#the reason why i don't like them is completely personal preference btw lol

[mirensiart]

I'm kind of an hypocrite in the sense that I don't really enjoy the 'pup' or 'cub' nicknames for twilight and wild, and yet I throw the 'guppy' nickname at wind constantly lmao

[celestie0]

notes on kickoff ch.7

hellooo if you're here thank you for taking the interest! i just had some creative notes i wanted to get off my chest with the release of ch.7 lol i felt compelled to do so with this one i'm basically journaling here. you can read this after reading ch7 here!

I. on gojo's feelings

as for why didn't gojo just tell reader how he felt at the end of the chapter, and instead only says what he does. i think i rewrote this ending like five different times, he was never supposed to tell her at this point based on my story planning, but i did explore the idea of a dramatic confession here regardless, and it didn't fit for lots of different reasons for one, i think he's finally able to put himself in reader's shoes. it's true he's pretty dense and obviously has commitment issues/valid fears that keep him from opening up, but that still doesn't mean he hasn't hurt reader in a lot of different ways already. he realizes, whether intentionally or not, he's led her on and to do a complete turnaround within a few hours while she's already trying to process rejection as she is clearly withdrawn from him i believed would've been selfish on his part, and could possibly cause even more hurt over the fact that he could come off ingenuine. gojo is finally emotionally aware of her enough to recognize it, but he's not a perfect person so it still slips through that he's distraught at the thought of never seeing her again. in general i'm of the opinion that if someone asks for space, you respect that unless they say otherwise of note, just because he realizes that he has these feelings, doesn't necessary change his fears, as no single moment can undo years of trauma, so i think that's why he bites his tongue too. i'm not keen on making this a "woman fixes man" story but i moreso want to embrace the sentiment that you don't need to resolve every single bad thing that's ever happened to you in order to embrace love or happiness.

II. on gojo's commitment issues

i know it was brought up in the first gojo pov that he has issues committing to just one woman, but i wanted this chapter to reveal that it's really just his fear of opening up to people due to the still raw loss he feels of losing someone he loved. i aim with his pov to be more of a stream of his own consciousness rather than from an omniscient observer, which may explain the ambiguity. he's not sure if he's able to open up to a person in a way he knows is normal and healthy, so he settles on shallow connections instead. just wanted to clear this up, and say that it won't be any sort of plot point in which he struggles to be sincere or faithful when he seriously wants to commit to someone as he has no issues with that if he truly wants to be with them (unlike the whore he's been so far in the series lmao)

III. on strawberry vanilla soda

btw i've never had this flavor of soda i'm not even sure where i came up w it loool or if it even exists. i was kind of toying with the idea of gojo seeing reader's message on the can during the match, and that would maybe help him get more focused on the field (sooo sports romance cliche but i still love it haha) but i settled on him seeing it afterwards to kinda parallel the clumsiness he's had with reader so far. for some reason, the universe just doesn't want him to get his timing right with her lol

IV. on angst/conflict

i know ch7 was a bit differentttt less gojo x reader and more just gojo lmfao, it was also a bit angsty. it definitely won't stay angsty throughout the remaining chapters. this was just gojo's lore drop chapter LOL. there will still obviously be angst here and there, but i've got a lot of fun, cute, tense, silly, passionate, messy scenes still planned similar to ch5&6 because i prefer writing those kinds of scenes haha. ultimately this story was always meant to be a full-circle romance, so ch7 was to lay some of the emotional groundwork that gets brought up as the story builds to its climax

that's all i have to saayyy if you actually read this whole thing i love you?? lol. ch7 really emotionally resonated with me as i wrote it, both as someone who understands how gojo feels but also as someone who understands how reader feels, and if it resonated with you too then that makes me very happy and that's ultimately every writer's dream haha. was very cathartic to share these thoughts. i hope to see you in the next oneeee <3 have a wonderful rest of your day!

[incorrect-koh-posts]

You said "which is a tragedy in its own right as far as my tastes are concerned, but I digress", but I'm curious to hear your thoughts on this. I hope it's okay to ask, but what kind of fics/pairings would you like/prefer to see emerge from the fandom?

Of course it's okay to ask, dear anon!

Personally? I'd love to see more variety. One of the chief reasons why I enjoy reading fan fiction is finding new things I like - perhaps some pairing I hadn't considered before, some batshit premise or crossover that turns out to be actually brilliant, or maybe a cool genfic that explores previously unseen sides of a character or character dynamic that people don't write about very often. I'm not really the kind of person who seeks out fic based on specific tropes. Once I've read a story with a certain trope in a fandom, it's pretty unlikely that I'll go and read another one with a very similar premise, unless I really enjoy the author's writing.

So what I'd be excited about seeing in the AO3 tag would honestly just be: something new. For instance, a sapphic Sibylla/OC fic would be such a fascinating read (as would be anything at all that explores Sibylla's character a bit more). Or a Saladin-centric fic - sign me the hell up. I'd adore finding something for Godfrey or Imad, and we all know a new Tiberias fic would have me foaming at the mouth. I'd also love an interesting and/or wacky AU (and I'd write one myself if I had the time). Make it Jane Austen and let Baldwin have a gentleman suitor, while Sibylla elopes Lydia-Bennett style with Guy, and Godfrey and Raymond grump about in the Navy. Write a daemon AU (as in His Dark Materials) in the canonical universe. Or throw them all into the 21st century and let Reynald send Saladin threatening messages via fax.

I know the KoH fandom is much too small to engender the sort of variety I'd ideally like to see, and it's only reasonable for writers to sort of double down upon the fic premises and tropes that have done well in terms of hits and comments in the past and write more of the stuff the majority enjoys. As far as taste goes, I'm aware I'm the complete outlier here, and I really don't mean to antagonise anybody with this post or insult their writing or reading preferences. I'm glad your fics are doing well, folks, I truly am - it's only that I'm very likely not the target audience for them. Sometimes I just wish I weren't the only freak in the circus, lol.

(The post anon is referring to is this one btw.)

[todorroki]

I miss nature (Love Sea ep 4&5 thoughts)

I was planning on doing a post for each episode, but I was busy. Or maybe I subconsciously don't want to leave the island so I put it off and by the time I sat down to do write a post, a whole week passed. Who knows??????? LMAO

Title. i miss the island setting. which is crazy because i personally am NOT a nature person lol i prefer the city. but this is a drama and it's called LOVE SEA so like.... WHERE'S THE SEA. the only sea we're getting in the bangkok portion of this story is a sea of tears.

shoutout to the candid shots of the island. i thought that was a nice extra touch. also this scene!!! PLEASE someone give fp a royal setting or something. my god

onto the city, WHOSE HOUSE IS THIS FR. FORT IS A TALL BOY HOW ARE YOU GONNA OPEN ANYTHING WITHOUT A LADDER IF YOU'RE NOT AS TALL AS HIM!!!!!!!!!!!

i think the best part of ep 4 is seeing fort in that white tee. the gears in my head r turning at max speed. why does he fill that out so well. jesus.

how much is mook getting paid? she puts up with so much LMAO like the check must be sooo big and her loyalty to rak must be soo solid.

now for the most hurtful part of this ep, rak telling mut he doesn't believe in love and that there will never be anything more than sex between them. peat's line delivery was Good and effective. it stung as the audience just hearing it. and the way mut's face fell and rak's eyes start shifting afterwards?? he himself knew what he said hurt. but mut still wasn't deterred and at this point, i'm sure he has a good grasp on rak's general mindset.

my favorite part of ep 4, the kitchen scene at the end. them teasing each other, mut feeding rak. it was soo soft. and rak's pouty cat stare (sooo cuuute) and peat's legs! we cannot go an ep without em.

pausing between the 2 eps to gush about fortpeat for a second. why do they make domestic scenes look so good. or am i just biased (probably). the puppycat energy is SO strong with these two. i kinda want to see them play characters that are Completely opposite of themselves. i know they'd still eat their roles. it'd just be crazy to think about.

ANYWAYS, ep 5 ↓

the restaurant scene was so real. are we not allowed to call food by their names anymore. must we order a piggly wiggly mega crunch. i truly do get it. and the shopping scene afterwards???

mut telling him he wants to take care of his life. HOW CAN ANYONE WATCHING THIS NOT BE IN LOVE WITH MUT AT THIS POINT!!!!!!!!!

switching to the girls, aya did SO well in this part. the conflict, the hurt. i see it all!!! but how does mook even know if vi doesn't like women! girl believe in it!!

does prin remind anyone of stop from LITA??? like the goofy ass ego and behavior is so similar to me. wym she came all this way just to hurl verbal jabs at her cousin?? HELP. also i KNOW this is like a stand off between rak and prin, but they're both slaying so hard in the visual department. HAIR, MAKEUP, FIT! and for some reason the bgm is going so hard and for why LMAOOOO what is this music!!

and rak puts on a front like prin's words don't matter much to him, but they obviously hurt a LOT from rak's reaction to it afterwards. him telling mut to get out and leave him alone to deal with his emotions by himself!! and then seeing the food mut left for him. someone's caring for him!!! he's not alone!! and the best AND worst part is seeing rak cry into the food. my god. as someone who's been there more than once, that scene hit soo hard.

NOW THAT PART IN THE FITTING ROOM.... MUTRAK ARE SO HORNY YALL that's nawt even a door it's a flimsy curtain!!!!! i'm not mad about them wanting to bang in the fitting room btw.. im mad they got interrupted :( we could've had a whole keep your voice down kinda nc scene with so much kissing and biting smh

fort has said before they had to rework their first kiss scene bc they hadn't kissed in a while. seeing that they filmed the city portion before the island, i feel like this was the first kiss he was talking about? idk someone can correct me if im wrong. i'm simply guessing.

anyways. enough of this rambling. the ending credits of ep 5 is soo cute and my favorite so far. i can't wait for khom next week!! more characters!!!

if you stumbled across this post and read it, thank you for your time!!

[machiavellli]

I don't know why, but I never took you for liking men in beards ( personally I like them clean shaved, but to each their own <3<3<3)!

I wish you both the best!!! 💕

Could you please give us some cute anecdotes between you two ( we don't even know each other, but I really think you're both cute together, I remember reading the post in which you talk about him and it's so cute!) ?

I just wish to have a good caring loyal romantic boyfriend and find the one! 😭😭😭 I've been single all my life.

oh well, this was unexpected but at the same time really sweet, so thank you so much anon🫶

gonna write under the cut, ‘cause I don’t want to annoy everyone (that’s also the reason why I don’t talk about him too much here)

a lot to unpack, let’s go by the order of your ask

1. The beard thing

I have to say that I used to be of the same opinion, even because when we first got together he was a BABYYYYY (we were 16 jk) and he had no beard, no hair chest, no nothing lol. But as we grew up he obviously grow into his features and if at first I was not really intrigued by it, I have to say that it does looks so nice on him (I will never admit it tho, cause I complained about it at first). Also, even if he would shave it completely, I don’t think he would be able to reach again that level of smoothness again lol. He is quite hairy in general, so it is what is, but I don’t complain, since now I definitely prefer the beard.

2.

idk if you are referring to that post where I answered the question if I believed in true love (in that case, wow you know the LORE).

But anyway…some anecdotes mhh

he is like very smart. bro could learn literally anything and I’m glad that he sticks to the scientific/economic side of academia or he would also steal my thing lol. He is smart in an “academia term”, like, again, when it comes to learning, understanding complex concepts he is the best at it. but when it comes to the most simple stuff he becomes silly😭😭

he is so slow when he has to do certain tasks, like cooking, choosing clothes,… Or like one time, he studied computer engineering for a year before switching major btw, so he knows it all about computer, programming, software, whatever, but I discovered that he had no idea that you could select multiple pictures when deleting them in your camera roll. LIKE I KNOW IS NOT THAT SERIOUS, but it was so silly. bro could program a tracker from scratch in 30 minutes and it would take him more for deleting 50 pictures.

he is like very passionate about me. I’m his favourite person or thing to do in general and it’s not my impression, he tells me. when you ask him “what do you want to do?” he will always say “stay with you”.

brotha is clingy af. like I did know that his love language was physical touch, but he could pass an enter it’s hugging me and it would still no be enough.

he once told me that the goal of his life was to make me happy and to make me free from work, so that I can write and do the things I’m most passionate about, without having to worry about anything. THE GOAL OF HIS LIFE. apparently he also told this goal to his father.

actually very interested in philosophy, he knows more than me, he said that he would never peruse a career with it, but it’s an important hobby of his.

now. I’m not a bad person. But when I say that he has no red flag expect the fact that he is with me, I mean it. Like he gives so much and I don’t feel like I ever give enough in return, just because he is unmatchable (also mind you, this is from my pov, he would absolutely say that this isn’t true)

tells his friends how they should treat their gf and calls them out if they do bullshit.

Very kind soul.

Very silly man. Sometimes I hate how much I can’t. stop. laughing. when I am around him. Just because he doesn’t the most out of pockets jokes, but just when he is around me

Cat coded. He loves dogs, but if he was an animal he would be a cat. There has been not one time where he would lay down and ask me to scratch his back or hair.

Brotha got the most beautiful curls on this planet earth and no it’s not an exaggeration. His hair are curly, but it’s like this perfect “boccolo” form.

I said in the past and I’ll said it again, he looks like he belongs in ancient Rome. That nose. Beautiful.

He is definitely the one that suffer distance the most, when I am away on holiday he used to get so sad if I didn’t call him everyday.

He definitely would like to do me surprise, but has no clue on how to organise them. He is romantic but would like to do more, but he is like how????????? Again, struggle with simple things.

He hates his brown eyes, but to me they are the cutest, they look gold in the sunshine :,)

I am more of a nerd than him, I’m the one who drags him to anything that has to do with Star Trek, Star Wars, marvel,…and people are always a bit surprised by that

He lets me tap for hours!!!!!!!!! Because he loves to hear about my interests and he smiles while I do it😭

He is a shy dancer (not like I know how to dance too, but with a glass of wine I really start to not care)

But the only thing he is shy with me personally is speaking in English. Because my accent “scares him”. BROTHA. So if I start to talk in English he will answer “baguette”. I’m not kidding.

Very entrepreneurial type of person. He did a lot and does a lot.

Doesn’t really have a favourite artist, but his top artist on Spotify is Chopin. But he used to like a lot Elton John

He works on fixation, this month we have the ✨rubric cube✨ (he wasn’t to do it in less than a minute) and ✨biking✨

You will never know what to gift to him, because he will always answer he wants “you”🙄

He is loyal and so am I. One time a girl tried to approach him by talking about philosophy and i told him that she was flirting probably, he apologised (even if he did nothing wrong, brotha was only talking about Schopenhauer and had no idea of the girl’s intentions) and blocked her on the spot without me saying a word.

Very passionate about health in general, his and the people close to him. Fan of eating well and exercising.

my mom calls him “Saint” because he has to deal with me. I have to say, I don’t always behave so well (YALL IM TRYING), like when he was doing the major I previously mention, he would return from uni on Fridays at 22:00, so the first thing he would do was taking the car and coming to my house. A couple of time, I didn’t even reached the door to say hello, I was to tired, but he never got mad.

He never gets mad in general. He is just a little sad when I cancel plans, I’m the only one between the two that cancels (I swear I’m good too, BUT I DONT STAND A CHANCE IN COMPARISON)

Bought me many plushies, ‘cause he knows I love them.

Will say to me multiple times in a day “you are beautiful” just beacuse I smiled

Only person in the world that told me I look better without glasses. Usually people tell me I look like an alien-

Makes fun of me for not having a driver license, but he would take me anywhere with his car if I asked.

we write each other a letter every three months, beacuse I just love everything about this too much. He always says that he loves me, really, but on a letter we all get deeper.

we are from the same year, but I am 5 months older

he really would do anything for me and I don’t think it’s beacuse we are young, or because we have been together only for 4 years (even if I would say it’s a big number at my age), but because his family was the once to teach him how to love unconditionally (yall they are all so beautiful together😭).

he gives, gives and gives and would never ask back

My blanket man<33 even if during summer it’s insufferable

When we swim together I can just hang on him and he will drag us around LOL

We call each other other “amore” (love) or “tesoro” (treasure)

Never pressed me into doing anything, not once, at it should be, but I sometimes look at my friends relationships and it’s not always like this sadly.

My strength. If I am studying those days it’s just because he is giving me the strength to do it. I’ve been studying in his room and I can’t only really concentrate when someone is around, so he has been helping me endlessly lately. And I know it means so much to him, because I know how much he would rather talk or hold me instead of watching me studying.

We are both a tad old on the inside, we are very chill, not really social, the type of people that wouldn’t talk at a function.

Anyway, I feel like I’ve been over sharing tooooo much, but who doesn’t love a question about something they are passionate about? Hehehe

There are good men out here, I have the proof, you just gotta keep your standards high :))

I was lucky that I got introduced to him through a friend (@/indac0) and after a month we got together. I love the idea of growing with, many people, even adults (ew) told me that I should go out and “experience” instead of staying in my very healthy relationship. But I would rather have grown with someone kind and learned what love is, than trying situationships that I know what would take me to anything. And I believe that this road it’s actually the only one that makes you understand what you like and the only one that won’t make your time feel wasted, because you already know that you are going nowhere with flings and that you will have lost time anywhere. Why not try something serious? Why not try to become a unique piece of puzzle with someone?

This is personally how I view this.

I wish you all the luck with love anon and thanks again for your kind words💖🫶🌷✨

[bdekurecs]

I'm not boring!! by GreyFrey

Rating: E Status: 11/12 Chapters Word Count: 82,076 Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

College professor Izuku Midoriya’s boyfriend just dumped him. The reason? He’s too boring. So in a quest to prove his ex wrong, he decides to take up the school’s baseball coach on an enticing offer. The only problem? They absolutely despise each other.

my notes: the summary is only part of the full one on ao3, since tumblr is.... tumblr lol.

this is one of my FAVORITE fics ever, and actually the fic that got me back into bkdk and helped inspire me to finish my first multichapter fic, so HUGE shoutout to GreyFrey!! some of my favorite things about this one include but are NOT at all limited to: the enemies AND lovers aspect, the reason why it's rated e, the friendship between izu and todoroki (todoroki is GREAT in this one omfggg), the college professor trope (this trope is SO special to me), and jock and nerd au (i LOVE this au omfg).

overall i cannot WAIT to see this one finish, however bittersweet it's going to be sobbing emoji. GreyFrey has a ton of other bnha and bkdk fic, and all of them that i've read are FANTASTIC and will absolutely be getting recced as well. the author also does some bkdk zine work and has a twitter where they talk about all their writing (they don't JUST write bkdk stuff too if you're a multishipper or just want to read some non-bkdk stuff.) they're also trying to get some of their work published so PLEASE consider giving them some love/kudos/a follow whatever you can. they're super cool and i LOVE their writing and i wanted my first rec to be an unfinished work, because some people DO prefer completed works (totally valid, btw), but we all do this for free, and it's a huge time investment, and i personally get discouraged sometimes when i get low stats. not that it should matter, but yanno! go check this one out, i PROMISE you won't be disappointed lol.

remember to read the tags on ao3, be respectful and always follow the golden rule of fic: don't like, don't read.

[bunglegaydogs]

Hiiii I'm just sending an ask because they're all different posts (read : I'm lazy) so please don't mind me lol

First and foremost, YOU ARE AMAZING AT EXPRESSING YOUR THOUGHTS AND YOUR ESSAYS ARE ALWAYS SO NUANCED?? SO YOU SAYING THAT WAS A HUGE COMPLIMENT OMG- I love reading your bsd essays so much and it's just now that I realised that they're all your essays abaammw some of the best in the fandom really. I'm always baffled when in the middle of an essay you go "I may not be articulating my thoughts right" or "this is kind of just put together" because girl you're amazing! Never stop writing these please ajajahsbw ALSO! Hearing your little thoughts and feelings pop up in the middle of an essay makes it so endearing to me. Like, that's a whole ass person writing these many words just to express how much they like this show and they're so adorable! (So sorry if that's offensive idk if calling someone adorable is)

Also, completely unrelated lol but this is exactly why I prefer to ask people questions instead of googling! Knowing that the person explaining is a human has their own opinions and hearing their feelings and experiences is so much more better and relatable than reading stuff off a Google website. Also your pfp is the cutest everyone has cute pfps nowadays 😭 anyways yes cute pfp :D

Actually getting to the point now:

1) yes yes Oda and Dazai's relationship is so dear to me I love them sm and I adore seeing Atsushi all caring for his mentor 😭 he's basically Dazai's emotional support cat!! Dazai let the boy in please I'm begging you he can purr probably and it would melt away your stress pls pls (Maybe everyone in the ADA sees Atsushi as their emotional support cat...)

2) Mori is a piece a shit, and you should be allowed to say it. I'm never biased in my writing but I loathe that guy with my very being and the whole people who like Mori thing really got me reconsidering...was *I* the bad guy for not liking a character when I actively liked a character very similar to him? Then I realised, I completely respect and treat equally all the people who don't like/hate Dazai. I don't treat them any different just because they don't like a character. And that's what I should expect too!

There's no post defending Dazai, and yet I still like him because I accept his wrongdoings and want him to keep getting better, like Oda told him to. Yknow, the argument would be MUCH different if Dazai was a woman and not a man, imagine bashing someone for liking a teen girl and not liking the guy who groomed her to be his heir. Yeah, really puts things into perspective. I'm not sexist, I treat (respectful) men and women equally, but Mori is just. No.

3) I haven't see it before in any canon source material but I feel like it's definitely true. It's clear that Dazai WANTS to want to keep living, but he can't bring himself to want it because of all the pain he's endured. He literally said in dark era that the reason he joined the mafia was to try and seek meaning in life by being close to death and violence. It's ironic, Dazai feels the most alive when he's about to LOSE that privilege. It could also mean that Dazai only realises the "value" in living when he's about to lose it. Perhaps he thinks of things he could've done, things he'll regret, and that helps him to stop before he actually does it. But in my opinion? I don't think he finds anything of worth in that time. He just convinces himself that he does. This is a personal hc but it's probably likely to be the case.

If you've listened to the song My R, you'll know exactly what I'm talking about.(totally recommend btw!).The girl in the song speaks to herself about her woes and the 'other' version of her comforts her telling her about all the things that she DOES have, but by the end of the song, she has lost everything of meaning and she can't comfort the "girl". It is only revealed that the girls she comforted are different versions of HERSELF that she stopped from jumping.

Anyways, in conclusion, SOMEBODY PLEASE GIVE THIS BOY A HUG HE DESERVES IT

oh my god oh my god oh my god

i am sat here on the verge of TEARS in my goddamn chuuya cosplay

okay okay give me a second i need to collect myself

you are singlehandedly the SWEETEST person ever im sobbing

literally i cant- thank you so fucking much! you dont understand how much this all means to me WOWOWOWOW <33333333

literally, my brain doesnt let me consume my content positively and so i always think that theyre quite bad or that im the only person who thinks that or that im saying all the wrong things lol

i have so many words and thoughts floating around in my little brain that i just cant find the words for, so thats honestly what those rants are, my delusional 4am thought processes when i deep things too much

and YOU THINK??? genuinely, thank you!!! i love reading people's essays and thoughts, so hearing you say that genuinely just warms my absolute heart <3

and yes yes i do get quite sidetracked very often and start just rambling and adding my own personal twists- genuinely i thought that was annoying for people to read, but you're just putting a big smile on my face right now :) and PLS DONT THINK CALLING ME ADORABLE IS OFFENSIVE I LITERALLY GIGGLED READING THAT SHIT FR. <333

i like to add personal experiences and thoughts into it, just to get my point across, put it into an irl perspective and let people also relate and see what im getting at. (unfortunately) i have the same experiences as most of these characters, and so that is why they're so dear to me and why i get very defensive and passionate writing about them!

and yes! getting your answers and stuff from irl people instead of strange irrelevant responses is much more preferred lol. it's more raw and in depth and definitely a lot more personal! and thank you so much!!! it's genuinely one of my favourite dazai panels istg hes such a pretty mf

1.) i love love LOVE their dynamic, i think it's one of my favourites in the show along with skk and ranpo and yosano. it really fucking hits hard, as all family dynamics do with me fr, idk what it is about them, they just get me. and yes!!! i love when atsushi shows that he cares for dazai it MAKES ME FEEL NICE <3 and that's so real oh my god hes a tiger please PLEASE he can fucking PURR (there was a tumblr post i saw, i can try and find it but it made me actually cry laughing)

THIS ONE i was fucking howling but yes! their relationship is also one that really really gets to me! and yes, he is just the ada's support cat, it's canon, i'm ranpo's sweets

2.) thank you thank you THANK YOU mori is an actual degenerate human being. he's not made to be liked or appreciated or revered, it's just fucking AEUGH. i'm not going to demonise the people who enjoy him as a character, but seriously, it's a big red flag to overlook the canon pedophilia. i saw someone make a defense against him saying "yes, but he's never actually touched kids, so that doesn't mean anything" SORRY? they also went on to say that he "restrains himself" from having pedophilic thoughts with elise, and basically praised him for that. needless to say, it got me feeling fucking icky. and yes! i feel exactly the same. i always think that "oh, maybe i'm the awful one for not liking him? am i bad?" even though, no, i'm perfectly fine thinking that way and i am allowed to think that way. and exactly again! dazai is my favourite character, but i recognise his flaws and his mistakes and don't forgive them. but he's actively trying to "be a better person" (i say this in quotation marks because dazai sees everything he does as inevitably pointless, but still wishes to uphold oda's dying words. i am definitely going to make a post about this in the near future lol) and i dont make my analyses biased towards him, and i stay on neutral ground UNLESS personal opinion comes up, to which i then say that it's my personal opinion, not fact, and that it's anybody's choice to think however they want. if somebody doesn't like dazai; okay! i'm interested in talking with them, and we can both talk about things we're very passionate about and have healthy conversations! unlike some people i have seen on reddit, goddamn. but no, we're not the bad people for hating that knobhead fr. we should all treat and be treated the same as any other fan in the fandom and get along, and i wish we could ALL do that in non-toxic ways. 99% of this fandom are the loveliest people ever, but that 1% just needs to get a grip like omg. we should treat others how we want to be treated, regardless of who favours what ship and who likes what character. and real!!! if gender roles were reversed for dazai, this would be much more problematic, and that's upsetting! dw dw, i dont think its sexist, i think its putting things into perspective bc, either way, its shitty how he was treated. i fucking hate mori. whenever i see people defending him to like, the bone, like not getting into a decent discussion and being civil but instead bashing everyone who says otherwise and completely overlooking the abuse, manipulation, grooming, pedophilia and just him as a sick and twisted person in general, it just really irks me. as someone who has in fact had to deal with separate strands of abuse including many fucking counts of sexual abuse and pedophilia, it disgusts me seeing people overlooking it and it makes me feel fucking sick. that shit is not just something to be overlooked because of the fact that you enjoy mori as a character, he's not supposed to be a character that's consumed positively, he's a bad guy. a lot of characters in bsd are morally grey, but mori is just fucking morally black. he's downright evil.

(TW for suicide and self harm next btw :) )

3.) yes yes yessss!!! again, bringing personal stuff into it, i deal heavily with the whole topic of suicide and self harm. i've attempted twice and still deal with thoughts of it every single day, as well as self harm. so, this is one of my main reasons of dazai being my absolute favourite character, because of the representation and actual presentation of these topics. at first, we're shown them in a whimsical and whacky way, then it gets so much darker once we get into the dark era. it's a complete tonal shift, and it really sets in the gravity of the situation for him. and, as you said, he wants to have that ability to want to keep going and living, and he wants to be able to put the effort in, but he can't/ he physically cannot. as much as he would want to try, he can't. and yes, when he said that it fucking BROKE me fr. just at the chance that he's not able to keep living on anymore as a human is the one thing that keeps him alive, i fucking love asagiri's writing, it's so complex and beautiful. and its so so so real!!! youre literally right idc lmao. youve so eloquently said it im crying, youre putting all my thoughts into words <3

and yes!!! i have listened to the song, i absolutely LOVE it! and i never fail to think of dazai whenever i listen to it </3 and, i also think it's very very much like dazai, because of the multiple different versions we see of him too. chuuya hasn't exactly changed much, but he has gone through some very very complex and deep character developments, such as in fifteen and stormbringer. hes a lot more "tame" and respectful now, and a lot more mature. (except with dazai lmao) aku, we see he's changed slightly thanks to atsushi, but still no major character fucking flip arounds. all these characters we've watched slowly become better and more complex throughout the series. dazai? he just does 180s every single fucking year. hes different at 14 and 15 than he is at 18. hes different at 18 than he is at 20-22. and the different faces he puts on for each and every person, all his masks that he has. there's much variety to dazai; you never know what you'll get. there's so many different sides to him, because he doesn't know who he is. as odasaku saw him, "a lost child crying out". no matter the age, no matter the state, dazai is always going to be harbouring that broken child with him, trying to hide it and build up walls around it, because the only time he's ever shown it, he's gotten hurt or betrayed and lost some key figures in his life. trust issues much?

anyways i am sorry i am sorry i rambled too much lmao

in conclusion, YES, GIVE HIM A FUCKING HUG OH MY GOD PLEASE I JUST NEED SOMEONE TO HUG HIM PLS GOD LET ATSUSHI GIVE HIM A BIG HUG WHEN HE COMES OUT OF MEURSAULT I SWEAR-

thank you so so so SO much for your kind words!!! sweetest person EVER fr <333333

thank you my love!!! /p have a lovely day/night :) <3

[thesuetyouforgot]

Rank each of the Pythons out of 10 based on if you'd smash or pass on them and give reasons why please?

Wow this is gonna be embarrassing lol, let's go!

(This is mainly based on the Pythons during their prime days in the 70s btw unless stated otherwise)

Hot, hotter, Terry J. 10/10 Immediately! Total yes! I love him, he's so handsome and attractive. He's just totally my type and he could seduce me with just a wave of his finger honestly. He's also the only Python that I always find handsome whenever I see him somewhere, no matter if I'm currently in a Monty Python phase or not. Oof.

Graham 9/10 He was my first real crush out of the Pythons (especially 80s/MOL Gray!!) and he's just so attractive to me. I had to extract a point because of his sexuality though. Although he was bi, his preference were men as far as I know. And I couldn't get the thought out of my head that he's not really happy about it or that I'd be of absolutely no more interest to him than being a short, purely sexual fling which would be a bit of a turn off tbh

Eric 8/10 He's handsome and I simply would.

Michael 6/10 Ahh tricky one. My love for him is based on him being my absolute comfort person which also means that I feel completely platonic about him. In my mind Michael and sex don't even exist in the same world together. So I would just never get the idea to smash. Buuut he's good looking and in the end I probably wouldn't say no...

John 7/10 This differs a lot from life phase to life phase. Sometimes he's a smash to me and sometimes a big pass. But in general I tend to have a soft spot for him. Maybe I wouldn't necessarily initiate it but he is hot and handsome, I can't deny that, and if the chance arose somehow, I would very likely find myself agreeing to it

Terry G. 2/10 I'm so sorry, he just isn't for me. He's absolutely not my type

[coldslaws-gear-station]

You're just giving me excuses to ramble on about my AU at this point

Ghetsis actually plays a far bigger role in the story than I had originally let on, there was a dispute between Ghetsis and the Elites due to one of the shadow triad's preferred typing to be fighting. Marshal claimed that he owned the right to be the only fighting type trainer in the entirety of Unova and demanded that they change their typing, however Ghetsis fought against it and eventually it was ruled that not one single person can own a whole type, so they got to keep their role as a fighting type gym leader.

Obviously this pissed the ever loving fuck off Marshal and that made the lives of the other Elites slightly inconvenienced, so they complained to Alder who eventually got fed up with their constant whining and complaining. So he went down to the lab to hopefully convince (bribe/threaten) Ghetsis into changing his mind.

This is where he came into contact with The Valley. The Valley is a place Ghetsis had created within the palace as the pinnacle of his research. Whenever a Pokemon is deposited into the PC System, their pokeballs would be sent through and into a system that would materialise their pokeball and deposit them into the valley. The Valley is a roughly a football field big open field with different small terrariums built for every Pokemon of every type.

There's two sides of The Valley though, there's the side where the Pokemon from the PC reside, and the ones who are simply looking to be adopted and fostered as friends and pets rather than battling machines. That's right, Ghetsis runs a Pokemon foster program, because why not.

It's a good time to mention that if you lose to the Elites and Champion, they take away their Pokemon, deeming them as far too weak to have them in the first place. However when Alder first came into contact with The Valley, he saw the tenderness and loving bonds between Pokemon and humans, something he's completely neglected to understand. He saw the beauty in nature, the simplicity of life, he saw how happy they looked, he's never seen Pokemon so happy before.

He has his epiphany with some gentle nudging from Ghetsis and deemed that the Elites and himself have been incredibly toxic and that they have so much to learn. Though when he came to them with his findings they saw him as simply "going soft" and that he shouldn't be their champion anymore, so they kicked him out completely through the power of mutiny!

Having nowhere to go, he returns to the palace, hoping to plead his case and maybe gain enough sympathy to at least stay the night. However Ghetsis welcomes him with open arms, claiming that everyone deserves a chance to change and grow anew. He stays there for the rest of the first story until the league is eventually set straight by the player (and handcuffs).

Really the only reason why Alder didn't completely waste away in his own self-loathing and pity was because Ghetsis was gentle parenting him into somewhat taking care of himself, though he has six kids so he's probably used to doing that tbh

But this is like a pretty dumbed down summary of the first part of the story. Don't even get me started on the plot I have in regards to BW2, because there we really get to see Ghetsis lose all of his fucking patience lol

- 💌

yea. and. i like your ideas they're cool /th

marshal you Dick. me when i freaking get you. leave the triad ALONE theyre just little guys :(

honestly i love ghetsis here he sounds really cool.. between being a professor and the valley stuff. like. that's SICK. im so used to shitty ghetsis though that i read the entirety of that with a nervous side eye waiting for a secret evil twist despite the concept being "unova upside down" so like. of course ghetsis can be genuinely good here.

im throwing hands with the e4 btw i don't care if caitlin and marshal could break me in half i can at least get grimsley. maybe shauntal too. and SIX KIDS??? HEY???? WANNA ELABORATE?

bw2.. o_o should i be scared

[shrimpmandan]

Hey I just wanted to say that I relate a lot to your personal post about being confused about romance. It’s pretty refreshing seeing someone else have the same “issues” as me!

I imagine it’s partially because of neurodivergency and trauma, as you said, but I’ve always had that same difficulty connecting to people. Crushes were always faked, people are easily cut out of my life if I decide they’re “not worth the effort”, I’m convinced I cannot feel the physical emotion of love in any form. Hell, even as a 7 year old I recognized that I felt no connection to my family members. “I love you” always becomes a meaningless phrase - especially since it is/was often used by manipulative family members and past partners.

I haven’t labeled myself as aromantic - the split attraction model honestly just confuses my tiny brain way too much - but I imagine it would fit me. Really it’s up to you if you’d use it for yourself.

In my life, I’ve kinda decided on my own definition of “love”, based on qualities that have been lacking in all the previous, abusive relationships in my life (both familial and romantic). Love doesn’t have to be a feeling or a bouquet of roses or a candlelit dinner. Sometimes, love is just enjoying spending time with someone, and being enthusiastically willing to spend the rest of time with that someone. This goes for both platonic relationships and romantic relationships btw.

My current boyfriend knows if all my neurodivergency and trauma troubles, and understands my unusual lack of certain emotions, including that of love. He loves much more passionately than me, since he’s neither ND nor nearly as traumatized as me - he still considers himself in a “honeymoon phase” even after ~5 years, he loves the usual NT romantic flair of roses and gifts and fancy dinners, and he seemingly never lost that “spark” for me. On the opposite end, I lost the “spark” a long time ago, I hate/can’t understand the cliche concept of romantic love, and I usually have to ask how long we’ve been dating 💀. However, despite our clear differences in this regard, I still trust him more than anyone - he’s my best friend, and he understands and cares for me more than anyone in the past ever tried to. He knows my conflicts with emotion and showing physical affection, and he’s knows I’m much more like a cat than a human, in that I prefer bonding via parallel play and just being in the same room. He knows this and accepts this, and that’s why I want to spend my life with him. Because that’s what I consider to be love.

This is a long-ass ramble for no reason lol, but TLDR: “love” is meaningless, so make your own definition. And I believe anyone can find a partner that they can love and be loved back, including those of us that have trouble with “love”.

Absolutely! I don't have the time/energy to respond to all of this, but I do genuinely appreciate the sentiment. Reiterating that I don't identify as aro, but I realized last night that the attraction I have for two of my closest friends is most definitely alterous, and that eased a LOT of my fears and troubles regarding what I was feeling about them-- not platonic, not romantic, just... intimate. Far more fulfilling that any romantic relationship I've ever had, though part of that might just be shit luck on my end.

Either way! The "hierarchy" of what makes something platonic, romantic, or whatever else is completely made up, do what you want forever

[notproofread]

A Court of Mist and Fury

or The Beginning of the End

hi & hello fellow book-lovers and/or fans of the ACOTAR/ACOMAF-series. I have recently finished A Court of Mist and Fury and can't stop thinking about a bunch of different aspects of the story. So after three days of contemplation I have finally decided to blast my thoughts out onto tumblr just to get them out of my brain. You are more than welcomed to read through them & interact with them in any way you like, but please bear in mind that these are my personal opinions & that I do not have to agree with you. (and this should go without saying but I am not hating on Sarah J. Maas). It's just what I thought while and after reading it. So don't expect something too based here but still read it to the end hehe :)

Let's start with some characters shall we? How about our High Lord of the Spring Court first, since I know that he is not liked by many lol So Tamlin, right...

...why does he turn to be the evil guy even before the third part of ACOMAF?

He broke as well Under the Mountain, probably even before because of having to risk his entire court to find a woman who could help him lift the curse but why does Tamlin not get the chance to heal like Feyre and/or Rhysand? He has done some dumb shit, i'll admit, and definitely treated Feyre wrong in so many ways before Rhys took her away. But why does he not get a chance to redeem himself? Why are his actions immediately labeled as bad when he is just as broken as many other characters in this book, when literally his whole character in the first book had been labeled as a protective person who had already lost so much in his life? I DONT WANT TO EXCUSE HIS BEHAVIOUR IN ACOMAF but isn't it to be expected that someone who is protective, broken and traumatised will not always act rationally when fearing something might happen to their loved ones? I guess my main issue here is that Rhysand (the best man in the entire series btw go argue with a wall), an equally traumatised, broken, protective person, gets to have healing moments, happiness and a found family (we love to see it, you go king) but the same attributes make Tamlin the bad guy.

Like from a plot-standpoint I totally get making him side with the enemy but wouldn't it have been way more impactful if it was out of actual hate towards Feyre and/or Rhysand? We as readers get told that Tamlin & Rhys do not like each other but throughout the main part of the book it mostly seems like Tamlin is not intervening at all (except for sending Lucien once after what feels like months?). If he was so heavily and undyingly in love with Feyre wouldn't there have been more attempts in various ways? It makes his appearance as a "traitor" seem so weak because we have not heard from him after the locked-in incident and Feyre's arrival at the Night Court. In fact I have completely forgotten about him after a few chapters and just got reminded when Feyre mentioned him.

I do have to say that I love this take on a love triangle. Feyre is not stuck between Tamlin and Rhysand because it is obvious who the better choice is and she chooses exactly that.

I am extremely interested to see how his character will evolve in the coming books but as for now it just feels like SJM wants to make the reader hate Tamlin to justify FeyrexRhysand even though their interactions alone in comparison to FeyrexTamlin are enough validation for the reader to prefer them (or at least they should if they know what a healthy relationship is). The reader gets enough reason from Feyre and her comparison of the two males already, why are we led to think/feel that Tamlin "slaughtered" Rhysands family, when Rhysand himself said that he doesn't know if Tamlin was part-taking beyond telling his father the location. Slaughtered is such a strong word, especially considering that Feyre goes on a killing spree to save Rhysand mere pages later, indeed slaughtering her enemies... Then she herself is thinking that Under the Mountain changed both her and Tamlin so much, that they were no longer a good fit for each other and I loved that! Show me more of Feyre actually comparing herself before and after Under the Mountain, how Rhysand treats her and what new role he offers her. Why does Tamlin need to be the root of all evil to justify Feyre's new relationship? And when will he get to heal?

[kiisaes]

Hey kisa! I hope you have a wonderful day and I looove your arts and sketches!

I read your post about queerness in Asia and of the bkdk dynamic, it settled at the back of my head and really just starting to marinate itself into something. Sometimes I wake up and couldn't feel anything about bkdk being real or canon at all even though facts are just right there in my face. I really do love bkdk, but I felt so true of your words on queer Asians that I couldn't see all those fan contents of bkdk someday being canon. Like, most of them didn't sit right with me and it's so hard to find one that represents queerness in Asia correctly (because bakugou and Deku are indeed Japanese=Asians).

I don't know why I reach out to you but I just wanna say, your post resonated with me a lot. I'm Asian and I found out I'm queer in my 16s. Here, being queer isn't like a world-breaking news or people will hate on you cuz you're different, but it's the community sense that makes queer people stay quiet and humble. Idk how to explain myself but it's true that even when we found out our gender/sexuality, most of us tend to prefer blending in with society rather than standing out and be proud of our identity (it's for various reasons like you mentioned, for family's namesake, for friends', even for strangers).

About bkdk, in my honest opinion, standing on Horikoshi's viewpoint and trying to understand his creating ideas with the consideration of a whole Asian community behind him, I cannot see bkdk kissing if they were to end up being endgame. They might chose to be a pair of queer platonic best buddies who are the most intimate and closest person to each other and no one else can take that place in each other's heart. Their dynamics might stay the same but they'll always have each other's backs. They might hold hands occasionally or be more touchy with each other than with others 'cuz that's ultimately where their dynamics and relationship lead up to in the whole story. They don't have to declare that they love each other or establish a new form of relationship and that's okay. Because for me, that's how being queer and being quiet and being Asian is. You get to be yourself proudly, but you don't have to yell it to the world to be recognized and feel validated. It's ok to be humble and still be proud.

Thanks kisa for wording out my feelings and thoughts in a much coherent way. I do think some Asians(not queer people) have a strange way at viewing lgbt+ because it's the western stereotypical concepts of the community that is more drilled into their minds. Even my parents sometimes forgot that I'm queer and thought that was a phase lol.

(sorry for ranting so much, that last part might be me dumping my whole hc at you I'm sorry!!! I feel really touched by your words and it has been sitting on my chest for a while and seeing bkdk still ten million miles away from being canonically endgame is so frustrating hsgdjaksh

WOW HI !!! i hope u're having a good day/night too anon and thank u !!! :D

i'm really honored my words reached you! as a queer asian, i completely agree with everything you said here. i'm also in the boat where i don't think bkdk will be officially canon, despite how many bkdks think they will. i think it's a very inherently naive thought that a japanese shounen series of mha's size and caliber will confine to western lgbt standards. it's just not that easy! and i've ranted in length about my pessimism ... and i will continue to stay that way until i'm definitively proven wrong LOL (i hope i am btw!!!)

there's definitely something inherently queer asian about bkdk's relationship, if they were to hypothetically be canon. i completely agree that, imo, they'll only be considerably queerplatonic if they're any type of queer at all. hoping for a more "proudly gay" bkdk is nice, but pretty unlikely all things considered. being "proudly gay", like completely coming out of the closet and disregarding what society/family has to say about you, isn't as simple in asian communities. being quietly and humbly queer is something i, and many queer asians, resonate with a lot! that's just as valid as being loudly and unabashedly queer!

if bkdk becomes officially, loudly, and excessively canon then that'd be incredible!!! i won't push it away in the slightest!!! it'd be a great push for shounen jump and a sign that more lgbt stories can exist, even if they're at mha's size!!! more acceptance of marginalized communities is always good!!!

but i also think that bkdks who refuse to accept bkdk not being canon because not being openly official = not good/queer enough, should perhaps open their minds more to what society mha is written in. smaller showcases of closeness, comfort and camaraderie can be just as queer as shouting it from the rooftops. that's good enough! and if that's what bkdk gets in the end, then i'll be satisfied, even if horikoshi doesn't confirm their relationship :>

(and AAAA no worries!!! hey i love talking about bkdk in relation to asian queerness, so u're good!)

[inukag]

Just curious but why do you prefer Inuyasha over sesshouamru and really inukag over sesskag? I know sesskag isn’t canon and inukag is the canon couple but is there any reason for your preference? Is it cuz you just prefer Inuyasha or you just like to ship what’s canon? Just curiousI get curious about inukag shippers passion for the ship, I love your blog btw 💖

Generally I'm more of a canon shipper, yeah. I don't really care about romance unless I see a love story that is really well done so I will rarely look at 2 characters who aren't interested in each other in canon and think "but what if their personality or the story was different?" and search for fanfics/fanart about that. I adore Inuyasha and Kagome's story in canon so I never felt the need to ship them with other characters.

Now when it comes to sesskag there's a few reasons why I don't ship it. First as you guessed I just love Inuyasha way too much, lol. I LOVE jerks with a heart of gold. I love characters who are extremely good-hearted and kind but still have real flaws and make mistakes.

Stoic characters like Sesshomaru just aren't my cup of tea, I find myself bored by characters like that and I think the fandom in general really overexaggerates how much he was "redeemed" in canon. I see a lot of "He was never that cruel! He only killed bandits and demons!" completely ignoring the fact that he used his poison claws on Kagome with the intent to kill her (unlike Inuyasha who missed on purpose while attacking Kagome, Sesshomaru did NOT miss and Kagome only survived because of Tessaiga). I see a lot of "He learned compassion!" ignoring the fact that he said "Who cares?" when Naraku told him that everyone in in Kaede's village would die if he attacked him, as late as chapter 551. There's nothing wrong with Sesshomaru being a morally grey character but that's... absolutely not compatible with Kagome "chronic hero syndrome" Higurashi. Kagome might be kind and friendly with everyone but that doesn't mean that she would date anyone. One of the main reasons why she falls in love with Inuyasha is because he has a good-heart and he can't bring himself to actually be cruel. I think it's pretty important for her to be with someone who has the same values as her, you know? To ship her with Inuyasha's racist, cruel brother who made Inuyasha's life hell and is one of the reasons why he has such an abrasive personally just... doesn't make any sense to me.

Because of that I always felt like Sesshomaru is very ooc in sesskag fanfics/comics (I've read a few in the past because I was curious). Which is fine, you do you. But I can't see Sesshomaru as the soft, kind, gentleman he is in fanfics, lol. Don't get me wrong a lot of inukag fanfics also make Inuyasha a lot sweeter and romantic than he is in canon but it's still more believable to me than Sesshomaru being like that. In canon the only time Sesshomaru and Kagome were alone together Kagome tried to have a conversation with him and he barely replied to her, so I think Kagome is too bubbly and talkative and would be bored with him, lmao.

Also I've seen some sesskag shippers argue that they ship it because they don't like the love triangle and how Kagome was hurt by Inuyasha's relationship with Kikyo and like, I get it. But most of these arguments come from anime watchers who tend to believe Inuyasha should have just ditched Kikyo and let her die and I will never agree with that. Yes Inuyasha could have handled the situation better but calling him a two-timer who treats Kagome like shit is a bad misunderstanding of his character and the situation (especially in the manga) and that's the hill I will die on 🤷‍♀️ Also If you think Kagome should be shipped with someone who doesn't have an ex and is actually compatible with her: Sango is right there? The fact that people who use this argument don't ship Kagome with Sango or Hojo makes me believe that they basically use Kagome as a self-insert to ship themselves with whatever male character they find hot (not saying all sesskag content is like that ofc but a lot of it must be)

I hope this answers your question! And thank you for the compliment 😊 No hate towards Sesskag shippers btw their fandom is pretty big and I've never had beef with anyone in that fandom so I think that says a lot!

[satanfemme]

Hi! May I ask why you dont identify with the term queer? I'm just kinda confused, sorry

why is this like the second ask I've gotten mentioning this subject within the past 24 hours. it's been months (at least) since the last time I've actually mentioned not id'ing with that word. like genuinely is there a callout about me getting passed around lgbt discourse tumblr rn, hello? I'm not intending this response to be standoffish towards you btw, just confused why people I don't even know are suddenly so interested in this personal detail about me, a real life gaytrans person, who you don't know? also maybe it's the paranoia speaking but I get the sense this is a bait ask. I'm giving you the benefit of the doubt rn, and assuming you've just genuinely never heard of anyone disliking the word before, but please understand why I don't really feel comfortable getting asked this by a complete stranger unprompted.

and to be frank it's no one's business why an lgbt person might prefer one word or dislike another. no one needs a moral reason to not identify as a label? you might as well start going up to binary trans people asking them why they don't id as agender. like, cause they aren't. lol. and I'm not queer.

but to answer your question, here's a quick history: "queer" was a word that historically (and still in the present!!!) means "weird", "strange", "eccentric", etc. basically "not quit right; a little off-putting". at one point (in the ~late 1800s) cishet people began using the word to describe feminine and gay men (who are, to them, very weird and wrong). it was used especially with reference to gay men's "sexual deviance", and alongside other 'fun' pejorative words like "fairy" and "faggot". it became a slur invented by cishet people, and used by cishet people, to describe gay people as something other, different, strange, not-like-us. as fucking WEIRD. said in the same breath as calling us faggots. and said in conjugation with homophobic harassment, oppression, hate crimes. over time, lgbt people began to reclaim and adapt it into our own slang, just like we have with similar words like fairy and faggot and etc. and in the ~1980s there was a notable movement of people reclaiming the word en masse -- because lgbt people needed power and there's a power to slur reclamation! "you think I'm fucked up and disgusting? ok, watch me!!!" is a political message with bite to it. "not gay as in happy, but queer as in FUCK YOU" was subversive and radical as hell. instead of assimilating to what pop culture wants from you, stand your ground and turn whatever terrible thing they see you as into something you're proud to be! when fighting oppressive institutions for rights and respect, why beg those oppressors to see you as a respectable "keep it in the bedroom, blend into normal crowds, never ever mention your perverse homosexuality in front of any impressionable children" kind of gay person, when you could instead DEMAND the respect you deserve not "in spite" of who you are but BECAUSE OF IT.

however the point of slur reclamation, such as described above, imho is that the slur has teeth to it. and despite modern liberal movements attempting to file down and smooth out and commercialize "queer", it was picked out for it's teeth and those teeth are still there. even if they've been shoved away under the rug for a lot of people. the slur never left cishet people's pejorative lexicons. so I get that in some areas, in lucky contexts, it genuinely does just mean "lgbt" in the most neutral sense possible. but outside these hyper-specific settings, it's still a slur. for a lot of people, it's still a slur they get called by homophobes/transphobes/etc. it's still used by cishet people, for irl harassment and irl hate crimes. and its history is still embedded into the word itself (you can't separate the word from "weird and strange" when dictionaries still define it as "weird and strange"!)

I'm not explaining to you why I, personally, as a real life femme homosexual with a job and bills to pay don't want to get called a queer by anyone.

but if you use your critical thinking skills, I'm sure you could take a fucking guess????! :)

also, on an ending note: "why don't you id with the word queer?" why would I. I have no reason to reclaim a slur that so many people want to ignore the history of, both past and present. there's hardly anything revolutionary about a word Target™'s trying to sell us on fast fashion t-shirts. if I'm gonna stab myself to prove a point, I'm not doing it while goddamn corporations cheer me on.

at least when I call myself a FAGGOT cishet people WINCE! but if I call myself a queer... they just nod their head and agree.

[fanfic-chan]

hi i'll answer your ask later ^^ - kuroo and amber for the ask game? or just one of them, however you want <3

1: 2-4 songs that are probably on their iPod

Kuroo:

Everybody Wants to be a Cat from the Aristocrats. He likes playing it randomly over a Bluetooth speaker really loud everytime they have a practice match with Karasuno and it's hilarious because it riles them up so much dgjbdfhjggjjjj 🤣🤣🤣

Counting Stars by OneRepublic I can't really explain why but I just feel like he'd really love this song and listen to it a bunch on long bus rides when he's not busy pestering one of his poor teammates lol

Amber:

Adventure by Matthew Parker. It just really suits her whole personality I think!^^

This Girl is on Fire by Alicia Keys. Come on. You can't tell me she wouldn't absolutely jam out to this song. It's perfect for her!

2: the one place they sometimes end up falling asleep – where they’re not supposed to

Kuroo:

In Kenma's room. These two are childhood friends so I imagine they must have had quite a few sleepovers in the time they've known each other. Kenma has always had a gift for keeping himself up so Kuroo likes to challenge himself to try and outlast Kenma by staying awake. He's never even come close once and always ends up zonking out completely before 2 am, and then he ends up super tired the next day.

Amber:

In meetings. Sometimes she'll just zonk out right in the middle of one out of a combination or boredom and tiredness combined and no one even bothers waking her up unless it's important/involves her. She's always so dedicated and hardworking so girl needs all the sleep she can get if she's going to keep up her peppy and hardworking personality.

3: the game they'd destroy everyone else at

Kuroo:

This one is actually inspired by one of your own fics funnily enough, but Kuroo absolutely kicks butt at monopoly. He's the king of capitalism lol (Monopoly Sucks is the fic for anyone interested btw! Highly recommend it!^^)

Amber:

I feel like she'd be really good at flappy bird for some reason, like, unreasonably good. Don't ask me why I think this because I have absolutely no idea either. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

4: the emoticon they’d use most often

Kuroo:

He uses this one ¬‿¬ on the regular and also throws in cat emojis wherever and whenever possible. Drives Yaku nuts.

Amber:

She uses <3 and :D a lot!! She's also obsessed with using heart emoji spamming like this 🧡💗💔💜💛❤️🤍💗🧡 when she's super excited about something and it's absolutely adorable!

5: what they act like when they haven’t had enough sleep

Kuroo:

He gets sort of groggy and unfocused, and he ends up zoning out a lot throughout the day. Usually a result of his sleepovers with Kenma as I mentioned earlier. Yaku always gets irritated with him about it and scolds him pffft.

Amber:

A lot less pep in her step and a major drop in her positive aura. It's always super obvious to everyone in the Knights of Favonius when Amber's energy has dropped and they all do their best to lighten her load on those days so she has time to rest up.

6: their preferred hot beverage on really cold nights. or mornings. or whenever.

Kuroo:

Probably coffee, but only because of his obsession with trying to stay up longer than Kenma just once. Otherwise, I don't think he's much of a hot beverage person myself adide from maybe tea if he's not feeling well. Also, he probably uses a lot of coffee creamer because I just don't see him being the type of person to enjoy drinking it black XD

Amber:

I personally think Amber seems like a hot chocolate person myself! She has a very bubbly and childlike personality so it just fits her really well I think!^^

7: how they like to comfort/care for themselves when they’re in a slump

Kuroo:

I feel like with Kuroo, he'd probably have a few different methods of dealing with a slump depending on his mood. His favorite one though would probably have to be going over to Kenma's to watch him play videogames. He finds it oddly soothing and Kenma can always tell when it's those kinds of days too since Kuroo will be less talkative than usual, so in his own way of showing support, he'll usually ask him if he wants to play mariocart or something with him. He tries to play it off, but Kuroo knows anyway and he finds it super endearing.

Amber:

Amber would definitely go wind gliding when she's feeling down. The feeling of the wind in her hair and the adrenaline in her veins as she soars over Mondstadt never fails to improve her mood, and it's even better when she has a friend there to share the view with!^^

8: what they wanted to be when they grew up

Kuroo:

Oooh!! I feel like Kuroo was probably one of those cute little kids who wanted to be a bit of everything when he was little. One week it was an astronaut, the next a cowboy, then a veterinarian. Just whatever job seemed cool to him at the time and it was constantly changing.

Amber:

Ok you cannot tell me that Amber didn't just go up to her grandfather one day when she was really young and tell him very excitedly that she wanted to be a bird when she grew up. Other than that tho, I think she always wanted to be an outrider just like him!

9: their favorite kind of weather

Kuroo:

I personally think that Kuroo would really enjoy those days in Autumn with that slight breeze and fresh chill in the air. Especially in the morning because it always helps him wake up more when he leaves his house. It's a great way yo start the day.

Amber:

I think she'd prefer nice summer days when the sun is shining and warm and there's a good breeze going. She loves going windgliding on those days especially.

10: thoughts on their singing voice (decent? terrible? soprano? alto?)

Kuroo:

I feel like Kuroo would have a really good singing voice for sort of Jazzy nostalgic blues songs if that makes sense. Like, unfairly good.

Amber:

Oooh I personally think Amber would have a really fun and cheerful singing voice, and that she often hums or sings little tunes to herself on patrols!^^

11: how/what they like to draw or doodle

Kuroo:

He secretly really enjoys doodling little cat versions of his teammates, cutting them out, and then carefully sneaking them in their lockers, gymbags, etc. Especially when said teammate is feeling down or something like that. They're actually pretty decent and cute looking drawings too. Ironically enough, everyone really loves finding the little kitty versions of themselves and they actually have bets going on who's doing it. Not a single one of them besides Kenma has figured out who it really is, and he's been sworn to absolute secrecy on the matter.

Amber:

I don't really see Amber as the type of person who likes drawing much, but she does enjoy coloring! She does it a lot with Klee and she even has a few of those travel sized adult coloring books, usually flora and fauna themed ones, that she brings with her if she's going on a stakeout mission and knows she'll be sitting in one spot with nothing else to do for a while. She finds it relaxing and it helps pass the time.

Ask Game here!^^

[heizuha-queen]

Hello! It's that girl who doesn't know when to stop coming up with more headcannons at 2am in the morning again.

Another idea sparked in my head.

You know how it's common for K-pop idols to have solo activities such as joining a variety show?

Have you heard of Busted! ?

Not sure if you've heard about this variety program. It airs on Netflix and currently have three seasons. The cast members consists of various celebrities ranging from comedians to actors to idols. Exo Sehun and Gugudan Sejeong are actually members of that show as well. (Btw, Sehun even low-key dressed up as KID once. It was a masterpiece. Period)

The show is a mystery/detective game program. The cast have to solve puzzles and search for clues to complete the missions given. The best part of the program is that the production team doesn't make the cast solve stupid, kid puzzle games.

They have to solve actual, scary, cases. Murders. Robbery. Conspiracy stuff.

So....

What if... Kazuha joins a program like this as a cast member?

I believe she would actually be perfect to join the show for several reasons:

1. Her intelligence

We've seen that she is actually very smart. Her deduction skills may not be as sharp as Heiji's, but we were shown in canon how Kazuha is actually very intelligent, even able to decipher the dying message of the victim in the Heiji Vs Kazuha episode. (If you remember, even Kogoro & Ran weren't able to solve it)

Not just that, remember how in the 7th Movie, Kazuha was able to come up with a really smart way to save Heiji from getting killed by that masked man by just using her sock and rocks?

If she were to join the cast, she'll be a valuable asset that could help them solve the missions much more quickly due to her wits.

2. Her physical prowess

Okay, to be honest, it's not necessary for the cast members to be proficient in martial arts. However, her aikido would definitely be a huge bonus. Imagine a scene where the cast members were all scared and being chased by something (like a villain, criminal,etc) As everyone is running away to not get caught and lose or something, Kazuha just stands there like a badass and back flip the villain like... Wouldn't that be totally awesome?

The production crew may or may not advise Kazuha to not repeat that so the staff members won't turn down their job as future villain roles.

(Also, ever since the back flip incident, the internet may or may not vote her as the most badass K-pop idol to live)

3. Her popularity

Since I think everyone on your blog agrees that Kazuha will be extremely popular, imagine the viewers she would attract to watch the program. It wouldn't be just the Korean audience. Her international fans would watch. Her Japanese audience would watch. Her group's fan would watch.

Of course, most importantly, Heizuha fans would loyally watch every episode as they pray that Heiji would miraculously guest on one of the episodes since they're thirsty for any Heizuha interaction.

(Even a cameo phone call would be enough tbh)

4. Her experience

I strongly believe that no matter how hard Kazuha's agency tried to avoid scandal by hiding the fact that Kazuha has been to a lot of cases and crime scenes (because of Heiji), the internet still discovers it. Hence, the producer of the show believe that she would perfect since she has experience and know how to ACTUALLY act when trying to do detective work. Her attitude would make the (fake) murder case looks real and legit, hence bringing more quality to the show.

5. Her relationship with people who are in the field

I think that, over time, people would discover that Kazuha is a daughter of a very notable and respectable police officer. Due to that, in a way, I think people would trust Kazuha's instinct more on the show, and indirectly, she would unconsciously lead the cast members to solve the mystery without being explicitly bossy nor pushy.

I would also LOVE to imagine that in those EXTREMELY RARE instances where a mission becomes extremely hard, for instance, they've spent longer time than necessary on a clue, the production crew gives them a chance to call someone and ask for help. (Tbh the production crew could just straight up tell them the answer, but where's the entertainment value in that?) Most of the time people would ask Kazuha to call for help since she has connections to a bunch of smart people who could solve the clue in just a few minutes. ( ie; her dad, Heiji).But of course, (for the sake of entertainment lol), the cast prefer if she calls Heiji for help. (Hence, why Heiji makes some cameos on the show through phone calls)

Let's be real, the production crew and cast members are (low-key) hardcore Heizuha shippers.

6. Her personality

She may be hot-headed at times, but that just adds charm to her personality you know? It also sometimes help the cast stay in check to help out with the investigation. At the end of the day, her determination to complete a mission yet adorableness in her interactions are really what makes people love her so much. Her frankness and straightforwardness also helps her forge genuine friendships with the rest of the cast members and production crew. From the show, people could see more than a properly-trained K-pop idol on stage. Rather, a smart individual who is also a human. People get to see her as herself, not just a celebrity.

Of course, I don't think she'll immediately join the program as a rookie K-pop idol. Maybe 5/6 years after her debut, where members of her group are all exploring their own individual solo career?

Although on another note, can you imagine how Heiji would react when she's on the show.

I bet Heiji watches every episode of the show but never admits it. He would also get frustrated when everyone on the show takes too long to find a hint, but have this huge proud smile on his face whenever Kazuha solves it.

Of course, Heiji would tease Kazuha for every small thing she did on the show when they facetime or call each other in private. Just because~

I also imagine Kazuha having to change Heiji's name on her phone to something neutral that doesn't indicate that they're dating. Ever since joining the show, she also has to change the lock screen of her phone since she could be asked to call Heiji for help without any warning. (Better safe than sorry)

I guess that's all for this random shot of headcannons. I hope you enjoy them!

Ps; By the way, if I do end up writing Heizuha fanfics (WE DESPERATELY NEED MORE!!), I'll let you know 😊

Umm PLEASE NEVER LEARN TO STOP BECAUSE I LOVE READING YOUR HEADCANONS!

I really love the idea of Heiji appearing in phone calls and I can imagine him watching every episode. It’s a routine that no one can break for him😂😂