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tldr; how rio went back to being a shinobi
rio: some of us have separate lives, you know! i can't just drop everything to become a medic again just because you asked me t—
tae, a little quieter: oh. sorry for bothering you, then. i'll be on my way.
[ rio dropped everything to become a medic-nin again ]
#cebrambles#naruto#naruto oc#taeru#rio#the fact that they were a successful oiran#raking in more income than the average person would#ever see in their lifetime#to go back to the front lines#all for this man#risking their beauty. life and limb#is it loyalty. is it love#is this what the kids call#being down bad#but seriously rio would sooner#watch konoha burn than willfully upset someone so important#like tae#the only reason why they haven't is bc#it would in fact. upset him
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Some fun Heartbroken trivia:
There is an older Nicholas and a younger Nicholas and they may have the same or similar powers
“He did. Guillaume and Nicholas... Nicholas just wallops you with pants-shitting waves of terror...” ... “...I would’ve done it even if my big brothers weren’t coming for me, but I joined the Nine.”
Worm 11.g
...the younger Heartbroken in line. Flor, Nicholas, Amias, Candy, and Darlene. ... ...the young ones, but Nicholas and Amias weren’t that into this particular game.
Ward 10.x
“You guys were busy helping Nathan after Nicholas got mad and terror-waved him.”
Ward 10.z
Older Nicholas and Guillaume aren't mentioned again after Cherie's interlude in Worm and Guillaume is only mentioned once in Ward
By the time he had her, he was bored enough with children that he didn’t pay her much mind. You broke that ground, he got bored because he paid that attention to you. You, Cherie, Jean-Paul, Valentina, Guillaume. Trying to break you, trying to make you trigger. Trying to make you soldiers. Or just the days he was an asshole who wanted to hurt someone and you were the first person he saw after the impulse crossed his mind.
Ward 20.e2
There may have been a fifth sibling with powers who, by the time Cherie escapes, are (most likely) dead and Alec doesn't know
“...I was his fourth kid to show powers...”
Worm 7.1
Alec knows that Nicholas and Cherie have powers, so it goes: Unknown, Cherie, Nicholas, and then Alec. In Cherie's interlude...
“But it didn’t happen. Time passed, he never made a push for it. Guillaume got his power, you know. Ten or so of us kids, and three of us could control people one way or another. Four if we count you...”
Cherie mentions Guillaume having a power like it's news to Alec. Taking both Alec and Cherish's words together the order should be: Unknown, Cherie, Nicholas (these three can be shuffled around), then Alec, and lastly Guillaume.
Cherie doesn't seem to count Unknown among the active kids, keeping the count to four same as Alec, implying that Unknown died in between Alec running away and his encounter with Cherish in Brockton Bay.
Also, just for fun, the ages of the five seem to be: Nicholas and Guillaume as the oldest (20+ in 2011), Cherie as the next (20 in 2011), and then Alec (15 in 2011). Unknown is unknown so throw them anywhere. Maybe between Alec and Cherie to explain the five year gap between them.
#parahumans#worm#ward#do these count as spoilers?#worm spoilers#ward spoilers#alec vasil#theory time#cherie describes heartbreaker as getting angry after alec left and worse when they couldn't retrieve him#so chances are he took out his anger on the ones who failed. the older sibs. gonna say Unknown died for alec getting away#either as punishment or HB sent them on more dangerous jobs that got them eventually which is why they aren't shown later on#maybe unknown's death was part of the reason cherie left. in addition to the failing to get an actress thing that got mentioned#or maybe cherie killed unknown on her way out and just didn't mention it#dunno. haven't really thought about it or heartbroken dynamics that much#since in ward it seems like the nicholas that shows up is only the younger one i'm assuming the older one is dead. same with guillaume#so either HB renamed a younger kid after nicholas the first or he didn't notice he used the same name twice#btw for the guillaume and nicholas mentions i just used site: bc worm and ward are way too long for anything else
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as of ten minutes ago we are officially Jobless™️. my sign to retire early and devote the remainder of my existence to writing toxic old man yaoi
#pennforyourthoughts#personal#someone rb this with silly tags i feel it deserves some levity#warning: novel-length tags lmfao#THEY TOLD ME TODAY MY LAST DAY IS FRIDAY? that's only two whole workdays for me HELLO??#knew it was coming bc they let my friend go two weeks ago and he had more seniority than me but jfc#at least let me ride out the contract till november. WHY. i JUST went back to uni i need money goddamn it#full disclosure tho i haven't been able to stop laughing bc so much of the surrounding circumstances are insanely funny to me#1) i was LITERALLY at a job fair yesterday and I almost considered not going bc I was so damn tired#surprisingly made some really great connections so ty universe now i have people to poke in the coming months#2) i switched from part time to ft course load at the last second and have been regretting it ever since but if im to be unemployed then#MAYBE now I can actually handle the uni workload :D#3) when my boss called me she asked how ive been and i told her i was sooo sick last week and got into a car accident#that same day omw back from uni (universal karma for skipping class for my health ig)#THE WAY SHE PAUSED ON CALL IS SO FUNNY IN RETROSPECT. was prolly thinking fuck. now i have to add to this#she literally went “omg im so sorry...anyways i have bad news”#im not even lying when i say i was GIGGLING through that whole call she was so concerned#love her bc she genuinely tried to fight for me and is the reason i wasn't let go two weeks ago but man. the timing is impeccable#also don't think i get any unemployment benefits bc i was temp contract and my situation as a whole is a bit complicated so YAY :DDD#the way i ran to my bestie to spill the tea & we're over here like 🤝 fired buddies 🤝 time to speed run job interviews while juggling uni
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trying not to jinx it but we're going mushing tomorrow and the trails are 1.) groomed but 2.) not open to snowmobiles yet and 3.) it's gonna be cold af (means empty of all other users usually). so promising.
#dogblr#working season 23 24#great conditions we've had snow all week#i'm just....#must push past my nervousness and just do it bc it could be my only chance to get the sled out this winter#supposed to have rain next week#also 'darkwood why are you nervous? '#bc this will be sigurd's first run after his injury and i haven't run three dogs for awhile#i was doing really good earlier this season moving past my confidence knock but it kinda comes up again sometimes#not as bad as last year i'll say#mostly just have to dig down and get on with it and release the brake and let the dogs do what they want to do#which is run#once we get out there i'm like 'oh' i worried for no reason lol
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the prices cotton on charge for their badly made fast fashion clothing are diabolical
#i don't shop there bc even ignoring the fast fashion aspect i haven't vibed w the style in like 10 years#but my quest for a basic pair of black jeans forced me into the shop#(where i did finally find a pair so.)#tumblr user you will be in one of the biggest malls in the subregion with an unlimited budget to find a decent pair of black jeans#is this a reasonable quest? (answer: no. why is everything stretch)#fieldnotes#but i'm sorry R400???? for a shitty t shirt?? are they out of their minds???#i can only assume it's the aud to zar conversion but also. what the hell
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i have never played baldur's gate 3 but he's mesmerizing
bonus astarion-from-memory under the cut!
#baldur's gate 3#bg3#bg3 astarion#astarion#idk what else tags to add uhh#but i will say the only reason why i haven't played bg3 is bc my pc would spontaneously combust before reaching the title menu
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Timeline - Iruka Umino
(I’ve just compiled information from various pre-existing timelines, so credits go to the Seelentau timeline and @keepyourpantsongohan’s one!!)
I added events I thought relevant to Iruka’s story (whether because it impacted Konoha or Iruka personally). I calculated the ages by taking the Databook ages and correlating them with the first appearances in the manga which is why it sometimes differs from the other timelines (ex: Yugao is said to be 22 in the first Databook, but her birthday is on November 3rd, and her first apparition is during the Chūnin exams in July-August. Therefore, I consider her to have turned 22 the year before).
I’ve checked this timeline a few times, but there may still be errors (or simplifications), so don’t hesitate to point them out and I’ll correct them!
Year 0 : Iruka is born (May 26).
Kohari and Ikkaku Umino are 34-35.
The Third Shinobi War begins. Around this year, Kushina (13-14) is kidnapped by shinobi from Kumo and rescued by Minato (13-14).
September 15 : Kakashi turns 5.
Kakashi becomes Genin.
Year 1 :
May 26 : Iruka turns 1.
September 15 : Kakashi turns 6.
Kakashi becomes Chūnin.
Year 2 :
May 26 : Iruka turns 2.
Sakumo Hatake (around 40) commits suicide.
Kakashi’s generation becomes Genin : Genma (10), Guy (7), Ebisu (10), Shizune (10), Asuma (9), Kurenai (9).
Year 5-6 :
Iruka Umino enters the Academy.
Sasuke enters the Academy at 5 and Itachi at 6. Given that war wages during Iruka’s childhood, I chose to make him enter around this age instead of later, but we have no way to confirm this.
Year 8 :
October 24 : Anko turns 10.
Anko becomes Genin.
Year 9 :
The Third Shinobi World War ends on an armistice between Konoha and Iwa, Minato becomes Hokage.
Minato is 23, Kohari and Ikkaku are 43-44.
Year 9-10 : Births of the Rookie Nine.
Year 10 :
May 26 : Iruka turns 10.
October 10 : Naruto’s birth ; Kurama is freed by Obito and attacks Konoha ; death of Kohari (45) and Ikkaku (45), as well as Minato (24), Kushina (24), Biwako (55) and many others.
Iruka’s experience of this night is depicted several times in both manga and anime, which explains the slight contradictions. The last version of the event in the manga is probably the most accurate.
Chapter 1 : Iruka is forcefully taken away from the battlefield by an unknown shinobi as he screams that his parents “are still fighting”, although it’s unclear whether he knows this for a fact or is simply in denial.
Rookie Instructor fillers : Kohari wears the traditional Konoha uniform instead of the later grey ANBU-like one (it may be attributed to Iruka’s faulty memory of the event). Iruka is sheltered with other children away from the battlefield but is implied to have escaped when he learns that the squad where his parents were fighting has been decimated. This is the last flashback we have of the event and the anime seems to imply Iruka didn’t get to see his parents again.
Chapter 503 : Kohari wears a grey uniform. She’s already on the brink of death as Ikkaku orders Iruka to flee the battlefield. Similarly to Chapter 1, Iruka is then forcefully taken away despite his protests.
The anime later faithfully animated this scene and its chronology.
October 24 : Anko turns 12.
Anko becomes Chūnin.
The Academy having been destroyed in the Kurama attack, the learning conditions of this year’s students are unclear
Year 11 :
During this year : death of Might Duy (35) protecting Guy (15), Genma (17) and Ebisu (17).
Flashbacks of Iruka joking around to amuse his comrades.
May 26 : Iruka turns 11.
June 9 : Itachi turns 7.
Itachi becomes Genin.
Around this time, flashback with Hiruzen in front of the tombstone. Hiruzen says “It’s been a year” in the English version (indicating this is after the anniversary of the attack) but “It will be a year soon” in the French version (putting the scene before the anniversary).
November 2nd : Hayate turns 12.
Hayate becomes a Genin (ID 011671)
Iruka becomes a Genin (ID 011850).
November 3rd : Yūgao turns 11.
Possibly in the same promotion [ Ninja ID indicates that they graduated after Iruka ] : Yoroi Akado (11), Iwashi (11), Izumo (12), Kotetsu (13)
Possibly in the same promotion [ No ninja ID, but same age as Iruka ] : Santa Yamanaka, Maen Nara, Iroha Hyūga
Year 12 :
November 2nd : Hayate turns 13.
Hayate becomes Chūnin.
Year 14 :
February 29 : Kabuto turns 10.
Kabuto becomes Genin (ID 012140).
Yugao (13 or 14) becomes Genin (ID 012161).
June 9 : Itachi turns 10.
Itachi becomes Chūnin.
Year 16 :
April : Sasuke (5) enters the Academy, Itachi (10) becomes ANBU.
May 26 : Iruka turns 16.
Iruka becomes Chūnin.
July 23rd : Sasuke turns 6.
October 10 : Naruto turns 6.
Year 16-20 : Iruka (16-20) becomes a teacher at the Academy (in this post, I tried to pinpoint at what age Iruka might have become a teacher).
Year 18 :
Itachi (13) and Obito (22-23) massacre the Uchiha clan.
Sasuke is 7, Mikoto is 35, Fugaku is 40.
The event happens between the 9th of June (Itachi’s 13th birthday) and the 23rd of July (Sasuke’s 8th birthday).
Academy days : Iruka teaches Naruto, Shikamaru, Chōji and Kiba the leaf exercice ; flashback of the Academy fight between Naruto and Sasuke
Year 22 :
May 26 : Iruka turns 22.
Year 23 :
Naruto Part I begins.
January 1st : Guy turns 26.
January : events of the first chapters. Naruto (12) discovers he is the host of Kyūbi during the incident with Mizuki (27).
May 26 : Iruka turns 23.
June 11th : Kurenai turns 27.
June 24 : Hiruzen announces the upcoming Chūnin exams. All 3 rookie jōnin-sensei enter their students despite Iruka’s protests.
The Chūnin exams begin on the 1st of July and end on the 1st of August. Orochimaru attacks Konoha.
August 3rd : Funeral for the Third Hokage
Following the destruction of Konoha, every shinobi (including teachers) has to get back in the field and take missions again.
Unclear for how long: in the third Databook, Iruka has completed 3 additional D-rank, 5 C-rank and 16 B-rank missions before being back at the Academy.
End of the year : Naruto and Sasuke fight at the Valley of the End, Sasuke leaves Konoha to join Orochimaru, Naruto leaves with Jiraiya.
Year 25 : The Konoha 11 become Chūnin.
Year 26 :
Naruto (15) and Jiraiya come back to Konoha.
May 26 : Iruka turns 26.
Year 27 :
Pain attack on Konoha.
October 8 : The Third Shinobi War begins ; Iruka goes to Island Turtle to try and keep Naruto out of the war.
Morning of October 10 : The War ends, everyone awakes from the Infinite Tsukuyomi.
Naruto discovers he has to take classes for two years with Iruka’s help.
Year 28 : Kakashi (32) becomes Hokage ; Sasuke (18) leaves Konoha.
Year 29 : Events of Naruto: The Last.
Year 30 :
Some time before the wedding, Naruto asks Iruka to stand as his father at the wedding.
Naruto and Hinata’s wedding.
March 27 : Boruto is born.
Year 31-39 : At some point, Iruka (31-39) becomes Headmaster of the Academy.
Year 32 : Himawari is born.
Year 35 : Naruto (24-25) becomes Hokage.
Year 39 :
End of the year : Chapter 700, epilogue.
Iruka is 39.
Year 42 : Boruto’s generation (12) graduates.
At some point, Iruka takes care of Sarada while Sasuke and Sakura are on a mission ; he teaches her how to cook? I honestly have no idea when the novels happen and what’s going on in them and at this point I’m too afraid to ask.
Don’t even ask me about Boruto.
From left to right : 5-10 yo ; 10 yo (Kurama attack) ; 10-11 yo (Academy) ; 10-11 yo (Academy) ; 12-16 yo (before or newly Chūnin) ; 16-20 yo (young teacher) ; 22 yo (Part I) ; 26-27 yo (Pain attack) ; 27 yo (Fourth Shinobi War) ; 29-30 yo (Naruto’s wedding) ; 39 (Chapter 700)
#(edit: i think the nice list editing doesn't work on the dashboard only on the blog's web page!)#(so i recommend you read this post from alichiraku.com)#dude barely changes in 15 years and then boruto happens for some reason#ok i'm finally posting this but i haven't checked it in a while so. we'll see how it goes#(< said casually but my perfectionism is killing me)#mine#iruka umino#timeline#i'll probably try to post a timeline for kohari and ikkaku even though i'm probably its main user#i've said it before but i just love trying to understand konoha and its history/inner workings through iruka's eyes#he's lived through so many fascinating moments of konoha's history but most importantly he hasn't lived them!!#he's a witness in the most tragic and pathetic way bc he doesn't even know half of what went on#and can't make sense of what he did live through. there will always be a beast covering the night sky and he's not even allowed to ask why#iruka man... iruka#naruto
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I don’t get why ppl keep saying bkdk is dead or Horikoshi broke off bkdk. If that were true, this extra would look very different as you pointed out multiple times. The extra was still heavily focused on them and I hate how ppl are letting one no dictate the entire relationship. Izuku asks him to be a special lecturer too. I think the no just needs more clarification but other than that it is mostly fine. If a ship were to be shut down by the creator, it would look very different. Same logic for if a ship were to be canon, it would look different than what we got in the end for izu///ocha. This extra was bad in different ways from ships. It was just a whole lot of nothing that doesn’t meaningfully add anything to the story but I guess we shouldn’t be surprised since it is an extra. It is still an ambiguous ending that can be pretty fixable by one shots by Horikoshi in the future or even better by fanfiction lol. Except for the Toga part. That is just inexcusable
himiko-chan :(
and yeah! like even tho 431 is terrible not only for pairs but also for the whole story, it only confirmed Katsuki feels something really strong for deku and he doesnt notice bc he doesnt consider himself to be that great; they keep talking, and they keep being in each other's lives with no problem -they also imply they will work on communicating their feelings, as the special lecture is about this topic and deku also thinks katsuki doesnt see himself in a high regard. This is actually something that could be used in the future, as their relationship and arc isnt completely finished -in the way that they arent at a point of no miscommunication, no yearning, etc. They still need something to work with in regards to themselves and each other in the process. When it comes to midoriya and uraraka, idk what exactly could develop from what 431 tell us -seems to be mostly about paying attention to the ppl in your life instead of just letting life happen I guess? But idk what conversation or arc they could have together that wasn't resolved already, it was a really weird choice to focus on them as if there needs to be more explored -which is why choosing to not make them talk to each other nor think of the other in these years is potentially interesting, like the only way they could actually need to talk things up or have a separated special moment is if they just stop being friends and want to talk more from now on. Like, if they kept their friendship these years and were part of the other's life, there wouldnt be a moment like this at all.
I think it hurt mostly ochako -and deku if we interpret it as "deku just wants to be teacher, he is super happy about it, and loveeees so much his ex bestie after 8 years of no contact and never thinking about her"-, more than the bkdk relationship.
It would be interesting to see those one shots, if he does them -I know he said he wanted to do more things and little drawings and content for it, but idk if he will do something elaborate or just one page of something silly. I think he still has to opportunity of working with the material and make something at least not this bad -or completely ignore 431 and just continue with their adventures like 430 implies lol If he wants to double down with the "romance" I have no idea how he could do it with what he has tbh, unless he just ignores the plot and their personalities.
#grrr talking#thanks bc I was getting a little crazy like wowowowow am I just making things up in my head???#I think bkdk keep having romantic connotation even if deku is so clueless#and while is sad to see them be insecure about themselves I think they do have reasons to do this more than ochako#she did learn her lesson with 429 and talked things with deku already -which is why you had to make them go no contact for them to even#have a “moment” -there was no need for them to develop anything with their friendship. and it still ended in a friendly note#while katsuki and deku never got to actually talk about their feelings alone#nor discussed all the trauma related to each other -the quirklessness the war shigaraki killing him the guilt over so many things#deku on another hand doesnt really have much to tell uraraka that would fit them as there wasn't a moment the war actually involved them tr#truly besides the himiko moment -which would lead to himiko's love for ochako and while this could be used to make her confess#its really... bad honestly considering thats the only thing that relates them -another girl who loves both#there wasn't a moment of him paying special attention to her in a romantic coded way and everything was just... pretty friendly honestly#while the war directly involved katsuki being targeted for being the closest to deku of them all#I makes sense for them to need to talk about this in comparison#what deku as a character needs is to consider why he doesnt see himself as important and why isnt he allowed to accept more for him than#what he got#and I just dont see how this could work with her considering they dont have a real friendship anymore#I cant see neither trying to push the other into being honest about hidden feelings for the other bc... why would they have that?#and why wouldnt they just talk about it before? as I said their arc was really done before the extra#which is why you had to make them lose their friendship and want to talk more from now on -bc if they keep being friends there wouldnt be#any moment that could be ambiguous enough#but with katsuki there are things left unsaid even when keeping in contact that involve each other and their self esteem#meaning they need to work in their communication#with 431 deku “going for” uraraka doesnt come off as “him choosing himself” and “living his life”#bc it was a decision that didnt involve any internal discussion about why he is the way he is#its not framed as him finally choosing for himself or being selfish -he just found her in his way home and wanted to talk more after no con#contact#he is still insecure about his needs and doesnt understand what katsuki means when he talks in such abstract ways#its not like he understood “oh I have to choose someone” or “I have to find my special person” bc he wasn't embarrassed about wanting to t#talk to her -he loves everyone yeah but he wants to talk to her more (they haven't talked to each other in so many years!)
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At Canada 2017 when the global TV feed cuts to Lewis' onboard camera as he drives down the pits to parc fermé you can see Niki at the Mercedes pit wall with his arms open wide when he sees Lewis' car
#😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#the only reason why I haven't included Niki in TRoS a lot is bc I find it very difficult to write Merc Niki bc he's not around anymore#like.... Mercedes loved him so much and vice versa#idk how I could write any of that without making myself depressed#(chapter writing is going GREAT btw)
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absolutely fascinating conclusion i am coming to, unsure how to feel about it
#can't confirm it but it does really come across like my sis and her gf are now actively avoiding talking to me#which..... ok????#like i... sort of understand but at the same time... literally why#also that shit kinda hurts 👌#and i love that we only play games when THEY want to anyway but thats been an ongoing issue#should i message them? probably. will i? probably not.#if they want space then fine#i can only think of one reason WHY they would want that and quite frankly? its a kinda dumb reason#and quite honestly i have MORE cause to not want to talk to my sister right now but#whatever <3#sorry im just ranting bc i asked if they wanted to play games like 3 days ago and they said 'maybe tomorrow'#and then i see them launching the game just now 🙃 but they haven't talked to me since then🙃🙃#sure dude thats fine thats chill#i will continue to blast my music and try and write smth#shh ac#seriously shut up
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#ohhhhhh my fucking god. omg. omg#i really need to learn to trust my own instincts about people#there's this dude - let's call him biff - who lives in my city#he's always been very consistent about staying in touch with me over the years even though we don't really have any shared interests#i met him when he was dating this girl i was friends with. then they broke up & he wanted to hang out with me#then he started dating someone else & they got married and had a kid#and after a while he stopped messaging me (fine by me)... UNTIL#i posted on fb the other day that i was starting the process of quitting everything Meta#and that people should comment if they wanted my contact info elsewhere#after making this post i thought 'hmmm maybe i should have restricted the audience to the only people i actually WANT to stay in touch with'#but it was too late. biff had already messaged me and asked for my number#stupidly i gave it to him. he (a german) joked 'still no german number i see?'#(it is clearly a german number. also i live in fckn germany. and have done so for 7 years. how the hell would i not have a german number?)#then he realized that & added me on whatsapp (kinda silly bc i explicitly said i'm going to quit the whole metaverse eventually but oh well)#first message: 'how u doing?' this man is in his 40s and has still never learned to type properly#second message: he said that he (singular) had recently moved to a new apartment and was not doing great#which makes me think that maybe he's gotten divorced and that's why he's suddenly so eager to reach out to me again#and he added apropos nothing 'but the good thing is that now i'll finally get to see the harry potter movies!'#ummm... great? fuck that transphobe but have fun i guess? what a weird thing to mention#third message was - just fucking WAIT FOR IT - 'what do u think about what's going on in the US recently? are you planning on going back?'#if y'all know me by now you know that this kind of question drives me bonkers#so i replied 'no i'm never going back. i live in germany. kinda sick of people asking me that. I LIVE HERE'#and i just... godddd my intuition is so depressingly good sometimes.#the moment his name popped up in my messages i had this sinking feeling of 'why did i give him my contact info'#and then what do you know... in his next two messages alone there were at least three minor red flags#NOTE TO SELF: TRUST YOUR FUCKING INSTINCT#why haven't i learned this yet? i do not need a 'valid reason' to softly let someone slip out of my life#cosmo gyres#personal#tag rant
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Before getting shadowblocked i always thought that the so called shadowblock simply doesn't let your posts into tag searcher. like that's everything people always complained about so i thought it's kinda ehh whatever and could be fake bc Tumblr likes to not let your posts in tags every now and then.
Now with shadowblock on i see, its much more than that 😑
- Can't message anyone from this blog Nor view private messages i had from this blog
- if i send an Ask from this blog it likely won't be visible for the receiver
- can't submit anything to other people's blogs
- my written additions (whether it be tags or words in main body of post) don't show up in the posts nor notifications of other people.
- i simply don't appear in other blogs' notifications
- i can't view asks people send me to this blog Unless it's from my normal notification box. My askbox stays empty regardless
#carpet talks#and i don't even know Why it happened#and i don't think it's war related as i haven't wrote Anything. only reblogged some few posts#and i generally reblog bull all time i could say#why now?? were reblogs really the reason???#or is it seriously bc i tried to message a person who made a post being like 'i feel like chatting after a bad day. feel free to write to m#JDHFJAJFJAJDJAJ
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had to go without my adderall for a lil over a week because cvs hates me but i finally just got my rx after also raising the dosage from what it was before bc that shit wasn't working and i KNOWWW it's just because i've been off of it for a while and this will wear off after i've readjusted in like 3 days but i'm baffled rn at how much better i feel already. like for the first time in several months i actually feel AWAKE and like i have control over my own brain and its crazy. i'm finally doing my christmas shopping after putting it off for several weeks & i'm making plans to do other chores today that don't feel like the fake-adhd-hopeful-denial-plans and instead feel like they might actually get done. the stimulant is stimulating me and to be fully honest im a little mad about it
#geniunely having to keep reminding myself it's bc i haven't had any stimulant medication since last tuesday and not to get my hopes up#but mannn its so nice to not be weighed down by fatigue for once. god damn. why can't it be like this all the time it pisses me off !!!!!!#like i've accepted my brain is never gonna work by itself at this point but whyy can't the meds that MAKE it work be CONSISTENT!!!!!!!!#WHY DO THEY ONLY WORK BEST AT THE START!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#sigh. maybe if/when this dosage stops working i'll look into immediate release and see how that treats me#even tho the whole reason i've been sticking with XR is bc my brain hates the idea of taking meds multiple times a day#if i can at least have like an On Button or smth in the form of a pill for when i wanna get shit done i might be able to suck it up idkkkkk
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skipping class but staying on campus to do work for. another class. bc i said i'd have it done before friday bc i'm scared of telling profs no so now i have to read all of robinson crusoe this weekend and watch the nbc pilot of the crusoe series on top of finishing the 2 late essays bc i deluded myself into believing i have a chance of finishing this annotated bibliography in 2 hours. without half the books i'm citing. tee hee <3
#if anyone knows anything about anything hit me up 🫶🙌☝️#also one of my sources is essentially just synthesizing all of my other sources with So Little original commentary bc it was originally a#dissertation that got published as a book but i need to use it bc it's the only source of its type i could find and my prof has a checklist#-_-#and she said that if i explain why it's so late i can maybe get an extension of my extension but how do i tell her that i'm sick and burnt#out and got locked out of my room for 24 hours and am depressed and haven't been sleeping or eating well and i miss my friends and having a#library to work in and my antidepressants have taken away my ability to have my quarterly sobbing dry heaving breakdown that i rely to give#me the adrenaline boost and catharsis and clarity to actually lock in and force myself to finish big scary assignments#i can probably tell her about the sickness and the room thing but truly i'm just overwhelmed and not coping and that doesn't feel like a#real reason (bc i'm depressed)#i need to knock myself out at like 10:30 tonight so i can wake up at like 7 tomorrow and work somewhere that isn't my house but i have#rehearsal until 10 amd i need to shower before i actually have a freak out that no one finds endearing or relatable#i think the shower might be a big part of the brain fog . who could've seen this coming.........#i meant to shower last night but i was too busy reading 50 shades of grey and mists of avalon (both for class) and i was up until like 5#god i need to sleep. tomorrow will be better#if you see me on here past like 11:30 please yell at me to go to bed i've lost the ability to stop my self-destructive habits#that was super tmi . sowwy gang#a post
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my niece stayed with us last night. it was pretty fun this time, probably because I was feeling better (if I'm already in pain or exhausted, I can't handle it). after we dropped her off, we talked to my mother for a little bit, and then drove to my in-laws. we were there for a few hours and because the guys were busy outside, i ended up talking to my mother-in-law for most of that time. it was... kind of good? I don't know. she actually showed some real emotions, just a little bit, but hey that's more than ever before! I even gave her a weird little shoulder squeeze/side hug, it was so weird.
anyway, I almost fell asleep in the car on the way home because I was so tired, and actually did fall asleep immediately on the couch.
#it's pretty annoying because my mother-in-law of course asked me how applying for jobs is going. I haven't applied for a single one yet#bc dude I can barely get through the day. I sleep for 12-16 hours a day. and I'm almost always in some kind of pain. and I'm not doing so#good mentally either. come on! I interacted with a handful of people in one day and had to sleep for like 6 hours.#anyway so I said it's a bit difficult because I'm constantly tired - it felt like the only thing she might kind of understand?#annnd she said its probably a vitamin D deficiency and I should get that tested (I won't because I'd have to pay for that and also I think I#read that taking vitamin D supplements doesn't actually help? I can't remember now and I don't want to look it up bc I know it definitely is#not the only or even main reason I am always tired.#I took vitamin D tablets for several months last year (?) bc my previous GP recommended it and. it did absolutely nothing at all#plus. like. I can't sleep. I sleep like shit. always. so. idk? that definitely doesn't help#and I sleep more when I'm in pain and all that too. so.#and she knows I have a bunch of health issues but. nope it's vitamin D because that's one thing and it's simple and here take a pill you're#fine now! wait why aren't you fine now? oh I guess you're just lazy 🙄#< that's 100% how that would go#ugh. Just let me sleep for 5-10 years. maybe that'd fix me....#like. I'm trying to get myself back (?) to being an actual human person again. I'm trying to figure out what's wrong with me. I'm trying to#live and not feel like I'm drowning every fucking day#finding a job is only gonna add more stress and exhaustion and everything. if I want to try to help myself this is the time to do it#okay rant over I'm going to sleep now#personal
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randomly looked at this account to update my age and holy shit it's been a while since i posted here..........i have a small pile of art i have yet to post but hbhbshdbshbd too lazy
#part of it is that i haven't posted any of my recent art but in addition#i haven't made new art in a WHILE (abt 3 months) which is highly unusual for me but the reason for that is#3 months ago i suddenly remembered that i tried learning mandarin for three (3) days before forgetting about it for 9 months#(amusingly the reason why is not because of danmei......i did not even know danmei existed when i first decided to learn it)#anyways i have been insanely fixated on learning it for the past 3 months#however since art is primarily a way for me to process my interests and that only really be done when i'm fixated on media........well#let's just say i have not been making art at all#that might change soon tho#rn i'm reading 撒野 (saye) in chinese bc it's at a level i can read and i fucking love it so far#idk why i picked a book longer than svsss (which took me a week to read in english)...u would think there's no chance of me finishing it#or even reading it#especially when the only novel i've read before this is a chinese translation of the fucking magic finger by roald dahl LMFAO#but it's been a week and i'm a fifth of the way into it which i was not expecting at all#it was initially an exercise of “i will get as far as i can and try my best to read a chapter a day” but i've been zipping through chapters#last night i was up until 3 AM reading it and i was so tempted to read more but had to stop myself#of course this is all aided by pleco which lets me quickly look up words that i don't know yet. pleco ily#that being said...this all does mean i know words like 收銀台 before i even know the word for “orange” (the color) which is pretty funny#but idk considering that the sum of my time spent learning chinese is just 3 months..........i think i am doing pretty damn good#i thought it would be a LOT longer before i could finally start enjoying some interesting things#god but it really has been a while since i last read a high school romance...but i am quite fond of the leads and their respective baggage#sorry for the whole tag ramble.........i haven't really had anyone to talk abt this stuff with#oh also it's my birthday#that is why i am even here to update my age in the first place#happy lan wangji birthday#actually the only reason i realized it was gonna be my birthday soon is because i saw chinese artists posting lan wangji birthday fanart#and then remembered that we share the same birthday#also re: the art i haven't posted yet.........a good chunk of it is misvil fanart...song qingshi my beloved#and there's also a luo binghe drawn on an art app i PROGRAMMED MYSELF (!!!!!!!!!) in there#actually that piece is the main reason i haven't posted the art i HAVE made. how the fuck do i explain that i drew it on an app that i made#sorry this is genuinely the most off the rails tag ramble i've ever done. okay i'm done
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