#the metaphysical importance of periods

[mesetacadre]

Hey do you think you could watch and give your throughts on youtuber Jonas Čeika video "marx was not a statist"?

Thank you

Quite honestly, the title alone already betrays some amount of anarchist metaphysics, the concept of stateism is a purely idealist notion which only works if you are a liberal about authority. But regardless, I still watched the full thing.

The video starts with a very semantic-focused discourse on how marx never used "socialism" to mean the lower phase of communism, and way too much time on the terms transitionary period/DotP as if they weren't two terms that refer to the same thing. In the case of socialism/lower phase of communism, I think he's obfuscating. He focuses the discussion on whether Marx used a certain term in the same way we do now. This would be like spending a good 5 minutes of a video presenting, with an almost accusatory disposition against modern communists, how the bolsheviks called themselves social-democrats, pretending like the terms haven't simply evolved. He promises an "active engagement with marxist theory" and he starts by arguing semantics. He even acknowledges this possible criticism, but you also then have to defend why that criticism is not valid, instead he acts like merely acknowledging it will make that criticism invalid. I'm also spending this time on this specific point because, later, he also forgets how Marx used the word "socialism".

When he does define the lower stage of communism, he engages in a very mechanic and economicist view, with the simple train of thought: No money (replaced with vouchers) > no capital to accumulate > no classes > no state. I think that just by asking how these vouchers will be regulated and how access to wealth restricted to the use of those vouchers, the conclusion that the substitution of money necessarily leads through that chain to the disappearance of the state becomes, very transparently, downright infantile.

In his point about how the Paris Commune changed Marx's view on the state, he cites excerpts in a very misleading way. The whole point starts by pointing out that, in the preface to the 1872 edition, the experience of the Paris Commune led Marx and Engels to the following analysis: "...the working class cannot simply lay hold of the ready-made state machinery, and wield it for its own purposes". This, along with a disregard of the importance of the specific policy points they outlined in the manifesto, and the importance of absolute centralization, means to him that Marx and Engels, actually, completely disregarded the use of the state on the road to communism. To quote Lenin: "Listen, comrade from Tiflis, one may prevaricate, but one should know the limit...."

What the video doesn't directly address (and although he talks about the text extensively, It's important to cite ideas where they actually come from), is that this quote, although it appeared in the 1872 edition of the manifesto, comes from Civil War in France, a longer text on the Paris Commune. This is a more complete context of that quote that the video never gives [ID in alt text]

That quote is the beginning of a chapter in which Marx describes how the Paris Commune governed itself, and how it broke with the series of revolts that happened throughout the period of feudalism, how the class character of the Commune marked it as the significant event that it is. It is true that the Commune's aspirations for the entire world was for its form to be replicated even in the smallest hamlet, and it may even be true that this influenced Marx to generally reject centralization of the state. However, what the breadtuber obviates throughout the entire video, is that a small state is still a state, and furthermore, that revolutionary strategy is not dictated by what is right or wrong, but by what can be done to advance the cause of the emancipation of the working class. It is one thing to reject the state outright, and another very different thing to acknowledge that it is necessary to take control of the state to emancipate the working class, even if you abstractly oppose the concept of a state. Not only to take control of the state, which is the point of the original quote, it is necessary to create our own worker's state, in whichever form it best suits the concrete reality: "the working class cannot simply lay hold of the ready-made state machinery, and wield it for its own purposes". Jonas says that the proletariat should, instead, create "radically democratic working class institutions". These gentlemen think that when they have changed the names of things they have changed the things themselves.

Instead of understanding that point, he goes even further. Jonas has understood that, by praising the measures taken by the Paris Commune (which, let's remember, failed after two months!), Marx and Engels began to believe that "[the state] is by nature bourgeois". Maybe Jonas started reading Bakunin instead of Marx without realizing, this is perhaps the most liberal and historically illiterate portion of the 30+ minute video essay. Again, comrade from breadtube, one may prevaricate, but one should know the limit. In fact, Marx even says in the same text being discussed: "It is generally the fate of completely new historical creations to be mistaken for the counterparts of older, and even defunct, forms of social life, to which they may bear a certain likeness". The irony needn't be explained.

As if Jonas hadn't misconstrued the text and Marx enough, he shows the quote: "... although there is nothing socialist in them except their tendency...". At first I was unable to find this specific quote in Civil War in France, not in any chapter nor in the footnotes. As it turns out, this quote is not from Civil War in France, as Jonas so succinctly cites it, but from the draft of the text. First, it's simply dishonest to cite such a cherrypicked line from a draft and passing it off as something Marx published.

There might be a myriad of possible reasons why this idea did not make it into the final text, but in order for the audience to correctly follow along, it's necessary for them to know where an idea comes from. Beyond this, which I find misleading enough, the video makes the point that with this line, Marx is clearly differentiating between a dictatorship of the proletariat and socialism. But hang on, didn't Jonas spend the first 5 minutes of the video explaining that, in the times of Marx, socialism was understood to be a reformist and petit-bourgeois stance? So, then, how could this out of context, unpublished line be Marx making a distinction between lower-phase communism and the dictatorship of the proletariat? This is the phrase's context [ID in alt text]:

The actual point of this portion is not even related to what Jonas makes it out to be. Here, using "socialist" as another name for utopians, Marx makes the distinction between previous movements of utopians, those socialist sects, and the Paris Commune, because even though their goals, the emancipation of labor, may appear similar, there is nothing socialist [utopian] in them because their means are not utopian, but the beginnings of scientific communism. So, then, not only did Jonas go back on the first point of the video to dunk on the evil stalinists, and not only did he completely remove the context of a phrase by failing to cite properly, but he also failed to even understand the points made in the text he's cherrypicking. Is this what passes for "active engaging with marxist texts" in breadtube?

After this portion, which I still consider the better half of the video, he veers into talking about socialism in one country, first by, again, very blatantly removing important parts of the texts he talks about. The quote he shows, from Principles of Communism, is as follows: "Will it be possible for this revolution to take place in one country alone? No. By creating the world market, big industry has already brought all the peoples of the Earth [...] into such close relation with one another that none is independent of what happens to the others [...] It follows that the communist revolution will not merely be a national phenomenon but must take place simultaneously in all civilized countries [...] It is a universal revolution and will, accordingly, have a universal range." It is true that Engels states that communist revolutions cannot be confined to the national scale, but those ommissions hide a lot of nuance that is very relevant to discussing Marx and Engels' positions on the national/international question. This is the full quote [ID in alt text]:

Marx and Engels were unable to completely and correctly analyze the imperialist form of capitalism, which hadn't yet fully crystallized, economically speaking. According to them, since capitalism was the most developed in places like England or France, the proletariat was also more developed, and the socialist revolution would happen first in these places, and propagate outwards. This notion was proved false by both theory (Lenin's imperialism) and by practice. Lenin identified that, as imperialism settled down as the highest stage of capitalism, the imperialist chain could only be broken at the weakest link, which was Russia at the time. I'm insisting on Lenin's theories because Jonas also claims Lenin to the "not statist" camp, and the video very quickly loses any originality by defaulting to the narrative of Stalin betraying Marx and Lenin by rejecting the world-wide revolution in the short-medium term as a pre-requisite for the establishment of a dictatorship of the proletariat. I think that going more in depth into this will only make this response unnecessary longer, but to end it, I think it's apt to end with a Lenin quote which directly refutes this anti-Lenin betrayal notion:

A United States of the World (not of Europe alone) is the state form of the unification and freedom of nations which we associate with socialism—about the total disappearance of the state, including the democratic. As a separate slogan, however, the slogan of a United States of the World would hardly be a correct one, first, because it merges with socialism; second, because it may be wrongly interpreted to mean that the victory of socialism in a single country is impossible, and it may also create misconceptions as to the relations of such a country to the others.

Uneven economic and political development is an absolute law of capitalism. Hence, the victory of socialism is possible first in several or even in one capitalist country alone. After expropriating the capitalists and organising their own socialist production, the victorious proletariat of that country will arise against the rest of the world—the capitalist world—attracting to its cause the oppressed classes of other countries, stirring uprisings in those countries against the capitalists, and in case of need using even armed force against the exploiting classes and their states. The political form of a society wherein the proletariat is victorious in overthrowing the bourgeoisie will be a democratic republic, which will more and more concentrate the forces of the proletariat of a given nation or nations, in the struggle against states that have not yet gone over to socialism. The abolition of classes is impossible without a dictatorship of the oppressed class, of the proletariat. A free union of nations in socialism is impossible without a more or less prolonged and stubborn  struggle of the socialist republics against the backward states.

On the Slogan for a United States of Europe, V. I. Lenin (1915)

Overall, I think this video lacks any kind of rigor or respect for the texts discussed. Citations are pretty predominantly misleading or incomplete in some way, he extrapolates fantastical ideas from texts he doesn't appear to understand, and more in general, the way the video is concienved reeks of dogmatism, the arguments overwhelmingly boil down to "Marx said this (according to me), so it must be true". There is no actual engagement with texts, but there isn't even a will to engage with history. Marxism does not end with Marx and Engels, it's a philosophical and political framework that extends beyond the gospel of incomplete quotes. Even if Marx and Engels really did believe such anti-materialist ideas as "the state is bourgeois by nature", it would not change the facts that the history and experiences after the Paris Commune should also have weight in order to reach conclusions.

[decepti-thots]

SPEAKING of tension between the real world and MTMTE specifically trying to do inhuman social dynamics. lily has reminded me that everything about what MTMTE does with the minimus-dominus sibling/house relationship drives me nuts. it's very very clearly in a real sense a literal sibling dynamic; the idea of having a socially-enforced connection to someone you had no initial agency in and cannot easily drop voluntarily is integral to understanding why minimus has a relationship like he does to his (dead) brother, like without that "invisible thread that even disowning only highlights the existence of" element the role dominus plays in his story makes no sense. they are Literally Siblings, period. however. the narrative also acknowledges that this is not normal for literally anyone who does not have siblings and indicates that those without siblings- a rarity worth commenting on- it is in no way intuitive. (see: rewind not really understanding their dynamic in that DotL prologue scene.) it is something that i guess you understand if you have one and don't understand if you don't. this is propped up a bit by the fact that spark twins literally have a metaphysical "bond" that minimus references in mtmte and which is clearly established in its predecessor, last stand of the wreckers, as a physically real thing that other unrelated mechs don't have. however. the fact of the matter is that the idea you are Intrinsically Tied By Birth to your siblings relates to real-world considerations of "being brought up as dependents within family structures means you are in involuntary proximity in your formative years, usually" and "cultural narratives of blood relationships as inherently important are impressed upon people at a young age" that Cybertronians, in the specific fiction of mtmte, DEFINITELY do not have. so like. what the fuck does being a sibling even mean. siblings with inherent feelings about each other that have no parents they share. is it a thing where there's external cultural ideas about sparks that a "sparkbond" forces on them despite their cultural non-normalness overall. is it something to do with WHATEVER a HOUSE is. what is a house. literally WHAT ARE HOUSES. i am shaking this comic like "i understand these concepts are here to be emotionally evocative not Lore TM and i respect it and the sibling narrative is truthful and really underappreciated by fandom, but consider: I WANT YOUR WORLDBUILDING ABOUT THIS"

[windvexer]

This is kind of a large question so I apologize but I guess I'm curious on how you're able to get such specific or like. unique (i mean this in a good way) answers from tarot? Like your "what magic should i learn next" stuff or how to pick up what a spirit can do through tarot. like idk how to translate these cards into what the spirit is trying to say

Hi!

There's no easy answer to this question, partially because I've now been reading tarot for almost exactly 16 years. This isn't at all to say that it's just the passage of time, but that in that amount of time I've done tons and tons of different things to expand my understanding of, and usage, of tarot.

Tarot didn't come to me very easily, and part of that journey was doing a lot of experimentation in an effort to figure it all out. My reading practice is still very much typified by a huge amount of experimentation and custom reading methods.

It hasn't been a linear process at all. I go through periods of months (or more!) where tarot just doesn't click for me, at all. So just because I picked up my first tarot deck 16 years ago doesn't mean that I've kept a consistent practice (I'm just now getting back into it after just such a fallow period ^-^)

My feelings on experimentation is that it gives me new ways to think about not only the cards, but also spreads, methodologies, and readings as a whole.

In addition, my experiments with other forms of divination (most especially casting lots, energy readings, and playing card readings) have heavily influenced my tarot readings.

Here is a post I wrote that I think expresses my feelings on experimenting within tarot.

Here are some examples of tarot experiments I've performed, and/or methodologies I've explored. It's these sorts of things that have been building blocks in my abilities in tarot. But no single one of them was a "key."

Elemental dignities: The elements of the cards dictates how they interact with each other. Air + fire can mean a supercharged firestorm, but water + fire can mean a controlled fire under a stewpot, or blocked progress of the fire. This experiment helps with understanding how cards can link together, and how energy can flow within a spread.

Elemental landscapes: Spreads are laid down in lines or grids and each card represents one aspect of the landscape. You must brainstorm and choose your own meanings. E.g., 8/wands is an exploding volcano. Queen/Cups is a lake inhabited by mermaids. Read the flow of weather patterns and energies through the spread as an answer to the question. This experiment helps with intuitive reading and working with a spread as a whole, instead of focusing on individual cards.

Elemental portents: Assign an element to your question. Draw a card. If the element on the card agrees with the element of your question, the portent is good; if it disagrees, the portent is bad. This experiment helps with learning how to phrase questions and how the question themselves can influence the balance of the deck.

Astral landscapes: This was an elaborate system I built around the Wooden Tarot. I worked with each card to assign it a mystical association that could occur in an astral landscape. The major arcana were spirits who could travel across the landscape. Each spread was like a playing board of a generated landscape and the spirits that interacted inside of it. This experiment was fun for considering the metaphysical ramifications of the energies of the cards themselves.

Numerical virtues: The number value of the card indicates its power and magnitude in the spread. 2 and 3 value cards are always of smaller power and significance. 10 and court cards are always of higher value. Aces may be high or low. This experiment gave me a new way of thinking about importance of each card, and how to blend magnitudes of significance.

Infinite directional wheel: I wrote a post on this actually, but basically you can keep placing cards forever in the cross-quarter positions. It's a meditation on the concept of elements and directions within witchcraft. Also, an extremely useful spread. This was a vital experiment for me in understanding spreadwork, flow of information, and linking cards.

Card doubling and tripling: Place two (or 3) cards together and determine the meaning as if it's one single card; there is no border, and the images combine with each other. The pictures and meanings of each combine into a single card.

Card doubling and tripling, but in spreads: For each position in the spread, place two cards (or three cards!) in place of one. Read the dyads or triads as if they are a single card. It isn't beginning/middle/end; it's a single triple-complex card! These doubling experiments helped me with the concept of card linking and blending meanings into unique interpretations.

Custom meaning sets: Basically, swap out all the default meanings with your own. Extremely useful IMO in learning how sets of meanings work together, and how to balance sets of meanings. I wrote a post on it here. These experiments have perhaps been the most vital for me in developing new interpretations. I believe that the magical skills readings you referenced were the result of custom meaning sets.

No meaning sets: Instead of using any card meanings, all spreads are resolved using a combination of elemental portents and numerical virtues. I.e., the element and number of a card in relation to other cards in the spread determines the reading. Here, the experimentation is allowing the cards to have strict, defined roles within a spread that can't be overwritten by personal intuition.

As a final note, I highly, highly recommend recording every reading you do and every card you draw. For the first couple years of my practice I recorded all readings, and it was a huge boost to my learning.

[insidemyrottenbrain]

Clamate auxilium - TSH (The Secret History)

TW: explicit content, questionable content

Your death leaves quite a toll on Henry and Camilla.

I encourage every willing pair of eyes that reads this to leave their thoughts, remarks and critiques under this post, be they one word or one hundred and one.

Hell is other people. When we are alone, we are absorbed in whatever is around us. In solitude, we all are (of course we are, because how could we not be?) an incorporeal omniscient presence that candidly studies humanity's mechanics undisturbed by reciprocal judgment. However, as soon as someone perceives us, we suddenly become the ones observed, and consequently, painfully aware of ourselves (the clench of the jaw, the body’s weight, the tongue between cheeks, the muscle strain). We get covered in labels, defined and thus limited. When painful death obeys fate, we lose all possibilities of changing how we look through another pair of empty eyes than our own. What we once were, the entirety of our souls and the darkest corridors get rendered into a misinterpreted, dehumanised fragment of other people’s minds. I am many things in Henry’s mind; hollow cheeks, cologne and smoke, long fingers turning yellowed pages, a melancholic existence and its absurd hands. Camilla, however, believes me to be rather imposing; long dark coats, cold forgotten coffee eyes, an untouchable paradox and its horrible mind. 

Immortality is humanity’s greatest wish. However, not flesh or rationality, but the absence, along with the longing, of their desire is this species’ most defining characteristic. I no longer am alive but I exist. I am deemed inhuman by the achievement of my desiderium through the unrequested aid of their minds.

You are curious, I am aware, about my death. However, you must realise that your curiosity is not reason enough for me to speak freely about such traumatising events. I suppose you are aware of Aristotle's definition of a tragic hero, yes? Ah, you’re not? Very well then, according to Aristotle, a tragic hero is “A person who must evoke a sense of pity and fear in the audience. He is considered a man of misfortune that comes to him through error of judgment.” There are a few characteristics one should keep in mind: ἁμαρτία (hamartia - sin, missed mark), a fatal flaw that causes the downfall of the hero, ύβρις (hubris - originally towards the gods), excessive pride and disrespect for the natural order of things, περιπέτεια (peripeteia - sudden change), the sudden reversal of fate that the hero experiences, ἀναγνώρισις (anagnorisis - recognition), a moment in time when the hero makes an important discovery, nέμεσις (nemesis - also the goddess who takes vengeance against those who show hubris), a punishment that the protagonist cannot avoid, usually occurring as a result of their hubris, and consequently, κάθαρσις (catharsis - purification, cleansing), feelings of pity and fear felt by the audience, for the inevitable downfall of the protagonist. While Aristotle’s characteristics are, indeed, a reliable guide in identifying and constructing a tragic hero, and respectively, a tragedy, some peculiarities might appear in certain texts and render the guide incomplete. I believe αἰών (aion - a period of existence, everlasting) should be added to the list, designating the extension of the hero’s punishment in a metaphysical form.

When can someone be declared dead? For the sake of the hypothesis, let us define death as the moment when someone or something ceases to exist. Does the exhaustion of the body, the death or the forgetting of the soul represent the beginning of eternal peace? I can rule out for you, living physical being, the exhaustion of the body, for I am quite sure I am not in the way that you are. Alas, our collaboration is of no use for if ever I were to find out, I would have ceased to be and thus unable to communicate, and if you were ever to find out your possibility of contacting me is nonsense. Everything is absurd and it tortures me when I know I am incapable of anything, nothing, expecthing, something, existhing, everything, deathing.

Henry and Camilla, of course, both attended the funeral. Camilla cries with the rest, she’s much more comfortable with emotional displays. Her mascara forms black rivers which shed on the upturned, disturbed earth that covers the casket. She is messy (indeed in a hypnotising way, the one in which girls usually are), but how could she not be? The previous night, she fell asleep sobbing quietly, her swan-like shoulders trembling. The pillow sheets smeared her makeup, but she, nevertheless, still laid her head on them. Over bumps ameliorated by elastic oscillations, she applied dust over dust, before the funereal in the aluminium mimic. What a storm of bows and angel white, what a deserved distinction. If I were to focus my all-knowing being on Henry, the story would go quite differently. The stoic is, as expected, unyielding. However, just as unexpected (due to the eye of the omniscient), his umbrella is (incredible, I almost would not have believed it) clenched in his pale hand! What a pitiful display of emotion from the cold season, wouldn’t you agree? He hopes I don’t, but I do know the ice in his eyes melted la veille au soir et aussi the exact number of tears that rolled over his dry cheek.

The word mourn traces its origins to the Proto-Indo-European root (s)mer-, which means to fall into thinking, to remember, to care for. Its sombre connotation likely stems from the natural link between memory (memoria-Latinae) and sorrowful experiences. Since memory and experience are deeply personal, one might assume that mourning, too, is uniquely individual. Yet this hypothesis falters when considering Henry and Camilla; two people, two pasts, two lives, two distinct memories, one irrevocably ensnared being (which is, assumingly, the reason for their similar past-time activities). They visited the grave, separately, each on their own; 4:12, 16:07, 00:01, 20:39, et cetera. “Et revertatur pulvis in terram suam unde erat et spiritus redeat ad Deum qui dedit illum” and so clothes shed on the grave. The dirt that covered the body stained them; Camilla’s inside, Henry’s outside. During the Bacchanal, her hair was red, but during the visits it was brown. I cannot imagine it must have been very pleasant for her, but she still tried and her lipstick stuck to stone. He was reluctant at first, he found the cold earth unwelcoming, but soon got used to it and found it bearable when his mind conjured the image of the dead. How he huffed and cried through his movements was so sad I wanted to give him a flower.

Your life is not only your own, death has more than one victim. It creates a paradox for those left behind, where change and routine coexist. Henry still brews two cups of coffee in the morning, irons the clothes that should have been picked up from his flat, and writes Julian’s assignments twice, placing one copy on the empty desk. Camilla is haunted by the absence of the scent which she inhaled with every chance, and fearing she might forget it, purchases a bottle. This unrelenting cycle is, of course, followed by the attempt at escapism. Inexorable fate makes them unconsciously aware of the invasion that urges them to tilt each other. Small, transitive comparisons morph into manipulations: similar enough hair, a habit adopted without question, the freckle forgotten. Their bodies reek of my remnants and it stirs them. What begins as unforgivable parallels turns into desperate symmetries. Every time they reach for me, their bodies meet, oblivious to the fact that I am. The illusion of the one who exists neither fully alive nor entirely gone becomes more alluring than any sin. Henry and Camilla murmur, groan and cry the two syllables that define an individual, and I do too, along with them, for I am here, wondering when I will be granted the mercy to draw my last eternal breath.

[hms-no-fun]

a little late asking you a question but do you have some favourite books to share? and why they are your favourite? like such as how did they influence your way of thinking, your relationship with art, your way of writing, &c.

i've gotten a few asks about books/writing that influenced me and this is the most open-ended one, so, congratulations on winning that lottery anon.

the book that most recently affected me is The Left Hand of Darkness by Ursula K. Le Guin. it's about a representative from an intergalactic alliance of worlds embedding within and learning about the culture of a previously uncontacted civilization, to try to get them to join. but really, it's about observing the sociological particulars of a human culture where everyone is functionally intersex, and sort of swap male/female gender roles during the time period when they're (for lack of the term actually used in the book that i can't remember) "in heat". it's an astonishing work of science fiction that is every bit as good as its reputation suggests. i had a hard time getting into the first 20-30 pages, but once it really digs into the particulars of "shifgrethor" (this culture's all-important sense of decorum and near-invisible communication that the protagonist struggles to understand til the end) i was hooked. i love fictional social systems. i'm a homestuck, i can't help it. there's a profound materialism in how Le Guin observes this culture into being that unlocked something in me. i'll be thinking about the journey across the ice for the rest of my life.

i was also very inspired by This Is How You Lose The Time War by Amal El-Mohtar and Max Gladstone, perhaps the most pure distillation of the feminine desire to hatefuck your rival into an ascendant beacon of cosmic revolution yet put to the page. much of how they write about time travel has made it into godfeels, not to mention the wildly extravagant and brief but numerous visions of absolutely batshit speculative alt-history tableau. i mean, the way they talk about Atlantis as this sort of annoying constant of the timeline, sometimes real and sometimes fake depending on the strand, definitely casts a shadow over the metaphysics explored in Chapter 8.

the other book i always recommend alongside Time War, because i read them at the same time while i was in the middle of production on Chapter 8 in 2021, is There Is No Antimemetics Division by qntm. anyone who's read it or knows about it can immediately spot the gargantuan influences it's had on Silverbark's narrative in Chapter 8 and especially in Double Album. if you're not aware, Antimemetics Division is a standalone SCP novel about a branch of the Foundation dedicated to studying & intercepting the phenomenon of antimemes, ideas & entities that defy our ability to remember them in various ways. think The Silence in Matt Smith's second season of Doctor Who, or the Void Fish in the Balance arc of The Adventure Zone. i'm not an SCP person at all, i think i've read maybe half a dozen other SCP entries, so i'm not totally full of it when i say this book stands very tall on its own two legs. i very much intend to take a closer look at it in detail down the road because i think, whether intentional or not, the main "villain" of Antimemetics Division operates as a very handy analogue for the socio/psycho-logical effects of the profit motive on individuals & on society at large. also: Marion Wheeler is so fucking good. i did not know she existed when i came up with Silverbark but you bet your ass it's an influence now.

a non-fiction book that's had an outsized influence on me is Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance by Robert Pirsig. i always feel self conscious about bringing this one up because it sounds like a self-help book or some kind of Chicken Soup for the Soul ass grifter textbook. that absolutely could not be farther from reality. ZAMM was written in the 60s and it's a semi-autobiographical philosophy of metaphysics text by a professor of rhetoric who some years ago underwent electroshock therapy after a destructive manic phase. it follows Pirsig on a motorcycle trip across the American west with his son and some college friends, as he tries to uncover the ideas that drove his past self (who he characterizes as a different person that he calls Phaedrus) off the wall. those ideas concern the nature of "quality" and how we perceive it. as in, why should we Know that a good painting is "good" within seconds of examining it, in the same manner that we know a stove is hot almost before we've even touched it? he digs deep into how we conceptualize the split between objectivity and subjectivity, and posits that understanding Quality requires a substantial re-evaluation of our base assumptions about human perception. of course there's SO much more to it than that, it's a beautiful and strange book that succeeds in part because its philosophy is deeply couched within the metaphor of a road trip, making it a lot more accessible than an otherwise straightforward metaphysics text. i read it in an honor's philosophy class full of incurious Christians at age 22, and that was absolutely the perfect time for it.

another non-fiction entry would be Acceptable Men by communist labor agitator Noel Ignatiev. it's a memoir about his time working at Gary Steel Works in the 70s, at the time the largest steel works factory in the world. it relates in very simple terms how racism sabotaged the USAmerican labor movement through anecdotes from his workplace. it's important, i think, for those of us dreaming of & pushing for a more equitable world to stare long and hard at struggles past and not lose their most valuable lessons in our desire to simply have it be true that unions are good. they are good but they're not everything, and in fact they're just as capable of systemic dysfunction and capitulation to capitalist white supremacy as any other organization of human beings.

what else? i started reading The Traitor Baru Cormorant and much enjoyed its early pages, but holy shit that's one long book in a series of long books. people are telling me to read Exordia so i might give that a shot. i've got Gretchen Felker-Martin's Manhunt as well as May Leitz's Girlflesh on my desk, just waiting for the day i'm psychologically prepared to be ravaged by transfem body horror. i keep picking away at China Mieville's October, i'm sure one of these days i'll just sit down and power through it. of course i recommend everyone check out Lenin's State and Revolution, great book from the original poster, absolutely still relevant more than a hundred years later. and much easier to read than you might expect! no one ever talks about how entertaining he is as a writer, unless you hang out with communists in which case you're probably sick of us never shutting up about it.

i hope there's some good stuff in there, and not too much that i've written about before. i really need to make myself read more, but then again who doesn't?

[nevesmose]

Bandages on Broken Souls: A Nostramo Culture/Lore Post

Sometimes I think about the wee lower-deck people that were all covered in bandages in the Night Lords Trilogy. Why so bandagey? (Bandagepilled wrapmaxxers, not beating the bandage allegations, etc)

She glanced at the wretch, who was unhealthily tall and sexless in its overcloak, keeping its face behind stained bandages. Several others lurked close to the door, whispering amongst themselves. It was impossible not to smell their sweat, their stinking, bloodstained bandages, and the rancid oil-blood of their bionics.

Those ones. The attendants providing for Octavia's needs as a Navigator. Octavia's attendants.

It turns out ADB does tell us a bit later on:

The chlorine reek of them offended his senses, the way it rose in a miasma from their antiseptic-soaked bandages, as if such trivial protections could ward against the changes of the warp.

This is very interesting to me for a few reasons since it can lead to various interpretations about Nostraman culture, even though it's important to bear in mind that what we're seeing is the degraded situation after however-many thousand subjective years of dicking about in the Warp, Eye of Terror etc.

They believe, or at least Ruven the POV character here thinks they believe, that warp mutation can be defended against with purely physical items i.e. bandages and disinfectant. While it's easy to point to examples of people from all kinds of cultures in the setting using spiritual or metaphysical ways to protect themselves from the warp, I find it interesting that this doesn't seem to occur to the Nostramans.

In fact, unless I'm remembering it wrong (always a possibility tbh) other than a small mention in one of the Gendor Skraivok short stories about there being a secret Lectitio Divinitatus cult among the serfs, there seems to be very little spiritual/religious belief organic to Nostramo itself.

That makes some sense, I think. It is after all Space Gotham, a world of armoured groundcars and looming starscrapers where everyone is living under some form or another of very high pressure just to survive whether that means getting their next meal or keeping their position in high level gang politics. Whatever beliefs the original settlers brought with them to the Sunless World were, I imagine, ground away over time as generations passed and people had other, more visceral concerns.

There are a few scenes in the 1984 nuclear war TV movie Threads that take place in the period about 10-20 years after the bombs have fallen. It's clear that the by now rapidly deteriorating survivors of the pre-war world are trying as best they can to provide some kind of education for their post-war descendants, but this is extremely limited and relies on what they can gather together from whatever books, VHS tapes etc happened to survive the war:

"The skeleton of a cat! A cat's skeleton!"

And we can see that it simply means nothing to the children and young adults whose entire existence revolves around basic survival - mostly food and the things they have to do in order to get it.

This, in a way, is what I think happened to whatever beliefs in anything beyond the material that may have ever existed on Nostramo by the time we see it in the Crusade/Heresy era. It's a sad, stunted little world and I feel immensely sorry for the nasty, skeevy people it produced.

Another factor affecting this would of course be the Night Haunter. You don't really need to have a spiritual/metaphorical figure or system dispensing rules and justice when Konrad is actually real and inside your home making it brutally clear what his views on law-breaking are.

So, in my usual roundabout way, we come back to the bandages again. My view, as I've expressed before in my ramblings, is that Konrad didn't truly eradicate crime on Nostramo so much as eradicate the appearance of it.

There's a legend from Ancient Greece about a Spartan boy training to be a warrior which I'll post as a screenshot below since I think we could all do with a break from my writing style for a bit:

"He could steal and suffer and die rather than be found out" is the relevant part here I think. Much like the idea that snitches get stitches or the mafia code of omertà where one's value in society and life itself hinge on a mutual keeping of silence against any and all authority figures.

We know that even before Konrad arrived, Nostraman society functioned on a gang allegiance basis, so already fertile ground for a very insular and secretive type of culture. But then we add the Night Haunter to the mix and the numbers spell disaster for you at Sacrifice the social pressure in this direction ramps up massively.

It's also made very clear pretty much everywhere that Nostramo is a vicious, predatory society. There's a description in one of the Skraivok stories of Phy Orlon, the canonical smallest saddest uwu-iest Night Lord:

It astounded Skraivok how such a vulpine little thing had made it through the selection process. Even bulked by legionary gifts, Orlon still managed to convey the impression of feebleness. Towards the end, Nostramo had been providing only the dregs of the dregs. No wonder Curze had levelled the place.

Weakness was like the scent of blood in the water to the Night Lords. Legionaries like Orlon would always attach themselves to those they deemed powerful, for protection. That explained the ridiculous batwings welded to the top of his helm in emulation of Sevatar, and why he had appointed himself as Skraivok’s adjutant.

It's like prison or high school. Even the transhuman supersoldier Nostramans still function this way. What hope do ordinary people have?

Not much at all, I think. Just in order to survive day to day it'd be necessary to conceal any injury, weakness or deformity at the risk of having it being ruthlessly used against you by just about everyone.

So we come back to the bandages again. Told you I'd get there eventually. We see that the attendants are in fact completely covered in bandages Joshua Graham style:

‘Lord,’ they hissed through slits in their faces that were once lips. Their bloodstained bandages rustled as they shifted and lowered their weapons.

[...]

She raised a bandaged hand, as if she could possibly bar the warrior’s passage with a demand, let alone with her physical presence.

I can imagine the impulse to cover up and conceal any weakness applies very strongly to warp mutations of any sort. Curdled and degraded over millennia roaming the immaterium in the bowels of a ship with the changes becoming worse and worse the longer they go on, it would be plausible for this to develop into a need to cover up and disinfect every inch of oneself in order to maintain some pretence, however flimsy, of being a capable human being.

The saddest part of it for me, though, is that all of the attendants are like this. It's a situation where everyone is quite literally in the same boat, undergoing the same suffering, and yet they still retain this deeply-ingrained need to hide and conceal themselves from each other. It feels like even here, ten thousand years after its destruction, Nostramo's poison is still influencing them, still flowing through their veins to keep them separated, afraid, and deeply alone.

Oh wow, a few paragraphs from ADB somehow led to a great long wall of text. Congratulations if you've made it this far!

PS: This being ADB I feel obliged to consider the possibility of Ruven either lying or being mistaken. I don't think this is likely since he is a) also Nostraman and b) a sorcerer meaning that if there was any spiritual aspect going on he would more than likely have the requisite cultural/magical knowledge or experience to be aware of it or otherwise detect it. Ruven is a conniving goth thot but he has no reason to lie in that particular bit of his own thoughts.

[theamityelf]

One of Angie's assignments is to talk to three different classmates about their metaphysical beliefs for five minutes.

She catches herself looking for which of her classmates seem to have the weakest convictions in that regard, and she changes tack.

The point of the assignment is to hear them out, to not try to sway them to her beliefs. The De-Rad teacher has insisted multiple times that it's important to make peace with the fact that she can't control others' thoughts and opinions. She shouldn't want to. It isn't healthy.

Angie gets through a conversation with Kaede, who is vaguely spiritual but not especially religious, with only a few impulses to interject, which she does not indulge.

This victory makes her a little too confident. She talks to Miu next, and her staunch atheism makes Angie anxious. With every sentence, she feels as if she is letting Miu walk farther and farther onto train tracks. The longer it goes on, the more she feels as if Miu is pulling her onto the tracks, with her.

But the five minutes pass, and Angie hasn't interrupted. She thanks Miu for her time and goes off to the art room and says a prayer. It starts off as a string of apologies, before she can calm herself down and pray normally.

She procrastinates on picking a third person. She stays in the art room for the rest of her free period, meaning she'll have to wait until after school. She goes through her afternoon classes in a daze.

When classes end for the day, she looks at all of her classmates, gathering their things to leave, and she can't bring herself to pick someone. She goes back to the art room, as conscious of her own heartbeat as if Miu has just given her an encore.

She finds Nagito in the art room, and her mood lifts at once. "Nagito-senpai!"

He smiles back. "Good afternoon, Angie. I thought I might bump into you, here. I was wondering if you've finished your De-Rad assignment yet."

"Two out of three!" she half-sings, showing him her notes.

"Impressive. To be honest, I haven't gotten started yet. But I thought I could make you my first of the five-minute interviews. Would that be alright with you?"

It never occurred to her that she could use her De-Rad classmates, too. She took "classmates" to mean the other members of her year. "Of course!" she says. "And Nagito can be Angie's third!"

"What an inspired idea!"

She's sure she only said what he was already thinking, but she allows him to give her credit.

"You can go first," he says.

So, she talks for five minutes, watching him take notes all the while. The catharsis of it is a big relief, after spending so much of the day in unspecified dread.

It isn't entirely easy. While the assignment of course doesn't place any limitations on the people they interview (meaning she can really say whatever she wants to right now), she still honors the spirit of the rules by not letting herself preach, not letting herself try to influence him. She talks about God as she sees God, and doesn't try to lure Nagito in with the appeal of what God could be to him. (And...toward the end, she lets herself sound uncertain. She's been studying the history of her island recently, and how the traditional practices of her island were misappropriated in the past. In class, they've been studying the behaviors of cults. She's still finding the best way to engage with her faith.)

When the five minutes end, she feels...vulnerable, but not quite so anxious.

"Your turn," she says brightly.

She listens to Nagito and takes her notes. His thoughts on hope and talent are interesting. There are moments when she smiles at a beautiful turn of phrase, and there are moments when she feels concerned about his mindset. But mostly she just feels very interested.

Is this how it's supposed to feel?

[astrolocherry]

Birthday Jupiter in Pisces - I Dreamed this Genie...

written by #astrolocherry

Jupiter is the traditional ruler of Pisces, so we have a ceremony of traditions when this pair come together. There's no place Jupiter would rather be than reuniting with infinity in Pisces where everything is possible. Jupiter in Pisces is gifted a crown at birth which may be invisible but feels inexplicably substantial, both to the individual and all those in presence. Often a lover of stories, especially as a child, letting her imagination run with wild delight, envisioning herself as the heroine, knowing one day she would be just as loved. With such powerful archetypes combined, the individual is often an heiress of intuitive gifts and closely affiliated with otherworlds. And these very often extend into the physical realm as the sense of 'feeling lucky' ascribing a string of fortune. There can be the ability to spot an opportunity and arrive at exactly the right time. She seems to be very fortuitous in terms of chance encounters and striking gold. As if the Gods are conspiring to make all of her wishes come true, she seems to be following a secret script that directs her with pure divine intention.

Jupiter in Pisces visions are previews of the world that she can co-create with the universe. The spiritual sovereignty and karmic credit of Jupiter in Pisces provides a degree of astrological affluence. She can create wealth if she wants. It's part of her Priestess that demands the luxury and comforts she knows she is worth and deserves. But in many cases, the deep wisdom that accompanies these old archetypes knows how to experience and capture organic rapture, and so discards such desires. The beauty, love, connections, and the creative Pisces delicacies make her feel rich in a way that the outside world cannot comprehend. There's a deep hunger for meaning and the metaphysical that materialism cannot fill. Art, music, poetry, and scenes of natural life transfix her in their magnificence. Her most important gift is this capacity for comprehending what most other people miss.

She is a searcher and a seeress who is called to travel by faraway places and large bodies of water. In her younger years, many years are spent under the teachings and guidance of an assigned gurus and spiritual practitioners. When she truly comes into alignment with her higher self and regains self-control, she promotes herself to the roles she gave away to others. The way she is looking for has been her own all along.

Individuals with the Jupiter in Pisces placement may suffer from issues related to fluid retention, especially in the lower extremities, and those to do with anaemia or excess iron. The feet may be abnormally large or misshaped. Immoderation and overconsumption can produce health effects in regards to an accumulation of toxins. In some cases, these behaviours can be escape measures. Due to the Pisces sign's expelling of physical energy into metaphysical realms, the individual may tire easy, sleep long hours, and require long periods in a strange reclusive recovery.

Cherry

[subir-astrologer]

WHAT IS ROLE OF KETU IN VEDIC ASTROLOGY AND HOW DOES IT BEHAVE IN DIFFERENT HOUSES

In vedic astrology although we consider Ketu as a planet but it actually do not have its physical form. So it is also called as Chaya graha / shadow planet.

Unlike rahu, ketu do not believe in materialistic pleasure and is not a greedy planet. Since Ketu is a headless planet so it takes time in its realization and so the person feels detached under its influence.

The other reason for ketu not liking materialistic pleasure and taste anything is because the sense of taste and pleasure can be felt by the interpretation of our brain and ketu donot have head.

This is the reason when Ketu is active or a person is influenced by ketu, native actually seek and prefer solitude. Native quite loves to being alone, and remember that self-isolation is not loneliness, it just means you are taking time for yourself between regular social interactions.

A SEED GROWS WITH NO SOUND BUT A TREE FALLS WITH HUGE NOISE. DESTRUCTION HAS NOISE BUT CREATION IS QUIET. THIS IS THE POWER OF SILENCE AND THAT IS WHAT KETU IS.

Being alone is an important part of self-development. It allows you to get to know yourself. Through solitary pursuits, you learn more about yourself and reflect on your experiences.

In other words Ketu helps a person in his transformation as he in his isolation period goes thru a self-realization period which impart a lot of understand and knowledge to attend a personal change.

One should always remember that Diamonds are formed under pressure and bread dough rises when you let it rest.

It represents spiritual detachment, liberation (Moksha), past karmic influences, and deep transformation. Ketu often brings a sense of isolation, otherworldliness, and enlightenment but can also manifest confusion, losses, and detachment in the material world.

Let’s understand Ketu’s behavior when placed in each house step by step :

1st House (Ascendant)

Positive: Strong spiritual inclination, interest in occult subjects, intuitive, detached from worldly pleasures, can lead a simple life.

Negative: Physical ailments, identity confusion, difficulty in self-expression, feeling disconnected from self or surroundings.

2nd House

Positive: Detachment from family matters, unorthodox speech, might earn through spiritual or unconventional means.

Negative: Financial instability, strained family relationships, issues related to speech (e.g., stammering), difficulty in accumulating wealth.

3rd House

Positive: Strong willpower, spiritual communication, creative writing, intuitive thinking, detached but courageous in actions.

Negative: Problems with siblings, overconfidence in taking risks, miscommunication, restlessness, lack of focus.

4th House

Positive: Spiritual detachment from home life, deep emotional intuition, and interest in occult or metaphysical studies.

Negative: Problems in relationships with mother or domestic issues, lack of emotional fulfillment, frequent relocation, difficulty in acquiring property.

5th House

Positive: Strong intuitive abilities, interest in spirituality, detachment from children or creative pursuits, inclination towards occult and mantra practices.

Negative: Difficulties in conceiving or relationships with children, confused intellect, gambling tendencies, difficulty in romantic affairs.

6th House

Positive: Ability to overcome enemies, diseases, and debts, strong intuitive healing powers, service-oriented approach in life.

Negative: Health problems related to mysterious or chronic ailments, hidden enemies, workplace troubles, and legal issues.

7th House

Positive: Spiritual union with partner, detached and non-materialistic relationships, interest in unconventional or foreign partners.

Negative: Problems in marriage or partnership, separation, lack of harmony in relationships, difficulty in maintaining long-term commitments.

8th House

Positive: Deep interest in occult, mysticism, and spirituality, ability to overcome sudden upheavals, strong transformative energies, financial gains through inheritance.

Negative: Health problems, sudden losses, accidents, mental stress, secrets and scandals, fear of death.

9th House

Positive: Strong inclination towards spirituality, detachment from religious dogmas, higher learning, and pilgrimage.

Negative: Issues with father, teacher, or gurus, lack of belief in traditional religious practices, challenges in long-distance travel or higher education.

10th House

Positive: Interest in spiritual or unconventional career paths, ability to work in isolation, fame through occult or mystical means.

Negative: Career instability, lack of recognition, trouble with authority, difficulty in maintaining a steady professional life.

11th House

Positive: Spiritual detachment from material gains, success through unconventional means, strong intuition for financial or social matters.

Negative: Difficulty in making long-term friendships, financial instability, unfulfilled desires, issues with elder siblings or social circles.

12th House

Positive: Strong inclination towards spirituality, liberation, and foreign travels, deep introspection, and ability to attain enlightenment or Moksha.

Negative: Expenses or losses, mental stress, isolation, hospitalization, addiction, or imprisonment, problems with sleep or subconscious issues.

Ketu in General :

Spirituality: Ketu encourages detachment and spiritual growth. It helps one let go of materialistic desires and attachments.

Confusion and Isolation: Ketu often creates confusion or disconnection from the areas of life it influences.

Past Karma: Ketu represents past life influences, so its placement often indicates unresolved karmic lessons.

Liberation and Transformation: Despite its challenges, Ketu offers deep spiritual transformation and the potential for enlightenment.

PLEASE NOTE : The effects of Ketu vary significantly depending on aspects, conjunctions, its strength in the chart, and the sign it occupies. A well-placed Ketu can lead to spiritual liberation, while a poorly placed Ketu can cause confusion and detachment from material success.

[beneaththeskybeyondthestars]

The ✨Metaphysical Magic✨ of BTS 💜 방탄소년단

If you're like me and deeply inspired by BTS, then you know there's something truly mystical about their music and presence that goes beyond just being fans. Let’s dive a little into the rabbit hole and into this enchanting world together!

Symbols and Archetypes

First off, let’s talk about the incredible symbolism in BTS’s work. Their "Love Yourself" series is a perfect example. It's all about self-discovery, acceptance, and love – universal themes that we all relate to. These themes mirror the archetypal journeys we often explore in tarot, making their messages resonate deeply with us. Every lyric and visual tells a story that we can connect with, almost like looking at a tarot card and finding a piece of our own story within it.

Astrological Connections

The BTS members have shared their astrological signs with us, adding a whole new cosmic layer to their personalities. RM’s intellectual Virgo energy, Suga’s dreamy Pisces vibes, Jimin’s charming Libra balance, Jhope's Aquarian genius, Jin's Sagittarius wisdom, V's Capricorn earthiness, and Jungkook's Virgo perfectionism – it’s like each member brings a unique star quality that we can relate to on a spiritual level. Knowing their signs helps us connect with them in a more personal and mystical way, almost like they’re celestial guides on our journey. As a band that was born (debuted) on June 13th, BTS are collectively a Gemini, which explains their versatility, charm, humor, multi-hyphenated talent, and how they keep us laughing, delightfully guessing and always surprised with what they will do next, both independently and as a unit. Like the sign, they are energetic, impulsive, and often change their appearance, as well as being great communicators who share their feelings with us, making it easier for us to understand them. Gemini is also considered the teenager of the zodiac, and for us ARMY, they will truly be Young Forever!

Numerology and Destiny

Let's not forget numerology! The number seven is so important for BTS – it represents the seven members and is seen as a symbol of completeness and perfection in many spiritual traditions. Fans (including me!) love finding patterns in release dates, album titles, and significant events. It’s like following a cosmic breadcrumb trail that leads to deeper meanings and connections, making us feel like we’re part of a grand, destined plan.

Energy and Vibration

Have you ever felt the energy at a BTS concert? It’s pure magic! Their music isn’t just something you listen to; it’s something you feel. According to metaphysical principles, everything vibrates at a certain frequency. BTS’s songs, filled with messages of love, hope, and resilience, vibrate at a high frequency that resonates with our hearts. This energy can uplift and heal, creating a powerful experience for all of us.

Transformation and Healing

One of the most beautiful aspects of BTS’s influence is their ability to transform and heal. So many of us have found comfort and strength in their music during tough times. Although I first became aware of BTS in 2019 when I heard the song and saw the video for "Boy With Luv", it was 2020 when I became a true ARMY and without question, they helped me make it through that difficult period. It’s like having a cosmic friend who understands and supports you through their songs. This aligns perfectly with the metaphysical view of music as a form of therapy, reaching into our souls to provide healing and growth.

Collective Consciousness and Synchronicity

Lastly, let’s talk about the amazing BTS ARMY. We’re a perfect example of collective consciousness. Our synchronized activities, from streaming projects to charitable acts, show how connected we are. This unity creates a powerful force that enhances our individual and collective experiences, making us feel like we’re part of something much bigger.

So it is easy to see that the metaphysical aspects of BTS are real and true. Their music and presence go beyond entertainment; they touch our souls and connect us on a spiritual level. Whether through symbolism, astrology, numerology, or the energy they emit, BTS has created a legacy that transcends the physical world. It’s a journey of transformation, healing, and growth that we all share.

Thanks for joining me on this mystical exploration. Stay tuned for more cosmic insight and adventures and Beneath the Sky, Beyond the Stars Tarot. Keep shining and embracing the magic around you! Keep Loving Yourself and Speaking Yourself!

With love and light, I Purple You! 보라해

💜 Gabby 🌌💫

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

pmd9 do you have any advice for keeping yr head up + staying afloat when there is so much suffering in the world? i really struggle sometimes 😓

i understand...i can try to offer suggestions, but i don't know if they're good, this is just how i've been operating ;

Basically just, take care of yourself, in any small way u can, not in a hedonistic way to achieve ignorance of the world suffering, but on the basis that we are all connected & any healing thought or action you take impacts the collective, so if you can consciously try to encompass a compassionate attitude towards yourself & others in your immediate vicinity, it has a butterfly effect that radiates outwards..,

& it's important not to weigh yourself down with guilt that you can't save everyone, because no one can, despite that we desperately want to. For me, i just try to do my best each day to put something back out into the world that is "positive", be it prayers or posts or whatever, internal or external. i am trying to create balance. neutralize the hell parts of the world, and not just in a metaphysical way but taking material steps too like donating whatever i can afford, teaching myself more about the wars happening, talking to people, being ever-presently aware of the wars & willfully deciding to use my energy in that direction, materially, not disconnecting from it,

And yet at the same time i am like, purposefully not overly present online. really not scrolling much, there's certain aspects of technology i find it crucial to not be too sucked into , not just rn but always. once again its a constant balancing act.. Online is really useful when u use it intentionally , and spend a good deal of time doing other stuff, like sitting outside and staring very closely at leaves or ants. If you're taking in a lot online u have to have outlets to transmute it or it all just sits in you.

the wars make me feel like, it is my duty to retain a grateful attitude towards my own existence, and live purposefully, as a way of honoring those who are no longer able to be here.

Like every peaceful silent moment i experience, i can see how blessed it truly is. And i know this feeling if left untended can turn into guilt really easily, in which case you have to carefully guide yourself through that maze like you would a child.. remind yourself of the fallen ones, remind yourself that you're carrying on for them, maybe even invite them down to stare at leaves with you. keep them in your heart. we have to take care of ourselves right now because our generation is aging, in the future we will wield the political power, and we must not let this time period be forgotten or distorted or repeated.

So really yeah just take care of yourself, for the future! let emotions flow through you without judgement, allow yourself to enjoy simple pleasures, try to cheer yourself on. The world needs there to be a You, and it's important not to lose sight of that amongst the feelings of helplessness, U are important. Be in nature a lot, read, drink tea, yoga if you're into it, walking, being around animals, that's what makes me feel calm collected & grateful lately. Pray as much as you can.

Sometimes none of this will help and you still can't stop feeling the despair, which is OK too, like i said, dont judge it, U might have to sit in the void with it. Just be kind to it. that despair is not the essence of who you are. it wants resolution too. i hope this made sense and comes across with the sensitivity i am intending. And i hope you are able to feel more brightly soon. Be Well my friend <3 There is still hope. Love, PMD9 <3

[jerzwriter]

Meet Addie Larkin

Addie is a longtime friend of Tobias, who is introduced in Chapter 2. While they've known each other for nearly a decade and cherish their friendship, they know very little about each other's personal lives. For example, Addie had a partner this whole time, but Tobias only met them once in passing. While their friendship is not deep, it's still very important to them.

Name: Addie Larkin

Hometown: She grew up in Boston. A bit of a nomad, she moves frequently but stays nearby. She has lived in Jamaica Plain, South Boston, and Alston neighborhoods of Boston, as well as Brookline and Somerville in recent years.

Age: 35 years old at start of story.

Sexual Orientation: She doesn't like labels, but if forced to identify, she'd say she's pansexual.

Relationship status: She has a long-term partner, but little is known about them.

Occupation: An artist at heart but a business owner by trade. She owns a store in Cambridge that specializes in Boho-style clothing and arts, as well as metaphysical products. She manages a successful business but is not as capable of managing her personal finances.

Faceclaim: Bree Larson

Personality traits: Artistic, creative, strong-willed, practical, ethical, genuine, assertive, confident, devoutly loyal to those she loves, open-minded, non-conforming, aloof at times, blunt, friendly if she likes you, can appear cold, detests organized/traditional religion, but is spiritual, can be forgiving, or very non-forgiving dependent on the person involved.

More information below...

Other information: Addie is 100% Boston Irish but is estranged from most of her family. She left home for New York to attend art school at 18, and her conservative family did not approve of her lifestyle choices. When she refused to bend to their demands at the end of her sophomore year, they cut her off financially. She stayed in New York for six months but returned to Boston, where she had a network of friends soon after. She loves Boston and her life there. A non-conformist, she started her own business because traditional ventures, schedules, and lifestyles never worked for her. After years of trying to find her niche, she started a small business selling boho-style clothing she made. It eventually grew into a thriving lifestyle/metaphysical store in Cambridge.

Some backstory: She and Tobias met at a bar on his third night in Boston. They got along instantly, and she showed him around his new hometown and introduced him to people who were not involved in the medical world. He provided medical care for her during a period of time when she did not have adequate health coverage, and after that, a deeper bond was formed.

They consider each other close friends, but they know remarkably little about each other's personal lives. For example, Tobias knows she has a partner this whole time, but he's only met them once or twice in passing. Tobias has shared many stories about his conquests with her, but she couldn't tell you a name or face associated with them. Still, when she learns he has an official girlfriend, she's eager to meet her. And while not seeking approval, Tobias hopes they'll get along.

Many assume Tobias and Addie had something more than friendship at some point in the past. But the only two who know the answer to that are Tobias and Addie, and they prefer to leave people guessing.

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[astrojulia]

Transiting Pluto conjunct your natal...

MOON

During this cycle, it's pretty normal to feel some pain or emotional turmoil with the people you care about or even authorities. If you want to heal, you might wanna try checking out some metaphysical or self-improvement courses, or even consider going to therapy. Just keep in mind that even if you're trying to stop some unwanted behaviors, you could still end up picking up some new ones that might be tough to get rid of later on.

Sometimes, family stuff might pop up during this time too, especially if there are some unresolved issues hanging around. But honestly, facing those things head-on can actually bring you closer to your loved ones and help you understand what's really driving everyone's actions.

It's important to know that you might feel a bit more vulnerable than usual during this time, but that's okay! You can work on finding some emotional balance and figure out what you really need right now. It's not always easy, but it's a good opportunity to get clear on your priorities.

If you're feeling pretty content with where you're at, think about getting rid of any unnecessary stuff and just focusing on what's really important to you. Oh, and if you've got a powerful subconscious, you might feel a connection to some collective energies, but even if everything's looking good on the planetary front, this cycle can be pretty intense.

Finally, if you're into magic, this transit could give you tones of energy to work with. Just be careful not to push yourself too hard!

SUN

So basically, the goal here is for you to tap into your own sense of power and realize just how capable you really are. It's important to trust in your own resources and your own sense of well-being, rather than relying on others to validate you.

This can be a really empowering time for you, and you may find that you have a strong impact on the world around you just by being yourself. You deserve respect, so you don't need to go around demanding it from others. When things get tough, you have the ability to persevere and come out even stronger.

That being said, this transit can bring with it some intense energy that needs to be channeled in a productive way. If you don't find an outlet for it, it can end up causing harm to yourself and others. You might feel a desire to exert control over everything around you, or experience a surge of sexual energy that needs to be expressed or transformed.

If you have good planetary alignments during this time, there are some great opportunities for spiritual growth and self-discovery. However, if the planets aren't playing nice, there is a risk of accidents or other negative outcomes.

So, the bottom line is that you have some serious power within you, and it's important to find healthy ways to channel it. Whether that means focusing on your spirituality, your sexuality, or just being true to yourself, this transit is all about discovering what you're truly capable of.

MERCURY

During this time, you might need to do some digging to get the info you need. The good news is, your analytical skills are on point, so it's a perfect time for some self-reflection and psychological studies. Just watch out for those negative or obsessive thoughts that can be a real buzzkill.

This period could shake up your whole perspective, especially if you usually rely on other people's opinions. It's important to think for yourself and do some deep thinking. While you might come across strong and assertive with your knowledge, try not to alienate others with your opinions.

You might find yourself making some big choices during this time, but your uncompromising views can help you stay focused on what really matters. This is a real learning curve, and your ideas and opinions about a ton of things could do a 180.

Communication is key during this time, and you gotta ask yourself why you're doing what you're doing. Are you helping others grow, or are you being selfish? Listen to those who really have your best interests at heart, they can teach you so much. For those who are just trying to force their opinions on you, take a step back and evaluate your ideas. Keep questioning yourself and your ideas, and you'll come out on top.

VENUS

This is a time where you might suddenly find yourself in a new and intense romantic relationship or just feeling a new sense of sexuality. It's also a great opportunity for you to take a deep dive into your most intimate relationships and learn how to transform any negative patterns into positive aspects that promote growth. Basically, you're learning about the process of love!

During this period, you might encounter circumstances or people who challenge your ideas. While you might feel the need to defend your positions, keep an open mind and you may come across information that has a significant impact on how you think. It can be a time that changes your entire perspective, especially if you trust the opinions of others. This break may require you to think for yourself and reflect on things more deeply.

This is an excellent time to dig below the surface and find answers. Superficial conversations might not interest you as much as more substantive exchanges. Pursuing things that allow you to connect more meaningfully with people, ideas, or yourself can have a long-term effect. You're a curious learner and not satisfied with what is obvious. Challenging the facts and asking tough questions helps you solve problems of all kinds. Don't be afraid to doubt what others take for granted!

MARS

You're in the mood to conquer any obstacle that comes your way, and right now is the perfect time to figure out what really drives you and ditch what doesn't. Your habit of reacting strongly to situations can actually work in your favor by helping you find an awesome path to follow. And while being around others can be fun, you might actually feel more fulfilled flying solo and becoming more self-sufficient. That way, you'll get a better understanding of what makes you tick.

Of course, you might face some challenges during this phase, like taking risks or dealing with disasters. But even these obstacles can give you a fresh sense of strength and a second wind to keep going. Your energy comes from the collective and from outside sources like the cosmos. And sometimes, you might have trouble connecting with others if someone close to you is in charge of a certain field.

Overall, this is a time of risk and potential setbacks, but you can use it to tap into your superhuman strength and tackle anything you set your mind to. Stay positive and focus on the good in life, even when things get tough.

JUPITER

When you're scared and feel like you're not sure what to do, just remember that focusing on one goal can still help you succeed. But don't get too obsessed with that goal, or you might end up with some major debt if you're not careful. So, try to take advantage of all the opportunities that come your way during this time. This will not only improve your chances of success but also help you understand what success means to you.

If you're feeling unfulfilled in certain areas of your life, don't worry. It could lead to some big changes and even some major fame and popularity if things go well. You might get to meet new people and gain more influence, plus make some good money. But be careful because there could also be some pushback from people in power, depending on what you're trying to achieve and how you're doing it.

Anyway, no matter what you're aiming for, this transit can give you a boost of optimism and hope, which is super important for success. Just keep believing in yourself, and you'll be more likely to reach your goals. This is especially true if you're looking for something more than just personal glory.

SATURN

This cycle is all about being efficient and letting go of things that no longer serve a constructive purpose. I know it can be tough to face the idea of letting go of dependencies, especially if they're familiar, but trust me - it's worth it! Holding onto things just because they're familiar can sometimes lead to trouble if they don't have real substance.

During this cycle, you might need to cut back on certain areas of your life to focus on the fundamentals, but that's an opportunity to refocus on what really matters. By doing so, you can become more grounded and secure, with a deeper understanding of what's truly meaningful in your life.

And here's the exciting part: this cycle can help strengthen you, even in the face of events that expose your flaws. So, if you face some challenges with authority figures, just remember that they might see your potential as a leader and ask you to take on greater responsibilities! This is your time to redefine your role and become more effective and powerful in your pursuits.

Now, I know that worst-case scenarios like severe tests, disasters, and even violent death can be scary to think about. But don't worry, those are just possibilities - it's not a guarantee! On the flip side, you might find that you have good self-control in extreme situations and the opportunity to rise to the top in your career or other areas of your life.

So, stay grounded and keep a positive outlook! Although there may be challenges and obstacles, this cycle can ultimately help you grow and become more resilient. Best of luck to you!

URANUS

This is an exciting time with lots of possibilities where you might feel restless and eager to break free from your usual routine. You're looking for new experiences and adventures, and it can be tough to stick to a regular schedule. Even though others around you might not get why you want to switch things up, it's important to follow your passions and stay true to yourself.

You might find yourself getting into new hobbies, interests, or even exploring metaphysical and mystical experiences. This is the perfect time to tap into your creative side and use your high energy levels to your advantage. Just be sure to take things slow and use your expertise to make sure you succeed.

The main goal of this cycle is to make positive changes and embrace your independence. Whatever you do now could set you on a path towards long-term fulfillment. Even if you're not typically a trailblazer, you might feel like shaking things up and doing things differently.

One thing to keep in mind is that this time could also bring unexpected events that have a big impact on you. It can be unsettling if you're used to things being predictable, but try to stay open to new opportunities and stay positive. Overall, this cycle is about embracing change and finding excitement in the unknown.

NEPTUNE

This is a time when you may feel like you're on a wild and crazy ride, questioning the deeper meaning of life like never before. You might experience unexpected changes, like the death of someone close to you or the end of something in your life. It could even be a near-death experience, either yours or someone else's, that makes you ponder the afterlife and other spiritual matters. You might even have some psychic experiences!

It's a confusing time, but don't worry, you can find ways to satisfy your thirst for greater meaning through creative and spiritual avenues. This might be the perfect opportunity to discover inner resources you never knew existed. Although this cycle might not show its effects right away, it can emphasize any existing confusion and make things even more obscure than before.

On the bright side, you can also deepen your sensitivity and become more aware of the subtle forces that can reshape your life. You might even feel a strong motivation to get rid of anything that's not working in your life. But be warned, you might feel like you have less control than usual, especially with things that are already undefined. So buckle up and enjoy the ride, because this cycle will take you places you never thought possible!

CHIRON

This is a period of deep healing and intense emotional pain. You might come across some challenges that you never thought you could handle - like old painful memories popping up because of current events or stuff that triggers you big time. But don't worry, you got this! Just be gentle and compassionate with yourself and lean on your loved ones for support.

This is your chance to heal past traumas that have been holding you back in life. You might experience the death or birth of someone close to your heart, and that can bring up a lot of feelings. If you need it, go for therapy, counseling, or try alternative healing methods to help you through this emotional time.

It's tough, but try to see this as an opportunity for growth and self-discovery. By diving deep into your emotions and trying out new ways to deal with your problems, you'll come out stronger and wiser. At the end of this period, you'll have a better understanding of yourself and your inner strength. You got this, siren!!

LILITH

This time might bring up some tricky issues related to control and power in your intimate relationships and sexuality. You might feel like you're stuck in some kind of constraints and have a strong urge to break free. It can be a chance to grow and transform in your sexuality, though it can be quite intense emotionally as you confront any unresolved issues.

Be aware that you might feel a strong desire for control, and you might even be tempted to dominate your partner to get your way. But that's not a healthy approach to long-term relationships, and it can even lead to breaking up. Instead, it's important to try and find a balance of power that allows for mutual respect and cooperation.

It can be challenging, but it can also be an opportunity for growth and healing. If you're willing to face your fears and make meaningful changes, you might come out of this transit with a greater sense of power and fulfillment in your intimate relationships and sexuality.

NORTH NODE

Right now, fate seems to be calling the shots in your life. You're standing at a crucial turning point, and big changes may be on the horizon. You might find yourself drawn to someone who feels like an old soul, someone you've known in a past life perhaps. Alternatively, you could cross paths with a group of people who become instrumental in shaping your future.

No matter what form it takes, this period marks a time of significant transformation. Your circumstances could shift in ways that help you get closer to your goals, opening up new doors and opportunities. Stay open to the possibilities and trust that the universe is guiding you towards where you're meant to be. Exciting things are in store!

SOUTH NODE

You might notice some old issues related to power and control popping up again. It can be tough to break free from old patterns that aren't serving you anymore, but it's important to let go of the past and move towards a brighter future. You got this! Even though it might feel challenging, this time can be an opportunity for growth and transformation if you're willing to face your fears and confront your shadow self. Don't hesitate to reach out for support from a therapist or other sources. With a little bit of work and self-reflection, you can let go of old baggage and find a path that feels truly authentic and fulfilling.

ASCENDANT (1ST HOUSE)

Get ready for an exciting time of personal growth and transformation! You have the chance to make some amazing changes in your life, and while some may be beyond your control, embracing them can lead to positive outcomes. Remember to stay focused on creative projects and steer clear of drama or negativity.

You may feel a strong drive to achieve your goals and nothing can stop you! However, it's important to keep a healthy balance and avoid obsessive behavior.

During this time, some partnerships may come to an end if they no longer serve you. Take the time to get to know new people before entering into partnerships, and aim for balance and mutual respect in any relationships.

It's true that this can be a challenging time, but it's also an incredible opportunity for growth and self-discovery. Keep a positive attitude, embrace change, and you'll come out of this period feeling stronger and more confident than ever before!

IMUM COELI (4TH HOUSE)

This transit may bring up some important issues related to your home and family life. You might experience intense emotions and a deep transformation in this area of your life. It's possible that you'll make a move or undergo a major renovation of your home during this time. You may also experience a shift in your relationships with family members, especially with your parents.

This can be a time of deep healing and growth, but it can also be challenging as you confront any unresolved issues from your past. Remember to take care of yourself and reach out for support as needed. Ultimately, this transit can help you create a stronger foundation for your life and move towards a more secure and stable future.

So, take heart, be patient and stay positive. Use this time to reflect on what really matters to you, and focus on building a happy and healthy home and family life.

DESCENDANT (7TH HOUSE)

So, during this transit, your relationships might be the main focus, and you might have some intense power struggles with your partner or other important people in your life. It can be tough, but it's also a chance for you to grow and transform your relationships in a positive way. It's natural to want to be in control, but remember that healthy relationships are all about mutual respect and working together. Try to avoid power struggles and find a balance of power that works for everyone. If you have any unresolved issues, it's important to face them head-on and work towards positive changes in your relationships. It's not always easy, but seeking support and being open to growth can help you build stronger and more fulfilling relationships in the long run.

MIDHEAVEN (10TH HOUSE)

Get ready for a major shakeup in your career and public image! During this transit, you may face some power struggles with authority figures or confront unresolved issues related to your professional goals. But don't worry, this challenging time can also be an opportunity for growth and transformation. By facing your fears and working towards meaningful change, you can move towards a more fulfilling career path.

You might need to let go of old patterns and approaches to achieve greater success and recognition in your field. But with hard work, determination, and a willingness to confront obstacles, you can achieve your goals and realize your true potential.

So don't be afraid to take risks and step outside your comfort zone. This transit offers a chance to transform your professional life and create a brighter future for yourself!

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[orkbutch]

A Gender Feelings Dump bc i have my semi-public diary back now :)

I came back to tumblr because I got immediately obsessed with BG3 and knew I wanted to do it Proper Fandom Like. Possibly because its been a surprisingly nostalgic experience and the last time I was into something like this, I was on tumblr doing fandom (DA, fallout, ect.) so maybe its all regression, idk. But it has resulted in me drawing and writing the most I ever have in 6 years, since I left my bachelor of illustration and decided I couldn't do art as a career and I needed Real Work (tm) to live and meet my goals.

That has changed. I've realised I have been fighting my nature; I've wanted to be an artist since I was a child, and I was Always solely fixed on that goal. And one thing 6 years of drawing and creating a lot less did was... cut me off from a gender experience I have! Which I lowkey forgot about, and am now rediscovering? And its an odd (but also not odd at all) one that I gotta ramble about.

My name is Emmanuel Josephine [Redacted], and I picked Josephine because its my favourite name and because I was aware that sometimes, I simply am not... in Emmanuel headspace. Emmanuel is a Tom of Finland rough-housing cowboy priest. Which are often my vibes. But lately I have been a lot more Josephine, whose vibes are more ... 15th Century nun troubadour secretly in love with their fellow nun. Am I making sense? These are just vibes. Gender word association.

Anyway, I've realise these track to whether I'm more preoccupied, at that period of my life, with the outside world or my internal world. I phrase it that way because I don't want to imply that Emmanuel is just "Face", a social performance; I can be and am Josephine with other people. These aren't personality changes (Important to specify that because I have DDNOS lol), but maybe... the temporary moving of my perspective and perceptions.

I think when I'm feeling very creative and making a lot of things, I become very introspective; for me, art is always a conversation with myself. My Perspective and Perception inevitably shifts to be more internal. That makes me less responsive to social contexts, which is obviously a massive part of gender identity. And I just become a lot Less Gendered... I think?

Perhaps thats why Josephine is best described to me as a cloistered nun. I become less dysphoric about my body (because I think about it less) and I become fairly disinterested in having sex (though I am still just as interested in sexuality as a subject). I experience this broad, internal landscape that feels so intricate and distinct from the external world that it feels almost divine, or I guess metaphysical, even though I don't believe in anything spiritual. That is the shift in perspective; the internal world becoming the focus over the external.

Which, like... is this dissociation? I genuinely don't know. I have a dissociation disorder, so it would make sense. The separation from my dysphoria and libido, and the turn inwards, thats pretty dissociative stuff. I don't know. I feel pretty present. Its just weird.

I can't tell if this is an alternative experience that is gendered, what you may call A Gender Experirnce, or a dissociative episode (are the two really that different?), or more specifically, a regressive episode. Idk. Brains are wild.

[nicklloydnow]

“It would be best to sum up the spirit of Gnosticism thus: extending over more than two centuries, it gathers up all the ideas that lingered about the period in order to form an outrageous Christianity, woven from Oriental religions and Greek mythology. But that this heresy was Christian we cannot doubt by a certain raucous resonance that runs through it. It is evil that obsessed the Gnostics. They are all pessimists regarding the world. It is with great ardor that they address a God whom they nevertheless make inaccessible. But Christianity draws from this emotion, incalculable in the face of the divinity, the idea of His omnipotence and of man's nothingness. Gnosticism sees in knowledge a means of salvation. In that it is Greek, because it wants that which illuminates to restore at the same time. What it develops is a Greek theory of grace.

Historically, Gnosticism reveals to Christianity the path not to follow. It is because of its excesses that Tertullian and Tatian check Christianity in its march toward the Mediterranean. It is, to a certain extent, because of Gnosticism that Christian thought will take from the Greeks only their formulas and their structures of thought - not their sentimental postulates, which are neither reducible to Evangelical thought nor capable of being juxtaposed to it but without the slightest coherence. Perhaps it is already clear that Christianity, introduced into the Greco-Roman world at the end of the first century, did not make any decisive development until the milieu of the third century. We understand as well the importance we have accorded to the Gnostic doctrines regarding the evolution we want to recount. Gnosticism shows us one of the Greco-Christian combinations that were possible. It marks an important stage, an experience we could not pass over in silence.” - Albert Camus, ‘Christian Metaphysics and Neoplatonism’ (1936) [p. 86, 87)

[thenightlymirror]

I think I only mentioned this to Patrick, and didn’t write it down. I listen to Otherworld all the time, and I guess it gets you into a certain mindset where you just spontaneously understand “Well of course you should never fuck with a Ouija board.” But… I don’t actually believe that, do I?

I, technically (I feel like I say this a lot these days), don’t believe in anything supernatural, period. In practice, in my daily life, I’m basically a mystic Quaker and amateur demonologist. I am constantly aware of angels entering the room, the thoughts of God, his dumb jokes, geomagnetic flows creating psychic channels. I just wave this all away as latent schizophrenia. I’m a radical anti-theist. Surely.

But, I’ve had some theories about a few things. One, my theory is that the Ouija board is a very effective method of giving yourself dissociative identity disorder. There are probably quite a few ways to break your own brain, but for some reason, distributing accountability to a few comrades while all having your hands on the planchette allows your ego to detach in such a way that it takes a little while to forget this new ability.

I felt this about the HEMI-sync meditation I did. I only did one, because it was so powerful. I know my blog is not as exciting as it was before I had a CPAP machine so I was dying in my sleep and having prophetic lucid nightmares every night. A guy needs to sleep, you know? And I need a certain amount of sanity to continue going to my god awful job because being homeless might be slightly worse than not having psychic powers. There’s just some sacrifices you have to make. (You sometimes hear people with profound psychic abilities say, “I realized I was here on earth for a reason, to experience what it was like to be a human for a while.”)

But after the meditation, all I would need is to hear some pink noise, and I would enter right into that state of unearthly calm and attention again. Thanks CIA! And it became clear to me, maybe I should chill on this. Come back to it when I’m a little more stable.

With the paranoid life, there are all these security measures people take to protect themselves from demons and fairies and jinn who might want to take advantage of them as they are, say, standing in a doorway too long in the office. Harper literally complains about this every day. And my thought was, as a pantheist, I don’t have these problems.

It would never occur to me that the world is secretly full of demons that want to take advantage of you, because in the background of my mind is the unconscious belief that there is only one consciousness that is shared by everything, and identities are just blockages and illusions.

It made me wonder if monotheism really was a huge leap towards reason by virtue of being just one god short of atheism. Close enough to elide superstitions that would make reason impossible to hear over the noise of every paranoid haunted thought. Which became two thoughts. One, pantheism as a necessary illusion to pacify your own mind. And two, that reality is a kind of metaphysical polytheism, a gesture like the one Badiou makes where God becomes impossible because there is never only one infinity. There is an infinity of infinities, and you just have to accept the chaos, the decentering of all minds into a clamor of demons with no true north.

When you can no longer make decisions of any import to affect your actual, material life, what difference does it make?