#the rest of the album is pretty mediocre too there was only a handful of tracks i could see myself going back to
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the guardianâs review title for nicki minajâs pink friday 2 album was definitely a choice
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#also why does the album start off w a sped up tiktok version of billie eilishâs song?? itâs so bad#i feel bad for the people who got baited into thinking sheâll actually collab w billie . like WHAT is this#the rest of the album is pretty mediocre too there was only a handful of tracks i could see myself going back to#and whatâs w the oversaturation of lazy samples every other track#iâm going to listen to pink friday 1 to cleanse my ears now#my best friend is a nicki stan so i just know iâll be haunted w these songs in the car until the end of december#music
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|| Vampire Weekend - Vampire Weekend ||
Genres: Indie Pop, Indie Rock, Chamber Pop
REVIEW
In light of Vampire Weekend releasing their 5th album tomorrow as of writing, I feel like reviewing their debut is fitting to better understand the band and boy do I understand them now!
'Mansard Roof' was definitely a good introduction to this band; It's short, poppy, and got me in the mood to enjoy some pretty 00's pop music. The instrumentation is definitely unique, too.
'Oxford Comma' has very relatable songwriting as I do not give a fuck about an oxford comma. To me, this whole album sounded quite whimsical and silly and it works! I love the happy vibe of this thing, especially on the next track: 'A-Punk'. The guitar riff is so bouncy and fun! I can see exactly why this charted, it's so cheery!
I'm absolutely in love with the instrumentation on 'Cape Cod Kwassa Kwassa', the rhythmic hand drums add so much to this song. The Peter Gabriel reference was also a cool surprise. The production is equally good on following track 'M79', though less minimalistic. The lyrics on 'M79' are great too, particularly the bridge.
'Campus' is the only song I new already from this album. It's always a great moment when you're listening to something and realise "OH IT'S THIS SONG". I love the clean guitars all through this album, but particularly here. They add so much to the sound of the band.
After 6 bangers, 'Bryn' is the first track I'd describe as just "good". This one sounds a bit more all over the place as opposed to their neat, clean production on the rest of the tracks. It's still good, though. As is 'One (Blake's Got A New Face)', which I applaud attempting a slightly more experimental feeling. Unfortunately it doesn't go all the way, and ends up sounding like a particularly mediocre Talking Heads song. I prefer it to 'Bryn', though.
On 'Walcott' the band returns to its great songs. The organ (i think?) melody is so much cheerful, I but it's string arrangements put me off a little bit. Can't help but think they sound a little bit sappy?
'The Kids Don't Stand a Chance' isn't one of the best outro's I've heard, but it does its job. It's production is in line with the rest of the album, stellar, but I felt a little bored through it. Definitely still enjoyable, though.
Vampire Weekend's debut is one of the most entertaining pop albums of the 2000s I've ever heard, providing minimalistic production and stunning vocals. The worst thing about the album is its front-loadedness, but wow is that first half good! Its lyrical content also falls flat sometimes, but not enough for the issue to be glaring. I'd certainly recommend this album.
FINAL SCORE: 85/100
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Sacred New Beginnings (2/?)
Summary: James Noble thought he traded away his chance at love and a happy-ever-after when he signed a contract with a record label that turned him into an international celebrity. But a chance meeting in a dive bar may prove him wrong.
Ten x Rose AU, @doctorroseprompts
This Chapter: Teen, ~3900 words
AO3Â || Ch1
James can barely concentrate on the meetings heâs meant to be having. His Apple watch flashes with new notifications every few minutes, and he glances at each one, hoping to catch a glimpse of đš Bad Wolf Girl đš on the screen. Alas, most of the notifications are emails or texts from family, friends, or his personal assistant.
He can tell his producer is getting frustrated with his nonexistent attention span; however, his last album, Midnight, is still sitting comfortably in the top ten of all major streaming platforms, so they canât be too peeved with him. Especially when he casually reminds them of the notoriety and fortune he made them; they drop the attitude after that, and the rest of the day goes by pleasantly.
Theyâre all in agreement that they want this newest album, his fourth, to mirror Midnightâwhy reinvent the wheel, after all?âas much as possible without it sounding identical. James agrees, his mind already piecing together some ideas for new songs. The next few weeks will be busy with brainstorming and writing, a welcome relief after the whirlwind tour he just finished a couple months ago.
Heâs been allowed more artistic freedom with each album. His first, Gridlock, he had no hand in except to sing the lyrics someone else wrote to the melodies someone else composed. The album did well, as far as debuts go, in part because of his massive YouTube following. (And heâs pretty sure the half-naked promotional photoshoot he did for the album didnât hurtâŚ) Heâd won several awards simply because it was his first album, but it was enough to get his name out there and to build his fan base.
He had more of a voice in the production of the second album, though he was still so new to the whole industry that he let other people talk over him and pitch ideas he didnât necessarily agree with. The second album hadnât flopped, per se, but it received only middling reviews and a handful of nominations without any wins.
With his third album, however, he went directly to his label with an outline of the music he wanted on the record, as well as rough drafts of melodies and lyrics. Heâd worked tirelessly to keep up with what his team was pitching, and to counter with what he wanted the album to be. Mercifully, they listened to his suggestions and opinions, though they made it clear that if this album was as mediocre as his second, he was benched, and he would, without fuss, sing whatever lyrics the label handed to him.
When the album dropped eighteen months ago, it became an overnight sensation, shattering records left and right for albums sold, stream counts, and music video hits. He had already been famous, but the rapid, worldwide success of the album had completely erased any trace of anonymity he had been clinging to.
The tours for his previous albums had been around fifty shows each across major cities in the US and UK. But for that third album, he tripled the number of shows and toured for nearly a full calendar year. It had been absolutely exhilarating but exhausting, and that was even with him mostly performing with nothing but his guitar and piano. There were no strenuous dance routines heâd had to memorize and choreograph while also singing.
James hopes his fourth album will be as much of a success as his third. Now that heâs gotten one huge world tour under his belt, he should be more prepared to face the rigors of promotion and touring for any future albums. He loves people and always has, but that tour was a bit much, even for him. The best part was getting to meet his fans before and after his shows, and to be with them in a stadium where the only thing everyone wanted to do was hear him play and tell the occasional anecdote about a certain song or a memory that a song was based off of.
He idly wonders if Rose has ever been to one of his shows as he packs up his things and heads out to his car to be driven to a local news station for a radio interview. Though his schedule is far less busy now that heâs finished touring, the publicity never stops.
They stop for lunch before heading to the station. The greasy burgers and chips hit the spot, though they make him feel bloated and slightly gross; he really needs to get back in the habit of working out in the mornings. He skipped his exercise regimen one morning a few weeks ago when he woke with a hangover-turned-migraine, and hasnât gotten back into the routine since. His excellent genetics and metabolism have kept him looking slim, but he can feel the effects of his laziness. He isnât as energized as he usually is, and without the endorphins of a good workout, he can often feel brain fog descending on him throughout the day, which also causes his mood to plummet.
Tomorrow, he vows. While heâs thinking about it, he goes into his phone to adjust his alarm, setting it for an hour earlier. He bought home gym equipment for himself a few months ago so he can sweat and wheeze in peace, unless some of his security team are there too. In that case his head of security, a no-nonsense woman named River Song, will rib him about being woefully out of shape.
The car pulls up to the radio station a half hour later. He can see and hear the crowd of paparazzi waiting for him.
âHave I got lettuce in my teeth?â he asks his driver, flashing a grotesque grin at her through the mirror.
His driver, Idris, cracks a rare smile. âNo, sir.â
âCheers.â
James vigorously ruffles his hands through his hair, then waits for his security team to part the red sea for him. When they do, he steps out of his car and puts on a lazy smile for the cameras, but mostly ignores the shouts of him to turn in one direction or another. If he did, heâd be outside for an hour, and heâs due to be on the air in fifteen minutes.
At the doors to the station, he indulges the paps and turns around, saluting them all and bowing theatrically. There. That should keep them happy for a while.
Inside, heâs greeted by interns who try their best not to be star struck, but he can see the thinly veiled excitement. It still amuses him that people get so flustered around him, as though heâs a god rather than any other mortal man. He just got lucky, is all. Thatâs all the industry is: luck. Getting seen by the right person at the right time. He could very easily be back in that dingey one-bedroom flat, his nose buried in textbooks, on his way to becoming an aerospace engineer like heâd always thought heâd be.
When they get to the recording booth, he asks the interns if theyâd like a photo with him. They all squeak and nod vigorously, and he spends the next five minutes posing with them individually until heâs pulled away to start the show.
He usually does early morning interviews on the radio, or heâll co-host a late-night show, so the fact that heâs sitting in the booth in the middle of a Sunday afternoon is slightly odd. There are two radio hosts in the booth with him, along with some technical specialists who are doing last-minute sound checks. James has worked with one of the hosts, Tish Jones, before, but the second, Yvonne Hartman, is new to him.
âGot moved to a new time slot, Tish?â he asks. âDonât you usually do breakfast shows?â
She looks thrilled that he remembers, as though he hasnât been doing semi-regular radio chats with her for years. âIâm fillinâ in for a bit. The usual host, Craig, Owens is on paternity leave for the next month, and Yvonne is a new hire to be Craigâs co-host when he gets back.â
Theyâre interrupted and told to get ready, because theyâre going live in thirty seconds. James reclines in his cushy chair, crossing an ankle over his knee, and spots a photographer in the corner of the room, trying their best to be inconspicuous. James flashes them a cheeky wink, grinning when he sees the flash of their camera.
âFive⌠four⌠three⌠two⌠oneâŚâ
âAnd welcome back, listeners,â Tish says. âYouâve just finished listening to the hit single âHuman Natureâ by James Noble, who we currently have with us in the booth right now. James, hi, how are you?â
âHello Tish, lovely seeing you again. Hello Yvonne, lovely meeting you,â he replies. âIâm good. Iâm great. And yourselves? Tish, howâs the family?â
âGreat!â she says brightly. âMy little sister Marthaâs passed her exams to be a doctor!â
âOh, wonderful!â he says, and he makes a mental note to send some sort of congratulations. Heâs been on Tishâs morning show several times throughout the past couple of years, all the way back when Martha was first starting her residency rotations. âThatâs wonderful. My deepest congratulations to her. What sort of medicine does she specialize in?â
âTrauma and emergency,â Tish says with a wince. âGod bless her. Sheâs cool as a cucumber, that one. I couldnât handle that anxiety.â
âNeither could I, which is why Iâm sat on my bum in a recording studio most days,â he says, segueing them back to the purpose of the interview: to talk about him.
âHave you started recording anything yet for album number four?â Yvonne asks. âAnything you can tease to us?â
He shrugs. ââFraid not. Iâm not being coy, weâve only begun planning the album today; I just came from a meeting about that, actually. Weâre months away from being ready to record anything.â
âHow does an album come about?â Tish asks. âCan you describe the whole process, for listeners who may not be familiar with it?â
âIt can actually vary from album to album,â he answers, taking a sip of the coffee someone brought for him. Itâs slightly over-sugared, but heâd rather that than anything bitter. âSometimes my label comes to me with lyrics and melodies and tells me to sing. Sometimes I go to them with the same. Itâs often a back and forth, and exchange of ideas until weâve created something weâre all very proud of. Then once weâve got the music written, it only takes a couple weeks to record the vocals, as long as my voice doesnât give out on me.â
That earns him a laugh. Heâd gotten bronchitis and laryngitis in the middle of recording Midnight, and for a while heâd tried to sing through it, but no amount of sound editing could salvage that fiasco. After the album came out, he shared behind-the-scenes videos of the failed recording sessions when his voice cracked more than it had done during puberty. His fans and the media lapped it right up.
âThen it gets sent out to people to make it sound nice, add background vocals, adjust audio levels, et cetera,â he explains, âthen voila, weâve got a record.â
âItâs one big endless cycle,â Tish teases. âPlanning, recording, touring.â
âThe rest of my life is practically planned out to the minute,â he jokes.
âThat doesnât leave much time for a personal life,â Yvonne butts in, and James tenses, though he forces his mouth to stay upturned in a smile.
âI do take vacation days. Personal days. I take holidays off. Itâs not all work.â
âYes, as evidenced by your night out in New York a few days ago. Living the dream. If youâve got it, flaunt it, right?â
James grinds his teeth so hard heâs in danger of cracking a molar, but goddammit, he keeps that smile on his face. Tishâs face, meanwhile, has gone wooden.
âI enjoyed a night out with friends,â he explains. âThe last time I was in America, I was in a different city every night. Didnât get to see my mates. It was nice to catch up and spend time with them.â
âSure, sure, but that wasnât the only reason you went out, was it?â Yvonne wheedled. âDoes it get discouraging to be unable to maintain a steady relationship? Do your partners get frustrated with your hectic work schedule and your extended absences? Or do you prefer it like that? Something quick, no strings attached? But then there was that stretch of time with⌠God, what was her name? You were with her for a year and a half. So clearly thatâs something you also crave.â
James humbly thinks he deserves an Oscar for keeping his mouth shut against the acerbic words he wants to hurl at this obnoxious radio host. Heâll have to tell his personal assistant to refuse any future interviews with Yvonne. Hopefully Tish wonât be working with her after this, because he genuinely likes Tish as an interviewer. She very rarely tests his boundaries, and when she does, she can recognize his attempts at giving a non-answer and she redirects the conversation.
âDespite what the media writes, I do try to keep my private life private,â he says instead. âObviously that doesnât always work.â
âHave you ever taken your partners on tour with you?â Tish interjects, desperately trying to steer the conversation to something more palatable. âHow much down time do you get between shows?â
âIt depends,â he says, taking another sip of coffee to give himself a moment to breathe. âA lot of the so-called down time is spent traveling to the next city. Iâve learned how to sleep well on buses. Iâve sometimes flown partners out to a city if I have a short break between shows, or Iâll invite them to come touring with me for a couple weeks. Weâve made it work.â
âClearly not, though,â Yvonne chirps, and James thinks he sees Tish kick her under the table.
âNo, clearly not,â he repeats, not bothering to mask the disdain dripping from the syllables.
âIs there a city you havenât visited but would love to someday travel to?â Tish asks. âEither a tour stop or a vacation?â
James flashes her a grateful smile. âSo many places. Sure, Iâve set foot in hundreds of cities and dozens of countries, but havenât been able to explore or have adventures. I would love to one day take a year away from music and travel across the globe without any sort of plan. Take time in each place to immerse myself in the culture.â
âOh, that sounds heavenly,â Tish hums.
âBy yourself, or with a special someone?â Yvonne presses and James rubs a finger into his eye.
âYouâve clearly got my love life on your mind,â he quips, keeping his tone light but pinning her with a glare that has made many reporters shrink away.
Not Yvonne Hartman, though. She keeps his gaze until he relents with a sigh.
âWhat can I say? I love my job and I wouldnât trade it for the world.â
Roseâs face flashes in his mindâs eye. The way her face lit up when she smiled; the way her body moved in sync with his to the beat of the music; the teasing lilt in her voice that hardly anyone but his family uses because everyone else is too starstruck by him.
He blinks, but Rose is still stuck forever in his memory. An ache gnaws at his stomach.
âI love my job,â he repeats, âbut sometimes all I want is to be able to have the freedom to go out to a pub and meet an enchanting person and have a magical evening drinking and dancing with them.â
âWe all make sacrifices for what we want,â Yvonne says.
âWeâve got just a few minutes left,â Tish announces. âHow would you say youâve grown as an artist from where you first started to where you are now?â
âYou mean from recording videos of myself singing into cheap mic while playing a keyboard?â he drawls, and heâs pleased when she cackles. âObviously I have the funds for actual equipment. Got a piano and several guitars at home. But I think Iâve come into my own a bit more. When I was making videos of me singing in my flat, I was just having a laugh. My YouTube channel was something I did to take a break from studying.
âThen when I signed on with Blue Box Studios, thereâs a lot of pressure to perform, to live up to their expectations and be everything they hoped I could be. Nobody really talks about what comes after you sign your contract.â
âOh yeah?â Tish asks. âAnd whatâs that?â
âLots and lots of anxiety,â he laughs. The sound is echoed by both hosts.
Yvonne gets the last word however, and slips in, âWell something tells me youâve never had any issues with⌠performance anxiety. Right, thanks for having this chat with us, James. We hope to see you again some time.â
Not bloody likely. âThanks for having me. Always a pleasure.â
Their audio cuts off as the station airs some adverts. James tugs his headset off and gulps down the last of his coffee.
âGotta dash,â he says, standing.
âIâll walk you out,â Tish says. To Yvonne, she says, âBe back in five.â
James holds the door for Tish, and even though he knows the way to the front of the building, he lets her lead.
âGod, I am so sorry about her. I had no idea she would say those sorts of things to you.â
He shrugs. âEveryoneâs thinking it.â
His face is always on the cover of gossip rags that evidently have nothing better to do than speculate about his love life. He has been photographed with every single partner heâs ever had over the past five years. The media has turned him into a modern-day Casanova, never staying single for more than a few days. They had a field day when they learned he identifies as pansexualâwell, they insist on calling him bisexual, no matter how many times he corrects themâand they began twisting every person he was spotted with in public into an illicit affair.
In the early days of his celebrity, heâd tried to have an open and honest rapport with the paparazzi, figuring they wouldnât print lies or stretch the truth if he was forthright with them. God, heâd been naive. It didnât matter what he told them, they painted him in a different light, taking whichever angle would sell the best articles.
At some point, it became too exhausting to correct them or to defend himself. James found itâs easier to play the aloof Lotharioâitâs safer to hide behind the facade that the media created rather than broadcast his bruised and broken heart for the world to see.
âThat still doesnât make it okay,â Tish says, drawing him out of his head.
Theyâve arrived at the front of the studio, and he can already hear the buzz of reporters standing outside. River and Jack Harkness, another member of his security team, leap to their feet from where theyâd been sitting and playing what appears to be gin rummy.
âWho won?â he asks as Jack cleans up the pile of cards.
âI did,â River and Jack say at the same time.
James grins and listens to them squabble until Tish gives his upper arm a gentle squeeze. âThanks again. And sorry. Again.â
He inclines his head in a parting bow, then looks to River and Jack, who have their serious, donât fuck with us faces on. River is speaking into her phone, then she nods.
âRight, weâve cleared a path,â she says, gesturing James forward.
She takes the front, Jack takes the rear, and as a trio, they step outside. It has begun rainingâshockingâwhich means itâs not rude for them to make a mad dash for the car. Nevertheless, paps snap frantic photos of him, and he laughs to think about seeing the surely-blurry photographs of his arse on social media in a few hours.
He half-climbs, half-dives into the open back door, followed by River in the back seat with him and Jack riding in the front. Theyâre barely buckled in when Idris pulls into traffic and points the car away from the city.
James shuts his eyes and thunks his head back on the headrest.
âThat interview sounded like a minor disaster,â River says lightly, patting his knee.
âYou could say that.â
âYou did well though,â Idris chimes in, flicking her eyes to the rear-view mirror to catch his gaze.
He grunts in acknowledgement, and tugs his phone out of his pocket to slog through the slew of new emails and messages heâs gotten in the hour since he last checked it. There are a few messages from his publicist, who takes great pleasure in teasing him after awful interviews. Funnily, it always seems to cheer him up. If ever Donna pays him a true compliment, thatâs when the red flags start flying.
But he utterly ignores her texts when he sees a red rose emoji at the top of his notifications. His heart somersaults as he goes directly to Rose's message.
Enchanting, am I? Or was that a different stranger you met at a pub?
He grins. âIf I say yes, does that mean we can share another magical evening together?â
She replies instantly. Flatterer. Fine, but only if you keep stroking my ego. You sure know how to make a girl feel good about herself.
âI can make a girl feel good about lots of things,â he texts, and hopes to God he doesnât offend her. To cover his arse, he sends a new message before she can answer. âAre you free tonight? Wanna meet up for dinner and drinks?â
Only if we donât stay out too late. Some of us have work in the morning.
âExcuse you, I have work in the morning too,â he says, and heâs suddenly dying to know what she does for a living. âNever you mind. I have a very strict eight oâclock bedtime on school nights. Gotta get my beauty sleep.â
Her response is a long time coming, and he worries heâs come on too strongly. But when her new message appears, her words make no sense. Did you look me up?
âEr. No? Why?â
You said school night. How did you know I work at a school?
He blinks at his phone for several incredulous seconds. âI swear, it was just a joke. You work at a school? As a teacher?â
Yep. I can tell you about it at dinner. Where do you wanna go?
âDealerâs choice,â he says. âMaybe somewhere kinda out of the way. I dunno if you noticed, but practically the whole of London knows who I am.â
Never woulda guessed đ Have you heard of Cocinara? Itâs a little Mexican place on Blackpool St. Makes amazing burritos and margaritas.
âNever heard of it, but I canât wait to experience it with you. Iâd offer to pick you up but Iâd rather you not got swarmed by paparazzi. Iâll meet you there at six?â
Itâs a date đ
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This week on Great Albums: lots of people love Gary Numan. But they tend to love his very early work, and his very recent work, without a whole lot vouching for the stuff in between. My favourite work of Numanâs is 1984â˛s Berserker, a true gem buried in the sands of many, many mediocre albums. Find out what makes it so great by watching my video, or reading the transcript below!
Welcome to Passionate Reply, and welcome to Great Albums! This time around, weâre looking at a fairly famous artist, and at one of his not-as-famous works: Gary Numanâs Berserker, first released in 1984.
For the most part, if youâre a fan of Numan, youâre either a fan of his earliest work, and/or, his recent work since the 1990s, and thereâs a substantive slump in between these two. In 1979, the artist made a tremendous splash with his initial hits âCarsâ and âAre âFriendsâ Electric?â, but after the release of his second solo LP, Telekon, only the following year, the public rapidly began to sour on Numanâs android antics. While his early work is held in high regard, and perhaps even unassailable for synth fans, most of his other work in the 1980s is met with a lot more scrutiny.
Numanâs bad days arguably came to a head with 1983âs Warriors. Warriors was initially meant to have been produced by the great Bill Nelson, whose work Numan evidently much admired. However, the artistsâ clashing personalities allegedly made it impossible for them to work together, and Nelson left the project and had his name removed from it. Besides this periodâs poor aesthetic decisions, showcasing Numan with blond hair and head-to-toe leather like a very sorry Billy Idol clone, Warriors feels like a mess of disjointed sonic ideas, losing the nucleus of what had made Numan special.
Music: âSister Surpriseâ
Like most of Numanâs work from this period, Warriors was not only a flop in the eyes of critics, but also an arguable commercial failure. It would go on to be the final record he released on the Beggarsâ Banquet label; after its release, he decided to take matters into his own hands and start an independent label, Numa Records. This is where Berserker comes in, having been the first independent release Numan got to make. And I think it shows, in that the album comes across as extremely focused in its themes, as well as very willing to do things that are more novel and unique.
Music: âBerserkerâ
The albumâs title track was its lead single, as well as its opener. As it opens the album with the line, âIâve been waiting for you,â I canât help but feel that I, too, have been waiting for Gary Numan, whose true genius lay dormant for some years, like the fabled king under the mountain. The title trackâs screeching guitar is, perhaps ironically, more reminiscent of Bill Nelsonâs famous guitar work than anything on Warriors. Overall, I canât help but feel it resembles the general template of Numanâs celebrated later work, with its emphasis on jagged electronic textures rather than traditional instruments, as well as its lyricism, portraying an abstractly menacing narrator who seems as inscrutable and inhuman as they do dangerous. In that sense, itâs a bit of a glimpse into Numanâs future. Still, one canât deny that Berserker remains an album that feels âof its time,â take it or leave it, as on the second and final single, âMy Dying Machine.â
Music: âMy Dying Machineâ
âMy Dying Machineâ seems to revolve around its woodsy, sample-based percussion track, perhaps reminiscent of Geinoh Yamashirogumiâs work with gamelans and jegogs for the soundtrack of the famous film Akira, later in the 1980s--albeit less organic and more precisely mechanical. Itâs a sound that I canât get enough of, personally, but itâs also something that springs directly from the advancements in sampling technology that were becoming more accessible by this time. The use of female backing vocalists, heard on many tracks throughout the album, is another touch that grounds Berserker in a mid-80s context, as it was a fairly common trend at the time. But Iâd argue that the employment of this technique enriches the album: Numanâs backing choir seem no less haunting than he does, surrounding him like sirens on a desolate crag, harrying us with hooks that in the past might have been played on an early synthesiser instead. The contrast of these female voices also helps highlight the greater vocal range that Numan himself attempts on this album. Squawking at higher pitches had been serviceable earlier in his career, when he remained more indebted to punk, but on Berserker, we really get a lot of his chest voice, and he proves himself to be a surprisingly competent vocalist on tracks like âCold Warning.â
Music: âCold Warningâ
Earlier, I argued that Berserkerâs title track prefigured Numanâs later albums, but I was mainly comparing lead singles to lead singles. âCold Warning,â I think, sounds a lot like the typical album track on a recent Numan album: slower-paced, somewhat atmospheric, and ominous in a more moody and subtle manner as opposed to directly threatening. Note also its intro, with its prominent use of a viola, which really stands out against Berserkerâs overall more electronic soundscape. By this point, Numan had been no stranger to incorporating traditional instruments; earlier in his career, heâd been impressed by the work of Billy Currie of Ultravox, who played not only synthesisers, but also string instruments like viola, in the context of a rock group. Numan had gone as far as to hire Currie to perform on his 1979 LP The Pleasure Principle, and its accompanying tour. Still, I think âCold Warningâ reminds me less of The Pleasure Principle, and more of Numanâs more recent efforts--particularly his 2021 album Intruder, which features Gorkem Sen playing the yaybahar, a novel string instrument of the latterâs own invention. Still, for as much as Berserker stands out as one of the least commercial endeavours from this period of Numanâs career, itâs not totally devoid of pop influences. Take, for example, the track âThis Is New Love.â
Music: âThis Is New Loveâ
From its title alone, âThis Is New Loveâ seems to announce itself as something more conventional and accessible, and indeed, its lyrics are more straightforward than what youâll find elsewhere on Berserker. Those omnipresent backing vocalists are given a pleasingly hooky assignment here, and the instrumental arrangement, dominated by that oh-so-80s slap bass, is also less abrasive, and an apparent nod towards pop. If this track were also a scrying crystal, Iâd say it looks ahead to Numanâs near future, and lighter, more funky tracks like âYour Fascination.â
Of course, I canât do Berserker justice without talking about the visual side of this period in Numanâs career. Front and center on the cover of the album, as well as contemporary supplemental releases like singles, we see Numan in the distinctive makeup associated with this era: solid white skin, with striking, solid, deep blue hair, eyes, and lips. On one hand, his appearance here shares a lot in common with where he got started, generally painted white with a lot of dark eyeliner, but thereâs also an element of newness about it, in the use of that brilliant blue. Visually as well as musically, Berserker feels to me like the ideal thing for an artist to be doing by the time of his eighth major release: whittling down to the very best elements that defined their initial work, while incorporating and experimenting with new ideas at the same time. The last time we saw a headshot of Numan on the cover of an album was the aforementioned Telekon, but in contrast to the ambiguous and perhaps diffident expression Numan had there, on the cover of Berserker, he seems much more sure of himself. Staring directly forward, with perhaps a hint of anger suggested in his brows, he seems to regard us with confidence, and a certain single-mindedness.
Taken together, Berserker is an album that âconvinces,â expressing a clarity, certainty, and cohesiveness of creative ideas. Like the savage and frenzied warriors of the Old Norse skalds, Berserker comes after us relentlessly, invoking something otherworldly as it does so.
But as much as Berserker seems like such a determined statement, Numan never necessarily made an album that was exactly like it. He seems to have a relative soft spot for it, in that he still performs tracks from this album in live sets despite largely snubbing the rest of his 80s output, but Berserker didnât exactly revolutionize the way he approached music at the time. For Numan, the 1980s were largely a time of throwing things at the wall to see what stuck, and, as mentioned above, we know he wouldnât find what stuck for him until a decade after the release of Berserker. If youâre looking for more of this sound, your best bet might be the 1985 single âChange Your Mind,â a collaboration between Numan and Bill Sharpe of the jazz-funk outfit Shakatak. While combining Numanâs sound with funk may sound a bit strange, itâs something that many of the synth whizzes from earlier in the decade had started doing to remain relevant in the mid-to-late 1980s, and at least on this cracking single, it seems to come together pretty well.
Music: âChange Your Mindâ
My favourite track on Berserker is âThe Hunter.â While Iâve emphasized the extent to which Berserker is a forward-looking album for Numan in a sea of mostly forgotten mistakes, âThe Hunterâ is the track that feels the most to me like it could be a classic Numan work, and I can easily imagine a lower-tech version of it appearing on Telekon. Just listen to that delightful air-raid siren synth rendition of the main vocal hook, and Iâm sure youâll agree! Thatâs everything for today, thanks for listening!
Music: âThe Hunterâ
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folklore || this is me trying
description: she left the outer banks two years ago and now sheâs coming back for the summer. they havenât seen each other since she skipped town without telling him. theyâve both hurt each other, so how do they come back from heartbreak?
warnings: swearing, angst, S L O W B U R N.
series based on songs from the album âfolkloreâ by taylor swift.
authorâs note: hiiii sorry iâve been gone for a HOT second. life has been busy and inspiration has not hit me lately, but here we are and iâm excited about where this is going. pls let me know if you would like to be a part of the taglist!Â
Part One (the 1) | Part Three (mad woman)
her.
growing up, your favorite story was Peter Pan.Â
the boy from Neverland stole your heart quickly and you dreamt of a place where you would never have to get old. the adults in your life always seemed stiff and unlikeable. they complained about being invited and not being invited to parties. it seemed like they were confused about what they wanted.
being raised in figure eight meant too many fancy parties with stuffy adults and pretentious kids. through most of high school, you would show up at the beginning, but sneak out half way through to spend the night surfing with JJ. he had always been your escape from the uptight life that your parents made you live. they had dreams for you to go to college or marry into money, maybe both if it worked out for them. but that wasnât what you had wanted.Â
college wasnât your scene, you couldnât imagine spending another four years learning about places and cultures, instead of actually experiencing them. you quickly wrote college off your list when you picked up a camera for the first time. at first, you was mediocre, at best, but eventually people were paying you hundreds of dollars to shoot their weddings in your first year. your senior year of high school, you created a name for yourself and through the power of social media, you was noticed by a multi-million dollar wedding company who offered you the internship of your dreams.Â
your parents didnât approve of the offer, but at eighteen, you knew you wanted this and they couldnât stop you. you packed up your entire life into her little Subaru and left.Â
this internship was the gateway out of the outer banks, away from kook life, away from the heartbreak, towards a new life. a fresh start.Â
he would have asked you to stay, but it wasnât that easy. JJ brought a love you had never known into your life, but he also brought a heartbreak you had never felt before.Â
you had an hour left in your drive and as your stomach turned, you had to remind yourself that it was your choice to come back for the summer. JJ was a part of the package deal of returning. you pulled over to the side of the winding country road. in one swift motion the car door opened and you found yourself hurling out onto the dirt road.Â
âIâm trying, Iâm trying, Iâm trying,â tears were streaming down your face as the anxiety washed over your body. there was a certain desperation in your voice that scared you. knowing that if you were near the side of the road, maybe your car would get just a little too close and youâd go tumbling down, never having to deal with what was to come.Â
âfuck,â you slammed the door shut, breathing in through your nose and out your mouth, watching your breathing and gripping the steering wheel like it was a lifeline. as your breathing slowed, you shifted gears and the wheels of your car found the road again.
the love you had for him was still there and it scared you more than anything in your life. and here you were, driving straight into the storm that was JJ Maybank.Â
JJ.
JJ felt like he was floating as he rushed around the chateau, to clean up the mess his friends made the previous night. so many things have changed, he thought, three years ago, thereâs no way in hell Iâd be doing this. which was true. when she left, his entire mindset shifted. she was the one person he thought he would have forever, and with the rest of his friends out of the outer banks during the school year, he had to grow up.Â
john b left him the chateau during the school year. free rent in order to keep up the house? sold. he made the house his home. completely renovating the little shack on the water. it was the first time in his life he was fully responsible for something big, and he wasnât going to fuck it up. so he kept to himself, fixed up the chateau, praying every day that it would pay off. praying that she would come back to him.
he knocked on john bâs door.Â
âcome on, man,â he yelled, âyou gotta get up and clean, sheâs going to be here in like an hour.âÂ
he could hear both john b and sarah groan and shuffle around the room. sarah opened the door, rubbing her eyes and yawning. âJ, you need to chill out.â she said, making her way to the kitchen.Â
john b was still in bed, his mouth hanging open, trying desperately to succumb to sleep again, âdude,â JJ threw a shirt at his face, âget up.â
âwhy does everything have to be perfect, JJ?â his voice hissed and was raspy from the early morning wakening, âitâs not like you guys left on the greatest terms, so what does it matter?â
JJ shut the door muttering a âfuck youâ as he walked to the kitchen and threw the beer cans into the garbage which made an audible clang. sarah jumped as she closed the cabinet door. âJJ, chill,â she poured herself a cup of coffee as he paced around the house.Â
âsarah, if your asshole of a boyfriend does anythin-â
âheâs not going to do anything, JJâ she leaned against the countertop, her face almost buried in her morning coffee, âhe loves Fin as much as the rest of us. she left on a high note with us, but on a bad one with you, so i get why youâre freaking out.â she paused, thinking of the best words to say, âbut you canât let her see that. she doesnât need to have that power over you. youâll talk it through with her this summer. iâll make sure of it.â she touched his shoulder as she made her way back to the bedroom.Â
he collapsed onto the chair in the living room. closing his eyes and placing his head in his hands. âiâm trying. iâm trying so hard.âÂ
she was coming back. this was what he had been waiting for since she left two years ago. he wanted more than anything to prove that he had changed and wasnât the same boy she left.Â
her.
you wiped your hands on the side of your shorts as you pulled into the driveway of the chateau. you could feel tears pricking in the back of your eyes, and blinked in hopes of pushing them down. you put your car in park and turned off the engine. âitâs now or never, get out of the damn car.â you whispered to yourself through your teeth.Â
the front door of the shack opened and john b was the first to emerge the little house. you stepped out of the car just in time for him to wrap his arms around your waist and lift you off the ground. it always shocked you every time he was able to take your feet off the ground. in no way were you as physically small as sarah and kie, your curves were prominent and there were times you couldnât shop at the same store as the other two girls, but john b always made you feel just as beautiful. he smelt of a mixture sea salt and tea tree shampoo. it felt like home.Â
âi missed you, Finny,â he smiled against your neck, it felt right that john b was the first one to hug you. he was the one who had been there for you the longest, and even though you didnât want to admit it (because he was a real dumbass sometimes) his friendship meant the most to you.Â
âi missed you, too, JB,â you said, as he broke the hug to kiss your cheek.Â
sarah let out an audible squeak as she wrapped her arms around your neck. âitâs been too long!â you both rocked back and forth. until sarah let go, knowing you had a lot of people to hug.Â
pope and kie were next, it only seemed fitting that they both went in for a hug at the same time, forming a little circle. when pope left the hug, you grabbed kie to hold a little longer, whispering, âwhere is JJ?â kie could feel your hands shake slightly, clearly nervous to see the blonde boy.Â
you could feel her playing with the hair on your back, âiâm not sure, Fin. heâs around here somewhere. i think heâs just as nervous as you, if not more,â she placed her arms on your shoulders, separating the hug. âhe loves you a lot,â she whispered for only you to hear.
âwell, he had a pretty terrible way of showing it,â you sniffed, feeling tears streaming down your face. the entire scene was so overwhelming.Â
you had missed the sound of the waves crashing against the shore and watching the HMS pogue sway with the waves. you missed the salty air and the humidity that summer brought. you missed the sight of the chateau, while more fixed up now, just a little shack on the beach. you had missed this little family of yours.Â
âso,â john b clapped his hands together. âdinner?â everyone agreed in unison knowing the pizza that was awaiting them inside. kie and sarah wrapped their arms around your shoulders as everyone walked up the steps of the chateau.Â
it felt like a little piece of your heart was getting put back together. your friends were more of your family than your actual family ever had been. you breathed a small sigh of relief knowing the one person who you didnât want to see wasnât inside. whether you liked it or not, he would be around the next three months.Â
stepping inside you could see the amount of work that had been put into the home since you had last left. there were new coats of paint, new pieces of furniture, and there was a wall of pictures hanging up of the six friends in the different seasons of their lives. even the photos you had sent of your adventures in colorado were up there. you felt your stomach drop with the thought that your friends never actually forgot about you. instead, they were always supporting you from afar. tears pricked at your eyes. it was like coming home.Â
your eye caught a particular picture. it opened up an old wound you had spent so many years pushing down. it was you and JJ the summer before you left at the beach. his sandy blond hair pooling over your face as he looked down at you. it was a particularly warm day and instead of spending the day on the hms pogue, the gang had ventured out to the actual beach. it was one of your favorite days with JJ. you remember it being a day of snow cones and sandy butt cheeks and hitting a volleyball around the beach. it was like everyone agreed to fill an entire day with all of the summer adventures. it was a dream. until it wasnât.Â
JJ.Â
he stood in the driveway of the chateau two hours after she arrived.Â
while the outer banks always had an ungodly amount of humidity, his hands were sweating more than usual. he chewed his bottom lip, unsure of where to go or what to do next. did he wait for her to come out? should he just walk through the door? it was technically his home and she was just visiting. no, it was definitely her home once too.Â
he ran his fingers through his hair, he knew he needed to see her. it had been two years since he had spoken to his best friend. but she was within walking distance. he could yell her name like all those nights after she left, but this time, she would hear him. he could run to her and wrap his arms around her waist and feel her warmth, her curves, her beauty and never let go. he could hear her laugh and listen to the stories of the adventures sheâs been on, see the pictures she had taken. he wanted nothing more than to kiss her lips, and feel her love again.Â
the outer banks wasnât big. so the entire town had known what he had done when she left. it was clear that she was running from him, but he didnât blame her for any of it. if he was in her situation, he would run too.Â
he started to walk to the door, his legs felt like jelly, but it had been some time since she got there and he hoped she would be distracted by the others that he could just slip inside and listen to her talk from his bedroom.Â
the first thing he saw was her walk down the stairs, she was barefoot and her skin a golden brown. her t-shirt came down past past her hips and he was unsure if she was wearing any shorts underneath. it was by far his favorite thing she wore when they were dating. her hair had grew and was now far past her shoulders and cascaded down the front of her chest.Â
as his eyes came up, he locked eyes with the girl he loved since he was ten. and then his entire body went cold.Â
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Lucky Kentucky ch. 1
Chapter 2
Hello there, this is my new Rockstar!Bucky x Reader fic. It was heavily inspired by my love of seventies mega rockstars, Almost Famous, Classic Rock, and a little bit of personal whimsy. I hope you enjoy, and read responsibly.
â ď¸ WARNING â ď¸ : cussing, sexy times, drugs, booze, smoking, objectification, fornication, liberation, and a litany of other sordid topics and traumas.
Your name didnât matter, at least not so far as you could tell. They called you Kentucky, sometimes if they felt cheeky, Bluegrass. You liked it, the first band that gave you that name was some shitty college band out of Detroit. They were convinced they were gonna be the next Led Zepplin. They called it quits three years later, a good old fashioned Rock nâ Roll suicide, booze, women, and drugs. The finer things always gets the best amateurs. However, their lead singer had a way with words, he came up with the nickname. He also wrote a beautiful song about a girl named Kentucky, who he just couldnât swing, some big named country superstar sang the song and the last youâd heard he had been writing for the best of the best since. This earned you your title, Lucky Kentucky. A bit on the nose for your taste, but it made perfect sense. You kept following the music, you went to a band in L.A., the day you left, they signed a record deal with Sony. The next was a little English girl and her backing band, her first tour of England with you landed her a tour of the US faster than they could say âBurbon.â
You are what is known in the music business as a road manager, so far as you could tell, this was the job you were born to do. You made schedules, you supplied booze and other artifacts, you got hotels, paid off paparazzi, packed busses, and shoved half out of their mind rock stars on to stages in more countries than you could count, you couldnât imagine any better life. You were the best of the best, you were who the record company called when everyone else had given up. You were a fixer, and an incredibly talented one at that. You had a gift for taking a mediocre side show band, and turning them into headliners.
So when you got the call from Tony and Pepper that you had to fix The Howling Comandos, you were shocked. They were big time, nothing like your usual fixer upper opener that you could make insta stars. They certainly werenât your crowd, but you always had a problem saying no to Pepper, Tonyâs company manager. Tony was a talented mixer, and a gifted album technician. So when he started his own label, it blew up pretty quickly. The comandos were the first band he signed. They had won Album of the Year their first Grammy season without even batting an eyelash. So once business started booming, Pepper took over the paper work, and Tony did what he did best, Fucking around with a mixing board. You had met them when you started working with Natasha and the Widows, a Blondie style punk outfit. They had a pension for eating men alive. Eventually, it got in the way of their success, so you stepped in and saved the band from total destruction. You and the starks had been thick as theives since.
âTony, you mean to tell me, that the Commandos, the biggest artists of the decade, need my help?â You scoffed down the line, checking the Widows out of the last hotel of their tour with Greta Van Fleet.
âYes Bluegrass, I do. Barnes is going through some existential heart break shit âcause ole bitch called of the wedding, and fucked the Guitarist of their opener. Heâs been all drugs, booze, and sappy shit since, and someoneâs gotta get the mother fucker back on stage. Iâm Loosing money here Kentucky, somethingâs gotta give.â Tony sounded livid, there were very few times where Tony was as frazzled as this, so you knew it was serious.
âAlright, but I have conditions.â You sighed, you thought you could hear the sound of Pepper weeping tears of joy, but you couldnât be sure. âI want the Widows to open, Iâm not done with them yet Stark theyâve got some potential that still needs to be tapped. I want Frankie on security, I want Wanda for wardrobe and makeup, I want Vision for my techie, and Iâm taking Peter as my Head roadie.â It was a big ask, but if you were doing this, you were gonna need the best possible team.
âJeez woman, rob the treasure chest would yah? You want all of them? You just asked me for the entire roster. Theyâre on other tours! I canât just- HEY! Woman donât you-â you heard a slap and an ow, and suddenly you were with the one and only Pepper Potts- Stark.
âKentucky? You have a deal. You can have the Allstars in three months, everyoneâs tours should be wrapping up, that puts you just in time for festival season. You up to it?â Pepper sounded like someone had just kicked her puppy. So you knew, you were the only one that could save the day.
âVirginia? Count me in. Give me the three months to plan and connect with the team and Iâll make sure James Barnes makes it onto that bus.â You could practically taste her relief through the receiver. What had you just signed up for.
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Youâd done it. Six months, 7 bus rentals, 75 hotels, 107 plane rides, 20 festivals, 95 shows, 89 cities, and roughly 200 people later, you had managed to construct the American leg of one of the biggest and longest tours you had ever seen. All it took was two months, and 23 bottles of Jack Daniels, and you had done it. Now all you had to do was meet the band, and have your first tour meeting.
You had never been so nervous to meet a group of men in your life. Normally, these meetings weâre pretty laid back and informal. Lots of getting to know you, and goofing off. This time, you were in charge of a multi-million dollar tour that could make or break the band of the decades d ruin your career. No pressure. Needless to say, you were fairly nervous.
You were relieved upon arrival that the first people to make it in were the people who seemed to be the most reliable. Vision and Wanda were quietly whispering ďżź to eachother in the corner as always, their hands gently intertwined as they surveyed the rest of their new subjects. Frankie ďżźwas standing off in another corner looking like an immovable brick wall. His sunglasses firmly in place on his nose, looking scary as always. Peter was off with the widows flirting with their drummer. You didnât think it would end well, seeing as MJ was a bit of a hot head, and Peter was akward and nerdy, but to your surprise, they seemed to be getting along swimmingly. Natasha and Carol were staring at a book full of something, if you had to guess, it would be song lyrics of some variety, and to your shock and absolute awe, Peggy had saddled up to Steve Rogers. Steve was the guitarist of the Commandos, and he seemed to be thoroughly enjoying her company. Tony and Pepper were chatting with Clint and Sam the drummer and bassist of the Commandos, and Bruce Banner, your newly appointed second hand. James Barnes was nowhere to be seen.
âWell, well, good to see that most of you have arrived early!â You smirked walking to the head of the table with your big box of tour folders, Peter moving instantly to help you. âIf I have not yet made your acquaintance, I am Kentucky, just Kentucky, you may call me Bluegrass or Lucky, but I will always prefer Kentucky. It has come to my immediate attention, that you sorry suckers were in need of a fantastic road manager, and here I am.â You survey the room as you spoke taking into account every face that you could see in the room and making sure everyone was following. âNow, where is James?â
ââââSome unnamed bar across town âââďżźâ
Buckyâs head pounded. Wether it was from the booze or the pounding music he had no clue, but he could tell that it was far too early to be in this booth.
âYou really went for it last night Barnes,â Bucky looks for the source of the voice to find that, Luke Cage, owner of the best bar in LA, was unloading boxes of tequila into his storage cabinets under the bar. âYou shouldnât have either, youâre late for your tour meeting.â
Bucky absorbed the information, and felt it melt out of his brain as if it were nothing more than an irritating ear worm. âHow do you know about that?â He sighed running a hand down his face and slowly standing to grab his leather jacket.
âItâs sharpied onto your arm,â Luke chuckled pointing to Buckyâs right arm in just about the only clean space someone could fine. âSteve came in and did it last night before giving about a hundred dollars to let you sleep it off in that booth.â
âOf course he did,â Bucky scoffed, âthe punk never knew when to leave well enough alone.â Bucky quickly slipped his sunglasses over his aching eyes, as he watched Luke slide a cup of coffee across the bar. âGoodbye Luke, your bar is the only thing Iâm gonna miss about this town.â
âGoodbye Bucky, the free live music, and the fantastic tips are all Iâm going to miss about you boys. Iâll tell Jess you said hello.â And with that final fond farewell, Bucky left Lukeâs bar for the last time before he was trapped in a tour bus for six months.
The drive to Stark Records was as second nature to him as tying his shoes. He easily glided in between cars, making record time to his place of employment. He parked his bike next to a slot that occupied the sweetest little red corvette heâs seen in a good while. The tune in the reference catches his brain and he starts to whistle the chorus, wishing the artist formerly known as Prince was still around. He walked past Sharon, the desk clerk, giving her his customary wink and a smirk, stealing a sucker out of her candy dish and wandering into the meeting.
Thatâs when he saw her, the hottest piece of ass this side of the sunset strip. She looked powerful, she looked commanding, she was covered in tattoos and wearing the best looking little black number. She was saying his name. âWhere is James?â
âRight here sweet thing, I hope Iâm not too late to the party, Iâd hate to miss anything that came out of that pretty little mouth.â Boy was it pretty, the full lips covered in a red shade that he could only seem to imagine smeared all over her moth as she panted his name.
âAh, yes there he is. Hello, James. Just in time to-â
âJames is my dad sugar, Iâm sure we can think of something a little more clever for you to-â
âAlright then Junior if you donât mind, Iâm trying to conduct a meeting, and I will not be letting a drunken moron interupt my carefully planned work flow.â
Buckyâs jaw snapped shut as the people around him, some friends and some strangers, laughed at the clever ladyâs little barb.
âAlright then, as I was saying, Iâm here to help. I believe in the Peter Grant method of representation. The you-have-a-venue-you-want-it-filled-I-have-just-the-band-sixty-forty method.â She said, flipping her hair into a simple bun on the top of her head, which Bucky couldnât find more attractive if he tried, âI have made hotel arrangements for every show, I have made bus arrangements, I have planned for added shows, and delayed dates. I have brought you the best opener I have, the best artists, roadies, security, and technicians I could scrape together, and most importantly, I have given you my time and my trust. I can make your touring life as easy and as simple as humanly possible, or I could ruin it. However, all I want is to get you out there, grinding again, reminding your fans the reason they love you. All you have to do, is let me work, and focus on the music. Can we do that?â
âDoll? I like the way you think.â
âJunior? Itâs gonna be a long fucking six months.â
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I agree with everything you said in the Normani ask! Lsa is mostly darkskin black women so I strongly assume that they live through Normani and see every type of criticism as a direct insult to themselves. I know it sucks, that there aren't any darkskin mainstream female singers, but Normani truly isn't it. She's so boring and her eyes look so hopeless. There's truly nothing wrong with not being a big superstar. They're defending a pretty multi-millionair who doesn't know them, as if their lives is depending on it lmao. And the song was bad, I don't understand the Du du du part. It's just another mediocre sex song. The Aaliyah sample, which they claim is a coincidence, was so badly embedded and everyone can tell, its One in a Million. But most of LSA are just trying to guilt trip everyone into agreeing with them, bc no one wants to be labelled a colorist or racist. I wish they'd come out of their forever-a-victim-shell, not all criticism that goes to her is a direct take on her skin color or race ffs. And I've only seen a handful of posts that have mentioned that she's not pretty in the face, never the skin color. And 98% of the criticism are about the lackluster song and that her fans are annoying lol. But the oversexualization of black women has desensitized me that it doesn't even bother me anymore. But I honestly liked Motivation, I hoped she would have gone the pop route because her voice would've meshed with the upbeat melody, so it wouldn't stand out so much, that her vocals aren't the best. And agree, Chloe also shows wayyyy too much ass. Both of them and Saweetie, are trying to be a persona, that they don't feel comfy with and you can clearly tell. I also thought Doja Cat would be the breakout star after Say So, but her album kinda tanked besides Kiss Me More, Ain't Shit and Woman I think. Those are the sounds that are very popular on Tik Tok rn. She is indeed really really weird. Idk if you saw it but I was so putt off after she posted that pic of her on the toilet naked on twitter, with the pad stuck in her underwear. I get that people now do the most; to get a buzz reaction from stans but after some time people won't react anymore, even if you show your cooch lmao. I'm still waiting, if she truly did peak with Say So. I have hopes on Halle Bailey, when the little mermaid comes out, because her and Chloe sing like angels but I'm not sure because there were soooo many racist Disney adults and they make up the majority of Disney consumers and they'll probably force their kids to not watch it. They won't tune in for a black mermaid, even though it literally won't change the fucking story lmao. I'm just worried that if she doesn't act good she'll be demonized. She also has a too unique look so I don't know if many people would be for that, many superstars are somehow conventionally attractive and uet very unique. I also don't get the point of live actions movies but whatever lol. But she also shows a lot of skin, it just doesn't get the press talking bc she's not as thick as Chloe. The decade has only begun, but I'm kinda hoping for a wholesome black woman. If Taylor Swift never has to show ass, I don't see why we can't have a cute black girl-next-door-superstar. I also have my theory that, if she exists, when shows up, she's going to be like the Rodrigo girl, a 'unique' sound and no one has ever heard of her (minus the industry plant part lol). LSA really wants the next superstar to show up already, with the many posts about Normani, Megan, Doja, Chloe and who ever else and trying to push them into superstardom already. What most don't get is, while they may be popular in the US, most of the time the rest of the world doesn't know who they are.
Exactly 10000% agree with you and tbh over there it does feel like they take disagreements with Normani as hate on themselves. I'm like Gina from Martin complexion so I can't relate to them and this entire thing with Norm.
Also y'all will kick my ass but honestly.. Unpopular opinion here, my own confession:
I really feel like Normani had more personality and soul as a person when she was in 5th harmony as well as when she was allowing her dislike for Camilla to show. LSA always spins it as Camilla bullying Normani and the group but it was equally messy in my eyes. Ironically look who went on to be a star first and isn't struggling with a boredom management crisis. But this will be equated to Camilla getting everything the way she did cause of her ethnic background etc. Camilla is on the chill out rn and Normani is having her moment but I would pay to go see Cam before Normani sadly and Normani is more talented than Cam. And yes not everybody needs to be a world star mega star.
Is it just me or is the American market very strange these days? So much narrow competition to be a BIG thing like damn can't y'all be okay with just a career and being in the game? Cause to me feel it feels like that after the 2000s it's just narrow now. Normani wouldn't have even been a star in the 2000s honestly cause she lacks that much personality and only ones who go for her are the ones who are invested in her beyond the music who are pushing her to win. But she deserved a shot at making it but I feel she is better off as a dancer.
Right. Tbh say so was enough for Doja to be known internationally cause it got turned into a Japanese version and I think she doesn't realize there is untapped potential there cause say so did sound like a kpop female idol solo song no cap. She has crossover potential but not well traveled and smart enough to realize and utilize that. There just aren't any smart girls that can do it hell none of them have the wits to do it. Meg is cool in general but she won't be it cause she does not have mass appeal out of America. I'm sure if she did a world tour it would sell of course but honestly her music is niche to the world and not every black person who isnt an African American is dying for a BBL large butt I'll make a man nut in 5 secs bad bitch savage aesthetic. It's tired already and meant more when Lil Kim and Nicki did it. Chloe x Halle are nobodies beyond that on a national scale outside of Western market although of course they have overseas listeners maybe. They all carry themselves and behave like they aren't going anywhere in life beyond America. This is why Beyonce and Michael Jackson are goats cause they had mass appeal. Also none of them followed beyonce formula and stuck to teetering on white aesthetics with the constant variations of blonde hair to the point you'd assume she was born with blonde hair and keeping her skin complexion light at times when it benefited her. A
And yes the next superstar may an Olivia type. Ella Mai and Jhene Aiko give me those vibes but Jhene fell off and Ella is still doing her. And that's the major divider and difference. A lot of white artist don't have get naked and sing about sex 24/7 to make it yet we keep falling behind cause our own resort to this 24/7 as their main sound and wonder why in regular life black women are always seen as a "fetish"
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Serendipity-Minjoon/Minimoni
Geunyang geunyang neoui gippeumeuro
Summary-Namjoon sings a song to Jimin, and proposes to him.
TW-Light mention of past alcoholism, anorexia and depression. Itâs not a lot, but I wanted to say this just in case.
Namjoon was nervous, his hand ghosting over the pocket in which he had kept the ring box.
Tonight, on the rooftop of the Sky Bar in Seoul, he was going to propose to Park Jimin, his fellow bandmate and boyfriend of three and a half years.
Right now, Jimin was at the balcony of the Sky Bar, looking at the beautiful view of Seoul that the bar had to offer. He had a drink in his hand, and Namjoon knew that would be his only one. Jimin had a past with alcohol, and although he was in a better place, Namjoon knew that Jimin still kept cautious around it.
âBack from the washroom?â his boyfriend asked. Namjoon resisted the urge to just stare into his eyes. âYeah.â heâd lied. He never went to the washroom, he just gathered his nerves together outside the entrance to the bar.
âThank you for doing thisâ Jimin said, his voice a little more than a whisper as he stared at the view. Namjoon loved seeing Jimin like this, calm, serene and captivated.Â
âFor doing what?â
âThis. I know youâve been busy with the upcoming album, Joon, and in our lives, dates arenât really that simple. And you know how much I like the view of Seoul from a height.â Jimin looked at him, and Namjoon guessed that he was touched by his gesture. Since neither of them were out to the public yet, they had to block off areas so that they could have date without risking their relationships, and letting their moments be seen by fans or Dispatch.
âIâd do anything for you, Jimin.â the two lovers stared at each other with love in their eyes before Namjoon leaned in and captured their lips in a chaste kiss.
 âSeoulâs so pretty in the nighttime.â Namjoon remarked. No matter how many times either of them-or even the rest of their band-saw this view, it always captivated them the same way it had the first time.
âWell, so are you.â Jimin couldnât help but add the cheesy line. Both of them laughed, in a way that only they could make each other.
Namjoon quickly finished off his beer. It was time. He went through all the things that the other boys had told him when he expressed his wish to propose to his lover.Â
âSing a songâ was something that all of them had in common. Although the song had varied. from Jungkook suggesting âSmithereensâ by Twenty One Pilots (there were too many high notes), to Jinâs suggestion of âFalling in Love With Youâ(too cheesy), to Hobi and Taeâs mixed suggestion of âDear Future Husbandâ by Meghan Trainor(Just NO). In the end, they picked on a song that had a special meaning to both Namjoon and Jimin.
âI modeun geon uyeoni anyaâ he started singing. Despite his insecurities in his singing voice, Jimin had reassured Namjoon that heâd always love his voice. â Geunyang geunyang naui neukkimeuro â Jimin looked at him in surprise before he picked up on the song.
Serendipity, the song that Jimin sand on the Love Yourself:Answer album. The song that Namjoon had written for Jimin in order to convey that he had feelings for him. The song that played when they said their first âI love youâsâ.
âOn sesangi eojewan dalla â Jimin sang, in a voice that wasnât his typical soprano, rather it was his natural voice. â Geunyang geunyang neoui gippeumeuro âÂ
They both continued the song together, alternating every two lines. Although it was impromptu (at least for Jimin, whereas Namjoon had practised in front of Yoongi and Jungkook for two hours), they fell into a natural rhythm, as if they always burst into song at random moments.Â
This was their magic. They way they could always work together seamlessly, like parts of a machine.
After the impromptu duet ended, Namjoon wrapped Jimin into a back hug, which Jimin gladly accepted.
Taking a deep breath, Namjoon started the speech that heâd written while Jimin thought he was working on the album.
âJimin-ah, when I met you, it was in the BigHit building. I donât think anyone knew what we were going to become. We were just two boys who thought we were straight. You were, shy, insecure, and a kind-hearted soul that most people never saw because they just tried to hurt you. I was, well, I was Rap Monster, with that ugly foil perm which for some reason, made Jungkook respect me.â Jimin laughed at the mention of Namjoonâs former stage name and persona. Namjoon didnât blame him. It was very funny.
âHonestly, the most special thing about us is the flow we have with each other. From the first moment we met, we just..clicked. It was in a way that we didnât with anyone else. It always took me time to build a connection with someone. Yet, with you, I felt it at an instant. Saying this, Namjoon moved, so that he was standing besides Jimin and facing him. Jimin was facing him too, tears starting to pool in his eyes.
âNamjoon..are you...? Jimin whispered, his voice shaky.
âPlease let me do thisâ he hurried out, pressing his forehead against Jiminâs. The latter nodded, giggling as he pressed his lips against Namjoonâs. âOkay, Iâll let you.â
âI remember when we were practicing for the Blood Sweat and Tears comeback, and you passed out because you werenât eating. I remember my panic; I remember wishing I could fix it, and make you realize that you are perfect the way you are, Jimin, because you might have flaws, but itâs the flaws that make you perfect. It was then I realized that I loved you, and that I wasnât straight.â Tears start slipping from Jiminâs eyes, and Namjoon quickly wipes them away.
âDonât cry, Jagiya.â he whispers. Jimin just nods.
â Feburary 14th, 2017. We were shooting for Not Today, and in the dressing rooms of that set was where we shared our first kiss. It was a dare from Tae, and I thought that it was a joke to you too. And you thought it was just a dare to me. We both remember the date, so I have a feeling it was more than that. I couldnât sleep that night, because all I could think of was you, and how I wished it was real. Six months later, I wrote Serendipity, and shared the demo to you. It was about you. And then I remember that I was feeling down, I wasnât thinking the best thoughts about myself, and you manned up and said that I was perfect the way I was, and that you wished Serendipity was about you. You were ready to leave and go to Jungkook so that you could cry about how the band dynamics would get ruined thanks to your âselfishnessâ. And then I told you that it was about you. We shared our first kiss that night.â
âDo you remember the first time we made out? It was in a party, and you and I were, fair to say, a bit tipsy. And then we probably wouldâve gone further, if Jackson hadnât caught us and then said that he would never invite us to his parties again if he had to see us like this all the time.â Jimin couldnât help but laugh at the memory.
âI remember you froze up; apart from the band no one else knew of us. But we were okay. Jackson didnât really care. I remember how nervous we were when we decided to come out to our parents. I thought you and I were going to pass out. And although it probably did take time for them to accept it, they most certainly have.â
âA few months ago, I asked your parents for permission to marry you, and they said yes. I even asked the boys in the band, and they all said yes, although Tae might not like me for the next couple of days. Even Bang PD said yes.â
âJimin, youâve been with me during all my highs and lows. From the time when I had depression, and you would motivate me to do something, to when we got a number 1 on the Billboard Charts in USA and I was so happy that I couldnât even sleep. I want to wake up and go to sleep with you everyday. I want yo to hear all the bad, good and mediocre songs I write. I want to be there to wipe your tears when you cry, and laugh with you when you are happy. I want to spend starry nights on picnic blankets in the countryside with you. I want to see you learn English and see you learn new words and stumble across words you donât know, but youâre okay with that because it helps you grow. I want to watch every movie you like, even if I donât, because I love your smile, fuck that, I love everything about you, from your smile to your personality to your fucking flaws, because they make you the Jimin I love. I want to love you for the rest of our lives. And I want to know if you want to do all these things with me as well.â
Namjoon went down on one knee, tears starting to pool into his eyes. Jimin was crying right now, and Namjoon resisted the urge to wipe his tears away, because he hadnât even asked the question yet. He pulled out the ring box, and Jimin lightly gasped.
âPark Jimin, will you do the honor of marrying me?â He opened the ring box. Inside was a rose gold band with a diamond in the middle. Simple, yet it was elegant.
âYes, Namjoon. I would love to be your husband someday.â Jimin answered in a thick voice in flawless English. Jimin got down to knees and tightly hugged his boyfriend-no, fiancĂŠ- as they both cried into each otherâs necks.
âKim Namjoon, my fiancĂŠ.â Jimin muttered.
âYou havenât even worn the ring yet, pabo.â Namjoon joked. Jimin laughed, in a way only Namjoon could make him laugh. Namjoon slid the ring onto Jiminâs left ring finger. Jimin looked at the ring in awe.
âItâs beautiful, Joon. Itâs like something I would buy for you.â
âWell, I am wearing a ring that you bought for me.â Namjoon had started wearing a ring, a symbol of his relationship with Jimin. And it was a hot topic of fan speculation, but Namjoon couldnât care less. He kissed his husband-to-be with all the love that he had in him, and it registered in his mind that this was their first kiss as fiancĂŠs, and both of them tasted like the alcohol that they had. Â
Jimin got up first, and then helped his boyfriend up, who, managed to trip while doing so, nearly causing both of them to fall.Â
âOf course, your no-klutzyness charm could only last for so long.â Jimin joked. âI honestly thought youâd break the ring box.â
âWell, be glad I didnât.â Namjoon playfully retorted. âAnyways, Iâm pretty sure the boys will be downstairs by now, ready to pick us up.â He could already hear the others cheering for the two fiancĂŠs, alongside the inevitable question: âSo is it Kim Jimin or Park Namjoon?â
As they left the bar and headed to the lift, which was gratefully empty, Namjoon lightly kissed Jimin again. âIn English, the word serendipity means âan unplanned, fortunate discovery.â
âI know, Joon. In case you forgot, I sang a song called âSerendipityâ for one of our albums.â
âI know that. I just wanted to say that our love is true serendipity. Neither of us really thought that weâd ever be in love, but yet, itâs the best thing thatâs happened to me, to both of us, guessing by the way you cried when I proposed.â
âYou mean so much to me. And every word you said, I want it too. And Iâll even watch all the movies you like, even if I donât, because your happiness makes everything worth it.â The smile on Jiminâs face was worth more than a million dollars.
And then Namjoon knew, that even in this messed up world, there was still hope. And it was in his fiancĂŠ, his husband-to-be, Park Jimin.
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Who is (and who was) who in Marilyn Manson | by Lala Toutonian (Madhouse magazine N°84, year 1997)
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A very normal family
  Stop with the Reverend, for Satanâs sake! Itâs the turn of the rest of the band, those relegated who maintain a lower (although not less controversial) profile. Itâs difficult growing behind the shadow of such a character as Marilyn Manson, because of that is essential to maintain a spiritual strength and a fire-proof constancy. Here, an article (with the most solicited data) about the members and opus of the group which has most given to talk in this time.
Twiggy Ramirez: androginous (but sexual)
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  The second place in the category which refers to a visual phenome, is undoubtedly for the androginous bassist. Twiggy Ramirez is only one step away from taking the name of Antichrist Superstar, as his mentor.Â
  âI pretend trying to break that barrier between whatâs femminine and masculineâ says the one who insists with dresses; âI think I had my first erection the day I put on my motherâs undergarments. Itâs a part of me which feels comforted with that, as so many other people. Obviously Iâm not a hermaphrodite, although people believe so. Thereâs a very thin line between hetero, bi, and homosexualâ.
  His thing is terminant. âWeâre here to change todayâs mainstream because itâs very mediocre. There was a time in which music wasnât exciting anymore, there wasnât a single one rockstar, it depressed me. Iâm proud of being part of the mainstream now, somebody had to change it, turn it more excitingâ.Â
  He asegurates his thing was there since his motherâs womb. âShe danced in a cage for the Kinks and Leslie Westâs bandâ. His father could be the legendary guitarist West or Ray Davies from the Kinks: âI grew up surrounded by music. I lived with an aunt who was a groupie and very friend of the Ramones. I remember she hung up with one from the Bee Gees tooâ. If he hadnât got success with music, he assegurates heâd be a prostitute.Â
  And he continues with polemic themes: âI was raised without religion, Iâve never been cristian or satanist, Iâm nothingâ. Heâs a rockstar: âOur music is so straight forward⌠Thereâs a group of idiots who simulate they donât want to be rockstars, like if they felt pity for themselves. Weâre the exception. The last time I talked with my mother, she told me little boxes with pubic hair were arriving at the house. I thought it was spectacular. Someone has to raise and care for those children. If their parents raise them, theyâll be just like usâ.Â
  Twiggyâs musical career started in primary school. He started playing violin because of a Star Wars film. In secondary school days, âShout at the Devilâ by MĂśtley CrĂźe and âStay Hungryâ by Twisted Sister were the albums which had most amazed him and the ones which ended up being decisive in his career. âDr. Hook and the Medicine Showâ was his first band: âA blend of country-wester disco with rockabilly bitsâ.Â
  Ramirez met Manson in a Shopping Mall. âWe had a band called âMrs. Scabtreeâ in which I dressed up as a black woman and sang. Then we started âSatan on Fireâ, christian death metal group. I also sang and played guitar while Manson played the bass there. All these projects were while the creation of Marilyn Manson was taking place. He (Manson) played drums and bass, mostly so I could improve with guitarâ.Â
  Attracted by most dark metal genres âbecause of its message and rageâ, Twiggy realized there was a lot of limitation, you couldnât go further and the audience was minimal in this type of events.Â
  He was invited to join the band after the recording of âPortrait of an American Familyâ and after two rehearsal weeks, they went on tour. âFirst album was recorded as a live band. In âSmells Like Childrenâ most of the material were covers. Scarcely in the song âScabs, Guns and Peanut Butterâ I could give my own musical ideaâ.Â
  Until that moment nothing could prevent the path the âAntichrist Superstarâ would take, although the creepy version of âSweet Dreamsâ deatheached a rotten smell. Ramirez assegurates that while in the âSmells..â tour, Marilyn and him had the same dreams, so they started composing together because it seemed that inspiration had the same start point in common: âIn those days we talked about telepathy. We knew what the other was thinking and what we pretended for every songâ.Â
  The recording process of âAntichrist Superstarâ ended up being pretty stressful for Twiggy since the moment in which Daisy was fired out of the band: âI donât really know what was up with Daisy, but I was feeling alone, I wasnât contributing in anything. I was lucky that there was Trent (Reznor)â Twiggy, with Marilyn Manson, plus Madonna Wayne Gacyâs contributions, were some of the pillars that helped âAntichrist Superstarâ being the success it is.
Godâs chosen one
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  The last thing the groupâs members needed after the recording of Antichrist Superstar was having to search for a replacement for Berkowitz. But in the face of Daisyâs inability to get into the Manson family, they had to search for a six string player. This was in May 96â, and after a year they crashed into Zim Zum. While dozens of musicians paraded around Treznorâs house, the trio Manson-Ramirez-Gacy was acting as a judge while watching auditioning aspirants.Â
  Although his name doesnât derivate from a sex simbol and a murderer, the nickname has a particularity worthy of emphatize: the idea was taken from Hebrew. Zim Zum was the angel God had chosen to do the dirty work at the start of times; the same function was given to him by Mr. Manson while including him in the band. There are other dark sides in his ambivalent personality too: Tzimtzum refears, in cabbalistic terms, to the place God left for giving place to humanity. Also his name could be attributed to the serial assassin from the 60âs, called Raymond Zum.Â
  From Illinois, Chicago, he worked for a long time in a guitar factory (In fact, three guitars of his are self-made). Apart of LSD (Life, Sex and Death), he had never participated in a band before. He debuted recording the live version of âIrresponsible Hate Anthemâ.
A simple guy: Olivia Newton Bundy
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  Brian Tutunick is an original member of the Spooky Kids, after the initial project of Marilyn Manson, he continued his career in Collapsing Lungs and now he plays in Nation of Fear: âNation of Fear started in 1995 after the dissolution of Collapsing Lungs. This project really was in my plans before that Marilyn Manson thing, as something more industrial. But some members of the bands preferred hip-hop. Then I met DJ Grinch, who was a Collapsing fan, and we started Nation togetherâ. He assegures his thing is industrial, goth, alternative and a bit of rap and hardcore, everything blended with computers.Â
  How was his history in Marilyn Manson? âPerry (Zsa Zsa Speck) and I were working on the Collapsing thing, and we were very friends. We had never made music before, but we wrote a lot of poetry. He started hanging out with Scott (Daisy Berkowitz) and recorded something like six tracks. That way they started Spooky Kids and I was asked if I wanted to be part of the project. I joined them, although I always pretended returning to Collapsing. Everyone gave ideas about performance and the visual part, but Manson already knew what direction we had to take. Between 1989 and 1990 we had only five shows. Madonna was bizarre. When we quit off the band because we wanted to keep up with Collapsing, we told him to take charge of the samplers. He was an encyclopedia of bizarre actsâ, tells Olivia.Â
âI basically left the band because Manson and I have our own messages, someones in common, others not (...) Iâm not on the musician's side. I hate musicians. Iâm with entertainment, because of that I have more in common with a stripper than with Billy Joelâ, concludes Wayne Gacy like if he wanted to make clear his mental lucidity.Â
  Olivia practically doesnât see the members of Marilyn Manson anymore, unless they met in a club or pub in the city. âMarilyn Manson is a shock rock band. Theyâre what theyâre because theyâre very controversial. Thereâs a thing I find particularly funny: religious groups which attentate in itâs shows. I consider that threatening a stadium full of kids with a bomb is a lot worse than a simple guy whoâs trying to play his musicâ. Simple? Guy?...
Leafing the Daisy
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  When Daisy Berkowitz said goodbye to his peers in the middle of Antichrist Superstarâs production, fans were left totally shocked. After desperate searches by the press hand, he finally appeared, only to present Three Ton Gates, his new aggrupation. Now heâs heading towards the trial Manson initiated because of his compositionâs rights.Â
 âI wasnât fired. I felt like I didnât have credit for what I was doing and certainly not the opportunity of doing my music, while that was all I did between the first album and Smells Like Children. Manson didnât accept any of the compositions I had for Antichrist Superstar. He only wanted âWormboyâ and I felt deceived. He didnât respect me. He changes opinions every five minutes, Iâm not exaggerating. He was always searching for a sonorous personality and I contributed a lot in that field. When you write, you cannot simply transmit what you have in your head. He isnât a musician, so he doesnât understand that. He never appreciated my effort in creating a big sound unityâ.Â
 He assures Manson wanted to work with Twiggy and not with him, because the bassist took charge of the guitars after Daisyâs departure. âWhen I noticed I had only participated in a third part of the album, I decided to go away. They didnât even include lots of guitars! They literally didnât let me enter the studio, I only entered two times per week to do the basics with guitars. I played in five tracks: âWarmboyâ, âTourniquetâ, âMr. Superstarâ and âAntichrist Superstarâ. Then they told me âNow you can leaveâ and they hadnât even ended the album. I realized I had to leave...â laments Daisy.Â
  He criticises the Reverend saying he had never had a band before and he doesnât know what professionalism is. He doesnât hang out with any of the band members now: âNobody has even invited me to a showâ. What does not being âDaisy Berkowitzâ anymore feel like? âA bit betterâ, he tries to convince us.Â
 The ones who want to contact the ex-Daisy, can do it at http://www.spookykids.com/threetongate (Itâs a magazine from the â97, I hardly believe the page even exists now)
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Diary of a Junebug
A visit to Coral Beach
What a fun time at the beach! Coral Beach is such a lovely place - from the clear blue waters and colorful mosaics scattered throughout the boardwalk, it's one of those places ideal for vacationing based on appearance alone. No photoshopping necessary when it comes to taking pictures here!
I'm surprised that I haven't visited the beach sooner since it's about an hour away from the camp. In fact, there's still so many places nearby that I haven't been to yet. The trip was kinda a spur of the moment kind of thing Pancetti, Audie, Snooty, Lyman, and I planned at the last minute. By chance I ran into an old friend who's vacationing there too and now she's coming back with us.
So we spent a couple days at Coral Beach exploring the sights and enjoying the resort and then tomorrow we're heading back to the camp. Of course, I also spent the time catching up with Desi, who's been enjoying the seaside scenery.
Desi Rivera's an aspiring singer-songwriter who hopes to make it big one day. Right now though, she's jumping off the ladder and starting from scratch. It's a risky move, but I think it's a necessary one. Given her talent and ambition, I know that Desi will come out stronger than ever.
I met Desi at summer camp years ago. Even though we only spent one summer together, we kept in touch for a while after that. The summer camp thing was something our parents made us do and to be honest it wasn't really our thing so they didn't push us when we told them that there wasn't going to be a next summer. The experience wasn't terrible - I did make a friend after all - but summer camp and I just didn't click at all. Now that I think about it, it's kinda interesting that as an adult I'm running a camp right now - though this and summer camp are totally different.
Since Desi lived in the town nearby we often ran into each other. As we got older contact became sporadic but we occasionally said hi to each other when our paths crossed. Then as adults we regained contact on social media and have been keeping up with each other since then. Desi often posts covers and original songs, which is how she got her online following. She could've easily made it big if it weren't for certain people.
Desi's journey as a singer-songwriter is sure to become an interesting one. Ever since she could talk, Desi knew she wanted to be a singer. She always had a nice voice, one that became more refined as she got older. Talented songwriter too, with an honest and poetic way with words. And it's a damn shame that her talent has been consistently overshadowed and sidelined for white mediocrity.
Yup, I said it - mediocrity. No disrespect to Meghan Tyler and Too Cool - I mean I can see their commercial appeal, but for the most part, their music is bland and forgettable. Music tastes aside, it is pretty impressive that Desi was in the same circles as people like Meghan and Joe of the Shayne Brothers.
Desi first met the two at a camp for aspiring musicians, the well known Camp Music. She was one of many talented nobodies who wanted a glimpse at stardom. Meghan Tyler is the daughter of pop star Ann Tyler, and it was her who ran the camp, the typical queen bee. I happened to cross paths with Meghan and her friends online (unrelated reasons) and they always gave me a vibe of a high school clique. I interacted with her indirectly a couple times but then actively avoided her when her friends stirred up drama. It's one thing to vagueblog about an ex-friend who screwed you over, it's another to ruin someone's reputation by claiming that they faked their trauma just because you had a petty falling out with them.
Then there's Joe Shayne, best known as the lead singer for the Shayne Brothers. He was amazed by Desi's voice and took an interest in her. The two started off kinda rough with Joe pushing his boundaries and Desi rightfully calling him out on his entitled behavior. The whole thing was kinda like a Cinderella story with Joe trying to figure out who was the singer he overheard while passing by while Desi tried too hard to impress him after realizing who he was. By the end of the summer, they began dating, becoming regulars at Camp Music for the next several years.
Despite what the others were saying, Desi and Joe were going strong for eight years. Desi was associated with the Shayne Brothers, which was a blessing and a curse. As much as she liked Joe and his brothers, she didn't want to be known solely because of her connection to them. They were going to get engaged until last year when Desi broke things off. According to her, things had been kinda rough for a while but they tried - probably a bit too hard, in her words - to stay together. They're still friends but Desi thinks in a year or two they'll drift away, which I think is what she wants.
On one hand it's kinda sad since they've been together for so long. And from what I've heard about Joe, being with Desi helped him a lot as before he met her he was on his way to becoming a short tempered almost has-been. Basically, she made him shape up and consider his future seriously. But aside from their love of music, Desi and Joe were from completely different worlds. In the years since they got together, they've grown into two different people. The two have spoken openly about their breakup and it seems like it's for the best. Sometimes things just don't work out in the end and that's okay.
As for Meghan, Desi always had a complicated relationship with her. Being the fish out of water, Desi tried to impress Meghan, even if it meant dumbing down herself to please Meghan's ego. There was always some sort of competition between them with Desi constantly feeling like she has to prove herself. While Meghan did help Desi out with her connections and fame, Desi never felt she earned her recognition, another reason why she wanted to start from the ground up.
For years Desi was part of Meghan's band, Too Cool. While Desi occasionally had some solos that charted, she and the other members were always overshadowed by Meghan. She considers the whole experience a mixed bag, one that started out exciting but in the end the bad outweighed the good.
A few months ago, not too long after leaving Too Cool, Desi did an insightful interview for a magazine where she spoke honestly about her ups and downs with the band as well as her breakup with Joe. I always felt that she deserved better than Too Cool, especially after reading the interview. From being constantly referred to as "the Mexican one" even though she stated multiple times she's Cuban, to being told to sing slightly off key in order to make Meghan sound better - no wonder she wanted out. It's an eye opening read on the ugly side of the music industry, particularly on how WOC artists are treated.
Following her departure, another member and longtime friend of Meghan, Maria Silva, also left the band for similar reasons. She too had also spoken out about the racism she experienced, having been constantly referred to as "the Chinese one" despite being Filipino. I don't know Maria too well but she comes across as genuine and I wish her well on her solo endeavors.
Right now Desi's taking a break on music, though not entirely. She's been writing songs and making demos but it'll be a while before she releases something. For now Desi wants to celebrate her freedom, starting with a long, well deserved vacation. Then once she's had enough rest and relaxation, she plans to jump back into the music scene with a bang, this time on her own terms with her calling all the shots.
Desi's been teasing me and the campers with what she has in store. In light of the racism she experienced with Too Cool, Desi wants to embrace her Cuban culture more than ever, starting with the music. Mainstream pop radio hits aren't her thing anymore, so she's going for a new sound inspired by her Cuban roots along with her usual pop rock style she's got going on since she began writing songs. She's also considering the idea of doing an album in Spanish, though that'll depend on a lot of factors.
It's nice to see her so excited and passionate about her music - that's one of the things I love about her! Like I said, Desi's got talent and ambition, and I know that she'll successfully make a name for herself without Meghan or Joe's shadows. I mean, the demos I've heard already sound a million times better than pretty much everything Too Cool has done - imagine how the final product will be! Once the album comes out, I'll be one of the first in line to buy and download a copy.
We met up with Desi by chance at the hotel, her room being upstairs. She's been traveling around, crossing off places where she always wanted to visit. So far she's crossed off four places from her list. After Coral Beach she was debating on Hero's Tunnel and Swan Park since they're right next to each other. Since the camp's along the way, I invited her over and hopefully during her time there, she can make up her mind on where to visit first. I know she'll enjoy the camp, especially Saltwater Shores since she's a beach gal.
Coral Beach is such a beautiful place. One of the first things we did when we got there was to pose in front of the fountain and toss a bell in for a wish. Then we checked into the Coral Beach Hotel, where we got a lovely view of the ocean and fountain.
The architecture of the hotel is so pretty, it reminds me of an old village on a tropical island. Along the boardwalk are charming little shops and cafes where we got to enjoy shaved ice and fine handmade souvenirs. I got a set of cute floral teacups, a dot grid notebook with a pretty mosaic cover, a gorgeous seashell necklace, and a painted ukulele.
We went swimming and snorkeling in the ocean, where we got to see the pretty coral the place is known for. Nature can be so fascinating sometimes - the coral really does look like fancy lace! I also collected a bunch of pretty seashells like pearl oysters, which are pretty rare, as well as pink oyster shells and obsidian shells, something I've never seen before. Desi suggested that we go parasailing - her new favorite activity as of recently - so that's what we did and it was a lot of fun! We also went surfing, watched a performance at the theater, shared cocktails during happy hour, and explored the gardens.
Today we went to a mosaic workshop and made some cool decor. Then we went to a ceramics shop where we watched how bowls were made, which was pretty cool. After that we had a late lunch at Sash, where we had poke and butter mochi. Next door was a bookstore where we browsed for a while and then we spent a couple hours at the beach before heading to the hotel for dinner.
Since we aren't leaving until tomorrow afternoon, we had some time to kill so we spent it at the pool, lounging around. Desi says she's looking forward to seeing the camp and meeting up with Daisy Jane. It's so good seeing Desi relaxed and having a great time, especially after what she had to put up with during her time with Too Cool.
It's getting late now and I still have a little bit of packing left to do. The ocean's so pretty at this time of night, the way the light of the stars reflect on the water like sparkles. I can't wait to come back in the near future.
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Never Love Again
Anon: Can you do one with harry being a dick/asshole and is really mean to y/n hurts her feelings(they arent dating) and harry tries to win? her back major angst please :)))
The song lyric used in this is from âNever Love Againâ from âA Star is Bornâ.
The one where Harryâs never been meaner (acquaintances!harry&y/n)
Genre: AngstÂ
Word count: 2.9k
Warnings: Mentions of death
   Youâre thankful for the radiators on blast, their artificial heat hugging you allowing you to release the strong grip you had on your coat as the clear door slams shut behind you thanks to one of many strong gusts of wind.
    Wiping your feet on the carpet you wave animatedly at Jess, the receptionist, hurriedly taking off your scarf and coat hanging it on the pegs provided. Coming here had become a regular for you over the Summer, the prime time of music writing for musicians, so now in the freezing month of December getting ready for a writing session in one of Londonâs most famous recording studios had become second-nature to you.
    Jeff Azoff had contacted you years ago after hearing about your impeccable talent for song writing and admirable professionalism, something that he himself revered because he knew first-hand how frenzied operating within in this industry could get. So, when one of his fatherâs clients â John Mayor if we really feel like name dropping â had rambled on profusely about your undeniable talent he had no choice but to check you out. And that was almost 4 years ago. From then on the two of you had formed a close bond, tagging along on family holidays, being invited to the fanciest of parties and being the resident ghost writer for Full Stop Management.
    And today just like most days you were called into the studio to aid with the writing of yet another global superstar and according to the vague text that Jeff had sent you that morning, said artist was Harry Styles.
    Now, you werenât completely unfamiliar with the man, after all having a friendship with Jeff automatically meant that you would constantly be in Harryâs presence, however you wouldnât go as far as to call yourself friends. Your relationship with him had always been low-key and mediocre, chatting occasionally, and for lack of a better word, the two of you were merely friendly. Nothing more, nothing less. You had absolutely no issue with this of course, it wasnât as if you both would never talk, you would exchange formalities, have light-hearted conversations, and his gentlemanly behaviour was evident from when the two of you had first met. You had always admired him, even in his boyband days, loving how he was never afraid to just be, respecting how he had the kindest and most gentle soul. You had no issue with admiring him from a distance.
    As you entered the recording booth you were greeted with warm smiles weirdly from everyone sans Harry it seemed. You shrugged off his odd behaviour, excusing his cold greeting with the fact that he has been stuck in here for hours, the stress from making a song stealing all of his attention as the deadline for his next album fast approached.
    âMâso sorry Iâm late guys, got caught up at home.â You sheepishly mumbled an apology plopping yourself on the coach beside Mitch as you pulled your notebook out of your bag. You almostmissed the look Harry gave you, his face screwing up in distaste as he rolled his eyes. Almost.
  âNo worries Y/N.â Jeffâs American accent ran thick, âYouâre the one doing us a favour.â You ignored the sound of Harry huffing across the room, instead choosing to focus on finding the piece you thought would be best for Harry.   âWeâve been stuck here for hours,â Mitch groaned beside you, his head leaning back as he closed his eyes, âplease tell me you have something for us.â
   You chuckled lightly, âAs a matter of fact I do, itâs not much but it should be enough to kickstart a few gears,â reaching over you gently patted Mitchâs head to which he smiled brightly up at you.
    âThink Iâll be the judge of that thanks.â Harry finally spoke up; however, he was still huffing and puffing, âSâmy album.â
   You ignored Harryâs harsh tone, instead choosing to smile brightly at him handing over your open notebook to which he took without even a whisper of a thank you.
    You watched on with nerves, your fingers fiddling on your lap as you Harryâs eyes skimmed over the pages covered with your hard work.
    However, rather than receiving the praise you thought you would get you were met with another scoff as his judgemental eyes turned to you.
   âSâsupposed be prepared arenât you? Thatâs why Jeff pays you.â
   âHarry!â Jeff shouts, yet the volume of his voice falls flat once it reaches Harryâs ears.
    âFirst your fucking late, sânot very professional is it? And then you hand me your supposed âchosenâ piece and it cannot be any further from what I am.â    âDonât doubt my ability to write when Iâve been successfully for other artists for years.â You huffed, crossing your arms and leaning back into the leather sofa.    âMâ not doubting your abilities to write sâjust even a basic amount of research wouldâve been evidence that what youâve just shown me is not like me.â
   Your heart beats erratically and your hands clench in an attempt to keep the rapidly growing irritation at bay. Reminding yourself repeatedly that it would not be okay if you were to kick him in the shins.
    âLike you said Harry, itâs your album you do have the final say,â you said through gritted teeth. âA âno thanksâ wouldâve sufficed too though.â    Reaching out your arm you grab your abandoned notebook carefully turning to the page that had the other page with a post-it note hanging out. âIâve got another one that I thought we could use.â
   Before coming you were sceptical of whether you would want anyone to look at these specific lyrics you had written, along with a couple others, you held these lyrics closest to your heart. However, it was this particular one that stood out to you as you had browsed through your book as soon as you received Jeffâs message. Maybe these lyrics could mean something to someone as much as it did to you.
   Please be gentle. You thought, once again handing the notebook back to Harry praying that he wouldnât be as harsh with this one.
    Once again you were watching on, your body full of nerves more so than the previous time. But rather than receiving a death glare you were met with a breathy laugh as Harry read over the lyrics you had given.
    âFucks sake,â you heard him mumble causing your heart to drop. âHave you ever even been in love?â
   âWha-â you asked surprise ringing clear in your voice.
   âSâliterally the most two-dimensional thing ever. Sânot captured anything at all. And apparently youâre of the best writers today.â He complained. âFucking lie sâwhat that is.â
   âHarry whatâs wrong with you!â Mitch jumped to your defence, completely in shock at his mateâs behaviour.
   âMâjust telling the truth, nothing wrong with that.â Harry pauses taking the time to read your work only to dissect it right in front of you. âLike seriously âDonât wanna feel another touchâ, pretty basic Y/N at least write something you have experience with.â
    Harryâs words were snarky and had no issue with cutting deep right to your bones.
    You sat there staring at the man across from you, completely dumbfounded with how your day had turned out. You never expected to be sitting across from Harry Styles, someone who had been nothing but nice to you since you first met and yet here you were, being ripped to shreds by the exact same man.    Your throat was tight as if being strangled with thorns, the words coming of your mouth strained as you fought the tears that were already threatening to spill. âYou donât even know me Harry.â
   âYeah and I donât need to to know what youâre like.â
   âI donât know whatâs warranted you to act the way youâve been. Mâjust trying to help you get out of the funk that youâve been in all day. No need to drag me through the mud.â You stood up, clutching your bag in your hands, shooting Harry one last look. âIâm going home I donât feel too good, but feel free to browse through my book to find at least one thing thatâs worth your time.â   You ignored the calls of your name from both Mitch and Jeff only sending them a small wave and a tight smile as you exited the room. You didnât care if your actions seemed âunprofessionalâ or âchildishâ there was just no way you would allow yourself to break down in front of anyone.
   You werenât ready to go back into the cold, not when you felt as if there was no more warmth left inside you. Who did he think was to say any of that to you? He had no clue what youâve been through, what youâve felt.
   You may have only been 18 at the time but heartbreak was still heartbreak and death was still death.
    You always struggled to think back to a time where he was there, when the dull ache in your chest hadnât been torturing you for months on end. When you had felt free and loved.
    But one night he had been ripped from you, pried from your loving grip and taken away without so much as a last goodbye from either of you.
    It was a drunk driver. A tragic accident. One that you would never allow yourself to forget. He had been on his way to you that night, after you begged him to come over to keep you company.
    He was there until he wasnât. And you hated yourself for a while because of it.
    Over the time your self-hatred had evolved to sadness, anger until finally peace. The first time you had ever felt such content was when you were sat at your desk, an untouched notebook resting in front of you, your hands moving before your mind could even process. Until hours later you finally stopped and what was once untouched was now full of words, lyrics and songs about what you felt, ups and downs and all.
    And now the same notebook rested on the small coffee table, ready to be dissected even further by a man who knew nothing.
   There was only one thing that could get you out of the hole you had sunk into. That night you found yourself sitting at the same desk, paper in-hand, where you wrote yourself to sleep, dreaming of a green-eyed man and a fatal collision.Â
//
  It was a loud and startling knock that jerked you out of your slumber. Glancing at the clock you huffed in both confusion and annoyance, who would be here at 7am in the morning? The incessant knocking forced you to hurriedly walk to the door, calling out only to receive no answer, the sound of their knuckles overpowering your voice.
   And of course, the culprit behind the door would be none other than Harry Styles. After all who else would be up before 7am dressed in running gear, hair sweaty, a tell-tale sign that your place was a stop off after his morning jog.   âHarry?â you asked, confusion lacing your voice. âWhat are you doing here?â   Harry gestured to the door smiling shyly to which you nodded with a roll of the eye, swinging the door open he stepped in. âNice.â He hummed, his eyes scanning the room.
   âHello? Itâs 7 in the morning Harry. Never mind how you even knew where I live but what are you doing here?â
   âJeff.â He remarked still preoccupied with taking in your clustered flat. âI mean Jeff told me where you lived and I came back to give you your notebook.â   âPretty sure Jeffâs not allowed to give out a clientâs personal information.â   âHeâs not.â Harry agreed, finally turning to look at you. âBut I begged and sâmore so to mend a friendship.â
   You shrugged your shoulders perplexed at the supposed friendship Harry claimed the two of you had. âNever aware we were friends to begin with.â   You were quick to cut off Harryâs reply, his mouth opening and his eyes shining with guilt. âI can see this conversation is going somewhere. Just give me a few to freshen up yeah? Just woke up.â
   Once you were in the safety of your bathroom, you let out a breath you werenât aware you were holding and took your time to freshen up.
    âThe fuck.â You mumbled looking at your scruffy complexion. âThis man gives me a headache.â
    Hyping yourself up in the mirror, you finally deemed yourself ready to come face-to-face with the man who had hurt you the night before.
   âI didnât know.â He said as soon as you walked in, almost as if he had sensed your presence. At first you were left confused by his words, but that was until you saw the frame he was gripping in his hands.
    âOf course you didnât, why would you?â You spoke after a moments silence, gently prying his fingers off of the photo and placing it back where it belonged.    âMitch knew.â you raise your eyebrows in question and what this had to do with anything. âYou met Mitch years after me, but Mitch knew.âÂ
  âCan you blame me? We were never that close Harry, but I got to a point in my friendship with Mitch to feel comfortable enough to open up and for him to recognise when there was something wrong with me.â
   Harry huffed; his eyes downcast so to not meet yours. âSâmy point! Iâve known you for almost four years now and I could never see beyond the front you put on. I couldnât see that you were in pain.âÂ
  You were shocked at his broken confession, but it only did so little to cure the damage he had done yesterday when he had verbally ripped into you and your hard work. âYou really hurt me yesterday.â
   At your words Harry looked up at you, taking your hand in his he gently pulled you to your sofa, his hand still on yours even when you sat down. âI canât even express to you how sorry I am.â
   âYou can start with why maybe. I may not know you well, but I know you enough to know that outbursts like that always have a meaning behind.â
   âI was just so frustrated.â Harry paused with a slight shake of his head as if to get rid of the memories he had made the day before. âNot at you, at myself. The deadline is so close, and Iâve not even got half of the songs ready. And then Jeff called you in to do my work.â
   He let out a breathy laugh, his hand only leaving yours to be raised over his head in exasperation. âI mean Iâm supposed to be one of the top artists of my generation and I donât even have the brain capacity to write enough decent songs to make an album. I was so embarrassed that my manager thought I needed a ghost writer, someone whoâs work I would take credit for, to write my songs for me. And then to make matters worse you had this book full of these amazing songs and it just made me question where I stood in the music world. God I was so jealous.  And I know none of this excuses my hateful words, but I just needed you to know where they came from.â
   âNot any concealed hate I have for you and not because I genuinely thought your writing was shit. It was just âcause in that moment I was an insecure little boy who couldnât handle someone being better than him.â
   âYou absolute idiot!â you all but shouted causing his eyes to widen in shock, âFirst of all, youâre a jealous prick. I canât believe you ripped into me so bad and embarrassed me in front of everyone because you couldnât admit to yourself the fact that you needed help. Second of all you I donât know if youâre aware, but you have an album full of amazingly written songs, something that you took a huge risk and then succeeded regardless. Third you know I donât want to be known for anything until Iâm ready, so enough with that taking credit bullshit and fourth thanks a lot for ruining my first writing experience with you I canât even begin to tell you how long I was waiting for someone to ask me.â
   âOh and fifth! I forgive you. But you better not pull that shit with me again. I can take criticism but only if its constructive and not used to attack me.â
   You mumbled in surprise as Harryâs arms wrapped around you pulling you in for a tight hug shivers running over your body from his whispers of what an amazing person you are against your neck.
    âWell are you ready now?â Harry smiled slyly pulling away from the hug, the almost-creepy look on his face starting to freak you out.
   âReady for what?â You asked with caution, unsure of where Harry was taking the conversation.
    âWant you to help me write thaâ lovely song you showed me ând I want you to be put down as the co-writer.â Harry beamed at you. âIf youâre ready of course, just thought if you wanted maybe itâs time for the world to see how talented you are.â
   Your mind was reeling as you contemplated your answer, you knew that somewhere down the line you wanted to be recognised for the work that you did. You just had never decided when, but as you looked at the man sitting beside you, you finally reached your answer.
âIâd love to.â
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lover - pt. 1
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lover, pt.1 - the first wedding thereâs a dazzling haze, a mysterious way about you, dear. -- words: 2k warnings: fluff, weddings and string lights
There was always something about a wedding that was just plain magical. The mix of love in the air and an open bar brought out the best in you. It was a cool early October evening when your childhood best friend married the love of her life. Crisp red and orange leaves lined the picture perfect vineyard as you watched her walk down the aisle. The air was just cool enough to prickle your skin when a breeze ran through, causing the hairs on your arms to stand at attention.
It couldnât have been a more perfect day for the occasion; the weather was flawless, your shoes surprisingly werenât killing your feet, and you found the perfect shade of lipstick at the last moment that matched your burgundy bridesmaids dress. The ceremony went off without a hitch, and as the glow in the sky faded into the horizon and tiny nighttime stars popped up in their place, shining down on the couples dancing you were strikingly reminded of how single you were.
The other bridesmaids all brought their significant others, and you were stuck at the table with the groomsmen youâd walked down the aisle with. You werenât unfamiliar with him, of course, he was, after all, one of the most famous popstars on the planet currently. But to you he was just the cousin of the dude marrying your best friend. He sits across from you at the circular table, his navy suit jacket unbuttoned, tie missing from around his neck and the first few buttons of his black shirt undone. You swipe your bottom lip with your tongue as your eyes trace the chest hair that peers from above the collar of his shirt.Â
 âAre you drunk or checking me out?â He asks.
 You snap back to reality, cheeks immediately flushing, âboth?âÂ
 Shawn chuckles and washes back the last of whatâs in his glass, âgood, because so am I.âÂ
 âChecking yourself out?â You jest.
 âClearly,â he scoffs.
 Shawn stands and moves to the chair beside you, âso youâre the brideâs best friend, right?â He asks.
 You nod and fold and unfold the place card in your lap, your mind was always calmer when your hands were busier. A terrible trait to have, really.Â
 âShawn,â he thrusts his hand towards you to shake, âsorry we didnât get to hang out much before the rehearsals and stuff. Work has been crazy.â
 âI can only imagine,â you pip, âalmost done with a world tour, eh?âÂ
 He smiles and scrunches his nose in that way that makes you sense his discomfort, âyeah, almost there. Always fun being on the road but always better coming home.âÂ
 âI couldnât do it,â you sigh, âfirst of all I couldnât bear being away from my cat for that long and secondly...arenât you tired? Whenâs the last time you slept?âÂ
 âProbably 2015.âÂ
 You snort, âsounds like you need a nap,â you fold your arms across the table and rest your head on them, closing your eyes.
 âWhat are you doing?â Shawn asks.Â
 You yawn, âtaking a nap. Try it. Itâs cathartic.âÂ
 He looks around to see if anyone is watching.Â
 âDonât worry about anyone paying attention. Theyâre either too busy being drunk or too busy trying to get laid.âÂ
 Shawn follows suit and rests his head against his arms on the table, his face just inches from yours, âand where do you fall in that?âÂ
 You ponder for a moment, âsomewhere in the middle.âÂ
 He laughs and stifles it in the crook of his elbow.Â
 âYou laugh at me a lot, Iâm really not that funny. So thank you for inflating my egoâ you say.Â
 Shawn lifts his head to rest his cheek back on his arm, âbut you are funny. Not with what you say but how you say it. I donât know how to describe it.âÂ
 You roll your eyes, âI think youâre drunk.â
 âIâm most definitely drunk,â Shawn says, âbut Iâm also right. Fuck - this is the first normal conversation Iâve had in months.âÂ
 You snort, âthis is normal conversation? Shit, I am so sorry for you.âÂ
 Now itâs Shawnâs turn to roll his eyes, âyou know what I mean. Itâs hard to be me and still talk to normal people about normal things without it turning into an interview.âÂ
 âAh yes, the peasants shalt dare not speak to thine King Mendes.âÂ
 He rolls his head to rest his chin on his elbow and glares at you, âyouâre simultaneously the best and the worst at the same time.âÂ
 You follow suit, moving your head a little too fast and blinking the stars away, âI jest. I get it, you write mediocre pop songs for the masses and now all anyone cares about is who youâre dating this week and when your next album comes out. It all must be incredibly boring, especially when youâre rubbing elbows with Taylor Swift.âÂ
 Shawnâs eyebrows furrow, âI take that back, youâre the worst,â he says, shifting his body away from yours and turning his head to the other side of the table, âlet me nap in peace. Maybe Iâll dream up some more mediocre songs.âÂ
 You ruffle his hair, âIâm kidding, Shawn. Your songs are lovely. In fact, I go super hard to âThereâs Something Holding Me Backâ in the shower.â
 He turns to look at you and glowers.
 âIâm still fucking with you.âÂ
 âAnd youâre still the worst.âÂ
 You laugh and punch his shoulder, âcâmon, let me buy you a drink and Iâll make it up to you.âÂ
 Shawn sits back up and presses at the wrinkles in his shirt, âitâs an open bar.âÂ
 âTwo drinks then!â You exclaim, standing and pulling at his arm.Â
 Something happens when he holds your hand and you canât quite explain it. Your fingers fit and lock like your hands have been searching for each other your whole life and thereâs a warmth that spreads inside of you like the way a lava lamp ebbs and flows under the glass. Itâs all warm and blobby and all over the place and you can feel the heat rise in your cheeks when Shawn notices it too.
 âTwo drinks still makes it an open bar,â he says, breaking the tension.Â
 You tug on him to follow you, following the zigzags of the threaded bulb lights against the murky midnight sky. You weave him through crowds dancing, reminiscing, taking selfies. Past the low orange leaved trees adorned with dimly lit lanterns. The hazy warm glow of everything masks the pinks in both your cheeks but canât hide the wonderment behind both your eyes. Perhaps itâs the promise of something different, or the universe telling you this was the beginning of something new, but all you did know was that this wasnât the first time youâd be crossing Shawnâs path again.
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 After too many drinks, three rounds of karaoke, two dance offs and one sloppy makeout session in the mens room, you and Shawn found a quiet place to be. Now, your lipstick was worn off (mostly evidenced by the smears of burgundy across his neck and chest that he had no interest in hiding), his suit jacket long gone (now wrapped around your shoulders) and the sleeves of his button up rolled to his elbows.
 The reception seems to go on forever, and youâre not complaining. Itâs reached a point in the night where everyone stops looking at the clock, and the party lives in its own timeless bubble where the sun never rises and everyone was effervescent in their own beautiful existence. The night was free to be whatever it wanted to whoever it wanted.
 Itâs an abandoned little area, where youâre at. It had been the spot of the cocktail hour after the ceremony and now had about a dozen or so high top tables adorned with wispy white tablecloths that blew in the night breeze. The tiny bulbed lights thinned out here, and it was almost too dark to make out the strong features on Shawnâs face, but you do your damndest to memorize them in the darkness as he sits beside you on the grass.
 âOkay, give me your worst.âÂ
 Shawn takes a deep breath, âviolets are red, Roses are Blue. Guess what? My bed has room for two.âÂ
 You choke on your lost count of a gin and tonic, tucked somewhere in the back garden of the venue. The music from the reception is faint and overpowered by the booming laughter coming out of your chest.Â
 âSomething in that is wrong,â you manage, âand violets are blue, dumbass.âÂ
 âHey, Iâm drunk, Iâm trying here,â Shawn slurs, leaning in, his face getting almost too close to yours.Â
 The smell of gin radiates off of him, his pink cheeks liken him to a sort of porcelain doll and the string lights in the trees around you reflect off the glassiness of his hazel eyes, âthat has to be the worst joke Iâve ever heard. It doesnât actually work does it?âÂ
 Shawn moves closer and brushes his nose against yours, âyou tell me.âÂ
 You gasp, clutching your chest and leaning back away from him, âyouâre fucking brilliant,â his face cortorts in confusion, âit wasnât the joke at all that you use as the pickup line - itâs the follow through.âÂ
 He grins wide and takes another sip of his drink, partially missing his mouth as a dribble falls from his chin and soaks into the collar of his shirt, âyou caught me,â he opens his arms out, âI wouldnât say Iâm a master, but Iâm pretty goddamn good.âÂ
 âYouâre tricky,â you swirl the liquid in your glass, âand youâre deceiving.âÂ
 He scoffs, âIâm deceiving. Youâve been playing all night like you havenât been checking me out, bought me a drink at an open bar and you touched my butt. Twice.âÂ
 You purse your lips, âthe second butt touch was an accident.âÂ
 Shawn narrows his eyes, âyouâre a terrible liar.â
 You shrug, âmaybe I am.âÂ
 A breeze rolls through and chills your spine and kicks up the leaves around your feet. You look at Shawn, all faded out and glossy eyed. His lips are pressed a little too hard together into a wet pout and his half hooded eyes stare right back at yours.Â
 Itâs quiet like this for a while, the crickets chirp along to the faded big band music from the reception and you find yourselves in a comfortable fog. Shawnâs fingertips play with yours as you try and busy your fingers to slow your brain. His face droops slowly with the mixture of drunkenness and sleepiness.Â
 You reach out, running your fingers through his hair, âwhat are you thinking about?â You ask.
 Shawn leans forward, pressing his forehead to yours, interlocking both of your fingers together. His lips brush past yours softly like you hadnât been biting and tugging on them barely an hour ago, âthe rest of my goddamn life.âÂ
 He presses a kiss against your lips but as soon as it starts it fades and his head drops to your lap with a soft thud. Tiny snores emit from his lips and you chuckle to yourself as you play with his curls, twirling the soft strands of hair around your fingertips.Â
 You let your fingers trace the sharpest points of his face; chin and jaw. But you also make it a point to reach the softest, like the dulling blush high on his cheekbones or the softly etched scar on his cheek. Itâs not until youâve run out of canvas on his face that you realize his hand is still holding yours tightly. Shawn moves ever so slightly when you shift, but nuzzles himself closer in.Â
 Thereâs a creeping gnawing feeling coming on and you know this has to end eventually. Soon the party will be over, everyone will go home and the sun will rise to a new day and this encapsulated bubble of love and warmth will be nothing but a memory on Instagram feeds and yearly anniversaries. Frankly, it makes your heart sink into your ass and your overwhelming warmth is replaced with overwhelming sadness. Itâs the high of happiness and a surge of endorphins followed with the crash and burn of the reality of tomorrow.
 Even though you hadnât realized it yet, that was the very first time you ever felt the pang of missing someone who was right in front of you.Â
 But it wouldnât be the last.
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the benefits of working in a music store
summary: meeting mj, who also happened to go to your high school, at the music store was the best coincidence in your life, ever
(Week 3 of my 30 weeks of writing prompts challenge: music store)
wc: 1347
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MJ detested many things: gender roles, smelly shoes, war, and most of all, store employees who tried to make conversation. She absolutely hated employees who were overly friendly and tried too hard to get her to buy whatever they were selling with their charm.
One time, MJ was at retail store with her mother and she picked up a bottle of perfume because it was decorated elegantly and suddenly, a store employee popped out of nowhere with a giant grin on his face and began complimenting MJâs hair before proceeding to tell her how she would smell wonderful with the lovely lavender perfume she was holding. MJ freaked out and almost chucked the bottle at him, but luckily, her mother stopped her before she could.Â
She never imagined that she would work at a retail store but she realized that all the books she wanted all were in hard-cover and extremely expensive. While MJâs mother always bought her books, MJ knew that her mother wouldnât buy her all the books on her wish list and decided to find a job. Since she wasnât legally an adult yet, most of the jobs available to her were related to retail.Â
Fortunately, there was a music store that sold vinyl records and CDâs offered jobs to people over the age of 16 so MJ got a part-time job at the store. She was taught to be friendly to the customers and smile more, which she did, only when the customers were looking. MJ didnât try to coerce customers into buying records as she knew from first-hand experience how annoying it was.Â
MJ had been doing a pretty good job of being a mediocre store attendant until you walked into the store one day. When you walked in, MJ didnât notice at first as she was reading a book about the history of advertising but she heard the sound of fingers against shrink wrap and she looked up to see you browsing vinyl records.
You were one of the prettiest people MJ had ever seen and she stared at you for a solid half-minute before returning to her senses and putting away her book. MJ watched as you flipped through the vinyl records, occasionally stopping on one here and there but not picking anything up. After a minute of browsing, you suddenly pulled out a vinyl record with a small smile on your face.
âGood choice. Not a lot of people buy vinyl records anymore, much less the first Panic! At the Disco album,â MJ remarked from her position behind the counter and you looked up from the record you were holding, noticing her for the first time. You werenât the only one who was surprised as MJ was shocked she found the courage to speak up first.
âYeah, itâs their best and most underrated album. I also just got a new record player so I need some new vinyls,â You replied as you continued to browse through the vinyls and MJ walked out from behind the counter to stand next to you. This was the second time she had left the counter voluntarily, the first time being to help a customer figure out how vinyls worked. She took out a record from the shelf next to where you stood and handed it to you.
âThis band good is pretty good too. If you like Panic! At the Discoâs first album, youâll like this album,â MJ smiled and she was internally screaming at herself. She had no idea what came over her that made her act so nicely but when you smiled back, her efforts were no longer considered wasted.Â
âThanks! I think Iâll just get two today,â You remarked as you followed MJ to the counter, where she prepared the cash register for your purchase. You planned the two vinyl records down on the counter and MJ picked them up, scanning them and tapping a couple buttons on the screen.Â
âThat will be fifty dollars and sixty two cents,â MJ read the total and you handed her the money. Another reason why vinyl records werenât used anymore was because of how expensive record players and vinyls were. Most people used digital streaming services to listen to music or just stuck to the radio.
âDo I know you from somewhere? I feel like you look familiar,â You frowned as MJ counted your bills and calculated the change. MJ carefully counted the coins and bills as she handed you your change and handed you your receipt as well.
âMaybe. Do you go to Midtown High?âÂ
âYes! Wait, I think youâre in my sixth period physics class. Youâre MJ, right? Our teacher called you out for asking too many questions once,â You laughed as MJ blushed at your comment. Placing the change in your pocket, you still stared into MJâs hazel brown eyes as you spoke.
âOh, right! Yeah, I remember you too,â MJ rubbed the back of her neck embarrassingly, glancing down at the counter as she prayed that her face wasnât tomato red. She always had trouble speaking with insanely attractive people and this was the worst moment for her habits to kick in.
âWell, nice talking to you. I have to go home now but hopefully, Iâll see you tomorrow at school!â You tucked the two vinyls under your arm and waved as you left the shop. MJ waved back and for the rest of her shift, she couldnât stop thinking about your brilliant smile.
MJ was lucky that it rained the next day because as a result, everybody ate lunch in the cafeteria, filling up all the tables. Of course, she sat in a secluded section of the cafeteria so she didnât have to deal with any fights over space. But she was surprised when you walked up to her and asked to sit with her during lunch since all the tables were full.
You broke into a relieved smile when MJ nodded and you sat down next MJ. She had been reading a book about the theory of relativity and to break the awkward silence, you asked what type of books she liked to read. The conversation then moved from books to film adaptations of books and before you knew it, lunch was over.
The next day, there was no rain and the cafeteria wasnât crowded but you still sat with MJ. This time, you two talked about music and you learned about MJâs taste in music. She liked a variety of music and liked at least one artist from each time period.Â
One day, you decided that you wanted to listen to some new music so you asked MJ to make you a playlist of songs she liked. She spent all night crafting a perfect playlist of recommendations and when she watched you listen to it at lunch the following day, she was anxious to see if you liked it.Â
You absolutely loved it and it became a weekly tradition for MJ to make you a playlist with new songs. With each playlist, MJ got a little braver and added more love songs. She decided to take a leap of faith when she was making a playlist and named it âhidden messageâ. MJ chose her favorite songs and arranged them in order so that the first letter of each song put in together spelled âwill you go on a date with me?â
Instead of showing it to you at school like she usually did, MJ texted you the link to playlist and waited for your response. You usually always responded to her text messages quickly but this time, you didnât respond at all. MJ thought this meant that you were scared away by her but the next day, at school, she was surprised that you greeted her with a hug.
As you wrapped your arms around MJ, you whispered in her ear, âYes. Yes, I will.â
It was safe to say that MJâs choice of bringing you to a concert for you first date was one of the best decisions she had ever made in her life.
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Linkin Park Retrospective Part 6: The EPs
I canât listen to One More Light yet. Donât have it in me to tackle that. So instead, weâre going to cover the two EPs released by the band, Collision Course and Songs from the Underground.
Collision Course
âŚwhoâs idea was this?
Apparently MTVs, as part of an âUltimate Mashupsâ series, though their involvement seemed mostly hands off. A 6-track Jay-Z/Linkin Park crossover album isnât an idea I would have tried to sell, but Mike and Jay seem pretty into it based on the snippets of studio chatter you get in between tracks. The album opens with that, in fact- Chester (?) going âI ordered a Frappucino whereâs my fuckin Frappucino?â is certainly one way to start things off.
Iâm just going to make it clear now that Iâve never heard most of the Jay-Z tracks being mashed up here, so I canât really comment on that end. As these tracks are mashups with songs I am quite familiar with, though, I can at least give some degree of assessment. And unfortunately, Iâd argue Collision Course compares unfavourably to Reanimation as far as crossover albums go. Largely speaking the remixes done to the Linkin Park instrumentals are uninteresting, though they do match the new vocals done over the top of them, and Jay-Z is basically fine but not overwhelming.
I think my biggest issue with this album is that a bunch of the songs just drop just about everything new about them and are just the Linkin Park track for the last like minute or so- Dirt off your Shoulder/Lying from You, Jigga What/Faint, and Points of Authority/99 Problems/One Step Closer are all pretty guilty of this. That isnât to say that the rest of these tracks arenât good, but this in particular is a sticking point I couldnât ignore.
Track-by-track, then. Dirt off your Shoulder/Lying from You is the most straightforward track on the whole project, and probably the biggest sufferer from eventually just being Lying from You (seeing as thatâs kinda the worst of those three LP tracks). I have no idea whats going on in the instrumental from Big Pimpinâ/Papercut, but the Papercut verse on top of that sounds just sort of weird- Jay-Zâs verse fits better, but also, thatâs probably the one written for that instumental isnât it. Jigga What/Faint is interesting, with the first halfâs backing being a heavily remixed version of the verse instrumental from Faint, but a minute in itâs just Faint oops. With that said, Jays bars over that instrumental actually does fit pretty well.
I donât know rap that well, I canât really comment on the flow or anything, but while the vocals are new recordings, they are the same verses from the songs being mashed up, so some originality is lost there.
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Numb/Encore is the one single from this album, and itâs definitely one of the better ones, yeah. Youâve got Mike and Jay both working together in bits, the remixed Numb instrumental feels like exactly the extrapolation youâd want for a track like this, and that âwhat the hell are you waiting foooooorâ is super satisfying. Unlike some of the other tracks, the final bit (with Chester, yknow, doing Numb) maintains that remixed instrumental, making it stand out a bit better from the original versions, which is nice. However, Jay-Z basically just isnât on the latter half of the track, making it extremely awkward when he did a live performance of it after Chesterâs passing.
For a song called Encore, however, itâs a bit weird that itâs not the last track on the album.
Izzo/In The End opens with this really bright instrumental and Mike, thanking a live audience like itâs a concert, sure. Itâs just super odd that this is the same song with the In the End vocals, the emotions not really fitting the fun of the instrumental and previous verse. It is performed significantly more light-heartedly, but it still feels like an odd fit. To be fair, though, Iâm not sure what Hybrid Theory/Meteora era track would have worked better there, so fair play. The album ends with Points of Authority/99 Problems/One Step Closer, ther first half of which I actually think is better than Numb/Encore. Itâs got an actual fresh verse from Mike over Points of Authority, and him doing the cop bit from 99 Problemsâ pull over bit actually works super well. Unfortunately, when the instrumental switches over to One Step Closer, the song gets a bit worse- the mix on Jay-Zâs vocals is way too low for a lot of it, being drowned out by the instrumental most of the time, and the last minute is just One Step Closer again but also Jay-Z is occaisionally repeating the 99 Problems line. Itâs a weak finish to an otherwise solid song and album.
 Songs from the Underground
Released in 2008, Songs from the Underground is a collection of tracks from Linkin Park Underground collated into an EP along with a couple of unreleased live recordings. Linkin Park Underground, or LPU, is the official fan club, which gets a yearly CD as part of membership that has assorted demos and live versions on it, which is where this EP pulls its tracks from- its also a set of CDs I desperately want to get my hands on but their limited nature makes their price obscene. I have managed to get LPU 9, which is the one I wanted most, but the remainder have eluded my grasp.
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Side note, this album isnât on spotify, and the only Youtube upload I could find was a shit recording, so youâre best off looking for each individually.
This compilation opens with Announcement Service Public (from LPU6), a pretty decent instrumental with Chester screaming unintelligibly in the background. This is more of a joke than anything- as the name suggests, itâs a PSA reversed, and reversing Chesterâs vocals reveals heâs yelling a reminder to brush your teeth and wash your hands. I mean, Iâve been in an LP mosh once, and I can confirm that this was an announcement that needed making.
The second track QWERTY (LPU6), sounds like it wasnât even written by Linkin Park, rather, one of their contemporaries. Allegedly, they wrote it on a long, long plane flight, which I could see- a non-studio environment leading to a more different track. Honestly, this could fit right on to Meteora, as much like Faint or Nobodyâs Listening itâs a different take on the sound theyâre known for. This oneâs a lot of fun- the riffs are sick, and the chorus, if simple, is solid to sing along to. This deserves main album status.
And One is one of the tracks on this album thatâs actually a rerecording off of the EP made by the band when Hybrid Theory was their name and not just their first album (though the EP was self-titled, so itâs pretty confusing). This album would later be rereleased as the first LPU, and then again (with an official video) along with the 20th anniversary edition of Hybrid Theory. And One is interesting, as itâs the first track recorded after Chester joined the band back in the day, and itâs so fucking edgy holy shit. I think itâs pretty decent, but unlike with QWERTY Iâm kinda ok with this being a little by the wayside. With that said, I really like the little breakdown at the end, and the verse Mike is doing over it.
Sold My Soul to yo Mama (LP4) is a real track, huh. Itâs a short, heavily electronic piece, ganking lyrics from Points of Authority and Papercut, but like, itâs mostly just Joe Hanh fucking around for 2 minutes. Not a huge fan of this one.
Dedicated (LP2) is another of this albumâs better songs. Itâs very Lose Yourself, that sort of emotional rap track about doing a rap track, and while obviously itâs not at the same level as that one itâs still excellent on its own. This is just such an excellent demo, one of Mikeâs best performances- and considering heâs carrying it on his own (Iâm not sure Chesterâs even on this, unless those background aaaahs are him) that means a lot.
The next track is Hunger Strike, actually a live recording by Chris Cornell (of Soundgarden and Audioslave fame) with Chester as a feature. They were good friends, which is going to come up tragically when we get to One More Light. To be honest, though, this track kinda sucks dick. It is far from Chrisâs best performance, nor Chesterâs, and the instrumental is fucking boring. It picks up around the two minute mark, but at that point it just sounds like a bad Audioslave song, and Iâm not really down for that, yknow. Just go listen to Like a Stone or Black Hole Sun again.
Another live recording is next, My December (a B-Side from One Step Closer, also on LPU2). My December is far from my favourite track- I think itâs kinda overdone, and this live version is so much worse. Look, itâs just Chester singing over someone (maybe him?) playing the song on piano? It doesnât work, man. Not a fan.
The albumâs final track is called Part of Me (HTEP/LPU1), and feels a lot like a better version of And One, if Iâm honest. Mikeâs actually going hard here in the verses, especially in the pre-chorus, and said chorus is actually pretty solid, even though the instrumental there is a little weak. Itâs a slow, chugging song, heavily affected through Hahnâs DJing, that does do a nice little build to the trackâs ending.
Except it doesnât end, because thereâs a hidden track in it. I donât think this one has an official name anywhere, but itâs an electronic instrumental. Itâs basically ok. Tangent, but I remember thinking when I was younger that if I was ever in a band, Iâd want to write an electronic instrumental named Oxymoron- because of course, it wouldnât have any real instruments in it.
That closes out Songs from the Underground, and Iâve never really broken it down in my head before, but itâs a lot more mediocre than I thought. The live songs are not good, and several demos or rarities that should have been on it absolutely werenât- Across the Line, Drawing, A6, and where the fuck was High Voltage? Honestly, more of a miss than I remember. If Iâm low on ideas, I might break down LPU9 individually, but I probably wonât spend any other time on LP demo stuff- Iâm sure youâre sick to death of me talking about Linkin Park by now.
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GlumReviews #10
If youâre like me then the year 2001 was just a shitty year to be alive. George Bush was president, Now Thatâs What I Call Music was on itâs 7th volume, Freddy Got Fingered and Bridget Jonesâ goddamn Diary. The internet had transformed the landscape of music and the industry was pivoting to serve a customer base that no longer wanted to pay for the music they so enjoyed. Pandora internet radio would not be a public option until 2005. The ancient technology known as just the plain olâ radio was a large factor in determining oneâs career success. Yes, you could spend years touring on underground circuits garnishing a cult following from small town to small town, but nothing quite beats a radio single that can be played simultaneously for an entire nation. In other words, the general public still played a determining factor for your determined breakthrough.
It is with this in mind that I present to you the case for Nickelbackâs 3rd studio album Silver Side Up. One cannot deny the societal connotations that come with just mentioning this band, and in my opinion, that horse has just long been laid to rest and I invite you to open your mind musically for just one second, as I have forced myself to in this series of truly eye-opening reviews. Taking the title as Canadaâs most commercially successful band among many many other prestigious honors of a similar nature. Surely an entire generation doesnât consider this band laughable and just a shitty shitty representative of rock music, especially in the year of our forsaken lord 2001?Â
Is Nickelback a prime example of male mediocrity failing upwards into superstardom? or is there a valid claim for their status as a âpussy bandâ (which sounds kinda cool to me tbh) among rock n roll aficionados and real cool dudes in the scene? We plumb the depths of a road at least 10 million have previously plumbed.
1. Never Again
Iâm gonna have a difficult time saying this is a âshittyâ band whenever their first song addresses something that (excuse the pun) hits so close to home. As an intro track they open up with a pretty heavy song about domestic violence âHeâs drunk again, itâs time to fight/ She must have done something wrong tonight/ The living room becomes a boxing ringâ. Told from the point of a view of a child growing up to see his mother abused at the hands of his drunken father. Itâs a heartbreaking song that has a satisfying ending for those of us who donât like to dwell too much on the downsides of life. Especially if one chooses to escape through music, but sad music in sad times is a personal habit I partake in. This is a great song, content wise. Kinda weird to have it set to such an upbeat sounding song but I guess it goes to serve the rage of a child being helpless in the face of his abusive father.
2. How You Remind Me
Does the lead single of this album really need a review? Yes, because this review is about taking a second look at shit you take for granted. This song is just poetry. In the fact that itâs just a perfectly executed song, lyrically. Being non-cryptic and just flat out honest about ones feelings. Thereâs thousands of songs about being down in the dumps or heartbroken and I can see why this is easily one of their biggest hits. Itâs a song that doesnât care about your preconceived notions of masculinity or what rock music should or shouldnât be. Some people were put on this planet to make one song to connect the world to each other, and I think this is Nickelbackâs song.
3. Woke Up This Morning
Now I wouldnât exactly call this metal, but itâs too heavy to be pop-rock. But it easily straddles these fine picket fences of being almost too heavy for their own lyrics at times. Thereâs noticeable flavors of southern rock sprinkled throughout the album which I can see having a blue collar/WWF crowd appeal. Again another song consisting of being absolutely honest with the listener âI felt like shit when I woke up this morning, Iâve been a loser all my life Iâm not about to changeâ. Â
4. Too Bad
With the events of Track 1 in mind, this song takes a remorseful shift into the story of the father. Now racked with guilt, the song title lays it out pretty evenly. Itâs too bad. Itâs too late. Despite the behavior of an antagonistic and toxic father, they made it out on their own without the breadwinner of the family. At the expense of the mothers time and love, at least they still had clothes on their backs and food to eat. Another heartbreaking but heartfelt song that is one of the first songs that Iâve reviewed in this series that actually gave me chills. Â
5. Just For
This is the typical male violent fantasy that could lean either way. Itâs either about a girl he lost to another man, or given the past material in the album being about his mom, it could be pertaining to his relationship with his father. However you feel personally about this band, understand that lead singer Chad Kroger opened his soul up on a record which is rarely an experience put forth in an album. Now arguably you could tell me thatâs what all bands do, and yes Iâm inclined to agree. But itâs rare that itâs not wrapped up in sarcasm or a false sense of confidence. Usually such displays of anger and torment are disguised with metaphor and mystery. Thereâs none of that at play here. And usually Iâd call that dumb music for a monkey brain audience. But this is just some of the most sincerest lyrics you could listen to.
6. Hollywood
Now listen I know I said all that stuff about his lyrics being pretty straightforward? Well Iâll eat my own words on this song, as I canât really pickup the metaphor heâs laying down...correct me if Iâm wrong but is this song about being in a mental hospital or going to a methadone clinic? Donât beat yourself up if this track isnât your cup of tea, I didnât really vibe with it like other tracks.
7. Money Bought
Pretty straightforward song about a woman whose living off of her parents just being an all around Samantha . Songs like this I could really do without, heavy strong riff but if thereâs one production complaint I have is that alot of the mixes are too guitar heavy and the drums get washed out.
8. Where Do I Hide
Feels like a continuation of the previous song with the too loud guitar mix, the lyrics themselves are pretty boring and not really worth going over as I canât figure out if heâs making an outlaw fantasy song or something about his dad again. Thereâs a decent little guitar solo but I wouldnât say to go out of your way to listen to this song.
9. Hangnail
Iâll give them this, they can kick out some pretty good riffs. But like good standard rock riffs. I couldnât tell you they have their own sound musically. I think their sound is largely wrapped up in the lead singers voice. You could convince me it was 3 different bands if 3 different singers sang their songs. This song feels like a weak follow-up to âHow You Remind Meâ, and if thatâs the case it really missed a mark in my opinion.
10. Good Timeâs Gone
Nothing says âalbum closerâ like acoustic guitar strumming away into a swaying jam. Definitely leaning more country western than most of their songs, but with a hard rock kick to it. Itâs a nice revamp of energy from the previous couple of songs that just felt to get a little weaker as the album progressed. Kroger gives a powerful vocal performance to lead us out and I canât help but think to myself, dear god I just listened to a Nickelback album several times today.
So where do you land on the spectrum of hate for Nickelback? For me, personally I see absolutely no reason why Nickelback is more hated than say Three Days Grace or Papa Roach, both of which have garnished their own cult followings respectively. No, I believe this to just be a meme that society has taken and ran with it by constantly making Nickelback be the butt of some non-existent joke. Are they the best band ever? Fuck no. Should people be mocked or made fun of for listening to bands they enjoy? Double fuck no. Because music becomes your personal experience, and we should let others bask in what little, small things bring them joy. Why gatekeep listening to music? Music is supposed to connect others and bring about the feeling of belonging, the act of belittling others for their choice in music isnât only pointless, itâs just downright disrespectful of a persons identity and personal choices. And with that being said, Five Finger Death Punch is REAL garbage music.
I refrained from mentioning that this album was actually released on September 11th, 2001. Not wanting that to factor into my writing but itâs at this point that I argue the case that Nickelback was a relic of a time before shit got worse in America. Without 9/11 in the narrative of some of these tracks I feel like they donât hit as hard and yeah, in some fucked up way Iâm saying that if it wasnât for 9/11 itself, I donât think they would have had a breakthrough. As audiences scrambled to tune into something different Iâm sure the radio offered some form of escape from a world ravaged by national news. I give the album:
âââ/5
This album begins pretty lively and begins to fizzle out about halfway with track #6, saved only by the ending track. This was a decent album and if youâre curious to check it out, I recommend tracks 1-5, then just skip to 10, the album makes more sense that way.Â
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Phoebe Rose Bray wasn't a spontaneous woman. But when she drunkenly applied to become a seat filler six months prior, she hadn't been thinking about her internship or her god-awful boss, Margaret, or her starving bank account. She'd been feeling ambitious.
And that's why when she got the email regarding the Sixty-fourth Annual Grammy Awards, she huffed a rather annoyed sigh and silently accepted the invitation.
A massive turn of events, a tragic production slip-up, and a quick diversion led her exactly where she hadnât intended on ending up: in front of millions of people, wrapped up in the arms of a pop sensation.
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She couldnât believe she was doing this. Phoebe Rose Bray gave herself a one-over in her hotel bathroom, smoothing out her satin dress with her carefully manicured hands.
It wasnât often that she travelled out of the country and it was far less often that she travelled alone. But when she drunkenly applied to become a seat filler six months prior, she hadnât been thinking about her internship or her god-awful boss, Margaret, or her starving bank account. Sheâd been feeling ambitious.
And thatâs why when she got the email regarding the Sixty-fourth Annual Grammy Awards, she huffed a rather annoyed sigh and silently accepted the invitation.
Phoebe began to understand the fuss about Los Angeles traffic when what should have been a ten-minute drive to the Staples Center turned into an hour-long road trip. Thank God Uber provided snacks.
It was more of a process than a celebrationâfor Phoebe, at leastâand she was more interested in being assigned a seat than looking around for the faces of her childhood idols. Relieved to be inside with air conditioning and away from flashing cameras and hollering paparazzi, she settled into her seat and prayed to her lucky stars for a mediocre night.
The show was uneventful, for the most part. For the first half. As soon as the big categories began to surface, the crowd got antsy. From her spot at the back of the floor, Phoebe zoned in on the A-listers sitting closest to the stage, and it was clear they were shifting in their seats. Something was coming.
That something was Record of the Year, she deducted. She tried her best to focus on Justin Timberlakeâs never-ending monologue about finally being able to host musicâs biggest night, but the headset-wearing woman equipped with a clipboard was inevitable, and Phoebe knew where she was headed.
âYouâre next,â the woman spoke, hastily yet quietly, âget ready.â
Phoebe kept a trained eye on the tops of peopleâs heads because she hadnât memorized where each artist was sitting and it seemed like the only way she could possibly know where to go.
People came outâKaty Perry and some guyâto present the nominees. Phoebe straightened her spine and firmly planted her stiletto, preparing to jump up at any second. She reminded herself of the importance in being stealth, avoiding taking away from the artistâs acceptance speech because while this was their big moment, she was also contractually bound not to disturb the audience. Names were called. Snippets were played. An announcement was made. And before she knew it, Phoebe was silently power-walking toward the front of the arena, sitting her ass down in Lizzoâs still-warm folding chair.
The crowd had settled and she was giving a very animated speech about the songâs significance, and all Phoebe could focus on was the pointed boot almost touching her strapped-in-toes.
She was positive that the row of seven-or-so people sitting next to her were there together. Most of them muttered to each other during Lizzoâs speech, but the guy beside her was dead silent. He stared straight forward, face aimed directly at the stage. Phoebe could feel his brown eyes on her. She wondered if he was suspicious of her, or frowning upon the idea of seat fillers because maybe he believed that general audience members had no place up front. She never considered that the warmth engulfing her body wasnât from her own embarrassment, but was instead radiating off of him.
The crowd broke into applause and they, together, realized that they, too, should probably be clapping. So they clapped. The show went on. And though neither of them said a word to the other, they were very aware of one anotherâs presence.
So much that Phoebeâs brain was running in circles, dreading the moment âShawn Mendesâ would be called as the winner of Album of the Year because heâd somehow have to wiggle past her, and she knew that with her luck sheâd probably fall over. Her heart raced as she began debating whether sheâd be standing with them in applause or remaining seated, and if sheâd be shown on national television. It was all very much very fast and she didnât even notice that Shawn was muttering under his breath in her direction.
âPsst,â she heard, and she turned in his direction quickly enough to give herself whiplash.
âWhat?â she whispered in a more offended tone than sheâd hoped for. She just wasnât expecting it.
âI said,â he spoke lowly, leaning in a little closer, âif it helps, Iâm nervous too.â
âIâm n-â
âYes, you are,â he cut her off, shooting her the million-dollar grin that was plastered on every billboard from New York to Tokyo.
He was ethereal. Phoebe knew that celebrities were ridiculously idealized in the media, and with the help of round-the-clock makeup artists and photoshop and endless reserves of cash, they were almost always eternally beautiful. But even this close up, with that damn curl hanging on his forehead, Shawn Mendes was inevitably gorgeous. She avoided his gaze.
âAll Iâm saying is,â he leaned in a little closer, and she was pretty sure she could feel his breath on her neck, âyou can loosen up a bit. Sit back. Look around, no oneâs looking at you,â he paused, allowed her to finally adjust to her surroundings, âexcept me.â
If she wasnât blushing before, she was bright red now. She figured he would be like thisâa womanizer, for the lack of a better termâbut she never thought sheâd fall victim to any of his one-liners.
Shawn clammed up when a uniformed-producer announced the final commercial break, and Phoebe sat in silence, unable to avoid eavesdropping on the group to her right.
âIâm not sure, man,â Shawn mumbled, leaning toward the suited guy beside him. Both of them were leaning forward, and Phoebe was able to make out the label on his seat. Andrew Gertler.
âRelax, Shawn,â the man she assumed to be Mr. Gertler spoke, âweâve been here before. Theyâre either gonna recognize that you deserve it or they arenât, and in both cases you need to remember that thereâs a camera on you. Regardless of what youâre feeling, I need you to really sell it.â
âYeah, yeah,â Shawn nodded, âjust happy to be here. I know.â
âGood,â the man said before taking a sip of his water, âI have a good feeling, kid.â
Shawn didnât respond. He took a deep breath and sunk back into his seat, watching intently as the rest of his team had a muffled conversation about the afterparty.
Phoebe picked at her cuticles until Shawn rubbed his massive hands together and muttered, âShowtime,â and Timberlake came out once again, thanking everyone for coming and prefacing some montage video of past Album of the Year winners.
She nudged his knee with hers. Shawnâs eyebrows shot up a bit, silently asking if the contact was intentional or if she was just a bit twitchy. She nudged him again.
âIf it helps,â she whispered, neither of them looking at each other, âIâm nervous too.â
She couldnât help but notice the tight-lipped grin creeping up his cheeks in her peripheral vision, and she knew that was just what he needed.
But the wave of comfort and confidence that had overcome Shawn didnât last long, because the video was over and Pharrell Williams was standing before them, hastily reading through a list of eight album names as if these artists hadnât put their absolute hearts and souls into each body of work.
A name was called. Phoebe wasnât sure who it belonged to, but it didnât belong to Shawn Mendes. The sinking feeling in his stomach somehow translated to her because she, too, felt it. Weightless.
Something was happening, though. The split-screen of nominees hadnât focused-in on the winner as it usually would, and by some work of the devil it was displaying a massive live-video of Shawnâs face. And the heartbreak-with-a-hint-of-anger written all over it.
Neither Shawn nor his team had caught on to the technical slip-up, and the few seconds they were all on camera felt like hours to Phoebe. She was thinking at a million miles a second, debating tapping him on the shoulder or just saying something, anything, to bring his attention to his very-public negative reaction.
She knew this would be the big headline.
Unless she could make an even bigger one.
Without thinking long enough to convince herself otherwise, Phoebe twisted in her seat and faced the man sheâd been so intimidated by for the last half-hour. His distraught eyes met her determined ones, and before he could resist, she muttered something along the lines of, âJust go with it,â and lunged at him, kissing him with everything she had.
Shawn froze and Phoebe panickedâhad he not hit on her, this wouldnât have even been a thought in her mindâbut quickly, he melted into it. The gears began turning and her words had convinced him that she had a reason, supported by the way she kissed him with such purpose.
Her hand was on his jaw and his were in her hair, and while he refrained from slipping her the tongue for the sake of everyone watching at home, he still kissed her wildly.
Andrew was jostling Shawnâs arm. The cameramen had sorted their shit out. And Phoebe was up from her seat and running out of the arena faster than any of it had even happened.
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