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i hate going into the j.ade tag oh my god IT IS SUCH A HORRIBLE PLACE.
#the way people on this hellsite will go to LITERALLY ANY LENGTH#to make j.ade seem as AWFUL as possible and somehow be a horrible hate figure in av.en's life#i will be krilling someone tonight#✧. ┊ — out /
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get to know the author!
name: tabitha
pronouns: she/her
preference of communication: used to be a die-hard tumblr im's girlie but finally caught onto the discord train a few years ago! still stick to im's for like initial contact/plotting but definitely am reached better and interact more consistently on discord.
most active muse: that would be my bb marley! she's my longest active muse of about...four years now? i feel like it might be longer but that's as old as any of her blogs that i can find! but without fail she's always the muse i have the most inspiration for, and a foolproof way to get myself out of any writing slumps. will say though after really only exclusively playing her for like three years, this last year or so i've tried my hand at so many new characters/fcs and now have so many new muses that i adore!
experience/how many years: when i tell you that i have absolutely zero recollection of how i discovered rping on this hellsite!!! my middle school bestie introduced me to tumblr for sure but how i ever discovered rp will probably forever be a mystery to me, but i think i've been here since i 2011? do not remember if rping on omegle (PLEASE who let me be unsupervised on the computer!!!!) came before or after, but once i was here i started with glee rp (cannot interfere, it's a canon event) and somehow crawled my way to today and into my home amongst simple town rps asdfghgfghj.
best experience: this last year or so has probably given me the biggest giggles that i can remember ever having!!! i had the fortune of meeting some really great writers to brave this madness together and just getting to laugh and bounce ideas and plots off of them and also to have a front row seat to their work outside of what we've come up with has just been so cool and inspiring? like the fact that this is done as a silly little hobby but i genuinely am constantly left just in awe of their talent is just so beyond me!
rp pet peeves: lazy plotters or people who so clearly don't read your intro before just throwing connects out there (usually in order to face chase and it's like babe, if you read my intro i wouldn't have to tell you why x, y, and z does not fit for this muse like?)! i don't mind shipping certain faces together but wanting a ship solely for the faces and not caring about the muse themself is usually so blatant and obnoxious.
fluff, angst, or smut: big fan of both fluff and angst! i generally like more plot driven threads, which i feel usually lends itself to angst, but love balancing out the heavy stuff with something light and fun when it calls for it and def think those can help move a plot along as well! think it's kinda funny that before i was allowed to write smut, i wanted to do so more than i do now that i actually can? it's not that i won't, but it'd probably have to be a ship i really cared about and thought it'd add something to see what that connection is like when they're intimate?
plots or memes: i am the worstttttt when it comes to memes! i start off with such good intentions but usually they just build up in my inbox and i tell myself i should answer them...and then let them sit in my inbox for longer until it's really been too long since i should've answered them and tell myself i'll be better next time. but plots, i live for that shit! don't even need big elaborate ones, like one of my longest rp besties and i usually just send each other little blurbs of an idea and literally could spend forever going back and forth with musings and headcanons for it.
long or short replies: i look back on like my 2016 rp days and literally do not know how i went from little one line responses to writing novels. like the #pls don't feel like you have to match length tag is v me coded bc i absolutely am not getting out of a response without at least a paragraph. love love love exploring my muses thought processes and reasonings and their inner monologue, which can lead to some pretty lengthy responses, depending on the thread!
time to write: tell myself all day at work that when i get home, it's time to write...and then i get home and i tell myself that it's time to nap instead! i have the most time to write in the evening/night time or during the weekends, and that's when i can get random little bursts of motivation to not wait until the suns gone down to start writing.
are you like your muses: i do like to give my muses tiny little parts of myself, like if they reference a tiktok that's ended up on my fyp, or some weird quirks or opinions, but as a whole, i don't think i'd consider myself too similar to any of them!
tagged by: @waveofstars thank you bb!
tagging: @sinsoakedsaints, @tinytriceratop, @kiplingwriter, + anyone who wants to!
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RULES AND SO FORTH
PREFACE
This is a low-activity, independent, crossover friendly multi muse blog that houses both canon characters (or canon-divergent I should say) and oc’s related to bleach! Do note that when I say canon-divergent for my canon muses, I really, really mean it in light of my headcanon-ing for those muses. Also, while the muses on this blog are from Bleach, I do not consider myself, this blog, or my muses to be heavily affiliated with the Bleach fandom itself-- love the series, but ultimately I'm going to write these muses however I want, and write them in whatever settings/au's/etc's that I want SFJHGSFDGHJ.
With that out of the way: my name’s mark, i’m 28 years old, tired af, but most importantly, pleased to meet you! I’ve been writing on this hellsite for more than 10 years now, and here I am, finally deciding to cluster some of my muses together in the hopes of being more active DFGHSDGHJFGH but we’ll see! Thank you for checking out this page and reading this far, please continue on down below to check out the rules I’d like you to keep in mind for this blog and it’s muses!
1. This blog is low activity, as stated above, meaning that my activity can ebb and flow but will generally be pretty sparse. I work a very time and sanity consuming job that, well, eats up about 80% of my week and my energy e.e but I will try to be here as much as I can.
2. This blog is selective, and mutual’s only, a.k.a, I can be kinda choosy in regards to who I follow back, and I will only interact IC with those I follow back. If you follow me and I don’t follow you back in a few days, I’m probably not going to, sorry (unless i’m on hiatus or something in which case I’m not actively checking up on my blog or followers or anything sdfjhgsdfjghs). I generally follow back all types of blogs (canon’s/multi’s/oc’s/etc) provided I’m familiar with their fandoms and/or can see us interacting in some way. Deplorables please dni though.
3. This blog does practice mains, and exclusives, but the latter will only ever be used for my closest friends. The latter aside, I am definitely open to writing with multiple portrayals of a muse, though mains will get higher priority, should I have them.
4. GODMODDING/META-GAMING: Having to put this down as a rule feels so cursed in the lords year 2023 (almost 2024) like, you’d think most people would know this by now, but, for the people in the back I guess; don’t god mod or try to control my muse without my permission and all that!
5. REPLY SPEED/LENGTH: I can be the slowest writer in the known universe so please keep that in mind when you are writing with me. sometimes it can take me weeks, or even a month or more than that to get to replies. i know that isn’t ideal for some people, and if that puts you off from wanting to write with me i completely understand, but that’s just how my brain works. sometimes i can put things out relatively fast, but thanks to the various factors of my life, most of the time my writing frequency is sporadic and my muse for threads can ebb and flow, so [insert shrugging here] that just how it be.
When it comes to reply length, i’m a big quality over quantity person. I literally do not care how big or small your reply is so long as you show enthusiasm and give me enough to work with when it comes to my response. likewise, i’d ask that you don’t hold me to any certain ‘quantity’ when it comes to my writing. i’ll make an attempt to match your length, but at the end of the day, i might not always be able to do that. i will, however, make sure to give you something to work with, instead of leaving the metaphorical ‘ball’ in your court all the time.
6. NSFW?: I don’t expect a ton of sexual-esque NSFW stuff to happen on this blog, but with some muses I suppose it is more likely. NSFW of any kind will of course be tagged accordingly, and put under readmores, but as far as hard-core smut goes, I, do not see myself ever publicly writing that, so situations of that nature, if they do occur, will be taken down the ‘fade to black’ route.
7. SHIPPING? Shipping of the romantic variety is not a huge priority for me, outside of the ships I have with my GF’s muses. There are some muses on my blog that I am potentially open to shipping with in certain circumstances (with good ic chemistry, and proper ooc communication being paramount for such things) ofc, but we'll just have to see how that all goes.
8. MUN SELF-CALLOUT: I suffer from crippling social anxiety and I’m horrible about approaching people first, so if you want to write with me, your best bet is to just hit up my inbox to talk about things! if anything i try to keep an eye out for starter calls but i dont usually keep up with the dash so, those tend to escape me unfortunately sdfkhjsdfhjksd. If I’m following you, chances are that I want to write with you, but if I haven’t approached you yet….. you know why: i’m too socially inept for my own good sdfkjhsfkhjsdfkhj
9. I prefer not to engage with callouts or drama, and would prefer to see you, as a follower of mine, not fill my dash with the latter and be wise about interacting with the former. I personally will reblog callouts if I find there is real merit in them and awareness to spread, but otherwise I will generally avoid such things if its over petty shit.
10. Please specify which of my muses you are interacting with when sending in asks or liking starter calls. I’ll of course make note of such things in the tags of things I post, but if you like a starter call or send in an ask and do not specify which muse you are aiming at, you will get RNG from yours truly!!
OTHER IMPORTANT TIDBITS
– I can understand on some level why some people prefer their new followers to send in passwords or asks or something but I’m just not comfortable doing that I’m sorry sfhjkgsdgh if i’ve followed you, you can be assured that I have read your rules, but if you absolutely require me to send something in to confirm that then uh….. sorry its not going to happen ):
– I don’t engage in fight threads TOO often but I love them and am definitely down for brawls between our muses! That said I’d prefer we as mun’s sorta talk about where we expect those fights to go, and be realistic about our muse’s capabilities and such, especially if its a fight thread that may wind up with one of our muses being seriously injured!
– Mutual’s are welcome to ask for my discord, but I don’t talk on there very much or use it often-- it is a better place to contact me for plotting or other rp related things, though SFHSGHJDF
WILL ADD MORE LATER MAYBE? THANK YOU FOR READING THUS FAR THO UR AWESOME!
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Could absolutely be honest and harder about it. But we're not gonna revolt and hold people accountable, and the US isn't going to flip on Israel during this moment. All she chose to do here is more than Biden ever, but it's not enough.
Regardless, at the least I can say it's more than expected and more than anyone else would do. Still, hold the fuckers accountable, she's working with what she's got and could absolutely do more.
I honestly believe she'll be better to Palestine than Biden, at a minimum, that's something to consider for some.
I don't like anyone calling it a """war""" as that would involve a country vs country in some manner. This is a country genociding another country, using terrorists it created and have created more of as an excuse to continue doing what it has the past 60 years of oppression.
"has the right to defend itself" isn't what any singular person is discussing and is a tactic to dodge reality and lie to people. Actually fuck off? Fuck off.
It can't get more binary than this, let's just be honest. It's a genocide. But for a politician, yeah, sure, whatever dude. I'm sure the fact only 10 dems voted for a ceasefire and called it a genocide is the real "binary" issue here. Can't blame her if that's what she's insinuating.
But Biden absolutely would never, ever, be any better or potentially change directions for the better. Kamala might. That's absolutely the best the anti-genocide crowd will be able to get this election.
You're either Third Party or Kamala, and let's be honest, you can't blame either for it, not everyone is gonna be as enlightened and informed as another, not everyone will have the same reasons and certainly not everyone will be accepting genocide if they vote dem.
Ya'll gotta understand there's billions of people and the "shit on what mindsets I don't like" mentality doesn't have to extend to people who aren't republican. Almost nobody has a good reason for anything, it's all vibes. The world doesn't work binarily and humanity is less stubborn and more logical in their own brain's way, not yours. If ya want anti-genocide, ya better start showing people the reality more so they can come to their own conclusions. Right or wrong.
Sticking to Tumblr and bitching ain't enough. Ya'll're quiet everywhere but Tumblr. Everyday I scroll there's a new atrocity. Start spreading that to every social media because the reality is the opposite narrative is everywhere else.
Ya have to spread. Literally Everyone On Tumblr Knows.
Not enough on Reddit, facdbook, instagram, etc, know shit but what people scared to say the truth have been saying. And I can't stress enough how bad it is to link this hellsite on other platforms or reccomend people make an account and explore here. It won't happen no matter how much you prefer this site. I'd sooner ask someone to download wpd and watch some videos there than tumblr.
Don't be mad at dem politicians for listening to what is the unfortunate majority comprised of hate, ignorance, and virtue signallers, in such a scary election for absolutely everyone. Ya'll gotta make the voter informed and demanding of more. And me being the only one initially going around with a 3 reply length copy paste for reddit was only doing so much. None of ya'll tried to spread. I did. It only did so much. Enough of us and it may do something more, but we'll never fuckin know at this rate.
Again, it comes down to: Make the messaging a Valentine's Day card so it's easily spread and easily sourced, and then spam that shit wherever you can. Sticking to tumblr and bitching in these massive text posts is genuinely pathetic.
Do Something. If ya don't, vote Third Party or Kamala. Just don't not vote, we have a chance at a third party, any percentage up from last election is a win. Vote Third Party if you aren't voting for kamala. Don't let people say it's a waste, most people don't vote, no election has been decided by the popular vote. Your vote won't make a difference in a sea, but it will in a pond. We just need enough rain.
Kamala Harris about her conversation with Netanyahu
“Israel has a right to defend itself and how it does so matters. What has happened in Gaza over the past nine months is devastating.”
vowed "not to be silent" about suffering in Gaza
said “it is time for this war to end and end in a way where Israel is secure, all the hostages are released, the suffering of Palestinians in Gaza ends, and the Palestinian people can exercise their right to freedom, dignity and self-determination.”
she is pushing for ceasefire deal
“It is important for the American people to remember, the war in Gaza is not a binary issue.”
“Let us all condemn terrorism and violence. Let us all do what we can to prevent the suffering of innocent civilians. And let us condemn antisemitism, islamophobia and hate of any kind. And let us work to unite our country."
link to article with video of her speech
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thoughts that I shouldn’t be thinking tonight after I chose to stop writing fics on this hellsite
[everybody ignore this, it’s just that my brain hurts and I really need to word-vomit very thoughtfully explore this]
So liiiiike apparently my recent decision to stop writing tumblr fics is backfiring in a big way because all of a sudden my head is BURSTING with this whole novel-length fic that would be about Jax and this OFC (face claim is the lovely Kristin Kreuk pictured above ⬆️ yes that’s a self-indulgent choice because she’s half-Asian like me) who was really his true high school sweetheart and they were supposed to go off to college and plan the rest of their lives together until *some shit (not to be specified in this rant)* happened (kind of as in the KutteVerse but also DIFFERENT) soooo Tara was just Jax’s next best replacement (literally second best since incidentally she was salutatorian whereas OFC was valedictorian lmaooo did I mention self-indulgent??!?) ANYWAYYYYY that stuff is all in flashbacks but in the present day we’re picking up in Season 7 and everything has been canon till then (this fic doesn’t depict that shit at all, canon is just there in the background lol) including Jax killing the poor guy who got blamed for Tara’s death aaaaand as it turns out that guy was OFC’s cousin(?) or something but Jax didn’t know that at the time (and OFC doesn’t know that Jax killed him) and idk yet when/how each of them finds out BUT ANYWAYYY they’re reconnecting in the present day because the Sons (as in canon) have caused serious wreckage to the whole Asian community around Charming which included a lot of OFC’s friends/family and now she’s come back temporarily from her successful life in some faraway big city to help deal with all of that and Jax of course is twisted up with grief and guilt and regret and self-hatred and on the verge of canon suicide BUT THENNNNN all of a sudden she arrives and all he sees is life and even though he’s never felt less worthy of her after all the shit that’s happened deep down they fucking love each other still and always will but also there are ISSUUUUUES and maybe at some point some of the people in her family are like out to kill him (understandably??) and she has to navigate that too and her own self-hatred for feeling what she feels for him because it all seems so distasteful and just totally disgraceful and like honestly is Jax even redeemable at this point idk but obviously they are gonna have a lot of super hot passionate sex anyway??!?!?
Yes that was one sentence don’t @ me.
This idea just attacked me.
It’d be a story about star-crossed love, and all the tragic ways that love gets tangled up with self-hatred and self-respect or lack thereof.
And if I were to write this shit it wouldn’t rhyme at all – I’d write it the way that I used to write actual novels.
ANYWAYYY NVM LOLZ 🤡 I’m sure I won’t actually write this and in any event this idea is so bad I cannot even. As a (half-)Asian I obvi felt some shitty feelings watching season 7… I don’t want to get too heavy on tumblr and dig into all of that but in my fantasies I like to think of Jax as having deep love (romantically) and attraction (sexually) and respect (most importantly) for a woman who’s Asian like me, and more respect than he had canonically toward the Asian race generally (and more respect than the entire series demonstrated honestly, in my view of it at least), as a matter of idk basic humanity. This fic premise probably isn’t the best way to explore that but it came into my head so I just ranted in an outburst of insanity!!
Ok so I hope no one actually reads this, but I’m also a clown who is not going to delete this 🙃
#jax teller#sons of anarchy#soa#charlie hunnam#kristin kreuk#jax teller imagine#sons of anarchy imagine#soa imagine#charlie hunnam imagine#jax teller fanfiction#sons of anarchy fanfiction#soa fanfiction#charlie hunnam fanfiction#jax teller x oc#asian oc
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Alright, Captain. I'm coming in on your defence.
(@the-littlest-kojin, at your service)
This post is half at you, and half at that anon. I ask this permissiveness on your blog.
So the Captain here does speak in a distinctive register and pattern, but having RP'd with him and spoken with him at some length, he is by no means incomprehensible and is perfectly eloquent and articulate.
The second point I'm going to make is that he has screenshotted several of my characters, including my main, Shio, and every time, he captures the characters well. If you have a problem with his portrayals, friend, mayhap it be on your own shoulders.
Now, Captain. I'm sorry for soapboxing on your blog in this way - but you are one of the best posters on this whole hellsite, and I will not stand for you being slandered in this manner.
I appreciate the kindness and the defense Shio <3 It's something heavenly fond. I'm super thankful for it. I'm not bothered about it. Just confused. Those type of people work hard to be understood, I try to attempt, for the sake of the energy they spent, but I don't get it, at all. It's like dealing with an under-gear level rogue and they attack you in stealth and get the option to pick any fight they'd like, and get opener but the person they're popping all their cds against is a raid max level tank. I'm literally spec and known to handle threat all my stats have recoil damage and thorns. I have literal damage reduction CD's that I can use even immobilized and stunned that negate it all, I can keyboard turn and just use my pve taunt and keep you from vanishing and I don't even have to use any ability outside that to win the battle. Maybe this nerdology and analogy they'd understand more from me. At-least change out your poison's and put some enchants on your fit.
I'd like to think they're intelligent and acted on this to try to rekindle and relight my flame, as an actual bitter admirer. Cause they know I'm the personality that can get motivated by negative reinforcement and convert it into positive energy. But their presentation isn't believable it felt too scripted and more like whining and I just received disappointment and immeasurably feel pity.
The more (holy than thou) trope is overplayed. I didn't even get the curiosity of a "your mom" insult, I didn't get gamer language anything else would've been more effective. They criticize but they do it in stealth so how am I supposed to gain anything from them or take it seriously. If you feel like you can be an example or you can do it better, like prove it and demonstrate. Actually attempt to lead.
I'm literally the best in the world at being me. It's a joke to me, to think otherwise.
#asks answered#may be triggering#Literally been chilling and mending#Always been on my own sh!t and doing my own sh!t since the dawn of time#So why just now? ~_~#Thanks for the nice people out there who been giving me light though and checking it's super heart warming#Also know that irks them more
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as this year comes to an end, and we all hope for a better experience in this next trip around the sun, i’m entirely grateful for those of you who have made this year more then just tolerable. if you haven’t already figured this out, i adore each and every one of you and will take any opportunity to declare my appreciation for your existence.
@harryforvogue → although im unimpressed with how often you make me cry, i will never not reread masterpiece, sugar kisses, 40 weeks, fine line, lotus & falcon and walkin’ in a winter wonderland at three am. i am completely enthralled with your talent, your characters and baby fucking laila! just like i completely adore you, you fucking scorpio queen.
@killingbxys → i love you to the fucking moon! if starbucks ever fucking has a normal schedule again, i look forward to our lil dates. until then, i will continue to cry about flowers, beat you at imessage games, and send you voice messages when i’m too angry to type to 7000 thoughts per second.
@deionswannabegirl → isabella, i love you. we’re trauma sisters now, and emotionally bonded together by our tattoos. one day we’ll get to have a conversation about tinkerbell, but until then, i will gladly message you through anger and encourage bad bitch bella bc she’s my favorite.
@stiles-o-dylan24 → the many nicknames you’ve accumulated throughout this year is impressive, and quite possibly the length of a novel. the way i adore you is unmatched! you’re so talented and ugh, yeah, that’s my ted talks for tonight
@teen--marvel → it’s the way i get shook every time i remember you have a southern accent, like that’s what i think of 75% of the time when i see you on my dash. that and the fact that your hair kinda reminds me of ariel, but that’s completely besides the point. i love you, even when you yell at me to waste my time doing things like homework.
@geminiparkers → i adore your dry humor! you are a fucking badass gemini queen and i am completely immersed by your presence on this site!
@jellyfishbeansontoast → i love you, you blind bitch. do you hear me? i. love. you! we don’t talk very often, but when you come stand in my ask box and then tell me about the random things you’re doing at ungodly hours it makes me night! but, please, for the love of god fix your sleep schedule!
@dmonchld → raesin. i’m glad you’re back bud, my dash was very dry without you, and i didn’t realize just how much i loved seeing your url on my dash until you said bon voyage!
@pink-meringues → im lighting a candle for you and waiting with a g&t. my best bitch whose as dumb as me! i love you! and im going to miss you so so much when you break ties with this literal hellsite. but, im so glad you’re doing what's best for you, especially because it means you can break away from some people and go get engaged to will hehe.
to everyone who i don’t talk to as much: you all have made my year amazing, and i fucking would get unadopted by one direction for each and every single one of you. so, if we’ve talked at all this year, happy fucking new year and may 2021 be worth the fucking wait.
@duskholland @themaddies-obx @x-lulu @demxters @mischiefandi @https-luna @fallinfortom @rafej-cambanks @chloesapogue @alexa-playafricabytoto @lettersofwrittencollective
alright, i promise i won’t declare my undying love for the lot of you again until valentines day, then nobody’s fucking safe
#i'll just be hiding now#damn#being a simp really gets me embarrassed but its the thing i do best#i hate me#goodbye
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shoeydaniel's top works of 2020 ❤️
I was tagged by my dearest darling @captainfuu like . two entire months ago. and by the literal MVP of this hellsite, @eight-hearts, today 🙈 thank you both so much!
i’ll tag @pierreswrists @pierrelli @jeeperslatifi @estebanoconz bc i am a massive fan of all of ur work. only if you want to! grrrr i was gonna tag everyone first but then i procrastinated and now everyone’s done it already
Rules: It’s time to love yourself. Choose your 5 favorite works you created in the past year (fics, art, edits, etc.) and link them below to reflect on the amazing things you’ve brought into the world. Tag as many writers/artist/etc. you want (fan or original) so we can spread the love and link each other to awesome works!
5. over the last ~14 months or so I’ve started drawing again!! Literally while procrastinating for finals I drew Harry Styles in the margins of my class reading and was like “oh shit i can draw?” The rest is history. I am going to cheat and include multiple drawings as one entry on this list kjhdksjhd. Here’s my F1-related sketch dump
4. in the same vein - here’s another, non-f1 sketch dump
side note: I have nicknamed this era of my drawings “The PearsonVUE.com/Military Collection” bc i was trying to use up a stack of branded post-its from my dad’s old employer 💀 rip pearsonvue postits. im so glad we finally ran out bc there were like 500 of those bitches.
3. all my heart finds true
long story short @pierreswrists wrote something in the tags of a reblog that inspired me, and I said we should turn it into a fic together, so we wrote a fic about love letters and crossing an ocean to be with someone you love, and then I had to take a break from writing said fic bc I was falling for her and i didn’t want to associate us with maxiel, and here we are four months later, in a relationship. It’s embarrassing. Anyway. I’m proud of what we made! And it was very very cool to create something collaboratively.
2. yellow, yellow, gold, and ochre
My precious, precious, horror fic! I call this one “savior pierre” in my head, and it was entirely inspired by the events of Monza 2020, and it’s gen (yay for being a Normal Human Being), and it made N compliment me and now we’re friends!!!! Eeeee! Writing horror was actually very fun and I hope I do it again some day.
1. Heels turned black
despite the fact that i no longer produce maxiel in any form, i am still SO fucking proud of this fic. I made friends through this, I entered the F1 fandom through this, and most importantly, it’s my favorite piece of writing I’ve ever completed. I love the way I wrote it, I was blown away by the response people had, it felt so satisfying to complete. I don’t think there’s much else to say. J once made a post about how much she loved it that I still have saved in my drafts to this day. L left me not one but several essay-length comments filled with red-gold emoji that made me gasp when i received them. S read it immediately after she was released from the hospital and now we’re girlfriends. htb really truly is the culmination of my year.
#who knew 2020 would be the year i actually became an honest to god fic writer? certainly not me!#my art#my fic#the pierres wrists pic was almost its own entry but sadly i dont have a good picture of it jkdhksjhdkj#also like 2 of these are already dedicated to stacey and i was like. hmm. i am repeating myself kjfdhskjhd#i DO think im gonna archive lock my fics at some point in the new year so.. consider this ur warning#long post
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What “Matching Effort; Not Length” Means in Collaborative Writing [to me]
[small edit- this post looks like garbage on dash apparently but the organizational formatting is visible on my page ;;;;; hellsite why- Click to my page for an actually legible post lol T^T ]
Hey yall, its 7 30 in the morning and I can’t sleep even though I work tonight so Imma ramble for like half an hour to see if that makes me tired sfkjsdfhdj
I’ve been doing this for a long time. Like-- half my life, 13 years [I’m 26], ‘long’ and over the years I’ve gotten relatively comfortable figuring out what things go into a thread being successful [i/e fun and easy to keep going] and not fun. This is all obviously my opinion as both a solo story writer, avid reader [i have more favourite books than I do friend irl] and rp’er. And though this obviously isn’t some snooty checklist or anything, I’ve found that people who use some or one or even all of these things in their replies are the rp partners I still adore making stories with years down the road
Replying with the world and not just the character
This can be done pretty easily in ‘script’ replies as well as ‘lit’/wordy replies, but I never approach a reply like what my character is saying or doing is happening in a vacuum, because that’s not organically how life works.
Are the characters in a busy café? Is there a long line? Is some asshole trying to cut which makes my character have to ask them to stop pushing around?
How about walking down the street? It the traffic horrible that day, making them have to speak louder/move closer to your muse? Did they almost fall into a puddle or run into somebody?
Oooor what about a night club? Is the music loud? Is the music shitty? Is it a little too crowded now even though it wasn’t like ten minutes ago, meaning our muses may want to move elsewhere
All this to say; think about your muses and people interacting in a space, not just two people talking/walking in a void.
Be comfortable with NPCs
There are a lot of humans on the planet! Like... a whole lot! Use them to buff up the story world you’re creating to make it more fun! This is also how I sometimes end up making a few of my favourite characters; they start out as NPCs to make my world more robust, and eventually I think up whole back stories for them [A good Example is Lux!]
Is that cafe owner making eyes at the other muse? Does that make your muse huffy and jealous? Or maybe that one dude who is still trying to cut in line gets a little too pushy and them and your muse have a little scuffle?
Is that a cute cat/dog? Sorry, gotta stop this very tense/flirty talk with your muse cus i have to pet this dog/cat.
Not only can these just be fun to picture, but a lotttt of character development can come from aspects of a world that aren’tt just because of muse A and muse b talking/thinking about each other, and can really buff up the foundation of whatever relationship muse and and muse b are developing whether its plotted or unplotted.
Be careful not to godmod- This isn’t nearly as much of an issue in this decade of rping as it was when I first started [it was bad lol] But just make sure these characters are feasible within a world. Don’t go and have muse a get randomly stabbed just because replies are hard to come by and you want to make muse b suddenly have to care about muse a. plot this shit out with your rp partner if you have even the smallest idea that some npc/event you have in mind might take away control/their right to control an event.
Reply to build off each other’s replies/characters; Not just to Reply. Give your partner’s character something to reply about.
I think , above most else, this can be the best or most frustrating part of an rp, and where I find I can lose interest in a thread or interaction. This is the most important thing I try to do, regardless of reply length or plot. This is what matched effort and not length means to me.
The most interesting aspect about rping to beings is being able to interact with them in real time, seeing this that its ever changing, real-time, and dynamic. If my character is stuttering a reply, eyes glancing every which way, sweating, but says everything is fine, getting a reply that doesn’t address any or the subtext or look to either amplify or fix a situation can be incredibly tiring.
Read a characters background/look for details in writing- Has ther other writer mentioned ther character has an interesting eye colour? Did the characters eye colour just change? Treat every reply as a chance to really build on something.
Did the character just say or do something that would logically result in some kind of shock/anger/attraction? Its okay to have your character shocked about things. Let them being an organic character/being.
Put equal effort in having interesting dialogue.-I can’t count the number of times on other blogs long ago [and long since dead] where I would give a few things in a script rp tp be interesting or cool to think on and reply about, things that were indicative to my character, only for literally all of it to be ignored in the next reply.
There aren’t many places for a story to go when two characters are just talking and walking together and nothing happens.
Stagnation is the antithesis of progress, very literally.
And if you see or a thread starting to become harder and harder to reply to, don’t be afraid to read through the thread and see if you notice a ‘drop’ or a place where you, your character, the world can add something which would be fun to reply to/react to/ imagine.
And for god’s sake, read a characters about/have some information about your character at hand.
I am.....long winded [shocker, I know] and I know words can be hard. But at my core, I want to rp with you [yes you] because I like how you words and I like how you write characters. It is incredibly hard for me to know if a story would be fun or interesting if there is nothing about a character other than their fc.
Have crucial information in about sections, make sure you know about the other characters crucial information, this can be some of the things that help a thread start off a lot easier. These can be bullet points! Cool hair colour? Eye colour? Long fangs when angy? long fangs and red eyes when BigAngy?? Ears? Tails???? Anything thatt a character would notice upin first glance needs to be made clear to your rp partner so they and their character can operate more naturally in whatever world you’re creating together.
If you don’t have official abouts, that is fine, just make sure you have any information about the character ready for sharing! I use the sticky notes desktop app for characters I haven’t officially added yet and its a super helpful, low maintenance way to keep details about a possible/selective character on hand.
Talk shit out. Embrace a shifting story, figure out plot points that would be cool to see and write about. Have fun. Create worlds, universes, new characters! As long as both/all parties are on the same page, there is literally no end to what you can create together.
All of this applies to lit/novella/and script rps! I’ve had some very, very cool, in depth script rps in my time/on discord/aim so length is not a factor to fun, deep rps, its all in the mutual effort placed in the characters and their world.
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Oh my god I know! Those comments are so ridiculous. I keep seeing this one person on Twitter (dont ask why I go to that hellsite) who just goes to any length to defend this by saying “Kato hates herself and that’s why we hate her” and I’m like 🙄🤔 no.
For one thing, we’ve got plenty of scenes that suggest Kato’s pretty damn smug about who she is. As well as you know, her own face on her wall...
But also, even if that was the case; fairly sure Robbe hated himself at one point hence the slurs, pretty sure Zoe hated herself at one point in her season, and Jana too... we never hated them cause of that, if anything it made us understand them more. That’s not the case here at all.
Some people take this pov thing far too literal. When in fact the issue is, the reason we don’t know these things is cause the team have done the exact opposite with it.
I agree with everything, anon.
And yeah, exactly, people are taking the POV thing way too literal 😅. I understand those persons must really, really love the show/are more optimistic and I don’t blame them for wanting to believe till the last minute that everything will fall in place or we’ll have some big plot-twist!! Tbh sometimes I want to think this season must be hiding something unexpected that blows up our minds 🤪, because it’s still hard to believe we fell from S1-S3 to THIS ☠️, so I get it!!, but I draw the line when they try to justify/minimize the racism or use mental illnesses to justify the bad writing, weird pacing, plot-holes and shallow characterization.
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y’know i think the whole reason i haven’t been bothered to start dating is bc over the years, i’ve just become comfortable with being on my own all the time. like I don’t feel the pressure to always have a partner and I feel like if I ever start dating at any point..... I don’t feel like i’d easily forget who i am and just make myself 1000% like that person. like obvs i have absolutely no idea whether that’d happen or not.
but I just feel like i won’t.... like i would’ve if I’d started dating much much earlier, like in high school, for example.... where i ended up posting a “im so lonely and sick of being single” etc type status at one point.... partly bc i was really lonely at 16 and also bc well... as a joke bc everyone had to post at least one of those statuses during high school lmao.
then there’s also me not just throwing myself at any chance to get fucked by creepy guys like “let me give you sex lessons in the back of my car” guy or bar creeper weasel mcfuck guy..... all because of the pressure that those fucking creepy dudes were giving me bc i kept refusing their advances.... and i also refused to just fuck anyone bc that’s just what you’re supposed to do in your late teens (sex lessons guy) and well into your 20s (bar creeper weasel mcfuck guy) apparently. but no. i have my fucking standards. and those creeps didn’t fucking meet them. so i had every fucking right to continually reject them and stay single.
and besides the point, im just so used to being on my own now that if someone came in to be my partner; they’d have to be fucking okay with me being me.... and except that i won’t give myself up entirely to become exactly like them or whatever. I know who I am (mostly) and why should I fucking sacrifice that for some stupid ass dude????
and also now, i will never take the dumbass line of “oh I’ll fix this dude bc he’s so broken and that’ll fix me too!!!” like i thought when i was depressed and anxious in 2011 and had a really bad and kind of obsessive crush on one of the hella popular dudes in my year at catholic school. because i now know that love doesn’t fix people fully. and if any dude pulls that act on me, im happy to fucking leave as soon possible. because it’s his job to fix himself through therapy with a fucking professional therapist; and not some random woman that they pick up off of a dating app’s responsibility.... to pick up his broken pieces and build him up and all that bullshit that shitty dudes I know share on fb all the time.
anyway yeah. my point is that im happy on my own now bc im so used to being single.... that if I ever started dating I wouldn’t forget who I am and think that I have to completely change myself for the sake of the other person and become exactly like them; like I would’ve when I was younger. and that i also just feel comfortable being single now and that it’d be so strange to have a partner that likes me lmao.... but they’d have to accept me as i am bc I’ve accepted who i am and I won’t change (mostly) for anyone, other than for myself.
like yes I know you change in relationships... and that you learn different things about yourself and other people during the time you spent in those relationships. and I also know that you learn skills like negotiation and compromise etc in relationships. but you also learn 1,000 things about yourself when you don’t date too early...... and don’t fall into the pressure of “hook up culture” that’s so hardly pushed on people from 18-25, bc of tinder becoming huge in the 2010s. you learn 1000 things from all the different people you reject because you realise that you have standards; and that those said people don’t meet them (even if they seem ridiculous to other people). you learn that you’ve kept yourself safe from people that don’t give a fuck about you. you also learn relationship skills in this process as well.
like I learnt from my stalker in 2012, that I could do far better than him and all of his abusive/controlling behaviours and tendencies.... and his constant habit of painting me as a weak and defenceless woman that he had to save & protect all the time. on his side however, i was basically his manic pixie dream girl who had to fix him instead. I learnt from him that neither of those archetypes were desirable to base a relationship on. after all, i was on the road to fix myself.... and if I’d let this bs get to an actual relationship..... i knew it would’ve damn near killed me, and not him.
i knew that “I’ll give you sex lessons in the back of my car” dude was a cunt in 2014...... bc not only did he not care about my sexual safety and not accept any of my refusals for his said “sex lessons”..... he did not respect that i wanted to be called by my either of my names, and not the names that he deemed to be “much easier and more respectful” to have..... because they were both typical white girl names (Gwen or Alannah instead of gwladys or ilona). and then, obviously, he was one of the many guys that were angry at me bc i refused to lose my virginity by 15 like “normal people”. I knew that a decent dude would accept that I wanted to be called by MY ACTUAL FUCKING NAME/S and not ones suggested by them so they could deem me “more socially acceptable” to them. I knew that a respectful dude wouldn’t give me the “you should’ve fucked someone by the time you were 15!!” etc etc lecture that this fuckwad gave me.
I learnt from bar creeper weasel mcfuck in 2017, that again, I could do far better.... but also that his behaviours were fucking creepy and not normal. because surely no honest & decent man would try to confiscate/steal etc a fucking grown woman’s phone in a bar/pub just because she keeps refusing his kisses/grindings on the dancefloor????? and also feels the need to escape his shitty behaviour???? and also because he was angry at her bc she rang someone else to take her home.... instead of wanting to go back to his place???? like a decent dude would accept those choices, right???
I knew by this time that his behaviour of constantly separating me from my friends so that they couldn’t see/hear his disgusting comments and behaviour was manipulative as fuck.... as much as his overly forceful tendency that night; to try and get me to smile and try to control my behaviour to make it look like I was “having fun” on his terms, and not mine..... with comments like: “why the fuck don’t you fucking smile??? why the fuck don’t you look like you’re having a good time??? fucking smile for me bitch!” I knew by 22, that this was toxic fucking behaviour and not a behaviour that I wanted in lover/partner. I knew that if I couldn’t tolerate this treatment during that entire night... then I couldn’t tolerate it for an entire relationship.
I knew in literally the first 3 minutes of talking to him.... where I was supposed to let him look at my phone over my shoulder all the time... while I was banned from looking at his phone except from adding him on fb..... and that he expected me not to be offended by demeaning comments about me doing an arts degree.... but I was then supposed to wholly support him wanting to “study fashion” when he literally dressed like he’d rolled out of a fucking dumpster in the 2000s..... and literally fucking smelt like it as well.... and other troubling shit that I’ve written whole novel-length posts about on this hellsite about him lmao. but you get my point. I knew in these few first minutes to an hour, that he was not someone that I’d like to sleep with/have a relationship with etc etc. we just didn’t fucking mesh. he disgusted me. and I infuriated him by just existing and wanting to leave him behind without a “girl to score with” that night.
I knew I deserved better than him, despite his godawful comments and behaviour and his ultimate belief that I’d stoop so low to go home with him that night and fuck him.... and let him treat me like shit (bc i was scared of him that whole night tbh) for the whole time he did so, was fucking laughable. no. I will not fuck you, man who thinks it’s attractive to tell a woman that “I just can’t help but grab your pussy in that dress!!! bc you’re soooo sexy in that dress! it’s your fault you’re so sexy in that dress!!! fucking kiss me! why the fuck won’t you kiss me???!”. i knew deep down in myself that I could do so much fucking better than him and that i should never go home with a dude that treats me like im 16 and not 22 (at the time). I knew that I would never feel or be safe around this guy, with the way he wanted to confiscate/steal my phone from me and practically leave me completely stranded with him all night... to enforce some monitoring of my behaviour on his watch only, and not mine.
so. to conclude. don’t listen to anyone who tells you that the only way you learn about life is when you’re in a long-lasting & hopefully wholly healthy long-term relationship.... or when you have a long term slutty phase whereby you just date anyone for the sake of dating anyone so that you can fuck around with no strings attached...... or just by being in shitty relationships/shitty situationships; just because you feel like you have to be in them because everyone around you are relationships or going through their 20s slutty phases/situationship phases.
because you learn just as much about yourself and your expectations and standards in partners...... by the way of the people that you reject, and their treatment of you when you constantly rebuff them. you realise your worth and the treatment that you really deserve from the shittiest people..... who try their godawful manipulative tactics on you in the first few hours that you’ve met them physically or talked to them online.
#life#about me#shut up ilona#ilona tries to give relationship advice although shes never had one#ilona tries to give advice#i got my age in 2017 wrong lmao
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(2/2) especially given that the first thing i shipped once i knew what shipping was comes from the realm of daytime soaps, where people are betraying and backstabbing each other constantly lol. for me, i think it comes down to framing. if the show frames a pairing as abusive/toxic, i can deal with it a lot better than with fandoms and shows that romanticize it or sweep it under the rug. that, and of course, chemistry, is a big part of the reason i hate ships like c$ but can enjoy a pairing (2/3)
So, Tumblr ate some of your asks again (damn this hellsite lol) but we spoke on PM’s and you explained that in your other asks, you discussed toxic/dark ships, asked me what makes a dark ship work for me and the darkest ship I’ve ever shipped. You also said that some of the toxic ships you like such as Todd/Blaor and Joker/Harley work for you because of the framing of those ships.
I want to start off by saying, thank you so much for this ask. It’s such an interesting topic to discuss and I feel like it’s very relevant in fandom. There’s this hysteria around “abusive”, “toxic” and “dark” ships with people misusing or misunderstanding those words. I briefly discussed this previously in an ask I recieved about Stelena being abusive, which you can read here if you’re interested.
Overall, I think dark ships are brilliant because when they’re done correctly they can be the most intruiging, complex, authentic and gripping relationships in television. There’s no getting around the fact that love is tricky and complicated, and it can lead people down dark paths. Also, everyone has their issues, insecurities and scars, which often bleed into their relationships. So it’s only right that these sort of relationships should be portrayed in the media.
I feel very much the same as you about what makes a dark/toxic ship work for me. It’s all about the way that it’s portrayed and written. I can’t ship a dark or toxic ship when it’s romanticised or when the toxicity is glossed over or ignored, which is the case with ships like Ross/Rachel (Friends), Damon/Elena (The Vampire Diaries), Spike/Buffy (Buffy the Vampire Slayer - although my only qualms with this ship are in season 7, I actually think they were well written in season 6), Edward/Bella (Twlight) and many more. I have a particular issue with this because I think of all the young people that watch or read about these kind of relationships and aspire to have them and it concerns me. In my opinion, nobody should aspire to have a relationship like any of the ones I’ve just named or any other like them.
Dark ships work for me when they’re authentic and realistic. These types of relationships are intense and passionate, but they’re also exhausting and very detrimental to the people involved. So when I see a ship like this I expect to see that. I expect to see the consequences, to see the people change as a result of the relationship and be pushed to the extremes. I’ve discussed this previously in response to an ask about Delena which you can read here (be warned, it is anti-Delena). In that ask, I use Jax and Tara as an example of a toxic ship that works, and I stand by that. What makes Jax and Tara work so well as a toxic ship is that it’s constantly acknowledged and we see the devastating impact their relationship has on both of them, but Tara in particular. Yet with ships such as Damon/Elena or Emma/Hook, all I ever see is their love being glorified and romanticised.
I have to admit, I don’t have a tendency to ship dark ships. I’d say the only ships that I have that could fall into this category are Cook/Effy (Skins), Damon/Katherine (The Vampire Diaries), Dexter/Debra (Dexter), Ben/Callum (Eastenders) and Henry/Anne (The Tudors). There may be others, but I can’t think of any off the top of my head. There are different reasons as to why I still ship these couples despite them being dark and/or toxic. I’m going to analyse these ships one by one. Feel free to skip over this, because it’s going to be long and I’m literally just using this as the perfect excuse to talk about some of my favourite ships lol.
Cook and Effy (Skins)
I’ve spoken pretty in-depth about Cook and Effy being toxic and bad for each other previously. However, I’ll do it again because there are little things that I missed from my previous meta. Cook and Effy are toxic for one another at points, and this stems from the fact that as individuals they have a lot of issues and they use each other as a buffer for those issues. The reason they enter into a sexual relationship in season 3 is because they both use sex as way to deal with the disconnect they feel with others, but also because Cook wants to get one over on Freddie and Effy wants to deny her feelings for Freddie. As a result, they both unintentionally hurt each other. Cook knows that Effy is using him, but he allows it to happen which feeds into Effy’s pain about Freddie, whilst simuetanously causing himself pain, because he has genuine feelings for Effy. Their communication throughout season 3 is poor and they’re rarely honest with each other. Cook knows that Effy is in love with Freddie, but neither of them address this and it causes them both a lot of hurt. They also use each other as an escape. They run away together at the end of season 3; Effy to get away from Freddie and Cook because he wants to pursue the fantasy that he and Effy are going to live happily ever after. Although Effy willingly stays with Cook during that time, he does take her away from her home and loved ones and isolates her to an extent, because he wants to pursue this fantasy by any means necessary. He knows Effy doesn’t love him the way he loves her, but he goes into denial because he’d rather live a lie than lose her.
In season 4, when Effy finally admits her feelings for Freddie and gets into a relationship with him, she continues to cause Cook pain because she never validates his love for her. Instead, she ridicules and belittles him for it and downplays their relationship. When he tells her he still loves her, she tells him to piss off and later on she tells him that he was never good for her. Instead of admitting that what they had was real, but that she simply loved Freddie more, she makes Cook feel stupid as though what they had meant nothing. This leads to Cook once again going into denial. When Effy is suffering from mental illness and appears to not remember him, he plays along with her because it enables him to be with her, even if just for a short time.
The reason I’m still able to ship Cook and Effy is because despite the toxicity, there’s an equality present in their relationship. Everything that happens between them is mutual. Cook loves Effy but he never actively manipulates, coerces or pressures her to be with him in any way. In fact, he respects and accepts that she loves Freddie even though it hurts him. Effy hurts Cook by undermining their love, but excluding the one occassion where she tells him to piss off, she respects him and treats him with kindness. Cook and Effy never purposefully hurt each other or try to keep each other harm. The hurt they do cause each other is more an extension of their individual issues which have a knock on effect when it comes to their relationship. It’s not their relationship that’s toxic, it’s them as individuals. But also, the narrative never portrays Cook and Effy as being anything other than they are. We see the detrimental impact of their relationship and we hear Effy admit that they were bad for each other and would’ve never worked.
Damon and Katherine (The Vampire Diaries)
Once again, I have discussed Damon and Katherine’s relationship in-depth over at my writing side-blog, so don’t need to go into too much detail. I don’t think any explanation is needed here as to why Damon and Katherine are toxic. From the moment Katherine meets Damon she uses him for her own amusement, she sleeps with Damon and his brother at the same time without any regard for Damon’s feelings, controls every aspect of their relationship to suit her, fakes her death and lets Damon think she’s dead for over a century, continually plays with Damon’s feelings to get the reaction she wants, is continually dismissive of his love for her and rubs the fact that she loves Stefan in Damon’s face. And that’s just the aspects of their relationship that are toxic from Katherine’s side. Damon’s love for Katherine is so consuming that he goes to terrible lengths to be with her and when she rejects him resorts to violence and cruelty.
But again, the reason I’m able to ship them is because Damon and Katherine opearate on a level playing field. At the start of their relationship when Damon is human, Katherine definitley has an upper hand, but later on it’s tit for tat. They both hurt and manipulate each other, and in fact, they almost thrive on it. It’s part of how they communicate and relate to one another. Over the years, their feelings for each other become so twisted that they can’t express their love in the correct way anymore. Most importantly, just like with Cook and Effy, the narrative never strays from what Damon and Katherine are. They’re not true love, they’re not good for each other, they’re not healthy or a love to aspire to have. They’re profoundly connected and have a dark, twisted and complex history which is underlined with love but that manifests itself in often awful ways.
Dexter and Debra (Dexter)
These two are by far the darkest and most controversial ship I’ve ever shipped. As adopted siblings, there’s an incestious nature to the relationship which immediately creates toxcity in their relationship, but as individuals Dexter and Debra are both really messed up. Dexter is a self-proclaimed psychopath and serial killer, and Debra endures a lot of trauma throughout the series which deeply impacts her. Dexter and Debra have such an unhealthy and co-dependent relationship, it’s actually kinda crazy. Dexter lies to Debra and keeps an entire aspect of himself and his life a secret, he kills for Debra, he fails to validate or understand her feelings for him and he emotionally blackmails her. Debra lies and compromises her entire identity and morals to protect Dexter’s secret of being a serial killer, she murders an innocent woman to protect him and harbours a wanted criminal for him. Dexter and Deb will quite literally do anything to protect each other, but the result is devastating. You only have to watch Deb in season 8 to see just how damaging and toxic her relationship with Dexter is to her. Dexter and her love for him quite literally destroys her.
So it begs the question how and why do I ship these two? Well, the answer is the same as always: because the narrative doesn’t portray them as anything other than exactly what they are. Their relationship and Deb’s feelings for Dexter are completely fucked up and we’re told and shown that repeatedly. They’re not romanticised in any way, if anything they’re written in a way that would make most fans and viewers despise their relationship, particularly the romantic aspect of it. The show is true to them as individual characters and the toxicity of their relationship is authentic and understandable. I’ve briefly spoke about this previously, but Dexter and Debra’s relationship is supposed to be completely messed up because it’s an extension of them. Dexter, in particular, is damaged beyond repair and destroys everything he touches. Debra is part of that. Likewise, her falling for him makes perfect sense in the context of what she endures. Deb is a naturally self-destructive and self-loathing person, and loving Dexter is the biggest act of self-destruction she could ever enter into. In my opinion, of all the dark ships I have, Dexter and Debra are the perfect example of it being done right. They’re so dark and they love each other so much, but every step of the way the toxicity of their relationship is acknowledged and explored properly.
Ben and Callum (Eastenders)
I love Ben and Callum so much, and as far as they’ve come in their relationship, I can’t help but see the toxicity of it. In the beginning, Callum was unsure of his sexuality, was extremely closeted and carried a lot of internalised homophobia and self-hatred. This impacted on his relationship with Ben who had struggled with the same issues and didn’t want to return to that sad, lonely and miserable place. Callum’s relationship with Whitney and inability to admit his feelings for Ben made Ben feel rejected, sidelined and frustrated. At the same time this was going on, Ben’s issues of being afraid to love and let someone in after his ex was murdered, meant that he was unable to be completely open to Callum. By the time Callum was ready to come out and embrace his feelings for Ben, Ben was scared and backed away from Callum. Since the two have entered into a relationship, there’s been so much hurt and so much back and fourth. Ben is so afraid of hurting Callum and bringing harm to him, that he constantly pushes him away. The issue is that whether they’re together or not, Callum and Ben get hurt simply by loving each other. When Ben breaks up with Callum or pushes him away, they’re both heartbroken and long to be together again. But when Ben and Callum are together, their differences causes issues, and Ben’s actions put Callum in awful positions. Callum’s been forced to keep an innocent man’s murder a secret (he wasn’t really dead, but Callum didn’t know that), and now Callum’s been kidnapped and beaten, his life threatened, because of Ben’s actions. Ben has gone to extremes to save Callum including holding a gun to his own dad’s head and threatening to pull the trigger.
Unlike the other ships I’ve already discussed, the reason I’m still able to ship Ben and Callum isn’t because the narrative acknowledges they’re toxic for each other. It does acknowledge it, but the main reason I’m able to ship them is because none of the hurt they bring to each other is ever intentional. The hurt that Callum caused Ben before they were together was something he couldn’t control. He couldn’t force himself to come out and break up with Whitney. He had to come to terms with it in his own time and come out when he was good and ready. Likewise, Ben never intentionally hurts Callum. He does everything he can to protect him. Sure, he makes mistakes in trying to protect him, but all he ever wants is the best for Callum. A lot like Cook and Effy, the toxicity of Ben and Callum’s relationship doesn’t come from their relationship itself, but them as individuals. More specifically, Ben. Ben’s lifestyle, choices and actions have a detrimental impact on him and everyone around him (the mother of his child was also kidnapped not too long ago), including Callum.
Henry/Anne (The Tudors)
These two are a weird pairing to analyse, since they’re technically a real-life historical couple, but I’ll obviously be discussing them purely from a fictional stand-point and how they’re portrayed on The Tudors.
Henry and Anne are toxic as hell. Their relationship develops because Anne’s father uses her as a pawn to seduce Henry for the benefit of his own political career. Henry is also married to Katherine when their romantic relationship develops, so there’s infidelity and lies involved. Henry pursues Anne and although she falls for him, she actually has little agency in the early days. She’s told to entertain Henry and play on his attraction to her by her father, and later on, she has to submit to Henry because he’s the King of England. As the King of England, Henry has more power than any person should ever have and his arrogance and self righteousnous means that he’s more than happy to play on his power and use it to his advantage, even where Anne is concerned.
In the early stages of their relationship, considering the type of person he is, Henry is reasonably generous and gentle when it comes to Anne. He respects her, he listens to her and she has a voice in the relationship to a greater extent than Katherine did. But the moment that Anne challenges him or speaks out of turn, he shuts her down and forecfully reminds her that he’s the one with the power. He tells her to shut up and endure like her betters before her and he threatens her by telling her he can bring her down as quickly as he raised her. When she miscarries, he makes her feel that she’s a failed as a wife, mother and queen. He makes her feel embarassed, ashamed, anxious and unloved; the exact opposite of how she should feel during such a traumatic and painful time. Things only get worse when he proceeds to cheat on her whilst she’s pregnant. And we all know how this relationship ends. There are a lot of toxic ships out there but very few who actually kill their significant other, so Henry and Anne take the top spot for that alone.
The question arises again, why do I ship this? And it’s because a) they have amazing chemistry b) the ups and downs in the relationship are portrayed fantastically c) you visibly see the downfall of Anne as a result of her love for Henry. Anne is destroyed, both metaphorically and literally, by her relationship with Henry. None of the bad aspects of their relationships are ever masked or ignored, they’re laid bare, but we see that despite how bad they are for each other, they have a deeply intense and passionate love which neither of them can fight against.
So if you’ve read all of that, I guess I’d say that when it comes to dark/toxic ships, they don’t always work for me. I take them on their individual merit. Sometimes they work and other times they don’t. It all depends on how they’re written and portrayed, and how their relationship develops overtime
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Y’all need to calm down about the Season 3 teaser
Honestly, I wasn’t gonna get into this drama because I think it’s kinda silly anyway, but the more I see about it, the more ridiculous it gets.
Y’all are getting WAY too defensive of Marinette in the new teaser. Like, a lot of her character arc has led to this moment. We KNEW Lila was going to come back and that it was likely going to have to do with Adrien. Marinette has displayed jealousy issues on multiple occasions, as well as an avid hatred for liars. This show is also centered around the will they/won’t they aspect of Adrien and Marinette’s relationship, so relationship drama is expected. This episode is likely the catalyst for a lot of those things.
Really, it was handled rather cleverly in that it backed Marinette into a corner she couldn’t wiggle her way out of, as she typically is able to do. As I have said in previous metas about Marinette’s character, her strength lies in manipulation (“resourcefulness” for those of you who are made uncomfortable by my word choice). Be it as Ladybug or her civilian self, her first step in solving any problem is to manipulate the situation around her until she gets the outcome she desires. As Ladybug, this is her literal super power. As a civilian, it sometimes works in her favor, it sometimes doesn’t. In Reflekta, her first attempts to manipulate the situation failed, so she instead manipulated the photographer with her charms. In Anansi, she played a trick that allowed her to cheat so Nino could win, in Reverser she created a situation so that she could attempt to control the outcome, etc, etc... And while I salute the writers for using this quality as both a good and bad thing--and for displaying so acutely what it’s like to be a woman in a world where you are often disregarded--it also means that putting Marinette in a situation where she can’t manipulate what’s going on is going to frustrate her. Add in the lying and you’ve got a recipe for Marinette being backed into a corner (something that is, arguably, very, very difficult to do).
If we look at the premise, it actually relies a lot on what has happened already in the series. Only Marinette and Adrien are going to be aware that Lila has a tendency to lie. It was also established that Lila has regular contact with the class via the Season 2 finale, which means that the students have probably talked to her regularly. They do know her a bit and as far as they know, she’s a kind, generous person who leads an exceptional life. So when she finally comes back with some silly story about saving Jagged Stone’s cat and thus has hearing damage, it’s really not that far of a stretch that the other students would believe her given the things they’ve believed in the past.
So if we look at it subjectively, what we have is a nice girl coming back to school who suffered an injury and has asked nicely that the class accommodate that, only for Marinette--who the class knows will go too far to get close to Adrien, who will lie even if she apologizes later, and who will go to extreme lengths to achieve what she wants--to question this, thus upsetting Lila and making her--Marinette--look like a huge jerk in the process.
You might say, “well the class should know better.” What should they know, exactly? That even though Marinette is strong and willing to go the extra mile for others, that she can’t also make mistakes and be mean? Max knows she can be, even if she apologizes later. The teachers know she tends to make up excuses to get what she wants. Sabrina probably doesn’t have the best opinion of her. Alix clearly thinks her obsession with Adrien is weird. Nate likely feels embarrassed over what her plan made him think. Like, she tries, she really does, but not everything turns out the way she wants, nor does it always come across as though she’s a saint. Adrien said she was like their everyday Ladybug, not the rest of the class. On top of that, his statement is compounded by the fact that he actually KNOWS Ladybug and has called her out on her faults multiple times before (his own issues aside). So yeah, Marinette is generally a good person and she puts up with a lot and she goes the extra mile, but she has her own selfish desires and her own skewed idea of what is acceptable.
Let’s be frank, Marinette crosses a lot of lines. And even if that attitude leads to her doing good things, it doesn’t change the fact that she’s comfortably prepared to do whatever she wants even if someone else tells her “no.” And she learns, of course, and does better, and usually turns things around, but that part of her personality is still there. And being Ladybug, more than likely, has only encouraged this part of her.
So now we have the situation in season 3. Lila is basically, at this point, another up and coming Chloe as far as her levels of nastiness, except that Marinette is the only one who knows that (and Adrien, but he likes to see the best in everyone and so likely believed what Lila said in good faith). The issue that Marinette is the only one that knows is only compounded by the fact that she can’t defend her attitude toward Lila because that would mean she’d either, one, have to admit she’s Ladybug, or, two, formulate some sort of lie that would be the equivalent of what Lila did, which isn’t exactly a good idea given what Marinette is angry about in the first place (also, that’s a shitty thing to do anyway). The rest of the class have nothing but good opinions of Lila. Even Alya has had nothing but good things to say about her. Add in the fact that a good majority of the class KNOWS Marinette has a past of acting ridiculous when it comes to Adrien and it’s not a far stretch that they’d be irritated with her behavior. To them, it looks like Marinette is, once again, trying to manipulate the situation to her advantage so that she can serve her own desire to be near Adrien. As the audience--who arguably knows a lot more about Marinette as a person than the class--it’s easy to say “well, she’d never do that,” but the class has a different understanding of her personality. She’s a well-intentioned young woman who fights for what she believes in and who sometimes goes overboard in order to get what she wants, especially where Adrien in involved. It’s not that far of a stretch for them that she’d behave this way if Adrien was introduced into the equation.
If anything, the fact that the class knows Marinette better only adds to the reasons they’d react the way they did. I work in customer service with my sister and if a customer came up with a disability and she had the audacity to question that IN FRONT OF 15 OTHER CUSTOMERS, I’d probably give her a nasty look too. Marinette--whether she was justified or not--came off as a brat and was attempting (again) to humiliate Lila in front of everyone (be it that she deserves that or not). After all, everyone else in the class clearly has no problem with Lila, so why would Marinette? They probably know Marinette doesn’t know her, because Marinette likely hasn’t said anything contrary in an effort to keep her identity safe. After all, when Lila was first introduced, she was antagonistic toward Lila before she’d even known her--Alya was present for that.
Marinette’s entire attitude comes across as an exaggeration of her own previously poor behavior, whether that’s justified or not. Which likely only makes her all the angrier, as SHE knows this, but there’s nothing she can say to clarify that to anyone else.
And quite frankly, I’m not even that mad at Alya for volunteering Marinette’s seat for Nino. No, it wasn’t the most polite way to go about it (she could have asked first), but Alya has gone above and beyond for Marinette and her love life, setting up all sorts of situations and encouraging Marinette whenever she can. I don’t think it’s that selfish of her to say “I’d like to sit beside my boyfriend” given all that she’s done for Marinette. Yeah, it’s kind of shitty that Marinette now sits in the back, alone, but if it wasn’t her, then someone else would have had to do it. And sometimes in classrooms, you just sit where you’re told to. I’d also like to add that, upon learning Alya was then sitting beside Nino, Marinette was not upset. Rather, she was simply upset she had to sit in the back.
Honestly, even if it hadn’t been labeled a mistake, I wouldn’t even be that mad at Adrien for glaring at her. Adrien takes a lot of what people say at face-value and is often more forgiving than he should be. It’s not completely out of the question that he might believe Lila, given what other things he’s willingly believed. Adrien WANTS to believe in people. Not only that, but he has firsthand experience being on the sour end of Marinette assuming the worst because of circumstances. No, I don’t think he holds it against her, but she was pretty brutal toward him despite the fact that he tried to explain and that she didn’t even know him in the first place (origins).
Marinette is a strong and wonderful character, but she has faults and while I likely would have handled a lot of things in the story differently, this episode premise isn’t as bad as people on this hellsite think it is. Yeah, some of the opinions that come from the Defend Marinette Squad are justified, but this episode isn’t even out yet and everyone is up in arms. That aside, I don’t really see how anyone is that out of character, except for maybe Alya.
I think that a lot of people who view Marinette as this perfect, blameless flower are angry that her faults are being exploited so as to put her in a difficult position. A position that also reflects badly on her, despite the fact that we, the audience, know she’s not at fault. Honestly, that’s probably the whole point--that we as audience members feel the same frustration that she does. She’s our hero, so we hate it just as much as she does when someone is telling lies and it reflects badly on her. It has been well-established that Marinette is emotionally sensitive to two things--lying and Adrien. OF COURSE the writers are going to use Lila to exploit that. And they’ve set it up that Marinette has been just as faulted in the eyes of the other students as she has been virtuous. I doubt any of them now hate her, but I also doubt that any of them are surprised at the concept of Marinette becoming so emboldened as to act against another student so as to get a chance with Adrien (there’s a reason she gets compared to Chloe all the time, guys--there are parallels there whether we like it or not).
Like, that’s literally the plot of Gamer, despite the fact that Max was a whiney little bitch about losing.
Marinette can be a good person and still make big mistakes.
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I’m literally just shy of 50,000 posts and like three weeks short of 7 years here, and i’m sorry but i’m not going anywhere.
I can’t call tumblr a ‘hellsite’ unless it’s with great irony, because it isn’t. It’s an online home i’d been searching for from the first time I used the internet and took thirteen years to find. It’s the place where I gained confidence and came to terms with my body, my gender and my sexuality. It’s the place where i’ve made friends and laughed at posts so hard I literally couldn’t breathe. Most of all, it’s where I met my fiancée, best friend, moirail and matesprit. Tumblr was the catalyst between a life that was killing me to one where i’ll go to any lengths to survive. there are pockets of bad here, as there are in any community, both online and off. It’s not always easy to surround yourself with the right people but they’re out there. Here.
Tumblr have made some very strange and bad decisions, mostly I think due to the fact that business-savvy and internet-savvy aren’t necessarily the same thing. They’ve let us as a community and themselves down by ignoring the actual issues for so long that they’ve had to amputate a whole limb instead of cutting out a few bad bits, and in doing so they’re literally crippling themselves. Posts were flagged erroneously from the moment the announcement went out and I don’t see that stopping any time soon. Ironically, however, this is probably going to bring in the most traffic tumblr’s had in years.
My dash has been full of people giving their twitter details etc and giving their goodbyes but I won’t be leaving, at least not of my own accord. As a sensible precaution i’m making moves to back up my archive, and if you want any of my old photos i’d recommend going back through and finding them while you can, and i’d also trying to import my blog to Wordpress as an extra back-up just in case, but i’ll be here on tumblr until the day they switch off the servers.
Please be very mindful and considerate for the number of people who have used tumblr as an outlet for sex work or creativity which has involved nsfw content and are about to see years of work go down the drain. This can literally be making the difference between a roof over people’s heads and food on their table. I don’t think some people realise how fine a bread line we all tread these days. The slightest blip can be felt for years.
I hope that tumblr will reconsider this bullyboy policy and start looking at the real problems instead, which require human hours to deal with, not algorithms and bots. Get rid of the abuse, the CP, the nazis, the harmful and illegal content, and create a better filtering system to protect younger people and those who want to be safe from seeing certain things on their dash. But somehow I doubt that’s going to happen.
Either way, my male-presenting nipples and I will be a part of tumblr from now until they either cover me, or tumblr, with dust.
I love you guys <3
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How to make such a well rounded OC with so much canon character interaction?
Over the last few weeks, I’ve received this question, and questions like this, a lot. As in, at least fifteen times “a lot”. And I’ve never been quite sure how to answer, because roleplay -- writing in general, but especially with other people -- is a very personal experience. It’s very ingrained in not only who you are as a person, but who your character is, as well. Things that work for me, Serena, may not work for you, Anon, because we may not be the same person, write the same characters, in the same fandoms, in the same way. Things that would be genuine and right for you to do would make no sense for me to do, and vice versa. Some people have great success hopping on every now and again, formatting no replies, and focusing on a few select partners. Others have great success spending hours formatting everything, spending a lot of time on aesthetics, and talking to a lot of people. It’s really unique to who you are as an individual. From blog to blog, I even run things differently. So I’ll attempt to answer this ask ( that I received about fifteen years ago ) as well as I possibly can.
First of all, I want to say thank you! Because I believe this is meant to be a compliment. You said she’s well-rounded, and I know many people on this website quantify “success” with “canon character interaction,” so I thank you for thinking Aella’s a good character and is successful. That’s not ever personally been my goal, however, but more on that later.
I’ll start with the well-rounded OC portion. As I’m sure most of the people who follow me know, I’ve been writing Aella consistently on Tumblr for about 5 years. She’s very well-developed to Star Trek, but you may or may not notice she doesn’t have a lot of other verses, because, uh... she’s very well-developed to Star Trek. I’ve read the Memory Alpha and Beta pages for Vulcan and Betazed about 90 billion times in order to get context for the world. I watch Star Trek almost daily in order to get context for my world. Though I’ve always been a believer of Nature over Nurture, a lot of where I got my cues was from knowing her world and her context very, very closely. I spent a lot of time asking myself in-depth character questions, imagining her in different situations. I wrote drabbles, I got to know her. No one knows my girl better than I do. And that’s true for every muse and their mun. I learned and memorized how she was in every year of her life, found out how much or how little would change. It did take time, though. Quite... a bit of time. I used to write a three+ paragraph starter for every single follower. ( I was brand new to Tumblr, I didn’t know what I was doing, I was too soft and silly. ) That may have helped me kick-start it.
Now... the canon character question. As interaction with canon characters has never been my goal, I can’t really give you an answer. This differs from fandom to fandom on such a wild basis. The Star Trek community, as a whole, is very good, very welcoming, and very open, so I’ve had great fortune here, but it did take a long time. It took years to gather interest in Aella, but I never felt... slighted, if that makes any sense? I never quantified success in how many people followed me, how many interactions I had, but rather, the stories I wrote. And I think, perhaps, my focus on telling good stories and having fun on here may come through to others, hence my “popularity”. If my starters went unanswered, I wasn’t bitter. If people didn’t follow me back, I didn’t care. I unfollowed people, I reached out to more. I found people who wanted to be friends -- I never made people who didn’t want to be my friends my friends.
Since I can’t answer canon character, I’ll answer this as though you said interactions in general. Personally? I just keep my focus clear. I’m here to have fun, write good stories, and spread positivity! So that’s what I do. Every time I’m on the dash and I see an ooc post from someone, I leave a nice comment. I always send in character building memes that someone reblogs. I always observe reblog karma. I offer to do things on people’s wishlists. I welcome people to the fandom. I send nice messages, I ask for Discords. I plot a lot. I reach out to people a lot. And if they ignore me, if they reject me, if they say nothing, I let it go. I don’t think about it. I could not tell you, right now, how many people I have following me, or how many people I’m following. I genuinely have no idea. And I don’t... care, as rude as that may sound? Because that’s not my goal. That’s not my focus. That’s not why I’m here.
Listen, I understand how hard it is to have no one interested in your character, be it canon or original character. For two years, I wrote Aella exclusively with two people, and they both ceased being my friends and left Tumblr RP. I wrote three canon characters in a Disney group that fell apart, and I lost every single one of those friends I had spent hours, nights, years with. I wrote an original Disney character that had less than ten threads in the year I wrote him. For years, the only one who wrote with Willow was my husband, and then he left Tumblr RP. I’ve spent genuine, literal years reblogging memes, making starter calls, reaching out to people, and being completely ignored. So I get it. I get how hard it is to feel alone, to feel like you have no friends. I get how it is to do your best and have it not be enough.
The difference, I guess? I found things to celebrate rather than belabor. My two friends left Tumblr RP? Fine, reboot Aella -- yay, I finally get a chance to do my tags right! My Disney group fell apart? Fine, change the blogs to independent -- yes, I can finally follow that cool Indie blog I wanted to write with but couldn’t while I was in the group! No one’s writing with Willow? Reboot her, start following people like wild -- yay, I get to reintroduce her, I get to make so many things up myself, this is great! I specifically aim to make my dash a safe place. I unfollow blogs that don’t want to interact with me or upset me to see. I backlist tags I don’t like. I just make my dash safe and inviting and fun for me. Tumblr isn’t a hellsite if you don’t let it be one. There are a lot of wonderful people on this site to interact with. Like anything, you just have to avoid what’s going to be harmful and bad for you.
Remember, this is a hobby! You’re supposed to have fun!
To close, I’ll leave some tips that help me, personally connect with other people, and I’ve noticed have given me great assistance in forging writing relationships with others. Again, I can only speak from my personal experience. What works for Serena may not work for you. Do what’s authentic to you!
Making headcanon posts, often!
Not being passive aggressive or making fun of others on the dash.
Attitude of gratitude!
Offering to do starters for others!
Being genuinely, truly interested in other people’s characters, stories, or lives. Be the kind of partner you’re looking for!
Being forgiving and not taking things too seriously.
Checking up on others and making investments into the muns as muns.
On that note, prioritizing mun over muse! Your reply is less important than someone else’s wellbeing.
Making sure to match length and effort as much as possible!
Not putting others on a pedestal or belittling others for their success.
I wish you well on your journey, and please remember to have fun. Find out what you want ( e.g. do you want a lot of partners or just a few, a lot of stories or a few, a lot of AUs or... you get the point ) and focus on it, and move on from what’s not working. Be safe, love you!
#( about the mun. )#( out of language. )#( by these hands. )#long post for ts#( comm. )#( unidentified transmitter. )#ok to reblog#[ IF NOTHING ELSE??? i found out i've been mistagging my anon tag for like.... solid ass months so.....#learning did happen here in this day ]
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Thank you queen for tagging me @chirpchirpstanley
Rules: Answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people.
1. Last Drink: Water
2. Last Phone Call: Mom
3. Last Text Message: A link to a spotify playlist I made for my friend
4. Last Song You Listened To: Technically Heroes by Peter Gabriel but currently Shelter by Dermot Kennedy
5. Last Time You Cried: January 13th (specific lamo but I wrote about it in my journal.)
6. Dated Someone Twice?: I’ve. Never. Dated. Anyone. I’m a lonely bitch.
7. Kissed Someone and Regretted It?: I wouldn’t know
8. Been Cheated On?: Not yet, hopefully never
9. Lost Someone Special?: :/
10. Been Depressed?: Mh-hmm
11. Gotten Drunk and Thrown Up?: I’m an innocent baby until proven not
Favorite Colors
12. Neon Blue
13. Red (And pink, but like neon pink)
14. Orange
In the Last Year Have You…
15. Made New Friends?: Yes, they’re my everything
16. Fallen Out of Love?: I wish I had but.....
17. Laughed Until You Cried?: ALL THE GODDAMN TIME
18. Found Out Someone Was Talking About You?: No, but there’s people who probably talk about me
19. Met Someone Who Changed You?: Sadly
20. Found Out Who Your Friends Are?: For the most part
21. Kissed Someone on Your Facebook Friends List?: I never had FB
General
22. How Many of Your Facebook Friends Do You Know IRL?: Prev. Question
23. Do You Have Any Pets?: Nope
24. Do You Want to Change Your Name?: Not at all (Okay, but I went through a phase where I wanted everyone to call me Megan, specifically for the reason because I had a huge ass crush on Megan Fox)
25. What Did You Do for Your Last Birthday?: I had a small kickback with a couple of friends
26. What Time Did You Wake Up Today?: 7:20 for bitch ass school
27. What Were You Doing at Midnight Last Night?: Going through the Spencer x Derek tag (nkcjdsnckjdsn jcdn kjd)
28. What Is Something You Can’t Wait For?: To have someone tell me they love me more than a friend (don’t mind me, just a lonely bitch over here)
30. What Are You Listening To Right Now?: High Enough by K. Flay (OKAY BUT LISTEN TO THIS BANGER I TOTALLY VIBE WITH IT IT’S SO GOOD)
31. Have You Ever Talked To A Person Named Tom?: Nah
32. Something That Gets On Your Nerves?: This boy who stares at me during one of my classes but has me blocked on every form of social media (A loooooong story)
33. Most Visited Website: This hellsite
34. Hair Color: Black
35. Long or Short Hair: Like,,,Medium length
36. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: NJKCFNDKJNDSKA I hate him, his existance makes me wanna gag but I have a small ass heart attack when he breathes around me god damn it
37. What Do You Like About Yourself: I sing decently
38. Want Any Piercings?: Not really
39. Blood Type: I have no idea
40. Nicknames: Aves, Satan (I hate my friends)
41. Relationship Status: Single pringle ready to mingle. Desperately
42. Zodiac: Sagittarius
43. Pronouns: She/Her
44. Fave TV Shows: Criminal Minds, Stranger Things, Luke Cage, The Get Down, New Girl, Key & Peele, Broad City
45. Tattoos: No
46. Right or Left Handed: Right
47. Ever Had Surgery: Nope
48. Piercings: Two
49. Sport: LMFAOOOOO I use to *play* volleyball and run track. The darkest days.
50. Vacation: I’ve been to disney world once and I wanna go again
51. Trainers: This question is confusing me
More General
52. Eating: Air
53. Drinking: H2O
54. I’m About to Watch: Criminal Minds
55. Waiting For: SoMEonE tO lOVe Me!!!
56. Want: To talk to the dumbass boy I have crush on ncjdsnckjds
57. Get Married: Nope. nOpe. yes, NOPE
58. Career: I don’t know yet. (okay but maybe a tv show producer or a movie director)
Which is Better
59. Hugs or Kisses: I guess hugs, a bitch wouldn’t know what kissing feels like
60. Lips or Eyes: Eyes. Eyes all the fucking way. WHen you catch them staring at something and they have a glint in their eyes, f u CK
61. Shorter or Taller: Taller.
62. Older or Younger: I don’t know
63. Nice Arms or Stomach: Arms. Like bro. Arm veins. Bro.
64. Hookup or Relationship: The farther I get the more I realize how lonely I am
65. Troublemaker or Hesitant: GAHAHHAHAHA. Everyone who knows me IRL knows hesitant isn’t in my vocabulary
Have You Ever
66. Kissed a Stranger: I would for money
67. Drank Hard Liquor: It’s on my bucket list
68. Lost Glasses: I sat on them once and broke them
69. Turned Someone Down: Yeah. The dude was a creep and just very offensive to literally everything I loved
70. Sex on First Date: Can’t hate it if you’ve never tried it
71. Broken Someone’s Heart: Not yet. I never want to.
72. Had Your Heart Broken: ouch
73. Been Arrested: No
74. Cried When Someone Died: Yep
75. Fallen For a Friend: Who hasn’t
Do You Believe In
76. Yourself: On some occasions
77. Miracles: Tricky. Tricky, tricky, tricky, tricky
78. Love at First Sight: I’m gonna say no but know I’m a huge ass hypocrite
79. Santa Claus: Would be played by The Rock if I made a movie
80. Kiss On a First Date: I wouldn’t know
81. Angels: Sure
Other
82. Best Friend’s Name: Kate
83. Eye Colour: Brown
84. Fave Movie: Man Of Steel. I can quote it
85. Fave Actor: Timothee Chalamet, Noomi Rapace, Finn Wolfhard, Idris Elba, Will Smith, Chadwick Boseman
I tag whoever wants to do it!
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