#the point is that whatever you do youll never be good enough!!

[quartergremlin]

i cant even comprehend this level of stupidity/queerphobia anymore. In what world does "why even bother transitioning if you're going to do woman stuff" make sense.

transcript:

Coworker: Okay so. You know what I don't get?

Quarter: mm.

C: Trans men who get married to men? and have kids? What's even the point?

Q (thinking): girl I know you know. like. the general concept of gay people.

[f1nalboys]

OMG. I love the tod headcannons. Would you ever do ian sleepover headcannons?

HELLOOOO ANON sorry this has taken so long, i do apologize and i hope its fun to read!!!!

WORD COUNT: 916

WARNINGS: not proofread, weed mention, ians a perv on occassion, mostly fluff

ok number one i need a sleepover with this guy NOWWWWWW

ian refuses to call it a sleepover. you two are hanging out, chilling, that’s all. if he spends the night then thats just what happens, it totally wasn't his end goal

i truly believe ian sleeps better in anyone elses bed than he does his own not for any particular reason he just loves the feeling of being on vacation and being in a different bed counts to him fr

he comes over with nothing. like deadass the clothes on his back and maybe some weed IF UR LUCKY 

he also tends to show up ‘just for a bit’ and makes a big show about sighing at the time and being like man…. i wish i didn’t have to leave but its almost time for bed……..

like girl just ask to sleep over who cares

anyways he really hates Planned Sleepover Activities

no pillow fights, no truth or dare, no spin the bottle (this can and has been done before with him, he just has to be in the mood,) no bloody mary, etc

now, of course, if he really really really loves you, he’ll do all those things and more. he is going to COMPLAIN though. like, to the point where it’s almost unenjoyable. 

he does love a good spa day though…. you ask him to put on a fuzzy robe so you can put a face mask and cucumbers on him and he’s jumping for joy lowkey

and he lets you paint his nails and stuff and he doesnt care if its messy or bumpy or if you don’t put a top coat on it, he just loves that youre doing it for ihm

ANDDDD its the quietest he’ll be. youll look up at his face and hes staring down at you with such a sickeningly sweet love sick grin that its almost enough to make you barf and he won't say a single word until youre done

and even then he’ll just go “its great baby, thank you.” heheh

like 3 hours later he’ll go “you got a lot of nail polish on my skin, god damn.” and you’ll look over and hes very methodically picking it off of his skin lol

anyways. when hes over he just wants to chill genuinely 

ian is interested in getting chinese food or pizza, getting super fucking high, and having movies or music in the background while you guys talk

and he really only does one on one sleepovers, siblings or family excluded. if you invited another friend to sleepover at the same time hes gonna be in the corner like ugh…..sigh……eyeroll…..ugh…..what no im fine its whatever……sigh…..

ian is super handsy as is but when he gets tired hes worse

you’ll know hes ready for you two to go to sleep when hes suddenly attached to your back, arms around your waist and head in your shoulder

ian loves sleepovers that are simply for you two to get shit done

like ian has to rework an art piece? hes coming over and youre finally gonna clean your room.

he tries to sleep in his regular clothes all the time (he does it at home i fear to say) so if youre against that you HAVE to have some spare clothes for him. or let him sleep in his underwear but then he’s gonna get that dumb stupid sexy grin on his face and ask if youre trying to get him naked 

which like yes ian i am but not like that….yet

waking up with ian is great if you get up before him because hes all cuddly and sweet and murmuring in his sleep and you can just stare and admire him

if he gets up first hes waking you up but hes also fucking with you

he shakes you awake and is like BABE YOU OVERSLEPT FOR XYZ!!!!! and you jump out of bed and hes like haha got you just kidding

or he draws on your face or arms if youre a heavy sleeper and he can get away with it

AND he takes photos of you sleeping all the time on his shitty little flip phone and he never tells you about it

until like weeks later when youre hanging with him in the car eating food and he laughs and turns his phone around to show you a picture of you slumped over, mouth open, drooling.

but hes a menace

hes like well im up so i need you up to????

like god bless erin for dealing with him 

but you dont have to worry about it much, he normally sleeps in if hes able to but depending on when he went to bed, he could get up before you

and good luck trying to go back to sleep because hes hitting you with pillows and squashing you and talking until you just roll your eyes and sit up

and then hed smile and go omgggg good morning sleepyhead LIKE SHUT UP

overall, ian is a fun guy to have a sleepover with if you just want to chill, not if you want to do activities if that makes sense

but hes never going to ASK to spend the night (unless youre in the car with him about to get dropped off and hes kissing you and get handsy and THEN he’ll be like babe…. cant i just hang out :((( like sigh…. of course you can bae

[boy-gender]

How do you deal with guilt around being a man, and like generally feeling like you're "betraying women" or choosing to be something bad by transitioning? It's something I've really been struggling with..

I sort of have two answers for you.

The first is a bit glib, but I think you've got some bioessentialism to unlearn, anon. I know that it's probably not a belief you arrived at yourself- rather, a bunch of hateful radfem douschebags have so often repeatedly said shit like that, that you're a traitor, you're failing feminism, youre just trying to escape the patriarchy, you're mocking what women are, men are evil and youll become evil especially with testosterone. That kind of crap.

Genuinely I do not give it any thought. It's ridiculous on the surface, so I write it off as misguided and inane. There is no logical way to justify grouping an entire half of the population together, deciding that the one thing they have in common (being men) is somehow the defining trait about them (because nothing else is being taken into account, like their sexuality, ethnicity, trans or intersex status, poverty level, where they live, whatever) and then also deciding that one common trait is the root of all evil. I've personally had a lot of experience with people doing this with certain mental illnesses- particularly cluster B personality disorders- and deciding like "yes this one thing about you makes you evil. You have Evil Person Disorder," and seeing how stupid that was, I just applied it elsewhere. Humans are far too diverse, nuanced, and contradictory for any flat rule like "all X people are bad" to ever be accurate. If it's not accurate, it's not useful, so I don't judge myself by it. I literally just block the people spewing that shit and let it slide off like water on a duck. I have enough warped internalized beliefs from my upbringing- I'm not adding more when I can immediately and obviously see their flaws.

So my advice is to block anyone you see saying that shit. You might be beginning to internalize it because of just how often you see it- so you need to cut that off at the source. Radfems are not and never will be allies; they do not have "some good points." Their movement was specifically designed by conservatives to uphold white supremacist capitalism, and nothing that comes from that is ethically correct. I'd suggest picking up Mothers of Conservatism by Michelle Nickerson. A lot about the origins of the radfem/female separatism movements are detailed there, created by fundamentally conservative women. With this new 4B movement shit on the rise, it's helpful to understand how fucked up and wrong they've always been from the beginning. My second answer to you is to look at what manhood means to you. If you don't think you can be objective about this, ask a friend to help. List the traits you associate with what *you* personally want to be as a man, what you hope you transition towards. Do you want to be a financial provider? Do you want to defend your community? Do you want to be generous? Brave? Do you want to be an expert in a special interest? Do you want to make lots of friends?

Make a list of those traits. Then look at them, divorced from the idea of gender. Is being a financial provider "bad?" Is being generous bad? Or brave? Or having lots of friends? Are any of these things bad in isolation, or does your guilt about them come from their association with manhood? Is that /your/ association, or did other people cause you to think there is an association?

For me, I had two formative male relationships as a child. My father, and my maternal grandfather. My father was an abusive piece of shit who liked to pick me up by the throat and slam me into walls, threaten our pet cats, scream at me until I dissociated, called me slurs, hated my opinions on anything, belittled me, believed only in capitalism, is a social darwinist capitalist schill, hates my mom, treated me like a servant and punching bag, and is a miserable fuck with no friends.

My grandpa was an old man who loved scotland and tartan and scottish terriers even though he never had one, loved each of his cats which he had all the time. He collected coins and read about history, he made model planes. He watched judge judy with me and talked about the cases and if we agreed with her rulings; he watched the news from multiple different outlets a day and taught me to weigh them against one another. He loved sitting on the porch and watching neighborhood kids play, and he drank a lot of lemonade. He was a brilliant chemist, provider, raised 4 kids in near poverty, then raised 8 grandkids after that. He would sneak me chocolate malt balls as a "vitamin" and he would tease my grandma by pretending to pick up and lick his plate after dinner. He taught my uncle to garden who then taught my cousin, so all my life gardening has been "mens work" to me. He was soft spoken, curious, patient, and mischevious. He loved my grandma for 60 years until he died.

These men have nothing in common except that they were men. Being a man didnt make my grandpa evil because he chose not to be. Being a man didnt make my dad evil either; he's an evil fuck because he made that choice. They are both sentient beings, who can use logic and emotions alike. One chose poorly. It never made sense to me as a child to assume all men would be like my dad or like my grandpa, because they were both men and they weren't at all like each other. Some categories are just so broadly diverse that they aren't really helpful- if I ask you to picture a mammal, do I mean a monkey or a mouse? Does "sea creature" mean a giant ass blue whale or a tiny piece of plankton? "Man" as a category is too broad to make assumptions about. I know it sounds circular and reductive, but the only thing that makes someone a man is...being a man. Nothing else.

I find it helps to look at a diverse array of men, to see all that men can be, especially men not like myself or the men I know. What does it mean to be a man in rural Yunnan farm country? What did it mean to be a man in medieval europe? What is it like being a gay black man from california, or a hunter living off the grid in appalachia? What does it mean to be a man in a culture where long hair is masculine, or where harvesting plants is masculine, where being a doctor is masculine? What about cultures where adornment is masculine? Hell, what about animals? What's it like to be a male lion vs a male house cat? What do I think about male cardinals, who are the bright lovely red ones, whose color is meant to draw a predators eye to them and away from the female cardinals and their nests?

To me, gender is an all you can eat buffet. It's customizeable. You can pick up or ignore or throw away any traits you want or don't want. Grab things that are feminine in your culture and incorporate them into your manhood in a subversive, gender nonconforming way. Take things that are masculine that make you happy, that you're reclaiming in a way because you may not have been allowed to do/be them before. Fill your gender with the ideals and aesthetics you like. You are fundamentally changing manhood by being a man, by being a different kind of man than any other man. If there are 4 billion men on the planet, there are 4 billion different 'microgenders' of man.

Seems silly to write off an entire 4 billion people as inherently evil and incapable of either goodness or change. It's just illogical. For me, that's enough to discard the idea wholecloth. If it doesn't make sense, I'm not wasting my time with it. That's not an ability everyone else has easily though, so you take the time you need. Try to look at yourself as objectively as possible, as an outsider. As you transition, have your actions become more evil? Are you committing sexist acts? Have you literally betrayed all the women you know somehow? Do you feel yourself becoming less kind, less patient, less interested in equality or the preservation of life? I'm betting, since you're nervous about it enough to ask, that none of those things are happening to you. Do not let yourself be gaslit into believing you are becoming something you're not. Look at your actions, your words. Look at your values and how you live up to them. If you don't see any sudden discrepancy, then you know anyone who tells you you're becoming evil by becoming a man is straight up lying to you. They're projecting an idea onto you that doesnt fit reality; trying to put a round peg in the square hole. Be curious, be objective. Do not be misled, and for those who try to mislead you, hit them with a chunky block button.

[jimpagne]

the worst thing v gets is being called a leech and attention seeker which is what tkkers had been calling jm FOR YEARS. while disliking v because of shippers is petty it’s incredibly interesting how many jikookers had been defending v in the last few weeks while it’s complete silence within tkkers, youll never catch any of them defend jm

That's because a lot of Jikookers don't need to falsify reality in order to represent a certain agenda. Jikookers can be the bigger person if they need to be.

As someone who is truthfully OT7, I don't sit here hoping that hate trains form around someone that I see to be a "threat" to my ship. If I'm being completely honest, I think trying to consume Are You Sure?! from purely a shipping point of view is entirely counterproductive and not a good way to enjoy content. I think it's fun to gush over certain moments, but if you're only parked outside Disney+ or whatever streaming you're allegedly pirating it from just to see your ship in action... you're opening yourself to form biases and bitter feelings toward things that might not be directly encompassed within your ship's boundaries.

This is why I made a call out post whenever certain jikookers resorted to bullying Taehyung whenever they saw that he was going to be a guest on the show. Though I already hear people coming, saying "Oh, but taekookers are bullying Jimin to hell and back, so why can't we?"

Well maybe you shouldn't because it shows that you have the representative IQ of a toad. So let me get this straight, people who are NOT Taehyung bully Jimin... your first course of action is to... bully Taehyung? I think reciprocal hate is incredibly stupid and unwarranted. If I'm going to shit on the behavior of taekookers, guess who I'm gonna take it out on? That's right, I'm going to take it out on taekookers -- not Kim Taehyung.

Taehyung is currently serving in the military, so I doubt he's logging onto Twitter or Tumblr or whatever to say nasty things about his BEST FRIEND. I think people tend to forget that Jimin and Taehyung are tied at the hip and have an entire song where they wax poetry about how much they care about one another...

Anyways.

A lot of Taekookers live in another facet of reality, so in order to make half of their agenda true, Jungkook has to dislike Jimin, the company has to be forcing their fanservice, Jungkook's mother had to have been sent a script beforehand to ask about Jimin, Taehyung was lying about only seeing the trip details a few days before departure, Jungkook was holding Taehyung's waist in this screenshot (but don't look at the footage where it shows otherwise!), Jungkook only acts "cold" (if being humorously bratty is considered cold) toward him in certain scenes because the producers want Jikook to appear more real, HYBE has some joint contract with the South Korean military to put Jimin and Jungkook together in order to hide the real gay couple that is Taekook--

The more you dive into their rhetoric, the less it makes sense. Taekookers also argue with LITERAL KOREAN PEOPLE about translations in the show. Also it's super funny to see them shift from the narrative that she show is scripted to suddenly saying -- no, it's not scripted, to then saying this part is scripted, to then saying, no the whole thing is scripted again, to then saying, actually at this time stamp they went off the script and--

Fucking crazy.

I think what I noticed the most about a lot of taekooker's rhetoric is that in order for something to be true, they need to create a lie or insult the intelligence of both Taehyung and Jungkook.

So you're telling me that two grown men have to lie about who they're with and what they're doing in order to make your ship real? You're telling me that Jungkook and Taehyung are not intelligent enough to negotiate their contracts or what type of "fanservice" they have to engage with on the regular? You're telling me that Jungkook lied about who he saw on his birthday in order to protect Taehyung? You're telling me that after ten years of being in the same group, Jungkook is actually uncomfortable with Jimin but still decided to get a matching tattoo with him and all the other members? You're telling me that the homophobic country of South Korea is willing to hide a gay couple by endorsing a manufactured gay couple? In the military? Where gay people are famously treated well?

That's sarcasm, for anyone who might lack reading comprehension.

Taekookers are the literal embodiment of that one post where the person is like "source(s): trust me bro" because half of what they spit out makes no fucking sense and is actually insulting to Taehyung and Jungkook. Like y'all constantly insult their intelligence and their free will and make it seem like they're trapped behind bars and don't have enough money or power to negotiate what THEY want. I've even seen certain taekookers become Jungkook antis after Are You Sure?! came out because they think he's being mean to or bullying Taehyung.

God, the lights are on but nobody is home.

[show-us-kaidenshenandoah]

one of the worst things about re-runs on cable is that sometimes youll see a random episode that you remember, decide "eh, sure" to watching, and one of the details you were ignorant to before now (but not anymore) now haS A SEVERELY DIFFERENT MEANING to the point it makes you do a spit-take

anyway. feel free to share your recent "eYO WHAT" moment of At Least I Know Now; I May Be Shocked But I Cannot Blame Myself For What I Did Not Know That I Didn't Know Before regarding re-watching a piece of media that had some small or big pillar within your life (cable or not, tv show or not). would love to know other people's so i feel less inattentive for having entirely forgotten this or forgot to process this or whatever the most apt term is

i'll go first:

my parents have been watching various cop-shows of the Not-Comedic variety (meaning no "Psych" and no "Brooklyn-99", boo), and the tangential (fireman-shows, paramedics, forensics, etc) and/or their spin-offs, since i was like... 7 years old at the youngest? before i was in middle-school at any rate

and for a long fucking time (for good reason, look how many fucking episodes there are), their favorite go-to was "NCIS". the original one with Gibbs, not one of the spin-offs

and bc i had Muslim friends online, a few in my middle and high school classes, and a few also irl outside of school (who were also kind enough to teach me, which they didn't have to do; but i was very privileged that they did), i was at least moderately aware this show had a ton of loudly rampant anti-Muslim/anti-Middle East/etc propaganda. that's who The Big Bad tended to be. which is frustrating. but it was way harder for it to brainwash me as id inwardly groan that "i dont know enough about this topic to be an expert in any way, but i do know this show is so Islamophobic that i wouldn't be surprised if they made this vitriol up". so i do want to mention that is a very huge Problem Area here

so i knew this huge problem existed in the show. i knew i had blind-spots. but i thought i had a good general awareness of all the propaganda in "NCIS"

...i did not. otherwise, i wouldn't have an "i'll go first" to go first with

bc i always remembered that Ziva David was Jewish, but i never memorized nor before had the context to process what it meant that she was an Israeli Jewish person

bc, since the late 1800s to the early 1900s, Israel has been trying to colonize Palestine and actively commit genocide to the indigenous inhabitants of the lands that were once Palestine, killing Palestinians of all faiths, including Jewish and Muslim Palestinians. so. that detail about Ziva does inform her character, the narrative's message, and makes it all the more obvious what kind of propaganda this show is. bc. uh. i knew i should never trust "NCIS" beforehand bc of its Islamophobic propaganda. did not realize a sizable chunk of that was also in a venn-diagram style overlap with Zionism. wow. okay

and furthermore!! apparently! even though it is 2024!!! and both protestors and allies alike are doing their best to keep Palestine in the news as a ton of people try to fund more Palestinian families to get out of danger!! — it's JUST been announced the networks newest installment within the "NCIS" Connected Universes will be the Paramount+ exclusive spin-off "NCIS: Tony & Ziva". and i am absolutely not going to tell my parents about said annoucement bc wtf

(which anybody who wants to maybe Reblog/Reply/send an Ask to say "that's so mean of you to do your parents": shut the fuck up. alright? focus up. talk shit in meaningful ways instead, like to help donate to Palestinian families in need. okay? okay.)

anyway

(1) uh, sure, feel free to eventually boycott "NCIS: Tony & Ziva" when it comes out, but this show won't be dropping for a while and a half. sO PAY MORE ATTENTION TO THE MORE-PRESSING AND TIME-SENSITIVE THINGS BELOW PLS AND THANKS 🤗💗💕

and (2) feel free to reblog and potentially share your own "eYO WHAT" Didn't Know Back Then What I Didn't Know re-watch stories to better help engage with this post through the tumblr algorithim (all the better if youre funnier than me (shouldnt be hard lol) tho a comedic story isn't a necessity for engaging) and get these Palestinian families Go-Fund-Me accounts in front of people who can afford to donate

and (3)!! i looked for the most recent Go Fund Me link-collection post ive reblogged to have copied down into this post (as someone whose disabilities and lack of wealth means the best i can consistently do is reblog here/repost on tiktok, spread awareness in my irl life, and so on. i irregularly use social media due to how drained my disability + doctor appts make me. i am doing this purely to see if it can help, i do not want attention or to be used as a resource when i cannot reliably be one with my current health situation. instead of me, please go follow (and donate to!!) these families and follow this user to keep the cycle of information and aid going!!)

this vetted collection was originally posted here, by @seance

@anqer - From War to Education: Abdelrahman Resilient Journey

@fatma93gaza - Support Fatima's Family in Gaza After Heartbreaking Tragedy

@emanfamily - Donate to help my family live in peace

@basel-19951995 - Help me evacuate my family and rebuild a new start

@ayaalanqarsblog - Save Gaza: A Brighter Future for Aya and Her Family

@ashraf-family2 - Hope for Gaza: Support Ashraf's Family Rebuild Their Lives

under the read-more is me just Knowing The Internet Can Be Toxic and having further context (about my family + "NCIS") can help curb a few people somewhat. at least it gives me "the autistic sense of peace knowing i have fully explained myself"(TM) so i can more clearly go "that's an unproductive response of pure Bad Faith. blocked". however, i didn't want this post to be longer than it is so as itd have a better chance at ✨️engagement✨️ and $$$ if its not a # Long Post

here's my list of things that clarify some context of this post, but overall dont matter. and also adding any of them Above The Read More would make people less likely to interact and reblog than i already assume people will (bc i dont got a lot of followers lmao c'est la vie, long as i did my best to help), as people either hesitate to reblog or dont reblog Long Posts. so these were all originally a part of the Above The Read More narrative before i thought it overall better to move them down here since i already did not wanna delete them entirely

sorry for any misspellings, im dyslexic and am writing this casually from my phone

like it wasn't until the past 5 or 6 years that my parents got sick of re-watching the "NCIS" re-runs on cable? and i'm 27 as of writing this. so minus 6 years, and that means from sometime before i was in middle school up until i was 21, this was a regular and favorited re-watched show they'd tune in for new episodes of and re-runs of whenever they stumbled on it. and, due to said 5 or 6 years, it's recently accumulated to have been enough time where, if "NCIS" is on now, they aren't AS sick of it anymore? as in, it's not their #1 favorite anymore still, but they will watch it with mild apathy/contentment; especially if it's an episode they still remember the plotline of VS a new episode that they dont. but, overall, even when id be in the room but on my phone or in the next room over and doing my hw: this show was a consistent pillar of my life growing up, at least in the background if not further up close

and, bc i know certain irrational parts of the internet will get mad i ever even dared passively absorb this show: dont be mad at ME bc "NCIS" had funding and viewership, im not a network head nor did i make the choice to have Ziva be Israeli. hell, i couldn't control the TV and refuse to give them viewership; i was a minor, my mom and dad were in charge, and my dad especially let me know him wanting to watch a show mattered more than me not wanting to watch it. he wouldnt change the channel on his favorite show. and though there were times i was invested, and i do have good memories here and there with my parents watching these various shows on/off, i knew also to question every villain they had and do my best to unpack/analyze whatever congrument narrative that was in their show that alligned with a thought i had about Islam as a monolith that i couldn't source back to my Muslim friends or learning about Islam on my own time. im ultimately glad i learned so much from it in that way. and i think that is the better way to go-- to watch whatever, but unpack as needed when you realize your biases-- rather than proverbially "burn the books" of whatever media you dislike and/or deem problematic. which this show is definitely problematic. but im still glad i learned from it in the ways that i have, and that i can use my history with the show to trick the algorithm maybe and get these families some additional attention

my chronic memory loss symptom means i am naturally predisposed to not be able to consistently remember certain things, especially details about people that didn't have emotional weight to me or that didn't come up too often, sometimes including things like a friend's ancestry or ethnicity. but, uh, i guess either none of my past Muslim friends were Palestinian?? or else any that were? they did not have the vocabulary or bandwidth to explain Palestine's fraught history of being oppressed by Israel to me (fair enough)?? i know one of my current Muslim friends definitely is Palestinian, but we met when i was 23 or a bit older (aka: after my parents were already sick of "NCIS", so the show and Ziva David being Israeli didnt come up; we did not know each other during the height of me having Muslim friends in middle and high school kindly helping teach me a few things)

personally, all my Jewish friends are from high school or before. and apparently, i don't have their social media or else they maybe deleted/renamed their accounts bc im not finding them in my Following lists. so i have no idea if any were from Isn'tReal. but i assume not, out of wishful thinking if nothing else. friendly reminder that antisemitism isn't cool, period; and also that calling out Zionism =/= antisemitism

alright then. dont mind me, im just gonna hc that one of my favorite "NCIS" characters is now a Palestinian Jewish person out of spite now. bc that's fucked up, that they made her Israeli on top of all this Islamophobia. and Palestinian people of all faiths are being impacted by Israel, yes, but there absolutely is Islamophobia involved in this genocide. so, like, excuse me, im just gonna casually re-write her in my head; cognitive dissonance is a helluva drug bc, like, you know the thing you like is bad but, like, what if you imagine if it was good lmao rip

unrelated tangent, if anybody was curious: "Bones" has been my stand-out favorite of my parents' rotation. i related to Dr Brennan's autism-coding, the show had good dialog and was largely sincere despite its writers' early-2000s-caused questionable creative-decisions, i find its obvious absurdity funny (wh... why would a museuem ever agree to this, they do FBI crime-work next to dinosaur skeletons, this setting is ridiculous lmao), and it has been the closest to comedy my parents would watch. it's a fun time, with some must-skip episodes, yeah, but it's fun. in my free time, i have also watched "Psych" and "Brooklyn-99" though, and i like them! im not a big fan of cop-shows and its tangential forms regardless though. but yeah, i do not recommend "NCIS". it wore me down over the years, but i do not recommend it. for obvious reasons i have now already fully explained lol

the next bullet point below is the original full form of what i said about "the difference between a protestor versus an ally" before editing my rambling down so i didnt detrack from the post's actual point:

↳ and both protestors and allies alike ("allies" being people who cannot protest for disability and/or safety reasons, but who do spread pro-Palestine news how/when they can and donate if/when it is possible for their wallets) are doing their best to keep Palestine in the news as a ton of people try to fund more Palestinian families to get out of danger!! [edit: i would be unsurprised if people disagreed with me that what i call "allies" is different than a "protestor". but i am keeping the term literal at the moment to give credit where credit is due for these organizers, influencers doing content and outreach to sponsor a family or multiple families, sit-out camp and walking-parade and curbside-standing protestors, and so on and so forth. however, my health and disability makes me specifically only capable of "ally" status; so maybe i am wrong and am doing some form of self-deprecation. i personally doubt it; i think im still right to internally have a dividing line made so literal like this. but i am open to the idea if nothing else. feel free to agree to disagree with my diction, i guess lol]

the next bullet point below is the original full form of what i said about anyone saying "that's so mean of you to do to your parents" before editing my rambling down so i didnt detrack from the post's actual point:

↳ (which anybody who wants to maybe Reblog/Reply/send an Ask to say "that's so mean of you to do your parents": shut the fuck up. okay? my parents don't have an interest in learning how to work streaming services anyway, it's fine. and my mom supports Palestine, so what i said is honestly hyperbole as she'd be down for our household to mostly-intentionally boycott the spin-off anyway. bc, yeah, its SO easily done for us since we dont have any streaming subscriptions, much less Paramount+ specifically. and my dad's early dementia makes his general stance unpredictable, bc it depends what he remembers is happening in the news/in politics, much less in Palestine specifically; he'll be "meh. okay" about being kept out of the loop. okay? focus up. talk shit in meaningful ways instead, like to help donate to Palestinian families in need. okay? okay.)

the next bullet point below is the original full form of what i said about "feel free to eventually boycott 'NCIS: Tony & Ziva' when it comes out" before editing my rambling down so i didnt detrack from the post's actual point:

↳ uh, sure, feel free to eventually boycott "NCIS: Tony & Ziva" when it comes out, since assumedly the networks are not going to ret-con that Ziva David is an Israeli Jewish person (which. her actress' wiki says she herself is neither Israeli or Jewish anyway, so literally no reason for anybody there to dig their heels in about this detail) and there's no reason for us to have ever had, much less have even more Zionism (+ likely still Islamaphobic) propaganda added to our current media landscape. but this show won't be dropping for a while and a half, sO PAY MORE ATTENTION TO THE MORE-PRESSING AND TIME-SENSITIVE [LINKS ABOVE THE READ MORE] PLS AND THANKS 🤗💗💕

the next bullet point below is the original full form of what i said about "here is why i am not a good person to follow to help you keep an eye on Palestine; go follow the families and the person who organized these links instead" before editing my rambling down so i didnt detrack from the post's actual point:

↳ (as someone whose disabilities and lack of wealth means the best i can consistently do is reblog here/repost on tiktok, spread awareness in my irl life, and so on. i irregularly use social media due to how drained i get. i do not have the luxury of energy, esp with all my diagnostic journey medical appointments further tiring me out, to make original posts on a regular basis like Palestinian families deserve and need from their regular backers. i thought of this post idea and worked on it on/off with the bits of energy i have had; i am doing this purely to see if it can help, i do not want attention or to be used as a resource when i cannot reliably be one with my current health situation. instead of me, please go follow these families and this user to keep the cycle going)

[himbos-hotline]

i keep seeing so many cool prompts on the kink meme but i've never written fanfic before, do you have any ideas where to start??

so you wanna start writing fanfic and you dont know how to start or what to do. I hope this is somehow helpful at least a little bit

Write for yourself: Pick a prompt/two characters or even one character and write what you would want to read. Make an oc, create that rarepair! I personally started talking about wrestlers with my sibling and focused specifically on one or two and just hyperfocused on them, personally I found making headcanons were easier and building upon that as writing. Make the things you would personally like to read

Dont be a perfectionist: perfectionism is a brain killer and a creativity killer. Youre learning a new skill, you will not be perfect straight away, get a beta reader [someone to look over your work to point out typos, words that would be better ect] spell check and edit but dont start overthinking everything because it can put so much stress on you. Remember this is a hobby, not a career, it doesnt need to meet some imaginary wordcount or page number or whatever else, theres no rules to fanfiction. You dont need to write 20k words your first time, even if its a drabble of 100 words it is needed and wanted in the fandom. There is no such thing as bad writing

Practise: i try to write everyday, even if its just 100 or 50 words, thats enough. You dont have too if its too hard. like previously said its a skill youre learning and it takes time to feel comfortable doing it and you get better while writing and pracising. even if its a line of dialogue or a sentence. However take breaks, dont force yourself to publish a chapter or a oneshot daily otherwise youre going to burn out and thats no good for anybody

Dont use ai: self explanatory but generative AI will kill you creativity and excitement for writing. it also steals from other fanfic writers and its in general not writing. It will not help with beta reading or spelling or nothing like that, stay away from character ai and other stuff as well as chat gpt

write the way you want: if you wanna write in lower case, do it. if you want to use a script format do it! however certain people enjoy things differently.

read: Keep reading, other fanfics, other books you enjoy, research pages. reading helps with writing. leave comments cuz thats just the nice thing to do and then youll have more fanfic to read!

dont compare yourself to others: each author has a different writing voice, you will find your own the more you write. Some people fall into writing easily others work a little harder and thats completely fine, youre making a form of art, not a product, fanfic isnt content. like how artists have different art styles, we all have different writing things

use prompts: either using a genator that you enjoy [if you wanna write smut- a kink generator, theres whump geneartors, fluff prompts] or use tumblr or pinterest

requests: the way I start writing for aew is taking prompt requests for ships. My first one was a hookhausen one and I still love the ship and fics to death so open requests for drabbles [100 or so words]

research: never go into a topic blind, dont know a kink google it or ask a friend, not sure if diaglogue sounds like a character, find clips

Im sure theres others but thats just, how I started writing and always remember what youre writing theres always gonna be one person who likes what youre writing, you can do this anon! i believe in you and I look forward to watching you flower and flourish in your writing journey

[groupieculture]

roommate drama someone please tell me who is wrong because idk what to do

she has never been good at cleaning up or whatever for four months she has lived there and it was fine its just that since christmas she hasnt cleaned up once and it was her turn again last weekend and she didnt clean up AGAIN mind you okay, she wasnt very present at home this month, but she was still here at least 4 days/week and we had an agreement that we are going to do it once a week but i was like okay ill just clean up because hwatever maybe shes having a rough time but this was it, she didnt clean up at the weekend, i gave her a monday, and now waited til 8 oclock to do it because she came back from her work at like 6 so thats plenty of time to start at least and i said fuck it and cleaned up (it takes like 30 minutes), so i just texted her when you will have a chance let me know i whave something to talk about w u ok so she came to the kitchen i said lets sit down i just want to talk abt some stuff. she came over pissed off and im like 'ok so do you think that we are not cleaning our space enough because i think we can do better and i have some ideas' basically from then on she started talking over me w her arms crossed and she said 'she said so now youre blaming me or something??? ? MIND YOU I WAS PLANNING TO CLEAN TODAY BUT I HEARD YOU STARTED CLEANJNG SO' i said 'im not blaming you i want to have a conversation with you' and my tone is very friendly because i did not want to blame her or anything and the conversation just started to be intense for no reason she said 'im not here all the time i just came back '( lie) i said 'i dont know when youre here or not im not here always too i noticed that were missing some extra effort so i want to talk about it' she started raising her voice at me all pissed off and she said well i dont have time to do this i work etc etc. i said i work, this is basic shit, i have to admin the apartment, deal with the rent, with the utilities, deal with everything, you dont want to pay for the tv thats fine, but then youll have to pay me to be your maid' and then shes like 'no one asked you to be the maid sweetie:)' i said well i want it to be tidy, you dont want that?' (at this point her face was all red, and she was wearing a vneck so her chest is all red, it was really stupid) 'and then she said 'OK WHENEVER I CLEAN I WILL JUST TEXT YOU THAT I HAVE CLEANED BECAUSE OBVIOUSLY YOU THINK I DONT CLEAN AT ALL' i said 'you dont have to text me if its clean itll be obvious!!look i didn't want it to become all this i just wanted to suggest something that we each have a week to do all this cleaning and shit like that n you said to say something if i dont like something at the start so thats why im saying it and were having this conversation' and then she said 'well honestly its very hard to start a conversation with you okay???"' which left me like '???' because we always chit chatted a little bit, and i was like what shes like 'youre always sighing and shit and i have to tiptoe around you etc' which is hilarious because we stay in our rooms and she does not tiptoe at all and by then she has left the room so i was left with the fact that i live with a person who probably has untreated histrionic personality disorder

[bunnakit]

E and/or X for the fluffy prompts? If i was supposed to send in a pairing too, lets pretend i didnt know, and youll get to choose regardless 😌

FIRSTKANAPHANS FLUFF PROMPTS 🧡

[E]avesdropping To Find Out If They Like You

Tay had only stepped outside for a moment to take a call, he was sure it had lasted no more than five minutes at the most. When he turned to reenter Hum Bar he was stopped short by the sound of a quiet conversation around the corner. It was barely audible through the muffled sound of music and busy voices on the street but he was sure it was two of the guards that had been sent with them tonight. Who were they again? Arm and Paul? Sure, that sounded close enough.

It wasn't that he intended to eavesdrop but Tay had always enjoyed hearing what guards had to say when they thought no one was listening. It was a good way to get information, blackmail material, or just good gossip. He leaned in the dark, blue-lit alley way and listened to their conversation closely to see if there was anything worth gathering there.

"At least he and Khun Time are finally over, for now." He was fairly certain that was Arm, but the relief in his voice was a surprise.

"Not like you're going to do anything about it." The deeper voice was Paul- Pol? Pol, that was it. But what did he mean by that? Tay stiffened slightly, wondering if there was some plan against him he didn't know about. Was he in danger? No, Kinn would never... Well, he would, but he couldn't think of any reason he'd be worth the effort.

"Of course I'm not, I like having all my limbs intact, thanks." Huh?

"I don't think Khun Tay is cruel, you'd probably just get punished by Khun Kinn if it went badly." Tay chanced a glance around the corner and watched Pol stub out a cigarette against the sole of his shoe.

"I'm content enough with where I am, Pol. I know my place." Arm had taken off his glasses and was cleaning them on the bottom of his sweater and Tay was briefly struck by the thought of how handsome he looked. The dim neon lights caught the intensity of his eyes and the sharp planes of his face.

"You mean Khun Tay looking at you like you're gum on the bottom of his shoe? I don't get you but whatever. I think you could at least try taking him out on a date or something."

Oh. Oh. That was definitely interesting. So Arm harbored feelings for him? How naive... And sweet.

"Khun Tay deserves better than me, Pol." Arm rolled his eyes and stepped away from the wall as if he was going to leave, and Tay didn't want to lose to opportunity here.

"Enjoying the evening, gentlemen?" Tay smiled as he rounded the corner, enjoying the way they both stiffened and Arm paled at the sight of him. He always enjoyed the way his heeled boots echoed in the halls of the estate, but he found the sound of them on the slightly damp concrete was equally enjoyable.

"Khun Tay." They each offered a wai and Tay chuckled softly, his eyes turning to Arm where they would stay.

"Our apologies, Khun Tay. We've had a bit too much to drink." Pol laughed nervously, clearly trying to cover the tracks of their conversation.

"Arm hasn't had a single drink all night." Tay pointed out and watched as Arm lifted his eyes, perhaps surprised Tay had noticed anything at all about him. "But that's beside the point. Arm, I'd like you to accompany me to dinner tomorrow night. I'll get it cleared with Kinn."

"Of course, Khun Tay. Is there anything I should know about the event?" Arm immediately asked, all propriety and professionalism.

"There's no event, Arm. Just dinner between us." Tay smiled before turning and retreating back inside Hum Bar. He enjoyed the choked surprise he could hear behind him.

Arm may be 'below his station' but it was clear he had a kind heart and good intentions; things Tay had sorely been lacking in his life.

He was interested to see where this would go.

[twildflower]

tags for the memes i made based on pokespe or gameverse / stuff made with mmd

helloww (*´ー｀*).. you can call me anything like tofu, vee, twiflo or my other names (if you know them) as long as ik youre talking to me, i cant decide on a consistent name so i have a lot lol, or you can give me a nickname i dont mind

Trans guy 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️❗️❗️❗️ Im slowly becoming more normal abt this fact but yar. I'm just a normal silly guy other than that. well not normal in any way but i am a very silly guy :3 I am also very mentally unwell. like the psychopathic tendencies type of unwell. i apologize if i do anything weird. i try to be normal but idk what is normal *cheer* and probably adhd i dont know

i know fluent english chinese and some 日本語 i dont know why is this relevant or why am i putting it here. my englsih is decently good i just like typing bad english whenever i can its funny. I dont know how to type chinese i can only use the handwriting board :smile:

i post stuff im interested in, reblogs of art n stuff and sometimes funny/unfunny shitposts too so its just easier to have these tags for my memes.

>boundaries/limits

I’m a multishipper and I fall into ship rabbit holes really easily; just once piece of art that’s good and I will fall like a motherfucker but I’m also weirdly picky. I don’t like certain straight ships of red green gold silver (eg red & yellow, gold & kris) but pretty much everyone else im open with anything. Like sapph ruby plat dia pearl (eg sapph & blue, sapph & ruby). Okay ill be honest this is a very short list but i hope you get what i mean by being multishipper but picky.

I'm a proshipper but thats just bc Im very fucked up in the head so i like fucked up shit, but just fiction tho. i think anything that happens with real people is weird as fuck, it’s just that im fucked in the head so i like to see weird unreal shit thats all. And i think people who are antiship are fucking stupid bc these are fictional characters. pixels.

No strict dni list but I hate genshin/anything related (eg honkai. Garbage ass disgusting named games) so just don’t purposely shove any of those stuff in my face or youll be blocked. I don’t care enough to check if you like them or whatever, you can like them just don’t talk to me abt them. I also don’t like roblox but not to the genshin point bc i downloaded it some times to play with somone if im very good friends w. I just dont like many of the copycat games n like just gacha or stupid games, some very original roblox games are cool tho. Ye.

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uh yeah. if you wanna chat my dms n asks are open. i dont mind.

#tflo arts if you want to check out my art/doodles. Im not too proud of my stuff esp if theyre not tagged with character tags so you can just search it up if you really want to. you can request me to draw stuff if you wanna lol...

miner in the gungeons ill be 18 next MONTH FUCK im old i dont really want to be 18 i hope i die might kms before then breakdance sorry i meant breakdance sorry i meant breakdance sorry i meant

hey wow you read it to here. im actually just a really mentally ill kid that gets physically sick really easily and often and im not good at anything so i make memes. Well i say im mentally ill but my parents dont believe me bc theyre asians so i never saw any doctor to have any proof lol

Hrmm. My main interests are Pokemon CRK Vocaloid (Kagamines). I guess. I also like Splatoon Pjsk Persona 5 Gundam Build Fighters Macross Delta Jewelpet Shugo Chara Henry Stickmin MahoAko Madoka Sky(COTL) Nukani n foxes/crows/cats and cute stuff in general. Just off the top of my head and im adding stuff to this list or modifying them to how brainrot i currently am for those fandoms when I remember. I dont space anything bc iykyk them. if you wanna check them out then you can just search them up

[conquestable]

2x1 - A LESSON FOR YOUR NEXT LIFE

(spoilers for all three complete seasons will come up at various times as i point out foreshadowing)

about 2.8k words below the cut

"i dont give a shit about viltrum! this is my home and i WONT let you destroy it!!!" YES MARK YESSS KEEP THAT ENERGY, DONT LET ANYONE PUT YOU IN A BOX, LEAST OF ALL CECIL

and hes crying his little eyes out and calling for his daddy, but nolan already flew away T-T

look at his cocky ass grin, listen to his arrogant ass words, lets go marky, lets fucking gooooooooo, are you invincible yet???????????

he wants you to hit him harder immortal, give the boy what he wants!!

"im trying to save lives, why cant you trust me!?" because your little brain has been warped in sixteen different ways, hes probably right not to trust you yet

oh nolan is back?? i thought he was gone for most of s2, i thought mark never sees him again til the bug planet

man the immortal really is just a punching bag, let that man die, hes been through enough already

oh i just remembered this was a teaser for an alternate timeline, the way this ep got me all excited and worked up the first time (and this time, jeez), and then… OUR mark was still Like That for the rest of s2 hahahahahaha

the way mark squishes the immortals head like a grape and just goes:

cold hearted, vicious, like daddy like son

well THIS mark is certainly invincible, but our boy still has some catching up to do

"i didnt get it at first either… but in the long run… youll thank us…" YOU LET YOUR DADDY TURN YOU INTO A COLONIZER

"we didnt destroy your cities, YOU destroyed them by fighting back" nahhhh. naaaahhhhhhhhh. nahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

but hes got all the confidence he deserves to have, hes really living his best life, hes INVINCIBLE and he doesnt need a super hero comic title screen to show it to you, hell show it to you with his own two bloody fucking hands, what a GUY

man and rudy is living in his own body in this timeline and eve cut off all her hair and learned to stand on her own, i know this is supposed to be an evil timeline but it fucks

WOOF and the way mark tries to flirt with eve and she just growls and attacks him, GOOD FOR YOU GIRL

ougughghghg and the way mark is just knocking away her silly little pink projectiles like theyre flies, hes so sexy now, let him be sexy pleaseeeeeeeeeeee, this mark CERTAINLY isnt a virgin anymore

oh my fucking god, mark breaks eves neck to paralyze her and nolan just goes "ohhh so thats what you were practicing on those protesters last week" IM GONNA LOSE MY FUCKING MIND

the crazy ass victim blaming attitude mark has adopted goes so hard what the fuck

the news reporter: "for some, the pain will never fade…" yeah i cant wait for powerplex to pop the fuck up

mark and debbie finally getting an on screen hug after everything that happened, love to see it

i cant believe they keep living in that house where all nolans memories live, debbie sells houses for a living and she didnt consider looking for a new one for herself?

ouughghghgh the way the maulers taunt and intimidate this poor fucking guard, ill go crazy

oh hey multipaul is in there too, i wonder how he gets out

angstrom is so boringggggg, hes technically useful because he directly causes other things to happen, but hes still boringgggggggggggg

its funny that the maulers keep getting broken out of prison by people who want to pick his brains hahahahaha

theyre soooooooo smart though, they pull apart angstroms plan in seconds, figuring out how his portal tech works and pointing out its weaknesses before moving in to intimidate him

like jesus christ they could do whatever they wanted to that little man

"i need you because youre one of a kind, theres no one else like you in any other universe" you got THAT right buddy, my maulers are KINGS

aww and flash thompson gives little marky a big hug?? ToT

"and your dad was, like, jacked, right? bet you wish you got those genes, huh?" and marks ptsd kicking in hahahaha oh marky marky, here comes amber to the rescue

"you stopped your dad and saved the planet, you dont owe anyone anything" "im not so sure" thats right marky, you have responsibilities to live up to, but youre just confused about what it means. instead of dwelling on the lives you couldnt save in the past, focus on how you CAN save them next time!!!

ughhhhh mark realizing he needs to be out getting field practice instead of going to school: yes and no, you should be doing BOTH. and you CERTAINLY dont need crusty ass cecil to help you

cecil: "youre not ready mark" LET HIM PURSUE HIS DESTINY CECIL. and the way he tells mark hes too emotional to keep a clear head, bro, my fucking guy, his emotions are what make him stronger. his passions for saving people and doing the right thing need to be stoked, not smothered. he needs to learn to balance them properly so he can stay focused on what matters, not shutting out whole parts of his heart.

"i dont need your permission to be a super hero" THATS RIGHT MARK!!! YOU DONT NEED HIM!!!!

ugh and cecil trying to shoot mark down my comparing him to his dad, GET A LIFE CECIL

hahaha that little "invincible" tease donny gives where the title screen could be is just the first lick of a long and frustrating episode. the first missed title screen had a HUGE impact for other reasons, but now its just like… well come on now, let me have it please

rex throwing his little splodies at that big orange monster (with the brain functioning of an eight year old who wants to be the american president, hmmmm) is really cute

rudy getting scared for the first time in his life and monster girl laughing at him is actually cute (unrelated side note: i saw someone elses horny horny fanart of rudy and i think it single handedly changed my mind about him, maybe he will start to grow on me) and the way he couldnt keep talking or doing his little calculations cuz the fear had a hold of him, gosh i love a scared shitless boy

angstrom wants to combine all the timelines into one big fat juicy ideal timeline, which sounds utopian on the surface, but what makes him a villain is that he thinks HE ALONE knows whats best for humanity and HE gets to decide what to mix and match together

and he goes off on his little utopian speech after the maulers ask "whats in it for us" as if him saving the maulers souls (soul?) with his jesus complex is going to be enough of a reward for them to help him

and he says "ill help our world first of course" implying that hes from OUR timeline, so why is he so hellbent on taking down invincible if hes never had to live with an evil one before?

so hes the ONLY angstrom with portal abilities? and hes gathered all his fave alternate selves to absorb their brainpower? okay okay, i wasnt really listening on the first watch bc hes so fucking boring

okay THEN he promises the maulers their pick of any dimension they want, THATS a reward they can get behind

olga coming to visit debbie for the first time since debbie found out her husband murdered olgas, oof

"i know he lied to you. i know you were hurt as badly as i was. both our husbands died that night." IM SOBBING ACTUALLY

mannnnn theres this whole plotline of mark and debbie trying to accept that nolan is gone AS IF trying to grieve his death, but the thing is… hes NOT dead. he IS just gone, and he could come back at any time without notice, and so could any of his people. how are they supposed to get over the loss while also recognizing it for the threat it really is?

"i dont have anyone to talk to" baby girl talk to your son T-T i agree that she shouldnt be emotionally burdening mark and making him care for her in a parental way because SHE is the parent, but they can get through it TOGETHER, they can support EACH OTHER, and idk why they wont

and mark comes in and just goes to his room, and olga says "you cant help him until you help yourself" and this would be good advice in ANY other situation, but this one? man idk idk i think debbie and mark need to just have a good cry together

man cecil ripping into the guardians for their repeated fuckups, he really needs to mind his own fucking business istg, as if HE HIMSELF isnt fucking up constantly

get your STINKY BREATH out of her face old man

rex: "we put our lives on the line every single day" hes right for once, shut the fuck up cecil

okay maybe rudy shouldnt be in charge but the immortal DEFINITELY shouldnt be, that man is so chock full of trauma he cant tell up from down anymore

oh my GOD………………… rex teasing the immortal is so…………….

i cant stand that little fucking fuck boy, PLEASE put your cock in him until he cant speak anymore, he deserves it, hes begging for it, hes BEGGING for it

its like he got bored of black samson and needs a new old man to antagonize into taking advantage of him

and that boy gives bulletproof a HEAVY up and down, and thinks "well now ive got a whole BUFFET"

hes flirting so fucking hard, hes flirting SO HARD

and when bulletproof doesnt take his shit, he backs up with this fucking look on his face

thats right rex hes gonna give it to you til you cant remember your own name anymore, he leaves rex STAMMERING for a response, put that boy in his PLACE

i hope part of rudys humanization arc is him realizing what a fuckup cecil is

man eve talking about herself and mark just sitting there and not even listening is crazy, he doesnt even know when its his turn to talk bc hes got his head so far up in the clouds

alright this "invincible" title card tease is just sad, cuz it symbolizes how mark has just completely given up his hero duties, get your shit together my guy

"i always wanted to be like my dad… what if it really happens?" even without nolan around mark cant think about ANYTHING else

"everyone knows youre not your dad" "cecil doesnt" thats because cecil is a manipulating piece of shit and hes trying to play you and bend you over so he can fuck you

not mark running directly to cecil and saying "ill do whatever you want please please please adopt me" im dead. mark im begging you, you dont need him, pleaseeeeeeee

im just sitting here listening to the maulers talk shop, theyre so sexy i have nothing else to say about it, they cruise like FUCK in their own lane, they know their strengths and how to play them, love a man who knows exactly who he is

mark trying to explain the situation he walked into and cecil saying "it doesnt matter just stop it" is so fucking classic cecil level incompetence, he has NO IDEA the shit hes fucking around in 99% of the time and hes just sticking his fucking nose in where it doesnt belong. maybe if he sat back and took two fucking seconds to assess the situation he could have prevented the creation of a brand new super villain, but go off ig, start shooting your little guns at everything you dont understand

and mark barks on command ig and hes itching for a real fight so here we go

THE MAULERS DIRECTLY SAYING "HES DEFINITELY NOT INVINCIBLE" TO NO TITLE SCREEN YET AGAIN, its like when mark was on the phone with amber getting beat over the head with increasingly heavy objects

and then angstrom brings in the other maulers and our maulers are like "you said we were special

okay okay this angstrom ISNT targeting mark despite knowing all the other marks are evil cuz he tries to stop the maulers from killing him, i think this is why i was so confused on the first watch bc after the thing blows up hes like "its all marks fault!!!!!!" when it wasnt marks fault

"i wont build my utopia with blood" yeah you changed your mind on that one real quick didnt you buddy

wow and the guardians show up JUST a half a second too late, im sure cecil told them to hang back bc cecil cant do anything right

"huh… i guess he really is invincible" and rex saying it lacks any punch at all cuz rex is fucking dumb hahahahaha, the lack of title card is appropriate cuz rex is wrong, thats not invincible yet

rex even tells mark he did a good job stopping the maulers when thats literally not what happened. mark didnt do ANYTHING but get his ass beat, angstrom blew up the machine all on his own

mark: "even the maulers didnt deserve this" cecil: "they did this to themselves" okay cecil and you just say any fucking thing you think will manipulate the people around you dont you? because later on you chastise mark for killing angstrom AND conquest, as if those guys didnt fully deserve to die. but these guys deserved to die for doing a little science experiment? fuck off

"whatever they were planning you stopped it" YOU DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT YOUVE DONEEEEE istg cecil is so fucking useless

ughhhh and mark comes home to debbie and theyre still just walking on eggshells around each other… theyre trying to act like everything is normal and fine when its not, PLEASE CRY TOGETHER… debbie mark NEEDS YOU RIGHT NOW… youve been such a good mom to him so far and he needs you so badly, hes turning to CECIL of all people bc he has no one else to guide him, please talk to him!!!!!!!!!!

god amber stays so sexy too, the way she tricks mark into opening her letter and then hiding his behind her back to make him admit he wants to be with her, get it girl. it would be so much more cute and playful if she got to tease him like that for FUN instead of it being the ONLY way she can force him to be emotional around her

and the immortal just shows up to get another punch in like "i dont believe youre a good guy mark, i think youre just another omniman" jesus, let the kid have a night off

maulers alive <33333333333333

its cute that he goes RUNNING like a lost puppy dog to see if his clone is alive. he talks all big and bad most of the time like "meh i can just make another one" but he loves his twin

only to find angstroms big deformed brain instead

"what did he do to me?" "you did it to yourself" tell him mauler

"he did this… he made me a freak!" mark didnt do shit to you actually, get a grip (but i get it, he combined brains with all the other traumatized angstroms with evil mark experience)

maulers just standing there calmly analyzing the situation like "your memories are just all mixed up cuz you fucked up the process" i love a king who can keep his shit together under pressure

"you need a hospital" "no i need REVENGE" hahahaha alright angstrom

and we finally get that sweet sweet title screen, but its a deranged interpretation of it cuz angstom is laying all the weight of the evil marks actions into it instead of our mark, our mark still isnt invincible yet

and mauler walking away grumbling about being a lone wolf from now on hahahaha yes babe do your own thing

1x8 < [2x1] > 2x2

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[briefpiratebear]

in the end the pain hurt to much id run from it if i could but i cant lol i wouldnt its not a good life whatever i end up doing i know one thing is forsure pursuing your own goals no matter i did things happen in the end those goals are my own maybe someone elses in the end i always was a winner. i move on. when you cant why? lol then i move for myself in everyway possible try to make it work both ways how could i not even if it was life or death how could i not iv lost enough in this world to lose more because of ignorance thrown on me i cant carry the fucking world im helpless in denial for fuck sake untill i can help myself and my dignity was stripped from me although it wasnt it was it was all i was all i worked hard at it was more then that it was writing all the years i took care of you made sure you were okay stay up for hrs writing on end to myself to figure out some point of disease you had to point out contempt of a sword i preached it i lived in it im lost in something you cannot live yeat sit with denial im in denial i cannot do life without my job i worked hard to love myself did i need this no i had my job DID I NEED THIS? yes i think that i accept i wasnt good enough so i move on. how did i do that denial denial denial enough denial and you will figure out what truly matters to you i guess i never liked playing games fuck you dirty ass truly ignorant got nothing to say disappointment i mean it sold me lesbian was "i have been through this before and i know how this goes""i i know i tried i could not love you again like i used to" yeat here i am i feel a type of way the way youve treated me its fine it is fine it is a line of dignity ill wait here on mine in the end it just hurt me bad enough to realize what truly matters in life and it was me and my time and my pleasures for so long i mean in denial in hell fuck yes itll get you through it lol youll be dead dead dead closer i new you the closer i came to being free in this kind of depth i was lost helpless i tried working wasnt enough realizing working on self was all i had worth millions to me because i spent so much time doing it man was i still so fucked up after the hospital i needed years on myself this time it wasnt anything but the point of not being true to myself i died at the fact i wasnt good enough and everybody else i mean everybody else was what was your point you didnt have any mine is forginess i choose to forgive because in the end it was the darkness that showed me the way everytime it taught me alot about myself i didnt need it life throws it at you because life is ignorant not right i will stand up for myself not give into my denial my denioal gets me out of my denial that miss is a good message from ya bitch whats wrose then sucking another persons toe was it sexual or just dirty that i would do anything for love this time it was for myself nobody was stopping me once i get going again idc how long that takes ill wait in my denial i wont wait forever it inevitaible i crimb out again what failed me was life my denial was my life as bad as it was was as bad as i was it wasnt to bad but bad in one specific area that shit hurt me. that all im saying last thing i want is sympathy from anyone maybe a damn but anything more nah

[pezpenser205]

wait thats actually kind of wild i have like. the opposite of that. im great at making people as comfortable as i can when talking to me and can do like. step one of Make A Friend but it just doesnt develop, and in the instance it does i always like people way more than they ever like me. feels like the instinct to talk to people never really hit me, theres an Awareness that everyone else in the world is more connected to each other than i am to anyone. i do suspect this is due to being a #revolutionary secondborn (everyone on earth thinking i was a total cunt as soon as i was old enough to have a personality that wasnt just fawning like my older sibling)

long ass poast warnang!!! tldr at the bottom

i also have that awareness but i think thats just my Curse (autism). i also had the "all my peers fucking hate me at worst and dont gaf about me at best and treat me as subhuman when i try to talk to them but i try to love everyone even though they all keep leaving me" childhood. everything youre talking about all basically used to be me actually.

accutane + developing an obnoxious and conspicuous style + getting broken up with + wearing my hair different + getting simultaneously kinder and more assertive/bitchier to assholes irl + being more "thin passing" because of puberty or whatev basically changed how people see me entirely, and shifted me over to whatever tf im doing now, which i think sucks!!! i was 100% being sarcastic in my tags. dont be like me i think this is a nightmare. i dont think it was worth losing myself over and it still is kinda haunting to think everyone irl who likes me now and compliments me is probably the kind of person who wouldve giggled at little 12yo me who wanted a friend more than anything in the world.

people see me as equal to them often even though i still feel that invisible wall there just like you and dont feel like a "real" person at all bc that stuff still lingers. the uptight cis dudes uncool people dont really like me that much bc im very clearly a tranny, but they dont often look at me like im a thing whos too stupid to understand them when theyre talking about me anymore. they look at me like im annoying and gross and deserving of violence. which to me, is infinitely better.

i still wish awkward and weird little guys were treated as equals by default and i relate to you a lot, because i was also kinda treated like a pet, always cared about other people way more than they cared about me, and couldnt tell that all my "friends" were using me or just didnt like me that much.

i have experienced the isolation you feel and i know you dont deserve it, because no one deserves to be disconnected and/or dehumanized. even though i sucked more within my last relationship, and DID deserve getting broken up with at that point, i dont think me before that "deserved" to experience the things that led me to thinking that was an okay way to act towards people.

you shouldnt have to remake the harmless parts of yourself at all and if anything youre definitely perfect as is, save for maybe needing to learn to value yourself, learn to be okay with taking up space, learn whats okay socially and within relationships, and learn how to communicate properly— all things you cant do if youre isolated! you also probably just havent found the people who really click with you yet, or you have found them but feel too out of place to initiate. being the "opposite" of me is definitely a good thing because im kind of a collage of a person rather than a real human being, so the opposite of that would be a really earnest person who needs a few hundred nudges in the right direction.

i do encourage you to just go crazy with reaching out to people even if you dont think its "right," because youll never know whats "right" if you dont try a bunch of things that are "wrong" first. its not something that can be observed or explained, you MUST get experience. if you start online and work your way up to irl as long as youre nice the worst they can do is think youre weird. you miss every shot you dont take and if youre born with Low Accuracy Disease (being raised isolated, neurodivergent, trans), youre gonna need to fire so many more shots than the average person anyway to land a good one so you might as well invest in a machine gun lol. i believe in you and im 100% sure youre awesome and cool and i think everyone should be nicer to you immediately ^_^ <3

tldr; i relate to you a lot and you deserve love. youre perfect and change nothing about yourself but your strategy for reaching out to others. the right people will find you.

[always-almost-always]

Tumblr isnt letting me reblog for whatever reason, but a response to @pitbolshevik 's post:

Okay firstly, again. there are unique experiences to being a trans man that are *specific* to being a trans man. Yes, it is transphobia, just like all transmisogyny is transphobia, but these specific experiences are unique to being a trans man.

Being told we're "gender-traitors", losing access to queer resources once we transition, all the fear mongering around phalloplasty not working or T making you an abuser, listening to queer 'friends' talk about how they should just kill all men, all the historical erasure of trans men (and how if anyone tries to point out how maybe a historical "strong woman who lived as a man for xyz" might've just been a trans man, we're shamed for trying to take away women's representation), and so many other examples i dont have the time to list here. I might be generalizing a bit here, but all those experiences (with a few exceptions maybe) are experiences unique to being transmasculine.

I've seen some really good points made on the comparison between the unique experiences trans men have, and the unique experiences black men have. I'm white, so i don't want to make my own comments on it, but both are experiences defined by being men (on its own not an oppressed group), and another minority. Here's a post that goes more in depth on that:

https://www.tumblr.com/genderqueerdykes/776568335353643008/its-so-wild-to-me-that-people-will-be-like-no?source=share

To be quite honest, no, I don't know why there isn't a term for unique oppression gay men face- i don't know if they just never needed one, if there was an attempt at making one but it never caught on, or some other reason, i'm not a cis gay man or a part of that community, but that's not the point here.

To address some tags:

Except trans men are often pushed out of the spaces where misogyny and feminism are discussed. Also, it's not just "normal misogyny". This anon had a really well worded point on that:

https://www.tumblr.com/genderqueerdykes/775719927211606016/i-have-some-thoughts-on-the-oppression-of-trans?source=share

Fully agree with you that the root of transandrophobia is misogyny. However, transmisogyny has been turned into a term for only trans feminine people. If I, a trans men, started talking about my experiences as a trans men and labeling them as transmisogyny, I would be dogpilled by people telling me I was "stealing a term from trans women", "talking over women's experiences", that I "couldn't possibly experience misogyny as a man", etc etc. This may very well be a loud minority of people, but it's still enough to make the term very unappealing to use as a trans man.

Some other very good posts on the subject, if anyone is curious:

Distinction from just transphobia:

https://www.tumblr.com/hi-fi-planetoid/778477790094835712?source=share

https://www.tumblr.com/lesgay-loser/760080876149391360/wdym-youre-a-man-you-were-born-a-girl-and-youll?source=share

General personal experiences with transandrophobia:

https://www.tumblr.com/gatorpond/762606882937569280/transandrophobia-isnt-real-bc-men-arent?source=share

https://www.tumblr.com/opossumanon/758661537182482432/transandrophobia-isnt-real-a-few-years-back-my?source=share

https://www.tumblr.com/gor3sigil/773998270917820416/in-2021-my-country-debated-on-a-law-to-open?source=share

A further dive into *why* trans men in particular suffer so much erasure:

https://www.tumblr.com/thatfeyboy/762097794609741824/i-think-a-big-reason-trans-men-do-not-appear-in?source=share

If anyone I linked here wants me to remove them from this post, shoot me a dm or an ask I'll do it right away

[syrupspinner]

i just beat Retro City Rampage DX

if grand theft auto was good

im not fucking around. sincerely, i had infinitely more fun with this game that with gta5. first of all, the story: every time a character in gta 5 spoke i liked them less. i care about none of the people the story focuses on, and the poison levels of caustic south park assholery just suck all of the enjoyment out of the serious crime drama. even then, the game feels stuck between being an irreverent self-parody and a serious crime drama. retro city rampage just chooses one thing to be and does it successfully. sure, im not the target demographic of the Ready Player One nerdy 80s references, but i can respect picking a fucking lane. also, unlike gta5, i never felt the need to skip a cutscene! trevor and michael gave me a fucking migrane after a few hours, but RCR just uses silly skits to introduce the next gameplay setpiece. it feels WAY more congruent with the vibe of a chaotic sandbox, its quick its entertaining and it doesnt ruin anything, its fucking congruent.

a lot of this is thanks to the scope of RCR as an indie game. every time gta5 introduced something new, like the stupid app you need to pick up dog poop or that shallow buisness-purchasing mechanic, it just felt like it was a corporate mandate to make the game more "Triple A" whatever that means. since RCR doesnt have the bloated expectations of an industry breathing down its neck, it can just be a video game. like, the driving sections between gta5 missions are drawn out and waste player time for no reason, because the map is soooooo big and cinematic and its really big and graphics cool big gigabyte. RCR just has a city big enough to be a fun sandbox.

gta5 and RCR both use missions to introduce things you can do in the world, but the later's sillier tone lets the missions be more interesting, less grounded, and feel like one mission isnt less relevant than another. when (i had to google his name) franklin starts a story mission with seven minutes of strip club gameplay, im annoyed because i want to get this drive over with so i can see if this next mission is another repetitive shootout. when Player, the actual name of the character in RCR, has to take shifts from the grim reaper for a few minutes to come back from the dead after being killed by his babymama, im on board for the cartoon shenanigans. this is the importance of tone and cohesion, and just plain 'ol gameplay variety

this game like, made me realize why people like gta. theres a lot of fun in just fucking around and cause chaos, but the missions and story mode give you a direction to point the destruction in. i think the biggest thing turning me off from gta was just how... much it was. its like a demanding, greedy child. RCR feels more like its just a buddy that wants to have a good time.

i dunno, im worried im not articulating myself well enough here. maybe im just biased towards indie games? i mean, i definitely am, but i just feel like AAA games are way more likely to preoccupy themselves with things other than making the game more engaging and enjoyable until they collapse under their own weight. meanwhile, RCR has a a reasonable scope, a concise and pointed direction, and more than anything a respect for the player's time and enjoyment.

so yeah, i totally recommend this game! it goes on sale for like, 4 bucks canadian, so its probably even cheaper with real money. if the reference humour isnt your thing theres the gameplay, and youll know if you like the gameplay after >2 hours in the sandbox.

[xelpaz]

brian wakes up to the phone ringing.

he blinks, letting reality settle over him until he figures out what the noise is.

it takes atleast 10 seconds for him to squint and realize that its the phone across the room thats rattling.

brian groans and turns over, pulling the blankets back over his head in an attempt to block out the noise. he does not want to talk to anyone right now. in fact, he very specifically remembers knocking it off the line because the constant calls had been annoying him.

anita must have put it back on when she came to check on him. one frantic visit from roger had been enough. brian blesses and curses her at the same time.

anita is great. she has been nothing but understanding, a fantastic lover and a friend, and he wouldnt exchange her for the world.

but right now, he really wishes she had left the phone hanging down. he brings his hands up to cover his ears. the tone is grating on his already exhausted nerves, all he wants for whoever is calling him to lay off,  to go back to sleep and forget that hes still here.

finally, the ringer goes dead.

he lets out a sigh of relief

it immediately begins to ring again.

brian makes sound of frustration into his sheets. maybe if he squeezes his eyes shut long enough, the incissitent ringing will cease and he can be left alone in his misery in peace.

hes sure it gets louder just to spite him.

he makes it another 15 seconds before he breaks.

"oh for fucks sake-" he rolls and pulls the blankets off and swings his legs over the side of the bed, padding over pick up the reciever.

"what. do you want" he says flatly. hes well aware he sounds bitter but fuck, hes tired. company of any kind from another person is the last thing he wants right now.

even if he kind of needs it. not that he'll ever admit that.

"oh good, youre alive" rogers voice comes out the other end. some far away part of him thinks that he sounds concerned.  brian softens a degree. "are you decent? i'm coming over. we're going out. be there in 10"

"what? roger, no-"

the line goes dead. brian curses again.

he really, really, doesnt want to go out. he hasnt showered in 3 days, 10 minutes isnt nearlt enough time to make himself look presentable if he tried, and the thought of having to interact with another person right now makes his arms itch. he'd nearly strangled the last interviewer as it is.

for half a heartbeat he considers just barricading his front door and going back to bed.

not that thats ever stopped roger taylor from getting what he wants.

he rubs his hands down his face. if he was capable of damning roger, he thinks he'd of done so a long time ago. /still/ he thinks. /theres never been a better time then now/.

theres not enough time for a shower so he settles for the cleanest clothes he can find, a damp washcloth scrubbed hastily over his face, and comb through the end of the worst of his curls. at one point, he makes the mistake of looking at himself in the mirror and grimaces.

he looks and feels like death. the meager scraps of self confidence he had have withered away to near nothing.  whatever roger has planned have better be damn worth it.

hes pouring himself a drink when the doorknob rattles. a moment later, roger is crossing over the threshhold into his kitchen.

"and where are we even going?"  brian asks as he clicks in his seatbelt.

"somewhere."

brian rolls his eyes.

"and what will we be doing?"

"youll see."

"honestly, rog" brian huffs. "if youre going to drag me out of bed /now/ then i think i atleast deserve to know whats going on"

"and you will soon enough." roger doesnt even bother taking his eyes off the road. brian makes a face in his direction, and then turns to watch london pass by.

roger is silent the rest of the drive. it isnt long. within minutes, theyre pulling up in front of a largely unassuming building, save for one thing.

in big letters over the main entrance reads "london psychiatric hospital"

"roger." brian deadpans. "what are we doing here"

"simple. you have an appointment" comes the reply. at last, roger looks at him "i booked you in a few weeks ago"

brian looks at him incredulously. a retort sputters and dies on his tongue. it takes a few tries before he can speak again.

"you what?" he finally manages.

"i booked you in for a therapy appointment. a few, actually. go in and ask for doctor callaghan. dont worry about paying. i did all that already"

brian is looking at roger like hes grown three heads.

"roger." he says at last. "im not going to therapy."

"like hell youre not" he replies flatly. "this is something we should of done for you 20 years ago. youre long overdue for this."

"you cant just-!" brians voice rises up a tick. "i dont need anyone to complain to, i think ive had a very expected reaction to everything going on."

"a normal reaction?" roger hisses. "you think anita finding broken razors in your bathroom is normal? seeing as you wont let me in anymore? you need this, bri. youre not you"

"take me home, roger. im not doing this".

roger swears and kicks under the center console.

"honestly, rog, it isnt that big of a deal so-"

"so what" roger yells, cutting him off. theres fury in his voice. "so you can try to kill yourself again?"

as soon as the words leave his mouth, he deflates. he bangs his head against the steering wheel once, raw frustration. his shoulders are shaking.

"you cant leave me and john alone. not now". this time voice comes out ragged.

brian blinks. theyve all been hurting. he thinks of john, so full of pain that hes retreated where neither of them can reach him. he thinks of cold, empty beds that will never feel truely full again. this has been impossibly hard on all of them, but roger doesnt have an anita or a veronica to fall into. john and brian are the only  hearts he has left.

he is he to rob him of another one?

"okay." he says quietly. "what time will i be done"

roger lets out a breathe he hadnt known he'd been holding.

"two hours, give or take. call me when youre done, i'll take you home. if theres not a phone inside, theres one a block away"

"okay"

he sits for another moment and then leans over and presses a small kiss to rogers cheek. this close, he can see rogers eyes flutter close behind his sunglasses.

without another word, he slides out of the car and walks up to the front door.

roger slides a thumb over the place where brians lips touched,  and watches him go inside.

[p1f1]

as much as i love commentary videos (i can watch those and video essays non stop for hours), theres a genuine sickness in my stomach when theyre reacting to someone whos being sexist or misogynistic.

ramble below the line, but please check out the ending part.

idk what makes me feel this way, the borderline ridiculous stuff that comes out of their mouth or the fact someone can be so stupid that they say this in todays day and age. and i get that for how modern it is some people still agree with these stupid comments and speeches but there will always be at least a handful of people who agree with whatever.

and yes i do feel this way with any type of discrimination, but it sickens me when i hear about how badly some women, as myself, hate being one. its unfair. sure itll always be that way and "life isnt fair" but still, its just crazy. if youre someone who sees a woman whos complaining about hating being a woman (not because they dont feel comfy in their own body ((or want to be a different gender)), but because they hate how theyre being treated. ), and for some reason thinks theyre being ridiculous, please dont interact with me lmao.

its sad how i feel afraid to walk alone at night or be in a car alone. or go on dates, or talk about this to anyone, or go swimming , or go out in general. nobody, i mean nobody, should have to feel afraid to be out in the world, because thats wrong. especially with todays messed up beauty standards. im not exactly skinny, but at least im trying to change myself. it hurts alot when someone points something you hate about yourself and acts like you dont know. its sad how no matter how pretty or skinny you are youll never be good enough. i hate it. people arent perfect. nobody is. nobody ever will be because thats how humans are.

i have had encounters with sexists. just as any person would. and when someone makes fun of you or mocks you with the reason youre a woman, it doesnt make you feel smart, and its not easy to not let them get to you. genders, races, and sexualities will never be equal to the public. women will always be under men. gay people will always be hated. non white people will always be treated and seen differently. and in my eyes, everyones equal and always will be but me or you will never be able to change someones mind.

and ngl, i used to say i hated men as a joke, but i dont think its much of a joke anymore. younger me would call me weird for hating being a woman but im so glad i wasnt exposed to how gross the world could be sometimes.

this is a rant, but also a reminder. if you are sexist, misogynistic, racist, transphobic, or just a bigot get off of my blog.

im not the best a wording things so, if you think that i see anyone thats not white or gay differently, i promise you youre wrong. im not racist, homophobic, or any of that. this is just much better than me crying to myself about how much i hate humans sometimes.

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also, if youre like me, and think nobodys there for you, or talking about your problems wont help, it will. i had a small talk with a friend and even though it was only a few texts and sentences, i really felt touched. i only talked about my family problems very vaguely. it was a stupid video. 'if you had one wish, what would it be?" i answered something like i wish i could change the way my family sees me and his one word response of "why?" made me so emotional.

friends and friends. people you talk to on a regular basis and people you know want to talk with you are friends, even if you dont think so.

my DM's are always open. even if this only reaches a few or onyl a few see it, you can always dm me on this acc or my other. hell i might not even know your name but just know that i care about you so deeply. i would never want someone as amazing as you to feel down or angry.

so please, if you think that talking about your problems wont help, try it before you say that. it can change decisions you make in the future that youll regret. again, my dm's are open always if youre struggling. i care.

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