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mind if i resent you for hours tonight?

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i hope you get everything you've ever wanted and i hope i never hear a thing about it

happiness - taylor swift/everything everywhere all at once (2022)/white ferrari - frank ocean/unknown/unknown/o superman - laurie anderson/the same story about my mom - lynn steger strong/unknown/unknown/i knew it, i know you - gracie abrams/merry christmas, please don't call - bleachers/defying gravity - the wicked cast

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my goal for today is no instagram reels & read 20 pages of my book. no consequences if i don’t do that because you cannot hate yourself into becoming who you are

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Accepting that life is an endless cycle of clearing space for new people new things and new places

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this life is mine it did not come to me I chose it I fought for it even the mistakes and the bad days and the regrets they’re all mine

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this is what we needed. despite the memories that linger, i will convince myself.

this is what we needed.

-cmn

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i feel like i must plead and scream in order to survive.

-cmn

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no amount of pretty words can disguise the darkness within me.

-cmn

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can you love my brain, even when it doesn’t love me?

-cmn

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A prayer for the new year:

To loosen my grip on what might not be for me. To cherish the life that is. To remain open. To be a soft garden with a beautiful fence and a swinging gate. To love deeply - myself at the top of the list.

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hey guys, it’s been a while. i hope 2025 is kinder to all of us, i think we deserve it <3

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everything you love will lead you back to you

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Remembering all the things i did to feel wanted

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The crushing desire to be loved openly and not hesitantly or reluctantly or surreptitiously . If you even care

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i hope i will reconnect with the parts of my self i am abandoning in order to survive.

-cmn