#the fact that im discussing this kind of stuff at all already makes me so uncomfortable x_x

[inchidentally]

unfortunately i feel like the whole “heart-eyes piastri” thing’s been … rampant enough for it to have Reached him (or reach him eventually) and im just curious if you think it’s something that he would step away from (or if he even could ?? since it genuinely seems so involuntary to me personally) once he’s like. exposed.

going on a tangent now but i wonder if the drivers had a part to play in mclaren moving away from their long-from content ? or if it’s like. just something their team Decided

this is a good place to just quickly reiterate this since Lando and Oscar are so much more relaxed and have clearly gone to a new stage in their friendship:

FANS SHOULD NEVER EVER BRING UP RPF OR SHIP RELATED STUFF TO LANDO OR OSCAR ABOUT EACH OTHER. ALSO DO NOT ASK MEDIA OR THE TEAMS TO BRING IT UP TO THEM. IT WILL END VERY BADLY AND UNCOMFORTABLY AND POSSIBLY MAKE THEM WITHDRAW EVEN MORE FROM FANS. THEY DO NOT DO BROMANCEY STUFF AND ARE FAIRLY PRIVATE WITH THEIR DOWNTIME TOGETHER. PLEASE KEEP LANDOSCAR RPF IN FANDOM ONLY*

anyway I fully get what you mean anon and it's part of why I've always wanted to keep the types of 'rpf is real' and 'if it weren't for those pesky gfs these men would be together' ppl awayyyy from landoscar bc Lando and Oscar are not knowingly playing into any PR bromance or engagement with fans - so it's hard when we get this great content bc it's so sweet and there is a genuine fondness and gentleness to them that is so !!! but there also isn't the same kind of like agreement that the bromance guys all have with fans. the group padel pic in Monaco is a great example bc it was well coordinated, a joint instagram effort, all those guys play up the bromance stuff for fans with various drivers - so while it's fully legit friendships and guys bein dudes, it's also expected that fans will freak out and therefore has a side benefit of being great publicity. that's the norm for most drivers tbh!

whereas yea things like Lando and Oscar simply looking at each other in sweet ways and giggling at things we either aren't allowed into or jokes that are only funny to the two of them, and spending downtime together playing padel just the two of them or with another set of drivers or hanging out in hotel rooms or chilling casually at the palace in Bahrain - but not posting about it is a very clear message of while they don't mind that fans know about their time together (there's no crazy secrecy) or that we comment on their dynamic, they have also chosen to not cultivate that PR relationship with us beyond what McLaren and sponsors require. again, not in some crazy secret thing! Oscar isn't crazy secretive about Lily or his family, but he also doesn't encourage or engage with fandom about them beyond very surface mentions.

which is more than fair and there's another anon I'm gonna reply to about how I've always suspected this was a choice of some kind between Lando and Oscar based on strengthening their relationship as teammates as well as friends - even if it wasn't necessarily a spoken agreement.

ANYWAY back to your point about the hearteyes, I will at least say that this has been talked about by fans in public spaces pretty much since the start of his time at McLaren and definitely since the finish the lyrics video. so I'm sure he's already seen it and would've altered his behavior by now if it really bothered him that fans comment on it!

but I definitely agree that in general fandom needs to observe the very obvious boundaries of Oscar being a quiet, private guy who doesn't even like discussing his relationship with his girlfriend in super emotionally revealing terms let alone have fans or the media poke and prod him about the fact that he looks at Lando a certain way. tho I do think he'd wisely sidestep somehow and bring up Carlos or Daniel again. and I absolutely think based on his social media history he's very consciously rerouting fan attention when he does that. esp the fact that he chose to interact more with Lando's merch company when he was a fan and not a fellow driver in the same formula, it's similar to how they talk to fans about landoscar and carlando etc which is kind of a filtration system so that Lando's mentions don't take the brunt of fandom. but that's even more of a reason to respect Oscar's space and not put him in those awkward positions either.

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*and honestly even with guys who are fine with it and encourage it, it's still not advisable bc this sport exists in extremely conservative spaces and these men will only want the gay jokes and bromance bits to go so far.

[sunnysidesevenup]

OKAY TILLY AND FOXGLOVE RAMBLING TIME since he’s invaded my brain again. Warning for 18+ topics (in a clinical character analysis kind of way rather than a sexy way but still minors dni lol) <3

IM KIND OF EMBARASSED TO ADMIT HOW MUCH IVE THOUGHT ABOUT FOXGLOVE’S SEX LIFE BUT AKAHNSJSJJS I may be ace but that just means I get to clinically analyze this important part of their relationship lmao. Just, it’s an important part of Tilly’s character so like, sorry for the ramble but I gotta.

ANYWAYS!! Tilly struggling with hypersexuality due to trauma is very important to me. Tilly having to learn how to set boundaries for himself is ALSO very important to me. He has had the concept of personal boundaries shattered into nonexistence a very long time ago, and the ONLY thing he’s still managed to maintain and insist upon is that his choker stays on. And even that is actively ignored and violated most of the time, to the point that he considers just giving up on that, too. What’s the point when much worse things have already happened? It’s just some petty preference, it would be easy to give up—what’s another crack in a long shattered mirror? And yet he still tries viciously to hold onto this final piece of personal agency, despite how futile he feels like it is. And it’s all these feelings he has when he meets Fellow.

In regards to foxglove, they’re kind of weird as in they’ve basically skipped a ton of relationship steps without even being in one, so when they DO finally confess there’s basically no “getting to know each other” stage because they literally already live together and know each other a little too much, so adding intimacy is not so weird (they’ve already been individually thinking about it, so). But this of course comes with its own host of problems, especially in regards to Tilly. Fellow doesn’t immediately notice anything is wrong, until it suddenly occurs to him that Tilly has… well, zero boundaries. Not as in he ignores Fellow’s, he’s actually VERY attentive to what he likes/dislikes and is always checking in, but in the sense that Tilly never ever says no to anything or asks for anything or even expresses an OPINION on anything.

Which is obviously concerning!!! Especially when he still does the thing where his eyes glaze over and he looks far away but continues to insist nothing is wrong!! And Fellow is a good partner, of course (despite never really being in a relationship as emotionally invested as the one he has with Tilly before), so he of course asks and tries to get him to just… communicate at all. Which just makes Tilly double down and say he’s fine with anything, he doesn’t dislike anything, they can do whatever Fellow wants to do.

So, Fellow is still himself of course, and the failure to communicate just ends with him being like okay. I won’t touch you till you give me some sort of preference or boundary. Just one.

Which Tilly of course scoffs at. There’s no way he’s going to uphold that, right? Right?

And then he does. Which is a feat in and of itself because Tilly is REALLY hard to ignore, especially when he’s ACTIVELY trying to get Fellow to give in. But he holds strong and Tilly slowly goes insane until he’s like okay, fine. If his stupid boyfriend wants to be like that then he’ll just lie and set some silly boundaries or something! Problem solved! It’s not like the guy is serious, he’s not going to stick to them.

And then!! He does!!! No matter what silly preference Tilly comes up with it’s respected. So he starts thinking, well, I guess I can be a little truthful. I guess I can start thinking about what I actually like and want. And then those things are respected too. And he would’ve been happy no matter what Fellow did because he’s so in love with him, but the fact that he doesn’t break his word… Well, he’s a bit overwhelmed.

Some more dynamic stuff because I’m already embarrassed to write this so might as well just discuss it all at once lol?

They are the most switches of switches lol, INCLUDING with sub/dom dynamics because if you don’t think these two aren’t at least a little bit freaky then you are wrong.

Tilly is more comfortable in a dom role but that’s entirely due to trauma and not like, an actual preference. He can easily pretend to play a sub role, but he never actually lets himself get into that mindset because being vulnerable like that is an absolute NO. But with Fellow, who he trusts and loves to a ridiculous extent, he actually at some point lets himself actually get into that mindset. And then accidentally falls so far into subspace that he freaks Fellow the fuck out because he’s NEVER seen Tilly act like that and they have to stop the session and then Tilly starts crying and it’s a whole mess. (And it just freaks Fellow out more because he’s never seen Tilly cry!! Or ask what he did wrong!! So he gets him some hot chocolate and a water and reassures him and they just cuddle and go to sleep and they’ll try again some other time. And definitely set some more precautions in place.)

It sucks that it’s more taboo to discuss their dynamic like this because it IS an important part of their characters and relationships 😭 I’ll probably be too embarrassed to ever talk about any of this stuff ever again so to those who are interested in it, congrats on even getting this amount of nonsense.

[yuukei-yikes]

(going through your harutaka tag) your latest comic paired with the arcade one from a while ago is making me feel normal about how takane and haruka view each others struggles post str.... ohhh they love each other so much but takane having a hard time seeing harukas disabilities for what they are because theyre different than what they once were and hes managing to cope to some degree (and also because haruka has historically been able to mask his own suffering right up to the point that its killing him and driving him to his breaking point as not to be a burden), and haruka wanting takane to be able to depend on him and be kinder to herself (with takane being unable to rather than unwilling to, and haruka struggling to push the point in a way that doesn't seem overly passive or accidentally dismissive of takanes very real struggles with feeling like a human person again) is so.... they're so everything to me... the scrimblebinks....

yeah i realized it was sort of a follow up or like adjacent to that arcade comic!! i'm glad u remembered it hehe harutaka makes me so crazy. ur exactly right. makes me so giddy and excited when people Get it because im like man if kagepro is "dead" then why do people get what i'm putting down SO WELL!!!!!!!!!!!

takane is so driven by emotion and like u said, haruka's so used to masking them, so it's ironic they clash when takane becomes avoidant and haruka becomes transparent. the thing with takane is that she is so used to being alone from her time as ene, and from highschool she's used to be the one fuzzing over haruka, she has a hard time grasping having someone be after her for once.

i wrote in this other post how i think haruka takes his whole thing, but basically, he's doing pretty okay for himself? obviously he still struggles, but i think he approaches it with a different feeling, given he's so thankful to get another chance/he wants to live right to konoha. and before this happened, he was already disabled. so even though he's accommodating to new things, he's already sort of familiar to the process, while takane's going through the realization she can't do a lot of things she used to take for granted. for haruka, having someone so close by who really truly understands what it's like, means a LOT. they've always been like that. in highschool haruka and takane barely even knew details of each others' illnesses, because they'd talk so little about them. takane says "it's some sort of heart disease. apparently it's serious" and haruka says "she has some kind of sleeping disorder, i guess it's serious enough to get her reassigned here with me" both mentioning they haven't asked each other for details. they're so used to that being the only thing people see about them, so meeting someone who Gets it and sees you past that, was really important for them both. so post str, for takane to dismiss him and say he doesn't "get it" because he's not "worse off than before" really stings!

but the truth still stands, if takane keeps just running away from it, and her body is left without doing her exercises, her meals and etc, then it's really a problem, because it'll make things even More difficult. and takane hates to know haruka's right. she doesn't want to lose her body again. haruka's right, takane needs to get it together and just stop running away. but takane's also right, it's pretty difficult to do that. and they both understand what the other's saying perfectly.

if you think about it, haruka and takane have a really funny thing in common, and it's the fact they both tend to blurt out whatever they're thinking. so i think this would help them talk things through pretty fast (though it also makes takane get defensive and say all that stuff, which is what usually starts the arguments, but she realizes instantly when the usually mild mannered haruka makes a face)

anyways discussing haruka and takane arguing made me remember i made this ship chart like 3 months ago. it's messy it wasn't made to meet ur eyes but now it's gonna so it's under the cut.

[seoftbear]

TW

discussing the taeil situation

As I’m sure many of you have seen that Taeil was removed/left NCT due to Sexual Offense Allegations.

“On August 29, the Seoul Bangbae Police Station revealed that the police booked Taeil after a report was filed in June for alleged sexual offense.

According to the police, Taeil is being investigated after being reported by legal adult woman “A.”

source

First off I’d like to say that obviously Im absolutely disgusted with Taeil and this entire thing makes me feel sick. I know they won’t see this but my thoughts are with those effected by this and I’m glad she had the courage to speak out and I hope she gets the support and justice that she wants during this time.

Now I’d like to talk about what has been weighing on me personally about this situation? I tend to stay off of twitter but I’ve seen a lot of links and post being circulated in the last 24 hours about this and it’s been really killing me.

As of now the police have booked Taeil back in June and he is being investigated by police for sexual offense, currently that’s all of the information that’s been confirmed by authorities. (I linked the article above and that has a link to the Naver article too.)

I’m sure some of you guys may be younger and haven’t truly grasped the full gravity of this, but misinformation can really damage cases like this especially as a woman.

Unfortunately the internet spread fake news fast and screenshots and stories have been circulating on twt/tiktok social media in general being translated and mistranslated from numerous different languages and people are just adding to the narrative for the drama it seems like… (please understand that even if something is in a different language and “translated” it does not make it facts.) I’ve seen others ask people where the source was for the information they got and then get called “Taeil defenders” when they just wanted to know where the information came from in the first place. I also read comments where people were saying that it didn’t matter if it was misinformation?

This is someone’s life we are talking about and seeing people say “they can’t wait for certain youtube channels to make videos about this because they need all of the details” or “they’ve been searching for more information all day and have come up with etc etc.” is really disheartening to see it be made into a spectacle. There’s only been one statement from the police as I’m aware of and in under 24 hours twt has finalized and circulated a story that has no source.

Unfortunately this stuff will happen because it’s the internet regardless and people are curious and in shock so wanting details on something is understandable but please understand that this is someone’s life not just backlash and justice against Taeil.

Speaking out isn’t easy and speaking out against a celebrity under big company? I can’t imagine, so please please please think about what you are posting and reposting. It’s not you supporting the victim, it’s just spreading gossip, theories/speculations, and can really tamper with the case guys. This is already a traumatizing experience and now it’s public and people are prying to know details about something so horrible and invasive??? At the end of the day if no statements are released about details or information and you are upset please take a step back and really think what for.

With this Ive seen a lot of people talk about parasocial relationships, how you don’t know these men, all men are men at the end of the day, don’t trust your favs etc etc. Though I definitely agree with you don’t know the people you like at the end of the day, I think that everyone knows that to some extent. However I don’t think parasocial relationship or not knowing someone is to blame when this kind of stuff happens, rather it’s normal to believe that someone you admire/like is cool person especially if portrayed that way. The thing about abusers/assaulters is that they can be anyone, that’s not to say that you shouldn’t trust anyone and that all people/idols are secretly awful but it’s more about that it’s not anyone’s fault for believing that they were a good person. So if anyone is going through that “ I can’t believe I liked someone like that” feeling that’s okay. It’s not your fault and you’re allowed to work through them.

that’s all

sorry if this is too long and makes no sense or comes off wrong or disrespectful please let me know kindly

[evilgothmisandrist]

“menopause at 16”

This is a very personal post, please be nice. Also sorry if there is anything grammatically wrong, I was crying while writing.

So, since I was little whenever I wanted to get out of a situation, like going to school (because of anxiety or wtv) I faked having stomach aches, most of the times it actually hurt. In primary school I went to a doctor that told me the anxiety gave me actual stomach aches. At 13 I had really bad depression, from then on I didn’t go to school at least twice a week. I told my mom it was bc of my stomach, so she took me to the doctor, and they actually saw something. I’ve always been the fat kid, I went through an eating disorder during my depression.

Turns out that most of my “belly” wasn’t fat, it was a cyst. I had a really big cyst. It was in one of my ovaries, and they had to remove it. (This was when I was 14) I went through a lot of medical procedures and tests and everything. They had to put me an epidural and a lot of anesthesia. They removed the cyst and the ovary, i have a really long vertical scar in my belly now. I spent some time in the hospital, when I came home, since I was through a “I hate my parents” (I still don’t like my father, but I do love my mom) phase I screamed at them and we “fought”, which was very bad for my not completely healed wound. When I first saw myself without the thing that protected my wound, I was really really happy because I had a “perfect flat stomach”, but whatever, I don’t have that eating disorder anymore, I in fact have gained weight.

Well, since I only have one ovary left, my doctor/surgeon told me that she and other doctors had a meeting were they discussed my case, and they decided I had to freeze my ove in case I wanted them in the future, because having one ovary would make it a little difficult for me to have children (this was after I turned 15). I have never wanted children, I always knew that, I didn’t want to do that freezing ove because I knew I wouldn’t want them in the future, in fact I don’t even want to have a partner in the future. But the decision wasn’t mine, I’m a minor and the doctors decided it already. I went through that too, it was something fast and I thought everything was over (except for the check ups of course).

I was wrong.

In one of my recent check ups the doctors noticed something really really small that they didn’t know what it was, but we waited until the next check up to see if it would grow. (this was like november-december 2024) It barely did, it wasn’t even 1cm diameter. My surgeon told me they knew it was another cyst (or maybe a small piece they couldn’t remove in my surgery that time), but it was so tiny they couldn’t remove it, so now I had to be on constant check ups to see if it didn’t grow more. (Since it seemed like it wasn’t growing, im just being checked up constantly to see if it grows) She told me that she didn’t want to try removing it now (or ever if it doesn’t grow) because maybe they would have to remove my other ovary, which they didn’t want to of course, because this would cause me the menopause. I would have the menopause in my teenage years.

(which could happen if it grows more)

She got emotional because she was going through something similar (actually worse), she had something in her brain but she preferred not removing it because it was dangerous so she decided to be under constant observation. At that moment i wasn’t really paying attention to her, yes it was really sad, but I was thinking about how I just wanted all of this to end. I mean, I wanted the tests and things to stop. I actually liked not going to school because I had to go to the hospital and stuff, but it’s tiring too.

I wanted to tell her that I didn’t feel the same as her, I didn’t care about having my ovary removed and going through menopause and taking hormones, I guess I just didn’t care or just… i don’t know.

I kind of forgot about it, I mean, I didn’t care because I got used to this things.

(16 now)

I only started feeling sad about all of this “probable menopause and fucked up uterus” since I had a weird interaction with my brother and mother some days ago.

I was in the kitchen eating with my brother while my mom was doing the dishes, and we were talking/joking about when we grow up, she said she wanted grandchildren. I thought about making a joke about how her bloodline would end w us bc I don’t want to have kids, so before making the joke, I asked him if he wanted to have children when he is an adult (he is younger than me, 12, I know he obviously doesn’t know about his future but it was just for the joke) and I said I obviously didn’t and that I was sure.

He looked at me with the most serious expression, and said “Of course you don’t, because you can’t.” (referring to my current medical situation) with a very serious tone and it was so obvious he wanted to hurt me.

I don’t remember my reaction, i certainly didn’t say anything bad back to him, I do remember that I wanted to cry right there and then. I felt my heart crushing. I then stood up and left everything there and went to my room.

I cried a little then, but since that happened, I cry every time I remember about all of this. I literally am crying right now like a lot.

[pixiecaps]

i hope you're already asleep it's so late for you but on the topic of the finale ending honestly i understand why people are so upset by it, i think it royally sucks, but imo it was created entirely because they really needed some way to wrap things up and i think almost everyone would agree that it shouldn't have and wouldn't have ended that way had things been different and had the server not needed to end so abruptly.

like idk you KNOW i'm a canon compliant guy but for this thing specifically i genuinely don't consider it canon and think it should fully be ignored, and i think basically everyone involved would be fine with that. also honestly in my mind everything purgatory and after is non-canonical in that it shouldn't have happened either and the reset is definitely not canon so that makes it easier for me to ignore it completely. i think what players and admins stated about their characters is canonical within reason and otherwise i don't think any of it matters all that much because of how the server ended. like to me i know the reality is that that is how it ended and we don't have any other ending to go off of but because of the circumstances there's just no way i could consider it canon and i already spend all my time dreaming up ways to rewrite all the shit that happened before then, nevermind a garbage hastily written ending that only wrapped up one plot thread (the eggs) and didn't even do that correctly (it completely retconned so much about the eggs and i know a lot of lore got retconned and changed over time but it's particularly agregious).

idk where i'm going with this insane rant in your inbox i really don't i just wanted to give my thoughts on that ending and how i take it as a fandom creator because i often see people treating it like it was a legitimate ending even though they hated it and i'm like this is fandom!!! we can ignore it entirely!!! in fact many characters' endings explicitly defy that ending, that was just the way to wrap up the idea of the egg event in some way that made sense. i totally get people being upset by it, i was too, but i was also upset by the previous. five months? of stuff so i kind of can't be bothered to be annoyed by this particular thing.

again this is nonsensical i'm just saying i think we should all ignore it and i've been saying that since the day of bc it was just so obviously not the kind of ending that would've been written under different circumstances. let's all make up better endings forever and ever amen.

anyway hi pix if you're reading this in the morning i hope you got beautiful sleep and dreamt of snoopy and roier all night

hiii 🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶 i was in fact asleep by the time you sent this:3

that was another point i discussed with someone els where yeah it sucked because they had to wrap it up and “tie everything together” so i agree on that. everything with the qsmp ending wouldve been different under different circumstances.

you’re incredibly real for not considering canon up to a certain point where everything got messy. i think since we’re both very canon compliant people you can understand where im coming from with that frustration and being irked by how everything played out. it was going so well and then 📉📉📉. and heres the thing you know how much i love purgatory okay cause i do but god its truly one of those events where it shouldve been explicitly uncanon i feeeeel. so much of the lore it introduced and everything clashed with everything we had already established and not informing the creators of anything was such a poor choice. but anyways you already know the whole rant.

i do appreciate the reminder of its fandom who cares. i live by that i just get Even More emotional when sleep deprived and was like wow fuck everything and this stupid fucking ending so thats why i made those posts kkkkkkkk. but ye GOOD REMINDERS ITS FANDOM ENDINGS ARE OPEN TO REWRITES AND OUR OWN INTERPRETATIONS!!!!!!!

i did get beautiful sleep ty bell<3333 i hope you got beautiful sleep as well<3333

[aardvaark]

the librarians "and the christmas thief" (s4e3) watch through:

patron saint of thieves (ie st nick... ie santa), leverage deja vu!

this has some kath & kim vibes - not sure if that’s intentional from the US writers but i hope it is. you might know kath & kim from this meme:

"did you just say - mum?" maybe they’re already working out what he means, but surely for like one second cassandra was thinking "what did you just call me?!?"

okay woah too many hilarious things just happened at once -

this exchange (plus them all running around the table lmaooo):

ezekiel: "they're my family, i'll sort it out, please!" cassandra: "i thought WE were your family!" ezekiel: "you’re a different sort of family. i like you guys!"

^ but re: the above, i love the fact cassandra's offended that he has another family... you know, the family he grew up with. which does make sense from her pov because both cassie & jacob very much have difficult relationships with their own relatives & the library is like their "main" family. she seems to have assumed it was the same way for ezekiel (after all, he's clearly not talked much about his mum & sisters). so she feels confused & a little betrayed even though all he's done is like. have a mother. lol. very much not his fault but i get why she's a bit upset

also love cassandra's incredibly convincing lie to eve, "i found it. the bottle opener. was in the bottle opener drawer. with the other bottle openers".

baird saying "bye, kids" LMAOOO.

ezekiel kissing cassandra on the lips (to which she looks grossed out lol) & about to do the same to jacob before getting pushed away

-AND lastly, ezekiel saying his mum lives just outside sydney & cassandra goes "that explains the accent". did you think he was just talking like that for fun

CASSIES HAIR

jacob knowing about thankstaking day for some reason??

cassandra giving ezekiel's mum a disturbed stare while she discusses stealing christmas presents, but also introducing herself politely & hugging her lol.

plot of the grinch

thank god for cassie. the one who noticed the globe was missing, now the one noticing the globe is on fire

thief worldbuilding. i feel like a lot of this is like the stuff they would've joked about behind the scenes in leverage ("crime world") but couldn't really add to a show that is mostly grounded in real life stuff. also i remember a society of thieves or something being mentioned much earlier on in this show, when representatives from the library and dragons and the fae etc all met up that one time. for some reason thieves are included in magical society lol.

wait if they frame that guy for stealing here, won't he get liquidated?? hope that blew over

its cool that we've seen the same show runners pick two very different sets of laser-avoidance styles for their thief characters lol. parker (leverage) doing the gymnastics type vs ezekiel basically dancing. both chosen to fit the characters im assuming (or in parkers case, to fit what she would have been trained by archie to do - a very classic thief style, according to tv at least lol).

LOL "ezekiel jones? THE ezekiel jones?" exactly like "parker? THE parker?"

well thats why thieves are in magical society ig! santas brother is canonically running the bank of thieves. okay

ezekiel was literally robin hood. and i like that he knows he's lucky and supports people who just didn't have that luck. also him talking about stealing as an art (which he's alluded to before), he really does simply have a passion.

"it has been my experience that behind every egotistical blowhard, there is a petulant, scared little boy"

ezekiel ultimately saying that his mum didnt just teach him greed but also very much generosity & kindness <3 idk family is complicated, people are complicated.

LMAO my very first thought was "wasn't it facing the other way?"

[mesetacadre]

what r ur thoughts on ppl in the third world that still benefit/rely on underpaid factory work for their solo businesses? im talking like legitimate one-person art shops who have to outsource stuff like stickers and prints or sculptural materials. im not rlly trying to defend them here or use this as a "gotcha" to your small business posts, im just curious on how to approach this since there a decent number of artists in my country that would react very strongly to anything implying that small businesses suck, probably something along the lines of "well we cant really get our supplies from anywhere else"

We can continue to make up increasingly specific examples of oppressed people doing small businesses or get down to the essence of this discussion, which is that marxist criticisms of capitalist exploitation does not hinge on moral judgements of individual people. Me or any other comrade saying that small businesses are still exploitative and that in most cases rely on even more explotative labor under the framework of imperialism is not a moral statement of "the people who do these things are irredeemable monsters who should be shot", it is a scientific evaluation of the exploitative nature of salary work and the (inescapable!) imperialist supply chain.

Your class character does not determine your morality or value as a person; just like workers can be "class traitors" in the sense of acting in the interests of the capitalist class, so can individual capitalists (more often small ones) act in the workers' interests. But marxist politics are not about individual actions, they are about the omnipresent class struggle and how to navigate towards the victory of an entire class.

Besides the fact that most artists wouldn't qualify under the label of petit-bourgeois (they don't employ workers and sell their labor to someone, even if that someone is not a regular employer), if those artist friends of yours react strongly to an anti-small business statement it's because they believe in the small-business, "entrepreneur" propaganda in which basically all capitalist states coat their workers in. They either wish to join the ranks of the petit-bourgeois, which is not a respectable wish anyway, or they already, actually, are. But again, in any case we are not attacking individual small capitalists or artists, we are attacking the infrastructure of capitalism, and that includes small businesses.

The flip-side to that "there is no ethical consumption under capitalism" slogan that got so popular some years back is that there is also no ethical way to organize production under capitalism. The meaning of these kinds of statements is that we should let go of the idea of being the perfect, pure, anticapitalist. Participation in the system does not condemn anyone, we are all born into it. The only thing left to do is to organize the working class and lead the class struggle.

[my-castles-crumbling]

Hi guys! Got an anon ask with some triggers, so I'm copying it here so I can put a 'read more.'

TW: ED, SH

Here's the original ask:

hey Cas!

hru today? <3

I rlly don’t wanna bother u but I just need some advice bc I’m in a pretty tricky situation and I don’t know who I couldn’t turn to who wouldn’t then tell OTHER people (adults etc)

also a TW b4 anyone reads further: ED (not me but a a friend) and generally bad mental health (including sh and sui)

Basically I have this friend (one of my best friends) who’s struggled with really bad mental health and attempted in the past (we weren’t friends during this time but they’ve shared it with me) they have told me they no longer sh but I’m not entirely sure if I believe him on that but I guess there’s nothing to do except just take their word for it and they are definitely doing better than they were before (about a year or two ago)

thing is this friend does still have a (pretty bad I think) ED (specifically I think they have anorexia but I’m really not sure because I don’t know that much about EDs. I’ve tried to do some research but it’s actually incredibly hard to find any info about them especially in terms of ways to emotionally show support. In a medical sense they always seemed to be talked about like minor things(?) idk it’s hard to explain but often times I’ve been reading actual factual medical stuff and just been disgusted at the ways it’s discussed, like they try so hard to describe it from a technical viewpoint that they essentially the entire mental health aspect of it which kind of demeans the whole thing bc EDs ARE a mental health disorder)

sorry went on a little side rant there but basically I’ve tried to find stuff out but it’s really hard to learn about the mental health aspect and even harder to find stuff out about how to HELP someone through an ED

I’ve even resorted to looking thru some more unsavoury places for info (including anablr), I know these types of places encourage EDs and I am actually not a person who really loves their body very much but I do think I’m in a strong enough place emotionally to do this (and so far I’ve been correct, I’m unaffected) because I just wanted some actual insight on what it’s like

the problem with my friend is that she’s ALREADY in therapy. Her parents put her in it when they found out about her vaping habit but they just lie all the time (she tells me about it) because they have like serious trust issues due to past trauma and I’m gonna be honest, I 100% believe therapy is a good thing but sadly it is also entirely useless if the person doesn’t make any effort to get better

all I can do in that aspect of it is hope the therapy is going better than the jokes he makes about it or that eventually she will feel comfortable enough to share and process her issues

in terms of the ED what im really lost with is how to help

and don’t get me wrong, I know you can’t really help a person who doesn’t want to be helped but honestly I’m not giving up on this person I care about that easily. I will NOT be another person in their life who abandons them for being ‘too much’ or ‘too difficult’. I’ve already accepted the fact that I will not be able to help them out of it really (as best as I can at least)

I’ve already taken to carrying gum and mints in my school bag as much as I can (usually I’ll have a pack of both and I just share them with everyone so this person doesn’t actually catch wind that they’re the reason I do as quite often when they skip lunch they do help themselves to a few of my mints or gum pieces but ik if they knew it was for them they’d stop bc she’s just like that)

I just don’t know how else to help emotionally though, I’m one of the only people (I might be the ONLY person at all) that they feel comfortable enough to talk to about these issues and I just think its better that they’re telling someone who cares about them and is trying to help than telling no one at all which seems to be the alternative. The issue is I don’t know how to respond or show support especially because (thank u trust issues and trauma (/s) the window of vulnerability is SMALL (I’m talking a couple of seconds literally) before they’re joking and changing the subject

Also a small (but frankly compared to the rest of this, not very important) detail is that like I previously mentioned I am also not suuuper happy with my body ( I don’t sh really or have an ED in any way shape or form) and sometimes the stuff he says slightly upsets me (just like once I told him about how my mean grandma told me I was fat and had to eat less and he said his grandma forces him to eat more and that my grandma ‘sounds like her wet dream’ - I know this was just a joke obviously but I didn’t rlly love it considering my grandma is a pretty big source of my looks based insecurities)

like I said in no way is it on the same level and obviously I know it’s not coming from a place of malice because this friend also really looks out for my mental health like way more than my other friends tbh (I don’t know if it’s bc they struggled with it or whether they’re the only one who seems to notice I’m the therapist friend haha but they are the FIRST person to ask if anything’s wrong if I’m acting different and I rlly want to stress that because I know that from what I’ve said so far they may have come across as selfish or something but they are actually one of the kindest people ever) that’s especially why I’m worried if I bring anything up about wanting to help with little things or especially anything about not being a fan of little jokes that she’ll just stop talking about it at all in an attempt to make me feel more comfortable)

for context for all of this, I’m 15 (we both are) so still in school and they’re parents absolutely SUCK (in the most non violent way possible I would like to kill them [not actually but I do really hate them and wish them only the worst]) so there’s no emotional support coming from home for him

I don’t really have anyone I can talk to about this in real life because (for privacy reasons) they’ve asked me not to share it with like my other friends and I don’t have the greatest relationship with my parents (they’re not like abusive or neglectful or anything but we just have a lot of differences and just I’ve very much emotionally distanced myself from them)

sorry if this is too much because I do know it’s a really tricky situation and even though all of us sort of deify you, you’re still only one person and if this does make you uncomfortable or upset (not just if it’s triggering I mean just in general if you’re reading this and you don’t feel comfortable) in anyway please don’t force yourself to answer or feel guilty if you don’t because the last thing I’d want to do is put you in that kind of position

Im not sure if ill send in more anons but if I do then ill refer to myself (and you can call me) lacy anon so you know who I am (yes after the song bc i rlly love it haha)

Anyway sending lots and lots of love from the person who does basically look up to you as their adult role model and who I wanna be like when I’m older <3

Hi love! You're not bothering me at all!

So, first, I want to let you know that I am an adult, but when I say this, I hope you don't take it as...condescending, I guess? Because I don't mean it that way at all. I want to be realistic in the fact that these things you are dealing with are VERY grown-up and scary, and you are handling them in a remarkably mature way, but you are still legally fifteen.

This is way too much for a fifteen year old to take on.

You genuinely seem like the most amazing person. The fact that you have done research and carry around things for your friends, all to help them with their ED is frankly restoring my faith in humanity a bit. But I worry that you are placing WAY too much of the responsibility on yourself. I don't mean to be bleak or too blunt, but if god forbid anything ever happened, I would hate for you to blame yourself, and it sounds like you would. Your job is to be this person's friend. Not their therapist or caretaker.

So, here's my advice: I absolutely agree that you should not give up on them! But make sure you have boundaries. It broke my heart to read that you were going to places like anablr just to help- that's not healthy for you! As a friend, especially at your age, your most important job is to make sure your friend doesn't feel alone. And you're doing an amazing job, in my opinion. They seem to be willing to talk to you, and that's a big deal. But, in the best way, you are fifteen, and you don't have to have all the answers! Sometimes, the best way to support someone is to remind them that they are loved and they have someone in their corner. BUT remember that being there for someone doesn't mean you have to sacrifice yourself or your mental health. Say something if a joke makes you uncomfortable. "I love you so much, but that joke makes me feel uncomfortable. Can you maybe not joke like that?" It's okay and healthy to set those boundaries.

Please remember, you are not responsible for this person. You can love them and be there for them and care deeply, but you are responsible for you and your own health. Don't forget you.

My last very gentle suggestion is this: If you ever get to the point that you are so genuinely worried about this friend that you think it is a life-or-death situation, please don't take that on by yourself. I know it is scary, and I know that telling adults mean that there can be ramifications, but remember that if you are genuinely scared, then an adult needs to be there to keep everyone safe. Very bluntly: Trust can be rebuilt but you can't bring people back from some other very permanent decisions.

Again, you are a wonderful person, and a fantastic friend. But remember to take yourself into account and stay safe in all ways. I know this is probably not the advice you want to hear, but I hope maybe you'll consider it.

Sending so much love! <3 <3 <3

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𝐊𝐔𝐓𝐄.

tom holland! peter parker x reader

-> so uh basically flash makes fun of peter and is like "embarassinggg 😳!!" so he runs out the cafeteria like a disney channel character but u comfort him l8r so it's okay

-> wrote this while i was in sugarland texas!! it was so much fun :3 n e ways im so hungry (　；∀；) and i want a fruit smoothie

"peter look! there they are!" ned pointed, hinting peter towards your presence at the table across from theirs.

"shh! keep your voice down, what if they hear you?" peter said, shoving ned's arm down.

"they probably heard you already." mj rolled her eyes.

"no way, we're pretty far. . . right?" he asks, half rhetorical and half serious. mj ignores it and ned laughs. "don't worry pete! I'm sure they love you already, you just don't know it_!"

peter lays his head down on his arm and absentmindedly stares at you, you were talking with your friends sitting at a semi occupied table, hand swirling around a straw that was inside your chocolate milk carton. there was only one person he recognized sitting next to you and it was flash.

"penis parker! something you wanna say to us or what?"

speaking of flash, peter's lovestruck face falters and is replaced with a confused one. he noticed that each and every one of the people in your small friend group were staring at him, including you. his face immediately flushes as you both make eye contact.

"is he gonna say anything?" one of your friends mentions to you.

"how about you leave us alone, flash, he's not hurting you." mj defends, frankly tired of flash's behavior over the years.

"exactly, it's not even you he's staring at!" ned attempts to defend. peter and mj really don't know how to respond to that other than a shocked and 'oh my god i can't believe you just said that what the hell ned' look.

the table collectively goes 'oooo' [ aside from you ] in a childlike manner, which embarrasses him even further. he wanted nothing more than to crawl underground and become one with the moles and dirt.

flash whistles, "damn then, who were you staring at." he eyes you, in which you glare at him, a silent message for him to not say what he's about to say.

"i think i know who it is, but you gotta help me out here man, who's got your—"

"flash shut up." you say, in a light tone, but stern enough for him to know that you were actually kind of serious.

"that confirmed it." he jokes, no one really paying attention to him anymore.

you shoot peter an apologetic look and he stares back at you, an unanalyzable expression painting his face. your group continues to discuss miscellaneous topics as his exponentially smaller trio try to comfort him. you save him the embarrassment by not sparing him any glances.

"it wasn't that bad of an interaction! at least they defended you."

"ned! it was your fault this happened in the first place!"

"nuh uh."

"it's okay guys, not that big of a deal." peter brushed off, "gonna do the restroom really quick, yeah." they look at him unconvinced but inevitably let him go. he sits outside the restroom near a water fountain.

embarrassing, is all he found that interaction to be. he just needed to be alone for a bit. what pissed him off was that it was a joke, he wasn't supposed to take it this seriously. it was worse that he walked out of the cafeteria feeling and looking stupid, at least in his mind.

"hi."

he looks up; oh shit it's you.

"oh, uh, hey."

"sorry about. .you know. .flash."

"it's fine, nothing i'm not used to!" he laughs slightly, ignoring the fact that he is most definitely not used to flash's bullying just yet.

"well uh, whatcha' listening to?" you sit next to him on the floor.

"oh just, generic stuff, i guess, here." he hands you one of his earbuds, blush apparent on his face. you smile as you put in your ear as you guys share your different tastes in music, eventually spending your whole lunch period together.

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(extracurriculars teacher anon) yk what, I think reframing the discussion from extracurriculars to third spaces kind of changed my perspective on it. I think I hold the opinion I do because ime extracurriculars can become a work environment for kids rather than an actual third space very quickly. To push is further I think parents who are particular about extracurriculars sometimes do it instead of giving kids a proper third space because they want to know exactly what their child is doing, where and with whom. I don't even think extracurriculars, at least where I'm from (which is, admission #1, is a pretty rich people/good district school), look the way they probably did when you were young. The accountability put on coaches/teachers is way higher which is good in some ways and worse in others, reaching and checking upon kids is simpler than it used to be (phones), and when some kind of performance aspect is involved there'll usually be more publicity on social media in particular. Our kayaking league has a whole Instagram account where they post their training almost daily with the student's faces unblurred which is probably a joy for parents but makes me feel all sort of ways. Which is to say I think in rising amount of cases extracurriculars are a method of control without actually locking your kids in the house for the helicopter parents, which might be better than the last option but I wouldn't really consider a real third space if kids are pretty much on edge and feel like they have to perform for their parents too. I doubt if any socialisation in an environment like this can actually count because it's like... If the conflict arises in the group the parents will just KNOW and they'll rarely let the kids handle it out of anxiety. It's just a weird environment overall, and I know it wasn't always like this.

Admission #2 is that I don't actually teach classes, I work as an assistant teacher part-time and as assistant for kids lagging behind (largely because of COVID) their peers in class so the majority of my experience is already coming from kids of very particular living situation (well-off enough to afford having extracurriculars, but statistically more likely to be autistic or otherwise have issues with mental and/or physical health and have them actually noticed and attended to. Some of them diagnosed, some of them are nudged into getting tested but the parents won't budge, some are literally still dealing with COVID and ipad parenting. You'd be surprised at the number of ipad kids whose attention span was miles worse than the adhd kids. We literally can't tell them apart most of the time aside from the fact that they need different strategies to approach school). They just like to tell me stuff lol. But what I was getting at is that while I don't think these kids are outliers per se but they might be experiencing it harsher than their peers due to aforementioned factors. I don't really know to be honest.

Thought I also will say that sometimes I believe you have to leave the quiet/lonely kid alone instead or trying to get them out of their shell. I mean basic socialisation is important, manners and etiquette and appropriate social responses are important (and an ongoing issue), but I've had a fair share of students who just... don't vibe with their peers and no amoung of trying to find their people really worked. They're just average students with normal if slightly anxious social behaviours who keep to themselves and don't show any kind of discomfort at being left out. I know a girl who liked art and started art school only to quit it in like a month just because she didn't like the vibe and the forced cheerfulness of it. Very down-to-earth and well-read (arguably beyond her age), she talked when prompted but otherwise she was just kinda there. She aged out of my age group so I don't know if she ever changed or not, but I really don't believe she was struggling with social life because I also saw kids who craved company but couldn't fit in and that wasn't really it. Sometimes the introverted types naturally become more social, sometimes they don't. I just think she'd be worse off being shoved on and off clubs and extracurriculars when she just didn't enjoy talking to people and had no struggle to interact with society otherwise and already had interests.

Admission #3 is that I'm pretty biased because my parents tried to find me a space (summer camp, extracurriculars, after classes, what have you) in elementary school only to result in me being bullied 4 times in different social situations by all of these and damn I'd rather die than put a kid through that experience, so I'm very wary of the idea of pushing someone to socialise in the first place. I guess the only leftover benefit I have from summer camp is that I still play chess.

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[toxifoxx]

ok serious thoughts on the fnaf movie this time. they're a little scattered but i did just see it so i gotta think on it some more before i give like an actually structured review. but immediate thoughts post-viewing:

i had fun with the movie! i thought it was enjoyable. was hoping for at LEAST a little more blood (i really wanted to see william fucking explode into blood for one) but i knew there wasn't gonna be much since its pg13. it wasn't scary like in the slightest except for 1 jumpscare that almost kind of got me but i wish they set up the atmosphere a little bit more.

MAJOR GRIPE. i hate that vanessa is related to william. please stop retconning the afton family scott pretty please. give that man his dead children back. i seriously seriously love the "man goes fucked up sicko mode because of his grief" trope but alas.

i think that the pacing is NOTTTT very good at all. william needed more screen time 100% and there wasn't that great of a build up to the climax. maybe its more impactful to people who didn't already know that steve is william, but i'd wager that they're probably like HUH WHUH??? at that reveal because its not really. set up that much. and yes im biased because i fucking love william ok.

i think matthew lillard did a great job, BUT... we barely got to see him at all! and, especially with the "i always come back line..." i cringed a little bit man. like what are you coming back from? you haven't died yet man. there's nothing to come back from yet tf are you yappin about. it felt like it was really shoved in there honestly. we DESPERATELY needed to see more of him! in fact, most of the characters needed more set up! like ok... mike lost his brother? why should i care. mike is gonna lose his sister? why should i care tho?? these kids died but they dont really seem like they care too much about being dead either so whats the big deal.

AND WHY DIDN'T THE KIDS HAVE BEEF WITH WILLIAM/THE YELLOW RABBIT. THEY CLEARLY WERE SHOWN TO KNOW HE KILLED THEM, BUT THEY DON'T TURN ON HIM UNTIL ABBY PUTS UP HER SHITTY LIL DRAWING? FOR REAL????? WHY? + THEY DONT EVEN GET NAMED AT ALL. THE MOVIE CARES SO LITTLE ABOUT THE KIDS AND YET THEY DONT EVEN ALLOCATE THAT TIME TO AFTON EITHER. THEY FUMBLED BOTH SIDES!

also a lot of stuff just kind of isn't resolved? like the mike vs his aunt thing. is his aunt dead or...? + what was the fucking freddy saw trap thing that doesn't get explained at all. did the police not see that or does william just lug that thing in and out of the building constantly. what's it even for.

im also curious about some things. whats up with that kid who had a midnight motorist shirt. whats up with the other random springlock animatronic that is never named nor do we get a full look at. Where's Henry. are we just straight up ditching henry this time around?

i came into this knowing it wouldn't be lore accurate nor gory because of the rating but ugh. Ughhhh. can we please settle on one fnaf timeline to be canon its been almost 10 years we don't needa be playing like this anymore bro. i want to see the afton family for REAL show me cc getting his fuckin head chomped off or elizabeth getting snatched. give us literally any of the original missing children give us cassidy or something. like even in the silver eyes at least we got henry ffs! it just makes me a little sad knowing that one of the rejected scripts WAS accurate to the game lore.

shout out to my homie @yellowbutterbear for seeing the movie with me and discussing this stuff with me 🔥

6/10 not enough william afton moaning and whimpering AMEN!!!

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hi! im the anon that left a really long ask about misogyny in the lmk fandom lol (İ dont have a response completely written yet, while İ do have more to talk about on the subject İ feel like a lot of it might come off as repetitive, also my ask draft is like twice as long as the first ask LOL) but ive seen you talk about about thinking about watching revolutionary girl utena on here and if you havent watched it yet id really reccomend watching it! it has a lot of the same themes as lmk (and utdr which is also something ive seen you talk about! (btw id like to hear your thoughts on utdr if you want to talk about it on here!)) so i think youd like it if you watched it! İm going to try to be vauge abt themes and topics discussed in rgu for the sake of spoilers (also i dont want to present the idea that theres a "correct interpretation" of utena because i feel like thats reductive to the narrative the show presents), but i do want to say that if you do decide to watch it you should really take a look at its trigger warnings. utena as a show does go into some very dark topics and themes and has a laundry list of content warnings that İ dont think is worth skipping . İ think it handles them well for a 90's tv show but İ think it should be mentioned regardless. i also think that something that you should know before going into it is just how much it relies on a symbolic narrative in the sense that if you arent interested in analyzing it then you probably wont get as much from the show just because of how surreal it is, İ dont think this makes rgu a worse story at all (in fact İ think it makes it better because i lets it take into account different audience interpretations and opens the room up for a lot of different analysis) BUT its something id keep in mind before watching the show lol (also i think that if you watch rgu and you like it, another thing you'd probably like is omniscent readers viewpoint! im not great at summarizing things so im not going to go too in depth on it, theres a good summary on tumblr by the user ot3 that İ think is good. my personal take on it from where İ am in the novel is that its basically like if you put lmk and utdr into a blender and then made that into a novel... (theres also a webtoon adaptation but imo its kind of bad bad)) anyway İ hope you havent watched rgu already or else this ask will be really embarassing lol.

tldr: lesbian swordfight anime is Cool and you should watch it it totally wont change you as a person ahah a

No I totally haven't watched rgu yet! I just reblog some of the stuff I see for future me who has

I totally want to though (the content warnings aren't anything that squick me), it seems interesting and you know I love me some symbolism and a meta-narrative that wants you to engage with it on a higher level. And also lesbians

[estbela]

Just saw your post and was wondering if you have any SerbRo headcanons?

Yes. A lot. I'm so normal about them (lying). Although they might change and stuff, since I'm still working on my Serbia OC and stuff. At the moment he's mostly just vibes (and not that different from other serbia OCs anyway). Also the moment anyone asks me about anything I tend to forget anything Ive ever thought but I'll try.

Prepare for a lot of rambling. And for possibly regretting asking me this haha. Im also sleep deprived, as usual, so hopefully everything makes sense.

They're childhood best friends. I don't know exactly when they met, but they definitely met when they were children, and so they were best friends ever since.

Serbia was like...I think one of Ro's first friends? Besides Bulgaria. I think, in a way, they were both lonely wild children who were considered outcasts. In part for being nations, in part because they were both often disobedient and stuff, and thus were "bad kids".

They were such troublemakers as kids, and tbh, they still are. Whenever theyre together you gotta prepare for trouble.

they were both huge francophiles during the 19th century, I think. Idk I just picture them bonding about that.

They get along like a house on fire. They also might have lit up a couple of houses on fire together. What's a little arson between friends? :)

They're both animal lovers! It's also one of the things they bonded about when they first met(I can just imagine them being kids and telling eachoter all the animal facts they know). If they lived together it'd be them and a house full of animals I'm guessing.

They bully Bulgaria together. <3

Anyway more about their relationship.

they...understand eachoter. Understand eachoter so deeply. They know things about eachoter that almost no one else does. They talk about anything(like their interests and such), and about shit they would never be brave enough to discuss with anyone else. Show sides of themselves they didn't even know they had.

Yet they've never truly discussed...the fact that they might be more than friends. Or well, it took them a really long time of knowing eachoter to do so.

They're kindred souls. Also slightly codependent in the way, that they've grew up together, and went through so many things together, and even when they were alone, they still had eachoter. They're kind of inseparable at this point.

Yet, they can go on pretty long times of not talking to eachoter, but then they meet again and it's like...nothing really happened. They immediately pick where they left off. Thought, if they were to ever truly lose eachoter they would not deal with it well At All.

Anyway they both eventually have The Realisation, when theyre like teenagers. For Serb, I think it's maybe in the 16th century. I think...it's not exactly one moment that makes him realise it, but rather, multiple moments of just. Not wanting to be anywhere else in the world than with Ro. Just softly looking at him and having so much fun together.

For Ro...it's much of the same, although more reluctant, in some way. He doesn't really wanna fall in love. Something she learns early on in his life is that love between nations is tricky and often ends badly, and she's already got A Thing going on with Bulgaria.

They actually have their first kiss earlier thought. They're young teens, like maybe 13, or a little more, or less. It's the 14th century and theyre both curious about that kinda thing, and wanna practice for when they'll have a relationship.

And so they do eventually figure if out as I said, and they never talk about it, never say it aloud, but they Know. They know, and even if the both of them act so brave and confident most of the time, like they always know what they're doing, in things such as battle and in general facing enemies, they are afraid. Cause at the end of the day they are young and terrified that if they admit their love aloud it might twist and burn, or worse, it might be used against them, and then they'd lose their best friend.

But I think they do things that some ppl might consider to be of a romantic nature, like kissing and making out and cuddling and holding hands. Theyre both so touch starved, and even if Serb doesn't wanna admit it, he's even more clingy than Ro is. And everyone is kinda used to it cause thats just how Ro & Serb are like.

And like. Realising they love eachoter romantically, does not really change their dynamic cause they were already doing all of this stuff before.

Also, from the outside it might look like they make eachoter worse, but somehow, they manage to make eachoter better.

Their first kiss as teens, after The Realisation, was initiated by Ro.

and theyre not really children anymore but sometimes it feels like theyre two kids again, staring at the stars, talking about nothing in particular, as if they were the only things they mattered. They weren't nations, or well, they were, but sometimes they could almost forget that.

I think they do eventually talk about It. They're both shit at feelings, with Ro being slightly more emotionally intelligent i guess. In the 19th century, because their thing that's neither nothing or something was driving both of them a little insane. And they kinda get in an on and off relationship, but they dont use that word.

As far as anyone is concerned, theyre best friends. Best friends who perhaps aren't simply platonic, who have shared more than just friends ought to. But the fact is, calling eachoter best friends is not untrue, because that's what they are, thought they are also lovers.

And they have loved other people, and still continue to do so.

I guess they might try to not be too close, at least nto in public, when one of them is in a relationship of the monogamous kind, and theyre also the first person they go to after a break up.

Back to the understanding eachoter thing. I think they'd be willing to forgive eachoter for a lot of things, even if both of them are usually really petty(especially Serb). They'd also be willing to do things for eachoter they'd rarely do for others. Theyd kill for eachoter tbh.

I know this is very random and very different in tone after everything Ive talked about but they have a height difference and it's so cute. Serbia is like. 180 something centimeters while Ro is barely 170 cms shdhdhdhs. Anyway it's adorable.

Songs that make me think of them: Bad Idea from the musical Waitress, You don't need to love me from If/Then, Across the Overpass by the Solids...and way more that I cant remember.

And that's...not all. But all that I can remember at the moment cause my memory is shit. And woah, I talked so much about them dhdjddjdj. It's like the first time i ever get to ramble about them to anyone (besides one of my friends)

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the whole 1975 thing pisses me off. people cant seem to comprehend that this isnt some black and white situation where its just homophobia because its so much more than that. i couldnt care less if he jacked off on stage, the problem is that he did this in a country thats incredibly queerphobic and because of that is incredibly strict on what bands can play here and what they can and cant do/say. We malaysians don't get alot od international bands as is, so bands like this and the strokes coming here of all places in our shit hole country is huge. but him saying and doing all that did this:

- cancelled the entire event because our government caught wind of it and shut it down after the first night when it was supposed to go on for 3

- probably made the rules and restrictions for bands to play here even tighter

- made other bands hesitant to play here

- maybe even tightened up the laws on queer people here in general, even more worse than they already are

- possibly put a lot of queer malaysians in general in danger because if the pigs suddenly decided to investigate the event further and question the organisers or people who attended and those people happened to be queer and they found out? theyre going straight to jail because that's how queer people are treated here by our government

yeah there are a good chunk of people here angry purely because of homophobia, that fact isnt something that can be denied or glossed over. but the most important thing here is the queer people that are gonna be put in danger. we're already consistently used as a political scape goat. but now we've finally started to take baby steps in the right direction of progress after finally electing the first pm in our history thats leftist (when in reality he's centrist at best) and now with how matty healy behaved and what he said, our governments fear of queer people have been confirmed and we might be in even more hot water. they've already discussed about making being queer a mental illness and this might give them the push to confirm everything.

what he did did nothing but do bad. we didnt need some white guy to tell us how oppressed we are, how queer people are ridiculed discriminated and abused, trust me buddy, we've lived here all our lives, we know, we dont need any white saviour telling us this.

people will scoff at countries like Malaysia because of how queerphobic it is and simply throw any empathy and kindness out the window, but people seem to forget that this queerphobia exists for a reason. the queerphobia here exists because WE exist, because WE QUEER MALAYSIANS EXIST. it doesn't just exist just because, they're hateful of us because we are here, they're hell bent on getting rid of us because we are here.

I've seen some people say "then just don't get international bands" why? why dont we get to have the opportunity to see the bands we like? why dont we get to have fun? what makes so inherintly lesser that we dont get to indulge in stuff like this like people from other countries do? we already are barred from being openly queer, is it so much to ask that we just want to have a good time by seeing bands we love? do we not deserve that just because people think our government and the shit heads here represent our entire country, acting like theres absolutely no queer communities here constantly fighting for our right to exist? is that why people think so lowly of us?

queer malaysians are now in danger and our progress have been set back 50 steps thanks to matty healys "activism". I understand that he did it in good faith, but it just came off as entitled, privileged and selfish, especially with how he handled it after the fact.

if you're here to argue or insult me on this post, dont bother, im blocking you. im not wasting my time.

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HI ITS ME CHRONIC PAIN ANON BACK AGAIN... here's my thoughts on who of the human cast is Aware That They Have Chronic Pain Issues. srry ppl were discussing and im like, Wow, Time For Me In Hc Central

june's issues start to really develop and get bad post-game (in my headcanons), so for a long period of time she literally has no one to talk to about it bc she's self-isolating. she eventually tells nannasprite about it when nanna is guilt-tripping her into getting up (nanna voice: Whatever works, hoohoo!), and nanna is like. this is my only granddaughter. i will do whatever i can for her. (i love june & nanna's dynamic. could u tell.) jasprose also is like GIRL!!! You Are In Pain!!! nanna & jasprose team up of the century to get june egbert to Acknowledge Her Problems

dave NO clue NO idea WILL not talk about it. maybe EVENTUALLY tells karkat about it but i don't think she ever seeks out a diagnosis or tries to get one. hes got old ingrained trauma about seeing doctors, which is something he's trying to get over, but like, he already has 4 bajillion other things to unpack about his childhood and healthcare systems are not historically good about chronic pain, a dismissal of their symptoms might set them back in that regard. they're just homebrewing this shit for now.

rose: yeah, she knows. she doesn't talk about it in those terms, though. instead of saying "i have a horrible migraine and cannot get out of bed" she tells kanaya to text the gc that she's afflicted by the Broodfester Woes and cannot join them this evening. theyve sort of picked up by now what that means but she thinks it's funnier this way.

jade: HMMM. i think she put herself through her denial paces but actually i think going grimbark essentially caused her to not feel her chronic pain (a side effect of condy's semi-control over her body), and when she got shunted back into her body she had to face the reality where she DIDNT hurt all the time like wow thats how ppl normally feel? what the fuck????

jane: oh absolutely fucking not does not know. unlike jade, his pain got WORSE during crockertier. yet it still takes literally two decades for him to finally acknowledge that his stuff is NOT normal and the fact that her whole friend group has chronic pain doesn't help, which kind of sucks. jane voice: well sometimes i can get out of bed when i have a headache and rose can't, so clearly its not the same (as if jane doesn't force himself out of bed even when he really shouldnt!!!). roxy has to be the one to tell him.

roxy: yeah she knows it's chronic pain. she's been worried about getting cirrhosis for years, and so has been keeping up to date on her physical health as a result. she figured it out pretty quickly after a couple flareups. trickster mode made it worse for her.

dirk: hal has been telling him for YEARRRRRRRRS that his carpal tunnel is just that, carpal tunnel. and yet. AR: Dirk, if you do not take better care of yourself, you are never going to be capable of building me a body of my own. TT: 1. I'm fine. 2. I'm not building you a body anyways, so the point is moot. anyways he accepts it during the game bc he's like you know what. might as well admit it to myself. good thing, too, because it only gets worse after a couple decapitations.

jake: has pretty much always known, deep down, but like. she lives on an ISLAND. the hell is he going to do about it? no, better not to think about it. someday they'll be able to deal with it, but that day isn't today, and theres so much to do. so he represses it DEEPLY. normal action hero jake english doesn't have chronic pain, of course. she's a heroic manly lead, after all... (the deconstruction of that mindset sort of makes them acknowledge it, though.)

ANYWAYS I JUST RAMBLED AT YOU FOR A COUPLE HUNDRED WORDS HOPE U HAVE, A GOOD DAY/NIGHT/WHAT EVER

YYAYYY no you're so good nonnie thank u forever and ever