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I’m in a lot of pain, so I want to write sad stuff.
I want to write about Obi-Wan spending nearly twenty years watching his best friend’s, his brother’s, his favourite person’s kid and how he realizes, even as he watches, that Luke looks like Anakin and sometimes he acts like Anakin, but Luke isn’t Anakin and will never be Anakin. And Obi-Wan doesn’t want him to be Anakin, but a part of him does, a part of him wants that camaraderie and that easy affection and the boy he spent ten years watching grow to come back to him.
I want to write about Luke and how he loses so many people. He never had his parents, he loses his aunt and uncle, he loses Ben, and when he finally gets to meet his dad, which is the only thing he’s wanted for years (to meet and be like his dad), Anakin dies in his arms. Luke sees his aunt and uncle’s smoldering bodies and watches Obi-Wan die right in front of him and Yoda die right in front of him and Anakin die in his arms. Luke would only have a familial connection to his sister, and then he finds out Jedi aren’t supposed to have attachments and it must break a part of him. He spent so long trying to be like his father, to be a Jedi like his father before him, and his attachment to the one person he has left in the world would be enough to take that all away from him.
I want to write about Leia and the crushing realization that the man she’s hated her entire life, the man she has always seen as pure evil and nothing but evil, the man who tortured her and stood by while she had to watch her home explode, is her father. That she has that guy’s DNA, she’s blood relatives with the symbol of evil, in her mind. But, to throw away her father would be to deny that she and Luke are twins. And she depends on Luke as much as Luke depends on her, they’re a duo that’s nigh inseparable even before they know they’re related. But, Luke accepts their father, and Leia doesn’t want to accept their father, and it’s hard to get around that. Leia doesn’t know Anakin as a good person. She knows him as a murderer and a torturer and a kidnapper and the man who cut off her brother’s hand. It’s hard to think of him as anything else.
I want to write about Anakin. Anakin watches his mother die due to actions outside of his control, and he blames himself forever. He’s told by the only person he still trusts that he killed his own wife and their unborn child. Then, he stands there, watching as the child who should be impossible, who cannot possibly have been born, the child he’s spent years and years chasing after, watching his son is die, right in front of him. His son who is a twin. His son who is Vader’s only evidence that he and Padme loved each other. His son who begs him for help and believes that he’s still good even after the Jedi Order and the rest of the galaxy and Anakin’s own Master believe that all the good has died. His son who is stupid and reckless and came onto this ship with half a plan and hope.
I want to write about Yoda and how he watches his whole line fall apart. Dooku betrays the Order. Qui-Gon is killed by the Sith, who have been assumed dead for years. Obi-Wan is left as the only other Jedi Master who still lives, but he’s forced to hide on the desert planet where Qui-Gon died to watch the son of his Padawan who wants him dead. Anakin grew from a nervous but excited little boy into the most feared man in all of the galaxy. Ahsoka left the Order before it fell to pieces, and nobody knows where she is or what happened to her. Then, Obi-Wan dies, but asks Yoda to teach Anakin’s son. A Skywalker who is impatient and rash and angry, just like his father. But, what else can Yoda do? And the more time he spends with him, the more he realizes that Luke isn’t like Anakin. The more he realizes that Luke is strong in ways Anakin was not. Strong in ways none of the Jedi were. And for the first time in over two decades, he feels hope that the galaxy can be saved. That the Jedi Order, his family, can be saved.
Luke Skywalker and the heavy burden placed on his shoulders. To be a Jedi and a General the likes of Anakin Skywalker. Maybe destined to fall and become evil like Darth Vader. He stands at a crossroads where he barely knows what it even means to be a Jedi and he doesn’t want to hurt his father, the man who he’s always aspired to be, but the other path is death and betrayal and pain and destruction and slavery to the Emperor. And Luke forges his own path, even though the Jedi warn against it. He tries to save his father or die trying. He knows Vader might kill him, but he’s willing to bet on the most infinitisimal odds that Anakin is still there, somewhere. Luke saves his father with the power of attachment, with the love that Anakin tried to use to save his mother and Padme and everyone he’s ever loved.
The Skywalkers are so depressing. The Disaster Lineage is depressing. Star Wars is depressing. And I am still in horrible pain
#star wars#star wars original trilogy#star wars prequels#obi wan kenobi#luke skywalker#leia organa#yoda#anakin skywalker#darth vader#the inane ramblings of a madman#the hope is there#the hope of something brighter#being just beyond the horizon#but sometimes#it feels like the horizon is only getting further away#no matter how fast you run#no matter how hard you try#it’s hard to remember that the night doesn’t last forever#when you’re in the middle of the dark#without a star in sight
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so much beauty 🖤
for @jihopesjoint
#something to make you day a little bit brighter I hope 🫶#bts#btsgif#dailybts#dailybangtan#userbangtan#usersky#heyryen#annietrack#userdimple#usersolis#tuserandi#userpat#*mine#ot7#1k#2k
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it’s actually so beautiful to see how full of life and happiness omar is these past few months. getting to watch his journey over the last couple years has been so inspiring to watch and so much of his work and growth is paying off. and even through some of his rougher times the last few years i feel this year has brought a bigger and better omar that is so much more carefree and bursting with love and he is surrounded by really good things right now
#i hope he’s forever this happy x10#and thank god for no more dead weight!#he’s glowing something special recently and i hope it burns even brighter#i just love him a lot#don’t mind me#omar rudberg
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Burnt out
#initially this was meant to be something else entirely#but i wasn't really liking how it was going so I scrapped the idea and opted out for something a bit more personal#ive been really suffering from burn out for the last few years and just barely keeping my head above water#there are times where i seriously feel like ive failed in every aspect of my career#like if i were good enough i wouldn't have burnt out#i love my job and i love my trade i love every skill ive gain up until this point#but its been hard not to take it personally when all the effort you've put into honing those skills#are abused or exploited#life is difficult enough already and and time is fleeting#taking time for yourself is above all the most important thing you can do to help your work flourish#taking a break isn't failure#its health#we aren't machines despite our industries treating us as such#just waiting and hoping that itll pay off#ive certainly learned my lesson#and im looking forward to brighter horizons#and healthier more respectful ones#ill be okay ive learned how to love my art in my personal time again#but i certainly need to let my mind rest and my body to recover#these tags are lengthy anyways#unionize and dont work for nothing from large companies#be gay do drugs love your friends make art for yourself too#my art#scuttles out of here#i hope these long ass images actually show up in full resolution#i did draw them fucking TOLL as hell
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Spot the Leo!
Okay, so, I had, waayy too much fun with lighting on this! And! I got to draw a star! Adjacent. Thing?
Ninpo!
Context is in chapter 26: The Void of @sugarpasteltmnt 's The Neon Void!
Which no, I will not stop recommending.
#illustration#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#rottmnt fanart#tnv tmnt#tnv fanart#so like. i would like to have made either the turtles smaller. farther away. or something in order to really give a sense of scale. but!#doing so was really throwing off the composition of the whole thing#and i kinda just had to give up on perfecting that aspect. so! hopefully it still works ok.#i saw the new updates and literally flailed for a moment there so! thats my next stop!#i hope this reads as a star? ive not drawn one before...#the third picture has a brighter blue core in the star for Leo reconnecting! but it's been there the whole time! symbolism!!
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grayscale yoongi! | 🤍 | for → @kimtaegis ↳ 4th muster: happy ever after: seoul
#btshoneyhive#dailybts#purplearmynet#boongietrack#annietrack#userjeonjcngkook#trackofthesoul#heyryen#shirleytothesea#usersky#tusermanny#yoonkookclub#dailydaegu#cyphernet#tusercait#tusercelia#flytomyroom#myg#4th muster#my+gifs#hey annie! i hope you've been well lately <3#i wanted to make something for since you've probably got a lot on your mind right now (with getting a degree and everything!)#of course- i can't do much to help but i did want to give you my full support and a gifset of yoongi being adorable :)#i hope this year treats you well and please know that i believe in you and that you can take whatever challenges you face this year 💕#i really hope this made you smile or made your day a bit brighter! please be gentle on yourself and take care of yourself well! 💗💗
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h...hands.....
it's about the empathy, the compassion, the love, the gentleness...reaching out to say "you're not alone; I am here with you, and I understand your plight, because I've walked this road myself and I am living proof that there is always hope"
You are not the only one for whom the flowers weep.
#endwalker has totally rewired my brain#sobbing into my hands....#(ok i don't actually remember the context of the hyth screenshot other than the general gist of the scene but like. not leaving him out lol#(it was a beautiful scene)#the fuckign.....fortemps ring...i am holding that pic in my teeth and shaking it#i don't have the words but there's just something about it. alphinaud helping o'ravi stand so she can see with her own eyes that they won#and now they've all made it home- every last one of them. together#and ravi wore that ring - that memory of her cherished friend - to the end of the universe to meet the embodiment of despair#and teach her a brighter melody. a song of hope instead of hopelessness#weeping....#g'raha tia#alisaie leveilleur#alphinaud leveilleur#meteion#hythlodaeus#o'ravi soltholia#ffxiv#endwalker spoilers#rogue plays ffxiv#ffxiv screenshots
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bartender! i would like one million more pictures of yllz!wei wuxian looking emaciated and barely alive. thank you .
#love it when that man looks like a CORPSE!!!#he should crawl out of the burial mounds looking absolutely fucked up#i love it when he's drawn like. he clearly hasn't been eating well. his robes hang off of him in a way they didn't before#and there's something Off in his eyes and his smile#wwx in his youth was bright eyed and had an even brighter smile#whatever comes out of the burial mounds coreless and with ghosts clinging to his sleeves most certainly is Not#i need him to be unsettling.#i think post-resurrection wwx is living a much happier and healthier life so he doesn't look like that anymore#lwj is fattening him up and spoiling him AND he's got mxy's core even if it's not very strong#so he's back to that bright charm again#but i think he can definitely turn on unsettling yiling laozu mode if he wants to#you better hope he doesn't want to! for your sake
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What if Conclave's true purpose was to be an appetiser to Ariels' main course of villainy
#I'm. I'm. thinking about Chaos saying. that there has to be something that all of humanity can work together to fight against.#so that tomorrow's sky shines brighter than it ever had. the relief that washes over all humans. the return. (or attempt) to normalcy.#what if Chaos was fr on that#perhaps it wasn't all for nothing. Conclave served a use to bring hope into humanity. as the punching bag.#not a fate most people want but. at least they. kinda. did achieve their goal in helping humanity if this was fate's way of fulfilling it.#ah rambling#guilty gear#the conclave guilty gear
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good morning!! <3
#love waking up to it being all rainy & dark outside#though it's a little disorienting lol bc it's usually much brighter at 8:30 hehe#anyways i have another appointment today - should last around 2 hours or so#but idk if i'll do much hsr wise (beyond finishing up the trashcan event lol)#but maybe i'll manage to write something tonight???#like now that i've started writing for sylus it's literally like a constant urge to write more#(and i obviously wanna write more for zayne too :3)#but yeah! somewhat busy day today#i hope today/tonight's kind to you! <333#morning rambles
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TAG DROP PART 1
#₊ ⊹ Gwen Stacy ❙ ❝Fight for what matters to you no matter what. ❝#₊ ⊹ Peter Parker ❙ ❝I made a choice. This is my path❝#₊ ⊹ Yelena Belova ❙ ❝The truth rarely makes sense when you omit key details ❝#₊ ⊹ Kate Bishop ❙ ❝Some people have actually called the world’s greatest archer ❝#₊ ⊹ Harley Quinn ❙ ❝ Treat me like a game and I’ll show you how it’s played❝#₊ ⊹ Mia Queen ❙ ❝ I'm a warrior I fight for my life❝#₊ ⊹ Katniss Everdeen ❙ ❝ fire burns brighter in the dark ❝#₊ ⊹ Malia Tate ❙ ❝I won’t judge❝#₊ ⊹ Allison Argent ❙ ❝I was born with silver between my teeth.❝#₊ ⊹ Emma Swan ❙ ❝ you want people to look at you differently make them!❝#₊ ⊹ Hope Swan-Jones ❙ ❝I am really bad at words I hope you’re good at reading eyes❝#₊ ⊹ Tinker Bell ❙ ❝The question isn’t who’s going to let me… It’s who’s going to stop me!❝#₊ ⊹ Katherine Pierce ❙ ❝ Humanity is a vampires greatest weakness ❝#₊ ⊹ Caroline Forbes ❙ ❝If you want something done right you have to do it yourself❝#₊ ⊹ Luna Mikaelson ❙ ❝I can take care of myself ❝#₊ ⊹ Davina Claire ❙ ❝I can give you a list of people who've underestimated me. ❝#₊ ⊹ Rebekah Mikaelson ❙ ❝ Kill the demon today face the Devil tomorrow. Count me in. ❝#₊ ⊹ Lizzie Saltzman ❙ ❝ I am getting back to me. I am who I am ❝#₊ ⊹ Hermione Granger ❙ ❝I’m hoping to do some good in the world!❝#₊ ⊹ Ginny Weasley ❙ ❝Anything’s possible if you’ve got enough nerve.❝#₊ ⊹ Lily Merchant ❙ ❝All I want to do is make him proud.❝#₊ ⊹ Victoire Weasley ❙ ❝As beautiful as the bright moon.❝#₊ ⊹ Lily L Potter ❙ ❝Wandering around aimlessly in the dark.❝#₊ ⊹ Bree Tanner ❙ ❝Rushing into things blind isn’t going to help us win.❝#₊ ⊹ Alison DiLaurentis ❙ ❝Sometimes lies are more interesting than the truth❝#₊ ⊹ Aria Montgomery ❙ ❝When you love someone it’s worth fighting for no matter what the odds ❝#₊ ⊹ Max Mayfield ❙ ❝Be running up that hill❝#₊ ⊹ Nancy Wheeler ❙ ❝Ask for forgiveness not permission❝#₊ ⊹ Mary Stuart ❙ ❝I am Mary Queen of Scots and I have come for my throne. ❝#₊ ⊹ Kenna Livingston ❙ ❝So I say to hell with what people think.❝
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ship chart for them for categorical purposes. chart by @/goomyloid.
#art#pokemon rejuvenation#IM DEEPLY. embarassed. mostly cause im not good with romance. but i established this in the story because i believe in them and its funny.#mona#mona's first run.#this is paragon exclusive. renegade mona doesn't fall for anyone so paragon mona is kind of on their own here.#anyways i think these guys are cute. not sure if ren is on top of character though.... i tried i rlly tried though.#they get together in post-canon imo but like years later like YEARS LATER.#but im lazy to design timeskip designs so. teenage selves it is.#i think my one error w this chart was the m adoka line. but im in a rush i can't fix it.#and the diet one. i put mona there cause i think they're very. survival esque about things.#but they don't deny health stuff.#they just kind of reserve stuff. hoarding issue.#anyways. i hope every oc x canon guy out there has the time of their lives im too new at this.#oc bracket#also this is prep for stuff i want to draw later maybe mayhaps.#i should add this is only if ren somehow survives the whole ordeal post canon.#he is in a rlly rlly dangerous position soo I wouldn’t be shocked if something happened#I FEEL LIKE OPTIMISTIC is the wrong word but I couldn’t rlly think. Ren isn’t exactly optimistic but he has a brighter outlook and is very#very determined to be someone who can protect those he loves#and he has just enough of a brighter outlook that I jotted it down.
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i am going to sit down and draw the gentlest scene one can possibly imagine, or the pure visual manifestation of unabashed fury. there will be no in-between (unless)
#so 4am me was right! i really had hoped for a few days that things were looking brighter but clearly optimism is foolish#and this agony is entirely beyond my control which is fantastic. absolutely great and wonderful. i have never felt more empty#i think i will simply just try not to feel anything ever again because it simply isn't worth it#if i can pour it into some art then that will be something at least. i haven't drawn for myself in a very long time#but in this moment i literally have nothing else beyond some terrible coping mechanisms which i won't divulge#i think i will draw until my head hurts and my hands hurt#art and writing are really all i have right now. i can't physically speak without crying and i need to sequester myself#i will attempt to continue to reblog things as usual because i need every shred of normality i can consume#apologies in advance if i am not massively cheery again for a while - any semblance of joy has been violently stripped away from me#i'm not keen to conceal the fact that i do not feel normal at all right now. but i hate constantly venting here whenever i make a textpost#alas i am shigeo kageyama and i am holding a bouquet of flowers. and i'm about to cross at a junction#but it keeps happening over and over and over#if i draw and it's abysmal then good. i don't care#everything just gets worse and worse and worse and worse#i am so sorry#sea rambles
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Oh my god, did they... have they really finally fixed the funky in-cutscene shadow issue when you have trees casting shadows? Where you get weird pixelated stripes patches of light on everyone?
(I apparently have misplaced a reference file, but this cutscene is usually a pretty good example of how bad it can get, but no pixely shadows here now!)
#i know i read something in the patch notes#about them overhauling the lighting/shadow system#but i had given up hope on them fixing the pixel shadows#could never get rid of them#no matter the settings or rig i used#i also was running through the skytrooper factor in kotfe chapter 3 tonight#(for reasons)#and it seemed much brighter and better lit#than when i was checking my youtube archive of old streams#i guess this is a sign#i should pick back up on my recording/editing project#get all the improved scenes with pretty lighting#in 4k#grey's silly swtor tag
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other ✧.* tag dump part two
v : everywhere i go the light follows { canon } v : burning brighter { star guardian } v : burning bright { star guardian — modern } v : hey! who are you calling a lady? { modern } v : for demacia { odyssey } v : oooh i've never been here before! { space groove } v : a beacon in battle { porcelain } v : the superior tactic is to never give up { anima squad } v : finish the fight! { soul fighter } v : into battle with hearts aglow! { battle academia } v : { arcane }
she's like a grenade to the face; she's beauty she's grace : { shimmershots } i hope you will one day let the light guide you : { apostisms } are we supposed to be... dating? we haven't even talked... { deadn30n }
#v : everywhere i go the light follows { canon }#v : burning brighter { star guardian }#v : burning bright { star guardian — modern }#v : hey! who are you calling a lady? { modern }#v : for demacia { odyssey }#v : oooh i've never been here before! { space groove }#v : a beacon in battle { porcelain }#v : the superior tactic is to never give up { anima squad }#v : finish the fight! { soul fighter }#v : into battle with hearts aglow! { battle academia }#v : { arcane }#she's like a grenade to the face; she's beauty she's grace : { shimmershots }#i hope you will one day let the light guide you : { apostisms }#are we supposed to be... dating or something? we haven't even talked... : { deadn30n }
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Sorry, I saw one post and a half of yours and I'm already a fan.
I still have to scroll down your blog to see more about you, but I saw that two-post-long answer you made for an anon ask (btw, you have such poetic vibes :D your style made me smile, seriously) and I couldn't holf myself to ask:
Hm, have you ever heard of... I mean, "whump"?
If yes, what are your thouhts on it?
(you don't need to answer this, specially if it makes you unconfortable in any ways or anything else XD)
However, I hope you have a wonderful day/noon/afternoon/evening/night(?) !
Hello hello!! First things first, sorry for taking SO LONG to answer, I had a ton of health issues the last couple of months >.<
Secondly, thank you SO MUCH for being so kind!! I saw all your reblogs of that huge answer for such a tiny thing I did and thank you. I'm really happy you like my style too, that makes me smile!
Now now, about your question on whump, I'm gonna be very honest, I had to Google it to make sure we're on the same page HAHAHAHAHAHA
Jokes aside, I know it's sort of a term for hurt/comfort fanfiction - but it's not really clear to me if it's a kink thing or not.
Because you see, if you're talking about hurt and comfort, I mean, that's basically what I write HAHAHAHA writing for the Devil May Cry fandom, inevitably someone will be hurt/tortured/mentally abused somehow.
Or impaled. A lot.
(I mean, that's all this bitch has done for the past 5 games)
And also there's the whole thing with Vergil, his twin brother, being kept as a slave in Hell for 20(?) years and coming back after dragging his crumbling body out of there to find out he has a son and being the peak of cluelessness in the Universe - and me being adamant he deserves love after all that.
So I guess everything I write has a LOT of hurt - and I even put some serious warnings before the fics, 'cause everyone is traumatized in this household - but despite of that, they still can find love, happiness and somewhat soothe all that pain and trauma.
(dramatic, real, horrible, but stil comforting xD)
As a kink, though, I don't enjoy it - and I also don't enjoy putting characters I love through pain and suffering just because. That's why I have a love/hate relationship with horror media: I LOVE horror, but I HATE exploitation.
Movies that have just people being abused, hurt, dismembered and all that kind of horrible stuff happening just because without a real reason to be on the plot - meaning, torture porn - just make my blood boil. And there's a lot of that in horror.
I like when things are more psychological and actually have a REASON to be there. So, in my writing, I'll never torture a character just for the pleasure of doing so and for the pleasure of the reader, I need a point out of it.
For instance, on my cyberpunk-style story, both main characters have gone through a terrible experience together and lost someone who was really dear to them. Both of them went through a lot of physical pain, lost some limbs and needed to install cyberprosthesis, and lost everything they had worked for til that point in their lives.
Horrible, yes. But they had to go through it so I could start the story: because of all of this, the guy made an anarchist/terrorist group and just wants to burn down the city along with the people in power who allowed all that to happen to him, while the woman becomes the best killer for hire so she can get enough money to live and, eventually, retire.
All that physical and psychological pain is a very important plot point and I can't take it away from the story, or else there's no story to begin with. Meanwhile, every time I'm writing I'm thinking "how can I make this as unpleasant as I can so the reader can understand the crushing feeling of all of this?" hahahahaha
That's why I'm not into pain kink - I respect everyone who is, but I can't do it, I feel no pleasure from it.
That's my opinion, I think. For pleasure's sake, I don't like it, but for plot, I really like it. I think it has a hopeful note to it - that even after the storm, the days will shine bright again, you just have to go on. That's what I enjoy from writing things like this, the hope.
Who would've known, I'm not 100% a bitter bitch hahaha
Reading my personal original stories, I think all of them have a painful background and many unpleasant scenes. But I like it, because it's human nature and how life is: bad things will happen, we can just try to make the good ones count even more :)
I hope that was a good answer to your question hahahaha
Thank you once again, and I hope you have a lovely week ahead!! Feel free to spend some time around and ask things if you'd like! ^^
#polaris speaks#polaris answers#answered asks#asks#asks and replies#I hope I managed to explain how my thought process works regarding whump hahahaha#I mean everything I write is painful as hell#that's why I always put thousands of disclaimers around HAHAHA#but there's something of poetic about finding peace and love after so much pain#that scene where Sam monologues at Frodo that WHEN THE SUN SHINES#IT'LL SHINE EVEN BRIGHTER#and they are all dirty in the middle of the war with people dying to wraiths and Frodo just SO fraking tired while crying#and Sam grabs him by his shoulders and reminds him there's something to fight for#for all the good in the world and strawberries with cream in the summer#I LIVE FOR THIS
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