#the loneliness is overwhelming 😅

[louisgayvodka]

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[meowzfordayz]

when you're socially anxious at work — kyojuro, sanemi, giyuu

Author’s Note: currently at the airport (it’s 5:35am 🥱) and it’s basically impossible to take a nap, sooo writing it is! 🤓

when you’re socially anxious at work — kyojuro, sanemi, giyuu

Rengoku Kyojuro x Reader, Shinazugawa Sanemi x Reader, Tomioka Giyuu x Reader

Word Count: ~400

CW: none

Emergency Request Fulfilled: Hi I’m sorry but may I have an emergency request I have been dealing with a lot of anxiety lately mostly because of people let’s say I am on this team and they seem to ignore me I mean I probably deserve it I’m a little socially awkward but can you write something with the hirasias for me and I’m sorry if I spelled it wrong 

~faqs~

“Perhaps you could talk with your supervisor?”

“I don’t think they like me either.”

“What about getting a new job?”

“Kyojuro, I can’t just quit my job every time it’s socially awkward.”

It’s always socially awkward 🙃

“But you deserve to feel safe. And happy.” 🥺

“I mean, it’s work.”

“And?”

He doesn’t mean to sound overbearing or that he’s challenging you, but it pains him to hear you so uncertain and overwhelmed

“So I’ll deal with it.”

“You deserve more than to deal with things,” he says gently, “You deserve to thrive.”

“I need help.” 🥲

“We could practice scenarios so you feel less awkward when they occur?” 😁

“But everything is so easy with you. It’s not the same.”

“Well, whatever I can do, I’m yours.” 💞

Supportive, but-

“What do you mean people have been ignoring you?!” 😤

“Sanemi, it’s fine, I just-”

“It’s NOT fine. Just because you can be a little weird doesn’t mean you should be ostracized!” 

“WEIRD?” *insert indignant huff here*

“You know I love you.” 🙄

“Look, I’m okay.” 😅

“You’re UPSET.” 🤬

At this point Sanemi might be more upset than you 😝

“I don’t want to make a huge deal out of this.”

He may be overprotective, but your seriousness always snaps him out of it

“So what do you want?” —> in a voice that reassures you he’d do unthinkable acts for you w/o a drop of hesitation

“To have someone to talk to about how terrible I’ve been feeling.”

“So you’re NOT okay?!?!?!” 😤😤🤬🤬

*sigh* 🫠

To his credit, he never actually oversteps, and really just wants you to know that he’s got your back, whether that means sending someone (many someones) a precisely worded email, listening to you vent, or taking you out to a cozy dinner 💞

Ngl, you’re both in the same boat on this one 💀

But at least you’re in the boat together? 🥰

Whereas Giyuu feels that he doesn’t deserve the friendship of his colleagues 😕, he can scarcely believe anyone would reject you

So he’s pissed 😠

For you, at least 🥺

And you’re pissed, for him 😤

Despite the frustration and loneliness you face at work, however, you know you get to come home to him, and the softness of his smile when he sees you at the end of every day makes every doubt and cold shoulder worth it

After all, his shoulders are the warmest in the world when you’re wrapped up in his arms 💞

[scribbyizhere]

i think they should meet 🥰

theyre both too passive aggressive for their own good 😔

these two would get along though

little rambles below the cut

AUHGGG THE GUYS !!!!!! I love all of them too much,,,,

sun and luffy's relationship would be complicated and I wanna explore that because yk, THEYRE MY BOYS

they probably wouldn't like each other. right off the bat, I don't think they would get along. Sun has all these rules, Luffy has... everything Luffy's got going on, it wouldn't work. but they'd still hang out. they would both be equally pissed at each other but they have an overwhelming sense of loneliness so having someone you hate's better than nothing lmao (I could not relate ever under any circumstance/j) Sun's a robot though so I think that would definitely be a positive for Luffy, because Luffy loves robots an unreal amount. I wanted to include Sun yelling at Luffy for the open shirt but didn't end up drawing that 😅

Luffy would remind Sun of a stupid naughty child. Also Luffy calls Sun 'Triangles' 100% and I will fight about this.

I think Zoro and Moon would get along really well!!!! Tell Zoro to go to sleep and he'll collapse right there. Zoro would NOT be intimidated by Moon and therefore he would totally have a one on one convo w him like it's nothing. Pretty sure Moon would see Zoro like a very lost child that doesn't know how to take care of himself. But Zoro’s also pretty quiet so Moon would love that imo. I can't think of any reasons why they would hate each other LMAO

I don't want to swap Luffy and Zoro’s places here at all because Luffy might beat the shit out of Moon after effectively ticking the poor silly jester guy off :(((( Zoro would be fine. probably. I don't think he could pass as a child tho.

[newkatzkafe2023]

HAHAHA SORRY, I WAS PUT IN SPANISH BY MISTAKE

Hello, may I ask what it would be like for Wukong to see all his descendants he had with the reader (i.e. his grandchildren) being equally chaotic or worse (sorry for sending too much ^^)

I love family reunions especially with a bunch of immortals monkeys🥳 also don't be sorry

(Lmk Wukong) The family would come over every year with many kinds of movies for everyone to watch, from action, horror, comedy, animation, sci-fi, live action and even a couple of guilty pleasure kids movies we tend to watch as adults😅. Anyway, Wukong enjoys the food and drinks the kids and grandchildren would bring over even Mk, Mei, and Redson would join the reunion as you both always considered the traffic light trio as family. Wukong would always enjoy the growing love and Chaos of his whole growing family 😊

(NR Wukong) Having you and your husband's descendants over is always full of love and Chaos. Every family reunion you guys ever had would quickly become a Party Rave that would last for a good week at best. I'm seriously It's no surprise considering Wukong was always found at a club our drinking alcohol, but your kids and grandkids knew how to throw down and they bring their own food and booze along with Playlist and stories. You all would party till the end of the night 🥳 unfortunately you guys Keep Li, Su and the whole city awake at damn week.

(HIB Wukong) Large Picnic Reunion with all the Monkey King generation. Wukong is always happy to have the family over, especially Luier and Silly girl's own families come over. It's also becomes a large fish fry as many family members would share interesting stories with each other and share tea and other drinks. You always admired your generational family and all your children you had with Wukong, as he would sit and listen to his grand cubs many questions Luier used to ask him all those years ago.

(MKR Wukong) GLADEATOR THEMED FIGHT ARENA EVERYBODY😈😈😈!!!!!!!! You and Wukong would entertain your relatives by having sparring matches with each other. You cubs would spar each other for fun as well, even some of your grandchildren join the fun, as everyone gets to burn off their aggression and energy. Even fruity would come to greet all of his siblings, i also imagine he would be much bigger, especially knowing how to use his Chi energy better. Either way everyone enjoys each other's company and is always glad to see each other.

(Netflix Wukong) SPA DAY!!!!!! that's what your reunion is all about. It became a giant sleepover where your whole extended family would sit around and do each others makeup and fur, and gossip about anything and everything in life. Wukong would of course brag about himself to his grandchildren, along to new his in-laws and even to the children you both had together who grew up listening to him talk and tell stories. All jokes aside, Wukong would never have to deal with loneliness ever again as he had you, Lin, dragon king, and his ever so growing family 😊

(BMW Wukong) Dinner and a show is how you guys spend your family reunion, you guys would rent out a tavern where all of your relatives would come and meet up. You would listen to your husband brag about himself and his achievements to his children and grandchildren for the millionth time considering you guy's ever growing family. You also would have dinner and watch plays with each other and have rice wine together as you enjoy the company of your Humongous growing family.

(Destined one) You guys would have the world's largest family reunion potluck. Generations of your grandchildren and great grandchildren would come with every type of food know to man, especially if your kids married demons or humans of different cultures. It was always such a blast especially when The destined one gets overwhelmed by his grandchildren adorable mischief, it's one of the only times he truly smiles🥰

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[sleepyboy-stuff]

hiii-!!! :3 saw your post about Logan requests and was thinkin' about (CG) Logan who gets up in the night (like in X2) and he sees reader regressed whilst watching TV or something and he looks after them for a bit, maybe convinces reader to go to sleep and helps settle them???

hope you're having an amazing day/evening/night!!! feel free to ignore this idea!!!

-🧸🌷(hope it's oki that I went anon, was a bit nervous 😅)

ollo!! thank you so much for your request, and its totally okay that you sent it on anon, i dont mind at all!! youre super sweet :]

anyways, uh, heres what i wrote! im super nervous to post this but, i hope you like it :D

It was late into the night-- probably around 2am, you guessed, but you didn't bother checking the clock. Most residents of Xavier's School for Gifted Youngsters were fast asleep, and normally you were too. But tonight, you lay wide awake in your nest of blankets and pillows, hugging your favorite plushie and sucking on a pacifier as all sorts of thoughts ran through your mind.

Most prominent in your head was an overwhelming feeling of loneliness. This always happened when you were little; if you were alone for longer than 15 minutes, The Sadness started creeping in, and there was nothing you could do to stop it. Usually you could distract yourself, by coloring or playing games on your phone or something, but tonight you were practically drowning in it.

Your heart ached for someone, anyone, to come and comfort you, but you knew nobody would. Especially not the person you really wanted: Logan.

You considered going to his room and waking him up, but you knew you couldn't do that. He wasn't the most strict caregiver, but he did have one very harsh rule: you can't bother him when he's sleeping, and you can't sleep with him. You knew it was because of his nightmares, but still, you missed him.

Tears were welling up in your eyes. You didn't know how long you'd just been sitting there, but suddenly, you decided you'd had enough of it. You sat up and wiped the tears away with your sleeve, shuffling out of bed with your plushie in tow.

And that was how you ended up here in the common room, watching Spongebob Squarepants on the big TV (with your plushie sitting next to you), giggling to yourself.

You were drawn into the cartoon, happy to finally get away from your feelings. So distracted, you didn't even notice the figure that appeared behind you.

"You're up late."

You squeaked in surprise, your head whipping around to find none other than Logan leaning up against the doorway, one eyebrows raised.

You stared at him with wide eyes, not knowing what to say.

He walked over to the couch, sitting down next to you with a huff. "What're you doing up, kid?"

You hesitantly took your pacifier out of your mouth to speak. "Couldn' sleep."

He grunted. "Yeah, me neither."

"Nightmares?"

"Yeah."

You wrapped your arms around his torso, resting your head on his shoulder. It was a bit of an awkward angle, coming at him from the side, but you made it work. "'m sorry."

"It's alright, kid. It's not like it's your fault," he said, resting his hand on your back.

You snuck your pacifier back into your mouth, but you didn't let Logan go, snuggling into him instead. He was always warm, and warm felt so cozy. He's even better than a blankie, you thought, as his hand started moving up and down along your back. It was a comforting touch.

You tried to pay attention to the show, but pretty soon your eyelids started drooping; finally, you were falling asleep. And Logan noticed.

"Hey, maybe it's time we head back to bed, huh?" He patted your back and pulled himself away from you, standing up.

You began to whine at the loss of warmth, looking up at him with sad eyes. He only stared down at you with lidded eyes, not falling for your puppy-dog look. 

You pulled your pacifier out. "Can I sleep with you..?" You knew his answer would be no, but you asked anyways.

Logan took a moment to think. "... Sure, you can."

Your eyes widened. "Really?!"

"Yeah. Just as long as you don't move around too much."

You felt a smile dawn on your face, and you popped your pacifier back in your mouth before you jumped up into his arms. He held you up easily, and you wrapped your arms around his neck.

"There we go," he murmured, walking out of the room. The TV was still on, but neither of you really cared.

Eventually, the two of you ended up in Logan's room. He gingerly set you down on his bed, and you pulled back the covers, crawling underneath them. He slid in beside you, pulling the blanket over your bodies before sliding his arms around you. You cuddled close together, and the room lapsed into silence, no noise except for the sounds of soft breathing.

In the end, you did fall asleep, secure in Logan's arms. But what you didn't know is that Logan never fully fell asleep himself. He laid awake the rest of the night, watching over you, keeping his little safe.

[iwritebigbellies-blog]

Same anon who asked about causes here. If I ever send another ask, I'll probably end it with -O. I feel SEEN, oh my god. I fully teared up reading your response. I think there's a special sort of loneliness that comes from growing up with a "rare" form of kink/fetish/paraphillia. I only recently (as in, a couple of months ago) started embracing mine instead of trying to push it away, and it's been, um, a journey. I've spent the last few months alternating between the depression of "I'm stuck with this and there's no cure" and the isolation of "Even people who are into this aren't usually into it like I am." Your post singlehandedly managed to make me feel a LOT better about everything, so, thank you <3 Funny how simply knowing that you're not alone can make a situation seem so much less bleak. -O

I'd normally take this to DMs, but anon asks are what they are. 😅 Sorry...

I just wanna give you/readers/myself a little pep talk about... well, the whole thing where you feel hopelessly fucked up and alone when you have a niche fetish.

I have known I am like this for decades. I figured myself out around age 14 and by the time I was living with my first bf at 17 I knew that stuffing was the only thing that genuinely turned me on.

That didn't stop me from trying to brute force myself through "vanilla" relationships. I explained to my partners (four of them, back to back, over twenty years) about this kink, but I hadn't accepted that this was my only button. I still thought that maybe if I tried hard enough, or pretended, or got therapy, or watched porn, that SOMETHING else might work. And when it didn't, I either retreated into shame and guilt, thinking I was too broken for relationships, or I forced myself to have sex anyway, even when I was completely unaroused and uninterested.

Most of my exes tried. They even kinda enjoyed themselves. Big guys eat, man. Being told that not only do they never have to diet, but their girlfriend will get rabidly turned on when they eat too much? That's a win, right? But they weren't into it, and it wasn't practical to engage in as often as they wanted to get laid, so sex became triage.

Every single relationship I have had in my life has ended over sexual mismatch. All of them. And along the way, I felt shitty, violated, panicky, lonely, and hopeless. I have been told I am asexual, cold, cruel, and worse. I believed it.

About a year ago, I decided I couldn't do that anymore. Dating "normal" people and trying to wedge fetishy compromise into the relationship has never worked. I couldn't bear to try again.

I joined Feabie instead, thinking I'd tackle this from the other direction. I'd tried dating people who were amazing except for the sex. Maybe I could try just matching up sexually, and give up trying to fall in love. Normal people have hookups, right? Maybe I could just have kinky hookups for a while, before I am too old to pull anyone ever again.

One of the ruder awakenings of my Feabie experience has been that even in the feedist community, my fetish is niche. A lot of men message me. Like, a lot. And I want to give people a chance, so I have chatted with most of them. Maybe... 300-400 guys over the last 10 months. (These are not sexy converaations, for the most part. Just getting to know people!) But the overwhelming majority of these guys are gainers. They fetishize fat, and the process of gaining, and even though there is some fun overlap (stuffing is fun for both of us!) I eventually got frustrated with how often the conversation would swing to things that just weren't sexy to me. Playing at finding wg sexy is just as exhausting as playing at finding vanilla whatever sexy. It just... isn't. It becomes a chore. I'm back to where I started.

Finding the one tiny, incredibly hidden corner of the internet where you supposedly belong and then discovering you don't really belong there? That fucking sucks.

But... it hasn't been a wash. I have actually met people who share my fetish. Like, VERY FEW, but at this point, ANY is an enormous win. Of course, we each have our separate little quirks and angles, but on the whole, I have matched well enough with a few people that I could see myself being genuinely happy with them. They like what I like and the result is devastatingly sexy. I have had the best (virtual) dates if my whole life in the last year, my first real orgasms. I have met enough people who share my small corner of this tiny pond that I can even afford to be picky. I've even met people who I adore for reasons unrelated to the kink. Who are age-appropriate. The pool is small, but can somehow still contain people who might be perfect.

This is the right place for me to be. I have been happier and more honest and myself and more seen around the feedist community than anywhere else in my life. It isn't easy and I still haven't met a person who will commit to me and say they will keep me forever, but maybe I will. It is more likely here than anywhere.

And there are a lot more younger people around here than there are folks my age. So your chances are better than mine.

It can get better. We just have to make, and hold, our space.

[lovethisfatcryptid]

My current project. Also follow me on tiktok I guess? I don't post often or check my messages ever 😅 but you're welcome to follow

[lavendelhummel]

I was tagged by @onaperduamedee to do this game, thank you for that!! I obviously am not good at short questions-short answers but I will do my best ;)

Last song: I started my top100 of 2023 list from Spotify while dying my hair earlier, so there was a good mix. The last one I consciously remember was Ne m’applle pas, by Coeur de Pirate. (ah, looking for that link, I saw that there was Requiem on Water (yes, from the twilight soundtrack) Talking to the Moon, Greensleeves, Bobby, and currently River from the Sky, playing in between)

Currently watching: Star Trek Voyager! I enjoy it so much! It’s fun and I like the characters so much! I like how they care for each other and that the relationsips are so various and most of them not romantically but non the less important. They seem so real. And I enjoy the fact that it’s episodic plots and a lot slower than newer series a lot at the moment. I was overwhelmed with the fast paced dramatic stories and got stressed out by things I actually like. Voyager is calmer and let’s me actually relax, so that’s great.

Three ships: Siuaraine (Wheel of Time), Bering and Wells (Warehouse 13), and… those are the two I am hung up about. Oh, I also wrote fic for Marla/Fran from I care a lot. But not currently. I am currently positively surprised by liking a hetero ship for the first time in years, Tom/B’Elanna from Voyager, it’s cool to see that when the characters are well done, I can also like them even though they are not gay. But keeping it with wlw and also WoT, I am still sailing my little Berelain/Annoura (WoT) ship all by myself.

But yeah, I’ll leave it at those two, there is no third invading my thoughts as much as them.

Favorite color: used to be blue, but I discovered that I like red. Also yellow! Maybe that. But seriously I love colours in general, the more colourful the better, I am not choosing.

Currently consuming: The weekend. Or, ehm the plant hair-dye on my head?

First ship: ouufff, first fic I read was about was Amelia/Owen from Grey’s Anatomy. Well. Made me question a few things about myself because *I liked her so much*.

Relationship status: Very single in my little bubble, and trying not to feel bitter about my well of loneliness (ha, what a great lesbian pun I got in here 😅).

Last movie: But I am a cheerleader with @lilolilyr! I fell asleep… sorry. But we watched D.E.B.s right before, I was awake, and it was great.

Currently working on: Trying to combine two intense work things with also taking time off, to feel less burned-out while doing all of this. It’s a challenge, because time happens so fast, and it makes me feel guilty, but I am trying. Also working on being okay with that, the taking time to chill, not succeeding at things, working on being more okay with myself, less mean, which is even harder. But I try. Fandomwise, still the washing machine/mermaid AU for Bering and Wells and also still Chapter 8 of Yellow for Siuraine (both of which I thought would be long finished my now). I want to finish those so I can start other fun ideas that are cluttering my head/notebook!

The rules said to tag 9 people to get to know better, so let’s see: I am tagging @anandabrat @akittennameddaisy @incompletesong @viharistenno @woodytwig @wibblywobblyida @hecatesbroom @cozcat @masterpieceofunderstatement no pressure to answer these of course, do it if you like to and if not, just don’t ;)!

Thank you for the tag @onaperduamedee!

[lovetransaction]

ty @wastemanjohn <333 man it feels like forever since i had time to answer one of these 😅

I think later on Dean only thinks about it at certain points. His dad's been dead a long, long time, all things and experiences and possessions etc. considered; it's a far cry from when he was younger and Dad was at some points the only thing he had in his life. Living in the bunker with a handful of people he loves brings that home and Dean only thinks about John sometimes, by himself mostly, without the wrenching overwhelming painful resounding need that he used to have where it literally hurt when John wasn't around (and sometimes when he was).

He can see John's flaws and failures in a broader context after having more life experience himself, and that makes Dean both more forgiving and more critical about their relationship. He understands the crushing loneliness better but isn't as accepting of the complete lack of coping mechanisms; he can see how exhausting it must have been for John dealing with everything without a grown-up partner, but he can't fathom why John kept everyone at arms' length.

I don't think he'd dwell on the sex at all. Now and again, yes, because it was such a HUGE step in being intimate with his dad, but I don't think he'd like the memories much. They'd come along with too much of how desperate Dean himself was, and sadness that it was the primary way John could commit to for them to be close rather than making less fucked-up choices for them. The whole thing is just too, too sodden with depression and grief and sordidness for Dean to want to dwell on.

He'd pare it down to the best parts of their time together and the affection and the closeness, mostly before John was too run to the ground to bother even trying anymore at being good for anybody. In the end what's the point of clinging to Dad's mistakes, to anyone's mistakes? They had a bum deal and they all did what they could to keep each other alive, and sometimes happy, and it is what it is.

[fonulyn]

Ohhh 2, 3, 15 for the Author New Year ask game!

(for the fanfic asks thing!)

already answered number 3 here!

2. Will you participate in any fandom exchanges or fic challenges, etc? 

i love love love exchanges and challenges and i wish there were more of those i could participate in. but at the same time, i haven't actually managed to participate in them in ages. i was so excited for whumptober last time, for example, but then i was so tired and writing was so slow that i had to scrap that fic. i'm still bummed about it :(

i'd love it if the RE fandom had more things like big bangs or whatever but then again anything anonymous would be kind of hard because people would 100% know it's me when they see my pairings of choice :'D

so like??? I don't know??? I'd love to! but there really aren't much collaborative things to participate in. and the whumptober-esque events are something i always get so excited about but then i get lonely and overwhelmed and usually don't end up making it.

this is such an useless answer i'm sorry 😅 i guess the tl;dr version is that in theory I love things like that and would love to do them, but in practice I rarely manage.

15. Do you foresee any personal or professional obstacles this year, that would keep you from creating fanworks? 

i've talked a lot about the lack of motivation and loneliness i've been struggling with lately, so i guess that'd be the biggest obstacle, if any. my life isn't too busy or otherwise make writing difficult. but i find it very, very hard to just sit down and write stuff for myself. i know it's terrible but i only work well with external motivation. and now the person who used to cheer me on the most is so busy he's barely around (no shade at all, life happens, i get it! just how it is rn) and another friend is struggling a lot with their own IRL things, so... I'm very lonely 😅

I'm trying to find my own motivation again, and working on being able to create just for creating and all. but yeah. we'll see how it goes.

thank you so much for asking 💖 and sorry for such downer answers 😅

[the1trueanon]

tw serious talks, ig? i don't really think its anything bad but i feel like there should be a warning for some deep shit maybe 😅both in post and in tags so fair warning

sometimes i get so overwhelmed with the general idea of living that i think it pushes me to extremes sometimes

like, some days i'm fine, i'm living just like any other fandom-obsessed tumblr user (albeit with the long breaks where my brain just forgets that in order to share stuff i have to set up posts lol), but some days, especially recently....god.

i feel so much love that i cant stop smiling, or i feel so excited for no reason that i cant stop moving. i feel so empty or so alone i unconsciously curl in on myself and just have to wait for it to pass. i want to hug and hold and move and do and cry and lay still and be and i question and i don't question and the world is alive and alove.

and it hurts, but i finally get what people mean when they say that its worth it. because it is. because with all of the pain and loneliness, i've finally figured out that i enjoy life. even the simplest of things.

its not easy. its not simple or clean or perfect but its there and its beautiful and every moment i feel that spark of euphoria that the world has good in it, even in teeny tiny things, i fall more in love with the idea of life. i get what people mean when they say they feel loved by life and i feel that. and it feels wonderful.

[social-muffin]

For the Fanfic Writer Emoji Ask

😅🛒✨(🧠 for Skull)🤯

😅 What’s a story or scene you’ve created that you’re a smidge embarrassed exists?

A story I'm a bit embarrassed about... That would be this one!

It was the first purely self indulgent fic I ever posted to Ao3. It was so full of headcanons it barely even resemble khr anymore lmao. But it was written for me and the few commenter that kept me going back then. :'3

It was a thing of pure love, so I'm not embarrassed to the point where I don't love it anymore. So give it a read and have a chuckle at the formatting and ridiculousness with me!

🛒 What are some common things you incorporate in your fics? Themes, feels, scenes, imagery, etc.

I seem to default to themes of isolation and loneliness, mostly counteracted by found family and platonic intimacy. Lately I've also been playing with the concept of tough self love, especially in the context of Hibari Kyoya >:3

✨ Give you and your writing a compliment. Go on now. You know you deserve it. 😉

I've only ever given up on a story once, and every single story has at least a little chunk of my heart and soul in it! :D

(The story in question was orphaned btw. I never delete anything I post because I always have pride and respect for what I create.)

🧠 Pick a character, and I’ll tell you my favorite headcanon for them.

Oooo my favourite headcanon for Skull... Oof I have so so many... But I think my favourite headcanon would be that he is directly blood related to the Hibari Clan! He was either stolen/lost as an infant, or left of his own free will as an teen/young adult!

Related to that headcanon but also not really, I have really enjoyed toying with the idea that Skull is just Alaude, whom was nearly turned into an Arcobaleno to rebelled the Giglio Nero sky. Which caused her to turn his own flame against him, thus overwhelming him, erasing large chunks of his memories and possibly putting ghim in a coma for a number of years. The cloud flames explain the purple hair and eyes and he literally became immortal. (explaining everything else that's wonky with Skull)

🤯 What’s a genre you struggle with as a writer (ex. romance, action, etc.)?

I don't know all the genres that exist so I'm gonna go with thriller and mystery I think.

Thanks ofr the ask Anon! 💜

[pope-posts]

I'm good. I just have these days where I get this feeling that I can't quite describe. Something like an overwhelming loneliness that tears at my chest and head until I'm about to go into another panic attack only to end up with nothing but exhaustion and internalized hatred for myself because i will never be good enough. Idk. Like I said. I can't really describe it lol 😅

[reenrabbit]

Hmmm… He’ll most definitely miss Emma deeply if he went home. I remembered the True Love story event (when Emma went to her friend’s wedding) Rio took on several chores and i think he overworked himself? so that he wouldnt think of Emma and be overwhelmed by loneliness.

But then again, he did change after meeting her. Even though his life would be less colorful without Emma, i think he would keep the things he learnt from her in his heart along with his cherished memories with her, i’d like to think (well… actually hope) that he’s capable of growth (even after parting), since that’s also wat emma wants; for him to have a life independent of her (she said this in the Because of you story event)

ooooohhh :O, i cant wait for ur fic! Stories abt growth can be inspiring & i like dat :)

oof I’ve rambled on too much😅

Fucking crying doing Rio’s route.

That scene in ch14 in the study room is killing me, it’s 11pm and I’m crying in bed. It’s breaking my heart.

[mcytwebweaving]

hello web! hope you're doing well :D just out of curiosity, how do you collect material for your web weaves? what's your creative process like? big fan of your work <3

Omg thank you so much!!! I'm doing okay, have been very busy with some stuff tho (so sorry for the lack of original content 😅). I will get back into it soon tho, already have some stuff in the making!

I have already answered asks about where exactly do I get all the materials I use from, so I won't elaborate on that part, but here is my normal process: (it's under Read More bc the post turned out longer that I expected haha)

• Starting point is either me getting a request, or my brain going "haha remember that quote/image you saw on tumblr 2 weeks ago? would it be fucked up or what to connect it with a character you like?" (btw in that case I almost never end up using the original quote/image that gave me inspiration for some reason)

• Then I outline some key words about the web weaving I am going to make. I usually go for very abstract and broad concepts, so I can encounter some more interesting stuff. Around that stage I also visualize what exact media I would like to use. Basically, when I go into the "search for the stuff to use" part, I already have a pretty clear understanding of what I will be going for

• And then I go through the websites, Tumblr tags and online archives looking for stuff. I start by searching for stuff relating to my key words, then based on what u find, I can change things up. Actually, about 90% of the time, my website turn out really different from how I imagined them to be at first, just because I encounter some interesting things that I like more. For example, my first knifetrick web weaving wasn't supposed to be centered around the theme of hands at all - the thing I started with was that quote about Jackie laughing like a seagull or something, and I never ended up using it. But even if I throw all of my plans in the window, I wouldn't say that visualisation and coming up with concepts is meaningless work - if you have a direction to move in, you won't be overwhelmed with options.

If I see something that I can't use for a certain theme/character, but I think may be useful for something else, I save it too, so it makes the work a bit easier in future. To avoid all those different things cluttering in my Downloads, I keep separate folders for each web I am working on/could potentially do.

This is definitely the longest part of my work process, partly because despite the 10 image limit per post Tumblr has, I usually save much more stuff to use for each web weaving.

• Compiling/formatting this all in a post and giving credit is the last thing I do. Since I have an excess of material, I have to think what I will keep. My main priorities are 1) matching the theme and 2) keeping a consistent look. With quotes/song lyrics I sometimes can copy paste them into a google doc and play around with fonts, text and background colors. Then I think of positioning it all, which is more important than you may think. In my dsmp!tommyinnit web the colors in both the text and images go from warm orange/yellow hues to grey (it's more obvious with pictures tbh), as a way to symbolize a feeling of desperation and loneliness settling in. I don't even know how many people notice stuff like that, but it's important to me, so I do it. Last thing is putting down the credits (Don't forget your credits, kids!!). Usually it's formatted like [title of the media], [authors name], and images get links to sources :].

That's pretty much it! One web takes me around 4 hours to finish, so it's a pretty long process, and I put a lot of thoughts behind it all :] Sorry it's so long, I am actually glad I had an opportunity to share a little step by step! :D

[deepdarkdelights]

I read in an old ask that among the things you wrote there was Doctor Who, how were they like? I'm a whovian since '09. For Lady of the night I was picturing victorian Clara and her clothes. Reading fanfics is like when Clara said "Sometimes it's like I've lived a thousand lives in a thousand places." I'd throw myself in a stream of fics I like 👼🏻 .d. I am curious about the solar eclipse the most. Since Hoseok remembers things he saw as dreams is he sure they were reality? Will mc tell him she has no idea what he is talking about and then fail at avoiding him and tell him everything? Maybe she would just give in cause she is very alone not even her family talks to her, how would their jihoon making be ( ͡°Ɛ ͡°). What would their first alone encounter be like if she can't get away? In an ask you said after the last part he would be chasing her and people would be looking at the work place. How is he going to explain himself at work? Will mc not return to work anymore?How would he stalk her? His car in Ego mv would be on point. It's not much on mv but on behind the scenes video. Whoa I asked a lot sorry lol. Ilysm ♡

Hello!

So, yeah, I was a bit of a crazy writer. Anytime I got inspired I would completely drop my previous work and start a new one. Out of all of those fandoms I listed I only finished two works. And one of the works I finished I made a sequel to that I never completed 😬

I was a whovian in high school so around 2015 I got into the show. I stopped when Clara became eleven's companion because I just couldn't bond with her character no matter how hard I tried and that was the same year I got into BTS so I diverted my interests elsewhere 😂

So, the Doctor Who fics that I wrote never saw the light of day from what I remember, I never released them to the public which was a blessing in disguise. I think I had like three separate fics planned at one point, two of them were for the tenth doctor and one for eleven, and all of them were different OC's. One was also a time lord or "lady", and one of them was Amy's Pond's cousin.

One of the strangest ones I wrote was when I did an AU where weeping angels were "fossilized" time lords, like time lords were trapped inside of the stone. I uh...cringe looking back on it. This was also a ten fic.

Moving on to Solar Eclipse! I don't think I said he saw his life with the MC in dreams (although I could have I probably have forgotten I answer a lot of asks) at the end of the fic his memories of both lives are flooding back and it's so intense that it's painful. So he is overwhelmed by memories he hasn't even created yet...if that makes sense 🤔 so it's kind of hard for the MC to convince him that it isn't happening when it's in his head ya know? I don't think the MC would say anything I think she would either faint or run away from the situation. As for everything after that it's pretty tricky.

I never really planned to continue Solar Eclipse so I never put much thought into how things would play out post the end of the fic. Her overwhelming loneliness could very well be what drives her to Hoseok and what leads to what she would think would be a one night stand and the BOOM Jihoon is conceived 😅

As for how he stalks the MC, well he definitely follows her everywhere she goes. But, could you imagine him getting a job as like security or something in her building and figuring out where she lives and the code for her apartment? Scary. Like imagine him waiting for her to come home in her dark apartment and grabbing her when he gets the chance. Making her a prisoner in her own home would be hella frightening.

I hoped this answered as many of your questions as I could! This was such a fun ask, I like talking about my embarrassing early days as a baby writer as well as my favorite fics like Solar Eclipse.