#there's sososos many things.

[sukugo]

So as a fellow sukugo shrine sweeper, I feel like I have to share this with you first:

That's it. It was over. They all watched as Gojo fell to the rubble beneath his feet. Shallow, raspy breaths and the gurgling of blood would only be poetic in a moment such as this.

"You fought well, my sorcerer." Sukuna's words weren't a verbal sneer. He stated it as fact, therefore it was so. He walked to the highest pile of former buildings and sat down. "I will give you a choice, Satoru Gojo. You die here and now, or you can crawl to me. After all, it would be a shame to lose you. You've taught me something that no one else could."

Everything was shaking. It was too much but nothing at all. Gojo could only cling to the voice in front of him, to the eyes of the god before him. Crawl, Sukuna had said. What did he have to lose? The world was fucked either way, and he had caused so much destruction.

The refuge in his audacity had run out.

The refuge ahead was still here. Just a few steps away.

Stumbling was something he didn't think was possible when crawling. He never had to worry about it before.

A clawed hand raked through his blood crusted hair. If he wasn't using the king of curses as a bedrock for his sanity, he might have been startled.

"There we are, Satoru. I'm glad you made the right decision. Come here, and I will tell you what you taught me." He pulled Gojo between his legs and the sorcerer laid his head on the other's leg. He felt Sukuna healing his wounds right under his fingertips, and gasped as it overflowed into his bones.

Not quite healing, but more a brand. A mark of victory, pouring into his cracked cup of a body. He felt Sukuna filling every empty space, not just his mind, but his physical form as well.

He didn't know when his eyes had closed, but Malevolent Shrine was kinda hard to miss.

"Why so quiet all of a sudden?"

"It's not empty anymore. It's quiet." Was it always this dark?

"Your six eyes caused that void. I removed the problem. Made you whole. You were born rare, but also broken. Empty. I suspected that was what was wrong with you, but... you don't have to worry about that now."

"Explains why everything is so fucking dark."

A barking laugh came from above him.

"A small price for me filling your void."

"Careful now, I'm already on my knees." Gojo wise cracked. "But what did I teach you?"

"Love." That's... not what he was expecting. " You and I are very similar. That is the reason why our fight was as fulfilling as it was destructive. We fill and heal the void that makes us restless... but only you can give that to me. Just as I will be the only one for you."

The curse lifted him up onto his lap, and Gojo gently examined his remains of his eyes. Gone.

"When they regenerate, they will be no different than normal eyes, little sorcerer."

"When??"

"I would prefer if my love could see me." Gojo parted his lips to speak, but an insistent press of lips took the words from him.

When they parted, Gojo could only formulate one solid question:

"What would I see, Sukuna?"

The god holding him, his grin unseen, leaned back into his throne.

"That I alone...

...am the exalted one."

Sorry if this is really long or seem ooc, I was vibing to Neoni and things happened. I hope you enjoy though!!

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sorry i just. i need a fucking moment. IAUGHKDGAJFHKJLJASDLAJFKADKASÑ IM SCREAMING

THANK U SO SOSOSOOSOS MUCH FOR SHARING THIS IT'S SO GOOD AND IM NOT OKAY FUCK

[cowboyweevil]

I love how you draw harvey so much I’m going to throw up and die I think

[softest-butch]

wip game!!

thank you for the tag @platoapproved !

His face was to be neutral, as was always to be expected when he was in service. The scene was to be no different from any other day. Rashid was to be part of the furniture. Rashid was also to be nude.

Louis, thrill only palpable to Armand by virtue of their vampiric connection, hadn’t spared a glance his way. He took his martini.

‘Something wrong, Daniel?’

Daniel clicked off the recording.

‘Something wrong?’ He barked half a laugh. ‘No, nothing. No. Rent boy’s just starting a bit early tonight.’

Armand kept his gaze fixed. Remembered his slow, practised blinks. Daniel had called him a rent boy once before, the previous day – something Louis had drawled into his ear later, something that made Arun fawn and Amadeo anger and Armand twitch with something like curiosity. He wanted to peel back the layers of Daniel’s mind, see himself through his eyes.

‘Rashid is not a prostitute, Daniel,’ came Louis’ voice, unaffected. ‘Rashid is here to serve.’

‘What, serving up draughts of AB negative straight from the jugular yesterday wasn’t enough? Can’t wait to see what’s next.’

‘Dinner is what’s next, Daniel. That and the continuation of our session. Now – shall we proceed?’

‘Fuck this.’ Daniel pushed his drink away. ‘I didn’t ask to be in the middle of whatever extracurricular shit you guys have got going on.’

‘You sat and watched Rashid offer himself to me yesterday,’ Louis said, measured.

‘Yeah, yeah, good one.’ Daniel fixed his eyes on Armand. ‘What do you think, Rashid? How about dinner? You wanna serve me some exotic bird, him some Russian bouncer? That okay with you? Hey, you want me to turn the air con down? All this brutalist flooring, and still a lot to get through this session, I imagine you’re going to get cold.’

tagging @gaysie and/or anyone who fancies x

[deathsbestgirl]

okay i'm gonna try this again because i think i can say it better:

my post about mulder wasn't to say he's perfect or literally never done anything wrong or to hurt scully. i'm a mulder apologist to the extreme (scully too if you haven't noticed), but that isn't what i was doing.

mulder isn't doing it *to* her. he's doing what he does, he's working, he's following a path simultaneously set out for him & that he forged. he isn't intentionally doing anything to her, and he isn't being thoughtless or an asshole. that's so extremely reductive to me. yes i keep referencing trauma, because this fandom talks endlessly about scully's and dismisses mulder's. (all that the path to hell is paved with good intentions.)

but mainly what i'm talking about is that he's not responsible for her abduction, cancer, emily, melissa, etc etc. like i stated in the post. and somehow, he's still getting blamed for these things? as if it isn't the fault of aliens & the conspiracy of men & csm. literally everyone except mulder because he did not have a hand in it, he did not orchestrate any of it. a lot of the things scully goes through is because of these men who think they're gods, who have too much money & too much power. and the other chunk of it is the dangers of their job. which scully is aware of and she still chose then fbi. it's literally at the core of why she chose it, even if it takes her time to figure it out.

mulder does a lot because of his trauma & because he wants to believe, and it's all stepped in love. the alternative to not believing is terrifying for him — the way believing is terrifying for scully. they are so similar, but still fundamentally different. their approaches, their childhoods, their perspectives, what they cling to. they both deal with their trauma in different ways, and one very similar way: diving into work, using it to bury what they can't yet face or deal with, or bring into the light (each other).

anytime i talk about trauma, i don't mean "every single thing he did was perfectly okay because trauma" — i just mean people need room to figure that out and it isn't something he does *to* her. @actual-changeling said it pretty well here. intentions don't erase hurt but he's never tried to hurt her, and she's never tried to hurt him. it doesn't mean it didn't hurt them and of course that's valid. but it still isn't even what i was talking about. but i guess i'm going to anyway.

a huge part of their relationship is learning to communicate clearly & openly. people aren't just born knowing how to do it, and certainly not people with their history. this is how you heal & grow. (yes therapy can help, but it's extremely hard to do alone. because healing in relationship, in my opinion, is the most effective way. someone who will stick around for the hard parts, work with you through trial & error. loving you through your mistakes & struggles, as you're learning/unlearning. and it goes both ways.)

mulder carries guilt for things that aren't his fault (as does scully). i understand talking about it in this respect, but that isn't what i see very often. it's how horrible he is for what he does to her & puts her through. when most of what happens to scully is because of the job & csm & the syndicate. scully understood the dangers of her job. in irresistible, she tells karen kosseff she's aware there's predators in the world, it's her job to bring justice to these people and she needs to believe she's capable. she couldn't open up to mulder in that way yet, so she dealt with it in her own way. (she does this with her family too, she's the strong one.) later in the cancer arc, she admits to karen kosseff that she relies on mulder & his strength — but the only way she opened up emotionally, with true vulnerability, was in the letters she wrote to him in a journal. that she intended him to have after her death. it takes her years to just call him and not hang up when she needs him, and really it happens in fits and starts and backpedaling. but they continuously try! mulder is always trying to let her know she can show him her vulnerability, that he's there to support her. and she does the same for him. there are times they're successful, usually at very trying times for them. where they do talk, they take physical comfort. they learn the ways the other will accept care.

in fire, mulder pushes scully away but he learns it's a way she cares for him. doctorly & physical. he touches her cheek in beyond the sea & firewalker. she touches his arm in squeeze, conduit, pusher. she runs face first into his chest in the pilot, he lifts her chin & hugs her in irresistible. scully covers him in a blanket and pulls his head to her shoulder in herronvolk when his mom is lying in a hospital, near death. they learned each other's minds, what comforts the other and what they will allow and it slowly expands. as does their verbal communication.

i don't mean that his actions don't affect her, but it takes mulder a long time to really understand it because scully does not communicate her feelings, wants, needs. that's something that takes her a long time. there are ways they've both communicated these kinds of things that the other wasn't able to understand, or maybe didn't take seriously because of the circumstances. syzygy, never again, elegy, fight the future, triangle, dreamland, one son. it's why, to me, it's important leonard betts comes after never again. in never again they struggle to communicate, they're not on the same page. the choose silence instead of talking about it. but in leonard betts, he helps her dig through body parts without question. he tells her she did a good job, she should be proud. he didn't get it in never again, but he started to and he did something about it. there are many ways to take responsibility and changed actions, voicing things that matter, that the other person should hear is part of it.

sometimes i just think people are very unforgiving of mulder's struggle, the way he is because of his trauma. and he always does something wrong that's talked about almost like it's unforgivable when that isn't true. even if he was selfish in the cancer arc, he's helpless watching the person he loves most die "because" of him. someone who deserves answers & the truth as much as he does.

it upsets me because it's one of the most realistic & human things about them. it's one of the things handled so beautifully in this show. it's often so raw, the depth of connection & effort & patience & love. despairing yet full of hope & wonder. it so often robs scully of the little agency she does have. it feels dismissive to only focus on scully's. to ignore every step they take together & apart, the ways they change each other, the way they forgive each other everything because they have this intrinsic understanding.

scully's entire arc is difficult to watch, but so much of it is true to the reality of what women experience. yes it's a lot, but it's a tv show. and a scifi horror drama one at that. do they textually cover every single thing? no, but a lot of it is weaved into their cases (kaddish is always a standout to me) and the acting (which if you believe ga, comes across so well in the script she's able to grasp the cancer arc through them alone, not having experience with it herself). there is so much meaning in everything on this show.

the x files is about love because everything mulder (and scully) does is about love, comes from love. and people don't always love perfectly or well. and everyone understands the world & love differently. something else i think is incredibly poignant about their relationship. they keep learning each other until their way of loving completely merges on the foundation of their trust & faith in each other.

[softdreamlesssleep]

God, "I missed you" sex is the best

[tamagotchikgs]

i can remember being 12 & even younger staring at my body n my face in the mirror n knowing i was hideous n i needed to fix it n promising myself i would so i can actually live & be of worth and yet . ive never gotten there. ive never gotten close. it's just repeat n repeat and im still here stuck in the same exact mindset never changing never growing never experiencing anything because it was all on hold n im still. sitting here staring at myself but unable to grow or do or feel anything like im supposed to. i dont have a personality or any traits to share i only have thoughts telling me how awful i am . how i need to fix it. how i need to fix everything . over and over for years

[marcmorrigan]

once again drawing my OCs half-dressed and draped over each other. as you do

OCs: maive (she/her) | seyva (they/them)

[witherfide]

2 years since security breach already ??

[emmafaeru]

one of the things that's insane to me about terraria is it's lack of online prescence. it's the 10th best selling video game of all time. there's like 3 people who make videos about it. it's been around for 13 years. there's not even 400 fics tagged as terraria on ao3. 45 million people have played it. there are maybe 4 pieces of fanart somwhere if you really dig for them. and the crazy part is I totally agree. I have never wanted to create about terraria. I have rarely if ever wanted to consume content about terraria. this is a game I have a disgusting amount of hours in and I would give a very high rating of and I have never once gone feral over it like I have with other things I consume. terraria is this ball of awesomeness of a game mixed with this complete fucking undecipherable void of a prescence and i think it's insane

[deadrlngers]

Mojave? Mo' problems for sure with these two around — Moira (my courier) & Bro (best friend's oc) 💥

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[endbeginning]

and if i said.... pet.er peve.nsie.....

[bakingmoomins]

one thing about me is i will make you think about the inherent link between math and knitting and crochet

[ilostyou]

thinking very hard about how we had every core member of the 118 in buck's room at one point or another to just. be there or to talk or to make sure everything's fine but ...... never the buckley parents. chim all but stood watch outside the door, hen sat quietly and stayed when eddie and christopher came by, athena had her own piece to say, and of course. bobby. and once he wakes up maddie is constantly in the room with him, talking with the doctors and "oh she's been warned, not even by me" and and the whole 118 (+ chris) come in and he's literally the happiest he's ever looked he might as well be glowing but who's not there? the buckley parents. no this doesn't make them evil or bad or whatever else i just think it's nothing if not an interesting choice on behalf of the writers bc it . doesn't mean nothing

[sunrayretriever]

i hope this doesnt come off as rude or.. entitled idk how to explain it but. if traditional talk therapy hasnt worked for u in the past there are alternatives! i went through both EMDR (for my ptsd) and TMS therapy (for my depression - my EMDR therapist's pricing was based on my income and the TMS was covered by my medical assistance, but i understand that availability and everything is different everywhere) and those helped 1000x better than the past 10 years of therapy i've had combined!! i really think theyre worth looking in to!!!

[aipilosse]

unpopular opinion on fics (as a writer OR reader!)?

ahaha ok so this one is a MEGA unpopular opinion, but I really believe that just as the old ff.net style of 'constructive' criticism and flaming was terrible, our current paradigm of 'you can only say nice things' is also bad. I truly believe it's a major reason for the drop off in commenting, and if there was a culture shift such that it was acceptable to say things like 'loved X but Y didn't really work for me' there'd be more comments and less isolation.

I mean, we live in the 'only say nice things' era, and yet authors still find ways to get hurt feelings over everything and nothing (*coughcough* reading the comments on other people's fics and being hurt that your fics don't get the same enthusiasm coughcough*.) And I'm very aware that people still get stupid comments bashing pairings, characterization critiques, nitpicking, but a) I'm not actually bothered by comments like these (selfish I know, because other people are bothered) because b) I still believe authors can and should mock, ignore, and/or chastise entitled commenters if they so wish. And if readers didn't feel like they had to tip-toe around, could just genuinely react to works that they enjoyed, but maybe didn't enjoy every bit of, there might be more 'ummm you wrote Maglor wrong' comments, but there might also be more 'I loved this' as well genuinely helpful comments like 'this fight scene didn't really work for me because I couldn't understand what was going on.'

the old, entitled reader attitude where every comment should be treated as a gift and bullying authors about grammar is fine and good is obnoxious, but we've swung too far in the other direction imo 🤷‍♀️

[tragedykery]

I love taituk they’re so funny. they’re simultaneously really cool and capable and. kind of a loser. wet cat of a woman (not actually a woman). a dykefag AND a fagdyke. they can’t tell when people are flirting with them and suaveness is Not in their vocabulary. everyone wants them and they’re involved with quite literally every crew member their age. their reaction to there being “men’s work” and “women’s work” is “I will simply do everything. all of the work.” they’re fine with the concept & reality of death but thinking about killing somebody with their own hands makes them physically ill. they will quite literally heal their enemies so they don’t die. they’re eldestsiblingcore but only see their siblings like. twice a year. they could be stabbed and bleeding out and their only reaction would be “ugh now my favourite jacket will be stained :/”. they don’t know what’s going on at any given moment. they’ve been permanently banned from the ship’s kitchen even though they’re the captain. by god they’re even transgender. they’ve even got long hair