#the prettiest boy in all the universe ♡

[wolfchans]

BANG CHAN ♡ LOVE YOUR W EVENT

[novalpha]

𝘔𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘺𝘶 𝐹𝑖𝑐 𝑅𝑒𝑐𝑠

♡ Fluff || ୨୧ Angst || ★ Smut || ꗃ SMAU || ⌗ Series || ✿ Drabble || ♤ Suggestive (No smut) || ✹ Humor

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ The other woman ♡୨୧♤⌗ -> @idyllic-ghost Part 1 , Part 2 , Part 3

synopsis: you're married to wonwoo, but his parents desperately wants him to have a child - which you cannot have. he gives into his parents wishes and meets the other woman, whom he eventually agrees to marry as well. you're left heartbroken for a few years, seeing the man you love build a family that you had always wanted, but happiness is on the horizon as you meet someone new.

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ Love and warmth ♡୨୧♤✹ -> @viastro

synopsis: in which you blackmail your employee, mingyu, to marry you in order not to get deported back to canada due to your expired visa. [based on the proposal]

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ Sugar and you ♡ -> @97-liners

synopsis: in which mingyu is an idealistic pastry chef, and you’re a cynical wedding planner who doesn’t believe in love.

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ Dry Humping ★ -> @undermoonlightst Part 1 , Part 2

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ Parties, Yachts and Wishful thinking ★ -> @ithinkilikeit-reactions

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ Hot or cold ♡ -> @jjuniehao

synopsis: when looking for something on his phone, you find an email you didn’t expect…

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ Honey boy ♡୨୧★ -> @chocosvt

synopsis: when you graduate high school, you realize you’re not really going to miss anyone, apart from a cute boy who doesn’t even remember your name. five years later, after accepting an offer to pass the summer at a friend’s lake house, he’s standing right in front of you. the universe doesn’t give second chances very often. you’re not going to let the honey boy slip away twice. 

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ Puppy love ♡୨୧★ -> @smileysuh

synopsis: Mingyu is stuck in the puppy love phase, he can’t get enough of you, and can’t seem to grow out of it either- luckily, as your Black Lab Hybrid, he never needs to.

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ Lilac lace ♡୨୧★ -> @starlightxsvt

synopsis: without much options left on your hands, you become Mingyu's roommate. things take a wild turn after a few weeks.

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ His smile ♡୨୧★ -> @angelwonie

Summary: falling in love with your fake boyfriend isn't a good idea, and it's even worse if that fake boyfriend happens to be Kim Mingyu. but you just can't help it — he's got the prettiest smile you've ever seen.

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ Hallmark moment ♡୨୧★-> @onlymingyus Part 2

synopsis: The kids have been watching too many Christmas movies, and are now determined to have their very own magical moment with their parents.

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ Local lover boy ♡୨୧♤ -> @cheolism

summary: after you've had a long week of work, mingyu decides to help you wind down for the night.

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ Oh no, he's hot ★ -> @ncteez

Synopsis: The first time you drove your very trashed best friend home was because you had a crush on him. All the times you drove him home after that were because…well, his dad is sexy.

or the one where you have tension with your crush’s dad at four in the morning and maybe secretly fuck while said crush is asleep on the couch. 

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ Spoiled ★ -> @wonusite Part 2 , Part 3 , Part 4

summary: you have never been spoiled, but that changes after you meet the man your mother is going to marry.

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ Confidently lost ★ -> @gfcheol

summary: it's not easy to work your way through college, luckily for you, your babysitting job pays exceptionally well. and your boss is absolutely gorgeous.

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ Stay at home ♡୨୧★ -> @celestiababie

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ I can't run away ♡୨୧★ -> @gyukult

summary: everyone expresses love in different ways. that doesn’t exclude you.

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ We don't usually hold hands ♡୨୧★ -> @gyukult

summary: when a friend brings up the potential feelings of a fuck buddy, you’re left wondering what to do when you confirm it’s true.

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ Stop kissing me please ♡★ -> @jejuboo-s

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ Break the curse, break my heart ♡୨୧ -> @savventeen

summary: what's supposed to be a simple hex job turns into something much deadlier, and suddenly the two of you are fighting just to stay alive

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ One last time (for old time's sake) ୨୧♡ -> @tonicandjins Part 2

summary: you receive an invitation for the worst day of your life.

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ A sheep in Wolf's clothing ♡★ -> @rubyreduji

summary: kim mingyu is the biggest player on campus, so why is he coming to you for sex help

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ Drift away ♡୨୧★ -> @playmetheclassics

Summary: You made the biggest mistake of your life, and now, Mingyu is trying his hardest to forget and forgive you, but how long till your infidelity rips you both apart? Besides, it’s not like you’d blame him. You hurt him. You did the one thing you promised never to do.

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ To the brim ♡★ -> @toruro

description. all your sweet husband wants is to put a baby into you—is that so bad?

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ The secrets kept from roommates ♡★✹ -> @cheolism

summary: you are hiding a secret from mingyu. little do you know that he's hiding one from you too.

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ Trust (fall) ♡★ -> @toruro

description. your boyfriend insists he's strong enough to carry you and fuck you at the same time, but you have your doubts. of course, mingyu is more than ready to try and prove you wrong.

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ — jealousy, jealousy ♡★ -> @monamipencil

synopsis; a trip to the convenience store with your boyfriend takes an unexpected turn.

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ pretty like this ♡★ -> @madeforgyu

summary. you think mingyu's hands are pretty. he thinks you look pretty coming undone. (cw. very heavy ddlg themes)

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ The Perils of Apartment Living ✹♡★ -> @dontflailmenow

Synopsis: While lying in bed, the two of them can't help but overhear their upstairs neighbors going at it rather loudly. Mingyu turns to You after a while, and asks, “You wanna fuck louder than them to establish dominance?”

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ First date ♡★ -> @cheolhub

summary. mingyu doesn’t usually fuck on the first date. emphasis on usually.

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ Endless Adoration ♡★ -> @wonusite

❝ Mingyu has been irrevocably in love with you since he was in high school. He decides to keep this a secret until he can move on since you’ve only ever seen him as your best friend’s brother. However, his plan goes awry when you ask him to take your virginity and teach you about sex—as a friend, of course. ❞

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ Kim mingyu’s (unhelpful) guide to losing your virginity ✹♡★ -> @shuaflix

SUMMARY ▸ after accidentally telling your friends that kim mingyu took your virginity (he didn't), you’re shocked when he proposes to relieve you of the fabled v-card for good (he does).

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ It’s all fun and games ✹♡★ -> @dontflailmenow

summary: reader thinks it’s fun to troll her buddy, mingyu, for being all big and strong. and it is! except at some point it turns out maybe she’s not just teasing and they’re both into it (and each other)

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ Exile ♡୨୧★ -> @wongyuseokie

Summary: You two were high school sweethearts, and your love story was something only found in the scripts of a shitty teenage rom-com, but he was a jock, and you were shy and quiet. It shouldn’t have worked, but somehow it did. Now, fast forward ten years, and things aren’t the same. Your lives aren’t the same; he’s stuck in the past, and you only focus on the future. Neither of you has your priorities straight, and neither realises that your present is a complete and utter mess. You won’t let him go because he’s all you’ve ever known, and he won’t let you go because you’re the only thing right in his life, but will love and high school promises keep you two together?

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ Creep ★୨୧ -> @smileysuh

preview. “If the roles were reversed - if you were a ghost bound to this apartment forever - you’re saying you wouldn’t watch me get naked every day?” He’s definitely got a point. As your eyes skim Mingyu's perfect form again, that tingle returns between your legs. There’s no reason for him to be as sexy as he is- murders aren’t the only shocking thing this man has under his belt and you can see that now. 

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ In soft hands , Part 2 ♡୨୧★ -> @beahae

Summary: You've sworn off dating. But your favourite kid at your work has the hottest dad in the entire world. A bit of harmless flirting never hurt anyone, right?

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ Only for Love ♡୨୧★ -> @joonsytip Part 1 , Part 2 , Part 3 , Epilogue

Synopsis: When an accidental discovery has your perception of happy married life crumbling down, you do what you think is the best for everyone involved. Naturally, your opinion of the best doesn't cater to your husband's. So what happens when things spiral out due to unforeseen events?

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ Life's A Beach ♡★ -> @whipped-for-kpop-fics

Summary: You don’t like the beach, but you do like the handsome lifeguard who works there. As it turns out, he likes you too and is more than willing to risk his job to have you.

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ The Moves ✿♤♡✹ -> @thedensworld

❙❘❙❙❘❙❚❙❘ ⌕ How to Win Hearts for Dummies (the answer is lattes and banana bread) ♡୨୧ -> @gyuswhore (Idol!mingyu x makeup-artist!reader)

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[mooishbeam]

『♡』 Rises the Moon

♡ featuring: dan heng IL x f!reader

♡ summary: you help dan heng work through his heat cycle wc: 3.1k+

♡ cw/tw: canon-divergent, breeding, praise, kinda sad but wholesome, monster-fucking, heat cycle, blowjob, cunnilingus, mentions of blood, biting

notes: super canon divergent ik vidyadhara can't have kids but ahhh dan heng breed brainrot :P ruahh I need that lc

Cracked from a shimmering pearl into the cold deception of a ship no longer home, that damned his ill-fated legacy. A lonely forgone dragon wanders a lifetime in purgatory, searching for hands to follow, for he was reborn into the dead silence of solitude. He stretched his inhuman heart as far as it could reach, enough for anyone to hold. But it twisted and tangled in thorns, cradled by serpents' eyes that prayed for his ruin. In brief moments of rest, his visions were suffocated with catastrophic destruction unbeknownst to the reincarnate. When he was eventually released, no one turned for him; a trail of fire he would have to walk alone, bleeding for repentance until his sin was permanently consumed by the collapsing universe.  

A race cursed to live forever rarely knew joy or love to its full extent, as all things mortal would return to the ground beneath them. It wasn’t worth the attachment, nor the deserved doom of a man denied salvation. 

Your arrival at the space station upturned his perception. He wasn’t sure why he yearned to be near you, why his senses craved your smell and sight. He had to distance himself from you as much as possible, but the melody of your pure voice stored a rhythm in his core that could not be removed. He lamented the blooming affection in his discernment. Often lying awake at night, struggling to satiate the urges. 

To you, he was Dan Heng. The solemn, headstrong friend that seldom spoke in your presence. Your favorite pastime was playful banter; he rarely smiled, but it pulled at your heartstrings when the corners of his lips slightly lifted. When he picked at his food, you went out of your way to find out what he preferred and arranged your meals around his. You spent almost all of your time on the parlor car. That isn’t to say you weren’t interested in adventuring, you frequently noted the prettiest gems March showed you during their trips. You asked Dan about the stuff he enjoyed, but it’d usually amount to “I was too focused on staying alive to take in the scenery.” You recall entering your room after their return and noticed an iron scrap flower sitting on your windowsill. Dan nonchalantly admitted to the act, mentioning how he overheard your liking for metallic constructs. You originally thought this was simply an extension of your friendship, but the burning ache in your body spoke otherwise. The little things he did, such as bringing small gifts or ingredients for you to experiment with made you seek that numbed heart, imprisoned in ice. 

Himeko joked about your sour mood whenever Dan Heng was gone. You read while she stared at you, amused by the pout on your face. “Hmm, your boy toy is missing. Feeling down?” Your head shot up, ears hot from the assumption.  

“W-what? No, of course not. We’re friends, Himeko.” you panicked. She softly giggled. 

“Don’t worry. They’re coming back soon.” You peeked up from the pages. 

“...When?” you mumbled. “A few days. Now you can stop being so sad.” 

You were ecstatic when they arrived, ready to hear about their grueling journey, and more so happy to see Dan Heng. As March relived her storytelling, you observed him. He seemed to be in a trance. His expression was the same as always, but he felt disconnected from you, like he discerned a grim future. He didn’t come to dinner and went to sleep. When you asked March if something happened, she shifted uncomfortably but finally spoke.  

“Dan Heng...he changed on the Xianzhou Luofu.” She’d conveniently left out most of the story. 

“What do you mean ‘changed’?” you questioned, finding it hard to mask your worries. “He had horns and... It was all really new. I kinda wanna forget about it, too.” You didn’t pressure her for more information, and she went to her room shortly after.  You tossed in your sleep, wondering what he must’ve gone through, and what you could do to help him. 

You awoke in an inky blue void, the stars cascading a brilliant aura across the night. There were no other planets visible; only the vast moon, a divinely warm glow, alluring and protective in your gaze. Heavenly bodies carried infinitely above, shaping the moon in its godlike image. You stood in a comparatively small pool of iridescent liquid that waterfalled off each side. It marbled from refracted shimmers, cool to the touch. Somehow life emerged in the barren quiet, white lotus’ decorating most of the area. They never spilled down the stream, as if they'd been waiting. In said pool, was a man with elvish ears and gleaming horns, kneeling turned away from you. His pale arms were shackled behind him, and his delicate hair cascaded down his naked back. If you listened closely, you could hear the faint sobs he tried to stifle. You wanted to comfort him, to calm his nerves. You took a step, and he stopped. He didn’t acknowledge you. You took another step, your hand wishing to touch him. Before you could, you phased out of your dream.  

For the next two weeks, he didn’t leave his room. Not when you were around. At the same time, this reoccurring dream was plaguing your thoughts. It ended the same way each time. March aimed to console you, but you felt she knew more than she led on. Fatigued from your restless mind, you decide to talk to Himeko instead. She stirs her drink while Welt reads the paper. 

“Good morning, (Y/N).” said Welt. 

“Good...morning.” you yawned, rubbing your worsening eyebags. 

“You don’t seem okay. Is everything alright?” Himeko asks, motioning for you to sit beside her. 

“Something is wrong with Dan Heng and March isn’t telling me everything. I was hoping you would.” Welt clears his throat, sets the paper on the table and walks away. Himeko puts her hand on your knee. 

“He’s feeling unwell right now. It’s best we don’t disturb him.” 

“I’ve been having this weird dream, of a guy with horns. He’s crying. And I can’t save him. What does this mean? Why is everyone keeping this from me?” Alarm flashes in her expression, but she composes herself. She sucks in a deep breath. “Do you know what a Vidyadhara is?”  

“No.” 

“Vidyadhara descended from dragons, and they’re very powerful. Dan Heng is a special case of Vidyadhara, so we must treat him as such.” 

“So why can’t I see him?”  

“It’s important that we avoid him while he’s in the process of...getting through this.” 

“But someone has to check on him, right? I could be the one to do it-” 

“(Y/N). Dan Heng requested specifically, that I don’t allow you to see him.” You felt your heart pierce. You believed you were friends with him, so why was he forcing you away? “Oh. Okay.” you said meekly. You went back to your room to contemplate. 

 You were a ghost throughout the day, serving food in silence. When the crew went to bed you prepared a hearty soup to soothe whatever illness he had. He’d probably reject it, but the selfish side wanted to know why he was upset with you. Even if he didn’t have an answer, perhaps his voice would be adequate. Arriving at his door, you knock twice gently. 

“I have some soup for you. Himeko said you were feeling ill. I won’t disrupt you, just want to make sure you’re eating.” He said nothing. “If you’re not hungry, let me know and I can store it for tomorrow. You can’t get better on an empty stomach.” You hear rustling inside, but he still said nothing. 

“Did I do something wrong? I’m sorry if I did.” 

“You didn’t do anything wrong, but I need you to go away.” His voice is feeble, and it scares you. 

“Can I please leave this on your desk? I’ll go away right after, I promise.” You 're practically begging, but you need to see him and know he’s okay. Dan Heng’s weakening mindset rationalizes his risky judgement, and he allows you to come in. He should be able to defend you from himself with the strength he has left; there’s no other choice. “Okay.” 

When you open the door, you’re horrified at the state. Books and precious documents were strewn across the floor or shredded, along with most of the blankets. He’s hunched over on the futon clenching his abdomen, strands of hair sticking to his shiny forehead and puffy lips. He was in a form you've never seen, dressed in elegance in contrast to his shaking figure. The clothes were disheveled, however, the window on his top ripped down the middle, exposing the muscular torso underneath with his pants pulled just under his v-line. He's flushed and sweating, a look in his eyes that both terrifies and excites you. What was most shocking were the pointy ears and horns protruding from his head. The same ones from your dream. He tracks you as you walk to his desk. He’s undoubtedly weak, and yet you feel hunted. You set the soup down. 

“Shouldn’t you ask Bailu about this?” 

“I did already. There’s nothing she can do. I have to wait.” You get on your knees next to him, and he recoils from your proximity. 

“Wait for what?” 

“I'm hot all over, all the time. Nothing I do works, even when I feel good it’s not enough.” he rasps. His eyes are shut in an attempt to null the intense sensation blazing in his veins. You ultimately realize what he means and regret your cluelessness. Still, you don’t leave, deconstructing his resolve. Suddenly, Dan Heng feels the tender press of your palm to his forehead; the touch of someone he could recognize in different timelines and different bodies. The scent of morning dew at early sunrise, the light in its darkness, bitter and sweet and persistent. He punished the thought of ravaging you, but the incessant thump of his member was staggering. He grabs your wrist tight, a guilty look in his eyes. 

“I can’t control myself. Go. Now” he shouts. His anger doesn’t scare you, and your other hand caresses his cheek. 

“Does it hurt? I can help you.” Dan Heng’s frozen as your fingers travel down his Adam's apple, then his chest, to the hem of his bottoms. He’s on his back taking deep labored breaths, the print growing from your airy brushes. 

“I don’t want you to be in pain anymore.” 

You spring his cock free, and it bounces into your hand. It’s thick and almost twelve inches, a rosy-brown gradient to the mushroom tip. His veins dance around the rounded spikes lining up his shaft on both sides. A frustrated sigh leaves him, beads of pre come dripping down his balls. You lubricate your hands with his slick and start to slowly pump him. His head is spinning, the intoxicating ecstasy makes him rut his hips and bite his blushed lips. You fondle his balls with one hand while massaging the tip with the other. Whimpers echo pleasantly in your ears, and he can’t stop watching you, drinking up your shy glances. It twitches in your hold; you can feel how close he is. He’s falling apart because of you and your dampened underwear accepts it. You push your thumb in his mouth and part it to reveal excessive drool and sharp canines.  

“Do you like it?” you tease. He makes noise resembling an “uh huh” through teary eyes. 

“You wanna come?” He quivers from the question. He can only manage a moan. You move to his base, and you slaver at the daunting size before running your tongue along the urethra and taking him in your mouth. He throws his head back but tries to restrain himself from bucking into you. You can barely get it halfway as his cockhead kisses the back of your throat. You hollow your cheeks and start bobbing your head, he trembles from unconstrained pleasure.  

“Please, I’ll do anything please let me come” he whines, tears spilling down his cheeks. You move your hands with the suction along his gradually noisy whimpers, the occasional gag from sloppy grinding. 

“Ah, ‘m gonna come-” he chokes, his chest hitched rapidly, spurting ropes that flood your throat. He rides the wave against you until you pull up. When you meet with him again, his demeanor changes. He instantly snatches you into his arms and smothers his nose in your stomach. He tears your clothes off impatiently, just to taste your bare skin. “Dan-” 

“You smell so good. Aeons, why do you smell so good.” He gazes at you darkly, littering wet kisses across your stomach and chest. His slender hands grope and explore anything they can reach. It was like he had a burst of energy; he nearly lifts you off his lap. You notice his horns get progressively longer, a dim radiance outlining them. His nails grew too, they dragged light scratches over your breasts to your hips. He pulls you to him, lips barely hovering before they collide into a deep, passionate exchange. Unspoken words allow teeth and tongue to mix, and you moan into each other. The pheromones hugging his consciousness are addictive, he needs more of it. He promptly flips you on your back, his eyes look down on you with a starving glint. 

“I’m hungry now.” 

“Oh sure, I can warm up the-” 

“No. Let me eat you.” His statement was more of a demand than a request, as he mangles your panties down your legs. He forces your thighs back and appreciates the glistening sticky folds. “Stunning” he purrs. He licks a flat strip to your clit and laps up your juices, then envelops his mouth in your heat. His firm squeeze prevents you from escaping the determined pink muscle, swirling and twisting around you. He switches between French kisses to your vulva and merciless sucking on the erect bud. He’d rather drown in you than catch his breath, your essence covers his jaw and chin. You card your fingers through his scalp and accidentally sweep his horns; he shudders. You rub the pad of your thumb on it, earning a strangled whimper. His tongue sinks into your passage and begins to move at a brutal pace. You tease the sensitivity in his horns, flicking and circling them. The vibrations from his moans rock against your walls and your hips stutter. “Ah- I’m close” you plead. He stimulates your clit, and you pulse around him before your back arches, and you unwind. His mouth is stitched to you as you try to wriggle out of his grasp. He continues to devour your climax. He hoists your lower half off the ground, savoring your honeyed desire, laughing from your overstimulated cries. You’re spasming and feel your heart racing in your ears. He stops at the approaching precipice and lays you down. Balmy kisses dot your knees. 

“Please Dan Heng, more” you beg. 

“(Y/N), I don’t want to hurt you.” He's throbbing, and he straightens your legs to roll his hips between your thighs. The plush fat cuddles his cock and he pants. You grab his hand. 

“It’s okay, I’m yours. I know you don’t mean to hurt me.” 

“But-” 

“I love you” you blurt out. “Please, I want to have this with you. I can handle it, I promise.” Your vulnerability surprises you, and he stops. 

“You...love me?” he questions. For a split second, you see sadness and despair. No one stood to consider an exile incapable of love, but you did. No one bothered to defrost the drifting hollow, but you did. The undying weeps. 

“I love you. I would destroy every star and planet in your name. Carve your worth into the cosmos so that even Fuli could worship your memory. I am yours in its entirety, and I’ll only live for you.” You wipe the tears as they come down and kiss his troubles away. 

“I want you inside me” you whisper. He stands and scoops you up, his hands on your ass and your arms around his neck. He aligns his tip with your sex and lowers you into the plunge. The stretching blaze of your walls accommodating his girth is excruciating.  

“Is this okay?” 

“Yes.” You give him a reassuring smile. He’s stuffing you full, the spikes knead your inner walls the deeper he goes. He bottoms out and stays there for a while. 

“Tell me when to move” he soothes. 

“Go ahead.” He starts an unrelenting tempo, and you grip him like a vice, your arousal drenching his balls. The thundering sound of desperate huffs and squelching, smacking flesh is almost embarrassing; you both don’t care, indulging each other. You could’ve sworn you saw something similar to a dragon's tail swaying behind him, or maybe your mind played tricks on you. Strings of saliva connect his fangs, eyes cloudy with carnal impulse and cock twitching from the friction. He can see the bulge snapping in and out of your stomach and groans.  

“Deeper.” He pulls out and lays you on the futon before positioning you in a mating press. In one swoop he jackhammers your cunt, balls swinging and ragged breath on your ear. His hair blankets you and you soak in his sweating physique, his needy appearance. 

“Gonna breed this pretty pussy” he moans. Eyeing the unoccupied space on your neck, he salivates. You guide his lips to your neck, encouraging him, and he takes the bait. He ruptures the skin with sharp teeth; harsh puncture wounds remain. He licks the blood away, adamant on claiming you. The spikes massage your g-spot, and your eyes loll back, pleasure and pain blurring. Dan Heng loses his composure, frenetic thrusting as he chases his release. 

“I’m gonna come!” 

“That’s it, come with me, my love” he groans. You see black as tremors overtake you and a stream of squirt coats you both. Your wails flow into the halls. Your contracting vulva sends him over the edge, and he finally comes undone, painting your insides to the hilt. You milk every last drop of his gushing seed, and he jerks a few times until limp. The creamy, swelling base pushes your folds to capacity. It's barbed wire in your gut. He strokes and kisses your face. 

“I'm sorry, it’ll go down soon.” With your legs wrapped around him and his head snug against your cheek, you weren’t sure if you wanted it to go down. 

His curse may not be lifted through your embrace. But in your arms, his shackles don't feel as heavy. 

[olivianyx]

'OF COURSE' METHOD ♡

I think I found a new method based on those trending tiktok trend that goes like 'we're besties, of course we make fun of the same person for the 700th time and never get bored' or 'I'm the oldest child, of course I'm responsible for my siblings' mistakes' and blah blah blah. I made this as a method 😭 (don't judge me, it's just for fun)

This method mostly helps for rampaging or vaunting. You can use this as robotic affirming too.

THE METHOD ♡

Step 1: know clearly what you desire. Cus sometimes you prob be confused what you want, so know what you really desire.

Step 2: have a mental idea of it or a visual of it. If you can visualise, that's fine. If not, go on Pinterest to find it.

Step 3: Ask yourself, if you have what you already desire, what will you feel or do with it. If it's a material, how would you wear or keep it. If it's love or peace or something that's not materialistic, how would you feel everytime. Ask yourself and write it down or type it in your notes app.

Step 4: the actual method! suppose you wanna be an IT girl/boy, so you go affirming in front of the mirror or to yourself! If you have a friend who's manifesting just like you, try this trend in terms of manifestation with your bestie 😭 you need to affirm or rampage like ----->

'I'm an IT girl, of course I'm the most prettiest of them all'

'I'm an IT boy, of course I'm the most handsome of them all'

'I'm an IT girl/boy, of course I'm rich asf'

'I'm an IT girl/boy, of course I'm sexy'

you can use anything that implies the fulfillment of your desire aka which you already have. So you can affirm that you're rich, pretty, handsome, successful, happily married or you have your desired job or you were accepted into your desired university or anything you desire.

MY EXPERIENCE WITH THIS METHOD ♡

Flashback to 2019

I manifested meeting my old friend with this method. The last time we had met was back in 2019, and she moved to Germany in 2020. We still had contact through Instagram. But still we we're besties since we were like 7 😭 as I had no friends back in quarantine, I only had a few online friends and her (her name's Dina btw)

Time skip to now

So I saw this tiktok trend was everywhere, so I wondered why can't use this as a method. So I went affirming in front of the mirror (actually you don't have affirm in front of the mirror if not comfortable) 'we're besties, of course we're together since 13 years and we'll still be always' and 'we're besties, of course we can't wait to meet each other everyday'. Guess what? In the next days, she texted me that she's moving back to Sydney 😭😭😭 I was fucking sunghooned 😭😭

I was like gurl what? How? When? Why? Where? She told me that she wanted to medicals along with me since arts is not interesting 😭 she was accepted into our uni a month ago and did not tell me 😭 now she's gonna join my junior batch and study with me! I was sooo happy y'all 🥹🥹🥹

Believe in yourselves, there's already movement. Just like in my case there's always movement even before you notice. So don't give up! Keep persisting in your assumptions! Love y'all bye 🫶

(I'm sorry it was short, since uni's being a bitch 😭 comment if you have any doubts, I'll gladly answer them 🫶)

- olivia 🤍

[tmrwsuns]

(❆⋆.˚) snowed inn !

✶⋆.˚꩜ .ᐟ [jung yujun x reader] ...୨♡୧... wc. 2.5k w. curse words! fluff ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ

you wanted to cry.

tears prickled your eyes with desperation at the situation you found yourself in. it wasn’t like you to feel that sad on christmas, but that was because you were always at home, drowning under a cozy blanket while you laughed along with your family. it was like that every year, even after you left home for college, but that wasn’t the case this time along.

your flight had been delayed thanks to the snowstorms that furiously attacked your path home, leaving you to have to get a room at a tiny inn in the middle of nowhere. and as if missing christmas eve wasn’t bad enough, your flight eventually got cancelled, condemning you to spend your first christmas alone. 

that’s how you had ended up there, sitting on a red couch at the shared area at the inn, a cup of hot chocolate keeping your hands warm as you stared out the window and into the snowy horizon. you took your hand up to your eyes, rubbing away the stubborn tears as a sigh escaped your lips. there was nothing to do now, no use crying over things you couldn’t control. there were also many christmases to come, along with many new chances to give your brother the expensive vinyl you had purchased specially for the occasion, along with all the clothes you had bought for his girlfriend. so you had to suck it up and ignore the itchiness the tears caused in your eyes.

yujun wasn’t having a great time either.

he found himself in a very similar situation to yours, although he had plans to meet his friends a couple towns over, where a big house in the mountains awaited for him with banquets of food and a tree full of gifts.

it was all his teacher’s fault, really. since when did he need extra finals? if he hadn’t had that stupid economics exam he could’ve left with everyone else and he wouldn’t be stuck at a random inn, lonely and bored out of his mind while staring at the prettiest girl he’s seen in his life.

wait, what?

yujun snapped his attention back into reality as the thought crossed his head, his ears tinting a light pink as he realized he had been staring pretty obviously at you, although you didn’t seem to notice by the way your eyes lingered on the snow outside. he took the liberty to continue with his staring, admiring your face as if it was a masterpiece carved by the gods themselves. that was until his eyes met yours, catching him by surprise and causing his eyes to dart anywhere but your pretty features. 

a smile escaped your lips as you watched the cute stranger sitting on the couch across from you nervously looking around as he tried to hide his staring. you tried to think as to why someone as seemingly young as him would be spending christmas alone in a place as remote as where you found yourselves. maybe he was in the same situation as you, or he was related to the owners of the inn.

yujun kept his eyes down on his lap where he nervously played with the rings that decorated his slender fingers, feeling slightly self conscious at having been caught. you found the situation adorable, but he had no way of knowing that since he refused to look up and catch your eyes. 

what you both failed to notice was one of the staff members of the place standing next to the christmas tree that stood tall in the room, observing you and the glances you stole from each other. she had seen you cry before, and judging by the way you had extended your stay until further notice, you had not planned to spend your christmas there. the boy seemed to be in similar circumstances, which although not ideal for him, was absolutely perfect.

christmas is meant to be a season of love and jolly, which meant the universe was almost begging her to set you up for a much needed success. now, what could she do to get you to talk to each other? the worker asked herself as she looked around, her eyes stopping as they reached the tree. a smirk placed itself on her lips, and she knew exactly what she had to do. would her manager kill her? yes, but it would all be worth it (hopefully). 

having made her decision, she turned her body to leave the side of the majestic tree, purposely tripping and holding onto it. the tree shook for a couple seconds before collapsing in the middle of the room, surprising everyone that was even close to the room with a loud thud and the sound of the christmas decorations rolling away. your heart skipped several beats at the impact, making you yelp and recoil on your seat as you held your mug to your chest. your eyes looked for the culprit, finding a familiar staff member standing next to the tree with wide eyes.

“shit, are you ok?” yujun quickly got up from his seat, moving to check up on her while you paid close attention in case you were needed in any way.

“don’t worry, i'm fine… i just have to put it back together” she laughed dryly. the boy moved quickly to help her put the tree back upright, and it almost made you smile to look at how easy it was for him, even when he didn’t look necessarily buff.

“i can help you, if you want.” he offered, wiping his hands on his pants once the tree was back to its place.

“me too” you jumped in, surprising even yourself with your sudden participation in the conversation. yujun couldn’t help but smile softly, which he tried to hide from you as he looked down to the floor. the girl contained her urge to fist bump the air at how well her plan had worked.

“it’s not your responsibility, don’t worry about it” she smiled politely, even though she was screaming inside.

“it’s not like we’re doing anything, and i missed decorating the tree at home so in reality, i do this more for myself than for you” you commented with a friendly smile.

the employee smiled gratefully and bowed to you in thanks. “i’ll help you clean up and i’ll leave you to it, then” 

between the three of you, it didn’t take long to get all the ornaments back into a single box that had been handed to you by a very nice employee. the culprit (or rather mastermind) of the whole orchestra did her best to convince you that your help wasn’t needed, just to be met with shaking heads and kind smiles.

that led to the moment you now found yourself in, sitting on the floor in nervous silence next to who was possibly the most gorgeous man you had seen in your life. you both stayed in silence as you tried to think of conversation topics, always one to be uncomfortable for long periods of silence.

the boy seemed to read your mind, though, because it  didn’t take long for him to speak. “so… what brings you to an inn in the middle of nowhere at christmas?” he questioned, his eyes being kept on the tree in front of him as his voice betrayed him by sounding a little too nervous.

“my flight got cancelled, i was going home for the holidays” you answered, letting out a small sigh as you hung a red ornament on the tree. “what about you?”

“same thing, but i was going to a house in the mountains that me and my friends rented… we had this whole plan to get two of our friends together and i missed it” he explained with a slight pout as he finally let his eyes fall on your face, making him breathless all over again.

you let out a soft chuckle at his words, finding him adorable. “this sucks, doesn’t it?” you mumbled, nodding understandingly at your shared situation.

“it does, but it could be worse… we could still be sitting in silence while thinking about walking a few towns in the snow” he smiled, attempting to lift up your mood. you didn’t expect his smile to be as beautiful as it was, and it took you by so much surprise that you couldn’t help but let your jaw fall slightly slack for a couple seconds.

you snapped back into reality quickly, nodding at his words like you hadn’t just had a spiritual awakening just at the sight of his smile. “its true, this is so much better”

“so, whats your name?” he asked softly as he looked away once again, his cheeks dusting a slight pink tone. he couldn’t understand what was going on with him, why was he so affected by you? he had just met you a couple minutes ago, but he felt completely infatuated by your voice and the slight vanilla fragrance that lingered on your fluffy christmas sweater.

“i’m yn” you smiled as you extended your hand for him to shake “and you are?”

“jung yujun” he smiled back, taking your hand in his and shaking it slightly. his grip was firm, like he never wanted to let go, and it made butterflies fly around your stomach.

“it’s nice to meet you” you squeezed his hand before letting go, going back into decorating the massive tree in front of you.

you spent a few minutes having small talk here and there, only being interrupted by a familiar staff member approaching you with a trey holding two cups of hot cocoa with marshmallows and a plate of christmas cookies as a ‘thank you’ for helping her out with the tree.

you left your work aside as you sat in front of each other on the floor, digging into the sweets immediately and letting out a small sigh of pleasure at the tasty flavour that invaded your senses.

“it tastes so christmassy” yujun commented, making you chuckle lightly as you nodded, giving him approval for his comment. 

“i have to tell you though, me and my brother always bake the best christmas cookies you could ever imagine” you assured once you had swallowed your food.

“i honestly believe you, you look like you’re good at baking” he nodded, taking a bite of his cookie, getting some crumbs on the side of his mouth.

“yeah, how so?” you asked with a small smile, grabbing a napkin and wiping the crumbs away quickly, not giving him time to process your actions or even give him a reason to acknowledge what had just happened.

“the prettiest girls are always the best bakers,” he said. his voice was so relaxed, his expression so nonchalant like he hadn’t just caused your heart to skip one too many beats.

you sat there speechless for a couple seconds, trying to think of how to answer his compliment without seeming a complete mess. yujun’s eyes didn’t break away from your face, enjoying the flustered expression that decorated your beautiful face. “sorry, it had to be said” he chuckled lightly as he saw your speechless figure.

“uhm, thank you?” you answered, and he could almost coo at how adorable you looked in that moment. your sweater was way too big for you and your face was showered with embarrassment as your sentence sounded more like a question than an affirmation, making you look so innocent and adorable that he felt the need to run out and get you the stars on a silver platter.

“of course. now, lets get back to decorating?” he asked, fighting to contain the giggle that wanted to escape his lips at your adorableness. 

you nodded and turned your attention back to the tree behind you, indulging back into the activity as an attempt to ignore the way your heart was racing. minutes passed between friendly chatter and small giggles from both of you until the tree was fully decorated, the only thing missing was the star on the top of the tree.

“how are we going to do this?” you asked as you looked up to where the star was meant to be, knowing neither of you could reach it properly.

“i can lift you up?” he suggested. would it be way easier (and probably safer) to just get a chair? definitely. did you care at all? nope.

“are you sure about that?” you asked, just for good measure as you wished to every star in the universe that he would say yes.

“definitely, i’m very strong you know” he said cockily, slightly flexing his arms with the intent of at least getting a small laugh out of you.

you rolled your eyes with playfulness, not being able to resist his clear attempts at bragging. “i’m sure you are” you smiled and held the star in your hands, getting closer and waiting for him to go through with his words. the boy mumbled a small “excuse me” before crouching slightly, wrapping his arms around your thighs to lift you up high enough. 

you couldn’t contain the small squeal that left your lips as he lifted you up with such ease. he was strong after all. yujun felt his chest fill with pride when he confirmed that he could lift you with no struggle whatsoever, proving his (maybe obsessive) amounts of exercise were worth it after all.

you placed the star on its righteous place before letting him know it was done, your hands moving to his shoulders in an attempt to balance yourself a little better as he put you down slowly and carefully. the position was compromising when your feet reached the floor, his hands on your waist and your faces way too close to be a coincidence.

“thank you” you whispered, not moving away from him at any moment.

“its no problem, you’re really light” he smiled, maintaining the closeness as well.

“i meant for making my christmas better, but that too” you smiled back, and his eyes seemed to shimmer at your words like they held the entire universe in them.

“i should be thanking you for that” yujun mumbled as he stared back at you, thinking of the way that he hadn’t thought about his “wasted” christmas ever since he started talking to you. “i didn’t think my christmas could be salvaged, but i guess everything is possible” his eyes moved down to your lips just for a split second before moving back to your eyes, his tongue darting out to wet his lips unconsciously as you looked down at them.

“i'm not even mad i had to stay now” you commented as you looked back into his eyes which now shimmered with mischievousness once he had proven to himself it wasn’t just him that felt a weirdly strong urge to kiss you right then and there.

you stayed there, staring for just a few more seconds, too lost in each other to notice the girl standing by the doorframe with her eyes focused on you, a smug smile adorning her lips as her coworker slipped her a twenty dollar bill with a grim expression adorning his face.

your first christmas alone hadn’t been half bad after all.

★blue's corner ;; this is me wishing i had yujun as my bf this christmas... btw this is part of the love actually series that im doing in both my blogs so be sure to check those out ! ★ taglist ;; @tiramisumin @astrasng @chiiyuuvv ★ back to the masterlist. ★ please do not copy, adapt or steal any of the content !!! ★ divider by @fairytopea

© tmrwsuns, 2024

[thecapricunt1616]

The Bear & His Honey - Chapter 20

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐁𝐥𝐮𝐫𝐛 (𝐌𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐁𝐓𝐂 !) : “Can we never leave this bed? Just stay… forever” he said and rested his forehead on mine once again, eyes fluttering shut. Peace. That’s what I saw over his features, it was few and far between to find these days. But when he did, he savored it like it was the most luxurious perfect meal in the universe.  “Yes” I hum and cup his cheeks “have I ever told you how beautiful you are, Bear?” I mused and began kissing along all the little freckles that covered his cheeks and jaw. He giggled a bit at the ticklish pecks and hid his now blushy face in my neck, pinching my hip playfully.  “Stoppp” he said and I smiled big, scratching his hair gently and kissing his temple.  “It’s true - so pretty. The prettiest boy.” I said and squeeze him with my thigh and he rolled me on top of him, dragging my hips down to settle on top of his and he looks up at me carefully, as if he was gauging my reaction. I bit the inside of my lip gently, rolling my hips just enough to supply him some friction and I rested my forehead on his, taking his hands and interlacing our fingers. “This ok?” I ask quietly.

♡ 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐈𝐧𝐬𝐩𝐨: The Tortured Poets Department (Song) Taylor Swift ♡ 𝐒𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲: Winnie & Carmy finally understand eachother again for a moment. Winnie goes with Carmy & Syd to the Ever funeral dinner. ♡ 𝐖/𝐂:9.0K ♡ 𝐀/𝐍: Hello my lovely friends!!! I am here with chapter 20 for you all!!! Eeee things in this story are really starting to pick up! I'm sorry not sorry that this is getting so long, I told y'all from the beginning that I was really wordy! I hope you're still enjoying hehe <3 This is very heavily based on the finale of S3! Funny enough this season already worked with what I was planning for this story, so by nature I had to incorperate it! The whole scene with Carmy and his boss made my stomach drop & writing it did the same!! This chapter is very much a rollercoaster of emotions!! I hope you enjoy hehe ♡ 𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐁𝐓𝐂: *Minimally edited*, Speaking of drug use, Speaking of past abuse, Sad!Carmy, Anxious!Carmy, Angst, Scenes are kind of choppy since the fluff & dinner were the main part of the story sorry hehe, Fluff & Smut, Lovey morning smut kinda thing, Swearing, Carmy being emotionally constipated/not understanding how things can be perceived (#justautismthings I feel you Carmy) ➵ 𝘊𝘢𝘵𝘤𝘩 𝘶𝘱 𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘊𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘕𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘵𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦!♡

♡ 𝐌𝐲 ���𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐬 ♡ ➵ 𝐂𝐡𝐞𝐜𝐤 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐦𝐲 𝐌𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐭 ♡ ➵ 𝐂𝐚𝐩𝐫𝐢𝐂𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐲 𝐨𝐧𝐞-𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭 𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐩𝐚𝐠𝐞 ♡ ➵ 𝐓𝐁&𝐇𝐇 𝐋𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐏𝐚𝐠𝐞 ♡ ➵ 𝘊𝘭𝘪𝘤𝘬 𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘳𝘦𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 / 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘵 ♡ ➵ 𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐭 𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐫𝐞𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐬 ♡

𝒲𝒾𝓃𝓃𝒾𝑒𝓈 𝒫.𝒪.𝒱. 🍯

After a few hours of sleep, I woke up and reached for Carmy but didn’t feel him. I peeled open my eyes and looked around the dark room, sitting up and rubbing my face. I stood up and took my bra off, the little packet that was half empty falling to the floor. I picked it up and put it in my nightstand, slipping Carmys white shirt over my head and padding out to the living room to see him arms crossed, still in his jeans, socked feet hanging off the end of the couch.

 I knelt next to him on the floor, grabbing his hand and bringing it to my lips gently, whispering “I’m sorry” I knew I would tell him when he was awake, but I had to let him know as soon as I could. 

His eyes fluttered open and he took his hand, rubbing his face before taking mine again. “I’m sorry, Bear. I’m sorry for saying such mean things. I don’t remember them all, but I remember I probably hurt you. And I’m sorry.” I said honestly. He remains quiet for a moment, before softly asking 

“Do you do drugs to get away from me?” And I frowned, sighing a bit. 

“Baby, you know not everything I do is about you, right?” I ask and sit down next to his legs, gently easing them into my lap. 

“Yeah… but..I dunno” he looks away for a short moment. “Can I try?” He asked and my eyes widen, before I quickly shake my head no. 

“Baby- absolutely not. You aren’t in a headspace for experimenting with drugs right now. Maybe…” I trail off, sighing a bit. If anything coke would probably kill him, his head would spin off like a top. 

“I don’t think that coke would be the drug for you, sweetheart. I think something that would more… mellow you out, but drugs aren’t the answer, Bear. I didn’t do it to get away from anything - is that what you want to do?” I asked and he nodded a bit. 

“I just…I dunno. Lately I feel I can’t get my head straight. I thought somethin like that might help” he said softly and I rub his hand. 

“Come to bed, your back is gonna kill” I said and he sighed softly, looking at the clock on the oven. 

“Should just shower. Gotta be up in 20 anyway” he said and I shook my head. 

“We need time, Bear. You can’t go in early today, please? Please honey. Just take some time to rest and talk to me?” I rub his chest in soothing circles and he sighed a bit, eyes fluttering shut at the feeling 

“Mkay” he relented and I smiled a bit, squeezing his knee gently. 

“Has this still been bugging you?” I asked and he shook his head 

“S’my shoulder. Right one” he said and I took his hand, kissing it gently 

“Well let’s get you to bed, and I can give you a nice rub, hmm?” I asked, trailing my hand under his shirt over his abs gently, relishing in the warmth he offered. 

“You’re too good” he said softly and I gently tug his arm so he’d sit up and peck his lips 

“Take it as more of a sorry, baby. You shouldn’t ever be talked down to that way, it was wrong. And I love you so much, I promise to be more careful with my words” I kiss his temple gently and he bit his lip 

“Where do you learn that?” He asked gently as we made our way back to the bedroom. “Learn what?” I gently tug off the button of his jeans and he kicked them off, pulling his shirt off and laying down on his stomach, hugging his pillow and nuzzling his face into it tiredly as I grabbed my cbd lotion and straddled his hips

“Say sorry with more words” he muttered and I work out the knots in his shoulder as I think. 

“Well, it’s not something I was born with. Or that my mother taught me. I think we both relate in that way. Our mothers weren’t very nice to us, so she never told me anything for hurting me. When I went to therapy, to start with- I was going on benders every few weeks and stealing from people and lying to people and… so anyway. Therapy, baby. I guess I started feeling bad I put the bad on other people too. And made them feel icky. So I wanted to learn how I could make it better” I said gently and ease my hands over the back of his neck, rubbing lightly and he hums. 

“D’you think it’s wrong I still give a shit about my mom?” He asked and I stopped, leaning down and giving him a gentle kiss to the top of his head. 

“That’s normal. She’s your mother.” I said and he sat quietly for a moment before asking 

“D’you think it’s wrong I still give a shit what Fields would think?”  

I swallowed thickly, not wanting to gut him with my answer but knowing it would be wrong to lie. “Yes, darling. But not wrong, just unfortunate. That man will never like you, Carmy. Is that what you want?” I ask and he sarcastically chuckled 

“Fuck that. If that fuckin - no. No baby if that prick ever said he liked me I’d want someone to shoot me in the fuckin head because any person that man would want to be around has to be the same level of - of fuckin evil that he is.” He said passionately and I nodded, rubbing his arm gently to calm him back down 

“Shhh- Bear. Bear, then what honey. Why would you care what someone so evil thinks of you, of the beautiful legacy you’ve made for yourself already and you’re only half his age, sweetheart.” I continued rubbing the tension out of his shoulders. “I don’t think you should say anything if he’s at that dinner tonight “

“How do you know about that?” 

I furrow my brow, “baby- I hung with the girls last night and Marcus and one of their work friends. They told me that all these people were coming to town because there’s some kind of funeral dinner, for your ex boss chefff-“ I try to remember the name 

“Terry” he finished “Andrea terry. One of the better bosses I’ve had. You’re gonna like her. But I doubt that fuckface is even gonna be there. No one fucking likes him anyone who’s ever worked with or for that demon leaves seriously mentally fuckin I’ll an-and I think a lot of the time actually I know babe you fuckin are the one who’s with me every night when I’m throwing up. Or or I’m fucking -“

“I know baby” I said gently and gently left a kiss between his shoulder blades. “So that’s a good thing, how exciting then, baby. You can network, and thank your boss for teaching you so much. Syd is super excited about it, she said there should be a lot of opportunity there for you both” I try to shift the focus to the positive but of course his racing thoughts just have to drag the mood down 

“What if she thinks the Bear is- is shit. What if she thinks I’ve learned nothing and - and that I’m fuckin a loser, Win? W-what if she-“

“Carmy” I tuck my hands under his chest, finding his racing heart and cupping my palm over it, nuzzling my face in his neck. “Do me a favor baby. Take a breath. You’re spiraling, we came in here to relax” I said and breathe deep with him a few times “okay, now, baby. Let’s quiet our minds together, ok?” I said and he chuckled a bit, lightly since my weight was still over him. 

“Can’t remember the last time that’s happened” he chides and I gently pet his hair 

“Shhhhh. Listen to my voice, Bear. Ok? Now let’s imagine somewhere that’s peaceful. Where would that be?” I asked

“Not fuckin work” he said and I hum

“So Bear when a thought comes to your mind let’s just try to let it pass, hm? Don’t interact with it. If it sticks around for a second that’s ok, but let’s try and imagine…. Ah- Central Park. You told me when you used to walk there-“

“No not New York he’s in New York. I can’t be in New York and feel peace.” 

“ ok” I sigh, a bit defeated “ok. Pretend we’re in fucking Australia, Carmy. The prettiest god damn beach you can muster. Picture it and if you say there’s trauma surrounding Australia I’m going to-“

“Uni. Uni sucks and we get it imported from there, but I’ve never been so I’ll pretend this beach has no female eels” he smiled one of those stupid little ‘hehe I just made a joke’ smiles that he does, and i laughed leaning in and kissing his cheek 

“You make relaxation impossible for yourself, do you realize this sweetheart?” 

“I’ve been told. Ok so I’m on a beach, there is sand everywhere and it’s hot. What do I do now?” He asked with his eyes closed. 

“Ok- do you hate beaches or something?” I asked and he hummed

“Sand is annoying. Can I be on a boat instead?” He asked and I smile a bit, leaning in and kissing his temple gently, holding on to all of my remaining patience with an iron fist. 

“Carmy” I said softly and he hums as I rest my forehead on his, our lips meer inches apart. He hummed in response and puckered his lips so they would meet mine gently “you need to be good f’me and listen, you need rest” I said gently and he kissed my lips again 

“Jus’ stay like this my head feels way quieter.” He said barely above a whisper, basically speaking into my mouth before kissing me again. “Y’re the only fuckin thing in this world that helps, honey.” He kissed the corner of my mouth gently “I love you” he mumbled into my lips. I stroke the pad of my thumb slightly back and forth over his heart. 

“I love you, Carmen. I love you more then I could ever express. Now get some sleep f’me, ok? So we can have a good day at work, right? Were gonna have a good day?” I assure and he hummed  “A good day”

Not good, better. Amazing, actually. Compared to the days we’d been having? I woke up, and Carmy was still in bed. And the fucking sun was up!!! I smiled big, rubbing his back gently and he stirred a bit, nuzzling his nose with mine and his eyes fluttered open to meet my gaze. I left a gentle kiss on his lips and he kissed me back, slow and easy. Unrushed. 

“Time?” He asked softly. I sit up, peering at his large annoying blue alarm clock he insisted on having because for some reason his phone alarms weren’t good enough anymore. 

“5:56. Look at you, sleeping in so late” I teased and kiss his forehead. He hiked my thigh over his hips, adjusting us so we were perfectly flush together and he rucked up his shirt that I was wearing, so we’d be skin to skin as he wrapped his arms around me and kissed my neck and shoulder and chin and anywhere he could reach. 

“Can we never leave this bed? Just stay… forever” he said and rested his forehead on mine once again, eyes fluttering shut. Peace. That’s what I saw over his features, it was few and far between to find these days. But when he did, he savored it like it was the most luxurious perfect meal in the universe. 

“Yes” I hum and cup his cheeks “have I ever told you how beautiful you are, Bear?” I mused and began kissing along all the little freckles that covered his cheeks and jaw. He giggled a bit at the ticklish pecks and hid his now blushy face in my neck, pinching my hip playfully. 

“Stoppp” he said and I smiled big, scratching his hair gently and kissing his temple. 

“It’s true - so pretty. The prettiest boy.” I said and squeeze him with my thigh and he rolled me on top of him, dragging my hips down to settle on top of his and he looks up at me carefully, as if he was gauging my reaction. I bit the inside of my lip gently, rolling my hips just enough to supply him some friction as I rested my forehead on his, taking his hands and interlacing our fingers. “This ok?” I ask quietly. 

“Really ok, I think I’d be ok with more, actually” he said and I smiled, a real bright honest smile. Fucking finally 

“Yeah? This is good, right?” I ask in regards to our position as I dragged my hips along his, rubbing my clit over his hardening cock and he hummed 

“Perfect - always perfect, Angel” he kissed my lips lovingly as I reach down and dip my fingers into his boxers, grabbing his length with a gentle grip and I felt his stomach clench beneath me and his breath hitched. “Not gonna last long.” He admitted and I kiss his lips to get him to shut up, and pull him out before tugging my panties to the side and sinking down. 

We moaned in tandem, my head falling to the crook of his neck as I just sat there, enjoying the full feeling that I missed so fucking much. With the lack of prep it burned just a bit, but fuck that was nothing in comparison to the closeness and happiness and love and fullness I felt. “God I fucking love you, Bear” I lazily roll my hips, we were barely moving but Jesus it was fucking amazing. 

He laid beneath me, slack jawed, eyes fluttered shut and soft grunts and moans pulling from his throat “Bear” I said softly and kiss his jaw 

“I love you, honey” he replied, voice raspy with sleep and lust. “Fuck- I - I needa move” he rolled us on our side and snapped his hips with mine, my back arching and our chests flush together. 

“Mmm - fuck wow- I missed you baby” I whine out, eyes fluttering shut and lifting my thigh higher on his waist so he could get a deeper angle. We were essentially front spooning, every limb entangled, every bit of possible skin touching. Words didn’t really have to be exchanged when we had sex like this because we felt all of them. 

I felt I love you, I need you, you’re mine in each thrust, and I hope he felt the same. “Close” I squeak out as I felt that familiar warmth in the pit of my stomach. 

“Can I cum inside?” He rasps, thrusts getting sloppier as he got closer to his relief. 

“Please Bear. Fill me up” I beg, and with a final hard thrust, and a growl like grunt I felt warmth in the deepest part of me, leaking down and covering my walls. “Mm feels so good” I said. He kept thrusting and within a minute I was following him through to my own orgasm, thighs trembling and toes curling, him whining hotly as my walls clenched around his softening cock. 

“So fuckin good- so good” he muttered and kissed my temple sweetly, tugging me so our pelvis’ were perfectly flush, like we were 2 puzzle pieces meant for eachother. “Fit so perfect baby” he said gently and nuzzled his nose with mine. 

“Made for eachother. Siamo fatti l’uno per l’altra” I repeat the Italian phrase I’d read in one of my fantasy romance books and his brow furrows 

“Where’d you learn that?” He asked, a small smile dancing on his lips “you don’t know Italian how’d you know what made for each other is in Italian” he asked and I shrug lightly. 

“What? Aren’t you impressed? Mon ours” (my Bear) I kiss his lips sweetly. 

“I’m very impressed, also a little turned on- you should learn more Italian” he kissed my neck hungrily and I giggled, resting my face to the side so he could get better access. 

“Oh yeah? Is that all I need to get your attention, some sappy Italian? That should be easy they say it’s the language of romance right?” I gently play with his curls 

“I wish I could give you it all baby but…” he trailed off and rubbed my back gently “I gotta get up. Gotta get ready” he said just above a whisper. I sighed dramatically, pulling off of him and grabbing my phone silently, rolling over to go scroll through tik tok or something else to distract me. 

“Hey - hey” he eased, grabbing my hips and pulling me back to him, he plucked my phone from my hand “are you even gonna hear me out? I was gonna say, why don’t we go have a quick shower and I’ll make us somethin’ t’eat before I go, sassy girl” he pinched my bum and kissed my jaw. I couldn’t help the bashful smile that came across my face at the idea. 

“Really?” I ask hopefully and he rubs his palm over my stomach, to my ribs, trailing up to squeeze my breast playfully 

“Really really. Now are we gonna get a move on so I make it in time for truck?” He mused and I kissed him lovingly before practically hopping out of bed to turn on the shower. His statement lingered in my mind in time for truck. I thought he had to leave at 4 because truck came that early - I thought it came at like 5. Which always kind of confused me, because…

Just enjoy the moment. 

I rub over my face as my eyes adjust to the light, setting in one of my eucalyptus shower steamers and taking off his shirt that the hem was now wet with fluids from our time in bed making sure to not let it touch my freshly washed hair from last night. Carmy followed me shortly after, coming and hugging me from behind, kissing the top of my head before I twisted my hair up in a bun so it wouldn’t get wet. 

“Aren’t we best friends?” I asked as I step in next to him. 

“Best friends” he repeats as he gets his hair wet, he always had to wash it after we were intimate like that because the mix of my hands rubbing over his hair and all the sweat he produced since the man was essentially a walking heater “like- yeah babe I think you know more about me then anyone. I mean other then sugar but I wouldn’t want you to know as much as sugar, I told you I was a weird little kid” he jokes and I giggle, poking his chest gently 

“I know, but I mean like….Sadies my best girl friend. Well Sadie, and Syd. Like we tell eachother everything, do we tell eachother everything?” I asked and he reached for his lemon balm and tea tree shampoo I’d gotten him to start using and offered it to me. My heart melted a bit at his silent request for me to wash his hair, and I obliged, of course. Because no matter if when he left I would remember why I was upset with him last night, I couldn’t pass up an opportunity like this. To make him feel loved, special. 

“I tell you more then anyone else” he said, eyes fluttering shut as I began to work the shampoo into a lather through his curls, his hands finding my hips and resting there. 

“Would you feel safer telling everything to a stranger?” I asked gently and work the shampoo all the way back to the tight curls on the back of his neck, easing out the little knots with my nails and being sure to get every strand clean and give him a good head massage too. He hummed in the way that told me he wasn’t sure so to savor the gentleness of the moment, I dropped it. “Well chef Carmy. What is on the menu for breakfast?” I stood on my toes, grabbing the detachable shower head mumbling for him to lean his head back and rinsing the shampoo out as he explained. 

“We don’t have much honey I was thinkin avo toast with poached eggs and coffee, that sound good?” He asked and I smile, placing a gentle peck to his stubbly jaw from the night 

“You’re gonna make it extra fancy I bet cause your an artiste mon ours” I accentuate my French accent and finished rinsing his hair before squeezing the excess water from his curls and pumping a good few pumps of conditioner in my hands, and he brought his lips to my forehead, lingering for a moment and being sure to leave a dramatic kissy noise as he felt me squeezing the conditioner into his curls into a scrunching motion to form them instead of Messing them up. 

“Y’know Richie’s been givin me shit cause my hair isn’t all fuckin frizzy” he mumbled into my skin and I giggle a bit. 

“He’s jealous you have a lover that takes care of you, and your pretty curly hair” I peck his lips and grabbed the deep conditioner, combing a decent amount through before scrunching it and telling him “leave it till I get out” I peck his forehead and start the process of washing myself with my washcloth I’d sudsed up with soap before switching to my scrub net and body wash that made the bathroom smell of cherry blossoms and mint. 

“Can I use this stuff?” He picked up my Nivea in-shower lotion and I giggle a bit. 

“What’s mine is yours baby, sure. But use this before. You don’t wanna moisturize dead skin” I explained, handing him a green tea body scrub. “How you see me rub it all over my legs and arms and stuff? Also your elbows like anywhere crusty and dry. And then use this and when you get out make sure you put on real lotion”  I finished rinsing off my body and kiss his shoulder blade as he shaved his face  

“I’m peacing out, leave the lotion stuff on until you rinse your hair from the conditioner, remember to scrunch not rub, ok?” I said and he hummed In agreement. 

I got out of the shower, grabbing my pink fluffy towel from the warmer and heading to the bedroom to get dressed. It wasn’t more then 10 minutes that Carmy was out and asking me to ‘blow dry his hair nice’ so it didn’t look wild at dinner tonight, so of course after I’d gotten dressed I blew his curls out pretty while he sat at my vanity in his boxers enjoying the kisses and attention he got while I did so. 

After he’d gotten dressed for the day he got to making breakfast and I helped where I could, steaming his whites for him and making sure his chefs clogs were polished before meeting him in the small dining area of my apartment for breakfast. Of course he made me a vanilla latte just how I liked it, and making sure my eggs stayed jammy the way I always wanted them. 

“Thanks f’makin sure my stuff was all ready honey” he kissed my head and set my breakfast down in front of me. Sourdough toast, pan toasted in Vermont butter of course, with mashed avocado and everything bagel seasoning, topped with a poached egg and parsley. He also cut up some strawberries and grapes for me on the side. 

“This is beautiful just like I said it would be” I said and grabbed his hand, kissing it gently and he sat across from me, sipping his coffee. “Beautiful is stretching it but I was short on time” he squeezed my hand sweetly.

By the time we finished breakfast and brushed our teeth, he was heading out the door shortly after with a kiss to the top of my head and telling me that they were closing at 7 instead of 9 today so they could be out in time to make it for dinner.

My day with Sadie went as good as it could have, considering I answered that Carmy was ‘great!!!’ A little too fast when she asked how he was, since I hadn’t willingly brought him up myself like usual. Luckily I just chalked it up to him being ‘a little upset his old job was closing since he learned so much there’ and didn’t say much else about him after that. 

By the time he got home I was already showered and in the midst of curling my hair. “Oh- hey sweetheart.” I said and he came in the bathroom, opening up the medicine cabinet and grabbing the pepto that was almost out again, and spitting his gum out in the trash before saying 

“Hey hon” and taking a big glug of the bubblegum pink liquid before capping it and putting it back, starting the shower. “We gotta be there f’r-“

“8:50 sharp, I know baby.” I said. It was already 7:55, so I knew he was stressing out. But he had no reason to be, I was making sure to be as timely as I could so we wouldn’t be late. “I had extra time - I figured you would wanna wear your navy suit right? The one that matches that dress that I’m wearing? I pressed it.” I told him and he sighed in relief. 

“Fuckin lifesaver baby, really I love you. Can I have a kiss” he leans in and I let my curl down off the iron and look over, gently pecking his lips, tasting that sticky sweet bubblegum flavor on his lips. I reach out and rub his chest gently 

“It’s gonna be a good night, baby. A good night” I told him and he put his hand on top of mine, squeezing it gently before bringing it to his lips and shutting his eyes for just a moment. 

“A good night” he repeated in a whisper, as if it was a wish. Before heading to the bedroom to take off his whites that he didn’t have time to change out of after service. I finished my hair, shaking it out and putting in a generous amount of hairspray so it would stay all night, before going off to the bedroom to get dressed. 

I put on my special tights that I had learned Taylor wore on stage that made her legs look so shiny and soft and tanned, and slipped on my dress, looking in the mirror at myself. I smooth it down over my stomach, pouting a bit at the pudge that was new to me, not having noticed it unless I was wearing something so tight like this. I just felt so bloated lately, I should probably start going to the gym is what I was thinking as Carmy came out of the bathroom, towel low on his hips and another around his shoulders and he looks over

“Jesus babe” he comes over and hugs me from behind, rubbing his hands over my hips and stomach, trailing up to my waist and squeezing “this looks even better then when I bought it mm?” He kissed my neck and I felt my cheeks heat, a full body blush taking over. 

“It fits…tight now. I had trouble zipping it” I admitted a bit shamefully and he squeezes my bum 

“That just means I’m feeding you good doesn’t it?” He nibbles my ear gently and I giggled at the ticklish feeling, slapping his arm playfully 

“Go get dressed, mister timekeeper. I need to get my jewelry on” I mused and headed over to my jewlery box, picking out earrings and a necklace I wanted to wear. I also put on my charm bracelet that Carmy had bought me and a few rings. Of course the promise ring he gave me for our six month, sliding it on my left middle finger and admiring it with a soft smile. I adored this ring, it was beautiful and it also symbolized that Carmy was hopefully real about marrying me someday in the future. 

“Babe you wanna help me I can’t get my hair right” he called for me from the bathroom. I walked in, my black heels clicking on the tile on the bathroom floor 

“Sit love” I told him and grabbed the pomade he liked using, warming up a little in my hands and adjusting his curls how he liked them. “I love this stuff, smells so handsome baby” I told him and pecked his lips as I finished. “All done” I told him and he got up, looking in the mirror and adjusting a few pieces 

“Thank you, I should wear a watch right? I’m gonna wear a watch” he said and went back in the bedroom to where he kept his few watches next to my jewelry and grabbed the gold one that would match the jewelry I was wearing. 

“Oh! And I found these babe” I go and grab the black crushed velvet box, opening to reveal 2 golden Bear cufflinks “I couldn’t pass them up aren’t they sick!” I said and he smiled brightly. 

“Honey” he took the box, looking at them with admiration. “I love you” he tilted my face up gently and kissed my deep, cupping my cheek as he smiled into the kiss. “You’re the best” he said when he pulled away and I giggle, blushing at his compliments. 

“Here let me put them on” I said and helped put them on his wrist cuffs before helping with his watch and kissing his hand gently. “You look so handsome and you don’t even have your jacket on yet” I told him, adjusting his silky navy tie. “Well with you standing next to me, yeah,” he wrapped his arm around me, looking at us in the wide mirrored closet doors. “Y’look perfect honey” he adjusted my hair gently and his eyes racked down my figure slowly. “Beautiful” he whispered, resting his palm on my stomach and rubbing it across lovingly, squeezing me to his side.

The Uber to the restaurant was fairly quiet, but still loving. We stole little pecks and he gently rubbed my thigh sweetly. When we finally got there, we went through the ‘employee’ entrance as Carmy was told to do, and my heels echo through the empty beautiful hallway as we walk. We come to a impass where you could go left or right, and there were beautiful art motifs hanging at least 2 feet above my head. I smiled and lifted my finger as we walked hand in hand, the very tip of my manicured nail causing the little cloud to swing back and forth. 

We stopped in front of a few easles filled with photos and Carmy wrapped his arm around my waist, pointing. “That’s Luca, the guy I told you about.” He pointed to a picture and rubbed my hip “and that’s my old boss you’ll meet tonight, Chef Terry” he pointed to another picture. I felt a gentle tug at one of my curls, and turned around, giggling in delight 

“Luca!!!” I said excitedly and wrap my arms around his middle, mushing my face to his navy polo. “So nice to see you again!” I said and he rubs my back sweetly, nearly bending in half to hug me properly. 

“You too, love. Glad to see you got home alright.” He said jokingly as he pulled away and Carmy looked at us in shock 

“How do you-“

“Syd!” I said and smiled, giving him the ‘you better not pitch a fit’ look and he nodded slowly, grabbing my hand and squeezing it before Luca gave him a hug and as soon as they let go he was finding my hand again and lacing our fingers. 

“She is quite the character, mate. It’s great to see you” he pats his shoulder and Carmy nodded a bit. 

“You too uh- yeah.” He said and they looked at eachother for a moment before Luca says 

“I think uh- I think we’re all seated together, with chef Syd?” He motioned down the hall and Carmy nodded 

“Right! Right uh. Yeah, cmon babe” he told me and ushered me down the hall to the dining room where there were loads of people waiting already and mingling. I stood by Carmys side, enjoying the feeling of his hand wrapped around my hip and rubbing little strokes with his thumb. When someone came around with champagne I grabbed two glasses and offered him one 

“Thanks honey” he lightly kissed my forehead and I smiled, taking a sip and looking up at him while he talked to someone about The Bear and how things were going. Of course he said ‘ great’ ,which I mean they were technically - well not even technically - Syd had told me the other day he’s wasting so much money that his uncle is about ready to put him in a headlock, and the kitchen is running but it’s chaotic. 

I notice Luca standing alone and beckon him with my finger and he raised his brows, looking next to him as if I could be speaking to anyone else and mouths ‘me?’ And I nodded, a smile coming to my lips. 

Such a dork. 

“Nice of you to join us Chef Luca” I squeeze his arm gently and he gave me one of his stunning smiles 

“Of course, I didn’t want to interrupt” he brought my hand to his lips and gave it a friendly kiss “you look lovely by the way” he said, causing me to blush. 

“Thank you! So do you, I love this color on you!” I complimented and Carmys hand slid up my waist, squeezing gently and I looked over at him to see him with his gaze locked somewhere else. I look over the room but didn’t see anyone else that I knew so I continued sipping my champagne and talking with Syd about how she’d be decorating her new apartment. 

When we finally got seated I sat next to Carmy on the bench seat and Syd was on my other side with Luca across. I look over at Carmy to see he was still not engaged at all, and had barely spoken a word since before Luca had come over but they hugged, so I was sure it wasn’t that Luca was bothering him. I gently grabbed his hand under the table and squeezed, earning his attention. “What’s got you so focused over there sweetheart” I said just loud enough for us two to hear. 

He leaned in, lips close to my ear to be sure that no one else would hear “he fucking came.” And I felt my heart physically drop to my ass. I swallow and nod, smiling a bit so no one thought something was off and I look at him, cupping his cheek and placing a gentle kiss to his lips 

“It’s all ok, everything is ok” I told him gently and he nodded a bit, keeping our hands locked together and nervously stroking the back of my hand with his thumb. 

“So Winnie I never asked what is it that you do for work? How do you keep up with this one?” One of his old colleagues jokes and I giggle a bit. 

”Books! I was gonna be an archivist but y’know. Life got in the way so I stopped school and moved out here, and I work with Syd’s cousin actually at a bookstore and then I also work at the library.” I explained 

“Really? You’re quite sociable for someone who works somewhere so quiet and controlled” Luca said, before sipping his wine  

“Oh well- I mean. I guess it depends, I could never do what you guys do for sure. I have to be social at the library too believe it or not. You’re looking at Chicago Public Libraries most animated 5-7 year old story hour employee there is” I joke earning a few chuckles. 

“Where’d you meet this guy then? I don’t see him being the kind to hang around a library too much, Syd introduced you?” One of the other guys at the table asked and Syd laughed a bit 

“No no way that’s uh- Winnie and I were friends long before they started dating- I was actually surprised when she told me, but I guess they’re right, opposites attract and all that huh Pooh” she nudged me playfully and I smiled. 

“Yeah! That’s totally right, especially for us - right Bear?” I look over at him to see he was completely staring again at his old boss. I gently rub his thigh and he looks at me, grabbing my hand under the table again and slipping my ring off my middle finger onto my ring finger subtlety. 

“Right” he told me and I felt my heart picking up in my chest, every other thought melting from my mind and my cheeks going hot. I look over at him and he kissed the top of my head gently, resting our hands on the table, intertwined and I took a sip of wine to distract myself from not revealing a large cheesy smile or grabbing his face and giving him a big kiss since doing so in public especially around peers nonetheless would be a hard no from him and I would probably just end up embarrassing myself. Especially with his behavior as of late I’d rather just take this as a win and talk about it later. 

“Mate who are you starting down that way?” Luca finally said and I swallow thickly, wishing we knew eachother better so he would know the look I was giving him said to drop it. “It’s like how she’s looking at me now” he said to me and chuckled. 

“Yeah who are you staring at you’ve been like…hyper focused” Syd added. Carmy sniffled uncomfortably and as I went to say no one he spoke up and said 

“Don’t look but uh. Just that fucking asshole sat behind you. Cocksucker. Fuckface. Demon. That guy really probably made me very mentally fucking ill.” He went on, gaze locked on him and in unison everyone at the table of course turned and looked. 

“Wow you guys know how to gossip!” I hiss and they quickly looked back at their plates all too noticeable. I rolled my eyes, huffing a bit and sitting back. 

“Thats David fields. He’s like-“

“Not human. A fuckin’ a - a robot. I- I’m pretty sure he doesn’t eat, er sleep- or - or love. Anything. I don’t even think he loves anything.” He said, his hand moving to my thigh and gripping gently, rubbing firm circles into my skin. I saw his pulse point in his neck picking up and his breathing getting quicker, so I grabbed his elbow for his attention. 

“Will you walk me to the bathroom, Bear? I’d ask Syd but I’d feel safer if you waited for me outside” I gently squeezed. He locked his gaze on me for a moment, and I wished I could just rest our foreheads together and cup his cheeks and calm him. But that would only calm him if it was just us, I knew I had to get him out of here at least if for only a moment to breathe. 

“Course- sorry guys you’ll need to excuse us” he grabbed my purse from next to him where he was holding it for me next to his lap and handed it over before giving me his hand to help me up and leading me off to the hall where the bathrooms were. When we got there he just motioned to the ladies room silently and leaned against the wall, rubbing over his mouth nervously and looking at his watch for the time. Instead of trying to force anything out of him, I just stepped forward and adjusted his tie gently, before wrapping my arms around his middle and pulling myself to him for a hug. 

“Babe, it’s all gonna be ok” I told him and he wrapped his arms around my back, kissing the top of my head gently before resting his cheek and sighing a bit. 

“I should say something to him”

“You should absolutely not say anything, Carmy.” I said quietly. “I tell you from experience that confronting an abuser usually leads to traumatizing yourself more.” I look up at him “don’t” I said and he looked down at me for a long moment, before nodding a bit. I pecked his lips and left him, going into the single stalled ladies room and leaning against the door, sighing to myself. 

I press the bridge of my nose to dull the growing ache in my head from unintentionally grinding my teeth in stress, and took a deep breath, counting to 13 and trying my best to relax. I shook my hands for a minute to get rid of all the energy while pacing back and forth in the bathroom, naming to myself Taylor Songs songs in order of the alphabet to calm myself and get my mind off of everything that was currently going on here. 

When I felt well enough I went over to the mirror, fixing up my lipstick before washing my hands. As I shut the water off I heard Carmy say something through the door so I slowly walked over, pressing my ear to it to hopefully hear better. 

“Do you have half an hour?” Carmy said, a near sarcastic chuckle to his voice and I nervously twirl the ring on my left hand as I listened.

“You’re welcome” the other voice responded, earning a scoff from Carmen and my eyes widened a bit, my heart starting to thump.

 “I’m welcome? For- for- for what?” Carmy asked genuinely. I wasn’t sure if it would be more embarrassing if I walked out there now, or if I left him to finish what he started because this wasn’t going to end wel for him either wayl.

“You were an okay chef, when you started with me, and you left an excellent chef. So, you’re welcome.” the man said, and I really wanted to rip the door open and smack whoever the fuck had the nerve to talk to Carmy that way, and I had no doubt in my mind that it was that evil demon motherfucker who trained him in New York.

“You gave me ulcers, and panic attacks, and- and nightmares? You– you know that, right? Do you– do you understand that? I- I can’t fucking go to bed with my fucking girlfriend sometimes, because I’m - I’m too fucked up trying to -” he’s cut off

“Yeah, I gave you confidence, and leadership, and ability. It fuckin’ worked. The only reason you have a girl like that - is because I made you a leader. I made you believe in yourself” he told Carmen matter-of-factly, like he has any idea who I am or why I love him. My hands were literally shaking as I clutched the door knob, trying to find any reason to not open it, knowing myself I would embarrass Carmy by the way I would read this man to filth, and all of his colleagues and old peers were here. I had to keep it together.

My heart simultaneously shattered and lit on fire when I heard Carmy say “I’m like- i’m- i’m- i’m-I’m fucking stunned right now, I–” I wanted nothing more then to rip open the door, knee that fuckhead in the balls, and take Carmy to go get our favorite deep dish and go home to watch a movie, I knew it. I told him it was a bad idea to ever talk to this man, because I knew he wasn’t sorry.

 “Dude.” he scoffed, nearly laughing “You need to unclutch your pearls” Thats it 

I tugged the door open, ready to rip that evil fuckface a new one but before I could, Carmy said  “My life stopped.”

 “That’s the point, right?” “That’s the point?!” Carmy said, nearly breathless, like the words sucked the air right out of his lungs. 

He really expected him to at least be a little sorry.

 “You wanted to be great. You wanted to be excellent. So, you got rid of all the bullshit, and you concentrated, and you got focused, and you got great. You got excellent. It worked! You’re here, Look at all this! You have a beautiful girl, and I’m told an okay restaurant. I’m gonna go piss now.” He gives him to what anyone else would see as a friendly pat on the arm, but it was nothing but condescending and patronizing coming from him, and walked into the mens room.

I look at Carmy and he turns to look at me, a single tear falling and he shakes his head, laughing to himself and wiping it away, “Lets go take a break” he said just above a whisper. I nodded quickly and pushed my purse up on my arm, holding onto his arm and heading outside with him.

When we got outside, he stood there for a moment, his tears silently falling and wiping them away as quickly as they came. I didn’t even want to know what was going on in his mind right now, I probably wouldn’t be able to keep up. I didn’t know what else to say, so I just settled on “I’m sorry. I love you.” 

I wasn’t sure what I was expecting, but it wasn’t for him to just start laughing. Belly laughing, really laughing. Manic, sick and fed up laughter, but that is exactly what happened. He just laughed, for a good minute, tears still falling. “Bear-“

“It’s just fucking so funny! It’s - this whole thing my life is one big fucking joke!” He said and pats his pocket, out of habit looking for a cigarette so I pulled his gum out of my purse for him and hand him a piece. 

“This! This don’t you see how fucking funny this is. How -“ he popped it in his mouth and shook his head, leaning against the brick as he chews it angrily. 

“Nothing he said was true” I told him and loosen his tie when I saw him itching at his neck furiously, these clothes weren’t at all helping his situation. “Anything he said was to make you feel this way, Bear. He’s been taunting you all night long” I explained and he shook his head. 

“An okay restaurant he’s told but he can’t even remember my fucking name” he muttered, tugging at his tie more. “This is too fucking tight im chokin’ can you get it off?” He asked and I quickly tug it undone, folding it up and putting it in my purse. 

“Well I don’t know about okay” I said and he looks at my quickly “I’d say…it’s fantastic. I mean, this is the first year it’s been open- and it’s already nominated for a James Beard Award. That’s something you could have thrown in his face, huh?” I said and I saw a tiny twitch of a smile on the corner of his lips. 

“That’s cause’a Syd” he looks down at the sidewalk and I brush his nose playfully to get his attention. 

“That’s cause you have been pushing her, and she has been pushing you. Even though you push like 50 times harder - you get the job done” I said and he rolled his eyes, giving me a small smile and pulling me to his chest, kissing the top of my head. 

“How much of that did you hear?” He asked and rested his cheek on the top of my head, gently tugging at the bottom of my curls. 

“Enough to know that I would love to take my nails and dig out his evil eyes like melon ballers and shove them down his throat like some serial killer.” I said, closing my eyes and wrapping my arms around his middle. 

“Mm that’s hot babe. Youd do that f’me?” He muses and I giggled as his hands trail down and squeeze my ass 

“I would do anything for you. Cause I love you with my whole heart.” I remind him and his grip softens, raising his hands to my hips 

“I’ll do anything for you, promise” he said softly and the door opened, causing him to pull away and just keep his hand on my lower back which made me pout a bit. 

“What the hell happened” Syd asked, shutting the door behind her

“Nothin. Doesn’t matter. Just give us a few it’s fine.” He said and she looked at him for a long moment before looking at me. 

“It’s fine” she repeated in the way I knew she knew it wasn’t fine. 

“It’s fine. He’s ok” I assured her and nod, “thank you, we’ll be back in a second. He needs a minute.” I explained and she nodded and went back inside without anything else. 

I look back at him, crossing my arms. “So you’re ok with people thinking we’re engaged but hugging me around Syd isn’t ok?” I asked he sighed a bit rubbing his chin 

“When the fuck did I say we were engaged?” He asked and I scoff, putting my hand up where he switched my ring to my wedding finger and he rolls his eyes. 

“I was nervous forgive me for fucking around with your rings. Sorry, I won’t do it again, I didn’t know it was a subliminal message. Please, why the fuck are you looking for a fight.” I bit my lip to stop it from quivering, moving the ring back to my middle finger and swallowing the lump in my throat. 

“I’m hungry. I’d like to eat so we can go home, please.” I tried my best to keep my voice even. He opened up the door and I walked ahead of him, not bothering to hold his arm or his hand feeling completely rejected. When we sat back at the table I looked down to see that our main course was some meat covered in a kind of red oil with what looked to be little chili peppers in it. Great. 

I nibbled on the kale that was on the side, not willing to ask Carmy what it was for sake of being stubborn since I was upset with him. It wasn’t long until he realized I wasn’t eating 

“It’s not spicy.” He said in my ear. I rolled my eyes, annoyed he knew what I was thinking and cut up the food with my fork, taking a bite and continuing to ignore him. It wasn’t until the dessert course when he finally wrapped his arm around me and tugged me closer, gently rubbing my hip with his hand. “Are you gonna keep up the attitude all night, honey” he asked in my ear and disguised it with a chaste kiss to my temple. 

I look at him furrowing my brow. “You’re really gonna say I have an attitude? I’m being extremely well behaved all things considered the past week.” I said quietly “you won’t even kiss me in public. Like I’m-“ he tips my chin up and quiets me with a gentle press to my lips, rubbing over my jaw with his thumb. When he pulled away he gave me the are we done raise of his brows and I leaned into him a bit more, grabbing my wine glass and having a short sip. 

He left me alone for a while to go speak with his other old boss alone, the one who had invited us so I stuck with Syd and Luca who really seemed to be hitting it off, it made me happy considering her last boyfriend seemed to call it quits in such a way she didn’t even feel like talking about why. They were talking about cooking stuff, so there wasn’t really anywhere I could jump into the conversation so I mostly just hung back. 

When Carmy finally came to collect me I was grateful, I was tired of hanging around like a useless limb all night. Syd invited us to some kind of after party, but Carmy of course declined and said we had to get home to feed the cat which of course was his forever excuse since he’d moved into my apartment. “All things considered I think that went…okay. I guess you can say it was ok” Carmy said as we walked down the street to wait for our Uber. 

“Sure. Yeah it was fine. Food was good.” I said, still a bit upset with what happened earlier with the rings. 

“You’re still mad.” He said more like a statement then a question. 

“You’re trying to cause a fight!” I repeated his words from earlier. He snorts a sarcastic laugh, shaking his head. 

“Babe you need to stop reading so deeply into shit” he said and I scoff

“Reading into shit?! Oh sorry - sorry Carmen. We’ve been dating for a year and all of my friends keep saying when a guy knows he usually knows right away - and- and online they keep asking me how many years I’m gonna wait around before I would get the hint that you don’t wanna get married!” I said and tears fill my eyes but I use every ounce of strength left in me to hold them back. 

“Oh- yeah babe people on fucking tik tok er instagram know us. How many times have I told you that you are the only girl I’d fucking marry! So why are you so worried about when I’m gonna do it-“ he pulls his phone out of his pocket when it buzzes, probably expecting to see the Uber was close but his expression drops. 

“What wrong-“ I said and he holds up his hand to tell me to wait, his eyes quickly darting over the screen and reading something to himself. 

“Fuck- fuck- oh fuck” he said, covering his mouth with his hand his expressing growing increasingly more concerned as he head further 

“Carmen what is so important? We’re having a god damn conversation!” I snapped, annoyed he was just ignoring how upset he’d made me and took his phone out of his hand to see he was reading an article, the title being 

The Beef turned The Bear, now claims ‘luxury’ but still has the sloppiest dishes in the Chicago food scene.

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This Pull Me in Deeper scene in Helion’s POV: “Helion pulled Alexius aside that night, asking again what happened with Eris and if there was anything he should know. Alexius kept silent. As much as he loved and trusted his uncle, his loyalties were to Eris first. To assure Eris’ safety, he would not let the secret fall from his lips.”

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The Jewel of the Forest House 🐶

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Put Alexius in Dancing Barefoot 👀 what he be like in this AU, how he would look, any outfits he would wear, etc!

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Okay, this ended up being long because I did end up writing a mini-scene for the first question and I rambled a lot. So putting it all under a cut to be nice haha.

↻ FLIP FLOP: send me a scene from one of my fics and I’ll describe or write it from another character’s POV!

This Pull Me in Deeper scene in Helion’s POV: “Helion pulled Alexius aside that night, asking again what happened with Eris and if there was anything he should know. Alexius kept silent. As much as he loved and trusted his uncle, his loyalties were to Eris first. To assure Eris’ safety, he would not let the secret fall from his lips.”

When Fili left to find where Eleni stormed off to, Helion took the opportunity to ask his nephew what had been bothering him since his return.

"If there is anything that happened on your trip to the Continent, you know you can always tell me, Alexius." He used the tone he often did when Alexius was a boy, hoping it would assure him that he could still confide in him.

His nephew's frown, the one that scarred his once sunny disposition, pulled at the corners of his mouth as he didn't meet Helion's eyes.

"I've told you all that happened. I don't have anything else to share."

Helion reflexively reached for Alexius' arm, but the young male dodged him, shoving his hands in his pockets as he slunk out of the room. Alexius' continuous rejections stung. They had been close since he was a boy, and in many ways, he saw Alexius like a child of his own, knowing that children would never be in his future.

His hurt was replaced by anger. He knew Eris Vanserra did something to his nephew. Something irrevocably damaging, enough that he turned the sunniest smile in Day into a raincloud. He would get to the bottom of this if he had to string the bastard up by his ankles and force it out of him.

♡ SMALL THINGS: pick a fic and I’ll tell you my favorite minor detail from it!

The Jewel of the Forest House 🐶

AHHHH, one of my fave fics I've written!!! Okay, there are SO MANY little details in this fic I adore because it's just nothing but domestic Erixius with their doggies. But I think my favorite minor detail is the bit I snuck in about how Eris never allowed himself anytime to mourn his brother Conan's death. He thinks of it in passing, when reminiscing about them as boy, and how even with what Conan became (the brother that killed Jesminda) there is still love there for the boys they once were.

Oh, also that Alexius dresses Jewel up in a plaid sweater. XD I thought it was just adorable and very Autumn.

⇆ SLIDING DOORS: pick a character from one fic to drop into another!

Put Alexius in Dancing Barefoot 👀 what he be like in this AU, how he would look, any outfits he would wear, etc!

OMFG, THIS IS THE BEST. Okay, 1970s in LA, you KNOW Alexius is going to have a big gay mustache and be dancing to disco in all the gay clubs - sucking and fucking his way through beautiful men until he meets a certain red head he's never seen before who has the prettiest amber eyes. In every universe, Alexius falls hard for Eris and has to make him his. Lucien is supposed to meet his mother and Eris for brunch the following day the fic takes place, and while Lucien is having the time of his life with this rad college chick he just met, I imagine Eris had a similar night full of dancing to Donna Summer and taking Alexius home with him. Alexius is probably still sleeping off his hang over in his bed waiting for him to get back from brunch, because even after a crazy night, Eris would never be late for brunch with his mother. Oh and for outfits, I picture a lot of slutty tank tops and tight jeans that show off his butt, and of course a handkerchief hanging from the back right pocket ;). Maybe Nyssa is one of the queens at his favorite bar and he goes to all her shows to support her, and he'll definitely drag uptight Eris to some so that he can loosen up a bit.

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Okay, you're getting a whole ass bonus chapter very, very soon. So I'll describe a deleted scene. It's not so much "deleted" as just extra things I thought about but never actually wrote out in the fic. There is a scene where Alexius has a conversation with Lucien when he's back in Day and Lucien hints at having spoken to Eris recently and there is some implications that Lucien has picked up on that Eris and Alexius had a secret relationship. Lucien is back in Autumn once Alexius comes in the final chapter, seemingly having spoken to Eris since he was in Day. In my head, Lucien made it a point to pull Eris aside when he got back to Autumn before all the hooplah with Beron happens, and told Eris about his time in Day and had a similar exchange where he gave him just enough information so he would know that Alexius was okay. Almost like delivering a message that neither of them asked him to send. <3 Cause that is just the kind of guy Lucien is.

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Watch Me ☾: Josh x f!Reader

You love getting to support Josh in all of his pursuits, but sometimes your anxiety gets the best of you. And knowing this, he finds the perfect way to use music to offer you comfort in a particularly anxious moment. 

No Hands☀︎: Josh x f!Reader

Your little game works out exactly in your favor.

•Part 2 ☀︎ & now it’s his turn.

Lilac Moon(wip)☀︎☾⭒: Josh x f!Reader

You left everything behind to make music.

Your band is struggling to make it, you're struggling to make it.

That is until one day, you meet the singer of the band that inspired you to chase your dreams. And not only do you meet him, but he wants you to go on tour with him and his band.

You happily obliged, though you were not prepared for the whirlwind of emotions and love that awaited you.

This tour will change everything for you.

Lets Share☀︎: Danny x f!Reader x Josh

You’re undeniably Danny’s but, he doesn’t mind sharing.

Release☀︎: Dr. JMK x f!Reader (coming soon♡)

Your body is far too tense these days. A massage from the best of the best is just what you need to remedy it, although his measures are bit...unconventional.

Le Morte d’Arthur(wip)☀︎☾⭒: College AU Jake x f!Reader

It all began with a passion for literature. What was once a dream to walk the halls of the University of Michigan is now a reality.

You thought you were prepared for everything.

A new town, a new school, a new way of life,

but what you were not prepared for...

was meeting the enigma that is Jake Kiszka.

Bloodstream(wip)☀︎☾⭒: vampire!Jake x f!Reader

This is a very special collab with @jakeyt 🤍

Folklore. Stories passed down through generations. Imaginations run rampant with their tales of sorcery and the supernatural.

But for Tommie, it was different. Somehow it was more. She had become transfixed by a local legend - one that told of an unlawful love affair between a witch and a vampire. To Tommie, it was an alluring tapestry woven with threads of forbidden love and timeless secrets. Yet something about it felt strangely familiar to her-but why?

It was only a story. . . wasn't it?

Prettiest in the Morning☀︎☾: Jake x f!Reader (request)

Jake is worth being late to work for.

Muse☀︎☾: Jake x f!Reader (request)

Your struggling artist is desperate for some inspiration.

Why Don’t You Make Me?☀︎ ⭒: Sam x f!Reader

You learn what being sassy with Sam leads to.

Lets Share☀︎: Danny x f!Reader x Josh

You’re undeniably Danny’s but, he doesn’t mind sharing.

GVF poetry:

pieces inspired by the boys, the band, & the art they have gifted us. 𖥸

Josh

Jake

Danny

Sammy(coming soon♡)

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[roses-dreams-andthorns]

May I have the dorm leaders getting told they're the prettiest, most handsome and amazing person in the universe by the reader? Flustered boys are my weakness

hehehehehe same tho! they make me weak in the knees-

Dorm Leaders when the Reader calls them the prettiest and most handsome in the Universe

Riddle

"You the prettiest, most handsome, and most amazing person in the Universe, Riddle-Senpai!"

♡ Whaaa? Him? Prettiest? Most handsome? Most amazing?

♡ he's flabberghasted

♡ stands there shocked with a red face, mouth dropped for upwards of 15 minutes

♡ after he finally gets out of his daze, he takes another second to process what was just said to him

♡ once he realizes, though...

"T-thank you... Reader-san... I-I... uh... Ahem... it's an honor to be the most handsome and most amazing, in your eyes, Reader! Uhm... could you say it again?"

"Of course I can! You're the prettiest, most handsome and most amazing person in the world!"

♡ will ask you to repeat it over and over, getting redder in the face each time

Leona

"You the prettiest, most handsome, and most amazing person in the Universe, Leona-Senpai!"

○ stares blankly for a second, then smirks with blush on his face

○ he grabs your face

○ makes you wonder if you said something wrong

○ but no, because..

"Say that again."

"huh?"

"I said... say it again."

"Uhhhhmm..."

"Ha, now you're all shy, go on. Say it. again."

"You the prettiest, most handsome, and most amazing person in the world!"

○ you rushed saying it a bit

○ he'll get you to repeat it until he's satisfied

○ which will probably be never

Azul

"You the prettiest, most handsome, and most amazing person in the Universe, Azul-Senpai!"

□ awwe sweet Azul... seems he lost his smugness

□ Red. Face red. Tomato red.

□ stops whatever he's doing and just stares, but unlike Riddle, he's there for hours.

□ he dropped his coffee

□ it's like he's playing that one "Graveyard" game where you gotta stay as still as possible

"Azul-Senpai?"

...

"Helloooo? Azul-Senpai?"

...

"Earth to Azul-Senpai!"

...

"...FLOYD, JADE!! I THINK I BROKE AZUL!!"

Kalim

"You the prettiest, most handsome, and most amazing person in the Universe, Kalim-Senpai!"

☆ No thoughts, just happy Kalim time

☆ Big hugs

☆ Will say the same to you over and over

☆ he would get the two of you caught in a "No, you are!" loop

"No... you are!"

"Uh, nuh uh! you are!"

"Nooo... you are!"

"No, you are!"

"Nope! You are!"

☆ and then Jamil watches it happen from afar

Vil

"You the prettiest, most handsome, and most amazing person in the Universe, Vil-Senpai!"

◇ He knows

◇ he usually doesn't get too flustered when others say it to him

◇ but when it's you?

◇ I swore I saw his face go a bit redder...

"I am aware. Thank you, darling."

"hehehe! No problem!"

◇ Secretly, he is squealing like a little fangirl over it

◇ it was you, how could he not?

Idia

"You the prettiest, most handsome, and most amazing person in the Universe, Idia-Senpai!"

○ Eh???

○ Him? of all people?

○ completely denies it was meant for him

"Idia-Senpai? Did I say something wrong?"

"..."

"Idia-Senpai?"

"Was it really... meant for me?"

"Of course it was, silly! Who else would it be for? ehe!"

○ is his hair turning pink?

○ faints ten seconds later

Malleus

"You the prettiest, most handsome, and most amazing person in the Universe, Malleus-Senpai!"

□ Very touched by your words

□ No one's called him that, except maybe Lilia and his grandma when Malleus was younger

□ Big dragon hug incoming!!!

"Thank you... I am truely touched."

"Hehehe! No problem Malleus-Senpai!"

"May I hug you, Child of Man?"

"Awwwe! Of course you can!"

□ very cozy hugs

[byunbqbes]

HQ BOYS WHEN YOU CRY #2

♡ atsumu. immediately pouts and pecks you all over your face, tasting like mint and musk. even volunteers to pull funny faces to make you laugh, tears still wet on your cheeks. gives you a big smile and an even bigger hug when you stop crying, then he's whispering something suggestive in your ear and he feels his heart bloom at the way you burst out laughing incredulously, with the prettiest smile on your lips.

♡ iwaizumi. rubs your back in slow, soothing circles, just the way you like it, as you snuggle into him and sob into his chest. but you don't miss the way his fists shake or the way his voice sounds when he asks, "who made you cry?" you do, however, miss the way he looks down at you, as if you hold his entire universe. you definitely do miss the fact that your best friend iwaizumi hajime has been in love with you for as long as he can remember.

♡ akaashi. a hint of a frown flickers on his face as he wipes your tears away gently, furrowing his brows. he quickly pulls you against him, caging you in his arms, ignoring the stares of his teammates at his uncharacteristic public display of affection. after a while of patting your back softly, you calm down, and akaashi gives you a small smile as he reminds you, "everything will be okay."

♡ kageyama. makes clueless, incoherent noises as he fumbles around, feeling a tug at his heart strings as you hugged your pillow closer to your torso, crying into it. then suddenly, he's wrapping his long, larger fingers around your smaller ones, raising both your hands to his lips to give your knuckles a soft kiss. he just sits there quietly, lips ghosting the back of your hand while he waits for you to calm down. then he's back to a stuttering mess as he scratches his head, offering, "i-ice cream?"

♡ kuroo. slithers his arm around your shoulder and pulls you closer to him as tears trickle down your cheeks. presses tender kisses to the top of your head and grazes his thumb softly across shoulder as you lean into the crook of his neck, letting tears spill out of your eyes incessantly. when you finally stop, kuroo tickles your sides, and you're giggling at the way he wiggles his brows obnoxiously again.

🍵 reblogs are very appreciated!!

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Recommended Misc Fics of November 2022💖

hello, hello! here are my recs for ateez, seventeen, straykids & txt for september! hopefully these beautiful stories get more recognition as well as the writers 💝

** anything in parentheses and bolded are my thoughts that can be disregarded if needed **

🔞smut || 💔angst || 💕fluff || ✅completed || 🔄ongoing || 💯favorite

BEST FRIENDS TO LOVERS AU

My Way To You || @wonwoonlight​​​​​💕✅💯💯

↳ You don’t remember a time when you don’t have Wonwoo by your side. But when things happen and you’re left to deal with your feelings, you can’t help but wonder if what you have with him can be framed under the name of friendship after all. or, alternatively, Wonwoo’s been in love with you for as long as he can remember and he doesn’t know if he should be thankful or not that you’ve never suspected him for it.

HYBRID AU

Peach || @thelargefrye​​💕💔🔄 (i think its still ongoing, not too sure)

↳ hongjoong adopts you, a cat hybrid, and brings you home where he already as yunho, a dog hybrid.

The Art Of Home || @thelargefrye​​​​​💕✅

↳ what a saturday morning consist of with you and your eight mates.

SOCIAL MEDIA AU

Cherry On Top || @ilymatz​​💕💔✅💯

↳ yeosang is fairly closed off and wants to keep you at an arm's length. why? it's simple. fear.

Time Of Love || @desayunho​​💕💔✅💯

↳ one drunk night out will turn your finally easy life into a trainwreck, and lead your upstairs neighbors to become far more than what you anticipated.

WEREWOLF AU

Wolf Ateez React To Their Mate Being A Bunny Hybrid || @ja3hwa​​🔞💕💔✅💯

↳ Thank you to my anonymous asker for this request. I hope you enjoy this. Also I tried to make this Gender neutral as you didn’t specify a gender ♡ Enjoy ♡

ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIP AU

Live Stream || @pileofwords​​💕✅

↳ seungcheol is in the middle of an impromptu live stream when you, unaware, burst into his room and are caught on camera.

Love Me Out Loud || @twogyuu​​​​💕💔✅💯

↳ Kim Mingyu was your first, but to him, he was for sure you were his endgame. One year out from university, no one expected you to be dating the former campus heartthrob. It’s why you had to hide it from everyone - Mingyu’s 14.5K Instagram followers, at least. However, the return of your childhood best friend Kim Taehyung to Seoul for a wedding, forces Mingyu to rethink the secrecy of your whole relationship.

FAKE DATING AU

His Smile || @angelwonie​​ 🔞💕✅💯💯

↳ falling in love with your fake boyfriend isn't a good idea, and it's even worse if that fake boyfriend happens to be Kim Mingyu. but you just can't help it — he's got the prettiest smile you've ever seen.

TIMESTAMPS

06:17 || @wonwoonlight​​💕✅💯💯

↳ sleepy!wonwoo

09:57pm || @idyllic-ghost​​​💕✅

↳ (full on fluff)

SOCIAL MEDIA AU

Wanted: New Roommate || @suhnshinehaos​​​💕💔✅💯

↳ when yn’s exchange student roommates leave, they are left with the unfortunate task of finding a new place to stay. lucky for them, a room just opened up at apartment 5c, complete with the most interesting group of people they could ever hope to meet.

STRANGERS TO LOVERS AU

Feu D’Artifice || @twogyuu​​​​💕💔✅

↳ "The Robin Hood of street racing," Chan liked to call him. You had laughed in your friend's face when he first told you about Vernon, but when you actually met him, you couldn't help but be curious about what was behind that stoic façade and his rusted Toyota Celica.

For Worse Or For Better || @fallinwoozi​​​​​💕✅💯

↳ Prompt: this marriage was supposed to be a scam but, but listen,

SOCIAL MEDIA AU

Isn’t It Delicate? || @writing-skz​​💕💔✅

↳ after three years of no contact, when you get paired with lee minho for a course project you get to build back the friendship you both had left behind. It would have been perfectly fine if the reunion hadn't brought out your suppressed feelings for the boy you had bottled in years ago, but of course when is life ever that simple?

Its Just A Mistake! || @seosracha​​​💕💔✅💯

↳ When a confession text lands into your college enemies messages, the solution is clear. At the end of the day, its just a mistake, right?

My Sunshine || @staysuki​​​💕💔✅

↳ pure, optimistic, carefree, and innocent-that was you, known as the campus sweetheart. but with such a personality, people only really saw you as a friend, nothing more and nothing less.

Sunshine || @svngbins​​​💕💔✅💯

↳ y/n’s only secret is that she’s in love with her childhood best friend, jisung. the only problem? y/n’s other best friend, aerin, has a not-so-secret crush on jisung.

Sunshine Is Far Away, Clouds Linger On || @seungkwan-s​​💕💔✅💯

↳ y/n has been in love with her best friend, minho for as long as she can remember but minho's girlfriend, mina, isn't her biggest fan. mina makes it her goal to put y/n down at any chance she can get, while making herself look like the victim. will minho finally see through her lies or have you lost him forever?

The Epic Highs and Lows of JYP University || @staysuki​​💕💔🔄 (Season 1 & 2 are completed)

↳ JYP University... You didn’t know what to expect, especially since you were simply just a charity case to a prestigious boarding school. You were intimidated- and rightfully so. After all, there’s only so much you can have till the pressure of college life gets to you.

ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIP AU

Jock & Nerd || @capaimagines​​​​💕💔✅

↳ Request: a jock x nerd secret relationship high school au with soobin, pls? where u guys have a “secret relationship” but girls keep being delusional and try to bully you for “flirting” with soobin so y’all just announce that ur dating? tyty and i hope that his wasn’t to specific 🥺

SOCIAL MEDIA AU

Bad Hair Day || @iyeonjuni​💕✅

↳ yeonjun dyes his hair almost every week and y/n is just curious as to how he keeps his hair so fresh

Moonlight || @sunlightwoo​​​💕💔✅

↳  you know who this person is, you think. you’ve seen him multiple times in your dreams and it’s been happening since the moment that you had turned 16. however, you have never put a name to a face at all considering you’ve only woken up to the memory of his soft hums. soulmates exist for a reason, right?

Do check out all of the other Group Fics that i have reblogged as well!!

** if there is any fics that you guys would like to recommend, please do! i am slowly running out of fics to read **

[promptfairy]

❥    𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐎𝐌  𝐋𝐘𝐑𝐈𝐂𝐒  𝐈    [   𝚂𝙴𝙽𝚃𝙴𝙽𝙲𝙴 𝚂𝚃𝙰𝚁𝚃𝙴𝚁𝚂    ]   .

sentence starters inspired by various lyrics from random songs on my own personal playlist !!   some lyrics have been slightly modified to be more usable .  change gendered language   &   add context to your needs .  happy roleplaying !! ♡

“   i  wish  i  never  met  her  .   ” “   i  don’t  really  care  if  you  cry  .   ” “   they  don’t  wanna  chase  this  rainbow  .   ” “   you  were  my  everything  .   ” “   one  headline  ,   why  believe  it  ?   ” “   who  knew  evil  girls  have  the  prettiest  faces  ?   ” “   they  say  it’s  my  fault  .   ” “   you’ve  got  nothing  left  to  give  .   ” “   i  could  have  any  type  of  boy  that  i  feel  .   ” “   don’t  you  pay  them  any  mind  .   ” “   there’s  no  turning  back  .   ” “   this  is  life   &   we  only  get  one  chance  .   ” “   i  know  you’re  sad   &   tired  .   ” “   you  should’ve  never  lied  .   ” “   will  i  ever  be  free  ?   ” “   i  pray  for  my  enemies  .   ” “   it’s  no  better  to  be  safe  than  sorry  .   ” “   i  pray  for  all  my  rivals  .   ” “   the  world’s  gonna  know  your  name  .   ” “   i  want  to  fly  to  a  place  where  it’s  just  you   &   me  .   ” “   let  them  keep  on  talking  .   ” “   have  i  crossed  the  line  ?   ” “   we  only  get  one  shot  at  this  .   ” “   you  burn  with  the  brightest  flame  .   ” “   welcome  to  your  life  .   ” “   i  won’t  let  you  forget  me  .   ” “   easier  said  than  done  .   ” “   i  cannot  die  ,   because  this  is  my  universe  .   ” “   i’m  just  living  for  me  ,   but  a  little  more  vicious  .   ” “   i  swear  that  you’ll  get  over  it  .   ” “   i  can’t  take  back  the  love  that  i  gave  you  .   ” “   now  ,   i’m  just  better  off  dead  .   ” “   so  glad  we’ve  almost  made  it  .   ” “   i’ll  be  right  behind  you  .   ” “   don’t  come  crawling  to  me  .   ” “   everybody  wants  to  rule  the  world  .   ” “   you  gave  me  a  heart  that  was  full  of  mistakes  .   ” “   i  feel  totally  lost  .   ” “   there’s  a  room  where  the  light  won’t  find  you  .   ” “   i  can’t  stand  this  indecision  .   ” “   i  still  see  your  shadows  in  my  room  .   ” “   i  just  want  you  to  feel  safe  .   ” “   i  know  it  hurts  sometimes  ,   but  ,   you’ll  get  over  it  .   ” “   i  just  want  to  make  you  glow  how  you  glowed  when  we  were  young  .   ” “   yes  ,   i’ve  lost  my  mind  .   ” “   you  could  walk  straight  through  hell  with  a  smile  .   ” “   i  keep  closing  my  eyes  ,   but  i  can’t  block  you  out  .   ” “   nothing  ever  lasts  forever  .   ” “   i  might  need  help  to  see  the  good  things  .   ” “   i  am  who  i  am  .   ” “   i’m  in  serious  shit  .   ” “   you’re  the  worst  .   ” “   i  should  have  listened  to  my  friends  .   ” “   all  my  friends  are  dead  .   ” “   all  you  wanna  do  is  party   &   bullshit  .   ” “   i  know  that  you  want  me  dead  .   ” “   i  know  it’s  all  in  my  head  .   ” “   you  know  this  happens  every  time  .   ” “   being  with  you  has  opened  my  eyes  .   ” “   i’m  feeling  for  her  what  she’s  feeling  for  me  .   ” “   i  spend  my  money  on  the  regular  miracles  .   ” “   you  were  made  out  of  plastic  ;   fake  .   ” “   this  isn’t  what  i  wanted  .   ” “   this  is  not  enough  .   ” “   this  is  something  i  should  have  told  you  long  ago  .   ” “   but  i  want  her  so  much  .   ” “   when  they  stop   &   stare  ,   it  doesn’t  worry  me  .   ” “   god  is  the  only  one  above  me  .   ” “   shake  me  out  of  my  misery  .   ” “   now  you  see  how  it  feels  .   ” “   now  you’re  all  alone  .   ” “   you  should’ve  seen  the  way  she  looked  into  my  eyes  .   ” “   i  thought  you  were  the  one  .   ”

[p1harmonie]

✿ HAPPY MIMIDAY ✿

@cinamonmina

happiest of birthdays wifey!!! ♡

i hope you know how proud i am of you and how much your friendship means to me. i adore your whole being, you're so inspiring and caring! i still can't believe i was lucky enough to meet someone as amazing as you, you're my daily source of serotonin! you're just so beautiful inside and out mimi, thank you for being you. you don't even imagine how important you are to me! whenever i see a message from you, the biggest smile appears on my face because you just make me so so so happy. thank you for being so supportive and for making my life brighter!! you better stay in my life forever or else </3 i love you to the moon and back, happy birthday again wifey <3

(okay so since i can't show up at your doorstep with a cake and flowers, i'm sending you some things that i prepared for you! it's honestly so fun when we write headcanons for each other, i guess it's our thing hehe anyways this time i decided to add a lil drabble to the headcanons i wrote for you! and a mini playlist for you and your favourite boy, hope you like it mimi <3)

♪ mimin's playlist !

Microphone by young k and dvwn

Island by 10cm

My universe by stray kids

I want u around by yugyeom and devita

Nobody else by monsta x

# headcanons !

- you can't help it but get flustered whenever he fixes your clothes' tag or jewelry. running his fingers through your hair, he reaches over to place the clasp of your necklace back to its proper place. "you're good to go now"

- whenever he's eating something he knows you like, he saves you some of it. and if you're sharing something, he lets you have the last bite, as long as he gets to feed it to you

- he's your personal photographer! he just thinks you're the prettiest person ever, so how can he not take pics of you all the time? every week he changes his lockscreen with a new candid photo of you

- when you can't meet for a long time, you two have these long video calls where both of you’d talk about your week. between lots of giggles and funny comments, he would remind you how much he missed you every two seconds

- he always reminds you to be careful and asks you to text or call him when you get to wherever you’re going to. "send me a text when you get home"

- hugging him is always so much fun; he playfully pokes your side and tickles you just to annoy you but immediately pulls you back against his chest if you try to escape his arms. it's all teasing smiles against skin, cheeks squishing against each other's and gently messing hair up

- whenever he notices that you're staring at him he doesn't say anything for a few seconds, but then he suddenly turns your way and stares back until you get a blushing mess

✎ drabble !

As soon as you get home, the sweet smell of popcorn welcomes you.

“Close your eyes and count to 10.”

Slipping your hands over your face, you follow jimin's words as you slowly start to count.

When you’re done, you can feel his fingers gently grabbing your wrists. The feeling of his breath tickling your skin makes you squirm, as he nuzzles his nose into the back of your neck. “Okay, now you can open them.”

The sight of a blanket fort in the middle of your living room takes your breath away. Giggling, he tells you to come inside, excited to show you his work. "I spent the whole afternoon on this, I hope you like it."

As you sit down on some soft pillows, he throws a blanket around the both of you. Running his hand up and down your back, you quickly relax under his touch. When he invites you to snuggle closer to him, you look at him with the same smile that gives your feeling away and that jimin fell in love with.

Your gaze is fixed on him, while your fingers play delicately with his eyelashes. Taking your hand in his, he drags it closer to his mouth to place a lingering kiss on your fingertips. “What are you thinking about?”

When you realize that you’re actually staring at his parted lips, you move your eyes around his face, noticing a single eyelash on his cheek. Picking it up with your finger, you put it in front of his lips “Quick! You have to make a wish and then blow it away.”

As he closes his eyes to focus, the eyelash falls on the ground.

“Your wish.” you whine with a pout on your face that makes him chuckle. Hugging you tightly, he pecks your lips.

“It’s okay. With you by my side, I already have everything I could wish for.”

[kimmswritings]

Ateez Photo Section

Ateez

Why Are They Like This

Leader-nim can not be trusted

Season’s Greetings 2021

They’re All So Handsome

The Prettiest Honey Bee (SH/HJ/S)

Just A Tiny Butterfly Landing On A Flower (SH/HJ)

7 Makes One Team...?

I Aspire To Reach San’s Level Of Cuteness

Which Hongjoong Are You Today?

San Is A Big Mood (HJ/S/MG/YH/YS)

I Really Like Skinship...? (HJ/WY) ★

Ateez Loving Hongjoong: An Appreciation Post

Wonderland M/V

Seonghwa Said Enough

R.i.p Chris

This Will Go Down In History As One Of The Greatest Things Ateez Has Ever Done

Universe App Teaser

Illusion

Ateez x Wonderwall

Eternal Sunshine Stage

Thinking About Them

Seonghwa

Sleepy Boi

Thanxx Fancam

Wonderland (Sweatsuit Version) 

He Is Something

I Need Water

Beauty

Cutest

Answer > Seonghwa

Secretary Park’s First Day At Work

Seonghwa + Wave Era

Office! Hwa

Ateez GGULlog.zam: Holiday Ep.1 

Happy Birhday, Seonghwa! 

Pink Beauty

Kcon:Tact 3

Hongjoong

Well, He is the Pirate King ★

Logbook #49

Please Be My Emo Boyfriend?

How Fine Can A Man Be?

Our Angel Leader I Mama 2029

He’s So Beautiful

A Happy Blueberry

Thanxx 200910

Fever Road Ep. 8

Curly-haired cutie

Curly-haired cutie pt 2

Kcontact Day 3

Wink!

Handsome But Shy

Facts™ By Hongjoong

Looks I’ve Thought About A Lot This Year (2020)

Happy Birthday Hongjoong!

Happy Birthday Pt. 2

No Thoughts Head Empty Just This Hongjoong

Colorful Blueberry

Hongjoong In A Half Skirt Is My Passion

The King Of Dad Jokes

Bugs? I Like Bugs...

"ᵒʰ ʳᵉᵃˡˡʸ?"

Pretty Boy

200806 Inception

Treasure Map

King Of Expressions

It’s The Little Things...

Hongjoong > Answer ★

월급루팡 에이티즈 Ep. 1

Hongjoong Gang

200812 Hongjoong Inception

Smiley Baby

Joongspressions™

Posing For The Camera ♡

He’s Baby

200730 Fever ★

He Really Do Be Vibing On The Side

His Reaction To Being Called Handsom By A Fan

Handsome!Joong Has Arrived

Immortal Songs 2

Season’s Greetings 2021

Pajama Party

Orange Cutie

The Legendary Cactus

BY. HONGJOONG #4

Idol Human Theater

Deja Vu

The Best Hair Color

210917 Deja Vu Stage

Kingdom Ep. 3

Wink!

Mingi

Missing Red-Haired Mingi Hours: OPEN

Who Allowed This???

Birthday Post

Mingi: 1, Prop: 0

Big Mouth Mingi 

Yeosang

200729 / Air Con

Sir, This Is A Wendy’s

Yeosang At SMA Red Carpet 2021

Wooyoung

Wooyoung’s First Airport Fashion

San

Cutie Pie

Sneckles

His Smile Is So Pretty omg

The Prettiest

Yunho

200801 Yunho Fever

Yunho ✤ A Little Space MV

[buckbylightning]

hehe lowkey i forgot about this and i’m p sure a couple other tag things too sorry but i was tagged by @vinylackles and @starsmish ily the both of you so insanely much

1. When did you start watching Supernatural?

started in 2015 on netflix and then started watching live during season 13

2. Who is your favorite in TFW?

i love all of them so much and it’s really very hard to choose but probably cas

3. Who is your least favorite in TFW?

i can’t read suddenly

4. Tag your top 5 Supernatural blogs. 

oof ok *cracks knuckles* @idjit makes wonderful gifs and highkey i would die for her, @wanderingcas is the sweetest person in the universe and is currently writing the amazing tcoat, @beefcakemish diehard just if you love misha she is your girl i cannot get over how much i love her (and her writing is to die for), @deansmichael payton and her gorgeous gifs, @inacatastrophicmind gifs are a beaut and always way too heartbreaking, @dochollidayed also amazing writing and just like the coolest person ever??, @starsmish makes the prettiest gifs, @vinylackles lynds i just stan so much what a queen is there anything she can’t do?, @hallowedbecastiel honestly if you don’t follow alana are you even in the spn fandom? brilliant at everything and a wonderful person. i couldn’t pick 5. i’m being held back right now so i don’t add more. i know this isn’t everyone but i really need to stop

5. Who is your favorite character (not including TFW)?

bobby or donna probably. oh, and kevin! and jody, eileen, garth...

6. Who is your favorite woman in Supernatural?

donna ♡

7. John or Mary?

mary

8. What were your first opinions of Sam, Dean, Cas, and Jack?

Sam: we like floofy hair boy <3

Dean: love!!!!!!!!!!

Cas: bffie!!

Jack: vv precious

9. What’s your favorite season?

oh dear. uhm probably i really liked 8 or maybe 4?

10. What’s your least favorite season?

 9 i think. i binged it but over a long time (which makes no sense i know) so a lot of like 6-9 kinda just blurred together in a lot of ways 

11. Opinions on Destiel?

it’s fine!

12. Do you believe Supernatural queerbaits?

the show definitely knows about it and i feel like some of their marketing it destiel geared, yes

13. Seasons 1-7 or 8-14?

1-7

14. Favorite villain (plot wise)?

ruby or like i feel like the empty would be really cool so hopefully we get to see more of that. also dick roman just because he brought us charlie and jody too actually 

15. Do you think they should end the Lucifer plot line?

YES PLEASE!!! BURN IT TO THE GROUND!! i’m so sick of nick and lucifer and everything related to it. they’ve run it completely dry and then just kept digging in the hopes that they’d find more water under the sand. i’m tired, his story is tired. for the love of god just get rid of him already.

16. Who do you think has gone through more trauma (Sam, Dean, or Cas)?

i really like what lindsey wrote about how you cannot compare their traumas because different actions will feel different to all of them (that’s the sparknotes version, here’s what she wrote) 

17. What’s your favorite Supernatural episode?

i really like all the fun and clever ones like changing channels, ghostfacers, it’s a terrible life, mint condition. but also baby is definitely a highlight

18. Do you like case episodes?

yes! i feel like the early seasons case episodes were better but i’ll always love them. you can pry case episodes from my cold dean hands

19. Who do you relate most to in TFW?

there’s bits in all of them but dean or cas. i feel like i usually see sam’s point of view/ reasoning the most but for some reason i just don’t see as much of myself in him

20. Why do you like Supernatural?

i super appreciate the brotherly/ family love instead of the romantic arcs that most shows try to pull. supernatural has a bit of romance but it’s waaay toned down and never lasts which means less unnecessary arcs to keep the drama with couples up. idk i also just really love the monster hunting and the perspective the show takes on it. i’m definitely a character driven person and somehow these guys just weaseled their way in and i want to watch their story and make sure they’re happy (or as happy as they guys can be) 

21. If you could bring back one character and kill off another who would they be?

ahhhhhh nick is dead for sure and i’d bring back eileen (with kev as a close second)

Tagging: @brxcebnner ​, @idjit ​, @celestialdean ​, @dkrushnic ​, @hhoneycas ​, @asexualcas ​, and @ddean ​