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*This is just an interpretation.*
The original question was, "I was curious if Guzman feels there could be more to this close friendship, and if a romantic turn of events in the script was ever pitched to him, would he be open to it, or does he feel that this would not be the path for Eddie?"
Guzman is talking about different sexualities able to live together in harmony with acceptance and safety. He has said something similar before during season 7 when discussing Buck's coming out to Eddie. This could be further confirmation of that sentiment. This is Not a direct comment on what is happening with Buddie. However, it does seem that he is saying he wants to advocate for that harmony, especially in today's political environment.
As I'm sure everyone is aware basic rights are being stripped from everyone who isn't straight, white, Republican, and male. There could small be a window for them to make Buddie canon if that is the intention in the first place.
In this instance and this political environment, Guzman may be talking about showing that different sexualities can be in harmony and there shouldn't be divisions based on that. The part that I'm not sure about is where he says "...that should be the priority over leading people into thinking anything else." My question is which people and which thinking? Is he referring to shippers who want Buddie or the political establishment and compulsory heterosexuality?
I don't think we'll know for sure until it airs. I am going to double down on if Eddie isn't out of the closet by the end of the season, it isn't going to happen. Like I said previously, we could be dealing with a window of time where the choice will be taken from the hands of everyone, including what the network truly wants. I'm thinking if they are not quick to not only get him out and make Buddie canon, the choice may get made for them.
Also, I don't think Guzman is wrong in this. People do need to come together so that LGBQT can live their truths without fear. The question is what is the best way to accomplish this? Is it better for Buddie to happen so that it can be demonstrated that love is love, or is it better for the friendship between a straight man and a bi man to take priority and demonstrate this acceptance?
If Michael were still on the show, the relationship between Bobby and Michael would do that perfectly. Unfortunately, he's not there. There is a friendship between Chim and Hen, but that doesn't address the toxic masculinity between a straight man and a gay or bi man that is a large part of the problem.
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With Katy Bee and Mr. Finnegan being Scar's new kitties, they can legally be called Scitties, just saying.
#its almost midnight here and this thought keeping me awake#scitties#goodtimewithscar#goodtimeswithscar#gtwscar#gtws#gtws hermitcraft#hermitcraft#hermitcraft goodtimeswithscar#hermitcraft shitpost#jellie the cat#gtws jellie
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Remember when we talked about the Titanic being an anniversary gift from Agatha to Rio?
So we know they already broke up at that time... But that doesn't has to mean there is no Agathario on the ship's board (haha you get that ^^).
Because what if Rio once told her how she hates to get the souls from shipwrecks because it's always so chaotic. So Agatha choosed to caused the sinking just to annoy her wife because that's defently something she would do.
Another idea is that she actually did it because she wanted to see her again without admitting it and with that story she could at least cover it for a few hours until they make out before the sinking really started. But Rio knew and she would defently never let her hear the end of that. Like "remember the one time you missed me so much that you caused the sinking of an entire ship because you were to stubborn to admit it?"
This also gives me the idea, what if it was really just an accident and Agatha was just there by chance but Rio thought she did it with intent and always when Agatha tries to deny it Rio is like "Yeah of course Baby." in an total sarcastic way. And no one ever believes her that she was really only there by chance.
#agatha all along#agatha harkness#rio vidal#agatha x rio#agathario#titanic#thoughts#it's things like these that keep me awake at night#the love agatha has for rio is as deep as the titanic#and everybody will always remember her of that
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thinking about arthur who has crazy quick reflexes and is a relatively light sleeper who woke up to the sound of someone in his room and saw merlin crouched down messing with his keys before softly asking “whatre you doing?…before breakfast?”
#like in that scene in s2 when merlin was calling out arthurs name from under his bed#and he jumped up (thinking merlin was long gone) grabbed his sword and postured for a fight#or that one in idk which season when merlin was sneaking in his room and he woke up and grabbed his sword when merlin bumped a chair#and then merlin brought the canopy/curtains around his bed down on him#vs waking up to see melin splayed over him and staring for a beat#before flinching back#(he was definitely having some thoughts and/or dreams but thats neither here nor there)#idk thinking about arthur who trusts merlin implicitly and allows himself to lower his guard around him#his guard which he keeps up even in his sleep#GOD imagining them in an established relationship and merlin for once has /so/ much trouble waking arthur up#like before it was sorta bad but arthur was always in that half awake state#but now that theyre together….arthur wont even groan when merlin starts poking his ribs#arthur finally feeling so safe and protected that he allows his guard to drop in his sleep#and its the first time hes ever felt truly refreshed in the morning#so now merlin has infinitely more trouble waking him up but when hes up hes UP and ready to go#bbc merlin#merlin emrys#arthur pendragon#merthur#arthur bby they could never make me hate you#hes just a girl desperately craving love and protection#merlin isnt even offering it#hes shoving it into arthurs arms with insults flying off the tongue#theyre so disgusting#(affectionate)#<3#headcanon#head canon#hc
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i think about bucktommy's first sleepover every night. like did they stay at buck's? at tommy's? did they plan it beforehand or was it you know you can stay if you want? did they have sex? how did they have sex? did they cuddle naked? did they lend clothes? a spare toothbrush? an extra pillow? did tommy rub buck's leg? for how deep and long buck thought about the weight and the breadth of the body next to him? did they wake up together with their morning woods pressed on the other or did one of them wake up first? did they kiss with morning breath? did they have their first cup of coffee in bed?
#these thoughts keep me awake#also i just remembered how one of the first bt fics i was planning to write was buck really really really wanting tommy to have sex with him#but tommy taking it slow#and there was supposed to be a scene with morning erections where tommy excused himsef to the bathroom which made buck insane#anyway that fic obv didnt happen but lol i think about early bt sososo much#bucktommy#mimi.txt
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part 2 of,,,, whatever this is X]
| 1 | 2 | 3 | ... |
it's not supposed to be very consistent, not rlly a proper comic, but it does work best if viewed all together! im super proud of how the next 2 parts are turning out, can't wait to share with y'all!!
huge thanks again to @crowned-ladybug for writing the carrot soup fics,,,,,, truly a life-changing experience, 1000/10, would recommend
(please lmk if you don't wanna be tagged! i was rlly touched by your reply on my last post and thought that maybe you'd like to see this one as well,, im so glad my little doodles could make ur day better, even if just a bit!!)
i wanted to ramble abt brushes and shapes and colors but im eepy rn and i really wanna post this while i still remember soooo no artist rant today sorry,,,, hope y'all enjoy nevertheless! <33
#no thoughts only carrot soup#hlvrai#carrots au#frenrey qpr my beloveds<33333#gently holds#ive been binging a looooot of fanfiction lately#but this is something that i keep inevitably gravitating back to#comfort place if you will#dang it i need someone to remind me to post that animatic wip#it's been a bit since i last worked on it but i put so much effort into it already#even tho it's barely started lmao#okay my brain Really doesn't want me to stay awake huh#oh well#sleepytime it is#have a very orange day everybody! im out#[drops mic and falls off the stage]#art tag or whatever
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could you maybe draw honasaki.. that’d be awesome i think
You are very correct anon
#made it medusa au to be selfindulgent hope you don't mind that#I admittedly wanted to decline since the request would be a bigger drawing than the others got...but the gay thoughts struck me (horrible)#I am admittedly a bit squemish when it comes to making romantic art lmao. It's a mix of shame/inexperience and getting overloaded by the ga#but I'm here to get out of my comfortzone and the drawing ended up cute ngl#don't mind Shibao btw. He's here for more selfindulgent reasons#I btw drew this instead of sleeping. I blame you and the fruits for keeping me awake#thank you for the request#my art#saki tenma#tenma saki#honami mochizuki#mochizuki honami#project sekai#honasaki#request#medusa au
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I don't understand why people call John Marston stupid. He isn't dumb, he's barely functioning day to day and it's not HIS fault that whacky shit keeps happening to him. How would YOU react if your family turned into zombies after just going through like a billion Herculean trials to get them back???? That man is so checked out from reality that shit happens and he has no choice but to go "ok" and move on from that. John Marston has a customer service worker's ability to simply dissociate and complete tasks on auto pilot. He's not Arthur "helpful and kind" Morgan. He's a bitter fuck who does not give two shits about anyone he wants to get his beloved wife back so she can peg him and he wants to get his bitch ass emo son back so they can communicate poorly and take turns doing stupid nonsensical shit to give Abigail more stress in her life. He's just a Guy okay and I love him he's The Dad of All Time and I think he makes stupid fucking decisions but so do I and that's okay he's doing his best.
#red dead redemption 2#red dead redemption#john marston#abigail marston#jack marston#undead nightmare#No it's not 2 am no I'm not stalling going to bed no I'm totally not having hyperfixation thoughts keeping me awake#My favorite hobby is making my autism other people's problem
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if you're wondering why bob is here it's bc in the original villareal story there was a very minor background detail that diego lobo and bob pancakes dated in college and broke up tragically and that's where the story peaked. so i included him it's still canon
thank you for these it was so fun!!!!!!!!!!!!
i did these in my this is the fall sim style so i'm thinking. if they exist in this universe what's all their opinions on the 'did jacques do it' situation. let's take a look
don: saw a photo of jacques's wife on the news during the investigation. said "whoa mama that's a hot babe!" like johnny bravo and did not read the headline. does not know anything about it still.
vlad: well he's psychic he could figure out the truth if he actually cared. and he has!
olive: obviously respects it. except for the getting investigated part, would never happen to her.
diego: does not think jacques did it but enjoys the tabloids. knows other rich people personally who he thinks have killed their spouses
morgyn: will post things like "friendly reminder that j*cques v*llareal literally killed his wife and is a billionaire so maybe don't go to one of their hotels" on tumblr and will then do a call out post about like a fanfic writer who wrote an unhealthy relationship with more severity
pascal: knows conspiracy theories and this one is bullshit. or maybe it just doesn't interest him as much as aliens and that's why he thinks that
jeb: has a very "well of course he did. them rich folk can do whatever they want. there ain't no hope for the rest of us" while kicking a can down the road approach
bob: thinks he did it. is very alarmed that it was brushed off. eliza's like bob book the hotel and he's like am i going crazy. does anyone hear me.
#olive and pascal do NOT exist in this is the fall strangetown has their own universe but it's still fun#i really need to finish remaking all of strangetown#for the record human vlad works for the company high up he knows jacques. he keeps his feelings on the matter private.#but anyway yes bob and diego. both from small towns met in college. diego was in drag and bob thought he was a woman#then was still attracted to him out of drag and had a months long spiral about his sexuality it was a thing#they just wanted different things. it wouldn't have worked. bob likes small towns. he wanted to stay and have a house and a family#diego wanted the exact opposite. they had to part ways. bob still thinks about him laying awake at night. kind of a lot#bob is like he probably doesn't think about me at all anymore he's definitely moved on. no diego thinks about him a lot too#the ones that got away#ts4#ts4 cas#ts4 edit#the sims 4#townie makeover#townie makeovers#don lothario#vladislaus straud#olive specter#diego lobo#morgyn ember#pascal curious#jeb harris#bob pancakes#this is the fall: extras
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The "I wish I was back with Paul" incident
"But in mid-January 1973 Lennon and Ono quarrelled publicly at another party. “I wish I was back with Paul,” Lennon reportedly said."
— Peter Doggett, You Never Give Me Your Money (2009)
This is one of the most telling statements. John and Yoko had a fight, and he was so upset and frustrated that he talked about wishing that he was back with Paul. That's not something you say if you were just friends with someone. Just think about it. It does not make sense to yell at your wife that you wish to be back with a "friend" while you are having a fight, right? Wanting to "be back" with someone usually means that you want to be back with an ex! If this was just about wanting to be back with him as a "friend" again, then what does that have to do with him being upset with his current romantic partner?
#mclennon#interesting#food for thought#things that keep me awake at night#beatles#please share your thoughts on this
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I’m a Russingon girlie at heart and will never miss an opportunity to read into the romanticism of Maedhros’ rescue from Thangorodrim: ancient friends/lovers coming back together, Fingon finding compassion despite betrayal, all that good tear-jerker stuff.
But what makes Fingon’s heroism massive to me has nothing to do with the personal and everything to do with the politics at Mithrim. The fact that had he not gone to Thangorodrim, the Noldor in Beleriand would find themselves at literal war against each other.
This little passage from the Silm really deserves a lot more attention:
No love was there in the hearts of those that followed Fingolfin for the House of Fëanor, for the agony of those that endured the crossing of the Ice had been great, and Fingolfin held the sons the accomplices of their father. Then there was peril of strife between the hosts
Years later, when Fingon decides to look for Maedhros, the conflict between the hosts comes back as a primary reason behind his decision:
Then Fingon the valiant, son of Fingolfin, resolved to heal the feud that divided the Noldor, before their Enemy should be ready for war
This makes me conclude that the three years between Fingolfin’s arrival at Mitrhim (FA 2) to Fingon’s rescue mission (FA 5) must have been a continuous civil crisis. The hosts are in close proximity, a single lake dividing them, Fingolfin on one side, Maglor on the other, and for three years they cannot find a compromise. This crisis must have gotten pretty bad for someone to decide that braving Thangorodrim might be worth it.
And to me, this is Fingon's greatest contribution he ever made, not his battles, not his chasing of dragons, but preventing civil war among his people.
Of all the children of Finwë he is justly most renowned...
Yes, indeed, he is. Because without Fingon’s deed, there would be no victories for the Noldor, no Long Peace, no meeting of the Edain and Eldar. They would have fought each other endlessly until one group obliterated the other, or alternatively, Morgoth used this division (as the book seems to imply) to destroy them all swiftly.
Fingon effectively accomplishes what Fingolfin and Fëanor never managed: peace, at least for a good while. Maedhros of course contributes in return by giving up the crown. He meets Fingon halfway, and they stay true to this alliance until Fingon’s death. They cross an impossible bridge no matter how you read their relationship.
I’ll never tire of it. Ever.
#fingon#maedhros#mithrim#thoughts that keep me awake at night#noldo politics#silmarillion#feanorians#nolofinweans
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Remember how it took a Skill bond with Fitz for the Fool to realise that Fitz actually loved him and hadn't just been humouring him all these years out of pity I'm gonna fucking vomit
#realm of the elderlings#rote#fitzchivalry farseer#the fool#fitz and the fool#robin hobb#how am i supposed to liveeeeee robinnnnnnnnn#this thought was straight up keeping me awake last night!!!!#fresh off the final trilogy's revelations about the Fool's childhood I think about Farseer trilogy Fool and just want to weep forever#HE WAS SO LONELY. DON'T LOOK AT ME.#after what fucking Capra did to him of course he couldn’t trust anyone and had to FEEL Fitz’s love to believe it#Fitz and the Fool perfectly matched in their inability to believe anyone could love them#robin!!!!!!!!!¡!!¡!
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I'm still thinking about that heartbreaking flashback Ekko has on the bridge in s2ep7.
How it managed to make me feel devastated in literal seconds.
Personally, I think it's the sound design that punches right in the gut.
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This bitch right here? The reason why I'm crying in the middle of the night.
Ekko walks on the bridge after his argument with Powder. He's walking, deep in his thoughts, passing by all the bright life cities now share...
...WHILE THESE LYRICS PLAY IN THE BACKGROUND AND MAKE ME WANT TO JUMP OFF THE CLIFF:

And then it gets even better WORSE.
The violin that plays during this moment goes higher and higher, as if Ekko becomes more and more overwhelmed by all the things happening around him. And when he sees the line on the bridge, violin hits its highest point and then suddenly and completely stops.
The only sounds we're left with are the buzzing of flickering light, the sparks and embers burning mid-air and Ekko's heartbeat.
Ekko's terrifyingly fast and deafeningly loud heartbeat.
He was looking at Jinx and his heart was racing in such awful agony that it almost broke his chest.
And then he's snapped out of it. But he doesn't seem to be sure about anything anymore. Especially about his own feelings.
He suddenly looks like he's lost, like he's exhausted, like he's sad.
Because he actually is. He is lost, he is exhausted, he is sad.
He's haunted by the time itself - by the past, by the present, by the future. And yet he moves forward. Because there's no other choice.
#their fight™ truly changed every damn thing in the narrative and we don't talk about it enough#anyway. I think about Ekko and his storyline way too much and yet I cannot put so many of my feelings into words.#arcane#arcane ekko#my usual s2ep7 thoughts keeping me awake at 2 AM#timebomb#<- because... *sigh* because.#Youtube
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john has arthur’s eyes, what if when he gains a corporeal form the price is that his eyesight doesn’t come back to him. Without looking through arthur’s eyes he can no longer see and therefore the roles reverse and it is arthur who is guiding john through the world once they separate. I will now be rotating this idea in my head for the next month
#losing my mind… why do i do these things to myself#this thought will now be keeping me awake for another hour#malevolent#malevolent podcast#john doe#arthur lester#malevolent arthur#malevolent john#private eyes#jarthur
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At what point was it decided that Kunikida would be the next president? Did something happen that made Fukuzawa concerned about what would happen to the agency in his absence? Was it a unanimous decision or something Fukuzawa decided himself? Was it before or after Dazai's entrance exam? How long has Fukuzawa really known Kunikida to be able to train him in martial arts and trust him fully enough to handle all the matters of the agency??? I NEED ANSWERS ASAGIRI-SENSEI I NEED ANSWERS........
#bungou stray dogs#bsd kunikida#bsd fukuzawa#bsd#thoughts that keep me awake at night#asagiri gatekeeping all this info for so long and for what#when they said they want to write about Kunikida#I'm waiting impatiently
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i’m a firm believer that:
heeseung is a panty stealer.
jay is into somnophilia.
jake watches milf porn.
sunghoon moans while masturbating.
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