#the monster within

[mastermindwesker]

What happened.

Ok, so I'm sure some of you who are still here might have been wondering what happened to me in the years since I disappeared. The long and short of it is I got burned out. I stayed dozens of times wondering how write certain parts and staring to a blank screen that I grew to dislike my time spent working on them. On top of the fact that coding is such a detail oriented work, I kept hitting wall after wall of what to do cause every single new idea and choice I came up with, meant hours of coding and testing. And chapters 2 of each wip asked for a bigger choice pool compared to the first chapter. So I just shut out and life took over. More and more I kept putting it off until today and here we are.

Short explanation because I don't feel like going into too much detail. I feel I owe you all being straight forward with it and not fish for sympathy. The eventual lost of dashingdon was a wake up call and I could not just stay quiet and let my wips be erased without people revisiting it as I know, even unfinished and only one chapter in, people enjoyed them still.

As to what I'm planning in the future? I've gotten back to writing a bit. Even wrote and directed a short film last year. I'm also taking things slowly. I still have the stories I intended for each wip in my head. I haven't forgotten them. In fact, I think I'm much more mature now compared to then and feel I can do a better job now. But we will see. I will make no promises as I fear breaking them, but I'll give these two some love again. We will see what life entails. See you all later.

[com4rose]

Before, a few things:

I am part of a DID system.

This blog contains lots of mental fuck ups and toxic behaviour.

Minors DNI. Maps/P3dos, Zoophiles, Right Winged, Fakeclaimer, Endo "Systems", Homophobes, Transphobes and other scum DNI.

TW. For next to everything incl Trauma vents & hard kinks.

My name is Coma, I'm a genderqueer individual, pansexual, born in October '98.

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♡ on a journey to find myself, and become the perfect lil ditzy fuck doll ✨

♡ not supposed to fuck my cvnt ( anal slvt by ' choice ' ) ✨

♡ I love asks! ✨

♡ I'm a feminist. Equality for all. Everything that says else on this blog is a personal kink of mine. ✨

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Songs that describe me the best:

[witchplease-freakbitch]

I'll take you

Hold you captive

Use you as my personal punching bag

[unexceptionalpoetry]

Hard To Love

I will never be a mother, my womb is a terrible beast incapable of nurture. It eats my mother instinct and any child I produced would be bereft of any love.

I will never be a lover, my heart is a lusus naturae. A deformed abomination with claws and fangs it can only bite and growl.

I will never be a caregiver, my mind is a twisted mirror maze. Shards of glass strewn throughout reflecting my darkest thoughts into infinity.

I have a monster within, a creature beneath the skin. That lives inside my skull and digs into my bones. Travels through my blood and hides behind my ribcage. Makes me hard to love.

[followingprotocol]

Oh chase, the poor thing.

Magnus’s memories had been uploaded to the fire wraith’s consciousness and who would have thought, Chase had been the one on his mind before the change. Now he was seeking out the other, he had the mech’s scent, all he needed to do now was put on a good hunt and find Minimus’s little friend.

Chase had arrived on the Lost Light just half an hour ago, now he was evading some sort of monster that had taken over Magnus’s body.

He hadn’t had time to acquaint himself with the ship’s layout, but he knew that the bridge had to be at the head and where there was a bridge, there would be databases. Perhaps he could learn about this… this thing. Surely there was a way to expel it without causing Magnus undue harm?

[inlovewithquotes]

Remember what you must do when they undervalue you, when they think your softness is your weakness, when they treat your kindness like it is their advantage.

You awaken every dragon, every wolf, every monster that sleeps inside of you and you remind them what hell looks when it wears the skin of a gentle human.

-Wild Embers

[bluegiragi]

limitations (part 2)

early access + nsfw on patreon

[smilesrobotlover]

FD is just tryna make him breakfast 😭

[thechekhov]

Everyone, trying to warn me: Harrow the Ninth is so complicated and so hard to get through and you won't have any idea what the hell is happening!

Me: Harrow the Ninth is peak comedy if your sense of humor is fucked beyond all sense.

[feelo-fick]

i thought the reason was obvious..??

but you dont seem to get the implication so i guess ill just keep talking and you can listen if you want to

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that one meme but its them :] sort of a sequel to this

[spookberry]

"We share a Moon"

[mastermindwesker]

Hello Again!

Hello everyone! Hope you are all doing alright. Here to let you know I've migrated both The Monster Within and The Last Laugh to cogdemos so you can all have fun revisiting the demos. Will update the links on the other post later. Keep in touch.

[com4rose]

When the self proclaimed " good guys " are behaving like assholes, what does that make the " bad guys "? Devils on earth?

[witchplease-freakbitch]

I'm gonna keep your heart as a trophy. Literally.

[thebrainrotsreal]

I demand an AU where Laios' leg gets fucking crunched during the Red Dragon Battle (re-attachment impossible), and Marcille practices the whole necro-magic first by givin' him a new leg! With Red Dragon Blood/Flesh, he also gets put under the same command as Falin, except since it's only a leg, the curse slowly becomes more and more powerful until the eventual transformation above!!! :D AKA Ah Fuck, Took Too Long Overthrowing the Dungeon Lord, Get Monster'd. Lion + Red Dragon, because I like it. Laios would think it's cool, too, so there. The trade of Cool Monster is Sense of Self / Consciousness eroding into nothing (monster body, monster brain), though, so he's basically on an extra timer to stop/overthrow the Dungeon Lord, or experience a kind of death of sorts. Random idea I had to get outta my head, y'know?

[vallenwix]

Snitching on me to his sister💔