#these are perhaps affirmations

[halfdeadwallfly]

you know, i'm so excited to go back to school. i'm going to work more on my research essay from last semester and submit it to compete. i'm going to start with physics from the first day so i don't end up behind again. i'm going to go to the library and grab a booth and read. i'm going to get sleep. i'm going to make myself coffee with vanilla creamer in the morning. i'm going to sit outside under the ginkgos in the spring and breathe. i'm going to go to queer club meetings. i'm going to go to rehearsal and absolutely nail all the new acappella rep. i'm going to keep remembering how my friends' cars smell. i'm going to eat dumplings for lunch and peer out the windows behind my back. i'm going to do my dishes after i use them. i'm going to stop for dinner at the food trucks on thursdays. i'm going to talk to people in my classes. i'm going to stand at the balcony and breathe in instead of peering over the railing. i'm going to walk with my head straight on my way back from the dining hall. i'm going to eat outside of my room. i'm going to take in the sun on the blades of grass on my walk to class. i'm going to marvel at the swirl of gray in the clouds. i'm going to let the wind push me along and i'm going to dance with it. i'm going to be beautiful.

[triptychofvoids]

actually, since i just received an ask that read very much like a scam;

to my young trans followers, please be wary of people that are wanting to take advantage of you. be very careful of people asking you to dm them who may claim to offer you any sort of gender affirming care online. check for credibility, inform yourself and knowledgeable about hrt/other trans related care and do your research on these topics. block and report blogs that wish to take advantage of you and other trans people and stay safe!

[cyberpunkboytoy]

Lord, let my days be yaoiful. May my mind be sharp like a seme's chin and my weakness become bara strength.

[commandertartarsmoocher]

Oh hey,

I bet the professor didn't even consider that his sentient AI invention would be capable of complex feelings such as grief.

[Posting both versions because I'm indecisive]

[sunsetbridge555]

pillow dogs blanket dogs

[darkfictionjude]

Just to give another perspective on the whole choosing contradicting gender and genitalia thing — to me that is a feature, not a bug and I love whenever that is an option (even if done by accident).

I love playing as a trans man (because it`s affirming) but at the same time indulge in my own wish to have been born with a dick, because it is fiction after all where I can pretend that‘s a thing that‘s possible. And especially because most fiction (IF or not) don‘t offer the option to play as a trans man with phallo, it‘s kind of the only way to simulate it, really.

I don‘t care about it being contradictory, so I‘m very happy you said you wouldn‘t change it (also I‘m really not sure why someone would like to take already existing options away —as you said, just don‘t choose them).

I’m happy you got your wish then!!! Like as long as it makes sense to you nothing else matters what your Crowny looks like in all aspects is your domain

My thing is that I can’t hold anyone’s hand in IF that’s the whole point it’s not my choice like y’all are adults do as you wish 🤷🏽‍♀️

[fortisseto]

I woke up from a rare dream about my boyfriend this morning. The thing is, my boyfriend and I weren't ourselves, we were Edwin and Charles. Our usual arrangement: I'm his Edwin, he's my Charles. So the first thing the dream changed was the fact that I was Charles. He was Edwin. Strange already...

Anywho, we're all in the car—I say all because Crystal was there as well, driving the car—my dream-boyfriend-Edwin and I in the backseat. Like the affectionate person I am, and because of some subconscious level, I knew these dreams didn't come by often, I tried to kiss the guy. THAT BASTARD PULLS AWAY FROM MY ATTEMPT AS SOON AS MY LIPS HIT HIS, AND I, ME-CHARLES, ASK "Are... my lips too dry?" HE. NODS. WHAT THE FUCK.

So I get embarrassed, he notices, and tries kissing me again (as fucking if). I'm petty of course, so I go "Your lips are dry too." This motherfucker will not let me kiss him anywhere after that because of my dry lips. We end up cuddling afterwards, but come on, I want the extra stuff.

Anywho, there's this long line when we stop at the gas station, so Crystal is in the car and dream-boyfriend-Edwin and I go outside (for reasons fucking unknown). We walk around, hand in hand, for a little while until these kids (who can for some reason see us) come up to us and ask EDWIN "Is that your girlfriend?"

IS THAT YOUR WHAT FRIEND. HE THEN LOOKS AT ME, LAUGHS, AND KNEELS TO SAY, "Yes, that is my girlfriend." (Even worse cause we are both trans??)

Anywho, he ends up leaving to go somewhere when we arrive at this house, but "promising he'll be back shortly," so Crystal and I talk for two hours until the dream ends. Bastard.

( boyfriend in question: @morphean42 )

[thatsbelievable]

[ratcandy]

do uou accept applications for evil henchmen...

yes. i need people to refer to me as Boss again

[anonymocha]

I am not immune to giant ditzy eldritch goddess

oc

[baycitystygian]

would you get a paul williams related tattoo?

I'm open to it but I'm not much of a tattoo girlie, my interests change quickly and with how often I get new interests the idea of having something permanent that's painful to remove makes me a little hesitant 😂I could see myself getting one or two small tattoos but they'd have to have a lot of meaning. Definitely one for my Sammy, but also I could see myself maybe getting some of paulie's lyrics on me somewhere 💕

either that or a tramp stamp to remind any partner who I really am. /jk

[soapyfresh]

🫧

[wiklm]

I Dont Want to Be Alone is such a good and fun song and i adore it and i want to make a little animatic to it but i can’t actually think of any couple they’re just a vague blur in my head and i can’t solidify them enough to make an attempt . day in my life. this is a constant struggle that i have yet to overcome even once

[tenaciousrumour]

thinking about sucking a tboys strap. him forcing me to my knees, coy gaze stuck to his cock protruding from his fly. legs spread wide, confident, his hand a firm weight against the top of my head. it's almost a pet, his caress growing rougher as he clenches his fist and guides my face to his crotch. I can smell him here. sweat and musk and his cologne. platform boots won't make me taller when I'm kneeling. saliva blooms and I make eye contact as my tounge flicks upon the head of his strap. kitten licks, a sloppy half kiss as it breaches my mouth.

a moan rattles in my chest and I look upwards, seeking his approval. he grants it.

[retordedd]

I never use this blog because the eddsworld fandom is genuinely the only fandom I've been completely fucking miserable trying to engage with. It's full of trans people and yet the community is SO hostile towards non-afab or non masc aligned in some way trans people. I've had people blatantly refused to respect my pronouns after saying they would. I've been misgendered in a server full of trans people where literally no one else was misgendered because there were pronoun roles. In that same server, while I was uplifting trans people making jokes about being proud of their bodies, they made fun of me for not having breasts. I've had multiple people debate my boundaries like it's a topic of discussion because I asked not to be called dude, a GENDERED TERM. I've had people gang up on me to the point of tears because I dared to describe my experiences being raised with an unconventional relationship to gender. I've been accused of holding grudges and being aggressive for even daring to speak up when I'm tired of being treated this way

And these events don't refer to a bunch of random assholes, they refer to people well known in the fandom. People I've seen on multiple servers. People whose names you say and it gets recognized

The eddsworld fandom has a HUGE transmisogyny problem and it needs to be discussed. The way I constantly feel unsafe when in a fandom surrounded by trans people is completely unacceptable

[fifteenpuzle]

hey so they were about to kiss here right…