#there're so many more im sure

[cosmocup1d]

Note : The reader is a child between 6-7 years old, blood, dead bodies, OOC Characters, Change the canon plot

Part 2

Whoo! 🥳my first one piece fanfic

It was loud

It was so so loud

[Name] cough as she ran around didn't know where to go but she needs to find her dad, She felt tears in her eyes but quickly wipe them away with the back of her hand after all she's going to be marine to make her daddy proud. She smiled as she wipes her tears she can't wait to tell her daddy that she went to marine Ford all by herself! She then turn and the sight making her instantly sick

Blood

Blood was everywhere

But the thing that made her sick there was dead bodies everywhere; to many to count

[Name]cover her mouth so that she wouldn't puke, she's going to be a marine anyway she has to get use to dead bodies. She took a deep breath before running making sure to not step over the dead bodies out of respect

She then trip making me cry out in surprise as she fell down. She cough some more and sat up as she looks down seeing a dead making her scream and crawl away "I-im so sorry mr!" She cried out as she stood up and grabbing the dead Marines coat and putting it over his head as she bowede respectfully

She then turn around and started running trying to see or hear her dad. The said dad was busy fighting of the other pirates and trying to kill Portgas D. ace "ADMIRAL SAKAZUKI!!" A marine cried out "Do they really think they could escape!? There're fools" The said admiral scoff as he activate his devil fruit

"LOOK OUT! IT'S AKAINU!" A pirate cried out "You free ace then turn tail and run eh? The Whitebeard pirates are a pack of cowards" Akainu said as he continues "But considering who your leader isis, that's no surprise Whitebeard is a loser from a bygone area" He finish making ace stop "ACE!" Luffy cried out "A loser huh?" Ace mutter making akainu look at him. The two then begins to bicker making ace more and more furious as the other shouted at ace to stop and come back

"Ace!" Luffy gasp out as he fell down to his knees "luffy! You've reach your limit!" Jinbe said walking over to the boy "Hey... Ace's vivre card..." Luffy reach down at the vivre card unknowingly that akainu was ready to kill him with his magma fist. Luffy looks up seeing akainu magma covered fist heading his way

It happen so fast ace covered Luffy but then someone covered ace

Akainu eyes widen seeing poppy as his fist goes thru her stomach making every look at them with shock and horror "I-i found you daddy!" The little girl gasp out as akainu pulls out his magma arm and reverting it to normal. The other pirates grabs luffy and ace who were stand in shock then dragging them to the ship

Akainu felt his throat close up as he catches poppy who was about to fell down tot he ground "A-are you proud of me d-daddy?... I.. I made it here all by myself..." The girl cough out makibg akainu cradle her and standing up "DOCTOR! ANYONE! CALL A GODDAMN DOCTOR" Akainu order out as Marines scramble to find a doctor "Please don't yell daddy...." [Name] whined out making akainu shut his mouth

Akainu looks down seeing his daughter bleeding in his arms with a hole thru her stomach that he made 'I'm sorry I'm so sorry sorry!' He wanted to say but he couldn't form any words as poppy smiled weekly "D-don't be angry dadddy... It's was my fault.. I-" Poppy was cut off by her fought out blood making akainu panic as he wipes the blood off "I-i was in the way" She finish

"Where is the patient!" A voice said as akainu rush to the voice seeing adoctor, he then lower his arms making the doctor gasp out of shock "I... I'm... I'm so sorry admiral" The doctor bowed his head "The hell you mean 'I'm so sorry'!? Help my daughter!" Akainu snaps at the doctor "I can't help her! Even if I did she would die! All of her organs burnt!" The doctor felt tears in his eyes the girl was so young so innocent

Akainu shuts his mouth as he breath heavily before running "Don't worry we'll get you a doctor" He mutter to his daughter which made her smile "Daddy?..." [Name]mutter "Yes?" Akainu hummed "w-why is it getting dark?" She ask making akainu run faster he didn't know where was he going but he'll run around until he see a doctor or medic

"Daddy please I'm scared.." [Name] cried as she grips his red jacket "it's gonna be alright baby you're going to be alright" Akainu gave a kiss on her forehead while patting her head "Daddy why do I feel cold?" [Name] ask again "Daddy... Please help... I-i don't wanna go!" She cried making akainu grip her tiny body in his arms

She continues to let out sobs and cries making akainu fought hard against his tears as he tries to assure his daughter that she'll be safe and healthy but he knew what's gonna happen but just ignore it "Daddy... I'm sorry... I-i shouldn't have come here... I wanna make you feel proud because I was brave... I'm sorry for all the times that I distracted you from work"

Please don't

"I'm sorry if I accidentally drawn on your document"

I like your drawings

"I'm sorry that I broke your vase"

I never like the vase

"I'm sorry for being loud"

I love hearing your voice

"I'm sorry that I wasn't good enough"

You were perfect

[Name] smiled "Thank you for everything... Daddy" She close her eyes as her hand goes limp her body getting cold

It was quiet

It was so so quiet

[menlove]

I just finishEd the first chapter and how dare you!! pls there're so many moments i loved it's impossible to mention it all!

it was SO good and i'm already so invested in this universe, like wow?? I love how you described John's queerness vs Paul's queerness, perfectly illustrating their age gap and fears! Paul being proud - i love that so muchh, and wow jim as always is a prick even here, on point!

so many interesting tidbits about John's live too, that for sure me hungry to know more! also I imagine Julian is just constantly side-eyeing and judging hard, and honestly, who can blame him lol

THAT ending tho, is so painful??? how dare you again! jk I love the torture... and ofc the brief Daddy kink part, Paul's reaction was chef kisss... will extend my rent in your walls to ensure this heinous au is updated btw, okay bye

AAAA THANK YOUUUU i love you sm anon im proposing

and yes !!! i thought it would be super interesting to explore bc like. it's the 80s and of course there's still MASSIVE massive amounts of homophobia, but it's a little bit easier for paul to come up in a world where he can go huh i know what that IS and i know i like men and like. that's not FINE but it exists and i can move into a big city where it's a little more fine than in liverpool.

and JIM.... GOD...... listen i understand all portrayals of their relationship but man every time i hear anything about that man i'm like hm. Don't Like That. i'll get more into their relationship down the line (there's a BIG moment for them coming up during The Breakup) but yeah it's. poor paul lmao. i honestly do Not think jim would be accepting of any sort of queerness there like ik irl paul patched things up with his dad despite the abuse and that's fine but i do think if he'd ever like. come out to him. things would have gone soooo poorly

and yes !! i'm like. 90% sure the last chapter is going to be from john's pov (we'll see how it goes like if it doesn't flow i'll just have to make a short second part from john's pov) bc there's a Lot going on there. and julian lmfaoooo poor kid jfc. i would also be judging so hard

THANK YOU AGAIN I LOVE YOOOOU i hope you enjoy the rest with all its angstiness and smut lmfao

[karin-miyoshi]

I recalled in one of the WaSuYu movie, there was a Sonoko's Dream part (after Sumi tried to brainwash the 1st grade kiddos) where Aki-sensei wear what seem to be a villainous version of the suits that Sumi and Sonoko perform their Dance in. She was punishing the trio by forbidding udon for a whole week and Sonoko gets so scared that she woke up.

Aki-sensei in that suit look like she could be in a normal (traditional?) Mahou Shojo show villains group! She look freaking awsome and intimidating!

And that give me the idea of a yuyuyu au with a more... Pretty Cure liked vibe (I guess)? There'll still be gods and stuff but instead of being apocalyptic, things are more like a secret war of the Heroes and vertexes in an Earth that's still okay. Also Gin survived, just cursed badly by the Heavenly Gods (and kidnapped by their followers)

In this Au, Aki-sensei would still be the trio teacher, but secretly is one of the villains. After seeing her students got hurt so badly though, her redemption arc start by protecting Gin from her former allies. There're still so much to work with before I can finish this au and write a fanfic. But I'm curious to see what others would do with this ideas.

How would you build an au with this concept?

(sorry im late with this, was busy drawing!)

hmm, its an interesting concept for sure, but with that many changes its gonna be a whole new series altogether. i can see where youre going with the precure comparisons, seeing how much more easygoing the stakes are. some more ideas under the cut :9

first off, aki-sen in that outfit rocks i agree, there definitely needs to be more fanart of that. the world isnt post apocalyptic, so would that mean the nowayus "won" their fight? or at least brought it to a stalemate? did they retire partway through, or did they simply pass the baton on and went about their lives? not to critique too much but yeah unless youre specifically zoning in on one arc only, theres a whole can of worms youll end up having to open and patch up.

looking past that though, im sure theres a lot of fun to be had (though admittedly i dont write that much, so im not sure i can offer much here). id personally see a divide between the heroes and aki-sen with their identities. the latter knowing what she had done in the past, guilt with atonement, with plans to take that secret to the grave. on the other hand, the heroes going as far as to "reveal" their secret identities to her when the relationship between them reaches a boiling point.

how riddled with anxciety does aki-sen feel seeing gin get cursed? is this simply something that makes her feel really sick, or would it put her into grave danger? even if its not too serious, what if its something that lasts her entire life? how would sumi and sonoko react when they find out their teacher was the one for gin getting cursed? these might guide you a little further in your fanfic i hope, but with all those circumstances things might go a little darker than you first imagined

[forgottenroderick]

OOC | Roderick's Personal Timeline

year 1237 – birth of bartholomew

year 1238

year 1239

year 1240 – birth of alistair

year 1241

year 1242

year 1243

year 1244

year 1245 – aged 0 -- birth of roderick

year 1246 -- aged 1

year 1247 -- aged 2 – birth of marian

year 1248 – aged 3 --birth of aleksander

year 1249 – aged 4 -- birth of amira

year 1250 -- aged 5

year 1251 -- aged 6

year 1252 -- aged 7

year 1253 -- aged 8

year 1254 -- aged 9

year 1255 -- aged 10

year 1256 – aged 11 -- birth of godfrey

year 1257 -- aged 12

year 1258 – aged 13 -- birth of alaric, death of queen millicent in childbirth

year 1259 -- aged 14

year 1260 -- aged 15

year 1261 – aged 16 -- birth of tristan

year 1262 – aged 17 -- roderick secretly weds elaine causing a scandal as he was betrothed to another, death of king athaulf and prince euric, roderick becomes king, war breaks out w antilla thus inadvertently starting roderick's world conquest

year 1263 OC/1 AR – aged 18 -- an assassination attempt nearly kills roderick after which he becomes significantly more brutal, surrender of antilla, roderick is crowned emperor alongside his elaine, surrender of kolchis, meeting of roderick and amira, fighting breaks out with kvenheim

year 1264 OC/2 AR – aged 19 -- birth of eoin, roderick officially reinstates the old ways and weds amira

year 1265 OC/3 AR – aged 20 -- roderick weds marian

year 1266 OC/4 AR -- aged 21 -- surrender of kvenheim, roderick invades vinetta

year 1267 OC/5 AR – aged 22 -- birth of guinevere, arthur, ciara, eilionora, death of bart’s wife, surrender of vinetta, roderick invades malakarta

year 1268 OC/6 AR – aged 23 -- birth of sebastian

year 1269 OC/7 AR – aged 24 -- birth of aria

year 1270 OC/8 AR – aged 25 -- birth of edmund, surrender of malkarta, roderick invades aarnu

year 1271 OC/9 AR – aged 26 -- birth of cassandra, siobhan, death of léna the late queen of astaira

year 1272 OC/10 AR -- aged 27

year 1273 OC/11 AR -- aged 28 -- surrender of aarnu

year 1274 OC/12 AR -- aged 29 -- roderick invades argadara

year 1275 OC/13 AR -- aged 30

year 1276 OC/14 AR -- aged 31

year 1277 OC/15 AR -- aged 32 -- surrender of argadara, roderick invades xangadu

year 1278 OC/16 AR -- aged 33

year 1279 OC/17 AR -- aged 34

year 1280 OC/18 AR -- aged 35 -- surrender of xangadu, roderick invades aotepo

year 1281 OC/19 AR – aged 36 -- death of domnhall, eilia becomes queen

year 1282 OC/20 AR -- aged 37

year 1283 OC/21 AR -- aged 38 -- surrender of aotepo, roderick invades alytar

year 1284 OC/22 AR -- aged 39

year 1285 OC/23 AR – aged 40 -- eilia comes of age, surrender of alytar, roderick invades affaraon

year 1286 OC/24 AR -- aged 41

year 1287 OC/25 AR -- aged 42

year 1288 OC/26 AR -- aged 43 -- surrender of affaraon, roderick invades astaira

year 1289 OC/27 AR -- aged 44

year 1290 OC/28 AR -- aged 45

year 1291 OC/29 AR – aged 46 -- battle of m, conquest of astaira

year 1292 OC/30 AR -- aged 47

year 1293 OC/31 AR – aged 48 -- roderick turns 49, ice ball, riots, hangings, the present

sooooo, does this look right? t hese dates are VERY MUCH up for debate etc!!!!! my math is notiriously bad and yeah! also i tried to track down as much info as i could on ~other peeps this was impacting but i know i def missed stuff and/or there're so many elenents at play im sure i didn't think of thngs too/misread stuff/etc etc, so yeah! pls lmk anything that needs mending and i'll fix it right up!

[haunting-jane]

guys im gonna open my heart here with yall: I cannot understand why so many people are so fixated on juliet's age as if that's shakespeare's most violent misogynistic portrayal ever. yes she is 13. and romeo is 16.

that is why the whole play is so dramatic and so intense, because they are both dumb teenagers making dumb decisions, that's why it all happens in less than a week. because everything is exaggerated when you fall in love at that age.

istg there're so many more problems that we could be focusing on, so many more actual misogynistic shakespearean instances out there, I truly cannot wrap my head around why juliet's age became so controversial.

I mean yes sure by today's standards definitely a 13 year old and a 16 year old getting married would be extremely weird, but if you can't have nuance when reading a 400+ year old play, maybe stick to contemporary literature.

anyway sorry for the rambling it went on for longer that I intended but I just had to get it out.

[forgotteneilionora]

even if there's a fire aklasdfjksd jfjksdf but honestly she's like??? three years???? maybe??? older than he is so ngl she doesn't want him to call her mom either hahahaha but honestly that's ~mostly bc she just doesn't wanna marry his dad in the first place alksdjfksjdfjk

tbf, no one's really asking her opinion on it either bc she's frankly made that pr clear hahahaha only roderick's opinion matters here </3 and he's really only nominally asking her to agree to it hahaha

but anyway! i feel like, in other circumstances, eilia would probs like edmund but honestly as it is she's def not feeling it! eilia is pr anti-varmont and honestly wishes she could just tell them all to get lost but sadly that is NOT a political possibility!!

also, i def feel like roderick is def tryna have like family dinners w eilia and IM SCREAMING i feel like this is 100% having the opposite from the intended effect: rather than making her feel closer to them all and more a part of the family etc she's like 'wtf is wrong w these ppl' alkjsfjsjfklskjf so honestly i think she feels sorry for the kids and is like 'i had it so good damn'

but also she's like 'roderick raised some v screwed up kids and if i ever have any kids i do noT want this for them i have to figure out how i can shelter them from all this if i marry him' so she probs does occasionally ask edmund (and his siblings) questions about childhood etc (and is probs like 'omg it keeps getting worse and worse' the more she learns alkjsdfkljsdkfj eilia: 'well the good news is that, if i do marry him, we'll all die pr quickly so we won't have to suffer long -- the apocalypse suddenly couldn't come soon enough' jk jk) and is like lowkey taking notes like 'ok gotta make sure ~that doesn't happen' etc hahaha i feel like she's lowkey like 'god i wish i could go back in time and get these poor kids out of here before this ever happened to them he's done such a number on ALL of them' alsjdflksjdfkl if they ever do get married, there're gonna be soooo many plans and contingencies written up in that agreement smdh

ooc | Edmund & Eilionora

Edmund really doesn't want another mom, tbh? Not that anyone is going to ask his opinion on this, but the Varmont fam is already crowded and complicated enough, thank you.

However, he's not super invested in the outcome, either way, because he knows his dad is going to do what his dad wants to do (as always) so whatever will be will be.

But he's not about to start calling her mom (not even if there's a fire)

[astrxealis]

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[sidespart]

Top 5 Sanders Sides quotes

If you've previously experienced stretches of time during which you've felt fulfillment and happiness, then the idea that you could experience something similar in the future is not inconceivable. It's happened in the past; therefore, it's decidedly not impossible. 

If you're worried about getting hurt, then seek knowledge.

Time out for thee and time out for thee. Focus on issues or focus on me!

Even a little progress is progress

He doesn't like Nazis. // That... can't be where the bar is.

ask me my top 5 anything 

[bontens-new-executive]

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My Top Posts in 2021

#5

IM LITERALLY SO IN LOVE WITH TAKASHI BC HE'S LIKE THE BEST PERSON EVER

SO PATIENT AND SWEET, TAKES CARE OF HIS SISTERS, HE'S RESPONSIBLE, HELPFUL, GOOD AT PROTECTING AND FIGHTING, CAN SEW AND HAVE I MENTIONED THAT HES THE ABSOLOUTE SWEETEST OML

No bc I'm over here crying (I'm not actually crying but yk it's for the extra effect) bc I can't date mitsuya takashi, and why can't I? Bc he ain't <\3 fucking <\3 real <\3

Don't touch me. I'm very sensitive rn.

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399 notes • Posted 2021-09-06 20:11:38 GMT

#4

How the bonten members would react to getting played

Listen. I was just simping for rich koko as one does, right. So I was like "yo this mf would totally buy ur place and fire u just bc he salty like that"

So, this happened. :)

Characters: kokonoi hajime, Ran Haitani, Rindo Haitani, Manjiro Sano (mikey), kakucho hitto sanzu Haruchiyo (without mochi and akashi)

Kokonoi Hajime

Would lowkey be surprised

Did not expect that to happen

Starts going out with other people to make you jealous

Wants to see you regret leaving him

Quite angry about it

Focused on making more money to get his mind off you

People working with him would notice the change of behavior

Spends much more money than before

If he's salty enough he would buy the place you work at, just to fire you

Or he'd become your boss, so you're forced to talk to him

Pays bonten members (not the executives) to keep an eye on you

Arrogant.

Wants you back but won't admit it

Gets teased by ran and sanzu a lot for it

Drowns in work to keep his mind off you

Haitani Ran

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419 notes • Posted 2021-10-30 11:07:25 GMT

#3

I JUST WANNA BE AN EXECUTIVE IN BONTEN FFS

IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK

Just let me be in this car. That's all I'm asking for.

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482 notes • Posted 2021-10-07 21:03:07 GMT

#2

Request:

You can make a jealousy scenario with Rindo Haitan,Ran Haitani,Takashi Mitsuya e Wakasa Imaushi Found out that his girlfriend is the only girl on a boys’ team (hockey or baseball) and they get jealous ( In Imaushi’s case, his girlfriend may be younger still in high school but she can’t be a college team in his case) And sorry if you didn’t understand, I’m Brazilian and I use the keyboard translator to write and the simutanio translator to read

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I’m so up for this omfg,, no bc I love jealousy scenario, I hope this is what you wanted ^^

I'm not sure if this is trigger warning worthy but there're mentions of being hungry and eating food in mitsuya's part

Genere: fluff

Characters: Rindo Haitan, Ran Haitani, Takashi Mitsuya, Wakasa Imaushi

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Rindou haitani

a friend comes up to you while grocery shopping

Won't admit that's he's jealous but wouldn't deny it either

“Is there really a guy hitting on my girl at 8.30 in the morning? Right in front of me??”

Watches you first before he acts

Always careful with guys he isn't familiar with

He doesn't mind a short pat on the shoulder but he hates it when someone has his arm over you and pulls you to their side or tries to hug you on to their chest

Gets grumpy. Not mad per se but his mood does swing a bit

The longer they're talking to you, the more bothered he gets

Wants to leave as quick as possible

It was early in the morning, rindou and you were grocery shopping. Rindou was still tried and wanted to go home as soon as possible. While he was looking at the sugary sweets, trying to choose one from many, you were going off to look for some eggs. After not long, somebody tapped you on your shoulder. Turning around, you saw your teammate, so you guys started a conversation.

“Hello there.”, was heard behind you, as you were talking to your teammate. "Ah, yes, hey there. You must be Rindou?", the guy asked with a smirk. "Yes I am. And you are?", rindou wasn't sure how to feel about this situation yet. This guy knew his name and his girl, but rindou hasn't heard about this guy at all. "Well, I am-", he started before getting interrupted by you, "he's a my teammate." Teammate? What team? Why would you be on a team with a guy like him? How often were you in contact with that guy? Of course he didn't mind you having other friends but that didn't change the fact that he was, nonetheless, confused. Rindou was asking himself a lot of questions before asking, "what team?" "Well our baseball team", you explained, "don't you remember? I told you." "I remember you telling me something about your baseball team, yes." Rindou looked your friend up and down," What you didn't mention was that you had a guy in your team.", he finished, before looking back at you. "Well, actually, fun fact, I'm not the only guy. We're a group of guys and she is, as a mater of fact, the only girl in our team." Rindou didn't need this overly friendly guy to talk for you, you could do that on your own. Wait. Only girl in an all boys team? Is every guy there this overly touchy and friendly with you? "And I dont like any of them either. Y'all annoying anyways. Now if you'd excuse us, my boyfriend and I were doing something before getting interrupted," you said while moving passt him with rindou, "I'll see you in practice, idiot." "Right, right." You both shared a small smile before you left completely.

he comes to pick you up from school

"So, a guy's team and the only girl there is my baby? If they get too comfortable with you I might get upset about it", rindou commented. "They're just good friends, no need to get jealous, rin", you reassured him, smiling at the jealousy in his eyes. "Just makin' sure."

Wakasa Imaushi

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522 notes • Posted 2021-10-17 11:58:17 GMT

#1

I didn't mean to - part 1

Genere: heavy angst (ngl even I was hurt writing this)

Characters: bonten!mikey/ Manjiro Sano, bonten!sanzu/ Haruchiyo akashi, bonten!ran haitani

Warning: readers death, mentions of blood and corpses(kinda? Ig?), cursing, heartbreak ♡

Summary: You two got into a rather big fight which then escalated. He immediately regretted he's actions after.

Note: I proof read this once so if there's any typo or sumn ☝ ignore it <3

I hope this is good- my first time writing angst

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Mikey/ Manjiro Sano

"Ugh just shut up. You're annoying.", your boyfriend, mikey said. His voice was deep, filled with the annoyance and anger he felt. Even if he wasn't yelling, you could practically feel the wrath inside him. His sentences were dangerous, they were meant to be taking seriously.

"No mikey! I've had enough of this!", you yelled at him, fed up with the situation at hand. This fight has been going on for hours now. The topic of "you need rest", "take a break" and all your pleadings for him to take it easy were completely ignored. They were just brushed off with the usual "you don't know anything." Or the "Shut up. I don't need your concern."

"Enough of what? Being with me? Are you sick of me? Are going to leave me like everybody else did?!", his tone slowly rose sentence by sentence. He was getting so frustrated. Whenever you came to mind, all he would imagine was your constant complaint about him taking a rest. Every other loving thing you've said long forgotten.

"No of course not, mikey! I love you! But you need to listen to me! You're always overworking yourself, you don't show me any affection anymore, you're more aggressive than before!", it was getting too much for you.

He used to cuddle into you in bed while sleeping, now he either stays at bontens and sleeps there or he comes home extremely late to sleep on the couch. Before all this happened, he would always hug you at random times, now all he does is take your arm harshly to lead you somewhere. Whenever you joked about something, he'd smiled and laughed with you, now he doesn't even look you in the eyes. How did all this happen? When did it all go wrong?

"So I'm aggressive? That's the image you have of me? Good then. Of course the only person I'd ever take a liking to, would have a bad picture of me!", mikey shouted, pulling out a gun and pointing it at your head. "Is that what you think of me? Huh?! Am I a cold blooded yakuza leader and murderer in your eyes?! Do you think like that of me?!" You stumbled back, surprised at his actions. He wouldn't shoot you, right? He was infuriated but he'd never shoot his lover, would he?

He'd always tell you that he'd never hurt you, he would always protect and love you. He promised to always be gentle and attentive towards you. Never would he let his frustration from work out on you. But the Manjiro Sano right in from of you, wasn't the one who promised you all those beautiful lies. Right now, he was bontens leader, blinded by annoyance and anger.

You couldn't give up now. "Mikey, listen. I only want the best for you. You've changed in the last few weeks. You have to rest to get your thoughts and emotions back in check." Looking you directly in your eyes, you could see the emptiness in his. The emptiness even you couldn't fill, no matter how much you tried. "All you ever talk about are my flaws. What kind of partner are you supposed to be? Always telling me what I'm doing wrong. Ever thought about that you're the reason for all the things you hate on me? Ever thought about you being the one that I hate most? You're not as special as you think you are.", those words hit you. Right in the heart, shattering it easily.

"Mikey, no, that's not true. You promised me to love me. The same way I love you. You said you'd always protect me, you'd always be by my side. We made a pinky promise to always stay together. I love you, mikey! I'm just trying to help you! Don't say such hurtful things! Please! Let's talk about this calmly!"

"SHUT UP", he shouted before pulling the trigger. Your last breath unheard by the angered male. Your body fell numb to the ground, whispering one last 'I love you'. And there it was, the silence he'd longed for throughout this whole argument. Finally you'd shut up. Finally the nagging was over.

Turning around he continued, "I loved you! You were the most important person in my life! Always! No matter who left me, you'd always stay with me! You never wanted to change me, but now suddenly I'm not good enough?! Do you know how much it hurts hearing the person you love, pointing out all those flaws?!", he waited for your response. For the response that never came. "Hah. So you've run out of arguments?", he asked before turning around.

He stood still. Holding his breath, heartbeat quickening. He looked at your numb body on the cold floor. Blood poring out of your head. Lifting his hand, he looked at the gun, the gun which he killed you with. The gun which he killed his lover and most precious person with.

His breathing quickened, head feeling dizzy, hands getting sweaty. "Y/n?", he fell to the ground, throwing the gun to the side and crawling towards your body. "Wake up. I didn't mean it. I was just mad. I take it back. I love you, I need you.", he kneeled beside you, putting your head on his lap. "Baby? Please wake up now. It's not funny.", he choked out starting to tremble, shaking your shoulders. Tears rolling down his face, making his vision blurry.

Lowering his head to your chest, he checked for your heart beat. But he couldn't find any. His heart dropped. "No. No. No. Baby, please. I'm sorry.", he cried. He hugged your body and took your hand in his. Tears flowing uncontrollably down his face.

"I'm so sorry. I love you." His throat burned like fire and his eyes hurt just as much as his heart did. He struggled to breath, clenching his shirt where his heart was. He wanted this to be a bad dream, he wanted to wake up, but all he could do was sit there hugging your lifeless body and cry until he passed out.

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[savoies]

Cliches - Carter Hart.

Carter Hart x Reader.

Summary: Carter is the popular guy while Y/N is just the girl who keeps to herself. She starts tutoring him and they rekindle a friendship that they used to have which leads to even more after learning to trust each other again.

Word Count: 2.5k

Warning: maybe a bad word or two and hints of a bad home life.

A/N: Before anyone comes at me, yes this is like a walk to remember but with my ideas and a different take on that. But it does have the aspect of two opposites attracting. I really hope you guys like it.

Carter Hart was the residential popular boy at Lakeview High. Everyone knew him and he tried to know everyone. Carter was big on meeting new people and starting conversations wherever he was. He wasn't popular for being rude, being the football captain, or dating the head cheerleader. Carter was actually popular for being nice. Yes he did have a spot on the football team but he didn't think he was better than anyone else and treated everyone the same.

Y/N was the residential shy girl. She kept to herself and her life motto was the less social interactions the better. Y/N didn't perceive to be rude she just didn't like to put her walls down for people that would just walk away. She felt as though keeping to herself was the best option. She did put her walls down for her best friend but he just walked away after they both went into highschool.

Carter and Y/N had their fair share of interactions throughout highschool. But during their entire childhood they were glued to the hip. Carter was the only person that had seen Y/N be herself yet when they went into highschool that all changed. Carter joined the football team saying that he would still have enough time for his best friend. But after the first week Y/N was by herself and Carter was mostly with his new friends that included football players and cheerleaders.

Carter tried talking to Y/N, ok maybe not having a full blown conversation but sending a simple hello her way. But every time he tried she would walk the other way. She didn't want to deal with him. If he had ignored her all of freshman year, she could ignore a simple hello. As she walked to her english class she took a seat towards the middle where she could blend in. There was about ten minutes before class started so she buried her head in a book to avoid conversation. What brought back her attention though was Carter walking in with his friends laughing loudly. Y/N looked up and they made eye contact for a second. She smiled at him shyly and put her book away as the teacher walked in. 

Carter was failing english badly. If he didn't show up to class everyday he probably would've had a better grade than now. He needed to raise it up to play football or his spot would be given to someone else who had better grades. If he let it go down one bit more, then his whole football journey was over. Now he didn't want that and his teacher had talked to him about getting a tutor. Now Carter knew that getting a tutor probably meant that he would get stuck with some dude that only cared about homework. That is why he groaned at the idea but if it was supposed to help him so he was supposed to say yes right.

As class ended Carter headed up to the teachers desk as you packed up your stuff. You noticed that they were talking so you decided to pack up a bit quicker to leave and give them privacy. But as soon as you were gonna walk out the door your teacher called you.

“Y/N could you come here for a second please.” you put a smile on your face and headed back inside. “Mr. Hart here is in desperate need of an english tutor and I would like you to help him.” Those were the last words both of you guys wanted your teacher to say. Both of you interrupted them with banter.

“Why me, there're so many people in the class.” you said.

“Yeah i don't think that is gonna work out.” Carter said. It was like he was reading your mind.

“Well that's the only solution and there will be no further discussion exchange numbers and start as soon as possible.” your teacher said and pushed you out of their classroom. Little did Carter know that you never had the guts to erase his number.

“Here plug in your phone and i'll text you when i'm free.” Carter said, handing you his phone. Glad to know that he didnt save your phone number. You were kind of hurt but it didn't really matter right. It's not like you were going to call him. 

“Look Y/N, i'm sorr--.” before he could end his sentence and go on giving an apology you stopped him because right now you didnt want Carter’s pity. “I'm just helping you pass, I'm not trying to reconcile.” you said as you headed to the last place you wanted to go, home.

Today was the day that you were going to have your first tutoring session with Carter. You weren't too thrilled to say the least. But anything to get you out of your house for a bit. It was after school and you headed to the library to wait for Carter. You sat down at the table and waited for Carter. You thought maybe he would arrive in twenty minutes but after forty minutes of waiting you were getting irritated. He didn't even have the audacity of sending you a text that he was gonna be late. After one hour of waiting you decided that he had wasted enough of your time and you decided to pack up. That's when Carter came rushing in.

“Oh gosh Y/N, i know i'm sorry for making you wait but Coach decided to have an emergency meeting, i'm so sorry. Im here now.” Carter said exasperated.

“You could've at least sent a text.” you suggested.

“Coach doesnt let us use our phones.” Carter said hopeful that maybe you would stay cause he really didn't want to mess this up on the first day. You decided that he seemed like he was being honest so you shrugged your backpack off and took out the textbooks. After the next two hours of him studying his butt off, you decided it was time to wrap it up.

“Same time tomorrow and don't be late.” you said walking out into the now dark sky.

The next day Carter asked you to meet him in a cafe. You weren't sure why but you decided that a nice warm drink didn't sound too bad. So you headed over there after school and set up everything. After everything was laid out you thought it was the perfect time to order a drink before Carter got there. You ordered your usual hot beverage and were about to pay when Carter came up from behind you and told the barista “Oh and one cappuccino, thanks” he said, handing her his card. “Thanks you didn't have to do that.” Y/N smiled shyly at Carter. Maybe tutoring him wasn't going to be too bad.

“No problem, now where did we leave off on yesterday?”Carter said, actually sounding like he was excited to learn. After both of you guys got your drinks, there was less studying involved and more talking. Carter started talking to you about football and you liked how his eyes lit up when he talked about the subject. About one hour of just talking you decided that it was time to get back to studying  before it got too late. Before leaving the cafe, Y/N pulled out her favorite book out of her backpack. “Here I thought you might enjoy this, it's one of my favorites.”

“Thanks, I'll let you know when I finish it. Carter said, grabbing the book from the girl and their hands slightly brushing. 

A few days later you were in bed ready to go to sleep when your phone started ringing. You thought it was probably a unknown number so you let it ring, but after four rings and no signs of hanging up you decided to pick up.

“Hello” you said, sleepiness evident in your voice.

“Did I wake you up, sorry, I just wanted to let you know that I finished the book.” Carter's giddy voice was heard on the other side of the phone. His voice though had no sleep evident in it whatsoever.

“Look Carter, I don't want to sound rude but why couldn't you just wait till tomorrow to tell me, it's 12am?’ you asked him questionaly. The truth one he couldn't sleep all night, thinking about how finally things with you guys could be fixed. And he just wanted to hear your voice. 

“It was a really good book and i had to tell you, i'll see you tomorrow then.” he said hanging up the phone knowing that it was a bad time to call you but glad that you picked up. He took it as a sign that maybe your friendship could be restored.

The next day you headed to school and stopped at your locker to drop some stuff off. When you were pulling stuff out of your backpack. Carter approached from behind you. “Heres your book back” Carter spoke up.

“Shit Carter, you scared me.” you said as your notebook fell to the ground. 

“Sorry, just wondering if we were gonna meet up later.” Carter cluelessly asked.

“Well yeah, that's basically the agreement.” Y/N stated, kind of annoyed because he knew that they were supposed to meet mostly everyday due to the teachers orders. 

She got to the cafe where she sat at the same table as last time. As she waited for Carter she took everything out . The bell above the door rang signaling the arrival of someone, and it was Carter. They exchanged their hellos and got to tutoring. After what seemed like forever of studying, Carter decided to bring up a question that seemed to be bothering him all day. “So do you have a problem tutoring me or what, cause let me just say i'm not the biggest fan of this either.”

“What do you think Carter, that I think this is a fun way to spend my time, tutoring you.” giving the word you a deeper meaning. Carter was confused on what she meant.

“You really don't remember, you pretended I didn't exist.” the girl said, feeling more vulnerable than ever. 

“ You are the one who's always mad at me, you stopped talking to me, freshman year.” Carter told her, saying it in a way saying it was her fault.

"Really, on the first day of school you didn't see me down the hallway and then turn the other way.”  Y/N said pleadingly. At this point it seemed that they were competing seeing who could say it in the most hurtful way possible. 

“I didn't know what to say.” Carter said looking down.

“ How about hey Y/N, how's it going?” she said spitting it out a bit more harshly than she meant to. She couldn't take this right now, so she packed up her bag and headed out the door. Carter didn't really process what was going on until the ding  above the door signaled that she really had left. 

When you got home you heard the sound of yelling, crying, and the shattering of glass. You decided that the best option right now was just to lock yourself in your room and with your thoughts. You went to sleep listening to music and the next day you got ready for school.

As you were at your locker Carter appeared again. He saw the way that you looked tired and drained and even though you weren't on the best terms decided to ask you how you felt. “Hey, you ok?” he asked concerned. 

“No offense but I really don't want to talk about my personal life with my ex best friend.” you looked at him and shrugged your shoulders. Carter understood so he wasn't mad about it. 

“No tutoring today right? I'll see you in a couple days then.” he said waving goodbye. Even though you didn't really appreciate tutoring Carter you didn't really want to go home so you were kind of bummed out that there wasn't tutoring today.

 Two days later there you were at the same table with the same stuff laid out in front of you. Again waiting for Carter. He walked in and took a seat. “Before we start I just wanted to make sure that you're ok.” he said, looking concerned.

A slight blush appeared on your cheeks because even though he asked you the same question two days ago he was still concerned. “Like I said before, I don't really want to talk to my ex best friend about this.”

“Well then don't think about me as your ex best friend, think about me as your therapist.” you laughed but when he didn't laugh back you knew that he was serious. “Oh you're being serious.

“Yeah I am, now tell me what's wrong.” he said, getting all serious but it didn't last long because both of you burst out laughing. You liked this, just being able to laugh with him again. Like everything was back to normal. But everything wasn’t back to normal and it probably wouldn't but in the end you were having a good time.

After that day you tutoring Carter had become less of a task and more of something that you enjoyed. It had become less stressful and you actually felt like you guys had a good chance of repairing your friendship. Maybe even having the possibility of bringing it back to how it was before. Now that's the way you felt, but you weren't sure how Carter felt. Maybe for him this was just tutoring.

Now Carter saw that maybe he was slowly breaking down your walls again. He was slowly seeing the person you were in middle school again. He liked that. But he thought that maybe you just thought that this was something you felt obligated to do and nothing else.

The next day at school Carter was talking to his friends against their lockers. You were walking towards your locker when you heard the topic of conversation. Now you weren't trying to be all up in their business and invade their privacy but it seemed like they were talking about you.

“Oh look it's your little girlfriend, you're not gonna say hi.” one of the cheerleaders said in a snarky voice. All his “friends”  around him laughed at the girl's comment. 

 Carter thought that maybe if he went along with it, they would stop. “She isn't my type anyways, you know that all she is to me is my tutor so I can pass English and still be on the football team.” 

After Carter said that you knew that you should've said no to tutoring him and just told the teacher that you were too busy. “Im so stupid, i should’ve let him fail so he could see what its like to lose something just how I lost my best friend” you told youself as you wiped a tear with your sweater sleeve.

Well now you could tell that it seemed Carter didn't feel the same about your friendship finally getting a bit better or becoming reconciled. But deep down Carter knew that everytime he saw you his face would light up and that he was slowly falling hard for you. Yet he couldn't let his friends know because he knew that if they did find out they would just tease you and he didn't want that because you didn't deserve it.

taglist: @hartsyhart (thanks for all the help kan), @patty-cake-nolan (thanks for helping me with the title), @mitch-slap (thanks for all the support always), @summerko8, @barrettshayton, @leafsxhockeywrxtes​, @segsation​, & @idkwhyimhere19​.

[theskeletongames]

Hey there! I am very shy so please forgive my anonask ♥ I love your artstyle, I am not very good with digitalart (yet.. I guess haha Im still learning). But my question is ehm.. there're so many individual styles when it comes to the skeles, but Im kinda scared that if I make some skeles that they're going to look to much like someone elses skeles.. if you understand? Do you have any tips to kinda.. put your own style on the skeles haha? I dont know.. Hope you have a good day! ♥

I’ve been told my style is unique, even though I don’t feel like it really is. I never set out to develop a “style” and I’ve found that styles are the other way around anyway. They exist, even if you don’t want them. 

I don’t know what level you’re at with drawing, but my advice is not to worry about style. Instead worry about learning as many techniques as you can. You will end up picking and choosing from those techniques and recombining them in a way that is unique to you.

This is what is known as “style”

The common decisions of how to represent 3d objects on a 2d medium. What colors to use. What lighting. What types of textures. How thick and thin are the lines. When to use line vs when to use color to define shapes.

You can’t force it, and it’s actually a lot harder to copy someone’s style than you think. (Just try and copy mine in a unique drawing, I can’t even stay consistent with my own drawings, so go ahead if you think you can somehow do better) Sure you could draw skeleton noses like I do, but that’s only part of hundreds of decisions I make when choosing what lines/color/shapes I wanna use to represent my characters.

It’s actually considered a drawing exercise to try and replicate someone else’s style, that’s how hard it is.

So don’t worry about style, worry about learning new techniques, and don’t ever limit your drawing by saying something like “I must draw it this way cause it’s mah style”

You draw it that way, cause you think it’s the best way to represent the character/objects for your desired outcome, and if it isn’t, change it.

If you’re somewhat of a beginner, it’ll look like you lean heavily on someone else’s style. That’s because you only have a couple techniques to choose from. Once you learn more, your art will become your own, so keep at it, and if someone accuses you of coping their style, call them an idiot, cause I doubt it’s a 100% copy and you’re still learning.

[cxsmicmyeon]

hi hi! it's your bestie 😉 hehe sorry i had too much screen time and needed a break 😂

oh my goodness his fried rice waffles 👁👄👁 he also called himself a culinary genius and i'm wondering how kyungsoo deals with jongin's kitchen adventures lmao or even minseok since he's such a clean freak?? baek just updated and said he's doing well in a strict routine! but for everyone to stop sending mail/email/gifts to his training centre bc it's overwhelming them 😂 so to just tell him everything using a specific hashtag and he can feel the love when he's finished. can you imagine how much they're getting??? lol

i've always used the excuse it's still that date in america soooo technically it's still my birthday 😀

OMG YES PLEASE WRITE THAT!!! that's so cute and domestic stop lol 💞 i feel like a bunny would be a lot less maintenance especially if you're out often! unless you adopt? a puppy is SO much work. ..maybe that's why mine is such a baby. he's almost 6 now but still acts like a puppy we just brought home yesterday 😂 omg that time chanyeol had toben and sehun had vivi? the chaos that was toben LMAO

i sometimes want to start a fic rec blog..but i'm so unorganised i'm not sure how to go about it. i do so much reading and there're so many good fics out there i want to share 😭

we pretty much are but there's some random clusters here and there. plus the newly returned overseas but they're quarantined in a medi hotel. yeah i've seen a lot of news from the us about people refusing to wear masks and stay home. but then turn around and complain that things aren't getting better 😶 yes please keep safe!! ❤

i think the cheaper one is a flip book album! which ofc will be mega cute, i can already imagine! i want sm to bloody release the details though. why are they so lazy when it comes to their best sellers?! is it tomorrow for you yet? 😂 DID YOU GET IT!? omfg yes lol i CAN'T WAIT for your asmr HAHA 👉👈 tbh your voice sounded so sweet i felt comfortable messaging you 😂 when you were fangirling about myeon hahaha that's exactly what i'm like when someone asks about yeol hehe

LOL THE WAY I THOUGHT HIS FRIED RICE WAFFLES WERE HASHBROWNS- ngl though it looks good though i'd eat it...😳 kyungsoo prolly had a mental breakdown when he saw jongin making the waffle LOL

OMG WAIT I CRIED WHEN I SAW BAEK'S VIDEO- HE SAID HE'S GONNA BE UPLOADING EVERY 17TH???? AND CHAN UPLOADING EVERY 27TH??? WE DO NOT DESERVE THOSE TWO AT ALL😭😭😭omg i can't imagine all the mail he's getting- i think something similar happened to junmyeon and he had to go on and say stop sending me mail cuz it's too much ahsgdj,, my popular boys🥰

I WILL WRITE IT!! i just need to get through school and finish my final paper lol!! and also finish my requests lol!! thank god school's over next tuesday for me lol! i need a BREAK omg... agh yeah i have heard puppies are a lot of work but they're SO CUTE THOUGH😭😭omg toben and vivi are both of my personalities🤣🤣they're literally the cutest things omg

lol i actually was considering a fic rec blog too! cuz my post is rly long and i feel bad for all the tags the authors get LOL but i'm lazy and i don't want to annoy the authors EVEN MORE LLMAOSODNDNJFHF i love life😃👍🏻

ugh yes i have a lot of family who is anti mask and won't get vaccinated and don't take covid seriously and it just pisses me off🙄🙄but thankfully most of them don't live in my area so i don't have to worry about seeing them a lot lol! and i have both of my shots for the vaccine and i'll be fully vaccinated after next week!

i'm not picky at all when it comes to albums lmao! like even if i don't get a jun photocard i don't complain that much bc i still got a photocard of a member!! like i have a jun, yeol and minseok photocard (and baekhyun poster and jongdae slide thing from obsession) and honestly i'm still happy to get the merch cuz it's exo and i love exo!! :D

AND AGH IM SO SAD IT SAID IT'S COMING LATE😭😭😭like it was gonna originally come on saturday but then usps said thursday (today) and i checked the tracking number and it said "coming late" )): agh but we'll see 🤞🏻 i just hope it comes soon!!

AGH i need to prepare for the filming😭😭i need to find a tri pod and clear my desk and make sure my family doesn't interrupt me AJDHJDH and AAA i hate my voice so much i was so shy when recording!!! but i turned my phone around and spoke from the heart and i felt more comfy!! i may not speak in the asmr tho i'll just let my glue on manicure do the talking LOL!! i love hearing nails tap on stuff so it'll be fun to do!!

[prontaentrega]

To be honest i didn't even watch El Patrón del Mal so i don't know if it's any good but the fact that it's a Colombian show automatically makes it 100% better than Narcos. It's obvious gringos have a cartel fetish, and as a latine I can only stand so much US military propaganda.

Some highligts of my favorite scenes:

The protagonist, the good american who came to save us latines from ourselves, is discussing with his fellow agents if they should intervene with the colombian elections because clearly the colombian people are stupid and don't know what's actually good for them. They're talking about this like it is the weather

A woman is trying to help the FBI stop the cartel with valuable information, but since she's a Dirty Guerrilla Communist they can't trust her because that would be treason. If the FBI finds her they're probably gonna kill or imprison her. Because she's a Communist

Im trying to remember how this scene went but it was something like "in this charity worked this woman. She looks nice, eh? Well. She's not. She's a communist. And you see the priest right next to her? He may look like a nice peson, but he's actually worse. He is even a bigger communist." This is legit i can't with this fucking show.

That's it bc i can't stand watching more than three episodes but there's like four seasons so I'm sure there're more

I hear in one of the latest seasons they call the Plan Condor "an operation to stop drug trafficking" which is so bad on so many levels.

Sometimes im having a nice day but then i remember Narcos exists

[kaizzzi]

is there anything about EXO that only those who have seen them in real life will know? like u know we always get info from fanacc/magazines/shows but i'm pretty sure there're some facts that are not known to us unless u meet them personally? i'm so curious

Sorry for this extremely late reply. I’ve been thinking the whole day on what to answer to this.  I have arrived to some facts that I have experienced in attending two of their concert stops. Please note that I will exclude Yixing in this list since I have yet to see him in person.

EXO

If their stop is a non-English speaking country, their effort and dedication in learning a song of that country just for the fans there is so special for me. Even if it’s only a line of that song, when you hear them sing your own native language, it really feels more special and more connected with them. That’s one way of them telling us fans that there’s no such thing as a language barrier when it comes to music.

Their bond. Seeing it in person is so wow. Screw the people who says that Exo’s bond is #fake because I have seen the realness of it in person. I take my time to just stand in the middle of the concert and observe their facial expressions and the way they interact with each other. There’s no hint of fakeness in it. Especially their eyes, it speaks in volumes! Their bond is so tight and touching. #goals

My observations about the individual members will be under the cut^^

Jongdae

He makes sure to make an eye contact with everyone. I really mean it. You can see the love in his eyes. With a smile on his face, he will look at the eyes of the fans who are standing on the floor and slowly he will raise his eyes ‘til he has looked at each level of seats that the fans are sitting at.

Junmyeon

Excluding their Seoul stop, his effort with communicating with their international fans is no joke! Especially if that country is an English speaking one. When he is the one who is speaking, there’s only like 30% number of times that he will need a translator. It really feels so touching to be able to hear him communicate with the fans in a language that you can understand.

Baekhyun and Chanyeol

They know how to hype the crowd! They have their own way of doing it. It’s like you’re there admiring them and then, suddenly, you will find yourself screaming and cheering along with everyone. These are some of the usual words that they use to hype the f*ck out of the crowd: [insert name of country]!!!, aha~, wooooh, ehey (It looks weird just reading it but im telling you, once you hear the way they say this in person… it is so different and hyping)

Baekhyun

I dont know if it’s just me but when I hear his speaking voice using his mic... His voice will sound different? During Exoluxion I was checking the time on my phone and I thought that Minseok was the one who is speaking, but when I looked at the stage IT WAS BAEKHYUN. Then last Exordium the same thing happened! Words of my friend after watching Exordium “Is it just me or Baek’s voice sounded different? His singing voice is the same. Like the one I hear on their albums. But his speaking voice? It’s so different I was really surprised.” I don’t know if it’s because his voice is laced with love and adoration with Exo-Ls but his voice when he is speaking during ments is really different. It’s like a voice of a new person? Lmao but when he starts shouting his famous Baekhyun shout he really sounds like that in person.

Chanyeol

if he spots a fan that is according to his ideal type, mark my words, he will constantly be visiting the spot where that fan is standing/seating. Subtle flirting while he is on stage is his motto ;)

Minseok

He is an insane ball of energy! Seriously his energy is so contagious and when he’s having so much fun, he will always start his ment with a “waaaah~” I can’t say more than this because last exoluxion, he was injured. And this exordium, he rarely visits the area where I was standing so :(

Kyungsoo

His introverted side is so obvious when he is on stage. It’s so endearing because he has his own ways of communicating with the fans. His eyes speaks in volumes. It’s filled with so much love im emo :( His eyes and smile are so genuine you will find yourself smiling back at him when you’re seated or standing near the stage.

Sehun

He looks at the fans with eyes that are filled with so much love and happiness. I really mean it. His eyes are so soft and so.... I don’t really know how to explain what I have observed about him but the summary is that he’s a ball of sunshine and softness who cares so much about everyone :( I’m so sorry but you have to see him in person to know what I mean...

Jongin

Lastly, Kim Jongin. I’m splitting his into two parts. His Kai persona and his Jongin persona

Kai persona: you’ve seen him in videos and pictures, he is deadly right? But seeing him in person is a whole new different story. I am a big fan of this man so I thought that I am prepared for his Kai side but boy I was wrong. He casually drops his smirks and winks at everyone at a very random time! Seriously you can’t predict when he will be dropping those!

Jongin persona: This man... he really takes his time to read every fanboard and signboard that his fans has made for him. After reading it, he will give a response only for that fan. I'm only putting these for now since I need more time to think about what i have observed about him. I will be editing this in the near future. I have so many things to tell about him so let me take my time first :)

Chanyeol, Kyungsoo, Jongin

Seriously seeing these three interact during ments is so entertaining to watch. It’s legit like watching a comedy act. They are legit stuck in their own bubble of fun 10/10 would observe them forever interact on stage.

[mustafaashour]

I slept for 4 hours maybe, and then i woke up just as fucked as i went to sleep or maybe a bit better. The starting of all that wasn't today, today was a bad day actually, but what's new? For many years i have been feeling bad, because when i was building my self on my own i forgot to learn my self how to be happy and how to enjoy little things and even those great things im not enjoying anymore. I build my self to be strong and independent and maybe apathetic and i did it obviously. But in my trip i lost my friends and most of social life, i have no family actually, just two people i love, there're my family, a tiny one that no one of them is supposed to care or say goos morning, they don't realize that but i do, and I've no power to explain or ask, i build my self in this way, i mostly never ask for a thing. The two buddies i considerd as lifetime friends are gone i different ways, but it's not permanent for sure.

I spent last couple years (more or less) collecting money to always pay for my self and to think more and more, as i could never be smarter if you know, spinning out with buddies a lot and girls rarely, when i was building my self i taught it how to deal with people and to make them like me, it was a skill i had to have, and life was going on, but deep inside i was broken, alone and weak. I spend all my days alone but i keep on hanging out with some people just today not kill my fuckin self. I smoked weed and built a friendship with alcohol but i didn't like to be idiot in that way, so i choosed to keep the smart me.

No family gathering, because no family, no brother or sisters -or there're- and no partner.. Partner? Shit damit im in love, for my life i fell in love twice, first one was years ago, and its unforgettable but i don't prefer to talk about that, second one is you, if you're reading, i was continuing building my self and having some downs, as i have 7 downs to 3 ups lol, and you passed by, i was showing strong and good, and i was paying for myself in cafes, and i was broken as always.

What sort of angels are you? i got attached as i told you before, did you remember this? And im still attached, i think of you, for you and about you just everyday and it feels sux as it feels wonderful. Cause do you think of the broken me? I assume you don't, but im a building that's not done. And i have feelings for you, real ones and i sometimes i feel that i want to cry, weird, i don't remember myself crying, just 2 times maybe.

I ran discussions with myself and im quite sure of my feeling towards her, but im not quit sure of my abilities. When i was going on building my self i lost as i won, maybe i lost more, i lost my communication skills or at least they're outdated, i lost fun and hanging out with people and i lost friendships, I FEEL THAT I MISSED A LOT OF THINGS.