#the struggles of 2024

[theatreofthelivingmind]

I am never sure who still follows me or if people are online but on the Wednesday before Thanksgiving I was near to be hospitalized for having panic attacks and low Mental Health.

Going into 2024 I had lost a job and was applying for unemployment which caused all my bills to be late for 2024. Each month in 2024 I have been paying my rent late and getting eviction notices.

I am being forced to work for Lyft with no health insurance as a disabled queer person. Each month getting eviction notices leaves me paying rent late with maybe $5 left over for medications food and not being able to have any savings. It is also had me working as a disabled person 7 days a week still not having any savings, unable to pay off any loans, having to choose between food medications or being homeless.

What pushed me over the edge last Wednesday was that I had been working for seven days a week straight, Without a break causing myself to get sick. After receiving another eviction notice For November's rent, working 7 days a week, I go to pay rent on the day of the deadline and find I am 15 dollars short. This caused a panic attack as it feels like if I were to be homeless, queer, disabled, that's a death sentence.

I am out of the hospital with a few more resources But still very much in the woods as far as poor mental health and no savings.

That is in the struggle for me for 2024 Still not sure how it's going to turn out, but after the election it's looking grim.

To my mutuals, sorry to be posting but this is the reality of my situation. To people asking for help in my inbox and messages, I am sorry for our plight but I do not have extras I can give. Being asked, hey but can you reblog our pinned post, to me seems rude and inconsiderate, as you are asking someone who doesn't have resources while ignoring that person's cries for help. I'm getting 10 or more requests a week, from people outside my circles, not considering what I'm going through and that I have no resources to share, making my mental health worse.

I also had to take a step back, unfollow a few mutuals as they had listed on their profile, "any pronouns, but especially the ones that are the funniest atm." For me, pronoun use is no laughing matter, not to be joked about. If I see this on someone's profile, I more than likely shouldn't be interacting with them as obviously it means something different to them.

Feels like I need to step back from tumblr but as it's one of the few supports I do have, that feels ill advised.

If you are a mutual, I apologize for any erratic behavior. I am going through a lot right now. If you are not a mutual but considering writing to ask for help, please read this and reconsider before pushing send.

[kropotkindersurprise]

October 2, 2024 - Over 1,000 Samsung workers in Chennai, India, have been on strike for four weeks, making it India’s biggest strike in recent years. The protests have disrupted production at the factory, which employs 1800 people and contributed a fifth of Samsung’s $12 billion revenue in India last year.

The striking workers are demanding recognition of their union, CITU, and a wage increase. The average salary for the Samsung workers is currently about $300 a month. [video]

[almondpiglet]

quick redraw stuff for day 1: official art/redraw of serireiweek... always loved how worried seri gets for reigen in these scenes heh heh

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Learning to celebrate the little wins!

[ghostbird-art]

Cursed Relic // Divine Relic

[heavyheavycream]

feedist kinktober 23 : bonfire bash

[writerstruggle]

us <3

[hayden-christensen]

OBI-WAN KENOBI - PART V (2022) AHSOKA - PART FIVE: SHADOW WARRIOR (2023)

[rileylastname]

maybe it’s because it’s “too obvious” but im surprised how few readings I’ve seen of the Substance (2024) that discuss the themes of addiction and substance (ha) use & abuse.

in moderation you can use the substance to become a better, more fun, easier, happier version of yourself. then you realize you no longer want to be who you are when you’re not on the substance. then taking the same dose that used to be enough before isn’t enough anymore, so you want to take more, and just a little bit more couldn’t hurt, right? so you start to take even more. but this is only taking away from sober you, which is painful and difficult and even scarier than what compelled you to take it in the first place, so of course you can’t stop now. now you want to take even more, you NEED to take even more. sober life becomes harder and harder to bear, especially compared to how much easier everything is on the substance. now you’re not only using it to enjoy that feeling anymore, you’re using it to hide from what you’re turning into without it, from what you’ve already turned into.

every minute that you’re sober is spent counting down the days until you can use again, and the ends of being high are spent dreading going back. the sober self is upset and jealous at how irresponsible the high self is. the high self is upset at how much of a buzzkill the sober self is, and wishes they could exist on their own, without requiring their sober tether to existence. but the sober and high selves are the same person, you are one, and you become jealous and angry at yourself for ruining your own life in a vain attempt to become an impossible version of yourself that you most desire to be.

you want so badly to have all—and only all—of the best parts that you milk yourself dry, until you end up with all—and nothing but all—of the bad parts. by the time you truly feel that you have indeed lost everything and know you need to stop, the damage is already done, and there is no going back. you wish you had stopped at the first chance, you wish you had never started to begin with. and even then for many people the only way to deal with this terrifying, painful reality is to use even more, because you have made this terrifying, painful life without your substance feel unliveable, even scarier yet than what had made you use in the first place. there is nothing left to do but to hide from your own life, and the only ways to do this are to stop, to love yourself and take care of the person that you are now… or to keep taking more and more, using until there is truly nothing left, not even yourself.

[souvenir116]

An analysis because I'm going crazy over this interaction:

double shoulder squeeze

holding hands to the point of knuckles whitening

Charles going full launch and letting himself go for the hug, his chin on Max's shoulder, Max tapping his back three times + his eyes shining

Charles wrapping his arm around Max's waist so domestically + tap two times

They do part away- but God :

Couldn't you get enough Charlie?

Charles slowly hitting Max's love handle

Max's smile and Charles' fond sigh

[bayfuzzball7050]

@oldtakakweek day 1!! — massages / showering / relaxing

Girls are having fun ^^

ik estrogen would’ve fixed them

Bonus doodle and closeups under the cut!

“Normalize being jealous of your wife” <- tenmei probably

[kropotkindersurprise]

June 26, 2024 - Bolivia's union confederation has announced an indefinite general strike against the coup, effective immediately. The Central Obrera Boliviana, which contains all workers and peasant unions is also mobilizing workers and social movements to descend on the capital, La Paz, to repel the coup. [source]

edit: Coup attempt seems to have been defeated already (via @komsomolka [link] / [news source])

[misstoodles-doodles]

Safe & Sound 💙

I just really wanted someone to give Echo a blanket so why not let it be Rex

Closeups T-T:

Bonus Doodle:

[esperanzagalaxy]

ma'am,

[vero-niche]

overall i really liked the first episode of delico's nursery but. but. as someone who knows nothing. about the theatre plays. i couldnt quite take the plot seriously when. the god of vampires/first vampire ever. has the most unfortunate abriviation of our time.

resulting in lines such as:

[yeloenk]

[ * S A V E THE WORLD. ]

redrew this piece from May of 2020. about 4 1/2 years of improvement!

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