#there’s just so much still to do

[foxglovefaun]

my sketchbook and all my art stuff have been deeply neglected due to So Many Circumstances, but in acknowledgement of my Very Scary Neck Condition, my ergonomic workstation is finally put together! and im now in the process of adjusting to it.

fuller update below for those fascinated by my ramblings:

It hasn’t even been a full week yet, but both screens lifted on movable arms has made a massive difference already. My desk has officially become a place where my spine can heal, rather than the opposite.

This is great! Because previously it WAS the opposite, and it was very scary to experience pains and burns in places I sure as shit shouldn’t while trying to put pages and drawings together.

Meanwhile The Brain is still not exactly “better.” But it is in some ways!

Self talk is getting better. Fewer and fewer meltdowns too.

I still havent been able to really speak to anyone. Other than my spouse, my therapist, the occasional web comment, im only practicing human speech with one other person once a week. My best friend and i have been texting relatively regularly to keep me from retreating into my shell entirely, and while it’s been really great and safe it’s also very slow going.

However I am making massive strides in psychotherapy, and we’re legit figuring out what the hell is actually wrong with me! 30 years of shit being untangled, sorted and demystified is no small task; my therapist sometimes works literal overtime to help me and it’s been really amazing. More importantly im doing the delicate task of identifying what inside me is my actual identity, and what was simply crap I held onto to survive.

It’s weird to see how much of “me” actually hasn’t been me… How much of me was actually just an impression of a person made out of someone else’s crap that they convinced me to hold instead of dealing with it themselves.

Big changes basically. So im all shook up and weird and still trying to understand who I am.

So yeah. Not outta the woods yet! but definitely like… alive, and continuing to choose to be alive, etc.

I’ve embraced the support my friends, peers, and supporters have given me, which is to move slowly, don’t rush, and just focus on healing. Building the business can wait. It’s been hard to do that, but im reaping the benefits of doing so, so im gonna keep doing it.

Ok thank you love you bye!

[crowkip]

yeehaw, baby!

[mynnthia]

was talking with a friend about how some of dunmeshi fаndom misunderstands kabru's initial feelings towards laios.

to sum up kabru's situation via a self-contained modernized metaphor:

kabru is like a guy who lost his entire family in a highly traumatic car accident. years later he joins a discord server and takes note of laios, another server member who seems interesting, so they start chatting. then laios reveals his special interest and favorite movie of all time is David Cronenberg's Crash (1996), and invites kabru to go watch a demolition derby with him

[verflares]

just how long is forever? // not long enough, with you

pssst. check this out on inprnt :]

[artkaninchenbau]

A h-heartfelt reunion..?

Bonus

[qiinamii]

we'll do fine.

[musubiki]

my favorite fields of mistria boys 🥰

[chloesimaginationthings]

The FNAF Mikes talk about their extended family..

[hinamie]

I'm always pushing you away from me / but you come back with gravity / and when I call, you come home

[egophiliac]

queen of diamonds, upright + reversed 💎

I've redone this like eighty times, I have to just be done with it now and stop staring at all my mistakes oh no 🫠

[coddda]

I wish we could have met in some other way.

Lawlight Week Day 2: Soulmates

If you saw me repost and re-edit this several times uh No you didn't </3

Still frames/Individual gifs:

If you know what every frame is from you get a free cookie. by the way

[mokeonn]

"But if college was free, then people would abuse that and get useless degrees" hell yeah I would! If I could go to college without debt I would make it my job to get a degree in every little thing that interested me. I'd get a doctorate in film studies. I'd have a bachelor's degree for every science I like. I'd try to learn at least 5 languages with varying results. I would learn something "useful" like coding and then follow it up with a ""useless"" degree like art history. I'd be the world record speed run holder for getting every degree possible.

But I can't afford college without going into massive debt, so instead I spent the last 5 years trying to figure out what I am passionate enough about to consider going into debt over, because unfortunately being passionate about everything is extremely expensive to pursue.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Trapped in a vicious cycle of pining? Try gay sex! (More things to learn over at Tiger Tiger!)

[soyochii]

Quick doodles before I evaporate.

[haunted-xander]

Well, I guess you didn't have much of a choice either

[aalghul]

once again thinking about jason as duke’s robin. he’s ~4 years younger than jason, and that puts him at 8-12 during Jason’s time as robin. that’s prime time to get attached to your local kid vigilante before your own life goes downhill.

and if we try to keep duke’s meeting with bruce in zero year + duke’s age (so he can remember the meeting and hold that conversation with bruce), he has to be around 8. if he starts following batman through the news at that time because of the mess that just happened, the robin he sees is probably jason. I’ve literally connected the dots