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Question how would Daphne be treated in the papalogia au? Because in the story it would be a 100% confirmation that the dragon she say is acno. Also with how obsessed she was I am shocked she didn't have a dragon slayer lacrima.
I've been overthinking this ask for a week now lol.
Okay so. In terms of the Magnolia area, and really all of Fiore, I don't think anything would change. Acnologia is still the only dragon to be spotted, and even though he's flying around, he does make an effort to not be seen. Arguably, he's making more of an effort that canon-Acnologia, who simply did not care. That said, there may or may not be other dragon sightings in other parts of the world, so Daphne may be bolstered in her obsession with dragons all the same.
I don't think it would equate to her getting a lacrima though. Not only are those suckers hard to find and risky, her fascination strikes me as... a mix between scientific and fanatic. Her love and obsession with dragons and learning about them, as well as proving them real, supersedes most rational thought and morals. I mean, she was totally cool in using Natsu as a battery, and given the opportunity, she would have poked at him more I am sure. She seems to me like the Mr. Crocker of Fairy Tail, except with the room to be really amoral and scary for it.
Some peeps know this already but I have flirted with, and sometimes am still flirting with, the idea of a mini arc involving Daphne, except if fanaticism was just a bit more dangerous. The fact that there is a bit more evidence of dragons out there, but the dragon slayers are more tight-lipped about dragons and their own magic in Magnolia, is enough to drive someone like that bonkers. I still don't have solid ideas for this so it may or may not happen in htryds at all; I just... really like mad scientist psycho antagonists, so if I ever get struck by inspiration and want to hit a dragon slayer or three with a really spiky stick... Consider this a forewarning >.>
#fairy tail#htryds ask#daphne arc#i still can't commit to any specific idea yet#mostly because idk who I would want to hit with it#the arc itself would be totally deconstructed if I do anything with daphne as a character#i mostly just wanted to think about one of my favorite tropes:#human experimentation and medical torture :)#it probably wouldn't go *that* hard but still#I have it in me#it's just so hard to beat these guys senseless when a) acnologia is around#and b) i *am* dedicated to this being mostly fluffy and happy I swear#there is just a part of my author brain full of violence
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KINDRED â yang jungwon
Itâs your final year of highschool, and your only goal is to graduate top of your cohort, as usual. Except as student council president, your advisor canât seem to leave you alone. What happens when you take Decelis Academyâs top student, their star taekwondo athlete and put them in front of a camera?
âKindredâ a student documentary. Pilot episode airing tonight on TVN 7PM KST.
PAIRING: athlete!jungwon x stucopres!fem!reader
FEATURING: enhypen, yunjin from lesserafim, ryujin and chaeryeong from itzy, chanelle from runext, beomgyu and taehyun from txt, wonyoung from ive, gunwook and gyuvin from zb1 etc.
GENRE: high school au, enemies to lovers, nerd x athlete, forced proximity, slice of life, coming of age, he fell first and harder, fluff, ANGST, teen drama, slow burn ish?
STATUS: completed! (01/09/2023 â 18/03/2024)
WARNINGS: contains profanities, horrible attempt at humour, urban lingo, probably cringy, kys/kms jokes, depression jokes, sexual innuendos (nothing too inappropriate), depiction of violence, family drama, incorrect timestamps/information, no fixed faceclaims, not proofread etc.
AUTHORâS NOTE: story concept is heavily inspired by the kdrama âour beloved summerâ other than that the storyline is completely original (or so i assume since i manifested this out from the crevices of my pea brain). chapters with â(hw)â next to them indicates that they are half-written, in case yâall skip over it! as always, the content and depiction of the characters in this smau do not in anyway represent them in real life. lastly, if you do end up enjoying, please do like, comment (love reading your comments btw), and reblog so this can reach!
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episode 6 - taekwondo-anti
episode 7 - beating the mentally ill allegations
episode 8 - canât help it, iâm a libra
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episode 24 - not all problems can be solved with a formula
episode 25 - H.O.M.E.W.R.E.C.K.E.R
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episode 29 - the garden is full of surprises (hw)
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episode 31 - the name above me (hw)
episode 32 - no offense but sheâs a cockblocker
episode 33 - the bane of my existence (hw)
episode 34 - risky risky wiggy wigi this is an emergency
episode 35 - live my life on my terms (hw)
episode 36 - separation anxiety goes crazy
episode 37 - paparizzki
episode 38 - is it too late now to say Sorry?
episode 39 - everything will work out just the way you want it to (hw)
episode 40 (finale) - her entire being is loveable (written)
epilogue - kindred, signing off part 1 | part 2
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ultraviolence | part two
rk800 'connor' x reader x rk900 'nines'
GENRE â angst, romance & smut
SYNOPSIS â your feelings for connor grew as the android revolution went on, though a new partner makes you question your feelings.
TAGS/WARNINGS â 18+ descriptions of corpses, blood, violence, homicide, child abuse/neglect, creampie, dirty talking, overstimulation, choking, oral(male & female giving/receiving)
CHAPTERS â PART ONE / PART TWO
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after working in the DPD for so long, you never could get used to the sound of your alarm blaring at 5:00 am. by the time you arrived at your desk, your limbs were already aching for the warmth and comfort of your bed - the type of tiredness that could only be satiated by a full night's rest (which you didn't get most nights).
to add onto the poor sleep schedule you had, the past few weeks had been filled with an unnecessary amount of paper work, and most of your time was spent sitting in front of the terminal at your desk. in order to pass the time, you'd make frequent stops to connor's desk, only to be yelled at by hank to get back to work. or you would attempt at small talk with nines, to which he always responded with narrowed eyes and a stern look. it was clear he wasn't fond of small talk so early in the morning.
this morning was no different than the last, as you sat at your desk, bored out of your mind. the day had just begun, and the steaming cup of coffee on your desk still wasn't able to replace the extra hours of sleep that you had missed. as if a silent prayer had been answered, you swiveled your chair around to see connor's lovely face, greeting you with a good morning. "good morning detective, you seem to be in a good mood today," he gave a small smile. "all thanks to you," you smile, not noticing the grey eyes across your desk watching the two of you. connor stayed silent for a moment as his LED pulsed amber, and you followed his line of vision to see nines doing the same. "i've sent the case file to rk900, i've just got a report of a double homicide and a suicide," he briefed. "what an amazing way to start my morning," you replied, sarcasm laced in your tone.
"lieutenant anderson is currently supervising an academy student, and since i'm not authorized to investigate crime scenes on my own, i will accompany you today." connor said, hands clasped behind his back as he looked down at you. nines stood from his seat, making his way over to join connor. you took a sip of your coffee before standing up to join the pair, grabbing your keys and heading to the lot.
"what do we know about the homicide?" you asked nobody in particular. unfortunately you had to sit in the backseat of your own car, as nines insisted on driving and connor took the passenger seat before you could. "a mother had murdered her own two children before taking her life. an hk200 reported that he was a witness and is currently at the station giving a written statement," connor turned around to look at you, before turning back around to face the road. "and this happened how long ago?" you asked.
"around 20 minutes ago," nines suddenly spoke, despite being quiet the entire ride. "did the android mention that she had a husband?" nines looked in the rearview mirror to make eye contact with you before replying, "no, however legal documents show that she is married." he pulled into a vacant area near the house crowded by bystanders, police and news reporters. the three of you passed the digitalized 'POLICE LINE DO NOT CROSS' tapes, ignoring people's questions about what had happened. as you entered the home, the three of you split up. as stated in the report, the crime took place in three different areas; the kitchen, the bathroom upstairs, and the last in the children's shared bedroom.
you headed over to the kitchen, where the wife laid motionless at the table, a gunshot wound lodged in the back of her head. part of her brain matter was exposed, and the surrounding area had been decorated in brains and blood. it was a gruesome sight to say the least, but you suspected that it was a little odd position for a suicide. connor stood next to you, moving in front of the corpse and analyzing her body. connor's on sight forensic analysis proved to be quite effective as it saved a lot time, compared to waiting for forensic reports after you had analyzed the scene. his brow furrowed slightly, as he looked at you (not without sampling the blood of course). the weapon - a glock G19, was located next to her hand, along with a glass of wine.
"that's unusual. the exit wound isn't on the back of the head, instead it's in the front. it's a strange way to shoot yourself," connor examined, turning to you for your opinion. "i don't think this was a suicide. i think it might've been a homicide, but we can't say for sure," you replied to his analysis, before leaving to join nines upstairs. connor watched your retreating figure, before reconstructing a possible scenario.
as you walked up the creaking stairs, you took notice of the door that was slightly ajar in the distance. as you neared it, you realized it was the bathroom. you pushed the door open with a foot, immediately noticing the bloodied corpse of one of the children in the bathtub. the water had been drained, leaving the body in a pool of her own blood. the victim suffered three gunshot wounds, one in her chest, one in her right side and the last one in her forehead.
it was sickening to see, but the more you looked the more things you found. the gunshot wounds weren't the only injuries she had, as there were welts scattered across her legs, and faint burn marks on her wrist. the welts could have come from a belt. the sight immediately reminded you of the hk400, the first case you ever worked on involving an android. a bubble of disgust and guilt boiled in the deep pits of your stomach, but you swallowed it and stood up, only to be startled by connor's unannounced appearance. "jesus, you scared me!" you sighed. "i didn't intend to startle you, detective," connor said reassuringly, with his hand on the small of your back. you ignored the comforting feeling of his hand on your back, and moved to the final room, leaving connor to analyze the second corpse.
nines crouched next to the young boy, who didn't look older than the age of eight. he took a sample of his blood, analyzing his DNA like his predecessor. like his sister, he was shot. but forensic analysis suggested he was strangled before. judging by the purplish hue on his neck, it was evident that he'd been choked. "i reconstructed a possible scenario. it seems that the perpetrator came in through the door, and then proceeded to choke the victim before shooting him four times," nines explained, looking at you as you stared at the bloodied corpse on the floor. the carpet had been stained red, along with a stick figure drawing of the boy and his family. a few crayons surrounding the picture had suffered the same fate as the drawing - stained red and broken.
you noticed that he suffered the same marks, which were obvious indicators of abuse. nines and connor had seen it too, the bruises, the burn marks and the welts. "I think the mother might have been abusing her children. maybe she felt guilty after doing this and decided to take her life," your brows furrowed as you examined the room further, noticing the lack of clothes and toys.
"It's likely, as her fingerprints match the ones on the gun." nines said. connor chimed in, adding to nines' analysis. "however, the exit wound on her forehead indicates that she couldn't have shot herself. if she killed her two children, then who killed her?" your brows only furrowed in confusion as you tried to piece together what had happened. judging from their analysis, she couldn't have ended her life. if the hk200 was a witness, then he was lying, because the mothers death wasn't adding up. the husband was also nowhere to be seen, and the gun she used was registered in his name. there was only one way to make sense of this mess, as it had spiraled into something beyond what the files insinuated.
"hello, my name is detective l/n. what's your name, honey?" connor and nines watched in the observation room as you questioned the hk200. "my name is michael," he replied, fiddling with his hands in his lap. connor's brow arched slightly from the pet name, an unknown feeling erupting in him that could only be described as jealousy. "thank you for being cooperative, i understand you've already given a written statement but we'd like to ask you a few questions." you opened the case file, revealing the images taken of the bodies. he avoided looking at the pictures, and looked at you or around the room. the room was designed to be plain and bland, in order to keep the person under questioning focused and not distracted. this allows for them to rely on the detective for any type of distraction.
"what did you do today, michael?" you started off with easy questions to gain rapport, as answering easier questions would put him at ease and he would be more likely to give you more information. you could always scare them into a confession, but that would only escalate the situation and end in a possible destruction. "i did my usual list of chores," he replied. you nodded, "does this include cooking meals?"
"yes," he confirmed. "can you tell me what their mother does? does she help out, or does she rely on you for taking care of the children?" you noticed as he began to shift in his seat at the mention of her. "she left taking care of the children to me, and she'd spend most days drinking." you nodded, "did you have a good relationship with the children?" he took a little longer to respond, his eyes glossy with a type of pain you'd seen before. a look you wished to never see again. but then again this wasn't about you. "yeah, we did a lot together. drawing, playing games, normal things." he sounded hurt, like he was genuinely affected. you felt for him, reaching across the table to offer a comforting hand to him. he put his hand on top of yours, relaxing a little as he calmed down from your touch.
"was she married?" you had asked, despite knowing the answer. it was a simple test to see if he was lying or not. "yes. her husband would come home late and leave early in the morning, so she wouldn't spend much time with him," he explained. upon hearing this, connor did a quick search and was able to find his workplace. it was possible that the husband had left before the crime happened, and would come home to horrible news. "what time does he leave for work?" you asked, and the android replied rather quickly. "he leaves at 7:00am." by the time you arrived on scene, it had been 9:27am, and if it happened around twenty minutes before you arrived, then the husband would have been long gone, meaning the crime would take place around 9:07am.
you pushed a few images of the injuries on the children, waiting for him to look at them. "since you took care of the children, you probably have noticed these marks on them. do you know who caused them?" he visibly stiffened, eyes trained on the images of the marks and bruises. he then stared at his lap, remaining silent. but the look of guilt on his face was becoming more apparent. "i know you cared about those kids. you looked after them everyday. i can see the pain in your face." his brows started to furrow, before he slammed his fists on the table, startling you slightly. nines and connor were quickly alerted by this behavior, bodies tense and ready for anything to happen. "you don't know anything!" he yelled. "i don't, so tell me the truth," you pressed. he stayed silent again, before admitting it.
"it was the mother. she did it," he confessed. "she'd beat them almost every night. one time i tried to stop her but she said she'd return me to cyberlife if i stepped any further."
"then who killed her?" leaning into the table, you watched as he averted your gaze, "she committed suicide." it was evident he cared for those children, and seeing their abuse would become something he couldn't tolerate any longer. it started to make sense, when you placed him in the same position of the perpetrator from connor's reconstruction, it all made sense. she had downed glasses of wine after murdering her children, michael finally had enough, his heart broken over the deceased children - and so he grabbed her gun, and shot her in the back of the head before placing the gun so it looked like she committed suicide.
it seems that he started to realize that you knew what happened - what he did. "we both know that's not what happened." you stated firmly. he quickly shot up from his seat, lunging across the table to knock you to the ground. your chair tipped back, causing you to fall on your back. he was quick to get on top of you, his hands immediately wrapping themselves around your throat, and his skin peeled back to reveal the white plastic underneath. you kicked, and tried to wriggle out of his grip, but he was too strong. your throat burned as his digits dug into your tender skin, his fingers right above your pulse point. it throbbed wildy underneath his fingertips, only encouraging him to keep his silence.
connor was quickly on top of him, a hand pinning him to the table while michael's hands tried to fight the deadly grip of the rk800. nines quickly pulled you out of the room, and as much as he wanted to deal with the hk200, he knew connor could handle it.
connor didn't say a word, and it terrified the android underneath his palm. he could only stare into the hot rage above him, warnings popping up in his screen warning him of a shutdown. connor had torn out his thirium pump, the tips of his fingers holding onto the pump in his hand. hot blue blood splattered over his fingers and clothing, though that was the least of his worries.
"you're going to talk," connor suddenly said. "you have approximately 120 seconds before you shut down. i suggest that you tell me the truth, otherwise it won't be the other officers you have to worry about. it'll be me." he leaned into his ear, before putting his thirium pump back into place. his forearm pushed him down into the table, preventing him from moving. "i won't tell you." michael sneered. connor said nothing, and immediately grabbed his arm to probe his memory. michael grunted, the sensation feeling like a burn throughout his body as connor searched his memories. that was all the confirmation that he needed.
michael was escorted out, and you found yourself in the bathroom again, splashing cold water onto your face. after all that happened today, you felt like you didn't solve anything. the husband would come home to his entire family gone, and you felt like you couldn't save anyone. this feeling of shame and guilt, you felt partly responsible. it brought you back to the painful memories of the last case, but this time you had connor and nines.
"you should go to a hospital," nines suggested. both of the androids had scanned you again and again, all to make sure that you were alright. "i'm okay nines," you reassured your partner. "nines?" connor joined in, his head turned to look at his replica. "yes, that is the name that was given to me from the detective." nines replied, his eyes locked onto his predecessor. connor ignored nines, and asked if you were really alright. his fingers itched to touch the bruises forming around your neck, but he pushed away the thought and focused on your well-being. "you both don't need to worry. i've been doing this for years," you replied cooly.
fowler had come up to the three of you, his intense gaze locked on you. "you should head home, l/n. we seriously cannot have you getting injured on the job again," he said sternly. connor was about to retaliate, but nines placed his arm in front of him to stop him. they made brief eye contact, communicating silently.
'don't make it worse for her,' nines said. connor ignored him, his eyes locked on yours as captain fowler scolded you while also making sure you're okay. you sighed once he left, running a hand through your hair. "i guess i'll be getting home then," you said to both the androids, noticing that connor looked worried. "let me drive you home, i feel partly responsible for your injury," he said, his hand on the small of your back again. you smiled, trying to mask the way your body responded to his touches. though, you had forgotten that connor wasn't the only one who could read your body, nines could too. his LED circled amber as he scanned you, taking note of how your temperature raised whenever he or connor was around. he bid you goodbye, and watched as you left with connor for the night.
the car ride wasn't awkward at all. one thing that separated connor from nines was the fact that connor spent more time around humans, and he knew how to make conversation easier. the sound of the car engine and rain pattering against the roof put you at ease. detroit could be pretty at night, especially when it was raining like this. "i saw you take care of that android, you can be scary," you laughed. he gave a small smile in response to your laughter, "i didn't mean for you to see that. i apologize if-"
"i'm only teasing you," you nudged his arm with a grin, "it was kind of hot." he cocked a brow, his social relations program helping him differentiate the two meanings of the word. "hot? i don't think cyberlife intended for it to come off that way.." you laughed, missing these conversations with the android. if only hank could supervise academy students forever, and you could have both rk units to yourself. "i'm worried for you detective, it seems that you're putting yourself at risk with these cases. you should be more careful," he looked over at you, his eyes flickering to your injury before returning back to the road. you eyed him as he drove, fighting the smile the threatened to crawl up your face at his concern for your well-being. "thank you connor, but that's kind of my job. i knew what i was getting into when i was training to become a cop. i know the risks, but for you i'll be more careful." it was strange for him, for him to smile without making the conscious effort to do so, for his body to do things that weren't premeditated and forced.
the more you looked at him from your peripheral, the more you saw the differences between him and nines. you never would compare them, but they were so different in personality that it was slightly humorous. sometimes when you looked into connors eyes, you couldn't help but feel like you'd give him everything. his eyes ere so soft, and the only thing you could compare it to were puppy dog eyes, the thought of it making you chuckle, causing the android look over at you. "what's funny, detective?" you shook your head, "oh nothing. i was just thinking about how hard it must be being the most attractive detective alive," you smiled. if he could blush, he definitely would. "it must be an everyday struggle for you then," he replied cheekily.
it wasn't long before he was inside of your house, awkwardly lingering at your front door while you took your shoes off. "you should stay the night, it's raining too hard for you to be going home so late." he nodded, analyzing your home. it was a modern space, decorated with matching furniture but lacking any personalized items like photos. "i'm going to change, i'll be back soon, you can hang out here,"you smiled before disappearing into a different room. he walked over to the kitchen, noticing a pet food bowl, and an orange cat purring as it rubbed it's body on his legs. he crouched down, petting the cat gently. the collar was a light pink, with the name reading 'peaches'.
you returned, only to find him very immersed with petting your cat. you smiled, crouching next to him to pet her. "she seems to like you," you said, fingers accidentally brushing against his as you pet her together. "she's nice, i like dogs and cats." you chuckled, smiling from his pure nature. he was so sweet. "androids don't sleep, do they?" you suddenly asked, after thinking about what he was going to do while you slept. "no, androids don't require things like sleeping or eating. however we do have a 'rest mode' where we temporarily shut down to reserve energy." his eyes were attentive to your exposed skin, as he was used to seeing you in long sleeved tops, and a skirt with stockings. but you were in the comfort of your home, wearing a tank top and shorts. he appreciated the view.
"that makes sense, I think I'd go insane and hallucinate after not sleeping for a couple of days," you replied, moving to the couch where he followed you. he looked cute sitting in your girly living room. his eyes flickered between you and your neck, your tank top revealing more of your neck and chest, which he tried to ignore. "it doesn't hurt if that's what you're worried about," you said, after noticing his LED turn amber a few times. he was analyzing you. "i apologize, i didn't mean to-" you cut him off by shaking your head, placing a hand on his thigh which was impossible to ignore. "that's okay, i know you're concerned. it's sweet connor, I'm thankful for you," you smiled. something fluttered within him, it was the feeling he got when he made amanda happy or accomplishing a mission, just without being literally forced to accept the woman. she was long gone, but that's what he could compare this feeling to. who knows, maybe he just liked being praised. "thank you for being understanding, detective." his thirium pump raced from the sudden contact, his skin warming from the heat of your palm. "please, call me by my name. even in the office. you're my friend," you rested your hand on his shoulder, the urge to just touch him everywhere overwhelming you. "okay, y/n." the sound of your name rolling off his tongue was something that you enjoyed too much.
his eyes were trained on the floor, a pang of guilt welling up inside him from today's events. "i still feel responsible for your injury." you sighed, "connor, it's okay. it's not your fault." your hand moved to his, and you held his hand gently. there it was, that feeling again. he wanted you to hold his hand forever. your thumb brushed over his knuckles, and he gently squeezed your fingers in response. you suddenly got shy, as your eyes avoided his and you slightly warmed from what you were going to ask. "connor?" you asked for his attention, and he'd give it to you, no questions asked. he titled his head slightly, finding it hard to focus when you were holding his hand. it was far more intimate than any other gestures you've given, besides hugs, he might've found a favorite. "what is it det- y/n?" he corrected. "can i hug you?" you smiled shyly at him. it was unusual for you to ask since you'd always just go ahead and hug him (not that he minded), but it seemed like in your personal space and a much more secluded area, you seemed to be more nervous when alone with him. "of course you can, you don't need to ask. is that why you were nervous?" he teased, and you smiled before leaning into him and wrapping your arms around his body. hugging him wasn't what you expected- it was nothing like hugging a mannequin, but it wasn't like hugging a human. he still had the warmth and the softness from his skin, but under that was plastic and metal that made his body feel more firm. almost like how you'd touch flexed muscles, his body was similar to that.
his arms were wrapped around your waist, a little more loosely than yours. he liked the way you smelled, your smell was comforting in a way. as an android, he could register smells, but he didn't experience them in the same way as humans. certain smells are tied to memories, like a home cooked meal reminding you of childhood. yet your scent made him feel a certain way that he couldn't describe, no matter how many times he tried to compute it. it was just a pleasurable feeling. you smelled good all the time, everytime you hugged him he'd smell bright crystal by versace. "i have a question, y/n." he suddenly spoke. you hummed into his shoulder, prompting him to continue. "what makes you so affectionate towards me?" you almost laughed at his question, but it made you stop and think for a second. he could feel your heart race, and he didn't know why, it was a simple question.
"because I like you." you pulled away, looking to see his reaction. "thank you, I like you too. it's a great pleasure to be working with you," he gave a soft smile, not quite understanding what you really meant. you laughed, and shook your head. "I meant I have feelings for you. and it's okay, I don't expect you to return them, but I just want you to know that I've liked you for a really long time now."
his brows furrowed slightly, now understanding what you meant. you were worried, did he like you too? it had been strange for him. to deny his feelings at first, to ignore the increased whir of his thirium pump when you were around, to distract himself from how good your touch made him feel. to try to talk to someone else because he felt the need to be around you all the time. lately he's been more accepting of these feelings, and some of the new urges he's discovered. he's never felt the urge to want to touch someone before, to see you do things that were completely inappropriate. at first, he felt shame for thinking about you that way. but when he came to accept that it was probably normal, it was easier to let loose. his silence made you worry, but he was happier than he's ever been in his entire life. his LED was showing that he was currently processing the information, and he tried to hide how happy he really was. "I have feelings for you too, and I don't think I would've ever admitted them because I was afraid of rejection," he admitted, a soft smile tugging at his pink lips.
him? connor? the deviant hunter was afraid of being rejected by you? it almost made you laugh, because the thought was so bizarre to you. "are you serious? you were afraid?" you teased him back, and he rolled his eyes at your comment. he looked at you, and then your lips. you did the same, hoping that the two of you were sharing the same thought. in an instant, his lips were on yours. it was a completely new sensation to him, since the only thing to touch his lips were his fingers when analyzing DNA, so the feeling of your plush lips against his own was very new. he liked it.
your hand found its way on the side of his neck, and you deepened the kiss by gently pushing him back onto the couch. his LED pulsed a steady blue, even if inside he felt like he was burning up. he'd never felt so hot before, the component that circled cool air into his system working twice as hard to keep him from overheating. your tongue ran across his bottom lip, and he couldn't deny that he really liked that. your tongue then pushed past his pearly whites, and he actually thought he might catch on fire if you keep pushing him like this. his hands ran up the small of your back, and he pulled you into his lap, making you pull away from the kiss momentarily - a string of saliva connecting your mouths. you pulled him back by his tie, your fingers looping around the fabric to loosen it. it started with his tie, then his jacket, and then your fingers were slowly unbuttoning his shirt. he tilted his head back, allowing you to kiss his neck and the middle of his throat, your tongue running down his adams apple.
he was experiencing pure bliss, the feeling of your tongue running against his skin almost burning him from the heat. your kisses started in between his collarbones, and then it led down his sculpted stomach. you were pleasantly surprised by his muscular physique that hid underneath his clothes. through the jacket, you couldn't see much, but now you were able to see how strong he actually was. cyberlife intended for him to be stronger, and in doing so they gave him a lean yet muscular physique in order to be faster and precise. you slowly shifted to your knees, kneeling in between his thighs. you pushed his legs apart, and rested your arms on his thighs, while your fingers played with his belt. his cock strained against his boxers and his jeans as he looked down at you. your palm pressed on his crotch, and he clenched his jaw from the sudden pressure. fuck, you were going to break him.
"shit," he hissed, feeling more of your hand pressing on him through his jeans. it was a first hearing him curse, and fuck did it turn you on. before you continued, you momentarily stopped to ask him if it was okay. he nodded, his breathing becoming heavier as you unbuckled his belt. you pulled his jeans down enough to where his boxers were exposed, and fuck you didn't expect him to be so...big. it was hard to hide your surprise at his size, and you finally knew why he was always in a good mood. he smirked, his head tilting while his hand ran through your hair. you pulled his cock out gently, kissing his tip before wetting the length with your tongue. you made direct eye contact with him while you ran your tongue up the length of his cock. he nearly came just from the sight.
"you're so pretty," you complimented, before taking him in your mouth. the artificial muscles in his thighs clenched from the heat and wetness from your mouth, and he didn't know if he could handle being inside you if your mouth felt this heavenly. he let out soft grunts, making you clench your thighs together. you spit on his pink tip, before swirling your tongue around the head of his cock, your hands working up his length. you took him in your mouth again, your eyes tearing up from his tip hitting your throat as he gently thrusted into your mouth. his breathing became heavier, grunting while his head tipped back. you were surprised to feel his fingers gripping your hair, before you realized that he was holding you in place. he grunted one last time, before cumming into your mouth. unlike humans, his cum didn't have a certain taste as it was artificial, yet there was still something delicious about it, and you practically licked your lips clean.
your knees ached from being on the floor, and you were surprised yet again when he kissed you again, this time more hungry. you kissed back with the same amount of hunger, your lust never ending for the android that was above you. you laid on your couch, watching as he placed his hands on either side of your head. it was his turn to be in-between your thighs, and you whimpered feeling his cock press against the outline of your shorts. "i want you just as bad as you want me," he muttered into the crook of your neck, his lips kissing at your jaw and neck. unfortunately you couldn't bruise android skin, but he could bruise yours easily. his tongue licked at your skin, and he began to suck to leave a hickey. your hands traced the muscles on his back, your palms running up and down the smooth skin. "yeah? prove it," you challenged, watching as he nearly tore your shorts off, leaving you feeling exposed.
he was a little overwhelmed by so many urges at once, the urge to break you and leave you begging for him, or to fuck you until you cry. your back arched as he started to kiss your exposed cleavage, sitting up on his knees to squeeze your boobs. he'd be lying if he said he hadn't thought about doing this before. you moaned, watching as he lifted up your tank top and discarded it to the side. he kissed your chest, and you arched your back enough for him to remove your bra. he looked down at you, admiring how pretty you are. "you're prettier," he replied to the comment you made earlier, leaning down to squeeze and play with your boobs. he pushed your hips down from moving up into his, his palms holding you down easily. he decided to do the same, and pressed a thumb against your clothed pussy. you whimpered as he moved his thumb in slow circles, applying the right amount of pressure for you to be arching your back.
"my mouth isn't just for sampling dna, you know," he uttered lowly, his lips pressing against your pussy. you felt so hot, your skin burned from every touch. his hands gripped at your thighs, before moving one of his hands to tear your panties off. he didn't know if he could hold himself back, but for your sake he tried. "oh fuck," you whimpered as he ran a tongue up your slit, brown eyes peering up at you for your reaction. your brows twisted in pleasure, as his tongue began to work magic on you. the tip of his tongue swirled deliciously around your clit, before his lips sealed around you. it didn't take you long until you came on his tongue, his middle and ring finger buried deep into you while his mouth lapped at your clit. your abs clenched, your back arching and your toes curling as you unleash yourself on his mouth.
the moans that spill past your mouth are filthy, filling up the room along with the smell of sex. his fingers shove themselves into your mouth, and you're forced to taste yourself while you look up at the android above you. he looked so hot, his lips were slightly parted and shiny from being in between your thighs. his hair was slightly messy from you tugging on it, which he didn't mind. how his hair looked was the last thing he was thinking about. all he was thinking about was fucking you until you couldn't take it anymore. you lovingly suck on his fingers until his fingers are stripped of your taste, your tongue grazes his knuckles as he pulls them out from your mouth.
"is this your first time?" you asked, your fingers tracing his jaw and running down his chest. "yeah," his short response made you grin, and you pushed him back into the couch, immediately crawling onto his lap. his dick rests against his stomach, and you guide it back to your slit, hovering over him slightly in order to put it in. he looks down at your hand wrapped around his dick, capturing all of this and storing it into a special area that could only be accessed by him. he was definitely going to look at this later. you slowly sink onto his cock, the both of you grunting from the pressure. he seems to be in pure bliss, his head tilting back, his pretty pink lips parted and brows furrowed. if you could take a picture, you would. you gently rock against him, moving your hips slowly in order to not overwhelm him. your hands rest against his chest, and his hands grip onto your hips as you ride him slowly. you lean down and kiss his neck, adding onto the pleasure he was feeling right now. soft gasps and groans slipped out from his mouth uncontrollably, as he started to lose himself in the feeling of you clenched around him. you started to move faster, a pace that only brought the two of you closer to your end. your pussy wrapped around him deliciously, your wetness dripping down and spilling onto his thighs. he wasn't going to let you have all of the control, though.
it might have been his first time, but he sure knew how to fuck like he'd been doing it for years. he suddenly picked you up, with his cock still inside, and pressed you up against the nearest wall. you gasped, legs and arms wrapping around him in fear of being dropped. "don't worry, I'm not gonna drop you," he murmured against your neck, his strong arms holding you up with ease as he started to pound into you. your head titled back as you pushed your hips into him, his inhuman stamina keeping you up in the air, while miraculously being able to hit the spot that made you nearly scream.
"c'mon, take it, i know you can" he encouraged, his cock hitting that spot that made your toes curl. "cum on this dick, i know you want to," he continued, his voice low and demanding as he leaned next to your ear. it was different from how he spoke at the office, with professionalism and respect. but right now, he was fucking you like he had no respect for you, like he hated you. his pace was brutal, filling your pussy up until you couldn't take it. his cock rested heavy inside you, stretching your pussy out in the best way possible. his hand held you by the throat, while his body supported the weight of yours. "oh my god, fuck," you whimpered, your pussy clenching around his cock before you came all over him. he grunted, gasping as his cum poured into you, combining into a mess on your thighs and his own. he thrusted into you a few more times, enjoying the whimpers that slipped past your lips, the way you begged him to stop, the sound of your voice telling him that it was too much. he pulled out gently, cock dragging against the warm walls of your pussy. a new feeling overcame him as he watched his artificial cum drip out your pussy. you returned to your feet, nearly dropping a whole head as he'd been holding you up at eye length. you truly didn't understand how he was able to do so much. goddamn.
"i have no idea how you're able to hold me up like that," you took a second to control your breathing. he smirked, "my stamina and strength were designed to help catch deviants, though I'd say that I prefer fucking you over the mission." you softly gasped, hitting his arm playfully. "I've never heard you curse before," you giggle, doing a little walk of shame to retrieve your clothing. he mimicked your movements, putting his boxers and pants on first, while you lazily threw on your tank top and panties. you stopped him before he could put on his dress shirt. "I don't usually curse when I'm at work, as it's not professional, but we're not at the police department, are we?" he cocked his head, watching curiously as you put on his grey jacket over his bare upper body. "no, we are not," you smile, stepping back to admire your work. "what is the point of wearing a jacket if I'm not wearing anything underneath?" he questioned, watching as you eyed his body. "it's hot," you comment, dragging a hand down his bare stomach, your fingers tracing over his abs. "i look like i work at the eden club," he replied, not very fond of this look. you giggled, pulling him into you for another kiss.
it might have been the first time in a while that you've felt like you were doing something right. whatever you felt with connor, it felt right. he felt the same as you, he felt like having you in his life was something he wouldn't be able to let go. the two of you stayed like this, not putting a label on things yet, and being content with the things way are. you were happy, and so was connor.
though you couldn't deny the slight feelings of desire that you had for his counterpart. you felt guilty for having thoughts about nines. he was your partner. you felt selfish for wanting them both, and you didn't want to have to make a choice with who you wanted to be with, because that wasn't fair. you weren't saying that nines would even have feelings for you, but the mere thought was just enough to make you consider all the possibilities. what you didn't know, was that connor was well aware of the feelings you might have for nines, as well as him. he noticed the looks you gave, the thrum of your heart if he came too close. he didn't know why, but he didn't mind. he didn't mind seeing you look at nines like that, probably because they had the same face. but also because he wanted nines to enjoy you too. he could tell that nines was having the same thoughts, and if only you knew what was going on in his head. the thought of you being used by both of them was exciting. you don't know what's in store, but you know what you're here for.
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MOTIVATION | y. itadori
(click here for part two) synopsis: yuji thinks back about what really has been motivating him... author's note: hi <3 this story was requested by @smsm22! thanks so much for your request and I hope you enjoy!!! might fuck around and write a part two... cw: not proofread, some violence and blood, fluff, fem reader wc: 3.1k
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Thereâs something special about motivation. Something that keeps people on the right track. Keeps them in line, keeps them learning. Every single person has something that keeps them motivated. Keeps them moving and chugging along. Finding that something isnât as easy.
Itadoriâs motivation had been black and white. He wanted to save people. To keep people safe. Easy. Succinct. To the point. He wasnât much one for complicating things. He liked it that way. Youâd been helping him train for some weeks now, helping him with his cursed energy. Teaching him how to fight and not only win but maybe get through a fight unscathed. But the one that you always said to him was that he lacked the right motivation. The kind that kept your heart beating when the rest of you was too tired and beat up to move. The motivation that was worth fighting for. Heâd asked what yours was and you had said your family. That one of your cousins was killed by a curse and youâd fight to make sure your family never felt the pain of a loss like that ever again. He racked his brain night and day to find something that youâd accept. Sometimes he replayed a single moment in his head whilst training and fighting. And thatâs when it finally clicked.
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He was running late to class. He almost always was. Heâd visit his grandpa in the morning and always get sidetracked talking with the nurses on his way out. So he was running, barely dodging most of the people in his path. He could see the front door of the school, he picked up his pace and just as he took a long stride up the stairs you stepped in his way. Itadori gasped, slamming unceremoniously into you. But you didnât go down because his hands flew to grab your shoulders, it was a clumsy act but it got the job done. Heâd prevented you from being taken down with him as he sprawled out onto the grass. He laid there for a moment stunned and dazed.Â
âGod! Are you okay?â You rushed for him. Slowly Itadori rolled over in the grass, the front of his white shirt stained green. He gave you a thumbs up from the ground and let his rattling brain calm for a moment. âYouâre fast,â You stated and when Itadori raised his head slightly you had this amused look on your face. But beyond that it hit him that you were most likely the prettiest girl heâd probably ever seen in his entire life. He was speechless. Actually speechless. His lips parted but there wasnât a single coherent thought in that brain of his besides two words. Beautiful girl. It sounded like an alarm in his brain, red and blaring as a smile fitted to your lips. âAre you okay?â You had asked again. Itadori blinked, mouth dry as he slowly nodded his head. You stepped closer, reaching out a hand. âI messed up your shirt.â You remarked as he reached and took your hand, letting you pull him to his feet. Your hand was soft and cold, a stark difference from your sharp and warm eyes. When standing to his full height he was just about an inch or two taller than you, he wasnât sure why but he liked that.
âIâm Yuji.â He said quickly, as though he wouldnât get the chance. You looked up at him, that same smile fitting your lips.Â
âYuji⊠Iâm Y/n.â You answered. Itadoriâs cheeks blushed profusely, first at the eye contact and next at the way your voice rasped on his name. He didnât think heâd ever want to hear his name again unless it was spoken from your lips. Your name swum in his head as you reached and tucked your hair behind your ears.Â
âI havenât seen you around school.â I wouldâve noticed you if you had, heâd said in his mind.
âI donât go here, I was just⊠visiting a friend.â You said, a gentle breeze blowing your hair.Â
âOh⊠Iâm Yuji by the way.â He said nervously. He watched a laugh bubble from your lips as you giggled.Â
âYes, you already told me that.â You said. Itadoriâs face went beet red.Â
âRight! I did⊠Sorry.â
âItâs okay. I wonât forget it now.â You joked, tapping the side of your head. âYuji.â You added. His knees went weak.Â
âY/n!â A voice called from the bottom of the stairs. You both turned, there was a boy standing at the bottom of the stairs Itadori didnât recognize. Black spiky hair, lips turned down in a frown. âCome on.â He beckoned to you as you waved to him.Â
âSorry, gotta go.â You smiled. âTake care, Yuji. And try not to slam into any more unsuspecting girls.â You called over your shoulder as you walked towards the other boy.
âBye.â Itadori responded softly as he watched you ruffle the other boy's hair, walking off with him.Â
Itadori expected to never see you again. Heâd gone through each class like the five stages of grief. In English he was in denial that it had even happened, that maybe heâd hit his head too hard on the ground. In math he was frustrated that he hadnât asked for your number. In gym class he wondered if heâd racked up enough good karma to trade it in for a glimpse of you again. At lunch he ate in silence as his friend laughed and joked around him, his thoughts about you and how you were probably dating that boy that had called out to you. By the end of the day heâd accepted that was probably the first and last time heâd see you and that sat like a stone in the pit of his stomach.
âWhoâs that?â Megumi asked as you jogged down the stairs towards him.Â
âArch nemesis, every girl needs one.â You joke, reaching and ruffling the frowning boy's hair. Megumi glowers at you as he pushes your hand away to fix his hair.Â
âWe're after a cursed object and youâre out flirting.â He grumbles as you scoff out a laugh.
âI was not flirting.â
âWas pink hair aware of that?â Megumi questions as you roll your eyes.
âCome on, grumpy, letâs check around the back.âÂ
After a bit of searching you were called back to the school as Megumi stayed behind, claiming he had a feeling that the object was still somewhere near the school. You talked with Gojo for a bit, did some homework, had a shower and was nice and tucked into bed when your phone started ringing off the hook. You jumped at the sound, only because it was Megumiâs ringtone and that boy hated to call, heâd always preferred sending cryptically short texts.
âMegumi?â You answered. There was a bit of rustling, then some yelling. âMegumi?â You asked again just before the line went dead. You immediately recalled his number, pressing the speaker button as you clicked on his location. The line rang and rang and went to voicemail just as his location finally loaded. He was still at that school. It was late, too late for him to be there still. You jumped out of bed, grumbling as you pulled on some clothes and sneakers, busting out of your dorm, hair still wet from your shower. You shot a text to Gojo as you hopped into a taxi.Â
Ten minutes later you were pulling into the school and the closer you got the more you felt this aching sense of dread. Even more apparent as you exited the car and broke off into a run. You felt the cursed energy spewing in droves all over this school and wondered how in the world you hadnât felt this earlier. It was almost suffocating.Â
You shouldered open the front door, the energy pressing into you as you ran towards the commotion a few floors up.Â
âMegumi?â You yelled out, as a few smaller curses bumbled their way towards you. You took them out with ease, continuing up the steps, your sneakers squeaking on the tile flooring. When you finally got to the roof you spotted something big and imposing just outside the window, you heard yelling and spotted Megumiâs spiky hair. You blew out a breath, shouldering open the roof door into pure chaos. Megumi turned at the sound, his eyes finding you as you took in the scene. Not only was he here but the boy with the pink hair from earlier was here as well, blood on the side of his forehead.Â
âY/n! Take this!â Megumi yelled and with no prior warning tossed something small and weighty towards you. âTake it and run!â You caught the thing, it was cold and purple and disgusting. It was⊠a finger?Â
âWhat the fuck?â You gasped as the curse Megumi had been fighting roared with anger, eyes now set on you. Whatever the thing was you shoved your way back towards the door only for the curse to shoot out and grab you midstep, yanking you hard towards its mouth. With both your arms pinned in its grasp you screamed in terror, unable to use your technique. âI was tucked in bed you asshole!â You growled at Megumi as the curse dragged you right past him, the finger in your possession tumbled from your grasp, falling onto the concrete. For a split second you met eyes with the pink haired boy as he sprinted, swiping the finger from the ground, holding it up for the curse to see.Â
âI have it! Let her go!â He yelled desperately. The curse paused, directing its attention to him before tossing you backwards and gunning for him. You hit the concrete hard, sliding and tumbling to a stop, dazed. You felt a wet hot streak of blood fall from the side of your forehead, and as you tried to push to your feet you blacked out.Â
âY/n? Y/n! Hey⊠you alright? Please wake up, I do not want to carry you off this roof!â Your eyes slowly fluttered open, your head aching as Megumi came into view. He blew out a sigh of relief sitting back on his heels as Gojo just beside him blew out a scoff of laughter.Â
âI donât think you could carry her if you tried, kid.â He jested as Megumi shot him a look. Slowly you sat up.
âWhat happened?â You asked, voice rough.Â
âWell⊠thatâs a long story. Come on, we need to get going.â Megumi says as he helps you to your feet.Â
âW-wait⊠whereâs that boy?â You asked as Megumi pointed. You turned to see Gojo holding the pinked haired boy on his back, the boy was unconscious. You hearted lurched.
âHeâs fine⊠well⊠fine enough.â Megumi says as you furrow your brows, following Gojo off the roof.Â
âWhat happened?â
âHe ate that cursed finger.â
âHe ate that thing?â You echoed.
âUh huh.â âYep.â Both Megumi and Gojo answered at the same time. You blinked a few times, trying to remember what exactly happened before you blacked out.Â
âFuck.âÂ
Itadori had finally settled in just a bit. A lot had happened in the past few hours. Heâd met you. Moped at school. Fought a curse. Saw you again. Saw you in trouble. Ate an ancient cursed object to save you. Passed out for hours. Woke up, was told he was going to be executed. Then told it was going to be on hold for just a bit. Was brought to a new school, saw spiky hair again and given a new room. Where he was now resting for a second. That was until someone knocked at his door. Itadori got to his feet, crossing his room and pulling open the door.
There you were. You were in different clothes, a nice white tank top and baggy gray sweatpants. You had a bruise on your forehead from where the curse had thrown you, one that matched the cut on Itadoriâs forehead. Itadori stepped back, an awestruck look on his face.
âMorning,â You greeted. âI heard you were finally settled so I wanted to come see you.âÂ
âSee me?â Itadori echoes, a smile fits to your lips.Â
âYeah, to thank you, for saving Megumi and I.â
âOh! Uh- yeah of course⊠that was nothing.â
âIt wasnât nothing. You⊠were incredibly brave and⊠Iâm sorry you got dragged into all of this.âÂ
âOh⊠you meanâŠâ
âThe execution.â You finish as Itadori nods his head, shrugging his shoulders.Â
âIt⊠itâs worth it.â
âHm?â
âSaving you was worth the trouble.â Itadori confessed. You blushed at his words, your heart doing a little flip in your chest. You bite your lip to keep from smiling too large as you blow out a soft laugh.
âThat was⊠technically my first mission, which is why it went so terribly so⊠in return for saving me Iâd like to help you.â You say as Itadori slightly cocks his head, sort of like a dog.Â
âHm?â
âIâll help you train, get stronger so that maybe theyâll cancel your execution⊠permanently.â
âYouâd do that?â
âFor you. Yeah.â You answer. This time it was Itadoriâs turn to blush and blush he did. He felt that weakness in his knees again when you met his eyes with a promising sort of tone to your words.Â
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Itadori had replayed the moment of you being dragged off towards a curses mouth every time he was losing a fight. The terror in your eyes. He never wanted to see that again. So if you were to ask Itadori what his motivation was now⊠heâd say you. You complicated every fucking thing for him. Suddenly he wanted to help you. He wanted to save you. He wanted you to smile at him. To laugh at him. To cheer him on. He longed for your praise. Saving people was one thing but saving you⊠was everything.
âMorning,â You yawned as you entered the training room. Little had you known that Itadori had been in there for hours. Once heâd realized what he was fighting for he couldnât rest easy until he had everything perfect, until he knew he could protect you. He was so in his head about it all that he hadnât even heard you approach him. âYuji,â He startled, turning.
âOh⊠good morning.â He greeted, red faced and sweaty.Â
âHow long have you been up?â You asked, searching his face with those cat-like eyes he liked so much.Â
âOh uh⊠not long.âÂ
âYou look exhausted.â You pointed out, handing him a water. He took it gratefully, drinking the entire thing in one go. You raised your brows.Â
âIâm fine.â He said after a moment. You grabbed a towel, wiping the sweat from his forehead.Â
âDid I stress you out? About the motivation shit?â You asked as Itadori got lost in your eyes, lost in the way you gently gripped his chin so you could clean off his face. âBecause thatâs just some crap I read in a personal wellness book. I just wanted to be a good teacher.â
âYou are!â Itadori attested.
âI just donât want you to get hurt⊠thatâs all. I thought if we could find something meaningful for you to fight for youâd never lose hope.â
âI⊠I know.â Itadori blushes. Heâd found something meaningful. Heâd found someone to fight for. He just couldnât tell her just yet.Â
âAnd Megumi⊠that gloomy idiot, I asked for his help on how to get you properly motivated and you know what he said?â
âHm?â
âTo kiss you.â You scoffed with a laugh, shaking your head. âLike that would be any motivation at all.â
âIt would.â
âI know! Thatâs what IâŠâ You stopped talking, pausing. Your hand still held Itadoriâs chin, slowly your eyes met his. âWhat?â He blushed under your gaze, and swallowed as your hand dropped from his face.Â
âI⊠think that would work.â He says, reckless abandon. You stared at him for a long moment, your brows furrowing. You were sure Itadori would agree with you. But you were wrong. Maybe you were looking at this all wrongâŠ
âDo fifteen pushups.â You said and Itadori dropped to the ground, you counted aloud as he did them and when he got to fifteen he popped back up to his feet. You stepped in his space, his cheeks were bright red as you rocked up on your tippy toes and pressed a kiss to his hot cheek. You heard him suck in a breath and when you pulled back his eyes were wide. âYuji?â
âYes?â
âHave you been here all night?âÂ
âYes.â He answers truthfully, you swallow dryly. âI⊠know what motivates me. I think about it every time I fight.âÂ
âWhat is it?â You ask in a soft voice.Â
âYou.â He answers. Thereâs adoration in his eyes, and a bit of shyness. You know heâs telling the truth and you know what it means. You've known Itadori for about a year now. He saved your life and you have wanted to repay him all this time. You taught him everything you knew, stayed up late training and studying with him. You shared your lunch with him and watched movies with him. You spent most of your waking moments with Itadori and wondered how you never realized until this very moment just how much he motivated you right back. You smiled at the thought as Itadori melted.Â
âIs that so?â You teased as his entire face went red.
âUm⊠y-yeah.â He stuttered nervously as you cocked your head, grinning up at him.Â
âWell⊠I only have one last thing to teach you so hereâs what we're gonna do. You're gonna take the day off today, then tomorrow weâll meet back here around our usual time. If you can keep your cursed energy level like weâve practiced Iâll kiss you again.â
âOn the cheek?â He asked as you shook your head.Â
âOn the lips.â You clarified as Itadoriâs lips parted, eyes widening. You almost laughed at his obvious excitement.Â
âS-seriously?â He asked as you nodded your head, holding out your hand.
âDo we have a deal?â You asked. Itadori took your hand in seconds, shaking it gently.Â
âDeal.â Â
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Wrinkles like Rivers
Pairing: Alex Blake Ă Fem!Reader
Hurt/Comfort
For: @olderwomenaremyfavs
Content Warning: References to canon violence (drugs/crime), age gap (reader is in her 30s, Alex is in her 50s), very brief suggestive comment, insecurity over appearance
Summary: At a work function, Alex feels like the other agents have her beat, in more ways than one.
Author's Note: Omg! This is my first fic posted on this site, so I'm super excited! Hope this is what you were hoping for!
Feedback is always welcome!
Requests are OPEN
It was another Bureau function, and the atmosphere was relaxed and casual. Agents usually consumed with the worst of humanity were able to escape, just for a bit, and find comfort in a night out. You mingled with some people, recognizing names but not faces from your girlfriend's stories.
For some reason, these events seemed to have the opposite effect on Alex, who usually ended up silent and brooding in the corner. You could tell she was thinking about something, but she always brushed it off so confidently that you were certain you were imagining it. After all, she was the profiler, not you.
Tonight was a different story. You could see it in her tense shoulders, her narrowed eyes, and her half-smile. Her glass was still full, although that wasn't unusual for her. Even though it wasn't your profession, you were certainly a profiler when it came to her.
You excused yourself from an agent telling you stories about her escapades busting a drug ring, making your way back to the woman watching you with rapt attention. She blinked out of her stupor when she noticed you, quickly throwing on a smile and wrapping her arm around you. It was a nice attempt, but you couldn't be fooled.
"Alex," you began, "is something bothering you?"
She shook her head, although you anticipated that reaction. Alex always kept her emotions sealed away in a vault that you rarely were given the key to. You sighed, wrapping your hands around her wrist gently and leading her off to an empty hallway.
You decided to try again, within the comfort of your sole presence.
"Alex, I know something's bothering you. And I'd appreciate it if you'd let me help."
She let out a sigh, her smile fading slightly as she fiddled with the ends of her hair.
"It's not important."
You had to resist the urge to roll your eyes. Alex *was* important. She could tell you that the sky was green and you would agree.
"Alex, please. I want to know so I can fix the problem."
She sighed, avoiding your gaze and taking a small sip of the wine provided by a rather wealthy colleague of hers.
"Watching you talk to all of those other agents, it's just hard for me. They're young, they're good in the field. Their stories are more exciting."
Your heart melted in your chest, trying to soothe any insecurities she might have.
"I don't care. You've been in longer than they have. You're more smart logical and strategic. Plus, I like a woman with a little experience."
She held back a snort at your words, but her eyes still held traces of doubt.
"It's not just about the brains. Just look at me. I mean, you could date anyone you want. There must be someone out there who's younger and prettier."
You frowned, the warmth in your chest quickly evaporating. "Alex, no. I love you. I love everything about you. I love the way your eyes crease when you laugh. I love the wrinkles on your forehead. I love the gray hairs you're hiding. Do you know why? Because to me, that stuff makes you even more beautiful."
Her gaze softened, and you could practically see her trying to come up with another excuse for why she wasn't good enough. You shook your head, leaning in and pressing a gentle kiss to her lips.
"I'm always going to pick you, Alex."
She nods, taking a deep breath and kissing you back a little deeper, trying to convey the gratitude she felt. Luckily, another part of being such an expert on how she felt was that you already knew.
You smiled back, glancing over at the party.
"Should we head home?"
She nods in agreement, wrapping an arm around your waist and leading you back out to the party, the both of you clinging to each other the way you always would.
"Absolutely. Garcia told me about this game called 'Wordle', and I want to try it out."
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the devil you don't know (or however it goes)
hunter/raider!Joel Miller x f!reader
Word Count: 4.7k
Summary: When Joel's men bring back the (adult) daughter of a rival group of hunters, he sees an opportunity.
Warnings: DARK, dub-con, Joel Miller is not a nice man, suspension bondage, abduction, captivity, themes of torture, mentions of past sexual abuse (not Joel), starvation, dehydration, a smidge of knifeplay, a pinch of bloodplay, seriously dead dove do not eat, ambiguous ending, reader has suicidal ideations because of anxiety and threat of imminent death, I mean it guys, this is somehow less depraved than the last raider!Joel but way darker, author makes up stuff about how garage doors work because google failed her but she's probably on a watchlist now so, canon-typical violence, gags, overnight bondage in an unsafe environment, reader's age isn't specified but she was an adult when the outbreak started
Prompts from this list by @absurdthirst.
also on ao3.
dividers by @saradika-graphics
Back in the before, in all the movies and books, when the damsel in distress or dashing hero was captured, they woke up clueless. Thinking they were home before it all settled in. Theyâd write off the pain as a hangover or a friendâs shitty couch.
Thatâs not how it happened for you.
When your consciousness first blinked back into the world, you were already having a panic attack. Your brain had registered the clues long before you were involved in the process.
Your cheeks are already streaked with tears before you can open your eyes. Your throat is dry and aching, and you canât breathe.
Of course, you donât realize itâs a panic attack at first. You just assume youâre dying. Here in this damp, cold⊠garage?
Recognition snaps you out of it. Youâre still gasping, ragged, like youâre full of broken glass, but youâre alert enough to look around.
Youâre alone. Small mercies. Or maybe not, given the way youâre tied up. Coarse rope forces your arms behind your back, wrapped from wrist to elbow. Your shoulders ache from being yanked backward, but the length has some slack, at least, between you and the bracket on the thick steel wall.
No. Not a wall. A door. Youâre tethered to a huge door, inflexible accordion-style metal punctuated with heavy-duty brackets. No windows, no rotting wood. Impenetrable.
The door isnât closed all the way, but itâs locked into place. Even if you got your hands free, it would take time and strength to remove the locks and open it enough to slip out.
The air coming through the bottom is chilly but fresh.
It helps. Focusing on the cold shushes the other alarms in your body. Enough to realize it's not just your arms that are tied.
There are loops of rope around your thighs, tethered to the same point as your hands, and loops around your ankles, which are attached to the side walls nearby. Both grant you enough slack to move a little but hold your legs wide enough to prevent standing.
Not that it matters, you think, as a door on the other side of the room swings open.
âHey there, sweetheart,â croons a man as he steps through the frame, the soft twang plucking at your heartstrings.
No. No. âMiller.â
âI was surprised to see you, too. Mâboys said they found one of your daddyâs people in our territory. Imagine my face when they dragged you in.â
âSo let me go. You know heâll come looking.â
âWill he? Lotta blood out there.â
âNot mine.â
âOh, I know. I saw the way you carved up one of my guys. You got him good.â He almost sounds pleased. âBut daddy doesnât know that, does he?â
âHeâll still look for me.â
âYou think heâs going to break our pact for you? Heâs gonna risk facing me over a runaway?â He pauses. âWere you runninâ to me?â
âNo,â you snarl.
âBut you are runnin', ainâtcha?â
âNo,â you lie. âI just got lost. Heâs waiting for me for dinner.â Part of that, at least, is true. You would have never intentionally crossed into Joel Millerâs land.
âAlright, I get it. Better the devil ya know, right?â he grins.
You glared over his shoulder, refusing to look at his stupid, smug face. That was why you had stayed these last few years. When supplies ran lower and lower and your father found other ways to keep his men loyal.
At the end of the day, you had food, water, and shelter.
As you look anywhere but Joel, you see what fills the industrial metal shelving along the walls. There are stacks of boxes of bullets. Pallets worth of bottled water and canned goods. Cases of dried pasta. A couple dirty mattresses are leaning against the back wall. Your stomach sinks.
He sees you taking in the stock. âSorry, would have kept ya in the other one, where we usually have our⊠guests, but see, itâs a little messy right now.â He pulls a Dasani out of a case and brings it over, pressing it to your lips after pocketing the lid.
You rear your head back.
âWhat, you think itâs drugged or somethinâ?â Joel takes a big swig out of the bottle, a drop rolling down his chin. He swipes it away with the folded cuff of his denim button-up. âWhy would we waste any of the good stuff on you?â
He offers it back up to you, and you let him pour it in your mouth. When he takes it away, you spit it at him.
He sighs. âWish you hadnât done that,â he says and tips the bottle over your head. âBut if thatâs the way youâre gonna be, Iâll go.â
But he doesnât leave. Not yet. First, he presses and holds the button on the wall and watches as the pulley cranks to life.
The machinery grates, gears crying for oil, and you flinch from the noise. You donât realize whatâs about to happen until it does. The ropes holding you arenât that long, and as the garage door slides up, it lifts you with it.
You scream. âStop, please, put me down.â
Joel shakes his head, disappointment exaggerated in his scowl. âShoulda been good. Now ya know.â
He releases the button when the door is open. Youâre hanging, now, with your arms pulled to their limit behind you. Your shoulders already burn. The loops around your thighs and ankles keep you balanced at the expense of spreading you wide. You jerk, trying to⊠what? Trying to get out? You know that wasnât happening, not like this. All you were going to do was dislocate your shoulders.
The late summer breeze blows in, and you shiver. Your hair and shirt are soaked.
âDonât worry,â Joel jerks his head to the dark house across the street. âAinât got neighbors.â
He goes to leave, and you canât help it. âDonât, please!â
He stops and turns around, head to the side like youâre a puzzle he wants to figure out. âYou gonna shut up, or do I gotta take care of that?â
Blood drains from your face.
He comes over to you and pulls a filthy bandana from his pocket. He rolls it up and ducks behind you. You try to lock your jaw, but he digs his fingers into the hinges until you open a little. He presses the bandana into your mouth, yanking back on it, and tying it tight behind your head.
âNight,â he tips his head, flourishing a hand like a fucking cowboy in a Stetson, and leaves, closing the door behind him.
You donât sleep, waiting for hungry dogs or Joelâs men to find you trussed up.
When he comes back in the morning, youâre a wreck. You survived the fucking apocalypse, but none of it could have prepared you for this. Youâre blinking in and out of consciousness.
Thereâs nothing but the pain. Youâre sure you would have cried or thrown up, but youâre so dehydrated now that you canât even spare a tear. Itâs not lost on you that you got into this situation by wasting water.
âChilly in here,â he says by way of greeting, tugging the bandana off you.
You keep your eyes closed. Imagining his smug smirk is bad enough; you donât need to see him see you like this.
âYou shoulda worn a jacket, sweetheart.â
âDid,â you croak, and wish you hadnât fallen for his bait.
âAh, someone took it from ya? Must have been a nice one.â
It was. It was patched up and ugly, but so was everything in this world. And it was warm. Heavy denim with quilted down lining. The last thing youâd ever take from your father, you thought.
He walks around you. Youâd stiffen if you could, but youâve long been stuck, muscles given out.
âAlright, letâs get ya down.â
At least the dehydration saves you from the whimper you almost let out. But itâs silent, and if Joel notices anything, he doesnât react.
He walks back over to the door and presses the button. âSâgonna hurt like a bitch,â he warns before the door jerks backward, click click clicking as it lowers. Itâs slow, but when your legs touch the ground, you may as well have plummeted.
You scream, wrenching it from your haggard throat, hands balled into fists behind your back. When youâre fully on the ground, you collapse against the door, only sparing a wince when your head bounces against the jutting metal seam between panels.
âDeep breaths. Youâll be fine.â He crouches down in front of you, same ratty denim shirt and jeans, same scuffed up boots. âYou ready to behave?â
You nod, barely moving, but he gets the message.
âYâlook thirsty.â
You crack your eyes open to peek at him but canât. They roll back into your head, lids fluttering.
Youâre vaguely aware that he leaves and comes back but have no idea how much time passes. He crouches back down in front of you, and you hear the crinkle of a decade-old plastic bottle.
âIf I give you this, are you going to spit it at me again?â
âNo,â you whisper.
âYou gonna ask nicely?â
You squeeze your eyes shut, but your brain is mostly static, so you give up without much of a fuss. âPlease.â
He hums his approval and brings the bottle to your lips. He only lets you take tiny sips, infinitesimal in the arid expanse of your mouth. He pulls it away far too soon, and a soft sob leaks from you in its absence.
âYou can have more later. Donât need you gettinâ sick all over my garage.â
He leaves.
When he comes back late into the evening, youâre asleep, but you startle awake when he turns the light on.
Your wide eyes follow him as he moves about the garage. When he finally approaches you, itâs to offer more water. You accept it immediately, opening your mouth for the bottle before it even reaches you.
âLearned your lesson, huh? Good girl.â
Itâs accompanied by a sneer, but that doesnât stop the way your pussy clenches for a minute. Given that youâre still fully clothed, he remains blessedly unaware.
âCan you just, like, shoot me now or whatever,â you mumble. You know youâre not leaving that garage. Youâve seen where he keeps the top supplies. You know which house this isâor at least, the numbers on the house across the street.
âNah,â Joel says as if youâre discussing what to eat for dinner. He sits down in front of you, knees bent up, leaning on them with the arm holding the water bottle. âYouâre gonna help me first.â
âWhy would I help you if youâre going to kill me?â
âBecause Iâll make it quick for ya.â
You think you might throw up the water.
âDonât look at me like that,â he gestures at you with his loose hand, now grasping a closed switchblade. âYou know how this goes. Seen your pops do it plenty, right?â
You nod.
âI donât think youâre gonna make me, though,â Joel muses, and scratches his chin with the outside of the blade.
âI was running,â you blurt. âIf I tell you everything, I swear, heâll never know, I just want toââ
ââFraid not,â he says, shaking his head. âNothinâ personal, sweetheart, just canât trust ya.â
The way youâre staring at him with your pretty eyes, glistening with fear, makes him scowl harder. He flicks the blade open and watches as a tear escapes before you close your eyes.
âPromise?â you whisper.
âPromise what?â
âPromise youâll make it quick, if I tell you everything.â Youâre shaking, and realize youâre probably about to have another panic attack as your breathing grows shallow.
âYeah, I promise,â he says. He stands up and watches you, the way youâre clenching your hands into fists and trying to breathe out of your mouth.
âJesus. Itâs not gonna happen right now, calm down.â
Before he leaves, he gives you more water.
Youâre awake when he comes back the next morning. He sits in front of you, legs crossed, and sets a cloth full of dried meat between you, and another bottle of water.
He picks up a thick strip. It doesnât look like the shit they used to sell at grocery stores. It looks like theyâve salted and dried their own fucking jerky.
You stare as he rips off a piece and eats it.
âWhat? Yâainât got pigs?â
You shake your head.
âJesus,â he sighs. âIs there even anything to take, or am I wasting my fucking time?â
âLots of guns,â you shrug. âSome food. Not like youâve got.â
Guns were more than enough of a reason, and you both knew it. He ripped another piece off and held it to your lips.
You didnât hesitate.
âHereâs how this is going to go,â he says while you chew. âIâm going to ask you a question. If I believe your answer, you can have somethin' to eat or drink. If I donât believe you, thatâs when things get tricky.â He opens the switchblade and sets it next to the water.
It takes hours, but true to your word, you tell him everything. The layout of the old campground your father took command over. Patrol schedules. Planned raids. Locations of guns, food, medicine, everything.
By the end of it, youâd had two sticks of the jerky and the whole bottle of water. You look more alive than you have in days, given that youâd been thoroughly lost for two before stumbling across his men on patrol.
âWhyâd you feed me?â you ask when he stands to leave. âArenât you about to kill me?â
âNo,â he says, rolling his eyes. âGotta see if your information is good. Probably wonât even make a move for a week or so.â
You tense. âYou promised. You promised youâd make it quick.â
âI promised Iâd make it quick when I kill ya. If you told me everything. Canât prove you did until itâs done.â
He doesnât know what he expected you to do, but screaming was not it. Itâs a wounded, rageful thing. He hates it. He stomps back over and covers your mouth, blade in hand. It presses against your cheek, and you hiss.
He pulls his hand away and watches the blood drip down your cheek. You donât scream again, but thereâs something in your eyes when you stare him down.
âCoward,â you whisper.
His hand wraps around your throat, pushing you against the garage door. He doesnât remember kneeling down close to you, but thatâs where he finds himself as he squeezes, bringing the knife up above his hand.
You arenât struggling, yet, His grip isnât that tight. Some air still leaks, and you laugh. âCâmon,â you taunt.
He lets go. You slump down a little, chest heaving. Thereâs blood dripping down from the small nick in your neck to your cleavage.
You watch him watch it. âCan you at least clean that up if youâre going to leave me here?â
He doesnât know what possesses him. It has to be the unhinged look in your eyes, spreading to him like poison. He grabs your jaw in the hand with the blade and pushes your head to the side so he can lean down and lick the blood off your breast. You moan.
He spits it to the side, and turns your head back to look at him. Your lips are parted, pupils blown. âFuckinâ hell,â he growls, leaning back, putting distance between him and your tits.
âCâmon,â you repeat, but this time, itâs heady.
âThe fuck is wrong with you?â But he doesnât wait for you to answer. He grabs your jaw again and kisses you. Itâs not kind or soft. Itâs all teeth and snarls and the knife against your cheek. But you kiss him back, because it pleases the ravaging wildfire of rage that lives in your chest. Fuels it.
He pulls back. âShit," he mutters.
âYou gonna fuck me or what?â
He lets go. Stands up. You think maybe heâs going to get his cock out, but he stalks over to the door. âOr what.â
He slams the door so he doesnât have to hear you howl in fury after him, spitting insults.
He doesnât come back the next day.
By the second morning, youâre starting to panic. Youâre so thirsty. The last bottle had a few dregs in it, just a sip, but it's just out of reach. The only light you have is when it creeps in from the little gap between the garage door and the uneven concrete.
When he comes that evening, heâs ditched the denim. Heâs got tight dark pants and a gray t-shirt on. You donât look at him directly as he gives you water and more of the salty jerky.
He crouches down in front of you again. Youâre getting tired of it. Of his stupid pretty face and this stupid garage. Your arms are numb, and the pounding in your head hasnât gone away since the first day. You donât even know how long youâve been here anymore.
âWhyâd you ask me to fuck you?" Itâs less of a question than a statement, but you know he expects an answer.
âDunno. Thought maybe you would.â
âIâm going to kill you. Your pussy ainât going to change that.â
âDidnât expect it to.â
âWhat, you a virgin or something? You trying to get fucked before you die?â
âOr something, yeah,â you mutter.
âShit.â He canât believe heâs considering this. It feels like crossing one of the few lines he hasnât crossed.
Itâs not lost on you. âAre you having a fuckin' moral dilemma about this? Youâre gonna gut me, and youâre trying to figure out if itâd be fucked up to have sex with me?â
âNot gonna gut ya,â he says. âSaid Iâd make it quick, didnât I?â
âOh my god. That was so not the point.â
âShut up. Look at me.â
You do. Heâs holding the blade again. âI verified your information yesterday. Weâre going to make our move tomorrow. Iâll be back by sundown. You still want this?â
It feels like he dumped the water on you again. You shiver. So thatâs it. By this time tomorrow, youâll be gone.
âYes.â
âFine. But weâre doinâ this my way.â He walks away, and you think heâs going back inside until he stops and presses the button.
Youâre shocked enough that all you do is gasp when the door lifts, pulling you into the air. He stalks back over to you and holds the blade up. âHold still.â
Youâre hanging in the fucking air. What does he think youâre going to do? Fly away? But you hold your breath anyway while he slides the knife between your skin and clothes. When youâre bare to him, he drops the knife and grabs your waist.
âYou done anything? Anyone ever make you come?â
You shake your head and murmur, âNo, no one.â
When you look up at him, youâre surprised to see something almost soft behind his eyes. You glare. âWhat, is it going to make you feel less guilty if I have an orgasm?â
âWhat do I got to feel guilty for? You fuckinâ begged for it.â
âThen fuckinâ fuck me already,â you snap. Your arms hurt again. You want to fuck him, you want to land your fists against his stupid face, you want to not fucking die tomorrow.
But you can only have one of those things, so. âPlease,â you say, and sigh.
He cups your breasts, stroking thumbs over your nipples. He leans over and licks, and you moan again, soft this time.
âDonât,â you whisper. âDonât gotta do that. Just fuck me.â
âAinât doinâ it for you,â he lies.
You donât protest again, not after he takes a nipple in his mouth and sucks. He brings a hand to your cunt and thumbs your clit, sliding two fingers down to start working you open for him. He eases the first one in through your slick, and you whine.
âIâm not gonna be nice,â he says, panting a little. âItâs going to hurt.â
âYeah,â you agree, watching as he stretches you open. Your legs are held so wide they ache, but it doesnât stop your eyes from rolling back when he picks up speed.
He holds you tight when you come so your arms donât jerk too hard. Itâd be a shitty end to a shitty life, you think, to wait all day with dislocated shoulders for him to come home and slit your throat.
Finally, he pulls his cock out. A man of his word, he doesnât go nice or slow. It does hurt. His cock is thick and long, and he makes it fit even as your body tries to reject him. He hooks his hands under your thighs, forcing you to put some of your body weight on him as he fucks up into you.
It takes the pressure off your arms, and you suspect maybe he's strong enough to fuck like this without the help from the ropes.
The burn is exactly what you wanted. It stings, and you cry, silent but for a few whimpers. He pulls another orgasm out of you with his clever fingers on your clit.
When he comes, he pulls you to him and sinks his teeth into the meat of your shoulder. You wail, but you also come again as he fills you.
You expect him to leave you there, dangling and dripping his spend. But when he lets go, itâs just to lower you back to the ground.
He tucks his soft cock away and zips up, staring down at you. You lay against the door, trying to catch your breath.
âWhatâd you mean by âor somethingâ?â he says, surprising himself.
âSânothin,â you sigh.
He sits down, offers you water. You drink and watch him, tense and untrusting.
âWas that the first time youâve been fucked?â
âFirst time I ever wanted it,â you say.
His jaw ticks. âAnswer one more question for me, âbout your fatherâs camp.â He waits until you meet his eyes. âIf youâre strugglinâ for food, howâs he keeping all them happy?â
You flinch and look away.
He doesnât need another answer.
You donât expect to see him in the morning, so youâre startled when the door opens. He throws something on the floor, but you donât have time to look before heâs crouched over you, knife in hand.
You had promised yourself youâd be brave and quiet when he came for you. But you thought youâd have time to prepare yourself, so when he brings it toward you, you flinch back and cry out. âHold still,â he snaps. He doesnât have time to wait for you to cooperate, so he holds your shoulder with one hand and slices through the rope with the other.
When heâs done, he jabs the knife in the direction of the pile of fabric by your foot. âGet up. Get dressed.â
You canât stand. He huffs and pockets the knife, pulling you up. Your limbs barely move from the way theyâve been stuck, splotchy and limp from poor circulation. He helps you tug the flannel on and step into what must be a pair of his boxers.
He looks you over. âSâall I got.â
âOkay,â you say. Youâre so confused. Between the pain, the hunger, the dehydration, and the fear, itâs a wonder you can string together a single thought.
âLetâs go,â he snaps as he heads for the door, like you were supposed to know already. When you get into the house, he grabs one arm and pushes you ahead of him, through a kitchen and living room and out another door.
Most of his men are in two vans, but Joel shoves you into a pickup truck. He buckles you in and waves a finger in your face. âYou try anything, and itâll take you days to bleed out.â
You just nod. Youâre thinking now that he probably doesnât want to kill you in his house. Blood all over the stockroom would be a pain in the ass.
At least you got to see sunshine again.
Itâs not a long drive, but you keep your eyes closed. The autumn sun is weak, but you think you might cry as it brushes your skin.
Joel doesnât say a word.
You donât open your eyes until he parks. He hops out and comes to pull you out the other side, but when you see where you are, you panic and try to push him away.
âWhat the fuck are you doing?â he snaps. âGet out of the fucking truck.â
God. Everything youâd heard about him is true. Was he really this cruel? Monstrous enough to drag you back, to die here when youâd finally escaped?
Orâhas he struck a deal? Is he going to give you back to your father?
You canât breathe.
Joel crowds you against the truck, hands on your shoulders, and shakes you a little. âSnap out of it, I ainât got time for this. Stick with me and keep your mouth shut.â
For a moment, neither of you move. You get control of your breathing and realize he hasnât restrained you. He didnât give you shoes, but you still know this land far better than he does. You told him all your fatherâs secrets, but not yours.
âDonât,â he says. Itâs the softest heâs spoken to you yet.
And, god help you, you nod.
Two of Joelâs men are struggling to hold your father when Joel drags you into the living room of the main cabin. Heâs holding your wrists behind your back, his gun pressed into your side.
âOh, thank god, honey, youâre okay,â your father says, but his face falls when he sees the gun. âCâmon, Miller, let her go. Sheâs not a part of this.â
âShe is now,â Joel says. âFound her on my land. Ainât that right?â
You want to close your eyes, want to ignore your part in this, want him to just fucking shoot already, but you canât look away from your fatherâs face.
âI swear to god, Miller, if you laid a hand on herââ
âLike your men did?â He waits and doesnât receive a response. âYeah, thatâs what I thought.â
âYou know how it is,â your father says. He canât read Joel, never could. âEveryoneâs gotta contribute somehow. Keep morale up,â he plows forward, oblivious to the dangerous way Joelâs eyes have darkened. âLook, I can look past it. Whatever you did, she probably had it coming, for trespassing. We can call it even.â
Joelâs slow smirk is feral. He nods. For a moment, your father breathes with relief. But Joel isnât looking at him.
His men move quick, and your father is on his knees in just seconds. They struggle to hold him down with hands on his shoulders, but he stops fighting when Joel lifts the gun away from you.
He doesnât aim it at your father, who has to watch as Joel flips the gun in his hand and offers you the grip. He didnât even notice that Joel had let you go.
You donât say anything. You look at Joel for a moment, and your father watches you slowly move to take the handgun. He has the nerve to look relieved again, until you stop, holding it in both hands in front of you, looking at it.
âWhat are you doing? Shoot him!â your father says.
You look up at your father, grimacing against the bile rising in your throat.
You look at Joel again, gun heavy. You wonder what would happen if you let it drag down, out of your fingers, to the knotty pine panels that cover every surface. You wonder what would happen if you clasped your fingers around the weight of it and raised your arm to the left.
Joelâs men watch him, unsure. He holds up a hand and waits, watching the glow from the hearth dance across your face.
âShoot them, you stupid girl, and get me out of here.â
Joel steps closer, puts his hands on your waist, and leans in. âUp to you, darlinâ,â his hot breath against your ear.
You pull the trigger.
#joel miller x reader#joel miller x you#dark!joel miller#raider!joel miller#hunter!joel miller#joel miller fic#the last of us fic#the last of us smut#dead dove do not eat#kinktober 2023
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The ending of Hannibal the novel explained
(aka the breastfeeding scene)
Here's the passage (end of Chapter 101):
I thought everyone was kidding about the breastfeeding kink jokes until my partner read Hannibal and the whole ending flew over their head. Their main takeaway was "that was weird." When I checked reddit, it seemed everyone was confused there too. I was gobsmacked to see one guy say that Thomas Harris was playing some cruel joke on the reader by writing an ending that didn't make sense!
How many people are reading Hannibal like this, completely missing the resolution to Hannibal's character arc? They must finish the book confused about what it was all about in the first place. So here's how I understand it!
First, I need to get this out of the way: a lot of people hate this scene, and from what I understand it's because they're weirded out by the "breastfeeding kink." Which is fine, but it makes me want to gently hold them by the hand and tell them that it's ok for someone to suck on a nipple. It happens all the time. Sometimes it just feels good, sometimes it's part of a breastfeeding fantasy, and sometimes it's literal breastfeeding. Between consenting adults, this is all fine and normal. Let's all move past this knee-jerk repulsion (or alternatively, sit in our discomfort and expand our horizons) so we can analyze this piece of art together. :)
Next, authors LOVE Freudian psychoanalysis. Even though it's all nonsense, it's full of literary allusion and makes for compelling narratives and character studies (childhood maladjustment, repressed memories, etc), which is basically catnip for a writer. Thomas Harris was no exception, and probably creamed himself (as I did) when he learned that Freud's oral-sadistic stage was also termed the "cannibalistic stage," referring to the time when an infant is growing teeth and begins to bite at the breast--the psychosexual urge to devour and destroy the thing you love. What could be more appropriate for Hannibal?
Next, consider the pattern of Hannibal's Il Mostro murders. He killed young couples in one of the most romantic cities in the world, then arranged them as Chloris and Zephyr from Botticelli's Primavera, exposing Chloris's left breast just like in the painting. In classical art, an exposed breast is often a symbol of fertility. Chloris is associated with spring, new growth, and transformation.
Perhaps, at the time, Hannibal rationalized these murders as retribution for rude behavior. Maybe the couples were performing disgusting PDA. Maybe they were obnoxious tourists on their honeymoons. Either way, it's clear to the reader that Hannibal has some deep-seated hang up about sex and romance.
The particulars of this hang up are open to interpretation, but based on Hannibal's obsession with the rape and transformation of Chloris as well as his embarrassment at the paintings of Leda and the Swan in the German's house, I think it's safe to say that Hannibal feels like any relationship he has with a woman who isn't aware of his true (monstrous) identity would involve a degree of violence/lack of consent. He is forever barred from normal romance.
Having given up on sex/romance, Hannibal is unable to consciously recognize his desire for Clarice, so he sublimates it into a more general familial love. He longs for a return to innocence, to return to the time before he ate Mischa and became an unlovable monster (cue the teacup metaphor).
But even familial love seems like too much to hope for, so he sublimates it further into something that seems more attainable: resurrecting the person whom he loved and devoured, and who loved him in turn (Mischa) through Clarice.
So we have the breast as a symbol of sex/fertility (Chloris/Clarice), as an object that is loved and devoured (Mischa), and as a literal source of sustenance that must be given up during infancy (mommy).
Big brain Clarice connects all these dots and, in the very same style of therapy that Hannibal has been using on her, distills Hannibal's psychological problems into a single poetic gesture that completely fixes Hannibal in an instant, proving that she's not only his intellectual equal, but is, in some ways, his superior.
When Clarice asks, "Did you ever feel that you had to relinquish the breast to Mischa? Did you ever feel you were required to give it up for her?", she's ostensibly asking Hannibal if he's stuck in the oral stage of childhood development (which yeah he probably is). On a deeper level, she's asking Hannibal to consider if he's given up on love.
When Clarice exposes her breast in the same fashion as Chloris, says, "You donât have to give up this one", and suspends the drop of wine from her nipple, she is shifting his perception of her breast from familial devoured sustenance to a sexual object. Basically, "Why do you want me to pretend I'm your sister when we could be banging?" Hannibal is being aged out of his childlike mindset, not regressing into one.
There are other layers of meaning in this act. The hedonism of using thousand dollar wine for food play is a sign of Clarice's character development. The way Hannibal kneels before Clarice is a position of subservience, but could also be interpreted as devouring Clarice in a way that's new to him. It's the most self-actualized thing Hannibal has done since escaping prison (LOL) and marks the end of his hero's journey (as one of the first things we see him do in Hannibal Rising is nurse).
Personally, I don't read this scene as breastfeeding kink. Yeah, Clarice talks about breastfeeding, but that was more a metaphor for other stuff. Considering the direction of Hannibal's character arc, I understand this scene as him briefly licking the wine off before they have sex. But to each their own! ÂŻ\_(ă)_/ÂŻ
ANYWAY, yeah, it's unsettling. It's obviously meant to be. But it's beautifully unsettling! Hate it all you want, but this is peak cannibal romance, to me!!
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another part of my silly little werewolf au (that i will work on properly at some point) for you all.
TW: alcohol mention, minor self injury (reader chews on their paws), accidental voyeurism, fantasies of violence.Â
author's note: let me know if i've missed any trigger warnings please!
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theyâre still here, the strangers that have made themselves comfortable in your territory. there are traces of them everywhere. the scent of an unfamiliar cologne and metal lingering in the air of the corner shop, an echo of the mohawked manâs laugh from the pub garden reaching your ears as you collect sticky abandoned glasses from what was formerly edâs booth, the weight of four pairs of eyes on you as you pull pints or pour glasses of wine for the locals.Â
you know why theyâre here. even if they donât know that you know.Â
it makes your gums itch.
for the first time in a long time you stay home the night of the full moon, curled up tight in a ball on your bed, your nose tucked under your tail. you long to lope through the fields at the edge of the village, to snap at rabbits with their stuttering fearful heartbeats, to howl long and lonesome at the moon - calling for your family, your pack.Â
your ears twitch irritably and you move to lick and gnaw at your front paw. the human side of your brain sighs knowing full well that come dawn youâll be patching up raw knuckles and the tender broken skin of your wrist. it could be worse, you could shred your pillow. again. feathers are a bitch to get out from between your teeth.Â
the sound of two voices drift through the thin pane of glass of your bedroom window and your lip curls around a low rumbling growl. interlopers. their voices are low, indistinct as they snoop through the neighbourâs front garden. the growl in your chest kicks up as you catch a snatch of their conversation.Â
âfor fucks sake, johnny. quit whininâ and get on wiv it.â around the broad flat vowels of his accent you detect a fond sort of irritation that speaks of years of familiarity and affection.
âyouâve gotta be kiddinâ me on!â the other voice is exasperated but no less fond as its counterpart. âiâm noâ doinâ that here -âÂ
whatever heâs not doing becomes abundantly clear as you hear the sounds of a wet gasp and a long groan.
you snarl and bury your teeth into the softness of your pillow, letting yourself imagine that youâre sinking your fangs into an exposed abdomen as you ignore the wet slick sounds just beyond your window.
and they have the fucking nerve to call your kind animals.
-- tagging @kaadaaan
#werewolf au#(awooo!)#marked mature for the following reasons:#tw self injury mention#tw alcohol mention#tw violence mention#tw accidental voyeurism#werewolf!reader absolutely gives johnny and that big fucker the stink eye the next time they come into the pub#jm#sr#x reader fic#ghoap
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My Jason Todd Rec List and Character Manifesto! (Version 3.0! Edited and updated first on 28/01/2024 and then again on 23/09/2024)
This is a fuckin mess my ghouls, but I got categories and I got opinions and who can stop me from typing em out? Certainly not @lazaruspiss who is the reason this thing got made!
The format is gonna be:
title and page numbers (No #s if I'm recommending the whole title IMPORTANT UPDATE: Each title will be a direct link to a free digital copy! Make sure you have a good adblocker and enjoy!) picture Summary and general notes My estimate of how unhinged he is in this portrayal What his morals are like; note this isn't about whether he's a protagonist or antagonist
Since cream rises to the top, let us start with:
The Creme de la Creme
The best of the best. The most fun, the most compelling, the most interesting looks into his character.
Seeing Red aka Green Arrow (2001) #69 - #72
This one really does have it all. Jason runs rings around both Batman and Green Arrow at the same time, all the while going after a goal neither of them ever truly figures out in large part because this story wasn't afraid to let Bruce be either wrong or lying about Jason's motives. It also wonderfully leverages the ways in which the Bats and the Arrows are really good foils for each other. I think I'm going to be turning over the ways these interactions went down for a long ass time. I've been really wanting to go page by page for a comparison between the way Jason treats Mia in this and the way Jason treats Tim in the Titans Tower showdown. Bottom line for this one: It's just so good!
Jason's sanity level: Six out of Ten hinges affixed. He's got a solid grip on things, is reasonably level headed, only problem is he might have completely forgotten how to interact with other human beings outside of combat. Love him for that.
Jason's moral compass bearing: Sympathetic Villain. Decidedly willing to mow down some "brain donors", and his goals are pretty morally grey, but he clearly still has a strong code of ethics.
Task Force Z
This whole comic one big love letter to Jason Todd. The author, Matthew Rosenberg, very deliberately takes time to showcase all the strengths and flaws of his character that make him so beloved. He's competent, he's mistrustful, he's determined, he's heroic and yet poses as the villain, he's human yet badass, and he holds his ground against the rest of the Bats while still clearly loving them. If I was ranking these comics purely by plot and pacing this would not be in creme de la creme territory, but it's a fantastic synopsis of what Jason is all about and if I could only give someone a single series in order to let them understand who Jason is (and I couldn't give them Under the Red Hood), I'd give them this.
Jason's sanity level: Eight out of Ten hinges affixed. He's pretty level headed, but at the same time he very clearly is way too casual about violence to be full hinges affixed - the PTSD is very apparent in him.
Jason's moral compass bearing: Antihero. His motives are understandable and firmly rooted in doing the right thing, but at the same time he is very willing to be ruthless and to kill when he feels it's the right decision. Balanced!
Pay as You Go aka Outsiders #44 - #46
Jason's role in this story is fairly small, but it's a wonderful bit of characterization for him. The way he approaches Nightwing to offer his help and the way Nightwing accepts that offer are fascinating and very deserving of your time!
Also there's gay sex and a prison breakout, like, what more could you want? Actually I suppose you could also want (what I'm pretty sure is) Roy's first time meeting Jason as the Red Hood and some really cute scenes of him and Lian, and guess what this story has got that too!
Jason's sanity level: Ten out of Ten hinges affixed.
Jason's moral compass bearing: Antihero. He's deliberately choosing to play the villain, but he's very willing to work with the Heroes and is going out of his way to exonerate an innocent man.
Batman (1940) #408 - #411 Jason's debut featuring Ma Gunn's School and his first ever outing as Robin fighting Two-Face
Just LOOK at this PRECIOUS BOY! I wanna pinch him on his cheeks and give him a handful of these bad boys
Jason has a ton of personality to him right out the gate. The first story has Ma Gunn as the villain and she's a lot of fun. The second story in here with Two-Face is also enlightening with regards to Jason's early personality, even if it's not quite as fun.
Jason's sanity level: Ten out of Ten hinges affixed.
Jason's moral compass bearing: Hero.
Under the Red Hood would be next if it wasn't already filed under ->
Foundational Texts
This is the shit that defines Jason as a character. Much is mutable in any given comic, but somehow, someway, all depictions of Jason are impacted and informed by these three stories. Enough has been said about all of them that I'm gonna keep it brief.
Red Hood: The Lost Days
(You may have heard a lot about Talia's role in this one: I would encourage you to read my analysis of her in this story and do your best to see her perspective in all this, she's a heck of a lot less villainous than people keep saying she is)
Jason's sanity level: Eight out of Ten hinges affixed.
Jason's moral compass bearing: Antihero. He kills some incredibly nasty people, while also doing some genuinely heroic shit. The only places where his morals deteriorate are in the presence of Batman and the Joker.
Under the Red Hood
Jason's sanity level: Four out of Ten hinges affixed. Remember how his morals deteriorated in the face of Batman and the Joker? Yeah, that's mostly because he's way, way too personally invested to think straight about them. He's strategic as fuck, but this is not a stable man's strategy for dealing with his issues.
Jason's moral compass bearing: Sympathetic Villain. He is a revenant, a vengeful juggernaut, and breaks an awful lot of eggs making this brilliant disaster of an omelette.
Batman (1940) #426 - #429 A Death in the Family
Jason's sanity level: Ten out of Ten hinges affixed.
Jason's moral compass bearing: Hero.
Joker becoming an ambassador to Iran plotlines count: One too many.
Solid Storylines
These ain't the vaulted heights, but not everything has to be the Sistine Chapel. They're solid, and if you're wanting more Jason I do certainly recommend them.
Countdown Presents: The Search for Ray Palmer and Countdown to Infinite Crisis (special note here: Countdown to Infinite Crisis must be read backwards, meaning you start with Issue #51 and then read down to Issue #1 and Countdown Presents isn't in chronological order and just... oh boy this storyline is a mess, but much of it is also quite good)
Jason is in what I like to call his Purposeless Depression Era during this. It's after his plans in Under the Red Hood fail and he's really just got no place to go, no place to be. He's keenly aware that on a cosmic level, he truly does not belong in this world anymore. He's supposed to be dead. There's something I find quite neat about this team up, with Donna Troy and Kyle Raynor and Bob, it's out of the ordinary for Jason, it's not bat related, and the ways he fits and doesn't fit with the other characters are just neat.
I especially recommend Gotham by Gaslight. The plot will be a lil hard to follow if you haven't read the others, but by the end of it Jason hopes to return to Steampunk Gotham instead of his own Gotham where he doesn't think he belongs, and the moments of him hoping to literally leave his universe behind are both sweet and sorrowful.
Jason's sanity level: Ten out of Ten hinges affixed. He's just sad and lonely.
Jason's moral compass bearing: Hero. Even if only Donna is willing to tentatively try to see him that way.
Robin (1993) #177 and two pages of #182 and the front half of #183
Despite how much Jason is known for it, I think this is the only time we see him trying to run organized crime outside of Under the Red Hood (and uh debatably Battle for the Cowl). Short lil string of appearances, but critical for understanding how he's seen by Tim during this era if you care about that. Also I think this combined with Outsiders #44 - #46 (further down this list) it really cemented my understanding of Jason being strangely honest and forthright.
I think a major way other Bats fail to comprehend him is that they expect him to manipulate through lying, which just isn't his style. He doesn't lie about his motives; he doesn't obfuscate his tactics; he doesn't hide how he's feeling. Hell, he doesn't even try to lie his way out of prison! I could not tell you why this series of interactions gave me this impression but it is why I have such faith that when Jason says something, he probably just means it, even when characters like Dick or Tim assume otherwise.
Pity this was the lead up to Battle for the Cowl.
Jason's sanity level: Ten out of Ten hinges affixed. He's even attempting to pick himself up out of his Purposeless Depression Era slump at the start.
Jason's moral compass bearing: Antihero.
Nightwing (1996) #118 - #122 aka Brothers in Blood aka the One Where Jason Gets Tentacles
COWARDS and KNAVES will tell you "the tentacles are so icky and everyone is so OOC" or whatever but again they are KNAVES and COWARDS because bitch this shit is GREAT
Jason: Wow! My bestest big brother killed someone who deserved it, so now I (the person he's rejecting only because I kill people who deserved it) have a real chance at being his family again!! :D Hooray! :) Dickie-Bird why don't you look happy to see me? :) Dickie-Bird I went out of my way to get us matching outfits and stalked your work and killed people in your name so it's nice and easy to make room for me in your life! :) :) :)
Dick:
Jason's sanity level: Two out of Ten hinges affixed. My mans is off his rocker and I adore him like this. Frankly, the entire storyline is unhinged, and it only feels appropriate that Jason is similarly bonkers in yonkers.
Jason's moral compass bearing: Villain. You can sympathize with him, and he is still trying to carry out justice, but I have to call it for straight villain when he's threatening to bomb a building full of innocent people.
Batman and Robin (2009) #23 - #25
I don't have much to say about this one. It's good. The above page is pretty much the highlight.
Wait actually I do have something to say and it is that I would like to lick Jason's abs, pls & thx, because the other highlight is that Winick clearly believes in redeeming Jason's value as a villain through sex appeal and it is working lmao
Jason's sanity level: Ten out of Ten hinges affixed. Certifiably sane, he's passed all his psych exams!
Jason's moral compass bearing: Villain. He threatens to bomb a train station full of innocent people. While he does do that in service of freeing himself and Scarlet, thus making it not completely self centered, I still gotta put him firmly in Villain.
Nightwing (2016) 2021 Annual
In high contrast to the previous two in which Jason acts as a villain to Dick, this one has them working together and the tentative peace and cautious trust they've got going is interesting to me. Very reminiscent of his appearance in Outsiders!
Jason's sanity level: Nine out of Ten hinges affixed. He's quite chill, but there's just this little edge to him that says his relationship to violence is a little too casual a little too deep to really be fully hinged.
Jason's moral compass bearing: Edgy Hero.
Joker: The Man Who Stopped Laughing
With Jason's return to being an antagonist after a long stint in the Hero bin comes his return to being really fucking dangerous and whip smart! My boy quotes serious philosophy that gives him a real point to make against non lethal vigilantes and cops! I also think the part where he lets himself be arrested just... it says so much and all of it is wonderfully interesting and feels fitting for his character. He's kept deeply human, and just all of this portrayal gels together really well.
Originally I had this up in Creme De La Creme because really, even though Jason isn't the star of the show, and even with Gotham War having, er, Minorly Derailed Jason's role in things, and one or two inevitable scenes where ya just have to accept that he's not as trigger happy as he should be because DC is married to the Joker - even though all of that is true, this is still a phenomenal rendition of Jason. However, with all of those annoyances and with Task Force Z being written by the same author, I decided to put it down here and leave TFZ in it's place. Basically it's got an arguably better story-line than TFZ, but contains less Jason.
Also I like that he's friends with my favorite, Stephanie Brown :3 and he and Rose's chemistry is nice. On top of all that? It's a fun comic. Like, I generally hate the Joker, but I found myself enjoying watching the Joker do his Joker things in this one.
Jason's sanity level: Nine out of Ten hinges affixed. Level headed, calm, careful, really the only reason this isn't a 10/10 is cause he's obsessively focused, which like, honestly is pretty reasonable I think.
Jason's moral compass bearing: Clearly Justified Antihero. I almost put down Hero on this one, but ultimately he is just far enough over the line with how he treats the less threatening of the rogues like Killer Moth.
Your Mileage May Vary
These stories I can't recommend without major caveats or warnings, but I still think are worth mentioning.
Gotham War (It's such a mangled mess that I'm just gonna link a reading guide. The same website that all the others are on will get you to all the titles this guide lists)
So, the main problem here is that Gotham War spans five different titles and had three different authors whose renditions of Jason do not feel cohesive or even coherent. The funny thing is though, each rendition has real merits, and while it doesn't go far enough in condemning Bruce's horrifying treatment of Jason for many people's tastes, I have to point out that it's one of the only comics to condemn an instance of Bruce mistreating Jason at all. The fact that the other Robins come to his defense is a HUGE thing! The bar may be in Hell, but it did clear the bar!
Due to how disjointed it is, I'm going to very loosely separate Jason out into two versions of himself. Think of these not as hard lines, but more a spectrum he slides across depending on what author has him that issue.
Jason Primus combines the ideas in Jason's Under the Red Hood speech about controlling crime rather than trying to stomp it out with his more Heroic modern interpretation. He's a chill, funny, smart guy whose protectiveness over the mooks is really charming.
Jason's sanity level: Ten out of Ten hinges affixed. Jason's moral compass bearing: Hero.
Jason Secundus is much more violent, not used to working with other people, and paranoid and antsy in a way that causes him to take it out on people who really don't deserve it. This is a compelling take on him, though I like him closer to Jason Primus. His trauma has clearly shaped him a lot, both for better and for worse.
Jason's sanity level: Seven out of Ten hinges affixed. Jason's moral compass bering: Anti-Hero, most of this focuses on him antagonizing two former Joker goons which kinda doesn't work well cause they're mostly scarecrow goons actually and also at one point he hurts them in a way that borderline just seems like stress relief. It's nothing worse than what we see Batman himself doing countless times, but it's still jarring because we've been made to strongly sympathize with the goon in question.
Batman: Three Jokers <- I read it while typing this up (the first version of this lol), so I got a lotta thoughts
Guh, this one is just fucking sad
So, I don't mind a story being blunt with its message as long as the message actually holds up. Unfortunately, this three parter's attempt at the cycle of violence lesson is... bad. Real bad.
Jason in it is neat! This is a good Jason portrayal somehow despite literally everything about the way this comic frames him! The narrative expects us to believe he is a danger to society on the cusp of becoming another Joker, because he *checks notes* shot the Joker dead, shot at a Joker loyal guy, and roughly interrogated an injured child abuser. At no point does he show signs of wanting to hurt innocent people. At no point does he show signs of doing any hurting without premeditation or a need to defend himself. I'm baffled by this.
My kingdom for a fucking CRUMB of nuance, I swear, smh...
I hear a lot of people hate his one sided romance towards Barbara. This is understandable as it squanders the opportunity to have a female character not be stuck as the narrative sponge for man emotions. I like it from the perspective of a Jason fan, and give condolences for the Barbara fans. It's not healthy, and good fucking job on the janitor sweeping away his letter to her so poor Babs doesn't have to deal with that shit, but I do like Jason's desperation to be loved by someone, anyone, who might show him compassion.
Jason's sanity level: Six out of Ten hinges affixed. He's sad, he's lonely, he needs some PTSD specific therapy, he's a bit creepy about his crush on Barbara, but quite frankly he has it together a lot more than the narrative would like us to believe. The way the other characters treat him like he's some kind of monster just waiting to snap and start maiming people indiscriminately makes me really uncomfortable.
Jason's moral compass bearing: Antihero. Quite frankly I'm tempted to say Hero out of spite.
Red Hood and the Outlaws (2016) #1 - #43
There are three transcendental character moments in this run that I think make it worth reading even if not all of it's your cup of tea. On the other hand though there are some big issues that could very easily be deal breakers. Oh and anything after #43 is a wasteland and #43 is included purely for the implication that being transgender made a woman immortal.
The narrative structure is really heavily dependent on rule of emotional impact/cool/allegorical usefulness. Many events will not make any fucking sense based on petty things like basic logic or the laws of physics, but they do work just fine in the area of what makes the story more fun or the emotional beats hit harder. Stronger than average suspension of disbelief is necessary for the reward of getting a lot of stuff that's, like, just really fuckin cool.
The romantic side plot with Artemis is... odd. Either the author, Scott Lobdell, intended to write Jason as a desperate loser trying to date his uninterested lesbian friend who he co-parents with, or he accidentally wrote a romance so awkward and comp-het that I cannot wrap my head around reading it as reciprocated. This works for me because I have a lot of fun reading Jason as a desperate loser who's not even actually in love with her, he just is desperate to cling to the closest thing he's ever gotten to a nuclear family and in denial about being either aro/ace or gay.
Now, lets explore a lil bit of the whole Jason is a loser angle, cause it's not the whole story, there are many points in which Jason gets to be a badass motherfucker, but he is much, much less of the hypercompetant, highly determined, murderous threat he used to be. Almost none of the newer renditions of Jason are. This Jason in particular though is very soft and cuddly, and fits the archetype of man trying to be the edgy bad boy but who secretly just wants a hug and a warm glass of milk.
If I were to describe my personal Jason in a few sentences I would say that he is someone who loves himself viciously. He feels he has been wronged and is willing to burn down the world to rectify that. He will hold your ass at gunpoint and demand the hugs and warm glasses of milk that he fucking well deserves!
This Jason is about as far away from that as you can possibly get. I still like him though, and I do not count him as being a different character, because when you start with emotional logic that goes like this:
It wasn't my fault + I deserve better = I get to burn the world down in order to get better
It becomes extremely difficult to ever stop burning the world without also deciding "It was my fault" or "I don't deserve better". Jason is meant to have changed a lot, and this is a plausible evolution of the Jason I prefer.
Finally, the handling of Bizarro, a mentally disabled character, is a sensitive enough topic that your mileage will vary, even if I can't think of a bad thing to say about it. Jason and Artemis are really pretty good about treating him with respect, giving him help where he needs it and autonomy where he's capable of taking it. They raise him, but don't control him, and he is literally like three days old when they find him so this isn't infantilization. It takes the framing of Lenny from of Mice and Men and Flowers for Algernon and rejects them in a way that I am satisfied with. You'll just have to read it for yourself to see if you're satisfied as well.
Jason's sanity level: Ten out of Ten hinges affixed. I kinda wish he was more unhinged.
Jason's moral compass bearing: Hero. He even saves a puppy and gives them pats.
Knight Terrors: Robin
Have you ever been in the mood for a syrupy sweet hurt/comfort fanfiction in which Jason and Tim were magically forced to talk about how much they like each other in order to overcome their own insecurities? Do you wish that existed as a lavishly illustrated two issue comic?
If you answered yes to those two questions then congratulations! It does exist; this is it; go have fun!
If you think that sounds like ham fisted garbage turning what should be several long arcs of serious reconciliation and deeply meaningful character moments into two issue fan service schlock then condolences! I wish you all the best in denial, as all comic fans sail that river sooner or later and I shall join you upon it someday.
What category do I fall into? Well I think this is definitely ham fisted, but I won't kick a boar out of bed as long as they ain't a bore, and this little ditty is certainly entertaining.
Jason's sanity level: Ten out of Ten hinges affixed.
Jason't moral compass bearing: Hero.
Batman and Robin Eternal
This is a decent portrayal of Jason in his modern, much friendlier, and much more bat family integrated rendition. He has some fun moments in it, and I like his staby bracers.
I don't like this comic. It commits the most dire of writing sins: Being boring. I think about Jason every second of every minute of every day; if your comic that majorly features a good portrayal of him cannot hold my attention, then something has gone very wrong. Hopefully one of you will like it more than I do.
Jason's sanity level: Ten out of Ten hinges affixed.
Jason's moral compass bearing: Hero.
Suicide Squad: Get Joker! (Content warning for suicide, skip to the hot take if this'll get to ya - also spoiler warning cuz I can't discuss this properly without discussing the ending)
A three issue miniseries in which Jason is inducted into the Suicide Squad on a mission to kill the Joker. He's highly competent as a team leader, grounded, intelligent, and uses measured violence in a way that is satisfyingly tactical. The squad they threw together honestly has some pretty neat chemistry as a whole, and the characters were appropriately messy and quite likable.
This isn't higher on the list because it thinks it earned it's ambiguous ending, and frankly, it's wrong about that. Ambiguous endings live and die by the question they make the audience sit with - It has to be worth losing out on the emotional payoff of a solid ending.
The question of "If you left Jason in a room with the Joker and a gun with one bullet, would he shoot the Joker or himself?" is a really shitty question. Like, did the authors not realize that just on a logistical level, Jason could leave the room and find a second bullet after shooting the Joker? Like, seriously, even if we accept the premise that Joker's speech got to Jason, there are no reasons for him not to choose the "both" option. The only way I can imagine this working is if the Joker is actually the fucking Purple Man from Jessica Jones using mind control.
So we exchanged the validation of literally all our protagonists' struggles/sacrifices paying off for... the vague implication that Jason unforgivably betrayed his teammates, himself, and the entire world because he was so eager to die that he couldn't wait ten fucking minutes. If I loved the Joker I might feel differently about it, but as is, I felt insulted.
This would have been Solid Storylines or maybe even Creme de la Creme if not for that implication. It's not boring though! The rest of it up to the end is honestly pretty damn good, if a bit convoluted, and much of the ending's sour taste can be assuaged by getting out a sheet of paper and doodling Jason opening Joker's head with a handgun and then going out for icecream with the team.
Jason's sanity level: Ten out of Ten hinges affixed. He's a sad, sad lad tho.
Jason's Moral Compass Bearing: Anti-Hero, forced to be much more violent than he wants to be.
A Hot Take
I bet you thought the tentacles were the hot take! HAH! MuahahaahhHAHAHAH - Prepare now, puny mortals, to witness me defend Pill Helmet Jason AND his fashion choices!
No, I am not talking about Winick's redo late in the game, we've already been over that one. I mean I will defend Grant Morrison's flop era, three foot head gear wearin, goofy ass, unwashed ass, "how to build ur brand" reading maniac
It's time to talk about Batman and Robin (2009) #1 - #6
The interpretation of one scene makes or breaks this Jason:
If you believe he is being insincere and manipulating her into putting all her emotional eggs in the basket of his crusade, ignoring her wellbeing in favor of his 'brand', then this is probably the worst mischaracterization of Jason ever written.
If you believe he is being sincere, genuinely comforting her in the only way that he's got to deal with his own trauma, giving her real affection and not pushing her to take either option with the mask because he trusts her to make that decision for herself, then this gets Jason very right.
No matter what Morrison might have intended, I choose to believe it's the latter. This is terrible advice to give a trauma victim, but it makes perfect sense for Jason to believe that about his own trauma, and thus to pass that maladaptive view along.
He doesn't try to assure her that the mask can come off safely or that he'll get her a doctor because he really can't promise her either of those things. It would be cruel to her to pretend that he's got a solution. Jason can't undo the damage that was done to her any more than he can force a dead Bruce to kill the Joker.
Instead he offers her purpose, and reassurance that she's gonna look badass if she never does take it off, and protects her when she's in trouble.
You can claim this is just him acting out his chosen Hero role, but like, WHY would he have chosen to method act that role 24/7 if he wasn't trying to BE a Hero who protects people like Scarlet? There's nothing in it for Jason to fake this.
I also think if he was being written out of character as a manipulator we would have seen him use a romantic or sexual angle which he absolutely doesn't do.
Dickie, you are such a funny Batman, they never shoulda brought Bruce back tbh.
Instead, he seems to be taking a more parental role, in a near perfect reflection of how Bruce took him in when he was a kid. Just he's doing it his way, meaning that whenever Scarlet goes further with the violence than Jason seems to want to, he backs her up instead of chastising her.
Speaking of violence and morals, Let the Punishment Fit the Crime is a coherent moral position to take, even if you (understandably) disagree with it, or disagree with what punishments fit which crimes. It's basically the same moral position as every other version of Jason there's ever been! Like, is he even killing more people than he used to in stories like Under the Red Hood? No, I don't think he is. In fact, I would argue that Morrison's Jason is significantly less violent than Winnick's overall!
The branding thing is weird, lil annoying too after a while, but ultimately it still makes sense. And brings me around to my promised defense of his fashion choices.
First of all the symbolic importance of the fact that he wears white cannot be overstated in my mind. Will I elaborate? No, this post is way too long already lmao! Second off, it's supposed to be silly. I believe the silliness was a conscious, calculated choice, and the right one to make.
Jason doesn't believe that fear works, he's not trying for pure intimidation, and he knows that he's going to have to appeal to people in his bid to be seen as a Hero. Making himself seem big but non-threatening, a bright patch in the night, makes real sense.
Take a look at this view of Jason from Scarlet's POV when he comes to rescue her from the cops after she kills her dad:
He's got a smoking gun in his hand and he just shot two cops dead, yet we're hard fuckin pressed to find him intimidating aren't we?? Cornball dialogue, and the silliest fuckin hat in the universe, because he's not meant to be from this era, he's emulating the Golden and Silver age comics and all their goofiness. He's trying to be the older, happier, sillier batman that used to exist (at least in his head), while doing what he believes is right and necessary.
The costume makes sense dammit!
Also it just doesn't look bad, I can't provide an argument for this, it's just true!!
Also also every one of these fuckers should be wearing a helmet too, this is basic brain safety, if you're gonna go around antagonizing fuckers with guns you need to make your head at least nominally bulletproof, it's that simple!!!
Also also also the fact that he had red hair in this is oft maligned, but it gives Jason an in universe avenue to express a grievance with a super important part of the way Bruce treats him in his post-crisis time as Robin - Bruce was using him as an emotional replacement for Dick.
Morrison may not have liked Jason, but he demanded that every single iota of Batman lore be treated as important canon and that means that he also treats all of Jason's history as important canon too.
Now... do I recommend you read this? (This section was rewritten on January 28th, 2024)
Yes, with significant caveats. There's a reason I chunked this in with YMMV.
First is the Batman typical ableism of just really fucked depictions of mental illness. I normally wouldn't warn for this because everyone knows most of the rogues and will be aware of what they bring to the table, but Professor Pyg is obscure enough I wouldn't expect people to know, and the way he's written just... hurts. Like there's just something about him that is painful to read as someone that's got several schizophrenic friends who are near and dear to my heart. I would hesitate to recommend it to any of them the same way I'd hesitate to recommend Silence of the Lambs to most other trans people.
Secondly this comic is Extremely Gay (a definite positive!) however it is Extremely Gay in a way that kinda requires some onboarding and analysis to properly parse and that is actually why this post was edited:
The first time I read this comic, my impression was that it was vitriolically homophobic. Considering that at the time I had heard many things about Grant Morrison, and none of them good, I went with my gut. I put here that while I would defend Jason's characterization, I couldn't in good faith recommend something so bigoted, detailed what felt bigoted, and went on with my day.
Then a while later I saw a post that I suspect was talking about this one saying something along the lines of "How the hell could you call Grant Morrison, who gave us so many of our most iconic gay characters, homophobic? The racism and such I can understand but homophobic? No."
To which my initial response was a resounding: Wha??? Like, genuinely how was I supposed to read this and not get homophobia out of it?? But I went and looked Morrison up and yeah sure enough the guy's queer so I dug deeper and mulled it over until I figured out what the fuck I was missing. So, this section is a correction and an apology about that earlier homophobia claim. Sorry about that.
The styling of this queerness are highly akin to that of the John Waters movie Pink Flamingos which I'll let Matt Baume explain better than I ever could. This guy right here is pretty much the perfect example, Hell, he's even literally named The Flamingo.
Essentially it's queerness is all aggressive, unapologetic, and designed to be provocatively shocking, which can be jarring if you're not ready to flow with it. Also he likely had to arrange a lot of things to get around censorship, same as Judd Winick did. For instance the fact that Dick spoke the same circus lingo as the troupe of Very Queer Freakshow Workers who destroy the police precinct was meant to imply that Dick is Very Queer too. Pretty sure he would've said that in a far less convoluted way if he could've.
So, with the bulk of my initial reservations about this comic disproven... I have no choice but to straight up recommend it to anyone who thinks they can jive with this vibe of storytelling!
Jason's sanity level: One out of Ten hinges affixed. Obsessive, not taking care of himself, possessed of some really maladaptive trauma coping frameworks, completely unhinged. My condolences to his mental health, but I do love to see it.
Jason's moral compass bearing: Antihero. It's weird because this is undeniably a much darker comic, and Jason certainly feels darker, but in terms of what he actually does, and what the other characters do, his violence is honestly very tame.
So, cards on the table, here is the core of who Jason is to me:
He's got clear moral motives and a drive to help as well as harm, though violence and harm are the main ways in which he tries to improve the world.
When confronted he does not back down; he does not let himself be overshadowed or silenced. He is confident in his decisions and every bit of push back is already accounted for in his head.
Everything he does is premeditated. He is not impulsive. His plans may sometimes be unhinged but they are methodically planned.
He is painfully sincere, the way fire is painfully hot.
He desperately desires love and connection, but it will take many years of constant rejection and fighting before he is willing to accept any kind of compromise to his ethics for the sake of civility.
Under all the hurt and combativeness, he's a pretty goofy guy! He's got a sense of fun and likes to be flamboyant and silly when he can!
He's a villain, a hero, a protagonist, an antagonist, and everything between the extremes. He exists as a powerful counter-thesis to Batman, and as such DC can't ever fully answer the question of what to do with him. He exists in this waffling limbo state as his morals are debated, stretched, refuted, turned on their head. I think that makes him a wonderfully fascinating character to love.
I hope you enjoyed this and, like, go have fun reading comics!
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tanks of blood (6) - the trouble was always here - part two
pairing: biker!roman reigns , biker!cody rhodes (mentioned) warning: mentions of violence and explicit descriptions of blood. dialogue and descriptions pertaining to guns. roman talk to someone without being a jerk challenge. slight non-con moment but turns consensual quickly (its a kiss)! authors note: if ya'll ever watch sons of anarchy... youâll know, im stealing little pieces of plot lmaooooooooo. imma give yall a spicy little flashback after this, i promise. will also attempt to not make the following chapters as long. just so that they remain relatively digestible. i'm working on being more precise with words. all the medical stuff in this chapter is half done research and my own brain. this chapter picks up where i left off in chapter 5. ALSO⊠if you want or dont want tags on this fic let me know! word count: 3k tagging: @333creolelady @harmshake @theninthwonder @thesamoanqueen @kill-the-artiste @empressdede @sortudademais @gg-trini @southerngirl41 @2-muchsauce
-wednesday night. the first week in june-
that marriage of ignorance and bliss did not last long. having to suffer as a lone soldier amidst silent dinner table battles. displeasured dispositions and their eyes performing like the greatly sharpened edge of well smithed daggers. and then came compromise, toiling through the thick of it to wave it's white flag. a surrender of a promise. your mother and fathers union holding as much sanctity as a soon to die vehicle's tank, holding its last dregs of oil but whose fuel gauge reads empty. running still, a quick speed into the darkness, wheels tired and the road too coarse to bare. an abrupt end of the engine as it slips against the asphalt at full speed. a collision terribly par for the course. their rings fettered to their fingers, pretty diamond but a prison, making forever impressions upon the skin. that marriage of ignorance and bliss did not last long. dying with the useless wear of wedding rings, and redeclaring itself with the overwear of leather kuttes.Â
because there was more to the life than just that simple enthusiasm for motorcycles. your father transforming before the eyes. leather slipping over his shoulders, not so dissimilar to the tough metal, shrilly chime of chainmail. custom rings taking their homes over the marred skin of his knuckles. fingers worn and always just barely healed. scarred from one brutal splitting open after another. his eyes working to harden. the keys to his bike clutched in hand.Â
"should i be worried?", your mother asking right on time. examining his pace. the work in and change over of his demeanor.Â
and he never answered. never dignifying her question enough to speak to it. because then the trouble would be true, so much so that it would live, breathing well to make room in their home. no. KG, your father, only ever lingered by the door, a slip in of hesitation before he turned to kiss your mother gracefully. the small appearance of a forever ago passion. an i love you without the weight of words. and then he went, heavy steps leading out the door.Â
so its almost second nature. those faithful coming together of words. cody slipping on his leather near the door. shoulders squaring as the material adjusts to his body. demeanor unsoftened. the ease of the words as they leave you filling your stomach with a burdening weight. memory working tedious and so terribly true.Â
"cody, should i be worried?"Â
he sighs. cold blue eyes hesitating enough to take the time to commit your face to memory. his palm warm as it cradles your cheek. kissing you firmly before he leaves.Â
-early friday morning. first week in june-
there was, is, and will never be a time too early or too late for violence. for blood and that faithful nerve warp of adrenaline. and maybe that's why the hospital is so easy. old, early moments in your youth, piercing your fathers skin with a needle, sewing together split skin as he washed his tongue with the burn of his favorite liquor. a warmth in his belly till the pain from the prick of your fixing turned numb. a simple pressure in the skin there at his arm, turning inevitably, to pressure in his leg, a slit at his thigh from a brawl with which he gave no further information. bruises and gashes and deep cuts to him, more by the day, by the year. near quiet grunts and the emptiness of the house loud enough to swallow you both whole. cleaning his marred skin and bandaging the area's as best you could. the slow to ease push and pull of his breaths. his hands smelling like iron as he cradled your face, mouth kissing your forehead. "thank you", but a whisper, before falling into sleep.Â
maybe that's why the hospital is so easy. the color of blood and caked earth, the silver of knuckle rings and the black of over worn leather more familiar than summer green trees.Â
text message | cody r: in an emergency. need your help.Â
it shouldn't come as a surprise, but the sudden rush takes you all the same. a deep plunge of the heart in your chest, something odd creeping beneath the skin and fevered steps. making to call cody quickly. a ring, and then a second, before he's answering. breaths labored some as he goes. "can't say much about it but it's medical. how soon can you get to the clubhouse?"Â
you assess the long hallway. the trauma unit, quiet. a squeak in your sneakers that makes you cringe as you move to collect things. only minutes from the end of your shift. "uhm, in like twenty minutes". a series of grunts and yells that indicate the messiness of a situation he's all to willing to abruptly rope you into. "cody what's going on?"
he sighs. his patience a thinning thread. "what did i say before about becoming an accessory?"Â
"you gotta give me something", you stress. continuing an awfully secretive journey to where you could gather some other helpful supplies. "i can't just show up not knowing what for".Â
"think the worst".Â
"that doesn't help-"
the call dropping on his end. the angst sticking to your skin making room for an easy to settle in frustration. like you were an early twenty something again. attempting too diligently to remedy that divorce of ignorance and bliss. a tedious washing away and stitching together, performing so well now that the pungent smell of iron threatens to stain your skin again. and here does the soldier pay the price for wielding a double edged sword. for pensacola was home, is home, and forever will be home, the desire to return running too wild beneath the skin not to act on it. but there are things here. vicious rumblings above sunburned asphalt and the bitter steeping of blood between the cracks. the dross and the dregs that stick so loyally to the air and the skin just after a brutish performance of chaos too commonplace to live without it.
trouble taking up permanent residence, riding in over the clouds and rolling in with the heat.Â
and the clubhouse looks haunted amidst the beginnings of the friday summer sunrise. the dark colored build of it dreary against the beauty of the sky. the heat yet to reach its full potential but your scrubs and the exhaustion of a twelve hour shift do all too well of making you live with that thin sheen of sweat breaking over your cheeks. your car parked not too far from the clubs neat line of stationed bikes. true in how they've always done well to remind you of the clubs presence. after so long, living here and far away, that grimy power behind the roar of an engine, ever inescapable.Â
the clubhouse doors swing open as you make to leave your car. a small bag of supplies in hand as you rush up. cody's hand slipping at the low end of your back to guide you in. a small "thank you", leaving him breathy as you make way to pass through the double doors of the "church". a room that never seems to lose its luster from the looks of it. the sanctity of their meetings as important as the shine of a new chrome fender finish. men and their worried eyes flitting over your entrance as you approach the church table. seth laid out face down, with his pants at his ankles. his skin wet with sweat and an awful paleness. bloody cloths surrounding him and randy's finger lodged in where all the blood could possibly be spewing from. a small metal tin cup resting in the corner, holding the whole of a bullet.Â
dean taps seth's cheek. waking him up a little less than tenderly. "look alive sweetheart, the doctor is here to see you".Â
"nurse", you correct, to which dean just winks.Â
cody and a host of club members file out through the double doors much to your pleasure.Â
initial shock of your current state of affairs rolling off your shoulders as you settle into the routine of caring for the wound. gloves slipping on before you're tossing the box to dean. his take up of them swift and unquestioning. because it was never unusual to spend a nightâespecially in their youthâcaring for cuts and bruises and wounds, before turning to do the same for another. a task as regular as breathing air.Â
seth groans. the drawl of it stressing the pain in his leg. "i don't know if you've noticed but i went to some extreme lengths to see you", he jokes. his little laugh coarse and overworked by the weariness of getting shot.Â
you laugh. an attempt to break the over work of tension in the air. "what an interesting way of saying you love me seth". sliding up to stand next to randy. his demeanor as quiet now as it was during richie's funeral.Â
you look to dean. "once randy removes his finger, you're gonna help me pack the wound, and then i want you to keep pressure on it till i'm ready to wrap it".Â
"you know what you're doing?", randy asks. the dark color of his eyes disrupted with little slivers of worry.Â
"no randy, i just wear the scrubs for fun". peering up at the hard set of his face. older now but his visage still holding that silent menace to it. Â
"can we banter when seth isn't bleeding out by the pint?", dean asks. so obviously done with the whole situation.Â
"on my three", you start. the both of them coming to a shared focus. "one...two...three".Â
thick blood springs upward, randy's finger dislodging quick. dean rushes in with your guidance, packing the wound as instructed. your hand taking the reins of the procedure as you allow dean a moment of reprieve. the little levee of seth's composure rupturing as his body goes taut, his mouth loose and lax as he curses his fill into the shined up wood of the church table. groaning wearily as dean holds the pressure against his legs, randy lifting it casually, allowing you to wrap the middle of his leg with a fresh dressing. a dead silent relief settling the room then after, before you're moving again. running on the extra dose of adrenaline.Â
you discard your gloves, peeling them off your fingers. picking through your bag to give dean a bottle of pills. "vancomycin, it's an antibiotic", you start. "give him two now and another two later tonight. keep going with that dosage for no less than a week".Â
"our lovely little savior". dean's boots heavy as he closes the distance to kiss your forehead. "thank you. go get cleaned up".Â
randy gives a quieter acknowledgement. a simple nod of appreciation that does you just fine. the double doors of the church room creaky as they swing with your exit. all the worried faces you'd met upon your arrival, taking up every inch of the clubhouse. their bodies drowsy and torn through by the chaos of an oh so terrible possibility.
your feet mindless as they walk down the infamous hallway gallery of framed photos. your last walk through of the area filled with a particularly horrible play of strife. twisting the knob of one of many of the little dormitory rooms to access it's bathroom. a deep breath releasing as you make to wash your hands, a slow thorough trail up over your arms to rid your skin of seth's soon to dry blood. your scrubs somewhat ruined and your shoes showcasing nasty little streaks of red.Â
but it is only exhaustion that takes you so brazenly. a sleepy sinking feeling in the body and nothing else. hands used to providing all the remedy's it can.Â
well maybe not nothing else. a fast to slip in weariness amidst the quiet. because he couldn't be too far away, lurking to siphon what he could again of the air about you in a means of suffocation. that faithful ability once upon a time, a favorite of yours for how sweetly it sought to consume you, now possessing a quality that unfurls something disdainful in your belly. a prick of a man seemingly beyond reproach, what with his positioning among all the others. surely it was never your simple exit making him this mountain of hubris, that streak of his character impossible to climb and overcome for the sake of reasoning with him. or even for the lesser sake of some cordiality. it was so obviously everything elseâthe grime and the chaosâgiving the once duller edge of his pride a sharper corner. enough to will him into an endless keep of a grudge.Â
heavy thudding steps strip you clean of wandering anymore into thought. it seems even thinking of the devil causes him to appear. his disposition reminiscent of some weeks ago. shoulders squared and seeming too tall for you now to bare without feeling small. and he says nothing, attempting to take his kutte off without the inconvenience of pain but he grunts regardless. grimacing as he rids himself of his shirt as well.Â
a gash running against his naked arm, almost like it's purposefully found a heap of muscle to tear into. wanting to humble the strength of him. blood caked and running down tawny skin.Â
"i got grazed".Â
voice tired but oddly delicate. like the weariness of it is making him just that more fragile.Â
you point to the bathroom, eyes never really having the courage to part from him. "sit over there".Â
and your feet rush. tunnel visioned as they make to gather whats left of your little collection of supplies. fingers feeling less sure, and your body teeming with something akin to an unworkable angst. a realization long ago understood, and buried for the sake of a then wanted peace, unearthing itself to bring about a renewed sense of understanding. for he has always been the manifestation of this double edged sword. of home and of violence. wielding itself always but never one without the other. the slip of his skin over familiar in its warmth. doing your resolve the greatest amounts of violence as you clean his wound tenderly. the double edge of him piercing so well that you feel the damning effects. his eyes sharp, cutting over your face in a silent means to examine. like the appraisal of a curious stranger attempting to settle within themselves the validity of your existence.Â
the soft tender pads of your fingers remember him well. gloves and all. slight throbs that liven the nerves.Â
"you came straight from work", more like a statement than a question.Â
"i did".Â
he flinches. his arm flexing as he bares the pain. "thank you for being here", he gives. âfor seth", like a thankfulness that includes him would hurt his pride too much to be made known.Â
"i'm sure that took a lot to say", you joke. feeling light in your head. drained of the will to keep up a proper guard. "youâre welcome though".Â
a hum of an acknowledgment is the only thing he gives you. and in an effort to savor the easy going nature of the moment you keep yourself occupied with dressing the wound splitting his skin open. your work of caring for it doing well enough that the bleeding has stopped. memory faithful as it nags, the wound of a forever ago accident pulsing to life about your hand. the scars there still, though faded, serving as a reminder of the former things. the heat of him, then, different as it sought to consume. brazen in how it dared to bring about affection. not like now, this flame threatening to flare, to show the lengths and widths of its destruction.Â
you finish. gloves in the waste basket. making tedious work of washing your hands. to rid the skin of such an indicative sensation.Â
his body does well in blocking the bathroom door. the whole of him bigger than the last time you saw him. scrutiny set some in his gaze. trailing over the ink that lays permanent at your neck.Â
"you still have it"
"it's a tattoo". feigning nonchalance as you dry your hands. "you never really plan to get rid of them".Â
he smiles mirthless. "well y'know, i figured a cover up, for you, would be worth the pain".Â
as in, forgetting him would be worth the pain. which couldn't be more further from the truth.Â
"and here i am doing a nice thing", laughing tired. "still gettin hit with the bitterness", a slow easy step that leads you closer to him. the own brazen make of your actions suffering you to fall into the scent of him. the note of it strong even as it lives amidst the pungency of blood. "you got some audacity too though, considering i could've half assed that clean up enough for a little infection to settle in".Â
"but you didn't".
"and why do you think so?"Â
creaks against the floor. the weird pitch of it roughing up against your bones. his body closer, forcing your back against the wall. his thumb reaching to graze against the ink tattoo at your neck. pulse thrumming harshly at the play of his touch.Â
body outdone by history.Â
and the way he holds you here, cradling your neck just at your nape. keeping you where he wants you to be. his eyes falling over slowlyâat your nose and your cheeks and your lipsâlingering as if he's gone down the path of a deep remembering.Â
"for the same reason you still got the ink".Â
unable to ever let yourself part with it, with the history staining your skin. the prick of a needle and the pain of it made simple for a full and the most earnest performance of devotion. your breaths shallow, overwhelmed by the thought and the domineer of him.Â
his thumb running to sweep at your skin. hot with an intention you can't place.Â
you make to warn him. âroman-â
but his tongue is quick, works with a faraway familiar passion as it curls between the soft seam of your lips. exhaustion and adrenaline, an effortful pair as they go about the task of stripping away your resolve. a return of this sudden fever of a feeling as your tongue makes to snake against his. lapping lazily, a mindless seduction as you fall into old ways. his throat groaning, surely taken by his own bout of reminiscence. nails racking dull over his naked skin, over the taut muscle at his belly. his palms cradling your face to deepen his kiss in spite of the pain. leaving you little room to breathe, his body fastening you harshly to the bathroom wall. making to suffocate you with the flick of his tongue and the fire of his touch.Â
his teeth prick you mean, biting into the supple flesh of your lip. suckling the pain with the tender pull of his mouth.Â
the harshness of it causing a whimper to break. instinct taking hold. subdued in an instant.Â
and it is only when he breaks for breath that you remember where you are. pushing at his tired body enough for a full separation.Â
you leave saying nothing. out of the bedroom, down the hallway and through the clubhouse doors. letting the silence of it speak for you.Â
lol we might need a roman pov after this huh⊠smh
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"Hugs for a Vampire" - Astarion x GN!Reader - Series Masterlist
Pairing: Astarion x GN!Reader (Rogue!Tav)
Genre: Fluffy, Filling in Canon
Rating: Teen
Tags: Comfort, Hurt/Comfort, Fluff and Angst, cw: Alcohol, Gender-Neutral Pronouns, POV Second Person, Canon-Typical Violence, cw: blood, cw: Astarion's entire backstory, cw: mentions of nudity, discussions about consent, spoilers for the whole game
Series WC: 36k words, 18 chapters
Summary:Â Following the course and growth of Tav x Astarion's relationship through a serious of off-screen hugs (and one on-screen hug). Covering awkward, happy, sad, and angsty hugs including After the House of Healing, Before the Assault on Moonrise, Before Reaching Baldur's Gate, and more!
Each chapter can be read as a standalone hug.
Authorâs Notes: I'm bringing over some of my multi-chapter fics from AO3, so if you've already read this, ty I love you and appreciate you so much! This was my first long!fic, and remains very near and dear to me because, by the gods, does Astarion need a hug (or 18). I will continue to add chapters as I format them, but the full fic is available on AO3 here if you're feeling like a binge.
Chapters:
Chapter 1: After Raiding the Goblin Camp
This hug takes place during the party with the tieflings, after raiding the Goblin Camp. Both Tav and Astarion are interested in each other, but love isn't in the air yet. Welcome to the awkward, uncomfortable first hug.
Chapter 2: After Fighting Grym
Their second hug takes place after a tough battle. A painful hug, but comforting nonetheless.
Chapter 3: After the House of Healing
Tav has realized their feelings (covered in Failed a Dex Save and Fell for You) and Astarion has caught them. We're looking at a cautious little half hug, where Tav knows more about him, but isn't quite sure how to comfort him yet.
Chapter 4: After Encountering Araj
Set in Act 2 after infiltrating Moonrise and meeting Araj, a retelling of the Act 2 romance with some extra dialogue. The only canon-hug!
Chapter 5: After the Self-Same Trial
After their mutual feelings are shared, Astarion and Rogue!Tav are relearning how to act around each other. A kiss-hug combo!
Chapter 6: Before the Assault on Moonrise
A feeding-hug for Rogue!Tav and Astarion. They're still working out how to act around each other, with Astarion setting the boundaries.
Chapter 7: Before Chasing Ketheric Thorm
Rogue!Tav is feeling the stress of Moonrise Towers, meanwhile Astarion has realized how nice cuddling is.
Chapter 8: After Defeating Ketheric
After defeating Ketheric and learning the truth of the Absolute, Tav feels a lot of feelings.
Chapter 9: Before Reaching Baldur's Gate
Set during that one rest between Act 2 and Act 3 -- they talk about consent a bit, establishing their hug-boundaries.
Chapter 10: After a Love Test
Set at the start of Act 3, time with a dyrad leads to some jealousy and some fluff.
Chapter 11: After Meeting Petras and Dal
Set in early Act 3, Rogue!Tav and Astarion encounter Astarion's siblings.
Chapter 12: After Entering Baldurâs Gate
Set in early Act 3, the group finally arrives in the city! Astarion marvels at its sight.
Chapter 13: Before Facing Cazador
Set in Act 3, set prior to facing Cazador (part of the Pale Elf questline). Rogue!Tav and Astarion face some of the his past.
Chapter 14: After Defeating Cazador
Set in Act 3, the conclusion of the Pale Elf questline, Rogue!Tav needs to find just the right moment to support Astarion.
Chapter 15: After Visiting Astarionâs Grave
After the Act 3 romance scene, Rogue!Tav and Astarion enjoy a soft moment together.
Chapter 16: Before the End
Set right before the end, Rogue!Tav and Astarion discuss their future. Rogue!Tav is determined to not make Astarion's decision for him.
Chapter 17: After Your Victory
Less canon-compliant than the rest, timeline shifting was needed here, but set after defeating the brain. Astarion realizes that he's not alone, not when Rogue!Tav and his companions are there for him.
Bonus Hug Chapter 18: At Withers' Party
An epilogue hug! Astarion sees Rogue!Tav giving out hugs and wants one of his own.
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"In the embrace of dawn"|| Enzo Vogrincic x fem! Reader
A/N: Hi my lovelies! So this is a second part to "In the heat of the night" which you can read Here inspired from a message by my lovely @cyliarys-starlight who said I could not end it that way, so here we go.
TW: Brief description of domestic violence, mention of alcohol consumption, a bit of sex talk.
Please if you or someone you know is victim of domestic violence, reach out to the authorities.
Word Count: 2.3 k
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Enzo woke up slightly when he felt the body heat lacking from him and stretched trying to get his senses back awake as he looked around the hotel room, thinking maybe she was in the bathroom, or even had stepped out to get something to eat; so he frowned in confusion when he saw the note laying on the bedside table as he read through it a couple times; still trying to make sense of it âThis was good, far too good for our own benefit, but it was just in the heat of the night, youâre better off without me, believe me, I know it. Take care, have a great life, xoxo Y/N (your blue diamond)â- what could she have meant with him being better off without her, Enzo couldnât wrap his head around it, of course, they had known eachother for just a hot minute, he couldnât say he was in love, and he knew Y/N was guarded and hiding something he couldnât quite pinpoint, but he did know something, and that was that for once, when the tall guy was with her, he felt normal again, he felt warm, he felt like someone cared about Enzo, not actor Enzo.
He tossed and turned for a while on the bed before grabbing his phone to check the time, 6 am; he checked his schedule, he had just a few scenes to shoot today, he would go over to talk to Y/N right after, he didnât care, he didnât agree with the brunette on what she had said on her stupid note. He could take whatever she had to throw his way. He got out of bed and made his way to the bathroom reluctantly, not really wanting to wash away the night before, or her intoxicating scent from him, but knowing he needed to get ready for work. Once he was ready he made his way downstairs and to the cafe across the street to get some fuel in him before heading to the studio. The memories and images of last night still replaying on his brain in a merciless loop, the way Y/Nâs lips tasted; how soft her warm skin felt underneath his; the way her breath hitched in the back of her throat when he kissed that specific spot on her neck or her inner thigh; he swore he could listen to the small woman breath out his name a million times and would never get tired of it.
Sure enough, three stupid scenes took up most of his day, his head already at the Velvet Lounge, or at the bar they had gone afterwards, even worse, his mind kept going back to his hotel room and he couldnât think straight, he could still taste Y/N on his tongue, and he was more determined than ever. When Enzo could finally get rid of work, he made his way to the club, making sure to stop by a flower shop on the way, he had seen the tattoo of what seemed a Jasmin flower on Y/Nâs lower back at some point and he got a small bouquet. He got off the Uber a block or so away and made his way to the alley, his hands shaking softly and his breath a little heavier than he would have thought it would be, he fixed his hair and clothes before knocking on the side door. He really thought he hadnât done anything wrong to make her leave and that she wouldnât have spoke to her friends about him in a bad way; his mind was spiraling so he was a little surprised when a slightly older redhead woman opened the door. âYes? How can I help you handsome?â Cady eyed the man standing in front of her up and down, and it slowly dawned on her, this was the guy she had seen Y/N talking to a few times.
âIs urmâŠY/NâŠBlue Diamond in? I need to talk to her, would you please tell her Enzo is here?â he smiled softly, bouquet in hand. Cady gave him another full look before humming softly and disappearing back into the building. âY/N Honey!â she called out âThereâs quite a hunk of a young man standing outside the door saying he wants to talk to youâŠEnzo he said his name wasâ. Y/Nâs head snapped up from her journal so fast she got dizzy, the color completely drained from her face âohâŠnot welcomed? I can go back out and tell him to get lostâ Cady pointed back over her shoulder, always protective of the younger woman.
Y/N sighed getting up and shook her head âno, thanks mama, not necessary, heâs not bad, on the contrary, heâs too goodâ she took a quick look at herself in the mirror, her gray sweats and oversized hoody covering her body-she had asked for the day off today, alleging she didnât feel all that good-, she pulled her arms around her and walked out to meet him taking a deep breath before opening the door. Y/N was determined to just usher him away as soon as she opened the door; but the sight of the tall, handsome, caring guy standing outside clearly nervous as hell, with a bouquet of jasmins in hand and a worried expression on his face made her halt to a stop. âEnzoâŠ.didnât expect to see you here, not after I left at 4 am and left that noteâ she looked down at her own feet when he looked her way. Enzo cleared his throat and moved a bit closer making her look up at him again.
âFirst, these are for youâ he said handing the bouquet over âI saw a jasmin tattoo on your back and I thought I might be on the right trackâ he rambled on as she took the flowers -a small tight smile as a reply- âI must admit, I was a bit surprised when I woke up to that note, please, please tell me itâs not something I didâŠI couldnât forgive myself if I wronged you in any wayâ he kept looking at her, big puppy eyes, concern plastered on his look as he fidgeted with the ring on his finger âI justâŠI wanted to come over and tell you, I donât know what youâre holding back, I have no idea what youâve been through, and I know weâve only known each other for a bit, Iâm not pretending like I know all about you, nor demanding to⊠I would never force you to share something youâre not comfortable with..â Y/N looked up at him, her eyes sparkly, small smile pulling at the edges of her lips as he rambled on, he was quite endearing and adorable-added to how hot he is and how good he fucked me last night, I could get used to the rambling- she thought but let him continue âI just want you to know, that youâre more than enough, and thereâs no way something like what we shared last night, isnât the best thing everâŠ.I would love to, if you let me, get to know every nook and crany of you, inside and out, know your brain, know your heart, and take the time to mend it back together, protect you from whateverâŠwhomever you might be escaping and protecting yourself fromâ. As he said that she pulled him in by his coat standing on her tiptoes she kissed him softly, a new sensation running in that kiss, it wasnât the need and want that it had the night before, it was calm, it was safe.Â
Enzo was a bit surprised to be cut short from his well rehearsed speech by Y/N, not like he would complain about feeling her lips on his; hands naturally and easily falling to her waist pulling her in gently to him, needing to shield her from the outside world in every possible way. When they felt like they needed to breath before they passed out, they broke the kiss and Enzo rested his forehead against hers. âYou are adorable, persistent, but adorableâ she whispered. âYouâre also right, thereâs a lot about me you donât know, a lot that I donât know if and when I will be ready to let outâŠbut as much as I wanted to pretend that I was okay leaving you behind, it tugged at every fiber of my being, this somehow in some crazy way, feels natural, feels good, and I like itâ. A slow grin spread across the tallerâs face as he placed another kiss on her lips.
âThis might be a lot to ask for, and please donât think it is because I donât like you being here, but I would love to spend every second with you⊠getting to know you, would you please come stay with me?â she bit her lip and looked down shortly thinking about what he was asking of her, she closed her eyes and in the first act of trust she had shown in god knows how long, she nodded. âPlease give me a few minutes go grab a bag of my things?â she looked up at him, she still felt terrified, and out of sorts in ways, but something about his presence, his warmth, made the weight on her shoulders get easier to bear; Enzo placed a chaste kiss on her lips and nodded. As Y/N walked into the building, she found Cady, Astrid, Michelle and even Andrew piled up on the other side eavesdropping and looked at them with a quizzical look. âExcuse you?â she said.
Astrid smiled and with her thick russian accent said âWhoever your prince in shining armor is, canât he take me with him as well?â Y/N laughed and nudged her playfully going to pack a small bag. âYou know that whenever you want to, you have a place and a job here sweetieâ Andrew said and she looked back at them âitâs not like Iâm leaving for good, Iâll just go for a few days and be back, I still need to workâ she said her goodbyes and walked back out the door where Enzo awaited, he wrapped his arm around her waist protectively and walked back to the hotel.
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A month or so had gone by, and the familiarity between them made Y/N feel safer than ever, like she could tackle whatever came her way, she also knew that filming was almost over for him, and soon he would leave the city. As she got some snacks for them, while Enzo waited on the couch she took a deep breath, she finally thought she could tell him her story. Deep in thought she made her way to the couch sitting down. Enzo looked up from his phone âwhatâs troubling you babe?â he said in that soft mellowy voice of concern that Y/N had gotten to know quite well in this time together; she nodded softly sitting down.
âRemember how you told me you would never force me to share my story?â she said barely above a whisper, Enzo put his phone down giving Y/N his undivided attention now- everything else could wait, the world could wait- and nodded; âwellâŠ.I think thatâŠ.if this is to be anything more than a passing fling to end when you leave New York in 2 more weeksâŠyou deserve to knowâ he frowned at all the beating around the bush, but he let her, whatever she was getting ready to say had to be really important and he laid his hand on her knee in a protective way to encourage her. The petite woman took a deep breath and fixed her eyes on a loose string on her cardigan and started talking. âWhen we first met, I had just started working at the Velvet LoungeâŠ.I got there, because I got to New York with nowhere to go, anyone to turn to, I amâŠ.Iâm originally from a small town in the state of Missouri, called Rocheport, and⊠I had just left, nothing on my back but the clothes I was wearing and a backpack, I urmâŠIâm marriedâŠmy husbandâŠhis name is Luke, and one night, heâŠhe got drunk, as he usually did but that night he got mad, and heâŠheâŠâ she bit her lower lip, feeling some tears running down her face she quickly wiped at before going on âhe laid a hand on me, so as soon as he passed out from the booze, I left, enough money for the bus ticket out of there on the first bus I found and I ended up here, so I⊠I just felt like I couldnât trustâŠanyone reallyâ she tentatively looked up from her lap to find an Enzo she had never seen before, jaw tight with tension, dark eyes, but not the dark she was used to see when they had sex, no, this was different, he hadnât realized his hands were in fists. âplease donât look at me differentlyâshe whispered.
He looked at her his gaze softening when he heard her say that âoh baby, I could neverâ he whispered bringing her close to his chest. âI just wish I could have protected you from that son of a bitch, I want to protect you every day of my life, as long as weâre together, nothingâs ever gonna harm you again, and that bastard better pray I donât ever cross paths with him because I will not care, I will kill him; I swear I will kill him.â Y/N held onto him face buried in his chest feeling it raise and fall rapidly from his breath âThank you for letting me into your worldâ he whispered in her ear âIâll make it my lifeâs work to make yours better if you let meâ she looked up at him, eyes glossy with tears and he leaned down cupping her cheeks as he kissed her deeply, in a way that let her know that no harm could ever get to her ever again, not as long as he was beside her, not as long as they were together.
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tear a hole exquisite red (fuck the rest, and stab it dead)
Summary: Creek has layers to his personality just like any other Troll does, rotting and wretched and vomit inducing layers, but he has layers nonetheless
Warnings: psychological manipulation, physical violence, check Ao3 port for full tags
Authors Note: @bulliestrolls started the psychopath Creek au, so go give him some love for all of the glorious ideas his brain spawns. also Creek's a bit of a whore, just to spite Branch even if it means sleeping with all four of his brothers, because I think it's funny. anyways! if ya'll enjoyed consider dropping a reblog or checking the Ao3 port, it really means a lot
It's all a game for Creek, he's playing the long con and Floyd is his perfect little experiment. Who knows, maybe after he inevitably decides to make Floyd cut the cord, he'll try for Bruce, really tear a hole into Branch and his family. He can laugh at the thought of getting Bruce to divorce, to manipulate him into leaving Brandy for another Troll after Creek himself picks apart Floyd and and gives Branch enough mental anguish for a thousand lifetimes.
But no, that won't be enough, not for Creek. Oh not in the slightest, not after all the agony that Branch has given Creek, his vendetta will never be satiated. Who knows! Maybe he'll go so far as to return Branch to his gray state, that'd be delectable. That could make him feel a sense of satisfaction if anything ever could, or Branch's head on a platter, but the downside to the otherwise beautiful idea is that he wouldn't be able to torture Branch anymore.
"Creek!" It's Floyd, the specific tone of his voice is one that Creek has learned to pick out of a hundred in a similar fashion to Branch's. Just so he can hunt down Floyd and use his sweetness and ignorance of Creek's intentions as a weapon. The magenta Troll has this adorable smile on his face, well, adorable if it weren't for the downturned ears that look just like Branch's.
Creek gives a smile, warm like a fireplace on the TV screen, "Floyd, lovely to see you," He catches sight of Branch trudging behind the slightly older and quells a smirk before tacking on, "My love."
Then he's being hugged and as much as he wants to recoil in disgust when it comes to anything that Branch has any form of relation too, he doesn't. He has a performance to enact, and he plans on fulfilling the part with precision as much as it makes him feel ill and want to gag. But at least Floyd is tolerable compared to the likes of John Dory, Clay, or Bruce. He has gripes against each of them for seperate reasons than being Branch's older brothers.
John Dory is far too obnoxiously loud and arrogant and stubborn and always thinks he's perfect, and apparently he bailed on Branch which he can respect. Clay is somewhat paranoid, always has this brat (Poppy's sister, disgusting) clinging to his side, his hair is a mess too. And Bruce, well, Bruce isn't half bad, his only problem is how often he says sorry for leaving Branch to raise himself, and his domesticity, it reeks like rotting flesh.
"What brings the both of you to my meditation alcove?" Creek asked, giving a small bow to his 'boyfriend' and his least favorite person. He wanted to just be cold and cruel to Branch up front and center, the amount of vitriol stored in his tiny body towards Branch and the queen was unreal, but he refrained. He didn't let it seep through the cracks of his composure, he didn't let it show through until he was alone and could tear something to shreds.
"My brother has been having anger issues again, and he's looking a lot more gray than usual," Floyd explained and Creek just watched Branch get even more agitated as Floyd spilled details that should be confidential, or saved for close Trolls at the least. But wait, that's right, Creek is a close Troll now, and Branch just has to deal with that.
Creek gives a hum as he steps ever closer to Branch and takes his paw, it's yanked away and Creek feigns hurt.
"Branch, he's trying to help," Floyd hissed.
"Really, Branch, I just want to lend a hand," Creek tacked on.
Branch gave a long groan of annoyance before reluctantly letting Creek take his paw, only because it made Floyd smile. He hated every second of his bristled fur brushing against Creek even though it was for just under ten seconds.
"Unless he finds a way to perk up," Creek goes the extra mile to grab the tips of Branch's ears and flick them up, the graying Troll stumbles back. Oh he relishes in that and tries to hide his smirk, "He'll go gray again, I'd suggest meditation."
"I'd suggest meditation," Branch bitterly smarms back at Creek who raises a paw to his chest in faux hurt that only Branch can see through for some fucking reason.
"Branch! If you make one more jab at Creek, I'll," Floyd falters, "There will be consequences."
"Love," Creek begins with, "It's fine, I'm used to dealing with children," The glare Branch shoots is sharp enough to slice diamonds, "If you'd like you can leave him here and I'll teach him the basics of meditation."
Floyd gives this soft smile, completely wrapped up in Creek's performance, and then he presses a kiss to the purple Troll's cheek. Creek returns the favor before Floyd speaks, "Thanks, Creek, I'll be back in hour," And then he's taking his leave.
"You're gonna leave me here? With him?!" Branch questioned, a frantic lilt to his voice as he spoke. Two paws held one of Floyd's, desperation clear with how he held himself.
"You're in good hands," Floyd answered with before gently lifting Branch's paws off his own, "I'll bring snacks when I return."
Branch knows he won't win, "Alright, be careful."
Both Branch and Creek wait patiently for Floyd to be out of earshot range before they interact any further. And their interaction consists of Branch trying to tackle Creek to the ground without any remorse behind his actions. Creek doesn't scream, doesn't writhe, doesn't kick or retalliate, and that scares Branch more than any other reaction could. Instead the Troll in question just smiles, this calculating and cruel one that oh so often is matched with the rest of the face, not now, his eyes are cold and most of his face is stilled.
"What do you want with my brother?" Branch tried to snarl, hands resting atop of Creek's arteries, a bit of pressure and he'll go lightheaded, maybe even pass out. It's illegal to kill a Troll, but every single day that Branch has to watch Creek feign domesticity around Floyd he gets closer to committing an atrocity.
Creek gives a hum, "Your suffering, as sweet as he is he's not my type," He watches Branch go through a thousand thoughts at once and the second he knows Branch is starting to formulate a response he adds on, "I'd go for a guy like Bruce if nothing else."
"You absolute cunt," The expletive is more of a harsh whisper, voice coarse with rage, "You homewrecker."
And Creek just laughs, "Oh, Branch, don't you get it?" He ever so carefully raises a paw and traces it across Branch's face, and he knows that the graying Troll would flinch back but he can't lest he wants to let go of Creek's throat, "I'll drop to lows you've never even heard of it'll hurt you- and if your brothers are the collateral damage? That's not really my problem."
"You're fucking sick, do you know how Floyd's gonna react hen he hears this? You'll break him," Was all that Branch could supply in response to to the downright sickening knowledge he had been given.
"And that'll hurt you, which is really what I'm looking for. But if I want a chance to have a go at any of your other brothers then I'll have to let him down easy," Creek said, "I've talked my way into getting a Bergen to not eat me and give up on happiness. You know damn well I can convince Floyd he's the monster so your brothers and all of Pop Village will come to my aid."
Branch steps back from Creek, speechless, and then the fucker laughs.
"They'll come to my aid Branch, they'll be doing everything they can to make sure I don't off myself while leaving Floyd to suffer- and the best part of it all, Branch? It's a two for one deal, and I just know that one of your brothers will be too caught up in making sure I'm okay to even realize how fucked Floyd is," Creek spat, "I'll fuck that one next."
"I'm gonna tell Poppy everything," Branch said firmly like the words would register as a threat to a Troll that's escaped death three times over now.
"She'll never fucking believe you," Creek answered with and the break of silence from Branch is all he needs as an answer. He stands up and makes his way over to Branch, firmly grasping his jaw, "What're you gonna do about it, Branchie?"
Branch doesn't have an answer ready for what he just had unloaded onto him, all he can do is wrench away Creek's paw. He steps back and wipes his paw off on his vest, "Something."
Creek gives a hum and a smirk, "Cute, you think you can beat me at my own game."
"Oh I don't think I can, I know I will," Branch snapped back with.
"We'll see," Creek said, again with this calculating and cruel smile on his face, "When Floyd crumbles you'll go down with him," It isn't an idea, it's something that Creek knows is true, "I look forward too it."
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Its Bruce.
After Creek has cried a god damn ocean of crocodile tears and used gold to frame Floyd as the monster, Bruce ends up being his next weapon. And he even went so far into twisting Floyd's perception of reality that the magenta Troll is the one saying sorry even though he did nothing wrong. Even though he was the sweetest Troll in all of Pop Village, turned to a somewhat paranoid and reclusive Troll whose graying just like Branch is.
He loved Floyd to pieces. He loved Floyd into his basic elements. He loved Floyd into a million little bits that can never be arranged again. He loved Floyd and played him as the monster with so much accuracy that even the true victim was fooled into thinking he did everything wrong. He loved the way he played Floyd, he loved the way he could use Floyd, he loved everything about Floyd except for the fact that he was Floyd.
Maybe it's wrong, being a user in the way that Creek is, but he doesn't quite care. So long as it brings Branch mental agony than he'll be enacting it, whether it's him being the source of Floyd's joy or pain. And now he's going to go through the same song and dance all over again with Bruce, except, to a considerably more intensive degree.
Because with Bruce he has competition; and that would be Brandy, Bruce's soon to be former wife. What fun really, Creek can tear two families to shreds in one go while no one is looking. He'll gouge another gaping wound into Branch's family and he'll completely excommunicate Bruce from his family.
He's playing this pathetic act when he casts out the first bait for Bruce, sniffling and whimpering as he leans against the purple Troll. He has his knees hitched, "God, I just, I can't believe I was so blind for three months," He forces his breath to catch.
Bruce rubs comforting circles against his acquaintances back, "I wouldn't have seen it coming either, Floyd of all Trolls," It makes sense he'd never have seen it coming what with it never happening at all. All those years in acting school finally paid off for Creek, and he's using them to seduce a Troll with a wife and thirteen kids just to spite Branch.
"I don't even think any of the kisses were real," Creek sighed, slowly lowering his knees and tilting himself to face Bruce just a little bit more. He had to work this operation delicately, like giving someone a transplant, one wrong incision into Bruce's psyche this early on will botch the entire attempt. And he can't have that happening, no not at all, then he wouldn't have a chance to break apart Clay or John Dory afterwards.
"I get it, being the heart throb brings a lot of insincere praise your way," Bruce laughed a little bit as he spoke, edging away from Creek just a bit.
Creek gives this smile, the smallest upturn of his lips at one corner, "Well, if I kissed you it wouldn't be insincere," There's a slight twitch in Bruce's expression. Exactly what Creek is looking for.
"Yeah well, I'm married now, I have a wife willing to give me as many kisses as I so desire," Bruce said, a hint of defensiveness to his voice.
"Well," Creek begins, dragging out the 'L' as he speaks, "Brandy doesn't need to know, it's just between two friends isn't it?"
Bruce is crumbling, Creek can feel it, he can see it, he devours the destruction of resolve. The purple Troll gives a sort of discontented sound, a partially confused one, "Just between two friends, to make up for the falling out between you and Floyd."
Paws are already upon Bruce's face before he can finish his sentence because Creek already knew that the answer would be yes. He's swift to lean in and speak in a tone that he knows will snag Bruce on a barbed hook, "Thank you, Bruce."
And Bruce moves first and Creek has to try his hardest to not smirk into the kiss that picks up pace so much faster than he thought it would.
Hook, line, and sinker.
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How they show their love ~ Task Force 141Â
Pairings: Simon Riley, John MacTavish, Kyle Garrick, John Price X Fem! Reader
Warnings: Sugar (SFW), Little bit of Spice (NSFW), and everything nice!
Author Notes: My brain do be shutting down while writing these HCs but thatâs ok cause a little violence and sleep deprivation never fully hurts anyone, right?
Simon âGhostâ Riley
So to start things off personally Simon isnât one to really go out with his love due to his past but that doesnât mean he doesnât show his love in general. Simonâs love language is gift giving but he actually does it more subtly, in ways not many can see even when watching him do these things.Â
Believe it or not but this big guy loves to leave small gifts in places that only you would know to look at. These small gifts include but not pertained to Candy, Favorite Drinks, a Single Flower, etc. If one day you have a headache/migraine and donât have any pain meds, a random bottle of your preferred pain killers appear randomly in your backpack.
Iâll add this in but all of this starts once Simon starts to feel comfortable around you, maybe even trust you outside of a mission. It becomes deeper once you catch him in the act of leaving a candy bar youâve been âWhiningâ about for the last week according to him. Having caught this looming giant in the act seemed to paint the picture that this guy isnât as subtle as he seems.
You canât help but smile seeing only small streams of who he really is. Of course you donât want to make the poor guy melt into the floor in front of you, but he didnât seem to stop you as you stepped towards him. Reaching up to touch his covered cheek you couldnât stop the words pouring from your mouth âYou know Ghost, Iâm starting to think that heart isnât as cold as you let on.â
John âSoapâ MacTavishÂ
This man is a teddy bear when it comes to showing his unconditional love for you. His way he shows his love is not just with quality time but physical touch too, like good luck getting this man off of you when heâs home. Johnny just loves to be around you but he will respect your space if you say you need to take a break from him.
Another way this man will show his love is by pranking you, whether it be small pranks or full on scares you better be cautious of this cheeky gremlin.
His best one heâs done was him placing EVERYTHING in different spots and acting as if it was normal. The dishes are now in the refrigerator, the pantry food is now in the cupboard with your favorite snacks in the very top, all the frozen stuff is now in the sink on ice. It may be a small harmless joke but it was still irritating regardless, mostly because now you couldnât find your snacks.
If you end up being a little angry at him he will cling to you afterwards asking for forgiveness âCome on Bonnie I thought it was funny.â Does this end up with apology sex? You're goddamn right it does.
Kyle âGazâ GarrickÂ
Now this sweet human here I feel like is a mix between a few of the love languages, he loves to give you small gifts that heâs collected off of his missions. While heâs off on missions for months at a time he ends up having a whole bag to bring back to you consisting of necklaces, bracelets, clothes, and small trinkets that he would think you would love.
Kyle also loves to help you whenever he can, he often feels that if he canât help with anything that heâs not doing anything productive. Even after you tell him you donât need help he will give you puppy dog eyes until you decide there is something he can help out with. No matter how small the task is he will see it to the end.
His favorite thing to do is help you redecorate your shared flat. From picking out new paint to new furniture if something in the flat has lost its functionality he loves to be part of the whole process. If anyone says that they donât like your style you choose, prepare to hold him back cause this man will fight for you.
John Price
All I can truly say what johns love languages are both Physical Touch and Quality Time and yâall can fight me on that. Due to his job he canât be home as often as he would like so the best way to get around it is with phone calls and face time. Of course if our dear captain if feeling more wound up than usual its bound to end up with phone sex.
But once he returns home after however long your not gonna be leaving the bed for the first week. While yes this might be a different form of quality time and personal touch, it still is the basic form of him showing how much he loves and has missed you. After the first week though he will be more doting on you more than usual.
Weather its watching T.V., cooking, going shopping in town, he has a hand on you as much as possible. It also grounds him, reminding him that heâs returned home safe for now. As much as he would like nothing more than to be cuddled up on the couch with you in your home, he understands if you want to go out during his time home so heâs willing when you drag him off to who knows where.
Sorry if this is super short, my brain isnât as functional today. But if you enjoyed this post please leave a like and a reblog!
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The star reborn
pairing: young!coriolanussnow x fem!reader summary: But most importantly, her eyes. Bloodshot. Sharp. Intelligent. The eyes he tried so hard to ignore, the eyes he will undoubtedly try as hard to forgetâthey are his eyes, even if the colour is different. Inside them, there's nothing of the person he painted or conditioned her to beâthose eyes are neither of prey nor of a sheep. No, the dreamy, unblinking orbs are the curved mirrors reflecting the truth he fears to control. warnings: canon-typical violence, narcissism, character death, implied sex, implied/referenced suicide word count: 3,5K
PART 1 IS HERE
author's note: hiiii! chapter 2 is finally here!! please let me know what you think of it in the comments - I did leave my comfort zone a little with this one. also, it is kinda angsty - be sure to be in a right headspace before reading it. Love you - enjoy!!
The lights above her head shine with dull, warm colours, casting their heavy shadows on the green, heavily painted walls. The silver lining of the ceiling opposes almost sickening stuffiness. YN's eyes follow it through half-opened lids: hot and cold, the contrast so vibrant it hurts already irritated senses. Was it alcohol? The half-full bottle of sugary liquor stood as if trying to hide, beside the gigantic bed. It couldn't be; her body was long used to the fire spreading through its small canals. The feeling, although equally unpleasant, was differentâlike a hidden bruise she took too long to notice, its purple hands stretching down her abdomen.
It was supposed to be just a one-time thing, a job she could handle without any complaintsâlike she did every time. Maybe it was, but soon one time turned into twice a week, then whenever he felt like it. It was good, sensing the want, and need every time his figure appeared at the doorframeâalmost too good. Staining her lips with taste, his taste, sending her head round and spinning. A twisted carousel with countless bed sheets, counters, and extravagant salons of the latest cars instead of smiling animal figures.
Coriolanus's breath was hot on her skin; his whispers marked it with unreadable praises that YN knew he didn't meanâthey still landed right on her chest, sinking their way into her lungs and clouding the air her brain desperately needed. He curses and swears, so far from the professional persona he puts on every time he finishes. The feeling of cold, long fingers on her hips pulling YN's body closer turned into electric-like impulses, crashing into her flesh and mixing with the rhythm of her poor, booming heart.
It's easy to guess the patterns of his movements, his broad shoulders covering almost the entire room from her eyesightâa minute more, and all of YN's vision would be taken by the knitted blonde brows and silk-like lips. Coriolanus's eyes draw motifs on her bare body, drinking everything down to the slight twitches of her legs, but never meeting her own. She almost feels sad about the fact; after all, she deserves to see how they grow dark, changing from sky-like blue to almost sapphire, heaving along with his breathing.
His hand changes its position, clasping YN's throat instead of the bedframe. It's brutal and animalistic to feel him holding onto the last bits of self-control to not let his guard down completely, in an attempt to regain the power back. YN closes her eyesâthe sensation of his trembling limb is poisoning her insides with the sweetest taste of fear. The heartbeat in her temples, echoing in the empty chamber of her chestâthe tempo of prey running from its hunter, the pace of the chase of an illusive prize. She feels Coriolanus twitch, the grip tightening along with her before finally relaxing. Caught. Eaten.
She doesn't mind the feeling of heaviness his body seems to plant in her own; he lays his head near, chest rising and falling, the smug, satisfied ghost of a smirk lingering on his swollen lips. YN doesn't remember when exactly she became content with it; it seems something inside of her has always craved him. Coriolanus squints his eyes under the light of the ceiling lamps, but all she sees is a wolf. A hunter sizing up the sheep before sinking his white, pearly teeth in the soft waves of flesh. Now, he is full, although no one knows for how long. YN guesses the hunger never entirely goes away.
Hers doesn't. She devours until she's sick, and does it again, again and again. His touch is too much, and YN wants to leave, hide, and scrub it off until her fingers bleedâand at the same time, she craves it more than anything. If he is a hunter, what does that make her? Prey. Deer. But does the prey have teeth as sharp as she does? Does she bite as often, tearing her way to survival? Maybe, and maybe notâYN is never in the habit of putting a label on her head and eating at it until there is nothing left of her but a hollow shell.
''Is there something wrong?''
YN almost cringes at the sound of her voice; its sound travels the room, circling the bed she was lucky to call her escape before finally landing on the tip of Coriolanus's tongue. He doesn't turn to her, taking in the ball of nerves she called a question before answering.
''The reviews of Games become more and more disappointingâgame makers, although they change each other quickly, don't bring anything new. People don't want to watch.''
The hum of understanding escapes YN's dried lips before she can think twice about it. Coriolanus leaves her mind a dessert, an arena she thought she left behind, left as a victor, making her fight for existence once more. His next words prove it.
''You gave a show with all the weaponry skills, especially because they aren't typical for your district. How?''
She shouldn't feel pride in what sounded more like an interrogation, but YN never liked to do as she should'veâthat's why her naked body is now interwoven with his, the rising heartbeat in her ribcage sending waves to his fingertips. ''I trained with stones and butter knives. When you learn how to kill a bird with them, the human body is nothing.''
Coriolanus chuckles, the deep vibration resonating against her head on his chest. ''Impressive. But why risk getting caught preparing for something that might never happen to you?''
Maybe it's the way his hands draw circles around the lines of her neck, or maybe it's the way the lights flicker, but the slumped words from YN's mouth become more difficult to pronounce. ''You see the games as punishment, but the real punishment is life outside themâthe arena is a golden ticket, and to compete is a privilege. Once more people get that into their heads, they will fight to even have a chance to put on a show for you. Of course, if you turn a blind eye to the preparations: can't impress with excessive knowledge of gemstones or fabrics, can you?''
His silence could've meant a lot to people who didn't know better, but the slight, almost invisible nod of the blonde-crowned head suggested understanding. If YN had been a little more attentive, she would've noticed the subtle shift in his pose. That way, the voice booming into her ear wouldn't have caught her by surprise.
''Turn on your stomach.'' Coriolanus only commands, and never asks. His pale cheeks are not yet free from colour, and the glimmer in his eyes reeks of determination.
YN wants to refuse; she wants to open her mouth and bite him right where a vital vein pulsates on his neck, draining the life force mixed with the scent of his bitter cologne. She doesn't; she hides her teeth in the silk pillowcase, its soft fabric making a home in her opened mouth. It wasn't the closure she craved, but YN knew better. You take what you can get, and with Coriolanus, you take what he gives. She needs to be adored, to be worshippedâhe turns a blind eye to her every time he gets what he wants. Maybe that's what she gets for loving a man like himâhe knows she is just a woman and tolerates her despite that. In the end, it doesn't really matter; he is still a god, and she is still on her knees, begging until they grow raw.
-
It was harmless fun at first to have her around. In addition to his small collection, a limited edition of the human she wasâthe whole world underneath her pretty heel, her eyes only on him. It fed his ego; Coriolanus will admit that much. Like a golden watch on his left hand or a new-tinted car, YN revolved around him. An ode to status, a testament to his power. But all things have to endâthe lights are turned off after the long day of work, and the plates are cleaned after dinner.
He watches the buildings change rapidly, their warm windows mixing with tall structures of concrete. Even now, in a silent car, he finds their ever-changing looks captivatingâthe city jungle is never asleep, its loud voices covering the streets with a thick coat of isolation. Among men, he still stood alone. Undefeated. Victorious. Coriolanus doesn't bother to turn to the woman beside him. He played this conversation in his head too many times; now, there is nothing of the initial curiosity that used to sparkle. ''I think it would be better if we stopped seeing each other; the press is too relentless, and it's becoming dangerous for our image.''
He doesn't even have to come up with something plausibleârumours are circling of a ''new mysterious man" who was seeing the Panem's favourite star. But no one suspected it was him, and even if they did, who would dare to question him? The reason behind his decision is less poeticâthe one he is somewhat reluctant to admit, even to himself.
''What?''
Her voice cuts the air, pulling Coriolanus out of his thoughts. He almost feels her figure tense up, her manicured hand gripping a stunning purse with all the power she has. It looks like claws, which he notices with humour. He imagines the same nails digging into the skin on his back, just like they did a few nights ago; the feeling sends a pleasant wave down his spine. ''You will continue with modelling and photoshoots, just like before. It even might be betterâthere are a couple of new projects I want you to take on.''
''Do these ''projects'' include other men that you promised to keep me safe from?''
She is mad. Coriolanus, it seems, tastes the venom dripping from her painted lips on his tongue, its bitter acids burning his throat. Maybe it's that lingering sensation, or maybe it's the air conditioning in the carâhis body grows a little hot, and his head turns a lot more annoyed. He swallows; the car is almost at the mansion's driveway. A few more minutes and a starch of fresh air will get to his lungs.
YN doesn't wait for the car to fully stop; she opens the door abruptly and closes it right in his face, her boots stomping on the expensive lawn, leaving small holes in the green scenery. Her long coat flies as she walks, ignoring the shouts he throws her way. The wind, or him, leaves her eyes watery; the thick black mascara is already smudging and creasing under her beautiful lashes.
''YN! YN, wait! Woman, why won't you stop for just a fucking second?''
She doesn't answer, pushing through the buttler into the huge hall and throwing the leather bag onto the grand staircase. Fleeing, escapingâthe actions stir something in Coriolanusâa mixture of anger and strange excitement. He grabs her by the shoulder, showing her back, but YN twists away, turning to face him instead.
''Why won't I stop? You are planning on leaving me, on selling me like a used car, and you have the audacity to ask me to stop?''
''YN, darling, let's just quit shouting for a second; you are overreacting.''
''Me?'' Her eyes are mad, maniacânothing of the stoic beauty he is so used to enjoying. She yells, backing her way into the living room and throwing anything that gets under her hand at him. Coriolanus watches as the books, vases, and small statues fly over and into him, crashing against the walls and crashing into small pieces. ''I am overreacting, asshole? I have given you everything I had, every fucking piece of me that you wanted, and now you demand that I stop?''
He only plants his feet and abandons chasing her when the coffee table is in her hands, its golden lining matching the buttons on her blouse. Coriolanus lifts his hands in surrender; they both know she is not above launching it at him. So, he leaves her be.
YN's figure slides down the wall, her body trembling with anger and cries. They echo inside his head, a strange melody of defeat and desperation. Coriolanus watches her from a safe distance on the sofa, his head resting against the soft pillows. He can waitâthis is likely the last time he gets to admire the beauty the world has graced her with.
The carefully styled hair that now resembled nothing of its original form, the freshly applied makeup that now streaked across her face. Even the way her neck bends to allow her a better view of him. YN's gaze follows his every moveâit seems one wrong stepâand the newly bestowed stillness will flee from his grasp again.
But most importantly, her eyes. Bloodshot. Sharp. Intelligent. The eyes he tried so hard to ignore, the eyes he will undoubtedly try as hard to forgetâthey are his eyes, even if the colour is different. Inside them, there's nothing of the person he painted or conditioned her to beâthose eyes are neither of prey nor of a sheep. No, the dreamy, unblinking orbs are the curved mirrors reflecting the truth he fears to control. Coriolanus desires her; Coriolanus requires her; and if there is a want, there is a need. That's why he doesn't wish to see her anymore; if he does, she will eat him alive.
''Don't leave me,'' YN's voice is a siren's call, softer than any other sound. She crawls to him, carefully placing her head on his lap, searching for something, anything, on his face.
''You should get help, darling, for a little bit. What do you say? A nice place near the mountainsâjust a few months to wait for the press out.''
YN looks up at him, her face deprived of any emotion. ''Promise you will have me back?''
Coriolanus just nods, his large hand running down her back. The matter is already decided. He is not safe just because he owns her. If YN feels like it, she will stain her mouth with his blood, too.
-
''Hi Maggie!''
YN's voice booms through the speaker of the phone Mags holds tightly to her ear; finally, her friend is allowed to answer her calls. ''Hi! How are you? Are they feeding you well?''
That's probably not trueâthe mental health institutions have a history of underfunding, but Mags hopes Mr President was kind enough to choose a better place for his ex-mistress. She wasn't shocked when she heard of YN's mental breakdown; on the contrary, Mags thinks the hospital is just what her friend might needâthe life of a victor isn't all glamour.
''Good enough! You know I can't put on too much weight; the designers won't forgive me for that!''
She sounds happy over the phone like thisâif she is, Mags is too, no matter how much she wants to cry at the sound of her voice.
''Did he say something about me?''
Mags knows who she is asking about but hesitates to answer. She doesn't have the heart to tell her that the Snow family just announced the pregnancy of his wife, so she does what any good friend would doâMags lies. ''I don't think so. But! The new law was just put in placeâ1, 2, and 4 are allowed to train their tributes from now on!''
''Oh, that is wonderful! Maggie, I am so sorry, but I have to go now. I promised I would help with books in the library. But I will call you as soon as I can!''
''I'll be waiting, YN. Be on your best behaviour; I would like to see my best friend soon!''
YN laughs. It's not very clear, but the warmth radiating from it translates definitely. ''I would never leave you, Maggie. Even as a ghost, you will never get rid of meânot for a moment.''
Mags hopes it's true. It's hard being YN's friend sometimes, but no one deserves to be alone in this cruel world. The phone call ends before she can answer; all that is left are long beeps.
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The same beeps she is left with after the next call. It is answered by a different voice; this one is more mature and not as lively at all.
''We are sorry to inform you that Miss YLN lost her battle to depression on Friday, the 25th, atâŠ''
Mags doesn't listen after that; she throws the phone across the room, bringing yet another death to delicate machinery. She has no point in keeping it in her house now for a simple, mundane reason: there is no one left to call. That is when the feeling she tried so hard to escape all her life finally nestled in her stomach, swallowing her from the inside. Hatred.
She hates the games, Panem, the Capitol, and the people who live there. Hates newspapers, hates tabloids, and hates interviewersâthe people flooding the centre where the funeral is held. She doesn't want to see any of themâto see them cry and hug, whisper and tell long speeches about a person they murderedâYN didn't know any of their names, yet somehow all of them ''grieve with the world at the loss of their dearest friend''. But most of all, she hated the one who didn't even bother to show up, the one who had caused all of this.
Mags doesn't even bother remembering her own pain; it is greatly overshadowed by the cold body of her friend in a coffin she would've hatedânothing bored YN more than simple colours and ''refined tastes''. If Mags could, she would've filled the room with clashy patterns and as many shiny things as possible and served the cheapest burgers one could find in Capitolâjust how she liked it. But all she can do is stare at the cold ground and a freshly planted bush of pearly-white roses on top of it. Her hands itch to dig it up, to stomp on it and replace it with something elseâshe doesn't. YN would've wanted them to stay.
She told her that one time, a year or two after her deathâevery time she appeared at its anniversary, exactly a month before the reaping. The first time Mags saw her, she thought she was going insane, but then the fear adjusted to never-changing grief. YN was harmless, even kind, although she communicated only with hand gesturesâthose are the rules, she told her, and rules should be followed.
The sky already grows dark, but YN hasn't shown up yet - Mags is too tired of a long day of teaching in the academy to ponder why. Maybe, after the fifty years that passed since, her friend finally found her peace. If so, Mags is happy for her. She can't wait anymoreâthe old woman picks up a coat from the locker and puts it on, closing the classroom before starting her journey to the exit.
The halls of the training grounds are empty; all of the children have already gone home. It pains Mags to remember who inspired the careers, and it fills her heart with immense pride at the same time. YN, to this day, is the golden standard of tribute; she is forgotten, neither by the people of Capitol nor by her own. Mags can't even count how many times the young victors of one hesitantly came to her with an old magazine in hand, asking to share something about their idol's life. She would often only smile; those children learned it by themselves sooner than she would like them to, most suffering the exact fate at the hands of the same man. The only thing that brought hope to Mags's heart was her declining health; she was getting older, and so was Coriolanus Snow. And as much as he would like, no one was immortal; he would pay for all the deaths on his hands, she would make sure of that.
''Excuse me, Miss?''
''Yes?'' Mags thinks that she heard it wrong and that her hearing is getting worse. But noâa boy, not younger than fourteenâleaves his spot at the bench near the gates and stands up, coming closer.
''Are you Maggie?'' The childish voice contrasts with the muscular build; the boy is definitely a student. ''I was just practising knots when Miss came up to me and said Maggie could help with that.''
The air leaves her lungs suddenly. Mags grips onto the coat, her hands desperatly in search of the headache pills. It all must just be her imagination, right? But the boy looks real, studying her face in curiosity. ''What woman?'' she finally breathes out.
''I don't know,'' the boy shrugs. ''Not from here. In a pretty white dress with stars on it. I asked her where she bought it, but she just laughed.''
Mags smiles weaklyâthat does sound like something YN would do. ''Did she say anything else?''
''Yeah!'' The boy beams excitedly, showing a missing-tooth grin. ''She said I will be the brightest star there ever was if I work hard enough!''
''That sounds about right," Mags says, her voice filled with nostalgia. "You know what? Find me tomorrow after your classes - I'll help you with knots. What was your name again?''
''Finnick, Miss. And thank you!'' The boy turns on his feet, not listening to whatever she has to say, and hurries home. ''Bye Miss Maggie!'' he shouts on his way before disappearing in the maze of brick buildings.
An impulse to correct him and remind him that her name is ''Mags'' crosses her mind, but she decides against it. After all, the name was too special to forget. The stillness of the evening lands on Mags' shoulders, and she continues the way to the victor's village. She has a lot to do - the 65th games are starting in a month, and then she will have a chance to finally rest.Â
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Let's Call it a Draw Between Us -Chapter One: Defeat.
Author's Note (uploading multiple works tonight, so I'm slapping this on all the fics I'm posting):
Uh... hi.
It's been a very long time. Longer than I'd hoped for, but suffice to say, this year hasn't gone according to plan.
In sum, I had a mental breakdown in Spring, got diagnosed with hypermobile Ehlers-Danlos syndrome in July, my husband totaled his car in September, I was sick for the whole month of October, my husband found a new (used) car... and then hit a deer at the end of November, and the insurance company ruled that it was totaled because the repair costs would be worth more than the value of the car.
Yeah.
There's been other shit, too, but part of what I've learned with the new diagnosis is that my body does not regulate or cope with stress well -which I sort of already knew, but it's to a vaster extent than I'd known. Essentially, this past year has just taken me out at the knees, and it will probably take my body a while to regulate and function well again.
I still want to write and post fics, but I now have a lot of anxiety around not being able to write and post fics (along with other things that my befuckened body interferes with), which is just... a lot. And frustrating.
I'm not throwing in the towel. But I also can't promise any sort of posting schedule moving forward. Right now, my body and brain are just too unpredictable, and I have to make sure I'm taking care of my basic needs (like eat and hygiene and sleeping, it's literally that difficult to deal with) so that I'm physically okay.
Thank you all for being so patient. I hope to see you more regularly in the coming New Year, but if not, know that I'm okay and still kicking, but that my body's just kicking back for the time being.
Much love and best of wishes to you all for the New Year!
Summary: Sevika pines. She drinks. Then she competes in some arm wrestling and makes some very sapphic eye contact.
She loses, loses again, and then she wins.
Or maybe she wins all three times. It depends on your point of view.
(Basically just a very self-indulgent fic that spawned from an idea about Sevika and a big, buff Reader that I'll probably never get around to writing in full, so I wrote this as a way of honoring that idea.)
Pairing(s): Sevika/Reader.
Rating: M for some sensual themes and making out.
Word Count: 10.1k. Whoops.
You drive her to drink.
Speaking of⊠Sevika leans against the bar and snaps her fingers at Thieram. âWhisky, neat. Half a glass.â She narrows her eyes when he raises his eyebrows at her, then scoffs and goes back to staring across the room once he jumps to. Idiot.
She hadnât expected much out of you after she first met you. Properly met you, that is. Technically, her first introduction to you had been in an underground fighting ring stocked by Stillwaterâs hardier, more opportunistic patrons. Youïżœïżœd made quick work of the other prisoners, but Silco had wanted a proper evaluation before deciding whether or not to scoop you up, so in sheâd gone. Sheâd socked you in the jaw, youâd suplexed her through a shitty wooden table. Good times.
She hasnât had any complaints about you. Youâre quiet, compliant. You donât get drunk on the job, and you donât start fights with the rest of the crew.
But that seems to be about it. You donât really hang out with anyone else. Youâll talk to her every now and then, but otherwise you keep to yourself. You donât play cards with the others, shoot pool, or share drinks. No swapping of stories, or exchanging inside jokes. From what she can tell, you keep to yourself like a hermit in an invisible cave.
Like a shadow, she reflects as you hang back in your usual spot (towards the back of the bar, tucked into darkness, where no one bothers you). If youâre not watching it, you forget itâs there.
Sheâd thought that was it. Sheâs seen plenty of people leave Stillwater and fall into violence, or inebriation, or withdrawn sullenness. She figured you were a tragic statistic âyet another to add to Zaunâs tally.
And thenâŠ
Her upper lips curls when Jinx comes bounding down the stairs. She tracks the blue-haired sprite across the bar, over to where youâre sitting, then scoffs when you greet Jinx with a small smile before glaring down at her glass.
Itâs like watching a flower unfurl after weeks of frost. You smile and open up towards the sun of Jinxâs exuberance like youâve been doing it your whole life, like thereâs nothing more natural to you than beaming at Silcoâs brat. And, sure, Jinx is a kid and sheâs kind of cute, for a demented gremlin. But sheâs still Jinx.
Sevika scowls down into her whiskey. Fucking psycho kid.
Youâd called it kismet when sheâd asked why you tolerate Silcoâs batty brat. Youâd lost your baby sister when youâd gone into prison, Jinx had lost Vi after the factory explosion, and then, years later, the universe had brought you two together and balanced everything back out, or fucking whatever.
She supposes itâs a decent arrangement. Jinx isnât nearly as vicious and off kilter with you around, and you get all soft, and mushy, and happy, and prettyâ
Sevika motions to Thieram to top her glass up again. Fuck me.
Youâre protective of Jinx, too. Not that the brat canât handle herself (Sevika has her new arm to prove that). But, she can still remember the night Finnâs gang had crowded into the Last Drop. Theyâd been obnoxious, and overbearing, and more than a little sloshed. Jacen, one of Finnâs âgood buddies,â had slapped Jinx across the ass as a joke.
Heâd done it in front of Silco. He was a dead man regardless.
Before anyone âeven Jinxâcould react, though, youâd lurched out of your chair, grabbed the sledgehammer you keep with you in lieu of a knife or a gun, and taken two long strides across the bar. âJacen!â
Sevikaâs core clenches at the memory. She lets out a harsh breath, then gulps down half her drink.
The crimson, glittering spray of blood through the air had been beautiful. Like gems cascading through the air. Jacenâs face had caved in on one side from where you drove the head of the hammer all but through it. Heâd dropped to the floor in a heap, unmoving.
âAnyone else want to have a go?â
Sheâd gotten herself off to the thought of it that very night. The fury in your eyes, the decisive, powerful movements of your body, the splatter of blood. Sheâd climaxed harder than she had in a long time.
The whiskey burns her throat âexpected and grounding.
She takes it without coughing or gasping. Sheâs been an expert for decades. Her jaw works as she finishes swallowing, and then she turns her head so she can watch you again.
Youâre listening and nodding while Jinx rambles. Thereâs a certain attentiveness to your expression. Maybe itâs the angle of your eyebrows, or the soft, lax look of your jaw, or the brightness in your eyes. Whatever it is, itâs a total abandonment from both the harsh, dominating fury sheâs seen from you, and the skittish, withdrawn apathy.
Something soft and needy aches beneath her ribs as she watches you with Jinx. Sevika grits her teeth and exhales with practiced languor. Iâve gone fucking soft.
Sevika doesnât consider herself possessive. She visits the brothel far too regularly, and has more than a handful of casual âsituationshipsâ with different ladies around Zaun to be possessive. Sheâs not monogamous, at least. She doesnât think of other people as property. The children of Zaun donât have the luxury of such affluent detachment.
But she wants you. Itâs like this thing that sits beneath her ribs and crawls around inside her. Itâs restless, and writhing, and it gnaws on her bones like a feral dog in the dark corner of an alley. It keeps her up at night with racing thoughts, vivid hopes, and half-formed âwhat ifs.â
It also keeps her up at night because, more often than not, she winds up masturbating to the thought of you âlike some starstruck, gods-damned teenager.
Sheâs not used to wanting ânot for companionship, at least. She wants her freedom, wants her equality, wants Zaun to stand strong against those fucking Piltie pigs⊠but thatâs about Zaun. Thereâs a certain degree of detachment there. Itâs not about Sevika personally, the woman who is renowned at the Gardens, beats everyoneâs ass in cards, and can drink any citizen of Zaun under the table. The woman who got blown up and survived, lost an arm and came back stronger, and practically rules the Undercity with a steel spine and a âliteralâiron fist.
She doesnât want for company. Any attention she wants, she can easily get. She doesnât stay up half the night yearning for anyone, much less a⊠lover? Companion? Affection?
Sevika knocks back the rest of her drink, but the burning in her throat pales in comparison to the ache in her chest. Janna, kill me. Put me out of my fucking misery.
She wants you. She wants to get her hands on you, get you underneath her (or on top of her, sheâs not picky), and crack you open. She wants to drink you down, watch all that rage and goodness and steeliness and softness pour out. She wants to find its source and let it all wash over her. She wants it âneeds itâfor herself.
She wants it to be hers, even in part. She wants to bask in everything you keep held back by your silent, stoic mask.
Thereâs a headache forming behind her left eye. Probably from clenching her teeth; ever since the scars on her face crystalized, the muscles on the left side of her jaw have been more sensitive to strain.
Sheâs not used to this âthis, this insipid, endless pining. Itâs been going on for months now, and sheâs just about ready to put a fork in her eye just to make it fucking end.
She barks at Thieram to get her another glass. Drink until you feel nothing. Zaunâs oldest remedy. She leans heavily against the bartop, then groans beneath her breath. Might as well buy the whole bottle. Against good sense, she resumes watching you. Warmth spreads through her chest when you grin at Jinx, and she bites the inside of her cheek to keep from smiling.
âYâknow, somehow, I donât think sheâs going to figure out you like her just from you staring at her like a creep through a window.â
Sevika tenses, then glares at Ran as they sit down on the barstool next to hers. She picks up her refilled glass with her left hand and lifts it to her lips. âFuck off. Nobody asked you.â
Ran stays where they are âa credit to their courage, at least. They smirk, then glance across the bar, to where youâre sitting, before returning their knowing, smug gaze to Sevika. âItâd be easier if you talked to her.â
âShut. Up.â
âIâm just trying to save you the eyestrain.â They grin, thin and sharp, when Sevika flips them off, then lean against the wooden countertop. âSeriously, though. Why not ask her out?â
Sevika scowls and focuses on her whiskey glass, which is suddenly very interesting. âSânot that simple.â
âWhy not?â
Sevika nearly kicks them off the stool and onto the floor (just for starters), but when she catches a look at Ranâs face and realizes theyâre not teasing, she sighs and scrubs her face with her right hand. âI⊠I donât know what sheâd say.â
âSince when is that a problem for you?â Ran asks, face twisting with equal parts mirth and disbelief. When Sevika rolls her eyes, they shove her shoulder lightly. âItâs not like you ever have to work for it.â They pause, then smirk devilishly. âMaybe itâs weakened your game. Is that it?â
Sevika glares at them, then kicks Ran in the shin when they start snickering. âIâm gonna smother you in your sleep. And for your information, you giggling bastard, thatâs not the problem.â When Ran swallows their smile and motions for her to continue (while rubbing at their shin), she huffs. âI âI donât know if she likes women.â
Ranâs visible eyebrow arches. âYouâve seen her.â
â...Duh.â
âShe likes women.â When Sevika grimaces, Ran narrows their eyes. âYou think otherwise?â
âI donât think she likes anybody,â Sevika admits; doing so is somehow both a relief and condemning all in one. âYouâve seen her around people. Sheâs not exactly interested.â
âNot everyone likes a girl in their lap the way you do.â
âThatâs not the point,â Sevika snarls under her breath as she rolls her eyes.
âThen what is?â
Itâs not easy to articulate. Sure, itâs an unspoken, universally acknowledged truth in Zaun, but that doesnât mean anyone ever says it.
People go into Stillwater, and they come out âif they come out at allâdifferent. Broken. You spent most of your life in that shithole âspent most of your teenage years thereâat the anti-mercy of the wardens and other prisoners. It only stands to reason that any part of you inclined towards a relationship âor sex, or human contactâgot snuffed out by the need to survive.
She feels bad for you, sometimes. Only when itâs too quiet, and she doesnât have anything to do, and sheâs not drunk and-or high enough to keep her thoughts from wandering to the dark, traitorously soft corners of her mind. She can almost see the child you started as âfiery, but so soft and good and kindâand it all got stomped out by the assholes ruling above them.
Sevika forces herself to loosen her death grip on the glass. Breaking it wouldnât be the end of the world, but she hates picking shards out of the grooves of her mechanical fingers. âYou havenât seen her around Silver. She touched her shoulderââ she nods at you subtly ââwithout warning. I thought she was gonna break Silverâs fingers.â
âThatâs Silver,â Ran says with a derisive curl of their upper lip. âShe wouldnât know the meaning of âboundariesâ if it rammed itself up her ass.â
Theyâre not wrong; the young womanâs brazen attitude is one of the things Sevika likes about Silver âalbeit in small doses.
âShe doesnât talk to anyone,â Sevika murmurs, pathetic by her own standards. Sheâs worn down enough, though, to speak plainly. âShe doesnât go to any of the brothels, or take anyone home âand, yes, Iâve asked. She hates being touched, or being near anyone.â She presses her lips together to keep a pitiful smile back âsheâd never forgive herselfâthen downs more whiskey. The burn of the liquor grounds her, brings her back to normalcy. âI donât think sheâs interested.â
Ran nods minutely, mulling the evidence over. They watch you for a minute, hawkish in their scrutiny. âShe sits with Jinx.â
âJinx,â Sevika grits out (both because itâs Jinx, and because of the implication of Ranâs observation), âis a kid.â
âShe is,â they agree, unfazed. âBut, clearly, sheâs not entirely opposed to all human contact.â
Like I donât fucking know that. Sevika clenches her teeth together to keep from snapping. Sheâs observed the same damn thing, and itâs what keeps that whining, consuming, itching ember of hope burning in her chest.
Ran watches Sevika for a moment, then continues when she doesnât say anything. âShe sits with you.â
âThatâs different,â Sevika says on reflex.
âI donât think it is,â they press. âShe never sits with anyone else. Itâs either on her own, with Jinx, if sheâs here, or with you.â
âIââ
âItâs not like sheâs in it for playing cards,â Ran continues, staring Sevika down when she tries to argue. âAnd she doesnât drink much, either.â They prop one elbow against the bartop. âFrankly, if youâre not here, then she isnât. She only bothers hanging around if youâre here.â
âThatâsââ
âShe talks to you a lot, too,â Ran drawls, tone both teasing and reflective. âThe rest of us are lucky to get a word or two from her, but sheâll talk the whole night with you.â
âIâmââ
âShe lets you touch her, too. Iâve even seen her touch your shoulder in return.â
âIf you interrupt me againââ
âQuit moping,â Ran says, voice flat and final. âAsk her out, or get over it.â
Thereâs a lot she could say to that. First of all, no one accuses her of moping. But she tucks it away for later; she doesnât want to start kicking Ranâs ass in front of everyone, because that means the trigger point for said ass kicking will inevitably become common knowledge. Her feelings are nobodyâs business but hers. Second of all, no one but Silco tells her what to do, and thatâs only for work. She is the only damn master of her personal life, thank you very fucking much. Third, she knows for a fact that Ran spent nearly two years pining for one of Silcoâs assassins, so theyâve got zero room to talk shit.
Sevika downs the rest of her drink, then motions for a third refill. âSheâs not interested.â
Ran stares at her for a moment. Then, they scoff and shake their head. âYouâre an idiot.â
Sevika glares harshly at themâ
The door to Silcoâs office creaks open, then thumps shut, followed by the man himself quietly descending the staircase to the bar floor. âJinx.â He finishes buttoning his trench coat shut. âPack up your things. Weâre going home.â
âWhat?â Jinxâs face screws into the picture of teenage consternation. The baby fat on her cheeks makes her look younger still. âButââ
âItâs alright.â You quickly and neatly arrange her blueprints and drawings into a single stack, then hand them to the blue-haired youngster. âWe can talk later, okay?â
Envy curls in Sevikaâs gut when Jinx hugs you and you reciprocate with one arm. She turns away and hides her scowl behind her glass. Fucking brat.
Silco addresses the rest of his crew, âI trust that youâre all competent enough to avoid burning the place to the ground?â He arches his good eyebrow, then smirks when a mix of serious answers and half-drunk jokes rise up from the crowd. âGood enough.â He turns to face Sevika and tosses her a key. âYou decide when the bar closes.â
She catches the key with her right hand, then flips Petrichor off with her left when they start grumbling under their breath about Sevika being in charge. She raises her glass to Silco in lieu of a spoken fair well, then knocks the rest of it back when he leaves out the rear with Jinx in tow. âFucking finally. Theo! Put something good on for a change.â
âAre you having another?â
Sevika looks down as Silver âone of Silcoâs personal spiesâmaterializes at her side. She eyes the younger woman âher tight dress, high ponytail, and alluring make upâthen looks away. Not with you. âProbably not. Best to take it easy.â
âSince when?â Ran mutters under their breath.
Sevika subtly kicks their stool, then looks down when Silver situates herself between her legs.
âYou sure?â Silver pouts âwhich does stir something in Sevika, given Silverâs plush lips and deep-colored lipstick, but itâs not the something that she wants tonight. Silver bats her eyelashes a little, then smiles coyly. âCould be fun.â
Sevika bites back a scowl; she doesnât want to put Silver off permanently ânot yet, anyway. She wracks her brain for some sort of believable excuse that even Silver would acceptâ
As fortune would have it, one falls into her lap.
ââpretty sure I hit three-fifty yesterdayââ
A collective chorus of groans alerts Sevika to the newest problem âchiefly, that Arik is bragging about his âgym gains.â Again.
Nevermind that she could break him over her knee like a fucking twig.
âItâs taken a lot of dedication and hard work.â Arik stretches and flexes, preening while everyone else rolls their eyes. âI donât want to brag, but Iâm probably the strongest member in the crew.â
Sevika arches one eyebrow in judgment; itâs ludicrous, considering that heâs ignoring her, the bouncers, Leon and Boris, and Lock, Silcoâs mountainous, tattooed henchman that works security at the Shimmer plants. Why do we even put up with you?
Theo barks out a laugh. âFat fucking chance, dickwad. No way in hell youâre the strongest person here. Pretty sure Miss Silver could knock you on your ass.â
âIâd take that bet,â Silver chimes in, twirling a lock of her straight, powder purple hair around her finger.
Arik pouts, looking like a spoiled teenager. âOh, yeah? Whoâs strongest, then? You?â
âNo.â Theo shakes his head. âI donât have delusions of grandeur like you. Nah, itâs probablyâŠâ He looks around the bar, eyeing the bouncers, then Sevika, before twisting in his seat so he can see the back of the bar. âActually, itâs probably Mouse, here.â
It takes you a moment to register the nickname foisted upon you by the rest of the crew. You lift your head, blink a few times, then straighten up. âWhat?â
âCuntface hereââ Theo jerks his thumb over his shoulder at Arik, who sputters and wheezes like a dying engine ââthinks heâs the strongest person in the crew. I wagered that title would probably go to you.â
âOh.â You look around at everyone, then nod. âOkay.â
Arik huffs and crosses his arms over his chest. âThereâs âthereâs no way to prove that! Size isnât everything!â
Sevika bites back a smirk as every single woman in the bar glances at each other and rolls their eyes.
âYouâre shitting me, right?â Theo sneers at Arik. âLook at her, and look at you. Itâs not going to be much of a competition.â
âYou canât prove that!â Arik insists, expression petulant.
Theo swivels in his seat to face you again. âCan you knock him out to shut him the fuck up?â
âNo oneâs doing that,â Sevika pipes up when everyone starts chattering and laughing excitedly. When people start grousing, she levels the room with a hard, final glare. âWeâre not paying to get blood out of the floorboards. Again. If you all want to be idiots and knock the shit out of each other, you do it on your own time and floors, where I donât have to clean up after your fucking mess.â
Thereâs a lull, and for a moment it seems like thatâll be itâ
Silver perks up. âWhat about arm wrestling?â
âHey,â Ran drawls, eyes lighting up. âThat could work.â
âAnything to get this moron to shut the fuck up,â Theo grumbles.
Arik pouts, but says nothing.
When she realizes everyone is looking for her âpresumably for permission, not that anyoneâs ever bothered asking beforeâSevika waves one hand dismissively. âKnock yourselves out.â
You watch as a table is cleared and Theo all but shoves Arik into a chair. When everyone looks expectantly at you, you shoot a wide-eyed, somewhat panicked glance her way.
Sevika offers you a half smile, then shrugs as if to say âitâs your choice.â
You shrug back, then sigh before standing. You stride over to the awaiting table and sit opposite a very grumpy, red-faced Arik.
Sevika shifts on her stool so she has a better view. Heat unfurls in her core as you prop one elbow against the table. She watches the way the thick muscles in your arm and forearm ripple with each movement. Damn.
Arik shifts in his seat. His eyelid twitches as he eyes your arm and hand. âIâ I donât knowââ
âTake her fucking hand,â Theo growls.
Arik swallows hard, then props his elbow on the table and takes hold of your hand.
âOn go,â Ran declares âtheyâve left the bar and now stand beside the table. âThree⊠two⊠one⊠go!â
Itâs not even a competition. If anything, itâs almost pathetic.
Arik tenses his arm âthen squeaks when you push his hand down so fast he nearly falls out of his chair. The back of his hand hits the wooden surface of the table with a dull thonk. He lets out an angry snarl, yanks his hand away, then lurches to his feet and storms off with such force that his chair topples to the floor.
Everyone else cheers and claps as the front door of The Last Drop slams shut behind Arik.
âFucking finally,â Theo mutters before running one hand through his curly hair. He looks at you and smiles appreciatively. âThanks for shutting him up. Want a drink?â
You lean back and away. âI âIâm good, thanks.â
âThat wasnât even a challenge, though!â Silver pipes up, pouting.
âWe already knew it wouldnât be,â Theo fires back drily.
âBut,â Ran interjects with a wry edge to their voice, âif weâre really trying to figure out whoâs strongestâŠâÂ
Sevika presses her lips into a thin line when they turn and look directly at her. Donât you fucking dare.
âDo you think you could beat Sev?â
Traitor.
You look at her, then lean back in your seat and grin. âOh, yeah. Easy.â
Sevika feels her brows rise up, and she grins back despite being annoyed with Ran literal seconds ago. âReally? Thatâs the stance you want to take?â
âI meanâŠâ You shrug and smirk. âItâs the truth.â You raise one eyebrow as buzzed laughter and inebriated runs through the gang. âWhat, you're too scared to test it?â
Themâs fighting words. Sevika cocks her head to the side, smirks right back, then shoves off her barstool and stalks over to the table.
Your eyes light up as she sits down across from you. You lean forward, prop one elbow on the tabletop, and grin. âItâs nothing personal, Sev.â
The crooked angle of your grin makes her heart flutter in a delightful, squirmy manner. She swallows hard, forces down the childish feelings of elation, and props one elbow on the table without dropping your gaze. She smirks, and revels in the way your eyes dance in the bar lighting. âNothing personal, sweetheart,â she fires back, making sure her voice comes out lower and huskier.
Your grin broadens. You clasp her hand and squeeze tight while Theo counts downâŠ
âThree, two, oneââ
Oh shit.
Itâs like shoving against a wall. Granted, Sevikaâs shoved, kicked, and punched a number of walls in her day. Sheâs left her mark âeven broken a fewâon nearly all of them. She likes to think that sheâs a reasonably strong, generally indestructible motherfucker.
You watch her for a few moments, expression placid âsave for the smug, wicked, coy, sexy smirk on your lips. You let her try for a little longer, then inhale sharply and blink rapidly. âWait, did we start already?â
âFuck you,â Sevika grits out without any real malice.
You grin, showing a brilliant, alluring flash of teeth âand then you push.
âShit.â Sevika strains against your arm.
To her credit, she feels your own arm waver slightly; to your credit, you brace your muscles, and itâs like pushing against a wall again.
She grits her teeth and tries to up the ante again. She curses when it doesnât work, then grunts when you push her arm down another fraction of an inch.
âYou okay, baby?â You grin when everyone else laughs (itâs a mix of delight and shock). âItâs okay if you need to tap.â
She grins back. Right now, she doesnât care if she loses. Frankly, if you keep flirting with her like this, sheâs the real winner in this scenario. âKeep it up, baby. Weâll see who taps.â
Itâs a lost cause. You take your sweet time, push her hand down smooth and slow, and talk a lot of smack all the while.
Sheâs got less than an inch between the table top and the back of her right hand, now. Youâre not even actively pushing, more just keeping her pinned at that point. She grunts, then laughs when your arm doesnât budge. âCome on, you cunt. Just fucking finish it!â
You laugh in return and wink. âYouâre getting tired in your old age, Sev.â
She grins. âSay that again and weâll take this out back, bitch.â
You wink âthen shove the back of her hand down against the table.
The crowd clustered around the table breaks into cheers.
Sevika canât find it in herself to give a shit. Yeah, she lost, people are teasing her for it, whatever. Sheâll kick their asses later, if she feels like it. Right now, youâre laughing, and smiling at her, and she technically got to hold your hand. Thatâs all she really cares about.
âWhat about the other one?â
Sevika blinks a few times, then frowns, confused. She looks up at Theo. âHuh?â
âHer other arm.â Heâs talking to you, but he turns and gestures to her mech arm. âWhat about that one?â
âUhâŠâ Trepidation flashes across your face as you eye her prosthetic. You cringe and lean back in your chair. âI doubt it.â
Itâs fair; her mech arm is reinforced, has motors that work the joints the way her muscles used to, and itâs heavy as shit. Sheâs crushed bones with her mechanical hand, just by clenching her hand into a fist.
But, still. In for a penny, stupid ways of flirting âall that shit.
She props her metal elbow on the table, resulting in a muted thud.
The table quakes beneath the weight of her arm.
She grins in a way that she hopes is taunting and enticing. She holds up her left hand and waggles her fingers. âYou scared, sweetheart?â
Your eyes flash. You run your tongue along the inside of your lower lip. You brace your forearms against the table as you eye her metal hand. You hesitate, pressing your lips together, then say, âJust donât crush my hand.â
âNah.â She shakes her head. Sheâs not out for revenge.
Your shoulders relax. You cock your head from side to side, stretching your neck, then put your left elbow on the table and clasp her mechanical hand. âBring it on. Sweetheart.â
Itâs a more even match; sheâd certainly hope so, given the fucking mechanical arm.
Thereâs a vein popping out on the side of your neck. Your face is pinched, expression one of intense focus and strain. The muscles in your arm and forearm stand out in full, glorious relief, defined and rippling as you fight against the force of her arm.
Her arm isnât shaking this time, at least; such are the merits of steel reinforcement bars. But sheâs not moving your hand, either. Sevika growls. The motors in her arm whir as she pushes harder.
You grunt and shove back. You bare your teeth. Your gaze is locked on where your two hands are joined. Your hands trembles from the sheer force of your exertionâ
And then her hand lowers an inch.
Everyone else gasps. Exclamations and expletives roll through the bar.
âFifty gold pieces says Mouse does it,â Theo says.Â
âBullshit,â Ran fires back. âSheâll get tired, first.â
Kharim pulls out a pad of paper and a pencil. âThatâs fifty on Mouse, so far. Do I hear one hundred?â
âIâll put twenty on Sev,â Silver says with a sweet smile.
âReally?â Sevika grunts as she pushes harder against your hand. âOnly twenty?â
You let out a breathless, strained laugh âthen push her hand down further.
âWhoâs got another fifty on Mouse?â Kharim asks.
Too late, she realizes her prosthetic arm is actually working against her, in this situation. She has to work against the weight of the mech arm âwhich you can use to your advantage, naturally. The built in mechanical safeties are hosing her, too. Her arm is designed such that, at certain angles or certain levels of exertion, the gears and motors will give to whatever sheâs working against. It prevents damage to the internal mechanisms and bending the internal support structures. Itâs invaluable for the longevity of her prosthetic, but it also means she canât mindlessly strain against your hand like she could with her right arm. Her only hope is that her left arm can outmatch yours in raw strength.
Normally, sheâd go all in on that bet. Normally âunless her opponent was doped to the gills on Shimmerâthere wouldnât even be enough force in the picture for the failsafes to override the locking mechanisms.
You growl, teeth bared in a glorious snarl, and shove her metal hand lower.
She canât even find it in herself to be mad. One, sheâs not some mealy-mouthed bitch who needs to be the strongest person in the room at all times; she, unlike some people (Arik), is confident in herself and her abilities. Two, itâs frankly impressive. Itâs an unrepentant display of raw strength, and sheâs not above respecting it. ThreeâŠ
Itâs hot.
Sheâs torn between focusing on resisting you and watching the muscles in your arm flex. Her mild buzz isnât helping, either. In hindsight, shouldâve stopped with the second glass. Itâs taking far too much focus not to just gawk, to grin and simper like an idiot, and she likes to think she still has her pride âwhich is also why sheâs not just giving up. After all, she has her pride. Sevika growls when you force her hand lower, then doubles down and pushes back. Maybe not for much longer, with how this is going. Fuck.
You grit your teeth. Thereâs sweat glistening along your hairline (which might be her only other saving grace, since her mech arm canât get tired). You snarl, then grip her hand tighter.
Sevika swears when her arm suddenly jerks downward. She nearly topples out of her chair, saved only by managing to plant her feet beneath the table. She catches herself, blinksâ
Itâs over.
You shove her metal knuckles against the table with a thud âhard enough that the wood dents inward where her steel knuckle guard hits the surface.
The crowd goes nuts, loses their minds, whatever. If sheâs being honest, sheâs really not paying attention to it. A distant fragment of her brain registers the squaring of bets, exchanging of coin, butâ
Youâre still holding her hand.
A larger, deeply buried part of her is furious that she doesnât have better sensory input on her left hand. She can detect pressure and temperature, rudimentary shit, but she canât feel the calluses on your palm, or the precise texture of your skin. She canât really gauge how thick your hand is in hers.
Youâre still panting, somewhat dazed as you stare down at your joined hands. Slowly, your eyes trace up the line of her mech arm, up to her face, where you take in her stunned expression. You swallow, quick, then grin.
Youâre breathing hard. Your skin glistens faintly with warmth. Your hair looks tousled, slightly sweat trapped. And your grin practically glows.
Itâs the closest sheâs ever been to seeing what you look like after sex. Sevika can feel her mind filing every single detail of how you look away for future masturbatory reference. She grins back, slow and a bit dazzled. âShit.â
You let out a soft, quiet laugh. You drop her gaze for a moment, but when you look back up your eyes shine unabated joy.
Youâre not looking away. Youâre not pulling away. Youâre not letting go of her hand.
Do it, a voice that sounds irritatingly like Ranâs whispers in her mind. Do it, you fucking coward. Sevika licks her lips, then leans forward, hoping that she comes across as conspiratorial and collected. âIââ
âAw, donât feel too bad, Sev.â
The sudden intrusion feels more like an assault. Fake, sweet perfume cloys at her nose. Thereâs arms around her neck, and unwanted weight in her lap.
Silverâs face looms into view. She peers down through her lashes, lips posed in a perfect, alluring pout. âItâs notââ
Whatever else Silver says goes in one ear and out the other. Sheâs looking over the smaller womanâs shoulder, instead.
You pull your hand back across the table. Your smile slips away, and your shoulders bunch up ever so slightly. Back to the usual mask of the careful, quiet mouse.
Godsdammit. Sevika shoves Silver out of her lap and stands with a snarl. âFuck off.â She stomps away and up the stairs, to where Silcoâs office and a few private rooms are. âEveryone, out! Tonightâs done!â She ignores the groans and jeers following her, storms into Silcoâs office, and slams the door shut behind her so hard that it rattles in its setting.
Silcoâs office is mercifully dark. Quiet.
Sevika collapses onto the quilted velvet couch tucked into the corner of the office. She drops her head into her hands and scrubs at her face. Jannaâs left fucking tit, that was a disaster. She sits up, only to slump against the couch like a dejected teenager. This is never going to work out.
If she was anyone else, she might cry âout of sheer frustration, if nothing else. Since sheâs not anyone else, she helps herself to a cigar from Silcoâs stash.
She only gets as far as rummaging through his desk for the cutter. (Jinx must have absconded with it. Again.) Something in her hindbrain makes her go still; an old, well-tested instinct that says âsomething isnât right.â
Sevika freezes. Her eyes scan the darkness for any signs of intruders, or one of Jinxâs traps. She strains her ears; aside from the faint, scuttling noises of stray pests, itâs silent.
Too silent.
There should be more talk coming from downstairs; she hadnât really expected everyone to listen to her when she ordered them all to clear out. There should be music playing, people arguing, clacks from the balls on the pool table. At the very least, there should be complaining and the noises of a final clear down.
Sheâd half-expected Silver to follow her upstairs. Or maybe Ran, at least. But thereâs no sounds of someone climbing upstairs, or Silverâs high-pitched voices, or even creaking floorboards in the hall outside.
Sevika pulls out a knife she keeps tucked in a sheath hidden behind the waistband of her pants. She creeps forward, deadly silent, until she reaches the door of Silcoâs office. She gingerly places her right hand on the doorknob, until itâs completely encapsulated by her grip, then slowly turns the handle. Once the latch is fully retracted, she tucks herself behind the door and inches it open. She waits for a beat, then another, then peers around the corner.
The bar is empty.
Now that the doorâs open, she can hear the sounds of someone rummaging around the main bar floor. Thereâs no conversation, though; itâs too quiet to be the usual crew, for another matter.
Sevika stalks down the hall. She quietly, efficiently clears each room before she passes it, until she reaches the end of the outer wall, where the balcony begins. She tucks herself into the shadows, then peers around the corner.
Youâre down on the bar floor, putting the remaining chairs up on the tables.
Sevika watches you for a moment, somewhat dumbfounded. Where the fuck is everyone else? She blinks, until her brain finally processes that The Last Drop has not been broken into by assassins or other hooligans, then steps around the corner and into the full light of the bar. She taps the railing of the balcony with her metal hand to alert you to her presence. When you look up, she gestures around aimlessly. âWhereâd they go?â
You look around, then back up at her and shrug with one shoulder. âYou said to get out.â
âDoesnât mean theyâd actually listen.â
Your gaze cuts away from hers. You duck your head, then go back to putting up the chairs. âMightâve pushed âem. Enforced the order.â You give a one shouldered shrug. âThought you wanted âem gone.â
Sevika grunts and nods. Fair enough. At least, now, she doesnât have to deal with Silver lingering around. For lack of knowing what else to do, she watches you as you continue tidying things up for the night. âWe donât pay you to do that.â
You shrug; your backâs to her, now, as you work your way around a circular table. âDoesnât really matter. Thieram deserves a night off, every now and then.â
Thereâs not much point in loitering on the balcony and staring at you like a mooning idiot. She strides across the length of the balcony, tromps down the stairs, then crosses the distance to the table youâre working in three strong steps. She grabs one of the remaining chairs, flips it upside down with ease, then hooks the seat of the chair on the table top.
You go still for a moment. You watch her, gaze following her every movement, until you relax again and resume working. ââM sorry âbout earlier.â
She nearly trips over the chair sheâs picking up. Sevika stalls, blinks, then sets the chair back on the floor and levels you with an incredulous, confused stare. âWhat?â
âFor kicking your ass.â The corner of your mouth briefly ticks up in a self-satisfied smirk, but it washes away to true contrition. âWasnât trying to humiliate you ân front of everyone.â
âIââ She pinches the bridge of her nose. Canât imagine where that narrative came from. âIâm not. You didnât.â She hangs the chair from the table, then scoffs, indignant. âFuckâs sake, Iâm not Arik.â
You smirk, but stay still as you watch her for a few moments. âYou were mad about something.â
âI was mad at Silver,â Sevika grouses, careful to avoid making eye contact. And her lousy sense of timing.
You let her get the last few chairs, opting instead to grab a tray and collect stray glasses and empty beer bottles. âYou two okay?â
She snorts. âWeâre not involved enough to be âokayâ or otherwise. Weâve fucked before. End of story.â
â...Did she do something to you?â
The tight, lethal quietness in your voice gets her attention. She straightens up, meets your gaze, and shakes her head. âNo. She just gets on my nerves now and then, sâall.â
You grunt, understanding, then add a couple more glasses to your tray before carrying the lot over to the bar.
Sevika grabs a couple stray, half-empty bottles of whiskey, tequila, and vodka, then follows partially in your wake. She stops at the bar counter, watching as you round the end so you can dispose of the beer bottles and set the used glasses in the sink. She sets the half-consumed bottles on the counter, then leans against the neon light-edged lip while she watches you. âGotta say, it was pretty impressive.â She smirks when you half-turn, brows lightly drawn together, then waggles her metal fingers. âFigured Iâd have you licked.â
You snort, then shake your head. âMightâve.â You set the last of the glasses in the sink, then drop the beer bottles in the recycling can. âProbably wouldâve if weâd gone longer. Youâd have me beat on stamina.â
She canât stop her automatic, teasing, too sultry for its own good reply. âOh, I doubt that.â
You do a quick double take.You stare at her over your shoulders, eyes the size of dinner plates. Then, your lips press together before quirking upwards in a shy smile. You laugh softly. âYeah, well, your mechanics wouldâve won, in the end.â You toss the last of the bottles into the recycling can, then turn and step to the bar. âFigured it was just best toââ you draw your fingers across your neck in a quick slash and click your tongue ââcut things quick, override the locking mechanisms.â
âSmart,â Sevika purrs.
You lick your lips, then grin. You eye her for a moment, shifting from foot to foot âthen, you grab the remaining bottles and crouch so you can stow them beneath the bar counter. âCourse, helps that youâre shit at arm wrestling, too.â
âExcuse me?â she laughs, caught off guard and bemused. âRun that by me again?â
âYouâre shit at arm wrestling.â You chuckle as you stand. âYour formâs terrible. Makes you easy to beat, even if I wasnât stronger than you.â
She grins wide, exhilarated. Fighting words. âOh, is that how it is?â
You plant your palms against the bartop. ââS how it seems to me.â You smirk âwhich grows into a smile as she looks you overâthen prop your right arm against the counter. âI could show you a couple tricks. Improve your odds a bit.â
She takes the bait like the happiest, dumbest fish that ever lived and sets her right elbow atop the counter. âTeach me your ways, oh wise one.â
âRight off the batââ You reach forward and adjust the angle of her arm. ââS really not about raw power. I mean, it helps, but angles are a lot more important.â Your hands slide along the length of her arm, adjusting things until youâre satisfied with how sheâs positioned. You nod to yourself, then move to her wrist. You hold her right hand with both of yours. âGotta think about how youâre holding your hand, too. Too many people wind up pushing with their forearms. Means that they got their hands at the wrong angle, most of the time. You want to be pushing with your upper arm and shoulder.â
âWhatever you say, coach,â she drawls, layering on the sarcasm to âhopefullyâhide how breathless she is.
You snort, then lower your left hand and grip her right hand with yours âassume the position. âAlright. Try now.â
She does ânot with as much vigor as she used in the initial match, but she still puts decent effort into it. Her eyebrows spike high when she feels less strain than earlier. âShit.â
You flash her a lopsided grin. âSee? Knowing what youâre doing helps.â
âBite me.â
You fake a grimace. âNot until you shower first. I donât know where youâve been.â
âYou implying something?â
âIâve seen how many people you can beat up in a week, Sev.â
She chuckles, then shrugs in concession. âFair enough.â She grips your hand tighter and smirks wickedly before shoving against your hand, hard. âHope youâre ready to join the listââ
You grunt âthen brace against her onslaught and force her hand the other way.
âShit!â Sevika strains against your hand, but itâs veritably useless as you slowly push her hand downward (at least you have to work harder for it, this time). âSon of a bitch âmotherfucker!â
âStill stronger than you,â you fire back as you finally pin the back of her hand against the bartop. You smile, impish and sweet. âBut that was a good try.â You grin when she glowers at you, then toss your head back and laugh when she flips you off with her left hand.
She canât think of a retort; the wrestling tugged your shirt off kilter, and your laugh exposed something new âfresh, smooth ink along the side of your neck, previously hidden by your collar. She stares, tracing the way the tendrils of the flowers curve around your neck and down your clavicle before disappearing under your shirt. âThatâs new.â
You look down at her, blinking rapidly, then crane your neck to look down when she gestures loosely at your chest. âOh. Yeah.â You shrug with the opposite shoulder. âWanted to do something for myself. Cover up some of the shit I got inside.â You hesitate, then swallow hard and ask. âDo âdo you wanna see the rest of it?â
âSure.â The meaning of your offer doesnât really hit until you let go of her hand so you can start unbuttoning your top. Sevika locks her knees to keep from toppling over as all the blood rushes Southward from her head. Janna, help me.
Mercifully, you only undo the top three buttons on your shirt. Unmercifully, that gives you enough leeway to push the right side of your shirt down over your shoulder, revealing more of your chest and your neck.
Oh, and the tattoo.
Itâs pretty. Itâs a good piece, too, done by someone who knew what they were doing. The design is a dense cluster of flowers that fans up the side of your neck and down over your collarbone.
âThatâs real pretty,â Sevika ekes out, voice gone to gravel. She reaches up to touch it, but catches herself before her hand leaves the bar. Donât startle her. âDo you mind?â
It takes you a moment, but you look down when she gestures with her flesh hand. âOh.â You let out a soft, trembling breath. Your throat flexes as you swallow. âYeah âgo for it.â
Everything that follows feels like a dream. The world seems to take on a warm, golden hue that overpowers the glaring neon lights and the dark shadow of night outside. It feels like sheâs moving through molasses, achingly slow as she lifts her hand towards your neck.
Your skin is unbelievably soft beneath her fingertips. The lines of ink stretch slightly as she traces down your neck and over your shoulder.
âThis okay?â Sevika murmurs.
âYeah.â
Something about your heavy, trembling exhale makes her look up.
Youâre staring down at her with wide, dark eyes. Your lips are parted, and youâre practically panting despite standing still.
But youâre not pulling away. Youâre not shaking. If anything, youâre practically melting beneath her hand. And your gaze is locked on her face âpractically zeroed in on her mouthâŠ
Oh.
She owes Ran a drink. Or another kick in the shin. Maybe both.
This, however, is at least more familiar territory âso long as she plays her cards right.
Various options flit through her mind, but they all desiccate before they reach her tongue. She quickly finds herself locking up instead as she tries to figure out what the fuck to say. Shitshitshitshitshitâ
(Sheâs never been more grateful that you kicked everyone out. Ran would never let her live this down.)
âAsk her out, or get over it.â
Sevika swallows hard. Go big or go home. Not like the worldâs gonna end if she says âno.â She clears her throat. âAnyone ever tell you that youâre really fucking attractive?â
âIââ Your eyes go wide as you sputter. Your gaze flicks between her eyes and her mouth. âNot âno. Not really.â
âShame,â Sevika drawls. She traces her thumb down the stem of one of the flowers inked into your neck, then looks back up at you. âYouâd think theyâd have eyes. Iâve noticed since the first time we met.â
You snort, equanimity somewhat restored. âWhat, in an illegal prison fight club soaked in the blood of others?â
She smirks and winks at you. âYou made it work.â
You draw your lower lip between your teeth as you smile. You duck your head bashfully, then brace your forearms against the countertop âwhich puts you closer to her height. âI hope you wonât be offended if I say that I didnât notice you âlike thatâ from the start.â
Her gut drops. âOh?â
You shake your head, gaze still glued on the countertop. âI was, uh, a little concerned with surviving âmaking sure you didnât knock my teeth out with your metal fist, that sort of thing.â You let out a little laugh, then look at her. âBut I noticed later.â
Warmth blooms in her chest and abdomen. She grins, soft and slow. âReally?â Her grin grows when you smile shyly and nod. âWell, shit. Lucky me.â She strokes her thumb along your tattoo again; satisfaction curls in her stomach when you shiver.
âIââ You lick your lips and look at her eyes, then her lips, then back up, then back down again, then back up again. âI donâtâŠâ Your gaze locks onto her lips when she smirks; your pupils blow wide, and you let out a ragged, heavy breath. âIâd really like to kiss you right now.â
Heady elation blooms in her chest and quickly spreads through her body. âThat,â she murmurs as she slides her fingers beneath your chin and leans in, âsounds great to me.â
Your lips are soft against hers. Hesitant. You freeze, scarcely even breathing.
But youâre not pulling away âor panickingâso she decides to stay the course. She presses her lips a bit more firmly against yours, then smirks when you let out a quiet moan and angle your head towards hers. There we go. After a few moments, she breaks the kiss and pulls back incrementally to assess your interest level.
Youâre trembling. Thereâs a faint glow of sweat on your forehead. Your breaths come ragged and fast, chest rising and falling heavily. Your eyelids are half-lidded, pupils blown so wide that your eyes nearly look black.
Before she can do anything, you lean in and kiss her again; this time, itâs her turn to moan against your mouth.
Itâs clumsy. Itâs easy to tell that you donât have much âif anyâexperience in this department. But your unabashed eagerness more than makes up for lacking finesse.
Sevika gently grasps your jaw with her right hand, guiding you through the series of kisses that follow. She carefully angles your head as she pleases, and pulls back intermittently to both catch her breath and see what youâll do. When you keep following her lead, she decides to nip at your lower lip âjust to see if itâll draw you out of your shell more.
You let out a throaty growl when her teeth graze your lower lip âand then you pull away.
A mix of disappointment and fear flash through her stomach âbut it all drains away when you vault over the counter and land next to her. She smirks as you crowd into her space, but frown when genuine trepidation settles over your face. âWhat?â
Your brows pinch together. âIââ You clear your throat when your voice cracks. âI donât⊠I donât know what to do with my hands.â
Oh. Thatâs all. She smiles, lax and confident, then places her hands on your broad shoulders. âTouch me, sweetheart.â
âWhere?â
She slides her hands down your chiseled arms, then takes your hands and places them on her hips. âAnywhere.â
Youâre too still at first ânerves driven by inexperience. But you loosen up when she nips at your lower lip again. You draw in a guttural breath, then squeeze her hips tighter when she curls her fingers into your waist. You press closer to her when she slides her tongue against yours. When she slides her right hand up the back of your neck and tugs at the soft hair at your nape, you growl, then slide your hands around her ass and squeeze.
Finally. Sevika moans softly and arches against you. She wraps her right arm around the back of your neck, so she can keep you close, and rests her left hand on your hip. She plunders your mouth with her tongue, then moans again when you grope her ass more firmly. She hooks one metal finger through one of the belt loops on your pants and tugs you closer âthen gasps when you shove against the bar.
You crowd against her, kissing her fiercely, eagerly. Your hands cup her ass and lift, forcing her onto the balls of her feet so you have better access to her.
Surprise flits up her spine. Sheâs not used to being in this position; most women come to her to be manhandled, not the other way around. But she can see the appeal of it; thereâs a certain giddiness in the gut that accompanies it, like the hang time from jumping across rooftops.
The kiss devolves into something artless and hungry. The two of you meet each other in the middle, pressed against each other like teenagers in a closet.
Sheâs starting to get into that state where she feels like sheâs melting into you, and vice versa. The bar, the faint drone of passersby always present in the Lanes, the buzz of the neon lights that wrap around the bartop, the arm wrestling match less than an hour ago âall of itâs gone, blurred into background coloration like splotches on one of those fancy, impression-type paintings, for which Pilties drop the equivalent of a Trencherâs life earnings (and then some). Thereâs that familiar, ravenous ache in her cunt. She ought to ask you back to her place; The Last Drop hardly seems poignant enough for your first time. But the notion of stopping your eager exploration of her body is downright offensive âespecially when your open mouth catches her jaw and sends arousal curling through her gut.
You pause when she tips her head back. A few ragged pants fan across the sensitized, blood-hot skin of her neck. You swallow, then clear your throat. âI âis thisââ
âYes.â She curls her right hand around the back of your neck, then gently presses your forward until you lean the rest of the way in and press your lips against her throat. Her eyelids flutter as you trail soft, closed mouth kisses over the hollow of her throat. She moans softly, and her fingers curl into your short hair. Fuck. She waits for a bit, letting you explore, but pipes up again when she feels you growing more hesitant ânerves winning out over exploration. âUse your tongue.â She shudders when you lick beneath her jaw. âAttagirl.â
The praise does something for you. You moan into her skin, then repeat the motion again. You swirl your tongue against her throat, mimicking the way the two of you had kissed seconds before.
âThatâs it,â Sevika encourages you, eyes rolling back in her head. She rolls her hips against you, then groans when you press closer, neatly pinning her against the bar. âGood girl.â
You whine, loud and broken, then lift. You half lay her out on the bar, then support the rest of her by locking your arms just beneath her ass. You bend over her and bury your face in her neck, devouring her like a starved stray.
Sevika locks her ankles behind your back. She clutches at the back of your shirt with her right hand, and braces herself against the bartop with her left arm. Sheâs in the perfect position to grind against you, so thatâs just what she does.
A small, idle fragment of her mind notes just how great this is. Yes, she enjoys having her way with women âand sheâll get to you soon enoughâbut thereâs something to be said for receiving. Itâs a new spin on âbeing eaten alive,â and sheâs never been happier to be dinner.
She slides her fingers into your hair when your mouth trails lower, towards her clavicle. âGood girl.â She gasps, then tightens her grip on your hair when you drag your teeth over her collarbone. âThatâs it âgood girl, good girlââ
You moan and grind your hips against hersâ
Something crashes in the alleyway outside. Thereâs a loud slam, followed by the crystalline crack of shattering glasses. An enraged, muffled shout ensues, followed by more heavy thudding.
You both freeze.
She recovers first. A few minutes of hearing proves itâs just a couple of angry drunks going at it âshe can hear slurred, if muffled, arguing and grunting that accompanies being punched. Idiots. She turns back to youâ
Youâre completely stiff. Your eyes are wide, gaze flicking around the bar. Youâve gone from holding her to gripping the edge of the bar top.
Sevika winces faintly when she hears your knuckles crack. She opens her mouth to reassure youâ
Another thud makes you flinch âand then you press down against her.
Sevika grunts. She tries to sit up, only for you to push her back down. She stops struggling when you use your arm to cover the top of her head. What theâ
Thereâs something so deeply protective about the gesture that it makes her brain short circuit. Youâre literally covering her with your body, as though the ceilingâs about to collapse on top of the both of you.
Itâs sweet. Itâs also bewildering because nothing bad is fucking happening. Itâs just drunks in the alley; theyâll probably pass out long before they could ever beat each other to death.
Sevika gingerly splays her fingers against your back, between your shoulder blades. She murmurs your name, but gets no response ânot even a glance of recognition. Her stomach drops when another round of shouting makes you flinch. She feels your chest push against hers as your breathing speeds up âand okay, thatâs enough, time to divert things. She says your name, louder this time, then carefully cups the side of your face with her right hand. âHey, baby. Itâs okay. Just look at me, alright?â
You jolt when her thumb sweeps across your cheek. You do look down at her, though, and let out a shaky breath when you meet her gaze.
She revels, just for a moment, in how quickly you melt again under her attention. Youâre still tense âyou havenât let up your death grip on the bar topâbut your shoulders loosen up and your breathing slows a bit. You swallow hard, then lean every so slightly into her touch.
Focus. She can already feel herself getting sucked back into dreamy, brainless bliss. Focus, focus, focus. She blinks hard, then clears her throat. âHey. Letâs get out of here, yeah? My place is quieter.â She pushes up on her left arm so the counter isnât digging into her back. âMore comfortable.â
âOh.â Your eyes go wide. âUhââ
Sevika swallows a grimace. Shit. Maybe Ran was right; sheâs rusty, too eager, and now sheâs pushing too fast. âItâs okay if you donâtââ
âNo, no,â you cut her off. âWe can âI justââ You set her down, then lick your lips as you rock from foot to foot. âMy bedâs probably bigger.â You shrug and shove your hands in your pants pockets. âThatâs all.â
Only several years of playing cards keeps her from sagging in relief. She nods, trying to process as panic flashes and ebbs, then takes a moment to study you. She notes the tightness in your shoulders, the way youâve got your head ducked, and presses her lips together faintly. âI donât want to make you do anything you donât want to do.â
Your eyes flash, and you step closer to her. âItâs not,â you growl, âan issue of want.â You swallow, then let out a self-deprecating laugh âwhich, fortunately, prompts you to relax a little. âI just wonât know what Iâm doing, sâall.â
âI can work with that.â Sevika closes the distance between the two of you, gripping your hips when you bend down and kiss her again. She savors the feeling of your lips for a moment, then pulls away and grins up at you. âLead the way, sweetheart.â
#sass writes#sevika x reader#fueled by the author's desire to be built like a mountain#but alas i am a twig#also i know jackshit about arm wrestling#don't use this as a guide on how to win at arm wrestling#smut will be coming in part two
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