#the entire reason im making this post instead of trying to write this fic

[pheonix-inside]

I have this vague idea in my head of like. Post the end of btsv - let's say there's a happy ending and everything's fine - Miles and Gwen get together. Bc I like them and I think that's gonna happen anyway.

However, you see, I am a multishipper. And I like polyam ships. And I like Miles and Hobie as well.

So let's say Gwen and Miles are together and very much love each other, their relationship is good probably not without bumps but not strained or anything. But Miles also, unbeknownst to himself, develops a crush on Hobie. But he also doesn't even realize he likes dudes. So he's just super oblivious to it. So let's say the first person to notice his crush is actually Gwen.

Bc my brain is providing me with a vague ass fic idea of Gwen trying to gently push Miles to realize he likes Hobie, while also still y'know wanting to date him herself.

Bc how funny would it be for her to say at some point "hey if you liked someone else and wanted to be with them I'm willing to try you dating them and me bc that's a thing" and him being very confused bc "where did that come from??? like ok cool great I'll remember that but huh???"

Especially if she eventually just starts trying to get them together. I feel like the idea of a girl trying to set her boyfriend up with one of their mutual good (if not best) friends is a funny concept, and with them would be super funny.

[seeingivy]

bsfs older brother sukuna asks!

HI SWEETIE BABY! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR SWEET WORDS LITERALLYYYY WTF. literallly it makes my head ginormous anytime someone tells me they read either my aot/jjk without having watched the shows or the characters like LITERALLY im just a girl wtf this is literally insane

ok ngl I was really irritated last night when I got that comment bc I genuinely do spend a lot of time on chapters - especially with trying to make dialogue that hits and a story that's interesting? and out of everything it was like one sentence that got fixated on and they were like yeah that's toxic I hope he gets over that. and then like after twenty minutes they edited the comment like still love the story tho! ike I will kill you (gothic font)

but anyways I saw this last night before I went to sleep and I was like THANK YOU YOU ARE SINGING TO MY PRAYERS RN and it made me feel way better I was really annoyed and tldr I love you

@telepathicheartss my sweetie angel pie you could literally never annoy me. literally one of the reasons that I love to write this fic as often as I do and why i've like lengthened it out (mind you the first chapter was a oneshot) is because people interact and talk to me about it and that's everyting as a writer 1

mini sidebar but I read this whole post lately about the reader/writer relationship and how fics used to be generally viewed as a craft and art rather than something to be consumed like they are now and people would genuinely interact and discuss as opposed to just commenting and asking for a part two and silent liking. tldr it makes writers entire world when you interact and gush and it makes me SOOOO happy. so many of my favorite writers have left bc of how razor silent it can be on tumblr sometimes, so just know you should never ever feel bad for it!

SOOOO GLAD U FEEL SEEN BY THE Y/N CHARACTER. randomly this is my most criticized story? and one time someone told me I gave y/n too much personality LMFAO so this also makes my day that its actually like someone seeing it as a full character that they find relatable instead of like a lifeless blob

anyways thank you again sweetie pie I love you sm 😭💌

SO REAL! (also sorry)

we are all y/n, we chant in unison

@wishmemel I get random spurts of such high quality hyperfixation and writing that I like that I start acting like im a fanfiction factory (and it's SO FUN I PROMISE this is literally a hobby to me and it never feels like work)

(i love you too sweetie pie i hope you're doing well <3)

@pickuptruck01 literally I am ur #1 fan ur always so sweet and I love you im SOOOO glad you're still here writing this goofy story

THIS IS SOOOOO FUCKING FUNNY I CACKLED OPENING THIS

(it's a link to that tik tok audio that's like GIRLLL FUCKKK THEM KIDS AND FUCK YOU TOO)

[fragileizywriting]

it's so funny to me bc irl i love blonde girls more than anything in the world, when i was younger i wanted to be chloe in bratz girls because i thought she was the cutest one (can you tell i'm brazilian with my mutt complex i was having at the age of SIX) but for some reason chloe in mlb is so uninteresting to me compared to marinette. maybe i've grown. hayley is my one and only girl in sdv though. what is happening. i think it might be chloe's entire color palette that throws me off and i just don't like how she's written ever blahblahblah

this isn't salt btw this is me trying to understand why a character i should ideally love is uninteresting to me. what is it. what did she do. i'm not even interested in being like "i could fix her" because i have no desire to

like in my fics i find her a really interesting character to write about (i've only ever added her in, like, 2. 3 fics total) and i write her as a solid lesbian. maybe that's what it is? chloe is comphet. you know? how in god's name is she not a lesbian. i headcanon that chloe has a ridiculous hardon for ladybug/lady noire/whatever, and imagines either getting chewed alive by kitty's alter ego or strapped to hell and back by ladybug. i don't think she's particularly mean to marinette, but rather i think she's kinda indifferent. i feel like marinette has enough stress in her life to make chloe an actual bully— let's let lila do that, or whatever. besides, not everyone needs to be in love with adrien. some people can be lesbians

adrien felix and chloe were best friends growing up and chloe is like their sister. i also wish her eyes were green instead of blue. are they blue? i think they're bblue. christ on god i don't even remember her eye color. i think it would fit more with the bee theme anyway, green as in flowers. idk what the discourse is about chloe if she deserved what happened to her because i haven't watched anything of the show past season 2 (hi did you know that? sorry if i'm repeating myself but i think i have some new people following me since the last time i said that. i get super anxious when i watch a tv show that i really like and things happen that i don't like.., so for my mental health i stopped watching because i don't like some of the twists and turns and it was making me unironically lose sleep. im sad about this i promise) but i really do think chloe being a lesbian would fix everything, i think.

kaagami is also a lesbian. the two of them are not interested in one another, though. i will only ever ship kagami with marinette because the two of them are my bread and butter. chloe i could probably ship her with marinette but i've yet to be sold. was there a point to this post or have i completely derailed my train of thought

hello can u hear me did you read all of this

[apalapucian]

5, 6, 10, 11, 12 & 19 for the fic year in review pls!

hi haley thanks so much for these and im so terribly sorry for the lateness!!!

5. what ships captured your heart? jily, but no surprises there. this year i think - and i wouldn't say it captured my heart, but - what piqued my interest was prongsfoot. and i blame all the randy jily writers on my dash for that one lol.

6. what characters captured your heart? more than jily, because that's default, this year it was sirius! and regulus also.

10. what fic was the most satidfying to finish writing? egos practically wrote itself, especially the ending. that's a rare thing to happen, so i was v happy and satisfied about that. i hope it happens more in 2025.

11. what fic was the most difficult to write? for reasons both writing-related and personal-life-related, i really really trudged through the last two chapters of bad day wall. i surprised even myself when i managed to finish it.

12. what fic was the easiest to write? the entire concept for no questions asked appeared in my head slowly but surely for one of those prompt games i was sent this year. when i started writing it, it also just flowed on its own. compared to the other fics i wrote, it's more scenic and vibes-based and abrupt (much like one last), more like connected flashes of something instead of a whole laid out story, which is always the easiest to write. i really like that one. i wanna make more of it in the future.

19. share your favorite piece of dialogue.

okay so. from bad day wall, this text exchange (james is bold and lily in italics):

let's just say she doesn't like me very much

did she tell you that?

yes. in many creative ways. really creative. if it wasn't at my dignity's expense the creativity would have been awe-inspiring

ah. condolences :(

:(((( so what do i do, do you think?

if she already turned you down (many creative times), then nothing. i think you should respect that.

damn. you couldn't have drawn it out a little? don't give up, she'll come around, she just needs a little more prodding???

well just that if it were me i wouldn't want more prodding

you wouldn't change your mind? ever? if it's you.

i'm not saying i wouldn't EVER, but it just might take some time. and space. and perspective?

so much physics

such is love, i'm afraid

___

a couple of director's cut tidbits from this:

i just found it funny that lily was saying "if it were me" without knowing it's ACTUALLY her like it was so amusing to write

james suddenly punctuating properly in "you wouldn't change your mind? ever? if it's you.' was deliberate, like, in my head, when he starts typing properly, it means he's talking about something he feels serious and deeply about. and i did this in the entire fic i think, like when he got a bit more serious and solemn, he stops writing like he's making a tumblr shitpost. whch he goes back to in "so much physics", hoping for cool and unfuckwithable, but the way lily says "such is love, i'm afraid" is like, it's corny, but it's true, and she believes in it, and they're both talking about something serious and true and validating each other's feelings but also through a fucking wall and they don't know each other and they don't know it's about each other sjhfdsidfj anyway i just love this bit from BDW personally.

"time and space and perspective" is also what happens in the next chapter, when they spend some time and space apart, james trying to move on in the beginning of summer and lily trying to build a little life post-moving out, and then new perspectives when they start spending summer together in the gryffin.

also james, a pureblood, being into and knowing enough about physics, a muggle thing, to make a reference, is really hot lmao, and also a reference to completely human james. there is a draft of that chapter where lily pauses to speculate that the stranger must be muggleborn because of the physics thing, but i couldn't put it in without getting too wordy and ruining the momentum of their conversation, so i just cut it. but yeah! james and physics. hot.

sorry this got so long lol thank you and happy new year, haley!!! 💜

[kingofanemptyworld]

even if your Pokémon AU is in little snippets, instead of a full fic, I will still eat up all of it UwU

honestly, I’ve been thinking of writing a Pokémon AU myself, as I’ve not written anything for Wind Breaker yet and it’s been a while since I’ve written a fic. Love that you wrote yours with Hoenn as a setting, top tier choice, im definitely not at all in no way biased.

do you have a direction you wanna take your AU in? Or are you just going with the flow for now?

for my AU, I’ve been playing around with the idea of Sakura being a daycare worker that recently moved in on the edge of town? and there’s been some sus stuff going on, so Umemiya asks Suo (who recently came back to town after being away for some time) to investigate the sus stuff. What is the sus stuff? Heck if I know, that’s as far as my brainstorming went before writers block came in with a sledge hammer. In this AU I gave Sakura an espeon and an umbreon, since they’re Pokémon that require high friendship to evolve. I very much love the idea of Sakura getting along easily with Pokémon and having a close bond with them; the whole “animals won’t judge you by appearances, unlike people” thing, yknow? I gave Suo a riolu, as Suo was gonna take the riolu to Sakura’s daycare to get a read on who this new guy in town that Ume told him about was like.

idk if I’ll ever expand on my own Pokémon AU, but I’m excited to read more about yours, if you do decide to make more of it :3

sincerely, wind breaker anon, who is glad that you don’t mind me being kinda shy on anon

originally this was going to be a made up region so I could play around with what pokemon were available and everything. but yeah now it’s just Hoenn with a few extra towns lmao. I couldn’t resist, it’s my favorite region of all time and it is where absol comes from so I figured it worked out fine.

definitely writing by the seat of my pants with this, btw. there is no actual plot beyond character development for sakura via friendships with umemiya, suo and nirei, choji and togame, etc. we have vibes here, sir. no plot (yet). which is also why the snippet idea for writing appeals to me more for this. I have more freedom to just tell the parts of the story I feel inspired to, rather than locking myself into a specific plot I have to follow and pass a certain word count.

oh I adore your idea already!!! Daycare worker sakura is precious, and yes, I’m in total agreement about him having an umbreon and espeon. his entire team minus absol in my au is pokemon that evolve via friendship 😂 so like, clearly I’m trying to get a message across to sakura. but also also, yesss the pokemon have no reason to judge sakura and that’s why he bonds with them, that’s perfect. with mine it’s less that the pokemon aren’t ready to evolve (pretty much all of them are) but they’re like. holding back on evolution because sakura’s not in the right place to understand that they love him and that he’s been treating them so so well as their trainer. so vague plan is evolutions during key moments in his character journey.

suo with a role 😍😍😍 I couldn’t resist mienshao but Riolu is an excellent choice, very fitting for our mystery man who takes down opponents without breaking a sweat. Will absolutely read the shit out of this if you post anything.

I really wanna do more for this au! Definitely no time table for it though. Just whenever the mood strikes me I suppose? If people have ideas I’ll consider using them for inspo to write, but otherwise it’s gonna be slow-goings, methinks.

I appreciate all the support, too!!! very fun to have these chats in my inbox, def a highlight of my day

[fionajames]

Hello there! I’m really glad you posted again. Loved it ❤️

Requesting time yet again (it’s okay if you don’t get to this soon. Life happens 🤷🏽‍♀️): May i please request a little (or lengthy if you want) fic about how the clones would react to a haunted house? Where I live we have these abandoned prisons and make haunted houses out of them and they scare the crap out of people, and I was wondering how our copy and paste boys would react.

Thanks, may the force be with you, sincerely Sha 🫡

HELLO AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I try write when I can and your concern is so... *sobs* tysm.

TYSM SO MUCH FOR THE REQUEST

I would have written this longer and in actual one shot form but fuck that im drained and writers' blocked so have some headcanons instead!!!!!!!

(writing below the cut <3)

Rex: 

Rex spends the entire time trying to make sure no one dies.

Secretly terrified.

When they turned up he saw the house and just went ‘oh shit’, like, he did not expect the level of terror he was about to experience.

He stands in front of the others but is shaking and is pure white.

Went in with a fear of clowns, came out with a horrified dread for clowns. 

Never steps foot in one again.

Screamed like a schoolgirl and got teased by Fives for the rest of the trip.

Fives: 

Fives was the goofy guy who jumped at the obvious jumpscare people, but was also scared sometimes.

He pushed Hardcase into a clown at one point.

Got scared but only occasionally.

Other than that, totally unfazed.

Teased everyone who screamed/jumped.

Goes back to haunted houses a lot.

Laughed at all the actors but the actors could all tell he was nice (most of them could…).

Echo: 

Tried to find a logical reason for absolutely everything.

Scared to the bone.

Hid behind Fives a lot - who didn’t tease him once.

Cried when a huge spider got dropped on him and had to leave. 

Vomited outside, and never went into another haunted house again.

Was shaking the entire time.

Jesse: 

Went in confident and came out a scared, traumatised mess.

Laughed at the funny costumes got terrified from like 90% of them.

Punched three actors in the face from being jumpscared.

Hid behind Rex but denied it the entire time.

Fives teasingly asked if he was scared and he immediately freaked and was like ‘NO NO NO’.

He ran out the door at the end, got in the car, and had a breakdown but pretended to be okay.

Kix: 

He was scared but not majorly, and physically appeared unfazed.

#Badbitch fr.

Comforted everyone when they were scared.

Was making cheerful chips into conversations the entire time.

Went with Echo when he vomited and got him some water. 

Yelled at a random passerby who teased him. 

Cody: 

Laughed the entire time.

Just laughing and cracking jokes the whole time.

Cheered up the group’s morale by like, 100%.

Befriended one of the actors.

Went to more haunted houses afterwards.

Absolutely loved it.

Was slightly upset by the people not having a good time, as it dampened his mood, but he never said anything about it.

Wolffe: 

Unfazed.

This man walked in there stone-faced and came out the exact same.

Glared at the actors who scared his friends badly.

Punched a guy who was rude to a shiny. 

Threatened a series of strangers who made fun of the others.

Just chilled basically.

Fox: 

He chilled with Wolffe too.

Except Wolffe was an angry chill, Fox is sleep-deprived chill.

Walked around with a cup of steaming hot caff.

He just stood in the corner and sipped coffee most of the time.

Didn’t say a word basically.

Got sarcastic when people asked for his opinion.

hope you liked!!!!!!!!!!!!!! REQUEST PEOPLE I SRSLY MEAN IT!!!!!!!!!!!111

[absolutekirbofool-archive]

thinking out loud underneath the cut-- just lots of mc/sm fanfic & general writing thoughts (sorta negative) :) and yeah that's old art of stella and aiden having a picnic

had 8k worth of aidenfic i don't feel like continuing bc. there's enough aidenfic out there for my tastes and id rather write stella instead. no shame to aiden fans out there, yall are great (/gen), but iirc there's Aiden's Memoir and the prelude to Misfit Mania... and if i just swapped perspectives in my aidenfic aiden's perspective would be the stronger one. plus. there's no stellafic out there that goes in her character in-depth outside of a ship. (i'd love to be proven wrong though!!!)

complaining abt it is laughable to write out tho because my aidenfic features stella and their relationship heavily!! (also. almost all of the aid/della fics on ao3 are rated e. imo eros is important to me but not that important to me lmao.) maybe no one's an island.

ugh maybe im being too hard on myself. i had this idea rattling around in my head for years but now that im writing it i don't believe in it much anymore. i'll posts the scraps for sure one day.

anyway. back to the point. im trying to adjust my mindset to write a story centered around stella. it's a lot harder, that's for sure!

one of the reasons being that i relied on a certain plotting method with the aiden fic. for a character-centered narrative with stella i really don't think it's good for that... and besides, there's not much canon set-up for a great adventure featuring stella *except* her rebuilding champion city, a place originally built thru exploitation... and most likely rebuilt again that way (due to this line appearing if jesse isn't kind to stella, and stella not changing because of their kindness). though im not entirely beholden to canon. but id like to be.

gah. im so picky on what to write! i'll have my thoughts together and maybe i'll finally complete a stella-centered longfic. or maybe not. i make no promises. if you made it this far and have some (please be polite) thoughts you'd like to share dm me on discord. i'm "drymouth."

[claudiajcregg]

S5 Pregnancy AU - I’d love to hear about!

Welp, this is embarrassing – mostly because this has been sitting in my inbox for almost two weeks, and I kept saying “I need to write something up!” and then… I didn't. (Or rather, I did, then I forgot to post it.) Sorry for the wait, Lil! Thank you for asking <3 (I'll divide this up because I keep writing about the process and how it came to be, instead of any actual, interesting facts.)

I have talked about this one in the past though I don't have a tag for it. The gist is what it says… (Early) S5 but CJ is pregnant. I had this idea over a year ago when I hit mid/late S4 in my rewatch. I thought it'd be interesting to explore some of her disappointment at that time if you added an unexpected pregnancy to it, even if I had the idea before even getting there, lol. Think, the ending-ish of Han, or parts of Disaster Relief. (Both of which do feature! I surprisingly focus a lot on Disaster Relief.)

The thing with S5 is that the timeline is so weird, and I feel I've also created one that isn't entirely realistic but I think it works within the story. (IIRC, the season starts in “May” but also July, then the Shutdown is in November, lmao. A few of the episodes are sneaky two-parters that flow into each other… See 5-6, 7-8.) I've finally gotten out of the no-man's-land I wrote myself into and the next chapter or two, knowing myself, will deal with 7-8! There are a couple of scenes that should be fun to write! (There are so many details I want to mention that are technically spoilers for early twists…)

Every time I had the urge to write it, I'd edit whatever outline I was working in, and though I kept some details… my muse decided to make a big change early on that completely changed the fic's direction. That, and my inability to write anything succinctly. No reason why this story will cross the 100k barrier in a couple of chapters, tops. (It's sitting at 85k across 12 chapters. I think it'll be less than 20 chapters total. Hopefully.)

This might be too long to share snippets, but I've shared some either on the server or here, a couple of months ago.

For more irrelevant details on the “process”…

As I hinted at, I wrote an outline or two around this time last year, because I couldn't stop thinking about it. When I say outlines, it's a general path for the story to follow – ideas, suggestions of dialogue and/or scenes I write to myself; all focused around some sort of chapter structure. I find it much easier to write if I write down where a chapter might go, even if it's just a few lines saying “This happens → then this → finally this;” otherwise, it takes me months. Some would say that I should post it and get encouragement that way but… I hate being dependent on something I can control even less than my muse? That's not for me, thank you. Mad respect for those who work like that.

It was meant to be short – 1-2 “long” chapters per trimester, more if needed, but then interludes in between trimesters. It's not that. Most chapters currently cover 1-2 weeks, but there is not really a pattern. I was afraid of having a fic that would take over my life like the WOWO did three years ago… And it has, but I've also taken breaks and not felt too guilty about them. I definitely don't want this one to sit in my drive and have me wondering what to do with it.

(The novel, aka WOWO, aka IM AU (2021): 150k written in a little over five months, even with extended breaks over the summer. Still hits, even with all its crazy decisions, maybe because of them, but it's also been too long, and it will always remind me of someone who kinda hurt me. Attempts to replace those memories by sharing the story with others, trying to gather whether it's worth posting, have failed, lmao. One day! Maybe!)

But yeah. Uuuuuhhhh. As I've said… Twelve chapters in ten months, 85k words… It's still not done. In fact, I've repeatedly said I am unsure of how to end it (beyond the obvious), but I'd estimate it to be under 20 chapters. I'm not posting it anywhere yet because I want to be able to edit it as a whole and try to make it more consistent; to add little details as I come up with them. There's also the fact that I am not skilled enough to write a compelling story that mixes politics and emotion into something remotely engaging. As a result, the story's politics are very surface-level, and probably repetitive at points, but it's also true I've always been more interested and focused on the emotional journey and the relationship(s) at its center. (Which should surprise exactly no one who's ever read one of my stories.)

But, as critical as I might sound of myself here, I am having fun writing this and I'm committed to seeing it through. I just keep having ideas for stories down the line, putting actual show events through a 'but she also has a kid' perspective.

[quietwingsinthesky]

for the fic writer asks!!

5, 9, 13, 15, 29?

hi hi aayo!!

[questions were here]

5. So, a while back, I was spitballing with my friends about Pokemon Black/White & the sequel, because I love those games, those are my childhood Pokemon games, and the story is so close to brilliant I can taste it. It would just need a little touching up, I swear, adjust a motivation here, add some more scenes there... But see the thing is, doing that would take. A While. and I just don't think I have the patience to do a full rewrite of a Pokemon game from 2010 so it'll probably remain an idea.

9. Yes! I do! I try to do a few hundred words a day, every day. Depending on how bad my depression is, I can be pretty consistent about it and get a lot done. And I did manage to do a little today for that nsfw lucifer/raphael fic I'm working on! Let's see here. Ahem. "Waiting, a front of perfect obedience betrayed by how hard he’s clenching his hands together behind his back to keep from touching himself." :) I am. doing things. to luci.

13. It depends on the fic. Some of them, I want to say Last Call and could have been anyone, anyone are good examples, start writing themselves in my head with absolutely no warning, and I have to jump to the nearest thing to jot down the sentences before they disappear forever. Others, like Honey, Don't Feed It, have literally been turned over in my brain for more than a year, twisted and changed until I've gotten a fic I actually like out of it.

15. Sometimes it's a song title, sometimes it's a line from the fic, sometimes it's 'it is 4am when im posting it and ive already typed up the fucking tags and the summary and i am so so tired whats the closest noun i can think of' and then i slap it on there and call it a day.

29. asjklajdksld my first thought was 'oh you know what fine i'll post what i had of that samifer fic before it gets deleted but uh It Is Literally Entirely Porn. so lets. lets go with something a little more PG, yeah? Not exactly polite of me to throw smut at you without asking.

So instead, have this bit from the original draft of my next Sarah/Lucifer/Nick fic that got cut because I switched the pov character from Sarah to Nick for. Reasons.

Sarah has had a lot more time to paint in the last few months. Enough that muscle memory she thought lost has slowly reappeared, making her hand steadier. Her art hasn’t become more neat as a result, but it has grown purpose in its mess. Her mother always wished she’d take after her grandmother and paint lush green forests and pretty meadows, but Sarah’s brushes led her down a different path. Intricate strokes litter the paper, testing to see how close she can bring the painting to the being curled around her spine before it devolves into a jumbled mess. Lucifer is not an easy muse. Sarah hasn’t managed to paint a piece that does her justice yet.

This one is barely recognizable as anything, more abstract than Sarah’s committed to in a long time. A lot of her paintings of Lucifer start somewhere she understands, with Nick’s face or her own, fragmented to better show the angel that lives inside them, openings in the skin like bloodless wounds through which eyes and feathers and teeth peek through. Someone else might find them terrifying. Nick thinks her paintings of Lucifer are beautiful. Lucifer, of course, is flattered and amused. She watches Sarah paint, enthralled the same way Nick mentioned her being the day he built Teddy’s crib. She hasn’t asked for a turn at the brushes yet, but Sarah hopes she does one day, if only so they can see what she’s capable of creating.

Sarah stretches. There’s no satisfying pop to her spine as she uncurls from her art, but in exchange, there’s also no lingering soreness from staying in one position for too long. Lucifer’s grace pulses, buried somewhere deep, utterly content. Sarah shuts her eyes as though she could listen to her.

Instead, Sarah hears a cry from the other room. She lets her head tilt towards the clock on the wall. It’s been a while since she put Teddy down for a nap. Lucifer is on alert the moment the sound hits Sarah’s ears. She’s still not used to the simple fact that sometimes, babies cry, and it doesn’t mean the world is about to end. Impossible to fathom wings flex under Sarah’s skin. Sarah suppresses a chuckle into a small smile and sets her paintbrush down. It rolls to join its brethren of various sizes, the only commonality between them all the teethmarks at the tip where Sarah chewed when she got frustrated or distracted. Lucifer’s wings flap, a wave of power rolling through Sarah’s body that’s asking one question, whether they can fly to the nursery rather than take the minute long walk there. Sarah lets her consent echo back through Lucifer, bracing herself.

Flight is a cacophony. Flight is like learning what it is to be a photon and forgetting again as her body hits the ground, human toes curling against the fuzz of the nursery carpet. Lucifer recovers like they’ve taken a brisk walk up the stairs. Sarah needs a minute more, as though she’s been thrown under the waves at the beach and needs to figure out which direction is up in order to stand. In his crib, Teddy turns his head to look at them, brown eyes seeking his mother, and when he knows she’s there to hear him, he scrunches up his face and starts crying again.

It’s Lucifer that takes them the first few steps to the crib, but Sarah who reaches down and picks Teddy up.

“Hey, hey, fussy,” she says softly to him, “shh, we’re here now.” Teddy cries out one more time, like he’s making sure she’s not going to put him down and leave once he’s quiet. Sarah rocks him.

“We’re here,” comes another voice from her mouth, still hesitant but less than it has been in a few months. Lucifer raises Sarah’s hand to pet a line down Teddy’s forehead. There’s no more than the ambient hum of her grace beneath Sarah’s skin, but between being held by his mother and watched over by his guardian devil, (Sarah’s mouth curls at the thought, and she can’t tell if it’s her or Lucifer reacting.) he quiets. He keeps frowning, scrunched up eyes and a wrinkled forehead. “Hello, Theodore,” Lucifer says, and it’s at Sarah’s prodding that she finally says, “Teddy.”

He’s a baby, Sarah teases, no need to be so formal.

Names mean something, comes the quick counter.

And this one means you love him. Lucifer hums, finger still drifting in absent circles over Teddy’s face. Teddy latches onto it when it’s near his mouth, and Lucifer freezes. Sarah laughs, and with control of her body falling back to her, it comes out without a care in the world. Teddy makes a frustrated noise when she pulls her finger away.

“That’s better than you needing a diaper change,” Sarah tells him. Teddy babbles at her, sounds that are beginning to have more distinct shapes but mean nothing at all. She’s going to have to put him back down to undo her button-up, or would have to, only Lucifer proves for the hundredth time how much easier parenting is with divine power backing them up. Sarah shifts Teddy around in her arms, enduring the tiny beat of an impatient hand against her chest, until she has him comfortably settled to feed.

He seems so small in her arms. He’s growing fast and will continue to for years and years, a prospect both terrifying and exciting.

It’s a short enough walk to her and Nick’s bedroom from the nursery, and she’s careful not to jostle Teddy while he nurses. There, she can settle down comfortably against the pillows, the blankets tucking themselves up around her legs despite her not reaching for them. It doesn’t do much against the ever-present chill, but Sarah doesn’t want that to go away. Besides, they bundle Teddy up warmly enough.

She does wonder sometimes what it’ll be like as he gets older. If his first words will be ‘dada’ or ‘mama’ or something else entirely, a string of syllables that seem like gibberish to her and Nick but mimic the language that Lucifer sometimes speaks to him off-handedly, the one that makes Sarah’s ears feel like they might pop from pressure if she listens for too long, the one that Teddy reacts to with kicking feet and responsive babbling. If one day Sarah will get teachers telling her about Teddy’s imaginary angelic friend who raised him, both those impressed that he could come up with something so elaborate and those worried that the angel in question is Lucifer herself. Maybe the funniest thing Sarah can imagine is if Nick ever takes little Teddy to church and what kind of menace they might unleash with a child who loves the devil like a mother. That, if it ever happens, is a long ways off, and until then, Lucifer is still the secret held between the three of them.

“You think he’ll still like me,” Lucifer says, dipping her hand into the stream of Sarah’s thoughts, welcomed but nibbled at by the fish that think she really should have asked permission first. Maybe a little hypocritical when Sarah has already let her in, “when he grows up.”

There is, always, this expectation of rejection that lingers in Lucifer’s words. A surprise when she finds connection instead that breaks Sarah’s heart.

“You look after him. You sing to him. You feed him.” Sarah looks down at Teddy, who takes his fill and rests his tiny fist against her skin. This caretaking is a communal effort, after all. “Of course he’ll love you.”

[izzy-b-hands]

Starting at approx 1240 PM today (don't at me I know. I know. I didn't set an alarm like a fool), I have managed to:

-start laundry

-unpack soaps that got delivered

-fix the robot vacuum bc he got stuck on a rug

-refresh the cat's water dishes

-refresh the cat's food dish

-start a playlist on YT

-have my brain immediately go scratchy over it for no good reason and switched to a different playlist

-fixed the robot vacuum again bc instead of going to his charger like I told him to, he instead redid his entire cleaning cycle and got stuck...on the exact same rug

-got robot vacuum to finally go to his charger

-started a fumbling attempt a grocery list online (fumbling for rn only bc what I need to do is look in the cupbooards and try and make sure I'm not missing anything that should be on there)

What was I supposed to be doing, before I started all of these?

*publishing my fic for the first event day*! But the Nerves! The Fears! That haven't hit in a good while re: my writing but are suddenly back again! I can be so stupid productive when im scared like a tiny rabbit in an open field lmao

Ooh, hang on, one last addition to The List of Things I Did Instead of Getting This Fic Published

-made list post on tumblr about putting off fic

[koocycle]

oh my god, OVER WINEEEESJHDHSJAJBSHDHSHWJWLALALAOWIWDYIDE !!!!!!!!!!ive been in a fanfic reading slump all these months and your fic got me going 😭 ive seen the teaser for this long ago and i remember feeling so excited for it to come out. i was so THRILLED to see part 1 finally posted!!

also can i just say that i would d word for miss y/n and I WILL STAND BY HER SIDE AND I HOPE SHE DOESNT GO WITH HIM ON THAT TRIP AND I PERSONALLY HOPE U MAKE JUNGKOOK SUFFER BCAUSE GOD WAS HE JUST A MANIPULATIVE ASSHOLE THE ENTIRE THING (the whole time i was just thinking GOD HES SUCH AN ASS CAN SHESERVE THEIR DIVORCE PAPERS) i really felt for yn bcs i could imagine being known as just the "wife of" must be so miserable. i was so happy for her when she did that shoot with Tae, u could really tell she loves modelling and i truly hope she pursues it in this fic 🥲🥲 oh goshhh i love her so much. i didn't like jungkook AT ALL in this part but im sure he would get like a character arc or something on the later parts bcs even tho atp i want them to divorce lol i still think their issues could be sorted out. (i actually kind of teared up a little bit on the first s*x scene on the table when jk asked her "are u gonna miss me" and then she thought "i miss you everyday" but didn't say anything instead it was so emotional for some reason. miss ma'am just wants her husband to come back to her but idiot prick over here thinks everything can be solved thru his money. oh god i hope he realizes that him being an overly workaholic is not doing any good in their relationship)

anyway YOU DID SO WELL!!! i love your writing I ATE THAT 35K-ISH WORDS UP IN ONE GO thank you for sharing your work with us!! hope you're having a great day ♥️

respect for you reading 37k in one go because i literally texted @latetaektalk nobody was gonna read this long ass dready fic but!! you did eat that up!! thank you bb 🤍

imagine nobody seeing you as anyone other than the wife of, and apparently being seen like that by your husband as well. especially when you look at the way he’s trying to show her off left and right. i get it was a very stressful chapter because they both just did and said things that made you want to slap some sense into them!! let’s just hope for the best and pray for the sake of their relationship that they’ll be working on themselves in the following chapters… also! that dialogue in that particular sex scene is one of my favorites!!! god that was so much fun to write and soso angsty

[chesthighwater]

by thé way. wips roundup that absolutely no one asked for

first of all in the daudmartin brainrot corner we've got

sequel to bctbk, as promised. i have a major "plot" point planned, and then it might go one of two directions... we shall see :3c

the high overseer martin/assassin daud fic that i've posted a few excerpts from. essentially daud manifests himself into the abbey suggestively asking for ~spiritual guidance~ (lol) and things escalate from there. this has to get finished at some point because its like one of the first things i started writing for them. it deserve to see the light of day

a mildly humorous high overseer martin/spymaster daud fic. kind of a challenge for myself also- i find spymaster daud hard to imagine, and am not that used to writing daudmartin where they're not constantly trying to one-up/double cross each other/at each other's throats flirtatiously. presumably will not be nsfw (or at least, i'm not planning on it, but i make no promises. can't know where the ol inspiration will take me).

oh heres another high overseer martin thing! who wouldve thought! this time with Responsibility and Abbey Politics and Decisions. and working through issues. so many fucking issues. this one is actually actively in the works so ill leave it at that for now ;>

daudmartin pwp with genuinely 0 plot. like, negative plot. this thing defies plot. i can barely even tell you if it's an au or what, i might sprinkle a few nonsexual sentences in if i'm feeling generous but that's it. other than that it's literally just about martin being very quiet during sex and daud trying every trick he has in his book (which admittedly isn't many) to change that instead of like, communicating

augh speaking of plot-defying pwps. "what if overseers had (some appropriate equivalent to) confessions". there is some lore in here obviously but the entire point of it is confessional dirty talk. i dont KNOW

[REDACTED] pwp which im not even gonna advertise itll just appear one day and if you find it you found it

mostly unplanned ideas that i might flesh out: sokolov portrait thing. some dunwall noir stuff purely for martin in a cassock reasons (and sexualising religious guilt reasons. if i knew anything at all about priests i'd be working on this much faster). something involving the outsider appearing to martin (this might just get absorbed in a more well fleshed out idea at some point). martin Suffering More, because i want him in a situation where his wit fails completely (more desperation! more excuses! i am weak for this i really am.). something involving some more Action- fighting together against an acute threat? i think there should be more fighty martin out there. i am the change i want to see in the world

(not including the various snippets for the eternal serkonan vacation au which i already laid out there)

in the thief crossover brainrot corner (i bet you forgot i allude to thief crossovers in my description!)

also a sokolov portrait thing, but i have it way more planned out. corvo really, really wants garrett to sit in for a portrait (especially now when he's officially the empire's shadiest most mysterious spymaster ever). he reluctantly agrees, but Under One Condition.

a sort of relationship chronicle via heart lines. definitely starts with corvo's diplomatic mission and possibly ends with some happy dh2 era content. obviously i have the heart lines planned out.

possibly something involving more political intrigue/royal drama type stuff? i'm lucky enough to have access to someone who can give me some really good examples/plots if i fail to come up with anything myself.

(this is just a thief thing but i have had a viktoria/lt. mosley thing running around my brain for AGES. i want to explore how their relationship develops so bad. i know they have literally one interaction in canon but they are my blorbinas and i have mentally expanded their backstories so hard the story is basically begging to be written at this point)

anyway if you read this unreasonably unnecessarily long post i love you. i am sending you a kiss. wanna get married

[nooradeservedbetter]

I know you write bl but please do not defend Emma. She is known in our fandom as a transphobic asshole. She has been openly transphobic to harries and larries because they think Harry MIGHT be trans. She is also homophobic with how she as a cis het white woman thinks she has more say in how a gay fandom needs to operate. There are years worth of receipts of this. She harassed my friend because they tagged Harry as a princess on their own blog and tried to call them homophobic for doing so. Im mutuals with authors who had to drop out of the bl fest for personal reasons, and then Emma and her friends started harassing them for joining a non bl fest months later. You should see how former blouie authors are treated by her after they dont write exclusively bl fics anymore. The reason BLP is not well liked in fandom is because of her. There is literally a top Harry fic fest run by an actual trans person and much more supported by larries. Louis bottoming isn't the issue. For years blouies have made that their only personality and harassed and sent so many larries death threats (me included) because we blog on our own blogs about Harry wanting to be pregnant or singing about sucking dick or anything that doesn't make him "a top". Blouies have ruined themselves for their entire fandom and that anon is a perfect example of how they are.

Whew anon.

Okay, thank you for the ask and the respectful tone, I will try to maintain a respectful tone right back.

I don't exclusively write bl, I like to think I write fics where Louis gets taken care of one way or another. By bottoming, by subbing, by being cuddled; rn I have 2 smut fics, both of them sub Louis, one of them is them being vers (i.e. penetrating each other), the other *can* be considered bl, I did tag it as such, but the only penetration that happens is two lines of cockwarming. My current unpublished fics and ideas are:

The a/b/o fic fest that is Omega Louis/bl but has references to bh;

Exploring the idea of topping from the bottom: i have a petplay sub Harry fic that's half-written, currently plotting a vaguely Dom transrry fic. First one will be Dom!bl, second one Dom!bh. Might have a third one, but I still haven't decided;

The blff, I mean that's the name of;

The 1d fantasy fic fest that will be both vers and switch but it's darkfic so I don't think that's a great example to have here tbh lmao.

Okay, that said.

I did have run-ins with Emma back in the day; idk if you were there in 2015/16, but I have a whole tag where I actively fought people on Harry's possible gender identity, together with Angela and Jay (godspeed to both of them, they're much happier now believe me). It's been 8 years, I don't know what Emma is doing right now, besides managing the blff, and I don't know how she changed in eight years; eight years ago I was a staunch anarchist, and look at me now. You can come off anon and send me anything you might see fit, that would actually be great, and it would give me something to operate on. And on that point, I don't--think? That telling someone "hey yo instead of sending anon hate go and support the people who write/rec the fics you wanna read" is defending anyone? But it's understandable that if she's currently harassing people, that's a knee-jerk reaction.

Then to address your points about Louis bottoming... Again, I'm not sure, like. Feels a bit like you're barking at the wrong tree? One of my favourite smut authors is devilinmybrain (oh my god that 5+1 gross-hot fic nnnn) and I read, and to some extent write, quite happily everything as long as it's good. Like, both of them canonically have a prostate. It's a shame if they never use it. And Harry being feminine has nothing to do with Harry bottoming (or topping ;) of course), but this is something that needs its own post to be expanded.

With that long-ass rant in that post I wanted to make another point, and that point was directed to some of the reblogs, and that point was: stop wokeifying the gay community, because you--general you--will have a stroke if you ever go to a gay bar one day.

I won't reiterate the stuff I said there, but that should have been the main takeaway, not that I prefer writing bl or bh. I don't consider myself a blouie, by virtue of the fact that not only I read and write whatever, but also because I genuinely don't agree with a lot of the, like, ideological stances. On smut. I could talk about what hardcore bl/sh do and say probably all day, and Raf/Niv know what I'm talking about because they're usually the ones I fill with audios, but this post is already really long.

[patchdotexe]

while ive been transcribing the old mirror fics ive been Thinking about like, the modern version of mirror we started writing (before some Stuff happened that made it uhhh. difficult to work on) and what we want to do with it

because dominic's entire plotline in it is Hugely changed out of necessity, but i really gotta like. analyze his character in the context of This Specific AU and what's vital to distinguishing him as "this is mirror!dominic" vs "this is limoliverse!dominic"

and the weirdest choice i might have to make is "fuck you [singlets your dominic]"

BC LIKE. Dominic K aka limoliverse!dominic is plural! BUT THE THING IS. both dominics are the Original roleplay!dominic split in half, but the "dominic being plural" thing was originally established in Mirror. the original plot of mirror 2010 was that like as a result of chain of memories not getting Properly Resolved for him he ended up with like. a factive of himself but with the fabricated backstory namine gave him. and so dominic's plotline in the kh2 part was him struggling with clashing identities and Two Of Him

(and also a fun part about mirror 2010 that i Cannot reasonably transfer over into the modern version is that due to crossover bullshit, dominic knew how some of the plot was going to go because he knew the non-AU sora and so he kept trying to like, find a solution to problems that was best for everybody, and making it Way Worse and knocking stuff even further off the rails, and i am losing focus on what this post was about)

(actually no that IS what this post was about, i just decided to focus on the nicolai thing instead of the plot-derail thing and then i started talking about it anyway OOPS)

anyway. when my reworking of dominic turned into "okay im gonna just rip this guy in half and see what happens", limoliverse dominic ended up with the "being plural" thing but. reworked to make sense with his life situation in limoliverse. and it became pretty integral to how he fits in with the rest of the group and nicolai is a very fun character and etc

but MEANWHILE back in mirror, we were trying to figure out What To Do With Nicolai because thats where hes FROM, while also not overcomplicating stuff too much because There Is Already A Lot Going On because even before getting dominic involved this is gonna be hella AU, and the answer might be "uh. what if we didnt"

god i wish i had sushi rn

[dont-justdont]

here i am again, annoying as ever (but for a good reason this time around, i promise)

so i decided to write a cannon divergent marauders fic (set around the time of GoF) and here are my favourite parts of the chapter im writing (i havent posted it so far, idk if i will but i wanted to share those parts)

context : mary got obliviated after james and lily's death, and sirius finds her after he runs away from england following PoA, she doesnt remember him. these make it sound like they're gonna be romantically involved, but rest assure they wont, she's just confused by the situation and sirius is the first reminder of home she has

1.

“I don’t know you, and you don’t know me. Leave” was what she said. What she meant was Please, please look at me. Who are you? I want to hear about it. What she meant was Why do you know my name? Why do I feel like I should know yours? What she meant was Why do you feel like home?

2.

Who is he? she asked to the sky above her.

Sirius. Sirius, Sirius, Sirius, Sirius, Sirius. The name rolled of the tip of her tongue with ease, as if spoken a million times before. Who are you? she asked the stars.

The stars did not answer.

3.

She knew those features. Of course, she didn’t know them, but they looked, familiar. Like déjà-vu. His entire presence screamed of déjà-vu, as if her soul recognized him, but her eyes couldn’t. Like he’d known her in another life, in maybe all of them, and yet they met for the first time.

He broke the silence first.

“You truly don’t remember me, do you?’ he asked softly, as if trying not to scare her away. Oh, if only he knew.

“I feel like I should.” She’d answered truthfully, stealing a glance. Her tone was sad, and she didn’t know why. Maybe that was the worse part, not knowing. Or rather, feeling like you should know, like you did know, at one point.

She saw the tear that rolled down his cheek, and the way his eyes seemed to beg her. Remember me, they asked. Know me, they demanded. She couldn’t answer their prayers.

She didn’t comment on it.

4.

They walked for a long time, that night. Until the last rays of the sun disappear beneath the horizon, until the freshness of the night buried itself deep in her bones. That’s when she spoke again, softly. A whisper, really. “Sirius.”

She had meant it as a question. Instead, it came out as a promise.

[bringcal]

I'm going to be repeating similar criticisms I had on my post I had a bit ago so yeah but I'll try to flesh them out a bit, I do not analyze homestuck so sorry if I fuck up the information a little.

I feel like a lot of people forgot why the epilogues and Homestuck 2 are the way they are so let me just say that when homestuck ended there was actually a lot of unsatisfied and upset people because they think the ending sucked and wanted more from it. Instead of fighting the Big Bad (tm) they take an alternative ending and escape the narrative, creating a new path for themselves. People really wanted Hussie to continue it at the very least and didnt want it to end this way and kept pestering them about it. That is your rundown. The epilogues in a way is a massive troll. a way to say " Oh you want it to continue no matter what? sure. here you go " It was meant to piss you off and it worked, many people hated the epilogues and homestuck 2 because it was so shitty and ruined their characters when that is the entire point. Some people know this and still think it was done in a really stupid way but personally I loved it.

So this is kind of why I dislike where the new team is going with Homestuck 2 because at its core its going against the entire reasoning or Homestuck 2 existing. The entire thing has been a fix-it fic so far, where it feels like everyones getting their highlight and attention and suddenly things are going well. Fans are getting a lot of headcanons and desires for homestuck 2 made canon, and that.. is exactly why I dont like it.

They're trying to do so many things and tie up so many "loose ends" that things are being rushed and the writing is not great. I enjoyed the first update and it began to go downhill from there. I maybe laugh a little, but I don't feel connected to any of these characters or what theyre dealing with because a lot of it is just not.. shown? and some of it is just so out of the blue? You're telling me jake is just like.. Okay now? we needed a single update where he talks to BGD to make him okay and maybe reach ultimate status, which is ultimate dirks entire desire to never let happened and is why jake gets some of the worst treatment narratively? And the whole thing with vriska... Years are passing by in these conversations, yet the only taste we are getting is that core moment things were supposedly building up to, yet we dont get to see the build up were just supposed to infer shit happened and she knows better now. We are rushing vriskas development which is like.. Attempting to give vriska a redemption wouldve failed no matter what, not every character in a piece of media needs a redemption , she just needs to stop being a 16 year old about everything, i think she is allowed to be a bit of a bitch, amen. I have so many thoughts about the handling of vriska and thats all how ill summarize it.

The references and jokes are also like.. So new generation and listen, I never thought homestuck was as "timeless" with the jokes and references as people say it was, but Homestuck 2 is going to age horribly fast. The characters like davepeta and whatever are all quite fanonized and it really feels like fans puppeting empty characters. I feel like there is a huge push to bring back the essence of homestuck but it just cannot be replicated.

I hope, I truly hope, that homestuck 2 is going to do a 360 and end like " hey the fandom fuck you were doing this for you and look how much your desires for more homestuck suck and whatever ! " a sort of "taking the comic back from the fandom" thing and all the characters act more normal afterwards, but I do not see it, and I will be a little sad If i predicted the entire thing.

Sorry for the typos and whatever we are at a brunch and im just putting my train on thought onto paper.

what if i dont like Homestuck 2 anymore. what if I said i thought the old version was better