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AU where Ford attempts to get in contact with Stan a couple years into living in gravity falls. He’d rather not, but his mother has been bugging him recently about Stan, lamenting about how she lost contact with him months ago and is worried. She asks Ford multiple times to try and find his brother for her, and eventually he gives in.
But Ford isn’t about to give up the life he’s carved out for himself to go searching the whole country for his troublemaker of a brother, oh no. Ford decides to find Stan through magical means. Of course, the spell he finds for it sounds a little iffy, with sections that are worn away, but Ford is sure he has enough knowledge to fill the gaps himself and make it work. The spell should give him Stan’s exact location, and even project a snapshot of Stan’s current view into his mind like a picture.
Ford sets everything up for the spell and. It doesn’t work. He tries again, but still nothing. After pouring over the spell for a few hours, frustratedly trying to figure out where he went wrong, Ford decides to give up for the night and go to bed. He falls asleep.
And wakes up somewhere that’s very much not his home.
“Where am I?” he wonders.
“Woah! Hey! What was—?” someone says back.
Except. Ford didn’t really hear the person audibly speak, so much as he felt as though the words had been projected right into his mind, loud and clear.
“Hello?” he asks tentatively.
“Oh, man, I’ve finally cracked,” the other voice says with worry. “I’m finally hearing voices in my head! I knew I shouldn’t have done so many drugs!”
Ford blinks, except he doesn’t, because his body doesn’t seem to be obeying him. “What?”
His body jumps up, and Ford feels a jolt of panic. He didn’t tell it to move! He didn’t do that! It was just moving on its own!
“What’s going on?” he asks himself.
“You’re asking me?! You’re the random voice that just showed up in my head!” the voice cries back agitatedly.
And Ford… knows that voice. Of course he does.
The voice is mumbling to himself, “Can’t believe the crazy voice has to sound just like my brother too. Of course my brain would do that to me. Why not? Why not an internal Ford to berate me all day?”
“Stanley?” Ford gasps.
“Shut up, fake Ford,” Stan grouses.
Hands come up to grab at the sides of Ford’s head. And they only have five fingers. Normal hands.
…This isn’t Ford’s body.
“The spell,” Ford groans in realization. “It must have done this.”
Stan ignores him, in the middle of his own panic spiral. He pulls on his (their?) hair and it hurts. Ford doesn’t like that. He feels disconnected from the body (of course he does, it’s not his) but he wonders if he can…?
Ford mentally lunges forward. There’s a strange sensation, like he’s grappling with another force, one that’s too surprised to fight back, before Ford metaphorically sits himself in the driver’s seat. He untangles his (Stanley’s. Their) hands from his hair, and looks around the crummy motel room he’s (they’re) in.
“What the hell?!” Stan screams in their new shared mind space. “What did you do?! Voices shouldn’t be able to do that! Give me my body back!”
“You’re not hallucinating,” Ford tries to explain. “I’m not just a voice. Or, well, I am right now.” And he wondered what had happened to his physical body, if it was still back home laying in his bed. “It’s me. Your brother. I seem to have accidentally projected my consciousness into your body.”
“WHAT.”
And then the brothers have to road trip up to gravity falls to check on Ford’s body and hopefully find a way to fix their situation, all while sharing Stan’s body. Arguments are had, and both learn new things about each other. Ford realizes that maybe Stan isn’t doing so great. And what do you mean the mob is after you, Stan? Why does your body ache so much? Why are all your clothes so ratty?
Stan is not so enthused about his unexpected new head-mate, and needs a lot of convincing to even believe that it’s really Ford and not just a hallucination and that he’s finally gone crazy. What do you mean you cast a spell, Ford? Magic isn’t real. What do you mean you aren’t sure how to fix it? You better figure it out; this is a violation of privacy!
TLDR:
In an attempt to find Stan, Ford messes up a spell that transfers his consciousness into Stan’s body. Now they have to share that body until Ford figures out a way to undo it. Discoveries are made, arguments are had, and eventually reconciliation happens.
#Ford: btw what did you mean by you’ve done so many drugs?#Stan: don’t worry about it#also I like to imagine that not only do they yoink control of the body from each other when they disagree with the other’s actions#but that they realizes they can share control of the body#so sometimes Stan’s body does really janky moves when Ford pulls it in one direction and Stan in another#limbs are flailing#gravity falls#stanley pines#stan pines#ford pines#stanford pines#gravity falls au#stan twins#Ford: can we eat? I’m—we??—are hungry#Stan: so I don’t really have much food#Ford: well can we buy some then?#Stan: I don’t really have much money either…
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Arthur didn’t interrupt nor look away, his expression instead softening the longer Steven spoke. His entire posture relaxed piece by piece, the ache from the day slowly easing out of him; every word was a gift, and Steven gave them so freely. It was… fascinating, being given so many things that he was trusted to hold. Even as Steven rambled or his voice dipped into apologies, Arthur remained fully with him.
He wasn’t impatient, as there was nothing to be impatient over; Steven was giving so much. He was offering so much of himself, over and over, and then feeling shame for having done so; why? Because the world had told him that everything he gave was unwanted? Was that even possible, being what he was? Had Marc allowed Steven out before this, for significant enough amounts of time? Had Steven existed in the ‘real world’ for long enough to be trained into these beliefs, or was he created this way by Marc?
These weren’t fair thoughts to be having, part of him whispered. There was a sort of cruelty, in denying Steven his existence, even in private.
He hated seeing the way the shame set in, when Steven finished. He looked like a kicked puppy, over nothing at all; forcing himself to stop talking. The emotions were real. The disorder was real. That was what made it so fascinating; and so devastating. It ached to know that someone who wasn’t truly meant to live in this world could still learn to hurt.
“Steven,” he said quietly, just to try and pull the man’s focus back to the real world. “You’re not doing that, right now. You’re sharing something personal. You’re opening up in a space that’s meant for you to talk - that’s not rambling. That’s not taking up too much space. You’re trusting me with something real, and I’m honored by that. Nothing means more to me than that.”
He was painfully sincere with that; he loved when people opened up to him. He loved when he could finally get to the point of this level of trust, when he could be something beyond himself. It pushed him to the point of tears, sometimes.
“I know you believe that you’re too much. I can hear how deeply that’s been pressed into you, probably from a very young age - but, Steven, people didn’t walk away because you were wrong.” He knew that those words would only do the little they could; reassurance in these things was hard, when reality so often disproved what was said.
“I know how hard it is to untangle what’s true from what’s familiar. Especially when your experience has trained you to expect disappointment - to watch for that ‘gaze’. But I want you to hear this from me, clearly - your excitement, your knowledge, this desire to connect - none of those things are bad. None of them make you a burden.”
Another pause, just to let it settle - Arthur glanced to Steven’s hands for just a moment, before shifting. “I think what you’ve learned to do, over time, is try to protect yourself before anyone else gets the chance to hurt you. You back away from asking things from others - like help with the puzzle - because if you don’t ask then they can’t reject you. I think you’re trying to stay small, so that no one thinks you’re too big.”
It wasn’t living, of course. It was surviving - and it was a painful way of survival. A cycle of self hatred, of worrying over how you were perceived, of trying to push into something that you weren’t; it was a bad, bad cycle. It was a hard one to break, just because it could constantly reinforce itself - it’d take work.
“You said you like documentaries,” he continued. “And reading. And you’ve done puzzles. I think that for you, information might be the bridge to other people - the way you reach out. I think that’s a beautiful thing - but it’s vulnerable, too. It’s close to yourself, it’s sharing something very deep to your core.”
Arthur tapped a knuckle lightly on his notebook, trying to anchor himself fully to the thought. His voice stayed gentle as he spoke; measured, but firm.
“Not everyone knows how to cross that kind of bridge. Not everyone connects through facts or history the way you do - and when they turn away, it’s easy to get things confused. When you show them these things that are so close to yourself, and you see them turn away, it’s easy for you to think that they’re turning away from you. But the reality is that they probably just aren’t interested in history, or information, or reading. And that’s not something against you.”
He shifted his head, wetting his lips softly. “I do the same thing, a lot. I like to speak very clinically. I like to connect to people through the head, more than the heart - I like to solve people’s problems, or tell them what I think might be bothering them. That’s how I bridge. And not everyone wants someone solving their problems, or telling them what they should do. That doesn’t mean they don’t like me. It just means that they don’t like being bridged out to in that way.”
It was a difficult thing, for people like this. Arthur understood, because to some point he was the same; it was easy to forget that everyone was different, to some extent. It was easy to take rejection of action as the rejection of self.
“I don’t want you to change how you bridge out to people. But I would like for you to try and see how other people are trying to bridge out to connect with you - even if it might be hard to see, at first. Just over the next few days, if you can. See if you can find some people who connect with kindness, or jokes, or sharing food. You don’t have to mimic it, I don’t want you to - but I’d like you to notice it.”
That's... a lot to take in, and Steven finds himself blinking a few times with his eyes wide as he listens - as thoughts begin to race within his mind, all of those questions prompting him to consider a lot of different things here he himself has never really thought about before.
He swallows, glances to the side briefly, then down to his hands - which are still curling around another, fingers pulling and picking on the skin around the nails, trying to get rid of his anxious, nervous energy; He just cannot stop doing that, one of Steven's habits that pop up whenever he feels a lot and tries to handle it all.
"Well, uhm..." Another swallow, a moment of hesitation, jaw working as Steven chews along the inside of his bottom lip. "... I... I guess I figured it out over time. Y'know, I... never really had friends? Like, back in school, I mean. Everyone always called me weird. Some wouldn't even look at me and I dunno why, while others... well, when we did talk, I, uhm... I guess my interests were so far off that it made everyone else feel odd? Or, when we talked, I just... talked, and talked, and talked, and apparently I talk a lot, and then I talk too much about whatever I'm interested in so that everyone else rolls their eyes and wants me to stop finally. Y-yeah, that..."
A blink, with Steven glancing back up to meet Harrow's eyes - accompanied by a shrug, a lopsided, self-deprecating smirk. "I do that to this day. I mean, I basically chewed one of poor Abby's ears off yesterday when I kept telling her a hundred facts about birds. The few times I tried to talk to a lady a-and... erm, well, uhm... tried to...---"
This is awkward. Steven chuckles again, brings a hand up to his neck to scratch along the back of it before it falls down to continue the picking and pulling, then he shrugs for another time.
"---Well, you know, have a date or something... ---It never went well. We talked, yeah, but... I always had so much to say, and I guess that me giving insight on whatever we were talking about - rambling for minutes on end - isn't exactly... what they're looking for? ---I'm not saying that it happened often! Actually just... twice... but, uhm, a-anyways! Besides that, also when it's about normal friendships, or like, normal conversations - I think I tend to focus a lot on whatever the conversation is about, and I just want to engage but end up over-engaging. ...At some point I just realize that people's gazes change, becoming more cold and distant, sometimes they just say goodbye really quickly and leave, other times they just start to ignore me and talk to someone else and... ---and, well, I don't get a word in anymore."
Dark eyes, ones that looked at the doctor before, have long since dropped back to stare at Steven's hands instead; Shoulders deflated, back round, basically curled into himself he is, something sad tugging on the corners of his mouth, the furrow of thick brows.
"...I don't think I can do casual conversations. They always end up in some deep speech about whatever the topic is about. I... read a lot, and I watch a lot of documentaries, and I like to bring up what I've heard or seen - whenever I can, that is. Sometimes I have no idea what others are talking about and then it's awkward again, because I should have knowledge about some basic stuff but then I'm just stuttering along and... yeah. That. I guess it's hard for people to listen to me."
...
"---I'm doing it right now!" A sudden lift of his head at that, brows knitted, an expression appearing on Steven's features that's basically dripping of disappointment, in some way - of annoyance, all pointed at himself, as his gaze meets Harrows. "See? I ramble, I keep talking, I make it hard for others to even get a word in. And... yeah, that happens a lot. I'm just... ---I guess I'm afraid of seeing the change in people's eyes...? The moment they look at me and realize they made a mistake in approaching me, in... talking to me."
Steven sniffles, head lowering as before, attention on his hands - avoiding direct eye-contact. It's very frustrating, very sad, and he feels it pulling on his heart there... so he inhales, exhales, finally forces himself to be quiet.
He doesn't even know whether he's given a correct answer to what has been asked of him. Maybe he's just talked for minutes on end about something that didn't matter at all? ---Steven clears his throat, feels the urge to just wish for the earth to swallow him whole... but nothing happens, obviously.
#\\ fuck me he keeps fucking talking#\\ steven: i worry i talk too much#\\ arthur: damn thats crazy bc I'm gonna talk for 20 minutes#threegoldfish#𓇏|| I took the bus. [ Dr. Harrow ]#queued
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What are your thoughts on Ratio as a teacher? I want to say that he's not as much of a demon in the classroom as some ppl interpret him as but also I'm not sure if I'm not making him too nice
i'm sure ratio's "3% pass rate" is just a number arbitrarily picked to make him sound super strict, the same way earning 8 doctorates at the age of [vague anime adult] isn't meant to make real world sense, but my favorite pastime is overthinking anime and video game logic so:
we know ratio got into university when he was still in highschool. let's just say he didn't bother with a bachelor's and went straight for doctorates from the start. doctorates normally take a long time to earn, but he's clearly not meant to be as old as welt looks; he's in his 30s at most. his character stories say he's taught 52 courses so far, and if professors teach ~5-ish per semester, he's been teaching for roughly 10 years (while earning 8 doctorates himself. veritas ratio where the fuck do u find the time).
so if he's 30 years old, he started teaching at 20 with maybe 1 or 2 doctorates under his belt - and, again, assuming he went straight from student to teacher without being a TA or anything first, because [screaming at all these hypotheticals].
if you've ever met a 20-year-old or remember being a 20-year-old yourself, you will know that they are fucking insufferable. having just endured the most trying ordeal of their lives (surviving being an 18-year-old), they think they have gained all the knowledge in the world and have uniquely uncovered all life's mysteries. so a 20yo ratio - who actually HAD gained significant knowledge and personally solved at least one interstellar crisis - had to have an ego approximately the diameter of saturn's rings. showered with more praise than he could ever process, hailed as a genius and once-in-a-lifetime visionary, setting his sights firmly on joining the genius society by earning Nous' gaze, he must've been so goddamn full of himself.
THAT is the ratio whose courses had a 3% pass rate. it probably only took him 1 or 2 semesters to realize holding everyone else to his impossibly high personal standards did not, in fact, make him a good teacher. i'm sure it was a humbling experience. i bet he got bad reviews on the starrail equivalent of ratemyprofessors.com and decided to go back and earn a whole nother doctorate about it - maybe medicine, to better understand the psychology behind learning, that he might thus become a better teacher. that sounds like an extremely ratio thing to do.
10 years on he probably doesn't teach, like, psych 101. he probably teaches shit like "applied string theory." top-level post-grad capstone courses, where anyone taking the course is most of the way thru their own PhD, and if they fail his course they just need to shift subdisciplines, not flunk out of university entirely.
i hope the hubris of his old 3% pass rate haunts him tho 😊 keeps him up at night, making him wonder how many students' curiosity and drive to learn was mercilessly snuffed out by his ego 🥰
#hsr#hsr meta#dr ratio#ratio#nhura#<- tagging u for the sheer amount of ratio brainrot i have just brainrote#do NOT look at the timestamp. time is a construct. dawn is a lie perpetuated by Big Sun#the post is long enough so i didn't get into it but - i don't think hsr is quite as bad wrt ages as some series are#(looking directly @ cid “treated like a crotchety old man at the ripe old age of 34” ffxiv)#but my perception of how old these characters should logically be and how old the creators mean them to be doesn't always match lol#it's equally unlikely for a 30yo to have been a professor for 10 years with 8 doctorates as it is for an anime character to be 30 years old
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Awkward Movements

Pairing: Vampire! Niki x Human! Reader
Length: 1,728 words Genre: first time, thought-out scenario
Synopsis: Y/N learns of something that they had previously believed to be a trope. And after talking with their 'Vampire Boyfriend', Niki, the couple decide to give the experience a try. Both of nervous but the first time is always the most nerve-wracking, isn't it?
Warnings: mention of blood & veins, lots of talk about being in someone(?), reference to sex & niki-reader bedroom activities, petnames & nicknames (niki calls reader - shortie/smalls/shorts & reader calls him - niks), being awkward & nervous, one (1) mention of pain, niki sucks reader's thumb (i know, i know but hear me out)
Note: This is, of course, inspired by my vamp enha feeding headcanon because I HAD TO write Niki's section. I was envisioning hard when originally writing it! Love this Niki btw, he's so sweet!! More: Check out my orchard to find more of my works or check out more of my Vamp! Enha fics! And feel free to look at 'Desire Unleashed' on Pinterest or listen to 'Team Vampire' on Spotify!!
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'Mrs.Dracula in Eternal lovers
Does anyone love when their eternal partner feeds from them. A part of me likes that i'm providing nutrients and strength for them. But i just the connection that it makes between us. My blood is flowing within them & i carry the evidence of the encounter on my body. And it's just so different from how human-human, and maybe other supernatural-human relationship included, can grow closer to each other. Of course, the first time was nerve-wracking but i forgot all about my fear as soon as their fangs were in me. if it wasn't for my body needing to recover across multiple weeks then i would allow my partner to feed on me every day. that's how much i love it.'
You read over the post once more. Double checking that you were properly processing the words across your screen. Many of the comments speaking of thier own similar feelings on the expreince with what they referred to as: feedings. 'Am I being trolled?' You pondered to yourself as you clicked the link to send to your trusted informants. Since Niki had introduced you to his supernatural friend group, you had began leaning on the other vampires' partners for advice. Most of them having dated their lover for longer or knew more about the supernatural world, in general, than you did. You also trusted that they wouldn't tease you for your lack of knowledge & Niki didn't need any more material than he already had.
'Baby: yea. thats a real thing.'
'Y/N: how come im just finding out about it now?!?'
'Love: its not exactly something to be brought up casually
no offense btw
it's just not something that can be brought up early in the relationship'
'Y/N: but we've been together a year now..'
'Pretty: We can't speak for Ni-ki but, maybe he doesn't know to bring it up to you
Especially since it's not an easy thing to speak about.'
'Baby: best to just ask riki about it.'
'Pretty: YES! He should be the one to explain feedings to you!'
You hesitated at the other's words. You thought it was odd; why hadn't Niki brought this up to you before. Did he not trust you enough yet to bring this aspect of vampire life. But what could be more sensitive or intimate than sex?
"What are you stressing about over there?" Niki's voice broke through your thoughts. Jumping as you hadn't heard him moving around your apartment.
"Huh?" You spoke, not having heard him. Unfurrowing your brows, which you hadn't realized that you were doing, as you looked over to him. Niki chuckled at you, setting his glass down before making his way to where you sat.
"What's got you looking so stressed, shortie?" he repeats as he leans over the back of the couch. His voice low, almost a whisper, as he speaks to you. Niki cups your head in his hand, his thumb rubbing circles onto your temple. You sighed, closing for eyes momentarily as you leaned into his touch.
"I saw this post and..." You trailed off, making eye contact with him. Niki nodded his head patiently as he waited for you to find your words. "The others suggested that I ask you about."
"Okay~" Niki hops over the couch to join you. He ungracefully falls into your space, crushing you under his body. "Ask away, Smalls." Pulling out your phone, struggling slightly due to Niki's hold on you, and showing him the original post.
"What are they talking about? What do they mean when they say feed?"
"Oh...um-" Niki cuts himself off by clearing his throat as he adjusts himself. He moves so that he's now sitting next to rather than on top of you. Your anxiety making your heart race as you notice the distance that he puts between the two of you. Your previous self-doubts coming back to the forefront of your mind. "I don't know much about them to be entirely honest. And I've no experience with it either," he continues with his eyes avoiding yours.
"Will you tell me what you do know, Niks?" You ask, speaking softly as you take one of his hands in yours. He nods gently, readjusting his grasp within yours.
"I guess it's not dissimilar to having sex, human wise. It's something vampires view as being intimate and for pleasure, rather than a need or a necessity," Niki explains to you. His head tilted to the side as he does. You'd gush over how cute he's being if it wasn't for the serious conversation happening.
"Would you...Would you want to try?"
"What? Would you?" Niki snaps his neck to look at you. His eyes searching your face for any hint of doubt. You nod as you bit your lip in consideration.
"It's worth trying. Just to see if we enjoy it, you know? How different is it from when we do new things in the bedroom?" You reason to the male, teasingly bumping shoulders with him at the end.
"I guess that's right. Give me some time though." Niki pointily meets your gaze before continuing, "I don't want to rush into this and hurt you." You smile at him, leaning in to kiss him as you agree.
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"Hi," you breathe out in greeting as Niki opens the apartment door for you. He responds back with his own greeting, his voice equally airy. He moves back as you awkwardly shuffle into the entry-way, beginning to toe your shoes off. The two of you are acting worse than you did on your first date together. Your heart is pounding in your ears as Niki gently takes your hand in his.
"Ready?" Niki whispers, looking into your eyes. His gaze is soft and questioning, making you fall deeper in love with the vampire in front of you.
"Yes," you tell him with a smile before pecking his lips. You allow him to lead you further into his apartment, following Niki to the couch. Sitting side by side, similar to as you were on the day you had brought up feedings. Niki stares down at your conjoined hands, turning them over in his lap. His thumb is busy rubbing over your wrist, tracing over the veins peeking through your skin. "We don't have to, Niks. Not if you don't want to," you reassure your boyfriend. There was still time to back out despite the multiple and long conversations where the both you confirmed wanting to try blood feedings. You didn't want to push this on the male nor did you not want to rush him before he was comfortable. Your relationship did not depend on this experience happening. Niki looked up, his gaze meeting yours but his thumb never stopped moving.
"No, I want to. I want it to be you that I do this with." Everything within you flutters as your cheeks warm at his words. Smiling at him once more, you nod at Niki to proceed. You watch as he brings your wrist up to his mouth. His eyes never leaving yours as he presses a kiss onto the area. "I was told the wrist is the best place for us to start with," Niki explains, mumbling as his mouth never leaves your skin. Your breath hitches as he lower his head further into the junction, and you can feel his fangs graze as he opens his mouth. "Last chance," He offers.
"I trust you," you quicky reply. Still intently staring at your boyfriend on your arm. Your breathe catches in your chest as Niki sunk his fangs into the you. The pinch of pain barely resonating through you as he does so. He effortlessly drinks in your blood. Your skin prickling as you can feel his tongue lapping against it. And you can't help the small noise that releases from your mouth as Niki's fang burrow deeper. Niki's other hand, the one not keeping your wrist close to his mouth, squeezes your thigh. His fingers tenderly caressing the muscle in an attempt to comfort you. "I'm okay," you reassure the vampire through your heavy breaths. "You can keep going," you encourage Niki despite the fact that he never actually stopped. The male kneaded your thigh again and you responded in kind. Running your fingers through his hair, your hand ending on the nape of Niki's neck. You watch in awe as Niki slowly pulls away. His lips tinted dark with your blood; looking almost as if he applied something to them. Niki's tongue darts out, swiping over his lips and licking up what remains on them. You bring your thumb up to his face, noticing blood he's missed on the corner of his lips. And as you move so does Niki in chase of the digit. He catches it in his mouth, making eye contact with you as he sucks on your thumb. Your own mouth drops agape at not only his actions but the look in his now red eyes.
"Feeling okay, Shorts?" Niki askes, breathing heavily upon releasing your thumb. His stare softening as he patiently awaits your response. You nod silently, still recovering from the dopamine rush, and he smiles. "Good, stay here," he says as he guides you to lay back against the couch cushions. You grab his shirt when Niki moves away, whining and pouting up at your boyfriend. He lovingly chuckles at you before leaning down to kiss at the side of your face. "The Hyungs say I should get some sugar in you afterwards, Shortie. I'll be right back, okay?" Niki explains as he pulls your hand away from him. You watch from your spot as he moves through the kitchen, your eyes never leaving his figure. Joining you on the couch again, Niki wraps you in his arm and he maneuvers you onto his chest. His hand rubbing up and down your arm as he tries to encourage you to drink the juice he's brought.
Dropping the straw from your lips. "I'd do it again," you whisper into the peaceful quiet air between the two of you.
"What?" Niki stops in surprise and his head snaps to look down at you.
"It wasn't a bad experience. If you wanted..." You turn to stare back at him as you continue. "We could do it again."
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Ok ok, I feel like I need to have a chat with y'all about Kris in the newer chapters. Bit of analysis/theory of mine. SPOILERS INBOUND
I've seen a fair amount of people interpreting their interactions with the knight and Carol to be inherently evil, and I have to say I really disagree. Yes, they're 100% working with Carol and the knight(who I think is Dess because I just don't think Carol would appear in such an odd, powerful form in the dark world, since all the other regular lightners look very recognizable), but I don't think it's necessarily out of free will.
First off, in the knight fight, though Kris clearly knows the knight and doesn't seem unhappy to see them, they hit harder when Susie and Ralsei go down. Though this is partially to make it possible to deal enough damage with just Kris alive, it also indicates that they do care about the two of them, enough to deal around 3x their normal damage. This, plus all of their voluntary fun interactions with Susie and even Ralsei sometimes, makes me believe they enjoy their adventures and don't necessarily want harm to come to their travel buddies.
Secondly, when we first see them get a phone call from Carol, they don't look happy about it at all. They sink further and further down, until we can only see their head on the table. This isn't something you'd expect if Kris was fully willing to do the things Carol asks of them, especially given the knowledge they care deeply about Susie and Noelle.
Thirdly, at the end of the chapter, they still don't look happy about what they're going to do, and Carol's words don't seem like something you'd say to a willing partner in crime. "You promised", isn't something you say to get someone to do something willingly, it's something you say to keep someone in line.
Their actions are definitely bad, in line with the antagonists, but I don't think Kris themselves is a bad or evil person. They hate you even more in the weird route, and clearly cared a lot about trying to help Noelle recover. They do a bunch of silly stuff with Susie, completely without the player's input. They even voluntarily hug Ralsei at the end of chapter four, when all the player selects is "it's okay not to smile". None of this indicates someone who wants the roaring to happen.
My theory is that something bad happened to Dess, and Kris either saw or was involved in some way. This is what led to them needing the art therapy from the egg room in chapter 4, as well as what was behind the tree. I think whatever this bad thing was, it caused Dess to go into a fallen down state, and Carol did something that allowed her to be preserved. I'm not entirely sure when or how, but perhaps Kris' actual soul ended up going to Dess, which is why we are now possessing them. Clearly, Carol knows about us, since she references the soul when talking on the phone.
Whatever the exact sequence of events, it ended with Dess in a weak state surviving with Kris' soul, or maybe determination extracted from it. Carol, learning about the prophecy and dark fountains, may have come to the conclusion that the only way to bring Dess back is to bring about the roaring. She's roped Kris into it, and that's why they're going along with creating the fountains and stopping Susie from getting the code.
Again, I'm not entirely sure what could've happened to Dess, or how it did happen, but it makes the most sense to me that she's in a somewhat weird state in the light world, which is why the knight appears so strange and powerful in the dark worlds. I'm not much of a theorycrafter, but I just don't think that Kris being evil makes sense, and this is my best explanation as to why they're doing what they're doing. I'm sure gaster is probably involved somehow, but, again, I'm not that deep of a theory crafter myself, so I'm not sure exactly how or why.
Feel free to counter my points or give me your own ideas, this is just my thoughts that I needed to get out of my brain lol. Really, I just wanted to make a case for Kris, because I see them being controlled both literally by us and through manipulation by Carol as far more likely than them being straight up evil. Definitely see them more as morally gray than anything else.
#deltarune#deltarune theory#deltarune thoughts#deltarune chapter 4#deltarune chapter 3#deltarune spoilers#deltarune knight#deltarune kris
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Just saw a post that kinda bothered me (and I might follow up with a link to the actual post later if more context is requested but I really don't wanna put anybody on blast so I'm gonna try to do without the link) but. The post itself was complaining about how many people don't know that E doesn't feminine your voice (entirely valid post to make!), and one reblog (not OP) on that post was pointing out somebody in the tags who'd said basically "oh so that's why voice training is a thing i'd never thought about it, thanks op" (paraphrasing to make it slightly less obvious which post I'm talking about because it's got a lot of notes) and the person who added the reblog was like, pretty aggressively like "do you think it's funny to be ignorant about trans women's lives?" and that was the first part that got to me because like. I didn't get that impression at all? I read those tags as a genuine "oh I didn't know that, thanks op!" and maybe it actually was ignorant and bad for that person to add that comment but it read exactly like the kind of thing I would have said and genuinely meant it and it's kinda exacerbating my anxiety about not understanding social cues and being misunderstood :') Then OP came in and made a much longer addition about this issue and a lot of it is entirely fair, some of it is important information with helpful links and stuff, the majority of it is solid but also the tone of a lot of it seems to be just. Really aggressive towards people who don't know things. And assuming malicious intentions in people saying they didn't know when they may have just been genuinely thanking OP for sharing that information and helping them learn something new. It was compared to cishet men being proudly ignorant about AFAB bodies but that wasn't the vibe I got in the slightest, it didn't sound like pride at all, am I just stupid? Shit like this makes me scared to say literally anything even if I only ever have the best of intentions because I clearly I don't know fucking anything about what's considered polite or rude or disrespectful.
Of course terms like TME were used and stuff and part of me wants to be mad too because like. They act as if every queer person has a moral obligation to know all the ins and outs of how transfem medical transition works, and idk maybe we do, but I wonder if these people also know all the ins and outs of how transmasc transitions work. Or if that standard only applies to us and not them.
I don't know. Transfems have the right to be angry especially when a lack of knowledge about these things can hurt people and it is good for all of us to educate ourselves. But the post felt so aggressive to people who didn't already know these things and it felt like such a slap in the face. I wasn't even really the target of this, like I've known the "E doesn't feminise your voice" thing for years, but it just. I don't know, like I said it's the kind of thing that makes me scared to even try talking to people because either something will actually be mean-spirited or wrong for somebody to say and I'll be completely oblivious to it and let people take advantage of me, or I'll be the one who says something with the best of intentions and is assumed to be mocking or being ignorance or dismissive of a serious matter or something like that.
(it also stings seeing posts like this shared by friends but I'm trying to get better at reassuring myself that one uncomfortable post doesn't outweigh the other ones that talk about supporting trans guys and also the support they've given me personally 1-on-1. In past asks I've mentioned how I've been scared to talk to my transfem friends about transandrophobia stuff and how I've been taking baby steps with talking about it a bit and learning to trust them and I am still making slow but steady progress there, it's way easier said than done though and at moments like this it can be hard for me to stand my ground and not regress into distrust again. but like I have a lot of trauma and trust issues so that's probably mostly just on me)
(ALSO I LOOKED THROUGH THE NOTES AND SOME PEOPLE ACTUALLY WERE BEING JOKEY ABOUT IT. WHY DIDN'T YOU PUT ONE OF THEM ON BLAST INSTEAD OF THE PERSON JUST SAYING "OH I DIDN'T KNOW THAT THANKS" IN THE TAGS??? LIKE MAYBE I AM GENUINELY MISSING SOMETHING AND IT ACTUALLY WAS RUDE BUT I CAN'T TELL AND THAT'S PART OF WHAT TERRIFIES ME SO MUCH)
((ALSO ALSO I was about to end the ask there but I went onto the blog of the person who added those tags and just from looking through the description I think he's a cis guy. which would be included under the definition of TME that these posts are using but most of the people in the notes are just talking about transmascs (like OP didn't even specify transmascs this is just all the people in the reblogs. like come on :( why are there so many posts (including so many good and important ones that I completely agree with!) about transfeminism and transmisogyny that have people being constantly transandrophobic in the notes))
anyway this turned into a rant and got kinda off topic at the end I'm just. tired. and kinda scared. I barely get any attention on here aside from one fandom sideblog but I'm terrified that someday I'm gonna say something with the best of intentions and have people assume malice and send a hate campaign my way because I don't understand the nuances of social interaction and I guess being ""TME"" means you're no longer deserving of being given the benefit of the doubt :(
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I don't expect people to know all the ins and outs of E based HRT and I've always taken the stance that education is better than hostility. Her being this hostile towards people when she herself at one point likely didn't know that E doesn't cause voice changes is sad.
Most people don't know the ins and outs of T based HRT, but you don't see trans guys getting all angry at people for not knowing about atrophy.
It's not something to get mad over.
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“ oh, sorry. ” the pinch between her brows falls, slowly, the confusion melting into a fuzzy, almost acceptance. of course she believes irene, why would she lie? allie has this habit of leaving heaps of heavy hope in the arms of others, at least irene doesn’t have to carry them anymore. she refuses to let disappointment find her, and instead she finds something else to be excited about. she just works here, irene’s not a witch, it’s mostly just retail and she’s right but- the knowledge still has to be there, doesn’t it? it’s another bundle of questions that tucks near her heart, wraps around irene’s name.
don’t sell yourself short. out of a few words, allie finds the world waiting for her. it’s so nice, the kind of nice she doesn’t deserve. because, really, it’s not true. she isn’t good for anything more than wishing. she keeps trying, it’s why the journals pages keep finding things to fill them. that’s her trying. to learn, and to grow, to be something more than lost. but it makes more sense the other way, for allie to stay a lost little thing. irene deserves more than speechlessness, but allie doesn’t want to argue anymore, and she can’t find anything to pull on, so she hopes her eyes say enough.
her eyes flicker to watch the other’s movements. she puts space between them, fidgets with the little things around them irene’s trying to leave, allie, you have to let her go home- “ how did you learn about it all? ” she winds, unwinds a strand of her hair around a finger as the question cuts through, clear as the breaking day. like a sunlight that streams through an exhausted room, she can’t stop it. the curtain of curiosity won’t go back to where it belongs. she doesn’t mean to keep her here, daisy chained, really. she promises, she doesn’t.
allie holds out her hand, tries a soft offer that she hopes is just a gentle touch of clingy, not so much that it’s suffocating. irene always closes up when anything’s about her, and she’d barely made it through one wall, she can’t pry open another tonight. she doesn’t want to, anyways, you’re supposed to be let in. softly, allie tries, instead, “ walk me home? ” because she’s forgetful, because she slips into bouts of whimsy that has her ending up lost, because irene knows that, and she’s kind. another night, when allie hadn’t already messed up, they can try the other way. and it’ll be irene’s turn to share, again.
Irene doesn’t look up right away. Just busies herself behind the counter — adjusting the jar of salt that doesn’t need adjusting, flicking the lamp switch one more time as if that’ll stop the buzzing (it won’t). But mostly, she gives herself a beat. A breath. Just long enough to make sure the lie stays smooth on her tongue, as effortless and worn-in as it’s always been. “I’m not a witch,” she says again, steady, like she’s said it a thousand times — because she has. To strangers. To threats. To people who cared too much or not at all. It never mattered which. It always had to sound the same. “I just work here.” She shrugs, easy and practiced. Like it’s all just coincidence. Like she’s just a woman with a few too many books and a mild intolerance for nonsense.
“Most of it’s just retail.” Her voice is lighter now, teasing around the edges — not mocking, not with Allie — but carefully disarming. “Witches don’t exactly come with HR departments, but someone’s still got to track the moon cycles on the wall calendar.”
The spell wrapped around her hums, faint but firm — the kind that runs deep in the bones, silent and airtight. Designed to slip under notice, to keep the sharp edges of her magic hidden beneath skin and smile and plausible deniability. No slip. No shimmer. Nothing for Allie to feel but what Irene allows.
And that’s safer. For both of them.
Still, the way Allie’s looking at her — bright and soft and full of unguarded belief — makes something uncomfortable shift beneath her ribs. Not guilt, not exactly. Just the ache of being seen too closely, even through a lie.
Her eyes flick to the notebook again when Allie speaks, and for a second, something gentler passes over Irene’s face. Just a flicker. Almost fond. Almost sad.
“You’re better at more than just wishing,” she says quietly, almost like she’s saying it to herself. Then, a little clearer: “Don’t sell yourself short.”
It’s not the kind of thing Irene says often. She doesn’t do comfort well — not the sweet kind, anyway. But for Allie, she tries. Maybe because Allie’s the only person she’s ever met who could make magic out of other people’s words and believe it was enough.
A breath passes, and Irene clears her throat, nudging a candle wick back into place with the edge of a matchstick.
“Still. Keep an eye on what you write in that thing,” she adds, back to dry again. But not cold. “The walls here like to listen. And your kind of magic… the hopeful kind? That’s the sort that sticks.”
She glances up, finally meeting Allie’s gaze, steady and unreadable.
“And trust me — not everything you wish for is something you want coming true.”
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Hii Percy!! I'm curious- what would be your ideal fnaf game after SOTM releases?
HI CHIP!! of course theres so many things I want to see after waiting so long but honestly I think a ggy game is what I'm expecting next. honest to god anything ranging from vanny!cassie to ggy and all the (human and not Cassies dad) characters in between I would be very happy with. it's why I'm so excited for sotm to finally release and end the mimic incorporation era. literally everything else it has left to cover are things that I would love
but yeah I think a ggy game would be absolutely hype and is actually very likely because of the THREE references/easter eggs weve gotten for him in a row!! I'm very excited to see what they're doing for him because damn ggy for Gregory's backstory has gone untouched for so long
I would love to see it explored in a campaign scenario of Gregory himself finding out about it but tbh I'm honestly expecting some prequel game about it that mostly just confirms it exists and expands upon content we dont know about from ggy like Rabs design and how he interacts with vanny. campaign would obviously be so much better for everyone involved but any ggy content is a win in my book
#it fundamentally cant be as boring as what sotm is doing if they go the game mostly about book content route#because theres a lot more freedom with ggy and things that we dont know about him that they can expand upon#and give everyone new content for#but i guess what i really want for ggy is for them to treat it like a present day campaigh#where its treated as a 'reveal' and not just boringly confirming information#like i want to see in universe as a story gregory reacting to and learning about his past#its so possible#HONESTLY if i got into it i could say my dream scenario is a ggy/gregorys backstory plotline in the big vanny!cassie villain game#where in between the campaign for the main storyline of savinf cassie#gregory learns about ggy#like that would be peak to me#but realistically we're prob gonna get 1 game exploring it and confirming it and giving us congent that fills in the gaps#which OF COURSE would be a huge win#but i just want it to affect the story in any way possible so bad#i want to see how it affects gregory#i want to know for sure confirmed if gregory really does have amnesia or not and if he rememebrs ggy#its all so interesting and it has so much potential#i feel like theres actually a good chance they could do a campaign bc gregorys mystery and mysterious backstory has#always been a huge deal about his character and like his main thing going on#so like they actually COULD try and do a storyline abt it instead of just confirming it#id be totally happy if they did a ggy campaign of gregory finding out as its own game first#outside of vanny!cassie plotline game and when that arrives gregory has knowledge abt ggy so he goes about thjngs differently#as well for sure.#literally in any way shape or form if they did a campaign present day post-sb game revealing ggy to the audience AND gregory#that would be my best case scenario#but once again truly anything that isnt mimic or Cassies dad will make me so happy#pandas.txt#pandas asks#pre ggy game#pre security breach 2
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theres a lotta things i wanted to do this year but I think the thing that would help me the most is to like. start personal projects that make me enjoy my work again. x( i wanna be excited about game development and making games again, it really helped me push myself to learn and get better and this stagnating just feels terrible. Knowing what I'm capable of but not being able to set on the path to getting there.
#i unfortunately thrive in group settings with other passionate ppl#my work is not really a collaborative group setting#and my senior thesis project really burnt me out and kinda killed some of that joy#if i wanna keep in this career i need to figure out how to consistently stay driven#i should be modeling or texturing or sculpting or creating things every day#even just an hour a day#also if i want to be able to do more stuff that i can use in my portfolio i just need to get a lot quicker at making things#so i can justify my work to my boss#that + proper photogrammetry would b really useful#personal stuff#i never had any illusions about where i would go with this degree#i never really thought nor planned to get into any large studios working on huge games#i don't hate where i am with my job and that we do really meaningful stuff is incredible#i just wish it felt like any of it was MY work :/#i feel so disconnected from what I make and it's hard for me to feel pride in it#i gotta settle this out this year or get started on a new career path#and just let this be a personal thing for personal projects#the imposter syndrome is real too#by all rights i am fairly knowledgeable about what i do and i can be pretty quick learning new pipelines and texturing methods#i just am fighting executive dysfunction all hours of the day#i feel like i get so little done so slowly compared to so many other people#i see other ppl's portfolios and I feel embarrassed that I'm not at their level#im a 'its never too late to learn' person but man it feels like i'll just never catch up in terms of skill and speed and consistent output#every time i try to reassure myself it just falls flat. they had mentors but not everybody had mentors and they're still better :/#i have adhd and i have a hard time self-starting. but a really large amount of creatives in all fields have adhd and they still do so well#every thing that makes it tougher is the same for so many other people and it feels so frustrating that im just having a hard time#overcoming what everyone else seems to have overcome just fine#anyway sry for the rambling#i miss loving games soo much and having so many ideas and wanting to l earn new things
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Actually I think it's a bit unfair that I can't be an astrophysicist and a historian and a game developer and a marine biologist and an archaeologist and an author and a seamstress at the same time
#I think I have a quarter-life crisis /hj#like I want to make space discoveries but I also want to analyse ww2 battles and I want to-#study the behaviour of whales and I want to create fictional worlds and I want to sew costumes and and and#there's so much knowledge out there to be learned and things to try out how are you supposed to do this all in one lifetime?#when you're expected to start working a fulltime job and stay in that line for the rest of your life??#though my problem isn't necessarily that I don't wanna be doing that job - it's more that I don't *only* wanna be doing that job#I just wish I could just try different job fields and see what they're like for like 2-3 years before trying out something else#but since they're all so different I'd have to start from the bottom again every time which probably also means worse payment etc#and I just don't have the time for that because I'd also like to build a stable life and maybe have a family later on#plus some of these jobs are just don't pay very well to begin with#I swear if I was rich and didn't have to worry about regular income I'd probably just be a forever student and study a whole bunch of stuff#just because I want to#unless I win the lottery I'll probably just start working fulltime though once I hopefully finish my master's#however I've already been thinking about signing up for studying history afterwards regardless - just for fun without pressure#I love the topic and then I wouldn't have the pressure of *needing* to find a job in the field afterwards#bc it's hard to find something unless you go for the teacher (or maybe professor) route plus pay seems kinda meh either way#but we'll see#I don't even know what this post is supposed to be. like not really a vent but. still complaining? idk#I don't know how to tag this#selnia talks
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another fun fact about my dumb little ninjastuck au is that, bc she was raised by kai/the occasional sympathetic ignacian, nya knows very little about troll culture. colton, who had a lusus and some influence from his ancestor, takes it upon himself to teach nya all the things she missed (jay also tries to do this to varying levels of success. they are both idiots <3).
this results in colton crushing pale on nya btw <>
#ninjastuck#remembered this au existed and. hmmmm yeah i still like it#kai similarly knows very little abotu trolls. most of what he knows is either rumors/bits of info that he picked up#+ knowledge of nya's general needs#zane learned a LOT from the tinkerer re: the things a troll would need to know but not very much abotu humans bc the tinkerer didn't know#very much himself. not that it mattered when zane's memories got yoinked + his design modified to give him a human guise so that he might b#more palatable to any local human populations and thus safer <-tinkerer's reasoning#jay kind of got a mixed upbringing bc sandgear & clipwire got really invested into taking care of this random baby they found as a Project#and so just kinda tried to make sure he'd have access to more human modes of thinking#but he did still learn a lot about troll social interactions#+ creative freedom to work on his inventions and other passions bc they heard encouragement was good for human children and RAN w/ that#meanwhile while lilly and colton were close and she kind of almost was his mother in spirit he didn't express much curiosity in human stuff#and most of what she taught him was how to fight and how to garden#+ a little bit of the context behind the tea ceremony they did to pass her powers to him#so really both jay and colton are trying so so hard to help nya (and kai by extension) get all the things she missed out on in her childhoo#but in truth they're all learning from each other <3
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god how many months years is it gonna take me to learn my way around the veilguard files in frosty gahhh
#the biggest problem is that i found out that there's a frosty alpha that will load it BEFORE finishing the game#i could finish the game tonight. probably? idk how much is left but definitely not much#(ik i was posting about it near the end earlier but i went and took a break for a few hours because i was STARVING)#but now im gonna be playing with this at least trying to locate the kinds of files im interested#unfortunately there's no string viewer yet. but maybe that's a good thing because id be here forever if there was#my main thing is i want to go through and get a proper list of all items and codex entries for lore purposes#i can probably get info about gear stats but cant see names or descriptions for now#personal#da#dav#remembering how long it took to get the hang of dai files. bleh. im pretty good with those now (and a lot of that knowledge is transferable#but it'll take a while to learn dav-specific stuff#and so much of it just uses hashes instead of linking files noooo im gonna just have to do an xml dump
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why does showtime have random episodes where they just make as much mj references as they can
#like they're just sometimes in the mood to keep referencing mj & altho it's always respectful & actually funny is so scary as someone who's#hyperfixated ong. but keep d oing it pls :)#between jhong saying mj's voice was girl-like (not mockingly but as a gender nonconforming thing bc the male singers had high voices/soft#falsettos & somebody commented they sound like girls) & the singers moonwalking..#(& omg just made sense now why kris lawrence did that. lots of pop/r&b singers from y2k era are defos mj students :') )#mj's legacy in Pinas is so interesting it's weird to realize how i'm actually not sure of its full scope#like entertainment-wise yes his impact was huge i still remember those 80s shows where the traces of mj was so obvious. the beat it-like -#choreos in shows. the gary v performances obvs. the fashion also & even now ofc the obvs influence in pop stars & groups#but outside of entertainment how was he viewed? his philanthropy yea '95 manila hospital visit is pretty well-known#his philosophies & views in life tho..i'm not sure ppl know much about his personal life nor do they seem to care..?#i guess it's the reverence. mj's 'magical' image is so strong i think some people believe he's really an alien too before his death lmao#and some tabloid things unfortunately was widely-believed such as the 'want to be white' thing & the occult stuff bc fils love that stuff😭#ooh i wish i remember lots of stuff about showtime before the abs-cbn shutdown when billy was still there as a host all i remember is#vice's solid rants and shots @ duts administration#billy & vh0ng & jhong were defos the ones making mj references the most i feel like as the dancers w/big admiration 4 mj. esp billy who got#to dance with him in the '95 mtv awards (which is still insane to me omg)#what i'm interested about is vice tho. there was this one time in that segment where they recite quotes from famous people & they have to#guess who said it. & the mj quote they chose was not very well-known but it was one of his philosophical ones & vice guessed it correctly#on the first try...vice has this certain kind of wisdom where they're able to exhibit deep understanding & empathy for others. & ik they're#defos not perfect but i rlly feel like vice is the kind of person who would know that there's a lot to learn from mj & his philosophies. as#a performer as a philanthropist as a person who embodied kindness while also challenging the status quo#pushing against the system & society set to oppress & silence them#i feel like lots of things about mj would resonate a lot with vice. and i mean A LOT. nonconformity & the courage to be themselves...#not to say that they are very similar but i just feel like vice is the type of person who also studied the greats to apply the knowledge#they've imparted ykno. & they just generally know about a LOT of things#so i wonder how much vice knows about him. i hope they'd share more of their thoughts someday that'd be so cool#u can develop an interest over a legendary pop icon. but watch out
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i miss being a construction worker cause honestly a lot of my time on the job i wouldnt do anything LOL but i do genuinely also miss like. the job itself. i miss how a lot of my work revolved around going into empty buildings and go anywhere inside of them. fix them nicely ... whenever there's construction work in the offices and bathrooms and stuff it makes my heart hurt so badly. i love getting glimpses of the utility closets. i always felt like a fly on the wall maintaining an office or building but not really being APART of the culture inside of it yannow. being there transiently
#i try and say things to the custodians and the construction workers that always made my heart sing to hear#and now out of all the people who work in my building a lot of them recognize me and say hi to me specifically lol#i still remember the man who stopped while i was painting the door and said ''thank you for making our office more beautiful''#i still think about that man ... the color i was painting was atrocious honestly LOL but he was so nice to me ..#its funny how much of my assumptions on supervisors and managers and office work turned out to be true#not that im an office worker now#but i work for the people who work in the offices LOL. and ..... yeah ...#but i always felt a kinship with factory workers and warehouse workers too#but i miss being a fly on the wall. i miss maintaining a building lovingly#i miss seeing these secret intricacies of the buildings. of the world#every time i get a glimpse behind a ceiling tile .. i love to see it ... i miss working in it ...#it was painful and tiresome and really worked my shit out differently#but i miss it ....#im glad i have that skill now. i like how i know HOW to patch walls and paint and sand and install shit and everything like that yannow#but i miss how i used to see the world. now my everyday is sort of soulsucking#i hate my job........ with construction work i felt some sense of love about it. some sense of DOING something real#what im doing now doesnt apply to ANYTHING .... its so STUPID#im filled with USELESS knowledge on something so specific its like worthless outside of here#construction skills are like some home ec shit u just like can use in your everyday life#what im doing is like. like its REAL right but its like. REAL STUPID also#i know its not like completely nothing and im learning valuable shit in there right. in SOME way. but god does it feel DUMB .......
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I'm in the middle of a knitting project right fucking now, and I'm already looking at other projects to do. I'm not even close to finishing the current project and I'm looking at like three others. It's a real problem
#so the thing is i really like to knit as gifts (the project im on right now is a christmas gift for my sibling)#so i like to think of knitting projects i could do as gifts for upcoming holidays and such#but also i like cool things#so im looking at this bat cape for myself#i dont even have an occasion to wear a cape. and even crazier-#im trying to figure out how to make my own patterns. so i can knit a tapestry/blanket thing. of a fictional map from a ttrpg#im playing a ttrpg rn and i have become obsessed#and im painting the map onto a clipboard (it takes place at a summer camp and summer camp map on a clipboard makes sense)#but apparently thats not enough for me. because i want it as a full tapestry or blanket#but because it was created in my girlfriend's head (shes the gm) it doesnt exist as a pattern online#so i have to figure out how to make it come to life#thats way beyond my skillset. ive been knitting since 2019 and i only figured out the purl stitch in the last like year#i recently learned double knitting which has been fun. and thats as complex as my knitting knowledge gets#i knitted a nice shawl once. that and the double knitting is where it ends for me#so of course im trying to figure out colorwork for a map#idek where to start with that one. if you know then please lmk#it has like three colors and thats one more color than im used to#i lied maybe four. maybe five. okay so theres green for land. blue for the lake. black for buildings and roads#then like beige or gray for a bit of cliffs. and there's also a shipwreck that i would have to figure out#if that helps you help me then please let me know cuz i really want to do this project#im super passionate about this game and the campaign and i love knitting. i would love to do something with it related to knitting#there are two really good artists in the party that share their amazing art#one of them made a much better map than my painted one that i havent finished. so i think it would be so funny to swing in with a#knitted tapestry or something. and because its a colorwork blanket it will be years down the road. but there are such nice drawings#and then me coming in with a knitted map. thatd be so fun#anyway i went on a ramble in here. i should go work on the current knitting project i have
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⋆⭒˚.⋆ my best friends brother - 𝐂𝐋𝟏𝟔 ✴︎
( 𝗉𝖺𝗂𝗋𝗂𝗇𝗀 )𝖼𝗁𝖺𝗋𝗅𝖾𝗌 𝗅𝖾𝖼𝗅𝖾𝗋𝖼 𝗑 𝖺𝗋𝗍𝗁𝗎𝗋𝗌 𝖻𝖾𝗌𝗍 𝖿𝗋𝗂𝖾𝗇𝖽 𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖽𝖾𝗋
( 𝗌𝗎𝗆𝗆𝖺𝗋𝗒 )𝖺𝗋𝗍𝗁𝗎𝗋𝗌 𝖼𝗁𝗂𝗅𝖽𝗁𝗈𝗈𝖽 𝖻𝖾𝗌𝗍 𝖿𝗋𝗂𝖾𝗇𝖽 𝗁𝖺𝗌 𝗁𝖺𝖽 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗌𝗐𝖾𝖾𝗍𝖾𝗌𝗍 𝗅𝗂𝗍𝗍𝗅𝖾 𝖼𝗋𝗎𝗌𝗁 𝗈𝗇 𝖼𝗁𝖺𝗋𝗅𝖾𝗌 𝗌𝗂𝗇𝖼𝖾 𝗌𝗁𝖾 𝗐𝖺𝗌 𝗅𝗂𝗍𝗍𝗅𝖾 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗇𝗈𝗐 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗌𝗁𝖾𝗌 𝖺𝗅𝗅 𝗀𝗋𝗈𝗐𝗇 𝗎𝗉 𝗁𝖾𝗌 𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗋𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗍𝗈 𝗀𝖾𝗍 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗐𝖾𝗂𝗋𝖽 𝖿𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗂𝗇 𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗌𝗍𝗈𝗆𝖺𝖼𝗁 𝗐𝗁𝖾𝗇𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋 𝗁𝖾 𝗌𝖾𝖾𝗌 𝗁𝖾𝗋
✫ i imagined her to be 22 idk sorry i love a good age gap also my first charles smau!!
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yn

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yn “let’s go for a ride on the boat it’ll be fun”
charles_leclerc Did you or did you not have fun?
⤷ yn you almost flung me off the boat when you had to swerve out of the way of the rock
⤷ charles_leclerc And I apologized for making you bite your tongue on accident bug can we please move past that?
⤷ yn you broke my hairbrush trying to detangle my hair
⤷ charles_leclerc And I ordered you a new hairbrush bug can we please move past that as well?
⤷ sharls_lerklerk charles calling her bug is something very dear to me
arthur_leclerc “It’s not gonna be like last time guys I’ve learned from my mistakes”
⤷ jade_dishtinguinn poor arthur got water boarded for the second this month 😭
⤷ user1634445581 i would never let my bf have a girl best friend
⤷ yn I literally introduced them??
lorenzotl Charles trying to recreate the titanic
⤷ yn always needs the attention on him 🙄 (i’ll give him attention)
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estiebestie charles finally acknowledging y/n’s crush on him will always be my favorite thing
charles_leclerc Face card never declines
⤷ yn omg u slut 🙂↕️
forzacharles why is charles trying to recreate the jack and rose scene with y/n??
⤷ yn my exact thoughts like we just gon keep playing eye tag or you gonna holla at ur boy? 😤
⤷ arthur_leclerc dis gur
alex_albon wait your like kinda giving mermaid turned human vibes??
⤷ lilymhe no I see your vision
lando the money i would pay to see that boat ride
⤷ charles_leclerc You wanna go for a boat ride??? 😄 No one wants to go with me anymore…not even y/n it’s lowkey making me depressed
⤷ lando um no i kinda hope to live to see my next birthday or whatever
⤷ yn you’re such a copy cat you wanna be different so bad but you’ll never be different
⤷ lando ???
⤷ yn don’t ??? me fattie you know you hella wrong for what you did
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charles_leclerc

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charles_leclerc I am hopelessly in love
arthur_leclerc am I tweaking
leclerc_pascale We know son ❤️
francisca.cgomes i thought you were gay for max and carlos? like aren’t you guys a throuple or something
⤷ charles_leclerc that’s common knowledge i fear
charles_leclerc NONONO I TOOK A NAP AND SHE TOOK MY PHONE
⤷ yn HAHAHAHAH
⤷ arthur_leclerc Did you send charles this picture so you could post it 😭
⤷ yn no he already had it in his camera roll
⤷ lordperceval 😦?? i need to see more
charles_leclerc IT WASNT ME GUYS I DIDNT POST THIS
charles_leclerc I AM NOT IN A THROUPLE WITH CARLOS OR MAX GUYS PLEASE BELIEVE ME
danielricciardo Damn bro that is a beautiful picture it really captures her essence
maxverstappen1 Why don’t you capture my damn essence like this?
lorenzotl How did she even get into your phone?
⤷ charles_leclerc She deleted my face from it in like 2021 and added hers
⤷ lorenzotl Why didn’t you delete it?
⤷ charles_leclerc I don’t know how
⤷ lorenzotl Why didn’t you look it up?
⤷ charles_leclerc This conversation is over
⤷ arthur_leclerc So you’ve been manually typing in your password for 4 years cause you don’t wanna delete her Face ID from your phone?
⤷ charles_leclerc This conversation is over
francolapinto raw, next question
⤷ yn 😨😰😥😏
⤷ charles_leclerc No
arthur_leclerc Guys I think I swallowed to much ocean water my stomach hurts
⤷ oscarpiastri google said you have 3 days idk
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yn

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yn scheming how to make my best friends brother fall madly in love with me
francisca.cgomes y/n searching up “love spells” on tik tok
arthur_leclerc y/n is probably doing some weird dance around a bunch of candles in the shape of a heart with charles leclerc edits playing on her tv and ipad rn
⤷ yn are you fucking watching me through my windows or something damn
charlotte2304 She just ordered a bag of rose quartz guys
hoeforsainzzz charles wants her so bad he’s just trying to play hard to get fr
⤷ yn bro wants to play the long game 🙂↕️
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lecult_4lyfe y/n is the most loyal person ever
alex_albon Omg let me help I’ll show you stuff I did to get lily to date me
⤷ lilymhe ???
⤷ alex_albon Girl I’m a mastermind
sharls.eclair we know she ain’t lying either
oscarpiastri I wish I knew all the lore on this crush
⤷ georgerussell63 Omg I’ll make a PowerPoint
⤷ lando great you’ve brought out powerpoint george thanks a lot oscar. thanks a lot.
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charles_leclerc

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charles_leclerc training camp, part 2. 😘
yn no lube, no protection, all night, all day, from the kitchen floor to the toilet seat, from the dining table to the bedroom, from the bathroom sink to the shower, from the front porch to the balcony, vertically, horizontally, quadratic, exponential, logarithmic, while I gasp for air, scream and see the light, missionary, cowgirl, reverse cowgirl, doggy, backwards, sideways, upside down, on the floor, on the bed, on the couch, on a chair, being held against the wall, outside, in a train, on a plane, in the car, on a motorcycle, the the bed of a truck, on a trampoline, in a bounce house, in the pool, bent over, in the basement, against the window, have the most toe curling, back arching, leg shaking, dick throbbing, fist clenching, ear ringing, mouth drooling, ass clenching, nose sniffling, eye watering, eye rolling, hip thrusting, earthquaking, sheet gripping, knuckles cracking, jaw dropping, hair pulling, teeth jitterbug, mind boggling, soul snatching, overstimulating, vile, sloppy, moan inducing, heart wrenching, spine tingling, back breaking, atrocious, gushy, creamy, beastly, lip biting, gravity defying, nail biting, sweaty, feet kicking, mind blowing, body shivering, orgasmic, bone breaking, world ending, black hole creating, universe destroying, devious, scrumptious, amazing, delightful, delectable, unbelievable, body numbing, bark worthy, can't walk, head nodding, soul evaporating, volcano erupting, sweat rolling, voice cracking, trembling, sheets soaked, hair drenched, flabbergasting, lip locking, skin peeling, eyelash removing, eye widening, pussy popping, nail scratching, back cuts, spectacular, brain cell desolving, hair ripping, show stopping, magnificent, unique, extraordinary, slendid, phenomenal, mouth foaming, heavenly, awakening, devils tango ever bro could cause a nuclear bomb inside me and I'd still ride.
⤷ charles_leclerc i meannn….
⤷ yn you want me so bad
⤷ charles_leclerc i meannnnnn……
⤷ yn OMG HE WANTS ME SO BAD GUYS
arthur_leclerc I can’t believe i just read that
maxverstappen1 Oh my fuck I feel like I just got assaulted or something
lando i need to bathe myself in bleach
lewishamilton Wow that was freaky even for me
oscarpiastri I’m gonna call my mom and tell her I love her
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yn

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yn guess who
charles_leclerc Wait
charles_leclerc What the fuck
charles_leclerc Are you serious
charles_leclerc Is this real
charles_leclerc Did you get hacked?
charles_leclerc Who is that
charles_leclerc Bug who is that
charles_leclerc Please stop bug
charles_leclerc Is this is a joke?
charles_leclerc STOP IS THIS REAL ARE YOU SERIOUS IS THIS AN ACTUAL DATE???????
charles_leclerc SOMEBODY ANSWER ME PLEASE
charles_leclerc WHY ARE YOU CHEATING ON ME
charles_leclerc BUG PLEASE I THOUGHT WE WERE GONNA GET MARRIED PLEASE
charles_leclerc I KNOW IVE PLAYED HARD TO GET BUT I’VE LIKED YOU SINCE YOU WERE LIKE 18 AND I KNOW THATS WEIRD CAUSE I WAS 24 BUT I COULDNT HELP IT YOU CANT FIGHT LOVE
charles_leclerc BUG PLEASE IVE LITERALLY HAD YOUR ENGAGEMENT RING HIDDEN IN MY FUCKING SOCK DRAWER FOR A YEAR PLEASE
charles_leclerc PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE YOU WERE ALWAYS GONNA BE MY WIFE
charles_leclerc AH FUCK IM GONNA DIE ALONE
charles_leclerc oh my gosh i missed my chance didn’t i?
charles_leclerc i waited to long
charles_leclerc Didn’t even get to hit that
⤷ arthur_leclerc Oh my gosh charles you sicko you’re a fuckin perv 😂😂🫵🏽
⤷ charles_leclerc shut up arthur now’s not the time
charles_leclerc Who is it I’ll kill him
charles_leclerc It’s the haircut isn’t it??? I told maman she cut it to short
charles_leclerc OHHH MY SHAYLA
charles_leclerc please bug i was gonna marry you i swear so bad i literally had it all planned out
charles_leclerc YOURE MY END AND MY BEGINNING EVEN WHEN I LOSE IM WINNING CAUSE I GIVE YOU AALLLLLLLL OF ME TO YOU
charles_leclerc I always thought Ferrari would be the reason I ended myself but it’s this
⤷ yn nooo don’t kill yourself your so sexy aha
⤷ charles_leclerc OH SO NOW YOU GOT JOKES? ARE YOU OR ARE YOU NOT CHEATING ON ME WITH SOME UGLY ASS SKANK?
⤷ lando who tf are you calling a ugly ass skank?
⤷ charles_leclerc YOU WENT A DATE WITH LANDO FUCKING NORRIS???
⤷ lando girl there ain’t no one in the world that can resist this fine ass honey mhmmmm
⤷ charles_leclerc ok gay ass go kiss on carlos or something fucking slut
⤷ yn oh my gosh charles i’ve never seen this side of you 🙂↕️
⤷ charles_leclerc are you or are you not cheating on me with lando fucking norris?
⤷ yn daddy chill
⤷ yn it was all apart of my plan you made it to easy
⤷ yn i’ve never seen you cuss so much
lando we just seen charles leclerc crashing out over his little brothers best friend guys this is a historical moment for us chayn shippers
⤷ arthur_leclerc This is gonna be taught in history classes in the future bro trust
charles_leclerc What the fuck I was just manipulated into confessing my crush on my little brothers best friend to the entire world
alex_albon chayn shippers rise
⤷ lando risen ☝️
⤷ georgerussell63 risen ☝️
⤷ danielricciardo risen ☝️
⤷ liamlawson30 risen ☝️
⤷ charles_leclerc This is exactly who I thought would be apart this club fucking losers
⤷ lando this is how you treat loyal fans? i’m not showing the edits we made now
⤷ charles_leclerc Show it to me pleaseeee send it to me Rachel 😔
⤷ lando why is charles leclerc lowkey turning into a pathetic little bitch boy?
⤷ charles_leclerc What the fuck did I do to you?
⤷ lando you called me a fucking ugly ass skank
⤷ charles_leclerc bruh it was a joke it was just in the heat of the moment
⤷ lando i don’t want to hear your excuses 🙄🤚
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yn

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yn i’m a mastermind
francolapinto tears in my latina eyes
⤷ francolapinto oh shit wait
arthur_leclerc my favorite panther
⤷ yn 🐆🐆 (i know it’s a cheetah shut up)
francisca.cgomes i know that’s right
lilymhe I’m proud, truly
carlossainz55 Peter…how are you doing that
leclerc_pascale My prayers have been answered
pierregasly Great get married now
⤷ yn let’s have a double wedding
⤷ francisca.cgomes omg lets do it
charles_leclerc bugs school of manifestation
⤷ yn a masterclass
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danielricciardo This is in fact a love story
alex_albon younger me is probably so shook rn
⤷ lando 21 year old me is flabbergasted rn
maxverstappen1 Damn what spells are you using
⤷ yn you’ll never know 🤫🤫
lorenzotl I’ve never seen him look so free
⤷ yn this was kinda poetic lowk
oscarpiastri I can see the future
carlossainz55 Dreams do come true ig
lewishamilton damn girl teach me your ways
sharls_lerklerk what’s 4 + 4??
estiebestie i need to know what that damn dance looked liked cause wtf
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charles_leclerc

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charles_leclerc she bamboozled me
yn omg you want me so bad
⤷ charles_leclerc I do want you so bad
⤷ yn my pants were JUST on i swear
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yn 7 year old me is bouncing off walls rn
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lando you’re welcome i was part of that plan
⤷ charles_leclerc ugly ass skank
arthur_leclerc seriously just get married you already admitted to having the ring
⤷ charles_leclerc Yeah I can’t believe I just told the whole world that
⤷ lando cause you were being pathetic you bitch
⤷ georgerussell63 Omg loving this beef let’s keep this energy in the new season ❤️
⤷ f1 Let’s not ❤️
alex_albon Cute or whateva
carlossainz55 This calls for celebration! Let’s party like there’s no tomorrow
⤷ yn damn how are things at williams?
⤷ alex_albon excuse me i’ll have you know that he was chugging down coffee and munching on all the food did they not feed him at ferrari?
⤷ f1 Let’s not ❤️
alex_albon So as president of chayn club I will be accepting a check for my undying support over the years
⤷ georgerussell63 and i as vice president
⤷ lando and i as the founder
⤷ danielricciardo and i as secretary
⤷ liamlawson30 and i as treasurer
⤷ charles_leclerc I hope your hungry…for nothing
⤷ lando girl you thought you ate that 😒 i want our checks by the end of the week or i’m never sending you our edits
⤷ charles_leclerc be expecting mail in the next few days ❤️
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