#theo watches svu*

[boyapologist]

about to start stabler'a last season. lord help me

[callixton]

hi theo!!!! whats your fave season of svu???

hi penrose!!! tbh the episodes blur together sm bc of how episodic they r but i would say.... s17 was my first instinct bc the finale is a lot of fun (barba gets threatened! and then reveals that less severe threats have been ongoing since he put away a couple of cops. which is so fucked but also kind of sexy of him fuck the thin blue line) & i like some of the earlier episodes tho i physically cannot watch transgender bridge i think it will make me throw up.....

umm but i think the season with the best vibes might be s15.... october surprise is prob my fave barba episode bc we learn more abt his past and how he grew up and he has to break off a decades old friendship when he learns the guy he grew up with is a piece of shit. rollins relapses which means that she meets murphy, who is batshit insane and i'm obsesssed with him. he pisses himself while undercover for no justifiable reason. bradley whitford is there.

[be-side-my-self]

Rewatch of Only Murders In The Building to prepare for season 4 (II)

<Part I> Block #OMITBRewatch if you don’t want to read notes that will have spoilers up to seasons 3. Just to make it clear, while quoting, I use M, O, C for the main characters.

S1 E5

C: "You're a simpleton." O: "Damn it! I didn't get that! Can you call me a simpleton again?" C: "You're a simpleton." O: "Thank you!"

Oscar and Mabel meeting again! ... but certainly there could have been better ways than creepily following her in a bright hoodie. Well, at least it wasn't a black hoodie.

It is so cute how Charles wants to believe in Mabel. He is right though, but it certainly does not look like Mabel is innocent that moment. She is after all driving away with Tie-dye Guy.

New York traffic looks like hell.

Again, it's great that Charles wants to believe in Mable and Oliver is like "it has to be her!"

Oscar: "I saw you once with those guys that look like retired cops. Was one of them that Brazzos guy?"

O: "Search 'Charles-Haden Savage fat.' Ooh! Look at the ass on papa."

The car is really beautiful though.

So, why did the first call go on voicemail and the second one not? Didn't Mabel had reception? But why did Charles? ... shouldn't they all use the newest iphones?

O: "It's tough... to believe that she could be... this duplicitous, I know. Tougher because you're a closed-off person. And Mabel made you... open up and trust people for the first time. So now, the thought that she might not be who she seems has you questioning it all." O: "Okay, I gotta try that again. That was very fake sounding." C: "You fucker!"

Yeah well how could you have missed that, Mabel? You were sitting on the floor, surrounded by jewelry.

Charles and Oliver really are besties.

Lucius: "Sure I follow people all the time." - ... it surely will be fine...

Honestly though I celebrated Roy Wood Jr. having a small role.

Love how the two black guys show off to the two white guys.

Also I respect Oscar's dream of starting a Yoga-studio.

The scene in the tattoo shop is great... confusing and everything is happening at the same time.

S1 E6

Detective Williams... got it.

"Herman's Head" sounds like "Inside Out" ... I never saw " Inside Out."

The scene of the Detective and her wife is really good. Because the detective is a great character. She gets so many plus points later on. She might be one of my favorite characters.

Whoop Dee Doo, Mabels Mom

Mabels Mom: "Have you ever felt that there was something you screwed up so bad, you will never fogive yourself." C & O: "... well...." Mablels Mom: "For me it was letting her spend time at the damn apartment. Please let her be. Let her move forward. Not back."

Okay but maybe Mabel needs that as a closure?

M: "Don't do Tik Tok." <- Good advise for anyone!!

C: "You know it's a law of nature. Nothing good ever happens on Long Island."

You might not know each other a lot but you are still best friends, Charles and Oliver.

Mable had a crush on Stabler from CSI: SVU... i've watched a few episodes but I don't remember much.

M "Why was Tim after the ring that Zoe had on the night she died?"

Now I remember what happened. Sometimes it just takes some time.

Gotta say that the romance between Oscar and Mabel is cute... even if tragic. They liked each other before the whole awful thing happened.

Really... Jimmy Fallon shout out for the podcast. Everyone will go listen to it.

Teddy is hardcore... good character but holy shit.

O: "You know my phone settings... I am not a rando!"

They are besties!

Food is really the best peace offering.

M: "But you guys... Are you really gonna make me say it?" C: "I kinda like to hear the words, yes." O: "Also rank us. I'm dying to know who your favorite is."

It's Charles, Oliver. Mabel likes Charles more.

It's Tim Kono's phone!

C: "That is right, our prime sponsor is now our prime suspect."

S1 E7

Gosh, it's so sad and weird that Bobby tries to make Theo listen to music.

Because I was curious I looked up "Carousel" and it's a musical by Rodgers and Hammerstein.

"My boy Bill, I'll see that he is named after me!"

"And you won't see nobody dare to try-- to boss him or toss him around. No pot-bellied, baggy-eyed bully will boss him around--"

The moment Bobby realises that he did exactly that to his son that moment.

And continues to do so.

I actually love the different perspectives... from Theo's point of view everything is muffled... and then he talks with the watchers. XD I'm just glad they translate the important parts of the ASL.

The whole episode is great because almost nothing or nothing is said?

Teddy is still bullying his son.

Teddy: "If there is a problem, I'll fix it."

I guess Zoe really was a troubled child...

"Scary" - "Sexy" - "Hard" - "Wet" - "Woody" - "Yum"

How to flirt with scrabble?

"Teddy is a Gray Roger!" - "Are you having a stroke?" - "Grave Robber! Teddy is a Graverobber!"

It was all an accident.

O. PUTNAM & MABEL - 78 Messages O. PUTNAM - 11 Missed Calls

I love that Charles has Oliver as O. PUTNAM in his address book.

Uh Oh.

S1 E8

Love that Jabouki Young-White is also having a part.

O: "Do you know that I was the first director to use areal cadaver on stage? In Tuesdays At Bernie's. It was my dual adaptation of Tuesdays With Morrie and Weekend at Bernie's." M: "What?"

Yeah, Teddy. I'm sure the deaf son was more responsible for the failing of your marriage than all the whores.

Lmao, Jen is a freak.

Jen: "Brazzos was our safe word." M: "And what's the safe word for me to get out of this conversation?"

LMAO... Detective Williams is so cool.

Incredible that Jen and Oscar get added to the roaster and then the fans too.

... it was not the Dimas'ses

I think I now remember who it was... though I though she was the one who did it in season 2? I got it all confused... that is why I need the rewatch. xD

[simmerdowndee]

uni_dayz episode four part three

Theo is in Newcrest for the club’s competition. I didn’t get to see him before he left, so things are not the greatest with us right now. I’m still very annoyed with that party. I’m just gonna binge watch law and order svu tonight……...

Meanwhile at the commons…

(Theo’s POV)

Our team won first place in the competition. It’s our first win as a team and we’re all so pumped. We all head back to campus to celebrate at the commons.

I really wish I could have seen Koda before I left. I don’t like how we left off. I hate it when she’s mad at me. She’s not wrong for how she feels… Raegan can be a handful. During the competition today, she kept her distance from me, which didn’t bother me whatsoever. I just found it strange. I see her walking over to me.

Raegan: Congratulations teammate!

Theo: Haha, congratulations.

Raegan: Can I talk to you in private?

Theo: Uh… sure. Let’s go upstairs.

Not sure what he needs to talk to me about, but I’ll bite.

Raegan: Finally, some time alone.

Theo: Raegan, what is it that you want to talk about?

Raegan: I think we should stop fighting the tension between us.

What the hell is she talking about?

Theo: I’m sorry, what?

Raegan: Theo, we both like each other. C’mon.

Theo: I don’t know if you noticed but I have a girlfriend. You’ve met her, remember? You almost met her hands the other night.

Raegan: And you didn’t let that happen now did you? Because you were protecting me.

Theo: I was protecting Dakota.

Oh, she’s actually delusional. Wait, is she leaning in to kiss me?!?!

I get up before she can get any closer.

Theo: Raegan, I only see you as a teammate. You are getting very disrespectful.

Raegan: Wait Theo, I’m sorry. Let’s just forget I did that and go back and hang out okay?

Theo: Nah, Imma head out. Tell the guys I left.

Dakota was right, I should’ve put her in her place before this. I’m going to see her tonight. I don’t want to wait until tomorrow.

[hold-the-devil-well]

oh gosh this got lost in the midnight insomnia scroll! Thank you for the tag @t3acupz !

3 ships I like:

1. Hannigram (obvs)

2. Loustat

3. (if it's not cheating) my OC's Theo and Aaron (they're basically role-swapped Hannigram--Theo is a semi-evil grad student and Aaron is the older philosophy professor who becomes Theo's obsession/project).

First ships: This is going to show my age, eek.

TV: Josh x Donna from The West Wing (which I would NOT ship now), then much later Olivia Benson x Alex Cabot from Law & Order SVU.

I didn't really ship book characters (or read comics) for a long time... unlike with tv I kind of just let the author be the boss. But recently I re-read the Secret History by Donna Tartt and I really wanted Francis and the narrator (Richard?) to get together, lol.

Last song I heard: When the Night is Over by Lord Huron

Fave childhood book: the Redwall series, especially Martin the Warrior, probably.

Currently reading: I'm in school for creative writing so it's assigned/recommended stuff mostly. I just finished The Sleepwalkers by Scarlett Thomas.

Currently watching: Interview with the Vampire (AMC)!!!!!

Currently consuming: black coffee

Currently craving: a chocolate chip cookie ice cream sandwich (it's summer!)

Anyone who sees this and wants to do it, consider yourself tagged!

9 Fandom Peeps to Get to Know Better

saw this on the dash done by @flyinghome-againstthewind <3

3 ships you like:

the doctor & rose tyler (doctor who) -> #1 otp forever

mulder & scully (the x files)

jamie & claire (outlander) ❤️

First ship ever: pocahontas & john smith from the disney movie, however other honourable mentions go to: princess mia & nicholas from the princess diaries 2, mulan & li shang, and nick parker & elizabeth james from the parent trap!

Last song that you heard: the boy is mine - ariana grande cause i had eternal sunshine on shuffle on my walk home

Favourite childhood book: the secret garden by frances hodgson burnett, i read it when i was around eight years old and it's still a very special book to me.

Currently reading: the bloody chamber by angela carter ehehehe

Currently watching: i just finished watching all six seasons of sex & the city (and i already miss it)

Currently consuming: nothing at the moment but i had iced tea earlier

Currently craving: a sense of focus LOL

tagging @heatherfield @elizabethtudorstuff @enyoalkis @greenfinchwriter @panbelle @mihrsuri @beautywithin16 and anyone else who wants to do this!

[pvper]

[rahleeyah]

SVU 2.0 Watchlist

a quick and dirty guide to 2.0 for Olivia stans. I’ve broken it out into categories so y’all can pick and choose. I have given notes about some of the episodes to help you decide if you want to watch or not. Please note: this is my opinion and other people may have different takes. 

Olivia/David

13.12: Official Story 

13.13: Father’s Shadow (ok David is barely in this one, this goes more into the Olivia is in Danger category, but it’s worth watching)

13.15: Hunting Ground

13.17: Justice Denied

Olivia/Cassidy

13.23: Rhodium Nights

14.1: Lost Reputation 

14.17: Undercover Blue

15.3: Internal Affairs

15.14: Comic Perversion

15.19: Downloaded Child (the breakup)

19.14: Chasing Demons

20.16: Facing Demons

Olivia & Simon

13.16: Child’s Welfare

21.6: Murdered at a Bad Address

Lewis

14.24: Her Negotiation 

15.1: Surrender Benson/Imprisoned Lives

15.9: Psycho Therapist (brace yourselves it’s a lot) 

15.19: Beast’s Obsession

15.20: Post-Mortem Blues

Olivia/Tucker

17.5: Community Policing

17.14: Collateral Damages

17.16: Manhattan Transfer

17.17: Unholiest Alliance

17.22: Heartfelt Passages

18.7: Next Chapter

18.8: Chasing Theo (the breakup)

21.12: The Longest Night of Rain

Olivia is in Danger!!

17.10: Townhouse Incident (I also maintain this is where she hooked up with Tucker)

18.7: Next Chapter

19.23: Remember Me

20.18: Blackout (this is the start of an arc with Liv in trouble)

20.23: Assumptions

20.24: Endgame

Olivia & Noah

15.13: Wednesday’s Child (this is just where Olivia first finds Noah)

15.23: Spring Awakening (Liv gets a baby!!)

16.1: Girls Disappeared

16.19: Granting Immunity (baby Noah gets the measles)

16.23: Surrendering Noah

17.8: Melancholy Pursuit

19.2: Mood (Liv is accused of child abuse, watch 19.1 for context)

19.9: Gone Baby Gone

Miscellaneous 

13.1: Scorched Earth

13.2: Personal Fouls (I recommend this one solely bc it’s where we meet Nick, and if you want to see Liv’s initial interactions with her new partner, it’s worth it)

14.9: Dreams Deferred (this is just a really good case/perspective episode)

14.10: Presumed Guilty (it’s Christmas! We get a Christmas episode! Happy feelings!)

14.13: Monster’s Legacy (Liv and Bayard Ellis hold a special place in my heart)

14.18: Legitimate Rape (Liv defends a woman who got pregnant by her rapist)

15.10: Amaro’s One-Eighty 

15.11: Jersey Breakdown

15.17: Criminal Stories (yeah ok maybe I think Liv fucked Alex Baldwin too so sue me) 

16.15: Undercover Mother (Olivia!! In!! Leather!! Pants!!)

17.13: Nationwide Manhunt (I just like seeing Olivia about to murder that Brownyn bitch with her bare hands)

17.21: Intersecting Lives (you don’t have to watch this one but it gives context for the next one)

17.22: Heartfelt Passages (DODDS)

18.5: Rape Interrupted (Olivia’s very first partner is Anthony Edwards love that for her) 

19.7: Something Happened (mostly a bottle episode centered on Liv, Good Shit)

19.13: The Undiscovered Country (Barba leaves)

19.19: Sunk Cost Fallacy (ALEX!!!)

20.3: Zero Tolerance (Liv will fight the whole goddamn government if she has to)

20.14: Part 33 (Another bottle episode, and a personal favorite)

21.5: At Midnight in Manhattan (the squad is overwhelmed with cases, just a really good episode)

21.11: She Paints for Vengeance

21.18: Garland’s Baptism by Fire (Liv gets set up with a Very Tall Man)

22.4: Sightless in a Savage Land (Barba comes back!)

[madpanda75]

“Taking Chances Part 12: The Aftermath”

See how everyone reacts to Theo’s attack on the reader. Feelings get hurt, relationships are exposed, people shout. This chapter is ALL ANGST and FEELS! 😭

Trigger Warning: This chapter mentions assault and rape.

One thing at a time. That was all you could only focus on. Otherwise the reality of what had just happened would overwhelm you. Just one step at a time as you walked into the precinct with your family, Fin, and Amanda.

“Are you sure you don’t need to go to the hospital?” Amanda asked.

“I’m fine,” you mumbled, having barely spoken since Theo ran out of the gallery that morning. The metallic taste of blood still lingered on your tongue from where he had smacked you. 

Liv walked out of her office to greet you and your family, but before she could say anything, your father spoke up. “Please tell me you’re gonna get this bastard.” 

“Dom!” your mom scolded 

“No! Don’t ‘Dom’ me. That monster assaulted my baby. I could go out there right now and take care of it.”

“Dad! Please!” Bella interjected. “Let the cops do their job!”

“Ok, everyone lets calm down,” Olivia said over the bickering.

Your eyes darted between your sister and parents, arguing over what was best for you in this situation. You felt like a child, small and helpless. You also felt partly responsible for the unnecessary stress and worry your family was feeling right now. 

Mustering as much strength as you could, you reached into the darkest depths and found your voice. “I should’ve fought harder!” Your words reverberated around the room. Everyone halted and turned their attention to you. “I should’ve followed Phoebe to the front door. I know how she forgets to lock the door.” 

Olivia gently squeezed your shoulder. “You did exactly what you had to do. You survived.”

“She’s right,” Bella chimed in and wrapped her arm around you.

Your mom nodded and ran her fingers through your hair. “I’m just so grateful to God that you’re ok.” She sniffled and kissed you on the cheek. “My patatina.”

Just then a slightly sweaty and out of breath Rafael burst into the precinct. It looked as if he had run all the way from his office. “Y/N!” He pulled you into a tight embrace before realizing that bum rushing you after you had just been assaulted was not the best idea. Wanting to respect your personal space, he immediately jumped back. His eyes scanned your body for any injuries. “Are you ok?”

Tears welled in your eyes. “As well as can be expected.” 

With a tentative hand, he reached out and cupped your cheek. You trembled under his touch and wrapped your arms around him. Rafael enveloped you, silently praying to God, the Devil, or whatever Deity existed that kept you safe.

The squad looked at each other in total shock while witnessing the public display of affection between you and Rafael. 

Fin subtly turned towards Amanda. “Did you know these two were--”

“Nope,” she murmured. “And from the looks of it neither did Liv.”

“Let’s talk in here,” Olivia said, gently leading you away from Rafael and towards an empty interrogation room.

“Why don’t I get everyone a real cup of coffee other than that sludge they have here,” Rafael offered.

Your mother smiled. “Thank you. That would be nice.”

“I’ll take a latte,” Fin teased only to receive a deadpan stare from Rafael.

While everyone went their separate ways, Amanda and Fin got to work on getting an arrest warrant. “Wow. Barba and Carisi’s younger sister.” Fin shook his head in disbelief. 

“That explains why Carisi’s been acting the way he has,” Amanda said while searching on her laptop for Theo’s office building.

“Think Barba gave him the shiner?”

“I don’t know.” Amanda glanced up and saw a frantic Sonny bounding into the precinct. “But here’s your chance to ask him.”

“Where is she? Where’s my sister?” Sonny demanded.

“She’s in there talking to Olivia,” Amanda said. Sonny looked to where his partner was pointing. It was the interrogation room used to talk to victims. Victim. His sister was a victim. He couldn’t even wrap his mind around the concept. Through the window, he could see you sitting in between your mom and Bella while your dad paced back and forth in the background. 

He barged into the room without even knocking. “Son, why don’t you wait outside,” your father said, trying to lead Sonny out of the room. 

But he side swept him and knelt down in front of you. Tears were streaming down your cheeks. “Y/N, I’m so---”

You pushed Sonny away before he could finish. “I’m going to be sick,” you whimpered and ran to the bathroom. Your sister and mom trailed after you, each giving him a severe look.

Sonny stepped out of the interrogation room and plopped down in his chair, slamming his fist down on the desk so hard the metal rattled beneath his quivering hand. 

“Hey,” Fin said. “Don’t sweat it, Carisi. We’re gonna get this creep.”

“Yeah,” he mumbled and reached into his drawer for the Pepto Bismol. The Carisi nerves reared its ugly head. He felt green. His stomach churned with guilt, grief, and whatever was leftover from breakfast. 

Rafael stepped back into the bullpen with coffee and bagels from your favorite deli, knowing you probably hadn’t eaten a thing all day. Unfortunately for him, it was another Carisi he found. He brushed past Sonny towards Fin and Amanda. “Where are we with Theo?” 

“Just finishing up this arrest warrant. Although it’s gonna be hard to get a judge to sign off on it with so little evidence,” Fin said. Rafael shuddered at the thought of you undergoing a rape kit. Having a SANE nurse poke, scrape, and prod you, searching for DNA, fingerprints, skin, and semen.

“That’s SVU for ya’.” Amanda sighed. “A victim’s word is never good enough.”

Rafael whipped out his cell phone. “I’ll call in some favors at the office. Give them a heads up about the warrant. And for the record, I’m glad there wasn’t a lot of evidence.” He glared at the back of Sonny’s head. “This could’ve been a lot worse.”

Feeling Rafael’s eyes on him, Sonny turned. “What?” he snapped. “Ya’ got somethin’ to say. So just say it.”

“You just couldn’t leave us alone could you?” Rafael shook his head in disgust and started towards the interrogation room to dole out coffee and bagels when Sonny’s voice stopped him.

“What the hell does that mean?” he sneered

Rafael scoffed. “Don’t play naive now. Grow up and realize your actions have consequences.”

Fin watched as the two men provoked each other. “Hey, fellas. Chill.”

Sonny ignored Fin and walked over to Rafael, getting right in his face. “If you think for one second—”

“Guys c’mon,” Amanda chimed in. “ Don’t do this.”

Rafael held his ground. “I think that when you invited Theo you were stupid enough to believe that she would crawl back to him. And because of you that monster almost raped her.”

Sonny’s blood boiled. “How dare you! I love my sister more than anythin’ in this world.”

Rafael let out a mirthless laugh. “Got some way of showing it!” 

Everyone stopped their work and began inching closer towards the two men to get a prime view of the potential fight. Some of the junior officers had their phones out ready to capture the action. All eyes of the precinct were on Rafael and Sonny. 

Sensing this was seconds away from coming to blows, Fin stepped in. “Barba, that’s enough!”

Rafael eluded Fin’s attempt to keep the peace and continued, “I don’t care if she is your sister. I love that woman more than anything in this world and I will do anything to protect her. Especially since her brother doesn’t know how to.”

“Stop it! Both of you!” Your voice pierced the air, causing everything and everyone to come to a screeching stop. 

Rafael took a step toward you. “Y/N, I’m--”

“No!” you interrupted. “I can’t take it anymore. I can’t take this fighting. If you can’t behave like civilized human beings then get out!” You pushed past the small crowd that had formed and went back into the interrogation room with your mom and sister. 

Amanda clapped her hands. “Alright, guys. Show’s over.” As the crowd dispersed she went back to her desk, raising her brow in a manner that said, ‘Serves you boys right.’

Rafael cleared his throat and sat in an empty chair while Sonny went over to his desk. The two men were silent with Rafael staring at his phone and Sonny chugging more Pepto Bismol. Being scolded in front of the entire precinct was enough humiliation to suffer through for one day.

One hour later and the interrogation room door opened. “Is she ok?” Sonny asked Bella.

 “She was just assaulted by her ex. How do ya’ think she is?” Bella snapped.

“Bella!” your mom reprimanded before turning to her son. “Give your sister some time. She’ll come around.” She kissed his cheek and left.

The minute you came out Rafael popped up out of his chair. He had been acting like an expectant father, pacing the floor and waiting. “Do you need anything? How’d it go?”

“Ok,” you said with a shrug. “I’m gonna go home with my folks. I’ll call you later.”

Rafael nodded. A cocktail of terror, relief, and anger etched into his face. You gave him a half smile. It was the most emotion you could muster. As you walked away, both of you knew that after today your relationship would never be the same.

****

The hours may have ticked by, but for Sonny time stood still. While Rafael and the others had left, he hadn’t moved from his desk.

“What are you still doing here?” Olivia asked when she stepped out of her office, surprised to see him alone and staring off into space rather than at home.

“My family hates me,” he softly said.

Olivia sighed and pulled up a chair. “No they don’t.”

“I didn’t...I mean when I invited Theo...I never thought…” He couldn’t finish his train of thought, a lump rising in his throat which he bitterly swallowed back down. The words that Rafael spit at him earlier still stung. Although it was nothing compared to the guilt and shame he felt. 

“Hey, this is not your fault,” Olivia sternly said. “You can’t think like that.”

Sonny studied his scuffed shoes and nodded his head when he heard Theo’s voice. “Watch it will ya’! That’s police brutality!” 

“Keep moving,” Fin said, leading your ex-fiance into the precinct with Amanda following behind. 

In an instant Sonny lunged at Theo, gripping him by the collar and shoving him against the wall. “You sonofabitch!” he growled. “You attacked my little sister!” 

Fin tried to separate the two men, but he was no match for Sonny, who’s anger gave him almost superhuman strength.

“Hey! Get off me, man!” Theo exclaimed and tried to wrench free from the vice-like grip his friend had on him. 

Sonny slammed Theo’s head into the wall again, so hard that it practically vibrated around the room. “I trusted you with her!” 

“Someone help!” Theo shouted. It took several officers to get Sonny off him.

“Ya’ know, I could sue the NYPD for this,” Theo said as he was led to the cage.

Amanda rolled her eyes. “Yeah, go ahead and try that after you’re found guilty of assault and attempted rape.”

Before Olivia or anyone else could reprimand Sonny for his behavior, he grabbed his jacket and left, unable to stand being in the same room as your attempted rapist. 

****

Not wanting to be alone in your apartment, you ended up spending the night at your parents’ house. As you laid in bed in your childhood bedroom, staring up at old boyband posters, you thought of Theo. How many memories you had shared in this room. From endless games of Bop-It when you were kids to sneaky makeout sessions during your teen years, always ready to split apart in case your mom came barging in. 

It was amazing how much life had changed since then. How much Theo had changed. From the sweet innocent boy next door to a conniving monster. Perhaps that evil streak was always in him, kept well hidden in the darkest corners of his being, but over time became more difficult to conceal. Until today when that mask he wore so well, fell and revealed his true self.

As hard as it was, you tried not to waste too much energy thinking about the happenings of today, especially when you had Rafael. You tried to call him several times that night, but every attempt ended with your thumb hovering over the call button before eventually giving up. 

You didn’t know what to say, and in reality you didn’t want to say anything. You wanted to go back to when life was simpler. To when life was easy. But there was no going back, so instead you shoved your phone under the pillow and tried to sleep.

*****

Since you had never called Rafael, you weren’t too surprised to find him standing outside your apartment building the next morning when Teresa dropped you off. “Want me to go in with you?” she asked.

“No, that’s ok. I need to speak to Rafael in private.” 

As you stepped out of the car, Teresa smiled and waved at your boyfriend. “Poor bastard,” she muttered to herself.

“Hi,” Rafael said,

“Hi,” you replied. “What are you doing here?” 

“You didn’t call last night so I came to check on you.” He followed you inside and into the elevator. You wanted to scream at him to stop being so damn nice, to stop making this harder than it had to be, but instead you were silent. 

When you got to your door, you hesitated. What if Theo was in there. Of course, you knew that was nonsensical. Fin and Amanda had arrested him last night; however, that did nothing to quell your fear.

Noticing your reluctance, Rafael spoke up, “Do you want me to check?”

“No,” you said before sighing in defeat. “Yes, please.” You waited outside for several minutes before he came out and gave you the all clear.

Rafael had intended to spend the day doing whatever you wanted to do whether that was to sit and talk or just to hold you while you cried. Instead, he followed you into your bedroom and watched you pull out a suitcase and begin to pack.

“What are you doing?” he asked.

“Packing,” you replied. Rafael crossed his arms and arched his brow, not in the mood for your sarcasm, especially since he was up all night worried sick. “I’m taking off work for a while so I’m going over to my sister’s place. I can’t stay here alone right now.”

Rafael followed you around the bedroom like a lost puppy as you moved from the dresser to the bathroom and back. “You can stay at my place if you want.”

“You have work,” you said.

“I know, but I can easily work from home right now if you need me.” He sauntered up behind you and started to massage your shoulders only to have you jump a mile high and flinch away from his touch.

“I’m sorry,” he said and immediately stepped away from you. As you continued to stuff your suitcase, Rafael began to get a funny feeling deep in the pit of his stomach. A premonition that something was coming. “Are you ok?”

You began to shake and it was only after a moment that Rafael realized it was because you were laughing. “Am I ok?” Your laugh grew stronger until it was maniacal. “I was just assaulted!  My family is falling apart! My life is falling apart! I am not ok!” 

You grabbed a photo of your family from your nightstand and threw it as hard as you could, watching it hit the wall and fall to the ground, the glass shattering. It felt good to unleash your anger, addicting almost. Your hand trembled from the adrenaline. Soon you were tearing apart your bedroom: throwing clothes, tugging the curtains off their rods, knocking a vase and art books off your dresser. Rafael stood there in silence while you had your tantrum, figuring you needed to release your pent up emotions after such a harrowing experience.

Once you had exhausted yourself, you collapsed on the bed out of breath. “I think we should take a break.”

At your admission, Rafael’s heart stopped. “Excuse me?”

“I think we should take a break,” you repeated. 

Rafael felt completely blindsided. He had expected there would be some tough times ahead given Theo and the assault, but he was not prepared for this. “Why?”

You let out a breath and hoped Rafael would understand. “I need to be on my own right now,” you explained. “I need space to clear my head and battle my demons. I need to learn how to take care of this myself.”

“We take care of each other. That’s what a relationship is.”

“What about work? I saw the looks of the squad’s faces when they realized we were together.”

Your words sliced through Rafael, exposing his deepest insecurities. “I thought you didn’t care what people thought about us,” he quietly said.

Unable to face him and see the pain in his eyes, you focused on tugging a hangnail instead. “I don’t, but I don't want to ruin your career and if we’re together that’s exactly what I’m going to do.”

There was silence between you both as Rafael tried to process your words. He ran a hand over his face and braced himself against the wall before kneeling down in front of you. “This is just temporary, right? Things will calm down and then we’ll be back together.”

You shrugged. “Maybe. I’m not sure. To be honest I’m not sure of anything right now.”

Rafael scoffed. “Let me guess, this is one of those ‘Don’t call me, I’ll call you’ kind of things, right?”

“That’s not fair,” you mumbled.

“I’m sorry. I just...I was willing to fight for us. To fight for you. I thought you felt the same way. But I was very very wrong.” Having nothing more to say, Rafael stood up and left.

You remained sitting on the bed, listening to his footsteps move down the hall, farther and farther away. It was only when you heard the door close that you gave yourself permission to cry. 

Not wanting to be in this place another minute, you grabbed your suitcase and left, leaving your bedroom a disaster. Teresa was waiting for you outside. You stuffed your suitcase in the back of her car and hopped into the passenger seat. “Wanna talk about it?” she asked when she noticed you crying.

You shook your head and looked out the side view mirror as she drove away. Through your tears you could’ve sworn you saw Rafael walking down the street, his figure getting smaller and smaller until he blended in with the crowd and then there was nothing.

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Wildest Notes Chap 2

Ya know what I love about this movie? The fact that it goes day by day instead of trying to cram it in one singular day. So this makes writing this fic so much easier and way more fun to write! 

Was this my best chapter? Probably not. Is it cute? YES! 

Will I start chapter 3? Not yet cause I have to catch up on Thistle and For Gods Sake. So y’all be patient with Gardner. Trust me I would love nothing more than to write out this entire fic in one day. But freakin Eugene and Samuel need their moments as well. 

So if ya liked to be tagged please let me know. And I’ll see you guys in the next chapter of whatever gets updated next! 

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Masterlist

What’s the best thing about Jazz? Besides it becoming very sexualized due to the fact that the Saxophone and Clarinet for some reason turn people on. I think the best thing about jazz is that it can cover so many different genres. Want some latin jazz funk? Here’s some jazz funky latin. I think this is my brain trying to calm down as my first performance with making money. 

Standing in front of the club as I was debating on whether to make a run for it or just too bite the bullet. Ahhhhh crap. I always get these jitters before a performance like this and even at just private concerts in school I was a train wreck. 

“Hey. You Cora?” Someone yelled as I held my binder tighter.

“Umm yes. And you?” He flicked his cigarette and approached me with his instrument. 

“Theo Rivers. You’ve come to join our merry troop?” He opened the door and motioned for me to go in first. 

“Yes I have.”  He closed the door behind me as it was a small dark hallway. We reached onto the club floor as there were a bunch of people on the wide stage warming up, and talking amongst themselves. 

The room was much bigger than I imagined as it sparkled with a large chandelier that dangled down from above. You could see the doors to and from the kitchen as they were painted black. The bar was long and filled with so many different types of alcohol I wasn’t sure what was from where. The hardwood floors were this lovely dark red that made the black tables look to grande. 

“Just play it cool little thang.” Ew. Thang? Really? I stopped in the middle of the dance floor as Lucas approached the stage in front of everyone. 

“Alright everyone calm down I know that we’re all excited for the new pianist whenever she gets here. Trust me you guys are going to love her!” That would be Mr. Lucas Puzo. I found him in a local music shop as I was trying to find some sort of cheap good piano. (Which is harder than it sounds.) 

“Would that be her Lucas?” Someone pointed out as I was standing in the middle of the dance floor. 

“Ah yes. Ladies and Gents this is our new pianist Cora Lister!” He popped down from the stage and walked over to me. I gave them a small wave as he placed his hands on my shoulder to usher me over to the stage. 

“Hello.” I said softly as everyone was smiling and waving. 

“Now we open in twenty minutes so get yourself warmed up missy! Alright make sure you guys give her the lineup so she’s not improvising too much. Ima go to the jon so give me five minutes.” He walked away as I stood in front of everyone as they stared back. 

Not saying a word I dashed over to the piano to get comfortable on my bench. The drummer got up from his set to stand on the end of the piano as he slid over a piece of paper. I grabbed it to look at the two sets we were doing tonight. A good mixture of swing, ballads, latin, and funk? Hm. Love it. 

“Felix by the way.” He smiled as I nodded. So we’re starting off with Give me a simple life? A Little cliche but it’s a good warm up song. 

“You don’t talk much do you?” He asked as I placed the sheet on my stand. 

“Sorry just trying to get ready.” I told him as he shook his head. 

“Leave her be Felix. He’s more wild than a dog in heat when it comes to new members of our troop. Kobi the bassest.” He stood on my left as I waved at him. 

“Then Kobi tries to be all smooth and act like he’s innocent. Y’all are not as smooth as you think. Krista I’m the best trombone there is.” She sat down next to me as I placed my binder on the piano stand. 

“And then she acts like the superhero for women when in reality she is also trying to get into your pants. As you can see Cora you’ve attracted the dogs of the band on complete accident. For the record she’s fourth chair as I am first. Chandler by the way.” He sat on the other side as I was completely confused on what was happening. So four people are trying to get in my pants and the only few words I said were hello and sorry just trying to get ready. How the flippin’ heck does that happen? 

“I should get a squirt bottle to back off against Cora! Bad bad bad!” Lucas yelled as everyone laughed to sit back in their seats. Thank Goodness. I’m not quite sure what the heck just happened but that felt like my first ever college frat party I attended. Like a penis magnet, then I left two minutes later to go home and binge watch SVU. 

“Cora please tune everyone before they go mad.” Lucas ordered as cracked my knuckles real quick. I played B flat and everyone began tuning. Quickly running up and down a few scales as some random man came running out of the kitchen. 

“We’re about to open! Go ahead!” He yelled as Lucas shrugged and began clearing his throat. Wait he’s singing? Would’ve loved to get a chance to practice with him so I know exactly how this band rolls!

“For your sake. Just follow me and you’ll be just fine.” Kobi told me as I nodded. I just do what I usually do when playing. TRYING NOT TO PANIC!

“One..two..a one two three four!” Immediately on a roll! 

My left ear listening to the bass as my other one was focusing on the tempo Felix was giving off. A little faster than normal versions of the song but I kind of enjoy it. Definitely features a lot of me but as long as I stay calm and keep my focus on the tempo I’ll be just fine. 

People began coming into the club, sitting around the small tables and waiters already serving them. I’m assuming this is a regulars club most likely. Because how many people do you know regularly enjoy listening to jazz? 

I noticed my piano solo was coming already as I cracked my neck and thought of a good improv pattern for myself that would match nicely with the song. Maybe something a little spicy but not too spicy. 

My fingers bounced up and down the piano as my attention went towards Lucas who was nodding at my improv solo. I’d known he was impressed with me when I played at graduation. 

Another glimpse into the crowd as everyone was talking amongst themselves or watching us up they're playing. Ya know I was expecting a lot less people but the turnout was pretty great for my first night. 

Is it weird that I’m a little shocked that Gardner didn’t show up? I mean I knew he was tightly rounded but thought getting him out of his house would do him some good. But that’s what happens when I try to be nice in my life. Everyone ends up shutting the door in my face but somehow I still stand..ah ya don’t need to hear me. 

The song finished as the crowd began softly cheering as Lucas bowed to everyone. He fixed his tie as he clapped his hands. He began kissing up to the crowd as I flipped the page to the next song in the set. Which should be You Belong to Me. Not the Taylor Swift version obviously. I believe it’s the Jo Stafford version. Luckily it’s not a big piano song so I’ll be nice and cozy back here this time. 

“PST Cora!” He was trying to be quiet but that obviously wasn’t working. 

“What Kobi?” I asked as he leaned over to the piano and tried to say something to me. But I barely could hear out of choice. I think I’m just going to bust through the sets here and then go home. 

A waitress approached me as she held up some sort of blue drink up to me as I shook my head. Me? Getting drunk on the piano? Never in my life! She shrugged as Lucas began counting us off again softly. 

Definitely business till I can get used to this sort of environment. 

~~~

“YOU BETTER GET BACK! HONKY CAT! LIVING IN THE CITY AIN’T WHERE IT’S AT! IT’S LIKE TRYING FIND GOLD IN A SILVER MINE! IT’S LIKE TRYING TO DRINK WHISKEY FROM A BOTTLE OF WINE!” I danced around my kitchen as I placed the last plate from lunch away. Angus was sitting in the entrance between the kitchen and living room. 

“Well I read some books OW! And I read some magazines! C’mere Angus!” I told him as he trotted over and jumped up into my arms. 

“About those high-class ladies down in New Orleans.” He was annoyed as I was moving him back and forth. He should be used to it by now at this point. 

“AND ALL THE FOLKS BACK HOME..WELL...SAID I WAS A FOOL!” Angus plopped down to sulk himself back into the living room and laid down on the floor with the sun shining through the window on him. 

“THEY SAID OH BELIEVE IN THE LORD IS THE GOLDEN RULE!” I danced my way over to the record play to turn it down a little due to the fact my neighbors probably don’t want to hear me screaming Honky Cat lyrics. I mean I can sing but when Elton comes on it’s like a party. 

It was just low enough I heard that creak of a front gate open as the tip toed over to the front door and was ready to pounce and scare him. No that’s too mean. Maybe another time when he’s not carrying a package of mine. He quickly knocked on the screen door as I opened my front door and he was off. 

“Hiya Gardner.” It was like a car break on how fast he stopped. I looked down to see how huge this box was and saw it was from Eureka. Mom? 

“Mind giving me a hand?” I asked him as he turned around and looked down at the ground. 

“Sure.” He came up the porch as I tossed the mail into the music room as we bent down to pick up the box. 

Well..a slip and a fall. That big bulky box landed straight on my left foot. If you think stubbing that little toe of yours was bad. This was a whole lot worse.

“Son of a biscuit!” I tried laughing it up as Gardner had his hands over his mouth. 

“I’m sorry! I’m sorry!” He panicked as I smiled at him. One of those painful smiles that’s trying to cover up that I’m screaming in pain internally. 

“It’s fine. Just let’s get this in here!” I said through my teeth as we tried lifting it again and carrying it inside. We walked into the living room for Angus to move quickly out of the way. 

“Now please don’t crush my foot again.” I told him as we slowly lowered the box onto the rug. I sat down on the couch to then look at my left foot making sure it wasn’t broken. Luckily we’re all good. 

“Is your foot okay?” He chirped as I nodded. 

“Yeah it’ll be fine. You often drop boxes on people's feet?” I tried to lighten the conversation but I could tell he was not interested. Might as well see what’s in the box.

“Give me another hand into the kitchen.” I got back up from the couch as he looked at the door. 

“I really don’t have time.” I placed my hands on my hips with one eyebrow raised at him. We reached down again and carried it into the kitchen and placed it on the counter. He took a step back and grabbed a small knife to open the box. 

“Well if that’s everything Cora.” I placed the knife down and tossed an apple to him. He barely caught it as I reached into the box. 

“You look a little famished. An apple always helps.” I pulled out a rolled up bubble wrap to see it was Mrs. Seymours old collection of her Elvis Presley China!  

“Oh my gosh!” I laughed as The King was painted on the plate. 

“Ya know I love people’s obsession with the weirdest things in the world. Mrs. Seymour loved Elvis Presley China.” I pulled out the second dinner plate that had him in his big red glittery suit. 

“Why Elvis?” Gardner asked as I handed him the plate. 

“She loves Elvis. Oh my god it’s like her passion before opening a home for all of us and locking it down.” I reached in to pull out the all white suit Elvis but it was cracked in half. 

“Well. You broke Elvis Gard. Now you gotta fix him.” I told him as a wave of panic rolled on his face. 

“Ya know..I...I..can’t. Uh..I really really..” I think the glue is in the junk drawer. I opened the drawer to see super duper glue. Perfect! He placed down the apple he didn’t even take a bite out of and stand in front of the broken plate. 

“Now just be gentle with the King.” I began squeezing the glue along the crack as he kept trying to check his watch. If he doesn’t stop checking his watch I’m gonna throw it in the backyard! 

“Alright now just hold it still.” I told him as we pushed the plate back together for the glue to start sticking. 

“Now I’m going out to lunch if you could just stand here till I get back.” His eyes widened as I looked at him dead seriously. 

“Wait what lunch!?” I lost it as he sunk back into himself. 

“I’m..I’m sorry. I..I generally don’t hang out with civilians this much.” Civilians? Do I look like I’m in the army? Do I need to salute him or something? 

“Just messin’ with your Gard. You need to lighten up a little bit sir. Us civilians aren’t all horrid people.” I told him as he looked down at the plate as I gently took it from his hands. He put his white hat on his head as he began becoming uptight again. 

“I’m sorry if I broke your foot.” He blurted out as I looked down at it. I imagine I'll be getting some sort of bruise. Not really a problem due to the fact I use my right foot for the petals anyhow. 

Angus came strolling into the kitchen as he sat down in front of Gard waiting for him to scratch the top of his head. He looked down at him as Angus was beginning to whimper at Gard. 

“If you’re going to bail on me without saying goodbye. At Least say goodbye to Angus.” Angus licked his lips as Gard quickly scratched the top of his head. 

“Goodbye Cora. This was interesting again.” Turning around like a bat out of hell as Angus and I watched him leave the kitchen through the living room and shutting the front door. 

Why do I find him so adorable?

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Ship History Meme

Embrace your past and get to know your friends’ fandom origins!

Rules: Post gifs of your fandoms / ships starting with your most current hyperfixation and work backwards. (Bonus points if you share any stories about how or when you got into that ship! But not necessary!!) Then tag anyone whose fandom history you’d like to learn about!

I was tagged by: @gideongrace thanks bby!! 💜

Most Recent: barisi (law and order: svu)

How did I get into it? it’s my current hyperfixation but i’ve shipped it for a long time, basically since the first moment that barba and carisi were on the show at the same time years ago, and then i started reading fic when they finally had screentime together for the first time. i rewatch random seasons of svu every now and then and i always resume my love for these two when i do

Next: effoff (sex education)

How did I get into it? i recently decided to finally binge sex education and it’s just another situation where the moment they had screentime together, esp adam being an asshole to eric (cause i knew they were gonna do something w that i just KNEW IT), i was totally a goner for them

Next: harringrove (stranger things)

How did I get into it? oh god they’re my constant, my ~touchestone~, i will never not love these two idiot boys (i have other hyperfixations rn but they’ll always be my number ones) but i didn’t actually get into them until like january of 2019?? i’d been in between fandoms and decided to rewatch st and noticed their chemistry for the first time and i was like hold up.........then i tested the waters n read some fic and here we are

Next: thiam (teen wolf)

How did I get into it? so i’d watched teen wolf from day 1 that it aired, but i stopped circa-s5 because it was just. so bad i could NOT. i loved theo but the whole premise of s5 i just couldn’t get into. so i stopped for a few years, then one day i decided to finally watch s5 and ofc s6 naturally, and i got v attached to theo and liam. started reading fic and hyperfixated on s6 quite a bit and became a hardcore thiam shipper

Next: rickyl (the walking dead)

How did I get into it? i don’t know. i don’t even watch twd anymore, i stopped after the mid-season finale of s6, but i’ve always loved rick and daryl’s relationship. i still rewatch the first 4 seasons every now and then and get back into my rickyl hyperfixation. this is also a ride-or-die ship of mine that i’ve had for a long time and i go back to it often

Next: stucky (captain america trilogy)

How did I get into it? this is such an old ship of mine that i really don’t even remember. i’ve been watching marvel movies since i was in middle school, and i started getting into the fandom around my freshman year of high school. the cap movies were always my favorite and bucky was (and still is) my favorite fictional character, so me shipping stucky just evolved naturally. they are my number 1 ship of all time and i’m not ashamed to admit it

Next: sterek (teen wolf)

How did I get into it? I WAS LIKE 12 AND IT WAS MY FIRST M/M SHIP, they are the OG’s, the lights of my life, the fire of my loins. i started watching teen wolf when it first aired and around the same time had just joined tumblr about a year before, so i was already getting into the fandom side of tumblr when i started following teen wolf blogs. a lot of people were posting about sterek and it peaked my interest, and i v quickly got invested!!

Next: mulder x scully (the x-files)

How did I get into it? i’ve been watching txf since i was literally an infant. if we wanna be technical, actually since i was in the womb (my mom is a major txf fan and she apparently watched it all the time when she was pregnant with me). i always watched it with my mom growing up, and mulder and scully were so obviously in love how could lil ol’ me not develop a serious love for them??

Honorable mentions (in no particular order): reddie (IT movies), david x patrick (schitt’s creek), malira (teen wolf), kastle (daredevil, the punisher), newtmas (tmr series), sciles (teen wolf), clexa (the 100), bellarke (the 100), bensler (law and order: svu), dorisi (law and order: svu), bucky x loki (marvel)

i’m tagging: @grabmyboner @hoegrove @biillyhargroves @wndasmaximoffs @etterklang @brokebackmountains @mustardprecum @granpappy-winchester @aspartaeme @billyscamar0 @avalonlights and anyone else who wants to do this :-)

[boyapologist]

did they really put cabot in the opening for like 2 episodes and took her out again

[phoenixwrites]

TUCKSON BROKE UP.

MWA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA.

YA KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS?!

I mean probably nothing because I’ve given up hope that any of my ships will ever be canon BUT OH THE FIC FODDER THIS SHALL PRODUCE.

IMMA WRITE SOMETHING RIGHT NOW WHEEE!

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learn more about this chaotic good idiot

@solaris-boy tagged me to talk about myself and i almost didn’t until i remembered that i love talking about myself so!!

nickname: My full name is SeVayne (suh-vain) and it’s been mispronounced as: Savannah, Swayze, Sven, Suh-wayne(?), suh-van, and once as Savage which was really just insulting. I once got called Seven and that’s a nickname I’ve actually stuck with and enjoyed, but more often than not people call me Sev (my gf calls me a prick, does that count?)

gender: idk some days, but my pronouns are still she/her so.

star sign: virgo-libra! I’m a cusp baby (cusp of Beauty!!) so I’m technically both? which is great because just being a virgo never felt right

sexuality: i’m just one big ole lesbian, my dudes (but on occasion a dude will be hot and I wouldn’t mind making out with one. just. not interested in anything else with a guy)

hogwarts house: SLYTHERIN!! a fact that still upsets me to this day because for a good chunk of time I swore up and down that I was Hufflepuff and no one believed me so i finally took the dumb test and got slytherin and i wanted to fight everyone i knew but considering I failed math every year and, every year, would be able to talk my dad into letting me stay in theatre despite my failing grades? i guess slytherin is a good fit for me

favorite animals: princess parrots, hyenas, snakes, CATS, dogs, snakes again cause i love them so much, okapis, and the Megalodon

favorite color: purple! my interests and likes change drastically with every passing day but purple will always be my favorite color. 

current favorite song: i don’t think i’m capable of picking one song but today i listened to ‘fifteen minutes’ by mike krol on repeat several times for a fic. 

favorite ideas to get creative with: idk what this means, but time travel! there’s really nothing i love more than the concept of time travel! I read the webcomic “saint for rent” a few years ago and i knew i liked time travel before but there was something about the comic that really brought that love back to life and now i am currently working on a book about time travel!!

what i like to do most when i’m alone: I listen to a shit ton of podcasts! so many, in fact, that I cannot list all of them, but i will name the Top 3: Friends at the Table (an actual play podcast that is very gay and the first scifi season broke my heart); The Adventure Zone, obviously; and King Falls AM which never fails to make me wanna run marathons cause it gets me so excited and pumped and shit. also i’ve been doing a lot more drawing, i write, i read, i eat a lot of food, i watch dumb yt videos, i stare at walls. i’m never alone often so when i am i just like to exist as peacefully as I can manage, doing whatever i damn well please

what do i think of my friends: i have made a lot of new friends within the past year due to TAZ and they’re some of the weirdest idiots i know but i love all of them, and i love playing dnd with em. i’ve known Alex for almost 4 or 5 years and i would lay down my life for her in half a heartbeat she means the world and more to me. AJ and i go through periods of time where we never interact but i still couldn’t imagine living a life not knowing her. Theo, who tagged me in this, also doesn’t talk to me a lot but I enjoy knowing that he exists and that i can count him as a friend. 

average hours spent sleeping: 4. sometime 6 if my panic brain feels like being nice. 12 if given the chance. i once slept an entire 17 hours and then stayed awake for almost 3 whole days afterward

cats or dogs: fuck you

number of blankets i sleep with: uhhhhhh one right now cause i’m sick and overheating but 3 or 4 if i can get my room cold enough

dream job: i wanna get into making podcasts or short films! i love the idea of being an author but i’m too visual of a person to limit myself to just words and i feel like podcasts or videos would really help me out. aside from that, psychologist is another dream i’ve always had, specifically forensic psychologist. dunno why but i tmight have something to do with having watched CSI/NCIS/Law & Order: SVU from the young age of 9

dream trip: it used to be Paris, but honestly? i just wanna see Alex

when i made this account: sometime in 2014? i think?? i don’t fuckin remember, but i think October 2014 is about right

why i made this account: because my dad said i couldn’t have social media and i said “fuck you” and made an account on literally every sm i could think of. i have 5 emails

number of followers: 246, somehow!! but i’m not gonna tag anyone cause it’s 1 am and also i don’t feel like it

[simmerdowndee]

uni_dayz episode four part four

I KNEW IT. I KNEW IT WAS THE BARTENDER! Sorry, I get really into svu. Every episode keeps you on edge. As I’m watching the episode, I hear keys jingling in the door.

Dakota: Theo…...?

Theo, my dad, and Chloe are the only people with a spare key to my townhome. I know Chloe is in bed with Marcus and my dad is not making a trip out here in the middle of the night just because he misses me so….

I was not expecting to see him tonight. I wonder why he came all the way here….

Theo: Hey baby. Law and order huh… did you choose the killer yet?

Dakota: Spotted him as soon as he entered the scene.

Dakota: How was the competition? Did you win?

Theo: We did, and we were invited back for the semifinals.

Dakota: That’s great babe. I’m proud of you.

Theo: After the competition, we all went back to the commons to celebrate.

Dakota: So why are you here instead of celebrating?

Theo: Well, I missed you… and I wanted to tell you about what happened before different stories spread.

Dakota: What happened?

Theo: When we all got back to the commons, Raegan ask to talk to me in private.

Of course, this bitch again.

Theo: She tried to come on to me….

Dakota: She tries this every 2 business days Theo, how is this shocking?

Theo: This time she started to spew a narrative that “I liked her” and then she tried to kiss me.

I’m going to jail.

Theo: Before you get upset, I told her off. I told her she was being disrespectful and she’s nothing more than a teammate.

Dakota: I’m sorry, can we go back to the “she tried to kiss you part”

Theo: She didn’t get a chance. I got up before she could get too close to my face.

Theo: I wanted to make sure you heard it from me before she creates her own story.

Dakota: Well, I’m glad you told me, and put her in her place.

Theo: You wanna hear something funny?

Theo: She claimed I didn’t let you confront her because I was “protecting her.”

Dakota: She’s actually delusional.

Theo: That’s what I was thinking.

Theo: I’m sorry I didn’t listen to you earlier on. I will only deal with her when it comes to the club. I promise.

Dakota: I appreciate that Theo.

Theo: Now, can I stay and watch the rest of the marathon with you?

Dakota: I’d love that.

I don’t want to be all “I told you she was a crazy bitch” but I told him she was…. Theo is so green; he tries to see the good in everyone. I love that about him, but it also drives me absolutely bonkers.

Dakota: Can I kiss you or are you going to get up and leave me too?

I’m such an asshole.

Theo: You’re such an asshole. Come here.

We spent the rest of the night finishing the marathon. We fell asleep before the last episode. I can’t wait for the DC marathon because I didn’t forget. I bet you next time, I say something, he’ll listen.

[rockonlavender]

What are your favorite Rollins episodes? I'm trying to watch as many as I can before they take SVU off Netflix.

Here’s a list of my favorite ‘Rollins’ episodes: Scorched EarthDouble StrandsTheatre TricksFather DearestStrange BeautyRhodium NightsLost ReputationAbove SuspicionTwenty-Five ActsManhattan VigilFriending EmilyCriminal HatredDeadly AmbitionGirl DishonoredTraumatic WoundPoisoned MotiveHer NegotiationSurrender BensonInternal AffairsOctober SurpriseDissonant VoicesRapist AnonymousJersey BreakdownBetrayal's ClimaxGridiron SoldierGambler's FallacyCriminal StoriesDownloaded ChildHolden's ManifestoPornstar's RequiemPattern SeventeenForgiving RollinsDecaying MoralityDevil's DissectionsCriminal PathologyMaternal InstinctsDepravity StandardForty-One WitnessesNationwide ManhuntCollateral DamagesStar-Struck VictimsAssaulting RealityHeightened EmotionsChasing TheoMotherly LoveGenesKnow It AllReal Fake NewsSpellboundAmerican DreamSanctuary

[poipoi1912]

SVU S18 - Correct Order

Assuming the remaining episodes won’t be reshuffled, I feel I can semi-safely post the original, "correct” order of all the S18 episodes, to help anyone who might want to rewatch this season in the order the writers intended (who knows, maybe it’ll make more sense that way).

SVU Season 18 - Complete Episode List

Terrorized (18x01)

Making a Rapist (18x02)

Imposter (18x03)

Unstoppable (n/a, the T*rump episode, will never air)

Heightened Emotions (18x04)

Broken Rhymes (18x06)

Rape Interrupted (18x05)

Great Expectations (18x11)

Decline and Fall (18x09)

No Surrender (18x12)

Motherly Love (18x10)

Next Chapter (18x07)

Chasing Theo (18x08)

Know It All (18x15)

Genes (18x13)

Net Worth (18x14)

The Newsroom (18x16)

Real Fake News (18x17)

Spellbound (18x18)

Conversion (18x19)

American Dream (18x20)

Sanctuary (18x21)

I hope this helps any masochists viewers who intend to rewatch the mess that is/was S18. I count 12 episodes airing out of order (episodes 4 through 15), not including the unaired T*rump episode. So literally half the season :D

Detailed breakdown, for anyone who’s interested:

First of all, here’s the actual airing order of Season 18 of SVU (basically the reverse of the above list, i.e. the nonsensical order in which we actually watched these episodes):

1, 3, 4, 5, 7, 6, 12, 13, 9, 11, 8, 10, 15, 16, 14, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22

:D

Secondly, here’s the updated (and now complete, save for any future changes lol) breakdown. Updates from my last post are marked below in red:

There you have it. As always, this might not be 100% accurate (but I think it is). Please correct me if you spot a mistake.