#the trauma generation fr tho

[cutencaffeinated-blog]

I may be too old to be part of the campus protests going on now, but I have the utmost respect for these students and supporters.

The kids in their first years of college? They were born in 2004-6. They were kindergarten age when Sandy Hook happened. They were in junior high when covid hit. They are struggling to choose a path to education that doesn't put their own lives or entire vulnerable populations at risk.

I was born in 1990. The first instance of school violence I knew of was Columbine, and I was 9. The first instance of terrorism or threat to my "normal" was 9/11, and I was 11. My first indication that the US might not be the altruistic big brother of the world was the invasion of Iraq in 2003, I was 13. The first time I realized that family financial situations can change unpredictably, was 2005 (parental medical issues, followed by 08 crash), and I was 15. My first experience being the victim of police brutality was in 2007, I was 17. The first currently-happening protests I knew of were Occupy Wall Street in 2011, I was 21. The first ongoing attempts at revolution I was aware of were Arab Spring in 2012, I was 22. I was in my 30s when I learned colleges support genocide and the military industrial complex. For the first three decades of my life, I was able to convince myself the system was working and progress was happening, at a snail's pace, but nonetheless.

These kids have NEVER existed in a world that felt safe, have never had a future that seemed secure, have never even lived the illusion of the American Dream. The kids who are trying to choose a college that doesn't support genocide were the first kindergartners to do active shooter drills, how do they choose which university to allow to point guns at them? These were the first kids to have to live through, and study the historical impact of Covid, and they saw that the economy is valued above all else. These kids lost their virginity or came out of the closet in a world that was getting safer only to have healthcare taken from them. The world has failed this generation so intensely, and I can only hope y'all hold society accountable.

I have a child now, a true Gen Alpha Honey badger, and I am so hopeful that gen z can lead the charge to making sure my child doesn't have to face these same choices. Go forth, we got your backs, I'm too old and disabled to be front lines anymore, but I'll show up with snacks and do the jail release runs. I'll babysit and cook for when y'all get back from your actions.

[thecapturedafrique]

I think it’s also important to remember the root of these fuck ups, because intention does matter when it comes to analyzing characters as it explains character motivation, and it also affects Ruby and Yang’s perception/opinion of said characters.

Tai was battling depression from the loss of his romantic partner.

Qrow had already been a drunk and hated himself, which means the expectation of any parental responsibility from him as an uncle also started off way differently.

Summer died.

Raven left because she was too scared/weak to be a parent.

Maybe I’m just in better fandom spaces, but when I see Raven as being painted as the worst parental figure of Team STRQ, it’s because her motive is the worst of the group. It’s easier to feel empathetic towards the other 3, and the girls themselves express more empathy towards them than Raven. So it’s not like we as the audience are reaching a conclusion that the narrative is not directly leading us to.

Also, perhaps even more importantly, Tai and Qrow both improved. They demonstrated growth and change which involves recognizing that they are the problem and thus fixing their behavior is the only solution. While Raven when challenged immediately goes on the defensive and lashes out, determined not to accept any guilt or judgment or take responsibility.

Yeah, I agree they were all fucks up one way or another that were still extremely damaging to Ruby and Yang, but one definitely stands apart from the others.

I think it’s time I address what is by far the BIGGEST assumption much of the fandom has made about Ruby’s and Yang’s parents:

That Raven was just the shitty parent who abandoned her daughters, and that Summer and Tai were the uncomplicated GOOD parents who made the good choices. And Qrow was the well-meaning fuckup who’s been able to improve.

When the reality is that ALL of Team STRQ were in fact well-meaning but  MASSIVE fuckups in each their own way.

Like if nothing else, they all bailed on Ruby and Yang in one way or another (Raven and Summer physically, Tai emotionally/psychologically for several years, Qrow a bit of both)

And I have a good feeling that the Vacuo arc will be when Ruby and Yang will finally have to address that shit.

[reishifts]

PICK A PILE! - who is your soulmate?

reminder: i am a beginner tarot reader, so don’t fully depend on my readings. this is a general reading and it may not resonate with everyone. regardless, enjoy !!

pile 1

they may live near you or you already know them but it’s someone you don’t expect. if you’re in a current relationship it’s possible that it’s gonna end soon so you can heal and finally get to meet your soulmate

possible appearance: dark hair, light skin, tall, straight/button nose, light brown eyes, resting ‘serious‘ face, broad shoulders, a little bit of acne

how they are like: likes approval of their family, introverted, quiet, can be non-chalant, doesn’t know how to show love but really loves, loyal, hates conflicts, idk why they may smoke weed? secretly competitive, brave, lowkey indecisive, quite inexperienced, a bit afraid of change, listens to their brain instead of heart, ppl pleaser, earth sign energy (strong capricorn energy), logical

where/when will you meet them: ab six weeks perhaps, i got when the circumstances change? (as mentioned it could mean that, if you’re in a relo, after you break up) you may meet them in a place you usually resist going to or where you’re releasing stress/healing. letting go of fears may lead u to them

how will they treat you: they may treat you in a way that reflects growth and challenge, very playful, if you have moles they may place kisses on them very often (idk why that randomly popped up on in mind hehe)

what you love most about them: their emotional depth, wisdom and sense of peace and you really like their perspective on things, it got you wondering and questioning ur own fr

what bothers you the most: they may be insecure or struggle staying optimistic

will they be your life partner: unsure, could be either a rlly hard journey or just no

song that randomly reminds me of your relationship: mind over matter - young, the giant

pile 2

you don’t know them yet

possible appearance: might be a female, lighter hair, perhaps bad eye sight (they need glasses but don’t want to buy them tch), mid sized, baby face, rosy cheeks, sweet smile

how they are like: perhaps they have past trauma and are excited for the future to forget ab the past instead of heal, very optimistic regardless what happened to them, rlly open, independent, likes to be with people but social battery runs out very fast, strong minded, may bite their fingernails, overthinker and has a lot of thoughts, constantly sets new goals, empathic, loves animals, may want a job that has to do w helping ppl (for ex. psychologist), air sign energy (aquarius energy)

where/when will you meet them: 6 months - 2 years (month september is rlly significant), you may meet them in a social gathering that has to do with success

how will they treat you: they may be emotionally a bit distant due to their own problems but at the same time they’re rlly communicative, they have a lot of plans with you tho and they tend to plan ur dates, def more dominant

what you love most about them: their honesty and their equal give-and-take, their balance, their fairness, that they make you feel respected and supported

what bothers you the most: again, their emotional distance, difficulty of letting go of the past and living in the future instead of the present moment

will they be your life partner: most likely not but they will give you an amazing experience & it ends in good terms

song that randomly reminds me of your relationship: die with a smile - lady gaga, bruno mars

pile 3

you don’t know them yet

possible appearance: dark curls, tanned skin, foreign to you, perhaps eye bags, prominent cheekbones, strong build, not tall but like 1,70 - 178 cm

how they are like: extremely funny but introverted, big plans and goals but lost at the moment, may be athletic and sporty, finds it hard to have empathy, hates the color yellow lol, curious and wants to see the world, didn’t grow up with a lot of money, rlly intelligent, not in touch with own emotions and feelings, mature, acts big but is actually rlly submissive hehehehheeh, cracks his knuckles when he’s nervous, looooves fragrances, fire energy (i’m getting aries)

where/when will you meet them: within three months to a year. you may meet them while you’re on holiday or a party

how will they treat you: they’re rlly overprotective, they’re nurturing caring and supportive towards you but they can also rlly be critical and straight forward when you do sth they don’t like

what you love most about them: that they’d never treat you toxically and don’t have negative habits, their authenticity, their openness

what bothers you the most: too focused on financial stability bc they not used to it, spontaneity is lacking, their indecision

will they be your life partner: yes!! i feel like there may be a small break up but you both regret it and and universe always leads you back to each other.

song that randomly reminds me of your relationship: him & i - halsey, g-eazy

[oh-no-its-bird]

Someone ( @ohai-there ) asked me if I had any thoughts ab mdtb weeks "cultural differences" prompt, so, like, take just the copy pasted reply I gave them (+ some extra) :

I was up all night drawing birthday art and am this 👌 close to blacking out for x amount of hours so this risks being nonsensical fair warning

Uhhh culture shock my beloved, let's seee

Easy answer is the senju are very touchy feely, easily and willingly sleeps around (they face a lot less risk of bloodline theft due to rarity of the mokuton so there isn't as much ingrained cultural fear of being assulted/facing the baby shaped consequences of sleeping around willy nilly)

They can take multiple spouses and it's actually rare for the head of house to have only one wife (Hashirama is an exception bc Mito is a Princess(tm) and so to take another wife would risk offending her own clan culture, he is fine with this and they possibly often take others to bed with them just for funzies (potential hashimitoizu noises(?)))

Uhh anyways so that, they're super liberal with touch, etc. Etc.

Also they don't really do crazy deep romance and are super used to casual no strings attached flings, you have to make yourself VERY clear in what you're doing if you want to actually start a fr relationship bc otherwise many "courtship" behaviors are just like. Casual, culturally acceptable flirting and invitations to bang (the senju have a 101 different ways to proposition eachother in flower language alone.)

Meanwhile the Uchiha are on the total opposite side of the spectrum— they're like super conservative (In contrast to the Senju not having an ingrained fear of bloodline hunters, their very valuable and very vulnerable kekkei genkkei makes them prime victims, which has lead them having generations of trauma fueled insane abstinence lessons)

+ They're a noble clan and regularly interact with the Daimyo's court, so there's even more etiquette culture ingrained into them so they can send anyone into court if needed (While the Senju, who are NOT a noble clan, only ever send their main house, and so only they have to even worry about court etiquette)

They do not believe in divorce, they do not believe in political marriages (tho they do happen very very rarely, it's seen as very sad and tragic when it does) they... sometimes believe in multiple spouses, in specific situations (they can't regularly interact w the daimyo's court and not have to face it as a concept, after all)

So like. Super up tight, hella rules about how to show affection and proper ways to conduct yourselves, months long courting rituals before u even get to kissing, to sleep together before marriage is SINFUL

But they're ALSO super fucking romantic and absolutely insane about having soulmates and one true loves and are just super intense ab all that romance stuff where the senju are super relaxed in it

I think u see where this is going

Anyways uhhh

They make a village and there's tons of culture shock

Then Tobirama, being Tobirama (standoffish and cold, not especially interested in the usual wild Senju sex parties or whatever tf kind of events they're hosting in the gardens) is like, among the most "normal" to the Uchiha (from a cultural standpoint)

And bc of that, Madara maybe interacts w him more like "well he's kind of awful but at least he's not a sex FREAK like the rest of these Senju WHORES"

Umm Madara tries to court Tobirama but Tobirama sees it as him only trying to bang (?)

Which he possibly doesn't even want to do

Tobirama is like "Ah man, if only he were interested in actual courtship, but he has only given me the Senju flowers of "I wish to ravish you in the fields" and not the senju flowers of "I am potentially interest in maybe going on a date" (a proposition that a)he received not too infrequently, and so was not odd, and b) he politely rejected by accepting the flowers then showing Madara that he had planted it in red soil)

Meanwhile, Madara is like. "Wow this courtship is going so great he's accepting all my Uchiha flowers of pure devotion and innocent love in bloom"

Just in general, their clans having different flower meanings could be funny actually. The Uchiha regularly interact with court so I think they'd have to have, like, "normal" flower meanings (or else theres be some implications there of how theye gotten so far while using incorrect flower meanings in genuinely important events) so that means its the Senju who have odd meanings for flowers-- which also works, bc, like, mokuton

however many years ago, a previous descendant with mokuton told his clansmen the ""real"" meaning of these flowers,,, u wouldnt get it,,,

Another fun route could be, like, the Uchiha method of declaring ones intentions to court someone also happens to be the Senju's method of declaring a feud.

Madara tries to flirt with Tobirama only for Tobirama to understand this as Madara telling him to his face that the peace may be ongoing but he'll always hate his bitch ass !!!

[artsy-waffle19]

Rating dynamics between characters in Dead Boy Detectives that never actually interacted that much or at all, for absolutely no reason.

- Starting off with probably the most reasonable as number one: Charles and Monty.

I absolutely adored the quiet bitchiness between these two. Not a word was said and everyone could see they can't stand each other now make them solve a case together. Bonus points if they actually bond over shitty parents or the fact that they're basically different flavours of the same person. Solid pairing I give it a 7/10 and I would love to see more of them in s2.

- Up next we got number two: Jenny and The Cat King.

I genuinely don't know why everyone is sleeping on this pairing, this is a comedic goldmine and i will not take any criticism on it. I mean...goth & slut is such a funny concept for a duo and I REALLY want the two of them to be forced into solving some kind of minor case. If we want to ramp up the chaotic energy we should absolutely add Maxine into the mix (bonus points if she's a ghost and becomes besties with CK) 9/10 i love it.

- After the strong one let's go with a chill one for number three: Tragic Mick and the dandelion sprites

Just imagine them, in their silly jar on the counter of the shop and trying to insult him and cussing out his customers. Imagine people entering the shop, trying to buy something and being forced to listen to his tragic backstory while getting roasted for their haircut at the same time. Fun concept but not my fav so I'll give it a 5/10.

- For number four we've got: Edwin and Kashi

I feel like this could actually be an incredibly funny combination. All-time-trauma-olympics-winner and Guy-who-got-swallowed-by-a-giant-fish-and-refuses-to-let-it-traumatise-him. The more thought i put into this, the madder i get that this wasn't actually in the show this could have actually had some super interesting influence on Edwins character development and it's a comedic goldmine. Confident 10/10 would love to see it.

- Next up is number five with: Monty and The Night Nurse

Either they would get along great or one of them would start crying. Generally I think they would be a team that Gets Shit Done and I, for one, would love to see it. All in all it's pretty similar to the Niko and NN dynamic tho so I give it a 7/10.

- Number six iiiiisssss (drumroll pls): Night Nurse and The Cat King

I know both of them were mentioned before but fr this is hilarious. Either he would end up dead or she would quit her job immediately, no inbetween. They don't have much conflict besides annoying each other to the death so there aren't that many possibilities to elaborate on the dynamic but it would have been a funny side dialogue in the show. I give it a 7/10 (bonus points if we throw crystal into the mix, simply because she would enjoy frustrating the shit out of the other two and I need that kind of content in my life).

- Last but not least with number seven, we've got Esther and Maxine

I feel like they would become best friends. They would get along ✨flawlessly✨. Not necessarily because they have much in common but simply because they match each others freak and would feel very validated. Imagine them, having a girls night and gossiping about crazy shit they did due to a relationship gone wrong. Honestly flawless I would have loved seeing Maxine as an evil goon. (Bonus points if she ends up getting a crush on Esther, who thinks it's incredibly entertaining). Can't find any minus point in this so I'll give it a 10/10.

feel free to add ur own to this

[enden-k]

The hate love relationship i have w luka got so much more complicated w round 7💔 like fuck why'd you have to be a bitch ab it..... and look so damn fine

ALSO I CAN'T TOTALLY BLAME HIM FOR HIS ACTONS hes a product of his awful environment

this is honestly smth so many luka haters seem to forget?! (this is not directed at you but just a ramble in general)

its up to anyone who they like or dislike and none of my business ofc but i do feel like luka gets hated for the dumbest reasons, mainly for doing the things he does on stage. alnst IS some kind of fucked up dog show where the winner gets killed on stage, ofc luka wants to win and survive. yes he manipulates his opponents by mimicking/triggering trauma (suas death, ivans death) to make them falter to secure his victory even more and its awful, yes hes being absolutely diabolical abt it. luka shouldnt be treated like some poor cinnamon roll who didnt do anything wrong but also not as if he was the one who killed the others w his own hands. he wants to survive and its fine to him if he plays dirty

(kinda fun to see this in contrast to ivan in R3 patiently waiting for his opponents turn, giving them a chance to sing for their life unlike till who just played his own song, and still looking like he knew he would win. meanwhile luka is skilled ofc (hes the previous alnst winner after all) but he still wants to secure an absolute victory by doing what he does. arent they both confident in their victory but acting different? sry for constantly bringing up ivlk but theyre honestly sm fun w their similarity and difference)

anw before i ramble even more, yea i feel like luka is a bit misunderstood but well thats nothing new in fandoms anw, better not to get involved w any of that :]

R7 was quite something bc i love my bbg till but also luka and i honestly didnt expect for till (or anyone) to lose aughhh luka was so hot in it but i was too busy drooling over black sorrow ivan on the screen and then bawling my eyes out over till and mizi AHAKJVBKJ going through the luka screenies later was a treat fr tho

[robobarbie]

Hey robo! 2 asks in one I guess

If u don't wanna answer both u can flip a coin i'll label them heads/tails

Or just pick one yknow the boring way but chance is more fun

Heads: is the scorpion tat on ur neck a ref to every time you blink or did u just vibe with the design?

Tails: song good grief by bastille: Major vibes? If not who from aai is closest? That song makes me think of aai every time I hear it

Anyway thanks hope all is well (and that u had a coin, who has change anymore fr)

looking forward to decimating ur notifs if u do angst/romance hour this weekend!!

HELLAUR!!!

the scorpion tattoo on my neck IS from every time you blink! good catch lol -- i like to do tattoos for most of the games i work on. tho i tell most people i meet on the street that it's just a tattoo for arizona (the state where i live that also has a lot of scorpions). mostly tho i just get asked if i'm a scorpio LOL (i'm not) (but i'm starting to say yes)

good grief by bastille is probs, in my mind, the most AAI song out there (it's one of the first tracks i put on the dev playlist LOL). only one character in the game has a route that deals with the loss of someone else, but everyone else has a route that deals with another kind of loss -- the loss of a dream, the loss of who they used to be before trauma, etc. mourning/loss/grief are feelings felt by more people than just those who lose others to death, albeit the scale of those feelings is quite different.

i also like this song a lot in general, because it's a mournful song while also being frank about the feeling of loss. and there's still some hope in it, somewhere. one comment on that youtube video says something like "it's a happy depression", which i like. i hope adonia ai is able to embody that same feeling for others.

[dead-roses-formy-valentine]

Okay, I know I don't post much, BUT I'm feeling festive so y'all get my Billy Lenz HC (remade cause my phone deleted the one i had for 3-4 YEARS and I'm salty abt it >:(.), so William Edward Lenz, or Billy Lenz is a grown man, we know this, he has a sister, Agnes Lenz, now, during my little tedtalk of my favorite stabby boy, I'm gonna sprinkle a bit of the 2006 Billy lore in here, but it's mainly 1974. Personally, with how sexual Billy is, I think that, like in the 2006 ver, his mother was s/a'ing Billy, resulting in the birth of Agnes. His mother was a drunkard and neglectful in my own opinion, but Billy did try and make her happy, craving his mother's love. I like to think his mother never wanted Billy or a baby boy in general, but his father (again like the 2006 ver.), loved Billy a lot, but left him when he was about 10-13 (?) years old, thus why in the scene when the taxi driver angrily drives off after Ms. Mac doesn't come out, he flips his lid, because his father left after a heated argument with his mother only to never return. Now I don't think he's yellow by any means, nor does he have a liver disease, but from research and my own observation, Billy has some form of DID, probably stemming from his childhood trauma, resulting in the very obscene and crazy phone calls. For his mother and father, I'm going to go with the 2006 names, Frank and Constance Lenz, now here I'm just gonna say, that since this is the 1974 ver., Billy's father is not dead, just gone from the picture, (and divorced from his psycho wife), and that's when the S/A of Billy started, resulting in more trauma for Billy. Do I think Billy loves his sister/daughter? No, no I don't, the reason is, after his sister was born Billy got locked away, barely being fed unless he snuck down for food, and even then, what he did eat was nothing but junk because he can’t cook, (DON'T TRUST THIS MAN IN THE KITCHEN, YO HOUSE WILL BE BURT TO THE GYATT DAYM GROUND), and again, she's a result of what his mother, of all people, did to him. Think of that, you're locked away while your mother plays happy family with your sister/daughter, while you're trapped in a cold attic, and starving, that would make anyone crazy (crazy? I was crazy once. They put me in a room, a rubber room, a rubber room with rats, the rats made me crazy) Now, for my own headcanons for Billy himself, I think he's English and German, due to the name William having English roots, and Lenz is a German surname (Thx Google!), I think he has pastey ahh skin, due to being locked away in an attic, but if he got out, he'd have a more of a limestone skin tone

Like in the picture above, now Billy, Billy is skinny, but he is strong, more in theory that before the events of Black Christmas he was skinner cause he didn't have much muscle mass due to not eating much, but since the sorority girls were there (and he was probably in a mental institution, getting three meals a day), he stole food from the fridge n sweets. Now Billy, my personal opinion, loves sweets, bby boi gotta big sweet tooth (🍪🍪). I think Barb and Jess are the main ones Billy is stalking after, but he kills the others cause he's kinda... Snapped?? (Bro def. Escapes an asylum every year fr) Barb reminds him more of his mother with her drinking problem. Clare and Jess probably reminds him of Agnes due to her innocent nature and looks. Now I think Billy killed his mother, Agnes was asleep so no harm was done to her, Billy wouldn't harm kids (personal opinion, then again, most of this is my personal opinion jabdmshdjd), I think Billy doesn't mind the cold much, noting that this movie took place in Canada, so Billy grew used to the cold temperatures. I also rlly love the idea that Billy wears a green sweater, tho in the movie it's black, now in the 1974 film, Billy says to Jess "don't tell them what we did, Agnes", maybe he woke his sister up to hide his mom's body or smt, don't have to be sexual in anyway. So this will be the end of my mutterings, it's 1 am rn, I'm tired, posting this when I wake up, goodnight, merry Christmas, thank you for reading my craziness

[zishu-arts]

1. What's ur fav avm ep? Or generally ava ep

2. What's ur fav short?

3. And favorite character? Why is that your favorite character?

4. Do u kin anyone? Why?

5. What are your thoughts on King Orange? Personally, I do love the character but I wanna see some controversy. He was forgiven too easily. Do you think that he's affected by immense guilt of his actions? Pls go in detail as much as you wish

6. What are your favorite (hc or not) relationships? Doesn't need to be romantic. Do you have thoughts on relationships between characters that haven't interacted? Or some hc on characters that did (example: I love the hc on Purple and Red hanging out so often that Red goes to visit Purple for advice on PRANKS out of all things)

If I think of something more, I'll send it through!!

1). i dont think i can pick a favorite since there's so many but i love rewatching Lush Caves, Ultimate Minecart Race, The Chef, The Ultimate Weapon (and honestly just the entire KO arc lmfao). For AVA its gotta be The Showdown it's just SOOO GOOD the animation, the concepts, the plot, ahhhh

2). hard once again, but Music Lesson is so goddamn funny

3). THE DARK LORD THE DARK LORD THE DARK LORD (red is my second favorite tho). okay so, honestly it's just the amount of potential and trauma i could give him. i love his character and lore like, the idea of the Mission Code. what does it mean that you've been created for the sole purpose to destroy, and what does it mean that the person you're made to destory become your best friend? like, the existance of that code brings up so much potential and you could literally take it in so many ways. and like, just the story of cho and dark being two people who were coded for a purpose and run away. what...happens to that purpose? what are you supposed to do now? it's very "what am i if not a weapon?" "yourself. isn't that a wonderful person to be?" (i also dont remember where this quote is from). and also, i look at this little bastard and i think ah yes, he is a goddamn maniac. absolutely insane. i can make him as unhinged as possible and i think that's amazing.

i also think it's great that it's so easy for me to just do whatever i want with him like he's some dress up doll. i've got a genderbent version of him. i've got him with ADHD. i've got him with autism. i've got him trans. he's depressd. he has anxiety. he's in love. there's no saving him.

i also like that like. he's dead. he might not be dead. who fucking knows? and he's such an interesting character, is he evil, is he nice, does he care, what does he like? i want to know everything about him and i want to squish him like a little ball

(i alos like that he's very easy to self project into)

4). hmmmm honestly? i only ever kinned like one character (yuki from horimiya) so im not too familiar with actually kinning. if i had to pick, probably red, mostly cause i see him as a hyper possibly ADHD guy who's always running head first into situations without a thought and think damn he's jus tlike me fr

5). KO/MANGO TALK LETS GO !! you're def right, he was forigven too soon, but i like to think or hope that they at least had a bit of bonding. okay well first off i want to start off with: i see a lot of content where we view mango as like around 20 years old which i want to immedately have on the table: what do you mean 20 years old. he's got a goddamn kid that seems to be maybe 8-10, he's got to be at least reaching 40 by the time we actually see him in AVM. and no, 40 is not too old, they can still do backflips and fight ppl (as long as mango maintained a healthy lifestyle with daily exercise, healthy diet, and good sleep).

i love the fact that he went evil because he lost his son, and that he got lost in his anger and started hurting everyone around him. although i do think his and purple's relationship could do with A LOTT of work. their trust was broken over and over again (mostly on purple's end) and im not sure mango particularily remembers how to treat a child well. and did mango ever like,,,yk,,,properly grieve for his son? for all we know, he went home the same day he lost gold, punched his wall a lot, then went straight to working on the staff. now that he doesn't have that drive anymore, i think that's all going to catch up to him. he really needs to properly grieve and mourn and recover before he goes about doing anything else.

he can, in fact however, be a good person/father as long as he's got that under the belt. (which you could def see that he was pretty swag when he still had gold). i personally see him as a raspy and gruff guy so he's also a man of very few words. that also means he probably has a buttload of communcation issues that is gonna affect his relationship with other people. he has got A LOT to work on

i also want to mention how i don't particulary enjoy the "overprotective father that trails their child everywhere". i don't think a lot of people view mano this way either, but i just want it on the table that even though mango would definitely be protective of purple, he won't be weird about it

6). ohhhh okay okay if you've read my fics you know i am in love with the "siblings victim & dark" as well as "siblings chosen and second". i feel like vic and dark are both insane and enable the worst, unhinged parts of each other. and then chosen and second are pretty much polar opposites with "doesn't say a word + yapper"

i also love it when CC treat red as like the youngest hyper sibling bc he really does give off that energy. also I AGREE WITH YOU purple and red together were so cute it was so unexpected but i love that

i also really really really want to see dark and purple interact with each other. mostly because they're probably the two most least likely characters to ever see each other. but i like the idea of dark terrorizing purple and it works because purple the whole time is like 'holy fuck this is that terrorist holy fuck shit oml'

i also want to see purple and mango interact with alan. im not sure if they ever did? but id like to imagine one day alan logs onto his computer and sees these two random sticks on his screen and is like who the fuck are you guys

(my guy desperately needs a VPN)

i ADORE blue + yellow. both in a platonic and romantic sense. they're like skater girl + nerd girl to me. they're so goddamn adorable and i'm very obsessed with seeing them. they hold hands. they're polar opposites. they're always together. they're the duo that if you just see one of them it seems wrong. if one of them is missing, you automatically ask the other one where they are, because they no doubt would know. gods they're so entwined with each other

thanks for the ask !!

[ixiot-ghostrebel]

Yk Back At The Random Ghost Rebel Stuff

A straight up ramble but does anyone feels this retching feeling in their hearts whenever they think about the High Cloud Quintet and its lore and go like "Dang, if only we COULD change what had happened bc this crap is dark and sad as hell" because that's what I feel like right now

And lemme tell you: It's not a good feeling bc I don't even want to think about how they're all just old and tired grannies and grandpas. The only person that has proper solace in the High Cloud Quintet is flipping Baiheng bro—poor Yingxing got turned into Blade bc yk—he's the beloved of that one relic set story.

Dan Flipping Feng becomes Dan Heng and even as Dan Heng he doesn't get a single drop of solace bc now the former-artisan-now-maniac dude is chasing him all across the universe bc of the sins of the past and it's just so heartbreaking bc Dan Heng isn't Dan Feng and Blade is only the shadow of Yingxing (this concept with Yingxing and Blade heavily reminds me of Makoto and Ei—Ei was the shadow of Makato and the shadow of the light is all that remains ykyk)

And then there's Jingliu who just straight up asks her student to kill her if she ever becomes mara-struck and in the end she still lives somehow and then she decides to go full-traumatizer with Blade back when he was the Unnamed that wandered the place—as if he needed MORE trauma and honestly her weak grasp over the mara which in turn makes her insane is so upsetting bc in the end she ends up having beef with a 14 year-old lieutenant who's trying to do his job and protect the Luofu (though, I have to admit it: as much as I want to protect my child Yanqing, his methods were kind of flawed—) even if he doesn't know who Jingliu is.

And ofc we got the last man standing Jing Yuan who just sees ghosts in everyone around him. Istg I feel like bc he sees ghosts, he can't move on from the past, and when he can't move on from the past, it's honestly a red flag bc it might mean that his present relationships with everyone are (sometimes) only just one-sided or something. Like, take the relationship between Yanqing and he: Yanqing trusts the General with his life bc he raised him as a baby. But the fact that he calls Jing Yuan "General" and not some sort of parental title says that Jing Yuan is being unnecessarily secretive due to his fear of vulnerability. I mean—literally in 1.2 Story Quest, Jing Yuan quite literally just left Yanqing on the island alone after he got beat up by two men that have beef with one another, practically leaving him in the dark with no explanation. And even before that, Yanqing was still left in the dark. Jing Yuan doesn't open up easily bc of the crap he's been through, which is understandable, but his lack of explanation backing up his highly meticulous moves—that's not really healthy. In the end, it just leaves a gap of mistrust, be it intentional or not, between Jing Yuan and Yanqing. In some cases, and this one (imo atleast) is one of them, if you don't explain your actions, it pretty much just leaves the person that's been left in the dark with their waves of emotions, which might cost said-relationship between the two people in the long run.

It also seems like (based off what we know of, at least) at least half of Jing Yuan's choices are also connected to sentimental reasons and seeing ghosts in people. I think he sees a ghost in Yanqing (idk who tho—ppl say it's Yingxing bc of his obsession over the sword), he sees one in Yukong (definitely Baiheng), he sees one in Dan Heng (obvious reasons, very evident throughout the game) and possible Bailu (because she's technically being hailed as the next Imbibitor Lunae after Dan Feng's sin), and it could possibly go on. This old grandpa really is comparing the present with his past and that's honestly a little heartbreaking, bc there is a chance that that might mean that Jing Yuan found more happiness (serotonin work hardcore fr) in his past than he does in his present. He should at least be happy enough of the present to not be this sentimental of the past, but he's really suffering of the incidents like bro—

The High Cloud Quintet is like The Five Yakshas from Genshin Impact but with more lore (that we know of) and more angst twists (that we know of) to it fr. It's so heartbreaking and angsty, I both love it, hate it, and cry about it.

Like bro, look at these two groups. It's always a group of five sobbing.

They're all fine as hell too like CMON

[jaybirdie421]

Everyone's opinion on cuddles? And who their favorite cuddle buddy is owo ?

ooooo cute!!

Classic: reluctant at first for sure, but secretly likes it. usually he likes being able to protect the people around him, but being held is... suprisingly nice. His favorite is obv Paps, but he really likes Grillby cuddles too.

Pyrus: Oh he loves it! He doesn't really have a cuddle buddy but he will hug the shit out of anyone within reach and it's PYRUS who doesn't want to give him a hug?? vaguely remembers Classic cuddles when he was little and loved them.

Blue: in his head? oh yeah, hopping straight into his lovers arms. "HOLD ME!" in reality? uh. not so much. He loves cuddles but once Stretch got "too old" for them, which is bullshit, he compensated by being really touchy. Once he got with Vet.. yeah. He's on him CONSTANTLY. He likes that he's cold.

Stretch: oh he loves being held and holding people, but is.. really awkward and nervous about it. the idea of being held and holding people is great though

Red: oh, big guys loves cuddles for sure. his past girls can definitly testify that his guy as warm and fshkdajfbeaf i love him. loves holding people and will not be caught dead as the little spoon.

Edge: Also a big spoon, doesn't give a singular fuck that he's shorter than his partners. Watch him. very warm, loves that Dezi is pleasently cool and apollo's middle temp. he loves them.

Helvetica: super. super. just. AAAAA. i love him. *slaps skeleton ass* this bad boy can hold SO much trauma in him. after his.. very traumatic relationship with his version of grillby and his universe in general he has an odd feeling for touch. blue being cold really helps his touch aversion though! he likes it fine, but it's not a need for him. he found being held very comforting when he was panicking during the hurricane though. and even though he loves his little brother.. they just didn't really do.. touch. so. it's complicated.

Malvery: oh same as Stretch. loves the idea, doesn't really have anyone to cuddle with though. he does wish that the others were.. uh. well. apollo was real pretty. and so was dezi. and Edge had been protecting him for a while. uhm.

Hop: He had a girl back in his home universe. Cuddles we're.. awkward and weren't really his thing, but he still liked them alright.

Tango: very single and wants to keep it that way. the idea of cuddles are fine, but he's not all that attatched to touch. he likes movement.

Cosmic: he misses his grillby so damn much. he would give anything for fire cuddles atp.

Orion: pretty much the same as tango. just kinda meh.

Dust: Touch starved but also touch adverse. Keigo and Dyrus are the only people than can touch him and not make him feel like there are fucking termites in his bones. keigo holding him had him melting a little bit though ngl :)

Dyrus: "DON'T TOUCH ME. ALSO I'M A GHOST, GOOD LUCK."

Mars: ABSOLUTE cuddle bug, he loves it. Keigo and Lust are his favorites for sure, he loves how tiny they are compared to him, and feeling like he can protect them is very therapeutic after having no control for so long. Smell is big for him and he loves they way they smell. not in a cannibal way tho. yk.

Jupiter: "PASS. THANK YOU THOUGH!"

Lust: touch made him very nervous for a long time. but. Mars made him feel very safe. cuddles with Mars were always an immediate yes. (and if the wamth reminded him just a bit of grillby.. nobody had to know. He'd moved on for the most part, genuniely, but the smell of smoke and heavy warmth would always be a comfort to him) and Keigo!! yes! Keigo is so cute to lust and he just wants to squeeze him. the tortured trio fr.

Dezi: it took him a while. like.. a while but being with Edge and Apollo has him so much more relaxed. when he and lust first arrived in the new univserse, he was almost entirely mute and struggles with any contact, but he was damn near a new monster now. He loves how warm Edge is, he's like a fucking space heater, and Apollo feels like winter sunlight. just. yes.

Keigo: had a very hard time with touch at first. as a human, he hated it sometimes. he despretely wanted affection but couldn't stand people touching him. like. at all. hes a lot better now, no skin to crawl, hahah, and he loves his Mars-Lust cuddles. Apollo and Grillby are still his favorite cuddle buddies though. Chara too. Grillby is so warm and. aaaaaa they're so in love. Apollo is literally his baby dont get him started, and chara's his daughter and he is a very proud and protective father. they don't really cuddle, but the hugs are sweet. Apollo and Grillby's wing cuddles are the best though

Apollo: oh he loves wing cuddles and being curled up with keigo is probably his most favorite, nostalgia inducing thing ever. but. Edge and Dezi have him feeling romantical so. LMAO. He loves them <333 the cuddles are so good and he loves being the little spoon, even though he hopes they switch around with it! he wants to hold them as well! it's his job, isn't it?

[sugarpuptard]

new years makes me too anxious aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk i might cry who knows T^T i want to try and do better i just wanna be able to do everything i want easily overnight honestly even tho thats liek impossible LET ME DO IT ANYWAYS THO MANIFESTING THIS SHIT

im fixing up my google calendar so my home mini can yell at me about shit i need to do and just putting in goals and everything i need to do daily/weekly cuz i forget everything and end up not doing things too much and i hate itttttt my memory is so confusing

imma share some of my 2025 goals i cant remember if i did that already or not lul

better skincare & just physical self care in general because i keep fucking it up

learn more 日本語 so i can understand more besides like a few sentences and words ;-; like studying fr fr not so much passive study

get better at drawing 4 commissions

try not to be as mentally ill as i have been for my entire lifetime

better nutrition so my hair doesnt get thin/patchy again because i keep avoiding feeds too much cuz any slight pull while im hooked up is just instant trauma reminder so im probably still pretty malnourished

new wheelchair new wheelchair NEW WHEELCHAIR PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE FUCK my current one is so shit. and the finger ring splints so i stop dislocating my fingers

get more clothes for my wardrobe for my current tastes :3

thats all the big things basically, trying to do healthy things and sticking to it feels so weird tho honestly there is a part in my brain that just wishes there wasnt people she doesnt wanna hurt so its easy to get away with everything desired i have to keep my feelings and blood inside of me by force and pretend

[algerian-lady]

i gotta be the last person to watch Carrie (1976) on earth fr, i've been slacking off doing it and then i finally did and i liked it sm i had to watch the other versions just to make sure that the first is indeed the best, i gotta buy the novel tho to check if i like it better, saw some Stephen King books in a library in the center, i haven't been there in a while, i'm sure i can find it elsewhere tho. I just think the first movie is amazing, it's so beautiful, well made and deep i have a loooot to say about it, i'd watch it again for sure, the 2014 movie was good too, althou i don't like all of Chloë's movies, she's really pretty and did great but i just don't like actors who have one face in every movie, it's not always their fault, but i can't project into the character when it looks exactly like every other roles they have done before, ofc its the same person, but it also looks like the same persona (do i even make sense rn) but that's just me, no hate tho.

One thing i kept thinking abt is how Carrie's mother is def insane, it's not just abt her being religious, she's just batshit crazy, like there's religious then "there's not wanting your daughter to have her periods" or "no sex after marriage" kind of nuts. I get it if she's celibate or wanted to be a nun, but she just sounds like she had been abducted and r**ed in a forced marriage while she still had a kid's (who had been in a religious order/family) mind, she's much too extremist. It's either that or King has no idea over religious women (or women in general).

Another thing, (well i'm sure there's 21455623212 Carrie analysis out there that pointed this out already) but Carrie seems to have Hemophobia, her reaction at getting her first periods (even if zaama she never heard of these ever, which really Stephen? just sounds insane) thus freaking out, even then it's still exaggerated for just a shocked reaction (esp in the first movie) she looks like she's completely out of it, also breaking down and having a panic attack until her teacher slaps her to get her out of her extase like state.

Instead, i kind of feel like this unlocked this trauma or Phobia (could be either, could be earlier), talking abt the first movie still, this is why when the pig blood was thrown over her, she doesn't look like herself anymore, her eyes are wild open, blown out, and she really looks in a trance here, like she's completely in another world and doesn't know what she's doing, and at the moment when she's in her bathroom, cleaning out the blood out of her skin, we can see a sudden switch in her expression as if she was no longer hypnotized and she freaked out and realization washed over her. At least that's what i really felt happened in the 1st movie, she acted really different afterwards with her mother.

Third point is about how adorable Miss Desjardin is, she's what i strive for to be as a teacher or an adult in general, responsible and witty, kind and compassionate. She had interfered when she saw the others bullying Carrie, comforted her, punished the bullies, checked out on Carrie when she was sulking and gave her a pep talk, she felt that Tommy and Sue's action were fishy so she looked into it, warned them, came to cheer on her and check on her date in the prom, said some supportive things, looked delighted when Carrie won, honestly her only slip up is not noticing that Sue had changed and refused to listen to her when she tried to warn them but she did that with Carrie's best interests in mind, so honestly she did better than any other teacher i've seen in any teenage movies to date.

I felt really bad for her ending in the first movie, glad they fixed it by the third (can't talk abt the second much bcz i couldn't finish it tbh) i had wished for a different ending, that she'd end up adopting or taking care of Carrie which brings me to my fourth point.

I really really feel like Roald Dahl took one look at Carrie and told himself "welp, let's fix that", because Matilda really sounds like an AU for Carrie now (that i've seen, i can't unsee it,) if it was a children book and she had found her refuge in books and her loving teacher earlier in her life.

I'm ofc not accusing him of copy rights infringements, ofc not, the two stories are completely different with only the Telekinesis ability in common (as well as the abusive family and supportive teacher), but hear me out, who hasn't looked at a work before and told themselves it deserves a happier ending? there's even a whole fanfiction genre called fix-it fics and i know i've read and even Privately written a few esp for the JJBA anime and especially for the first season, two lines underlining Dio Drando, because he's my favorite character ever and i always wished things were different for him. Which is my last point, but let's talk about Malida/Carrie for a bit first.

If i ever did a Carrie fixit fic, it'll end up looking pretty similar to Matilda, the idea of it being inspired from it in any way makes me giddy in the stomach because that's what i'd have wanted for Carrie, to have found a lifestyle to keep her sane and leveled up, despite all the abuse going on around her, to find smn to take care of her, to not have fallen to the darkness, this would have been the perfect AU and i'm sure there's some written abt her out there, along with so many other good ideas ofc. I've read some theories that Carrie and Matilda are atleast from the same universe which sounds reasonable.

My last point has to do with smth i feel Stephen King wanted to say through Carrie's insane mother, when she saw her in pink, predicted she'll come back in red, said she attempted to kill herself when she was about to have her then about to give her to god, but she was weak bcz she loved her and couldn't do it, she ended up being the devil though. It feels too much like smth similar Speedwagon said in JJBA s1 (and which feels like it's Araki's plot narration) when he said that Dio shouldn't fool them with his rough upbringings and difficult childhood, that the guy was evil from birth or smth, this also reminds me a bit of smth Zodd (i think?) said to Guts in Berserk, abt Griffith and his nature, although it's not compltely similar, none of these cases are but they have smth in common.

I hate the implication, (even by a side character which feels like the author speaks through him) that a person was inevitably going to become evil, and that it was decided from birth, that despite all the shit they had to go through in life, none of it counts as much as smth they have no control over and it was decided from birth and they are just evil and they'd have been anyways even if they grew up in different circumstances and didn't face any shit in their lives, it just goes against all of my beliefs.

Ofc i'm not accusing the creators of these works (i haven't even read king yet so i'm not judging that) or putting words in their mouths, they aren't excplicitely saying these characters are inherently evil, but it's the underlying subtext that ticks me off, and it doesn't have to be all the story that carries it, it could just be the mantra of one character (like in the first 2 cases), suggesting just a different perspective but still it always leaves a sore taste in my mouth.

Like dudee, nobody is born evil or the devil or whatever (idc if it's fiction on this point) that implication is just stupid and ignorant. I'm not saying that smn should hide behind their environement and background to justify their actions, ofc not, those have an effect but in the end of the day, the decision is ours, always, we have a free will.

So we should be judged over our actions, yes, our background should be taken into consideration in the long run, but not as an exuse to the actions we took on our own accord, a crime is a crime, whoever did it. But going as far as to dismiss any relation between these things is just wrong and putting it on our very nature and essence from birth is all kinds and shapes of wrong, it's such a loathable idea to me istg lol

[lunar-serpentinite]

when i do my silly little rewrite of the entire series and go for noncanon ships over the canon ones, i still want to keep the essence and significance of the canon ships albeit in a platonic/non-romance version this time

as in, when it comes to the canon partners of the characters im writing (ginny, astoria etc.), i still want them to have a significant role in the characters' lives while also developing them outside of that so they wont fall into the trope of existing only for x and y . i want them to feel as human and as nuanced as i make the main characters

like for example

ginny and harry have a special bond as the unconventional slytherins (yes ginny is sorted into slytherin in nandhini's legacy AU) of their generation which is further developed by their shared trauma of facing tom riddle (bc it'll still happen in second year fr), and i also think theyre an impeccable chaser-seeker duo on the field . they have each others' backs and could pursue something romantic if they choose to put in the work but in this world, ginny isnt influenced by hero worship and sees harry in a different angle from the beginning aka an older brother figure that she can go to to complain abt her own family without feeling guilty . but beyond harry, ginny is trying to navigate and cultivate an identity outside of being her mother's coveted daughter and being in the shadow of phenomenal older brothers . the sorting hat threw her a curveball when it placed her in slytherin and she has to adjust all her notions of the future from that point forward .

meanwhile for draco and astoria :

i can see astoria as someone who is wise beyond her years but also physically fragile . the people around her cant decide if she shld be treated as a helpless baby or as a girl who is mature enough to deal with her own shit . her chronic illness turned daphne into a glass child and astoria, while close with daphne, feels very guilty abt it . as for draco and astoria's relationship, in this AU i still believe astoria will be the one to contribute the most to draco's unlearning of his blood purity prejudices and astoria's also one of the only ones who has enough balls to call draco out when no one else wants or is able to . draco is also able to help astoria be heard by her parents esp when they're in their extra overbearing eras and he has played mediator between her and her family when they fight . in the end i think astoria is still going to ⚰️ young but not before she is able to do things she actually enjoys, even tho she doesnt know what they are yet . she, draco, and daphne are helping her make a bucket list . there's so much she could do but she only has so little time .

i could go on and on about the choices i make for everyone's relationships and characterisations but like i think ive yapped on enough for today LMAOOOOO

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

I don’t know if it’s just because I’m aroace myself or because it’s the effect your writing has on me but stsg x aroace reader has been on my mind NONSTOP 😭 what have you done to me. This is literally just my idea and take on it feel free to ignore my silly little ramble I’m actually insane <33

I feel like dynamics where there’s some obstruction of sorts from it being just a regular happy healthy relationship is my fav ever because. It means there’s so much more yearning and pining involved and it’s so much more emotional I LOVE ITTTAUGHH and aroace spec reader is a great example of that. I feel like the main kinda reasoning (“obstruction”) would be how reader views the relationship they have with stsg and how they feel about it, the way it’s supposed to be just a regular platonic friendship but there’s so much unaddressed care and deep rooted love (that maybe reader doesn’t want to address) and it’s just a confusing mess of emotions. Reader being hesitant to accept that maybe it’s more than just a friendship because they aren’t 100% sure what those complex feelings that undoubtedly come with being ‘friends’ with stsg are. AND aside from aroace reader, a reader with intimacy/trust/abandonment issues or trauma that hasn’t been unpacked (take your pick!!) while it is the same kinda theme (basically just reader’s hesitance to have to face and attempt to understand their own emotions) it’s just. AUGH!! It’s such a yummy idea to me there are so many scenarios. Maybe reader just doesn’t want to be helped or is too untrusting/scared to open themselves up and be vulnerable with people again, is kinda introverted maybe, just generally like. Lost. almost as if they don’t really have a place anywhere? They don’t feel particularly special and they’re just painfully conscious of their own negative emotions + their own loneliness?? Are you seeing what I’m seeing. The type of person that could be in a room full of people and still not feel any less alone. In a way they’re a lot like sugu!!! OHHH HOW IT WOULD BREAK SUGUS HEART I ALREADY HAVE A VISION!!!! Him seeing himself in reader. Dear lord. The understanding that bond would create and him slowly coaxing reader into becoming more emotionally open because he gets it, sugu is so special because there’s an unspoken understanding between him and reader that they’re kindred spirits. as I’m writing this I am literally imagining reader and sugu sitting by the sea late at night. The sea is where lost doomed people that are overwhelmed by their own grief belong!!!! Can you hear my heart shattering and can you tell how much I love angst 😇😇😇 takes a deep sigh and leans back in my expensive chair as I dramatically overlook the city below me. Another day of being a stsg fan forcing everyone else to suffer with me because nobody in the jjk fandom will ever feel joy again

OLLIE MY DEAREST ohhhhh reading this made me so :(((( so so emotional AND I AGREE COMPLETELY what if i told you this is literally exactly what i had in mind………… we’re so connected fr

(this got Very long 😭😭 you have been warned!!)

FIRST OFF it’s crazy that you specifically mention The Sea bc !!!!! when i thought of the aroace!reader stsg fic i immediately envisioned them sitting by the sea under the stars :> i might’ve mentioned that but i don’t Think i did …… IT REALLY IS THE PERFECT PLACE FOR LOST SOULS DOOMED SOULS GRIEFSTRICKEN SOULS ETC ETC IT’S TRUE IT’S TRUEEEE i think it’s perfect for sugu/reader especially !!! T_T more on that later tho…

but okok let’s get into this I’M OVERJOYED THAT YOU’RE INTO AROACE!READER/STSG BTW I THINK IT’S SUCH A TASTY CONCEPT ….. from one aspec to another i am equally insane abt them i just. think there’s so much potential there…..

some of the things i love writing about most are 1) the blurry lines between platonic/romantic love (one of my gojo fics was actually written w a qp relationship in mind :33) and 2) the difficult parts of love/the fear of intimacy in general… it’s something i like exploring because it’s interesting + i don’t see it in fanfic often and. idk!! i just think it’s important to me that i depict a kind of love that’s very tender and healing and careful. especially since i literally only write for characters who have intimacy issues themselves LMAO

I feel like dynamics where there’s some obstruction of sorts from it being just a regular happy healthy relationship is my fav ever because. It means there’s so much more yearning and pining involved and it’s so much more emotional I LOVE ITTTAUGHH

LITERALLY THIS you put it so perfectly ollie.. T_T love with obstructions is alwaysss most interesting to me …. AND I AGREE!! if i ever end up writing this fic the focus will definitely be on reader and how they view love!! being on the spectrum is genuinely so isolating sometimes and i feel like that’s comparable to the kind of isolation stsg carry with them :’3 none of you can fully understand the others’ individual hardships but with a lot of understanding and respect i think it would go well.

… honestly i hc both gojo and geto as being on the spectrum themselves LMAO but maybe i’ll avoid those hcs to make the fic more interesting 😭😭 ace demiromantic gojo + demisexual sugu are soooo real to me they’re my pookies <333

it’s supposed to be just a regular platonic friendship but there’s so much unaddressed care and deep rooted love (that maybe reader doesn’t want to address) and it’s just a confusing mess of emotions.

OLLIE I SWEAR WE’RE CONNECTED THROUGH THE AROACE HIVEMIND BC THIS WAS EXACTLY MY THOUGHT PROCESS TOO 😭😭😭 it’s just such a tasty scenario because i feel like stsg would be in denial about their feelings at first, but then (once they’ve come to terms with it!!) approach reader immediately… i kinda pictured it as stsg already being a couple, and then confessing to reader with the hope of them joining their relationship……… and it’s so difficult because reader doesn’t really know where their feeling lies between platonic and romantic, don’t really care about the specifics, they just know that they love them and cherish them but now they feel pressured to put a label on it and i think that would just make them panic.

and it’s not at all intentional on stsg’s side !!! they’re half expecting reader to reject them, but they’re just so sincere and tender about the confession. and i think that they just won’t be able to understand reader’s feelings even when they try to explain it :’3 because reader does like them. love them. but they don’t know if it’s romantic, and they don’t really want to know. and even if they knew for sure, they might not care for a standard relationship anyway!! it would just take a lot of understanding and support from stsg to even have that conversation without reader running away, but i think they’re both so gentle when it comes to you :(( they’re always willing to hear you out, and even if they don’t understand all the aspects of being aroace, that doesn’t mean they won’t support it.

…. tbh i’m not entirely sure how it’d work out 😭😭 i think it’d have to be kind of vague but i can picture the three of them living together, going grocery shopping and cuddling and whatnot, and there aren’t really any labels there. not for reader anyway. but they all love each other and that’s enough <33

i love how we both started ranting LMAO this concept just means a lot to me so i can’t help but ramble a bit T_T BUT BUT BUTTTTT we still need to talk abt stsg with a reader that has intimacy issues/unpacked trauma… ollie literally every single part of ur ask made me feel insane in the head this is another concept that means a lot to me and i’m SOOO excited that i get to talk abt it with you!!!! :’3 i think i’ve already said this plenty of times but i’ll die on this hill: stsg would be PERFECT for this kind of reader. so loyal and understanding and accepting. they’d be so, so patient because both of them really only care about your happiness!! that’s all!!!!

and tbh i feel like no matter what kind of issues reader has specifically, it all boils down to them having difficulties with vulnerability!! showing it and seeing it and just embracing it as something important and healing. AND that’s perfect for stsg because they’re literally the same LMAO…. and in this case i think that would benefit the relationship as a whole!! it’ll be bumpy at first because i feel like all three of you would encourage the other two to open up, express themselves etc — but then not return that vulnerability. and that just wouldn’t work out!! and i think that would force you to open up, if only so your partners will do the same. same for stsg!! and it’s just soooo tender and raw :(((( but so important!!

i can honestly imagine suguru having the most trouble opening up, even though he’ll be the most insistant that you and satoru do so 😭😭 he’s a big ol hypocrite is what i’m saying. but i can see him dipping his toes into that vulnerability for you, because he knows you won’t get anywhere otherwise and he wants to be a good example for you to follow. it’d make things so much easier for reader because they aren’t the only one who’s having difficulties !! it’s all three of you!! you’re all learning and growing and loving each other so delicately :’3

now on the topic of sugu….

OHHH HOW IT WOULD BREAK SUGUS HEART I ALREADY HAVE A VISION!!!! Him seeing himself in reader. Dear lord. The understanding that bond would create and him slowly coaxing reader into becoming more emotionally open because he gets it, sugu is so special because there’s an unspoken understanding between him and reader that they’re kindred spirits.

THIS THIS THISSSSS OLLIE OUR BRAINS ARE HOLDING HANDS YOU GET IT YOU GET ITTT this is SUCH a great scenario AND IT’S SO REAL TOO… i think sugu would be the mvp in helping reader (NO DISRESPECT TO SATORU i think he would be vital in other ways!!) because like you said!! they’re the same. there’s something so soft and tender in that dynamic :’3 them talking by the sea… about their own loneliness and difficult pasts……. i 100% hc sugu as having had a rough childhood so if reader also did it’d just strenghten their connection even further. i think that what suguru needs more than anything else is understanding, so to receive that from reader, while also being able to give it in return……. yeahhhh. he’s whipped. you’d be talking by the sea looking up at the stars and he would already be thinking of marriage LMAO he’s such a sap to me 😭😭😭 he just has this moment when he realizes that he wants to Protect You Forever and it’s so special to him. he’s your pillar and you’re his anchor. (<- slowly spiralling as we speak I LOVE THIS MAN SO DEARLY…..)

OLLIIIIIEEEEEE THIS MADE ME FUCKING INSANE I’M SO SERIOUS I ALMOST CRIED both these concepts are so good T_T….. i can’t thank u enough for sharing them w me <333 YOU’RE ALWAYS WELCOME IN MY INBOX ILYSM!!!! i really feel like we see stsg the same way i swearrrr it’s the aroace hivemind…… anyway i am looking out at the city right with you………… drinking a glass of orange juice………… pondering stsg…………… they make me so sad/happy/other emotions that i don’t think human beings are supposed to feel 😔😔😔

[uriekukistan]

Mutsuki for the ask game :3

My first impression: i didn't like any of the quinx squad on the first read i was insane im sorry everyone

My impression now: kinda on the border of how i feel about light vs misa honestly. i'm not a fan of his actions, but he has a special place in my heart. on the other hand, i can justify why he acted the way he did, and i can empathize with him. an interesting character that i love examining. (i may see a bit of the parts i don't like about myself in him...)

Favorite thing about that character: as i'll always say, i love when they're insane :3 my little insane pookie wookies :3 fr tho i love a good complex character that i can really analyze and pick apart

Least favorite thing: as a trans person, i'm not sure how i feel about how ishida characterized mutsuki's trans-ness. at quite a few points, it came off like ishida was making it seem like a mental illness rather than a legitimate identity maybe that's just me

Favorite line/scene: when mutsuki's kagune first appeared to comfort urie after he framed out at the auction raid. i think it says a lot about mutsuki's real personality underneath all the trauma induced insane

Favorite interaction that character has with another: any mutsurie interactions ! i love their relationship and i think they helped each other grow, it was really nice to see

A character that I wish that character would interact with more: i think i would want to see him with juuzou more, like outside of the training and ghoul fighting area. i want them to sit down and talk about how their horrific childhoods shaped them. juuzou grew a lot from in the gap between tg and re so i want to see him support mutsuki in his own growth, pass on his wisdom, generally be a mentor in more than a combat sense.

Another character from another fandom that reminds me of that character: im really bad at this, pass 🧎

A headcanon about that character: he's probably a good dancer, but like in a graceful way, probably would be good at contemporary or waltz

A song that reminds of that character: step on me by the cardigans

An unpopular opinion about that character: i actually think mutsuki's ending was good. i know people probably wanted to see him go back to the quinx and have a happy family, but actually i think it's an important step for mutsuki to step out on his own because he seems (to me) to have a lot of dependency problems.

Favorite picture:

my little insane <3