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gege is so done with jjk and that's totally fine ( ´ Ď ` )
#the man is tired. you can just tell#and finishing jjk up in 5 chapters is fine it's his manga#i'm just grateful for the story & characters & his hard work#i am seeing too many negatives about it being unfinished#the man even apologizes in his 5 chapter announcement#even when he doesn't have to#he knows he can't meet everyone's expectations#and that's totally ok! <3#* ⢠đđđ â ( clench your asshole super tight & scream it from your heart )
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oh boy 2AM !!!!!!
#xmen#xmen comics#magneto#erik lehnsherr#erik magnus lehnsherr#max eisenhardt#i love how i never. put michael xavier#like ok we get it i think we know who we're looking at#snap sketches#BUT HIIIIII it is 2AM !!!!!!#i got some stuff done early tonight and so i wanted to Indulge#after all the love i gave charles recently i had to shift to erik scribbling for a sec mk its only fair#i think the funnier bit is that while i did intend to do these doodlings at SOME point#i originally just wanted to draft a comic but once i realized i was gonna have erik use his powers a lil in it#i reminded myself i still wanted to Properly figure out how i wanted to draw it. and now we're here#first drawin is just cause i really like that outfit. like its criminal its not actually shown anywhere else jlaejkvej#it IS just his black krakoa outfit sleeveless but i dont wanna hear it a sleeveless outfit can be so special#if i were a weaker man id draw this outfit like. any time i drew krakoa-era erik tbh but i am only slightly better than that#anyway im tired now im all drawn out. you can tell i started losing steam by the time i got to the ref sheet vjaelkjela#good night everyone !!!!!
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DC must not want money because if they did, they would have made a Batman & Robin movie or show centered on Bruce getting Dick. Currently, people are all about "disgruntled man suddenly has a child he is not blood related too and becomes a father", if DC just use the recipe with Bruce and Dick, people would eat that shit up. Especially because Batman's story is about hope, and what better way to deliver that than by giving him a kid?! Especially as it is the goal of the recipe, to give hope to the disgruntled man! Instead of trying again and again to sell Batman had this "misery 4ever" story (which it is not supposed to be) to please the edgelords.
I don't know wtf DC is doing, don't they have people analysing the market??? How can they miss that???
#bruce wayne#batman#dick grayson#robin#dcu#dc comics#my ramblings#they would make millions#A Batman show that starts just before Bruce gets Dick so you have like one episode to establish them and you kill the Grayson at the end#you can tell Bruce's backstory through Dick's story because of the parallel#and than you have multiple episodes of Bruce running after his kid who wants to fight criminals#man goes from âsingle and ready to mingleâ to âtired fatherâ speedrun
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Ridonculous Race but Noah is friends with Owen part 7: Itâs the little things.
Sorry this oneâs kinda lame⌠I just watch this episode and get upset that we returned to status quo as if Ridonc and Roll meant nothing. The slightest of dynamic shifts would of been enough, as long as SOMETHING changed. It really is the little things sometimes
Transcript:
Image 1 Kitty: Ugh-! it stinks so bad down here!
Image 2 Owen: Well⌠There could be any number of reasons for that.
Image 3 Owen: I mean who can really say what- Owen: Wait. Owen: I know those forehead wrinkles⌠Youâre mad at me!
Image 4 Owen: Youâre mad at me⌠And youâre biting your tongue⌠Noah: ?
Image 5 Owen: AWW, BUDDY!!!
Image 6 Owen, offscreen: YOU CAAARE ABOUT MEEE!! Noah, offscreen: SHUT UP!! LET ME GO!! Kitty: Aww âĄ
Image 7 Kitty: Why canât we be like that? Emma: Keep your head in the game and maybe we can be. Owen, offscreen: And my feeeeeeelings~ Noah, offscreen: STOP IIIT AAAAARRR (the text turns into scribbles, signifying incomprehensible yelling.)
#âwhy canât we be like that?â and Noahs shouting incomprehensible garble at Owen#can you tell this one was rushed#I was struck with an inspiration I hadnât had for this series in a while and I couldnât just let it die#is this in character? Would Noah shout incomprehensible garble at Owen?#sorry man im TIRED#promise the next one will be better#the next one is when Noah goes catatonic. now THATS a big one#total drama#noah is friends with owen#Starry makes art#total drama presents: the ridonculous race#total drama ridonculous race#tdrr#total drama noah#td noah#total drama owen#td owen#total drama emma#td emma#emma race#total drama kitty#td kitty
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Clone^2 Damian
If you really think about, Damian's situation in the clone^2 au is... kinda tragic? Especially in the early months of his arrival. Like,,, think about it. Damian has always known he was a clone of Damian Wayne, that he was a copy of the blood son. There was nothing 'original' about him, not even his name (of which at least Danny has that). He was just... a replacement. A disposable one, to boot.
And he knew that, to an extent, by the time he was six years old. he might not have been actively acknowledging it -- he's six years old -- but deep down he knew. And like, he's six years old. Every small child craves the love and affection of an adult, especially their parents, and even though he knew he was clone, I imagine he still considered - and still does consider, somewhat - Talia and Bruce as his mother and father. And I really doubt he was... getting it?
Now, I know Talia loves Damian, her son. At least in some interpretations she does, and in this au she does. But... a clone of her son? I'm not so certain if she would have the same affection for baby Dames as she would for Damian. I don't think she would treat him badly, but I don't think Talia would treat him warmly either. Kinda just, distant. Colder than she would have been with OG Damian.
And, I know I've mentioned Damian's arrival from Danny's point of view, and its kind of comical kind of insane from his perspective -- a little boy clone of Damian Wayne falls through a portal and immediately attacks him. That sounds like a bad joke.
But, if you think of this from Damian's point of view? It's like he just got dropped into a scary movie. Like, think about it. You're six years old, and suddenly a portal, as green and as swirling as your grandfather's pools, opens up beneath your feet and sucks you through.
After an intense bout of vertigo, you end up in a massive, urban city -- completely different from the rural mountain palace that you lived in for the last six years of your life, and in this city, you don't know any of the language. You don't know what anyone is saying, you can't read any of the signs - you are completely stranded, away from home.
And then, to make things worse, you're facing a figure with a terrifying mask and eyes as burning green as the portal you fell through. Of course Damian's first instinct, six years old, is to attack. He's terrified.
And this figure, he's not a good fighter, but he's fast, and he dodges you quickly. He grabs your sword with his hands, and tries to restrain you, saying something in a language you don't know. Naturally, Damian is just scared. He's six! He'd just be learning how to read if he was normal child going to school.
This figure halfway through the fight yanks off his mask -- he realizes you're scared -- and looking at you now, is a youthful version of your father. This is a clone of your dad, someone you have never met but, six years old, still wants to. Damian gets defensive. This is an imposter.
But this imposter eventually gets you home with him - and he's using his little box, his phone, to communicate with you through a mechanical voice speaking in arabic. and it's frustrating. The boy, the imposter, can say whatever to you just fine, but trying to talk back is a hassle and a half. He's six, he doesn't have that much patience.
He wants to go home.
And so he keeps trying to run away. He keeps trying to find out of this hellish concrete jungle, and he keeps getting lost. It's loud, and busy, and there are people talking to you and you don't understand them, and there are rules and signs you don't understand - Damian tries to cross the street and nearly gets hit by a car. He doesn't know how the road signs work, he was never taught. They didn't get to that.
And he gets lost. And it gets dark, and Damian is brave, but he is six, and this is the worst stress he's been under in all his six years of life. He wants, desperately more than anything, to go home. Why wouldn't he? The only stable... semi-stable environment he was in just got ripped out from under his feet, literally! He wants his mother.
And it's not happening.
But there's something good to be said, at least. The imposter that looks like his father always comes and finds him, no matter what. He could have left that morning, and he will find Damian at midnight, frazzled and worried, and carrying an extra jacket with him because it is cold in Amity Park and Damian is six years old.
And sometimes Damian attacks him - he's scared and stressed and he doesn't want to be here. And every time he catches the sword. Even though Damian can see it cut into his hand and pearls of blood well up and stains his fingers. Even though Damian can see him wince in pain and bite his lip, he still catches it.
But with that little box, he coaxes Damian to come back with him. It's cold, it's dark, Amity Park is unsafe at night. They can figure something out tomorrow, please. And every time, he agrees, reluctantly. And the imposter takes the extra jacket he brought with -- a flannel, a hoodie, a jacket -- and he wraps it around him. It's warm, Damian's clothes are not that thick, and even though he thinks he might hate this imposter, he still sticks close to his legs as he leads him down the street.
And sometimes the imposter carries him, because Damian's shoes are not that thick, and he cuts his foot on broken glass while they're walking home. The imposter sits in the bathroom with him and carefully cleans the cut out, and makes sure it doesn't get infected.
There's hope you know, he still has it. His mother will be looking for him. She'll be worried. He's important to them. Damian may not be the original, but he is still a blood son. He is still her son. She will come find him. This nightmare will end soon. He can go home.
And then weeks pass, and nothing. Then months, and nothing. His family is not coming for him, and it hurts. Hurts more than anything. And yet while that happens, the boy he's attacked, and hurt, teaches himself arabic in order to speak to him. He takes Damian out of the house one afternoon and buys him new clothes, or tries to. And then he keeps buying him new clothes. He gives him blankets and gives up his bed to him until they can get him one himself, and steadily he teaches Damian english.
This boy is kind. Kinder than Damian's ever experienced, and he doesn't know what to do with it. He's devastated by the fact that he is not as important to his family as his family is to him. What do you do when you're six years old and you learn something like that? When a random stranger who looks like your father is kinder to you, and cares more about you than your family did?
And then Damian tells him he's a clone. He's Damian Wayne's clone, and he tells him his purpose - that their grandfather made him to kill him. And the boy, the imposter, Damian thinks he probably already knows that he's a clone. But he doesn't say that. He just nods, and asks him if he wants to tell his original about him.
Damian says no. He doesn't want to. He's tired of living in the shadow of his original. He wants to keep this to himself. This is his. For once, all of this is his.
And to his surprise, the imposter doesn't try and convince him otherwise. He just nods, and says okay. And when Damian asks why, the imposter - his brother - looks at him and says.
"I don't care about Damian Wayne. I care about you." And in Damian's gobsmacked silence, his brother continues. He tells him that if Damian doesn't want to tell his original that he exists, then they don't need to. They don't need to worry about the LoA going after him, because clearly if his 'grandfather' needs to make a clone of Damian in order to take him out, then whatever it was that Damian Wayne was doing to keep himself safe, was working.
"Wayne already has people in his corner, he's got Gotham's army of vigilantes to keep himself safe." his brother says with his eyes as blue as moonlight. "You, however. Do not." And he continues, and says that if Damian Wayne has the same training as Damian does, then he will be fine. He doesn't need to be aware of his clone. Because if DW doesn't know about Damian, then the LoA doesn't either.
And here's the thing. Damian would not have survived in the LoA for long. Not as a clone. No matter what, he was going to die no matter what he did, and sooner rather than later. The sword of Damocles was always hanging above his head in the League of Assassins.
That portal, and meeting Danny, saved his life. There's no way around it. And to an extent Damian knows this even at six years old. He may not be aware that he would've died, but he knows that meeting Danny was the best thing to happen to him.
It's no wonder after that, that Damian is as clingy to Danny as he is. Danny is the first person he's met to offer him unconditional love, with no strings attached, only pure affection.
#dpxdc#dp x dc#dp x dc crossover#dpdc#dpxdc crossover#clone^2#like god can you imagine how scared he must've been? how afraid? he just wants his mom - only to realize he doesnt even matter to her#dpxdc au#danny fenton is not the ghost king#this poor kid man. no wonder he latched onto danny the moment he gave up on the league like a leech. he's a six year old kid man and#it doesnt matter how smart he is or how mature he acts. he still is six years old. he still needs that validation and affection from adults#or from people older than him. and his emotional needs were just not being met in the league.#cue the song âtwoâ from sleeping at last - some of their songs are very clone^2 honestly.#'sweetheart you look a little tired. when did you last eat? come in and make yourself right at home. stay as long as you need.'#'tell me is something wrong? if something's wrong you can count on me'#'its okay if you can't find the words. let me take your coat and this weight off of your shoulders'#'like a force to be reckoned with. am i the ocean or a gentle kiss. i will love you with every single thing i have'#'like a tidal wave i'll make a mess. or calm waters if that serves you best'#'i will love you without any strings attached'#like just. just *imagine* being in damian's shoes during all of this. he's *six* you guys. i've worked with six year olds and they're#pretty independent but they're still six. they get excited when they see their parents and they get upset when an adult is angry with them.#they're still developing their motor skills. they're still developing everything else!
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What do I have to do to get out of here? Who do I have to beg on my knees to so I can leave?
Get me out of my house
P@yPal: twitchyjayson
Current Goal: $55/$800
#twitchy talks#commissions#donations#emergency commissions#I'm broke now with my main savings that was seperated from this#Main savings was for food and bills and essentials and since I just paid my phone bill Im now broke#Every month now that this goes on I might have to pull money towards moving out just so I can keep living here#Which sucks ass and I refuse to do but have no choice#Im so tired man I'm sorry#Didnt mean to vent in the tags#Also within this and the last post I was rejected another job#It was FOR people on the spectrum who struggle with jobs and you know why I didnt qualify?#Because I didnt live in that town#Which they didnt say that when applying#I had a whole interview and it took maybe a month before they got back to me because of two emails asking to tell me no#Devastating#Theyll at least keep me on record in case closer locations are added but????#how long would that me for even a chance of it being in my town? years?#I dont have years to wait sorry
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#got tired of wishing someone would gif princess patt (aka the woman whose face card never declines)#so I decided to contribute with my own#shitty screencap posts (TM)#because this bit!!!!!#I know we're all here for anin and pin but this relationship is also v v important to me your honour#I love a good 'dna doesn't make a family love does' situation#(I know princess patt actually IS pin's aunt but you know what I mean)#and I love how you can tell how much she genuinely loves pin and that she really took it upon herself to raise her as her own#which shows in the fact that pin has become an amazing young woman (who has my dream job! you go girl!!!)#and idk man I'm emo :((((#also I was really hoping this scene would end in a hug because they don't seem to ever do it#so it just made me so happy all around#I would die in a battlefield for them#(but seriously CAN WE TALK about how beautiful princess patt is I want to claw my face off#ma'am... I am a weak lesbian please have some mercy)#the loyal pin
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I usually donât make separate posts about Pride, but I keep seeing the discourse and I didnât want to step on anyoneâs toes:
Every gatekeepy argument about who/what isnât allowed at Pride (no âstraight-passingâ bi folks, no kink, no cishets) feels like a psyop. And itâs the same psyop every damn year that the same cop-brained people keep falling for.
We go over this every year: Pride is a protest and a celebration. We are protesting the denial of basic human rights for our community across the globe, and we are celebrating each of our victories and what makes us different.
Unfortunately, it feels like younger members of the community fall for these psyops at higher rates. Guys, please learn your history and stop policing people in your community. The government and corporations already have pigs for that. Stop falling for it.
We need our allies and supporters there with us. We need folks who arenât out yet or who might not know that theyâre some facet of the community with us. We need our community elders who have been fighting this fight for decades with us.
If your ass is clenched about some bastardized ideas about consent around seeing kink in public, or are made uncomfortable by queer folks who you think arenât âqueer enoughâ, or whatever other petty-ass hang-up you have about the people attending Pride with you⌠then maybe you should take a breather at home and return once youâve figured out why you feel the need to scrutinize other people in your community.
#and no#you canât tell if someone is âqueer enoughâ to attend just by looking at them#youâre gross if you think you can#Iâm big mad about cops and psyops in our house man#Iâm tired of us having to rehash this shit every year#lgbtq community#pride discourse
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congrats to toshiro for being the first male victim of fandom misogyny
#i just saw someone tell that they hate him bc he is in the way of f_rcille. goodbye im killing myself#LIKE.....HOW COULD YOU NOT SEE ANY PROBLEM WITH THATTT#ARE YOU STUPIDDD#IDGAF THAT YOU LIKE YOUR WHITE SHIP DONT FUCKING GO BE RACIST TO HIM WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU#but errmmm its okay bc he a MAN!!!! and a CREEP and a mysoginyst!!! he manic pixie dream girl'd falin!!!! <- SARCASM#can you pls not hate on my autistic asian guy. bc of white ppl#dunmeshi#fandom racism#also if you hate him AT LEAST USE HIS NAME. HIS REAL NAME!!! TOSHIRO!!! GOOODDDDDD#'he owned slaves' THATS HIS DAD. HIS FATHER. AN AUTHORITATIVE FIGURE. HE CANT SPEAK UP ITS A NUANCE BC YOU CANNOT SPEAK BACK TO YUR PARENTT#and also the fact that hes the eldest so i sympathize with him sm. as an eldest sibling#jesus christ. im so tired of this fandom i dont think i can ever fucking interact with it. i hate this.#im reusing this joke fuck you#rant#dungeon meshi#toshiro nakamoto
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#when i got hashtag sick i was in hospital and i was doing my regularly scheduled call with my dad#and i really had no plans of telling him bc ive done that before and its not like he can scare the MS away or anything#i dont know what happened. maybe because it was such a fucking bad episode. maybe because i was so tired. maybe it was a secret 3rd thing#but one minute was like fine then i just burst into tears and i was crying so hard which is MEGA EW BC IM NOT A CRIER LIKE THAT#and my dad freaked out and he was like whats wrong and i didnt wanna tell him but I also sounded insane bc i spontaneously started sobbing#and he was getting more alarmed and i was upset that id upset him and so i just spat it out i was like 'listen king'#'its no biggie but my body is trying to kill me again and im just a little sad atm' and he replied 'baba why wouldnt you tell me?'#and this man who has a very big serious job literally dropped everything and took a 20 hr flight over#and he genuinely just grabbed one of his work suitcase because he showed up with nothing but dress shirts and his laptop#and i think maybe it healed me a little. i mean it def also made me sad too but mostly healed me#and he'd been here for a couple of weeks and he left today and i feel shit about being sad about it#again because he has a very big and very serious job and i genuinely dont understand how he even just showed up like that#so I felt guilty throughout#anyway i dont think he drinks anymore but i was like king have a sip of wine with me and he did and it was lovely#and I hope I become my fathers daughter and not my mother's child. praying to both our gods#heres to healing â¤ď¸âđŠš
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It's missing my father hours rn so imma just dump a bunch of pictures here and cry
( sorry i don't know the source of anything I just had them on my phone)
(also dont read the tags i just need to let it out lol)
#I just realized I can call him dad easier than my real dad and now I understand why am I so damn attached to him#I always knew he was a parental figure for me#but now I connected the dots#How when u have an absent dad and a d34d mom a guy shows up in ur life#that tells u life advice that both of ur parents failed to do so#and makes u feel safe the first time in ur life#ofc ud become attached#i know for sure its unhealthy how much i love and miss him#he occupies most of my thoughts honestly#But how could i not cling to him so much when he was the only one who gave me hope in life#i try to keep going and even tho he is not here i keep telling myself whatever he taught me. i keep reminding myself he wants us to live an#bloom and be free#and that's what ill try to do#but you know somedays i wish i could just disappear and be wrapped in eternal happiness#its so fucking hard to pull yourself out of the slump man im so fucking tired im so so tired#somedays i wish id have the courage to off myself but i know that deep down i want to live and ive always wanted to live but i have no idea#how to live. i feel like i finally found a purpose and someone i love. but at the same time im always doubting myself and im scared of losi#g this little hope again and i know i should cherish and use it instead but each day i have this anxiety because rn i have nothing else if#lose this i seriously will lose everything atp. but ill still try bc rn its this or death so i should try im just damn tired yes anyways#sorry for being depressing some days just dont work out but thats okay#yes at the same time i want to get out of my head and try to find some friends but i cant deny that im highkey fucked up and i just cant le#go of my past and i still feel like that helpless unloved kid and idk how to form relationships this way. i dont trust myself at all so idk#how to trust others. and i feel like in order to find ppl that would love me i have to overshare abt my whole lifestory bc it still dictate#my life heavily. and since i met this band its better cuz im learning to deal w it and i want to heal from everything but yes at the same t#me who would wqnt to be friends w. someone that has like a year of life experience and 18 years of depression lol#so yes its complicated. bc i have friends but im like the funny friend. the one that is as shallow as puddle and has no problems but honest#y im genuinely sufferint qnd have been sufferinz all my life so i want to come out of my funny friend role. but that wojld mean i have to t#ll the shit i went through to all my friends but tbh it would be so random so ye. i do have a plan though. how it could work. But yes im ti#ed have been tired for 7 years now. But this time around i hope i can successfully get out of this torture cycle lol.#ok sorry this is what happens after puberty guys i could beva research case for a damn mental institute atp xdd
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I want to do a new phantom/rory design thatâs just. Theyre just voids.
Theyâre like black cats with their triangle ears and tiny little mouths and big eyes.
Theyâre like. Animated pieces of silk.
#idk what Iâm talking about but I saw a video of two black cats and I immediately thought of them#I did that omega doodle and he was just#shadow man#phantom and rory are his shadowlings#like a panther and two house cats#idk can you tell Iâm tired#phantom ghoul#aurora ghoulette#nameless ghoul#nameless ghouls#nameless ghoul headcanons#shitghosting#ghost band#ghost the band#the band ghost#ghost bc
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I'm sure you've seen these pics but. Oufggfhbf. I've never been more feral. This has forced ovulation. His neck and shoulders are going to look like the scene of a murder by the time I'm done with him. We will be covered in blood. Whose? Doesn't matter. My teeth ache with the need to bite him. His waist is giving me thoughts that will never be approved by the Vatican. One of us is walking out pregnant and chances are it won't be me
Now everyone at this bar gonna see me lookin at michael fassbenders slutty waist for the next twenty munufes thank you my friend
#snap chats#im not fixing that typo that typo is beyond redemption. just like those with unholy thoughts bout mr fassbenders waist#FORCED OVULATION IS CRAZY#this man WILL leave the function pregnant are you insane. i need to lay down#i HAVE seen this before but tell me dear friend do we ever tire of seeing the sun rise. exactly thank you for blessing me tonight#he is literally built insane im obsessed honestly. he couldve been a tfa character#these pics are insane. i can be trusred with pictures of bloody mates <- no i cannot!!!!!!!!#these are reminding me i should warch shame i never watched it when i said i would </3#not tonight tho i gotta focus on some work and i cant do that if michael has to play a nymphomaniac
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We remember things a little differently, she and I...
#Doom Patrol#Michelle Gomez#Laura De Mille#Madame Rouge#April Bowlby#Rita Farr#There's no way in hell they can be friends again until Rita stops trying to rewrite the past#Laura let them all down#she let the organisation pressure her into doing something she by all accounts did not want to do#and yes she signed up that frightened boy just as she was expected to#someone easily guided by just a light nod from a man in power#a father figure you might say#And it all happened behind Laura's back#as is the trend it would seem#I'm just getting really really tired of the dissonance in their present day interactions#Laura just TELL HER how you remember it#MAKE her tell you it's not true
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Trigun Thoughts Vol. 1 Pt. 2
So now that I've finished with volume 1, I just wanted to write down a couple thoughts I've had and neat things to point out so far
When I was watching Stampede, I took note of a few kind of textbook avoidant behaviours Vash engages in, and lo and behold, here he is in the manga displaying even more of them. I'll list out a few here.
In order, we have:
Casually asking for a time limit on the interaction (ie. "How long do I have to keep this up before I can leave?")
Attempting to lose people in a crowd
Leaving without saying anything (and as a bonus, dreading being recognized in public)
Over-indulging or over-involving oneself in social events to create a viable excuse to leave suddenly (in this case, he uses alcohol as a reason to "pass out")
Sleeping to avoid unwanted conversation
Escaping to the bathroom to get away for a bit (and also to grumble about it haha)
Playing off sincere reactions by deliberately allowing them to be misinterpreted to avoid personal questions
It's really obvious, even this early in the manga, that Vash is intentionally avoiding prolonged interaction with people, and only involving himself in situations by necessity. He doesn't like attention on himself - the only reason he intentionally draws it is to divert it away from others.
The reason for this is a bit muddy though. It does seem that Vash doesn't particularly enjoy being caught up in drama, and it is also very likely he wishes to get in and out of places as quickly as possible to avoid them getting caught up in his drama too. It may even be that he finds prolonged socializing kind of tiring; that he needs a certain amount of time to himself.
But then there's also this bit, shortly after the celebration, where he pretends to pass out.
This brings in a bit of a guilt aspect to it. It likely has to do with July, or maybe it's due to something else (at this point, we can't say), but I think it's notable that Vash cuts things off shortly before they become intimate. He can play along to make others happy and to share in their joy for a bit, but the second things get too personal or focused on him, he will quietly slip away. Now this is specifically an instance of physical intimacy, but I think it'd probably hold for emotional intimacy as well, given the continuous avoidance and misdirection he does to prevent too many questions.
I made some commentary on Stampede Vash's self-punishing behaviours - specifically, the way he denies himself food. I don't want to get too into it because I don't know if everyone reading this has seen Stampede, but food is framed as something to be shared in the show - so, denying himself food is denying himself the right to share with others, which is denying himself belonging, which is denying himself any semblance of intimacy. (It means other things too, as food-sharing is associated with Rem, but I don't want to get too into it here.)
Vash in the manga doesn't seem to have the same issues with eating, but this is a similar premise - he's denying himself intimacy out of a sense of not being deserving of it.
So, then, there are probably many interwoven reasons for Vash's avoidance - he's sick of the chaos that follows him around, he doesn't want others getting hurt, he gets tired from having to "play it up" all the time, and he seems to also feel that he doesn't deserve that closeness. I'm intrigued to see how Vash's avoidance will be tackled going forward (I'm assuming it will?), and I suspect, more than there being one right reason for it, that all these reasons are actually true to an extent.
On a completely different note, this panel here is the biggest mood. I feel it in my bones.
#me looking at vash's avoidant strategies: ha ha ha. i do that.#me: ...wait. no. that's bad.#meryl says 'vash stop getting into situations' and vash says 'i am trying to get OUT of the situations! i don't want to be here either!!!'#i do think there's a lot of... exhaustion to his character we don't see as much with stampede vash. manga vash looks TIRED man.#it makes sense. we know vash isn't... happy. to say the least.#playing it up all the time when you are not happy - i can tell you any social interaction becomes flat out exhausting#you're always acting. you feel like you have to be so careful with what you say. it's far less draining to just leave the room.#trigun#trigunbookclub#vash the stampede#trigun meta#storyrambles#if i'm just saying what is incredibly obvious or repeating what others have already said i'm sorry.#once i'm caught up i'll follow the book club tag and read what others have written!
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i finally caught up on 911 and i really donât see how BuckTommy is groundbreaking(we have lesbian black women for ground breaking!!!). with how Tommy acted during that failed date, honestly it was hella rude imo.
and also the daddy issues kink joke was really not it. it was uncomfortable and gross(and i really donât wanna hear that buck was flirting first cause no he wasnt i binge watched the show an memorized how that boy flirts and that was not it)
edit: putting this here since i got an anon with a stick up their ass. this is an opinion post. i dont give a fuck if you ship buck tommy. i do give a fuck that the date was messed up, and daddy issues being made sexy by media is fucked up
#and he was such an racist misogynistic man to Chim and Hen#like fuck off with putting another white man on a pedestal#also donât come at me about the daddy issues joke#i can tell you rn me and other people with daddy issues get fucking tired of this trope#911#911 abc#911 on abc#anti bucktommy#i guess idk how its anti when its an opion on my fuckin blog but whatever#incomplete thought equal incomplete post#i just wanted to rant and got tired midway through
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