#thesis journey

[salvadorbonaparte]

And so it begins...

[aqyasdini]

Tentang Tesisku: Kesepian pada Anak-anak dan Remaja

Dua orang mengirimiku tulisan ini yang dikutip dari sini.

Pertama, aku merasa senang karena mereka mengingatku setelah membaca ini. Kemungkinan besar karena aku sedang meneliti tentang kesepian pada remaja sebagai topik penelitian tesisku.

Kedua, aku merasa bersemangat kembali untuk mengulik tentang kesepian ini, apalagi melihat bahwa orang lain juga cukup relate dengan pengalaman kesepian di masa kecil. Besar kemungkinan bahwa pengalaman tersebut juga berlanjut di masa remaja, kan? Bahkan, beberapa orang juga berkomentar bahwa kesepian tersebut tidak lantas "menghilang" di masa dewasa, melainkan sesuai dengan apa yang tertulis di gambar di atas : they often settle for emotional loneliness in their relationships because it feels normal to them.

Aku menjadi bersemangat karena permasalahan yang sedang aku soroti berarti merupakan sesuatu masalah yang nyata, setidaknya dilihat dari respon orang-orang yang ada di kolom komentar. Meskipun belum menjadi fenomena yang sudah lebih banyak dibahas, seperti halnya kecemasan ataupun depresi, kesepian juga menjadi sesuatu yang layak untuk didiskusikan secara terbuka.

Aku menjadi bersemangat karena aku merasa penelitianku akan dapat menyumbangkan sesuatu yang bermakna bagi orang lain. Aku merasa dapat memberikan manfaat melalui penelitianku. Perasaan yang setelah aku refleksikan lebih dalam bersinggungan erat dengan belief yang kumiliki, yaitu aku harus melakukan sesuatu yang bermanfaat.

Ketiga, berbicara lebih lanjut tentang kesepian, teori menyebutkan bahwa kesepian bisa dikategorikan menjadi kesepian secara sosial dan emosional. Jika kesepian sosial lebih berhubungan dengan kuantitas interaksi sosial atau jumlah teman/relasi yang dimiliki, kesepian emosional lebih berhubungan dengan kualitas interaksi sosial atau kebermaknaan suatu hubungan yang dimiliki individu.

Membaca tulisan tentang kesepian emosional di atas, aku jadi bertanya-tanya, apa yang bisa dilakukan untuk membantu anak-anak dan remaja yang mengalami kesepian secara emosional? Apakah intervensi yang akan aku berikan di penelitianku juga dapat membantu mereka secara emosional?

Sejauh ini, melalui penelitianku, rencananya aku akan mengajarkan cara coping yang adaptif secara emosional, seperti relaksasi dan imagery. Selain itu, format terapi yang akan dilaksanakan secara berkelompok ini diharapkan dapat memberikan sense of belonging untuk mereka yang merasa emotionally lonely. Aku juga berharap proses dalam kelompok dapat membuat mereka merasakan hubungan positif dengan teman sebayanya. Hopefully.

[art-lover-genderhater]

thesis advice forrealsies

[elodieunderglass]

changes and trends in horror-genre films are linked to the anxieties of the culture in its time and place. Vampires are the manifestation of grappling with sexuality; aliens, of foreign influence. Horror from the Cold War is about apathy and annihilation; classic Japanese horror is characterised by “nature’s revenge”; psychological horror plays with anxieties that absorbed its audience, like pregnancy/abortion, mental illness, femininity. Some horror presses on the bruise of being trapped in a situation with upsetting tasks to complete, especially ones that compromise you as a person - reflecting the horrors and anxieties of capitalism etc etc etc. Cosmic horror is slightly out of fashion because our culture is more comfortable with, even wistful for, “the unknown.” Monster horror now has to be aware of itself, as a contingent of people now live in the freedom and comfort of saying “I would willingly, gladly, even preferentially fuck that monster.” But I don’t know much about films or genres: that ground has been covered by cleverer people.

I don’t actually like horror or movies. What interests me at the moment is how horror of the 2020s has an element of perception and paying attention.

Multiple movies in one year discussed monsters that killed you if you perceived them. There are monsters you can’t look at; monsters that kill you instantly if you get their attention. Monsters where you have to be silent, look down, hold still: pray that they pass over you. M Zombies have changed from a hand-waved virus that covers extras in splashy gore, to insidious spores. A disaster film is called Don’t Look Up, a horror film is called Nope. Even trashy nun horror sets up strange premises of keeping your eyes fixed on something as the devil GETS you.

No idea if this is anything. (I haven’t seen any of these things because, unfortunately, I hate them.) Someone who understands better than me could say something clever here, and I hope they do.

But the thing I’m thinking about is what this will look like to the future, as the Victorian sex vampires and Cold War anxieties look to us. I think they’ll have a little sympathy, but they probably won’t. You poor little prey animals, the kids will say, you were awfully afraid of facing up to things, weren’t you?

[stargatelov3r]

GUESSED WHO FINISHED WRITING THEIR THESIS

[thewhizzyhead]

warriors 2024 and the art of giving meaning to struggle

alrighty ramble time: let's talk about luther and how he managed to fuck up NYC for good. if luther were like i dunno lex luthor, i'd say his move to destabilize gang relations in nyc is a very fucking calculated move because i really do have to give credit to him in actually achieving the goal he set out for himself because his decision to kill cyrus,,,,aka the one that organized the "Please No Gang Fighting" summit that aimed to unite everyone against the bigger baddies of NYC,,,essentially fucking killed any and all chance of such a peace summit and unity initiative from ever happening again. because, like, after seeing a beloved and seemingly untouchable leader be murdered in front of all of you despite explicit instructions to Not Bring Weapons, would you even risk witnessing that chaos again in another summit? would you trust that forming a united force work after such a tragedy? is there even a possibility of finding trust among other NYC gangs if someone among their number killed your very hope? so yea knowing how the movie ends with just the gramercy riffs saying that the warriors (with two dead people and one arrestee in tow) are off the hook because someone else witnessed luther killing cyrus,,,the original ending is actually quite hopeless when you think about it in their shoes. in the words of movie swan himself in the movie, is what they end up with all their night of sleepless fighting and struggle is worth? hence, i now really see why warriors (2024) decided to make what I consider to be the 2nd biggest diversion outside of the genderswap: making cleon live - because otherwise, the warriors' struggles surviving the night can be said to be struggle for solely struggle's sake.

in the musical, cleon is an astute believer in cyrus and the future cyrus envisions for all of NYC - thus, she becomes the harbinger of cyrus' hope in the form of still breathin' and somewhere in the city. her being alive doesn't detract from the widespread tragedy faced by the NYC gangs - i still really believe that no matter what, luther effectively killed their one shot at true unity and trust - but in cleon's own words: "What do you do when they kill everything you believe in? Give it meanin." the decision to keep cleon alive is warriors (2024) counteractive measure at the absolute shithole luther placed NYC in because in her message of keeping the dream alive despite situations that are, realistically speaking, impossible to wholly recover from, gives their struggle meaning, purpose, and direction - the end goal being hope. that theme of hope despite and in spite of adversity now becomes evident on as to why we are made to be invested in the warriors' journey home and their subsequent growth. in mercy's decision to leave the orphans for a place of belonging and pride that can make her finally hold her head up high. in ajax's and fox's decisions to retaliate against their pursuants among sleazy old men in blue. in swan's persistence in getting the rest of her crew home alive despite still reeling from the loss of her leader and her fellow warriors. all attribute their own reasons to why they resist and rebel because they ultimately hope for something fucking better. ultimately, warriors (2024) exists because of the want to give more meaning to struggle in the form of hope amidst hopelessness. in the movie, the warriors find their meaning in the sweet simple bliss of survival - in making to coney island's sunrise. but in the album, another meaning is emphasized among not just the warriors, but the marginalized communities of NYC in general: their meaning of struggle goes beyond surviving the night - because they carry on and carry forth the dream of one day having a city where they all come home alive. because after all, isn't the formation of grassroots rooted in resistance - and isn't resistance born out of the want and hope for something better?

[valarinde]

Do you know what the last sentence of this poem is? MY JOURNEY TO YOU (云之羽)

[herinsectreflection]

It belongs to the Slayer.

(Faith & Buffy / sharing weapons)

[zimszim]

the doctor, faced with the loss of ruby, immediately trusts what rogue says is true (the doctor doesn't know much about these creatures, has never seen them before, has to ask him what age they lived to), and doesn't waste a second to investigate further with the fact that there is no way to save her, bring her back, or even confirm that she's dead. he instead waltzs in to enact his form of justice and when it is revealed that no, ruby sunday is not dead, but she will be as good as by the doctor because of his punishment. his overbearing grief of ruby, his GUILT that he did not save her made him reckless. in him condemning these creatures to a certain type of hell, he would've taken ruby straight there with them. they are only saved by this brave person he's just met, saved from his mistakes. i'm so sick of losing people. oh that is so doctor of him

[salvadorbonaparte]

Normal postgrad research

[thefeastandthefast]

"Yes, every tool has their place, he thinks. You and I will try to build this land with shovel and plow, needle and loom, with ink and paper and pigment. But if there comes a time we must guard the kingdom from its king, we reach for the blade."

[lettersfromn0where]

Himmel is the kind of person who finds fun in the everyday stuff of life no matter what, and we know he had a busy and much-loved life after the Hero Party disbanded, but thinking about how lonely it must have felt to leave this party he cherished at the end of their journey and strike out alone for the first time in his life makes me want to curl up and sob

[identitty-dickruption]

just spent an hour fleshing out my "disability in the bible" point in my thesis and. like. it's only really an aside as it is. but the pull of biblical studies is once again so so strong. rip

[stargatelov3r]

Eyyyy guess who just reached the minimum word requirement for their thesis!!!

[neat-deadandlive-things]

Thesis written

Coffee made

Strange inspirational sticky notes put up

Guess who's thesis will be submitted by the end of the week!

[fisheito]

What is this weirdly feelyweely status exclusive to yakumo