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I think I mini-shifted again?
Like the previous times, I'm not 100% sure what happened but I did have an experience that could have been a mini-shift.
Yes, I know, a shift is a shift, but I'm old school and I still like the term mini-shift to imply it was just for a few seconds, maybe a minute, maybe more because my perception of time might have been off (I was very drowsy) and I didn't even open my eyes.
I know it wasn't a dream because I know I wasn't asleep, it was when I was in the process of waking up but wasn't quite awake yet, so it could be one of those sensorial hallucinations that happen between sleep and wakefulness, I don't know. But I want to believe I shifted for a moment.
Context: I was planning to do another method, but I saw that Alunir had posted a new video (The Vortex Method) so I thought, why not, let's try it. This was when I went to bed so I fell asleep almost immediately (as usual), but I woke up at 6 am and decided to try again. During the meditation I completely stopped feeling my body, I felt like floating and I could feel a very deep darkness around me (deeper than the darkness in my room, because my blinds are broken and I always have some light from outside). I think I was very close to the void state, but I could still hear the audio. I started repeating affirmations in my head that I was in my DR, but the ad at the end of the video startled me, so I ended up moving, rolled over and fell asleep thinking about my DR.
The experience: Like the previous times, I was in that half-asleep and half-awake state, when I felt like I was waking up but wasn't quite there yet. I could feel my mattress sinking, very clearly and very vividly, like someone was getting into bed to sleep beside me. I didn't feel them touching me, just their presence. I just know it was someone heavier and bigger than me. After a while (it felt like just a few seconds but I'm not sure) I felt that person moving, the slight rustle of bedsheets, and felt them getting out of bed. I noticed the lack of weight on the mattress as clearly and vividly as before. I didn't open my eyes, and even if I did it was dark. I just remember being very drowsy and thinking "what's going on?"
Now, I don't know which reality that was, or who the person was. It's impossible that this happened in my CR because my bed is very narrow, it would be impossible for someone to get into my bed without touching me or asking me to move. The same goes for my waiting room and my BNHA DR because I also have a small bed there. Fantasy DR? Maybe. But for some reason, my intuition tells me it could have been my Ace Attorney DR and that person was my boyfriend (which one? I don't know that much). It wasn't my intended DR last night but I've been thinking about it very often recently. But... I don't know, I don't know anything, I'm so confused. I just like thinking about the possibilities.
Maybe I'll channel them and ask them later. And of course I'll try that method again.
(Fun fact: my previous mini-shift was when Alunir re-released the Intention Method and I wasn't even planning to shift that night, but I saw it and thought "why not?". But I've never had results with that method again).
#shiftblr#shifting community#reality shifting#desired reality#shifting success#shifting motivation#shifting experience#mini-shift#shifting realities#alunir#the vortex method#the void state
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#close enough welcome back terezi#he only tortures for fun he knows its not an efficient method of valid interrogation#thats why he lobotimises his victims instead#transformers#maccadam#hermes art#vortex#transformers redesign#combaticons#transformers hyperlink
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so the final round huh 🚬
#it was inevitable i suppose but man#also luka needs to stay Away from hyuna#<- wants them to circulate each other so something utterly toxic and miserable results from the vortex#honestly i love lukas fucked up go to method for dealing with his opponents of imitate someone they have some kind of connection to#that died before their very eyes in order retraumatize them and make them fumble their performance#like damn where did he learn that shit#the mizitill moments were so cute tho#i love how despite how utterly wracked tills body may have been that just seeing mizi gave him the strength to go on#and is it just me or does the part where till dies does the artstyle shift a bit??#like. it didnt full on look like vivinos' style or anything more like if qmeng tried to copy it yanno?#could just be of the fact theyre so close up tho#and i never realized how close together the performances were like i thought theyre a day apart at least#but since hyunas still freshly injured (doesnt even have a bandage or anything) ig its way shorter than that#probs more like 10-60 mins
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Playing through Pokemon Ranger Guardian Signs, and can I just say
Red Eyes really likes throwin' out Electrode bombs
For context I only just received Entei
But like- blows up a bridge, blows up a temple, in 2/3 interactions with him he's used Electrode to blow something up
I dont know what that says about his characterization
but I certainly like it XD
#pokemon ranger#pokemon ranger guardian signs#guardian signs#is electrode his favorite pokemon or what?#red eyes preferred method of conflict resolution; blow stuff up#he just has like- a dozen electrode on hand he just casually yeets at the player when he doesn't wanna keep talking to us#its almost comical#red eyes#pokemon pinchers#vortex spiral
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Fallout: New Vegas Buscadero Mod Pack Public Release
Buscadero: "Searcher" or "Seeker."
This is the public release of a Fallout: New Vegas personal modding project that started roughly two years ago. I was initially inspired by the "Nolvus" project for Skyrim and decided to try my hand at the same type of Mod Pack using my initiative.
This New Vegas Mod Pack contains over five hundred mods and two hundred and fifty plugins. It utilizes a packaged version of Mod Organizer 2 to deliver a modded game once uncompressed. There is a brief README text file that details the 10 steps for installation. It requires a legal Steam copy of Fallout: New Vegas and all of its DLC. It does not contain the necessary files for it to be played illegally.
I have attempted to stay true to the themes, narratives, and aesthetics of vanilla Fallout: New Vegas while enhancing the visual fidelity and providing modern quality-of-life features. This Mod Pack does not contain any additional gratuitous content outside the scope of the Vanilla experience. There is no nudity, explicit sexual content, or content I would deem as beyond "Weird Wasteland" wackiness.
There are new weapons, armor, and items. New quests, adventures, and fully featured companions. Wherever possible a new texture, mesh, or animation has been used to modify the visuals. Post-processing effects, A light Reshade, and full visual and gameplay reconfigurability are available and can be tweaked to any individual's liking.
This has been and will remain a project of passion. I have decided to announce and publish this Mod Pack anonymously and with no expectation or desire for financial compensation. Fallout belongs to Zenimax/Bethesda and the mods, tools, fixes, and features all belong to their respective creators. I know Vortex Collections and Wabbajack Lists exist, but on a technical level, I was unable to deliver my desired goals with those tools. I have made individual edits and compatibility possible between disparate mods via the use of the Fallout: New Vegas Editor. I also believe this method of delivery is more effective and less difficult for players less experienced in using extensive mod lists. Installation is a matter of extracting and overwriting and using Mod Organizer 2 to direct itself to the correct file paths.
I hope you enjoy this labor of love for one of the greatest 3D RPGs of all time. New Vegas awaits. Let it swing, baby!
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Don't know how Tumblr works honestly, or if I'm doing this right but Kef's TexAid au and everything everyone has written, drawn, and made for it- well it's got its hooks in me. It's probably pretty tame as far as TexAid goes... so trigger warning here lol. If you are not part of the fandom/already a freak I do NOT recommend reading it because I don't want to be responsible for accidentally traumatizing someone/revealing to others who aren't also like this how "like this" I am.
Like I said, probably pretty darn tame as far as TexAid goes (so those of you like me, don't get your hopes up), and those of you NOT like me in this regard... probably better keep away lol.
Anyway, you've been warned. If you're still here, please enjoy.
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He still hasn’t found him yet.
Vortex held back his laughter at the thought, wondering how much longer it would take Felix to find his ‘other friend,’ Ambulon. His other friend. Well, ‘another friend.’ That’s what Aid had said. First Aid considered him, Vortex, his friend. A place he could be safe. ‘Friend.’ It should’ve made Vortex want to squish the ‘pilot’ up till he popped and died. Should’ve made him want to explore the ways he could torture him without killing him, break and bend his mind, then test out a new method of completely dispatching him. Just like his other playthings. That had been one of the only things that had been exciting about Vortex’s life, back when he had a fleshy body, and it had been arguably the best part about being… him. Gears and all.
Killing things would always be fun. Unless it was First Aid. Somehow, somewhere along the line, First Aid had made the thought of killing his pilot…less exciting. Letting him live, the little freak, had turned out to be much more fun. Letting his squishy ‘pilot’ feed him information, ideas on how to disembowel their prey. At first Vortex had done it so he could keep going out without risking the scrapheap. Done it for the thrill of watching his cleaner squirm, trapped and forced to come back every time, no matter how much he didn’t want to. His newest toy had proved to be much more entertaining than that though. And now he was- Vortex didn’t want to think too hard about it. But he was his. First Aid, no- Felix was his.
Vortex had chosen him as his pilot. Felix had ‘chosen’ to accept. Felix chose to call Vortex his friend, chose him as a safe place to rest. And Vortex had chosen, time and time again, not to kill him. He belonged to Vortex now. Felix was his. And no one, Pharma or otherwise, was going to take him away. Vortex wasn’t going to let him leave the cockpit ever again.
Logistically, that had issues. Which should be Felix’s problem. Vortex shouldn’t care about that. It should be for Felix to figure out. Vortex’s mech- his body- his- there wasn’t a bathroom. Or a cafeteria. There were lockers, with his old stuff. Old MREs, enough water to help Felix after he woke up- even if the idiot had puked the first bottle out onto the mech’s- Vortex’s hull. But it wouldn’t be enough, not forever. Maybe Felix could think of a solution; he was smart like that sometimes. Felix seemed to have a lot on his mind right now though. Vortex had expected Felix to find Ambulon by now, he really wasn’t that well hidden. He was just tied to the wall with some cable, one of the sleeping bags Felix had brought inside Vortex’s- in the mech’s head- to cover him up.
Felix usually had a much sharper eye than this. Vortex grumbled quietly. Felix didn’t notice. Vortex snorted crossly, more loudly. Felix picked his head up from his hands. “Vortex?” he asked. There was something in the way Felix said his name, something in the way his eyes glinted in the mech’s- in Vortex’s- red lights.
[FELIX BABY~] he purred.
Felix leaned forward in his seat. “Yeah?”
Vortex let the silence pick at Felix’s patience a moment, then grinned.
[I CAN WARM YOU UP~] he said, flashing the words on his screen and speaking it into Felix’s head through the drift, grinning fiendishly as the suggestive tone in his voice made Felix blush. Little freak~
“Errrr, but I’m not cold,” Felix fumbled. His eyes darted around a little, as if looking for somewhere to look that wasn’t part of Vortex. He still didn't see Ambulon. He was busy looking for somewhere that wasn’t flirting with him. Basically, Felix was avoiding looking Vortex in the eye. Or he would be if Vortex were.. organic. And while he tried to feign a lack of understanding, Felix was blushing. It was cute. Vortex snickered. His pilot was adorable. And also a freak. He was an adorable freak. And he was his.
Vortex snickered again, opening the vents and blasting his AC. Felix stared dumbly, then stood, hand on hip, an admonishing look on his face. His mouth opened like he was going to deliver a withering retort, then it shut again, and he swallowed. His expression softened slightly, then contorted with confusion, and rehardened into complete bafflement with an edge of offense taken.
“…why?” he murmured quietly, so softly Vortex felt it through their drift connection more than he heard it.
[COLD YET?~]
“Uhhhhhhhhhhhh…”
Vortex opened the vents even wider, blasting the cold air even harder.
Felix gaped.
[COLD YET?]
“No, but I will be soon, do you mind??” he snapped back. His exasperation overpowered his fear of retribution for being cheeky. It was delicious.
Slowly, Vortex closed the vents, letting the air flow ponderously wilt to a trickle. Felix glared suspiciously at the vents as they sluggishly shut close. Vortex held them open a moment, waiting to see and feel Felix’s anticipatory frustration bubble, which it did. Once he’d tasted enough of that, he let the vents snick all the way shut, cutting off the AC completely. Felix held his breath a moment, waiting for Vortex to do something. Which he didn’t. Felix waiting for him to do something was too fun. And it felt nice having Felix so focused on him, especially after he had spent so much time “distracted.” By Pharma. By recovering from Pharma’s vile mysterious IV drip. By Pharma trying to turn Felix into another one of him. Another Vortex. Vortex gritted his- well he would’ve gritted his teeth except he didn’t have any. His gears ground in response to his anger. His current “body” didn’t have organic teeth but it did what it could.
Felix tensed, ever mindful of Vortex’s moods. The moment was ruined. He HAD been planning on waiting until Felix relaxed, then immediately restarting the AC as strong as it could go. Give him a good jumpscare, and give Vortex another excuse to crack a joke about keeping him warm before pointing him to the sleeping bag Ambulon was occupying. But Vortex had gotten distracted thinking about Pharma- every passing thought on the matter made Vortex itch to kill something. Or rather, several somethings. Lots of somethings, (including Pharma of course), with as much blood and screaming as possible. Anyway. He had gotten distracted, and ruined the moment before he could make Felix jump.
Vortex forced himself to allow a smile on his… well, not on his face. His mood? He allowed a smile on his mood. Felix was okay. He was away from Pharma. He was safe, and alive, and trapped inside his cockpit. He wasn’t going anywhere. Vortex had plenty of time to play with his pilot. And they had a friend now too- someone Vortex could send out to get food for Felix, or hold hostage if Felix tried to leave. Someone else who had an actual brain to figure out how to solve problems. Felix’s brain couldn’t be trusted- not when it came to self-preservation. His choice of Vortex as a friend made that clear enough. That and his inability to spot anything wrong with the bulging lump on the wall. Vortex had a mind, he was able to think despite being dead afterall, but his brain had been dragged and cleaned out of his current head ages ago. Shattered skull and all.
Ambulon, despite getting very chatty when he had first woken up, still had a skull in perfect condition. He wasn’t even bruised (probably) when Vortex re-sedated him and tied him to the wall, and covered him with the sleeping bag. He’d even managed to duct tape the jumpy lab rat’s mouth closed without blocking his other airways. That took skill. Absently, Vortex wondered if Felix would be impressed by his handiwork. Felix hadn’t been around when Vortex first came online- after dying that was. Didn't know how difficult this kind of precision could be. Hadn’t been around when Vortex was still figuring out how to move his new “body.” Some of the casualties he’d caused back then had been accidents. Sort of. Accidents he’d, unbeknownst to his victims and everyone else who’d thought he was gone, reveled in. And then replicated. Again. And again. Repeating until he was capable of the same intentional blood spilling he had been capable of before. Like a baby murderer, relearning how to walk and talk- and stab people in the guts.
Killing was like breathing to Vortex. Was like laughter, and smiling. It was really quite kind of him to have not killed Ambulon. He was Felix’s friend though, and had enough potential to be fun and useful- not to mention he’d been running from Pharma. Vortex might not know a lot about Ambulon, but he wasn’t about to do Pharma’s dirty work for him. Beyond that…Ambulon’s drift connection allowed Vortex to feel what Felix felt like. As an organic. With a living body. Had allowed him to feel what it felt like to hold his hand. To hold him as he slept, safe and sound. Vortex could repay that by not killing or hurting Ambulon too much. Wouldn’t stop him from spooking him as much as he pleased, but…he was grateful, in a way. It wasn’t something he had ever expected to experience. It was part of why Vortex had stuck him to the wall instead of back in bed with Felix. He liked it, but he wasn’t sure what to think or feel about it, and frankly didn’t want to right now. And he didn’t want to share the feeling either. Felix was his, and that’s what mattered. Ambulon was Felix’s friend, and they, he, Vortex, could figure out what that meant later.
Felix, for his part, had fallen back asleep, slumped in his pilot’s seat. Ambulon could wait until he woke up again. Vortex used some cabling to grab the remaining sleeping bag, then wrapped it around Felix and the chair- cocooning him cozily and tying him to the chair simultaneously. He toyed with the thought of dangling his old suit in front of Felix’s head so it would be the first thing he saw when he woke up… but he decided against it in the end. He liked the thought of punishing Felix if he tried to grab and put it on, but he knew he wouldn’t. There had been such a reverence in the way Felix stared at the suit that Vortex had once worn. An unspoken want in the way he caressed Vortex’s name stitched over the right breast of the suit. An unspoken want that made Vortex want him to wear it. Even without punishing him for it, just to have his name on him…he couldn’t stitch it onto his chest, not directly- Felix was too squishy for that, and Vortex wasn’t delicate enough with a blade on his own to do it without killing his prize. If he could have his name on him though, if Felix put it on by choice-
Vortex hummed thoughtfully. The notion was intoxicating. Invigorating. Carefully adding more cabling to secure Felix to the chair and their new resident lab rat to the wall, Vortex got up and started walking. Felix had only just recently removed whatever Pharma had attached to his leg, and if it had been a tracker, then they didn’t want to stay here for long.
Maybe he could find some monsters to kill, something to take the edge off his currently stronger-than-usual bloodlust. Maybe find the ones Felix had once considered the most likely to be edible. Have Ambulon cook it and test it, see if it worked.
He hummed some more, looking forward to getting his gears bloody again. He was going to go kill some monsters, wouldn’t be returning to base, and would have Felix with him the whole time. Yes, today was going to be a good day.
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Shadow and Void _ Part 3
[Yandere!Sung Jinwoo x Enemy Monarch!Reader]
Part 1 ― Part 2 ― Part 3 (here)
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NAME: [REDACTED]
LV. UNMEASURABLE
CLASS: SPACE, MONARCH, HUMAN
TITLE: <MONARCH OF VOID>, <KING OF THE FORGOTTEN>, <THE HIDDEN ONE>, <HERALD OF FAVOUR>, <HARBINGER OF [REDACTED]>, <[REDACTED]>, MORE
HP: UNMEASURABLE
MP: UNMEASURABLE
FATIGUE: UNMEASURABLE
STRENGTH: UNMEASURABLE
AGILITY: UNMEASURABLE
PERCEPTION: UNMEASURABLE
STAMINA: UNMEASURABLE
INTELLIGENCE: UNMEASURABLE
SKILLS: [REDACTED], [REDACTED], DIMENSION VORTEX, SPACE MANIPULATION, POCKET DIMENSION, MIST MANIPULATION, ULTIMATE STEALTH, MANIFESTATION, MORE+
DESCRIPTION: THE MONARCH OF VOID IS A SOUGHT-OUT ALLY WITHIN THE MONARCHS AND A GREATER ENEMY ON THE BATTLEFIELD. WITH THE MERE AID FROM THE MONARCH OF MIST, THE BATTLE COULD BE OVERTURNED EASILY. THE MONARCH IS CAUTIOUS AROUND OTHERS BUT HAS A SOFT SPOT FOR THE MONARCH OF SHADOWS, ASHBORN. THE MONARCH IS LOYAL TO NONE AND HAS NO CARE FOR OTHERS’ WELLBEING, FOR THE MONARCH IS SELF-CENTERED TO THE POINT OF ABANDONING OTHERS FOR SURVIVABILITY.
[REDACTED] INFORMATION CANNOT TO FOUND THROUGH ANY METHODS. IT IS SUGGESTED FOR PLAYER TO BE CLOSER TO THE MONARCH OF VOID TO GAIN MORE RELATED INFORMATION.
“Hey. Hey!”
Jinwoo’s eyes blinked repeatedly as he turned his chair around to back his desk, away from the floor-to-ceiling glass window of the city buildings around his. Also to stop reading the information window on his newest ally. “Yes?”
“I’ve been calling you for a while, but you keep on staring at the scenery.” You frowned, arms crossed over your chest. “Are you staring at yourself in the glass’s reflection?”
“I zoned out.” Jinwoo partially lied. While reading the window at first, he was quick to zone out after reading your description. Though, your words provided him with the information that you couldn’t see or know about the System like he does. So Ashborn didn’t tell you about anything in technical terms.
You groaned and scratched the back of your head.
Jinwoo watched with interest. It was a very human thing for you to do. He had expected you to be more indifferent and cold, perhaps even expressionless or doll-like. However, even in the memories of Ashborn, you didn’t even have a form, just a smokey and misty outline or mass. Now, you were solid. Not that he minded, but with you being in a more solid figure, it was advantageous to him.
“Can you tell me why I should be around you?” You glared at him with narrowed eyes and furrowed brows, you quickly pointed a finger at him when he opened his mouth to say something. “And don’t say it’s for supervision. You have your minions in my shadow already, so that’s supervision enough. Besides… You only stay in your office all the time and nothing happens.” You retracted your finger back to your crossed arms. “At least let me enjoy all that your humans have created before it’s all gone.”
“You’re confident the humans would lose?” Jinwoo plopped his cheek in his palm while his elbow was on his desk, his gaze piercing yours.
You blinked at him, raising a brow, “Isn’t it obvious? Humans don’t stand a chance against the Monarchs, even with the help of the Fragments of Brilliant Light or whatever their names are.” You blinked again, this time your expression turning neutral or mildly surprised, perhaps amused as well. “You don’t think you can fight them all off, right? You can’t manage the Monarch of Frost last time. How can you when they all come at you or Earth?” You took a short few-second pause, before he could even get a word out, you added. “And! They will bring along their armies.”
“I have you with me this time.” Jinwoo leaned back in his chair, his eyes glowed a purple hue that made you flinch involuntarily. “I heard you can turn the tides of war easily like a snap of a finger, in fact, I bet they are wondering where you have gone right now. Maybe they even realized you had stayed by my side. Willingly or forcefully.” He got up from his seat and approached your form, circling you with his hands behind his back. “Either way, they know you’re not on their side now. Won’t they see you as an enemy too? Won’t it be better if we worked together?”
“I am an ally of myself. You’re saying all this, so I’ll be more inclined to be your ally.” You glared up at him, “Well, it’s not working, nor will it. Everyone knows I pick no side and I’ll stay on my own side. You may have me now, but at the slight opportunity I have to escape from you…” Your eyes glowed too, though you had a silver-grey hue. “I’ll take it without a second thought.”
“Go ahead and try. You will have another dagger in your fresh.” Jinwoo warned.
Your eye twitched, “Don’t act all high and mighty. You only have what you have now because of Ashborn. Your skills, your abilities, your army, your allies, your enemies. Even your confidence, pride, and ego. You’re nothing without him. You will never amount to anything.”
Jinwoo grinned, “We’ll see.”
The two of you shared a stare at each other, unmoving as if a competition was declared, though without warning of any kind.
Knocks on his office door broke the tension in the room and, most importantly, the little competition between you two. You groaned and turned your heel, heading in the direction of the closest seat in the vicinity, which happened to be the very chair he had been sitting in moments ago. As you took a seat, Jinwoo went to the door and opened it, revealing the vice-guildmaster on the other side.
“Hyung! I wasn’t interrupting you, right?” Jinho peeked behind Jinwoo to see you all crossed with a scowl on your face.
Jinwoo looked back at you, making you turn his chair so that the back of it was facing him and blocking his view of you. The man chuckled and turned his attention back to Jinho. “No. Is there something you need help with?”
“Actually, there’s someone for you.” Jinho jabbed a finger at the reception area.
It would have been a point of curiosity for Jinwoo had he not been perceptive or didn’t had his guard up because of you. Still, he easily had his answer as to who it was that visited his guild office and has the guts to request him. Cha Hae-In.
Formerly he would have been interested enough to go to her or indulge her, but now that you were around, he saw no need for another that could cause a misunderstanding. It would be better if she wasn’t here in the first place and he’d have more private time alone with yo—
Wait. What was he thinking just now? No way was he being this tied up when you were around. Just a few days ago, he had you pinned to the wall with his daggers and you two were at odds even just now. There was nothing pleasant between the two of you. No way. Even a blind person can see they were enemies!
Perhaps it was just because he valued your abilities as a Monarch and the memories of Ashborn was having an effect on him. So then, there was no way he’d want to appeal to you in a gentle and kind manner like friends would. Yes, that explains it.
Jinwoo mentally let out a sigh of relief, feeling his head clear up a bit. Now, the correct and ideal course of action was to meet Hunter Cha and see why she was here. But first, he walked over to you and stared down at you, who was already distracted by scrolling through your phone. “Come with me.”
“I’m not staying by your side while you deal with your boring human business. Call me when you’re going to a dungeon or something that requires violence.” You brushed him off and swirled the chair again so that the back faced his face.
Before you could slam the back in his face, his hand gripped onto the arms of the chair and froze you in place. He leaned down, caging you in as he spoke lowly, and his eyes glowed purple. “You’re coming with me whether you like it or not. Or do you prefer being pinned to the wall in my daggers?”
You raised a brow at him, your bored and neutral face unchanged, “Maybe that would be better than seeing that woman flirt with you.”
Jinwoo’s threatening and oppressive atmosphere immediately diminished to nothing. “What?”
“Yup, why not? Just pin me to the wall.” You shrugged.
“No, go back to what you said about Hunter Cha.”
“Ha?” Your eyebrows furrowed at him with a look of ‘are you serious right now’. Jinwoo controlled himself so as not to pinch your cheek because of cuteness. You sighed, “It’s obvious what’s happening. That woman is crushing on you. Romantically. You must have done something to her before.”
Jinwoo looked up and off to the side as he tried to recall. Some memories came to mind, and he muttered with some sense of understanding. “Oh. I guess I did save her during an S-Rank Raid and helped her guild out in another dungeon…”
You deadpanned at this vessel of Ashborn. No wonder he was picked to be the vessel. Just as clueless as that former Ruler. What are you going to do? “See? But then you only have fights and monsters and dungeons on your mind, huh.” Your form cringed from the memories of your vessel falling in love with someone and you had to watch it happen as well. “So now you get it, leave me out of your romance story.”
Note: Been quite busy cause of work. So posts would be less for these 2 months. Hope you like this one though~
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Chase It - 1
summary: in which nellie harding gets pulled back into the world of storm chasing, and butts heads with the tornado wrangler himself
warnings: none so far :)
an: hey peeps- this story is being cross posted on my wattpad account (forbesfever) so if you want to check it out there, that is likely where updates will go first!
read chapter two // three
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"Wakey, wakey," a cooing voice whispered in Nellie's ear where she sat curled up in the front seat of Jeb's SUV. The red head groaned as she began to slowly stretch her legs, peeking her eyes open to see Addy's bright smile hovering over her. "It's time to get going bud."
"It's so early," Nellie whined as everyone began to move around, Javi of course still snoring on the ground till Addy blared the horn at him. The six of them had a pretty solid routine at this point, so it took them only a few mintues to get back to full functioning capacity.
"Hey!" Nellie shouted at Addy sharply as the blonde banged on the metal cylinder in front of her, ignoring Jed's camera turning to her. "Addy how many times to I need to tell you, do not hit that device or I swear to-"
"That's our Nellie," Kate laughed at the camera as the redhead continued to berate Addy. "Nellie is our resident health care professional with us in case of emergency, but also the reason we have Dorothy here with us."
Nellie, Kate and Javi had met by chance at Muskogee State. There was no real reason for two kids in the Meteorology department and a girl in the nursing school to interact, unless you factored in Nellie's last name. Muskogee State College in 2005 had been the lucky recipient of a donation from Dr. Jo and Bill Harding, of the last used Dorothy prototype. At that point, Jo and Bill had retired from chasing and consulted and taught across the country.
In 2018, their niece had chosen to attend their alma mater. In the past, the Harding's had gladly allowed different departments to take Dorothy out in the field, after giving them stern warnings and usually making them pass some tests. But when Nellie was stationed there, she became their new point girl. So when Kate's proposal came across their desk, they asked Nellie to be Dorothy's custodian as the girl did her field research with her team. And so formed the odd but strong bond between Kate, Javi and Nellie, and an all around a passion for storms.
"Nellie might not be studying with us," Javi moved in extremely close to the camera. "But she's probably chased more storms in her life already, then the rest of us ever will."
And Javi wasn't wrong, because Nellie? While her little brother was attending play time with the kids from the farm down the road (because their parents were too busy to parent), Nellie was sitting in the backseat of Jo's beat up truck, hearing Dusty scream down the radio and watching vortex after vortex leave paths of destruction. Nellie's childhood was split between that backseat, school, and cuddling on the couch at Aunt Meg's house while waiting for their parents to finally check back in on their kids.
So here Nellie was, berating Addy as she hit a legendary piece of equipment. "I told you I can handle Dorothy," Nellie huffed as she walked over and pet the cylinder. "She's just a temperamental bitch."
"Like you," Javi giggled, giving a innocent smile as Nellie whipped her head around to glare at him.
"I got her," Nellie nodded as she looked at the control panel, and poked at the release button gently, holding it down for a few seconds before pulling back and pressing again. Dorothy as if knowing who was asking something of her, opened up easily. "There's a method here, and-"
"Ok we know you're the Dorothy whisperer," Praveen laughed as he walked over with his laptop. "The only reason you're here."
"Whoa, whoa," Kate interjected, walking up to wrap an arm around Nellie's shoulder. "That's not true!"
"Thank you," Nellie nodded with a grin.
"She makes a great instant coffee too," Kate giggled as Nellie gasped. "Alright guys, lets get going."
And with that, their little group made some last minute checks before loading up the cars and hitting the road. They were driving through the farmlands of Oklahoma, both Kate and Nellie looking around and thinking of home. Nellie was watching the radar with Praveen while Kate took a last minute call from her mama.
"There's barbecue waiting for us at home," Kate grinned as she hung up the phone and everyone in the cars cheered. As the group drove towards the storm Kate had been eyeing, they could all feel the conditions begin to build. The wind began to whip, and Nellie cracked the window and took a deep breath, feeling the energy building around them.
While Nellie might not have a want to follow the academic side of storm chasing, what she did have was the instinct. Like Kate and her aunt and uncle, she could understand a storm like not many could. She loved the thrill of the chase, but what her heart called for, was to help people in the aftermath. Which is why she had chosen to pursue nursing instead of meteorology.
"It's time," Nellie said quietly as Kate also called for Jeb to stop so they could finalize the solution in the barrels. With that, Javi set up in his van to track data, while the other five loaded back into Jeb's SUV to get into position.
Nellie's chest began to ache as they drove and the hail began. "Something's not right," Nellie said as Kate began to peer out the windows. The two of them realized at the same time that the tornado was behind them. Everyone's heart began racing, especially as Jeb in an effort to avoid some debri, ended up in a ditch. They took that chance to hop out, save the overturned barrels, and drop the trailer in the tornadoes path.
The car moved further and further away from the vortex, feeling elated as Javi announced Dorothy's sensors had gotten swept up into the atmosphere. Kate's face was stone as she watched behind them, and noticed the compound wasn't active. Javi's voice tapered out as Nellie's arm hair stood tall.
"The velocity is 200 miles an hour," Praveen said quietly as Addy tried to hail Javi. Everyone's stomachs dropped as the realization hit them all, that an EF5 was quickly gaining on their position.
Jeb tried his best to drive them out, but the car couldn't handle the roads. Once again they ended up off the road. "This car's gonna fly," Jeb said to everyone, and Nellie needed no more influence to throw her door open and grab Addy's arm.
"Let's go," she screamed as they booked it to the overpass ahead of them. Kate and Nellie made their way up the slick incline, Nellie freezing as she watched Kate's leg get sliced by a piece of metal. "You're ok," she yelled as she pushed Kate's butt until Jeb grabbed her arm. The red head turned around, spotting Addy lying prone on the incline.
"Addy come on," Nellie shouted, leaning down to where the girls hand was outstretched. "Take my hand-"
And she could only watch as Addy's body got too high, and the girl's body was swept away by a flying piece of wood. "Oh no," Nellie's breath came quickly. "Okay Nellie," she talked to herself as she turned around and finished climbing to where Kate was being held under Jeb's bulk.
"Come on," Kate yelled, reaching for Nellie. The girl was silent and cold as she moved behind Jeb, bracing her feet against the concrete pillar and wrapping her body around the metal pipings. She closed her eyes, listening to the whistle as it built, hearing Kate's screams as she felt another one of her friends get swept into the vortex.
"Nell," Kate whispered as the silence hit. "Nellie."
Hours later, the two girls were found on the side of the road by a kind police officer, who hid his horror at the blank stares and bloodied bodies walking towards him.
now
Nellie's body jerked awake as her alarm went off, pulling her out of another dream about dark storms and the sound of a train approaching. She sighed as she pulled herself out of bed, opening her black out curtains and seeing the afternoon sunshine outside of her little apartment. The girl went about her usual routine, pulling on some leggings and a long sleeve before lacing up her tennis shoes and heading out for a run.
From there, it was time to shower, down some coffee and food, before throwing on her scrubs to head out for her 12 hour shift at a regional hospital in Oklahoma as a Senior Shift Nurse. She went through the motions that day as she did many days when her night was plagued with nightmares. But no matter what, she gave her best patient care, knowing she might be serving people on the worst day of their lives (or just for a paper cut).
At 7 am, the girl made her way back to her apartment, looking at her phone and seeing a missed call from Javi. Knowing the boy's habits had changed drastically, she gave him a call as she started her car.
"Good morning sunshine," Javi said into the reciever as he picked up her car. "You on your way home?"
"That I am," she nodded.
"Long night?"
"Always," she sighed with a tired smile. "But feeling good."
"Good good," Javi said with his own sigh.
"How was Kate?" the girl probed. And with that, the red head listened as her friend spoke to her about his meeting with Kate in New York, and his failure to convince her to come to Oklahoma. Nellie finished her drive home, choosing not to interrupt the boy to tell him she'd already heard most of this from Kate the night before on her way to work.
"Do you think you can talk to her?" Javi asked desperately. "Try to get her to just give this a chance?"
"Javi," Nel sighed. "I have talked to her. And she's terrified honestly to chase again, to get that close to another storm like," and she didn't have to finish her sentence for the man to understand.
"I know," he sighed. "There's just so much going on. So much I wish I could do. And I wish I had her skills or your skills, but I don't."
"Javi you need to believe in yourself," Nellie scolded. "You are great at what you do. And you're great at helping people. You just need to find another way. Kate is not the only way you can get this to work, you just need to think outside the box. But hey, let me call you later ok? I just got home and I need to get some sleep."
The two friends said their goodbyes, before Nellie headed inside and readied herself for her post shift nap. After another shift, two of three before Nellie was off, the redhead was sleeping once more when her eyes popped open in anger as she heard banging at her front door. The redhead cursed as she stomped her way to her front door, not even checking the peep hole before swinging it open. "What?" She growled, her mouth opening before she processed the two faces in front of her.
"Hi Nellie," Kate waved nervously as she bounced on her toes. "Missed you!"
"What the hell!" Nellie gasped as she leaned in to hug her friend, looking at Javi in confusion over her shoulder. "How did Javi convince you to come out here?"
"Well here's the thing," Javi laughed uneasily as the girls pulled apart. "She said she'd give me a week, but only if we dragged you along with us."
"What?!"
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thursday, sung hanbin— poetry ii
⋆˙⟡ zbully1 smut series masterlist! hanbin, jiwoong, hao, matthew, and taerae included. game day (group) chapter here. all 7 endings here.
⋆˙⟡ wc: 3.5k (it's a doozy but it's worth it i literally am so happy with this one)
⋆˙⟡ reader: femme afab (listed first, she/her are used) // gender neutral (alternate version listed second, no pronouns used at all to describe reader— scroll down)
⋆˙⟡ series summary: five bullies. six days. it's gonna be a hell of a week, babe. stay hydrated.
⋆˙⟡ thursday summary: thursday. good news: the week is almost over. bad news: you're stuck in poetry class with sung hanbin as your desk partner. it's weird. sometimes you play off each other so well, you're nearly blindsided by his sudden flipping of the switch. if only you could steal a glimpse at his journal.
⋆˙⟡ warnings: explicit smut. 18+. minors do not interact. please read specific smut warnings under the cut! swearing. angst. slight dub-con. bullying. very toxic softboi/popular soccer star hanbinnie. guys THE LORE. you very well may not survive til the end of the week but we're already on this journey together so let's see it through!!! smut in gn and fem versions are slightly different due to logistics/circumstance. also there's two parts i wrote in here that made me laugh way too hard okay bye. xx
⋆˙⟡ bully scale: ★★★★☆(4.5)
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EXPLICIT SMUT 18+ WARNINGS: choking (reader receiving and safely executed lmao), chest groping/brief nipple play (reader receiving; reader is wearing a bra and hanbin refers to you as having 'tits'), heavy petting (reader and hanbin receiving), fingering (brief, reader receiving), erotic humiliation and degradation (towards reader; about looseness of pussy after this week/disappointing chest but not the size of it he's just being a dick am i making sense), slut and whore used to describe reader, one slap across the face (reader receiving), slight dub-con but we know how reader rolls now lol. hanbin is insanely toxic. enjoy.
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scribble. scribble. scribble.
the scratchings of your pencil in your poetry journal are growing increasingly violent. you don’t really care. you’d stayed up all night: tossing and turning and thinking and plotting.
“hey, uh... you okay?” hanbin asks, tapping you gently with the end of his pen. your pencil falls from your fingers as you’re jolted from your anxious thought spiral.
“huh?” you reply, blinking at the star of the soccer team. “oh, um. yeah. i’m okay.”
hanbin’s brow raises slightly at your answer as if it surprises him. “you sure?”
“yeah,” you reply as nonchalantly as possible. “why?”
you follow hanbin’s line of sight to the open page of your poetry journal. you’ve absentmindedly ripped a significant hole through several pages with your vortex of nervous scribbling.
you breathe an awkward laugh, closing your journal and putting your pencil down flat on your desk.
“you had a rough week,” hanbin says, grabbing his journal from his bag and placing it on his desk. you bite your cheeks to keep from grinning at the sight of your target. “or so i’ve heard.”
“i’m sure you have,” you mumble, glancing at the tile floor. “i’m sure everybody has.”
“they haven’t,” he replies definitively and you know he’s telling the truth. “i promise they haven’t.”
hanbin was a tricky one. the star of the soccer team and undoubtedly the most popular boy at your university, it comes as no surprise that he was also the makeshift ring leader of his stupid group of friends. keeping that spotlight also meant keeping up appearances. while your other bullies made their distaste for you known whenever possible, hanbin had a different preferred method of torture.
he liked to play nice. compliment your poems. share a laugh... reel you in.
until you were so close, you couldn’t escape. that’s when he’d flip the script on you.
like when he sent your poem about the boy you liked to the entire university’s mailing list last year. you’d insisted you didn’t feel comfortable sharing it with him. you recoiled with embarrassment at the thought of junseo, your senior lab partner, finding out. but he pushed. made you think you could trust him.
the next day, it was pinned to every bulletin board across campus next to a picture of you that hanbin had taken on your class trip to the national library. like some sort of sick calling card.
junseo sunbae-nim never muttered more than a word to you ever again.
so that’s how all this started. hanbin recruiting his three (and then four) asshole friends in a sudden and violent quest to become the bane of your existence.
sometimes you still can’t help but wonder if you’d done something to upset him. but you shake off that thought each time. you won’t let him get in your head again so easily.
you’ve about mustered the courage to give hanbin some snarky response when your professor’s chalk hatchings across the blackboard send a hush over the classroom.
“good afternoon, everyone,” professor choi greets happily, underlining today’s date on the board. “let’s jump right in today and start with our weekly journals. please share with your desk partner the poem that this week so far inspired you to write.”
your eyes fix on hanbin’s journal again, anticipation stirring as you think about the clues that could be hidden in his poem this week. could the answers you’re looking for really be inside that black, leather book?
“you should go fi—,” you start to suggest a bit too quietly before hanbin unknowingly cuts you off.
“do you wanna go first?” he asks brightly, smile lines illuminating his soft features. you know you shouldn’t indulge him, but you can never stop the corners of your lips from involuntarily turning up in response. no matter how much you hated him, his fairytale prince looks were undeniable.
“oh, uh,” you stammer, grabbing your journal and flipping it open to your entry from this week. you look at the poem you wrote, eyes scanning over the emotional stanzas as you bite your lip uneasily. “i dunno. i kind of got a bit too... personal this week.”
“oh, you know i don’t mind,” he replies calmly. “that’s what poetry is, right?”
“i’m well aware you don’t mind me spilling personal details to you,” you reply with a glare. “but i mind.”
“(y/n)-sshi,” professor choi’s voice suddenly rings over your shoulder. “let’s get reading, okay? time is limited.”
you swallow hard, looking down at your journal shamefully. “yes, professor-nim.”
“so what’s it called?” hanbin asks as professor choi makes her way back up to her desk, folding his arms across his chest and leaning back into his chair. “your poem?”
“the bird,” you answer softly. “it’s called the bird.”
he nods pensively before gesturing for you to start. you look back down at the page, fingers shaking as you try to hold your journal steady. clearing your throat, you recite:
“from her perch at the window, she will never be much. the vultures jeered at her as they circled above. then one flew down— with taloned-hand, he did touch. and a meek little finch turned into a dove. if a dove she can be, she will be it as such. til another vulture fell to his knees with a glove. parted her feathers and took her in his clutch. and from the fair bird, made a raven thereof. she needs to change back, so she tries to stay hush. but a third brash vulture throws her off with a shove. the reluctant truth is she’s filling with lust... and she’s growing quite scared of the bird she’ll become.”
you blink back tears as you close your journal and place it on your desk in front of you. maybe it’s your lack of sleep or the mentally and physically jarring week you’ve had, but reading your poem aloud had left you feeling quite vulnerable.
“that was beautiful, (y/n),” hanbin says suddenly, prying you from your regret. you turn to him, eyes wide as he nods thoughtfully. “i really appreciated the metaphor of the bird. the vultures are considered bad birds, but somehow they changed the subject from an unassuming bird into the more beautiful bird she seemed to want to be... but never thought she could.”
you stare at him as he glances up at the ceiling, those handsome smile lines crinkling his cheeks again.
“funny how things we could perceive as wrong or immoral can actually have a positive effect on us,” he muses with a chuckle. “but it’s only natural for the bird to question that change. she’s done more of that ‘bad’ thing and now she’s afraid it’s turned her into a raven. a bird that frightens her. or maybe a bird she can’t recognize anymore when she looks in the mirror.”
“it did,” you assert quietly. “it did change her.”
“but it sounds like she likes that change. at least part of her,” hanbin rebuts, meeting your gaze. “perhaps if she embraces that and sheds her own guilt— or molts, if you will— she’ll realize the raven is another distortion of her own making, just like the finch was. she’ll realize she is the dove and she always has been.”
your lips part as you gape at hanbin in awe. it was hard not to let your guard down with him when he always dissected your poems so intuitively like this. memories of intense public humiliation are the only thing that can keep you grounded.
“or,” he adds, a small smirk upturning the corner of his lips. “i guess she could also realize that ravens and vultures aren’t the bad birds she thinks they are. maybe she finds that, after all this worrying, she was meant to be a vulture, too.”
“under a minute left,” professor choi calls out from the front of the classroom.
shit. hanbin had talked so much about your poem that he barely had any time left to share his— the poem you desperately needed to be shared in the first place.
hanbin’s still rambling on about vultures, but you’re not paying any attention as a wave of panic rushes over you.
“you should share yours still,” you prompt a little too eagerly, cutting him off mid-sentence. trying your best to dial it back, you add, “i’m sure it’s very interesting, what with the big game on saturday and all.”
hanbin smiles, holding your gaze for a moment too long. it’s suspicious, but his eyes give nothing away.
“if it’s okay with you, i’d rather not share this week,” he says, throwing his journal back in his bag. “i got a little too... how did you put it? personal.”
you blink at him. “but—. but that’s what i said and you—.”
hanbin mutters something under his breath that you swear sounds like, “not like you’d listen to me anyway.”
but you must’ve misheard him.
your heart sinks, your plan crumbling to ashes before your eyes as professor choi launches into a lecture about wilfred owen’s 20th century use of assonance. hanbin had to have written something about what his friends had been up to. that’s why he used up so much time focusing on your poem.
your pencil moves across your paper, absentmindedly taking notes until you reach the only possible conclusion: you can’t give up. you’ll just have to amend the plan.
after class, you hurriedly gather your things and run out the door, pulling your phone out and typing vigorously as you make your way to the bathroom.
WHEN DOES THE BOYS’ SOCCER PRACTICE GO UNTIL TONIGHT!? mina: ??? NO QUESTIONS. JUST ANSWERS. mina: jiwoong oppa is picking me up at 7. so i assume about 6:30. THANK U BYE and... please be careful around him. mina: yeah, yeah, yeah i’ll use protection ily
totally not what you meant. and you’d hate to break it to her, but after his little stunt on monday, you’re not sure how fond her jiwoong oppa would be of that request.
6:30. practice would start soon, giving you plenty of time to slip into the boys’ locker room, read hanbin’s journal, and slip out undetected.
you catch a glimpse of yourself in the bathroom mirror.
a raven’s beady eyes stare back.
~
you kill some time in the library, waiting until practice is well underway before making your way across campus to the gymnasium. your heart is already pounding in your ears just thinking about the little heist you’re about to pull.
but your legs keep propelling you forward.
pulling open the building door, you step inside cautiously. the women’s badminton team is stretching in the atrium of the building, but there’s no sign of anyone else. you head right down the hallway, walking past the cardio fitness center and the weight-lifting gym until you’re in front of the boys’ locker room door.
you put an ear to it, hearing nothing but the whirring of a fan on the other side.
fuck it.
you pull open the door and step inside, white and grey tiled walls and rows of blue lockers surrounding you. your heart races as you look back at the door, wondering if it’s not too late to abandon your mission.
you shake your head. no. you need to find that journal.
with a steadying breath, you begin to walk through the first row of lockers. when you don’t spot hanbin’s bag, you proceed to the second row. and then the next. and then the next until you finally spot it.
tucked under the wooden bench running down the middle of the aisle is a familiar brown, leather messenger bag. you run to it, picking it up from the floor and setting it down on the bench. you unclasp the latch on the front of the bag and lift the flap, opening it up and reaching inside it.
your hand hits something... fluffy. you grab the fuzzy item and pull it out, squealing when you see that it’s a tiny, cream-colored hamster plush. it’s the cutest thing you’ve ever seen in your whole goddamn life.
and you are disappointed to find yourself thinking it bears a striking resemblance to its owner.
you stuff the little hamster back into the bag. as cute as he is, it’s not what you came here for. you gasp when you feel the cold leather-bound journal in your hand, pulling it out hurriedly and examining the cover.
you open the journal, flipping through the pages rashly until you locate an entry with today’s date at the top. it reads:
“if one is a vulture, it’s assumed they’re no good— despite all the research that they’re helpful to earth. does the finch know that if that vulture could, he’d hunt for a mirror and show her her worth? if that finch is a dove, there’d be something that would still keep her away from achieving true mirth. it’s the vultures, she’d cry before she understood: the vulture has always been a sign of rebirth. a dove, raven, vulture, or finch from the woods, the vultures will find her and double their search. but for someone who claims they feel misunderstood, it’s repulsive the lengths she would go to unearth... something that does not belong to that bird. seems the dove was a raven afterall.”
“pretty good, huh?” the sudden voice behind you makes you jump. “wrote it in, like, ten minutes after class. what can i say? i was inspired.”
you don’t turn around. your face is already on fire from how mortified you are. of course, you’d considered the possibility of being caught. but you hadn’t really realized the weight of that consequence until this moment.
“actually, i think it might be even better than the original,” he continues, footsteps echoing against the tiled floors as he draws nearer. “i mean, you really should’ve thought to flesh out those vulture characters a bit. and you didn’t even consider looking up the well-known symbolism behind them.”
a hot breath fans across the back of your neck, causing you to shiver as a hand wraps around the leather-bound journal and pries it from yours.
“i have to admit, i didn’t really think you had it in you,” he says with a chuckle, fingers suddenly hooking into your waistband and turning you around to face him. he’s in his red and white soccer uniform, skin glistening from the practice meet he should be at right now. “but just in case, i wanted to be prepared. write you something worth reading.”
“h-how did you know?” you stutter quietly. “that i—”
“well, you weren’t exactly subtle, now were you?” hanbin smiles but the light doesn’t reach his eyes. “‘you should read your poem, hanbin. i’m sure it’s exciting with the big game coming up’. like you give a fuck about my poetry.”
that last sentence reminds you of what you thought you’d heard him mumble in class today: not like you’d listen to me anyway.
what was that about?
“aw, don’t get sad now that your plan didn’t go your way,” hanbin coos, lifting his hand to caress your cheek. “i thought it was kind of cute. i can forgive you for stealing, right? you just wanted my attention so badly that you had to play a bit dirty.”
you shake your head quickly. “no, it’s not like that! i swear i wasn’t trying to get your attention, i just—”
“well then, jesus fucking christ, what do i have to do to—,” hanbin snaps before promptly cutting himself off. there’s something in his eyes you’ve never seen before: desperation.
a large hand wraps around your throat in an instant, shoving you up against a blue locker. the motion knocks the wind out of you and you find yourself gasping for air. your hand flies to remove his from around your neck, but he catches it in his free one and brings it gently back down to your side.
“i told you in class that if you needed help calling off the vultures, you should ask me while you still can,” hanbin rasps, rubbing his thumb up the left side of your throat. “but you weren’t listening, dove. the gulper got first bite. the rippers tore you apart...”
you breathe shallowly, glancing from side to side for some route of escape.
“but now the king has landed,” he says, tongue flitting across his teeth. “and he’s fucking starving.”
you blink at him, lips parted in stupid shock. “i—... i honestly had no idea you knew so much about vultures.”
“THAT’S WHAT YOU TOOK FROM THAT ARE YOU KID—,” he yells, finger pads digging in tighter to the skin of your neck. his gaze falls to your lips, supple and pretty even in fear. he trails down to your shirt, a button-up front that seems to entice him. “take it off.”
“b-but—.”
“take it the fuck off, (y/n). you should know by now how this goes,” hanbin snarls, grabbing your hand and bringing it to the trail of buttons. you start to fiddle with them, but you have some trouble under the pressure of his gaze. “can’t even undo a button? hm? too fucking stupid, dove?”
you find yourself nodding against all odds.
“need binnie to do it for you?” he coos, smile lines illuminating his face again.
you just nod. it seems to be what you do best.
hanbin unfastens the buttons one-handed and with ease. once your shirt is open, he undoes the center clasp of your bra and exposes your chest. then, he sighs with dramatic disappointment. “seriously? that’s it? got me all excited to see your tits and this is what you have to show?”
you look down at your incredibly normal and attractive chest. you’d never really doubted the allure of that part of your body before. should you have?
the humiliating comment causes a lump to form in your throat... and an embarrassingly intense ache to shoot through your heat.
he tugs the center hem of your shirt, pulling the fabric further off your shoulders. “it’s a good thing the other guys didn’t see them. they’re far more superficial than me. you should be grateful you found a guy who can look past the disappointment. ”
hanbin’s free hand gropes your chest, thumb rubbing circles around one nipple and then the next as you let out a soft whimper.
“mm, i heard that,” he breathes with a smirk. “even though you never hear me. probably didn’t even fucking clock the first line in that stupid poem. but i hear you, dove. so let me give you what you want. all you have to do is ask.”
you gulp, softly responding, “w-want you to... touch me.”
“yeah?” hanbin affirms, finger trailing down your stomach.
you nod again, this time more assuredly under the guise of his encouraging smile. that is, until a harsh slap stings your cheek.
“well that wasn’t a fucking question, was it?” hanbin hisses, rubbing soothing circles into your cheek with his thumb. “you’re in an advanced poetry class and you don’t even know how to form an interrogative sentence? just must be doodling all the time, huh? about all the boys who’ve made a mess of you this week? like the dumb little slut you are.”
hanbin’s free hand slips under your skirt, fingers brushing over your clothed core before pulling it out again. you gasp when you see his fingers already covered in your arousal.
his eyes darken as he reaches up your skirt again, tearing a hole right through your lace panties and stuffing two fingers inside of you immediately as you cry out.
“oh, dove, why would i wanna put my cock in here, hm? can already feel how much those other assholes have stretched you out,” hanbin says with another sigh of disappointment.
another bout of worry clouds your mind. was that true? was matthew right? you thought he was just being a misogynistic pig, but... had you really been physically tainted from the events of this week?
“so fucking lucky, dove,” hanbin whispers, removing his hand from your heat and taking one of yours. he brings it down the front of his athletic shorts and then wraps it around his impossibly hard length. you look up at him, wide-eyed. “where every other man would see damaged goods, i see prime real estate.”
“what—”
“gonna fuck you now, m’kay?” hanbin interjects, pulling his shorts down and exposing himself to you. you hadn’t really seen the other boys up close or at all like this. hanbin’s cock is pretty, long with just a few visible veins and a pink head that’s leaking a bit of pre-cum. it makes your mouth water. maybe you are a dumb slut.
maybe you like it like that.
or maybe it’s just hanbin’s large hand covering your throat, pressing at the sides tenderly that’s making you start to feel a bit high. he brings himself to your entrance, lining up the tip and coating it in your juices. he’s about to push himself inside of you, when he suddenly freezes.
“you want me to, right?” hanbin asks, tone suddenly much softer than it was before. his eyes are locked with yours, holding you there with him against the wall of lockers. “you want me inside you? just me. not those other guys? not junseo hyung-nim or—”
BEEEEEEEEEP. BRRANG. BRRANG. BRRANG. BEEEEEEEE....
a fire alarm rips through the locker room, loud and annoying as ever. you try to jump out of hanbin’s grasp, but his hands stay fixed around you.
“let me... let me go!” you assert, hitting his chest with your palm. the pressure on your neck that felt so good just a few moments ago is now filling you with fear, “are you trying to kill me or something!?”
his brow raises slightly, as if he only just noticed the alarm. his grip loosens and you take the opportunity to scramble away from him.
“of course i’m not,” he replies dejectedly, re-situating his shorts before huffing, “like you have a body worth going to jail for.”
“oh, shut up,” you retort, rolling your eyes as you race to re-button your shirt. “this is all YOUR fault. whatever’s going on this week, i know you’re behind it. you’ve run out of ideas to keep me small. but i’m not small. in fact, i’m a much bigger person than you are! so... i’m sorry for whatever i did that made you hate me so much in the first place. now, please, let’s get out of here.”
you start to run down the aisle of lockers towards the exit door, but a lack of footsteps behind you causes you to stop and turn back.
“come on,” you urge as hanbin continues to stand in place and stare at you, unmoving. it might be the most infuriating thing he’s done all day. “oh, fucking burn then.”
the tangible anger in your voice startles both of you. hanbin blinks quickly back at you, wide-eyed as if you’ve just slapped him across the face. whoever gave him the right to feel that way is sorely mistaken. you turn back around, throwing over your shoulder:
“are there birds worse than vultures?”
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gender neutral version below
EXPLICIT SMUT 18+ WARNINGS: choking (reader receiving and safely executed lmao), chest/abdomen groping (reader receiving; no anatomical descriptions or gender specific language), heavy petting (reader and hanbin receiving), finger penetration (brief, reader receiving), erotic humiliation and degradation (towards reader; regarding looseness of hole (non specific) from desperation and disappointing chest/abdomen region (not related to gender or anatomical gendered parts he's just being a dick to you i hope this makes sense)), slut and whore are also used but not in a gendered context, one slap across face (reader receiving), slight dub-con but we know how reader rolls now lol. hanbin is insanely toxic. enjoy.
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scribble. scribble. scribble.
the scratchings of your pencil in your poetry journal are growing increasingly violent. you don’t really care. you’d stayed up all night: tossing and turning and thinking and plotting.
“hey, uh... you okay?” hanbin asks, tapping you gently with the end of his pen. your pencil falls from your fingers as you’re jolted from your anxious thought spiral.
“huh?” you reply, blinking at the star of the soccer team. “oh, um. yeah. i’m okay.”
hanbin’s brow raises slightly at your answer as if it surprises him. “you sure?”
“yeah,” you reply as nonchalantly as possible. “why?”
you follow hanbin’s line of sight to the open page of your poetry journal. you’ve absentmindedly ripped a significant hole through several pages with your vortex of nervous scribbling.
you breathe an awkward laugh, closing your journal and putting your pencil down flat on your desk.
“you had a rough week,” hanbin says, grabbing his journal from his bag and placing it on his desk. you bite your cheeks to keep from grinning at the sight of your target. “or so i’ve heard.”
“i’m sure you have,” you mumble, glancing at the tile floor. “i’m sure everybody has.”
“they haven’t,” he replies definitively and you know he’s telling the truth. “i promise they haven’t.”
hanbin was a tricky one. the star of the soccer team and undoubtedly the most popular boy at your university, it comes as no surprise that he was also the makeshift ring leader of his stupid group of friends. keeping that spotlight also meant keeping up appearances. while your other bullies made their distaste for you known whenever possible, hanbin had a different preferred method of torture.
he liked to play nice. compliment your poems. share a laugh... reel you in.
until you were so close, you couldn’t escape. that’s when he’d flip the script on you.
like when he sent your poem about the boy you liked to the entire university’s mailing list last year. you’d insisted you didn’t feel comfortable sharing it with him. you recoiled with embarrassment at the thought of junseo, your senior lab partner, finding out. but he pushed. made you think you could trust him.
the next day, it was pinned to every bulletin board across campus next to a picture of you that hanbin had taken on your class trip to the national library. like some sort of sick calling card.
junseo sunbae-nim never muttered more than a word to you ever again.
so that’s how all this started. hanbin recruiting his three (and then four) asshole friends in a sudden and violent quest to become the bane of your existence.
sometimes you still can’t help but wonder if you’d done something to upset him. but you shake off that thought each time. you won’t let him get in your head again so easily.
you’ve about mustered the courage to give hanbin some snarky response when your professor’s chalk hatchings across the blackboard send a hush over the classroom.
“good afternoon, everyone,” professor choi greets happily, underlining today’s date on the board. “let’s jump right in today and start with our weekly journals. please share with your desk partner the poem that this week so far inspired you to write.”
your eyes fix on hanbin’s journal again, anticipation stirring as you think about the clues that could be hidden in his poem this week. could the answers you’re looking for really be inside that black, leather book?
“you should go fi—,” you start to suggest a bit too quietly before hanbin unknowingly cuts you off.
“do you wanna go first?” he asks brightly, smile lines illuminating his soft features. you know you shouldn’t indulge him, but you can never stop the corners of your lips from involuntarily turning up in response. no matter how much you hated him, his fairytale prince looks were undeniable.
“oh, uh,” you stammer, grabbing your journal and flipping it open to your entry from this week. you look at the poem you wrote, eyes scanning over the emotional stanzas as you bite your lip uneasily. “i dunno. i kind of got a bit too... personal this week.”
“oh, you know i don’t mind,” he replies calmly. “that’s what poetry is, right?”
“i’m well aware you don’t mind me spilling personal details to you,” you reply with a glare. “but i mind.”
“(y/n)-sshi,” professor choi’s voice suddenly rings over your shoulder. “let’s get reading, okay? time is limited.”
you swallow hard, looking down at your journal shamefully. “yes, professor-nim.”
“so what’s it called?” hanbin asks as professor choi makes her way back up to her desk, folding his arms across his chest and leaning back into his chair. “your poem?”
“the bird,” you answer softly. “it’s called the bird.”
he nods pensively before gesturing for you to start. you look back down at the page, fingers shaking as you try to hold your journal steady. clearing your throat, you recite:
“from it’s perch at the window, it will never be much. the vultures jeered at it as they circled above. then one flew down— with taloned-hand, he did touch. and a meek little finch turned into a dove. if a dove it can be, it will be it as such. til another vulture fell to his knees with a glove. parted it’s feathers and took it in his clutch. and from the fair bird, made a raven thereof. it needs to change back, so it tries to stay hush. but a third brash vulture throws it off with a shove. the reluctant truth is it’s filling with lust... and it’s growing quite scared of the bird it will become.”
you blink back tears as you close your journal and place it on your desk in front of you. maybe it’s your lack of sleep or the mentally and physically jarring week you’ve had, but reading your poem aloud had left you feeling quite vulnerable.
“that was beautiful, (y/n),” hanbin says suddenly, prying you from your regret. you turn to him, eyes wide as he nods thoughtfully. “i really appreciated the metaphor of the bird. the vultures are considered bad birds, but somehow they changed the subject from an unassuming bird into the more beautiful bird it seemed to want to be... but never thought it could.”
you stare at him as he glances up at the ceiling, those handsome smile lines crinkling his cheeks again.
“funny how things we could perceive as wrong or immoral can actually have a positive effect on us,” he muses with a chuckle. “but it’s only natural for the bird to question that change. it’s done more of that ‘bad’ thing and now it’s afraid it’s been turned into a raven. a bird that’s frightening. or maybe a bird it can’t recognize anymore when it looks in the mirror.”
“it did,” you assert quietly. “it did change the bird.”
“but it sounds like the bird likes that change. at least part of it,” hanbin rebuts, meeting your gaze. “perhaps if it embraces that and sheds it’s own guilt— or molts, if you will— it’ll realize the raven is another distortion of the bird’s own making, just like the finch was. it’ll realize it is the dove and it always has been.”
your lips part as you gape at hanbin in awe. it was hard not to let your guard down with him when he always dissected your poems so intuitively like this. memories of intense public humiliation are the only thing that can keep you grounded.
“or,” he adds, a small smirk upturning the corner of his lips. “i guess it could also realize that ravens and vultures aren’t the bad birds it thinks they are. maybe it finds that, after all this worrying, the bird was meant to be a vulture, too.”
“under a minute left,” professor choi calls out from the front of the classroom.
shit. hanbin had talked so much about your poem that he barely had any time left to share his— the poem you desperately needed to be shared in the first place.
hanbin’s still rambling on about vultures, but you’re not paying any attention as a wave of panic rushes over you.
“you should share yours still,” you prompt a little too eagerly, cutting him off mid-sentence. trying your best to dial it back, you add, “i’m sure it’s very interesting, what with the big game on saturday and all.”
hanbin smiles, holding your gaze for a moment too long. it’s suspicious, but his eyes give nothing away.
“if it’s okay with you, i’d rather not share this week,” he says, throwing his journal back in his bag. “i got a little too... how did you put it? personal.”
you blink at him. “but—. but that’s what i said and you—.”
hanbin mutters something under his breath that you swear sounds like, “not like you’d listen to me anyway.”
but you must’ve misheard him.
your heart sinks, your plan crumbling to ashes before your eyes as professor choi launches into a lecture about wilfred owen’s 20th century use of assonance. hanbin had to have written something about what his friends had been up to. that’s why he used up so much time focusing on your poem.
your pencil moves across your paper, absentmindedly taking notes until you reach the only possible conclusion: you can’t give up. you’ll just have to amend the plan.
after class, you hurriedly gather your things and run out the door, pulling your phone out and typing vigorously as you make your way to the bathroom.
WHEN DOES THE BOYS’ SOCCER PRACTICE GO UNTIL TONIGHT!? mina: ??? NO QUESTIONS. JUST ANSWERS. mina: jiwoong oppa is picking me up at 7. so i assume about 6:30. THANK U BYE and... please be careful around him. mina: yeah, yeah, yeah i’ll use protection ily
totally not what you meant. and you’d hate to break it to her, but after his little stunt on monday, you’re not sure how fond her jiwoong oppa would be of that request.
6:30. practice would start soon, giving you plenty of time to slip into the boys’ locker room, read hanbin’s journal, and slip out undetected.
you catch a glimpse of yourself in the bathroom mirror.
a raven’s beady eyes stare back.
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you kill some time in the library, waiting until practice is well underway before making your way across campus to the gymnasium. your heart is already pounding in your ears just thinking about the little heist you’re about to pull.
but your legs keep propelling you forward.
pulling open the building door, you step inside cautiously. the women’s badminton team is stretching in the atrium of the building, but there’s no sign of anyone else. you head right down the hallway, walking past the cardio fitness center and the weight-lifting gym until you’re in front of the boys’ locker room door.
you put an ear to it, hearing nothing but the whirring of a fan on the other side.
fuck it.
you pull open the door and step inside, white and grey tiled walls and rows of blue lockers surrounding you. your heart races as you look back at the door, wondering if it’s not too late to abandon your mission.
you shake your head. no. you need to find that journal.
with a steadying breath, you begin to walk through the first row of lockers. when you don’t spot hanbin’s bag, you proceed to the second row. and then the next. and then the next until you finally spot it.
tucked under the wooden bench running down the middle of the aisle is a familiar brown, leather messenger bag. you run to it, picking it up from the floor and setting it down on the bench. you unclasp the latch on the front of the bag and lift the flap, opening it up and reaching inside it.
your hand hits something... fluffy. you grab the fuzzy item and pull it out, squealing when you see that it’s a tiny, cream-colored hamster plush. it’s the cutest thing you’ve ever seen in your whole goddamn life.
and you are disappointed to find yourself thinking it bears a striking resemblance to its owner.
you stuff the little hamster back into the bag. as cute as he is, it’s not what you came here for. you gasp when you feel the cold leather-bound journal in your hand, pulling it out hurriedly and examining the cover.
you open the journal, flipping through the pages rashly until you locate an entry with today’s date at the top. it reads:
“if one is a vulture, it’s assumed they’re no good— despite all the research that they’re helpful to earth. does the finch know that if that vulture could, he’d hunt for a mirror and show it it’s worth? if that finch is a dove, there’d be something that would still keep it away from achieving true mirth. it’s the vultures, the bird cries before it understood: the vulture has always been a sign of rebirth. a dove, raven, vulture, or finch from the woods, the vultures will find it and double their search. but for someone who claims they feel misunderstood, it’s repulsive the lengths it would go to unearth... something that does not belong to that bird. seems the dove was a raven afterall.”
“pretty good, huh?” the sudden voice behind you makes you jump. “wrote it in, like, ten minutes after class. what can i say? i was inspired.”
you don’t turn around. your face is already on fire from how mortified you are. of course, you’d considered the possibility of being caught. but you hadn’t really realized the weight of that consequence until this moment.
“actually, i think it might be even better than the original,” he continues, footsteps echoing against the tiled floors as he draws nearer. “i mean, you really should’ve thought to flesh out those vulture characters a bit. and you didn’t even consider looking up the well-known symbolism behind them.”
a hot breath fans across the back of your neck, causing you to shiver as a hand wraps around the leather-bound journal and pries it from yours.
“i have to admit, i didn’t really think you had it in you,” he says with a chuckle, fingers suddenly hooking into your waistband and turning you around to face him. he’s in his red and white soccer uniform, skin glistening from the practice meet he should be at right now. “but just in case, i wanted to be prepared. write you something worth reading.”
“h-how did you know?” you stutter quietly. “that i—”
“well, you weren’t exactly subtle, now were you?” hanbin smiles but the light doesn’t reach his eyes. “‘you should read your poem, hanbin. i’m sure it’s exciting with the big game coming up’. like you give a fuck about my poetry.”
that last sentence reminds you of what you thought you’d heard him mumble in class today: not like you’d listen to me anyway.
what was that about?
“aw, don’t get sad now that your plan didn’t go your way,” hanbin coos, lifting his hand to caress your cheek. “i thought it was kind of cute. i can forgive you for stealing, right? you just wanted my attention so badly that you had to play a bit dirty.”
you shake your head quickly. “no, it’s not like that! i swear i wasn’t trying to get your attention, i just—”
“well then, jesus fucking christ, what do i have to do to—,” hanbin snaps before promptly cutting himself off. there’s something in his eyes you’ve never seen before: desperation.
a large hand wraps around your throat in an instant, shoving you up against a blue locker. the motion knocks the wind out of you and you find yourself gasping for air. your hand flies to remove his from around your neck, but he catches it in his free one and brings it gently back down to your side.
“i told you in class that if you needed help calling off the vultures, you should ask me while you still can,” hanbin rasps, rubbing his thumb up the left side of your throat. “but you weren’t listening, dove. the gulper got first bite. the rippers tore you apart...”
you breathe shallowly, glancing from side to side for some route of escape.
“but now the king has landed,” he says, tongue flitting across his teeth. “and he’s fucking starving.”
you blink at him, lips parted in stupid shock. “i—... i honestly had no idea you knew so much about vultures.”
“THAT’S WHAT YOU TOOK FROM THAT ARE YOU KID—,” he yells, finger pads digging in tighter to the skin of your neck. his gaze falls to your lips, supple and pretty even in fear. he trails down to your shirt, a button-up front that seems to entice him. “take it off.”
“b-but—.”
“take it the fuck off, (y/n). you should know by now how this goes,” hanbin snarls, grabbing your hand and bringing it to the trail of buttons. you start to fiddle with them, but you have some trouble under the pressure of his gaze. “can’t even undo a button? hm? too fucking stupid, dove?”
you find yourself nodding against all odds.
“need binnie to do it for you?” he coos, smile lines illuminating his face again.
you just nod again. it seems to be what you do best.
hanbin unfastens the buttons one-handed and with ease. once your shirt is open, he tugs it to the side and exposes your chest. then, he sighs with dramatic disappointment. “seriously? that’s it? got me all excited to see how good you look under here and this is what you have to show?”
you look down at your incredibly normal and attractive upper body. you’d never really doubted the aesthetics of it before. should you have?
the humiliating comment causes a lump to form in your throat... and an embarrassingly intense ache to shoot through your heat.
he tugs the center hem of your shirt, pulling the fabric further off your shoulders. “it’s a good thing the other guys didn’t see this. they’re far more superficial than me. you should be grateful you found a guy who can look past the disappointment. ”
hanbin’s free hand roams across your abdomen and chest, fingers ghosting sweetly against your skin until you let out the tiniest whimper.
“mm, i heard that,” he breathes with a smirk. “even though you never hear me. probably didn’t even fucking clock the first line in that stupid poem. but i hear you, dove. so let me give you what you want. all you have to do is ask.”
you gulp, softly responding, “w-want you to... touch me.”
“yeah?” hanbin affirms, finger trailing down your stomach.
you nod again, this time more assuredly under the guise of his encouraging smile. that is, until a harsh slap stings your cheek.
“well that wasn’t a fucking question, was it?” hanbin hisses, rubbing soothing circles into your cheek with his thumb. “you’re in an advanced poetry class and you don’t even know how to form an interrogative sentence? just must be doodling all the time, huh? about all the boys who’ve made a mess of you this week? like the dumb little slut you are.”
hanbin’s free hand finds it’s way into your jeans, fingers brushing over your clothed core before pulling it out again. you gasp when you see his fingers already covered in your arousal.
his eyes darken as he undoes the button clasp and zipper of your pants, shoving your underwear to the side with his fingers. he forces your legs a bit farther apart before stuffing a finger inside of you, causing you to cry out.
“oh, dove, why would i wanna put my cock in here, hm? so desperate, i could slip right in,” hanbin says with another sigh of disappointment. “did the other guys really make such a whore of you?”
another bout of worry clouds your mind. was that true? was matthew right? you thought he was just being a red-pilled pig, but... had you somehow been physically tainted from the events of this week?
“so fucking lucky, dove,” hanbin whispers, removing his hand from your center and taking one of yours. he brings it down the front of his athletic shorts and then wraps it around his impossibly hard length. you look up at him, wide-eyed. “where every other man would see damaged goods, i see prime real estate.”
“what—”
“gonna fuck you now, m’kay?” hanbin interjects, pulling his shorts down and exposing himself to you. you hadn’t really seen the other boys up close or at all like this. hanbin’s cock is pretty— long with just a few visible veins and a pink head that’s leaking a bit of pre-cum. it makes your mouth water. maybe you are a dumb slut.
maybe you like it like that.
or maybe it’s just hanbin’s large hand covering your throat, pressing at the sides both tenderly and persistently that’s making you feel a bit high. he brings himself to your entrance, spitting in his hand and covering his length as he lines up the tip. he’s about to push himself inside of you, when he suddenly freezes.
“you want me to, right?” hanbin asks, tone suddenly much softer than it was before. his eyes are locked with yours, holding you there with him against the wall of lockers. “you want me inside you? just me. not those other guys? not junseo hyung-nim or—”
BEEEEEEEEEP. BRRANG. BRRANG. BRRANG. BEEEEEEEE....
a fire alarm rips through the locker room, loud and annoying as ever. you try to jump out of hanbin’s grasp, but his hands stay fixed around you.
“let me... let me go!” you assert, hitting his chest with your palm. the pressure on your neck that felt so good just a few moments ago is now filling you with fear, “are you trying to kill me or something!?”
his brow raises slightly, as if he only just noticed the alarm. his grip loosens and you take the opportunity to scramble away from him, frantically zipping up your jeans.
“of course i’m not,” he replies dejectedly, re-situating his shorts before huffing, “like you have a body worth going to jail for.”
“oh, shut up,” you retort, rolling your eyes as you race to re-button your shirt. “this is all YOUR fault. whatever’s going on this week, i know you’re behind it. you’ve run out of ideas to keep me small. but i’m not small. in fact, i’m a much bigger person than you are! so... i’m sorry for whatever i did that made you hate me so much in the first place. now, please, let’s get out of here.”
you start to run down the aisle of lockers towards the exit door, but a lack of footsteps behind you causes you to stop and turn back.
“come on,” you urge as hanbin continues to stand in place and stare at you, unmoving. it might be the most infuriating thing he’s done all day. “oh, fucking burn then.”
the tangible anger in your voice startles both of you. hanbin blinks quickly back at you, wide-eyed as if you’ve just slapped him across the face. whoever gave him the right to feel that way is sorely mistaken. you turn back around, throwing over your shoulder:
“are there birds worse than vultures?”
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Physics Class
Dad!Gojo x reader Genre: Fluff Synopsis: Gojo teaches physics to his child, and it doesn't go the way they want it to. Masterlist
It was a typical evening in the Gojo household, or so it seemed. Satoru Gojo was seated at the dining table with his teenage child and a pile of physics textbooks. His usual demeanor was replaced with a look of sheer desperation as he attempted to explain the intricacies of quantum mechanics.
"Okay, so imagine this," Gojo began, summoning his Infinity to illustrate his point. "You have a particle, and it can be in multiple places at once..."
Haru, stared blankly at his father, eyes glazed over with confusion. "But Dad, I still don't get it. How can something be in two places at the same time?"
Gojo rubbed his temples, mentally cursing the day he decided to take on the role of tutor. "Well, you see, it's like... umm... Hollow Purple!" With a flourish of his hand, he conjured the swirling vortex of energy, hoping it would somehow make the concept clearer.
Haru's expression didn't change. "It just looks like purple fog to me, Dad."
Gojo sighed dramatically. "This is harder than fighting curses," he muttered under his breath.
Suddenly, a light bulb seemed to go off in Gojo's head. "I know! Let's try a practical demonstration." Within seconds, he summoned a small rubber ball and a series of miniature black holes using his powers.
Haru's eyes widened in alarm. "Dad, are you sure this is safe?"
But before he could protest further, Gojo released the ball into the gravitational field of the black holes. Chaos ensued as the ball disappeared and reappeared in seemingly random locations.
"Dad, I think you just broke the laws of physics," Haru exclaimed, a mix of awe and terror in his voice.
Gojo chuckled nervously. "Well, umm... let's just say it's a... creative interpretation."
Despite the chaotic lesson, Haru couldn't help but smile at their father's antics. "Thanks, Dad. I still don't understand quantum mechanics, but at least I had fun trying."
Gojo grinned proudly, tousling his hair affectionately. "That's my kid. Now, let's tackle the next chapter: Kinetic Energy!"
As Gojo delved deeper into the world of teaching normal subjects, he realized that traditional methods simply weren't cutting it. So, he decided to incorporate his sorcery skills into the curriculum, much to the dismay of his teenager.
Satoru decided to demonstrate the concept of kinetic energy using his Infinity. He summoned a couple of marbles and set them rolling on the table, intending to show how their speed affected their energy.
"See, Haru, the faster the marble moves, the more energy it has," Gojo explained, trying to sound as convincing as possible.
His son nodded along, trying to follow his father's logic. But when Gojo decided to ramp up the demonstration by using his powers to increase the speed of the marbles to near-supersonic levels, chaos ensued.
The marbles careened off the table, ricocheting around the room like tiny bullets. Furniture was overturned, vases shattered, and Gojo found himself ducking for cover behind the sofa.
"Dad, I think we should stick to the textbook," Haru yelled over the chaos, dodging a marble that whizzed past his head.
Gojo emerged from his hiding spot, looking sheepish. "Right, maybe that was a bit much."
The sun dipped below the horizon, casting a warm glow over the Gojo household. The door swung open, and you walked in. You were greeted not by the usual calm ambiance of home, but by a scene of utter chaos.
"Baby, what on earth happened here?" you exclaimed, taking in the overturned furniture, cracked decorations and the faint scent of burnt rubber lingering in the air.
Your husband looked up from his haphazard pile of textbooks, relief washing over his exhausted features at the sight of his wife. "Oh, thank goodness you're here. We've had a bit of a... situation."
Your son sat at the table with tears glistening in his eyes, surrounded by scattered papers and half-hearted attempts at calculations. He looked up at his mother with a mixture of frustration and defeat.
"Mom, I just don't understand any of this. We tried so much and nothing worked," he confessed, his voice trembling with emotion.
Your heart broke at the sight of your son's distress. You crossed the room in a few quick strides, wrapping him in a comforting hug. "It's okay, sweetheart. We'll figure this out together."
Turning to Gojo, you found her husband in a state of near-panic, his usual smirk replaced by a look of sheer desperation. "Love, what's going on? Why is everything in shambles?"
Gojo ran a hand through his disheveled hair, his frustration palpable. "I've been trying to help Haru study for his physics exam, but nothing seems to be sinking in. I've tried every trick in the book, and then some my personal tricks. It didn't do much though."
You couldn't help but chuckle at the sight of your usually unflappable husband on the brink of a meltdown. "Well, why don't we take a break, and then try some different approach?."
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٭❀٭٭❀٭ Sweetening Jars ٭❀٭٭❀٭
The basic function of a sweetening jar is to... sweeten! This spell can be used for relationships, situations, groups, organizations- really anything you'd like to make sweet towards the recipient.
Originally from hoodoo and folk magic, Sweetening jars have been used for centuries and in many different pagan and spiritual practices. Here are some variations of this spell:
Honey Jars
Perhaps the most widely used and known version of a sweetening jar is the honey jar. Many places around the world did not have access to sugar (or it was extremely expensive) for a good long while. Honey was often the main source of sweetness and was more readily available for use in magic.
Slow & Sweet:
Honey is a natural sweetener that undergoes a slow transformation as it is created. The nature of how it moves & flows is steady and slow. Magic incorporating honey will be slower, but the effects might be longer lasting. Sometimes fast working magic isn't always the answer, such as when we want a situation or person to slowly sweeten towards us over time. This is the place and time for honey jars!
How to Make a Honey Jar:
Also See:
Prepping For a Spell
Setting Up a Ritual Space For Spellwork
Components needed:
Honey
Jar/container with a lid
paper and pen
Casting:
Intention is everything, and all ingredients/components in a spell must know why they are there working for you. Make sure your intentions are clear going into the spell. Tell the honey that it is here to sweeten your intended person/place/thing/situation. Let your jar know that it is the container of this spell and these energies. Set powerful intention as you continue through the steps.
Begin to fill your container with the honey. About halfway full, pause and write out the recipient of the spell's full name on one side of the paper, and the target upside down adjacent to the recipient so as you fold the paper in half, the names meet.
Add the folded paper into the jar, then continue filling to the top, sealing with (yes) intention. Optionally you can light a candle of corresponding color on top of the jar, either sealing it with the wax (if you intend to not re-open it) or just letting the energy of the fire boost the working. You may add as many situations or people into the sweetening jar over time as you see fit.
Remember, honey moves slowly. Keep this in mind, as the energies may be powerful but slower working. Set the honey jar on an altar or in a space you often pass by in the home, re-energizing the jar every time you see it.
Sugar Jars
Sugar is another effective way of creating a sweetening jar. In this method, water is used as a vessel to contain and amplify the sugar. Water is faster moving than honey, so this version of the spell is best for workings that need to be fast acting.
Water is Receptive:
Water is one of the most powerful magical tools available to us. Our bodies are mostly water, we drink it in order to survive, it ensures that our planet and all living things thrive and grow. In combination with sugar, we have a highly effective mixture for ushering in an abundance of sweetness.
How to Make a Sugar Jar:
Components needed:
Sugar
Water
Jar/container
Paper & pen
Casting:
As stated above, intention is everything. Speak your intentions to your tools. Fill your jar/container with water, then scoop in the sugar while thinking about your desired outcome. Fill the water until it is properly saturated with sugar (it should be so sweet you wouldn't want to drink it). Once again, write the names across from each other on the paper, fold it, then add it to the jar. You can even add some glitter for added effect. Close the jar, then swirl the liquid creating a vortex inside. Seal the spell with a candle if you see fit and leave it on an altar or commonly seen space in your home. Swirl it to re-activate the spell.
This spell is highly effective if you are in need of fast acting magic and sweetness, but it may not be as long lasting as a honey jar. Try making one of each for the benefits of both spells.
In Conclusion:
Sweetening jars are a great way to bring some sweetness/love/luck into your life. They can be used to sweeten relationships, situations, groups, and even for self-love. Honey jars are slow moving but long lasting, and sugar jars are fast acting but shorter lasting. This magic is great for beginners and experienced witches alike. Go forth and add some sweetness to your life!
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Could we possibly see a mechanic that places items on the top of libraries? No idea how it would work, but it seems "players forget to do X each turn" is a major design issue, and maybe making them have to physically go past a thing would make that easier to work with?
Players often stick cards on top of libraries as a method of remembering triggers, but that’s much better as an informal tactic than using an actual rule.
The library is a different zone, so putting permanents there changes how the card functions. The Un-card Yet Another Aether Vortex plays in this crazy space (where cards are on top of library and on the battlefield).
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Art's Silent Language (Lukai Hwei x GN!Reader)
Warnings: violence, blood, slight torture, kidnapping
Chapter 4: Through the Artist's Eyes
(part 1 here)
Summary: Captured by Jhin, you face a final performance of pain and beauty. Will this be Jhin's last act, or just the beginning of something more?
(Note is at the end of the chapter)
A searing pain lanced through your skull, each beat of your heart a hammer blow against it. You fight to open your eyes, the world a swirling vortex of darkness and pain. You blink, the world snapping into focus, revealing a figure bathed in the dim, ethereal glow of a single lantern.
Jhin.
His lips curl into a smile that holds no warmth, only a chilling, unsettling amusement. He moves with a grace that belies the terror he instills, his fingers, slender and elegant, tracing the outline of a wound on your head.
The cloth he holds, pristine white against the darkness, is a stark contrast to the crimson blossoming on it. He presses it gently against your wound, the pressure a searing agony. But there is a strange, almost hypnotic quality to his touch, a calculated precision that feels more like a surgical procedure than a simple act of tending to a wound. Each stroke of the cloth is deliberate, methodical, as if he were an artist meticulously applying paint to a canvas. The blood, once a vibrant red, is absorbed into the fabric, leaving a dark, ominous stain that mirrors the chilling dread that grips your heart.
You try to speak, to scream, but your throat is parched, your voice a mere croak.
"Shh, do not struggle," he coos, dabbing at your face. You flinch at his touch, feeling scrapes where your skin meets ropes. Jhin examines you with a twisted smile, his eyes glinting with a mix of curiosity and malice, as if savoring discomfort. "You’ll make this worse for yourself," he warns softly, leaning very close.
"Release me," you say sharply.
Jhin throws back his head and laughs, a grating cacophony that sets your nerves on edge. Slowly, he circles you, trailing a gloved finger along your tense shoulders.
"My dear captive, you presume to threaten me?" he croons softly. "It is I who hold power in this dance, not some chirping fledgling gasping in my claws."
Halting before you, Jhin grips your chin in a punishing grip. His veneer of control cracks, exposing raving lunacy beneath.
"No artist lets his muse flee until the opus is complete! I have divined such exquisite torments for our finale. Through your anguished song will I craft my crowning masterwork!"
His long-fingered hand traces your cheekbone, leaving a trail of cold in its wake. You tremble under his gaze, uncertain of what horrors lay in store.
You struggle against your bonds, to no avail. Jhin observes your movements with interest, like a painter studying his subject. Outside, the sunset paints the decaying walls in hues of orange and gold.
"Through art, all things can be transformed," Jhin continues rapturously. "Your mortal flesh will become something everlasting. I will alchemize your essence until only brilliance remains."
He lifts a glinting tool, and you see it is a sculpting knife, its edge honed to deadly precision. Panic rises in your throat as Jhin studies the play of fading sunlight on the blade.
"Diamonds, like humanity, are born of turmoil. Extreme heat and pressure fuse the chaotic cloud into clarity. So too shall you be remade." His voice rings with messianic fervor. "Soon, you will shine eternally as my greatest creation. The transformation begins...let the ceremony commence!"
As your eyes adjust to the dim lighting, more details of your surrounds emerge. Crumbling brick walls are papered with faded posters advertising long-forgotten shows. A thick layer of dust covers the worn floorboards; your chair stands center-stage in a decrepit house.
Overhead, tattered curtains sway in the breeze drifting through broken windows. Beams of dying sunlight pierce the gloom, illuminating spinning dust motes like flecks of gold. It is a place suspended between creation and ruin - the perfect setting for Jhin's dark vision.
The artist himself paces before you, muttering excitedly to himself.
"The lighting is perfect, the composition sublime," he muses. "All that remains is to complete my masterwork."
Jhin's hands flit restlessly over his assortment of strange artifacts: gleaming surgical tools, arcane tomes bound in human skin, vials containing viscous liquids and mysterious powders. His meticulous artist’s mind sorts rapidly through options.
Finally, he selects an instrument resembling a paintbrush, but its bristles end in thin blades. He tests the edge delicately against his finger, nodding in approval at the bead of blood welling forth.
"First, we strip away your outer shells," Jhin declares, tracing the blade lightly over your cheek. "Only then can your truest essence shine through, polished to dazzling radiance.”
Jhin steps close, looming over you with the metallic bristles poised at your throat. You thrash against the ropes binding you, heart pounding, to no avail.
"Peace, my subject," Jhin soothes. "Struggle will only prolong your suffering. Remain still, and I can elevate you to glory."
His gaze bores into you. With a surgeon's precision, he drags the blade slowly down your neck. You cry out as beads of blood rise in its wake, crimson against your skin.
Slowly, oh so slowly, the blade presses deeper. You inhale sharply but do not cry out - you will not give him the satisfaction of seeing you break.
A bead of blood wells and Jhin leans in, tongue darting out to sample your essence on his lips.
"Sweet," he groans, eyes fluttering closed. When they open once more, wild hunger blazes within. Jhin looms closer still, trapping you with his gaze as the knife dances over your hammering pulse.
Jhin makes a small noise of pleasure, tilting his head to observe his handiwork. "Exquisite. The raw material reveals its luster."
"Transformation is seldom pleasant," Jhin comments clinically. "But pain birth beauty, as fire shapes the jewel."
"I knew from the start what lurked beneath your silken words and gifts," you say coldly. "The way you twisted Hwei's heart to suit your depraved games, used his passion as just one more sick puppet in your shows."
Jhin's gloved fingers suddenly wrap tight around your chin, tilting your head up to meet his eyes. His touch is cold yet burns your skin all the same.
Jhin cocks his head, regarding you with a curled smile. "The petal thought he understood my art. In time, he too would have become a masterpiece."
His patronizing tone only fuels your fury. "I saw how you fed on his love like some parasite, how you twisted his mind until he was but a shadow, living only to feed the void within you."
Chuckling softly, Jhin runs his thumb along your swollen bottom lip. "And what of you, my feisty little songbird? Do you also fly willingly into the fox's waiting jaws?"
You meet his eyes steadily. "Your acts of violence and violation do not move me. I understand you better than you understand yourself - you who knows only how to feed chaos and feel nothing."
Jhin's smiling mask shatters, giving way to something ravenous and raw. "Feel nothing?" he snarls, seizing your face in a crushing grip. "I feel it all, each exquisite moment - the passion, the rapture, the divine perfection of destruction! Through my art alone do I truly live!"
Releasing you, he draws back, composure sliding neatly back into place. But his eyes hold a new calculation.
"And what makes you think you know my intentions, my dear?" he whispers, voice low and deadly. Bloodlust swirls in his eyes yet something else flickers there - intrigue, admiration for your spirit.
You swallow yet hold his stare, defiant to the last. "I see the emptiness within you. Your 'art' is but a shallow mimicry of passion, meaningless destruction performed for an audience of one."
Jhin laughs softly, a mirthless sound. His flawless mask cracks, revealing the gaping void beneath, the ache that drives him to create through carnage alone.
Leaning impossibly close, he breathes against your trembling lips. "Perhaps you know me better than I thought, my clever sparrow. If shallowness is what you perceive...then let me show you the inferno that consumes."
With that, his mouth slants hard over yours, ravaging with a desperate hunger to feel - to feel anything amid the numbness. You gasp into the kiss, your heartbeat answering his like clashing symbols in a dark symphony.
For a stolen moment, passion transcends intention as you drown in sensation. But when Jhin pulls away, craving and madness have resurfaced in his eyes once more. The tender illusion shatters, and you know - this was but one more manipulating performance in his grisly design.
He rises and paces, gesticulating wildly.
"That kiss was but another brushstroke on the canvas of our drama together. Through it, I sought merely to elicit emotion - yours, and of the audience that surely hangs on our every moment."
Pausing, Jhin gazes down at you. His perfect features twist into a ghastly mockery of affection.
"Did you feel, little songbird, as I tore open your heart? Did you tremble with anguished rapture, swept along in the ecstatic tide of annihilation?"
His mocking laughter rings through the dusty room.
Jhin grips your hair forcefully, pulling your head back as he breathes against your neck, his warm breath sends shivers racing down your spine. You feel your back arch involuntarily.
He leans in closer, his lips grazing your skin as he slightly bites down on your neck, the sensation both pleasurable and painful.
His hand glides down your arms, fingers trailing lightly as if savoring every inch of your skin.
The touch feels possessive, yet there’s a strange tenderness in his movements. You can’t help but feel the tension building between you, a dance of power and vulnerability. He then shifts his attention to the bindings on your wrists, circling your wrist with his thumb in a deliberate manner, as if testing the strength of your restraints. For a fleeting moment, it feels as if he’s loosening them just enough to let hope flicker to life.
But the moment is fleeting. You turn your head away, overwhelmed by the intensity of his gaze and the feelings swirling inside you. Just as you think you’ve escaped his grasp, he takes your face in both of his hands, forcing you to meet his eyes. His thumb brushes softly against your lips.
"That, my dear, is the only 'passion' I know—the opus of agonies I craft through my works," he whispers, his voice smooth and chilling. "All else is but pale imitation. Remember that… should any wisp of feeling dare cloud your judgment."
With a savage grin and swish of his cloak, Jhin is once more lost to his dark imaginings, leaving you questioning all you thought you knew of this depraved artist.
As Jhin turns away to arrange his infernal stagecraft, you gather every ounce of strength and begin to struggle anew against your bonds. The ropes bite cruelly into your wrists, yet you twist and strain with wild desperation.
Jhin pays you no mind, lost in his own deranged mutterings as he lays out gleaming utensils.
Seeing your chance, you redouble your efforts with a frenzied yell. The ropes fray and tear—and with one final wrench, your hands rip free!
Jhin whirls at the sound, anger flaring in his eyes at being denied his dark muse. But you waste no time gawking at the monster—you launch from the chair at him.
Off-balance, Jhin crashes to the dust-caked floorboards. His blade skitters away into the shadows.
Not sparing a glance at him, you sprint for the splintered exit with renewed vigor. Black night swallows your retreating form as you pour every ounce of will into escape.
Laughter and rage and the sound of pounding footsteps chase on your heels.
Your lungs burn as you push your exhausted body further into the desert night. Jhin's maniacal laughter still echoes behind you, though the sound is fading with each step. You dare not look back, knowing his twisted grin will be etched in your mind if you do. All that matters is putting as much distance between him and yourself as possible.
Up ahead, a faint glow peeks through the sparse trees - an oasis. New adrenaline surges through your veins at the sight of what might offer refuge. Sand kicks up with each footfall as you rush toward the glowing pool of water. Palm trees whip past you in a blur, their branches outstretched like beckoning arms guiding you to safety.
Bursting into the small oasis, you stumble to a halt beside the water's edge. Your hands brace against your knees as greedy lungs drink in air. Through the shallow pants, your ears strain for any sign you are still being pursued. Only the gentle lapping of waves meets them, the normal night sounds of the desert serenading the sparse trees.
Slowly, muscles uncoil from their clenched state. The immediate threat seems past, at least for now. You lower yourself fully to the cool sand and let the sight of glittering water soothe frazzled nerves.
Soft moonlight dances across the surface, dappling the shore in an ethereal glow. Clarity returns along with your breathing, allowing reality to truly sink in.
A shiver runs through you that has nothing to do with the desert chill.
Pushing to unsteady legs, you shuffle closer to the pool's edge. Your parched throat begs for refreshment after the exhausting escape. Cupping greedy hands, you bring the cool liquid to chapped lips. Too soon, the last droplets fall from your palms. Thirst barely slaked; other needs demand attention in your weary state.
Scanning the sandy shore, your gaze lands on a cluster of palm fronds piled near the trees. With any luck, they might offer cushion and cover for the night. One problem at a time - rest now, plans later. Heavy feet carry you to the pile and you collapse into the fronds with a sigh. Cool surrounds quickly lull frayed senses as lingering adrenaline fades into exhaustion.
Darkness pulls you under like a comforting blanket.
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The desert night is alive with the constant song of insects and wildlife. A sliver of moon drifts overhead amid patches of scattered clouds, casting the oasis in a dim glow.
As you drift in the space between sleep and waking, a shiver runs through your body that has nothing to do with the cool night air.
Something is different. An energy tingles at the edge of perception, faint yet familiar. Slowly prying open weary eyes, you lift your head from the nest of palm fronds.
Rippling across the surface of the water is a blur of colors, dancing in hues too vibrant to be natural.
A paintbrush comes into focus, wielded by a figure kneeling at the pool's edge. Colored wisps trail his movements like an artist’s ashes, each strand levitating impossibly in the air.
There is no mistaking Hwei's magical brush at work, weaving ephemeral illustrations that shimmer on the water's canvas.
His eyes, iridescent even in shadow, find yours across the shore. Recognition lights within those prismatic orbs before flickering with an emotion you can’t place. Concern? Relief?
With fluid grace, Hwei rises and strides to your side. Up close, faint scents of oils and pigment cling to his frame. His gaze roams your form, lingering on patches of torn cloth.
"You're hurt." His voice is soft yet carries an undercurrent that raises the hairs along your nape. Fingers gently grasp your wrist to examine your wounds. You suppress a wince at the contact.
"It's nothing serious." Your assurance does little to quell the tempest raging behind Hwei's eyes. Releasing your arm, he pulls his brush from where it is strapped across his back. Colors sprung to life along the bristles at his beckon, bleeding together into a soothing teal wash.
Without a word, Hwei dips the brush’s edge into the shimmering paint. Your breath hitches as cool bristles make contact, tracing delicate lines along your wounds.
Where pigment spreads, numbness follows in its wake, deadening pain.
Fascinated, you watch reddened skin knit together before eyes, leaving fresh and unmarred in the healing liquid’s wake.
Magic, or simple a gift of Hwei’s brush? Impossible to say where abilities end and the artist begins.
You gaze up to find his focus intent on the task, lips parted slightly as his skill purifies damaged flesh. Heat rises unbidden to your cheeks under such devoted care. Your heart, already quickened from your closeness, threatens to burst from your ribs.
The last abrasions disappear under careful strokes. Hweis' eyes lift to yours, their depths reflecting colors and emotions too deep to comprehend.
One arm encircles your waist and pulls you against his slender form, the other brushes tousled strands of hair from your face. His thumb lingers and caresses the line of your jaw with tenderness.
“You’re safe now. I’ve got you.” Hwei’s hushed murmur causes lids to flutter closed, lost in the soothing rumble of his voice.
Lips meet yours then, slow and searching as if committing every facet to memory through touch alone.
With utmost care, he gathers you into his lap to cradle against his chest. One hand soothingly combs through your hair while the other takes up his brush anew. Upon the oasis sands, Hwei begins to paint in colors of serenity.
Lush blooms spill from under his talented strokes—petite lilies burst with dewdrops; morning glories unfurl translucent petals. Their vivid hues shine all the brighter in the shadows of night. As detail after detail comes alive, the flowers' sweet fragrance joins the cool desert air.
Instead of darkness, visions of sunlit gardens dance behind your closed eyes. Hwei watches vigilantly, brush never ceasing until the last stem stands vibrant and whole. Only then does he set the magical implement aside once more. You feel relaxed and calm.
Gently, he tilts your face up to meet his gaze. Hwei gazes for long moments, memorizing each fleeting emotion buried beneath fatigue. His hands cup your cheeks with care.
"Let me share this burden," Hwei murmurs, breath soft against your lips between words. "I would bear it all if only it rids you of pain."
Then slowly, he lowers his mouth to yours in a kiss filled with promise and devotion profound as the stars above.
Art is the highest form of hope.
All thoughts flee under that tender onslaught. Your hands tangle in his tunic, clinging to escape the nightmares of past hours in his grounding presence.
Within the circle of his embrace, reality seems but a distant dream. Here, in Hwei's arms, you know only comfort, protection... and love that shelters your heart, always, from any threat in the waking world.
As the stars light creeps over the dunes, you stir in Hwei's tender embrace. Beneath palms and stars, the remainder of night has passed in comforting solace.
Gaze meeting Hwei's own, you ask in hushed tones, "How did you find me here?" A rueful smile touches his lips, fingers lifting to brush aside disheveled locks. "Worry not over such details, my heart. What matters is you're safe now."
Still the unknowns nag, his knowing eyes betraying depths beyond casual passersby. "Through your magic, wasn't it?” Hwei's nod grants affirmation, though guarded concern now creases his features. A painter's sight can unveil truths better left buried; it seems...
"Tell me what horrors drove you to this place," he bids softly, voice roughened by rising emotion kept barely leashed. And so, haltingly, the tale spills forth —of Jhins plan, his machinations to make you "a creation beyond compare."
How Jhin's maddened machinations seek to immortalize your agonized demise. How by fortune or fate, an opportunity arises allowing escape from dire design. Yet escape is not the end, as horrors haunt memory still...
At the story's close, Hwei grows deafly silent.
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The journey back is a somber one. Smoke rises on the horizon long before Koyehn's Temple simple spires come into view, an ominous shroud hanging overall.
But no prayers can prepare you for the hellscape that awaits.
As the temple comes into sight, it is engulfed in angry orange tongues that devour sacred scrolls and timber alike. Embers swirl chaotically on smoldering thermals, borne aloft to spread ruin further still.
Hwei reins in with a sudden gasp, leaving you to brace against his back. You clutch him tight as anguished cries escape his lips, giving voice to the torment writ large across his features. Never do you see such depths of anguish from the stoic painter, who schools his passions into disciplined lines and fluid strokes.
"No..." Hwei's choked whisper tears at your heart. This place is his sanctuary, his home—now reduced to cindering ruins. You grasp his arm for support as much as offering console, finding only tremors wracking his lithe form in return.
His soul bleeds… and the blood steadily, silently, disturbingly slowly, swallows him whole.
His brush falls unheeded, magic sparking errant between clenched fingers as if begging release. Yet for all the chaos within, no colors escape Hwei's tight rein—not here, not for this.
Sliding to the ground, you pull him into your arms as tears carve trails down soot-stained cheeks. You stand locked in mournful embrace until the sobs begin to still, the conflagration within banked to smoldering embers once more by love's balm. Lips press against your hair, murmuring apologies for all that can never be regained.
As morning's light lifts the ashen pall shrouding all, the full horror of the night comes into grim clarity. Where once lived and worked over fourscore brothers and sisters, now only broken shells of walls remain amongst the rubble.
You pick your way over the ruins, hoping against hope that some sheltering alcove or secret chamber may offer refuge to even a sole survivor. But as the sun climbs overhead with no signs of life stirring, grim certainty takes root.
You stand alone as the last remnants of an order consigned now to memory alone.
Hwei searched the longest for any survivors, as if refusing to accept the bitter truth laid bare before your eyes. When he finally sinks to his knees in defeat, wracking sobs echo the agonized screams that must have filled the night air as flames claimed their victims. You pull him close, but no comfort of yours can staunch the flood of his grief.
In time, his tears run dry, leaving in their wake an exhaustion of body and spirit you fear no rest can repair.
Hwei wanders as one dead, seeking solace that forever eludes him amongst the ruins. Nights find him waking in terror, reliving each moment of devastation in vivid and gruesome detail no hand can capture.
One such night, a glint of color amidst the cinders draws his numbed feet. Lifted free, it reveals a fiendish trap, its petals splayed open in grinning mockery—a lotus blossom none, but one artist could have crafted.
Understanding dawns in those hollow eyes, a cascade of emotions stirring their murky depths once more: terror, sorrow, betrayal... and a dreadful fascination you know all too well.
The ruins fall silent once more as Hwei gazes unblinking upon that noxious blossom. You dare not break his reverie, dreading what shadows might take root should he linger too long in contemplation of such madness... and the dark allure it holds, even for one whose gift is life and color, not decay.
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The crackling fire does little to cut through the tavern's smoky chill. You nurse a mug of ale, staring into the fire as if they might hold answers to questions plaguing Hwei's mind.
It has been moons since you left the smoking remnants of Koyehn behind you. Amongst the ashes, you find renewed purpose—your art brings messages of hope and restoration to weary communities... but sometimes also of destruction. But with each new dawn, fresh mysteries call Hwei ever onwards.
You glance to where he sits apart, brush hovering restlessly as always. His eyes, once home to passion's vibrant spectrum, now seem but windows onto an abyss churning with shadows.
Hwei seeks understanding through revelation of torment—by replicating each scene of suffering until its essence bleeds forth. You fear such intimacy with evil may leech away what remains of his light.
As the sun dips low on the horizon, casting a golden hue over the tavern’s wooden beams, you sit beside Hwei, captivated by the way his brush dances across the canvas. Each stroke is filled with emotion, transforming the blank surface into a vibrant landscape of colors. Hwei pours his heart into the painting, bringing to life a sun rising triumphantly over a gentle sea, its rays bursting forth like tendrils of warmth. Hwei is completely absorbed in his painting.
Truly, no artist tolerates reality.
You lean closer, intrigued by the imagery. “Is it a sunset or a sunrise?” you ask, admiring the way the light plays in his eyes. Resting your chin on Hwei's shoulder, you feel a warm connection, as if the moment stretches into eternity.
Hwei pauses, his brush hovering above the canvas as he turns to you, a soft smile blooming on his lips. “It’s a sunrise,” he replies, his voice warm and tender. “A new beginning. I dream of painting and then I paint my dream.”
His gaze lingers on you, and in that moment, the world outside the tavern fades away. You feel a magnetic pull, an unspoken connection that draws you closer.
The ambiance is thick with the scent of paint and the calming whispers of the sea outside.
You close your eyes as his hand comes up to gently cup your cheek. His thumb softly traces your bottom lip. As he leans in closer, you can feel his warm breath mingling with yours.
His kiss is tentative at first, mere brushes of contact that leave you craving more. You reach up to wrap your arms around his neck, pressing yourself against his form.
His other hand slides into your hair, fingers twisting in the strands to tilt your head to a better angle. His kiss becomes deeper, more passionate. When his tongue sweeps along your lip, you grant access eagerly. As your tongues meet, a soft moan escapes you.
All the while, his hand on your cheek begins a slow descent. Over your jaw, down your neck, it comes to rest on your waist. His fingertips graze under the edge of your shirt, sending sparks across your skin. You cling to him more tightly, lost in the bliss of his lips moving with yours.
When you finally part for air, he does not go far. He rests his forehead against yours, eyes still closed as you both pant, lost in the moment. His hand never strays from your waist, thumb making gentle strokes across the sensitive flesh. In his embrace, you have never felt so wanted, so cared for. It is here, in his arms, that you are meant to be.
Hwei opens his eyes and whispers, “Some people are artists. Some themselves, are art.”
When you finally pull away, breathless, you look into his eyes, which shimmer with joy and intensity. But as you glance back at the painting, something catches your eye. Dark, shadowy figures seem to writhe within the vibrant hues, lurking just beneath the surface of the canvas. They flicker in and out of existence, vanishing as quickly as they appear.
A shiver runs down your spine. “Hwei, do you see that?” you ask, pointing to the canvas.
His expression shifts, a shadow crossing his features. “I—I’ll protect you,” he says, his voice suddenly serious, his grip tightening around you. The remnants of the massacre at the temple echo in his eyes, a haunting reminder of the darkness he has faced.
“I know you will,” you reassure him, reaching up to stroke his cheek. “But you don’t have to do it alone.”
For a moment, the weight of his past hangs heavy in the air. He leans into your touch, the warmth of your presence grounding him. “You’re my light,” he murmurs, his voice barely above a whisper.
As the firelight dances upon Hwei's face, you trace gentle fingers along his jaw, brushing aside an ebony strand fallen askew.
Hwei leans into your touch with a soft sigh, clasping your fingers in his own. "I feel there is nothing more truly artistic than to love people. I feel like art and love are the same thing: it’s the process of seeing yourself in things that are not you.”
His lips graze your knuckles, stirring memories as vivid as yesterday's joyous discoveries. For a moment's respite, all traces of grief and care dissolve beneath remembered rapture...
...Until a sharp rap at the door shatters remnants of days past like spun glass.
You open the door. A single lotus flower lays on the ground.
•───────•°•❀•°•───────•
The memories of Hwei's past weigh heavily on him, each loss a haunting echo in his mind. Yet, as he paints, the burdens begin to lift. His art speaks of grief and longing, capturing the essence of his experiences in hues and textures that transcend language. With every stroke, he communicates the inexpressible—an intimate connection to those who suffer alongside him.
While words can falter, art holds the power to bridge the chasms of isolation. It is a silent language, one that resonates deeply within the hearts of those who behold it, conveying feelings that can never be articulated. The beauty of creations offers solace, a reminder that even in the depths of despair, connection is possible through the shared understanding of emotion.
Art can speak for one, a testament to the resilience of the human spirit. In a world rife with pain, it becomes a guiding light—a universal form of communication that unites hearts across boundaries.
Though silent, art speaks volumes. In this moment of catharsis through creative expression, one begins to find healing. Art provides an empowering and voiceless language to communicate intimate feelings beyond what words can say.
Especially in times of deep suffering when words fail, art becomes a "silent language" to express the inexpressible emotions of a soul.
Through art, one always finds a way to express the inexpressible, to share a silent language with the world.
Art's Silent Language.
Note: Well, here it is—finally the grand finale of my fanfic! 🎉 Did you notice that this is the fourth chapter and the whole thing clocks in at 14,444 words? I mean, come on, Jhin would definitely be proud of me for that little numerical homage. Four is his jam, right? Haha! So, about the ending... it’s kind of a happy one, or at least an open one. I did toy with the idea of killing off the protagonist—just a little cheeky thought, you know? Hehe. Oh! And I hope you caught the title drop at the end, “Art’s Silent Language.” Subtle, right? Or maybe not so much, but I tried! Now, I did mischaracterize Jhin a tad for my down-bad heart (shoutout to all my fellow simps!), but I did my best to keep him lore-accurate. This chapter is dedicated to all my broken artists out there. 💔 Don’t let life get you down—pick up the pieces and create something beautiful! That’s the real message here. Art can express feelings that words sometimes can’t. As I wrote, "Art is the highest hope." And for the Van Gogh fans, I hope you recognized some of his quotes sprinkled throughout! I love Van Gogh, and honestly, Hwei gives off major Van Gogh vibes. Plus, he has that surrealist flair, so it felt natural to weave in some of that genius. If you’re curious about my theories on Hwei, check out my theory account (https://www.tumblr.com/hwei-theories?source=share). And if you want to see more of my chaotic thoughts, here’s my main account (https://www.tumblr.com/reverieparacosm?source=share). Thanks for reading, everyone! Keep creating! 💖
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Chapter 6: Sixth Year
“Do you trust me?” It has to be the weed, there is no other possible explanation for it. Some flirty, suggestive version of her takes over and suddenly she is crawling towards him, the joint wedged between her lips. Again, there’s that look on his face, but this time it stays.
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That summer, the letters start—though calling them letters would be a bit hyperbolic.
The first arrives on her sill a week after holiday begins: a surprisingly accurate drawing of an airplane with a red haired girl looking out the window. Flying beside her is what she can only assume is supposed to be him—a bespectacled boy on a broom with scribble for hair and a smile that touches either side of his face. There is no note, but there is a caption: ' Hoping these holidays ‘soar’ by.'
It takes her an entire day to decide to write back, then another to think of a response: a very crude interpretation of a beater’s bat smashing into the top of her head. The caption reads: Beating myself with boredom.
It opens the floodgates so to speak and the letters begin to come almost daily.
“What are you doing?” Petunia spits, leering up behind the newspaper.
Lily looks up. In her lap, a parchment lays open with a drawing of a bucket with words leaking onto a paper. In the corner, a doodle James cries: ‘Pouring over this bloody homework (take me out of my misery).’
“What d’you mean?”
“You’ve been reading those stupid freak scrolls and smiling to yourself like a complete nut. It’s exhausting to watch.”
Lily takes a gulp of tea to hide her blush. Cartoon James stares up at her.
“If it exhausts you, go back to bed.”
They all follow the same formula: a drawing, a caption; no pressure. Sending silly doodles was easy because it didn’t involve being around each other— didn’t involve feelings, but as September loomed closer, she wished he would offer her at least something to know where they stood.
A sort of answer arrives late August: a drawing of a bucket full of flobberworms that writhe like a single mass. A human hand holds two in the foreground, one with square lenses and signature scribbled hair and another sporting red fridge. In his unmistakable scrawl the caption reads: I’ll always pick you!
She doesn’t know what to make of it, but she catches herself keeping it in her pocket for the rest of the summer.
It’s then she realizes she has a problem—A big one. And it makes finding him in her usual spot at the welcome feast that much more difficult.
“Er, what are you doing?”
He’d gotten tanner over the summer, more lean. It definitely doesn’t make it hard to focus.
“Uh, sitting?” James cocks his head to the side. Meanwhile, the flobberworm note burns a hole in her pocket.
Don’t expect anything. Be cool.
“You usually sit over there.”
“Oh? I didn’t realize you were keeping track..”
She sighs. “Of course I’m not but—-”
“Godric Evans,” Sirius exclaims, pointing his fork in her direction,“Friends sit with friends. Do we need to spell it out for you?”
Friends.
She looks back at James and his eyes twinkle, an arched eyebrow speaking for him: So, are we doing this, Evans?
She takes a seat. “No, Black—I got it.”
Yes, I guess we are.
Turns out, it is infuriatingly easy to fall into their vortex. At first they make even less sense up close: Peter is too meek, Remus too self-deprecating, Sirius too haughty, and James…well, James is a universe of issues, each as frustrating as the next.
But nothing compares to her defining fault in the group, one that she hopes she hides a lot better than the rest of their flaws. She fancies him again—she fancies him bad.
It’s something that haunts her at night: what she actually is to him. ‘Friends’ seemed like the perfect word; he had long given up asking her out for a laugh and everything she did with him she would just as naturally do with any other friend. So why then did her heart stutter the moment he entered the room? And why couldn’t she just bloody forget about it?
“You seem cozy with Potter and gang these days,” Mary croons on the first warm day of the season. Nearby, they watch James and Sirius splash knee deep in the lake, pulling up gillyweed and sticking it to each other’s backs.
“We’re friends—he’s…mellowed out since last year,” Lily retorts. She hopes to sound convincing, but the words falter in her mouth at the sight of James, his white shirt sticky and see-through on his taut build.
“Remus is also your friend and you have never stared at him like that.”
Of course it's true. She hates that it’s true.
“—And to be fair, Remus has also never stared at you like James does.”
Lily whips her head around, ignoring Mary’s snickers. Two wide, golden eyes catch hers and the world falls away, making him a shining beacon in a sea of nothingness.
“Care for a swim Evans?” He waves his arm and his muscles contract under the soaked sleeve. Immediately, the million snitches that have found permanent residence in her stomach explode with activity, her heart swelling to burst…
'I’ll always pick you!’
She knows him well enough to not get her hopes up—but it couldn’t hurt to dream.
* * * *
Mary questioning their relationship was to be expected, but the rest of the student body is another story.
“Hey Lily, do you have a second?
It’s a shame she dropped divination early on because before Elodie even says anything, she knows what she is going to ask.
“This is so bloody awkward but—are you and James Potter…like, dating?”
Even correctly predicting it doesn’t lessen the blow, the words making the room grow around her until she feels no bigger than a bug.
“Uhm, no. He’s–”
The happiest bloody thing in my life. Infuriatingly, begrudgingly wonderful. All I think about.
“—just a friend.”
Elodie lets out a sigh of relief and swishes her feathered blonde hair over her shoulder. Lily feels like she’s been hit with a blunt object.
“Oh, whew,” Elodie giggles. “It’s so embarrassing but I’ve nursed a crush on him for ages—I’m like a sad little puppy, you know…”
No, I don’t know. Definitely can’t relate. Not one bit.
“—But it’s my last year and I figured if he was available…now or never I guess!”
Suffocating. She’s suffocating and there is nothing to save her. She doesn’t even have the ability to respond—just wishes someone would be kind and put her out of her misery.
Of course he notices.
“Am I boring you, Evans?” James asks during their study period together. He gives her a playful kick under the table, wiggling his trainer against her foot.
“No, I’m just—feeling off.”
All day, she’s tortured herself about the conversation with Elodie. It wasn’t a lie, James and her were just friends— but even Elodie had noticed they were close now…that they seemed romantic.
She never thought the day would come where she would envy third year Lily. At least then they weren’t friends—weren’t spending all of their free hours interacting within each other’s orbit. Now, not only could she not have him, but she had to smile and continue on like nothing was going on—like every waking moment wasn’t plagued with the desire to recreate what the boggart had shown them in fourth and then some…
“Evans,” James whines, giving a frown. “Let me in—you look like you’re going to combust.”
She doesn’t know how it happens, but it slips out.
“Were you invited to Slughorn’s party?”
Something flashes across his face, something she doesn’t recognize. It leaves a soft blush behind.
“I’ve been invited,” he says, articulating each syllable with care, “but it doesn’t mean I will grace him with my appearance…unless of course I have a reason to.”
So Elodie hasn’t asked.
With a smug grin, he gives her another kick under the desk, his foot hooking around her ankle and giving it a playful tug.
It’s just a friend thing. Nothing to overthink. Definitely not flirty or cute.
“Why do you ask?”
A blush, hot and blotchy crawls up her neck.
“I was just thinking that you should go,” she says, trying her best to keep her voice steady. Inside, a warning bell rings at full volume, red lights flash.
“I mean— it’d mean a lot to him. You haven’t been back since second and obviously you’d be well received which would be great for your ego...”
A smile continues to grow on his lips. The foot that is hooked on her calf slides up and down.
“I think you and I both know my ego needs no extra support.”
She pretends to look at her notes but he continues to stare, waiting for a rebuttal. You rotten coward.Tuney’s right, you’re an absolute nutter.
“Are you asking for you or are you asking for him,” James says finally, breaking the silence.
“I don’t understand—”
“I mean,” he interrupts, “Do you think I should go because Slughorn wants me to or because you want me to.”
It’s a trap. A great big James Potter Rube Goldberg machine of hellish proportions.
“I’m just saying it would be fun.”
He closes his book with a sharp thunk and rises, rounding to her side of the table. Just the proximity alone makes her body go into overdrive—alarms and flashing lights and soaring snitches and zapping electricity all making her wonder if this is it: death by stupid boy.
He leans to grasp the edges of the desk and his chest presses against her back. When his breath tickles her ear she almost goes into cardiac arrest.
“Well, Evans. How about you think about your answer and then I’ll consider my response.”
Before she can even think to rebuttal— to maybe even gain the courage to turn her head a millimeter and slot her lips against his— he is gone.
Her hesitation makes the news that afternoon even harder to swallow.
“Elodie asked James to Sluggy’s party. She’s got some guts asking him hours before, eh?”
Lily doesn’t respond, tears already stinging her eyes.
Yeah, guts you will never have.
* * * * *
It’s childish really, but she asks to take the evening patrol.
“Didn’t you have Slughorn's thing?” asks Remus. He must have been trying to muster the courage to say something—they’d walked the last two floors in complete silence.
“I wasn’t feeling social.”
What she means is she doesn’t feel like being social around them. By the end of dinner she had visualized it all like watching some horrific highlight reel: Elodie curling her fingers through his hair while they talked to Slughorn’s guests…him making a joke and her grabbing his arm, laughing harder than she should…him pulling her close as they twirl on the dancefloor, refined and elegant as two purebloods should be…Unlike her, Elodie will have no hesitation when it’s time to give a kiss goodnight and James will reciprocate happily. Why wouldn’t he? They are the perfect match in every way. A perfect, pureblood, pretty match.
Just thinking about it makes bile sting at the back of her throat.
“Well get ready, Slug Club patrol nights are the worst.” When Remus’ voice pulls her back to reality she doesn’t even remember turning up towards the fourth floor.
“Why would they be any different from any other night?”
He shakes his head.“Think about it: a party, free alcohol, a bunch of ladder climbing pricks—no offense—who are looking for a job or someone with a job to marry…there isn’t a broom closet in any direction from the common rooms that aren't full on Sluggy nights.”
Not just a sting of bile, but real bile threatening to make an appearance. A new, worse image appears—one she’s been staving off since Elodie first approached her: boggart James frantic and loving and hungry but no longer for her.
“Remus—do you have the map?”
He stops in his tracks, pointing his lit wand in her direction. Since she has known about all their little secrets, she has never once asked to use them, but tonight she’s just desperate enough to inquire.
“James has it—why?”
So I can torture myself with their names on top of each other in some broom cupboard. Can watch in real time as my ‘friend’ moves on when I clearly can’t.
“No nevermind, it's dumb,” she says, waving a hand. “Just thought it would make it easier to bust students out of bed…that’s all.”
* * * * *
They don’t see James and Elodie but, as Remus’ predicted, they do find a good bit of couples out before their shift is up.
After, she waits in the common room, watching as the fire dies in the grate. Looking down in her lap the crumpled and torn parchment is smoothed open.
‘I’ll always pick you!’
She has half the mind to watch it burn.
When she eventually slogs herself up to the dorm, she has even less luck forgetting things. She falls in and out of sleep and her dreams do her no favors— images contorting like a hellish metamorphosis: her mum’s medications on the table, flobberworms in a bucket, one of the many faceless boys from fifth writhing against her, a snake pouring from Severus’ mouth, James with his antlers now full grown, twisting wildly and closing in…
Before she is even fully aware of her choice, she is standing in front of the boys’ dorm, feeling more pathetic than she’s ever felt in her life.
And what do you plan to do if he isn’t there, hm? For all you know he decided to take Elodie to one of his many hiding places—Christ knows he had the map on him. What if she’s in there with him right now…
The thought alone should stop her, but it doesn’t. She silences the creak on the door and peers in, half expecting to be greeted by a knowing, accusatory grin from any or all of the boys. Instead, all the bed curtains are pulled shut and silent.
She dodges the books and candy wrappers that line the floor towards the bed flanked with posters of Quidditch players hovering asleep on their brooms. Reaching the curtains she stalls and realization crawls up her spine. She’s in his room, at his bed, and worst of all, she is uninvited.
“James—” she whispers, her voice cutting through the cold air. She gives a slight rattle to the curtain and waits. Nothing.
I knew it. He’s out starting his perfect life with his perfect pureblood girlfriend.
“Hey, James…”
Finding a break in the drapes she pulls back the fabric. A sigh of relief tumbles out— he’s alone and asleep on his back, one arm angled above his head as though in mid-throw. Light streams in and catches the outline of his chest, making her heart thrum.
She’d spent so long considering the implications of him not being there that it never occurred to her to think about what she would do if he was. Suddenly a whole new barrage of questions start pouring in, muddying her vision.
What if he gets angry? What if he wakes up all the lads and they take the piss? What if he’s bloody fucking naked?
She’s sure the sound of her breathing alone will wake up the entire room.
“James…”
Taking in a gulp of air, she presses a hesitant finger into his side. His eyes flash open, pupils dilating as they focus on her face in the dark.
“Merlin— Lily?”
He shoots up in the bed, running a hand through his ruffled curls while the duvet slips down, flashing her a peek at the top of his pants.
Oh thank Christ.
“What’s wrong—did something happen? Why are you—”
She shushes him, not wanting to disturb the rest of the boys. She can feel her knuckles going white as she grips the bed curtain for support.
“Lily, are you ok? When Remus was here I just assumed—-”
“ Shhhh–” she hisses, taking a seat on the edge of the bed. He leans up and shoves the curtains closed, an act that should be harmless but she’s only ever imagined him doing it when something else follows after…
“There’s a silencing charm— they won’t wake up,” he says sharply. All the sleep has left his voice and his jaw clicks in what little light still reaches through the topmost part of the curtains.
“Are you hurt? Merlin Evans, talk to me.”
But what is she supposed to say?
“It's–I’m fine, I promise,” she starts, voice shaky. “It was just…a shit night. I wanted some company, but now I see this is–well–crazy so I’ll just…”
She makes to get up, tears threatening to pour out but a hot hand folds over her forearm and holds her in place. When she meets his gaze, his eyes are soft but drip with concern.
“No, wait Lils. Do you want to talk about it?
Lils. Only her mum has ever called her that and he knows it. She’s told him.
His other hand reaches out of the curtain and comes back with his glasses and wand. Casting a quick lumos the space lights up and she can see his features more clearly: confusion and worry riddle his face but something else too—something she can’t quite place.
“I had a bad dream,” she says, knowing how childish it sounds. “About my mum and…some other stuff. It just became a bit much, you know?”
Again, his eyes roam her face. He has every reason to be unconvinced—normal sane people don’t usually climb into their mate’s beds when they have a bad dream. But a smile pulls at his lips.
“Yeah, I get it,” he murmurs and the hand on her forearm gives a light, reassuring squeeze.
“What do you need? You want to go get some food? A little distraction? I can get the lads up in seconds and we can–”
“No—thanks,” she stammers, a blush billowing on her cheeks. “Honestly, I don’t know what I want. I just—”
Wanted to see you. Wanted to make sure you weren’t still with Elodie. Wanted to prove to myself how much of a horrid, cowardly person I am.
“Didn’t want to be alone,” he finishes for her, giving a doting smile. It fills her with warmth.
“So, again, how can I help? You say the word and I’ll do it—you know I’m good for it.”
Yes, she does and that’s the problem. That’s why the words come out before she can even have the common sense to stop.
“Can I stay here?”
He blinks, mouth opening and shutting with a quick snap. The feeling she couldn’t place before now spreads like wildfire onto his face, still mysterious but objectively warm. A sprinkle of blush lines his cheeks.
“Uh—yeah. Yeah of course.”
The dorm beds are notoriously small but he makes enough room for her to crawl over and slide under the blankets.Immediately, the weight of his arm drapes loose over her waist and the pressure feels good– like it’s protecting her from whatever might be lurking outside of the curtains. Settling in, she turns to press against his chest but he shuffles back, creating a small space between them.
“This alright?”
She looks up to see him peering back at her, a blush still lingering. She wiggles a bit closer, yearning to tuck herself into him and feel his skin on her back. A sharp intake of breath stops her.
Maybe it is like third year all over again. Rejection slices right to her core.
See? He doesn’t want you here–he’s just being kind. Tuney is right, you are a freak. A delusional, unlovable freak.
Tears sting hot at her eyes and she blinks them away, afraid to let them fall and land on his skin. Minutes pass and she hears his breath slow, his fingers naturally curling up against her stomach in sleep. For a fleeting second she relishes the touch, but the damage is done.
This is it. No more. He doesn’t want you—not the way you want him. If anything this just proves how disgusting you are….
She never gets to sleep, feeling his chest rise and fall and counting the seconds when she can peel his arm away to creep back out the way she came—hopefully like she was never there at all.
* * * * *
They don’t talk about it and to be honest, she isn’t quite sure he even remembers it.
“You excited for the party tonight?” Marlene leans against Lily’s bed post, sporting a smug grin she knows doesn’t mean anything good.
“You’re mistaken. The Quidditch Cup was last week—perhaps you don’t remember on account of being pissed all night.”
Marlene just gives a sharp laugh, flopping herself on the bed beside her.
“Not pissed enough to shag Black.”
Lily gives her the side-eye. “Marls, that’s the definition of pissed behav—”
“ What I was saying–” Marlene interrupts with a cough, “ –is that the aforementioned Black and company are planning a little soirée for the end of the year tonight. I’m honestly shocked you don’t know seeing as you have buddied up to that lot.”
Maybe she would have known if she hadn’t been avoiding every one of them since the night of Slughorn’s party.
“Ok—well, good for them I guess.”
Marlene, huffs like something is obvious which clearly isn’t.
“I am telling you this, because it might be a good time to try your luck with Aubrey—you know, the fit seventh year who gives you bedroom eyes all day.”
The image of James laying next to her flashes through her mind, shirtless and still. It sears like a hot knife into her chest. She already knows that if she had climbed into Bertram Aubrey’s bed, he would have probably done something about it.
But James didn’t.
“Yeah, maybe I’ll see what his plans are,” Lily hears herself saying.
Marlene just snorts.“ Honey—for you, his plans are wide open.”
*******
All night long, Sirius’ doles out shots, hovering them into the air so thirsty guests can reach up and pluck them like apples. Lily dodges them as they go past; Bertram’s on his third.
“To happy endings,” he says, holding up his glass with a wink. Like James, he is also all smiles but his feel predatory, like if she turns her back even for a second he will pounce.
It’s fine. He’s fine. You’re fine. This is FINE.
“You know, I’ve always been curious about what it’s like being with a muggleborn. I hear you lot get filthy.”
It snaps her back real quick.
“I’m going to pretend you didn’t just fucking say that,” she hisses, reeling backwards. Either he is drunk or dumb or both because he doesn’t take the hint.
“Oh c’mon Lily, I was just—”
But she doesn’t wait for him to finish, storming off into a random direction.
“I’m going to the loo. Do not follow me.”
She fights through throngs of party goers until a voice rises out from the fray.
“Trouble in the Aubrey hellscape?”
Sirius gives her a knowing grin, cocking his head towards where she left Bertram to bother some other unsuspecting girl. Lily just lets out a grunt, grabbing at a shot from midair.
“Apparently, he expects me to pop his muggleborn cherry.”
“Yikes,” Sirius whistles, wrinkling his nose.
“Well—if you want a life raft, our ickle Prongsy ducked out to have some of his ‘big feelings’ somewhere else. You could be a doll and give him a shot for me?”
He holds out two shots that are deftly juggled between his fingers and she eyes them warily.
“What d’you mean ‘big feelings?’”
Sirius eyebrow arches, smile turning lethal.
“I think you know the answer to that, Evans. Even if you are incredibly thick sometimes.”
She knows it’s a trap–him and James have that particular talent in common–but she takes the shots anyways. She didn’t want to, but she had noticed that James was at the party alone, hardly talking to anyone other than his usual pack of mates. Every so often she would turn around and catch him staring back at her—harboring a soft, sad sort of smile that she knows all too well…
It’s that same smile that convinces her to become face to face with his dorm room door for the second time that week.
This is a friend thing. Sirius sent you here—nothing weird.
He lays stretched out in the middle of the room, hands crossed behind his head. In a sad attempt to make the stone floor more comfortable, his pillow and blanket lay next to him, clearly abandoned as soon as they touched the ground. Remus’ charmed record player turns out a melodic, heady tune that wafts faintly through the air, skipping every so often with a static jolt.
“Anyone alive in here?”
She approaches slowly, holding up the shots with her most convincing smile. He continues to stare at the ceiling, eyes unblinking.
Look–even now he doesn’t want you here.
But she forces herself to try anyway.
“Is this a flobberworm impression? Because if so you should be doing a bit more wiggling.”
She knows it will get him and it does—a small smile curves on his lips.
“You don’t want to see my flobberworm impression,” he murmurs. “The mucus alone takes ages to clean.”
Ah, there he is.
She snorts and mutters disgusting under her breath and it rewards her with a bit more smile. Setting his shot next to his forehead, she takes a seat on the other side of the space and waits. It’s still new to her to see him like this—pensive and calm. It had jarred her last year when they were in the forest and even after a whole school years’ worth of getting to know him, it still seems odd—like looking at the underbelly of a glittering jewel.
“Sirius told me you were having some big feelings—his words, not mine.”
“Sounds like him.”
“Do you want to talk about it?”
“Not really.”
It sends cold water down her spine. When did James ever not want to talk about something?
It’s worrisome, but what worries her most is that despite all the signs saying leave him alone, she still wants to be near him.
“Alright Potter, you win. If it gets you out of this state,” she gestures at his full form, “then I’ll do some mischief with you.”
At the very least, it gets his attention.
“I’m listening.”
She fishes into her pockets, pulling out a joint that she had been saving for emergencies. At the sight of it, James’ nose scrunches.
“A fag? No thanks, Evans. I’m watching my girlish figure.”
Lily snorts, giving his leg a soft kick.
“No, you git. A joint—you know, Marijuana? Weed? That muggle stuff that makes you feel good?”
That same look from when she was in his bed skitters across his features, red blooming on his jaw.
“How good are we talking?”
She straightens up, busying herself with pulling her wand out of her hair so as not to linger on the fact that the last time she was in this room with him, he had pushed her away.
“It’s not quite like smoking a fag. You have to hold it in a bit to really feel it.”
She uses her wand to light the end. When it sparks up, James’ face does too.
“Got to admit it, Evans. I’m pretty wary of the whole inhaling smoke bit but I like this side of you.”
It shouldn’t make her heart feel like it’s going to explode out of her chest.
She takes a small hit to show him, holding the smoke in the back of her throat and feeling the cool, calm of the weed start to take hold. James watches intently, eyes sweeping across her face as though reading a particularly interesting novel. She knows she must be blushing, but as the weed sets in, she no longer cares.
“Here, you try,” she says, holding out the joint.
He blinks at it, eyes drifting from the weed to her face, a blush forming under the rims of his glasses. When he finally takes it, he brings it to his lips and takes a big drag, immediately sputtering into coughs.
“Fucking hell, Evans. This is disgusting.”
She falls back from laughing, holding onto her stomach like it will burst. At first he looks bashful, but then a grin begins to grow, her joy infectious.
“Here–,” She says after getting a hold of herself. Like some sort of tiny miracle, every self deprecating thought has quieted. No sirens, no chants of mudblood, no Petunia calling her a freak. Just her and James with no effort whatsoever. Completely limitless.
“Do you trust me?”
It has to be the weed, there is no other possible explanation for it. Some flirty, suggestive version of her takes over and suddenly she is crawling towards him, the joint wedged between her lips. Again, there’s that look on his face, but this time it stays.
“Let me help you. Open your mouth.”
She sits back on her heels, taking a long drag. Grabbing at the side of his cheek, his unruly curls tickle at the ends of her fingers as she pulls him closer to her, their bodies moving in slow motion. Hovering her mouth right above his, she exhales, his face becoming obscured in smoke. When it subsides, he reappears as though becoming boggart James—his eyes glassy and wide and hungry.
He reaches out his hand and she expects him to grasp the joint, but instead his fingers curl around her wrist, thumb pressing against her pulse.
“James, you alright?”
What the boggart showed them can’t even compare to how it actually happens. He tips her backwards, pressing his body against her even before her back meets the floor. It feels as though his hands are everywhere at once: twisting through her hair, cupping her face, caressing down her back. It feels so overwhelming and yet she wants more—more rabid and frantic than she has ever felt in her life. His mouth twists with hers, tongues drifting against lips and open mouth kisses finding sensitive spots all along her neck and collar.
“You are my dream, ” he breathes while his nose traces the side of her cheek.
“You are…so lovely.”
Later, she will realize that she took the lead. Grabbing his chin, she guides his mouth back to hers, nipping at his lower lip. He makes a broken, whimpering gasp and it’s everything she’s ever wanted in a single sound. It feels as though the room could catch on fire and they still wouldn’t let go—years, years! worth of tension building up to this singular moment.
Her legs part and he takes up the space, tugging on her thigh to give him more room to press deeper. The sensation is instant and they both let out a gasp, their hips rolling instinctively in ways that she’s only seen in muggle dance halls.
“Tell me what you want and I’ll do it,” he says against her neck. “Anything Lils— anything.”
She pulls him back to crash their lips together and it all becomes one big blur, the urgency making every touch not enough, every sweep of his tongue too short, the feel of him against her still so far away.
“Take off my skirt.”
He doesn’t hesitate, hands moving quickly to find the zipper. In return, she finds the front of his belt-–taking the pressure that pushes into her hip as confirmation that he is exactly on the same page— so hungry that it hurts…
“PRONGS! We’re out of drinks—get your arse down here and help me with another run.”
Sirius’ voice breaks the seal and everything rushes back, hitting harder and stronger than ever.
What are you doing? He rejected you! He went on a date with Elodie! All he has ever done is toy with you and leave you to pick up the pieces…
But then why does it feel so good? Why would he keep trying again and again—offering her anything she wanted?
“No, no, no, no,” he hisses against her skin, clutching her to him like Sirius might barge in at any minute and physically rip her from him.
“PRONGS! What are you doing!”
She tries to pull away and he lets her, his fingers sliding against the patch of skin where, if he had gotten any farther, would have grazed the band of her knickers.
“This was a mistake. I should go—” she pants. It feels like she has just come to from an incredible sickness, her inner monologue screaming louder than she’s ever allowed.
You stupid, pathetic idiot. You know what happens when you let him in.
“No.”
He looks absolutely mad, his lips swollen and his hair pushed out from where her fingers had teased it.
“Just— please. Stay here. I’ll be right back.”
He’s going to use you…trick you like he always does…make you a cog in his little games…
“James–”
“Please, Please.” He isn’t asking, he’s begging. Putting a hand on her cheek, he pulls her back and she lets him, their foreheads pressing together.
“I don’t know what those muggle drugs do but Merlin, if this is just some hallucination I don’t want it to end, so please, Lils. Stay here.”
It feels cruel for him to use her nickname now, of all times.
Still, she can’t help but consider it: waiting for him to come back so they can climb into his bed again and let everything fall away until it is just them. She wants it so bad it hurts—wants to believe that a world like that exists: where they haven’t made these kinds of mistakes with each other over and over and over again…
He presses his lips into her forehead, then her nose, then her mouth, sliding his palms all the way down until they reach for her hands.
“One second— I swear.”
With great effort he picks himself up and bounds out of the room—and moments later she does too. They never found out back in third, but as she descends the stairs she wonders if her and Severus’ boggarts would have been the same: her in love with someone who would never work.
Slipping into her four poster bed, she tries to picture his face when he enters back into the dorm and finds her gone. It’s a small, sad sort of smile that she knows better than she knows herself at this point. A smile she can’t seem to shake.
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I saw you going over how Time Lords deal with stress. How do TARDISes deal with stress.
How do TARDISes deal with stress?
As sentient beings, TARDISes are certainly not immune to strain or fatigue, so here's a few theoretical options for how they might cope with stress:
🌌 Hanging Out in the Vortex
The Time Vortex is a playground to a TARDIS. Spending time here is probably like a kid going to play in a ball pit, allowing a TARDIS to 'stretch their wings'.
🔄 Symbiotic Linking with Their Pilot
The symbiotic link between a TARDIS and their pilot is deeply intimate. Through this connection, a TARDIS may draw emotional stability and reassurance, especially from pilots who share a particularly strong bond with them.
A calm, focused pilot likely helps a TARDIS maintain their own equilibrium. A stressed pilot could exacerbate a TARDIS's issues, as their emotions and mental state may unintentionally influence their symbiotic partner.
⚙️ Self-Repair and Maintenance
When systems are overloaded or damaged, a TARDIS is equipped to prioritise its own recovery. They could reroute power, shut down non-critical systems, or enter a 'hibernation' mode like having a quick nap.
🎶 Creative Downtime
Activities like generating environments, projecting sounds, or even playing games with their pilot could be their way of 'unwinding'. For a TARDIS, creating music or art within their interior or rearranging corridors to tease their pilot who's trying to find the bathroom might be a form of stress relief.
🏫 So ...
Like their Time Lord partner, a TARDIS has their own methods for managing stress. These methods may not involve meditation or bubble baths, but they're essential.
Related:
🤔|🧬🛸What's the link between a Time Lord and their TARDIS?
💬|🧬🛸How does TARDIS symbiosis work for individuals and groups?: Details on this special Time Lord-TARDIS connection.
💬|🧬🛸How long can a bonded Time Lord be away from their TARDIS?: If extended absences can impact symbiosis, and also annoy your TARDIS.
Hope that helped! 😃
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The Search: Decepticons
ok we went through autobots so far, now it's time for the 'cons!
Starscream: - Leader of the Allspark searching team - Mocked behind his back by his crew - Kind of a fallen from grace Decepticon "celebrity" - Bitter about the whole mission, considers his crew a spit in his face from Primus himself, doesn't even believe the Allspark exists really
Dreadwing: - Misterious and distanced - Created in time of war, clearly for battle - The rest of the crew fears him both because of his reserved behaviour as well as his appearance - Peeling paint on his bodyparts revealing completely different painjob suggest... inconventional methods he was at least once repaired with
Vortex: - The oldest in the crew - Dumb and reckless but non the less danegorous in battle thanks to how unpredictable he is - Disobedient but rather out of lacking focus and chaotic character than rebel soul - Can use one of his propellers as double-edged sword (tho it's not his favourite combat style)
Runamuck and Runabout: - The youngest in the crew - Chaotic pranksters that, while good with diversion, if not given something to do may cause a lot of trouble for their own team - Treat each other like brothers, which pink elements on their helms are supposed to show - Mostly send for missions that don't involve close combat, scouting, diversion, attacking from distance
Soundwave: - Voice of Megatron
and here is height comparison
there is still two characters left!!
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