker x reader#windbreaker x reader#[ đŻď¸ â !! ]
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