#the fandom back in 2020 sounded soo fun

[thsc-confessions]

"the hype for the game back in 2020 was so fun like damn man I miss that . People were making comic dub videos and stuff n it would get millions of views lmaoooo" submitted by anon

[whatiwillsay]

why do you think toe is real? i used to think it was a real relationship until folklore was released and i became a full on gaylor but now everything about toe seems soo fake to me 😩 especially after grammygate i feel like there’s no going back to being a toe truther. i’d like to believe that they’re real but i just don’t see it anymore

ok so let me preface this all by saying gossip is just that- gossip. just chatting for fun with friends who have the same nosy interests you have and i do that a lot here on the blog. nothing is for sure and everything is theoretical.

here’s my journey w joe and my beliefs about him

early days like june to august 2020 when i was still new: ok all the major bloggers in this space say hes gay and toe is definitely fake. who am i to question them they’ve been doing this longer than me? toe must be fake and anyway i’m too busy researching dianna, swiftgron, and haylor to really look into it all that much.

sept 2020 - like november 2020: taylor treats this guy differently than the most obvious fake guys like harry and taylor lautner… and bisexual women are more common statistically than lesbian women… i don’t know anything for sure but this dude doesn’t seem to be gay and it does seem like taylor follows him around everywhere… i’m not sure but it seems like he could be real although folklore makes it sound like taylor is single and miserable over a break up

november 2020-march 2021: long pond studio sessions happen i decide there’s no way taylor would lie about who deserves credit for her music. i settle on joe is real and he is wb. i’m at peace with this and pulling for them.

march 2021-july 2021: i hear super fun and interesting gossip from a verified source that taylor may have been seeing a woman that matches lily donaldson’s description after toe started. then grammygate happens. i reconsider everything. i still think joe is probably real but maybe they were open for a time and i entertain toe being fake a little more than i had been after long pond because hey if taylor will lie to get someone a grammy they didn’t earn what wouldn’t she lie about?

august 2021: i get reliable info that toe is real from a source i trust. grain of salt as always with any gossip but it’s enough for me. toe is real and i believe were open for a spell to allow for tily. it all adds up for toe being real anyway… she’s been with him for 5+ years and though she occasionally trots him out for press it’s not that often and she’s pretty private with him. it just works for me and i’m again at peace with my real toe world order.

i’m not saying any of this is a fact it’s just my personal beliefs and how i came to have them as i navigated this branch of the taylor swift fandom. i suspect we’ll get marriage and perhaps babies soon enough! the fun thing about this space is you do not have to agree with me to be welcome here. if you are skeptical about joe or more likely skeptical about tily or any of this that’s 100% fine with me (i think ab 90% of my readers think tily is crack lol) but you asked what my thoughts on it were so there they are!

[winged-fool]

RNM Create Week 2020 Day 7: Cheerleaders

For six days, creators have been reveling in all the love, so now it's the moment to give some of that love back. Tell us about those people who have helped you through your creative process, whether it's your beta or that particular person who's reblogged everything you've posted or commented on everything you've shared, or that person who's been holding your hand all the time while you worked hard on your creation. We want to know everything about them! We want to know those wonderful people who are helping you as a creator. You guys are an essential part of this fandom!

Sorry not sorry this is so long 💙

@exploring-in-space: Alix is my number one ride or die. She encourages me endlessly and in ways that I can never really articulate. Every time I come up with a crazy idea and bring it to her, she never judges me, she’s right there with me trying to figure out the best way to bring it to life. Not only that, but she’s an incredibly talented writer and I’m so lucky to have her as a sounding board. She deals with all my RNM rants and if you think I rant a lot on here just imagine all the garbage that she has to listen to first.

My Salt Squad: @insidious-intent @caitlesshea @themoonwhenimlost the best salt people I could ever ask for. Every time I come to them with a salty take they all validate me and don't make me feel like a horrible person hahaha you all are some of my favorite people in this fandom!

Finer Things Club: @el-gilliath @christchex @nielrian who distracted me and cheered me up when RNM was breaking my heart. A special shout out to Tove who held my hand through almost every episode and constantly encourages me! We’re co-writing our Big Bang and even though I’m the slowest writer ever, she is so understanding and patient 💙💙

@female-overlord-3: an absolute sweetheart 💙 I look forward to your comments on my fics and always enjoy every post you send my way

@bamfalexmanes : my favorite tormentor hahaha Gabrielle is constantly picking on me and it's just so fun. You'll never get me to love forlex! 😂 And of course my pic crew pal 💙

@usbournejez: you are always so kind to me, you believe in my writing in a way I don't think I deserve haha but it means so much to me because I love your writing so much 💙

@hmd023: this isn’t just a shout out for being an amazing person to me but to everyone in this fandom! I’m always seeing you in people’s ask boxes complimenting their writing or sending prompts and it’s so wonderfully refreshing to have all your positivity in this fandom. And I always remember you as my International Relations bud 🤣

@grampire: we haven’t been mutuals for long but I am soo glad that we are! You have been such an awesome cheerleader for me and so supportive of my dark fics. Dark fics can be a little niche which I totally recognize so it’s always so awesome when I find other people who love them as much as me 💙

@captainsorryimabadass: same as above! you’ve been such an incredible supporter of my dark fics and it makes me so happy! Plus we’re both hannigram trash and that automatically makes you one of my favorite people :D

@habibinasir: We don’t talk that often, but when we do, we have some of the funniest conversations. I feel like you really get my stupid sense of humor which is an automatic plus in my book! Plus we commiserated with each other every week when RNM Season 2 was airing and had a lot of the same what the fuck thoughts hahaha

@queersirius: you make some of my favorite gifs in this fandom and I absolutely love seeing them! They’ve inspired me to write little blurbs that eventually become longer fics! And you’re so generous with your time to create such an incredibly comprehensive list of recs that I’ve been lucky enough to be featured on. You’re such a positive person in this fandom, I absolutely love seeing you on my dash.

To the amazing authors in this fandom that still take the time to read my stuff, you all are so amazing because I know you’re busy with your own stuff but you’re still so generous with your time: @aewriting @prouvaireafterdark @spaceskam @chamblerstara/@manesalex @lambourngb @ninswhimsy

And of course my treasured mutuals: @lovecolibri @sungbeen @draculaspetbee @fairymonk @imrollingmyeyes @i-had-a-marvelous-time @ravens-world @fiona-glenanne-westen @bisexualalienss

I know I’m missing others and I’m sorry if I did forget you, it’s not personal I’m just a mess who is always forgetting things! I could say something about every single one of my mutuals and followers. You all are so great. Every time you like or reblog my nonsense, every ask and message I receive, I consider us friends. I know this fandom can be a little negative sometimes but I’m honestly so grateful for all the wonderful people in my little space. You all are the best 💙💙💙

[sweetjekyll]

Writerly contemplation tag!

tagged by the lovely @j-pping; thank you for the tag!

this might end up being long so I’ll add a read more cut ☺️

2020

what was the most challenging part of writing this year?

I guess the most challenging part of writing this year was tuning out the real world. I’ve always used reading and writing as a form of coping and escapism from all the things that were troubling me. Unfortunately there were times when simply reading and writing weren’t helping me and I took so many breaks, postponed so many WIPs I was excited about... I ended up beating myself down for not being able to keep up with an expectation I had for myself and my writing. Considering 2020 was hell for everyone, I came to terms with myself that it cannot be always my fault, I can’t blame myself for not being able to do things I set my mind to do, sometimes there are obstacles that take time for you to cross.

I’m just going to quickly mention stressful anons and hopefully get a point across for all fan fictions writers. WE ARE NOT ROBOTS. WE ARE HUMAN. All of us write for many personal reasons, mine are that I just love writing things which I wish to read! Simple as that. What I wish for some rude people to understand is that the least you could do for us creators is be thankful and be kind to us, give feedback and constructive criticism, share our work. I don’t understand why you are scared of the reblog button. When I go through my notes and take a look at some blogs, they are empty. No one is paying us to contribute creatively to the fandom, you are enjoying our content for free while we put hard work and our free time into it, so why should we “hurry up”, “update faster” and “write more/this/that”? Please, remember that we are people too, and the toxicity some people spread on anonymous asks is just incredibly baffling and hurtful to me. If you, as a reader, believe that my request is nonsense and my words are too harsh, then perhaps you should reconsider how you’re viewing content creators before disagreeing without a valid reason.

what was the most enjoyable/rewarding part of writing this year?

The happiness that came from writing something which I enjoyed reading as well! I have been a writer for years on another platform until I had to take a long hiatus because of writer’s block and depression. For how cheesy this may sound, the most enjoyable and rewarding part of writing is in fact writing something that makes me happy even if I’m torturing my characters and traumatizing them. There is truly no point for me to write things that I don’t feel I am enjoying. As I have said other times before on the blog, I would much rather post something that makes me happy, than post something just to get notes from silent readers.

what piece has left the most impact on you and why?

Given the fact that I have not written a lot because of my constant mental health breaks (yes 2020 had me on rollercoaster mental breakdowns more often than usual), I have to say that Damaged is what really kept me entertained with myself and perhaps sane. It has been way too long since I’ve taken on something so creative as building an entire universe from just a dream, but it’s what reminded me why I love writing so much, it reignited my passion. With this story I really wanted to challenge myself to write something unique, something I’ve never done before with any other work... And I admit it’s quite difficult; the easiest part was taking inspiration from EXO’s lore, but the hardest was incorporating it in a universe and storyline completely different to the original concept. It’s something I’m set on finishing as a complete multi-chapter story no matter how long it takes.

what have you learned about yourself through the process of writing in the past year?

To be completely honest, I learned that I can push myself out of my comfort zone when writing, because every piece is a fictional world of its own, every character can be more than a copy and paste personality. What do I truly learn about myself if I don’t explore things I have not thought about before? I learned that I should not be afraid to write of things that I don’t know or fully understand, specifically about things that I didn’t post but tried for just for fun. It is a good way of finding out whether a certain subjects interests me or doesn’t. I love doing lots of research and gather information for the stories I’m writing, you get to learn about stuff you usually would never think about.

how has your writing changed in the past year? how have you grown?

Well, I don’t really have anything to compare my writing to except my older fan fictions for movies and tv shows. I guess I have changed quite a lot since 2018; my writing style has become more fluid, at least I think it has. I’m also able to write longer chapters without feeling as if I am dragging it out for the sake of the word count, yet now I have to literally stop myself from just writing too much! It pleases me, to be honest. I remember struggling to sometimes put ideas into words and balance narrative, dialogue and descriptions.

2021

ignoring your wips for a second, if you had all the time and energy in the world to write your magnum opus piece, what would it be about? why is that the dream story you’d write, all other things controlled for?

This can go back to Damaged, honestly! It’s something that I haven’t finished writing and it will be a long story. It’s the fan fiction which has gotten me out of a 2-year-long writer’s block with such strength, I feel truly attached to it. As I mentioned in one of my first answers for 2020, this is the WIP I want to focus on the most and be proud of it.

how do you want to grow in your writing this year?

I mentioned this is my first 2021 post after I took a short break, but one of my resolutions for this year is to work on self acceptance when it comes to my projects. (I’ll copy and paste what I wrote there so I don’t repeat myself with other words) One of my resolutions for 2021 is to write more, to not be afraid of beginning something and even if I end up setting the story aside, at least I will have gotten it out on (digital) paper. I punish myself way too much when I’m not able to finish something, and that is truly one of the worst things a content creators can go through, in my opinion. I have many drafted works that may or may never be published and I wish to appreciate them more instead of dwelling on the fact of what they could have been.

what’s one thing you’d wish to see in the fan-writing community this year?

I wish for more love and recognition of the amazing and talented writers that share their content with everyone on tumblr. We are a community, or at least we are supposed to be. I would absolutely love to see more readers actively interacting with writers, share ideas, share art inspired by what you read! As readers, you can contribute as well by sharing moodboards, song recommendations and/or playlists! You are more than welcome to join us in the community as writers too! 

As for myself, I have mentioned this towards last year but I still want to compile a list of all the writers I am currently following and read their works. I haven’t been in a good mindset to do that for a long time and I wish to get to know them. I’m a pretty shy person who struggles to start up a conversation, so I hope I get to make some friends on tumblr this year!

name one new thing you want to try doing in your writing this year.

I would like to make a list of aus and experiment with them for either one shots or some short series! I have so many creative ideas and thoughts but I always forget to take a note or maybe I’m doing something else and I end up getting caught up in a stream of consciousness, until I lose the initial spark. Also mentioned plenty of times, I would love to write for other groups, like nct, but for now I’ll focus on exo.

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anyway, that was it for my writerly contemplation tag!

I’m tagging a few fellow writers, but feel free to ignore for any reason! sorry if I forgot someone but feel free to do this even if I didn’t tag you!! @pororodks @velvetsehun @yeoldontknow @yeagerluvr @soos-goddess @shaalk @mooneylooney1 @dewbebe

[lesbianjamies]

I guess 2019 was just a rough year for them and therefore for us as well. The whole mina hiatus thing took us by surprise, we didn't know what it meant for her or the group, we were kept in the dark for all of her recovery. Before going on hiatus she would cover her face at airports and at least one of the girls would always hold her hand, plus her knee thing and the things antis were saying about her being a lazy dancer when girl had had an injury for years. Plus the whole sana thing which really ruined the fun of the fancy comeback (lots of xenophobic comments and stuff). Jihyo also had a thing cause she answered back to some hate comments and people took it as her being a rude which led to her writing a letter and saying she was having a hard time and was dealing with feelings of anxiety, depression, fear of being in public, etc. and was even taking medication.

So yeah i think that in 2019 onces were more focused on other things :/ also, on january 1st 2020 it was revealed that momo is in a relationship with another artist but there had already been rumors before that. Maybe that has something to do with it? Idk hehe the girls also stopped living all together and live in 3s now so maybe that's why there's no random dahmo lives. (Sana, momo and nayeon live together; dahyun, tzuyu and chaeyoung; and jihyo, mina and apparently jeongyeon [doubtful, i think she lives with her sister] live together).

If u see momo's new vlog, you can see she has a multicolored bear on her bed. Dahyun bought her that bear in singapore (twice tv 6), so there's a dahmo crumb for you!!

- 🦕 (this was lengthy, i apologise)

oh no i think i should be the one to apologize bec you’re the one who has to type this all out bec of my question, that said, i really appreciate you telling me all this. there’s still soo soo much i dont know and it seems like the more i know the wilder it gets. and huh sounds like they really did have a rough 2019..... cant imagine being in the fandom back then and absorbing all that info. and yeah i heard abt momo dating someone. hope she’s happy and all

also i really love the idea of the school meal club living together! ahh they’re so cute and i love seeing videos of all three of them doing whatever lol

yep i saw that! i’ll take the dahmo crumbs lol also idk the fandom figured out who her secret santa is? but i hope its dahyun 🤣 tho i think a lot of the girls love chocolate but the first one that comes to mind is dahyun? so hey we’ll see