#the fandoms kinda dry rn

[neos-schlond-poofa]

thank god kinning culture calmed down before the release of rl cause i don’t think the fandom would be the same if we were all hardcore kinnies fighting for the role of being a character irl the most

[paintedkinzy-88]

I have a question if you don't mind answering, I am a bit new to your work and your Tumblr so truly sorry if this question is answered many times already, would you be updating Winged AU and Tipping the Scales? Note: I just started yesterday and already finished both winged au and tipping the scales and I must say.. THEY ARE BOTH AMAZING HOLY FU- CRAP XD AND THE ART IS AMAZING TOO!! ((Amazing art and story telling? You are on a roll!! XD))

Well first off hi hello welcome! All questions are good questions, no worries. And thank you so much! I’m glad you liked them ahhhh ｡：ﾟ(｡ﾉω＼｡)ﾟ･｡

In the case of TTS, yes, I really want to! I’ve been lacking writing motivation in general, but I have a lot planned for the dragos and I genuinely do want to continue making content for them! They make me happy, even if I don’t post much about them rn ;w; Violet 4 will be released if I fuckin die doing so—

For Winged… probably not much sobbinggg. I had an overarching plotline for Classic that I know I was totally building up for, with Sci and Noots and Ink and everyone getting dragged into his shiz. But to be completely honest, even then I was a little uncertain about how to go about it?? Not that I didn’t know exactly what happens, but more just having massive doubts that I could pull it off the way I wanted to???

So, like, with everyone throwing all these ideas at me rn, it HAS rekindled my love for the AU, but not to the point of continuing the main main story. You may see one shots in the future, most likely of side plots, but I’m not gonna promise anything ._.

If it isn’t very obvious by recent posting, I’ve kinda fallen out of UTMV a bit… but mostly in the way of like, not reading anything or consuming other people’s content much. I still want to make stuff for the stories I have up currently! Like LAN and TTS, specifically. But, I understand that the absence of new posts is a bit concerning.

So! General tldr, just because my focus has shifted, doesn’t mean my UTMV projects are abandoned. (ﾉ´ヮ´)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ You’re all still stuck with me—

[kaoharu]

i watched the first ep of the rkdd anime nd its sooo sillies

[za-vandal]

I am in so much pain rn, my stomach hurts, my head hurts, and my throat is dry, but here we are.

In the spirit of kinktober, my absolute exhaustion and my want for more subby nerds, I present to you... This monstrosity

Younger!Boss Male reader X older!Nerd Colleague.

NSFW work, don't like don't read 👍

Light dacryphilia, Semi public (? Idk they bang after hours), overstim, getting caught 👀

Nerd Colleague who likes to play games, his office cubicle is literally decorated with mini figurines of his favorite characters, he would play online multiplayer games with the younger employees, he would teach them tricks and all the hidden things to find.

Nerd Colleague who's older than you by a few years, but you're his boss because you founded this company yourself. He talks to you like you're just a teen, but treats you with respect as well. It's kinda funny to see him fumble a little when you walk up to him looking serious as hell, but start asking him about games.

Nerd Colleague, who helps the new employees whenever they have a problem. You see him patting some guys back and feeling a little bit jealous, you would walk up to them and start a conversation. You're basically scaring the new employee away, but hey, at least your favourite man in the office is talking to you about a new update he's excited about.

Nerd Colleague, who gets confused why the younger employees are calling him the "office mom" and you the office dad. You also notice someone is shipping you two, you have your own little office Fandom. You tell your colleague not to care too much, just kids being kids.

"you're calling us kids when you're barely five years older than us?"

"then stop calling me dad"

"hell no, I'm not living in a divorced household. Stay with mom"

Nerd Colleague, who fell asleep at his desk one day, and ended up being the only one left... Except you were also there. Just, kinda watching him?

Nerd Colleague chuckles at you, gesturing for you to come over so he could give you a little kiss on the forehead.

I mean, just sayin, the new employees might call the two of you their parents, but the fact they didn't manage to figure out you two are actually dating was funny to the both of you.

Nerd Colleague who is also freaky. You both are, you match each other's freak really well. He wore a tie to work today for the fact he wants you to use it on him. In the office.

Nerd Colleague, who is a brat. Brattiest brat you have ever met. Constantly complaining about how he has more stamina then you dispute being older.

You prove him wrong later, after making him cum on himself so much his mind goes mush. You barely even needed to do anything with his cock and he's already leaking. You don't even need to get his pants off to feel it getting a bit wet ♡

Nerd Colleague gets tied up with his own tie but not in the way he expected. It's around his tip so he wouldn't get to come that easily, while your own tie was the one around his wrists.

Nerd Colleague who instantly stops being a massive brat, begging so nicely for you to release the tie on his dick.

Nerd Colleague who starts crying asking you to take off the damn tie. You don't, but you do give him little kisses to clear those tears away. He whimpers and complains about the "harsh" treatment you're giving him.

Nerd Colleague who finally gets to cum. And then you pick up the pace again, without giving him time to recover. He cries even more now, calling you unfair, you don't even bother, you're content on watching his tears fall down his pretty face as his eyes roll back from the pleasure.

Nerd Colleague who limps to your car. Complaining all the way there because you fucked him too hard. it's fine though, he did say he would get his revenge back home. You hope that revenge is as fun as what just occurred in the office.

...

"... I hate my job."

"Not my damn fault you forgot your phone, dumbass. At least we do know they're definitely mom and dad now."

"it's giving 'self fulfilling prophecy vibes', y'know? Calling them our parents and they end up banging?"

Vinny's extra notes :

Ngl I don't have anything planned for kinktober, this one is very light in terms of content. Might do a MHA fic, something like Shigaraki X reader or Dabi x reader if I feel like it. Should I do monster fucking? I feel like I should. Or something with sub Mr Reca when he comes out (my unfinished symphony ahh looking man). I love myself some mentally unhealthy men.

[floppydiskettess]

Hi! I’d like to request a Hyde x reader for Coffee Talk please. It can be about anything! Thank you!

MY FIRST COFFEE TALK REQUEST EEE!!! I TOTALLY THOUGHT THIS FANDOM WAS LIKE NON EXISTANT DHDHDNSNSN. PLEASE ENJOY !!!!

also im super duper sorry for not uploading lately, my motivation has been low and im kinda insecure ab my writing rn so im hesitant to post djdjsdn

CONFESSIONS AND FIRST DATES (Hyde coffee talk)

it was a typical day in your cafe, silver and amanda had just left to prepare for their upcoming trip they planned. you were really happy for them truly, but you would miss silver's presence.

lost in thought, you suddenly notice a pale slim finger tapping the counter. you look up to see the gothic model that you have grown to become fond of throughout the time of his visits.

"mr. hyde! sorry about that, i zoned out. what is new with you?"

he smirks and rests his face in his hands. "hm. i noticed. not much is new with me though, but are you alright? hope i wasn't i interupting anything important" he said with a chuckle.

you blush awkwardly at that. hoping he hadn't been waiting for you to refocus on real life for too long. he was quite stand-off ish and wary when you had first met but after the few months you have known him he has warmed up to you. he is a special customer to you. (but don't tell freya that.)

"no..sorry, i was just reflecting on some stuff. anyhow enough about me, would you fancy a drink?"

you could see his smirk grow a bit wider through his hands before he put his hands down and picked up his phone. "just my usual, you remember it right?"

you nod and he smiles once again before typing on his phone. you quickly busy yourself with his drink. you gently cut the ginger into fine slices before mixing into the sweet hibiscus mix. you pour it into a freshly cleaned cup before turning around. you notice that he was staring attently as you made his drink. you smiled at him before placing it on the counter for him.

"here you go, one zobo."

he gently picks up the cup before taking a sip, letting the flavour of the drink sink in. he hums before speaking again.

"good girl. i am a little suprised you remembered" he says with a smirk

you blush at the nickname before shooting back with a coy smile "how could i forget my favourite customers drink? it's not like you don't spend a lot of time here afterall. i can't tell if you come for the drinks or to visit me." you tease back at him.

for the first time, you notice a pale yet subtle blush spread across his face. his complexion quickly turning a light crimson. but before you can mention it however he nervously coughs and takes another sip of his drink. you make sure to store that memory to tease him about later..

he quickly busies himself doing something with his phone, seemingly typing agressivly to someone. he seems to have no more interest in speaking so you turn around to busy yourself with some leftover dishes from some earlier customers.

after about 5 minutes, you dry your hands and turn around to check on your customer. you are met with his gaze staring deeply at you as if he was long in thought. you feel a little nervous under his glare but you try to disregard it but when you go to retrieve the now finished drink you gently graze your hand on his. this seems to snap his out of it as he quickly looks up at you standing above him. you look down at him as you both just stare at eachother as if you were both scared to move.

from this view, you can see the makeup adorning his face. the concealer he had on under his eyes slightly fading so you could catch just a glimpse of his tired eyes. his skin looked incredible as if he keeps good care of it, you always wished you had effortless skin like his. as your eyes move over his face his blush gets deeper and deeper, but you assume by now your own face was bright red as well. you could just barely hear the quick and soft breaths coming from him, you were quite thankful nobody else was here right now as it would be quite the sight to see. the soft music in the background completely tuned out as you just focus on him.

you quickly realize how close and awkward it was, so you shakingly begin to pull away from him. before you can move far though you feel a warm hand grabbing your apron. you notice how he is no longer sitting and is pressed against the countertop standing so he can reach you. you feel yourself get pulled back before feeling a gentle warmth touch your cheek.

oh shit, he just kissed your cheek

you immediately lose all composure accepting that it is much to difficult to act unaffected by this.

you softly whisper his name in suprise as you look at the ground as if avoiding his gaze. his grip on you softens as he shakingly lets you go.

"i..i am so sorry. i had better leave...thank you for the drink." he stutters out nervously as he quickly gathers his belongings. you stare at him in awe of what had just happened.

before he can leave however you reach out and grab onto his dress shirt, he turns around startled.

"...can i at least get your number..? incase you ever want to talk outside of the cafe you know?"

he looks suprised but he nods as he writes down his own number on a peice of paper.

"here. this is my personal phone...sometime we should go out for food, if you want to of course." he says calmly with a soft smile that is rare to see

you nod and smile back at him "i would love that..have a good rest of your night Hyde."

he relaxes and smiles back at you before walking out of the cafe.when the room was empty, you slumped down onto one of the benches and softly laughed. looking forward to your next encounter with the mysterious vampire. you save his number and send a quick hello text.

soon after, your phone softly beeps.

a/n: hi djsjsjjdjsjs im sorry this is si bad...like i said im really not happy with my writing lately it has been very bad and cringe. im not doing to great so it has been super hard to work on the requests.

[wawamouse]

I thought I was on my way to writing the same number of Miguel/Chico fics as Ding Rong/Wang Zhi fics but I've actually written a surprising variety (for me) for Oz so far, and so miguelchico only accounts for 27/46 of my Oz fics (which includes several drabbles, of course) whereas rongzhi is 50/59 tsomd fic with i think maybe 1 drabble and 6/50 are another rarepair that i might be the only person on earth who truly likes

So the takeaway here is that if you thought I'd already milked this rarepair dry, think again! We haven't even entered the wilder AUs yet.... the transmigration.... the Island Prison!Oz AU.... I haven't even written MCD yet! There's been no marriages! No undercover!Miguel infiltrating El Norte! No 12 Monkeys AU! No Stepford Wives AU (yes this is also a bullet point on my "Fic Ideas" list.... no, I will not be taking questions at this time....)!

Not to mention the 10 miguelchico wips I already have started! 🥴 Basically, if history is anything to go by, I will be here chugging along long after everyone gets sick of my shit lol

(I have a Stanislofsky wip in the works rn too.... probably gonna be a short thing for HT100 as a breather, and also because I genuinely do want to write more oz fic with other characters too! sorta have a Torquemada/Morales AU in the back of my mind too—probably also going to be a short piece that I will try to match to a HT100 prompt, since idrk how to write either of them. But I feel like Morales doesn't get any love in the fandom and he's one of my favorite characters in the show tbh!

Also I've had a Said/Bismilla idea that I've had since last year when I was working on Holding Up the Sky (I know, that was forever ago) but need to do more development (bc... well... Bismilla) for that basically so I've been putting it off. Kinda wanna write Shirley/Diane still and Shannon/Gloria as well, and my sister's comments from last week's episode watch kinda made me want to write some sort of Ryan/Peter thing, but again... still gotta come up with more substantial fic ideas than simply the pairing and some vibes. Alas!

[samioli]

I think i first found your fics because i was veryyyy into the “masturbation interrupted” scenario for a while, and in flagrante delicto was EVERYTHING i needed ab that trope. First of all, I love seeing how people imagine edgeworth to approach sex and masturbation, and when you pair it with his intense pining for phoenix, it’s just sooo perfect. You write porn with feelings so so well.

Like a warm embrace is along the same lines, but i loved the way you wrote about phoenix giving miles his hoodie, and the hoodie becoming a physical stand-on for phoenix. Like the passages about Miles imagining phoenix being wrapped around him, phoenix fucking him. UGH SO GOOD.

Wait (they don’t love you like i love you) is the perfect jealous edgeworth fic. It also includes a slightly slutty phoenix which I am obsessed with, but i love the way you explored how miles and phoenix wanting to fuck each other bad but worrying about their feelings not being returned, and how they dealt with that in different way. Love love love

A way with words was too cute. I love the idea of miles dealing with his feelings through poetry, as a lover of poetry myself i think it suits him so well. And the fact that it is just WAYY too much flowery language for phoenix was such a funny and interesting way to approach that. I think you handled them getting together in that fic so well, because it easily could have strayed from the characterizations you set in place, and it didn’t, so having phoenix still not understand but trying so hard for miles made it all the more satisfying. And then we got GREAT porn with feelings to top it off.

I wanna be yours is done so well. I love pairing edgeworth with slightly depraved or humiliating ? kinks. Underwear sniffing is so far from his refined, distinguished persona, and that’s why i LOVE it, because phoenix makes him so insane, he is so in love and obsessed that he can be reduced from a chief prosecutor to a man who gets off by having his face dry humped while grinding on a shoe. So hot.

I honestly could go forever. You write praise kinks and face fucking and everything so well. You always strike the perfect balance of porn and feelings. And your understanding of Phoenix’s and Edgeworth’s characters and motivations is like none other. I’m glad your health issues are beginning to improve, but i’m sorry your stomach is stilll hurting you. I hope this message can at least provide something to you, and hopefully repay a fraction of the great time and effort you’ve spent on this fandom. Your time and talent is very much seen and very much appreciated

ANON.

ANONNNNNNNNNN

YOURE GOING TO MAKE ME SOB!

this is so so so so sweet??? exactly what i needed to get me through the Hurty????? i don't even know what to say????

^ literally me rn

I'm so pleased you first brought up in flagrante delicto because i feel like people don't talk about that fic as much as some of my other ones??? but i do really like that fic, i just love crashing into miles edgeworth's head. he has fantasies! he has kinks!!!!! he has desires!!!!

VERY PLEASED you brought up i wanna be yours too, literally went a lil crazy writing that (had the idea, immediately wrote it and it only took a day, thanks to @sapphire-wine as well, she was cheering me on and having brainrot with me) and i think like. some people were very prepared to kinda turn their nose up at it because like, "oh, Edgeworth would NEVER do that!" well what if he did! what if he's a lil freaky! (affectionate) i think like you said, its about how his love for phoenix is so VAST and powerful and consuming for him, making him do things that my seem out of place for him.

thank you SO SO SO MUCH for your kind words. i hope you have the best day ever and I'm giving you some of my falafel that i had for lunch. i love u

[kuroheishi]

hiatus notice

// Yo. Sooooooooo. I have been trying to find the right words to pop in here but it's been kinda hard haha. I had to find time to elaborate how I felt but that icon up there is basically a little mood rn towards how Owari's story has turned out to be.

Spoilers ahead so please skip if you have not caught up with the latest chapter yet!

I just want to clarify I still am in absolute adoration of the Yuichiro I have loved for so so many years; the admiration I feel for him, the fondness of my comfort character is still there. Writing as Yuichiro has allowed me to treasure some of the best memories here on tumblr and outside as it allowed me to meet my wife and some of my best friends so I will always always be grateful to this fandom and my muse.

Guren, the novels, Ferid and Crowley, the Shinoa squad- I guess I enjoyed up to Mika's resurrection as a demon. After that, everything went kinda downhill. Don't know if it's Kagami's fault, perhaps the editors rushing him so too many ideas are squeezed in together. Idk.

I think the last chapter was such a disappointment that I have to take a further step back from the series until I get some spark back to enjoy again writing as my muse as I have always done.

Crowley did not deserve to go that way, he was such a MASSIVE piece of the story, Horn and Chess- it felt dry, I didn't even feel anything at all when we've all been waiting for this talk between them FOR YEARS. That was made me realise-

damn that sucks. I shed tears for Guren, I sobbed for Yuichiro's grief. What happened to that feeling and connection I had with this serie?

I will be going to Japan in a month or so and I will bring with me my Yu keychain, go to Nagoya just to feel the nostalgia of the good old times haha.

I hope you guys are all doing well and staying safe as always! I hope you understand and as I said already in some previous posts, I'm into the Genshin fandom rn so if you ever want to do a crossover and write over there please don't be afraid to keep in touch heh!

[iiseult]

Day Off: Jerry Pascal x Vanessa Riggin (part 1)

Note: This is my first time writing anything for this fandom and probably nobody will gaf but i also dgaf so im posting it anyway!!! I needed a break from my other ongoing fics and im kinda obsessed w Jerry rn so this was an easy write.

CWs: Smut, fluff, oral, gas station sex, jerry is lichrally in love, mentions of alcohol consumption, idk just yeah man it's hot stuff

The first time Jerry met Vanessa, she was drunk on a Sunday afternoon. Not that he was judging.

When he heard the little bell above the front door jingle, he looked up from behind the counter and called his usual lackluster greeting of, “how can I help you?”, but it died in his throat and petered out into more of a “how can I- ha…” when he got a good look at her. She was wearing a yellow t-shirt and a pair of hello kitty pajama pants, and a pair of huge black sunglasses covered most of the top half of her face. She made a beeline for the alcohol aisle and, with her left hand, she grabbed the first six-pack of cheap beers she saw. In her right hand she held an empty coke bottle, which she placed in front of him on the counter with a grin.

“D’you think you could get rid of this for me? Couldn’t find a recycling bin outside.”

He kind of knew he was done for once he got a whiff of what was actually inside the coke bottle, and it sure wasn’t no coke. He was never one for professionalism, so he didn’t think twice about nodding dumbly and ringing her up without checking her ID, even though she was pretty obviously underage. He also didn’t think twice about shamelessly chatting her up– a conversation which ended in her appointment as a new part-time employee for the summer. Jerry didn’t actually have the power to hire anyone, but the way he proposed the idea to the owners on the phone later with such dignity and aplomb left them unable to refuse.

“Hey, please buddy, come on, I’m on my knees here! Look, I know you can’t see me, but if you check the security cameras you’ll see that I am literally… literally on my knees!” Jerry cried, tilting his head to the side and holding up prayer hands towards the camera, like a grotesque caricature of the Virgin Mary. Jack pinched the bridge of his nose and groaned for what felt like the millionth time in the past hour, turning around to avoid watching.

“Jerry, besides the fact that she was drunk for the entirety of the… ‘employee interview,’” he air-quoted, “we don’t have enough money to take on another employee! How are they gonna pay her?” Jerry put his hand over the receiver and shushed Jack viciously, a little spit flying out of his mouth, before returning to his conversation.

“Uh-huh…uh-huh…yeah, no, I completely understand, no, totally. Right, right. Of course. For sure. Definitely. Indubitably. Could you just give me one second, please?”

Jerry slumped against the side of the counter and sulked, covering the receiver again and sighing. He looked up at his friend with kicked puppy eyes. “But she’s so hot, dude, I’d hate to disappoint her…we gotta figure something out,” he muttered, when suddenly another brilliant idea struck him. “WAIT! I have had…a thought!” He declared, suddenly jumping to his feet and uncovering the receiver.

“You can give her half of my paycheck!”

So about a month and a half into working side-by-side at the gas station most days of the week, Vanessa and Jerry had grown quite close. He started picking up extra day shifts on top of his usual nights to make it up to the owners, and to spend more time with Van. It sounded like a great idea on June first, but by the time the fourth of July rolled around, he was really starting to look worse for wear. He often worked 24 hours in a row and only had eight-hour breaks between them, during which he’d sleep on a hammock in the dry storage room, not seeing a point in driving all the way home just to come back as soon as he opened his eyes. Jack didn’t seem to mind; all he had to do was remember to knock before restocking the chips. And Van was none the wiser to the entire situation, clueless to the fact that Jerry was sacrificing so much to keep her around.

Despite the fact that it was her day off, Van swaggered into the gas station, cheering when she saw Jerry behind the counter. A goofy smile spread across his face. Even though it was the twenty-second straight hour of his shift and his eyes actually wouldn’t open more than halfway, he felt a warm tingly feeling spread through his body at her presence.

“Hey, what’s up, Van?” he called. She sidled up to the edge of his counter and leaned her elbows on it, gazing into his red-rimmed eyes absently.

“Thought I’d pay you a little visit since I got nothing going on tonight,” she drawled, and the fact that Jerry’s eyes were glued to the neckline of her low-cut top was not lost on her. In fact, it made her feel good inside. He nodded, and without looking back up he said, "Sure glad you did.”

Before she could say anything, the little bell rang and she turned her head to see an actual customer enter the store– a middle-aged man with a poorly concealed beer belly and a backwards baseball cap. She quickly walked around to the other side of the counter and planted herself next to Jerry, their shoulders brushing slightly. He shivered and glanced at her sidelong. She was staring ahead, watching the customer as he approached the counter with an assortment of items in his hands, a large grin on her face. He wanted to say something, to ask what she was up to, but that thought was dashed from his mind when the customer dumped his things in front of him with a loud ‘clunk.’

“Hey, how ya doin’ today,” Jerry said quietly. He rang up the items one by one. The customer grunted in acknowledgement. And below the counter, where nobody could see, Van slowly slid her hand up Jerry’s leg, starting at his knee and settling on his upper thigh. His breath hitched and his face began to heat up. Alarms were going off in his head, and he suddenly worried he had stayed up too many hours at a time and finally lost his mind, but when she gently squeezed his thigh, he swallowed hard. No, it was real. And there was really a customer in front of him, a matter of inches away, watching him attempt to do his job.

“Can I also get a pack of smokes?” the customer rasped, pointing to a pack of reds to Jerry’s left. Van squeezed harder, getting dangerously close to a sensitive area. Jerry cleared his throat and grabbed the cigarettes quickly, his hands shaking slightly.

“Yeah, n-no problem. That’ll be $17.80,” he replied quietly, accepting the twenty from the customer and handing him his change. The man gathered his things and grunted once more, turning around and heading for the door. As soon as he was facing the opposite direction, Jerry let out a sharp breath, his eyes fluttering shut, and discreetly shifted his weight, trying to hide the growing bulge in his jeans.

“Have a nice day!” Van called as the customer disappeared out the front door. As soon as he had, Jerry’s eyes darted around, making sure there was nobody else in the store. There wasn’t. He turned his body to face her, one hand gripping the countertop for dear life.

“Jesus, Van,” he muttered, and he could feel his pulse pounding in his ears. And also in his jeans. She turned so they were facing each other and her hands flew to his hips, holding him at an arm’s length.

“Aww, big boy, you’re so cute when you blush,” she said softly.

Jerry could feel his face getting hotter, could feel the entire room getting hotter. Despite this, he scoffed.

“I do not blush. I just… overheat sometimes. It’s a guy thing- a, a man thing,” he clarified, looking down at her sternly. She only smiled and patted his hip affectionately.

“Yes, you do, Jer, and I love it. Such a pretty boy,” she cooed, rubbing her thumbs over his hip bones. He let out a small sound that was something between a grunt and a whimper.

“Stop it, Van, you’re driving me crazy,” he complained, his voice tinged with amusement. In response she let out a groan, which turned into a low laugh as she noticed how his pants had magically become at least two sizes too small between the legs.

“Aww, pretty,” she chuckled, looking up into his half-lidded blue eyes through her lashes. He blushed deeply, trying not to look into her eyes, his heart stuttering in his chest. This is what he’d wanted so badly since the day he met her, and yet he was paralyzed. He couldn’t tell if she was just playing with him or if she actually wanted him to make a move, but he was betting on the first one.

“Van, please don’t tease me like this,” he pleaded, his voice coming out croaky and low. He stared down at the ground, his golden hair falling around his furrowed brow. She felt a pang of guilt and decided to change tactics, gently sliding her hands up from where they had previously been resting on his hips, and finding a new spot around his slim waist.

“But I’m not teasing you, honey…”

His heart skipped a beat and he shivered, his skin breaking out into goosebumps under her touch. She called him honey, and it left his head spinning. He wanted to believe her, to touch her back the way she was touching him, but he wasn’t yet totally convinced he wouldn’t be making a fool of himself.

“You… you’re not? 'Cause I don't really wanna act like a fool right now,” he replied, his throat dry, and she shook her head. She, on the other hand, loved when he acted like a fool. They did it together all the time! She considered saying as much but decided against it, thinking that maybe she should save that one for later. Instead, she squeezed his waist and urged him to take a step closer, whispering, “No, baby, I’m not teasing.”

There was only a little sliver of space between them now, her chest bumping up against his, and the tent in his jeans brushing almost imperceptibly against her thighs. His hands hovered awkwardly at her sides, unable to decide if he should ask permission before touching her or just do it. He started to speak, to ask “then what…” but the words died in his throat and all that came out was a soft, “Huh?”

She grabbed one of his hands and placed it on her own hip, looking up at him darkly and all but confirming what he so desperately needed to hear– that she wanted him, too. He moved his thumb experimentally up to the hem of her low-rise jeans, brushing the pad of it against her flawless skin, and both of them sucked in a sharp breath, simultaneously experiencing the same shock of electricity. Her reaction filled him with a wave of confidence. He knew he wasn’t just imagining things, that she really wanted him, and that by the looks of things, it was pretty bad. He gently tugged her hips forward, pressing them against his own and grunting softly at the contact. He thought he was ready for it, but he was so hard it was almost painful and he couldn’t stop his hips from bucking into her soft, yielding flesh. She let out a harsh breath through her nose and closed her eyes.

“Jer…”

He craned his neck down and got in her face, breathing heavily and looking at her through his lashes. Those pretty blond lashes framed his big blue eyes so well and she just melted when he looked at her like that.

“You want me, pretty?” she whispered sweetly, gripping his hips a little tighter, possessively. He clenched his jaw and nodded rapidly, whispering back,

“Please, can I have you?” She grinned and nuzzled her face against his neck, pressing kisses to his scruffy jaw and the skin around it. Her lips brushed his ear as she murmured,

“Yeah. Take me to the storage room,” and Jerry sucked in a sharp breath and dug his fingers into her soft hips. When he spoke again, his voice came out rough and strained.

“Y-yeah? You mean it? You want me… right now?” She slid one hand up under the hem of his t-shirt and spread her fingers out over the warm, bare skin there. His body was aching for more, practically vibrating with the need to be closer to her, so he grabbed her smaller hand softly and led her to the dry storage room where he slept. Thankfully, it was only a few steps away, and she quietly closed the door behind them. Jerry leaned his back against it, his chest heaving as his breath came in shallow gasps. Vanessa pressed her body against his, practically draping herself against him, and cupped his face softly.

“Jer, you’re gonna have to be quick,” she muttered. He laughed heartily.

“Oh, trust me, I don’t need much time.” She bit back a goofy grin and slid her hand down to his collarbones, feeling the tingle of heat as it radiated from his skin and invaded her own. He groaned and leaned his head back against the wall, staring up at the ceiling.

“Van, lady, please…” his voice rumbled deeply in his chest, and she felt the vibrations against her bosom. She shivered and sucked in a sharp breath.

“Do you want me to touch you now?” she whispered, cradling his stubbly cheek in her hand and letting the other one fall to rest on his waistband. Jerry nodded frantically, eyes still closed, jaw clenched. She took one last deep breath and blew it out before leaning forward and capturing his lips in a deep, passionate kiss, moving her mouth against his slowly and languidly. His arms instinctually encircled her waist and he held her carefully as he furrowed his brows and kissed back. All the tension, all the months of pent-up frustration and need poured out of him suddenly.

He moaned into her mouth, and she took the opportunity to lick past the seam of his lips and slide her tongue against his, making sure he couldn’t go anywhere by grabbing the back of his neck. She breathed his scent in deeply and pressed every inch of skin she could into his body, and all she could think about was him. In her mind’s eye she saw him, the last expression she had seen him make, his face flushed and brows furrowed. In a frantic attempt to get closer to her, he pressed one palm against the small of her back and another between her shoulder blades. Every flick of her tongue sent a wave of heat through his already overheated body.

When the kiss finally broke, they were both panting, and Jerry had a strange expression on his face, like he was using every ounce of his concentration to make her clothes turn see-through.

“God, Van…” he said, his voice deep and rumbling. She pressed one more short kiss to his lips before dropping to her knees in front of him, and his heart jumped into his throat.“You don’t have to…” he protested weakly, even though his hips were pointing towards her like a magnetic force. She swatted away his words and scoffed, already fussing with his clothes, swiftly unbuckling his belt and undoing the button of his jeans.

“I’ll do a better job later, but this’ll work for now,” she said, grabbing his pants and pulling them all the way down to his ankles in one swift motion. Jerry’s breathing was ragged and desperate, and the promise of there being a ‘later’ to look forward to sent a pang of lust ripping so strongly through him that the room momentarily spun.

“God, Van, I’m so…” he began, his cheeks flushing even deeper as he looked down at her face hovering only inches away from his throbbing need, “…hard,” he finished. He was painfully aware of how badly he wanted her, how sensitive he was, and he was glad this was only meant to be a quickie, because he’d be done for in a matter of minutes. Van kept one hand planted firmly on his hip, and with the other she palmed his bulge through his boxers, unable to look away from it.

“My God, Jer, what is this, like, seven inches? Fuck,” she swore, her mouth already watering. He shivered, already so sensitive that the slightest touch set his nerve endings on fire, threatening to overwhelm him. His length bobbed and strained against the thin fabric, leaving a small wet spot on it.

“Y-yeah,” he managed to gasp out, “About that, I guess.” He was suddenly slightly embarrassed at how much her words obviously affected him, when normally he would have had no shame at all about his body, but there was no way for him to hide his reaction. She pulled down his boxers quickly, his rock-hard cock springing up against his stomach, and her jaw dropped as she finally laid eyes on it, pink and swollen and fat. Jerry’s skin burned under her gaze, the way she was looking at him making him crazy. His hands balled into fists at his sides, but as her eyes widened at the sight of him, that confidence from earlier came back and he couldn’t help but reach out and run a hand through her hair and mumble, “You’re so pretty.”

She grinned and wrapped a hand around him firmly, spitting on the tip, and Jerry couldn’t stop the strangled moan that escaped him, or the way his hips bucked into her fist. He couldn’t believe she was actually smiling, actually volunteering to blow him. It was like she was a wet dream come to life. She pumped him a few times just to get the blood flowing before bringing her lips down and pressing a wet kiss to his tip. As soon as her soft skin made contact with him, he let out a filthy, pornographic moan, his head falling back against the wall. He felt his legs tremble, and he was sure he’d collapse by the end of it if she didn’t stop, but he was also sure he never, ever wanted her to stop.

“Van, ah, that feels so good,” he gasped as she flicked her tongue around his sensitive head, drawing more and more sounds from his lips.

“Good, honey, so good,” she whispered, flattening her tongue against his shaft and dragging it all the way up to spread around the moisture. Once she was satisfied that he was properly coated, she looked up through her eyelashes and swallowed about half of him, keeping her hand curled firmly around what didn’t fit. The way his cheeks flushed and his knees buckled encouraged her to start bobbing her head up and down, her lips still wrapped around him firmly. Jerry had to press his back harder into the wall to keep from falling.

“Ohmygod you’re so pretty,” he repeated, unable to tear his eyes away from her face and the way his cock completely filled her mouth. As a thank you, she started moving her hand in tandem with her head and sucked hard, creating the max amount of friction she possibly could without hurting him. His breath was coming in ragged gasps, his whole body tense with pleasure, and with the effort of forcing himself not to buck into her mouth. Though his hands were buried in her hair, he was gentle, never pulling on it too hard, only holding it to help ground himself. Vanessa began picking up the pace, moving her head faster and continuing to swirl her tongue around the head, occasionally letting it flick across his sensitive slit to make him yelp.

“A-ah!” he cried breathlessly. She hummed around him and tried not to smile, bringing up her free hand to play with his balls. Her finger accidentally grazed his perineum in the process, making him moan out her name, long and deep. She pulled off him for a second and couldn’t help but grin.

“Oh, you like that?” she asked, gently dragging her finger against the area again. His legs wobbled and he groaned, and she squeezed her hand a little tighter around his base, starting to pump him again as her mouth went back to work. She was going fast now, gagging a little as she swallowed as much of him as she could and continued stimulating him with her finger.

“Holy shit, Van!” he moaned, threading his fingers tightly through her hair as his thighs began to shake. “I’m- I’m gonna c-” His sentence was cut off by a loud cry ripping through his throat, and the sound of Van moaning in pleasure around his shaft as he shot his load into her mouth. His entire body shuddered and he had to catch himself before his knees completely gave out. She slowed down a bit but kept going for a few more seconds despite his whines and gentle tugs to her hair, wanting to make sure she milked his cock for everything. She didn’t hesitate to swallow everything he gave her, sticking out her tongue to show him afterwards. Once again, he had to fight to stay upright after seeing that.

“That was…I’ve never…it’s been so long since…” he gasped, looking at her with pure adoration as she got to her feet and pressed a quick kiss to his lips. He could taste himself, musky and slightly bitter, and made a mental note to include some more pineapple in his diet.

“You taste pretty good, huh?” she teased, running her tongue along his bottom lip.

“Ugh, fuck,” he moaned, face going slightly red at that. His heart was beating a million times a minute, his body still buzzing with pleasure as he wrapped his arms around her and pulled her close. He wanted to give her some of the warmth he was feeling, show her what she really did to him. He closed his eyes and buried his nose in her hair, inhaling deeply. “Van, you’re so good at that…” he mumbled stupidly, a mindless grin plastered on his lips. Jerry was drunk a lot of the time, but somehow this was not one of those times, no matter how much it seemed like it. Maybe he was drunk off lust, or desire. Or something else. Who knows what kind of chemicals one could inhale while working at the shitty gas station at the edge of town. Van melted into the hug, relishing the feeling of his thick arms caging her in, keeping her warm and safe. But she knew he was in a time crunch.

“Break’s over, sugar,” she whispered, and he made a noise of discontentment and buried his face into her shoulder.

“Don’t wanna,” he mumbled against her skin, his voice half-muffled. She laughed quietly and stroked his dirty-blond hair, almost petting him. He pressed his face into her neck and breathed in her gentle scent, the scent he had come to associate with tenderness over the past month and a half, and a sense of contentment washed over him.

“Didn’t I tell you I’d do a better job later?” she cooed.

“Yeah, but now I don’t think I can wait,” he muttered. Van gently let go of him, pulling back a little so she could look into his eyes.

“I’ll make it worth it,” she promised, “I’ll come by your place after your shift.” Van knew where Jerry lived, and she wasn’t averse to the fact that it was quite literally in the back of an abandoned school bus that was probably illegally parked behind the old Mathmetist compound. She’d been there to play shitty knock off video games and grill various meats a few times before, and it really wasn’t so bad once you got used to it. Especially once Jerry brought out the beers.

He gently released her, his body already missing the feeling of her against him. His mind had already conjured up at least three different scenarios about how the night would unfold later, and at least two of them involved a blindfold and cherry flavored condoms. He gave her a lopsided grin and nodded.

“You better,” he said, his voice still a little raw from earlier. He couldn’t wait for his shift to be over.

[ofmdee]

foof. typing this out on tumblr because it feels easier to collect my thoughts here rather than twitter, lmfao, but MAN my creative well is bone dry rn, i feel like i have zero energy and motivation to work on projects and i just. it's driving me crazy lmfao, and in the back of my mind i know i'm burnt out and need a break, but it's so hard to take a break, because like, i don't have much else going on in my life rn, or ever, like fandom has always been a huge, important part of my life and i don't rly know what to do or who i am if im not obsessed over SOMETHING lmfao. my gf said last night something like, i guess it's hard to take a break when it's related to a hyperfixation/special interest and like!! yeah!! it's rly hard to untangle all of that!

but. idk. i don't feel happy rn with a lot of things irl and online, and i know i need to rest and do nothing and let the well fill up again but that also scares me? so i am just going to try to ease up on myself a little bit, try to go more than a day without feeling compelled to post something new just because i'm afraid ppl will leave or forget me or something if i don't constantly pump out Content. and i know i did this to myself, lmfao, i rly don't know how to do things in moderation and this is a constant cycle of going too hard and then abruptly losing all interest

my gf sent me this last night and even the first paragraph got me!!! like, that's ME!!!

i am in the reluctant admission stage rn lmfao.

i am not going to say i am completely going to stop creating during this time, because that would be a lie, but i am rly going to try and chill tf out, stop worrying about getting fics done in time for mermay, and just kinda try to recharge. and i don't wanna say this is a firm break or whatever because when i inevitably fail at taking a break, i will end up beating up on myself, so im just gonna say i am gonna try to be like...... idk, creative Lite or something for a little bit.

im still gonna be around every day lmfao, but probably for less time than usual. i'm still gonna reblog/retweet things, and i'll probably have some original stuff as well, but i am not gonna keep holding myself to the impossible standard of having something new every day. and i know no one else expects that of me!!! but i have somehow put that expectation on myself. i can use this time to share some old favorites again instead!!

i just started a new game+ in coral island, so ive got that going for me, lmfao, and it's getting nicer outside finally and i rly truly need to touch grass more often!! idk why i always feel like i need a huge explanation for what i do, and it probably wont even be super noticeable to most ppl lol, but!! idk. sometimes i just need to work things out this way.

so, i am releasing myself of the burden of having some fics done for mermay, and posting daily, and feeling like i have to make tangible progress on creative projects on the regular. or, that is my goal, at any rate. i think i'll just focus on gifs/still shots for mermay, my fics will be ready when they are ready 😤 but even if i don't do that much, it's okay!!! mermaids are good any time of the year imho.

i just need to get to a point where i actually Enjoy the process of creating again, because it feels like a chore rn and i hate that :((((

idk, anyway if u read all this thank u, thank u for following me and liking what i do, here is an old gif for ur troubles

[cloudypinkblink]

Please more of dp x rc9gn.

It definitely will come!! Rn I’m just kinda dry in the well for ideas and prompts, but I’m also struggling a lot with my health so I don’t have as much time.

But y’all should know by now I always swing back around to my beloved fandoms hehe

[blainesebastian]

fic / posting update

hey all! just wanted to say i appreciate all of you. for a spurt of time, i hadn’t received any requests and i kinda slowed down on writing, which is totally normal for me if i’m being honest. i got dry periods like any writer haha the a.b. tag also feels a bit slow moving in comparison to when we were getting well fed, so i strayed a little to other fandoms. 

in saying this, inspiration is not coming as quickly as before--i’m still writing (i recently got a handful of requests, so thank you!) but i’m not posting as often because it’s taking me longer to write. this also has to do with work being an absolute nightmare rn just draining me ;sldkj 

but i wanted to be honest and appreciative and thanks to those who have checked on me / sent in requests! i’m still here writing for the a.b. fandom, just a bit slower ;) 

[autismcherubble]

I decided to make pinned post nothing very fancy because I’m kinda lazy lol rn.

Hello, I go my name is currently autismcherubble I used to be autismstoowarb I’m autistic (hence the name) I’m aroace, have anxiety, and most importantly I’m a minor so anyone 18+ don’t be weird, I’m in many fandoms but mostly msm.

For any Weezer accounts please go to @sznz-winter I’m only following and commenting on this account

I’m autistic so if I don’t know you really well and you try to talk to me I’ll probably be a dry speaker and not say much. I’ll also need tone tags if i’m not close to you and don’t get your humor style yet

Favorite monsters

Cherubble

Stoowarb

Hyehehe

Yawstrich

Rare Thwok

Ffidyl

That’s all I can think of atm lol

DNI/DNF

The Obvious stuff homophobic pedophilic etc

If you’re weird for example being a pro shitter a pedo, zoophile and maps

Ableist, homophobic, racist etc

NSFW ACCOUNTS/kink accounts

Toxic people

Hate mass reblogs (because I’m one)

Hate dry speakers (because I’m also one)

Main Fandoms

My singing monster

Not entirely in but will reblog and post it about it sometimes

Shovelware’s brain game

Weezer especially on @sznz-winter

Friend codes

Msm:

1024563503MN mobile

4001131472MI steam

Dof

2F3BTBX9

I’ll update the pinned every once in a while to add or remove stuff

[thefandomexpert]

hope u don’t mind the word vomit it’s 3am and i’m having Thoughts. somebody more well versed in the current fandom could write you a way better essay, but here’s mine.

i think ur right in a lot of ways, but i think the draw of the ‘no attachments’ line translating to a strict no love/no relationships rule reading is

a) a subversion; a fairly straightforward one that leans on relatable tropes (religious faction using hippie language to couch emotionally controlling cult shit is a thing people impose upon the text based on Real World Happenings tm) which in turn

a.1) spices up an, as you said, very cut and dry narrative. when star wars came out, nobody needed anything more than that simple color coding; the status of good and bad was not a question. nowadays, moral grey areas are in favor. tv governments who once fought on the side of the good and just Order against dreaded Kaos are now culpable for all the shady shit modern audiences know irl governments will do to get their way, because audiences of today will not take Order=good at face value (what constitutes Order? is Order even a natural, preferred state of the universe? preferred by whom? etc.) again i think a lot of animosity towards prequel-era jedi is (occasionally justified) fear/loathing of religious sects who exert a lot of control over their communities. i see a Lot less hate for like. og luke’s kinda loose interpretation of the jedi way (we don’t talk about the sequels and the Sacred Texts ok)

b) the emotional connections between the major jedi (particularly the qui gon ‘line’) are fucking messy. obviously this is like. The Worst Example of all of them, but they’re also our main characters for the whole prequel series, and a lot of side content (clone wars animated, etc) I’m not going to touch obi and qui gon rn, but just look at obi and anakin! even with a full support group (albeit, in the middle of a war, but Still) nobody seems to realize that just telling anakin to Let Go will not actually help him process his feelings in a way that’s meaningful to him, esp bc he hasn’t been raised from birth to be a jedi. Normal people need like. actual therapy, guys, sorry.

b.1) The greater majority of jedi KNOW this too. It’s mentioned again and again; anakin was taken too late, is too headstrong, and is not good jedi material. but he’s soooo powerful and special! they Have to train him! if he’s not a jedi he might be Bad! because the only way to definitely not be Bad is to be a Jedi which is Good. Obviously. In favor of this, they seem to accept when he just represses his issues, like ‘ok close enough!’ and so it doesn’t matter if the ‘no attachment’ line actually means ‘no attachments’ in the rulebook, because the way it’s being interpreted by anakin, the way the order is Allowing him to interpret it, it means he can’t talk about anything he feels for fear of being dismissed unhelpfully or told he shouldn’t be having issues with that stuff Anyway. And he’s not the only one who ends up with this issue in canon either, is the thing. Half the sith, ashoka…a lot of them defect because they feel like they don’t have the support in the jedi code to feel badly about…a lot of things, not just attachment, and the jedi don’t seem to have an answer beyond banishing them when they break and cross a line.

c) back to that bit about audiences today not really willing to leave things black-and-white. the prequel jedi order was, canonically, getting kinda weird with it. There’s a lot of stuff you could pick on them for, but the most obvious fan favorite is the use and treatment of the clones. (which, in part, can be justified by their lack of attachment in favor of The Greater Good!) Some of that shit is not shit Purely Good Guys do, and if they’re not Purely Good, though they make a point to insist they are, what else about them…might not be Good? What else got twisted with good intentions? any group that’s trying to sell you a black-and-white viewpoint in the real world is a dangerous one. it’s that easy, really.

This is where a lot of middle ground people stand i think (at least in my experience, and also imo lol). It’s not ‘jedi are evil and won’t let u have a partner!’ that’s like baby’s first media analysis. it’s, jedi code is probably fine actually, the clone wars era jedi order was, canonically, getting kinda cultish and powerful (esp compared to looser systems like the earlier ‘grey jedi’ from the extended lore and luke’s later interpretation in the original trilogy) and they did a bad job of teaching someone who wasn’t indoctrinated at birth their ideals and didn’t want to admit it, and this specific catastrophic incident (anakin) then seems to be indicative of a larger issue rising within their community. looking at the events of some of the extended universe/series, the jedi order’s collapse seems almost as inevitable as the sith empire’s collapse, we just happen to get front row seats to the absolute Spectacle that is the anakin skywalker supervolcano right at the end instead of some background fade into obscurity

…which Was how it was presented in the original series! hence why there’s not a lot of ‘maybe the jedi were Secretly Bad’ focused on that era. in my experience. they don’t give you a lot to work with until later

TL;DR I think you’re right for reading the intent of the original series, but audiences today don’t like being told not to question what’s Good and what’s Bad, and i Definitely don’t think it’s the intent of the extended lore (clone wars era stuff Especially!!) to present things so simply.

i wonder why it's so hard for people to understand the concept that attachment =/= love bc if it did mean love why wouldnt they just say it in the source material. star wars isn't subtle.

like we're talking about a story that has literally color coded its characters to make it glaringly obvious who the good guys and bad guys are. blue/green = good; red = bad. subtlety isn't necessary in a story that has a LIGHT and DARK side. if the jedi were barred from/disapproved of love, wouldn't they just say it...

like the jedi philosophy is just:

attachment = no

letting go = yes

letting go =/= ignoring and repressing, it literally means to Not Be Attached

don't cling. allow things to take their natural course. that's it bro cmon 😭

[aqricus]

do you have any blog recs? specifically for bungo stray dogs

i do!! but you have to read their dni’s and byf’s first.

@nvgumo

@sonder-paradise

@garden-of-asphodel

@dazaislupin

@nozomiasl

@nameless-shrimp

[tartagliad]

i came home from the hospital today because i tried to commit su*cide last night and i really need some comfort rn, so uhmm.. can you make a hc about how genshin boys would react to their s/o trying to k!ll themselve?

Ignore this if you dont write for such subjects!༼ つ ◕◡◕ ༽つ

...nonnie, I hope you feel much better... i'm bad at words and people said actions matter more than words, so imma hug you and do your request... *hugs you and wrap you with blankets* :3, I hope you feel better, do talk to me or anyone you trust if you want to pour your heart out.. we're here for you :)

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Don't Do It... Please..

Summary: The boys reacted to reader for committing su*cide

Fandom: Genshin Impact

Characters: Childe, Kaeya, Diluc, and Zhongli

F reader!

Genre: angst with comfort at the end!

Warnings: high sensitive content!!, minors DO NOT INTERACT!!, sharp objects, poisoning, blood, drowning, falling, and i'm using my last braincell to made this since I want to publish this ASAP- :)

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Childe:

Childe was on his way back from work when all this happened

He was just finishing his work near Jueyun Karst

The place was surrounded by hills and mountains so, it's a bit of a challenge when he want to go back to the harbor

When he was on his way... he saw someone.. from the distance

He take a closer look and found out.. it was you.. what are you doing at a place like this?

It's a bit odd especially it's almost dark, he's concern

You didn't hear him... you could only hear the winds brush through your body

When Childe is like a few footsteps closer to you.. there it is, his nightmare came

You jumped down without hesitation without hearing his cries calling for you

Your body fell into the water... your body started to feel lighter and you were about to go unconscious

But then, someone jumped in and picked up your body

Childe hurriedly put your body on a dry place and started to pump your chest, he started to cry

When you slowly opened your eyes and spit the water out from your mouth, his eyes darted to you

His breath was so unstable because he was worried and panicked

Childe hugged you tightly and he cries to your shoulders

"No... no no, don't do it...'' he said... he holds you tighter

''C-childe...'' ''Do you think I'll not miss you when you do this?!'' you were left speechless

Shivers when down your spine as the words replayed in your head.. you regretted your actions

You put your hands around him and gently rub his back and silently saying 'sorry'

Childe looks at you and kissed your forehead and gently cupped your face

He smiled at you, the feeling of hope is shining when you see him...

Though it shatters him seeing your eyes so empty

Childe then carried you in his arms and head back to the city

From there, Childe always keeps an eye on you (well, not stalking ofc)

He would put his duties aside and put all of his attention to you

If you wanna go somewhere, he'll oblige, if you just want to stay in the house, he's alright with it

He'll always reminds you that he always loved you and when your in the couch or in bed, he'll cuddle you

He will also kinda spoil you (?), he would bought the items that you wanted

Childe is really soft around you, he tries his best to make you feel better and happier, seeing you barely smiles hurts him

"Talk to me if you have something that bothers you, I'm here with you.. I would rather help you at your worse rather than not knowing a single thing that is happening in your mind. I love you..''

Kaeya:

Kaeya arrived at home early today, given the fact that his duties are finished

He wanted to spend some time with you together, given that he's always been busy

When he entered the house, he didn't saw you.. thinking you might be in bed or still working on your commission

Then he hears a sound coming from upstairs

Kaeya is curious what's going on, and when he arrives upstairs.. he heard that the sound came from the bedroom

He thinks that you're inside since.. well, who else would be inside besides you two

So, he turned the nob and.... silence

He saw blood on the floor, then he saw you holding a sharp object

You didn't know he was there because you were lost in your mind

'One more...' you said to yourself...

Just as you were about to do a one last swipe, something stopped you

Kaeya held your hand and immediately took the sharp object and threw it across the room

He then turned you around, you didn't look at him

Kaeya held both of your hands and sighed

He brings you downstairs, sat you down and get the first aid kit

The alcohol felt really cold against your skin and there's a slight sting to it

But Kaeya tries his best not to do it harshly

It was rather awkward since you were afraid to talk or face him and he was trying to process what happened and focusing on wrapping your arms with bandages

You were zoned out and pulled out from your mind you feel something warm was holding you, it's Kaeya

You didn't return the hug, but you can hear his breath started to hitch

"Why must you do this to yourself?'' he speaks, you didn't answer him.. you don't know how to say it.. but here it is

"I just... well, feel like a burden to anyone else and... no one needs me so...'' then you fell into silence, not wanted to say anything further

"hah.. look, you aren't a burden to anyone, and without you knowing it, people needed you, they loved you even the littlest things that you did to people made them really happy..'' Kaeya said

''You are special, that is why I wanted to be with you.'' he added, you only sat there and hear everything he said

You hugged him back and melted into his touch, comforted by his words

Kaeya could feel you smiled and he himself is really happy that he could help you

Day on, he would slowly help you through everything

Tries not to make you stressed since you're still recovered

He would take you somewhere quieter like Cape Oath or somewhere else, so you can feel more relaxed and feel better.. he know that crowded places wouldn't help that much

Kaeya will always be patient towards you and he always keep his mind open about everything he hears from you

"No hesitation if something you wanted to say, I'm always here giving you my up most support. Just talk your hearts out, I'm all ears."

Diluc:

Came back from his job as a batman for the day lmao

Diluc was walking back from the city and was on his way back to the winery

On his way back, a worker from the winery walked up to him and told him that you weren't home yet

Hearing this makes him panicked, it's literally almost midnight and you aren't home yet

He then ran to look for you around the areas of Mondstadt

There was no sign of you near the city, so he tries to think where was your last location for todays commission

It was near Wolvendom, so he went there and check it there

He remembers there's one location near Wolvendom that connected to the Stormterror's Lair

He had a feeling that you'd be there and he's right

Your figure was standing there staring at the moon and the place was rather windy

The wind was howling and it crawls on to your skin, sending goosebumps around your body

Your mind was else where, you wanted to fall but your nervous.. then the blow of the wind slowly pushed you closer

At this point, Diluc started to get a little suspicious about everything he sees

Didn't want to scare you, he silently walks up to you... but.. you jumped down

He ran in an instant... that is a far fall, then he jumped down and opened his glider, trying his best to catch up to you

The wind seem to answered him and give him a push to catch you

You closed your eyes and feel that you were almost at the ground... meeting your end

Then... you met with something warm, carrying you and slowing you down from falling

You opened your eyes and saw Diluc

His hair was messy because of the wind, he was staring at you.. you dont know how to describe it but you know he's upset

He helds you closer, "Why..?" he simply said, he wants answers from you yet he knows he cant force you

You didn't answer him and more over, you're scared to face him

Then he puts you down and hugged you, breath started to get uneven

"I already lost my father, I don't want to lose you either... stay... please..'' he says, tears running down his face

"You're important to me..'' he adds, you felt silence, but at the same time, you felt more at ease

"That's... sweet of you" the only words that came out from you

Diluc holds you tighter, but not until you're out of air

Once both of you calmed down, he took you back to the winery

From there and the day on, he helped you and accompany you

Also he didn't make you work that much so you don't stress too much

If you want some time alone, he'll respect that and gave you the time and space you needed

He wanted to help you move through all of this and he'll be very patient towards you, he loves and cares deeply about you

"Don't be afraid to speak to me, I'll be happy to give you all of my attention and time towards you. Never ever pull a stun like that again... you're everything to me.."

Zhongli:

Zhongli wanted to come home earlier from his work to have some more time with you

Once he was finally done with some documents, he finally goes home

He wanted to have dinner together with you and maybe a little talk about each others day..

He was really happy about the things that he wanted to do with you

When he arrived and opened the door, you weren't there

Confused on where you are, he decided to check the kitchen but something isn't right

On the coffee table at the living room, there's a bottle but he's really unfamiliar with it

He took the bottle and read what was written there.. it's poison

His eyes widened and he noticed that the bottle was half full.. oh no..

Zhongli ran to the kitchen and found you

You were about to drink it and without thinking any further, he ran towards you and throws the cup from your hand

You were shocked that he's here and knew what you're about to do..

"Why did you do that?'' he said to you, looking at you in the eyes

Slowly, he approached you and hugged you.. holding his tears

''Since when you have the urge to do this kind of thing?'' he then asked you, ''Not.. long.'' you muttered

Then Zhongli rubs your back up and down to comfort you

''I've lived for a really long time and lost my closest allies because they've met their end... but, you.. decided to get to the end closer...'' he says, he started to lose his composure

''You are still very young, there are a lot of things that you haven't see in this world, would you mind if I made a contract with you to take care of you?'' he adds, you silently sigh and smiled at his words

He then takes you to the living room and he goes back to the kitchen to make your favorite food

From the day on, he'll continue to fill you with his endless affections

Zhongli even puts his work aside to be with you

He will always hear you and always give the conformity that you needed

He'll also take you to a walk and listen to you talking, he tell some stories sometimes but he wanted to hear things from you

"I'll always be here for you no matter what, I have a contract that I've signed to take care of you.. Don't die on me.. I've always loved you and will always be by your side until my last breath.''

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(A/N: wot is this trash :"), anyways sorry for the long delay, I've been busy this past week.. if you wanted to request let me know, my inbox are open... have a great day!!)