#the fact that im a product of SA doesnt really surprise me

[ketavinsky]

i just want to be able to forgive her

[bbarican]

life updates: last month of 2021

whats up tumblr? i am back and its been awhile since i posted a life updates master list so i figured why not post one tonight, heck i have so much i wanna get out of my chest and mind, might as well do it now while im resting so without further ado, here's whats been going on lately:

work:

emailed my boss already asking if may company policy ba when it comes to filing for leave in terms of reviewing for the boards and im not surprised na she hasnt replied yet even though its been a weel; shes a super busy i get it, so my senior just advised me to file for leave either way especially since im already decided on taking the board exam regardless

work is okay, mean, its the only thing im busy with right now so there are days where its super hectic but there are days as well where its just really slow so its kind of a nice balance from time to time

freenlance work is going well too! just waiting for my tita's approval for the documents i recently submitted before i can start on the next phase which is the ceiling plan and the elevation (which is yung pinaka madugong part in my opinion when working on the keyplans)

im really happy too that our resort is doing really well kasi kahit papano nakakabawi na kami after the whole the 2 or 3 times na nag ecq yung metro manila and batangas

family:

really really excited for this month kasi ang daming ganap! my dad's birthday is this weekend and my cousins are coming over; sa susunod na weekend, pupunta kami ng bestfriends ko sa resort namin for a much needed mini reunion/getaway; and come christmas day, dito din magcecelebrate mga pinsan ko and my titos and titas so im just really excited

it hasnt been all rainbows and butterflies; there was one day where nagkasagutan kami ng mom ko and it just really made me feel like i still dont belong at all in this family and that our relationship (me and my parents' relationship) changed drastically ever since my brother left for the states

but we're okay now! a part of me is still like on a tightrope, just trying not to fuck anything up especially cause its the holidays, but at the same time another part of me is just trying my best to make everything work out and try my best to be there for my family and make them happy

my mom and her taste in food and the fact that sometimes she doesnt hold back? chef's kiss, muy bien, i love when she's in the mood to cook or buy food cause its always more than enough for the whole family

friends:

not much to say because im lucky enough to be surrounded by people who i dont have to talk to everyday and yet still hold the same energy between us and i really appreciate that with my friends cause they know im 1. super busy and 2. super lazy and the fact that they dont really mind really warms my heart or if they do mind, they tell me up front

personal life:

im currently having another really bad allergy attack and i hate it, my t-zone feels numb, im constantly going dizzy, and buti nalang medyo nawala na yung pagkakati ng lalamunan ko cause coughing just makes my brain throb

i hate it when my room is a mess, i feel like im less productive when there's clutter around me so i have to clean my room asap tomorrow morning or else im just gonna feel really lazy

i really cant wait to save more money; not because i wanna buy more things, its just that im already 23, thats still young for some people, but i really do want to become totally financially independent really soon

another thing i want to work on asap is learning how to drive kasi 1. my parents are never gonna allow me to go anywhere freely with our driver being with me all the time whenever i go out and 2. our family driver wants to retire already so 3. since grab is really fucking expensive and scary during a pandemic, i might as well start learning how to drive

my ig feed is full of stick and poke style tattoos in these really cute and very me type of design and i just know its a sign from the gods telling me to save that money and get a tattoo as soon as i can (and as soon as my parents wont mind anymore)

im craving for sushi and korean food; might consider buying some sa sweldo!

speaking of, i need to buy gifts too this coming sweldo! i just hope everything arrives on time since magbabalot pa ko and everything

tapos i plan on baking pa for a bunch of people so i need to buy ingredients and bake and buy ribbons para cute yung packagaing AAAAAAH my virgo brain is on overdrive and part of me loves it and another part of me hates it 100%

love:

SURPRISE wala pa din

but if theres anyone out there who would want to be my little christmas plot twist, please step on up, that mistletoe is gonna go to waste if we dont end up making out underneath it

so yeah thats basically my life these past few weeks; again if youve made it till the end of this post, thank you for actually taking your time to read what i have to say

i hope everyone is doing okay and i hope the holiday cheer is slowly but surely getting to each and every one of you!