#these people will have me feeling like its my fault im miserable because it was wrong of me to want to be sentient and real

[buwheal]

We can't hear it Spam, but it's real to you. I get auditory hallucinations a lot, and usually what helps me is a distraction. Maybe... name 5 things you can see? Or make paper airplanes with old messages, or draw some pictures. Otherwise, I'm sure someone has a crossword or story they can send you to help you out!

[gremzon]

I might have OCD actually

[tonycamonte]

[garpond]

I don't even want much id choose to live if someone could promise me I'll at least be okay and get by on my own but it looks like there's no way to go that isn't miserable and it eats at me! Why was I born just to watch other people have lives without ever wondering what it would be like if they didn't get the chance to join society properly. What's the point of that. What use is there to me being alive. It's just obnoxious to me, like. Who created me just to give me to someone else like property. If I was born to be my mother's lifeless object why did they need to give me the added mental pain of a brain that revolts against the very idea. Making me want what I can't ever have was just cruel and it's that that makes me want to give up most of all.

[nt3000s]

im so lucky to know so many people in my life to have met so many people in my life that are just life saving ill never not feel lucky people are so beautiful and kind and talented and funny and have so much worth everyone ive ever met anyone in my life i have ever touched i just cant believe it ill never be able to understand it how important everyone is how much i love people the degree to whihc i love people and everyone i have ever met ill just never ever be able to express the depth of how important it is to me it might be the most important part of my entire life. i just need people to know how much i love them im desperate for it to be known how important everyone ive ever met is to me. all of my friends everyone whos ever been kind to me and whoever ive been kind to it will never be lost on me how important it is. and i feel so lucky to be graced i guess by my friends. i cant imagine the life i would live without every event every person who ive ever crossed. i would never sacrifice anything to not be where i am now because of the people i know and have known. the people i know and talk to everyday or the people i see in a notification or pass by. i cant overstate your importance to me. i cant overstate how important i want people to feel. i want people to see themselves how i see them. i can not overstate your importance to me and i love you. im so lucky ill never be able to take it

[sunsetdesire]

been sick for a few days and i'm reaching my breaking point, wanna be cuddled and allowed to be a sick puppy so i don't have to think anymore.

[carrotpiss]

This is a bunch of sad lost and confused and frustrated and lonely sludge, advise not reading

[johnnycrass]

crying hard this morning, probably just because my cycles gonna start, but more so because i've failed so miserably at forming a group of friends whom i love that love me back that all live in this area. ive been here for almost 4 years and at every turn ive failed to create this reality. crying hard because its what i really want in life but the common denominator in all my past relationships has been ME... so who can be blamed here. is it stupid? im past that honestly, my desires are beyond that value judgement. ive wanted this since being homeschooled in isolation. i want to be in a "squad" that's literally it. i want to be invited to play pool and for us to look at flights to new york for a group qnd to have a group chat. ive done so much in the way of learning to live with, and try to enrich the lives of people of every kind, ive gone out of my way to meet others, others have inserted themselves in to my life yet here i am 26 and it feels like this is all a massive failing on my part. like im an 8 year old homeschooler with no friends again. i can't help but feel like its my own fault, i don't maintain these bonds enough, im not worth being a friend enough. some people have whole friend groups they can just fucking go to brunch with and do karaoke and shit i want it so badly

[correctthroam]

I read THROAM for the first time in ~5 years. Here's what I have to say.

Volume I: There was so many characters I forgot about when going into the fic. Pete, Jac, Spencers family. I cant believe I forgot them. Pete will always be a fave because everyone hates him and it makes me laugh. The first volume was always my 2nd favorite, I think it still is. overall, the storyline isn't complicated and I like that. Ryan is such an asshole so I dont feel bad for him one bit in any of the fic. Also, I used to say that the bus crash was Brendons fault (I was 13, okay?) But Ryan was just an unstable motherfucker who truly should not be trusted to drive a vehicle of any kind.

Volume II: holy shit. I hate volume two. Not saying the writing is bad but Jesus Christ, Ryan is an asshole. bro literally stalked Brendon after he ran into him at that party like what? I had messaged a friend after finishing volume 2, saying "I'm a really nice person I never wanna make people feel sad, let alone make a whole fictional story about someone being severely depressed and unstable whilst chasing a boy then fucking his bf at the end???" and I think that perfectly sums up how I feel (and always felt) about volume two. other than the fact that I used to say that it was Brendons fault. (I was 13. THIRTEEN) it wasn't his fault. Some parts were, yeah, but it's hard to pinpoint everything that happened on one person. at the end of the day, its a good story I just Hate it (does that make sense) I love it but I hate it? it remains my least favorite purely for the pain it put me through.

Volume III: I love this volume. I always have. Sisky is amazing, we all love Sisky. I will say the iconic song/album references/jokes made me cringe a bit, though. Im not exactly sure what about this fic I always liked so much, I guess you can really see Ryans character growth and finally not be as much as a miserable fuck (he's still unstable dw) Since Ryan is less insufferable, it makes the volume more enjoyable. I like that Spencer and Ryan became friends again, I think it makes the book more enjoyable and tbh I think Spencer rly tied vol 3 together, if he wasn't part of it it would lowk suck. overall, best volume cant wait to host the throam tour where we go to hotel Chelsea then machias.

final thoughts: if I thought throam was 100% good when I was 13, Id say now that I think throam is about 85% good now. (does that make sense pt 2) this fic has sent me back into being 13 and I have been blasting some pretty. odd. (im listening to it rn as im typing this) and listening to this album just makes my life feel more simple. still a solid fic, I think it would be an amazing published book. and I think we can all agree that it would be amazing to see THROAM movies (in our dreams)

Thanks for reading lol

[swaglet]

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for the past 6 out of the last 10 years since ive been 13 ive attempted to kill myself and none of them worked unfortunately and in the past few years ive been making plans on new years eve into new years day so theres virtually no way i have enough free time to go get a bottle of pills or the gun or a razor and try to kill myself especially not with other people around and this year my boyfriend and i are going on vacation and im worried that all im going to be thinking about is killing myself and then i ruin the vacation by being sad and #fail. its not like i even wholly want to kill myself its just the fear of being alive for one more year as the person i am and it just feels like habit to try and kill myself on new years because its just what ive done in the past and what needs to be done. i dont need to be alive to see (and ruin) another year. and the year always ends with terrible things happening to me and i just sit there and think of what a fundamentally burdensome and useless person i am and sometimes i think that the world would be objectively better if i was gone so i eventually convince myself to do it even if i dont want to. the people in my life certainly dont want me to do it but i dont think they get that their lives would objectively be better without me in it even if theyre sad and grieve me after im gone. whatever positives i bring to someones life is outnumbered almost tenfold by the horrible things i do and bring and cause. i try really hard not to feel this way about myself and i try really hard to love myself but i see the people around me and theyre so miserable no matter what i do. idk. this year has been really really hard and my mom and dad have been being geniunely mean to me lately and saying things with the intent to hurt my feelings and im sick of pretending like its not my fault

[writers-get-biters]

sooooo tired of feeling bad and shitty and stuck and miserable

fuck my relationship ocd i hate it so much and also fuck being forced to do stuff i dont want by people i dont want to be with sometimes (like now )they get into some sort of fucked up loop where i feel miserable because of stuff in my brain and then theres external stuff which also fucks it up more so then my disabilities become more disabling because obviously and then i get blamed and hurt more externally because of my disabilities that are not! my! fault! and then of course that makes internal shit worse so then im just stuck in the middle forced to pretend shit doesnt suck and actually im fine and actually everythings fine keep being "jokingly" mean to me and pushing my boundaries i dont care i get it its actually really okay if you say something to me that most other people i know offline wouldnt consider mean even though i have told you to stop its okay if you dont stop i guess i guess its fine if no one listens to me and i have to sit in miserable silence by myself because i dont even feel like doing anything that any of my ceters enjoy like drawing or our data entry projects or video games or writing and it doesnt matter i guess that im so stressed because since its from an arbitrary authoritative institution everyone is supposedly fine with that makes it totally okay and actually the real problem is me and i guess im the problem and reason why no one wants to talk to me or communicate with me the way i want to be talked to or otherwise communicated with yeah my bad i guess its all my fault and im supposed to just suck it up and stop complaining and also its creepy and wrong and bad i guess for me to try to cope with any of this the way that i want to and i guess yeah i need to and should be keeping it a secret because otherwise ill make everyone else uncomfortable and thats the worst possible outcome btw no person left behind unless its me in which case utilitarianism is always right and we cant give a shit about everyone yk like someone is always going to be miserable but we should prioritize the most people so if i mention kink (ew) or my other interests (ew) im a horrible really bad person actually because im making other people (more important than me. btw) uncomfortable and upset also i should ignore the fact that i am systematically and systemically being isolated from and kept away from people who might actually show understanding and kindness towards me or be in a similar position and extend the kind of support i desperately need but its cool because you keep saying youre only doing that because im "better than them" and actually youre helping me because "those people" are bad and wrong and harmful and they might make me (simultaneously innocent and guilty) do bad things like drugs that might offer a chance to alleviate some of my pain or transition to a bodymind i& want or be angry or just generally be a "bad person" and not be able to participate in the joys of continuing the chain of oppression and harm. but its fine because its for my benefit actually because you frame it as ""those people" have it so hard and theyre so unlucky (because theyre treated like shit by everyone which is true because people's actions are definitely a matter of "luck") and i just want to spare you from that" how kind of you wow youre so sweet and nice to me right now because i havent violated any of your rules yet what a great person you are because you let me be myself to a certain extent (a tiny little eensy-weensy extent but thats fine because its more than i deserve anyway) and since im being invited to participate in the continuation of oppression and pain it would be pretty rude for me to say no and if i did say no it would definitely justify treating me badly and doing all of the things you do to "those people" to me because im technically actually even worse than "those people" because i could have been normal i could have just accepted your rules (that were literally killing me to follow) (not that you noticed)

and also on the other hand the people arguing against you get to use me as their fun little trick-up-their-sleeve because obviously its ridiculous to treat someone like me the way that you have and will and i can be used as a perfect little pawn

[the ceter who wrote this switched out around here, but before they did, it asked that the others of us post this vent anyway if they were unable to finish or post it]

[bunnakit]

last twilight e3 thoughts feelings etc

so in the past ive watched the episodes and digested them and come back and rewatched to put together my thoughts but im kinda crunched for time today and have a mountain of work to do sooo i'm just gonna do this in one sitting and i'm so sorry if it's not as good or as coherent as what i usually deliver aaa. it's also going to be a bit longer than normal probably but i'll try to cut down on stuff that seems unnecessary or maybe just too obvious to comment on.

OH ITS STILL REALLY LONG EVEN WITH EDITING I'M SO SORRY.

oh them being playful with each other is everything to me. oh my god and Mhok learned, he listened to Porjai and he learned to organize and clean and do things with Day as an active participant so he knows where everything is and is taking control of his own life. oh we're only 3 minutes in and i'm emotional, okay.

i do love that we get to see the way Day has isolated himself and that while his family haven't helped there's also a large part of it that is his doing. ive said it before but when you're newly disabled it can be so so easy to isolate yourself. hell, i've been diagnosed for almost 10 years and i still do it from time to time as my condition worsens because it's hard. there are so many questions you have to answer, there's the anxiety of not knowing if people are going to be accommodating to your needs, and sometimes it takes twice or even three times the energy it used to take before because every action is a little harder now. it can be terrifying to put yourself out there again and you will lose friends in the process. there will be people that don't understand, that find you to be an inconvenience, that won't make accommodations for you, and it will hurt every time but saying goodbye to those people is always ultimately for the better - but it doesn't make it hurt less. as much as i'd love the realism of it, i hope we don't have to see Day go through that.

Day's story about his friend is interesting, too. he says he doesn't want to be pitied by his friends but the thing is. they just did that, they accommodated their friend, and from the sound of it they did it without judgement. so why couldn't it be the same for him? it just shows more of his anxiety and his fear.

"i felt like my life was worthless. all i saw in people's eyes was insult."

screaming. crying. throwing up. i don't need to say anything about this but i thought you all should know it made me ill.

"once i'm ready you'll be the first to get my invitation card." Porjai and Mhok's friendship means so so fucking much to me.

here's the thing, my best friend and i dated in high school, we were 16 and fucking stupid and toxic and our home lives were shit and we took it out on each other and we made each other fucking miserable by the end of things. we didn't talk again for over five years. it took time to come back together, to heal and accept our own faults in what went wrong. we stumbled here and there as we came back together but now? almost 10 years later i don't know what i'd do without him. that's my platonic soulmate, that's the one person besides my husband i can share anything with. fuck, he knows more about my life than my husband does because he was there to see me at my worst, at the scariest point in my life where i almost wasn't around anymore to see tomorrow. that kind of friendship is so fucking special, i cannot even properly put it into words, and for Mhok to keep that? to have that with Porjai? i'm so fucking glad he has that. i'm so glad he got to keep his platonic soulmate.

small aside, i love that Mhok consistently announces himself to Day. it's a little action but it's so considerate. he's honestly doing such an incredible job.

Day puts his sunglasses on like armor; like they can shield him from the judging stares or looks of pity he can't see. maybe someday he won't need them, not because his heart has hardened to take the blows, but maybe because he knows Mhok is by his side. because remember - it's the way they look at us.

"i heard you wanted to take time off and focus on badminton" Night i'm going to drown you in your own toilet. this is just furthering my thoughts from episode 2 that Night is ashamed of his brother and his condition, or perhaps that the family is trying to hide his condition for some fucking stupid reason.

the bravery it took Day to come here and admit whats happening to his is huge, but i'm also in love with the admissions admin saying sure, you can have time off, but you're not allowed to quit. you're not allowed to give up on yourself.

"we must live with hope, Day" and that's it. you have to. you just have to. every day is going to be so hard and so much, you'll have good and bad days, but at least in all those days you'll have hope. and maybe someday that hope won't be for new eyes. maybe that hope will turn into acceptance, into determination, into pride at what you've accomplished in spite of it all. in my opinion, hope is an amazing fuel but it's not sustainable, it's just a vehicle to get you to where you need to be.

Mhok asking a blind man for a tour, oh fuck fuck fuckfuckufkcufk-- Mhok essentially saying show me your world exactly as you remember it, let me in. see how things have changed and how they've remained the same and do it with me by your side.

THE WAY MHOK SHIELDS HIM AT THE LIBRARY. DAY DOESN'T NEED TO WEAR HIS SUNGLASSES LIKE ARMOR BECAUSE MHOK IS BY HIS SIDE AS HIS SHIELD. chewing my own arm off brb.

"and you also have me. nothing to be afraid of" because i will always shield you, i will always protect you, i will stand by your side AAAA--

on part 3/4 now, i promise i'll shut the fuck up soon. if you've read this far pls take this as a smooch checkpoint, i'm giving you a little forehead smooch. have you had any water today? taken your meds? relax your shoulders, unclench your jaw.

ok back to it - Mhok continuously having Day make his own selections in these various machines. Day's fate is in his hands, he can do these things himself, but Mhok will be there with him the whole way.

"my eyes don't work well but my legs do just fine." this is such a massive leap from the man that wouldn't even leave his bedroom, from the man that was suffocating in his environment. Day is no longer a dying man, a shambling corpse. he is an active participant in his own life again.

"stay close to me, that's all i need" bitch i'm gonna throw up, you can't just hit me with that after that's all i've been saying this whole time what the fuck.

OH FUCK ME. okay. alright. hang on. so when they enter the shop Mhok describes it to Day, explains where the jeans are, where the shirts are, asks him what to do and what he wants to take a look at. this is a direct antithesis of Night in episode 1 asking where Day was going to wait for him, where he could leave him so he could get his shit done. Day isn't being asked to wait, to just sit idle while life passes him by, he's being asked what he wants to do, where he wants to go, what he wants to see. FUUUUUCK. and knowing Mhok is doing this because Day expressed that he liked dressing nicely? how the fuck am i supposed to just go to my job like a normal person after this episode.

wow the shirt buttoning scene just made me so mentally ill. right now, Mhok is doing his job. he's helping Day get dressed. but someday? someday this could be Mhok dressing Day not because he needs him to help but simply because Mhok likes doing to for Day. there's the sensuality of caring for your partner, of running your hands over the planes of their shoulders, of skimming your fingers down their chest to pluck every button. it's an exploration and a declaration of love. if we get this again in a future scene and it's something like that please remember me fondly because i will perish.

at the bookstore Mhok recognizing Day doesn't want to wait, but Day has become so accustomed to the other people in his life telling him what to do that he falls back into that behavior - but Mhok doesn't let him. he prioritizes Day's needs and desires, even if it's something as little as finding a book, without being asked.

THE LAST PAGE IS MISSING.

(because one can't see his future and the other can't see in the future, but also because they'll make their own ending, they'll face that when they get there, but they'll do it together -- what if i lost my shit completely of it?)

when Mhok leaves Day to get him a drink the camera is focused on Day and the clear warring emotions on his face but if you look in the background Mhok hesitates, he stops and turns a few times to look at day. he's reluctant to leave him and worried. Mhok worries so much but it's always so understated or in the background, covered by the emotions of others he values above himself. (or overlooked because of 'what type of person he is')

while its anxiety inducing i do enjoy this regression of behavior because adapting to a new life is hard. you will regress, you will stumble, you will fall into old habits or sometimes old fears will return. its what you do after that that is important. the one thing i hope doesn't happen is i hope this doesn't cause a rift with Porjai. i think Mhok needs her right now, maybe not forever, but definitely right now.

HE PUT ON THE FUCKING SHIRT. THE FUCKING SHIRT DAY COULD SEE FROM MARS. OH MY GOD. i know this doesn't need to be commented on, i know it's obvious, but FUUUUCK.

Day's mom trying to weaponize Mhok's past and Mhok taking the ammunition from her hands and telling Day himself. the acceptance of the past and the determination to move on and grow from it. Day's refusal to let the past repeat itself with a new caretaker. whoo boy.

and again Day wants to see Mhok, because even bruised and battered Mhok is worth seeing.

if the last episode ends with "sweet dreams/good night" i will be burying myself alive, thanks.

THE PINK SHIRT RUINING HIS BAD BOY IMAGE BECAUSE IT IS BEING RUINED. HE'S MOVING ON, HE'S GROWING, HE'S BECOMING A NEW PERSON. FUCK OFF.

i'm so so sorry this was so long, every episode makes me feel more and more things and makes me analyze shit more and more.

tagging @benkaaoi and @callipigio as requested (if you want to be added to my last twilight meta tag list just let me know!)

[yipperkitty]

pinned

Quinn the Felicanis Transirius (catdog) (he/him)

(added nipple pasties to the nude version cos i like the aesthetic lmao i don’t normally do that)

this is my trans fursona!!! :D make all your fursonas trans do it right now /nf

Quinn is so me, i really hope i stick with this fursona (i have a tendency to make like 10 in one sitting and draw none of them again lmao)

backstory under cut (warning for mentions of transphobia, neglect, idk if abuse is the right word? but quinn’s. um. “parents” are not the best :/ theres also some like,,, denial? like “im overreacting, everything’s fine” that type of thing. let me know if there are other warnings i should add!)

Quinn is half cat half dog as a result of genetic engineering and manipulation. basically he’s a lab rat created by two scientists, a cat and a dog, who combined their own genes to make him. in essence, he is their son

his purpose is lost on him, and he often feels as though he only exists because someone wanted to prove something, but now that its been proven, hes neglected by those who gave him life

well, one of them neglects him. but he’s pretty sure it’s because he came out as trans. the other tries to understand him and fails miserably

is it his fault he wants to run away… find people who will understand him ,,

but maybe he’s overreacting. he sometimes feels like he is. after all, the scientists are doing what they can, they’ve never raised a hybrid before. he’s unpredictable, of course they’d have issues raising him. raising anyone is hard enough work, but he doesn’t quite behave like a cat OR a dog. there are times when the traits present themselves (he loves chewing on things like a dog, and he purrs like a cat when he’s happy) but despite the similarities he sees between him and his creators, he still feels like he's alone in this world

and they let him do what he wants for the most part, he has freedom. if anything they might be happy to see him go

they’re doing what they can, he just wishes it felt like enough

hahaaa can yall tell this is kinda metaphorical 🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩

[fleapit]

“No one is saying gender is a choice”

https://www.tumblr.com/genderkoolaid/752910129568055297/we-should-start-having-the-gender-talk-with-our

They quite literally are. Though. As well as identities, treating as them as if they’re just toppings you pick and choose rather than descriptors that have minimal criteria. Calling yourself ftm because you “like the label” and being ftm bc you have sex dysphoria and wish to/try to/are transitioning to a more male body are two incredibly different things, you don’t ��choose your gender” you simply are a gender, and the “progressive trans people” (ie people co-opting this for whatever reason, to feel special mainly) pushing this idea are fucking over actual trans people to a fucking giant degree.

dude im going to be so honest with you, youve been in and out of my inbox for three days and it's kind of weird that you keep refreshing my blog to send me asks about this still. that is NOT what the post you linked is talking about and you need to work on your reading comprehension. that post is talking about how we should make it EASIER FOR KIDS TO COME OUT AS TRANS because gender identity is fluid and is something that they can change, which a transphobic society tells them is impossible. fuck, dude.

literally nobody is saying that being trans is a choice. but fucking honestly man, even if it was, why do you care? it doesnt affect you. i mean this in the nicest way possible but if someone does/doesnt experience dysphoria, how they identify, what their personal feelings are on THEIR presentation and their gender? that's just none of your business! and you don't get to go around demanding to know every little bit of someones traumatic experience- or lack there of- to decide if they're 'trans enough' or not.

nobody is pretending to be trans to feel special dude. thats right wing propaganda bullshit that you've fallen for. you just dont know their life and you are not the fucking authority on it. your experience will never ever be 1:1 with someone else and you can't decide that yours is the superior one to have. you don't get to decide that someone isn't trans just because their identity doesn't make sense to you. fucking grow up.

someone else's joy is not obliterating yours. it's not a random trans person on the internet's fault that you have dysphoria. stop blaming other people for your problems when they're struggling just as much as you. you aren't entitled to the details. move on with your life and MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY instead of trying to make OTHERS just as miserable as you are, because no matter how much complaining you do, someone isn't going to just STOP being multigender or STOP being a trans man and a woman or STOP being nonbinary just because YOU DECIDED it wasn't real and they were 'faking for attention'

honestly. we're all just trying to pay our fucking bills. it doesn't fucking matter to the people trying to murder us if you're a binary trans man good perfect ideal tranny who passes 100% or a multigender fagdyke they/its 'pick-me attention seeker' - THERE ARE NO GOOD QUEERS IN THEIR EYES, AND THEY WANT US DEAD. i think that takes priority.

just mind your fucking business and you'll find yourself a lot fucking happier. good lord.

[luveline]

Hi jade!!

Everything has been so so so hard for me lately, i have no clue what to do and how to change how miserable ive been feeling. Today my therapist asked if i want to get started on antidepressants and i honestly don't know what to think

hi lovely!

im not a doctor nor a therapist of any kind so my first impulse is to tell you to try what they’ve recommended to you, but its also perfectly acceptable to be unsure of what to think about it because trying a medication is hard. I can’t firsthand tell you what to do or what you should take but I’m a big believer in having what you need, and im sure there are probably tens and tens of people seeing this post alone that would say yes honey! Get medicated! Cos medication for mental illness a large majority of the time is life saving!! But at the same time I don’t want to push you toward something I don’t have much knowledge about, so it’s just about what you’re feeling I suppose, and finding the right medication for you won’t always be easy but the difference it can make is usually worth it. One of my sisters cannot function without her antidepressants, she becomes very upset day to day, and I genuinely believe that her being medicated has made a difference, but at the same time, she isn’t always willing to be medicated because of how it changes the way she feels. So it’s all upto you and how you’ll feel, but i hope whatever happens is a good fix or makes you feel a bit better at least

I do have more experience with being miserable and not knowing what to do, I’m so sorry you’re feeling that way!! It must be so hard to feel like you don’t know what to do, and to be faced with a new question of what your therapist might want. You have entered the very important step of getting assistance for how you’re feeling, which is good, but that doesn’t necessarily make it any easier. It’s easy to know how to change or what you should think, but harder to be able to change, harder to actually think differently, and not because you aren’t trying (or even because you’re too tired to really try). It’s not because you’ve done anything wrong lovely, you probably know already but your misery isn’t your fault. Things being hard isn’t fair! Things being so so difficult for you is awful and I’m sorry, I’d genuinely change it for you if I could. Especially when everything feels hard. You start to wonder if you can even do life because you can’t cope, but you can! I’m not a fan of that toxic positivity stuff cos it’s not helpful and I bet most people know that by now, but it’s totally okay for you to think wow, everything sucks, I am having such an unfair go of things right now, and I desperately need support. So please be as honest with your healthcare providers as you can safely, and please be as nice to yourself as you can manage while you’re navigating this! I love you, I hope you can feel better soon!

[sparrowmoss]

the acolyte episode 3 livetweet post SPOILERSSSSSSS

curious to know why the little girls playing young osha and mae are not identical twins. just an interesting choice when u have the same person playing the adults so obviously they are identical

NIGHT SISTER?????

oh no we’re about to find out the bad stuff

oh my god their mother is the coolest looking woman ive ever seen

okay not a night sister just a zabrak. and this zabrak is their other mom. so why did they call her koril and not also mom or something

OH MY GODDDDD YESSSSSS YES YES YES GETTING TO SEE OTHER FORCE WIELDING PRACTICES!!!!!!!! YES YES YES YES YES

witches… so… Maybe a night sister thing. maybe just other witches

osha i love you. you are so great and i relate to you so bad it makes me feel ill

FUCK this is so cool

ABIGAIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dude the wookiee has a part shaved head thats so cool

ohhh it is mother koril. okay!

oh my god the actual. hypocrisy of this. the jedi. im Laughing this is so unbelievable. no ones allowed to have children and raise them in their own force sensitive practices that can only be done by the jedi

“the jedi do not take children” LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

what you’re doing is wrong but i love you sol

sol what are you doing man

oh

man im so fucking mad at both sides. why do none of you want to give these children their own choice. it should be up to them what they want to do. mae should be allowed to stay with her mothers and osha should be allowed to learn about her other options and not be forced to take the same path as her sister

oh now mother aniseya says “osha wants to do it” which i am glad for

“she is old enough to know what she wants” so true!

hm. mixed feelings on this. i think koril should get just as much say if shes their other mom but she is still wrong on this

torbin is sooooo cute oh my god

LMAKSJSKFJKSD OSHA failing at lying 😭😭😭😭

oh dude im gonna cry. “there are other children there?” godddd what a miserable life

appreciate the rejection of destiny and saying you make your own choices. just on a personal level

them both cryinf is making me tear up i dont like this

mae what the fuck dude

dude whats even catching on fire its a room made of stone and metal

WHAT is GOING ONNNN that little fire didnt do all this did it

watching sol become attached in real time right here

THATS THE END???? man i…. im…. hmmm… i expected the jedi to have done something quite bad. but a child with codependency issues set fire to her entire town because these people and her mothers potentially intended to let her sister choose her own path. i really thought it was going to have been the jedis fault. the only thing they did that i take issue with is indaras initial implication that no one other than the jedi are allowed to train anyone to wield the force. but it seems like in the end the jedi were also going to give osha the choice whether or not to come with them….????