#the nicest thing 🥺

[bunni-bun]

once again, the japanese kiseki fans make me cry cuz they're so so nice and they work so hard making that little anthology and it's so lovely! it's really good and it's made with love for our tiny fandom but still made by so many people who kiseki as much as our little corner here on tumblr does 🥺 very proud of the japanese fans, they're the sweetest ever ❤️

[autisticlee]

is it strange to genuinely not know what people think of you or how they feel about you? most people seem to just know if someone dislikes them so they can move on, or they just know when someone enjoys their company and is their friends. I have no way of knowing without people explicitly telling me, and people are horrible at doing that.

I don't know what my first impression gives. I don't know what vibes I have or what type of energy I have. I can't tell if someone hates me, doesn't care about me, or genuinely likes me. I can't tell what people's opinions on me are, if they think i'm nice, funny, rude, boring. I don't know if i'm bothering or annoying someone. I don't know if i'm upsetting someone or making them uncomfortable. I don't know if they are comfortable around me. I don't know if they enjoy my presence. I don't know if they are being fake nice and fake friends. I can't tell when someone loses interest in me. I cant tell if someone is trying to be a friend or is just being polite. I don't know if i'm easy to get along with, or difficult to be around. I don't know if my presence fills someome with joy or annoyance. to make it worse, each person thinks and feels different things. so i'll never figure out all of them.

if I try to think about what my presence and existence means to other people, i'm met with a massive blank hole. there's nothing there. I could never answer the questions "my friends/family would descove me as ___" because I genuinely don't know. I can only say what I think of me. unless someone explicitly told me with clear words, i'll never know. i'll usually know how I feel about another person at some point, and I try to tell them if I have the chance. but it's never reciprocated. they never tell me. so my presence in other people's lives is always a blank enigma I can't figure out.

any time i've tried talking about this, I just get a response like "stop worrying and caring about what other people think about you/just be yourself that's all that matters"

that's not the advice you think it is. that's more of what you'd say to someone who beats themselves up because they are worried about people disliking them in general and it fills them with anxiety to be disliked. they usually have low self esteem and think their worth lies in other people liking them. that's not the case here. hate me if you want, I don't care. i'd just rather know upfront before investing my time and energy in you.

this type of "caring what others think" is more about human connection, rather than acceptance....I wonder...is one reason I struggle to connect with people because I can't feel the presence of their feelings towards me? all I know is they are aware of my existing. thats it. try being in a group chat and not knowing if any of them actually like you or secretly hate you, not knowing if they are your friends or just being nice, and not knowing anything about how they feel about you, but you enjoy them very much. I try to share inner feelings with them, but theirs don't reach me. so I wonder, do mine even reach them? somewhere between us, the connection fails to reach. perhaps this is one of the problems i'm having with connecting to others.

if you don't know what people think or feel towards you, how can you connect with them? either you make assumptions, like "I think they hate me" and you could be wrong and push away someone that thinks you're friends, or think "i'm sure they enjoyed talking with me" and they later tell you they were just being nice but never wanted to talk to you becuass you're annoying. but assumptions are dangerous because those reasons, so the only other choice is to assign a blank slate to them and wait for them give you words to write on it. but if they don't use their words, they stay blank. you will never know if you are making a connection or it's staying superficial.

it's selfish to only go off your own feelings towards someone. you could really like someone, want to be friends, want to hang out and chat, but if they don't feel the same way, you just cause them problems and inconvenience. you bother them and ruin their time. i've noticed people often won't be direct about that and get even more upset because I missed it. I thought we shared a vibe or similar energy. but I might have mixed up my feelings with their vibes. if I like someone and enjoy them, not knowing how they feel about me can lead to me wasting my time and energy and also annoying that person unknowingly. it's bad for everyone.

if you can't assume the worse or even the best, you have to assume they feel neutral towards you until told otherwise. the problem is, most people go off of subtle hints, but if you can't see those, you get left out. while neither good nor bad, neutral feelings are still that of strangers. if you can't read people's thoughts and feelings on you, but it's rude to ask or people don't tell you the truth, you end up with many neutral people in your life. many strangers.

is this normal? do other people have an idea of what someone feels about them? or do you all "not care" what they think and go off of how you feel about them instead? is everyone making guesses, or do most people actually know without asking? how do you bond and feel connected if you aren't sure if someone enjoys your presence or if they actually loath it? I truly don't know....all I know is, not knowing makes me feel very disconnected from everyone.

I haven't gotten anyone else to talk about this or seen anyone else talk about it. so there's a good chance it's just a me thing. this type of topic usually gets reduced to "stop caring what people think" and goes nowhere beyond that. but!!! I think it's actually important to be able to know what people think or feel about you!!! at least to an extent. not obsessively caring to the point it becomes a mental disorder like social anxiety. but just enough to at least know if you are actually making a connection with them. just enough to know if you are able to reach them....

[dreamerwriternstargazer]

Okay it’s literally such a nice day out that I stayed for an extra hour at work sitting in the garden with my sister and co-worker just relaxing and chatting

We all agreed picnics are a must with this weather 😌

[yume-fanfare]

:)

[timothylawrence]

looked at the mediterranean sea and thought of you :) hope you got my astral projection of images

OHHHHH MY GODDDDD I MISS HERRRR I MISSSS HERRRRRRR 😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️💛💛 …. The rays of sun coming through the clouds…. The choppy seas…. 🥺🥺🥺😭❤️❤️ THANK YOUUUUU

[duncantashi]

i started my internship today. a girl from hr did my paperwork and then we went to have lunch together and she bought me lunch because it's my first day 🥺🥺🥺

[coconut530]

HOW TO DISTANCE YOURSELF FROM EVIL TECH CULT 101 💛📱📣😬🖤

[nataliescatorccio]

your yennefer gif series, both s1's and s2's, are some of my absolute favorite gifsets on the site!! seriously, the way you always manage to come up with new color combinations and creative ways to blend scenes and pair them all with brilliant font choices and gorgeous typography... literally all of those gifsets blow me away every time and i get so excited every time i see a new one in the witcher edit tag!! i'm so sorry they aren't getting the love they deserve notes-wise 😭💚

anon i don't even know what to say!!! you have no idea how much i needed this right now. i've been feeling pretty down about it lately, generally my giffing inspiration is low and it's felt like a real push to create them, so this message has genuinely put the biggest smile on my face and made it feel all worth it. i can't thank you enough for taking the time to send this and for being so kind, you really have made my day and i wish i could give you the biggest hug ❤️ it means the world when people can recognise the effort that goes into my creations and appreciate them! i really hope you enjoy the last one of the s2 series too!!

[sleepipipi]

I only wanted to send you a hello and see how you are doing. You are adorable like a puppy and I hope that you will find someone very special very soon, who will spoil you forever! 💖

🥺💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

I would do anything to find the love of my life and not only be spoiled by her, but to make her the happiest girl in the world🥺💕💕💕 its my one truest wish👉👈💕

[zukkaoru]

graceeee i need u to know i loved ur bsd fic sm..i haven’t cared about bsd in a Second but oh MAN u wrote aku + atsushi so well i was smiling kicking my feet and like. u had me back in the bsd tag…. your power… :0 <33

MOTH ILYYY i saw your tags on my fic when i woke up this morning and i was like 🥺💕✨🥹❤️omg a mutual is giving me a good grade in characterization i'm winning fanfiction

anyway i'm glad you enjoyed it <333

[fanficsforheartandsoul]

I'm fairly new to Tumblr, having read all the good fics I could find on AO3, and I found yours tonight. Cold Skins and Warm Hearts & Haunted are absolutely, without a doubt, the best Maul x y/n x Savage fics I have read! So wonderfully written, I didn't want them to end. Their connection with her is so special. I just love how they hold a soft spot for her!

This is literally the biggest compliment I ever received and I'm so happy and glad that you like these stories🥺🥺❤️❤️

I hope you have a wonderful day!!!!!😚😚💗💗

[harlequinalis]

I want to be mutuals/friends w you bc you look like an amazing person but I fear I'd come off as intrusive and/or weird. I'm also with you in the evertree discord server and you're such a nice person<3 have a good day I hope this isn't awkward 😭

Oh shit hi! Don't worry I'm flattered! I'd love to be mutuals/friends 🥺💖

[amber-acrylic]

SMALL..........

Little Vampire

[littl3-h3ll]

I just had someone tell me they feel safe talking to me.

[softshuji]

Huh? No idea what you're talking about sweetheart

-Hanma

Uh-hu, and here I was getting ready to praise whoever was saying such nice and flattering things about me and calling me a hot girl, but since it wasn't you.... But anyways, aren't you proud of me? I made him cum once, now it's just one more time and you'll have everything you need for your special mission right?

[jooniez]

my friend told me he wanted to surprise me by buying me a signed edition of the lightning thief cause he knows percy jacksons my favorite series and is really important to me 🥹💙