#the only thing fueling me to get thru it is my own desire to actually watch it

[lorephobic]

i have a myriad of thoughts but none of them have enough merit to post individually so heres the bullets

• kind of losing my mind at the fact that mindcrack 3 takes place before villagers are added to the game

• obsessed with bdubs meeting thejims and immediately developing a homoerotic thing with him when he gives him a diamond sword and professes his love for him

• ive been so busy irl lately that i havent been watching anything, which means im gonna be terminally online for the next week since i need to recharge

[balkanradfem]

So I've talked before about my burning desire to go and build a separatist tribe of women in nature, preferably in forest next to a mountain or somewhere far out so that nobody would bother us. I've been keeping on building that dream in my head, but also in many practical ways, trying to prepare myself for it. This tribe would have to function out of capitalism, off grid, without the use of money or even electricity, unless one day I figure out how to produce some. So we use only technology that is not harmful to nature and produce everything we need to survive.

It sounds so surreal, but it's not a particularly wild idea, because humans have been doing this for millenia and lived, I presume, with way less of their population depressed and suicidal. It wasn't more than 80 years ago humans lived without electrity or modern commodities, my 85yo neighbour can still remember bathing in collected rainwater and washing the clothes in the river. (Don't worry, we wont have to wash the clothes in the river, I found a way.)

So what I'm proposing is in fact, far more reasonable, climate conscious and healthy than living in capitalism, only problem is: It's less convenient.

We're to assume it's convenience that brings us comfort and happiness, but I'm about to propose a counter-argument: It's not. It's boring and makes everything very impersonal and unsatisfactory. I can tell, but only because I've been shifting into that inconvenient, more-effort-put into survival kind of life. And, it's been a very fun, weird time.

So as you can see by my posts, I've been learning to grow food and to make meals from self-grown food only, and eating feels different. It's far from impersonal when you bring a handful of seeds into life, then harvest and store and eat that; you know where this food has been. You know the food's story and it's been interlaced with your own story to the point where it's no longer something you consume, you have memories with that food. It means something to you. And, it's way, WAY harder to throw it away. You do not waste what you build up from scratch.

I've also been venturing into other self-sustaining missions, like, cleaning products and preserving resources as you would in nature, figuring out hygiene without capitalism, and this is where my life got weird. If I wanna wash my hair, I go and make tea, then wash my hair in that. Funny snippet, lemon balm tea actually darkens your hair the more you use it, people in my life now legit think my hair is black, it's not! It's brown but the herb made it so dark nobody can tell. I've since found out there are also herbs that make your hair lighter, or even give it a blue-ish glow! That is way fun. Washing hair like this is a more effort than shampoo, but I feel different about it. Proud I did that, or just happy I never have to buy a shampoo maybe.

If I wanna do laundry I'll go and cut open some conkers, since I still have a bag of unprocessed ones and they work as a detergent. If I wanna clean something I use vinegar I infused with orange peel, it smells amazing. If I need to go to the bathroom I'll skip on toilet paper and use family cloth. Now what is that? I actually heard someone on youtube say that word and researched it and found out that before toilet paper, people used rectangular strips of white cloth, to clean themselves, and they were all washed so it was reusable and wasted no resources since you could cut any old cotton shirt into strips and use it. Now a lot of people react with 'ewww' but hear me out: you don't use it for number two unless you have a washing liquid to immediately throw it into (I don't), and, do you throw away any underwear that you've used just once? They get about as filthy as that and then you put them thru boil cycle in the washing machine, they take so little space inside it's forgettable, and you can use them forever. I actually only had to buy toilet paper once, this entire year. 10/10. Also, extremely comfy and soft to use. If anyone wondered.

I also cook my food in weird ways, mostly having it wrapped in towels instead on a stove top, I rarely heat any bathroom water and either use cold or I also discovered I love heating a pot of water and just spilling it over myself instead of showering, it feels so good! It's so gentle and pleasant, showers are agressive and mean in comparison, it's like they hate you and are trying to spray you away. Water gently spilling from a pot on your body loves you and wants you to be happy and experience pleasure and love.

So I'm not trying to brag too much here but I haven't visited a grocery store in two months (figured out how to buy flour directly from the company lol) and maybe visited them 7 times this year altogether, isn't that kinda wild? And yes I'm giving myself a little star for good pandemic behaviour. I earned that. I just seem to not need stuff anymore unless they're oil and flour and maybe some salt and sugar. And it wasn't ... that hard. I mean okay, poverty and general anxiety are fueling my behaviour for sure, but it feels very much like... it's not that impossible to do without stuff, if you're crazy stubborn and don't have many alternatives.

I've also been prepairing for this life in a savage hermit hoarder type of matter; I've collected jars obsessively, stored every little produce net or bag that anyone brought to my place, I collect dumb promotional newspapers to start fires with in the future, and I can make baskets out of it, I stored every plastic cup or container ever because I can grow seedlings in those, I collected all seeds in any way available to me, I don't throw away any fabric anymore bc I can sew new things, any soft and spongy textured thing is stored to make seating space on future chairs and cushions, and I value every bit of knowledge coming my way only in regard to how it could help me survive.

I haven't figured out the medicinal side of this, or the social aspect, but at this point it feels very wrong for me to be in a city, renting out an apartment, and then living half like a little savage on the side and refusing to go to the store. I should be in my little cob house dammit, and cooking in my cauldron on top of a fire. I should be bathing in rainwater and have plants on every surface of my home. I should have soil available to grow all my food. And optimally have a big swing and a tree house and an obstacle course in the forest. I wanna drink water that I discovered in a spring or collected from rain and filtered with the coal I made. I wanna know how earthen floors feel under my bare feet.

So anyways, how many of you'd wanna join a tribe where we live in cob houses and tell stories around a fire and change our hair color with tea and presumably spill water over each other because hygiene is important? Also we never shave or care abt how our faces look and we shed the light onto downfall of capitalsm because I feel like, if we all (the population) just bought flour, oil sugar and salt, a lot of things would go down super fast.

[ayzrules]

✶ 𝐇𝐗𝐇 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐒: 𝐋𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓 & 𝐇𝐎𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐒, 𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐇 & 𝐃𝐀𝐌𝐍𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍   Long story short, I have been thinking about this for wayyyyy too long now and wanted to get some ~thoughts~ & analysis written down! This post is going to be...fairly long, lol. Apologies in advance :D

  Also, if you can’t see the last gif (the one for ‘holy’), click here. Tumblr keeps fucking up the image when i try to upload it :////

  This post is probably going to be about 2/3 yorknew & phantom troupe/kurapika focused, 1/3 chimera ants, maybe with some references to other arcs (including manga-only arcs) mixed in. so, ofc, tons of spoilers ahead! also, i realize that my blog theme is hard to read (and i’m p sure clicking ‘keep reading’ sends you to the og post itself), so i’m linking the post w/ full text copy/pasted in on my art backup side blog (which has a more legible font) here. 

✶ 𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐇   I’m sure absolutely nobody is surprised with me starting here - there is just. SO. MUCH. DEATH. in hxh. & right from the start, one thing I noticed that togashi really emphasized was the #4 and its connection to death. in japanese, chinese, and im p sure some other asian cultures the number 4 is pronounced like the word for death so it’s associated with death in general, and boy oh boy does the ‘deadly number 4′ thing show up E V E R Y W H E R E. we get to the hunter exam, and hisoka is applicant #44. kurapika is #404. i didn’t notice it at first, but this was so intentional holy shit. togashi is NOT SUBTLE.

  So pika & hisoka are, right off the bat, associated with death. okay. and then there are even more clues to drive the point home: hisoka is member #4 in the phantom troupe, kurapika’s birthday is april 4th (aka 4/4). 100% not a coincidence (!!). with hisoka, it’s pretty obvious why togashi’s throwing all this death 444444 stuff around - dude is a psycho murder pedo clown, literally gets off on killing people (and there’s also the fact that judas sits 4th from the left in the last supper painting, and he’s sort of the judas equivalent for the phantom troupe). with kurapika, though, it’s a bit more subtle and woven deeper into his characterization, which i LOVE. togashi puts the mans in blue & gold & white (traditionally ‘pure’ or ‘heavenly’ colors), makes him so fucking kind & so good-hearted.....when he’s not relentlessly pursuing his revenge, ofc. more on this in the next section, but pika = death. togashi has made that v v v clear.

  Backtracking a bit to hisoka, though, I also just wanted to point out the 4 is death symbolism in the fortunes too (GOD i love the fortunes): in one translation, he’s the false fourth moon, and in the og japanese (i think), he’s the false hare (4th in the lunar zodiac or w/e it’s called. i don’t know the japanese cultural influences here, but in the chinese legend that established the zodiac animals, they race across the heavenly river & the top 12 animals got zodiac slots. the hare finished 4th, so it’s #4 in the cycle). 

  And just as a final note, Tserriednich is the fourth prince of the kakin empire, and also another dude who has a hard-on for murder & other gory shit. again: togashi is not subtle with this, lmfao

✶ 𝐇𝐎𝐋𝐘, 𝐔𝐍𝐇𝐎𝐋𝐘   As probably everyone who’s gotten to yorknew knows, togashi is so 0 fucks given when he wants to be. I mean there’s the whole thing where he just. took New York and decided, Yorknew. LMFAO, but also, he made the main antag of that arc be named chrollo lucilfer, sit around in a ruined church, have a reversed cross coat, pale & dark-haired/dark-eyed, generally dressed in dark colors, very terrible murder guy. liiiike......chrollo x devil symbolism game is 1000/10 at this point lmaooo

  And i know absolutely nothing about christianity in general, but pt/kurapika & yorknew arc is just so full of christian imagery/symbolism! one thing that i L O O O O O O V E though is how togashi really blurs the traditional christian-coded good/evil, holy/damned boundaries.

  Back to kurapika: he wears gold and blue, his coloring is very stereotypically ‘angelic’, he’s precious and good and kind. his chains are all about ~judgment~ and ~healing~ - some of the chains are also in literal cross shapes, aren’t they? And the chain dagger in his own heart...the imagery is very startlingly similar to the immaculate heart of mary, where the swords stabbing thru the heart apparently represent seven sorrows. IDK much about this stuff other than the visual similarities; literally had to google ‘daggers through heart christianity?’ to even get the name of that thing LOL. anyway, at first, it seems like togashi establishes him as the ‘angel’, the ‘good’, the ‘holy’ in the angel/devil, good/evil, holy/damned dichotomy between him and chrollo.

  But that’s not the end of the story. his entire storyline is driven by a huuuuuuuge giant desire for vengeance, first of all, and then there’s the scarlet eyes, which canonically are seen as demonic/cursed/what have you (according to one of the movies or smth? where they show pika as a 10 y/o?), and then we also have red eyes in modern culture being associated w pretty much the same thing (vampires, anyone?). the fight scene with uvo has everything in b&w besides the blood on his face & his red eyes & the moon (<<< more fortune foreshadowing & symbolism, i love to see it), and there are tonssss of scenes where he has to suppress his rage. so all of that is obviously not very angelic of him i would say LOL. in fact, what i find super interesting is that the scarlet/red eyes (which are ‘demonic’) is actually the driving factor behind his super powerful nen abilities; this ties in so well with the fortunes & death associations imo! the fortunes call him the ‘death-bringer’ in one translation, or ‘half-angel, half-death’, so that’s one side of pika = red eyes = death, but there’s also the fact that emperor time is literally draining his life force. so pika = death for both himself and others namely the pt, question mark?

  Now for chrollo: togashi’s devil symbolism is EXTREMELY overt with him, but i love the subtler jesus references too. the church thing, obviously, and the st. peters cross which is cuz st peter respected jesus too much & didn’t think he was worthy to die in the same way as him (or something like that, i am the most atheist person in the world & hxh is literally my entire christian education pls) but is also used as an anti-christianity symbol these days. bandit’s secret looks like a bible, lbr, and mans has a cross tattoo.

  Other things beyond visuals - 12 spiders, 12 apostles; hisoka’s betrayal, where member #4 can be thought to correspond to judas sitting 4th from left at last supper. and this miiiiight be a bit of a stretch, but i think the meteor city being the place of origin may also play into the blurred line between angel/devil and holy/damned here; meteors are defined as space rocks that are in earth’s atmosphere, becoming incandescent in the process. meteorites are for the kinds that actually reach the ground. and idk, lucifer was cast out of heaven / sky too right? so i think there might be some subtle fallen angel imagery/symbolism playing into the pt as well

✶ 𝐋𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓 (𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐃𝐀𝐑𝐊𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐒)   Last section yay! i don’t have as much to say about this, besides when i was making chimera ant arc edits & realized that there might have been some subtle gon/meruem parallels???

  So obviously, everyone knows that line killua says to gon - “you are light” - and then i was just remembering that meruem’s name means.... “light that illuminates all” (!!!!). maybe it’s a coincidence, but knowing togashi, i’m leaning towards nahhhh. there HAS TO be some kinda meaning there (!!).

  Going back to the events of the chimera ant arc....ooh boy. let’s see: gon is optimistic & hopeful even in the face of kite potentially being dead, killua says he’s light, they find kite & dude is fucked up, gon is pissed. gets all angry & ~dark~, especially during the palace invasion when he’s staring pitou down as she fixes up komugi. then the actual fight against pitou: more darkness, more anger, but through it all there’s still light, namely his jajanken being very orange & fiery lookin.....and that final sequence, where he puts all his possible nen he’d ever have into his ~final form~ or wahtever & turns into a male version of true form!bisky but dressed in a crop top & short-shorts (i am SCARRED, btw. s c a r r e d !). there’s just huuuge flashes of light as that’s going on, and it reminded me of supernovas or dying stars when i was thinking about it, where the star is like, collapsing under its own weight? & burning thru its own fuel, until there’s nothing left except a dwarf or black hole or what have you. one final, extremely deadly burst of light & energy before death.

  On the meruem side of things: born into a dark cave, exhibits a traditionally evil/cruel/wicked/whatever personality/traits so that has ppl associating him with darkness. then he gets to know komugi, starts to appreciate other aspects of humanity, seems like he could have actually turned into a decent person who doesn’t want to eat everyone - so that’s a ‘path to light’, maybe? - and then the extermination team yeets themselves into the palace, netero takes him out to bumfuck nowhere, they fight. netero’s fighting is just ALL light, from his giant ass golden 100-type guanyin bodhisattva to the poor man’s rose. again, there’s the sense of finality to it all, in a similar vein to dying stars: netero comes in determined to kill meruem no matter what, and we all know netero doesn’t flake. then we see netero get destroyed after the zero hand, and he triggers the rose, and everything is burning & on fire before the flames are put out and all turns dark again.

  But wait!!! pouf & youpi revive meruem and all he does is play gungi with komugi, even with the poison of the rose. he eventually dies, and the gungi pieces in that final shot of them together (i am BAWLING just thinking about it holy shit) has one that’s all white, one that’s a black ring and white inside. i assume all white is for komugi, who has never done ANYTHING wrong in her LIFE, so i like to think that the 2nd one is for meruem - born “into darkness”, literally & figuratively, but he turns something like ‘good’ by the end. it’s interesting how togashi has sort of gone for a bit of a subversion here: the hero going from light to darkness, and the main antag from darkness to light.

✶ 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐂𝐋𝐔𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍   AahhhhHHHHHhhh so if you read all the way down here through my LONG rambles, tysm! i would LOVE LOVE LOVE to hear what other people think about all this, and i’ve FOR SURE missed tons and tons of stuff - chimera ants is just. SO MUCH. and i don’t know it as well as yorknew eeek.

  I’m not sure if i’m really ~knowledgeable~ in any other areas relating to hxh, so this might be the only one of these that i do, but i definitely think about some of this - esp all the religious symbolism & #4 stuff - a ton! so in the meantime, if it’s of any interest, i’m just going to shamelessly plug my hxh x religious beliefs/superstitions edit series :D lots of love to all!!!

[makakalimutin]

THE 2019 YEAR END ACCOMPLISHMENT REPORT

https://youtu.be/L8VyAzDA5so

It was the end of a decade, but the start of an age.

Yung unang plano ko dyan dapat powerpoint presentation eh HAHAHAHAHAHA tsaka pang-malakasan na yung mga title natin ngayon mumsh. So ayun po ano, welcome to my first ever vlog! De joke nga lang, collage lang kasi yan. Pero ipupush ko sa 2020 na thru videos na ako magpopost (waht). Hindi talaga kasi ako makuda sa harap ng camera so buhay na buhay pa rin itong blog na to. Pero anyway, mas mabuti kung panonoorin mo muna yung video bago magproceed sa entry na ito.

Accomplishments

Are we out of the woods yet? Last year puro iyak lang ang ginawa ko. O ngayon medyo nagkaroon na ng kwenta ang buhay ko (finally, I'm free!) Kung nakita mo naman yung video ko haha ayun, ang biggest accomplishment ko na siguro yung trabaho ko ngayon, at yung mga lugar na napuntahan ko. Kung babalikan mo yung mga posts ko dati, sinasabi ko lang na hala sana balang araw makapagtravel ako bla bla, it was a dream come true. Buong buhay ko nasa Cavite lang ako tapos hindi naman ako pinapayagan lumabas at magpunta sa mga ganitong lugar. Ganon pala ata pag may trabaho ka na haha hindi ka na pagbabawalan no.

Ang daming nasayang na panahon nitong mga nakaraang taon, kung nagset lang ako ng tama eh di sana mas okay yung kinalalagyan ko ngayon. Ayan kasi, wala namang kwenta yung mga pinaggagagagawa ko at mga pangyayari noon.

Character Development

Looking back to my previous years, masasabi kong walang kwenta pa rin yung buhay ko hahahahaha charot. Kung makikita mo naman, major shift sa buhay ko yung paglipat ko ng trabaho. Napalaban ng bongga yung kakayahan ko. Kinukuwestiyon ko araw-araw yung sarili ko kung talaga bang writer ako? Kasi hindi eh. Kahit patapos na ang taon na to, nangangapa pa rin ako sa mundong ginagalawan ko ngayon. Hala ang bobo ko, hindi pala talaga ako marunong magsulat. Ang blog na to ang dahilan kaya ako natanggap sa trabahong ito, nag-expect sila sakin na I'm good at this pero hindi pala talaga. Ilang beses ko nang iniyakan to kasi blanko ang utak ko, walang pumapasok sa isip ko. Paano ko tatapusin ito. Isa lang yon sa major struggles ko this year, na hindi lang pala ako sa climate change dapat nag-aadapt.

- Dati lagi akong naka shirt at pants, ngayon puro dress at palda na. Naalala ko nung nag EK kami, nagsusuot pa ako ng stockings nun kasi para hindi halata na mabalbon ako. Pero this year ko lang inembrace yung flaws ko wahaha na dedma na kahit makita ng iba, kasi wala namang pumapansin? Ako lang din ang insecure sarili ko.

- Dati hindi ako makangiti sa mga picture kasi ayokong nakikita yung ngipin ko. Ngayon dedma na lang din, kasi tinanggap ko na yung kapangitan ko? Char. Hindi na ako masyado nacoconscious sa kung ano yung tingin ko kaya kahit mukha akong patapon araw araw, okay lang nu.

Ayun, iyakin pa rin ako. Minsan may mga sadboi moments posts pa rin ako. Ilang beses ko na rin sinabing napapagod na ako. Pagod na akong mapagod para sa iba. Hanggang ngayon nakakaramdam pa rin ako ng anxiety pag gumigising ako sa umaga.

Pero alam mo, at least hindi na katulad dati na konting kibot lang, iiyakan ko agad. I have a friend na nasa ganong sitwasyon ngayon and nakikita ko yung sarili ko sa kanya a year ago. Sinabi ko sa kanya na sana maibalik yung ngiting nawala sa kanya. Ang hirap kasi hanggang ngayon yung ngiting ninakaw na yon sakin, hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin naibabalik. Kaya lagi kong sinasabi sa lahat ng posts ko na - whatever happens to me, hinding-hindi na ako magiging masaya.

Toxic Trait

Last year naalala mo, na-diagnosed ako na may Hyperthyroidism. Buti nga ngayon, hindi na gaano, pero ganon pa rin, may mga araw na ang lakas ko kumain, pero nilalabas ko rin agad. May mga araw pa rin na pag sobrang lugmok ako eh hindi na naman ako nagugutom. Pero ngayon, sobra ko pa ring tinitipid yung sarili ko. Hindi ako kumakain pag alam kong mapapagastos ako para sa iba.

At, sa lahat ng mga nangyaring magaganda ngayong taon sa buhay ko, ay hindi ako masaya.

Satisfaction

Naalala mo nung pinost ko nung taong 2016 ito: The Philosophy of Contentment. Eto yung proposal ko sa Philosophy class namin. Walang taong nakukuntento. Lahat tayo may desires para ma-develop yung well-being natin. Hindi yung ok ka nang hindi umalis sa loophole ng paulit-ulit na routine ng buhay.

Eh ako? Ano bang problema ko?

Hindi ako pinanganak para lang mag-aral > magtrabaho > magpamilya > at mamamatay. I want to do/achieve something na makabuluhan, hindi yung nag exist ka lang para sa wala. O e ano ngang problema ko?

Hindi ko na kayang maging masaya. Opo. Kaya lagi ako nagpopost dito sa blog ng mga achievements ko hindi para magyabang, kundi ipamukha sa sarili ko na eto na, eto na yung mga pinangarap mo noon, nasa harap mo na, bakit hindi ka pa rin masaya?

Self-actualization. Alam mo yung Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs?

I-incorporate ko na rin siya sa post ko para magets mo. Meron tayong basic needs na sa kabutihang-palad ay napupunan ko na. Yung psychological needs ay ok naman din, pero alam mo kung ano yung nakakapagpa-bother sakin lagi? Yung pinakatuktok ng triangulong ito. Hindi ko ma-achieve yung full potential ko, kasi, di ko alam. Parang may kulang.

Ito yung void na hindi mapupunan ng kahit ano. Nagkajowa ako, nakunsumi lang ako, hindi masaya. Nagkapera ako, hindi ako masaya. Nakapaggala ako, nung umuwi ako hindi na ako masaya. Napunta na ako sa iba’t-ibang church kasi baka kulang lang ako sa faith, pero hindi, hindi pa rin ako masaya.

Hindi ako marunong makuntento. Hindi sa 'gahaman' or naghahangad pa ako ng mas higit sa pangangailangan ko. Pero hindi ko na kayang maging masaya sa kung anong meron ako ngayon. Wait lang pang-ilang beses ko na to sinabi?

2017 nung grumaduate ako, punung-puno ng pangarap. 2 years after, wala na akong motivation. You mean goals? Yung sana after a certain period of time gusto ko makapagpundar na ako ng ganito ganun, magtatayo na ako ng ganitong business, nawala yung long-term goals ko. Asan na? Bumabangon ako na walang ganap. Hala sana ma-gets mo ko, yung fuel ng passion? Nasaan na? Tinamad na akong mag-aim pa ng mas mataas. Parang ako na yung tipikal na manggagawa na magtatrabaho na lang para sumahod, tas bigay kay ganito, kay ganun, tapos ako wala naman akong nafufulfill sa sarili ko. Hindi nila kasalanan. Ako mismo ang may problema. Wala akong balak para sa sarili ko at sa future ko. Pero joke lang, nagpost ako nung nakaraan na pag nagkajowa na ako, gusto ko pakasalan na ako agad (pero hindi mag-aanak), wala lang, baka sakali lang magkaroon ulit ako ng life goals. O di ba, alam mo di ba sinabi ko noon, hindi ako pinanganak para maging housewife. Eh ano to?

I started becoming the person I never wanted to be. Ang normie ko na. Kaya minumulto ako ng old self ko na hindi na daw ako honest sa sarili ko. May mga bagay akong nagawa at ginagawa beyond my moral values (playing with fire, dancing with a stranger). I become reckless. Ang sama na ng ugali ko na tipong when something inconvenient happens to her, ang masasabi ko lang, "Karma mo yan." Di ako to. Anong nangyari sayo Shaira?

I don't make plans. I am spontaneous. Kasi nga lahat ng pinlano ko para sa sarili ko, para sa amin char, naging drawing na lang. So ngayon, go with the flow na lang. Come what may. Kasi buti pa yung mga biglaang ganap nangyayari. Biglaang pagreresign, biglaang gastos. Ganun. Kaya tama na ang pagtatanong mo sakin kung anong plano ko. Kasi wala talagang pumapasok sa utak ko ngayon.

"Hindi ka tumanggap ng pension mula sa SSS for more than 10 years para lang maging walang kwenta sa lipunan. Hindi ka nag-aral ng apat na taon sa kolehiyo para lang maging low life peasant. You made this on your own. We've come this far. Wag ka nang bumaba doon sa level nila."

Eto ba yung tinatawag nilang existential crisis? So ano, dapat nga bang makuntento ako at maging masaya or wag makuntento and strive for more?

Lessons Learned

"We got distracted and caught up in unnecessary things sometimes and we forget that we are in a process and having things not working out is also a part of it."

Dati lagi natin sinasabi na "Pagdating ng bagong taon, magbabago na ako bla bla", pero isa lang din yan sa mga pangakong laging napapako haha. I've learned that kung gusto mo magbago, don't wait for a specific time at moment, kasi lagi lang nauurong at nauurong yan. Gusto mo nga magbago pero you keep doing the same old shit, what's the sense? You can't expect new beginnings if you keep holding on to old habits. Sabi nga, "If you want something, go get it now. Right now is the start of the rest of your future."

You get what you tolerate. Biggest blessing ko this year is I got people who loved me even at my most unlovable chapter. Kita mo naman last year napaka-patapon ko. Pero na-redempt ko yung sarili ko and now I'm here where I belong, thanks to you 💕. Yung kayang sabayan yung level of understanding mo sa mga bagay-bagay at hindi yung sasabihan ka na "masyado ka kasing matalino" "ayaw mo magpatalo" dahil lang sa ineexpress mo yung sarili mo. Instead na magsorry eh they will make you feel bad pa about it. Magrereflect pala talaga sayo kapag positive yung impact ng isang tao. You'll glow differently. Kaya always surround yourself with positive at masisipag na tao, para hindi ka na mahila pa pababa. Tsaka ikaw na rin mismo mahihiya na yung mga tao sa paligid mo ganon tas ikaw tatamad tamad pa rin, kusa ka na lang magsstep up. Kaya ayun ate girl, tigilan mo na ang pagtolerate sa mga bagay na di mo naman deserve. Tapos na tayo sa chapter ng white lies at kunsumisyon.

- Having the right one will help you reach goals you never dreamed of achieving.

- Not everyone will enjoy watching you succeed.

- Some people are there for you but only for favors. The more capable you are, the more users you attract.

Strategic directions for 2020.

A whole new decade is starting. This is the decade that most of us are going to get married or have kids, etc. We're about to enter the very beginning of a whole new chunk of our lives.

Imagine how many people we will meet and how much we're going to mature and how many people we may lose and how much the world is going to change everything we think about daily, like career or love, it will be probably be settled by then.

Anong plano ko for next year? Again. WALA. Kung matutuloy na ba yung printing shop business ko? Kung makakapag enroll na ako for grad school? Kung lilipat na naman ako ng trabaho? Kung matutuloy yung #Japan2020 sa April? Kung mag-aasawa na ba ako? Who knows? Again, as I said earlier, nothing excites me anymore.

Sa nakalipas na pitong taon ay naging saksi ang blog na to sa lahat ng aking pakikibaka sa buhay, lahat ng mga pinagdaanan ko, lahat ng mga pagbabagong nangyari, mga rason ng pagngiti at pag-iyak ko, at progress and development. Salamat sa patuloy na pagsubaybay. Ilang beses na rin akong nademotivate na magsulat, ilang buwan din akong nagla-lie low.

But still here we are. Sa loob ng isang taon ay napakarami na ring nagbago sa buhay ko, yung ibang kaganapan ay hindi pa rin at hindi ko na naisulat dito.

Pasensya na kung medyo mayabang ang dating ko lately, kailangan ko iboost yung ego ko kasi palagi akong nadadown sa sarili ko, at heto ang defense mechanism ko.

If ever this will be my last year, though lagi ko sinasabi na makakalimutan nyo rin naman ako/eto eventually, sana may maiwan akong magandang alaala.

"When a woman is loved the right way, she becomes the best version of herself." I'm happy that I ended this year with less pain than I had at the beginning of the year. I was lost but now I'm glad that I'm on the right path.

Thank you for staying with me this 2019.

Look how far we've come.

Let's make more memories ngayong 2020.

- Love, Shaira Mae ✨💕

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Fallen Hero(s)

Cain Caldus - Napoleon

Puppet- Abel (Seperate)

My ‘canon’ Sidestep. A moderately appealing but plain man of average stature, blue eyes, and tousled brown hair. Perpetually sleep-deprived. Stuggles with being ‘himself’ especially since Heartbreaker, but is far more confidant and actualized as Napoleon or Abel. Paranoid. Serious C/PTSD. Determined to reveal the truth. Wants so desperately to be a normal person but has absolutely no idea how. Refuses therapy, despite Ortega’s push, he just can’t talk about himself, Heartbreaker, or the concerning emergence of 2 other personalities. His disassociation with his problems might be the only thing keeping him relatively sane.

F!Ortega, M!Mortum. Abel has been with Mortum while Napoleon is increasingly distracted by Lady Argent.

Derives his villain name from being a tactician himself, as well as a desire to be stronger, more confidant, capable of championing his own crusade. Hid telepathy as Napoleon.

Gabriel Maddox - Umbra

Puppet -  Belial (Symbiotic) 

Completely average, an entirely forgettable face of ambiguous gender, long curly hair and brown eyes. An actual wreck. Has a significantly hard time separating memories from nightmares. Anxious. Desperate to be real, clings to any and all instances of being treated as such. Lied about no longer being a telepath. Heavy empath, which makes crowds difficult. Wants to mend bridges with the Rangers. Feels xeir trip down the route of villain is out of xeir control. Accepted therapy but scared of revealing too much.

M!Oretga, M!Mortum. Belial is far more friendly and outreaching, the way Gabriel wishes xey were.

Derives name from the shadow of moon, constantly feels like a shadow xemself, falling into darkness and becoming indistinct. Relies primarily on telepathy as Umbra.

Siona Pavel - Kali Ma

Puppet - Leon (Tool)

Slightly taller than average, long dark hair, dark eyes. Fueled nearly entirely by cigs and ANGER. Has no guilt about using the telepathy as needed. No remorse for being getting in the way of her plans. She wants power to feel in control, to not be haunted by her past, to have strength enough to destroy whatever gets in her way. Had a thing for Ortega, might still have a thing for Ortega. Too flirty for her own interests. Trends hot and cold depending on her mood. Probably the most adjusted with her trauma. Has the least connection with her puppet. You care about me? For real?? HOW DARE YOU.

M!Ortega, F!Mortum. Adien has flirted with both, and Siona is currently using them to live vicariously thru in regards to Ortega

Chose her villain name after the goddess. She is a wave of vengeance and will destroy all those who hurt and wronged her. A fighter thru and thru. Doesnt use her telepathy in combat.

Adrian Lane - Maestro

Puppet - Nidae (Observer)

The most disconnected of all my Steps. Friendless heartbreaker scar, cool headed, pragmatic, hero-hunter to unite them all. He forsees a showdown between the powers that be and the powers underground and is concernes with the disappearing telepaths. He will whip the forces of good in Los Diablos into shape no matter how they feel about it.

F!Ortega, M!Mortum. Aromantic, struggles with platonic love, even thru Nidae

Derives his name from music and orchestra. He is the conductor of hundreds of threads and forces, to be molded to suit his purposes.

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Should I visit New Orleans during the Coronavirus Pandemic?

More than ever now, people are asking me, “Hello. I wanted to ask you about New Orleans right now how is it with all this COVID 19 stuff. I was thinking about a vacation down there, but trying to see if it’s even worth it?” My initial response is, “It depends on what you want to experience.” And more often than not, the person would end our conversation with, “I hope I get to meet you when I’m there.” I found myself repeating myself daily, so I decided I would blog about it.

As I mentioned, it really depends on the what’s and why’s of your visit. What type of New Orleans experience did you plan on having? And why are you traveling to New Orleans?

Laissez less bons temps rouler???

The good news is if you are like me and absolutely love everything about New Orleans and want to dig deep into the heart and soul of New Orleans, I say, “Laissez les bons temps rouler.”

I’ll be straight up with you; New Orleans is not the Party City USA; it was before Coronavirus. We are currently in Phase 2 and staying until the end of August. Phase took looks like this; NO PARTYING, NO Nightlife, absolutely NO walking down Bourbon St or thru the French Quarter with a Hurricane or Daiquiri. There’s a restriction on all ToGo Cups, meaning you can not go into any bar or daiquiri shop and walk out with a drink. If you want to drink, you must stay inside that establishment, and many are closed or have a cap on how many customers they can serve. Therefore, if you were planning to party, club hop down Frenchmen to hear a live band, walk down a jammed pack drunken crowd down Bourbon or show off your footwork at a New Orleans Secondline, I suggest you postpone your trip.

The time is now!

Right now is a perfect time to Experience New Orleans! If you ever been here, especially during the festival season, you know to allot for drivetime and waiting in line during your stay. It’s hard to believe that there are no crowds, no wait, and no traffic in New Orleans at this moment. Imagine making reservations at one of New Orleans’s top restaurants and being seated as soon as you arrive. I went to the Country Club a few times, and we had the entire courtyard to ourselves, including the pool and jacuzzi! Restaurants are sending out the freshest, hottest, and tastiest food than ever. I was given 5-star treatment at the Hilton riverside during my weekend staycation, and parking was free!

I can go on about feeling like a Diva while Being a Tourist in New Orleans, but the reality of it all is all this fabulous treatment means businesses are losing money, and our tourism industry is at risk. I think…And this is why I say come to those of you who want to get to know my city.

Come get lost in New Orleans.

The city will open up to revealing all of her joys, secrets, and treasures. As you walk down our beautiful old streets, you will realize that you made the right choice to visit. New Orleans has a rich history and culture that you can explore, be it on a walking tour or going to a museum.

Redecouvrez $3,000.00 – $5,000.00 Redecouvrez is a French word meaning “to rediscover.” For many New Orleanians, the task of rebuilding has been a process of rediscovering a great city. The artist cleverly tells the Katrina story using only four houses. Giclee measures 23.5 x 44 and is signed.

I believe the only way to experience New Orleans is on foot. I do not drive in the city. I either walk it out or bus it, and I love it as it allows me to truly enjoy the perks of living in such a vibrant town. I always discover things that are hidden in plain view. The architecture of the city, the small intricate details that had to been done with a tried aching hand, or retracing my playful childhood steps makes for the perfect day. Plus, while I’m out, I’m always taking pictures, and I get to look back and see just how beautiful New Orleans is. So, make sure to snap as you go through the city and pay attention, search high and low as you will discover the true meaning of New Orleans.

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Cemeteries are big with tourist, I grew up with them being on my block and do not understand why someone would want to visit a tomb of someone they do not know, but I know how they can pull you in. I spent my childhood using the exits as shortcuts, and the cemetery was the backdrop for Spooky Hide in Seek. There are cemeteries you can visit for free, but everyone flocks to St. Louis #1 Cemetery because Marie Laveau and other NOLA Icons are buried there.

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Befriend a local

New Orleans is only what she is because of the locals, so if you have a friend here, you’re good! New Orleanians makes New Orleans come alive, we give her a heartbeat, a soul and a voice. Nothing compares to visiting  New Orleans and being greeted by a thick accent welcoming you to the city, and sadly this is what you will miss. To Experience New Orleans, you need a local to shine the way. Interacting with the locals is what makes New Orleans one of the top traveled cities in the world. It doesn’t matter if you do not know anyone personally. Still, engaging with the hotel housekeeper, taxi driver, bartender, and all those who are working to make your trip sooo New Orleans is crucial to your vacation. I highly recommend joining a NOLA social media group, be a follow a blogger and New Orleans fueled hashtags and engage in the conversation. I have befriended several people. Actually, I have a few good friends through sharing my NOLA experiences on social media.

Be a Foodie

If, by chance, you are reading this between Saturday, August 1 – Sunday, September 13, 2020, you will be pleased to hear that the annual Coolinary New Orleans Restaurant month is happening now. Coolinary New Orleans, the yearly summer dining promotion, returns at a time when restaurants need help the most.

https://www.neworleans.com/coolinary/

But even if the date has passed and you are a foodie, it’s your time to eat your way through New Orleans! Find small local, family-owned restaurants, eateries, snowball stands, and bars is a great way to help these small business owners keep their doors open. There’s no going wrong with eating in New Orleans, besides a few pounds, but embrace the NOLA weight! It means you were having the time of your life!

  Restaurant Review of the Desire Oyster Bar coming soon

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  Stay and Shop Local

If you follow me, you know, I’m anti-Airbnb, but some New Orleans homeowners have been able to benefit from the business, but not as many as those who live out of town even as far as overseas! By staying in the community, you will have the feeling of living like a local, but you have to really want to experience that lifestyle. It makes no sense to book an Airbnb in an urban community and go from the car to the door and repeat. Venture out, if only sitting on the porch and speak to your temporary neighbors. New Orleanians typically lookout for those on their block and may have a relationship with the owner, which is great for you, so speak. A simple smile, wave, and hello will do. Hospitality is a must in New Orleans. We give it and love it in return.

After you did your research about the neighborhood, I suggest you venture out to the cornerstone, a local boutique, nail salon, or neighborhood bar. Many small businesses may not have popped up on your internet search, and the only way to find them is to go out or ask a local. New Orleans has Kid ran businesses, and they would love your patronage! There may be a Pop Up Shop where you can find everything New Orleans from crafts to tasty pralines. You may have a day where you want to relax in the backyard or porch, listening to our local radio station. On those days, you may want to walk to the corner store, which is actually part liquor store. Every New Orleans neighborhood has a cornerstone or gas station where you can get you some delicious cheap eats, including $1.99 breakfast platters, seafood po’boys, and other local favorites.

$1.99 #nolabreakfast: Grits, scrambled eggs & hot sausage patty. I had to get a donut & Im counting my #pineapplebigshot as juice 🤔😂 To all yall tourist, you can get this at any corner store, there’s the Basin St. Market right off Canal.

Support your local corner store!! Yall want a meat special, chicken wings, pig lip? Come holla at me lmao.

  NOLA is Family Friendly

It’s also a great time to bring the kids. Bourbon Street is clean enough to eat on, and it’s basically sin-free. All of the Audubon Institutes are open, such as Audubon Zoo and The Aquarium of America, but reservations are needed. Museums are open, and so are the parks. City Park is open but not Storyland, which is my favorite, but you can do outdoor activities like canoeing, paddle boating, and bike riding.

My Baby Girl enjoyed walking down Bourbon Street! The few times I brought her down Bourbon Street were usually during parade season, and we would walk so fast all she remembers was walking on beads and a thick crowd, but this time she was able to leisurely stroll down the street, and she made sure to walk smack dead in the middle of the street. She danced to the beat of the teen boy drumming his bucket, and she proudly gave him a tip 💵 Yes, she is definitely a #nolakid 🥰⚜️🎭🥁✨

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New Orleans and COVID-19

Lastly and most importantly is that you follow all of the Corovirus guidelines from the CDC and for our city. Our mayor, Mayor Latoya Cantrell, is not playing about the safety of all her citizens and visitors. She will shut it down and bring up back to Phase 1 if the numbers increase. Research is essential here, because we may not be in the same phase as your town. Bring a mask, a few masks to be precise, as masks are required inside every building. Make sure to practice social distancing and proper and frequent handwashing, and all will be fine.

Make sure to visit the City of New Orleans’s website at https://ready.nola.gov/home/ for the latest Coronavirus information. And remember, we are in Phase Two through August 2020.

 Phase Two: Safer at Home

Continue to stay home except for essential needs and other permitted activities on a limited basis.

Everyone must wear a mask or face covering when performing activities in public.

Practice social distancing, wash hands often, and frequently disinfect surfaces.

Let me add that from my own experience as well as in hearing, the airlines require a mask, but social distancing is not put in place as we were told. Planes are at capacity flying into the city more than out I here I was traveling with my family so having someone in the middle seat was ok, but I do not know how I would feel if it wasn’t my family. I’m going to Chicago, so I’ll let yall know if I had an anxiety attack.

As always, practice personal safety.

If you practice safety awareness, you will have the upper hand no matter what city you live in or the towns you visit. Really, it all comes down to this. If you feel like you’re somewhere, you shouldn’t be, then leave. Don’t carry cash or show off, aka flaunt your stuff.

Here’s a short video of me speaking on safety here in New Orleans, as well as things happening on my block today.

New Orleans is full of incredible life adventures outside of what you see during the Mardi Gras season. So, come on down and get drunk off New Orleans without indulging in liquor! Yes, come on down, let the essence of the city intoxicate you! Come get drunk in love off the spirit of New Orleans as you take in all that she is. Bring your significant other it will make for the perfect romantic vacation!

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Top 15 Weight Loss Myths

There are many not unusual weight reduction myths that human beings stay by on the subject of their health. It is hard at times to split the weight reduction myths and truth from what's actual. Many sound actual whilst others are simply laughable. I once study somewhere that if you drink water at night time that you're going to gain weight or that in case you scratch your head too regularly you're going to lose your hair....

Weight Loss Myth # 1 The greater weight that I must lose the extra severe my exercise habitual should be

Weight Loss Truth: Although having an extreme exercising routine is tremendous, there are some things you must do not forget: the primary being that everybody is at a unique stage in relation to their fitness and how much depth they can in reality cope with. If you've got been physically inactive for some of years, an extreme workout for you is probably, taking walks half a mile a day. After you walk that half of mile you word that you are sweating bullets and which you are worn-out. However, for someone who has been bodily lively for decades, strolling 1/2 a mile can be executed with out a sweat. Everyone has a distinctive definition of what "intense" is.

If severe for you is running out for an hour a day, but because of lifestyles's busy schedule you only have time for 20 mins a day, then those 20 mins will move a really long manner. It might not always be labeled as "severe", according to your definition, however the ones little cardio moments will have advantageous fitness altering outcomes.

Fat Loss Myth # 2 Stress and weight gain do now not move hand in hand

Weight Loss Fact: This is one of those "laughable" myths. To study extra how strain is adding lbs. For your existence please down load my free E-Book, "Psychology of Releasing Weight"

Weight Loss Myth # three I can lose weight at the same time as eating some thing I need

Weight Loss Truth: Sir Isaac Newton as soon as said " What is going up ought to come down." There are natural standards that govern our lives. If you throw a ball up inside the air, it is going to come back backtrack. You can sit down in your sofa and imagine and visualize that the ball will staying afloat inside the air, but natural principles train us that it'll come down. Same is going with regards to our weight.

This is one of the maximum not unusual weight loss myths obtainable. It is illogical to assume that your health and weight are going to be in stability if your nutrition consists in particular of Twinkies, chips, and donuts. Sure you could burn it off by using workout, but the general public whose weight loss plan consists of especially junk meals are probable no longer disciplined enough to paste to a exercising routine. I do understand a few people who, from the outside, appear like they are in proper shape, due to the fact they're no longer "fats, but who've high ll cholesterol.

Just because I feel sorry for crushing the hearts of such a lot of twinkle enthusiasts available, I would say this. You can consume junk food, cookies, chips, ice cream, pizza, burgers.... All of these "soul satisfying ingredients", however it have to be moderately. Anything in extra is in no way proper.

Fat Loss Myth # four Skipping food is a great way to shed pounds

Weight Loss Fact: There are severs research that display that individuals who pass breakfast and eat fewer times during the day tend to be lots heavier than who have a wholesome dietary breakfast and then eat four-6 small meals in the course of the day. The cause to this is probably the truth that they get hungrier afterward in the day, and can will be inclined to over eat at some stage in different meals of the day.

Weight Loss Myth # 5 I will now not lose weight even as ingesting at night time

Weight Loss Truth: You can over bask in food at some point of the day and not eat a single factor at night and you WILL advantage weight. As is the truth that you can starve yourself during the day and consume all night time lengthy and you continue to will gain weight. The key right here is stability. If your frame is telling you that it's miles hungry then perhaps you must concentrate to it. The truth is, that over ingesting, whilst now not workout, will motive you to advantage weight; regardless of what time of the day that you consume. Whenever I am hungry at night time, as is my habit with other food during the day, I try to pick out something that is herbal in nature. Something like fruits, veggies, or I may even make myself a fruit smoothie. During those moments that I am craving ice cream or some thing candy, I permit myself to get some, and DO NOT sense responsible about it. Many those who are overweight stay their existence in guilt and disgrace. I permit myself to get a few, however, WITH MODERATION.

Fat Loss Myth # 6 I'm not ideal until I shed pounds

Weight Loss Fact: The individual who does not feel ideal due to the fact they're fat is due to the fact they are now not ideal to themselves first. The way which you think others view you is based totally in your view of your self. I sincerely accept as true with that one have to turn out to be emotionally suit earlier than becoming physically fit. I actually have long gone thru those self-proscribing emotions earlier than. Once I realized that I changed into ALREADY ENOUGH in the eyes of God and that I had no want to prove myself to all and sundry or to receive outside validation for my self confidence, that made all of the distinction for me. Once you be given your self as who you are RIGHT NOW and realize which you are already sufficient in the eyes of God, you may no longer experience like you aren't applicable because of your weight.

Weight Loss Myth # 7 I want to cut calories to lose weight quicker

Weight Loss Truth: Cutting your energy down might be a first rate factor, in case you are notably overeating and stuffing your face. However, if you are consuming proportionally then cutting calories would possibly have an aversion affect. If you are reducing energy and are ravenous your frame, then as a way to decrease your metabolism, or in other words sluggish it down, which may also bring about you surely now not dropping any weight in any respect, even if you are "reducing energy"

Fat Loss Myth # 8 Skipping meals will help me lose weight

Weight Loss Fact: Skipping food can also in reality motive you to advantage weight! You turns into too hungry and could sooner or later need to devour. This will knock your metabolism astray and will ultimately sluggish it down. Think of a vehicle jogging low on gasoline (food), in case you do no longer fill it up, it's going to in the end forestall operating. Same is going for our frame, we need to maintain it fueled continuously.

Weight Loss Myth # nine I suppose I have genetic weight advantage, it runs in my own family!

Weight Loss Truth: Can someone say E-X-C-U-S-E-S? I will now not deny that there might be dispositions for heavy mother and father to elevate heavy kids who will continue to be heavy their whole lives, but I do not believe that there's actually a "fats" gene or DNA available. What we do inherit from our family, normally folks who directly raised us, are our perspectives and beliefs. Your views about food, cash, faith, politics, education, etc. Are based upon how you were raised. If you have been raised in a home wherein the number one food cooked wherein fried foods, then you might have a propensity to preserve cooking and eating fried meals during your lifestyles. If that is the case then you definitely is probably a little heavy across the waist. The smooth issue to do is responsible it on individuals who had been in price of your upbringing, however, you ALWAYS have a desire to alternate.

Fat Loss Myth # 10 Eating healthful is simply too difficult

Weight Loss Fact: Eating healthy is the most effective component in the global.....As soon as you've got skilled yourself to do it. How usually have you ever placed a goal to lose weight or to "consume higher"? The first few days you're doing terrific, ingesting all kinds of foods that you commonly wouldn't eat. Then some thing funny began to manifest, you went back in your vintage behavior and behaviors. This has happened to you in different areas outside of your fitness. It could be with making money, looking for a new job, or for your relationships. Creating a new addiction takes time because our mind's do not like alternate. Change to the brain is dangerous. Anyways, if you would really like to analyze extra about how our mind tries to sabotage us from developing new behavior then please download my free E-eBook, "Psychology of Releasing Weight"

Weight Loss Myth # eleven You ought to give up your favorite ingredients to lose weight

Weight Loss Truth: What would a international without chocolate and without pepperoni pizza be like??? I assume it would be a torturous international to stay in!! Lola, now on a real be aware I absolutely disagree with this fable. You are honestly capable of devour your preferred ingredients. Depriving yourself of this kind of pleasure isn't a laugh, and quite frankly you probably WILL eat it anyways. As has been referred to before, the actual secret is moderation. If you're a steak lover, then perhaps it might not be the nice things to eat it each unmarried day, but possibly once or twice every week. Those who realize me in my opinion know that I LOOOOOOOOVE hen wings with pizza. In an ideal world wherein I wouldn't gain any weight and my arteries had been clog-much less, I would really like to consume it several times per week, well greater like each day. However, I understand that the ones aren't the healthiest of food picks so I have it approximately 2-3 times per month. I am not giving up my favorite ingredients, I am simply ingesting it sparsely so that it would not trap up to me within the form of extra weight.

Fat Loss Myth # 12 Overeating is as a result of starvation

Weight Loss Fact: Nice strive there. If handiest we may want to blame "hunger" for it. In fact, this individual we name hunger has not anything to do with you OVEREATING. It may have something to do your frame telling you that it's time to "fuel up" and that it desires food, but that isn't always an illustration that one have to overeat. What causes many people to overeat are exclusive motives. One of the main ones is feeling of stress, depression, loneliness, anxiety, fear, and different down grading emotions of that nature. Many times food can be a way of fulfilling your wishes. You is probably without a doubt getting your wishes met thru your foods. For example, if you stay a lonely life, and are not very happy, then meals should possibly be a way of you feeling happy and comforted. There are other articles that I actually have written in this difficulty however suffice it to mention that overeating is NOT purpose by being hungry.

Weight Loss Myth # thirteen Only drastic diets paintings

Weight Loss Truth: There goes that word once more...Diet....The ones "drastic diets" are handiest true for short weight loss and rapid weight benefit once you get of it. These drastic diets variety from the "cookie diet", lo.... All that manner to "the water simplest eating regimen"..... I am certain you could shed pounds at the same time as on these Diets, however the weight can be received proper back and commonly with a few added weight as a bonus

Fat Loss Myth # 14 I am too fat and too a long way down the street to start

Weight Loss Fact: A lengthy journey starts off evolved one step at a time. It is natural to count on instant results and to even fear the road in advance of you; in particular if you are extraordinarily overweight. The mystery right here is to make SMALL incremental modifications. Don't expect perfection because on the way to lead you to disappointment. You are never too far down the road to in which you can't see the sun's mild......

Weight Loss Myth # 15 I cannot do it, I even have tried normally and feature failed

Weight Loss Truth: The exquisite Henry Ford once stated "Whether you suspect you could, or you believe you studied you can not- you're right.'"......It is 90% attitude, and 10% clearly getting off your butt and doing something about it. You give way, you get returned up.... You give way once more, you get returned up again. If you've got attempted to lose weight inside the past then it is time to maintain attempting. Discouragement is to dropping weight as is a chunk of fried kook to a vegetarian......They DO NOT go hand in hand.

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Do I need both hazard and homeowners insurance for a condo?

I recently bought a detached condo. I was told by the bank I would be paying a premium of $400+ a year for hazard insurance thru them which will be included in my mortgage payment. Then I was told I also need to get my own homeowners insurance for 80% of the condo value which carries a premium of $500+ a month thru my own carrier such as State Farm. Is this normal to pay $900+ a month in insurance for a condo appraised at $290,000. I live in Seattle, Wa. I would recommend you to visit this internet site where one can get quotes from the best companies: http://insurequotes.xyz "What's of learning to push along with a car or acceptable admiration when your 17, the typical overall charge?" Including everything like the car, insurance, the test, learning therefore on. 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[johneburton]

Absalom: A church destroying spirit | 8 Signs you are under its influence Absalom is a church destroying spirit that is fueled by human wisdom, complaint and gossip. I’ve written and taught on the Absalom spirit quite a bit, including in a provocative article I wrote yesterday. I’d strongly encourage you to read it here: https://ift.tt/2QEAVgs Interestingly, I received two emails today that hit on the topics in that article yesterday. One was from David Wilkerson on “Troubler of Israel” and the other was from Lance Wallnau on the Absalom spirit. I will include that article below. I share some key revelation on that spirit in my book Covens in the Church, and I’d encourage you to pick it up. It’s only $2.99 on Kindle here: https://ift.tt/2SDpKC9 ABSALOM The Absalom strategy of the enemy is brilliant. This spirit is fueled by human wisdom, complaint, gossip and a desire to prove what is right and to use that information to force change in a church. The complaints are often accurate, yet they aren’t driven by the spirit of truth, they are empowered by a demonic spirit. When I say the complaints are accurate, what I mean is that people have analyzed the situation and arrived at a conclusion that is factually correct. Scripture can usually be found to support the argument. For example, the Bible tells us to take care of the poor. Someone in union with an Absalom spirit might take up the offense of the poor and accuse the church leadership of failure to serve them. The offense can spread and people can rally together and attempt to find someone in the church with influence and authority who will agree with them. Whenever people attempt to satisfy legitimate needs via manipulation, that is witchcraft. Absalom is drunk on the spirit of witchcraft. 8 SIGNS YOU MAY BE UNDER THE INFLUENCE OF ABSALOM How can you know if you are under the influence of the Absalom demon? Here are some indicators: Gossip: This should be the easiest indicator, yet even the most seasoned Christians fall victim to the spirit of gossip all the time. I’d discovered that very few really understand what gossip really is. Here’s my favorite definition: Gossip is any discussion about a person or an entity (such as a church, group or business) that the person or leader of the entity would disapprove of. Would your pastor approve of your discussion about the church? If not, you are under the influence of Absalom. Right vs. Wrong: Are you living in the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil by attempting to prove yourself right and your leaders wrong? Or, are you living in the Tree of Life that results in honoring and serving them? Contrary Visions: You and others in the church may see the need for something, such as a soup kitchen, small group ministry or evangelism emphasis. While this may be a valid need, you have to ask the question, “Does it agree with the specific vision of my church?” All churches aren’t assigned to have soup kitchens, for example. It’s important to come under the vision of the house and leave other focuses on your shelf until God enables you to run with it. Gathering Others: Are you seeking support for your viewpoint? If you are gathering other people around you who have the same concerns as you, you can know that the same thing happened in the story of Absalom. Stealing Hearts: As you gather others, are you stealing their hearts, or are you affirming the pastor or leader they have been assigned by God to? Absalom stole the hearts of people who were under the care of David by listening to their complaints. Always call people to be loyal to their leaders and to approach them, not you, with their complaints. Disengaging: Are you running strong with the leader or are you shrinking back into a smaller group of disgruntled people? Matthew 18: Are you applying Matthew 18 protocol to situations you are concerned about? Do you approach leadership alone with your concerns, or do you violate Matthew 18 by involving other people and seeking their counsel? Division: Have you considered aborting your assignment in the church God planted you in by dividing off into another church? A lot of churches are born out of rebellion in the spirit of Absalom. Is this a desire of your heart? Or, are you willing to grow through the challenge in your current church? I’ve watched the Absalom spirit absolutely destroy people and churches. The human wisdom that fuels it feels extremely spiritual! The arguments seem scriptural! However, the spirit is deadly. One possible indicator that you have been impacted by Absalom is how you move from one church to another. If your influence to move on came through arguments of others, and you didn’t involve your leader in the decision, you’ve been hit by Absalom! You should be looking for counsel from the leader God gave you before you talk to others, and certainly before you actually make a decision to leave. Key partnerships of God have been dismantled through the Absalom strategy, and it has left the mission of Kingdom advance at risk. Here’s the article by Lance Wallnau: Beware of This Spirit … Absalom! By Lance Wallnau Remember my earlier posts on WITCHCRAFT? Here is an update —-Beware the SPIRIT OF ABSALOM who whispers in the ear to the discontented -against YOU! Tonight I talked with the owner of a growing tech company who was perplexed by the behavior of a key employee. As we talked I kept seeing in my mind the face of an architect friend of mine. The architect had a key employee who one day announced he was leaving the company. He walked off with most of the employee's and all my friends key clients. It was devastating. He did so with out warning. So tonight I heard the word “Absalom” strong in my spirit. This was Absalom. With this warning in mind I advised my friend tonight accordingly. There may be time to fix this…cause to be honest, this spirit can be active in anyone till you discern how it maneuvers and decide to have no part in it. In my early years, till this was exposed, i was challenged by this spirit. But once it bites you – you never forget it. Absalom was the third son of David. His sister, Tamar, had been sexually abused and cast aside by David's eldest son, Amnon. (You see just one of the problem's that come's with multiple wives?) David loved his family, but he was a weak and flawed father. He didn't deal with the family problem and Absalom stewed in bitterness until he came up with his own solution – killing his brother. His bitterness, still not satisfied led him to a strategy that would produce the greatest threat to David he ever experienced. Here is how this Absalom spirit operates. (2 Sam 15:1-31) Absalom sat near the gate of the city and looked for people who were discontented or had problems. He would sympathize with them and tell them that if he were the leader it would all be different. Essentially, he sowed disloyalty and stole the hearts of the people away from the one God put in authority – and transferred that affection to himself. It worked. David's top team member's were seduced by this spirit. Whenever Absalom showed up at the gate he had 50 men to run before him. ( In the Bible “50” is the number of Jubilee, when economic deliverance came every 50 years….. It is also the number of days between the resurrection and Pentecost. 50 is the number of the anointing. This spirit will be close to the top, have talent, be bitter, feel entitled to more than God has yet given and split the business or ministry in a conspiracy – after whispering and planting seed's of disloyalty into the heart of those who are discontent, saying “oh that I were leader.” The number “50” means they are a false deliverer operating with a counterfeit anointing. Eventually they will cause division and destruction and hurt even themselves severely – in the spiritual backlash. Absalom died because his glorious long head of hair got entangled in branches of a tree. His pride in lifting up his head over Davids eventually killed him. Absalom's are often attractive people. This son was very attractive and especially his hair. While struggling to get free he got hit with three darts. Jewish tradition say's one dart represented the betrayal of his brother, the next his father and thirdly the nation. What saved David was the “Favor” of God that still shielded him. Those who are not loyal are not part of your next level. Where there is interaction with key clients – make sure YOU do it also. No need to be paranoid, but keep your personal touch on the clients producing 80% of your revenue. Don't just send Absalom to shmooze key relations. Re-engage the hearts of your key relationships. Check on any new biz pipeline developing and meet those people. Absalom will tell you to keep out. Go in anyway. See what is going on. Finally- talk to executive coaches and trainers like me. In a single day or few sessions we can walk your employees thru a process that will shift them into alignment and accountability in a fun and practical way. These spirits can be thwarted when “thrown in to the light.” Like all demons, that can only operate in the dark. WARNING: if you have any tendency to control people or insecurity do not misunderstand this post. Last thing I want to see is a David getting treated like Absalom. You want to hire talent that can do and be better than you. You simply want them to be loyal. To do that YOU have to invest in the relationship….and watch. Cause these people are charming but self centered…watch. https://ift.tt/2QNec21

[cristinajourdanqp]

This Was My Aha Moment!

It’s Friday, everyone! And that means another Primal Blueprint Real Life Story from a Mark’s Daily Apple reader. If you have your own success story and would like to share it with me and the Mark’s Daily Apple community please contact me here. I’ll continue to publish these each Friday as long as they keep coming in. Thank you for reading!

Cancer sucks! Not that I ever personally endured cancer. I did however watch my father die of lung cancer when I was nine. Why would I start there? Only because I think it was the biggest factor in my descent into both substance and food addiction, not to mention the interspersed bouts of chronic cardio and caloric restriction that defined the next four decades of my life.

So if my fathers demise fueled the need to bury my feelings, the Standard American Diet (SAD) provided the vehicle. Processed and fast food was a large part of my diet as a child. In hindsight processed carbohydrates became my drug of choice. I literally buried my emotions in overeating crap food. Eventually this led to unhealthy weight gain.

This transpired between my 7th and 8th grade years. Fat shaming is real. Between my 9th and 10th grade year I decided to do something about it. Enter chronic cardio and calorie restriction. Coupled with the fact I had entered puberty and the benefits of the hormones that come with that I was able to slim down. I was able to control my weight for the most part till my early twenties.

By then I was doing a stint in the US Marines and that kept me fairly fit. Soon after I got out at the age of 24 I started to have weight creep. Enter my one and only attempt at a plant based diet. I was able to lose weight eating that way, but it came at the expense of muscle loss and in the end it really wasn’t sustainable for me long term. I was still fairly active and was able to rebuild the lost muscle and continue to maintain my weight.

At 29 I changed careers and became an outside sales rep for a flooring distributor. Eating and exercise became less of a priority and I woke up one day in my early thirties at a hefty (for me ) 225 lbs. By the age of 33 I was going thru a divorce and doing what all single guys do, I decided I needed to get in shape. The only thing I knew that worked was chronic cardio and caloric restriction. That once again worked. I was able to drop the weight and get back in shape.

Back in a relationship (that I’m still in 23 years later and happily married) at the age of 36, I could no longer maintain the calorie in calorie out life style and once again my weight crept up, this time to 245 lbs. For some guys this doesn’t seem like a lot, but with my build, I was at least half body fat. Over the next decade I tried half hearted attempts at chronic cardio and caloric restriction with very limited success. In the end I would always default back to my set point in the 240s. At this point I was starting to show signs of metabolic disease. My fasted blood glucose was squarely in the pre-diabetic range and I was starting to show signs of sleep apnea. I had to have a hip replaced.

After another career change that involved less stress and travel I decided it was time to start dealing with it, but other than the calorie in and calorie out method I had no idea how. I had just turned 50 and was determined to make my 50s better then my 40s. About this time a friend convinced me to get a road bike. I did and fell in love with it. Coupled with a diet that consisted of weighing everything I was able to get under 200 lbs!

During this time I was reading a British cycling magazine called “Cycling Fitness” (no longer in publication) and it had an article about this crazy caveman diet. A few Google searches later and I landed on a website called “Mark’s Daily Apple.” That lead me to the Primal Blueprint. That was my aha moment. It all made sense! Being slightly (which may be a modest description) obsessive compulsive I devoured the Primal Blueprint and a myriad of books on the subject.

I wish I could report it was all smooth sailing from that point forward. Unfortunately I only took away part of the message. I continued to ride my bike way too hard, way to often and after a period of fantastic fitness I completely crashed and burned. Over training is for real. Along with it comes sleep issues, digestive issues and general fatigue. It’s not a simple hole to dig out of. I had managed to get my weight down to 160 lbs, but felt both weak and burnt out. I actually had friends do an intervention. They wanted to know if I was “all right.”

This all lead to a SAD food binge and before I knew it I was up to 195 lbs and climbing. I also was battling a really bad case of psoriasis. The medical industry was no help. About this time I had a bad alcohol moment. No legal trouble or abuse or anything, but I managed to totally freak my wife out and myself. That was July 1st of 2017. I decided then and there to retire from drinking and get my health back. Enter the New Revised Primal Blueprint. Once again I devoured it. This time I decided to really embrace the whole concept.

Shortly after I signed up for the Primal Health Coach certification program. Partly out of a desire to help other people to overcome their weight and health challenges and partly to keep myself on the right path. Since then I have completed the certification and have continued to embrace the lifestyle. I currently weigh 162 lbs but feel much stronger both physically and emotionally than I did when I had dropped to 160 lbs. My skin issues have resolved. Existing joint pain has diminished. My last A1c was at 5.2.

So what have I learned: • Diets don’t work, lifestyle changes do. • Food can be very addictive, treat it accordingly. If you crave it, it might be a problem. • You can’t exercise your way out of a bad diet. • Find a way to let go of old hurts, they can hold you back. • Be willing to experiment and do your own N=1. You need to find the best way of eating for you (preferably within the Primal framework). • Yes, sleep and recovery are important!

I still enjoy my time on the bike but with more of a focus on enjoying the ride. I also have had luck experimenting with the carnivore diet and although I recognize this is not the best approach for all it seems to work well for me and is a valid tool for some. I can also see a diet that leans more towards plant based working well for others. N=1 baby! A special thanks to Mark Sisson for his influence and resources.

Grok on Friends! Jim Tipton Certified Primal Health Coach

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This Was My Aha Moment!

It’s Friday, everyone! And that means another Primal Blueprint Real Life Story from a Mark’s Daily Apple reader. If you have your own success story and would like to share it with me and the Mark’s Daily Apple community please contact me here. I’ll continue to publish these each Friday as long as they keep coming in. Thank you for reading!

Cancer sucks! Not that I ever personally endured cancer. I did however watch my father die of lung cancer when I was nine. Why would I start there? Only because I think it was the biggest factor in my descent into both substance and food addiction, not to mention the interspersed bouts of chronic cardio and caloric restriction that defined the next four decades of my life.

So if my fathers demise fueled the need to bury my feelings, the Standard American Diet (SAD) provided the vehicle. Processed and fast food was a large part of my diet as a child. In hindsight processed carbohydrates became my drug of choice. I literally buried my emotions in overeating crap food. Eventually this led to unhealthy weight gain.

This transpired between my 7th and 8th grade years. Fat shaming is real. Between my 9th and 10th grade year I decided to do something about it. Enter chronic cardio and calorie restriction. Coupled with the fact I had entered puberty and the benefits of the hormones that come with that I was able to slim down. I was able to control my weight for the most part till my early twenties.

By then I was doing a stint in the US Marines and that kept me fairly fit. Soon after I got out at the age of 24 I started to have weight creep. Enter my one and only attempt at a plant based diet. I was able to lose weight eating that way, but it came at the expense of muscle loss and in the end it really wasn’t sustainable for me long term. I was still fairly active and was able to rebuild the lost muscle and continue to maintain my weight.

At 29 I changed careers and became an outside sales rep for a flooring distributor. Eating and exercise became less of a priority and I woke up one day in my early thirties at a hefty (for me ) 225 lbs. By the age of 33 I was going thru a divorce and doing what all single guys do, I decided I needed to get in shape. The only thing I knew that worked was chronic cardio and caloric restriction. That once again worked. I was able to drop the weight and get back in shape.

Back in a relationship (that I’m still in 23 years later and happily married) at the age of 36, I could no longer maintain the calorie in calorie out life style and once again my weight crept up, this time to 245 lbs. For some guys this doesn’t seem like a lot, but with my build, I was at least half body fat. Over the next decade I tried half hearted attempts at chronic cardio and caloric restriction with very limited success. In the end I would always default back to my set point in the 240s. At this point I was starting to show signs of metabolic disease. My fasted blood glucose was squarely in the pre-diabetic range and I was starting to show signs of sleep apnea. I had to have a hip replaced.

After another career change that involved less stress and travel I decided it was time to start dealing with it, but other than the calorie in and calorie out method I had no idea how. I had just turned 50 and was determined to make my 50s better then my 40s. About this time a friend convinced me to get a road bike. I did and fell in love with it. Coupled with a diet that consisted of weighing everything I was able to get under 200 lbs!

During this time I was reading a British cycling magazine called “Cycling Fitness” (no longer in publication) and it had an article about this crazy caveman diet. A few Google searches later and I landed on a website called “Mark’s Daily Apple.” That lead me to the Primal Blueprint. That was my aha moment. It all made sense! Being slightly (which may be a modest description) obsessive compulsive I devoured the Primal Blueprint and a myriad of books on the subject.

I wish I could report it was all smooth sailing from that point forward. Unfortunately I only took away part of the message. I continued to ride my bike way too hard, way to often and after a period of fantastic fitness I completely crashed and burned. Over training is for real. Along with it comes sleep issues, digestive issues and general fatigue. It’s not a simple hole to dig out of. I had managed to get my weight down to 160 lbs, but felt both weak and burnt out. I actually had friends do an intervention. They wanted to know if I was “all right.”

This all lead to a SAD food binge and before I knew it I was up to 195 lbs and climbing. I also was battling a really bad case of psoriasis. The medical industry was no help. About this time I had a bad alcohol moment. No legal trouble or abuse or anything, but I managed to totally freak my wife out and myself. That was July 1st of 2017. I decided then and there to retire from drinking and get my health back. Enter the New Revised Primal Blueprint. Once again I devoured it. This time I decided to really embrace the whole concept.

Shortly after I signed up for the Primal Health Coach certification program. Partly out of a desire to help other people to overcome their weight and health challenges and partly to keep myself on the right path. Since then I have completed the certification and have continued to embrace the lifestyle. I currently weigh 162 lbs but feel much stronger both physically and emotionally than I did when I had dropped to 160 lbs. My skin issues have resolved. Existing joint pain has diminished. My last A1c was at 5.2.

So what have I learned: • Diets don’t work, lifestyle changes do. • Food can be very addictive, treat it accordingly. If you crave it, it might be a problem. • You can’t exercise your way out of a bad diet. • Find a way to let go of old hurts, they can hold you back. • Be willing to experiment and do your own N=1. You need to find the best way of eating for you (preferably within the Primal framework). • Yes, sleep and recovery are important!

I still enjoy my time on the bike but with more of a focus on enjoying the ride. I also have had luck experimenting with the carnivore diet and although I recognize this is not the best approach for all it seems to work well for me and is a valid tool for some. I can also see a diet that leans more towards plant based working well for others. N=1 baby! A special thanks to Mark Sisson for his influence and resources.

Grok on Friends! Jim Tipton Certified Primal Health Coach

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This Was My Aha Moment!

It’s Friday, everyone! And that means another Primal Blueprint Real Life Story from a Mark’s Daily Apple reader. If you have your own success story and would like to share it with me and the Mark’s Daily Apple community please contact me here. I’ll continue to publish these each Friday as long as they keep coming in. Thank you for reading!

Cancer sucks! Not that I ever personally endured cancer. I did however watch my father die of lung cancer when I was nine. Why would I start there? Only because I think it was the biggest factor in my descent into both substance and food addiction, not to mention the interspersed bouts of chronic cardio and caloric restriction that defined the next four decades of my life.

So if my fathers demise fueled the need to bury my feelings, the Standard American Diet (SAD) provided the vehicle. Processed and fast food was a large part of my diet as a child. In hindsight processed carbohydrates became my drug of choice. I literally buried my emotions in overeating crap food. Eventually this led to unhealthy weight gain.

This transpired between my 7th and 8th grade years. Fat shaming is real. Between my 9th and 10th grade year I decided to do something about it. Enter chronic cardio and calorie restriction. Coupled with the fact I had entered puberty and the benefits of the hormones that come with that I was able to slim down. I was able to control my weight for the most part till my early twenties.

By then I was doing a stint in the US Marines and that kept me fairly fit. Soon after I got out at the age of 24 I started to have weight creep. Enter my one and only attempt at a plant based diet. I was able to lose weight eating that way, but it came at the expense of muscle loss and in the end it really wasn’t sustainable for me long term. I was still fairly active and was able to rebuild the lost muscle and continue to maintain my weight.

At 29 I changed careers and became an outside sales rep for a flooring distributor. Eating and exercise became less of a priority and I woke up one day in my early thirties at a hefty (for me ) 225 lbs. By the age of 33 I was going thru a divorce and doing what all single guys do, I decided I needed to get in shape. The only thing I knew that worked was chronic cardio and caloric restriction. That once again worked. I was able to drop the weight and get back in shape.

Back in a relationship (that I’m still in 23 years later and happily married) at the age of 36, I could no longer maintain the calorie in calorie out life style and once again my weight crept up, this time to 245 lbs. For some guys this doesn’t seem like a lot, but with my build, I was at least half body fat. Over the next decade I tried half hearted attempts at chronic cardio and caloric restriction with very limited success. In the end I would always default back to my set point in the 240s. At this point I was starting to show signs of metabolic disease. My fasted blood glucose was squarely in the pre-diabetic range and I was starting to show signs of sleep apnea. I had to have a hip replaced.

After another career change that involved less stress and travel I decided it was time to start dealing with it, but other than the calorie in and calorie out method I had no idea how. I had just turned 50 and was determined to make my 50s better then my 40s. About this time a friend convinced me to get a road bike. I did and fell in love with it. Coupled with a diet that consisted of weighing everything I was able to get under 200 lbs!

During this time I was reading a British cycling magazine called “Cycling Fitness” (no longer in publication) and it had an article about this crazy caveman diet. A few Google searches later and I landed on a website called “Mark’s Daily Apple.” That lead me to the Primal Blueprint. That was my aha moment. It all made sense! Being slightly (which may be a modest description) obsessive compulsive I devoured the Primal Blueprint and a myriad of books on the subject.

I wish I could report it was all smooth sailing from that point forward. Unfortunately I only took away part of the message. I continued to ride my bike way too hard, way to often and after a period of fantastic fitness I completely crashed and burned. Over training is for real. Along with it comes sleep issues, digestive issues and general fatigue. It’s not a simple hole to dig out of. I had managed to get my weight down to 160 lbs, but felt both weak and burnt out. I actually had friends do an intervention. They wanted to know if I was “all right.”

This all lead to a SAD food binge and before I knew it I was up to 195 lbs and climbing. I also was battling a really bad case of psoriasis. The medical industry was no help. About this time I had a bad alcohol moment. No legal trouble or abuse or anything, but I managed to totally freak my wife out and myself. That was July 1st of 2017. I decided then and there to retire from drinking and get my health back. Enter the New Revised Primal Blueprint. Once again I devoured it. This time I decided to really embrace the whole concept.

Shortly after I signed up for the Primal Health Coach certification program. Partly out of a desire to help other people to overcome their weight and health challenges and partly to keep myself on the right path. Since then I have completed the certification and have continued to embrace the lifestyle. I currently weigh 162 lbs but feel much stronger both physically and emotionally than I did when I had dropped to 160 lbs. My skin issues have resolved. Existing joint pain has diminished. My last A1c was at 5.2.

So what have I learned: • Diets don’t work, lifestyle changes do. • Food can be very addictive, treat it accordingly. If you crave it, it might be a problem. • You can’t exercise your way out of a bad diet. • Find a way to let go of old hurts, they can hold you back. • Be willing to experiment and do your own N=1. You need to find the best way of eating for you (preferably within the Primal framework). • Yes, sleep and recovery are important!

I still enjoy my time on the bike but with more of a focus on enjoying the ride. I also have had luck experimenting with the carnivore diet and although I recognize this is not the best approach for all it seems to work well for me and is a valid tool for some. I can also see a diet that leans more towards plant based working well for others. N=1 baby! A special thanks to Mark Sisson for his influence and resources.

Grok on Friends! Jim Tipton Certified Primal Health Coach

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t/a rambles 1

back on my bullshit part 1

... should look into the tactics ogre games for novel inspo bc my novel is also a political drama ... UNINTENTIONALLY actually id call it a coming of age story in rhe new adult genre since mc is probably 23-25 i have so many feelings about the novel ugh i love my ocs so much and i put them all om opposing sides for this novel the most complex relationship i have in it i think is alex and his mother or rather prince kreutzer in this au queen elaine and her son prince kreutzer .. god its so fucked up bc kreutzer loves his mother- he was largely isolated as a child and his mother was always so loving and sweet and they were so so close but the prince never knew of the shit his mother did as queen she is a tyrant she must have lost a child once. a princess, i think probably to the king who she may have ... overthrew or usurped maybe but regardless of that shes in power now and because she lost a child she became overly protective of kreu and consolidated her power heard of a plot to infiltrate her kingdom and assassinate the son of the previous tyrant king (?) and she just fucking ruled with an iron fist because she has so little trust in the goodness of people that she thinks the only way to achieve good is to force it and as a result she kills anyone who steps out of line thus making the people resent her deeply but to kreutzer shes his mother his loving and doting mother who does all she can to protect him the novel actually starts um after the queen is assassinated h a its not her story but shes a big part of it even after her death bc a big portion of the theme is like coming to terms with the complexity of individuals no one is all good or all bad and kreu starts out unable to understand this he has a very black and white view of moralitt like his mother at the beginning on his coronation day theres an assassination attempt made on him but he gets whisked away by the court jester after that a coup is staged and rebels take over the country and the prince is forced to hide with a traveling circus that the jester brings him to where every performer... is a fugitive or criminal! and thats where his personal growth really begins bc he learns abt these people and realizes his world view was wrong people are complex people do bad things... for just reasons and vice versa esp Keith who makes a major appearance in the novel his entire bg story takes place outside the novel as well hahaha but its a lot after a raid on his village, hes orphaned along w his little sister who is ill so to make ends meet / buy medicine he does literally every fucking crime under the sun starting off with petty theft and scaling up to murder literally sacrificing every last shred of innocence he has for the sake of his ailing sister who... dies anyway! and im thinking, tbh, its a fantine/cosette/thenardiers type sitch where this quack doctor is basically scamming him except instead of fantine dying cosette does anyway thats where he fucking hits rock bottom he could handle things as long as he had someone to fight for you know he was alright with it bc his sister was there, his saving grace but when she dies hes all alone thats probably when lydia finds him i imagine he would he on the verge of suicide or at the very least dying of self imposed starvation and neglect but honestly probably suicide julie's death on top of the crushinf weight of all the crimes hes committed the innocence he lost, the lives he took its just way too much and hes just a naive kid lydia finds him and takes him back to the circus takes care of him gives him food and water and shelter and slowly tries to reach him slowly teaching him that there is still life to be lived that he is so young, and it is far too soon for him to lay down and die that he should live for his dead family, because that is what they would want to keep their memory alive in his heart and he begins to come around slowly starts doing chores for the troup then he finally sees one of their performances acrobats and the trapeze and the glitz and the glamor its the first time in years where he ... wasnt thinking about his dead sister or his trauma he asks lydia to teach him how to "do that" he says while pointing at the stage and so she does and ever since then hes taken up performing full time as a .. daredevil type act doing outrageously dangerous things for the thrill of it it excites him, the risk he loves to see how close to the edge of death he can walk without falling and it fuels him makes him enjoy being alive again and he's.. happy god by the time you meet keith in the novel he's just this happy go lucky teen with this smugness about him a kind of dangerousness belying a sweet exterior he's all jokes and laughs at this point and you'd never be able to tell what he went thru at first glance or at all really bc honestly, at this point he honest to god is okay lies and dirt - Last Thursday at 6:00 AM he... doesnt need anyone's pity. he doesn't need anything but the feeling of being alive now and one of the major points of the novel is prince kreu's relationship with him... bc at first they really clash and kreu is just... he's a fucking criminal and all of then deserve to hang keith plays this off w jokes at first but kreu keeps being antagonistic bc he just cant believe a criminal like him is getting away without punishment but then one day keith snaps at him knife to the prince's throat dangerous, cat like eyes, the usual smile on his face no where to be found you're right. i'm a thief. a liar. a criminal. a murderer. i'm all those things. but i'll tell you one thing, prince: i'm not worthless. he pulls the knife away and walks off leaving the prince stunned after this lydia talks to kreu explaining that maybe he shouldn't judge keith so quickly hinting that the circumstances of his life were... not ideal when i first found him, he was already half dead. perhaps not physically, but in the eyes. you could see the reaper in them. hhmgmgn i need to think more abt the circumstances around this scene ah keith must have been looking for a good place to die

the music from the circus reminded him of better days, when he played songs with his family. i imagine him.. outside the tent, somewhere obscured and there's music flowing from its interior... he's tired. he sits down against a barrel and he's been starving, exhausted... letting sleep take him away on the songs from the circus back to a time he used to be happy...

lydia fines him and shakes him but his eyes look glassy and he's unresponsive

he's taken poison must have been something from his former days working as an assassin something he saved for himself just in case and that's when lydia takes him in and nurses him back to health she's a water mage w healing capabilities so she's able to do it and i imagine at first keith is hurt, angry why am i still alive? i im fucking myself up in the feels i hate this THIS ISNT EBEN IN THE FUCKINF BOOK IT ALL HAPPENS BEFORE IT KEITJS NOT THE MAIN CHARACTER HERE BUT IM SO FUCKED UP ugh after kreutzer learns a bit abt keiiths origins he actually thinks a lot. and tries to make amends. apologizes to keith who doesnt say anything much he's sitting, eyes away from the prince, fiddling with the knives he uses for his performances

"a raid took my parents away. illness took away my sister."

"i did a lot of things for money. most of it i'm not proud of. but i would have done anything to save her... you know?"

"you've got someone you love too, don't you?" kreutzer thinks of his mother. the surrogate brother who disappeared on him and never returned "i do." "then, you get it." after this they start to really bond almost as siblings.. which is really funny bc kreutzer doesnt need to be protective of keith keith can MORE THAN take care of himself but its new for kreutzer to feel.. responsibility for someone else like this he was always the one protected before keith laughs at this a lot what're you trying to do? be my big bro? but secretly he ...really likes having family again as idiotic as kreutzer is ofc lydia has always been there for him but as a surrogate mother an older sib is new and.. kind of nice in canon modern au they really are basically bros LOL actually cousins via mothers but alex/kreu goes to live w keiths family after his mom (lain) dies so they essentially grow up like brothers i didn't even get started w the fucking mess that is alan and kreutzer alan goes by calisto also and he hes the court jester but he was trained from a young age as a snake in the kings court he was supposed to kill the prince when the time was right but alan and his dumb fucking gay ass FALLS IN LOVE WITH HIM INSTEAD spoiler alert: its unrequited btwn alex and alan is NEVER requited in ALL aus its because alan ... doesnt love himself at all. he has no sense of... purpose or identity alex can never love someone like that but either way he becomes the prince's personal servant and entertainer and this idiot falls for him the naivete he displays, the timid stateliness, the unfitting title of prince bestowed on his shoulders- kreutzer is far too soft to be the leader of this kingdom and alan increasingly has the desire to protect him even as kreu grows older and more skilled in his studies there is always the anxious trepidation they also grow up together from around ages 11-present at the time of the novels start god alan loves him so much it hurts me but its so one sided alex loves cyrus in modern au ): alan could never be more than just a phase tbh poor guy alan and his low self esteem and depression the worst part of this thougg is that because alan feels aimless and without purpose when he falls for kreutzer he ... finally has his OWN cause to fight for and he takes it to the extreme betraying everyone that trusted him to do his job for the sake of a man who wont ever love him it bites him in the ass too bc i kill him off as a catalyst for other stuff h ahahahhahahahahahahaha not just kill him off but horribly because HE FUCKING BETRAYED HIS ENTIRE SIDE THEY ARE, UNDERSTANDABLY, PISSED Alan is so fuckong flawed hes a fuckinf mess and i love it ugh im thinkijg of another scene in the novel once kreutzer gets captured bt the coup rebels he actuallt submits himself voluntarily bc keith gets kidnapped and used as ransom keith tells him hes a fucking idiot keiths life doesnt matter dont fucking come for me! but kreu doesnt listen obviously and they torture kreutzer bc i love suffering and after that they make him listen in a mock trial to the testimonials of all the people hurt by his mother death to the queen! death to elaine of koel! all the horrible stories of lives unjustly cut short because of his mother it breaks him because he loves his mother so much but she's done all these horrible things he doesn't know what to do how to make amends the damage was done and he takes their wrath their scorn and anguish and i'm sorry as if sorry could ever fix anything but it is his burden to carry, his punishment to suffer in place of the queen ironically this makes lilya have a change of heart she was infiltrating the queens court just as alan did and she is directly responsible for her death her assassination, i think or the king's? either way shes part of the rebel forces and she DESPISES the queen good fucking riddance as far as she's concerned that woman made her life hell(edited) so she can rot in it for all lilya cares for but seeing kreutzer there bloodied tortured sobbing broken and taking the punishment doled out to him without so much as a word of protest(edited) she thinks... this... isnt right this is wrong. because kreutzer was not responsible for the sins of his mother as much as people want to blame him, take out their anger on him lilya was at first all gung ho about ending the royal bloodline lies and dirt - Last Thursday at 7:02 AM but she reconsiders this moment feels something tugging at her this isnt right

she remembers her sister back at the circus— lydia. who she always loved dearly but clashed with, leading to her abandoning the circus and joining the rebellion.

retribution is deserved, but should it be served? what then makes us different from our oppressors?

or sth like that so she rescues kreutzer takes him back to the circus. and reunites with her sister after so many years after that ik not entirely sure what to do w the novel LOL bc i know there has to he a big battle bc the rebellion forces begin to quell opposition like how the communist regime in other countries started in ernest bc people felt oppressed but then they went too far and started culling the middle class so then kreutzer leads his own rebellion force against them to take back the country then once he wins he uses his kinghood to dissolve the monarchy and embrace democracy instead asking lydia to lead hes much too tired to lead, and she is much better suited for it but hm inhabe to think more about that entire segment after this he takes over lydias spot in the circus as its owner and organizer and with keith he spends the rest of his days helping people just like keith also they properly mourn alans death it takes forever for kreu to come to terms w his mothers assassination and crimes he probably never truly works it out but he begins to be able to recognize that she is both the tyrant queen and his loving mother that they do not cancel eachother out, that they are not mutually exclusive they are one in the same UGH IM SO UPSET I WISH ID FUCKING WRITE THIS BC I WANT TO FUCKING READ IT the message i wanna convey is like people.. are complex, imperfect, and the systems they create are also subjected to that but everyone does things for a reason. no matter what that reason is and i want lydia to address this too when she becomes the new prime minister of koel a democracy is not perfect, because man is not perfect. there will be hardship, mistakes made along the way. but together we can grow, improve, and learn about one another— and better our society for it. and i believe anywhere injustice goes, justice will always follow(edited) sth like that ig

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Should I visit New Orleans during the Coronavirus Pandemic?

More than ever now, people are asking me, “Hello. I wanted to ask you about New Orleans right now how is it with all this COVID 19 stuff. I was thinking about a vacation down there, but trying to see if it’s even worth it?” My initial response is, “It depends on what you want to experience.” And more often than not, the person would end our conversation with, “I hope I get to meet you when I’m there.” I found myself repeating myself daily, so I decided I would blog about it.

As I mentioned, it really depends on the what’s and why’s of your visit. What type of New Orleans experience did you plan on having? And why are you traveling to New Orleans?

Laissez less bons temps rouler???

The good news is if you are like me and absolutely love everything about New Orleans and want to dig deep into the heart and soul of New Orleans, I say, “Laissez les bons temps rouler.”

I’ll be straight up with you; New Orleans is not the Party City USA; it was before Coronavirus. We are currently in Phase 2 and staying until the end of August. Phase took looks like this; NO PARTYING, NO Nightlife, absolutely NO walking down Bourbon St or thru the French Quarter with a Hurricane or Daiquiri. There’s a restriction on all ToGo Cups, meaning you can not go into any bar or daiquiri shop and walk out with a drink. If you want to drink, you must stay inside that establishment, and many are closed or have a cap on how many customers they can serve. Therefore, if you were planning to party, club hop down Frenchmen to hear a live band, walk down a jammed pack drunken crowd down Bourbon or show off your footwork at a New Orleans Secondline, I suggest you postpone your trip.

The time is now!

Right now is a perfect time to Experience New Orleans! If you ever been here, especially during the festival season, you know to allot for drivetime and waiting in line during your stay. It’s hard to believe that there are no crowds, no wait, and no traffic in New Orleans at this moment. Imagine making reservations at one of New Orleans’s top restaurants and being seated as soon as you arrive. I went to the Country Club a few times, and we had the entire courtyard to ourselves, including the pool and jacuzzi! Restaurants are sending out the freshest, hottest, and tastiest food than ever. I was given 5-star treatment at the Hilton riverside during my weekend staycation, and parking was free!

I can go on about feeling like a Diva while Being a Tourist in New Orleans, but the reality of it all is all this fabulous treatment means businesses are losing money, and our tourism industry is at risk. I think…And this is why I say come to those of you who want to get to know my city.

Come get lost in New Orleans.

The city will open up to revealing all of her joys, secrets, and treasures. As you walk down our beautiful old streets, you will realize that you made the right choice to visit. New Orleans has a rich history and culture that you can explore, be it on a walking tour or going to a museum.

Redecouvrez $3,000.00 – $5,000.00 Redecouvrez is a French word meaning “to rediscover.” For many New Orleanians, the task of rebuilding has been a process of rediscovering a great city. The artist cleverly tells the Katrina story using only four houses. Giclee measures 23.5 x 44 and is signed.

I believe the only way to experience New Orleans is on foot. I do not drive in the city. I either walk it out or bus it, and I love it as it allows me to truly enjoy the perks of living in such a vibrant town. I always discover things that are hidden in plain view. The architecture of the city, the small intricate details that had to been done with a tried aching hand, or retracing my playful childhood steps makes for the perfect day. Plus, while I’m out, I’m always taking pictures, and I get to look back and see just how beautiful New Orleans is. So, make sure to snap as you go through the city and pay attention, search high and low as you will discover the true meaning of New Orleans.

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Cemeteries are big with tourist, I grew up with them being on my block and do not understand why someone would want to visit a tomb of someone they do not know, but I know how they can pull you in. I spent my childhood using the exits as shortcuts, and the cemetery was the backdrop for Spooky Hide in Seek. There are cemeteries you can visit for free, but everyone flocks to St. Louis #1 Cemetery because Marie Laveau and other NOLA Icons are buried there.

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Befriend a local

New Orleans is only what she is because of the locals, so if you have a friend here, you’re good! New Orleanians makes New Orleans come alive, we give her a heartbeat, a soul and a voice. Nothing compares to visiting  New Orleans and being greeted by a thick accent welcoming you to the city, and sadly this is what you will miss. To Experience New Orleans, you need a local to shine the way. Interacting with the locals is what makes New Orleans one of the top traveled cities in the world. It doesn’t matter if you do not know anyone personally. Still, engaging with the hotel housekeeper, taxi driver, bartender, and all those who are working to make your trip sooo New Orleans is crucial to your vacation. I highly recommend joining a NOLA social media group, be a follow a blogger and New Orleans fueled hashtags and engage in the conversation. I have befriended several people. Actually, I have a few good friends through sharing my NOLA experiences on social media.

Be a Foodie

If, by chance, you are reading this between Saturday, August 1 – Sunday, September 13, 2020, you will be pleased to hear that the annual Coolinary New Orleans Restaurant month is happening now. Coolinary New Orleans, the yearly summer dining promotion, returns at a time when restaurants need help the most.

https://www.neworleans.com/coolinary/

But even if the date has passed and you are a foodie, it’s your time to eat your way through New Orleans! Find small local, family-owned restaurants, eateries, snowball stands, and bars is a great way to help these small business owners keep their doors open. There’s no going wrong with eating in New Orleans, besides a few pounds, but embrace the NOLA weight! It means you were having the time of your life!

  Restaurant Review of the Desire Oyster Bar coming soon

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  Stay and Shop Local

If you follow me, you know, I’m anti-Airbnb, but some New Orleans homeowners have been able to benefit from the business, but not as many as those who live out of town even as far as overseas! By staying in the community, you will have the feeling of living like a local, but you have to really want to experience that lifestyle. It makes no sense to book an Airbnb in an urban community and go from the car to the door and repeat. Venture out, if only sitting on the porch and speak to your temporary neighbors. New Orleanians typically lookout for those on their block and may have a relationship with the owner, which is great for you, so speak. A simple smile, wave, and hello will do. Hospitality is a must in New Orleans. We give it and love it in return.

After you did your research about the neighborhood, I suggest you venture out to the cornerstone, a local boutique, nail salon, or neighborhood bar. Many small businesses may not have popped up on your internet search, and the only way to find them is to go out or ask a local. New Orleans has Kid ran businesses, and they would love your patronage! There may be a Pop Up Shop where you can find everything New Orleans from crafts to tasty pralines. You may have a day where you want to relax in the backyard or porch, listening to our local radio station. On those days, you may want to walk to the corner store, which is actually part liquor store. Every New Orleans neighborhood has a cornerstone or gas station where you can get you some delicious cheap eats, including $1.99 breakfast platters, seafood po’boys, and other local favorites.

$1.99 #nolabreakfast: Grits, scrambled eggs & hot sausage patty. I had to get a donut & Im counting my #pineapplebigshot as juice 🤔😂 To all yall tourist, you can get this at any corner store, there’s the Basin St. Market right off Canal.

Support your local corner store!! Yall want a meat special, chicken wings, pig lip? Come holla at me lmao.

  NOLA is Family Friendly

It’s also a great time to bring the kids. Bourbon Street is clean enough to eat on, and it’s basically sin-free. All of the Audubon Institutes are open, such as Audubon Zoo and The Aquarium of America, but reservations are needed. Museums are open, and so are the parks. City Park is open but not Storyland, which is my favorite, but you can do outdoor activities like canoeing, paddle boating, and bike riding.

  My Baby Girl enjoyed walking down Bourbon Street! The few times I brought her down Bourbon Street were usually during parade season, and we would walk so fast all she remembers was walking on beads and a thick crowd, but this time she was able to leisurely stroll down the street, and she made sure to walk smack dead in the middle of the street. She danced to the beat of the teen boy drumming his bucket, and she proudly gave him a tip 💵 Yes, she is definitely a #nolakid 🥰⚜️🎭🥁✨

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New Orleans and COVID-19

Lastly and most importantly is that you follow all of the Corovirus guidelines from the CDC and for our city. Our mayor, Mayor Latoya Cantrell, is not playing about the safety of all her citizens and visitors. She will shut it down and bring up back to Phase 1 if the numbers increase. Research is essential here, because we may not be in the same phase as your town. Bring a mask, a few masks to be precise, as masks are required inside every building. Make sure to practice social distancing and proper and frequent handwashing, and all will be fine.

Make sure to visit the City of New Orleans’s website at https://ready.nola.gov/home/ for the latest Coronavirus information. And remember, we are in Phase Two through August 2020.

 Phase Two: Safer at Home

Continue to stay home except for essential needs and other permitted activities on a limited basis.

Everyone must wear a mask or face covering when performing activities in public.

Practice social distancing, wash hands often, and frequently disinfect surfaces.

Let me add that from my own experience as well as in hearing, the airlines require a mask, but social distancing is not put in place as we were told. Planes are at capacity flying into the city more than out I here I was traveling with my family so having someone in the middle seat was ok, but I do not know how I would feel if it wasn’t my family. I’m going to Chicago, so I’ll let yall know if I had an anxiety attack.

As always, practice personal safety.

If you practice safety awareness, you will have the upper hand no matter what city you live in or the towns you visit. Really, it all comes down to this. If you feel like you’re somewhere, you shouldn’t be, then leave. Don’t carry cash or show off, aka flaunt your stuff.

Here’s a short video of me speaking on safety here in New Orleans, as well as things happening on my block today.

    New Orleans is full of incredible life adventures outside of what you see during the Mardi Gras season. So, come on down and get drunk off New Orleans without indulging in liquor! Yes, come on down, let the essence of the city intoxicate you! Come get drunk in love off the spirit of New Orleans as you take in all that she is. Bring your significant other it will make for the perfect romantic vacation!

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