#the fandom was right on so many things- and this idea of Alastair being a little maniac because he can- have no escaped my mind

[astriefer]

We fail as a fandom if we don't talk more about the fact Alastair teaches Ari's pet parrot rude persian words (and will not be stopped even by a very tall person's opinion on the matter)

[zoyalannister]

agree also gideon in the end is protrayed just surprised thomas likes alastair and doesn't hate him, i expected him accepting thomas but being wary of alastair as he was one of the people who spread the rumours of him cheating on sophie, but maybe he doesn't care

also in the end grace is pictured close to anna and ari, and then thomas and alastair are also pictured as close to them, is weird since during the series they barely talk

also the grave scene where they bury things, anna does not bury anything, because she says she likes all her choices, wouldn't grief made her blame herself for kit and made her want to bury something?

the point of leaving gabrily alone to grief does not make sense when gideon and sophie are surrounded by people and are also supposedly grieving, is said sona becomes friends with them as well as flora, so is one more thing that does not make sense in the book

there are other inconsistencies like every adult showing when the battle was finished and ari running to flora and anna staying behind, and then scenes later is mentioned gabriel was there, why did she not go to ther father? or had any reaction? maybe cassandra slipped the name later on as she was mentioning many adults but did not care much of it

the india travel is repeated many times and makes me think she will write a small piece of that, probably centered on ari and making he rhave the angst plot as she is meeting her bio family, i doubt she would center on anna's grief as canonically she stated many times during the epilogue she had not been as happy since she was a child. weird considering anna had accepting and good parents and is never mentioned she grew up sad or anything like that.

Gideon canonically doesn’t care about his family and this is another proof, any normal person wouldn’t be super happy immediately that their son is dating the guy who spread rumors about them cheating on their wife. But hey, Gideon is super loved by the fandom because he generated one half of the most popular ship, so why using logic?

To be honest I like the idea of Grace being close to Anna and Ari, probably they bonded over the fact that they’re the only characters grieving Kit for more than 15 minutes, but I find the idea of Thomastair and AriAnna being friends hilarious. It feels like the book is trying to tell you that gay people are automatically friends, it's not like they have a personality besides their sexual orientation, right?

Anna burying nothing is embarrassing, just CC wanting to show her as the edonistic character, but it looks like it comes from an old draft where Kit didn’t die since it doesn’t make any sense. It doesn’t make any sense also that she was unhappy after childhood, are you fucking kidding me? Her family was well off, she had friends and a supportive family, everyone accepted she was lesbian and proud, she had a lot of sex, why was she unhappy?? It’s never mentioned, but I guess that in CC's vision having a relationship automatically multiplies your happiness.

Don't get me starte about the stupidest and cringiest """"battle""""" ever, Gabriel is probably mentioned just because CC realized at the last second that she needed someone from the TID gang and probably Gabriel was the random picked name. It doesn’t make any sense that Anna doesn’t run to him since it's the first time she sees him since Kit’s death, but this scene would make sense of Kit wasn’t supposed to die.

(Yes, I'll never believe that Kit’s death was planned since it's treated like shit and has no consequence, and obviously Matt and Sona were set up for dying).

As for the TID gang leaving Gabrily alone, I will be more explicit even if I will attract haters: it makes sense to me that they support each other and not Gabrily because they are shit people. They were shits as teenagers, they are shit as adults and the epilogue confirms so.

Anna and Ari will have their novella so CC can cross out the "WW couple" on the checklist for her short stories collection, and as you said it will probably be either about Ari or AriAnna being tourists and nothing of the grief will be mentioned.

[streettealee]

Still suffering from the flu but I slept half the day away and I’m currently medicated and all the symptoms are an echo for now as I use these precious few functioning hours catching up on what fandom content I can get around to. And I really appreciate being tagged in the comments of this because this is something I’ve thought about before (not in terms of Charles, but we’ll get to that).

Absolutely with you on Matthew here with his unique position as a non-Shadowhunter kind of Shadowhunter, where he has done his training (reluctantly) and (according to Cassie) isn’t too bad at it, but has more of a mind for other things in life other than fighting demons in the shadows. And I really do think this could have been capitalised on by Cassie, where she could portray this idea that giving up the Shadowhunter life isn’t just a tragedy and could, in fact, be a liberation for those, like Matthew, who do not ‘subscribe to the values of a Shadowhunter’, as you so aptly put it. 

I am different in my view in that I was somewhat dissatisfied with Matthew’s ending in Chain of Thorns, but I am a certified CoT hater, and we can’t really help this, so we’ll just move on from that part. 

Usually, when I’ve imagined Matthew leaving the Clave, it’s been through the Downworlder avenue rather than the stripping-of-marks-due-to-some-crime and becoming a mundane path, however, I really find your take on it interesting because you consider what I had not before: the repercussions this would have on Charlotte and then on Charles’ arc. I very much like the idea of Charlotte stepping down as consul to support her son, and Charles fully leaning into his political ambition to the point where it ruins his relationship with his family by the ways you’ve described above. It’s so delicious. I’d read the hell out of it. I’d be weeping right alongside Charlotte, as well as furious.

And the icing on the cake is that Charles absolutely hates his life now that he has everything he wants because of what he had to sacrifice to get there. But there’s such little room for him to turn back now. I love a nice tragedy like that. And the fact that his guilt leads to him lifting elements of Matthew’s exile. 

Also, I cannot get enough of all the possibilities of Matthew being out of Shadowhunter society. You suggested he’d take to the stage, as he suggested himself at least once in Chain of Iron from memory. I think he’d certainly thrive in that environment, but I also enjoy ideas such as where he picks up hobbies like cooking/baking again and or sketching (I will defend it until the day I die, HE’S THE ONE THAT DID THAT DRAWING OF HIM AND THE THIEVES THAT HE HAS UP IN HIS FLAT). I have so many ideas. He has so much potential. Something that I just will always absolutely love about Matthew Fairchild is the sheer, raw potential he has as a character. I could see him in a dozen different stories and realities and, just, ugh. He’s kind of amazing, you know? (I mean, of course you know, you’re literally The Matthew Account (as I know you)) 

Anyway, back to an earlier idea you brought up: absolutely approve of the idea that Charles sees the happy and healthy relationship Thomas and Alastair have and the way they’re thriving and realises he chose the wrong path to pursue his own joy because there is little to no possibility he’ll find genuine romantic love after the things he’s done and what he’s committed to. 

Is my entire contribution just me rambling about how much I love your ideas? YES, now hush up and tell me some more. Thoughts on Matthew working in a bakery just because I like the idea. Actually, that’s just now making me think of Peeta Mellark. Are we ready to talk about a TLH Hunger Games AU??

I absolutely loved Matthew's ending in Chain of Thorns. I wouldn't trade it for an alternate ending. That being said, I do feel like we had a missed opportunity for the Fairchild brothers that I'd like to discuss.

I always thought that Matthew was unique partially because he was a Shadowhunter that never really subscribed to the values of a Shadowhunter. It would have been interesting to see him stripped of his marks and forced to acclimate to life as a mundane, partly because I think Cassie could have portrayed this as a positive thing for Matthew. Consider:

Matthew's secret is discovered and forced out to the Clave. Don't know how this would happen; don't care. Charlotte is pressured to take action, especially because she is the "victim" of Matthew's so-called crime and is the Consul. They try to get her to kick him out of the Clave; she can't do it, because Matthew is her son and she loves him.

Charlotte is told to either do it or step down as Consul. She chooses the latter.

Charles - who has not been blackmailed - is named the de facto Consul until all of the Belial/Tatiana-related bloodshed calms down. Because he is the temporary Consul and wishes to be in the Clave's good graces - and, perhaps, because he is angry on behalf of Charlotte - he does listen to the advisors telling him to prosecute Matthew. Matthew is stripped of his marks and thrown out of the Clave, forced to live as a mundane.

Charlotte is angry and devastated. Charles becomes Consul in the election at the price of having ostracized his mother and exiled his brother.

I have long thought that the illusion of everything he ever wanted was the most fitting ending for Charles, and I stand by that. Charles is now the Consul, but his relations with his family are exceedingly strained. He has no friends and has eradicated any chance of ever finding love in his quest for power. He is the Consul, and he is miserable. And he needs to watch Alastair thrive and live an amazing life with Thomas, and every day is a wound. But he has his ambition, and he has the life that he craved.

Back to Matthew, he doesn't just land on his feet - he does insanely well and is (after some grief and processing) happy no longer having the restrictions of being a Shadowhunter. He very quickly lands himself a part in a Wilde play - perhaps Lady Windermere's Fan would be a fun and ironic choice because of its portrayal of family. He is getting amazing, glowing reviews, and he has made excellent friends that he has a ton in common with because of his career.

Matthew still gets a novella bindup, and this is the premise: a former Shadowhunter learning what it means to no longer be Nephilim. A former Shadowhunter re-acclimating to live outside the Clave, and actively enjoying the journey.

Towards the end of the bindup, Matthew - who still misses his family and former parabatai and Shadowhunter friends - gets a surprise. James, Cordelia, Thomas, Alastair, Lucie, and Jesse all show up at one of his acclaimed plays.

Charles, who is wracked with heavy guilt after exiling Matthew, dedicated himself to pulling strings so that Matthew would be exempt from the rules stating that exiled Shadowhunters must be shunned by those in their former lives. The last scene shows Charlotte and Henry congratulating him on his successes, and Matthew - with his theatre girlfriend/boyfriend, theatre friends, and all of his Shadowhunter loved ones - are together again.

[aruthlessblackthorn]

Something to Address

Disclaimer: I have nothing to be jealous of when I deleted my instagram account months ago, but I am genuinely upset at the situation. The fandom (and Cassie) deserves to know the truth.

If you’ve read Cassie’s newsletter this morning (or yesterday, depending on time), then you know she’s started her promotional project for Chain of Iron, called The Letter Game. I won’t go into too much detail because the premise of the idea isn’t what’s important-- it’s about who is involved. 

I’m nervous to talk about this but this has to be talked about. For Thursday, tsc.updates on instagram is doing one of the promotional pieces. But if you know who runs the account, then you might know they’re also the person who ran shadowsconfess. And if you were around when that account existed, then you know there was a lot (and I mean A LOT) of controversy that steamed from almost every confession post made. 

When shadowsconfess was a thing, there was a lot of discourse surrounding the controversial things that were shared. One of the biggest things was their hate for Jem, and from that came a lot of people who sought out shadowsconfess as their gateway to be hateful and bigoted towards Jem (and many other characters, specifically POC). Now, I am not saying someone isn’t allowed to dislike a character, everyone is entitled to their opinions, but what I am saying is that shadowsconfess didn’t check those hateful confessions, like the racist ones, or the sexist ones, and it honestly played such a huge role in ruining the fandom and community. Arguments were happening left and right, and it was hard to remain neutral especially when it came to differing opinions (especially about Will, it was considered awful if you disliked him). 

Here is an example of what I mean by allowing bigoted confessions (coloring out usernames for obvious reasons):

Overtime, shadowsconfess would post other opinions of theirs, specifically about their heavy dislike of Cassandra Clare. One of their biggest things was how they hated her, how they were a firm believer of separating the art from the artist. Which is fine, but given the fact that they’re currently working with CC... make it make sense. Shit doesn’t add up.  

They were also known for having the scoop on what CC feels towards her characters, such as her disliking Will (prob because of the CP2 epilogue and jessa being canon in the future books). Going back to the hate on Jem, they has a history of disliking POC characters. Like Maia and Alastair, the former reminding her of someone (same argument made against Jem) and the latter being because he’s a bully and not wanting redemption for him. Like I said, it’s okay to dislike a character but this is a pattern. A racist/prejudiced one. 

There’s also this on their tumblr where they try and compare Alastair’s suffering from racism (he is half-Persian) to his bullying of James Herondale having demon blood in his veins as to being the same thing. Idk what to make of it, but it’s fucking weird. I’m sorry, but that’s not the same thing. Not at all.

When they deleted shadowsconfess and made tsc.updates, they kept their tellonym. And here they went along with others making fun of Cassandra Clare’s appearance, where they berated Alastair’s character, etc. 

There have been other instances where they have been awful, such as comparing Cassie to h*tler and jumping on the bandwagon of hating her because of the incest plotline in TMI. Many people I know have gotten into an argument with her and/or their friends over these issues, and for the most part we’ve asked that a lot of this hate and negativity to stop. But there has been a bruise left on the TSC fandom because of things like this, and now CC has her promoting Chain of Iron, which leads into this point:

I am not making this post to be spiteful, or to “re-hash old feuds,” but instead I am pointing out how unfair it is that someone who claims to hate Cassandra Clare and has caused a lot of damage to this fanbase gets to work with her. There are plenty of fans who would die to have been part of this project, and unfortunately this has turned into one of those things that happens when someone doesn’t research a person they collaborate with. There are a bunch of other things that have been said and done but I know I can’t bring them up without proper proof, but I hope what I have shown here is enough. 

I have been wanting to talk about this since I read CC’s newsletter this morning, but I am nervous to post this due to the way I’ve been treated when calling tsc.updates/shadowsconfess out on their bs in the past. I don’t care that they don’t post confessions anymore, but point still stands that there has been harm done. And on an obvious note, don’t send hate to them. Instead hold them accountable for their actions. Because that’s what this post is for. 

So @cassandraclare , if you read this, please reconsider working with them in the future. 

[raevenlywrites]

Chapters: 5/? Fandom: Kiesha'ra Series - Amelia Atwater-Rhodes Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Zane Cobriana/Danica Shardae, Andreios (Hawksong)/Danica Shardae, Adelina (Hawksong)/Zane Cobriana, Zane Cobriana/Andreios (Hawksong) Characters: Kel, Erica Silvermead, Danica Shardae, Zane Cobriana, Andreios (Hawksong), Adelina (Hawksong) Summary:

All the disconnected bits and bobs from Ties That Bind that don't have a home yet. Consider each chapter is own deal unless otherwise specified

New update is some random Zanica tenderness I don’t know where to put yet

“Danica. There’s no delicate way to put this so I’m just going to be blunt.”

“You’re a beautiful woman, and you’re unattached. You are going to recieve advances, unless we telegraph that you are not open to such things.”

Zane raked his fingers through his hair, clearly stalling. I thought about saying that if this was his way of being blunt he was doing a terrible job, but I recognized that quips wouldn’t make this difficult conversation any easier.

“While no one would ever violate your bodily autonomy, I’ve already seen first hand that your idea of appropriate and harmless interactions do not match that of my people.” He cut off with a frustrated sigh, giving me fiercely desperate eye contact. “I’m trying to avoid a war here, Danica. I have no idea how to prep you for what you’re going to face in the synkal. There’s just too many differences--“

 I cut him off by laying a hand on his shoulder. It wasn’t much, but he knew me well enough by now to be stilled by what surely to his standards was a “harmless and innocent” gesture.

 “Speak to me plainly, Zane. I understand the difficulties we both face. Speak as you would to one of your own people, and I stop you and ask for clarificaiton as needed.”

 He looked so lost. Those dark eyes that once thrilled me now simply moved me to pity. I wanted to offering him comfort in a way that would mean something to him, to chase that look from those beautiful eyes. His wasn’t a face to be shadowed and haunted; it was made for joy. The few times I’d seen him truly smile-- I would move mountains for that look. A hug was surely not to great a cost.

 I stepped into him, intended to do just that, but he pulled away.

 “Not now, please. I appreciate the gesture, but having your body up against mine will not make this talk any easier.”

 I felt the heat rise to my cheeks and I let it, finally accustomed to letting my emotions show around Zane. It was still too much for public, but here with just the two of us, I let the blush color my face and aura alike. It earned me a ghost of Zane’s normal smile, and that did much to make my embarrassment sit more comfortably. I retreated a step and wrapped my arms around my middle, a compromise from the soldier’s clasped hands that I wanted to shield myself with.

 “Please.” I was amazed at how even my voice came out. “Go on.”

 Zane turned away and began to pace. I watched the lyrical motion in fasciantion, always bespelled by the music I could see in his movements.

 “Ours is an expressive culture, Danica, one that worships beauty and physicality as gifts from our goddess, to be admired. And shared. Being someone’s mate is not a reason to turn down a dance, a kiss, an evening--” He cut off again with a vigorous shake of his head. “I don’t know how to take you among my people. If I withhold you from them on some sort of pedastal, I don’t know how they’ll take it. I want them to embrace your people as allies, but they will want to do that in away that I know you’ll find overwhelming. And while there are roles and rules that protect your rights, there are just certain misunderstandings that are bound to come up. I don’t want to paint you as the cold, icy avian they’re all expecting, but I don’t know how to protect you!”

 The last was so empassioned, so, so desperate that it took my breath away. I felt my heart pounding away in my throat, choking out any word or thought. Protect me. Zane Cobriana wanted to protect me.

 I had to remind myself of the cultural differences. He hadn’t meant it with the same contextual weight that an alastair would. But... Oh, just hearing him saying made my pulse race and my fingers clench into the soft fabric of my gown.

 “Say something,” he asked softly. “I can feel so much from you right now, but I don’t... I can’t read it. I don’t know what all this means.”

He gestured around my body in a way that I knew he meant as my aura, but I couldn’t help but imagine as something more literal. The thought of his hands on me, all that heat and passion... I shivered. I couldn’t help but wonder how it looked in the “all this” of my aura.

 “This means,” I said after a careful breath, “that that was probably the best thing you could have possibly said.” I wanted to go to him. I willed myself to stay rooted to the spot. “And I am struggling to remind myself of all those cultural differences, and that what you meant and what I heard probably don’t match up.”

 He took that step I could not, then another, and another, until I could feel the heat of him in the little space that remained between us. I dropped my gaze, giddy and dizzy and utterly unable to look at him. I wanted his arms around me. I wanted to raise my face to his, to hear him say it again, to press my lips to his...

 “I do want to protect you.”

 My knees went weak, and I had to brace myself on his arms to keep from falling. His hands were suddenly around my waist, holding me up, all solitious concern.

 “Danica, are you alri--“

 I cut him off by raising my face to his, my lips wordless but still conveying all the meaning I couldn’t figure out how to say.

[hurlumerlu]

spn (you brought this on yourself)

akljghf I really did X) okay let’s see how many times I can type “Dean” in a tumblr post.

the first character I ever fell in love with : Dean ! it helped that when i watch spn the first time it was in vo without subtitles, when my english was still pretty shaky, so many of his more, uh, unsavory comments flew right by me - but i would have loved him anyway.

a character I used to love/like but now do not : idk... the only one can think of is girl-of-the-week Sarah from the episode Provenance. I used to like that she was really involved in the case and rather efficient and brave despite being totally out of her element, but rewatching that episode I got the feeling that she was allowed to be all those things in part because she’s richer/more educated/classier than most characters and it rubbed me the wrong way. And she was extremely gracious about it, which annoyed me more. That is a LOT of words for a little side character I don’t feel strongly about, but this episode has some weird class vibes (more than usual), so. there you go ?

a ship that I used to love/like but now I don’t : well... Sam/Sarah i guess ? Also I was pretty into Anna/Ruby and now I’m not but once I get back to season 4 I will probably be into it again so I’m not sure that counts.

my ultimate favorite character ™ : Dean. It’s weird because I had almost forgotten how much I loved him and suddendly it all came back and I don’t know what to do with those feelings !

prettiest character : it’s a tie between very early season 1 Dean and Ruby 2.0. No actually Ruby 2.0 could stab me with the demon knife and I’be like. thank you ma’am I was not worthy so. she wins.

my most hated character : you know who :) it’s john :) (but also Zachariah was very fun to hate)

my OTP : Destiel obviously.

my NOTP : I get wanting to explore dark dynamics, especially given the nature of the show, but wincest is really not for me.

favourite episode : ugh. I can’t chose. I can’t even chose my favourite episode per season ! I’ll say The Man Who Would be King but I feel like I’m betraying so many others :((

saddest death : Sam’s first death. It’s super bleak, and sends the brothers careening into this cycle of self-sacrifices, and Dean monologuing to Sam’s body gets me every time. (Dean’s last death should have been the saddest, but it was sad in a way that made me think “yeah I was right not to bother”, so it doesn’t deserves the title).

favorite season : season 2-3 feels kinda like one season to me, though if i have to chose i will chose season 2. Of course the fact that it doesn’t have Cas is a bummer but even just knowing that he’ll be along later makes it better so :D

least favorite season : season 8. it was just so obvious that Carver hadn’t even bothered to watch season 6 and 7, and the conflict between Sam and Dean felt so boring, and the Amelia sublot was so boring, and the whole Dean remember purgatory wrong felt both super predictable and out of left field. It burned me out so much that I couldn’t really get into season 9 and gave up. But it gave us scruffy Cas and Benny, so there’s that.

character that everyone else in the fandom loves, but I hate : the fandom is so big and rarely agrees on anything anyway, I have no idea how I would answer that. Jess I guess ? I don’t even hate her, but she’s barely a character at all.

my “you’re a piece of trash but you’re still a fave” fave : Dean, I guess ? I wouldn’t call him a piece of trash but he has a lot to answer for. Like. A LOT. (though he’s also perfect in every way).

my “beautifull cinamon roll who deserves better than this” fave : so many, but Anna, Charlie and Kevin are kings and queens among them... also I wouldn’t call them cinamon rolls but Victor Henriksen and Bella Talbot deserved so much more screentime. And of course Sam, Dean and Cas (I haven’t met Jack yet) deserved a better ending, but... well.

my “this ship is wrong, nasty and makes me want to cleanse my soul but I still love it” ship : Alastair/Dean. Yeah, I know.

my “they’re kinda cute, and I lowkey ship them, but I’m not too invested” ship : Dean/Ash, Bobby/Rufus... also Sam/Ruby but I don’t think “cute” is the word.

Ahem. This got long. Sorry !

[trulycertain]

All right, so I’ve had a couple of people come to me asking if I can beta for them, which is one part terrifying to one part flattering, and I’ve had several conversations this week with followers about writing stuff. And about writing improvement.

I think I have some Thoughts.

Look, in my opinion, I'm quite often a terrible writer. I’m self-taught, I’ve picked up some bad habits, and my grammar is... um. Let’s just ignore my grammar. I need to refresh several things. (Where the hell does a semi-colon go in a list? Please. Help. Also, I need someone to surgically extract about half my adverbs.)

But I see so many people ripping into new ficwriters with that old-school LJ "sporking" mindset and crying "MARY SUE!!!" and... honestly?

That's not criticism, that's... shiticism. Excuse my French.

Yes, sometimes someone has a bit of an ego on them, especially if they’re new to a skill. That might grate on you. Fair enough. But if they’re not hurting anyone or forcing you to read, ripping into a new writer teaches them nothing except to shut up and be afraid. If someone's actually willing to learn and put the effort in and this matters to them, why crap on something they've put their heart into? Especially if one doesn't have to read it or pay for it.

I see so many self-conscious ficwriters who either don't dare write anything or define themselves entirely by "Look! I'm so much better than those self-insert/Sue/[whatever's out of vogue now] writers!" and... that doesn't always teach you to get out of negative patterns. Often it just inculcates you into different negative patterns, and a crab-bucket mentality where you and your feedbackers are so busy panicking and dragging each other down you don't get anything written.

I'll be honest, overpowered OCs are usually not my cup of tea as a reader. But I'm not going to wander in and tear someone's fic apart, and if someone comes to me for help, I am certainly not going to take that trust and hurt them with it.  I see a lot of nicely done OCs because of being in RPG fandoms. I love watching people build protags with distinct voices and backstories they've put a lot of heart into. And statistically, yeah, sometimes you get stuff old-school fandom would call Sue-ish, but I don't think a beginner story where someone feels out the ropes and is proud of themselves for writing is going to ruin my day or destroy the world. Why bother being a jerk about it? And how does that ever teach someone to write?

Five times now, from different followers, I’ve heard things like, "A commenter tore my story apart, and I still remember it, and I cried but it was such good constructive criticism." And it might just have been a bad day, but if someone made you cry? That’s... probably not constructive criticism.

If people had treated me when I started drawing the way a lot of people treat new writers in fandom - 

Actually, no, scratch that. Some people in real life did treat me like that when I picked up a pencil. That meant I put it down again pretty fast as a kid and didn't even try to draw until adulthood, when I was scared stiff and fought the impulse to hide everything I was working on. And I didn’t start again because of tough love, I started because people encouraged me.

Everyone goes, "Those poor kids!" but I don't really care if a writer's six or sixty, the principle of "be a decent teacher" applies.

Silencing is not teaching. If someone’s left scared and despairing and stops writing, you have taught them nothing. You’ve failed.

Random anecdote:

When I was looking at going semi-pro (long time ago, and bluntly put, I wasn’t brave enough at that point), I used to be on a writing forum. They prided themselves on their merciless criticism and their “I’m just being honest!” 

And you know what happened? Crab bucket.

No-one ever tried to get anything published or optioned, no-one ever went to go and try and find an agent, because they were all too busy tearing each other's stuff down to feel better. They might have had some good points, once, but it got buried in the echo chamber and the self-importance.

I went in expecting pros to be brutal, to have to gird myself all the time. And they... weren't. Because I'd learned to write partly in crab buckets. And the pros, the real pros, know well enough not to do that. Because they’ve got less to prove, and a lot of them are readers themselves, or were fans themselves once. They want new stuff in the field, not to scare someone off writing forever, because then they'll have no new colleagues and nothing to read. 

The worst that'll happen is the slush pile, and that just means hearing nothing or a form letter. (Very few pub houses do bit-by-bit critique rejection letters these days, and if they do, the good side of it is you've caught an editor or an intern's attention and they cared enough to go through it. And they may remember your name next time.) I got rejected by Clarkesworld. And I had the shakes sending my stuff in, but when I got the rejection? It actually... didn't hurt. Because I was so proud of myself for even trying and being brave enough to do it, and hell, getting seen by a slush pile intern in the same magazine that published Alastair Reynolds and Neil Gaiman. Because it was proof I'd tried and once I'd done the big scary thing, I could do all the smaller magazines and the anon stuff.

"Tearing someone's fic apart" is not criticism, it's fuckwittedness, and if someone knows how to be a decent beta, they don’t do it. A good reader recognises their own bias and realises that they’re coming in with subjective thoughts and skewed views of their own, and doesn’t represent themself as the only authority. 

If you’re here for actual writing advice and not just a rant (I am so sorry), here’s some advice I’ve given a couple of mutuals. This is what works for me, and it might not work for everyone else. I tried?

I had to stop associating feedback/concrit with personal validation, because that made writing an emotionally fraught activity rather than something safe. So I never have friends beta read or edit my work, because I want a professional boundary or a common goal there. I let myself make mistakes and grin at "This is awesome!" comments with fic, because it's a practice ground where I'm just doing my best, rather than trying to ask for money with it or make a career out of it. It lets me relax. I definitely don't mind concrit and rather like it; it's not the thing itself, it's having a pseudonymous boundary. For that reason, I still don't have friends beta read me. Strangers, fine, friends, no.

A lot of people tell me "bloody hell you're prolific." Well, that one's partly unemployment, can't lie. But before that, when I was working and studying...  Learning to write aimlessly changed everything. Doesn't have to be big, doesn't have to be your next novel or a completed short story. I drabbled, focused on 4/500-word snippets and just capturing a mood/place/concept or building the start of a character, whatever took my fancy. Hell, for six months I took phrases I'd read on billboards as daily prompts. Basically, the aim is to start associating writing with fun and relaxation rather than pressure, and to get into the habit of sitting and doing it. 

I tend to write longhand (for original, not for fic; it's how I keep the mental lines drawn). That sounds like a helluva lot of work, I know, but it also lets you see your progress so it's not just some... theoretical thing in cyberspace that you can’t quantify. (God, now I sound like I'm from 1995.)

I still am absolute shite at outlining when it's for fic. I'm too relaxed, but I try my best. What got me learning to do it for original and completely changed my process was Scrivener. (Also very good for essays!)

Relatedly, the final thing that made me get into a consistent writing habit was NaNoWriMo. It forced me into it because bluntly, I really wanted half-price Scrivener. And it never wore off. Three years later, I'm here. You might be too busy, too ill or too tired for it, and just not be into it, and that's OK, but a challenge like that can be fun.

If concrit and idea exchange are important to you, it may seriously be worth looking into writing groups, in real life and online. Absolutewrite, for instance, is very publishing-focused and a really good group.

And, most importantly of all:

Don’t give up. It gets easier.

[howaminotinthestrokesyet]

The Beatles/Beach Boys/Led Zeppelin: Random Quarantine Thoughts

The Beatles

1. The Beatles Vs. The Rolling Stones... In another article, I spoke about the fact that we’re comparing these two bands as far as legacy is like apples and oranges. The Beatles were together for nine years, while the Rolling Stones have been together for 50 years. The Rolling Stones have released many more albums than the Beatles, which means they had many more opportunities to throw stuff at the wall to see what sticks. The other part of it is the fact that the Rolling Stones in the 1960’s were always chasing the Beatles creatively. I am reminded of when the Stones had a party to celebrate the release of Beggars Banquet, which was the appearance of the Jagger-Richards Collaboration. The Beatles were there and they played the White Album, which had not been released yet. Everyone was blown away by that album, instead of Beggars Banquet.

2. John Lennon Vs. Paul McCartney... An analogy I always make when discussing the dynamic between Paul McCartney and John Lennon is the former was VH1, while the latter was MTV. Now, please note I’m talking about MTV in its early days when the channel actually played music. McCartney symbolized moving towards the mainstream. His music, and for the most part his life, illustrated that fact. In contrast, Lennon was much more rock ‘n’ roll, where he liked to take chances, stir things up, and gradually began to move away from that middle road of popularity.

3. No Deep Cuts... I was thinking that bands are always referring to concerts, where they played deep cuts, but with the Beatles that might be a bit difficult. Their entire catalog has been lionized, analyzed, and covered via pop culture in every way with everything. They are one of the few bands that simply does not have hardly any deep cuts at all. Now, granted there are songs that people do not know, mostly from the early days, but those songs are few and far between.

4. Brian Epstein Was Actually The Fifth Beatle... People are always talking about who was the fifth Beatle. My answer would be the late manager, Brian Epstein, who passed away in 1967. The reason being was that he literally handled everything on the business side, up to that point. The band had absolutely no idea about much of anything on that side of things. After his death, the Beatles decided to start Apple and handle those things themselves, which created a division within the band. Paul started to take the lead on many things causing a rift with the other members. The other aspect to this, which contributed to the failure of Apple was that as time passed their decisions sometimes did not make a lot of sense or they failed to follow through.

5. Yoko Ono Did Not Break Up The Beatles But She Did Not Help... I know you have heard the age old argument that Yoko Ono broke up the Beatles. I do not buy that argument. Yet, her presence in Lennon’s life merely sped up the breakup. The growing rift between Lennon and McCartney over music, celebrity, politics, drugs, and everything else under the sun was happening before she came along. Now, my issue with Ono was that Lennon put her on the same level creatively as McCartney and the others. This is ridiculous to even think about actually. How did an abstract, experimental artist like her earn the ability to influence one of the greatest songwriters ever so much, but she did. Perhaps, he was simply looking for an outlet to reinforce his leanings towards the fringes of culture at that time.

The Beach Boys

1. One Beach Boy You Love to Hate... I am not going to mince words when talking about Mike Love. The dude is a straight up asshole when you get right down to it. As time has passed, his ego has taken over in many fruitless attempts to change the narrative. I do sympathize with him struggling as the lead singer, while Brian Wilson received all the credit as the band’s resident genius. He simply is going about it the wrong way. Now, in interviews and that sorry excuse for an autobiography he wrote, all of it sounds like very sour grapes. One must not forget as well that he was always this way. The reason Smile was never finished among other things was because he fought hard to continue doing surf songs. He argued that Wilson’s album was silly and would never sell.

2. One Beach Boy That Actually Surfed... One of the things I find funny about the Beach Boys, who did all these songs about surfing emerged in that drummer Dennis Wilson was the only one who actually knew how to surf. The other band members were pretty much borderline dorks when they started the band in high school. All of those songs about catching waves, chasing girls, and having fun were all about how Dennis Wilson lived his life.

3. One Beach Boy You Didn’t Know... Carl Wilson has always struck me as the one member of the band that people really do not know that much about at all. Fans know him as the deep voice of “Barbara Ann” and other songs, but not much else. This is why I was fascinated about his death when I learned that he was the glue that held the band together for a long time. Mike Love did not dare declare any sort of war against Brian Wilson until Carl passed away.

4. One Beach Boy Who Was Not Made For Rock and Roll... No single person in rock ‘n’ roll history has had as many triumphs and as much sadness in the course of one career. He is probably the greatest songwriter in the history of modern pop music, but he suffered endlessly for his art. From a childhood filled with abuse from his father to drug addiction and mental issues. On top of all that was the monumental pressure to use his musical gift for others again and again. Wilson was and still is a fragile soul, who seemed in no way prepared for the cruelty of the music business. The worst part of it, as a fan, was the power struggle within the Beach Boys. You had Mike Love, who contributed very little creatively, but always stifling his artistic vision again and again. I just wonder how much great music we missed out on because of him.

5. And Then There’s Murray... Finally, you had his father, Murray. This is always a catch 22 as you discuss his influence on the legacy of the Beach Boys. For one, he was a horrible person. He abused his sons physically, verbally, financially, and emotionally. Yet, the man was a musician, who encouraged his sons in that way. This is the one connection to his father that Brian Wilson can never step away from. Would Brian Wilson have been any different if his father had not been a musician?

Led Zeppelin

1. A Dressed Up Blues Band... Led Zeppelin was essentially a hard blues band for most of their early albums. They took old blues songs that were well known, then rearranged them into psychedelic rock songs. The band took these traditional blues classics and pretty much remixed it into late 60s hard rock blues on steroids. This would have been fine, if they had not tried to take credit for the songs as being completely original. Critics saw right through it, which emerged as probably why the band was immediately looked down upon from music writers. One of the interesting things about their decision to use blues songs was Jimmy Page did not think he had the time to write new original songs before a tour.

2. Robert Plant What If’s... One of the biggest what if’s of Zepplin has always been will Robert Plant ever agree to a tour. What if he had not offered so much resistance since the 1980s for any kind of reunion? For years, Plant never wanted to reunite, with the only exception being a duet with Jimmy Page, but not John Paul Jones. They did eventually reunite for one show in celebration of the founder of Atlantic records. If there was to be any hope of reunion, it should have happened then. Plant finally relented eventually, but by that time, John Paul Jones was working on an opera at the time. I believe it is time to face the blues music that this is never going to happen.

3. The Songwriting and Musicianship of John Paul Jones Saved the Band... One of the things that a lot of fans may not realize how important John Paul Jones was to the overall success of the band. He played multiple instruments including bass guitar keyboards, mellotron, and many others. For this reason, the band never needed to hire any musicians to play on stage with them because Jones would switch to whatever instrument was needed at the time. He was also a top-notch composer and arranger of music. His signature is all over songs like “All My Love,” “Trampled Underfoot,” “Kashmir,” “In the Light,” “Fool in the Rain,” and many more. Beginning with Physical Graffiti in the albums that followed, Jones was able to substantially layer the band’s sound, which resonates with music lovers still today.

4. I Told You Black Magic... Jimmy Page in the 1970’s was a big fan of the occultist Alastair Crowley. This fandom even led him to buy Crowley‘s former house in 1972. Page thought it would be a cool place to possibly write some music and give him inspiration as well. He never really spent any time there. Page hired a gentleman to manage the house for him, which he did and eventually raised his family there. Although, the manager did report some very strange occurrences at the house, which was always rumored to be cursed by Crowley. The guitarist’s decision to even purchase the house is probably a really good illustration on why you should not use heroin.

5. Led Zeppelin Was Not Heavy Metal...An ongoing argument for a long time has always been whether or not Led Zeppelin invented heavy metal. I am here to tell you that they did not do so, but they heavily influenced it. Black Sabbath was the first heavy metal band, but for a long time they distanced themselves from that label. Led Zeppelin was more of a hard rock band or a hard rock blues band, who dabbled in other genres including folk and reggae. Not only was their music a bit softer in places, but the themes were much more positive when compared with heavy metal. Sabbath ushered in themes of darkness, evil, the devil, and for the most part riffs that were fast and loud always. Yet, in later years, the distinction between heavy metal, metal, and hard rock was blurred again and again making it difficult to understand the differences.

[mamaredd123]

Welcome to Mama’s 100 Quotes of Supernatural Challenge!!!

Wow! I am truly amazed at all of you wonderful people in Tumblr land. After 1 year on here I have 2000 followers!!!! (OK, so I know my blog is not a big ole bomb of excitement the majority of time but I am still tickled pink!)

So to celebrate my 1 year blog anniversary, I am going to do a 2-part thing. I put a poll out a few weeks ago to see what all of you would like and the 2 popular responses were a challenge and for me to do some more blog promo’s. You asked so shall you receive!!

I have searched and searched for some of the most memorable, funniest, best quotes from our beloved characters of Supernatural. Below the cut you will find the list. I have tried to include at least 1 quote from just about everyone (well, from a whole bunch of them anyways) but the majority of the quotes do belong to our sexy Dean, Sam, and Castiel! So keep on reading to see the list and the rules for this challenge!!

(And feel free to hop on over to my other part of this challenge, Mama’s “Spread The Love” Blog Promo’s and shoot me some suggestions!)

I have to give a HHUUUGGGEEEEE shout out to @atc74 for her help with my challenge image and for her assistance with some of these quotes!!!! Couldn’t have done this without you!

The rules are about as basic and easy as I can make them:

*This is a follower celebration so obviously, I would need you to be following me. However, if you have stumbled upon this challenge and would like to join, it is so super easy…. Just go click that follow button up there on the right!

*I need you to send me an Ask with your 1st and 2nd choice of quotes. It will be first come, first serve. BUT if by some holy miracle all 100 get taken, I am sure I can come up with some more to add to this list. AND you can chose up to 3 quotes if you would like to work ALL THREE into one story. (As a side note, if after a week I still have a ton of quotes not chosen, I will modify the challenge a little and allow you to send in your choice of quote/character)

*As for you fic, just keep it in the SPN fandom and make sure to highlight your quote(s) wherever you place it in the story. Just in case there is any confusion, the person you chose a quote from does NOT have to be the main character in your fic. For example, you may just really like a particular quote listed here from, say Balthazar, but you have a Dean x Reader fic in mind. That’s perfectly fine. Just make sure to have Balthazar in your story (with the quote) somewhere.

*This challenge is open to any and all ships and genres. I want y’all to write whatever inspires you when you see the quote of your choice.

*As usual, drabbles all the way to series are welcome. Just remember, anything over 500 words, add the KEEP READING line or, and I’m sorry, but I won’t reblog it. We all need to do our part not to overcrowd everyone’s dashboards.

*Deadline will be September 30th. I am giving everyone 2 months to do this. Beginning in Sept, I will occasionally start posting reminder posts to try to help everyone remember about their challenge deadline. I am well aware how we all take on a little too much sometimes and things get lost in the shuffle.

*When you get ready to post, make sure to tag me in your A/N and use the #mama’s100quoteschallenge in your tags. As usual, if I haven’t liked/reblogged within a day or two, please feel free to shoot me a message and let me know you posted it. I truly do try to go through all my notification everyday, but, well, you know, life gets in the way of all the fun things sometimes.

Ok, that’s it. Easy peasy, right? Well you made it this far with me so come a little further and read the quotes, pick your favorite, and send me your Ask! Most importantly, enjoy yourself and have fun writing your next masterpiece!!

1. I wanna punch something in the face. (Sam)   @destiel-addict-forever 2. Straight “Shawshank” this bitch!  (Dean)    @myloveforyouxx 3. I may be many things, but I’m not stupid. (Mr. Ketch)   @capsheadquaters 4. I gave everything for you! And this is what you give me?! (Cas) 5. I kinda always wanted to punch the devil in the face. (Mary)   @justanotherdeangirl 6. This is what you do when I'm not here. Type? (Crowley)  @percussiongirl2017 7. And after awhile... that starts to weigh on you. (Benny) 8. I am not someone that you should put your faith in. (Castiel) 9. I believe you're drawn to danger. (Mr. Ketch)    @uniquewerewolfsuit 10. Dude, don't compliment the bad guys. (Dean)   @docharleythegeekqueen 11. Things are not just black and white out here. (Dean) 12. I’m still gonna peel off your skin and eat your soul. (Lucifer) 13. It's your professionalism that I respect.  (Alastair) 14. We'll just tie up the bonny lad. Could be fun. (Rowena) 15. You idiots. You’re all going to die. (Crowley) 16. Things like “cosmic consequences” have a habit of biting us in the ass. (Dean)     @maximumkillshot 17. If I plan to do anything else stupid, I’ll let you know. (Castiel)   @skyedoes-things 18. I am doing all I can, to slightly lessen the spread of... of genital herpes. (Sam)   @samwinjarpad 19. Okay if you don't like, uh, reckless I could use insouciant maybe? (Cas)   @beccafgs 20. You've just been Garth-ed. (Garth)    @wayward-mirage 21. Weird, creepy, off-the-grid "Children of the Corn" people? Yeah, I’m in. (Dean)    @deanandsamsbitch 22. For me, having you here, it fills in the biggest blank. (Sam) @sea040561 23. I want to stop losing people we love (John) 24. Damn right, REO. Kevin Cronin sings from the heart! (Jo) 25. Yeah, and Hannibal Lecter's a good psychiatrist. (Ellen)     @maximumkillshot 26. Don’t make things needlessly complicated as you humans tend to do. (Castiel)    @sea040561 27. I’ve been tortured by the devil himself so you, you’re just an accent in a pantsuit. What can you do to me? (Sam) 28. I don't think you can handle my rod. (Crowley)   @roxy-davenport 29. You two have the most unhealthy, tangled-up, crazy thing I’ve ever seen. (Lisa) 30. Your unclean… in the biblical sense. (Billie) 31. I'm tired Sam. I'm tired of this job...this life. This weight on my shoulders. Man I'm tired of it. (Dean)     @deanandsamsbitch 32. I told you that roadhouse chili was a bad idea. (Sam) 33. You can't save everyone. (Rufus) 34. You're like a walking encyclopedia of weirdness. (Dean)    @skyedoes-things 35. I'm worried about my boys. (Bobby) 36. As long as everyone wears a condom we'll be fine. (Jody)     @queencflair 37. I don’t sweat under any circumstances. (Castiel)    @beccafgs 38. I suggest we imbibe copious quantities of alcohol... just wait for the inevitable blast wave. (Cas) 39. Get the hell out of hell. (Crowley) 40. I mean, clearly, I have a type, but no, thank you, ma'am. Won't be once bitten, twice Doug'd. (Donna)

41. We talking misdemeanor kind of trouble? Or, uh…’squeal like a pig’s kind of trouble? (Dean)   @maximumkillshot 42. Do you have any idea how much stuff I had to steal, then pawn, to pay for that? (Metatron) 43. Fatherhood changes a man. (Crowley)    @roxy-davenport 44. I lie. I don't get lied to. (Benny)    @docharleythegeekqueen 45. We’re far from perfect. But we are good. (Sam)   @impalaimagining 46. I'm not a witch. I'm a nerd. (Charlie)   @wi-deangirl77 47. Just when I thought I was out, they pull me back in. (Bobby) 48. Kick it in the ass. (Bobby) 49. Wanna try that again like you mean it? (Sam)    @atc74 50. Maybe one day. But today you're my little bitch. (Cas) 51. You got me here now.  (Benny) 52. You Winchester boys and your talk. Blah blah blah repressed feelings. Blah blah blah passive aggression. (Charlie) 53. Come on in darling, the water's warm. (Sam)   @impalaimagining 54. I’ll give you a pass on account of the whole ‘raised by monsters’ thing. (Jody) 55. Why not go get washed up for the orgy?... All is so beautiful. (Cas) 56. You mean 'protection against a demon' salt or 'oops I split the popcorn' salt? (Dean) 57. But for your own good I strongly suggest you get a life. (Chuck) 58. You can't take the trick out of the trickster. (Gabriel)   @wideawakeandwriting 59. Is there such thing as a monster magnet? (Charlie) 60. I lied. I do that. (Crowley)    @winsister91 61. Please, accept this sandwich as a gesture of solidarity. (Cas) 62. You realize I'm not asking. (Benny) 63. Your password is "winning" with two "1's"? Fail. (Charlie) 64. Everything is supposed to end. (Dean)   @captainemwinchester 65. I will not apologize for being a career woman. (Rowena) 66. So which one are you? Grumpy, Sleepy, or Douchy? (Sam) 67. It's just.. I just want this over. (John) 68. You look like you got attacked by some PCP crazed strippers. (Dean) 69. You know, you pitched this whole dewy-eyed bromance thing, but the truth is, I'm on lockdown, aren't I? (Adam) 70. You boys have serious abandonment issues, don't you? (Meg) 71. Where'd you get the holy oil? (Gabriel) 72. Yeah well, there's one thing you have that he didn't. You're a Winchester. I forgive you Dean. (Charlie) 73. You fudging touch me again, I'll fudging kill you! (Dean)  @captainemwinchester 74. I got your message. It was long your message. I find the sound of your voice grating. (Cas) 75. I should be asking you the same thing. (Ruby) 76. You don't know me. You never did, and you never will. (Sam) 77. Did someone slip a mickey in your power shake? (Gabriel) 78. No doubt - endings are hard. But then again... nothing ever really ends, does it? (Chuck)     @hannahindie 79. Sorry you have me confused with that other angel. You know the one in the dirty trench coat who is in love with you. (Balthazar)     @skyedoes-things 80. Shouldn't trust run both ways? (Castiel) 81. Unleash the Kraken. See you tomorrow morning. (Sam)   @4401lnc 82. I don't usually drink beer. It messes with my depth perception especially when I'm skinny dipping. (Garth) 83. No. Sweetheart, if this is our last night on earth, then I'm going to spend it with a little thing I call self-respect. (Jo) 84. I think you're a hero. (Rowena) 85. I can't live in the desert. I'm applying to Princeton. (Kevin) 86. This is my voicemail, make your voice … a mail. (Castiel)   @goofynerd-67babylove 87. You give a girl all sorts of nasty ideas. (Abaddon)   @lucilepiewhiskey 88. Was that your Batman voice? (Charlie) 89. Your life is one big poop storm isn't it? (Donna) 90. I guess because every woman I've ever had relations with... it hasn't ended well. (Sam)     @goldenolaf25 91. Dragons? Those are a thing? (Jody) 92. We’ll always be bound. You helped me. We will always help each other. (Amara) 93. Wait a second. Did he drunk dial you? (Sam)   @mrsbatesmotel53 94. I'm a man of my word. (Dean)   @deanwinchester-smut 95. I mean nothing ever really gets deleted from the Internet. (Sam) 96. This is a den of iniquity. I should not be here. (Castiel)   @thecuriouscrusader 97. Dude, she wants me to meet her parents. I don't do parents. (Dean) 98. Wow. I must be the star of this thing. (Sam)   @melbelle45 99. I’ve never seen so much porn. (Chuck)     @winsister91 100. Well, call it personal experience, but nobody gets that angry unless they're talkin' about their own family. (Dean)   @chaos-and-the-calm67

Tagging any and everyone I can think of cause I’m just so excited about reaching 2K!!!!

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